Day 219: 5th August 2022 | Going through Valium more than I'd like due to this uni assignment 😢😭
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 19 พ.ย. 2024
- I am starting to really dislike all of it. I feel physically sick now. I have cried every time I worked on this assignment.
I no longer even want to apply for Honours. I just want this to end.
I feel completely broken.
I understand you more than you know. I have been feeling the same; the hurt, the not understanding why you can't do simple things, why your body and mind are giving up, why you can't stop crying...I am in university right now, and I don't know if i want to what I'm going to school for. I'd rather not go, but I want to do something. I have felt like I am in a box of dark nothing; no feeling, no understanding of anything. No awareness, no feelings, nothing at all. I am still where you are. My depression is wearing me out. I have had more suicidal thoughts than I needed to, and I recently had the police and a dear church sister to come help me.
I understand you soooo much. I am telling you in love and strong empathy.
Pray. Talk to GOD. Just say His name, "Jesus".
I'm not trying to convert you, not trying to bring religion into this, GOD is not a religion; He is love. I am telling you that He will help you and bring you thru. I understand the darkness still be where you are. I feel that way everyday. I have more classes than I want, but need to do. We are both brilliant. We are both wonderfully smart. Do what you can. Perfection is not necessary. Do what you can to complete your classes. I have to finish one that I have fought thru just recently on top of my current ones. I am working with you, praying with you, supporting you.
You are loved. And I will follow you in the hope that I can be a support to you as much as you can be one to me.
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Thank you so much for your comment. I am sorry to hear you are still in the darkness most of the time. I am lucky in the sense I'm not always there anymore though it took over 31 years to get here. Uni drags me down. I get so confused. But I keep at it. Be proud that you are too.
I am very much Spiritual. I absolutely believe in Love and Healing. I am not religious nor ever will be but I agree that in its core, love, unconditional love for all, is the most powerful thing and can truly help save our world.
I will be making videos every day for life so I am here whenever you need to remember that you are not alone 💞💕