Man....this is a 20 minute video *but it feels dense like a blackhole supposedly is, so full of stuff to unpack.* I don't know what to say, what to comment. I can make an effort though. Let me start with this: *As cheesy as this might sound, I can't help but feel a genuine brotherly love towards you.* You said a lot of stuff that I agree with, but my strongest agreement with you is on this: *Depression isn't really a bad thing*. If I was a happy-go-lucky average joe, I wouldn't be where I am today, and just like Raoh from Hokuto No Ken I must say that *of this life, I have no regrets.* I could write what I think about your "black wall" experience, I could write about what this reality is from my point of view, but I don't feel like doing that, at least right now. What I do feel like writing is a very compact version of my story. I had a harsh childhood, I went through cr@p and got treated like cr@p, this led me to hate people and to prefer loneliness. I dropped out of the school system early on because of that, then a crazy chain of events happened that led to me getting involved with imageboards (AKA "Chans") which kind of turned me into a POS, if I can be completely honest not only with you, but also with myself. The more I spent time in the dark corners of the internet, the worse I became, until I gradually became tired of it all and started to slowly distance myself from it all until I left those corners and never returned to them. The hatred within my heart started dissipating and a new chain of events occurred, one that led me to discovering real neighbors like Renegade #1, Marc AntiNatalist, Forever Consciousness Research Channel, Matt at Quantum of Consciousness, Notes from Materiality, Life is Overrated96, Jayflamin, William Buhlman and finally *you.* During this journey I had good times, *horrible times*, and amazing experiences that are absolutely out of this world, *and I wouldn't have it any other way.* If you want to shoot ideas back and forth with a like minded guy, maybe we could set something like Discord or something, idk, depending on your views on that app. I'm lonely and full of ideas that keep spilling out of my brain and into comment sections throughout youtube, and I really don't want to annoy people with them, so I would rather exchange them with someone who might actually be interested about this stuff. Carry on trucking friend, like I said in your "Emptying The Cup" video, *you're gonna make it.*
I used to think that "Live life without regrets" was cheesy but the more you think about it, the truer it becomes. Much of life is about overcoming our own selves. Not judging ourselves or others is a major factor of this process and perhaps a major factor of love (still not sure what love actually is). I'm beginning to think that we don't actually make mistakes, because we're never actually making decisions to begin with (free will concept). I appreciate you sharing your story. It sounds like you overcame a lot of your past and the actions you used to take. You overcame your own hatred, which is incredible. I am genuinely happy that you are exactly where you are in life right now. I'm down for Discord. Despite my age, tech isn't my strong suit so I'll have to learn about what it is. haha. I believe it's like a chat room for streamers.
@@roninsjourney7560 Hey there bro. Call me pathetic but I have been F5ing this page like mfer because I knew that it wouldn't take you too long to respond to me. I have to say that I still don't know what true love is as well, I never had a relationship. I'm glad that you're happy for me. It feels good to understand my own race and all other ethnicities and no longer being blinded by hatred and rage. Free will is a massive can of worms for me. I think that its closely related to the concept of time being real or not, relative or not. Call me crazy but I have hunch *that an I from the future fvck!ng sent a coded message to me in the past through a lucid dream, something I would only be capable of understanding many years from that point (currently now)*. It's crazy. In a way it exists, and in another way it doesn't. Perhaps it only exists in form-based realities. Discord isn't just for streamers, its a general-purpose messaging system, its soaked in drama and security concerns, just to let you know. But me personally, I don't care much about it's flaws, governments and corporations have a massive number of spying on us anyway, nearly impossible to block em all. EDIT: I mixed my thoughts up, I was thinking about time! Perhaps time only exists in form based realities, and perhaps free will only exists in formless realities.
You and others,such as yourself expressing your thoughts/truths to persons,such as myself is truly,a beautiful thing you're not just emptying your thoughts in front,of a camera you're aligning with me,and others 😊 🙏🙏 I hope you find your way, but never succumb,to zombieland
@@roninsjourney7560 I gotta get my thoughts out on why i think it's a stimulation we are living in but I know from what I've been thinking it revoles around the human brain 🧠
I got a channel recommendation since you are leaning towards this realm being a simulation. Look up the channel "Archaix" on youtube. He was once deeply rooted into religion being raised a southern baptist.
Interesting video bro. I also grew up in a Christian background and I’m trying to live by it i would be lying if i said I didn’t understand why you made that choice about christianity, (i do hope you reconsider tho) There are a lot of questions i have about the faith but I’ll stick to it I believe there is a creator. At the end of the day i don’t think we can understand the creator or why all this is here, I’m very intrigued as to what happens after death and i hope we get some answers about this reality. Life is indeed very absurd, I can’t believe folks keep bringing people into this reality
I want to believe that we're created. I don't believe in the evolution nonsense. I also questioned hell, and if God knows beforehand who is going to hell, why have them be born, just to let them be tortured for eternity? If God created everything, he also created evil. I will continue to hold onto my own morals and principles though. Right now I'm in between spirituality and nihilism. I have to come to my own truths, not just what I've been told or read in a book.
@@roninsjourney7560 Like I said in Life is Overrated96's escapism video, I believe what we call "god" is actually the "original consciousness", the consciousness that generated all other consciousnesses. I believe he was bored and wanted to experience himself, thus the world and all of its layers came into existence, but there was no way for him to experience it directly, so he shattered himself into an unknown number of fragments in order for him to do so....these fragments are each one of us, and even animals. He is not perfect, not good, not evil, and not imperfect, he is a collection of all things, tangible and intangible. Here's the kicker, though: *I don't think he is completely original.* He has to have come from somewhere, created by someone or something, and I think the solution for this issue is *that him himself was once a fragment from a previous "original" consciousness, a "godhead".* That's why I say this world is a fractal. It's also reflective, like how Matt from Quantum of Consciousness exposes it to be and how I experienced it myself, what you project upon it is what you get back.
Imagine watching this from what's next after this and laugh to yourself and think "if you only knew what's next"
Its been a while man, we need you to keep posting at least every few months
Man....this is a 20 minute video *but it feels dense like a blackhole supposedly is, so full of stuff to unpack.* I don't know what to say, what to comment. I can make an effort though. Let me start with this: *As cheesy as this might sound, I can't help but feel a genuine brotherly love towards you.*
You said a lot of stuff that I agree with, but my strongest agreement with you is on this: *Depression isn't really a bad thing*. If I was a happy-go-lucky average joe, I wouldn't be where I am today, and just like Raoh from Hokuto No Ken I must say that *of this life, I have no regrets.* I could write what I think about your "black wall" experience, I could write about what this reality is from my point of view, but I don't feel like doing that, at least right now. What I do feel like writing is a very compact version of my story.
I had a harsh childhood, I went through cr@p and got treated like cr@p, this led me to hate people and to prefer loneliness. I dropped out of the school system early on because of that, then a crazy chain of events happened that led to me getting involved with imageboards (AKA "Chans") which kind of turned me into a POS, if I can be completely honest not only with you, but also with myself. The more I spent time in the dark corners of the internet, the worse I became, until I gradually became tired of it all and started to slowly distance myself from it all until I left those corners and never returned to them.
The hatred within my heart started dissipating and a new chain of events occurred, one that led me to discovering real neighbors like Renegade #1, Marc AntiNatalist, Forever Consciousness Research Channel, Matt at Quantum of Consciousness, Notes from Materiality, Life is Overrated96, Jayflamin, William Buhlman and finally *you.* During this journey I had good times, *horrible times*, and amazing experiences that are absolutely out of this world, *and I wouldn't have it any other way.*
If you want to shoot ideas back and forth with a like minded guy, maybe we could set something like Discord or something, idk, depending on your views on that app. I'm lonely and full of ideas that keep spilling out of my brain and into comment sections throughout youtube, and I really don't want to annoy people with them, so I would rather exchange them with someone who might actually be interested about this stuff.
Carry on trucking friend, like I said in your "Emptying The Cup" video, *you're gonna make it.*
I used to think that "Live life without regrets" was cheesy but the more you think about it, the truer it becomes. Much of life is about overcoming our own selves. Not judging ourselves or others is a major factor of this process and perhaps a major factor of love (still not sure what love actually is). I'm beginning to think that we don't actually make mistakes, because we're never actually making decisions to begin with (free will concept).
I appreciate you sharing your story. It sounds like you overcame a lot of your past and the actions you used to take. You overcame your own hatred, which is incredible. I am genuinely happy that you are exactly where you are in life right now.
I'm down for Discord. Despite my age, tech isn't my strong suit so I'll have to learn about what it is. haha. I believe it's like a chat room for streamers.
@@roninsjourney7560 Hey there bro. Call me pathetic but I have been F5ing this page like mfer because I knew that it wouldn't take you too long to respond to me. I have to say that I still don't know what true love is as well, I never had a relationship. I'm glad that you're happy for me. It feels good to understand my own race and all other ethnicities and no longer being blinded by hatred and rage.
Free will is a massive can of worms for me. I think that its closely related to the concept of time being real or not, relative or not. Call me crazy but I have hunch *that an I from the future fvck!ng sent a coded message to me in the past through a lucid dream, something I would only be capable of understanding many years from that point (currently now)*. It's crazy. In a way it exists, and in another way it doesn't. Perhaps it only exists in form-based realities.
Discord isn't just for streamers, its a general-purpose messaging system, its soaked in drama and security concerns, just to let you know. But me personally, I don't care much about it's flaws, governments and corporations have a massive number of spying on us anyway, nearly impossible to block em all.
EDIT: I mixed my thoughts up, I was thinking about time! Perhaps time only exists in form based realities, and perhaps free will only exists in formless realities.
You and others,such as yourself expressing your thoughts/truths
to persons,such as myself
is truly,a beautiful thing
you're not just emptying your thoughts in front,of a camera
you're aligning with me,and others
😊 🙏🙏
I hope you find your way,
but never succumb,to zombieland
We seem to have the same questions about life
Young men on our quest for truth
About God about humans about reality we have questions
"Religion is one giant excuse for humanity."
17:19 True
11:23 that's how i feel this world isn't real it's like a stimulation
I'm really leaning towards that theory. It makes the most sense to me right now.
@@roninsjourney7560 same here man
@@roninsjourney7560 I gotta get my thoughts out on why i think it's a stimulation we are living in but I know from what I've been thinking it revoles around the human brain 🧠
@@jayflamin313 There's the theory that everything is just a projection of our own brain.
@@roninsjourney7560 that's what it seems to be to me
Good story bro
I got a channel recommendation since you are leaning towards this realm being a simulation. Look up the channel "Archaix" on youtube. He was once deeply rooted into religion being raised a southern baptist.
Oh yeah...discovered him a couple months ago. One the best channels I've found in a while.
Interesting video bro. I also grew up in a Christian background and I’m trying to live by it
i would be lying if i said I didn’t understand why you made that choice about christianity, (i do hope you reconsider tho)
There are a lot of questions i have about the faith but I’ll stick to it I believe there is a creator.
At the end of the day i don’t think we can understand the creator or why all this is here, I’m very intrigued as to what happens after death and i hope we get some answers about this reality.
Life is indeed very absurd, I can’t believe folks keep bringing people into this reality
I want to believe that we're created. I don't believe in the evolution nonsense. I also questioned hell, and if God knows beforehand who is going to hell, why have them be born, just to let them be tortured for eternity? If God created everything, he also created evil. I will continue to hold onto my own morals and principles though. Right now I'm in between spirituality and nihilism. I have to come to my own truths, not just what I've been told or read in a book.
@@roninsjourney7560 Like I said in Life is Overrated96's escapism video, I believe what we call "god" is actually the "original consciousness", the consciousness that generated all other consciousnesses. I believe he was bored and wanted to experience himself, thus the world and all of its layers came into existence, but there was no way for him to experience it directly, so he shattered himself into an unknown number of fragments in order for him to do so....these fragments are each one of us, and even animals.
He is not perfect, not good, not evil, and not imperfect, he is a collection of all things, tangible and intangible. Here's the kicker, though: *I don't think he is completely original.* He has to have come from somewhere, created by someone or something, and I think the solution for this issue is *that him himself was once a fragment from a previous "original" consciousness, a "godhead".*
That's why I say this world is a fractal. It's also reflective, like how Matt from Quantum of Consciousness exposes it to be and how I experienced it myself, what you project upon it is what you get back.
@@jayess9021 very interesting thanks for sharing