Rex Orange County - It's Not The Same Anymore (Official Audio)
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Can’t wait to be able to relate to the “It got better” verse. :’)
how you doin now jellybean🥺
I have and it's cathartic; hope you're closer to that right now
it sure gets better❤❤
it will bud domt worry
We will be here when you finally do ❤
"i wish i didn't need to get help but i do" that part kills me
Every single time I listen it's kills me ..
me two , recently I got diagnosed with depression going on the pills, getting help, not easy admitting it, I’m just 14 and it’s really hard for me.
@@pauecheverriac you sre so strong and brave. i don't know you but I am very proud of you
@@pauecheverriac i love you.
Yup I was the 666th thumbs up.
Fitting. Feels like the devil's on my back anymore.
This song is basically about growing up. So yeah everyone could definitely relate to this song for sure
John Gregorios agreed👉🏽 th-cam.com/video/0Beffw7p5bc/w-d-xo.html
It is about him reflecting on his depressive state or his past self.
He ended his concert in Seattle with this song ❤ We thought that it would end with "It Gets Better" but this was infinitely better. 10/10
@@linnythepuuh they actually ended with it here in NY, honestly would've been happy with both 🤟
not everyone gets depressed transforming to adulthood, sure its hard but dont dismiss someone talking bout being depressed as a regular thing
when he said *"i've spent many months just hating on myself"*
*i felt that*
Same
Yeah bro actually me too :( up until now
Same
we all do ma boy..
I like how his songs sounds happy even though the lyrics are sad. And it really hits me hard.
Feels like the song smiles at me with the sadness inside.
You should take a listen to Paramore's album "After Laughter".
just like Golden by Harry styles
@@maddieg1661 I was about to comment that omg STREAM FINE LINE
twenty øne piløts is the exact same🥺
It’s the brass 🤗☺️🥰
its crazy how this song describes my life perfectly like i could relate to every single lines in the lyrics damn
maisarah sammee 😩😩
Same, he is out there looking for us through his music ❤️
🧡
That's what growing up does to you. It slowly changes your perspective of things.
Your self-image, your place in life all eventually come into more of a question once you're out of highschool.
same hre. i think too
When he said *I wish I didn’t need to get help, but I do*
I felt that
Every lyric of this song:
Me: I felt that
I stg he doesn’t have any bad songs
Haters gonna hate no matter what
straight facts
cha1x nov4 couldn’t agree more, really wanted to love it but i just cannot listen to it for the life of me
@@never100x the La Blogotheque version is a lot better
@greek god Try the live BBC Radio version. Much needed improvement there. Also the I Don't Care cover is just gold.
“I should be happy of course” I felt that
Levi You’re never Alone trust me, we are all struggling big time, growing up is tough, hold your head high. We’ll get through this together :)
@@Levi-qr3cx i love u.
I can tell the style of his music is slightly changing, but I’m honestly loving it ♥️
i agree!
miss his old genre 😔
It's not the same anymore... 😂
It gets better
Totally agreed !!!
"when they want me the most i'm tired of acting like i care, but i do" I FELT THAT
this song means a lot. i'm crying rn. this song describes my life and what i have been going through lately. It's not the same as before. I'm sad, terrified, anxious and angry. this kind of disequilibirum made me worse. it's not the same anymore. it's hard and no one sees it. but i try to be hopeful. thank you for this song alex. thank you for sharing your story. this means so much to me. thank you. really thank you so much
I hope things have improved for you
Yo but the song said it’s better than before
i feel less lonely im going through it too and i hope it got better for you
How's going bro?
how are you doing? :((
This song holds such a special place in my heart already
Thanks Alex ❤
I didn’t know you had good taste in music 👌🏻
We share the same taste in music, dope
Wtf I watch your videos for funny videos, now I’m seeing you comment on possibly the most depressing song 💀😂😂 hope you’re doing good man love your vids
The Amazing ur in Sr Pelo and theodd1isout vidio
Maaaaaaz
lyrics 🥰:
i’ll keep the picture saved in a safe place
wow, i look so weird
my face had changed now
it’s a big change
so many feelings struggling to leave my mouth
and it’s not that rare for me to let myself down in a big way
but i had enough time and i found enough reason to accept that
(chorus)
it’s not the same anymore
i lost the joy in my face
my life was simple before
i should be happy of course
but things just got much harder
now it’s just hard to ignore it’s not the same anymore
it’s not the same but it’s not a shame cause
i spent a long time putting up with people
putting on my best face
it’s only normal when you start things in the wrong way
it’s only four o’clock and still it’s been a long day
i just wanna hit the hay
(people walking on me like everyday)
i’m tired of taking stress
(if only there could be another way)
i’m tired of feeling so depressed
(and when they want me the most)
i’m tired of acting like i care but i do
and i can’t wait to hit the bed but tomorrow makes me scared cause
(chorus)
it’s not the same anymore
i lost the joy in my face
my life was simple before
i should be happy of course
but things just got much harder
now it’s just hard to ignore it’s not the same anymore
i kept the feelings inside
i open up when shit gets built up this high
she makes it easy to cry
the words fall out of me and there’s no more disguise
i miss the days when i was someone else
i used to be so hungry
right now my stomachs full as hell
and i’ve spent many months just hating on myself
i can’t keep wishing things could be different
or leaving problems on the shelf
i wish i didn’t need to get help
but i do (x2)
i’ve been so hard on myself
even my family can tell
and they barely saw what i felt
i wouldn’t wish this on my enemy or anyone else
it’s not the same (it’s not the same)
it’s not the same as before, it’s not the same anymore and it’s fine because
i’ve learned so much from before
now i’m not sure on advice
there’s no excuses at all
no point in feeling upset
won’t take my place on the floor
i’ll stand up straight like i’m tall
it’s up to me, no one else
i’m doing this for myself
it’s not the same anymore, it’s better (x2)
it got better
Skylee Ford **supressed not "so depressed" !❤️
"short" not "sure" :)
It's amazing how he can put something so personal and raw out in the open. That's a very difficult thing to do for anyone. To be completely vulnerable like that.
Man I love punk and metal but i always listen to rex before i go to bed and I'm really excited for this album
what a wholesome comment ❤️
love that
Me too man my go to is metal by Rex Orange County transcends genres because he’s that good.
Omg I love your sleep tunes playlist ❤️
👀❤
This song is perfect. Being able to accept the fact that life is changing and it’s inevitable and there’s nothing you can do about it while also being anxious,upset,and a little angry about it. Becoming tired and overwhelmed with the realization that “it’s not the same anymore” thank you Alex, this song is all I’ll ever need ❤️
How can I accept that? I'm still stuck in the past and it's really taking a toll on me
Am I the only one who is crying while listening to this? The lyrics got me!
Yeess everytime i listen to it.
No same :(
HUGSSS
@@Aaliyah-ev7gg HOPE YOU'RE OKAY
@@reinia9167 YEAH🥺
This song just feels like a big hug, ya know. Like when you’ve just been really exhausted and overwhelmed for awhile and someone just comes up to you and hugs you, no words just a hug. That’s what this feels like to me. The embodiment of everything’s gonna be okay, you’re gonna be okay. Take a deep breathe, count your blessings and power through it.
"even my family can tell, and they barely saw what i felt"
w o a h -
edit 1/23/22
I made this comment two years ago during covids lockdown, and now that I come back and see this by coincidence dude it really does get better. It always will. No matter how shitty the situation is there will always be something good to come out of it. Forever love yourself, treat your brain as if it was the love of your life even if you have to force yourself to do so. Get help when you know you can't fight alone anymore. I love you all and stay strong 🫂
That one rly hit me hard
:(
felt
yeah:(
i legit cried seeing your edited comment..."it really does get better" : (((
this song just hits so hard. i spent my whole childhood just wishing i was older but now i would do anything to go back. my life was so much better and i didn’t realise at the time. even my life last year was so much better than now. the pandemic took away the last couple months of school away from me and i was suddenly removed from a place where i was loved by dozens and got to do everything i love every day (going out, concerts, drumming etc.) and now i’m in college with two friends and that’s all i do with my life. i miss all of my friends but they’ve all moved on and the ones i have now i’m constantly arguing with. i have to be tough and put on a good face but i’m SO tired honestly. i wanna go back to when life was simple and happy. don’t take shit for granted.
im sorry i feel u but trust me it gets better please dont give up
@@amnahsayyed8172 thank you i needed to hear that
Things will get better, those things take time.
"It's Not The Same Anymore"
I'll keep the picture saved in a safe place
Wow, I look so weird here, my face has changed now
It's a big change
So many feelings struggling to leave my mouth
And it's not that rare for me
To let myself down in a big way
But I had enough time and
I found enough reason
To accept that
It's not the same anymore
I lost the joy in my face
My life was simple before
I should be happy of course
But things just got much harder
Now it's just hard to ignore
It's not the same anymore
It's not the same anymore
It's not the same but
It's not a shame 'cause
I spent a long time putting up with people
Putting on my best face
It's only normal when you start things in the wrong way
It's only 4 o'clock and still it's been a long day
I just wanna hit the hay
People knocking on me like everyday
I'm tired of taking stress
If only there could be another way
I'm tired of felling suppressed
And when they want me the most
I'm tired of acting like I care but I do
And I can't wait to hit the bed
But tomorrow makes me scared 'cause
It's not the same anymore
I lost the joy in my face
My life was simple before
I should be happy of course
But things just got much harder
Now it's just hard to ignore
It's not the same anymore
It's not the same anymore
Oh
Oh
I kept the feeling inside
I open up when shit gets built up this high
She makes it easy to cry
The words fall out of me and there's no more disguise
I miss the days when I was someone else
I used to be so hungry
Right now my stomach's full as hell
And I've spent many months
Just hating on myself
I can't keep wishing things would be different
Or leaving problems on the shelf
I wish I didn't need to get help but I do
But I do, oh
I been so hard on myself, yeah
Even my family can tell
And they barely saw what I felt
I wouldn't wish this on my enemy or anyone else
It's not the same
(It's not the same, it's not the same)
It's not the same as before
It's not the same anymore
And it's fine because
I've learned so much from before
Now I'm not short on advice
There's no excuses at all
No point in feeling upset
Won't take my place on the floor
I'll stand up straight like I'm tall
It's up to me, no one else
I'm doing this for myself
It's not the same anymore
It's better, it got better
It's not the same anymore
It's better, yeah, yeah
ilysm
gracias 🙌
you're an angel
Merci monsieur
Ty somuch man 😘
i went to his concert and everyone around me started crying with this song... including me
It’s rough. It always has been but you don’t notice until you’re quite a bit older I suppose.
2:56 - 3:37 gives me chills I love this part
me too. my favorite part.
Miles Youngblood i cried the most at this part
I must of rewind this part about 100 times☺☺☺
Big Ted The Megalodon sameee😭
@@bigtedthemegalodon7999 sameeeee
I’m not completely sure what to say. Every time someone said they cried on one of these songs I didn’t believe them. This is only the second song that I have ever actually bawled over. I don’t know why. Everything he was saying was just making me feel really sad. But when he said “it’s not the same anymore, it got better.” A smile came across my face as if almost on command. I’m not 100% sure what’s happening but I think it was hope. Thanks for whatever you did. I’m still not entirely sure
when we can't be the ideal person we want to be and we tried everything to be that ideal person, but my ideal self is so far away, its not the same anymore
yes 💆🏼♂️
It's okay to not be the person you thought you were gonna be
This song speaks right through me. As someone who used to have a lot of friends i sure have spent the last 4 months of quarantine alone, both emotionally and mentally. Im so so glad someone introduced me to him before. I often cry myself to sleep and although most of rex’s songs are sad and mellow sounding, i feel like someone’s there who understands me and is with me.
I want to give him the biggest hug omg 😭😭😭
"I wish i didn't need to get help, but I do"
This album speaks so much to me
Love you Rex💗
IVE NEVER CLICKED FASTER ON A VIDEO IN MY LIFE
Me too
Samee
Your profile shows like that as well
SAME HERE MAN
Same here hahahah. I even liked it in advance!
this song explains so much of the situation thats happening in this world. cause its not the same anymore and that you just want it to go back, back into your simple life where there was school and hanging out with your friends. now youre just in a corner stuck with the same people everyday either screaming at you or bothering you. but you "should be happy of course" cause you dont want your parents to see you sad... this corona stuff isnt just working out like you planned.
I relate with this song on so many levels. This year for me alone was probably one of the hardest years of my life. I went through so many situations where I lost control and sense of who I was. Whether it be through the connections I made or the content I allowed into my mind, I lost sense of who I am. I lost my self-worth and I was so depressed I relied on weed to make me feel better (nothing against it, just feel like it shouldn't be abused). I didn't know how to smile or laugh without it in my system. I got help when my parents found out but I obviously did not appreciate it and went right back to smoking. They found out that I had continued the second time I was rushed to the ER. I hated the life of lying to my family, closing myself away from the world and being distant with my friends. But I found myself, call it seeing the light. But through allowing myself to realise my worth and to find my weirdness again, I stayed clean. Prayed more, loved more, laughed more and cherished myself more. It was not easy, I'm still struggling, but I'm learning. I have my family, friends, God and me. Never forget yourself. This song, among many other, have words that make a person realise they come from a long journey and are making progress in getting help. "It's not the same anymore, it's better" and it truly is.
i am so proud of you
I’m very late but I hope you’re doing well 💜
Thankyou for this ❤️
Same situation with me except parents don’t quite know , I get anxiety attacks randomly
am so proud of u mate am going thorough a lot as well
i was in a really bad situation my girlfriend cheated on me
ive lost my close family members in 1 week, i wasn’t ready for all of this at a time. But now i have myself and my god i dont need anyone. am gonnabe the best version of myself on this journey. It will get better❤.
This song popped up when I was at my lowest. Having a hard time to sleep, feeling pressured & just scared of what the future beholds. This song rlly hit me probably the song that I can 110% relate to because I and probably we also miss our childhood where there are no problems and we are carefree. Thankfully now I am slowly recovering so to anyone who's suffering just always remember everything is temporary and don't think and be scared so much of what the future beholds live life at the moment because tomorrow is another day.
6 am here in France, maybe the first time of the year I wake up at this time! Really great track, so do my morning
mdrrr ui la france !!!
I’m actually on a streak where I haven’t heard ONE Rex song that I don’t like
This song really touches me emotionally, especially during this tough year with continuous stress
i hope you’re doing better.
I’m finally able to relate to the “it’s better” verse and I’m really grateful for it. Now I don’t just love to listen to this song but it also makes me feel proud.
Once more thank you Rex. Much love
Yeah... This song really ISNT the same anymore after everything I've just heard..
The ending part of the instrumental... wow
🅱️oi hes going to win some grammies in 2020
and I oop
nah bc the grammys only give awards to shit artists
actually good artists never win any😪
@@elisecameron701 i believe that. ed sheeran is just the exemption
nah bruh, never
It’s crazy how honest vulnerability and damn-good lyricism can really resonate with people
i’m currently going through a really rough patch in my life , this last few months everything in my life is changing and it’s really tough , I’ve lost so many friends and things I used to have , I feel so empty , and so alone now it’s so different now :(.
The lyric “I miss the days when I was someone else hits so hard rn “
I really hope you’re doing better
I hope you’re doing better.
Me: has to go to school
ROC: releases new album
A few hours to late won’t be that bad 🤷♀️
A A lmao listen on the go.
MrSean5123 well my way is just 10 minutes wirh my car that won’t be enough😆
12pm here in the philippines what a great song to listen after waking up
So true but it's nice to see that you wake up at twelve pm too lmao apir
Oops apir din
Ipagdamot :))
@Jazer ererer super trueeee
Sana pumunta na siya here Ahqgawgahahahahaha
it was so good that i didn't realise this song was 6 minutes! it can be hours yet i will not notice!
Every song rex makes is a representative of human emotions
kecewa ga bang sama alex
I pity your wife if you think 6 minutes is forever
- Freddie Mercury
Bro it’s pity*
@@ObiWanKenobi lol thanks for correcting dude
I checked the length and like u I thought of Freddie Mercury HAHAHAHAHAH
omg lmaoo, i thought of him too
Haven't heard that a trillion times before.
Fuck off loser.
"Now it's just hard to ignore" his song 🖤
I love every part in this song especially the trumpet part
Makes me think of childhood.. before everything was complicated. :(
Everything was simple back then, even little things makes me happy as a child but everything changed and its just not the same anymore when i grew up.
@@kallenssumague4390 same ... youre not alone I feel you
man doesn’t have it in him to make one bad song
[Verse 1]
I'll keep the pictures saved in a safe place
Wow, I look so weird here
My face has changed now
It's a big shame
So many feelings, struggling to leave my mouth
And it's not that rare for me to let myself down
In a big way
But I had enough time and I found enough reason to accept that
[Chorus]
It's not the same anymore
I lost the joy in my face
My life was simple before
I should be happy, of course
But things just got much harder
Now it's just hard to ignore
It's not the same anymore
It's not the same anymore
It's not the same, but it's not a shame 'cause
[Verse 2]
I spend a long time putting up with people
Putting on my best face
It's only normal when you stop things in the wrong way
It's only four o'clock and still, it's been a long day
I just wanna hit the hay
People knocking on me like every day
I'm tired of taking stress
If only there could be another way
I'm tired of feeling suppressed
And when they want me the most
I'm tired of acting like I care, but I do
And I can't wait to hit the bed
But tomorrow makes me scared
[Chorus]
'Cause it's not the same anymore
I lost the joy in my face
My life was simple before
I should be happy, of course (Of course)
But things just got much harder
Now it's just hard to ignore
It's not the same anymore (It's not the same)
(It's not the same)
(It's not the same)
It's not the same anymore (It's not the same)
(It's not the same)
(It's not the same)
[Post-Chorus]
Oh-oh
(It's not the same)
(It's not the same)
(It's not the same)
Oh-oh
[Verse 3]
I kept the feelings inside
I open up when shit gets built up this high
She makes it easy to cry
The words fall out of me and there's no more disguise
I miss the days when I was someone else
I used to be so hungry
Right now, my stomach's full as hell
And I've spent many months just hating on myself
I can't keep wishing things will be different
Or leaving problems on the shelf
I wish I didn't need to get help
But I do
But I do
Oh-oh-oh
[Verse 4]
I been so hard on myself, yeah
Even my family can tell
And they barely saw what I felt
I wouldn't wish this on my enemy or anyone else
[Chorus]
It's not the same
(It's not the same)
(It's not the same)
It's not the same as before
It's not the same anymore
And it's fine because
[Verse 5]
I've learned so much from before
Now I'm not short on advice
There's no excuses at all
No point in feeling upset
Won't take my place on the floor
I'll stand up straight like I'm tall
It's up to me, no one else
I'm doing this for myself
It's not the same anymore
It's better
It got better
It's not the same anymore
It's better
Yeah, yeah
[Outro]
Oh-oh
Oh-oh-oh-oh
thank you!
i sobbed like a baby driving home to this song
"But tomorrow makes me scared 'cause
It's not the same anymore"
WE FELT THAT RN
“Tommrow makes me scared cuz it’s not the same anymore “🥺 I felt that.
Ive never had a song effect me in my life so much. I can always put this song on whenever I’m down and it’ll be exactly what I need to hear. I couldn’t put into a TH-cam comment how much it means to me.
I'm glad I discovered this song, it holds a particular part of me now. It describes me perfectly, I'm currently healing and relapsing a lot. Sometimes, I wake up in a good mood, but sudden waves of depression pass by, then I go hard on myself again. Can't wait to relate to the "it got better" part.
I'm glad to say I'm starting to relate to the "it got better verse" 😁
This is a very powerful and relatable piece. It starts of with a dim atmosphere, and openly displays a lot of feelings and symptoms of depression. The reoccurring line "It's not the same" alludes to living in the past and not enjoying the present, a mindset that is heavily linked to depression. The artist illustrates many of the thoughts and emotions of someone who is depressed, and I believe he is speaking from personal experience. My favorite section of the song begins at verse 3:
"She makes it easy to cry
The words fall out of me and there's no more disguise...
I used to be so hungry
Right now, my stomach's full as hellll"
Rex's songs have really great emotional catharsis toward the middle and end. This part of the song hits very deeply, and he begins to express relief and acceptance of his mental state in the lyrics. He details the importance of support and help from others when dealing with mental illness. A detail I love, is that the line "It's not the same" takes on a different meaning at the end;
"It's not the same anymore
It's better
It got better"
Now, Instead of alluding to regret and depression, this phrase now refers to getting better and beginning to enjoy his life more. This song conveys a journey of someone who is coming back from depression, and it illustrates such a wide variety of realistic emotions and head spaces. It isn't just "I'm depressed, oh I'm not depressed now", it portrays a realistic journey: the negative thoughts someone might have, breaking down and venting, their relationship with others, and ultimately accepting that they have problems and need help. In many cultures it is normal to push away your problems instead of dealing with them, and this song portrays the effect that that has on someone's mental state and how a mindset of acceptance can help you move forward and do things for yourself. It shows that denying your problems only worsens them; and once you accept them you can begin to work on them and improve your life.
Overall I think this song is a really emotional and powerful piece and anyone who has struggled with depression can relate to heavily. Rex puts into words what many people feel on a day to day basis, which helps them feel not alone, but he also shows that despite our anguish, our problems do not define us and if we work on them, things can get better.
"I wouldn't wish this on my enemy or anyone else"
I don't know but even though people disrespect me and always made me feel worthless, I still want the good for them.
I never thought that love can be much hurtful than hate.
This lyrics was so deep :(
I miss the days when I was someone else
I used to be so hungry
Right now, my stomach's full as hell
And I've spent many months just hating on myself
I can't keep wishing things will be different
Or leaving problems on the shelf
I wish I didn't need to get help
I'm crying at this Lyrics :'(
I'm feeling so sad, lonely, and every possible negative feeling, then TH-cam recommend this. I have never ever related to a song like this.
You know you have a major impact on someone when your songs are part of their dreams... thank you Rex O. County
rex be dropping bop after bop😭 my heart is happy and fucken sad at the same time💕
this hit in a place i didn't even know i had. feeling this so hard wow. this whole album, alex - this is amazing :)
Makes me think about my ex,she died last year. Yeah I can say it's not the same anymore. Idk why I can't move on. Hope she's in a nice place. God damn I miss her.
oh shit man I'm so sorry to hear that, i hope you'll feel better :(
Hope you're doing okay
i’m so sorry
I hope you’re doing okay and taking care of yourself, sending love your way ❤️
I’m sorry
THIS IS SO WEIRD. i've never cried to a song before, never even come close. but today i decided to listen to this album again out of nowhere since i used to listen to it a lot in 2019 (i was literally 12 lol). the album was just as good as i remembered it, but then i got to this song, and the feelings that just hit me were soo unexpected. when i listened to this back then, i remember just feeling such an emptiness and sadness that i couldn't even explain, and i'm much more mature now and it has passed, but i remember listening to this song and just relating to it and wondering when it would "get better". now that i listen to it, it really is not the same anymore, and my life WAS SIMPLE BEFORE. SO MUCH SIMPLER. and i can't even really relate to the "it's better" part yet, but this is the only song that has made me almost cry. i expect a reply to this comment from my future 19 year old self pls. thank you rex for this masterpiece of an album
Rex literally just summarized my life in one song
Pluto projector : "I'll do the same"
This song: "it's not the same anymore"
Ok.
The order of the songs is important. The first 5 songs are a reflection, the next 5 are his more current mindstate. As quoted by him here in the last sentence;
Pony is both simple and smart: five songs laying open the troubles that beset Rex over the last year or so, then five tracks teeing up how he turned things round. Or, as he puts it: “The first half to me is the angry, reflective thing. And the second half is: now I’ve gotten over it.”
I know this was probably a joke but I aim to educate lol
SIX COUNTS, we can't have good shit anymoreeeeeeeeeeeee
"i lost the joy in my face, my life was simple before" that hit so hard. when i look at pictures fo us and how happy i used to be i just miss the joy that i used to see in myself, things are slowly starting to get better so im happy about that but still, wow. this song is amazing.
this song makes me sad. I hate to hear that he was going through such a hard time and he was beating himself up about it :(
2:58 “I used to be so hungry, right now my stomach’s full as hell” this part always gets me. I used to be in a place where I felt guilty for not wanting to go on and I couldn’t tell anybody, I didn’t want to hurt anybody. But when I couldn’t take the fear anymore, I decided to get some help and now “my stomach’s full as hell.” I’m still working on it, it’s a battle every day, but now I understand that I don’t have to go through it alone, “it got better”
Now this ladies and gentlemen, hits different.
Especially people who are the "therapist friend" in their friend group. (Like me). I was always happy and now I'm struggling, I'm having to question a lot. I have found out I might have Bipolar 2 Disorder. So, I can relate.
Anyone who is reading this, I hope you have a great day. If you need to talk to me, just reply and I'll give you my Discord, Instagram, or Snapchat. I'll make sure I can talk to you. You are loved ❤
Hi. My name's Trinity, I'm 14 a freshman, and I'm bigender so I'm planning on changing it to Phoenix but you seem pretty cool. I suck at making friends because of my emotionally abusive household. Which has made me afraid of commitment and getting hurt again. But I really want someone to talk to even though I'm grounded. And can only use the computer for school. Anyways, here goes (also please don't try to use this against me in a way because that would hurt me. And sorry if that sounded rude and I assumed wrong of you).
I contemplated for a little while and realized what I was going through with my dad (the emotional abuser) was like a big cycle of grief. At first, I was in denial and thought I could love my dad. He does so much for me and I would facade and be someone else. I got tired eventually of acting like someone I wasn't. So I became upset and was moody. At first, everyone minded it. But then in quarantine, I acted angrier because I felt like no one took me seriously. And I just had to do things for myself and only. After quitting being selfish though and changing my ways, I sought validation from being a good kid. And most of the time I was, anyway. But I'll admit I can and was rebellious if I felt what I was living like wasn't right. So I bargained so much to the point of mental insanity. And after that shameful brief phase, just like all those years ago all the way back in 6th grade, it depressed me. And I am still melancholic. For 4 years. I've now come to a small stage of acceptance, though.
And decided if my dad thinks I should leave, I'll do it. Because I'm pretty sure he doesn't want me anymore. I hate making others feel bad about themselves, especially when it's from me. I don't know how to feel and it's hard to focus on schoolwork when there's so much going home. I'm also been suicidal way before my depression and even once as a kid tried to hang myself with a jump rope. But I was tall so it didn't work. Last week my dad and I had a small fight about the emotional abuse situation where he thinks I'm purposefully lying and manipulating things to people. I know my perspective on him was harsh and knew I was hurting his feelings, but I didn't expect that from. He now says I shouldn't ask things for him if I will say things about him that hurt his feelings. When in most cases, I tried not to, but I needed to ask someone to help with school and making sure we had something to chew. I'm grateful we still have food even though it's hard for me to eat.
Because of my acid reflux and fear of getting fat even though I'm skinny and exercise. This is all I feel like saying now but as I said, you seemed cool. And I'm just so lonely to the point I cry to myself because I want to hold someone's hand.
Btw, you have good taste in music my friend ( •̀ ω •́ )✧ Sorry if this was too much.
@@thebakingvet It's never too much, you amazing bean. I'm bisexual and non binary myself now. And I hope you're okay. And so do you, you also have a great taste in music
@@a.bondo_007 Aww thank you. I didn't think you would respond so I feel better now. Can we please be friends despite my condition? (P.S. I'm lesbian because I think I'm afraid of guys expect for anime boys)
@@thebakingvet Of course we can, how would you like to communicate? Do you have social media or discord or something. Plus, I'll support you no matter who you are. Unless, you're racist. #BLM but i think you're too nice to be and I think you're not that kind of person my friend
@@a.bondo_007 I have an Instagram and Discord. Thank you for supporting me, it feels nice making a friend online. And no I'm not racist, I try to hear everyone out and don't even like assuming people's races based on color (but that's not to say that I don't see it because I'm personally African American and little Native American. And am proud of it!) My Instagram is @_chocolately_smile_ and My Discord is @BubblySnowflake#8300. Hope to hear from you soon! Gtg, I have an advanced math class.
it's not the same anymore 😭
This song sticks. I feel what he’s feeling. Talking about how he see’s himself differently and that things change.
After years I can finally come back to this song and say it got better 😁
Title: Its not the same anymore
Background: *THE SAME*
klarenz cobie 😐😐😐😐😐
listening to this during the covid pandemic really makes me emotional.
all those lyrics is feel so deep
"and it’s not that rare for me to let myself down in a big way"
the sunflower reference aaaaa
"i let myself down in the fiiiiiiiiiiirst place
This is so good I’m gonna record this onto a cassette tape ahh he really needs to release tapes as well as records
Edit: OMG I JUST WENT ON HIS STORE he hAS tapes I BOUGHT ONE YES
I wish I had a walkman :((
Renka Dinan you can get them of second hand stores or things like ebay they’re not that expensive like around $20 :)
Im just curious why you have a walkman
Sushi because then I can listen to the music I want whenever and wherever I want, on my phone I can’t use it without internet + I don’t want to always be on my phone
@@eevee8098 ooooh okay thats interesting
I love this song
“i used to be so hungry but now my stomachs full as hell”
damn.
as someone with a history with EDs and going through recovery this hit hard home
It’s odd, about a year ago I didn’t like this album, but through the year I’ve had to take up a measurable amount of responsibility. And all of a sudden this is the most relatable album he’s put out
Same I didn’t like it till I could relate to it LMAO
@@juanaa6332 We’re so self-centered bruh 💀
I always liked it but thought it could have better instrumentals
specifically the song "Always" and "Never had the balls"
Always had such good vocals and I LOVE the lyrics but I wish the instrumental hit harder
I never related to this song before. Then come, today, I realized that this was the perfect definition of how I’ve been doing since march of this year. It’s been a fucking struggle. I want it to get better so bad. I want to be excited for life and the future rather than feel trapped.
Same for me, ever since quarantine started everything went downhill and i cant find a way out.
I cried while listening to this song, i think about how hard my life is, when i was younger i kept on wishing about growing up and i thought my life will be better, so i stopped playing and i focused on my studies and now, i regret every decisions that i made.
After depression and anxiety and ptsd, this song explains exactly how I feel
This songs like a rollercoaster of emotions.
I heard this song while pretty baked the other night and it hit so hard. Almost started crying. Rex’s music is phenomenal. We’re all just trying to figure out this thing called life. Even though he’s successful he’s still going through same feelings we all are. I guess that’s just the human experience
this song is so long it took me about 6 tries to listen to it to make it till the end and when i finally did i cried happily because all the times befoer it made me feel so sad i didn't wanna keep listening (but like, it's a nice song right...) but the struggle was real and i'm glad i made it because now every time it comes up i listen to the whole thing because i just know it will make me feel better
She's gone, she leaves me with no reason at all. All the memories we spent together will be not the same anymore
It was BEAUTIFUL.... I have no more words... 💖💖💖
he's singing about the depression that he has.
rama putra no wonder I relate to this song so hard
Not so sure
rama putra what am I singing about ? Take a good guess👉🏽 th-cam.com/video/0Beffw7p5bc/w-d-xo.html
He's singing about growing up.
You mean he HAD?
it’s 10pm here in california and im sobbing bc depression hits hard and im glad that Rex is feeling better regarding his mental health. take care of yourselves yall
i cried myself to sleep to this song when my boyfriend was in the hospital for a while. i was terrified and so lonely not being able to talk to the closest person on my life. and it was so painful sleeping alone. that same week when he left, i also ended up homeless and sleeping in my car in the cold. i didn’t even have enough money for gas to get to work. that part wouldn’t have been so bad if i at least had my boyfriend with me, but i didn’t. it was probably the hardest point of time in my life.
but now he’s finally back and we managed to find a place to stay. so glad that nightmare has ended. it finally got better :)
Darling you are so strong and I wish nothing but success and happiness for you my love I’m glad things are better
This right has helped me out of my head
the end of the song is so beautiful it brings me to tears
It's better, it got better ♥️
why do this song makes me sad and happy at the same time?