Such beautiful vulnerable sharing showing the strength and clarity of honouring what is present. Nurturing and compassionate. So helpful. Much love to you. Emily 💗💗💗
Thank you for sharing. Its so great to hear some one talk about dealing with chronic illness in conjunction with realisation. I have ME which I have had for 10 years. I have good and bad days but my mind has such resistant to the pain and exhaustion that comes with the condition when its bad. I know that the only way to truly be with it is to be able to welcome it and experience it fully but the habits of distracting myself and resistanting it is still very strong.
The part about being frustrated that you couldn't do the same things as your peers or even people much older, I felt that so deeply. I can do a lot more things than I used to too but definitely can't handle too much for too long before I have to slow down again. Thank you again for sharing this and putting it in such the perfect way.
Violet. I am experiencing the same pain and suffering for three years. Countless doctors, no answers , extreme fatigue, pain, can’t read anymore. Driving is difficult. I don’t even know if I am awake because the pull to the body is so strong. It’s physically exhausting to move this body about. Although I am more at peace then ever. I would love to chat with you about this. No one else understands. Thanks for sharing your story. Perfect timing for me to watch. 💛
I was born with spinach bifida. I grew up in extreme trauma and drama. My family denied my illness and no one talked about it. I had many procedures and hospitalizations and no one ever told me why. I just thought I was broken and it is full of so much shame.I was eventually diagnosed with Epstein-Barr, mold, Nervous system dysregulation, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, etc. etc. etc. All of this went pretty much untreated for years. This just added to all the shame and self hatred. I felt defective. I did my best to cover it all up. I used many dysfunctional tools to push through it all and keep going. I used drugs, (both legal and illegal) alcohol and anything else I could find to disassociate and keep going. Push push push. I eventually developed stage four breast cancer which I have lived with for the last 15 years. It has brought me to my knees so many times. I am in the darkness once again right now. I’m losing the energy to push anymore.Acceptance is so very hard for me. I know in my heart I need to quit pushing and just be with what but that is definitely not my default setting. I feel like I’ve spent the last three years crying lifetimes full of tears. There’s so much grief and sadness. It feels neverending. Then I go outside and go for a walk in the snow with my dog Desi and I’m filled with awe at of the beauty of it all and cry more tears. 🤷🏼♀️I don’t understand life at all.Thank you so much for sharing this.❤
Thanks for sharing this. It's not easy not to avoid strong physical pain but it's good that we have examples that it's possible. I have had rheumatic pains and also now and then nervous system pains. It's exactly as you described it when the relation to pains changes. We, as an awareness, don't want to change anything, not even pain. Avoiding unpleasantness is something that avoids learning. And that's why this is a valuable message for everyone.
You are very brave! Your story proves that we can always find the silver lining even in the darkest clowds. This reminds me of the saying: 'Suffering comes from wanting and desiring things to be different from what they are'.- The Buddha. Also this saying- ' Happiness doesnt come from getting what you want: Happiness comes from making the most out what you get." Also: "Everything always happens for the best, when you make the effort to discover the best in everything that happens!" You are a very positive and wise non-dual voice!
Thank you so much! I have chronic illness - hashimotos, which is an autoimmune thyroid disease. When I had my awakening, the identity of a “sick person with an illness” and the obsession with healing and fixing it vanished completely, but I am still sometimes experiencing flare ups, of fatigue and body/nerve pain etc and depressive thoughts, … my trigger is grains and stress. One thing I still struggle with is period pain, every month, and the attachment to not wanting this. I am a full time stay-at-home mother and so there’s still a story about not having the space/time to rest for the pain. This video is a wonderful recognition that this area of my life (menstruation) needs more love ❤
Please let me know your name love. Thanks for sharing, this sounds so challenging. Awakening is a beautiful gift for how our identity around illness is. Loosing this identity was very helpful, though I do sometimes have thoughts about unfairness. Always room to recondition the mind and reactivity to what is. So much care and love for you!! Wishing to know your name; even though wandering moon is a great one! 🥰
@@VioletSynergy my name is Nina, and I’m sending you a big hug all the way from New Zealand! 😍yes the unfairness story. I get that too, and the pain every month feels very generational, like the pain of all the women that have ever experienced this pain. The unfairness of being born a woman. Like it’s not just my pain, but the pain of all the bleeding and the childbirth and the silence around this; of having to get up, swallow it and keep going. Each month I process this enormous pain. I am ready to integrate this and open to it ❤️
This was really helpful to see how you're coping, Violet - thank you. I see the lessons you've learned and all the resources that others have mentioned. So, so helpful. I'm a really positive, healthy, pain-free person, but when I had the nerve pain of dry socket, it was the one time I considered suicide, so I do think often - what would I do if that were chronic? Very comforting to see that the common thoughts which naturally arise - seem to be the same whether one is awakened or not. Thanks again for continually remaining so very down-to-earth in what you share. Big hugs - ❤
Big hugs I am so glad what I’m truly trying to share transmits. It’s that no matter awakened or liberated or not thought can still have many appearances. This is so important
dear Violet, and anyone else who may be suffering a chronic illness, I hope you read this. I've had chronic issues for 10 years and went through lots of doctors and diagnoses. In the end I found something that really helped, it's the Medical Medium health books, by Anthony William. This is a spiritual system for curing chronic illness, and it's for real. I know this sounds like a commercial or something, but it helped me and I really want anyone who reads this to get help too. God bless.
Hey Violet it seems we share the same or similar condition. In regards to your beef sensitivity... many of us with this condition have co-morbid MCAS mast cell sensitivity. If you have aged beef it will stimulate and trigger the central nervous system sensitivity. This is due to the histamine being released from the aged beef. Hope this helps. Great shared vulnerabilty from you courageous one. Blessings your way.
Thank you for sharing and being vaunrable enough to share something that you have struggled with for a decade 🙏💚🤲 It was interesting to hear your self introspection on it. Two things stuck out for me , how the thoughts create a narrative around it " rather stay and rest " " drink coffee" and the other thing was about honouring what is taking place in that moment. Have you ever checked on the internet the spiritual symbolic meaning of seeing a dragon fly? All the best on your journey 🙏💚👁🤲 Along the process I've had to remind myself I'm not immune to anything and this is an organism interacting in a real environment even if the conceptual narrative is dropped.
Thank you for sharing all that Violet. I'm sure it will be helpful to many. Has any Doc thought you might have Rheumatoid Arthritis? That's what it sounds like to me because I seem to have had all those same symptoms. I say had because for the last six months I underwent infusions of Rituxin and the first infusion took me out of that awful pain. I also have CLL and the one drug works for both things. I too thought to share my experience because in the middle of all the pain, fatigue and side effects of the illness and the infusions, I'm having Kundalini awakenings. Lol who knew! I would not have thought awakening would be possible in the presence of not only chronic illness but in the midst of chemo as well. I'm not in resistance to any of it simply because I have learned to embrace "what is". But frankly I'm surprised! Which just goes to show, nothing can or will stop the progression of the absolute. Thank you again for sharing so openly and with vulnerability. ❤️😘
Kim, thank you for writing me! I agree with what you said completely. Isn’t it fascinating that when you have something so physically challenging it’s only fair to have conditioned mind response, that in some for or another “I can’t wake up or know truth or non suffering” or some form of that belief. And yet, our true nature doesn’t discriminate with any condition good or bad. That is the magic of what we actually are. That’s why I am here. :) I’ve been checked for RA, inconclusive at the moment. I have swim coach who has RA and we have so many similarities. It’s beautiful she’s the one helping guide this body through movement in water, which apart from dancing doesn’t hurt or offset the nervous system. Also yes this has led me to many versions of kundalini energy shifts, which I am eternally grateful for. Much love Kim, stay in touch. I am glad you are oriented toward truth, that’s all that matters if anything at all.
Thank you so much for your response and love. ❤️ And Violet, I have to thank you for something else. On a video with Angelo, you spoke about how intuition plays such a big part in all of this. And it must have been something in what you said that triggered a deeper "understanding" for me of what intuition is and since then, wow! I have become super aware of how everything is connected! I always knew it was, but with my mind, and now that has deepened. So thank you Sweetheart!
Similar to you, I have been experimenting with not reacting to pain. I had a stomach bug the other day and the continuous cramps were really intense. I just decided to stop resisting the pain and i was amazed by the difference it made. I did the same thing with being outside in the cold. I was trembling from just being so stiff against the cold. I then accepted the cold and my body relaxed. My shivering was resistance, not the natural reflex of prolonged cold exposure.
Have you heard of Scott Kiloby's work with chronic pain/illness? He is a non-duality teacher who fully recovered from severe chronic nerve pain using his own form of self-inquiry. I have been using it for my own chronic back pain and am seeing results.
@@VioletSynergy Have you heard of Dr. John Sarno and his books? And Alan Gordon, PHD. I have had Fibro and CFS for 6 years but have gone from very severed to almost recovered. Many people fully recover with the right mind-body work. For me tons of emotional work and something called the Three Principles' understanding has been key. Learning not to think about the symptoms is one of the keys! Scott Kiloby's membership for emotional repression (especially anger) has been key too.
Hi, Violet, Thank you for sharing this window into your experience and your process. Like everything real and vulnerable and open, it is valuable and feels like a transmission. Naturally, I feel compassion, love, and gratitude. Thank you. And blessings on your body and your being, however this plays out from here… 🙏💜💥🫥🦋
Such beautiful vulnerable sharing showing the strength and clarity of honouring what is present. Nurturing and compassionate. So helpful. Much love to you. Emily 💗💗💗
Thank you for sharing. Its so great to hear some one talk about dealing with chronic illness in conjunction with realisation. I have ME which I have had for 10 years. I have good and bad days but my mind has such resistant to the pain and exhaustion that comes with the condition when its bad. I know that the only way to truly be with it is to be able to welcome it and experience it fully but the habits of distracting myself and resistanting it is still very strong.
The part about being frustrated that you couldn't do the same things as your peers or even people much older, I felt that so deeply. I can do a lot more things than I used to too but definitely can't handle too much for too long before I have to slow down again. Thank you again for sharing this and putting it in such the perfect way.
Violet. I am experiencing the same pain and suffering for three years. Countless doctors, no answers , extreme fatigue, pain, can’t read anymore. Driving is difficult.
I don’t even know if I am awake because the pull to the body is so strong.
It’s physically exhausting to move this body about.
Although I am more at peace then ever.
I would love to chat with you about this. No one else understands.
Thanks for sharing your story. Perfect timing for me to watch. 💛
Hi Dana, I’d love to chat with you.
I've been experiencing these same things. Interesting.
I was born with spinach bifida. I grew up in extreme trauma and drama. My family denied my illness and no one talked about it. I had many procedures and hospitalizations and no one ever told me why. I just thought I was broken and it is full of so much shame.I was eventually diagnosed with Epstein-Barr, mold, Nervous system dysregulation, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, etc. etc. etc. All of this went pretty much untreated for years. This just added to all the shame and self hatred. I felt defective. I did my best to cover it all up. I used many dysfunctional tools to push through it all and keep going. I used drugs, (both legal and illegal) alcohol and anything else I could find to disassociate and keep going. Push push push.
I eventually developed stage four breast cancer which I have lived with for the last 15 years. It has brought me to my knees so many times. I am in the darkness once again right now. I’m losing the energy to push anymore.Acceptance is so very hard for me. I know in my heart I need to quit pushing and just be with what but that is definitely not my default setting. I feel like I’ve spent the last three years crying lifetimes full of tears. There’s so much grief and sadness. It feels neverending. Then I go outside and go for a walk in the snow with my dog Desi and I’m filled with awe at of the beauty of it all and cry more tears. 🤷🏼♀️I don’t understand life at all.Thank you so much for sharing this.❤
Sending you love Lisa, sorry it’s been such a challenge for you.
❤💪
thanks....as a migraineur I appreciate this.
Thanks for sharing this. It's not easy not to avoid strong physical pain but it's good that we have examples that it's possible. I have had rheumatic pains and also now and then nervous system pains. It's exactly as you described it when the relation to pains changes. We, as an awareness, don't want to change anything, not even pain.
Avoiding unpleasantness is something that avoids learning. And that's why this is a valuable message for everyone.
You are very brave! Your story proves that we can always find the silver lining even in the darkest clowds. This reminds me of the saying: 'Suffering comes from wanting and desiring things to be different from what they are'.- The Buddha. Also this saying- ' Happiness doesnt come from getting what you want: Happiness comes from making the most out what you get." Also: "Everything always happens for the best, when you make the effort to discover the best in everything that happens!" You are a very positive and wise non-dual voice!
Thank you so much! I have chronic illness - hashimotos, which is an autoimmune thyroid disease. When I had my awakening, the identity of a “sick person with an illness” and the obsession with healing and fixing it vanished completely, but I am still sometimes experiencing flare ups, of fatigue and body/nerve pain etc and depressive thoughts, … my trigger is grains and stress. One thing I still struggle with is period pain, every month, and the attachment to not wanting this. I am a full time stay-at-home mother and so there’s still a story about not having the space/time to rest for the pain. This video is a wonderful recognition that this area of my life (menstruation) needs more love ❤
Please let me know your name love. Thanks for sharing, this sounds so challenging. Awakening is a beautiful gift for how our identity around illness is. Loosing this identity was very helpful, though I do sometimes have thoughts about unfairness. Always room to recondition the mind and reactivity to what is. So much care and love for you!! Wishing to know your name; even though wandering moon is a great one! 🥰
@@VioletSynergy my name is Nina, and I’m sending you a big hug all the way from New Zealand! 😍yes the unfairness story. I get that too, and the pain every month feels very generational, like the pain of all the women that have ever experienced this pain. The unfairness of being born a woman. Like it’s not just my pain, but the pain of all the bleeding and the childbirth and the silence around this; of having to get up, swallow it and keep going. Each month I process this enormous pain. I am ready to integrate this and open to it ❤️
@@wanderingmoon1383 beautiful Nina. Thanks for being on this journey of integrating:)
This was really helpful to see how you're coping, Violet - thank you. I see the lessons you've learned and all the resources that others have mentioned. So, so helpful. I'm a really positive, healthy, pain-free person, but when I had the nerve pain of dry socket, it was the one time I considered suicide, so I do think often - what would I do if that were chronic? Very comforting to see that the common thoughts which naturally arise - seem to be the same whether one is awakened or not. Thanks again for continually remaining so very down-to-earth in what you share. Big hugs - ❤
Big hugs I am so glad what I’m truly trying to share transmits. It’s that no matter awakened or liberated or not thought can still have many appearances. This is so important
dear Violet, and anyone else who may be suffering a chronic illness, I hope you read this. I've had chronic issues for 10 years and went through lots of doctors and diagnoses. In the end I found something that really helped, it's the Medical Medium health books, by Anthony William. This is a spiritual system for curing chronic illness, and it's for real. I know this sounds like a commercial or something, but it helped me and I really want anyone who reads this to get help too. God bless.
💜💜💜Thank you for the sharing this! I can relate so much to the struggle, anger and frustration that you use to have. 💜💜💜
Hey Violet it seems we share the same or similar condition. In regards to your beef sensitivity... many of us with this condition have co-morbid MCAS mast cell sensitivity. If you have aged beef it will stimulate and trigger the central nervous system sensitivity. This is due to the histamine being released from the aged beef. Hope this helps. Great shared vulnerabilty from you courageous one. Blessings your way.
Thanks Linda. Yes I’m aware of this with beef :)
Thank you for sharing and being vaunrable enough to share something that you have struggled with for a decade
🙏💚🤲
It was interesting to hear your self introspection on it.
Two things stuck out for me , how the thoughts create a narrative around it
" rather stay and rest " " drink coffee" and the other thing was about honouring what is taking place in that moment.
Have you ever checked on the internet the spiritual symbolic meaning of seeing a dragon fly?
All the best on your journey 🙏💚👁🤲
Along the process I've had to remind myself I'm not immune to anything and this is an organism interacting in a real environment even if the conceptual narrative is dropped.
Love the dragonfly symbol:) makes total sense for what was happening
@@VioletSynergy I'm glad you are ok and safe🙏
Thank you for sharing all that Violet. I'm sure it will be helpful to many. Has any Doc thought you might have Rheumatoid Arthritis? That's what it sounds like to me because I seem to have had all those same symptoms. I say had because for the last six months I underwent infusions of Rituxin and the first infusion took me out of that awful pain. I also have CLL and the one drug works for both things.
I too thought to share my experience because in the middle of all the pain, fatigue and side effects of the illness and the infusions, I'm having Kundalini awakenings. Lol who knew! I would not have thought awakening would be possible in the presence of not only chronic illness but in the midst of chemo as well. I'm not in resistance to any of it simply because I have learned to embrace "what is". But frankly I'm surprised! Which just goes to show, nothing can or will stop the progression of the absolute.
Thank you again for sharing so openly and with vulnerability. ❤️😘
Kim, thank you for writing me! I agree with what you said completely. Isn’t it fascinating that when you have something so physically challenging it’s only fair to have conditioned mind response, that in some for or another “I can’t wake up or know truth or non suffering” or some form of that belief. And yet, our true nature doesn’t discriminate with any condition good or bad. That is the magic of what we actually are. That’s why I am here. :)
I’ve been checked for RA, inconclusive at the moment. I have swim coach who has RA and we have so many similarities. It’s beautiful she’s the one helping guide this body through movement in water, which apart from dancing doesn’t hurt or offset the nervous system.
Also yes this has led me to many versions of kundalini energy shifts, which I am eternally grateful for.
Much love Kim, stay in touch. I am glad you are oriented toward truth, that’s all that matters if anything at all.
Thank you so much for your response and love. ❤️ And Violet, I have to thank you for something else. On a video with Angelo, you spoke about how intuition plays such a big part in all of this. And it must have been something in what you said that triggered a deeper "understanding" for me of what intuition is and since then, wow! I have become super aware of how everything is connected! I always knew it was, but with my mind, and now that has deepened. So thank you Sweetheart!
I love how gentle you are with yourself. 💜
Similar to you, I have been experimenting with not reacting to pain. I had a stomach bug the other day and the continuous cramps were really intense. I just decided to stop resisting the pain and i was amazed by the difference it made. I did the same thing with being outside in the cold. I was trembling from just being so stiff against the cold. I then accepted the cold and my body relaxed. My shivering was resistance, not the natural reflex of prolonged cold exposure.
Have you heard of Scott Kiloby's work with chronic pain/illness? He is a non-duality teacher who fully recovered from severe chronic nerve pain using his own form of self-inquiry. I have been using it for my own chronic back pain and am seeing results.
Hi Thomas. Yes I’ve herd of Scott. I use some of his techniques :) very valuable
@@VioletSynergy Have you heard of Dr. John Sarno and his books? And Alan Gordon, PHD. I have had Fibro and CFS for 6 years but have gone from very severed to almost recovered. Many people fully recover with the right mind-body work. For me tons of emotional work and something called the Three Principles' understanding has been key. Learning not to think about the symptoms is one of the keys! Scott Kiloby's membership for emotional repression (especially anger) has been key too.
@@evelinel.9827 thanks for sharing I’ll check it out. Good to know your getting better.
Hi, Violet,
Thank you for sharing this window into your experience and your process. Like everything real and vulnerable and open, it is valuable and feels like a transmission.
Naturally, I feel compassion, love, and gratitude.
Thank you. And blessings on your body and your being, however this plays out from here…
🙏💜💥🫥🦋
“The body’s natural inclination is to stop…”
Yes!
🙏💜🫥🛌