My god, this phrase is so fucking true... I'm always the shoulder for others to cry on, but my own personal brain shit is completely shut off to everyone else in my life...
I've lived my entire life that way. Always think the worst, mind won't shut off, people have no idea what goes on in my mind. It's soul crushing and because I seem to be able to handle shit the requests for advice and help never end. From the outside I apparently look like I can handle anything and for whatever reason I can. Meanwhile on the inside my fingertips are bleeding because I'm just holding on. Fucking ridiculous, fucking sad and in this current society it's getting worse. Times that try a man's soul.
@@vacayooper4728 I am the same exact way. I am trained through the trauma Institute as a trauma therapist and somatic experiencer. I help people through anxiety and PTSD and depression etc. But I can't seem to ground myself. Awesome at soothing others but horrible at self-soothing. I lost the love of my life in a trucking accident a little over 2 years ago and decided that that was the last trauma I was going to experience. Anxiety and depression and PTSD are crippling.
I can't agree more. We've dealt with some type of mental block. It's somethin' 98% of the population don't know how to deal with. Every fucking day is a blessing. By God's Grace, He'll help us all through each day with or without your own motivation and perseverance.
@@latinax175 Adam's a real one. He doesn't perceive himself as better than the next man, or woman in this case. He is what more people need to strive to be. Better than you were yesterday, not quite as good as you will be tomorrow.
@@nobodywho3254 Not that I'm trying to take attention away from you in any way or anything like that. What's going on? How are you? I hope you're doing well and all pushing forward in life being successful.
@@sarahwayman342 sounds like you are not a selfish person. And love is about making sacrifices and with that comes respect for ourselves and each other. Deep down we all know this to be true. Whether we think so or not this is what gets us out of bed every day. So don't stop being a good person
I backed off, watching 24 hour news about 3 years ago and reduced my social media time. Ive increased my prayer time and focused more on God. Its helped me a huge amount.
My 23 yr old son was murdered 1 yr tomorrow... there were times wn I would wake up and not no wat to do, feeling helpless, hurt, lost, and every thing.. pray for me...thanks..
I can’t imagine your pain Chris, please know I’m praying for you. I wish I could help more.. I know it’s hard.. try taking it one day at a time, when that seems too much take it an hour at a time, 10 minutes at a time.. whatever it takes to get you through
Praying for you I’m sorry for your loss I know how it is to lose someone close to you but I can’t say what it’s like to lose your son or daughter but praying for you keep your sprit up
My son will be gone one year next month. Everyday is Ground hog day.. A roller coaster ride. I'm hollow. He was all I had. It's literally the worst hurt possible.
As someone who struggles with the same shit, this did help. Theres a gang of us out there, none of us are alone in this fight. To anyone reading this comment, keep your head up, better days are coming.🙏
If you take Xanax or Ativan please try Buspar instead. My dad was put on Xanax in the mid 80’s and it intensified his panic disorder to the point of disability. Xanax relieves the panic attack for the moment but once the Xanax starts tapering off the anxiety comes back x10 worse. The problem becomes a precipitating cycle of high tolerance level to Xanax or Ativan decreasing the effectiveness against panic/anxiety attacks. My father was prescribed Zoloft and Buspar in the late 90’s and it was a “God send”! The anxiety and the panic attacks decreased to few and far in between for him. I have a brother who had major problems with panic attacks until he was prescribed the combo of Zoloft and Buspar. I also have experienced multiple anxiety and panic attacks. It would piss me off when people would give advice to my brother and tell him to “just get over it it’s all in your head.” My response to these idiots was, you have no clue what you are talking about because once you have a panic attack your mind and body can easily talk itself into having another one that is worse than the first, then another one, and another and another. These panic and anxiety attacks can make a person lose their confidence and question their sanity. Panic attacks are terrifying! The older you get the more terrifying because you realize that now you are in a age range where heart attacks and death is possible. All I wanted to say is if you are on Xanax or Ativan for this reason please consider taking a combo SSRI with Buspar. Long term use of benzodiazepines can cause a cycle of panic & anxiety Hell.
I'm an EMT and I have panic attacks too. I have found my own way to deal with it. Panic attacks can be very scary. If you ever need help the men and women of EMS will be there to help anyone and everyone. God bless stay strong
@@laurabaker7258 what helps me is meditation. Taking a class on meditation can help to control panic attacks and anxiety, It did for me. If I'm at work and can't meditate then I try to concentrate on controlling my breathing and heart rate by taking 3 deep breathes in my noise out my mouth slowly. I hope you too can find what helps you.
Hi Adam Tim here. Thank You very much for sharing on a personal level. I Love You Too. I'm hoping, And sending Positive Vibes, and Prayer your way. Be Healthy my friend. Much Love, And Respect.
Thank you Adam , I am Sending this to my oldest daughter who I raised alone too. She saw your other video about the meds you take and that also helped her! I honestly thank you Brother. My Daughter is diagnosed with BIPOLAR/ Schizophrenia. depression.
I've struggled with panic Attacks for over 10 years. I did all of the ER trips, an ambulance ride, yelling at the doctors to do their jobs because it wasn't psychological, there was something physically wrong with me. I finally realized all of the doctors were right. While I was relieved to have a diagnosis it was also devastating. Thank you for sharing your story. You are an Inspiration to me and many others. Your strength helps others to be strong. God bless you and your family Mr. Calhoun 💚
"I'm helpless to help myself" That is the best way to describe myself. Depression and anxiety It's truly some evil sht. I'm pretty much the same way I can and will help anybody else who is going through this because I don't want them to feel an ounce Of the crap that I feel. But at the end of the day I can't help myself And it's true. The best I can do for myself is to just keep moving forward. Thank you for making this video brother. It actually gives me hope and makes me realize I'm not alone Even though it feels like it.
I've been there stay strong push thru it enjoy life i lost to many people that had alot to give gone to soon I'm still here love everyday it's a gift I would have missed out on so much if I would have given up the best is yet to come
Thank you!! I have chronic anxiety, MS, chronic migraines and am bipolar1. I feel like nobody understands because they can't "see" my diseases. Thank you for putting words to how I feel.
Have been reading through all the comments and have heard some really sad stories. Praying for everyone going through something like this. God bless yall
My great grandma killed herself. My Dad killed himself. My brother has attempted to but failed. I also struggle with depression. When I'm starting to feel down I try to look back on my life through the years and think about how all the times I felt hopeless and like life wasn't worth living. I try to think about how all those times were only temporary. My life circumstances are always changing, everyone's is,sometimes for the worse and sometimes for the better it will NEVER stay the same forever. If I have some long stretches of bad, I know there will be day it gets better. I don't ever want to make a permanent decision based on a temporary problem. I notice when I'm talking with God and am in his word I'm at peace,it's when I start to drift away from him and not make him a priority in my life,thats when I get depressed/hopeless feeling. God fills that lonely void :)
A child of a family friend took his own life a year ago and the whole town has been wrecked from it. Take this and give it as a gift to others. th-cam.com/video/zMEtTIBwEko/w-d-xo.html
I’m 17, i suffer from bad depression and anxiety, I’ve never commented on a post in my life, but I watch all your videos. I look up to you in so many ways because your mind set is like my papa and great grandpa, they raised me. They died around the same time, and it hurt. I just had my first daughter and I have another one on the way, I’m trying to build a house by myself. I’ve been through a lot, and it’s such a sign to me to see this video. It was just posted, and I am going threw a ruf time. It’s such a blessing to see this..
Congrats! I keep photos of my closest friends and my family on my phone so when it hits me I go to them to reflect on all the great moments I’ve experienced with them and how much I love them and they love me. It helps me cope in the moment. Hang in there you got this young man!!!
You hit the nail on the head 100% ...thank you for speaking about mental health! Your helping sooo sooo many with this one video! Thank you from the bottom of my heart! God bless🙏🏻 🇺🇲
It’s extremely tough! And after getting out of the military they don’t give a dang anymore. I been fighting for my disability for years and I’m on the verge of just giving up.
Call me crazy, but I know vets that smoke pot and swear by it. I don't mean they stay stoned 24/7. They have some in the evenings to relax. Just a thought. Thank you for your service.
I love that you're talking about this anxiety/panic disorder because I do struggle with anxiety/panic disorder. It sucks. Thanks for sharing your story. Its very debilitating.
Thank you Adam, I have the same issues. I was diagnosed with manic depression. I get both ends of the spectrums. I get VERY anxious then BOOM, I bottom out with depression. I am also dealing with PTSD. 26 1/2 years in law enforcement and 5 1/2 years in Iraq, been in fire fights and blown up, (IED) four times and presently recovering from a life threatening heart surgery. Lost use of my left arm. Brother we CAN and WILL overcome. We are STRONG in spirit, I am strong in my faith. Yes this video has helped me. I RESPECTFULLY and HUMBLY tip my hat and salute you for that.
Shits scares me 85% of the time. It feels like I'm dying. I hope this help the people watching this that are going through the same thing. I had to go through it by myself without medication. Many prayers for those in need. Jesus love you always
I have been suffering with severe depression and anxiety disorders since I was 12! I was on klonopin at age 12 I've been on every anti-depressants out! Now I've been on the same medications for the last 3 years and I finally finding balance im on sertaline Buspar busporine klonopin Xanax amytriptalyn ambien and 2 others I can't spell right now its crazy but I actually feel "normal" I guess! I felt that when he was talking about suicide because I've tried 3 times the last time was a little over 3 years ago I was actually pronounced dead but they jump started my heart I woke up in a hospital full of tubes with my family all around me and thats when I started taking my meds daily and as prescribed! So whoever is going through depression or any kind of psych disorder please talk to someone believe me people around you would rather talk to you that at your funeral!
I have suffered with the same sort of issue now for two years ,i hide it well as I've had plenty of practice now ,but it's tough ,but still take care of life and business as the world don't stop spinning just for me respect to you to bring awareness to this subject ,so many people go through this and have no idea where to turn for help
My son is 25 and one of the biggest tough,muscle bound, tattooed manly man I know and has called me crying like a baby. Has told me hes losing his fucking mind. I or my husband have never dealt with any kind of anxiety or mental illness so it's very hard for me to relate. Your videos truly help.
I thought I was one of the few this happens too. Even though I know I have a good heart the anxiety just disables me. So I feel you Acal. Gonna get off my butt and run and keep my mind busier like you do, if not I’m all in my head. God bless brother 🇺🇸
Going to “Mental Health” finally myself. About 18 months from retiring in the military and there was such a stigma as I was growing up in the military. Now I’m finally getting some STUFF off my “chest” I am starting to feel better I think. I still have soooo much to work on.
A lot of jobs have EAP which is usually free or offer a work wellness program. Also if you’re in college they offer programs at really discounted student prices.
Casey, I dont know you man.. but thank you for your service. We owe everything to men and women like you. Your dedication to this country does not go unnoticed my friend.
Same here Brother , Sometimes we dont need HANDOUT , just a hand , VA just wasnt cutting it with me , But i finnally found peace , Hope you have to , Glad your Home
I recently just started antidepressants and they absolutely knocked me on my ass. My body absolutely shut down as it tried to get used to the pills and it was just so hard to describe the feeling of it. I felt so alone because not many people around me have been on medication like this and as a teenage dude it felt weird talking about my feelings. I really needed to hear this and it feels so comforting coming from one of my favorite artists. We all look up to you so much thank you for this.
Thank you sir. Honest just lost my ma before thanks giving and my pops 7 years before. I get the cut of your jib. Life is hard work. Make a plan follow your plan, it never goes as planned. Try your best not to fail. We all fail. Get up chin up and love your family. Again I get ya and thank you. HARD WORK!!
We all must walk the road of life by ourselves but we aren’t alone. This video you made helped at least one person today, me. Thanks Adam, I really do appreciate it.
That feeling like you missed the last step on the stairs, that comes out of no where, when you're just doing normal life things 🙋♀️ I felt this video for sure ❤
That's what I like about you Adam! You are just real ! I heard this message once that the Lord let's us go through highs and lows so when we are on top of the mountain we can look back and see where we were and to look forward and see what we have to do to get through the next valley ! Keep it real brother!
I feel you brother. It feels like a heart attack for sure. The 1st time I experienced it was when my grandmother was in ICU and about to die. The 2nd time I was just driving down the road and I swore it was a heart attack, but it wasn't thank God. It took me until I was 37 to get my diagnosis of Bipolar with schizo and severe anxiety. I just turned 46 and the meds help. You never know what people are really going through in life. You got this brother.
Never imagined someone else felt that way. I feel that everyday. Drinking is the only way I cope with life. And I dont want to drink. I definitely need to find peace of mind some other way. Some how. Good video, thank you Adam.
Bro, I understand completely, I'm 46 years old and I've been dealing with this shit since I was 16 and homeless. The best way I describe it to people is " I'm afraid of nothing yet afraid of everything all at the same time!
Thank you Adam for talking about this. I deal with similar issues and have sense my time in the air force. It's good to hear influential people actually trying to help people instead of just using people. Thank you brother.
I'm dealing with the exzack same thing ,same pills ,I hate it ,stress makes werst. It does fill like your the ONLY one that under stands, my grandmother had it she lived to be 98. I'll pray for you brother ! CHUCKENSTEIN
You do indeed need to keep pumping but do feel free to reach out it helps I’ve been in and out of therapy it helps numb the pain won’t get rid of it but it helps trust me it definitely stopped my rage at least
Thank you for sharing! I struggle with anxiety, and it can be crippling! There are some days I just don’t want to get out of bed. I have occasional heart palpitations, I am very easily overwhelmed with the smallest things! A lot of people don’t understand, and I don’t expect them to understand, but, it kind of makes it worse, when they say things to try to “fix” the problem. I am not on medication.... I don’t like going anywhere, (especially to the doctor), and self medicate with alcohol, which I know is wrong. Sooo much more I could say about this all, but I’ll leave it at that! My husband and I love and appreciate your music, and your vlogs! Keep doing what you’re doing! Much love and respect to you!
I was married for 37 years and I’m still in love with this woman after all these years I’m still in love with her. But she takes pleaser in hurting me. She waits till I’m am in a very bad place and she will leave and it’s all I can do to keep from leaving this world. This is sick but I don’t because I tell myself she may come back. I have 4 grow children and 7 grandkids and I don’t no why I can’t stop myself from loving her. 37 years. She just left me agin like 2 months ago and she takes pleaser in my pain. Sometimes I think she wants me to check out of here. But my soul means to much. I think I am a good man and I try to be better man every morning I wake up. Enough I’ll stop. Thank u Adam.
Real shit bro. Constantly keeping it real. I've never been actually diagnosed, but I've had anxiety before. Experienced the panic attacks so I know where you're coming from, just not as severe as yours.
It’s not that someone is proud to speak it’s harder then you would understand brother. It’s easy in comment or message but talking to someone is person about your problems is super hard. I had problems from being in war and then it made it worse from a tractor trailer wreck and I never once told my wife for the first year and I always tried to hide it or when something happened I’d run off and pretty much hide but it’s not being to proud it’s being ashamed of yourself. And scared of what will happen if you speak about it. And that’s being truthful with you ptsd is hard and I’m a different person then I was 11 years ago. 100% of ppl think I’m pissed off or something isn’t right because either how a talk or the lack their of talking.
I suffer from clinical anxiety and OCD. Also on medication. Thanks for this video. The more we talk about it, the better it is for everyone. What helps me is my faith, prayer, and my family. I came here for the music, I stayed for the views/opinions. Keep your head up, man.
My wife gets panic attacks and have taken her to emergency room. “Just breathe” doesn’t help. She hates any type of change. Awesome for you to keep pushing and not letting it stop you from pushing further in your career.
Yea...you can say "just breathe" all you want, but we will never hear it, like Adam said it's fight or flight. Thank you from me to you for being a awesome husband to your beautiful wife.
I dont know how to get u you 2 see this comment but wat u described is same shit I been dealing with since I was 18 as well and was on all same meds for years until I had one last for almost 20 hours which landed me in hospital doctors ended up realizing I was misdiagnosed..if u see this adam, respond and ill send u my email/phone number. U might not have to live with this forever I dont take meds anymore and there is a outpatient surgery but now that I know how to control them im not gonna get it myself...way to much info to write.lol....I know how much they suck even afterwards u feel like u ran a marathon..
@@syckmusyck6593 we can't change the beginning or the end. It's the in-between that matters. How we deal with that sad story, do we wallow in it or learn from it, that's the mark of a life.
I feel your pain bro. I take the same meds you do, have no idea why I have this issue but I've been dealing with it since youth.. In my 30's now. Only thing I found out that works is what it seems like you do, to stay busy and keep your brain busy so it doesn't have time to think about the anxiety. God can help also, keep your Faith strong and hey Acal 2024 has got my vote. We need to drastically change the way things are happening in this country. Much respect sir!!
Thank you for this video. I suffer with Anxiety disorder, I have 3 to 8 panic attacks everyday. You feel like you are going to die, and you never feel safe, and when I have panic attack I just need to get somewhere that I feel safe. It sucks because you feel like u r all alone when this happens, and it will come on out of nowhere. Again Thank you for saying your truth!
I feel like when everyone says " if you're thinking about suicide, consider how it will affect your loved ones and friends" it can be taken as " who cares how you feel, think about everyone else"
I think people see it as you dont care about yourself bc you want to kill yourself (I know this isn't necessarily true) but maybe you care about your parents, siblings, significant other, dog, cat, hamster, etc. No matter who you are there is always somebody you care about that would really miss you and it would make their life hard having to live without you in it. Helping somebody recognize hey I dont want to do that to them and them deciding its worth living another day is huge and thats the goal. & someday hopefully they look back and are so grateful that somebody talked them out of it.
It does feel like that though. Because they don’t understand that for a lot of people that are going through this or have gone through it, once you’re at that point of really considering suicide, you believe that your loved ones would be better off and move on. That they really don’t care anyways. You get thoughts of your funeral and nobody bothering to go. It’s the feeing of pure unimportance and insignificance. Depression kills people daily. Because when the mind is that sick, it can’t see anything beyond its suffering and feeling like everything you touch turns to shit. Tom Macdonald just did a song about his inner demons and honestly I can relate. You should check it out.
Ask yourself about what you feel and work out the why behind you feeling that way. Don't settle on the first answer you come to. Separate what you feel from what you think. No one is clear headed when emoting. Keep seeking answers.
This video literally describes the last 4 years of my life. Hospital visits, ambulance trips, 911 calls, tons of medicine, fear, sleeplessness, hopelessness. I feel you brother.
Thank you for sharing, Adam. I think so many people are dealing with similar situations or circumstances, but don’t have a platform to share / vent. And this helps give voice to many.
Listening to you my man is like hearing me especially since I lost my 26 year old son in July of 2019 it's a living fucking nightmare keep your head up boss 🤜🏻🤛🏻
Sorry too hear that my uncle passed from a homicides 13 years ago on Sept 24th a couple weeks after his birthday the 7th n my grandmother his mother called me so the time brother crying ur not alone I wish I could say it gets easier brother but it doesn't u just gotta be the man u k he wants u to be you know any time u need to talk message me storm mob on Facebook messenger
@Adam Calhoun this is the third time I've watched this and everytime I watch this I get something new out of it. I also deal with GAD (General Anxiety Disorder) and depression. See you strip down and show who you really are it gives me a mental boost and helps get me out of the mindset that it comes with depression and anxiety. All I'm trying to say is thank you for what you do and being vulnerable. You are a big inspiration for me. Keep it up. Much support!!!
Adam, I have battled with anxiety, depression, and OCD since I was in the 2nd grade. I constantly worry about getting cancer or something else, it is the worst thing I can imagine anyone else going through. Pray up my man, your music and attitude have helped me take back some of what I had lost. I will keep you in my prayers.
Respect for Adam, he’s the realest man I’ve ever heard of. He speaks his mind and states how it really is. And trying to help others when we are at our worst. Only real men do that. So, I have to say, I have the upmost respect for this man.
I’m shocked right now. I’m 31 years old and have the EXACT same story of the palpitations when I was younger and I totally went into a panic disorder. I have had it my whole life. The only thing that helps me get over it is talking to someone about it. I know you’re not looking for prayers, but I’ll definitely be praying for you. Wouldn’t wish this upon my worst enemy.
@@gkt1127 each to their own but I've found the likes of booze and or weed actually makes it worse after a while. A few beers or whatever is only a short term solution , great while it does work tho haha.
I smoked weed everyday for 20 years. It used to relieve my normal day to day anxiety. But years ago when I started having panic attacks the weed would just make it worse. In fact smoking weed now will just cause me to have a panic attack. I wish I could still smoke. I used to love it and couldn't imagine not having it. For me exercising and getting that natural endorphin high is what helps relax me. But even then sometimes in the middle of working out I can still have a panic attack. I also quit caffeine which seems to help a lot.
I had anger and depression from some of the women i woke up with after long nights of drinking.. But on a serious note.. It can be tough to deal with .. Some people give up and off themselves. Just have to keep plugging along
You music has brought me through so much.. This past year. I lost my dad, mother in law and best friend all with in 6 months. (None were covid related) I want you too know that your music has been very therapeutic for me.. It helps me to stay proud of who I am no matter what.
I feel you on the "sitting on the couch, perfectly fine, and then bam". First few times it happened I thought I was dying... Now I try to just let it ride. It's real man. And you can't control it. It sucks at best. Much love to you Adam.
Thanks for sharing & being so transparent.... This takes alot of courage to speak publicly about this! I deal with this daily... your right its crippling ..... its paralyzing.... you feel stuck in your own body.
Adam I used to struggle with panic attack/anxiety attacks a lot especially when I was younger I would wake up in the middle of the night thinking about my life ending loved ones dying or even just things like long periods of time or focusing on really big numbers and it would send me into asthma attacks and I'd go to the hospital but I realised when I got older especially when I realised that Christianity was the truth I realised that I had the full peace of mind and I didn't have to worry anymore. you can't worry about the things you can't change or arent willing to change but when I realised that I was safe in the cleft of the rock that is Jesus and all the waves could pound and smash and they couldn't get me and even if they did I was still with Jesus.The Bible says God makes a table for you in the midst of your enemies so even though all the people around you are hating you God set you up like a like a king in the midst of them just so they'd have to and sit and watch you a succeed. this helps I used always get panick attacks but I haven't had one in over over 15 years.
Adam, my buddy was suffering through depression and i couldn't save him. I live with regret because i could've done more. I miss him so much man. I hope you do well, you a real one. If you think someone is going through some shit, get them help; don't assume they are able to fight it on their own. You'll regret it
Hang in Adam, I am similar. I have had heart papitations seemingly out of nowhere, I thought I was dying, never experienced that before. Drove myself to the emergency room, had no body to take me. I have had stomach/digestive issures, I at one point was told it was all in my head by doctors which made me angry. I have now been diagnosed with depression, and have accepted it. I take Prozac and a prescription anti-acid every morning now and trazodone at night. When I stick to my dosage schedule, I am much improved but at the same time still myself with the personality God gave me. I have a ways to go but little by little I'm taking back my life from the spider's web. Blessings a well wishes, you are a force of good in this dark world. If you were not being attacked then it means the devil already has you.
Thank y’all for your service and sacrifices. Y’all are more appreciated than you can imagine, especially by those of us that were turned down by the military, and not able to stand beside y’all. Thank you
I have the same shit Adam. The last time I had one I remember freaking out telling my wife I need to go to the hospital and ready to fall out looking at my wife and daughter thinking its gonna be the last time I see them. Its a scary situation when you go into one of those panic attacks. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
I hear ya man I grew up as mr tough guy cant hurt me fuck the world first time I had a panic attack I felt totally helpless and scared shitless called 911 went to ER to find out its anxiety shit is real, miserable, and crippling when it happens
@@codyrobison6817 lmao same here bro. I was shoooooook when it 1st happened to me, my mom battled cancer for 12 years. My wife is a nurse so my wife and I moved her in our house and took care of her. She lost her battle to cancer. About 3 months after. Im smoking a blunt as usual for over 20 years. All of a sudden out of the blue my heart starts racing. I start sweating. I start seeing flashing lights like I'm on the red carpet. I get super dizzy. I thought I was done. I went to the hospital and they gave me all kinds of tests. The doc walks in and said your heart is fine you had a severe panic attack. I go doc I've never had this happen to me why now. He said you were taking care of your mom for 12 years being her rock showing no emotion being the strong one so she would be strong. Now that your mom passed away your system is releasing these emotions and probably to much at a time and it overloading your system causing these severe panic attacks. I thought my doctor was out of his tree. A few more times it happened after that so I guess he was right cz I haven't had one in like 3 years so I guess my system released all of the stuff I was holding on due to my moms battle. I just wish I could smoke weed again lol. No matter what everytime I smoke weed I feel like I'm on the verge of a panic attack so no more weed for me unfortunately.
@@sinatra617 weird you say that I smoked weed everyday since I was 18 i cant even touch it now either without having a freak out moment so I just leave it alone these days
Adam Calhoun you are an awesome dude, i go through my moments as well, sometimes thinking today is my last day, but i keep going, even with my broken, lonely and miserable self. Keep ya head up brother.
Great to hear someone put this out there. I suffer the same thing, but not diagnosed until I was 35. (I'm 48 now) Never ran from a fight and never will, but stupid crap sets it off. I feel our pain! The heart attack, tingling, shortness of breath... all of it!
I got diagnosed with panic disorder as well years ago, it’s weird hearing basically the same story coming out from someone else’s mouth after only having one single friend with it, shit gets intense
Just wanna say anyone who goes through depression or anxiety and to do your best to be a positive person I’m not trying to show you pity Adam my lady goes through the same thing it’s hard to get through just for me but my woman is so worth the stressful times i haven’t left I want to make her illness a little bit less bearing and try to be positive for her but man you’re a great man bro
Thanks for talking about this....Adam. I am 52 years old , and still have panic attacks. Prayers have helped me the most . And hydroxizine along with duloxytine have helped me the most . I pray hard daily I talk to God all the time . When you are down I would encourage you to think of those who have it worse....and count all your blessings. Adam I look forward to listening to you please continue to be you ❤ and keep talking . I appreciate you.
I've always described it as the feeling in your chest and stomach when you almost hit a deer or almost get in a car wreck. The gut drop when you slam on the brakes. Then times it by 1,000 and it lasts for hours. I thank you for sharing your story. Your not alone bro.
Any advice for depression that just keeps you from doing anything? I feel like such a lazy fuck but sometimes I just have so much shit to do I just get overwhelmed and just don't do anything which then compounds my depression and anxiety. Love your music and perseverance man!
Same boat as you. I think one day youre just gonna get so sick of struggling and slacking that youre gonna get something done. U should find a goal, have an objective in life maybe. Do things one a time though, like working out for an hour each day just to get your blood pumping. After you build consistency practice waking up early and, if youre like me who is a phone addict, put that thing away and silent it if you will. Maybe if you dont got a job, find one, talk with people, volunteer, and soon enough you'll feel satisfied. Motivation is consistency, it never comes to you randomly unless something tramatic happens which gives you a reality check. I wish you luck, just know, lots of other ppl are also on the same boat as you. Its just takes strength to paddle yours. Hope this helps :)
Set yourself little goals. Been in this situation many times. Start with something small, that small accomplishment will build confidence and compound if you stick with it. You'll have bad days but stay on track as best you can. Good luck!
@@husheddesert1725 Thanks for the support man. Thankfully I have been able to work and even get overtime through all of this. It's one thing I know I have to make myself do no matter what. Take care!
And I'm on no pills for it. I came to the conclusion was the side effects were worse than my condition. I made a promise to God if I didn't do anything else, I'd see this life through. And that's rough as fuck sometimes. I know.
Passion flower, CBD oil , All natural has been The Key for me that with Yoga vision online Salina is very good medicine and scheduled diet fruits and trail mix Was Time for a Change!
I know exactly how you feel Adam. I go through this too. I've been to the hospital many times because I thought there was something wrong with me, and I feel like I'm having a heart attack, my heart speeds skips beats been going too heart doctors for the last 3 years. It's a struggle. I go through spouts of depression too...I carry heart pills and clonopins where ever I go. I completely feel you. My kids and my husband and the good Lord above help me get through it. I have to stay busy to keep my mind mentally going.
“I can help everyone around me, but I’m helpless to help myself “. Amen!! That hit the nail on the head, thank you Adam!!
My god, this phrase is so fucking true... I'm always the shoulder for others to cry on, but my own personal brain shit is completely shut off to everyone else in my life...
I've lived my entire life that way. Always think the worst, mind won't shut off, people have no idea what goes on in my mind. It's soul crushing and because I seem to be able to handle shit the requests for advice and help never end. From the outside I apparently look like I can handle anything and for whatever reason I can. Meanwhile on the inside my fingertips are bleeding because I'm just holding on. Fucking ridiculous, fucking sad and in this current society it's getting worse. Times that try a man's soul.
@@vacayooper4728 I am the same exact way. I am trained through the trauma Institute as a trauma therapist and somatic experiencer. I help people through anxiety and PTSD and depression etc. But I can't seem to ground myself. Awesome at soothing others but horrible at self-soothing. I lost the love of my life in a trucking accident a little over 2 years ago and decided that that was the last trauma I was going to experience. Anxiety and depression and PTSD are crippling.
James well said bro same here i know the feeling
Absolutely
Real men are not afraid to say how they feel. A true warrior has fear before battle. They just know how to take it...
Well said my friend
Agree
ADAM THANK YOU FOR THIS VIDEO MENTAL ILLNESS IS REAL AND I CAN RELATE THANK YOU PRAYERS GO OUT TO YOU FRIEND!!
I can't agree more. We've dealt with some type of mental block. It's somethin' 98% of the population don't know how to deal with. Every fucking day is a blessing. By God's Grace, He'll help us all through each day with or without your own motivation and perseverance.
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Thanks for being"human". We love you, Adam!!
Love you
@@ACAL1 omg!!! You responded to me!!!! Thank you thank you!!
@@latinax175 Adam's a real one. He doesn't perceive himself as better than the next man, or woman in this case. He is what more people need to strive to be. Better than you were yesterday, not quite as good as you will be tomorrow.
@@ACAL1 i feel the same man your music helps when im not working
You are lucky and fucked! Most people can't get those meds, all people get addicted to those meds. Love you and wish you the best!!!
The worst part of depression and anxiety is the feeling of helplessness and feeling alone. This video shows us we aren't. ty.
We can all help each other man
It shure feels like I'm alone
@@nobodywho3254
I can agree with that in my situation and all.
@@nobodywho3254
Not that I'm trying to take attention away from you in any way or anything like that.
What's going on? How are you? I hope you're doing well and all pushing forward in life being successful.
I felt the “I can help anyone around me, but I’m helpless to help myself” on the deepest of levels.
Yes.
Same, I will give anything but can't do enough for me or accept, because I'd rather give to others whatever little I have to .
Its so easy to give people advice or a solution for others problems... but cant do it for ourselves
This is me. I'm always helping others but I can't help myself and I don't like taking other's help
@@sarahwayman342 sounds like you are not a selfish person. And love is about making sacrifices and with that comes respect for ourselves and each other. Deep down we all know this to be true. Whether we think so or not this is what gets us out of bed every day. So don't stop being a good person
I backed off, watching 24 hour news about 3 years ago and reduced my social media time. Ive increased my prayer time and focused more on God. Its helped me a huge amount.
Feed the bear .
My 23 yr old son was murdered 1 yr tomorrow... there were times wn I would wake up and not no wat to do, feeling helpless, hurt, lost, and every thing.. pray for me...thanks..
I can’t imagine your pain Chris, please know I’m praying for you.
I wish I could help more.. I know it’s hard.. try taking it one day at a time, when that seems too much take it an hour at a time, 10 minutes at a time.. whatever it takes to get you through
Prayers. Sorry for your loss.
Praying for you I’m sorry for your loss I know how it is to lose someone close to you but I can’t say what it’s like to lose your son or daughter but praying for you keep your sprit up
My son will be gone one year next month. Everyday is Ground hog day.. A roller coaster ride. I'm hollow. He was all I had. It's literally the worst hurt possible.
My heart and prayers are with you. Trust in jesus no matter what... much love.. God bless..
As someone who struggles with the same shit, this did help. Theres a gang of us out there, none of us are alone in this fight. To anyone reading this comment, keep your head up, better days are coming.🙏
Thanks brother
GOI like exactly what you said brother God bless and go America
I've been suffering from panic disorder forever and I'm so glad they're is people who care about us
When we needed Adam the most, he came out of the darkness.
yessirr🤘🏼 but he ain’t been in the darkness, he’s always been here shinin🇺🇸
This is so relatable... I respect the true honesty and desire to help others.
All u followers don't no shit besides what somebody told u
Feel like quoting Bane vs Bateman scene ..... I was born in the darkness !
If you take Xanax or Ativan please try Buspar instead. My dad was put on Xanax in the mid 80’s and it intensified his panic disorder to the point of disability. Xanax relieves the panic attack for the moment but once the Xanax starts tapering off the anxiety comes back x10 worse. The problem becomes a precipitating cycle of high tolerance level to Xanax or Ativan decreasing the effectiveness against panic/anxiety attacks. My father was prescribed Zoloft and Buspar in the late 90’s and it was a “God send”! The anxiety and the panic attacks decreased to few and far in between for him. I have a brother who had major problems with panic attacks until he was prescribed the combo of Zoloft and Buspar. I also have experienced multiple anxiety and panic attacks. It would piss me off when people would give advice to my brother and tell him to “just get over it it’s all in your head.” My response to these idiots was, you have no clue what you are talking about because once you have a panic attack your mind and body can easily talk itself into having another one that is worse than the first, then another one, and another and another. These panic and anxiety attacks can make a person lose their confidence and question their sanity. Panic attacks are terrifying! The older you get the more terrifying because you realize that now you are in a age range where heart attacks and death is possible. All I wanted to say is if you are on Xanax or Ativan for this reason please consider taking a combo SSRI with Buspar. Long term use of benzodiazepines can cause a cycle of panic & anxiety Hell.
I'm an EMT and I have panic attacks too. I have found my own way to deal with it. Panic attacks can be very scary. If you ever need help the men and women of EMS will be there to help anyone and everyone. God bless stay strong
Thank you 💙😊
Any tips on panic attacks i have them alot along with anxiety attacks
@@laurabaker7258 what helps me is meditation. Taking a class on meditation can help to control panic attacks and anxiety, It did for me. If I'm at work and can't meditate then I try to concentrate on controlling my breathing and heart rate by taking 3 deep breathes in my noise out my mouth slowly. I hope you too can find what helps you.
I recall reading a comment somewhere: "Depressed people don't want to kill themselves. They just want the pain to stop."
So sad and so true.
Facts! I fight EVERY day and I mean EVERY day! Sadly both my brother and father couldn't and lost BOTH to suicide.
FACTS!!!
Amen!!!!
Fuck. That's perfect. That's all I want😪
Hi Adam
Tim here.
Thank You very much for sharing on a personal level.
I Love You Too.
I'm hoping, And sending Positive Vibes, and Prayer your way.
Be Healthy my friend.
Much Love, And Respect.
"There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds.”
BAMMM
Can I have permission to share this quote and is it yours or who said it originally? :-)
@@superclean2006 absolutely! It's something I came across a while ago online. Unsure who wrote it .
Yes!
@@liriodeouro trauma is killer
Thank you Adam , I am Sending this to my oldest daughter who I raised alone too. She saw your other video about the meds you take and that also helped her! I honestly thank you Brother. My Daughter is diagnosed with BIPOLAR/ Schizophrenia. depression.
As someone who's struggled with schizophrenia and depression for 24 years while not being able to explain it to people, thank you for this.
I've struggled with panic Attacks for over 10 years. I did all of the ER trips, an ambulance ride, yelling at the doctors to do their jobs because it wasn't psychological, there was something physically wrong with me. I finally realized all of the doctors were right. While I was relieved to have a diagnosis it was also devastating. Thank you for sharing your story. You are an Inspiration to me and many others. Your strength helps others to be strong. God bless you and your family Mr. Calhoun 💚
I needed to hear this. I think a lot of people need to hear it.
"I'm helpless to help myself"
That is the best way to describe myself.
Depression and anxiety
It's truly some evil sht.
I'm pretty much the same way
I can and will help anybody else who is going through this because I don't want them to feel an ounce
Of the crap that I feel.
But at the end of the day I can't help myself
And it's true.
The best I can do for myself is to just keep moving forward.
Thank you for making this video brother.
It actually gives me hope and makes me realize I'm not alone
Even though it feels like it.
We all suffer from some shit in one way or another.... Stay positive ❤️
💯
You single?
@@Getithowyoulive863 ...why are dudes so thirsty 💧 now days lol.
I've been there stay strong push thru it enjoy life i lost to many people that had alot to give gone to soon I'm still here love everyday it's a gift I would have missed out on so much if I would have given up the best is yet to come
Thank you!! I have chronic anxiety, MS, chronic migraines and am bipolar1. I feel like nobody understands because they can't "see" my diseases. Thank you for putting words to how I feel.
Have been reading through all the comments and have heard some really sad stories. Praying for everyone going through something like this. God bless yall
My great grandma killed herself. My Dad killed himself. My brother has attempted to but failed. I also struggle with depression. When I'm starting to feel down I try to look back on my life through the years and think about how all the times I felt hopeless and like life wasn't worth living. I try to think about how all those times were only temporary. My life circumstances are always changing, everyone's is,sometimes for the worse and sometimes for the better it will NEVER stay the same forever. If I have some long stretches of bad, I know there will be day it gets better. I don't ever want to make a permanent decision based on a temporary problem. I notice when I'm talking with God and am in his word I'm at peace,it's when I start to drift away from him and not make him a priority in my life,thats when I get depressed/hopeless feeling. God fills that lonely void :)
Thank you for posting.
Amen
A child of a family friend took his own life a year ago and the whole town has been wrecked from it. Take this and give it as a gift to others.
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it must run in your family, genetically....much compassion for your family....i have been there on the brink all of my life
It dose matter dosent mater. God bless u.
I’m 17, i suffer from bad depression and anxiety, I’ve never commented on a post in my life, but I watch all your videos. I look up to you in so many ways because your mind set is like my papa and great grandpa, they raised me. They died around the same time, and it hurt. I just had my first daughter and I have another one on the way, I’m trying to build a house by myself. I’ve been through a lot, and it’s such a sign to me to see this video. It was just posted, and I am going threw a ruf time. It’s such a blessing to see this..
You’re doing great there’s not a better feeling than starting a family. Prayers for you my man I hope all is well. YOU ARE LOVED ❤️
Glad see you take responsibility an busting your ass. Life is hard but it will get better kiddo
Congrats! I keep photos of my closest friends and my family on my phone so when it hits me I go to them to reflect on all the great moments I’ve experienced with them and how much I love them and they love me. It helps me cope in the moment. Hang in there you got this young man!!!
Stay positive dude keep on keeping on stay strong for your family
You hit the nail on the head 100% ...thank you for speaking about mental health! Your helping sooo sooo many with this one video! Thank you from the bottom of my heart! God bless🙏🏻 🇺🇲
Anxiety, depression and PTSD!! It is not fun every day is a struggle for me just to wake up another day
HANG IN !! PRAYERS 🙏
I'm there too.
🙏🏻❤️🇺🇸
It’s extremely tough! And after getting out of the military they don’t give a dang anymore. I been fighting for my disability for years and I’m on the verge of just giving up.
Call me crazy, but I know vets that smoke pot and swear by it. I don't mean they stay stoned 24/7. They have some in the evenings to relax. Just a thought. Thank you for your service.
@@02dixiegrl please don’t give up keep trying
I love that you're talking about this anxiety/panic disorder because I do struggle with anxiety/panic disorder. It sucks. Thanks for sharing your story. Its very debilitating.
Coming with someone who has bad anxiety thank you for sharing your story. You’ve motivated me! Thank you Mr. Calhoun!!
Thank you Adam, I have the same issues. I was diagnosed with manic depression. I get both ends of the spectrums. I get VERY anxious then BOOM, I bottom out with depression. I am also dealing with PTSD. 26 1/2 years in law enforcement and 5 1/2 years in Iraq, been in fire fights and blown up, (IED) four times and presently recovering from a life threatening heart surgery. Lost use of my left arm. Brother we CAN and WILL overcome. We are STRONG in spirit, I am strong in my faith. Yes this video has helped me. I RESPECTFULLY and HUMBLY tip my hat and salute you for that.
Shits scares me 85% of the time. It feels like I'm dying. I hope this help the people watching this that are going through the same thing. I had to go through it by myself without medication. Many prayers for those in need. Jesus love you always
I have been suffering with severe depression and anxiety disorders since I was 12! I was on klonopin at age 12 I've been on every anti-depressants out! Now I've been on the same medications for the last 3 years and I finally finding balance im on sertaline Buspar busporine klonopin Xanax amytriptalyn ambien and 2 others I can't spell right now its crazy but I actually feel "normal" I guess! I felt that when he was talking about suicide because I've tried 3 times the last time was a little over 3 years ago I was actually pronounced dead but they jump started my heart I woke up in a hospital full of tubes with my family all around me and thats when I started taking my meds daily and as prescribed! So whoever is going through depression or any kind of psych disorder please talk to someone believe me people around you would rather talk to you that at your funeral!
I have suffered with the same sort of issue now for two years ,i hide it well as I've had plenty of practice now ,but it's tough ,but still take care of life and business as the world don't stop spinning just for me respect to you to bring awareness to this subject ,so many people go through this and have no idea where to turn for help
My son is 25 and one of the biggest tough,muscle bound, tattooed manly man I know and has called me crying like a baby. Has told me hes losing his fucking mind. I or my husband have never dealt with any kind of anxiety or mental illness so it's very hard for me to relate. Your videos truly help.
Get him in to see a psychiatrist asap! Even if it's video. Please, please before it gets worse!
I thought I was one of the few this happens too. Even though I know I have a good heart the anxiety just disables me. So I feel you Acal. Gonna get off my butt and run and keep my mind busier like you do, if not I’m all in my head. God bless brother 🇺🇸
Going to “Mental Health” finally myself. About 18 months from retiring in the military and there was such a stigma as I was growing up in the military. Now I’m finally getting some STUFF off my “chest” I am starting to feel better I think. I still have soooo much to work on.
A lot of jobs have EAP which is usually free or offer a work wellness program. Also if you’re in college they offer programs at really discounted student prices.
Casey, I dont know you man.. but thank you for your service. We owe everything to men and women like you. Your dedication to this country does not go unnoticed my friend.
I feel you man I live one day at a time and remind myself God's mercy is new each day. Keep working through it your doing it wright
Same here Brother , Sometimes we dont need HANDOUT , just a hand , VA just wasnt cutting it with me , But i finnally found peace , Hope you have to , Glad your Home
Much love and support to you!
One of the realist dudes around, you and Church are legitimate inspirations. Much respect from upstate New York.
I recently just started antidepressants and they absolutely knocked me on my ass. My body absolutely shut down as it tried to get used to the pills and it was just so hard to describe the feeling of it. I felt so alone because not many people around me have been on medication like this and as a teenage dude it felt weird talking about my feelings. I really needed to hear this and it feels so comforting coming from one of my favorite artists. We all look up to you so much thank you for this.
Fuck all them SSRI's just smoke a joint man! You don't need any kind of pill
Thank you sir. Honest just lost my ma before thanks giving and my pops 7 years before. I get the cut of your jib. Life is hard work. Make a plan follow your plan, it never goes as planned. Try your best not to fail. We all fail. Get up chin up and love your family. Again I get ya and thank you. HARD WORK!!
Thank you Adam for speaking about this! Much respect!
We all must walk the road of life by ourselves but we aren’t alone. This video you made helped at least one person today, me.
Thanks Adam, I really do appreciate it.
That feeling like you missed the last step on the stairs, that comes out of no where, when you're just doing normal life things 🙋♀️ I felt this video for sure ❤
That's what I like about you Adam! You are just real ! I heard this message once that the Lord let's us go through highs and lows so when we are on top of the mountain we can look back and see where we were and to look forward and see what we have to do to get through the next valley ! Keep it real brother!
I feel you brother. It feels like a heart attack for sure. The 1st time I experienced it was when my grandmother was in ICU and about to die. The 2nd time I was just driving down the road and I swore it was a heart attack, but it wasn't thank God. It took me until I was 37 to get my diagnosis of Bipolar with schizo and severe anxiety. I just turned 46 and the meds help. You never know what people are really going through in life. You got this brother.
Never imagined someone else felt that way. I feel that everyday. Drinking is the only way I cope with life. And I dont want to drink. I definitely need to find peace of mind some other way. Some how. Good video, thank you Adam.
Brotha I feel you on that, I drink so I dont have to over think so much shit all at once. It's sad to say but it's the only time my mind is silent.
@@dustinbrunolli426 me too, trying to detox, but it's hard.
Bro, I understand completely, I'm 46 years old and I've been dealing with this shit since I was 16 and homeless. The best way I describe it to people is " I'm afraid of nothing yet afraid of everything all at the same time!
Thank you Adam for talking about this. I deal with similar issues and have sense my time in the air force. It's good to hear influential people actually trying to help people instead of just using people. Thank you brother.
RESPECT!
I also live with anxiety and depression man. It’s life. It sucks but we gotta keep pumping! Love bro!
I'm dealing with the exzack same thing ,same pills ,I hate it ,stress makes werst. It does fill like your the ONLY one that under stands, my grandmother had it she lived to be 98. I'll pray for you brother ! CHUCKENSTEIN
You do indeed need to keep pumping but do feel free to reach out it helps I’ve been in and out of therapy it helps numb the pain won’t get rid of it but it helps trust me it definitely stopped my rage at least
It's a motherfucker to live with man. I LIVE WITH IT EVERYDAY.keep fighting on Brother.
Thank you for sharing! I struggle with anxiety, and it can be crippling! There are some days I just don’t want to get out of bed. I have occasional heart palpitations, I am very easily overwhelmed with the smallest things!
A lot of people don’t understand, and I don’t expect them to understand, but, it kind of makes it worse, when they say things to try to “fix” the problem.
I am not on medication.... I don’t like going anywhere, (especially to the doctor), and self medicate with alcohol, which I know is wrong.
Sooo much more I could say about this all, but I’ll leave it at that!
My husband and I love and appreciate your music, and your vlogs! Keep doing what you’re doing! Much love and respect to you!
I have had issues like that, it was crippling.... it’s hard to talk about, respect 👆🏼
I was married for 37 years and I’m still in love with this woman after all these years I’m still in love with her. But she takes pleaser in hurting me. She waits till I’m am in a very bad place and she will leave and it’s all I can do to keep from leaving this world. This is sick but I don’t because I tell myself she may come back. I have 4 grow children and 7 grandkids and I don’t no why I can’t stop myself from loving her. 37 years. She just left me agin like 2 months ago and she takes pleaser in my pain. Sometimes I think she wants me to check out of here. But my soul means to much. I think I am a good man and I try to be better man every morning I wake up. Enough I’ll stop. Thank u Adam.
Bro. You cant live like that. Start living for yourself and those grandkids.
Dude that's toxic. Get help, and maybe dump her and move on.
Don't settle! Do better ! You Don't deserve that !
Hang in there brother, just try and makes positives out of the negatives. Never give up
You need to get away from that
Real shit bro. Constantly keeping it real. I've never been actually diagnosed, but I've had anxiety before. Experienced the panic attacks so I know where you're coming from, just not as severe as yours.
Helpless to help myself....the most relatable words you said man
Im speechless brother. I never would have guessed we have the same mental issue. U said it exactly how it is. Been on meds 2 years now. We got this 💪
Bro it takes a strong man to do what you've done. Most men are to proud to speak real.
It’s not that someone is proud to speak it’s harder then you would understand brother. It’s easy in comment or message but talking to someone is person about your problems is super hard. I had problems from being in war and then it made it worse from a tractor trailer wreck and I never once told my wife for the first year and I always tried to hide it or when something happened I’d run off and pretty much hide but it’s not being to proud it’s being ashamed of yourself. And scared of what will happen if you speak about it. And that’s being truthful with you ptsd is hard and I’m a different person then I was 11 years ago. 100% of ppl think I’m pissed off or something isn’t right because either how a talk or the lack their of talking.
Exactly, It is the battle of the mind. It is also spiritual warfare.
I suffer from clinical anxiety and OCD. Also on medication. Thanks for this video. The more we talk about it, the better it is for everyone. What helps me is my faith, prayer, and my family. I came here for the music, I stayed for the views/opinions. Keep your head up, man.
My wife gets panic attacks and have taken her to emergency room. “Just breathe” doesn’t help. She hates any type of change. Awesome for you to keep pushing and not letting it stop you from pushing further in your career.
Yea...you can say "just breathe" all you want, but we will never hear it, like Adam said it's fight or flight. Thank you from me to you for being a awesome husband to your beautiful wife.
Weighted blankets are expensive but they work.
@@clydedenby1436 My boyfriend bought one and I absolutely hate it, it makes me get too hot. Lol 😆
@@Rebelgirl-kv6bd Bearaby makes one which is a large knit and it stays cool throughout the night or day.
@@clydedenby1436 I'm gonna have to check that out, thank you!!! 😊
I've been homeless and literally starving to death, and I'm more depressed today than I was then. Feels like I'm in prison on the outside
You are not alone, Michael. Please know that.
I dont know how to get u you 2 see this comment but wat u described is same shit I been dealing with since I was 18 as well and was on all same meds for years until I had one last for almost 20 hours which landed me in hospital doctors ended up realizing I was misdiagnosed..if u see this adam, respond and ill send u my email/phone number. U might not have to live with this forever I dont take meds anymore and there is a outpatient surgery but now that I know how to control them im not gonna get it myself...way to much info to write.lol....I know how much they suck even afterwards u feel like u ran a marathon..
We're all alone. Born alone, die alone. We all have a sad story but no one gives a shit.
@@syckmusyck6593 It's the hard truth
@@syckmusyck6593 we can't change the beginning or the end. It's the in-between that matters. How we deal with that sad story, do we wallow in it or learn from it, that's the mark of a life.
I feel your pain bro. I take the same meds you do, have no idea why I have this issue but I've been dealing with it since youth.. In my 30's now. Only thing I found out that works is what it seems like you do, to stay busy and keep your brain busy so it doesn't have time to think about the anxiety. God can help also, keep your Faith strong and hey Acal 2024 has got my vote. We need to drastically change the way things are happening in this country. Much respect sir!!
Thank you for this video. I suffer with Anxiety disorder, I have 3 to 8 panic attacks everyday. You feel like you are going to die, and you never feel safe, and when I have panic attack I just need to get somewhere that I feel safe. It sucks because you feel like u r all alone when this happens, and it will come on out of nowhere. Again Thank you for saying your truth!
I feel like when everyone says " if you're thinking about suicide, consider how it will affect your loved ones and friends" it can be taken as " who cares how you feel, think about everyone else"
I think people see it as you dont care about yourself bc you want to kill yourself (I know this isn't necessarily true) but maybe you care about your parents, siblings, significant other, dog, cat, hamster, etc. No matter who you are there is always somebody you care about that would really miss you and it would make their life hard having to live without you in it. Helping somebody recognize hey I dont want to do that to them and them deciding its worth living another day is huge and thats the goal. & someday hopefully they look back and are so grateful that somebody talked them out of it.
It does feel like that though. Because they don’t understand that for a lot of people that are going through this or have gone through it, once you’re at that point of really considering suicide, you believe that your loved ones would be better off and move on. That they really don’t care anyways. You get thoughts of your funeral and nobody bothering to go. It’s the feeing of pure unimportance and insignificance. Depression kills people daily. Because when the mind is that sick, it can’t see anything beyond its suffering and feeling like everything you touch turns to shit. Tom Macdonald just did a song about his inner demons and honestly I can relate. You should check it out.
It's usually loved ones and friends that push me to the point of thinking about suicide so who cares about what they think.
Ask yourself about what you feel and work out the why behind you feeling that way.
Don't settle on the first answer you come to.
Separate what you feel from what you think.
No one is clear headed when emoting.
Keep seeking answers.
That hit so damn hard, "I can help everyone around me but I'm helpless to help myself."
This video literally describes the last 4 years of my life. Hospital visits, ambulance trips, 911 calls, tons of medicine, fear, sleeplessness, hopelessness. I feel you brother.
Thank you for sharing, Adam. I think so many people are dealing with similar situations or circumstances, but don’t have a platform to share / vent. And this helps give voice to many.
I get bad anxiety attacks too. I remember when i never got them and the whole world seemed like butterflies and rainbows.
Same here. Just keep pushing forward brother
Listening to you my man is like hearing me especially since I lost my 26 year old son in July of 2019 it's a living fucking nightmare keep your head up boss 🤜🏻🤛🏻
Im so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you.
Sorry too hear that my uncle passed from a homicides 13 years ago on Sept 24th a couple weeks after his birthday the 7th n my grandmother his mother called me so the time brother crying ur not alone I wish I could say it gets easier brother but it doesn't u just gotta be the man u k he wants u to be you know any time u need to talk message me storm mob on Facebook messenger
@@storminthewoods thanks man and same goes brother and my son's birthday is September 23rd
@@bethwalker5582 thank you so much, it's absolutely horrible especially this time of year, thank you again
Sorry about the loss of your Son man, God Bless you and your family.
You honestly told my whole story bro. I’m damn near in tears. I can’t believe someone feels like I do
@Adam Calhoun this is the third time I've watched this and everytime I watch this I get something new out of it. I also deal with GAD (General Anxiety Disorder) and depression. See you strip down and show who you really are it gives me a mental boost and helps get me out of the mindset that it comes with depression and anxiety. All I'm trying to say is thank you for what you do and being vulnerable. You are a big inspiration for me. Keep it up. Much support!!!
Adam, I have battled with anxiety, depression, and OCD since I was in the 2nd grade. I constantly worry about getting cancer or something else, it is the worst thing I can imagine anyone else going through. Pray up my man, your music and attitude have helped me take back some of what I had lost. I will keep you in my prayers.
Stuck on I55 in semi...snow storm clicked 2 fast. Great message Adam
@Variety Archive Thank you appreciate that
Thats why I no longer do OTR. Driving local is so much better.
How far north on 55?
Which mile marke? I’m at 99 (Missouri) and nothing.
Gotra be north of 80, it ain't doing shit here
Respect for Adam, he’s the realest man I’ve ever heard of. He speaks his mind and states how it really is. And trying to help others when we are at our worst. Only real men do that. So, I have to say, I have the upmost respect for this man.
At last a life by Paul david ... No bull shit and no bullshit doc talk. Its helped me the last 5 years.
Thank the lord you’re spreading awareness cause god forbid people talk about depression being a silent killer
I’m shocked right now. I’m 31 years old and have the EXACT same story of the palpitations when I was younger and I totally went into a panic disorder. I have had it my whole life. The only thing that helps me get over it is talking to someone about it. I know you’re not looking for prayers, but I’ll definitely be praying for you. Wouldn’t wish this upon my worst enemy.
Exercise and alcohol help. Either or . Trust me. It is normal
@@gkt1127 each to their own but I've found the likes of booze and or weed actually makes it worse after a while. A few beers or whatever is only a short term solution , great while it does work tho haha.
Yea weed helps man just saying
I smoked weed everyday for 20 years. It used to relieve my normal day to day anxiety. But years ago when I started having panic attacks the weed would just make it worse. In fact smoking weed now will just cause me to have a panic attack. I wish I could still smoke. I used to love it and couldn't imagine not having it. For me exercising and getting that natural endorphin high is what helps relax me. But even then sometimes in the middle of working out I can still have a panic attack. I also quit caffeine which seems to help a lot.
I had anger and depression from some of the women i woke up with after long nights of drinking.. But on a serious note.. It can be tough to deal with .. Some people give up and off themselves. Just have to keep plugging along
Thank you so much for bringing this to the light. Depression and anxiety ain't nothin to play with. It SUCKS the life out of everything.
You music has brought me through so much.. This past year. I lost my dad, mother in law and best friend all with in 6 months. (None were covid related) I want you too know that your music has been very therapeutic for me.. It helps me to stay proud of who I am no matter what.
Needed to hear this Brother. Currently fighting grade 4 brain cancer and a broken marriage.
Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way Drew
PRAYERS 4 You Drew
Big prayers brother your not alone
I feel you on the "sitting on the couch, perfectly fine, and then bam". First few times it happened I thought I was dying... Now I try to just let it ride. It's real man. And you can't control it. It sucks at best. Much love to you Adam.
Death smiles at us all and all a man can do is smile back. - Marcus Aurelius
Thanks for sharing & being so transparent.... This takes alot of courage to speak publicly about this! I deal with this daily... your right its crippling ..... its paralyzing.... you feel stuck in your own body.
Bro, im the big bearded strong guy that fights depression and anxiety every day. Only peoole that goes throug this understands the struggles we have
100%
Try bringing it up on a job site haha. Hope you are having a great day man, and another tomorrow.
stay strong brother
Adam I used to struggle with panic attack/anxiety attacks a lot especially when I was younger I would wake up in the middle of the night thinking about my life ending loved ones dying or even just things like long periods of time or focusing on really big numbers and it would send me into asthma attacks and I'd go to the hospital but I realised when I got older especially when I realised that Christianity was the truth I realised that I had the full peace of mind and I didn't have to worry anymore. you can't worry about the things you can't change or arent willing to change but when I realised that I was safe in the cleft of the rock that is Jesus and all the waves could pound and smash and they couldn't get me and even if they did I was still with Jesus.The Bible says God makes a table for you in the midst of your enemies so even though all the people around you are hating you God set you up like a like a king in the midst of them just so they'd have to and sit and watch you a succeed. this helps I used always get panick attacks but I haven't had one in over over 15 years.
Adam, my buddy was suffering through depression and i couldn't save him. I live with regret because i could've done more. I miss him so much man. I hope you do well, you a real one.
If you think someone is going through some shit, get them help; don't assume they are able to fight it on their own. You'll regret it
Hang in Adam, I am similar. I have had heart papitations seemingly out of nowhere, I thought I was dying, never experienced that before. Drove myself to the emergency room, had no body to take me. I have had stomach/digestive issures, I at one point was told it was all in my head by doctors which made me angry. I have now been diagnosed with depression, and have accepted it. I take Prozac and a prescription anti-acid every morning now and trazodone at night. When I stick to my dosage schedule, I am much improved but at the same time still myself with the personality God gave me. I have a ways to go but little by little I'm taking back my life from the spider's web. Blessings a well wishes, you are a force of good in this dark world. If you were not being attacked then it means the devil already has you.
As a “Disabled Vet” that lives that...I feel ya
Same here brother, days I stay in my room all day.
@Logan Music hell yeah, hand ramming, finger poping #1 man all day long
Thank you for your Service
Thank y’all for your service and sacrifices. Y’all are more appreciated than you can imagine, especially by those of us that were turned down by the military, and not able to stand beside y’all. Thank you
Thank you for your service!
This is how you explain anxiety. The same feeling you get when you almost slip off a 50 foot cliff
I have the same shit Adam. The last time I had one I remember freaking out telling my wife I need to go to the hospital and ready to fall out looking at my wife and daughter thinking its gonna be the last time I see them. Its a scary situation when you go into one of those panic attacks. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
I hear ya man I grew up as mr tough guy cant hurt me fuck the world first time I had a panic attack I felt totally helpless and scared shitless called 911 went to ER to find out its anxiety shit is real, miserable, and crippling when it happens
@@codyrobison6817 lmao same here bro. I was shoooooook when it 1st happened to me, my mom battled cancer for 12 years. My wife is a nurse so my wife and I moved her in our house and took care of her. She lost her battle to cancer. About 3 months after. Im smoking a blunt as usual for over 20 years. All of a sudden out of the blue my heart starts racing. I start sweating. I start seeing flashing lights like I'm on the red carpet. I get super dizzy. I thought I was done. I went to the hospital and they gave me all kinds of tests. The doc walks in and said your heart is fine you had a severe panic attack. I go doc I've never had this happen to me why now. He said you were taking care of your mom for 12 years being her rock showing no emotion being the strong one so she would be strong. Now that your mom passed away your system is releasing these emotions and probably to much at a time and it overloading your system causing these severe panic attacks. I thought my doctor was out of his tree. A few more times it happened after that so I guess he was right cz I haven't had one in like 3 years so I guess my system released all of the stuff I was holding on due to my moms battle. I just wish I could smoke weed again lol. No matter what everytime I smoke weed I feel like I'm on the verge of a panic attack so no more weed for me unfortunately.
@@sinatra617 weird you say that I smoked weed everyday since I was 18 i cant even touch it now either without having a freak out moment so I just leave it alone these days
@@codyrobison6817 strange as shit bro. I swear there is shit being put into it now that it's legal and it fucks woth certain ppl
Adam Calhoun you are an awesome dude, i go through my moments as well, sometimes thinking today is my last day, but i keep going, even with my broken, lonely and miserable self. Keep ya head up brother.
I’m right there with man. People never know until they know then they wish they never knew.
Thx man I’m going through something of my own right now, I’m glad I watched this
Be strong!!
God bless all who suffer with anxiety.
Everyone has anxiety.
You mean anxiety disorder?
anxiety attacks lead to urges, urges lead to actions, actions lead to more scars on my arms
@@anthnylder8136 emo much
Chris W facts my man
@@BackBeater heartless much?
Great to hear someone put this out there. I suffer the same thing, but not diagnosed until I was 35. (I'm 48 now) Never ran from a fight and never will, but stupid crap sets it off. I feel our pain! The heart attack, tingling, shortness of breath... all of it!
I got diagnosed with panic disorder as well years ago, it’s weird hearing basically the same story coming out from someone else’s mouth after only having one single friend with it, shit gets intense
I needed to see this. Having a rough time myself.
Just wanna say anyone who goes through depression or anxiety and to do your best to be a positive person I’m not trying to show you pity Adam my lady goes through the same thing it’s hard to get through just for me but my woman is so worth the stressful times i haven’t left I want to make her illness a little bit less bearing and try to be positive for her but man you’re a great man bro
Thanks for talking about this....Adam. I am 52 years old , and still have panic attacks. Prayers have helped me the most . And hydroxizine along with duloxytine have helped me the most . I pray hard daily I talk to God all the time . When you are down I would encourage you to think of those who have it worse....and count all your blessings. Adam I look forward to listening to you please continue to be you ❤ and keep talking . I appreciate you.
I've always described it as the feeling in your chest and stomach when you almost hit a deer or almost get in a car wreck. The gut drop when you slam on the brakes. Then times it by 1,000 and it lasts for hours. I thank you for sharing your story. Your not alone bro.
Any advice for depression that just keeps you from doing anything? I feel like such a lazy fuck but sometimes I just have so much shit to do I just get overwhelmed and just don't do anything which then compounds my depression and anxiety. Love your music and perseverance man!
Same boat as you. I think one day youre just gonna get so sick of struggling and slacking that youre gonna get something done. U should find a goal, have an objective in life maybe. Do things one a time though, like working out for an hour each day just to get your blood pumping. After you build consistency practice waking up early and, if youre like me who is a phone addict, put that thing away and silent it if you will. Maybe if you dont got a job, find one, talk with people, volunteer, and soon enough you'll feel satisfied. Motivation is consistency, it never comes to you randomly unless something tramatic happens which gives you a reality check. I wish you luck, just know, lots of other ppl are also on the same boat as you. Its just takes strength to paddle yours. Hope this helps :)
Set yourself little goals. Been in this situation many times. Start with something small, that small accomplishment will build confidence and compound if you stick with it. You'll have bad days but stay on track as best you can. Good luck!
@@husheddesert1725 Thanks for the support man. Thankfully I have been able to work and even get overtime through all of this. It's one thing I know I have to make myself do no matter what. Take care!
@@jeraldsmith2545 thanks for the words of encouragement. Going to try to start 2021 strong after this shit show of a year lol
@T Kop nice, I like that. Good advice man, thank you.
And I'm on no pills for it. I came to the conclusion was the side effects were worse than my condition. I made a promise to God if I didn't do anything else, I'd see this life through. And that's rough as fuck sometimes. I know.
Passion flower, CBD oil , All natural has been The Key for me that with Yoga vision online Salina is very good medicine and scheduled diet fruits and trail mix Was Time for a Change!
I know exactly how you feel Adam. I go through this too. I've been to the hospital many times because I thought there was something wrong with me, and I feel like I'm having a heart attack, my heart speeds skips beats been going too heart doctors for the last 3 years. It's a struggle. I go through spouts of depression too...I carry heart pills and clonopins where ever I go. I completely feel you. My kids and my husband and the good Lord above help me get through it. I have to stay busy to keep my mind mentally going.