a few years ago i recognized that i could feel the trees. mostly it was a heartfelt connection that i feel as i look at them and i seem to get energy from this process also. its been a 15 year awakening process for me of discovery ... elimination of beliefs and learning the language of the spirit. i see alot of others online that are going through this as well. its very isolating and distressing. rich and disturbing at the same time. stabilizing tho. always internal. as an artist, i learned my creative process through being tuned into my intuition that guided the process of creating. that intuition muscle has been very helpful. everyone gets some creative tool as a child - some interest that will help them to develop and trust their intuition... most just throw it away but it is our greatest gift/tool early on in our lives. everything is like a giant fiber thats' attached in meaning and association to every other thing.
This described in perfect detail my life. Im glad i found this because i thought i was going mad. This is really strange to me because it came for me in so many ways. If im not meditating daily my life gets really messed up. Computers, laptops, and phones glitch, shut off or go to shit. My jpuney into another realm is only a thought. The things i see, and places i go are so incredible i never resist i just experience it. I only wish i knew where to turn. My cherokee father and family are gone.
Great video, Howdie. Shamans have been tasked to explore the astral realm, so it makes sense that they must go through a very tough initiation process like u described. Their mind, body and soul must be reborn it seems
Very true i struggle with family and friends not recognizing or appreciating the new me .Rather only recognising me as my old self , its tough .In my case the now sober me .
@@fishfire_2999 I hope you are doing well. I know this struggle, there is one person in particular that cannot see me as anything other than the old me. There is a song lyric which really puts this into perspective and it says “ .. and if you saw me now, would you recognize yourself?” Have a blessed day.
When I am not walking in my power, when I'm not allowing my gifts to flow, I take very, very, ill. I do not claim to be a shaman but I have tested this time and again. When I try to shove down my gifts I get ill again with a mystery illness. Mostly my stomach swells up huge, I throw up a lot and I'm doubled over in pain. Now I know when I start to feel this happen I immediately start making videos, making jewelry or painting. Or I go to my local ancient burial mound and ground the massive energy that's built up in my abdomen. But I am sure that the sickness is associated with me trying to stifle the power that flows through me.
That would sound right. The challenge might be, and again I only have a few sentences of your story here, but it might be that you have gathered some of the "power or gifts" that is you, but there may still as well be unclaimed gifts or power. As such it this can keep coming up again. Hence it may not be just "shoving down the gifts you currently know" but even more, there might be more gifts that you have yet to find yet, and these "drops" might also be asking you to go even deeper into yourself to see just how much more power you have.
@@howdiemickoskitalks Thank you for that insight. I honestly hadn't really thought about there being other gifts to tap into. I will begin exploring that.
I enjoy your videos. What you say is familiar. I would not call myself a shaman. I have no Indian training, I am from north European descent. I do like saunas though. The closest thing I have is the Indian friends that I have, said that the fact that wild deer would come up to me and touch me and I was epileptic for a long time which I was told made me special in their culture. For decades I had epilepsy, it is now gone. I stopped western medicine. The last times I ate meat, I lived the experience of the animals I ate being killed. The experiences were intense and unbearable at times. Once you surrender, you can share thoughts, feelings, experiences with animals, trees and others. I do not consider myself a healer, but when I am called, I heal. When someone has trouble crossing over, especially when spirits have trouble reaching them, I assist. It may seam that I am alone, but I know others like me with near death experiences and sight. I talk to my relatives and others that have passed. I have many friends in these other planes. My grandmother on my mothers side had the gift and my great aunt on my fathers side. I had epilepsy for a long time. Once I surrendered, went plant based diet, meditate regular, I am better and when I get sick I heal quick. I am alienated from my brothers, sisters and others. My mom and dad are both in a great place. My grandmother and great aunt are worried about their sons and granddaughters, but I cannot do much to help those that have shunned me.
Thank you for sharing this story, there is obviously a lot of wisdom that has passed along to your in your years and trials. It is easy to sense what is much deeper between your words. If you are ever up in Scandinavia please let me know. We would have lot to talk over a coffee or tea.
@@howdiemickoskitalks Wow, high praise. I would like that. I am currently living West Bloomfield, MI, USA. We have to see how this Covid works out. I extend the same invitation. We currently have a guest room open. Warm regards
This talk was so profound. It brought me more comfort and peace than I can express. I cannot thank you enough. This is the first in this lifetime that I haven't felt alone in my experience. With the point of cycle we are in there is a great weight of responsibility looming which amplifies the aloneness. My sincere gratitude to you for easing that burden/blessing.
I have felt death's call a number of times and am still here to tell the tale. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this wisdom. I shall cherish it always.
5:15 Shamans are not race specific. Each culture, Native American, African, European, has it's own terms for what is essentially Shamanism even though it's the exact same thing.
Exactly. We always had shamans and healers. What now is Europe used to be ruled by matriarchal wisdom and feminine healers. We all come from this womb. And we are and we’re white women. Don’t appreciate this white/indigenous thing. It’s not true. Eastern Europe still has its healing traditions and practices, much more connected. But “white” here is the typical northern American. I don’t subscribe to this “white”. There is still the last indigenous white tribe in Europe in the very north of Scandinavia in Lapland. And they have shamans.
Thank-you so much for posting this. Your description is the closest I've found for the Shamanic illness/ initiation. There's a couple of things I disagree with, but overall, an excellent post!
Good Day ! Thank You Thank You Thank You Howdie ! I needed these words desperately today. My core shaken, tears flowing. For I feel like a broken record trying to go with the "norm" and time and time again check out with severe bouts of depression, most everyone thinks I am nuts. Endless temptation of ending this self but to scared to follow through, not because I fear "death" , its the knowing of pain my mother and grandmother would feel if I did follow through. I've been in this cycle of since age 19 where I attempt to do as society dictates, usually for max of three years, the drudgery of western norms becomes overwhelming and monotonous and I "cash" out taking with just enough to hit the road and head for the mountains for a couple years, come back and repeat. I'm tired and regretful that I didn't see this and buy a piece of mountain to live a more self sufficient, simple lifestyle. That seems unattainable now, as I refuse to play by western system rules and regulations. Again Thank You Howdie for your insights. ~ Sincerely Grateful
And best wishes to you and your journey. Remember at least, that somewhere i all the pain and suffering can be the honest call to go deep within and find whatever it is that might drive your search for KNOWING. And you never know how long you need to KNOW. Some might need 20 more years, some might need 2 more days. So yes don't play by a rules system you don't embrace, instead find the inner system of rules that is you and follow those. The rest will tend to work out all right in the end
@@howdiemickoskitalks Thank you for hearing and innerstanding where I find myself again. I know it will pan out as it does time after time. This ego is holding me back from embracing the idea of being shamanistic, possibly cause of the countless pseudo shamans out here ? Interesting how one seeks consistency in a realm of variables. Struggling to remain in a joyful, gratuitous state of being. Much love and peace to you and all on their journey. Again Thank You Howdie
Very relatable for many , starting with me im 50 have dealt with this my entire life.Kinda boils down to this reality requiring me to be more ruthless and cold hearted then what comes naturally to me .Can be very overwhelming and exhausting .
Super interesting. I definitely have some of these symptoms but not all. I think I need to seek out a shaman, but the only one I’ve met where I live has led some questionable ayahuasca trips including minors, and the adults came out the other end being as confused as ever... so not sure what he was telling them as they were downloading from the aether. Sometimes I feel as though I do belong to a higher spiritual order, though I have no direction so I spend my time doing research and working.. kind of feels like I’m just killing time. Anyways thanks again. 🔱
Wow Ty so much! I read Shamanic wisdom for everyday life. Singing this song back home. And it came true. I passed out for a urinary tract infection and exhaustion and your death experience and woke up cured. And knew I was one of the chosen. I appreciate you please keep producing information on the subject. Just thank you so much for sharing.
Continually pointing out the short comings of a group of people by identifying them by the color of their skin is, in fact, racist. Saying over and over, 'white people' detracts and delegitimizes your message. It's the westenization, colonialism and imperialism along with organized religion that has been at the root of all offenses. The Indo-European Germanic tribes, had their own 'shamanic' people (woman) known in the Norse tradition as 'Volva'. They along with the traditions of the Picts, Celts and countless other pre-Christian Indo-European tribes were wiped out. Of course you probably already know this, so please, for the world's sake, stop saying White People are the cause of todays plastic Shamans, it's misleading and inflammatory rhetoric that undermines the pearls of wisdom you are bestowing. Its westernization and religious dogma that has disenfranchised so many, creating a large spiritual void which in turn has invited wetiko in - corrupting the minds of millions. For those who understand, it's not our job to judge but to overcome.
Thank you for your honesty on this topic. Especially the initiatory suffering that comes when touched . Also the insanity from peering into things that are all but impossible to process and may take an entire lifetime. You have a very warm vibe emanating from you . A calm and also a kind of sympathy and compassion and ability to holds ones attention. I'm guessing you have also looked into abyss's, left your body, seen visions ?? It's not a path of the weak. Sometimes existence itself can seem like it's crushing you. They do walk in two possibly more worlds. Your lecture has calmed me and for that I thank you sir.
Thank you for this extremely thorough, lucid, and humbling presentation of genuine shamans and initiatory illness. It is much needed. This is some of the most comprehensive information I’ve come across without getting too specific to particular traditions and/or cultures. I believe the unknown information source may be Raven Kaldera’s blog. Blessed be 🙏🏻
Divine madness... 2 Corinthians 5:13 So if we were crazy, it was for God. If we are sane, it is for you. The greatest blessings granted to mankind come by way of madness, which is a divine gift. - Socrates Madness, provided it comes as the gift of heaven, is the channel by which we receive the greatest blessings... the men of old who gave things their names saw no disgrace or reproach in madness; otherwise they would not have connected it with the name of the noblest of arts, the art of discerning the future, and called it the manic art... So, according to the evidence provided by our ancestors, madness is a nobler thing than sober sense... madness comes from God, whereas sober sense is merely human. - Plato No great mind has ever existed without a touch of madness. - Aristotle That which you mistake for madness is an over acuteness of senses. - Edgar Allen Poe Science has not yet taught us if madness is or is not the sublimity of the intelligence. - Edgar Allen Poe The Mad Hatter: Have I gone mad? Alice: I’m afraid so, your entirely bonkers. But I’ll tell you a secret. All the best people are. Break on through to the other side - Jim Morrison (The Doors) And if you head explodes with dark forebodings too, I’ll see you are the dark side of the moon - Pink Floyd But we’re never going to survive, unless we get a lil crazy - Seal Let’s go crazy - Prince
So great to hear somebody talking about this stuff from a more rigorous, academic perspective. Thank you so much for making this video, I found it most interesting! :)
.. Because i can do no less. Thank you. 🙏🏼 Those still ensnared by the illusions of mundane existence expect when I very cautiously share that I have recieved by no will of my own a startling experience, they expect i should bestow them with a tip on how they can magically improve their desired circumstances. Never do they consider that these truths are not compatible with their current existence. Truth does not come to you as you are, you must transcend your current understanding, shed your ego and open your heart to even be ready to accept it. Popularity, success, gratification is all most will seek. And so their sentiment more often turns to disdain and rejection when they are required to face their own karma. Of course, they are blameless.. Ignorance IS bliss. Only the shaman must live knowing. To force eye opening wisdom on another would be sadistic. It's not a trendy hack to level UP. Up... down... All is moot in the shadow of eternity. The journey of becoming. 🦋☠️🍎🐍👁️🐍🍎☠️🦋
Thank you so much. Very new to this community you and Matt. What a comfort to hear someone make some sense about what I didn't know i was even experiencing.
@@howdiemickoskitalks yes it has been very comforting to hear someone say things that aren't insane. Thank you for your sacrifice, hardwork, and experience. I appreciate you.
I think I understand what you wrote here but not fully. Could you explain a bit further, I just want to be sure that I am on your wavelength here. Thanks
Howdie Mickoski Talks understanding the aspects of this spiritual position you’ve address touches most many points that lights the awareness on the reality of this supposed anomaly to be counterfeited by those buying to attain its power. The issues that we put forth that’s meant to dissimulates the signs clarifies that this (spiritual position) has no immediate gratification to practice for; rather the expectation (which are real) follows by nature and no amount of carnal effort can ultimately produce the truth and spirit of the baptized believer. We are his people and he is our God: call us what you understand but strive to enter in for there is no other way of escape.
I can understand this from going to a shaman « training » in which the supposed shamans seemed to be bent on a practice of things they do to « act » like a shaman instead of ‘being’ in which they don’t have to prove anything and then naturally signs will follow. I compare it to people who want medicine to see results physically after they have blatant symptoms compared to homeopathic meds that change the energy and are not as physical but are vibrational which few people understand or perceive.
Awesome video! And thank you for emphasizing the part in which you listed the symptoms and that you do not want e.g. me to think that this is "exactly me". Yes, I recognized most of the issues and that I had them and that they are most probably just a part of a tough period in life... This led me to a decision that I probably should go and see a shaman and ask for his/her support/opinion in these because the direct psychologist's approach does not seem to help me out much. Thanks! :)
I don't know if this is me. I definitely have faced the loss of many things and a seeming impossibility of functioning in the normal world. Increasing isolation and depression, many brushes with death in the form of suicidal thoughts and wishes. There are other possible explanations for my struggles, including a different gender identity and depression in the family lineage. I guess only time can tell whether it is shamanism that I need to turn to, or whether some other form of healing is needed. The problem is, it seems really hard to find a true shaman for guidance on this.
about a decade ago I read Fingerprints of the Gods and then Underworld, both books by the same author, which really got me thinking and has lead me on an interesting journey, your information is very much appreciated, thank you for sharing. Cultural myths are fantastic clues. The his-story that we are told is not how it has been... I am new to your channel, have you shared any information about Tartaria?
Sounds a lot like the spontaneous Kundalini Awakening, and the years of silent solitude which followed, and the 20 years of shooting speedballs while oft sleeping on sidewalks which preceded. 🧘🏻♂️ 🤹🏾♂️ 🏄 Thanks again How/die and all commenters. 🙏 💚 ✨
Thank you so much, I really needed this today I just purchased your book on kindle, gonna be a great read on this Sunday when they world seems to be in chaos
Thanks. Sometimes it still seems strange to me that someone would want to spend an evening, especially now as the world is going a bit crazy, and read my book. I hope there are one or two things in there that are of value to you.
@@howdiemickoskitalks You are making me a poor man in terms of money as I keep on giving your book away... We all touch more people than we realise. Sometimes with just a touch, a thought, an intention, sometimes with a word, a sentence, a paragraph and sometimes with a whole book. All well intended actions are of service to other in my humble opinion. Thank you for your work Howdie.
@@howdiemickoskitalks We are all on our own journey. Sometimes a path will intersect with yours and is intriguing enough to follow up on or it awakens something within us as it has to you. Your research and passion does us seekers a great service by providing the best evidence and questions that would take us years to discover on our own. Thank you.
A great video, Howdie--Thanks ! I am not a shaman but had the great good fortune of studying with one a number of years ago. A group of us were sitting in the sweat lodge as the fire tender was bringing in one of the stones that had been in a large fire all day. He stumbled and the white-hot rock fell into the shamans lap. He picked it up in his bare hands and carefully placed it in the central pit ! Seeing what passes for shamanism in the "spiritual marketplace" these days is sad.
Thank you thank you thank you very much for this beautiful presentation. Your reverence and knowledge of this topic is very much appreciated. I would like to add some insight however. It is true that spirituality and shamanism has become "trendy" in this day in age where many who claim to be, have absolutely no idea what this path actually entails. In my personal experience, I wouldnt wish what ive gone through in my inititions on my worst enemy.. Truly. The things ive had to go through and see in order to hold true genuine space for another can at times be unbearable.. Many years of my life were spent in spiritual torment.. Visions and death. The most unbearable fear that every day was a fight to not take my life.. I woke up afraid of life and even more afraid of death.. After a very dark experience where I fell to a black astral realm for eternity being chased by a godlike bat creature who was trying to force me through a black door that was darker than the darkness i was already in, im which i knew I would never return. ( before this I was a very fearless person of the spirit world) Long story short i wasnt ready to go through and had to find my way back, and when i finally did, this creature told me that if i ever went back down into this realm and if my light wasnt ready to go through the door he would eat my soul.. i lost myself after this... Became a zombie who was lifeless on autopilot because the fear was so cripling.. Unable to get out of bed or function at all as a normal human.. I lost my family, religion, all my friends, my home, my mind, my soul, my will to live.. And i knew the ony way i could save myself was to prepare my soul to go through that door. Where my darkest fears existed..To face that fear head on that was so beyond anything I could possibly comprehend.. So i began preparing my light.. And this is when i found shamanism. I had no idea what this was.. All i knew was that i had a profound connection with the spirit world with my only wish to help the ones I love. Finally the experiences that I had been undergoing since I was a child started to make sense so i made my way to the jungle... It took almost 4 years of intense experiences before i felt i was able and when that door the bat was trying to push me through presented itself, it lead to my eternal death... The dark death.. Being ripped apart by every fear and demon that exists within the human psyche forcing my soul and my light to come out of my body.. Because if i didnt.. Surely I was going to die... I had no choice but to wake up... It put me in a place of pure instinct of my soul. This was one of the most brutal experiences ive ever been through in my life and when I returned after this eternal experience spirit gave me a new name and the shamans told me of my birthright and my calling to serve the greater whole. I thought that this night made me a shaman but the integration of this experience became very difficult.. The universe then started turning me into what I was most afraid of.. Resisting this I became so I'll that i couldn't get out of bed for months at a time.. I felt i had to choice anymore, which made me resist harder.. But i went so far into other worlds that there was no turning back.. Everything i knew of myself and this universe was stripped away... I lost everything.. But in that losing of everything i became unattached to the stories and archetypes of this world and could begin to shamanize and help others because of my ability to understand the darker aspects of healing. Moral of this super condensed story is that I'm a white male who walks with the light. These traditions and cultures are to be highly respected and revered. But this does not mean that white people cannot be shamans as well. We exist in many times and in many places and cultures to be able to help the whole. Some of us are assigned to the west, as this will become the new birthplace of spirituality and as sad as it is, people stealing culture and making it their own, they are still learning to connect with the spirit and new wave of life which will in time connect them to a deeper understanding of the great spirit where one day when the person is worthy will recieve a greater whole of the information. Afterall us shamans are just the conduits. It is the spirit who is the teacher (: much love to you brother. 🌞 the information you shared here is so important and I wish i would have had access to it many years ago. None the less is still as relevant and important today. Peace love and blessings to you ✨
Good part at the end. Yes we do have each our responsibilities. And yes, we already feel it growing from within. We'll find ways to help others in 2021.
Your talks are so enlightening I’m so happy when you’ve posted a new video I enjoy them so very much.....would you say Yogi’s are similar to Shamans? I meet a man many many years ago at the Monroe institute who was a yogi and it was such a profound meeting for me and the rest of us who were there that week I’ve never forgotten him.... I would love to connect with a true shaman and like you say there’s true shamans out there but finding them is the key. Thank you from Canada.
Yes in some cases for sure. But like the term shaman, there are lots out there giving themselves the title yogi but have not really done the work- but they can talk a good game so can fake it to the average person quite well. However anyone who has gone some distance along the path can rather quickly tell a real one from one pretending to be. Sometimes it can be quite subtle but there are signs. But yes one feels out a real deal, it is a memory that never goes away.
@@howdiemickoskitalks Thanks for answering he was real it was amazing listening to the other people there telling stories of things that happened when he was near but none of knew until the last day that he was a yogi he just kept helping people all wee. I am just reading your book on kindle Falling for the truth....so good and I’m not that far along. So how does one ever find a True Shaman? I went to the site you mentioned and there now offering lots of courses on becoming a shaman so it has probably changed from 15 yrs ago. 🤔
@@foxontherun4844 I think it probably has. When I used to go there it was just some articles and insights. I guess like so many the lure of the material gets people. I too of course enjoy and appreciate gifts and donations and whatnot. It helps...but there is a difference in my world to do it as a "workshop" or whatnot, as opposed to simply sharing and having faith that the return part will work out. But it still is not easy sometimes.
@@howdiemickoskitalks how long ago did you leave Canada? When working with a shaman are they able to do distance healing? I also wonder if we have implants in us without even knowing it.
Howdy Howdie, I have been on your radar since Crrow interviews. This particular sharing is so deep it is unfathomable - thank you for sharing the work & search(not re) that you do. O anam go anam ... from soul to soul in Gaelic
It sort of works that way sometimes. The gifts don't come until the end of process, which can make it very tough for someone to finish it when they see nothing coming in the moment from doing so. Its a razor's edge of walking...but the gifts are there already within. Part of the process can just be locating what they are- even though you might not be yet able to use them.
As you read this I got goosebumps! Thank you for taking the time to explain this & read of the real shamanic journey! 🙏🏼. Tears stung my eyes at 39:27, but I know not why. I greatly appreciate you sharing what a shaman truly is...I would not have known otherwise & the...honesty in what have just read is more than palpable, it’s a merging of knowing! 🙏🏼 Great appreciation beyond words. (I hope I will meet a real shaman one day.)
Thank you for sharing your knowledge. This video blew me away. I know you said they are rare but you just described my entire life. On another note...do you have any recommendations for books on alchemy. I've been listening to Lavette for a few years but some of it is a bit over my head. I'm a new subscriber to your channel. Found you through Reignbow Phoenix. 💚
Hey Howdie, hope you’re doing well! Are you familiar with Dr. Jerry Marzinsky’s work? Jerry speaks out about his intriguing experiences working in mental health institutions. He refers to Dr. Emanuel Swedenborg a lot, which is a fascinating researcher. Swedenborg lays down the spiritual connection between thoughts, addictions and mental illnesses very well in my opinion. I would be interested in your analysis of Swedenborg’s research. In my view, the loss of this knowledge causes a lot of modern day wickedness to occur.
@@wesleysullivan8047 a highly important question indeed! I would say it’s one of the most fundamental questions to understand ourselves and the nature of reality
Oh ya Swedenborg, real interesting guy. I read some of his stuff like 5 or 6 years ago. I can't recall it specifically off hand but I knew there was a lot in what I read of his that showed right away he knew a ton
This reminds me of the Movie V, where the girl is held prisoner in this dungeon, faced with death until she gives in, then he lets her out. He was trying to help her by breaking her.
It is sort of like that I guess. The spirit seems like it is trying to hurt or injure or destroy the potential shaman. And it appears that way on the surface. But of course it is trying to get the false self to be seen through and dropped so that the gifts and power that are at heart of the shaman's being can shine through. Generally this is only ever really seen and understood long after the process is complete- while in it, it just seems like an endless nightmare.
Ha ha. Howdie don't take this the wrong way but the other day when I first seen your channel you talked about a few things and also about your book, and your voice and demeanor reminded me of Billie Crystal talking to his writing class in the movie THROW MOMMA FROM THE TRAIN. Today your calm voice, demeanor and the subject matter reminds me of the big Biker guy talking to NATHAN ARIZONA in his office in the movie RAISING ARIZONA, and he kind of acts like a shaman kind of guy too along with being a tracker. It's just kinda of strange mystical synchronicities although small ones compared to others I've seen or experienced. Thanks.
Stolen history. When I was in Europe, half drunk, I was perplexed at the level of craftsmanship. People would explain it away. Yet, how can we not recreate it?
I am still just thinking about it. And I would have to see if the publisher would be in agreement. Even if I did it I wouldn't expect it to be around for 8-9 months at the earliest
C g jung red books and black books might help you with the mind of a shaman. I had no idea this literature existed till two days ago and I am an exact replica of him exactly 100 years later same mind, same experiments, same findings, same background.
24:01 hi I do realize how many ppl seem to think this is them I did read the comments Well Only a few It became ridiculous quickly I’m writing this to ask what to do.. The number of things that have happened and the extreme and rare nature of them I would be writing a book that only would serve to inspire pity and sadness Can I contact you or someone? I’ve watched everyone die My house burned down w everything I ever owned I had to have half my organs cut out I just I’ve given in to being crazy Or I don’t believe in crazy actually I say un-sane
Just found your channel recently and really am enjoying your content! 1)May I ask what exactly is meant by "surrendering to spirit"? As I understand it of now, an ego or persona death but NOT a death of self is meant. Being a vessel through which spirit can flow but not an empty flesh suit which spirit can puppeteer on energetic strings? What is this surrendering and how do you avoid bumbling into an archon trap out to destroy your essence only to fill it up with theirs? 2)Is a shaman always a healer, or at least striving to heal? Is their a warrior-type variant of shamans, basically the soldiers of the "shaman world" opposing "evil" and protecting "good". 3) Could you please name, if you have it at the top of your head(interesting phrase), how to simply find out what it is that spirit wants in order to not just "surrender" to the first "force" that comes knocking and pretending it is spirit PS: Anyone can answer if they like, since it is quite rude to ask so many things and expect someone to sacrifice theirs just to satisfy my desire for understanding.
Thanks for the questions. I can try to give a brief answer here. Surrendering to the Spirit can really be thought of as being able to see past the wants, hopes and fears of our own mind. Not that it is easy..but what information comes at that point tends to be wise choices (as long as we learn how to see what is real universe, or what is trying to trick us). Lots of shamans do little or no healing at all directly. They might focus on other aspects of dealing with reality, or other realms, or speaking with the dead or what not. Most tend to some healing out of a sense of connection to the world around them, but one can be a shaman still by doing only other things. The third question sort of relates to 1. First you have to dig through your own voices, that is step 1 To find your most inner self, most inner you (a you that will never lie to you) and then begin to see all the thoughts and what not that are not coming from that inner source. That does not mean they are bad or should be ignored, it just means all the ones from the mind need to be examined and checked (good idea or bad idea for me). So you have to begin with really getting to know your inner world first...then you can start to learn how to get comfortable with the outer.
@@howdiemickoskitalks Thank you very much! Your reply has been VERY helpful, as you are one of or the first in over a decade to address overcoming ego in a, for me, logical way. In my opinion maybe the biggest trap of our time, this trending notion of killing ego and being woke and enlightened for abandoning spirit and becoming a hollow puppet - basically worse than bodily death. The absolute majority do not see the nuance of killing ego without killing self/essence, or they deliberately mislead. To assimilate like the Borg. The contradiction of wanting to strengthen spirit by killing it and calling it ego death. I am looking forward to purchasing your revised version of your book when iti s published. Take care!
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a few years ago i recognized that i could feel the trees. mostly it was a heartfelt connection that i feel as i look at them and i seem to get energy from this process also. its been a 15 year awakening process for me of discovery ... elimination of beliefs and learning the language of the spirit. i see alot of others online that are going through this as well. its very isolating and distressing. rich and disturbing at the same time. stabilizing tho. always internal. as an artist, i learned my creative process through being tuned into my intuition that guided the process of creating. that intuition muscle has been very helpful. everyone gets some creative tool as a child - some interest that will help them to develop and trust their intuition... most just throw it away but it is our greatest gift/tool early on in our lives. everything is like a giant fiber thats' attached in meaning and association to every other thing.
This described in perfect detail my life. Im glad i found this because i thought i was going mad. This is really strange to me because it came for me in so many ways. If im not meditating daily my life gets really messed up. Computers, laptops, and phones glitch, shut off or go to shit. My jpuney into another realm is only a thought. The things i see, and places i go are so incredible i never resist i just experience it. I only wish i knew where to turn. My cherokee father and family are gone.
Great video, Howdie. Shamans have been tasked to explore the astral realm, so it makes sense that they must go through a very tough initiation process like u described. Their mind, body and soul must be reborn it seems
‘The flak is always heaviest over the target’
When one becomes more aware, they’re often misunderstood by those around him.
It has been one hell of a long flight to reach the co-ordinates...hope I brought the correct "payload"
Very true i struggle with family and friends not recognizing or appreciating the new me .Rather only recognising me as my old self , its tough .In my case the now sober me .
@@fishfire_2999 I hope you are doing well. I know this struggle, there is one person in particular that cannot see me as anything other than the old me. There is a song lyric which really puts this into perspective and it says “ .. and if you saw me now, would you recognize yourself?”
Have a blessed day.
@@johnnewton8017 This lyric hits the target on so much we discuss.... 🎯
When I am not walking in my power, when I'm not allowing my gifts to flow, I take very, very, ill. I do not claim to be a shaman but I have tested this time and again. When I try to shove down my gifts I get ill again with a mystery illness. Mostly my stomach swells up huge, I throw up a lot and I'm doubled over in pain. Now I know when I start to feel this happen I immediately start making videos, making jewelry or painting. Or I go to my local ancient burial mound and ground the massive energy that's built up in my abdomen. But I am sure that the sickness is associated with me trying to stifle the power that flows through me.
That would sound right. The challenge might be, and again I only have a few sentences of your story here, but it might be that you have gathered some of the "power or gifts" that is you, but there may still as well be unclaimed gifts or power. As such it this can keep coming up again. Hence it may not be just "shoving down the gifts you currently know" but even more, there might be more gifts that you have yet to find yet, and these "drops" might also be asking you to go even deeper into yourself to see just how much more power you have.
@@howdiemickoskitalks Thank you for that insight. I honestly hadn't really thought about there being other gifts to tap into. I will begin exploring that.
I enjoy your videos. What you say is familiar. I would not call myself a shaman. I have no Indian training, I am from north European descent. I do like saunas though. The closest thing I have is the Indian friends that I have, said that the fact that wild deer would come up to me and touch me and I was epileptic for a long time which I was told made me special in their culture.
For decades I had epilepsy, it is now gone. I stopped western medicine. The last times I ate meat, I lived the experience of the animals I ate being killed. The experiences were intense and unbearable at times. Once you surrender, you can share thoughts, feelings, experiences with animals, trees and others.
I do not consider myself a healer, but when I am called, I heal. When someone has trouble crossing over, especially when spirits have trouble reaching them, I assist.
It may seam that I am alone, but I know others like me with near death experiences and sight. I talk to my relatives and others that have passed. I have many friends in these other planes.
My grandmother on my mothers side had the gift and my great aunt on my fathers side. I had epilepsy for a long time. Once I surrendered, went plant based diet, meditate regular, I am better and when I get sick I heal quick.
I am alienated from my brothers, sisters and others. My mom and dad are both in a great place. My grandmother and great aunt are worried about their sons and granddaughters, but I cannot do much to help those that have shunned me.
Thank you for sharing this story, there is obviously a lot of wisdom that has passed along to your in your years and trials. It is easy to sense what is much deeper between your words. If you are ever up in Scandinavia please let me know. We would have lot to talk over a coffee or tea.
@@howdiemickoskitalks Wow, high praise. I would like that. I am currently living West Bloomfield, MI, USA. We have to see how this Covid works out. I extend the same invitation. We currently have a guest room open. Warm regards
Yes your book and your videos have power Howdie. I am grateful that I have been guided on your path.
This talk was so profound. It brought me more comfort and peace than I can express. I cannot thank you enough. This is the first in this lifetime that I haven't felt alone in my experience. With the point of cycle we are in there is a great weight of responsibility looming which amplifies the aloneness. My sincere gratitude to you for easing that burden/blessing.
I have felt death's call a number of times and am still here to tell the tale. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this wisdom. I shall cherish it always.
Good Morning Howdie and everyone here it’s a beautiful sunny day enjoy, have an Amazing Sunday. 😎
Thanks hope you have a good one
5:15 Shamans are not race specific. Each culture, Native American, African, European, has it's own terms for what is essentially Shamanism even though it's the exact same thing.
Exactly. We always had shamans and healers. What now is Europe used to be ruled by matriarchal wisdom and feminine healers. We all come from this womb. And we are and we’re white women. Don’t appreciate this white/indigenous thing. It’s not true. Eastern Europe still has its healing traditions and practices, much more connected. But “white” here is the typical northern American. I don’t subscribe to this “white”. There is still the last indigenous white tribe in Europe in the very north of Scandinavia in Lapland. And they have shamans.
Thank-you so much for posting this. Your description is the closest I've found for the Shamanic illness/ initiation. There's a couple of things I disagree with, but overall, an excellent post!
Very good video..This video helped me a lot..I am much more aware now of what a true Shaman is...Thank you Howdie..I hope you have a great day!
Cheers
Thankyou for this beautoful transmission! I felt it deeply in my soul!
Aho!❤
Good Day ! Thank You Thank You Thank You Howdie ! I needed these words desperately today. My core shaken, tears flowing. For I feel like a broken record trying to go with the "norm" and time and time again check out with severe bouts of depression, most everyone thinks I am nuts. Endless temptation of ending this self but to scared to follow through, not because I fear "death" , its the knowing of pain my mother and grandmother would feel if I did follow through. I've been in this cycle of since age 19 where I attempt to do as society dictates, usually for max of three years, the drudgery of western norms becomes overwhelming and monotonous and I "cash" out taking with just enough to hit the road and head for the mountains for a couple years, come back and repeat. I'm tired and regretful that I didn't see this and buy a piece of mountain to live a more self sufficient, simple lifestyle. That seems unattainable now, as I refuse to play by western system rules and regulations.
Again Thank You Howdie for your insights.
~ Sincerely Grateful
And best wishes to you and your journey. Remember at least, that somewhere i all the pain and suffering can be the honest call to go deep within and find whatever it is that might drive your search for KNOWING. And you never know how long you need to KNOW. Some might need 20 more years, some might need 2 more days. So yes don't play by a rules system you don't embrace, instead find the inner system of rules that is you and follow those. The rest will tend to work out all right in the end
@@howdiemickoskitalks Thank you for hearing and innerstanding where I find myself again. I know it will pan out as it does time after time. This ego is holding me back from embracing the idea of being shamanistic, possibly cause of the countless pseudo shamans out here ? Interesting how one seeks consistency in a realm of variables. Struggling to remain in a joyful, gratuitous state of being. Much love and peace to you and all on their journey. Again Thank You Howdie
Very relatable for many , starting with me im 50 have dealt with this my entire life.Kinda boils down to this reality requiring me to be more ruthless and cold hearted then what comes naturally to me .Can be very overwhelming and exhausting .
Super interesting. I definitely have some of these symptoms but not all. I think I need to seek out a shaman, but the only one I’ve met where I live has led some questionable ayahuasca trips including minors, and the adults came out the other end being as confused as ever... so not sure what he was telling them as they were downloading from the aether. Sometimes I feel as though I do belong to a higher spiritual order, though I have no direction so I spend my time doing research and working.. kind of feels like I’m just killing time. Anyways thanks again. 🔱
Thank you for this pure, honest and humble respectful explanation...
These talks are so good. Thank you man
Thank you. Feeling blessed to have crossed paths with you beautiful soul ❤️
Wow Ty so much! I read Shamanic wisdom for everyday life. Singing this song back home. And it came true. I passed out for a urinary tract infection and exhaustion and your death experience and woke up cured. And knew I was one of the chosen. I appreciate you please keep producing information on the subject. Just thank you so much for sharing.
Continually pointing out the short comings of a group of people by identifying them by the color of their skin is, in fact, racist. Saying over and over, 'white people' detracts and delegitimizes your message. It's the westenization, colonialism and imperialism along with organized religion that has been at the root of all offenses. The Indo-European Germanic tribes, had their own 'shamanic' people (woman) known in the Norse tradition as 'Volva'. They along with the traditions of the Picts, Celts and countless other pre-Christian Indo-European tribes were wiped out. Of course you probably already know this, so please, for the world's sake, stop saying White People are the cause of todays plastic Shamans, it's misleading and inflammatory rhetoric that undermines the pearls of wisdom you are bestowing. Its westernization and religious dogma that has disenfranchised so many, creating a large spiritual void which in turn has invited wetiko in - corrupting the minds of millions. For those who understand, it's not our job to judge but to overcome.
Thank you for your honesty on this topic. Especially the initiatory suffering that comes when touched . Also the insanity from peering into things that are all but impossible to process and may take an entire lifetime. You have a very warm vibe emanating from you . A calm and also a kind of sympathy and compassion and ability to holds ones attention. I'm guessing you have also looked into abyss's, left your body, seen visions ?? It's not a path of the weak. Sometimes existence itself can seem like it's crushing you. They do walk in two possibly more worlds. Your lecture has calmed me and for that I thank you sir.
Thank you for this extremely thorough, lucid, and humbling presentation of genuine shamans and initiatory illness. It is much needed. This is some of the most comprehensive information I’ve come across without getting too specific to particular traditions and/or cultures. I believe the unknown information source may be Raven Kaldera’s blog. Blessed be 🙏🏻
Great Timing for this video
Divine madness...
2 Corinthians 5:13
So if we were crazy, it was for God. If we are sane, it is for you.
The greatest blessings granted to mankind come by way of madness, which is a divine gift.
- Socrates
Madness, provided it comes as the gift of heaven, is the channel by which we receive the greatest blessings... the men of old who gave things their names saw no disgrace or reproach in madness; otherwise they would not have connected it with the name of the noblest of arts, the art of discerning the future, and called it the manic art... So, according to the evidence provided by our ancestors, madness is a nobler thing than sober sense... madness comes from God, whereas sober sense is merely human.
- Plato
No great mind has ever existed without a touch of madness.
- Aristotle
That which you mistake for madness is an over acuteness of senses.
- Edgar Allen Poe
Science has not yet taught us if madness is or is not the sublimity of the intelligence.
- Edgar Allen Poe
The Mad Hatter: Have I gone mad?
Alice: I’m afraid so, your entirely bonkers.
But I’ll tell you a secret.
All the best people are.
Break on through to the other side - Jim Morrison (The Doors)
And if you head explodes with dark forebodings too, I’ll see you are the dark side of the moon - Pink Floyd
But we’re never going to survive, unless we get a lil crazy - Seal
Let’s go crazy - Prince
Absolutely got the same from reading/ studying Alchemy.
Thank you so much for this! This really seems to explain a lot.
Always appreciate your offerings, thank you Howdie.
So great to hear somebody talking about this stuff from a more rigorous, academic perspective. Thank you so much for making this video, I found it most interesting! :)
My heart is very heavy
.. Because i can do no less.
Thank you. 🙏🏼
Those still ensnared by the illusions of mundane existence expect when I very cautiously share that I have recieved by no will of my own a startling experience, they expect i should bestow them with a tip on how they can magically improve their desired circumstances. Never do they consider that these truths are not compatible with their current existence.
Truth does not come to you as you are, you must transcend your current understanding, shed your ego and open your heart to even be ready to accept it. Popularity, success, gratification is all most will seek. And so their sentiment more often turns to disdain and rejection when they are required to face their own karma. Of course, they are blameless.. Ignorance IS bliss. Only the shaman must live knowing.
To force eye opening wisdom on another would be sadistic. It's not a trendy hack to level UP. Up... down... All is moot in the shadow of eternity. The journey of becoming.
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Thank you so much. Very new to this community you and Matt. What a comfort to hear someone make some sense about what I didn't know i was even experiencing.
Best wishes on your journey...hopefully videos like mine and Matt let you know you are not alone on it, others are walking it as well
@@howdiemickoskitalks yes it has been very comforting to hear someone say things that aren't insane. Thank you for your sacrifice, hardwork, and experience. I appreciate you.
Excellent post Howdie. I truly enjoy your work.
Really good video, thanks for sharing.
I'm still blocking it off.I'v been through death and back. Never completely back though.
Such power, love and a sound mind signature is followed by signs not design to be practice.
I think I understand what you wrote here but not fully. Could you explain a bit further, I just want to be sure that I am on your wavelength here. Thanks
Howdie Mickoski Talks understanding the aspects of this spiritual position you’ve address touches most many points that lights the awareness on the reality of this supposed anomaly to be counterfeited by those buying to attain its power.
The issues that we put forth that’s meant to dissimulates the signs clarifies that this (spiritual position) has no immediate gratification to practice for; rather the expectation (which are real) follows by nature and no amount of carnal effort can ultimately produce the truth and spirit of the baptized believer. We are his people and he is our God: call us what you understand but strive to enter in for there is no other way of escape.
I can understand this from going to a shaman « training » in which the supposed shamans seemed to be bent on a practice of things they do to « act » like a shaman instead of ‘being’ in which they don’t have to prove anything and then naturally signs will follow. I compare it to people who want medicine to see results physically after they have blatant symptoms compared to homeopathic meds that change the energy and are not as physical but are vibrational which few people understand or perceive.
thanks howdie, this is an amazing collection of stories that is very much helpful to me and has tied together years of loose ends for me
Awesome video! And thank you for emphasizing the part in which you listed the symptoms and that you do not want e.g. me to think that this is "exactly me". Yes, I recognized most of the issues and that I had them and that they are most probably just a part of a tough period in life... This led me to a decision that I probably should go and see a shaman and ask for his/her support/opinion in these because the direct psychologist's approach does not seem to help me out much. Thanks! :)
I don't know if this is me. I definitely have faced the loss of many things and a seeming impossibility of functioning in the normal world. Increasing isolation and depression, many brushes with death in the form of suicidal thoughts and wishes. There are other possible explanations for my struggles, including a different gender identity and depression in the family lineage. I guess only time can tell whether it is shamanism that I need to turn to, or whether some other form of healing is needed. The problem is, it seems really hard to find a true shaman for guidance on this.
I can't thank you enough for sharing this. Invaluable.
about a decade ago I read Fingerprints of the Gods and then Underworld, both books by the same author, which really got me thinking and has lead me on an interesting journey, your information is very much appreciated, thank you for sharing. Cultural myths are fantastic clues. The his-story that we are told is not how it has been... I am new to your channel, have you shared any information about Tartaria?
Sounds a lot like the spontaneous Kundalini Awakening, and the years of silent solitude which followed, and the 20 years of shooting speedballs while oft sleeping on sidewalks which preceded. 🧘🏻♂️ 🤹🏾♂️ 🏄
Thanks again How/die and all commenters.
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Thank you so much, I really needed this today I just purchased your book on kindle, gonna be a great read on this Sunday when they world seems to be in chaos
Thanks. Sometimes it still seems strange to me that someone would want to spend an evening, especially now as the world is going a bit crazy, and read my book. I hope there are one or two things in there that are of value to you.
@@howdiemickoskitalks You are making me a poor man in terms of money as I keep on giving your book away... We all touch more people than we realise. Sometimes with just a touch, a thought, an intention, sometimes with a word, a sentence, a paragraph and sometimes with a whole book. All well intended actions are of service to other in my humble opinion. Thank you for your work Howdie.
@@howdiemickoskitalks We are all on our own journey. Sometimes a path will intersect with yours and is intriguing enough to follow up on or it awakens something within us as it has to you. Your research and passion does us seekers a great service by providing the best evidence and questions that would take us years to discover on our own. Thank you.
I enjoyed your reading, thankyou Howdie.
A great video, Howdie--Thanks ! I am not a shaman but had the great good fortune of studying with one a number of years ago. A group of us were sitting in the sweat lodge as the fire tender was bringing in one of the stones that had been in a large fire all day. He stumbled and the white-hot rock fell into the shamans lap. He picked it up in his bare hands and carefully placed it in the central pit ! Seeing what passes for shamanism in the "spiritual marketplace" these days is sad.
Good story. Once you have a real experience of someone with power yes it does get comical when you see what the "marketplace" has to say all this is
never related to something so much, thanks howdie
When you said spiritual marketplace I choked.
Thank you thank you thank you very much for this beautiful presentation. Your reverence and knowledge of this topic is very much appreciated. I would like to add some insight however. It is true that spirituality and shamanism has become "trendy" in this day in age where many who claim to be, have absolutely no idea what this path actually entails. In my personal experience, I wouldnt wish what ive gone through in my inititions on my worst enemy.. Truly. The things ive had to go through and see in order to hold true genuine space for another can at times be unbearable.. Many years of my life were spent in spiritual torment.. Visions and death. The most unbearable fear that every day was a fight to not take my life.. I woke up afraid of life and even more afraid of death.. After a very dark experience where I fell to a black astral realm for eternity being chased by a godlike bat creature who was trying to force me through a black door that was darker than the darkness i was already in, im which i knew I would never return. ( before this I was a very fearless person of the spirit world) Long story short i wasnt ready to go through and had to find my way back, and when i finally did, this creature told me that if i ever went back down into this realm and if my light wasnt ready to go through the door he would eat my soul.. i lost myself after this... Became a zombie who was lifeless on autopilot because the fear was so cripling.. Unable to get out of bed or function at all as a normal human.. I lost my family, religion, all my friends, my home, my mind, my soul, my will to live.. And i knew the ony way i could save myself was to prepare my soul to go through that door. Where my darkest fears existed..To face that fear head on that was so beyond anything I could possibly comprehend.. So i began preparing my light.. And this is when i found shamanism. I had no idea what this was.. All i knew was that i had a profound connection with the spirit world with my only wish to help the ones I love. Finally the experiences that I had been undergoing since I was a child started to make sense so i made my way to the jungle... It took almost 4 years of intense experiences before i felt i was able and when that door the bat was trying to push me through presented itself, it lead to my eternal death... The dark death.. Being ripped apart by every fear and demon that exists within the human psyche forcing my soul and my light to come out of my body.. Because if i didnt.. Surely I was going to die... I had no choice but to wake up... It put me in a place of pure instinct of my soul. This was one of the most brutal experiences ive ever been through in my life and when I returned after this eternal experience spirit gave me a new name and the shamans told me of my birthright and my calling to serve the greater whole. I thought that this night made me a shaman but the integration of this experience became very difficult.. The universe then started turning me into what I was most afraid of.. Resisting this I became so I'll that i couldn't get out of bed for months at a time.. I felt i had to choice anymore, which made me resist harder.. But i went so far into other worlds that there was no turning back.. Everything i knew of myself and this universe was stripped away... I lost everything.. But in that losing of everything i became unattached to the stories and archetypes of this world and could begin to shamanize and help others because of my ability to understand the darker aspects of healing. Moral of this super condensed story is that I'm a white male who walks with the light. These traditions and cultures are to be highly respected and revered. But this does not mean that white people cannot be shamans as well. We exist in many times and in many places and cultures to be able to help the whole. Some of us are assigned to the west, as this will become the new birthplace of spirituality and as sad as it is, people stealing culture and making it their own, they are still learning to connect with the spirit and new wave of life which will in time connect them to a deeper understanding of the great spirit where one day when the person is worthy will recieve a greater whole of the information. Afterall us shamans are just the conduits. It is the spirit who is the teacher (: much love to you brother. 🌞 the information you shared here is so important and I wish i would have had access to it many years ago. None the less is still as relevant and important today. Peace love and blessings to you ✨
Good part at the end. Yes we do have each our responsibilities. And yes, we already feel it growing from within. We'll find ways to help others in 2021.
A Shaman from the Tone magazine. I have known a few people who have done the new age shaman course. Fascinating talk. Thank you.
Your talks are so enlightening I’m so happy when you’ve posted a new video I enjoy them so very much.....would you say Yogi’s are similar to Shamans? I meet a man many many years ago at the Monroe institute who was a yogi and it was such a profound meeting for me and the rest of us who were there that week I’ve never forgotten him....
I would love to connect with a true shaman and like you say there’s true shamans out there but finding them is the key.
Thank you from Canada.
Yes in some cases for sure. But like the term shaman, there are lots out there giving themselves the title yogi but have not really done the work- but they can talk a good game so can fake it to the average person quite well. However anyone who has gone some distance along the path can rather quickly tell a real one from one pretending to be. Sometimes it can be quite subtle but there are signs. But yes one feels out a real deal, it is a memory that never goes away.
@@howdiemickoskitalks Thanks for answering he was real it was amazing listening to the other people there telling stories of things that happened when he was near but none of knew until the last day that he was a yogi he just kept helping people all wee. I am just reading your book on kindle Falling for the truth....so good and I’m not that far along.
So how does one ever find a True Shaman? I went to the site you mentioned and there now offering lots of courses on becoming a shaman so it has probably changed from 15 yrs ago. 🤔
@@foxontherun4844 I think it probably has. When I used to go there it was just some articles and insights. I guess like so many the lure of the material gets people. I too of course enjoy and appreciate gifts and donations and whatnot. It helps...but there is a difference in my world to do it as a "workshop" or whatnot, as opposed to simply sharing and having faith that the return part will work out. But it still is not easy sometimes.
@@howdiemickoskitalks how long ago did you leave Canada? When working with a shaman are they able to do distance healing? I also wonder if we have implants in us without even knowing it.
Thank you Howdie
Howdy Howdie, I have been on your radar since Crrow interviews. This particular sharing is so deep it is unfathomable - thank you for sharing the work & search(not re) that you do. O anam go anam ... from soul to soul in Gaelic
After listening to this, I’m inclined to identify Lao Tzu and Thoreau as Shaman.
35:03 Gita Chapter 11. - Even Arjuna became frightened when seeing Krishna's "dazzling infinite primal form"
Truth. There is much Truth here. When you know the Truth he shall set you free.
I seem to have all the suffering, but none of the gifts... I wish I could find a shaman 🙏🙏🙏
It sort of works that way sometimes. The gifts don't come until the end of process, which can make it very tough for someone to finish it when they see nothing coming in the moment from doing so. Its a razor's edge of walking...but the gifts are there already within. Part of the process can just be locating what they are- even though you might not be yet able to use them.
When it is time for you to meet a Shaman he or she will come onto your path. I wish you strength on your path
Mesmerizing. Speechless, really. Thank you.
I live minutes away from that medicine wheel in the photo
As you read this I got goosebumps! Thank you for taking the time to explain this & read of the real shamanic journey! 🙏🏼. Tears stung my eyes at 39:27, but I know not why. I greatly appreciate you sharing what a shaman truly is...I would not have known otherwise & the...honesty in what have just read is more than palpable, it’s a merging of knowing! 🙏🏼 Great appreciation beyond words. (I hope I will meet a real shaman one day.)
So do I, but if you stay very aware you will know it when you do (because generally the real ones seem the most ordinary to the masses)
Thank you for sharing your knowledge. This video blew me away. I know you said they are rare but you just described my entire life.
On another note...do you have any recommendations for books on alchemy. I've been listening to Lavette for a few years but some of it is a bit over my head. I'm a new subscriber to your channel. Found you through Reignbow Phoenix. 💚
Thank you!
😍 beautiful.
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Very good, thanks.
Hey Howdie, hope you’re doing well!
Are you familiar with Dr. Jerry Marzinsky’s work? Jerry speaks out about his intriguing experiences working in mental health institutions. He refers to Dr. Emanuel Swedenborg a lot, which is a fascinating researcher. Swedenborg lays down the spiritual connection between thoughts, addictions and mental illnesses very well in my opinion. I would be interested in your analysis of Swedenborg’s research. In my view, the loss of this knowledge causes a lot of modern day wickedness to occur.
where do thoughts come from? a simple yet very important question.
@@wesleysullivan8047 a highly important question indeed! I would say it’s one of the most fundamental questions to understand ourselves and the nature of reality
@@wesleysullivan8047 They come from nowhere and if I start to believe them they multiply and infest my being like a virus.
Oh ya Swedenborg, real interesting guy. I read some of his stuff like 5 or 6 years ago. I can't recall it specifically off hand but I knew there was a lot in what I read of his that showed right away he knew a ton
@@kappalicious4207 agreed when i started to question this things changed for me
Great channel here happy I found you!
I have been a shaman in training for my entire life and will die the same as I perceive myself.
This reminds me of the Movie V, where the girl is held prisoner in this dungeon, faced with death until she gives in, then he lets her out. He was trying to help her by breaking her.
It is sort of like that I guess. The spirit seems like it is trying to hurt or injure or destroy the potential shaman. And it appears that way on the surface. But of course it is trying to get the false self to be seen through and dropped so that the gifts and power that are at heart of the shaman's being can shine through. Generally this is only ever really seen and understood long after the process is complete- while in it, it just seems like an endless nightmare.
Now I know. Thank you so much. ❤
Make me damn cry
This was very illuminating.
Wow you got some great stuff on your channe
Thanks
This is amazing
Ha ha. Howdie don't take this the wrong way but the other day when I first seen your channel you talked about a few things and also about your book, and your voice and demeanor reminded me of Billie Crystal talking to his writing class in the movie THROW MOMMA FROM THE TRAIN.
Today your calm voice, demeanor and the subject matter reminds me of the big Biker guy talking to NATHAN ARIZONA in his office in the movie RAISING ARIZONA, and he kind of acts like a shaman kind of guy too along with being a tracker.
It's just kinda of strange mystical synchronicities although small ones compared to others I've seen or experienced.
Thanks.
Leonard Smalls biker) tracker and Nathan Arizona.
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make a volume 2 or a second book; a lot of people won't read a thick book.
Stolen history. When I was in Europe, half drunk, I was perplexed at the level of craftsmanship. People would explain it away. Yet, how can we not recreate it?
Wow! So so so profound! Is this in your book? I must have it! This explains why relationships have always been hard for me since childhood.
Not exactly, falling for truth goes into various areas but not this specific topic I share in this video
sure, right when I order your book and start reading it yesterday, you decide to release the director's cut...
I am still just thinking about it. And I would have to see if the publisher would be in agreement. Even if I did it I wouldn't expect it to be around for 8-9 months at the earliest
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Powerful 🙏🏾
What steps would you recommend for one of these "actual individuals" take moving forward on their journey? Thanks.
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I wrote you an email about a year ago. coming back, my answers were provided.
Thanku for creating this video
Fantastic. Thank you.
Thank you
Wow. Just wow. Thank you.
C g jung red books and black books might help you with the mind of a shaman. I had no idea this literature existed till two days ago and I am an exact replica of him exactly 100 years later same mind, same experiments, same findings, same background.
The option not to do it is my life or dearh and because of that i dont resist muxh. I dont like the sickness.
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Really enjoying this but isn't the hermetic tradition African? The greeks learned and adopted it from Egypt.
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Hello thanku so much, what book is this? Can u do another deeper video on this topic?
Can you remove ads from your videos
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24:01 hi
I do realize how many ppl seem to think this is them
I did read the comments
Well
Only a few
It became ridiculous quickly
I’m writing this to ask what to do..
The number of things that have happened and the extreme and rare nature of them I would be writing a book that only would serve to inspire pity and sadness
Can I contact you or someone?
I’ve watched everyone die
My house burned down w everything I ever owned
I had to have half my organs cut out
I just
I’ve given in to being crazy
Or
I don’t believe in crazy actually
I say un-sane
Just found your channel recently and really am enjoying your content!
1)May I ask what exactly is meant by "surrendering to spirit"?
As I understand it of now, an ego or persona death but NOT a death of self is meant.
Being a vessel through which spirit can flow but not an empty flesh suit which spirit can puppeteer on energetic strings?
What is this surrendering and how do you avoid bumbling into an archon trap out to destroy your essence only to fill it up with theirs?
2)Is a shaman always a healer, or at least striving to heal? Is their a warrior-type variant of shamans, basically the soldiers of the "shaman world" opposing "evil" and protecting "good".
3) Could you please name, if you have it at the top of your head(interesting phrase), how to simply find out what it is that spirit wants in order to not just "surrender" to the first "force" that comes knocking and pretending it is spirit
PS: Anyone can answer if they like, since it is quite rude to ask so many things and expect someone to
sacrifice theirs just to satisfy my desire for understanding.
Thanks for the questions. I can try to give a brief answer here. Surrendering to the Spirit can really be thought of as being able to see past the wants, hopes and fears of our own mind. Not that it is easy..but what information comes at that point tends to be wise choices (as long as we learn how to see what is real universe, or what is trying to trick us). Lots of shamans do little or no healing at all directly. They might focus on other aspects of dealing with reality, or other realms, or speaking with the dead or what not. Most tend to some healing out of a sense of connection to the world around them, but one can be a shaman still by doing only other things. The third question sort of relates to 1. First you have to dig through your own voices, that is step 1 To find your most inner self, most inner you (a you that will never lie to you) and then begin to see all the thoughts and what not that are not coming from that inner source. That does not mean they are bad or should be ignored, it just means all the ones from the mind need to be examined and checked (good idea or bad idea for me). So you have to begin with really getting to know your inner world first...then you can start to learn how to get comfortable with the outer.
@@howdiemickoskitalks Thank you very much! Your reply has been VERY helpful, as you are one of or the first in over a decade to address overcoming ego in a, for me, logical way.
In my opinion maybe the biggest trap of our time, this trending notion of killing ego and being woke and enlightened for abandoning spirit and becoming a hollow puppet - basically worse than bodily death.
The absolute majority do not see the nuance of killing ego without killing self/essence, or they deliberately mislead. To assimilate like the Borg. The contradiction of wanting to strengthen spirit by killing it and calling it ego death.
I am looking forward to purchasing your revised version of your book when iti s published. Take care!
28:10 This is absolutely awful.
We live in a society
thank u Sir. /_\
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Is the information you are reading in any other of your books?