I used to wear my rollers while driving to work and would pull them out going through a tunnel and always felt I emerged transformed out the other end! 😂
Let me say I feel your story. No matter what we go through, no matter how long ago, we still carry the sadness to some degree, of what should have, could have been. I will be 57 this Friday, I was divorced 23 plus years ago, and I was left with a brand new home, mortgage and a 3 year old son, who is my life. I am a fighter, I am a Winner..I’m still in my home we built, and I am self supportive, God is in control…😊
I suffered with Endometriosis for YEARS until I finally entered menopause. I had laser surgery (laparoscopy) twice as treatment (not a cure for others dealing with it) which gave some relief but it was completely DEBILITATING, and as I later found out, resulted in my Infertility of which I was unaware for YEARS because no one told me!! I so understand what you’ve been through, dear Nikol, and you were SO right to take back Agency over your Life!! We should all share our HARD WON experiences as Women to help each other as much as possible because as you said all too often NO ONE CARES and it’s a Lonely journey!! ❤️❤️🌹
Ditto, mine stopped at 50 was my last menstrual however, now dealing with menopause for the last 13 years, trying to see if I can get on some HRT‘s here in Florida. It’s hard to find a good doctor.
Oh, Nikol… I feel you. I was 44 and EVERY doctor told me my menopause was in my head. I’m a nurse, and IVF is a cash business that devastates families. I finally found a wonderful doctor (I’m in Cleveland) who listened. You are dead on. You are your best advocate! 💝
Nikol, “I’m gonna make it Work” is SO indicative of your Philosophy, which is so inspiring because on the surface your life can look unattainably PERFECT but you are incredibly BRAVE about sharing the very real Challenges you deal with! Than you for being YOU! ❤️❤️💕🌹
It is a Tremendous help to us all because we al too often feel we’re the ONLY one grappling with issues as Women which can feel so isolating. And as you say the medical “ industry” all too often MARGINALIZES us in a kind of gaslighting, and sharing is KEY to keeping us a Community! We have a Voice and we have Buying Power that together as Women make us a Force and YOU are definitely a FORCE, Hon!! ❤️❤️💕🌹
I like these vlogs so much, its like sitting with you cosy and just chatting away ! I had endometriosis also, I am 70 now but can still feel it some days, but nothing to compared to what it was. I luckily could conceive one daughter, that I am very proud of, but she has endometriosis also, but treated now. You are so right to say that no one else but you can feel what is going on.
I too suffered with debilitating cramps when I was a teenager and throughout. Then endometriosis in my 30s. So many treatments and surgeries. I finally convinced my GYN to do a hysterectomy at 45! Best thing ever!
Another beautiful Vlog, Nikol. You took us on a little journey behind the scenes. So fun and educational. ❤ As a licensed esthetician, I took note that you mentioned to your viewers NOT to touch the dropper to ones fingers or face. Influencers are doing this ALL OF THE TIME, and it just makes me nuts. Bravo from one esthetician to another.
Nikol listening to your story reminded me of my youngest daughter. She suffered from endometriosis from a young age. Had treatments in her late teens. She was able to get pregnant twice finally and have two handsome grandsons without ibf. Finally had the surgery in her 40's and went into early menopause. She is fine today. Many years in pain though. Love the photo shoot! 🙂♥️
God allows trials so that we ultimately can help others. You are a strong, intelligent woman and you are helping other women both in IVF issues and inspiring the rest of us to be our best selves no matter what we go through! I so enjoy your posts and videos! Don’t ever stop. I know I will continually to watch. God bless you now & always!
Thank you I agree God did put the IVF in our lives to grow, become stronger, inspire other women through my journey, and become closer to God through this struggle.
I so loved this VLOG. So raw, so angry when speaking of the IVF and the medical establishment. I love how honest and just the contained fury. I love that you took your power and so unapologetically. I just loved the honesty and it mirrors how I feel sometimes. Thank you for sharing with us.
I did 15 IVF treatments. Part of my soul is still at that bloody clinic. That experience gave me some insight into sheep being lined up for drenching. A tad more empthy from the staff would go a long way. I
So sorry you have had such traumatic experiences with IVF and endometrial issues. You are a strong woman and inspirational to any woman going through similar problems right now. Keep up the good work through your TH-cam channels
I completely understand your Endo struggles. I was put on BC at 16 & had my first laparoscopy when I was 18. I went on to try Danocrine & Depo-provera & Depo-Lipton shots durn my college years. I also had a total of 6 or 7 surgeries for Endo including a presacral-neuroectomy, a hysterectomy at 32 & finally an excision surgery (10 yrs AFTER the hysterectomy) of the Endo which I believe has FINALLY gotten rid of it (for the most part.) I did one cycle of IVF & was extremely blessed with b/g twins. (My husband had issues with his sperm court too, so double whammy.) They were the only 2 viable eggs we had so it was truly a miracle in my book! They are 22 yrs old now! (I’m 50.) I wouldn’t wish the pain or mental & emotional anguish of endometriosis on anyone. I was so fortunate to have a mother who believed me & a Dr who properly diagnosed & treated me at such an early age. You’re an inspiration to women of all ages & I love your makeup! I’m so happy for you that you’ve found peace after so many years of suffering from such a truly debilitating condition.
I really appreciate your concern for not being overwhelmed with newsletters. I get so annoyed. I know I need to do that myself one day for all my " spoonies".
I feel you! I had the same period journey & endometriosis as you from age 12 on only got worse and I finally had an ablation and it saved my quality of life.
Except for IVF, your story is my story. I finally had surgery for endometriosis and it was a relief! I’m so sorry you had to go through all of that! I’m happy you stood up for yourself and for what you wanted for your health.
I am SO LOVING your vlogs! Thank you for your authenticity, sharing your raw bits and fabulous-ness!! I look forward to watching you every week and literally was sad when you said "I'm going to end the vlog here"! Love tuning in! Thank you, Nikol! ❤
❤ First off, sending you a huge hug, and huge amounts of respect for you sharing parts of your life that include being vulnerable. It’s so loving to think of others, even during your own struggles, and desiring to help them by sharing the details - even the bad side of it all. I don’t think you realize how courageous and rare it is to find someone who not only shares what they’ve gone through, but someone who genuinely desires to help others. Also, standing up for yourself was also huge! It’s so easy to succomb to the thinking that medical professionals know it all… and “know” you as well. It’s a sad truth of what the medical system has become. I have my own experiences of disappointing and life changing consequences I’m still trying to figure out for believing they had my best interest at heart. Also, just to note, my periods got super bad and heavy just before hitting the “sporadic” phase of super light ones and then finally menopause. Great fun! 😬 Love your video. You’re so good at editing your footage Nikol! I was curious about the daily devotional guide so I looked it up lol looked really great, so I ordered one on Amazon. ❤ Fun to see the background of your photoshoots. We never know the tricks and techniques that are involved to get that finished, polished pic! It is work! I only ever helped with dog photo shoots, hours fly by and you are exhausted afterwards. Glad to see you had such a fantastic day on the fourth. Being totally mellow in the midst of busy weeks is totally heaven! Thanks again for sharing such a great blog Nikol! 😊
Hey, Nikol. I had the same kind of periods that you had my whole life (I'm 68 now, complete hysterectomy at 45,) and nobody knew what to do for me. Started having a period every week. Dr. said my uterus was full of polyps when he took it out. I am so glad that young women can benefit from what we endured without any help! Love and comfort to you. Love, Lili
Thank you for taking me along today. I'm 75 but I've gone through it all. I had to ask a lot of questions to get answers, I think I made some angry, but I made up my mind..I'm glad I did..
I am 55 and was having regular very heavy periods which had taken over my life. Sometimes I would only get two weeks between periods. I would be at work bleeding through everything. It was truely horrible. Almost 4 months ago I had an endometrial ablation and my tubes tied as I had a miscarriage in November, yes crazy at 55, and it was the best thing I have ever done. They tied my tubes cause if you get pregnant after an ablation it can be life threatening. I barely had any bleeding post procedure and have had no bleeding since. I am so happy I had it done. My life is so much better. Not sure if it’s an option with endometriosis but might be worth looking into. I feel for you🌸
I’m 65 and this triggered lots of memories of infertility. You are so right about being your own advocate. I had 9 miscarriages and it was always said it was a mystery as to why. I did have a son and am blessed. I wish you much happiness and health.
I wasn’t diagnosed with endometriosis in my late 30s. I had 7 miscarriages and they never even gave me the option for laparoscopic. If it weren’t for my plastic surgeon who was amazing, she had me get a full check up before my breast reduction and they found out I had endo. I had a hysterectomy 8 years ago and it was life changing. Thank you for sharing Nikol. We are our own advocates and need to educate ourselves!!!
I read that book, by Taylor Reid. Really enjoyed it. Hope you do too! I went through the struggle of IVF. It’s heartbreaking and I just stopped also. We made the choice to adopt and am thankful for my beautiful son. Unfortunately he died at 28 of cancer but am grateful I had those 28 years. You are inspiring and may God continue to watch over you.
Oh ! I felt so much empathy with you , for all you’ve endured. You’re strong I admire you 100% . I look forward to your vblog , please keep them coming.
Another wonderful day, whether you're feeling your best or not, and you rose above and made it a productive day and some nice recharging time a few days later!! Enjoying these more personal insights you're graciously sharing with us!
Love ur vlogs. I'm sitting watching u in my velcros. Ur IVF story really moved me. Ur an amazing woman and ur right we need to b our own advocate. Look after yourself ❤
I'm so sorry that you have had all this trouble with fertility. It's a sad story for some of us that's for sure. As you say, God leads the way and some things are meant to be. Thanks for telling us. ❤
I had endometriosis and had no clue what it actually was or how painful it would get. I had laser surgery which turned out to be totally ineffective. After months of continuing pain I finally found a doctor who told me that only a total hysterectomy would help. He told me afterwards that the endometriosis was so bad that he was surprised that I had no trouble with my pregnancies! I have an 8 inch scar now but it was the best thing I have ever done and the only thing that helped me. I hope you get better and find something that works for you! Much love!
Nikol, I love watching your vlogs. I think you have such a positive attitude even thou life doesn't always go smoothly. I also love your style in clothing. You are very classy and sophisticated.
Delightful, Nikol. So intimate and relaxing, the way you show everything, and are so forthright and real as you do it. Thank you, thank you, for these in-the-moment vlogs. 👏🏽👏🏽💋✨🍓💖
Our 3 daughters know all about ENDO. It's wonderful for us to hear God about matters in your life. All women need to follow you and get the best tips in life because your expertise is so valuable. God Bless
I am sorry to hear about the horrible pain you have suffered. It is generous of you to share what you have been through with others. I am 72 and going through back issues. I almost had major surgery, but it was stopped in a pre op due to another issue. Subsequently, got three more opinions all stating that surgery would not solve my problem. For the last three years, I have been in severe pain and now use a roller to walk. I can walk and swim in my pool with minimum pain. However, I miss traveling, walking, the beach etc. I am glad I got several opinions. I am headed for another procedure and am hopeful. Your advice is so important. Do your research. Thanks for your vlogs. Also, I love your pups!
Nikol You will feel so much better when your post menopause! The few years leading up to it is just plain rough, but hang in there, us post. Menopause girls are walking with you!❤
I understand all about your pain and struggles. I also had endometriosis for years. Suffered from spasms when ovulation because my ovary was attached to the outside of my uterus. Then I had a cyst on my ovary and my NEW FEMALE gyno dr who really listened to me and was going to remove the cyst and possibly yhe ovary thru laproscopy. Well she wouldn't find my ovaries and could only see a nickel size area of my uterus. Surgery ended and had to schedule me for a complete hysterectomy including my ovaries. My insides were a mess withe endo tissue even on my colon, bowels, etc. My Dr. Said I really made her work for her money, I was a real mess, lol. Felt like a new Woman after healing from this surgery. Yes, you really have to be your own advocate and find another Dr if they don't listen to you.
Wow, that's incredible. I'm glad you found a doctor who listened. My surgeon was surprised by how long the procedure took. It should have been under an hour, but it was more like three hours.
It's a shame what Women have to go through with Dr's not listening. Thank goodness I found a fabulous Gyno Dr and also a wonderful Female PCP Dr. She takes her time with me, really listens to me and doesn't rush me out the door. We know our bodies better than anyone and must remember that we can always fire the Dr and go to another that will listen and take us seriously when we know we have a problem. Wishing you the best of health!
Loving your vlogs thank you for sharing your life with us, so interesting and inspiring. Looking forward to when you sell your makeup range to the UK market, can’t wait to purchase your line, it looks amazing xx
You are such a strong, powerful, heartfelt women whom I admire so much!!! I am so sorry for what you went through with IVF. I can't even imagine what a painful process that was. You are supporting soooo many women, Thank You!!!
The vlogging is like having you at my table with coffee. I think it took me 20 years to get all that crap out of the way. My last period was the most normal one I had in 5 or 6 years. Now my daughter is entering that arena. I hate that she has to go through all that crap. Keep on vlogging. It's great!
Awww Nikol, I really feel for you for your IVF, it sounds like you had a terrible experience, I hate how people make money out of people's misery. Thank you for yet another vlog I enjoyed it yet again, thank you for taking the time to share your week with us, and I'm glad you had a nice 4th July xx Greetings from the UK xx
Nikol I am loving your vlogs…I feel like we are only getting closer to you through these..so interesting to see your days…thank you for sharing your journey on IVF and your endometriosis, no doubt you have helped many women…my two DIL’s did IVF….one because they lost their first son to a rare genetic disease at 22 months old…because of that factor, IVF is free to them…they conceived naturally having two daughters..it truly is in Gods hands…life is tough, life can really suck at times, all we can do is stay strong and lean on the Lord…I remember I was your age going through perimenopause, I found that the most difficult part of menopause…I will lift you up in prayer, everyday, my friend.. God has certainly blessed you in many ways,but, it doesn’t always take the pain away from all you went through.. ..I understand…losing my grandson was the most difficult thing I ever had to go through, yes, I have 5 other healthy grandchildren, but, it does not erase the pain of losing one of them…you are a gift from God, Nikol, in my opinion!…watching you work and the outfits you put together was so satisfying and enjoyable…I hope you feel yourself soon!…much love and appreciation for you, always!💜🙏
Thank you for sharing. I'm so proud of you too, that you do all of your own marketing/materials. You should be so proud of yourself. I've worked in PR and Marketing for many years, and I know how hard it can be to get that right. So Kudos to you. Your work looks very nice!
You are so down to earth and real, which I really appreciate. We all have our stories and by you sharing some of yours, I can relate with you and I'm sure many other woman do too. Your sense of humour at times, ie drivers on their phones who would never see your rollers etc. Had a good chuckle 😂 Love these Vlogs 🌟
Oh Nikol….i can’t express how much I’m enjoying these vlogs ❤ you work so extremely hard I would so love to support you!!! Please look into shipping to Australia 🇦🇺. I tried to order as I did receive the newsletter but after I made my choice realised it wasn’t possible. My heart goes out to you, please know after all this grief and pain you are dealing with at the moment, it will settle and the freedom you will finally have ..Is like a new lease on life.. ❤ Hang in there a little longer…you’ve got this 🌸💐🩷🇦🇺
❤ I have to believe that God is holding you in the Palm of His hand. Praying that health issues will subside, for both of us. Stay strong, and I will too.🙏 xxx❤
I had endometriosis…the pain is unbearable! Don’t know how you suffered with this for so many years…..I was one stage from cancer..the black stage is what they called it…I hope they are keeping a good eye on you….blessings..Will pray for you Nikol….💜❤️💜
I am so sorry for you... my friend has endometriosis and I honestly didn't know how she coped with it. Doctors are astounding.... the greed rather than lets actually help the patient.. Anyway loving the vlogs you look so stunning even tho' you were tired enjoy your relaxation time. Your an inspiration🥰
Another awesome vlog I really like these. I’m finding out as I get older you have to fight for yourself because no one else will, thank goodness we have God on our side and with us. Thank you for taking us along on your photo shoot that was so cool, going to the beach, and making dinner. Love your all of your videos and now enjoying the vlogs.
I'm so sorry you were lied to about the laparoscopy surgeries. I had 2 surgeries, one in 1992 and one in 1993 to get rid of mine. My doctor told me I would never get pregnant with it which is why I had it removed and than my Dr put me in artificial menopause for 6 months to stop my periods and the endometriosis from coming back. It was a rough ride for 4 years and something I will never forget. I support women who have gone through this.
I kept a Velcro roller in my hair when on my way to an appointment. Unfortunately, I forgot to remove it and was so embarrassed that the polite receptionist, staring at my forehead, never mentioned it.
Nicole, I have to tell you that I admire how strong you are. You inspire me to always try to look my best in spite of how I feel. I am going through a rough patch. I have a first rheumatology visit this month, and I really need answers as to what I have and how to deal with this type of pain and weakness that I am going through. Thank you for being YOU❤. I live in Florida too, but like 3-4 hours away from your studio. I already told my husband that I want to be able to see if i can make an appointment. My brother also said he would help to make that happen. But that will have to be when I start feeling stronger. Can't wait!!😂 Anyway, sending you a big hug and will pray that you start to feeling better soon. I don't know you in person, but please know that I care!❤❤❤
I love your vlogs and, today, sharing your excruciating medical past with us I again felt like I was there in your house as a friend. Your ability to weather all the storms in your life is a testament to your strength and flexibility. I’m 72 and consider you as a mentor to me for all things beauty but also for sharing your life and wisdom. I loved the contrast at the start of the vlog telling us of your horrific journey with endometriosis and IVF followed later by the hilarious combination of Carolina Herrera clothes and Velcro curlers while you drove to Miami makes you a superwoman in my book! You are the Real Deal ! Happy 4th 🎉
I love how you share not only the glam of your business but also the raw and real moments. Thank you😊
I used to wear my rollers while driving to work and would pull them out going through a tunnel and always felt I emerged transformed out the other end! 😂
Love that!! The Tunnel “Reveal” 😂😂❤️
Love it!
Let me say I feel your story. No matter what we go through, no matter how long ago, we still carry the sadness to some degree, of what should have, could have been. I will be 57 this Friday, I was divorced 23 plus years ago, and I was left with a brand new home, mortgage and a 3 year old son, who is my life. I am a fighter, I am a Winner..I’m still in my home we built, and I am self supportive, God is in control…😊
Thank you for sharing
I suffered with Endometriosis for YEARS until I finally entered menopause. I had laser surgery (laparoscopy) twice as treatment (not a cure for others dealing with it) which gave some relief but it was completely DEBILITATING, and as I later found out, resulted in my Infertility of which I was unaware for YEARS because no one told me!! I so understand what you’ve been through, dear Nikol, and you were SO right to take back Agency over your Life!! We should all share our HARD WON experiences as Women to help each other as much as possible because as you said all too often NO ONE CARES and it’s a Lonely journey!! ❤️❤️🌹
I totally agree I am sorry that you have had a hard time with endometriosis also it’s a big nightmare but happy you are though it now
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Ditto, mine stopped at 50 was my last menstrual however, now dealing with menopause for the last 13 years, trying to see if I can get on some HRT‘s here in Florida. It’s hard to find a good doctor.
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Beautiful, kind post.
Oh, Nikol… I feel you. I was 44 and EVERY doctor told me my menopause was in my head. I’m a nurse, and IVF is a cash business that devastates families. I finally found a wonderful doctor (I’m in Cleveland) who listened. You are dead on. You are your best advocate! 💝
totally agree! You MUST advocate for yourself.
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I am so loving Nikol the Vlogger it is like traveling along with you as you about your day and getting to discover more about you.
Thank you
You need a good Acupuncturist!!
Oh Nikol, listening to your story, you are my hero and you are beautiful and God did open so many windows for you. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
Yes, God did open up so many amazing windows for myself and my husband and we are truly blessed and thankful.
Nikol, “I’m gonna make it Work” is SO indicative of your Philosophy, which is so inspiring because on the surface your life can look unattainably PERFECT but you are incredibly BRAVE about sharing the very real Challenges you deal with! Than you for being YOU! ❤️❤️💕🌹
Thank you I feel it’s so important even though it’s hard for me to be vulnerable with such personal information. I know for helps other women
It is a Tremendous help to us all because we al too often feel we’re the ONLY one grappling with issues as Women which can feel so isolating. And as you say the medical “ industry” all too often MARGINALIZES us in a kind of gaslighting, and sharing is KEY to keeping us a Community! We have a Voice and we have Buying Power that together as Women make us a Force and YOU are definitely a FORCE, Hon!! ❤️❤️💕🌹
I enjoy all of your videos and vlogs. You are an inspiration for all women on so many levels. Thank you for being my inspiration!
Thank you
I like these vlogs so much, its like sitting with you cosy and just chatting away ! I had endometriosis also, I am 70 now but can still feel it some days, but nothing to compared to what it was. I luckily could conceive one daughter, that I am very proud of, but she has endometriosis also, but treated now. You are so right to say that no one else but you can feel what is going on.
Thanks for sharing your days with us! So refreshing to see real life happening!
Glad you enjoyed it!
I too suffered with debilitating cramps when I was a teenager and throughout. Then endometriosis in my 30s. So many treatments and surgeries. I finally convinced my GYN to do a hysterectomy at 45! Best thing ever!
I just LOVE your Weekly Blogs and look forward to “visiting” with you, Nikol, because that’s what you make it feel like!! Wonderful! ❤️❤️💕🌹
Yay! Thank you!
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❤ We have to be our own advocates for sure.
Another beautiful Vlog, Nikol. You took us on a little journey behind the scenes. So fun and educational. ❤
As a licensed esthetician, I took note that you mentioned to your viewers NOT to touch the dropper to ones fingers or face. Influencers are doing this ALL OF THE TIME, and it just makes me nuts. Bravo from one esthetician to another.
Yes!!!!!! So many “influencers” have no clue on skin care and hygiene 😘😘
@NikolJohnson It's frustrating and annoying and disappointing. 🤷🏻♀️
This is actually the first time I was actually sad that a vlog was over. I thoroughly enjoyed every second getting to know you. Thank you.
Thank you so much!!
Nikol listening to your story reminded me of my youngest daughter. She suffered from endometriosis from a young age. Had treatments in her late teens. She was able to get pregnant twice finally and have two handsome grandsons without ibf. Finally had the surgery in her 40's and went into early menopause. She is fine today. Many years in pain though. Love the photo shoot! 🙂♥️
God allows trials so that we ultimately can help others. You are a strong, intelligent woman and you are helping other women both in IVF issues and inspiring the rest of us to be our best selves no matter what we go through! I so enjoy your posts and videos! Don’t ever stop. I know I will continually to watch. God bless you now & always!
Thank you I agree God did put the IVF in our lives to grow, become stronger, inspire other women through my journey, and become closer to God through this struggle.
Absolutely, well said 💕
I so loved this VLOG. So raw, so angry when speaking of the IVF and the medical establishment. I love how honest and just the contained fury. I love that you took your power and so unapologetically. I just loved the honesty and it mirrors how I feel sometimes. Thank you for sharing with us.
I did 15 IVF treatments. Part of my soul is still at that bloody clinic. That experience gave me some insight into sheep being lined up for drenching. A tad more empthy from the staff would go a long way. I
So sorry you have had such traumatic experiences with IVF and endometrial issues. You are a strong woman and inspirational to any woman going through similar problems right now. Keep up the good work through your TH-cam channels
Thank you for talking about your experiences ❤
You are so welcome!
I completely understand your Endo struggles. I was put on BC at 16 & had my first laparoscopy when I was 18. I went on to try Danocrine & Depo-provera & Depo-Lipton shots durn my college years. I also had a total of 6 or 7 surgeries for Endo including a presacral-neuroectomy, a hysterectomy at 32 & finally an excision surgery (10 yrs AFTER the hysterectomy) of the Endo which I believe has FINALLY gotten rid of it (for the most part.)
I did one cycle of IVF & was extremely blessed with b/g twins. (My husband had issues with his sperm court too, so double whammy.) They were the only 2 viable eggs we had so it was truly a miracle in my book! They are 22 yrs old now! (I’m 50.)
I wouldn’t wish the pain or mental & emotional anguish of endometriosis on anyone. I was so fortunate to have a mother who believed me & a Dr who properly diagnosed & treated me at such an early age.
You’re an inspiration to women of all ages & I love your makeup! I’m so happy for you that you’ve found peace after so many years of suffering from such a truly debilitating condition.
That was depo- lupron not Lipton!
I really appreciate your concern for not being overwhelmed with newsletters. I get so annoyed. I know I need to do that myself one day for all my " spoonies".
I feel you! I had the same period journey & endometriosis as you from age 12 on only got worse and I finally had an ablation and it saved my quality of life.
Except for IVF, your story is my story. I finally had surgery for endometriosis and it was a relief! I’m so sorry you had to go through all of that! I’m happy you stood up for yourself and for what you wanted for your health.
I am SO LOVING your vlogs! Thank you for your authenticity, sharing your raw bits and fabulous-ness!! I look forward to watching you every week and literally was sad when you said "I'm going to end the vlog here"! Love tuning in! Thank you, Nikol! ❤
Thank you so much!!
❤ First off, sending you a huge hug, and huge amounts of respect for you sharing parts of your life that include being vulnerable. It’s so loving to think of others, even during your own struggles, and desiring to help them by sharing the details - even the bad side of it all. I don’t think you realize how courageous and rare it is to find someone who not only shares what they’ve gone through, but someone who genuinely desires to help others. Also, standing up for yourself was also huge! It’s so easy to succomb to the thinking that medical professionals know it all… and “know” you as well. It’s a sad truth of what the medical system has become. I have my own experiences of disappointing and life changing consequences I’m still trying to figure out for believing they had my best interest at heart. Also, just to note, my periods got super bad and heavy just before hitting the “sporadic” phase of super light ones and then finally menopause. Great fun! 😬
Love your video. You’re so good at editing your footage Nikol! I was curious about the daily devotional guide so I looked it up lol looked really great, so I ordered one on Amazon. ❤ Fun to see the background of your photoshoots. We never know the tricks and techniques that are involved to get that finished, polished pic! It is work! I only ever helped with dog photo shoots, hours fly by and you are exhausted afterwards. Glad to see you had such a fantastic day on the fourth. Being totally mellow in the midst of busy weeks is totally heaven! Thanks again for sharing such a great blog Nikol! 😊
Hey, Nikol. I had the same kind of periods that you had my whole life (I'm 68 now, complete hysterectomy at 45,) and nobody knew what to do for me. Started having a period every week. Dr. said my uterus was full of polyps when he took it out. I am so glad that young women can benefit from what we endured without any help! Love and comfort to you. Love, Lili
You inspire me on so many levels! This Summer I will be getting an asymmetrical bob haircut and letting my beautiful grays grow in!!!
I’m 61 & I have had to fight for everything of which you speak. You’re an inspiration keep up the phenomenal work! ❤️
Thank you for taking me along today. I'm 75 but I've gone through it all. I had to ask a lot of questions to get answers, I think I made some angry, but I made up my mind..I'm glad I did..
I am 55 and was having regular very heavy periods which had taken over my life. Sometimes I would only get two weeks between periods. I would be at work bleeding through everything. It was truely horrible. Almost 4 months ago I had an endometrial ablation and my tubes tied as I had a miscarriage in November, yes crazy at 55, and it was the best thing I have ever done. They tied my tubes cause if you get pregnant after an ablation it can be life threatening. I barely had any bleeding post procedure and have had no bleeding since. I am so happy I had it done. My life is so much better. Not sure if it’s an option with endometriosis but might be worth looking into. I feel for you🌸
I’m 65 and this triggered lots of memories of infertility. You are so right about being your own advocate. I had 9 miscarriages and it was always said it was a mystery as to why. I did have a son and am blessed. I wish you much happiness and health.
I love you Nikol! You keep things real. Not only for your informative talk, but for your kindness. You inspire me. Thank you!
I appreciate that!
I wasn’t diagnosed with endometriosis in my late 30s. I had 7 miscarriages and they never even gave me the option for laparoscopic. If it weren’t for my plastic surgeon who was amazing, she had me get a full check up before my breast reduction and they found out I had endo. I had a hysterectomy 8 years ago and it was life changing. Thank you for sharing Nikol. We are our own advocates and need to educate ourselves!!!
Thank you for sharing! My daughter has the same thing! I enjoy your vlogs so much! You are so right about advocating for yourself.
I read that book, by Taylor Reid. Really enjoyed it. Hope you do too! I went through the struggle of IVF. It’s heartbreaking and I just stopped also. We made the choice to adopt and am thankful for my beautiful son. Unfortunately he died at 28 of cancer but am grateful I had those 28 years. You are inspiring and may God continue to watch over you.
I am so sorry for your loss 🙏🏻
You are such an inspiration, Nikol. God bless you for who you are. ❤️🙏
I had a hysterectomy due to endometriosis! It took years to get a diagnosis and I was often treated as a hypochondriac!
I know how sad is that they don’t understand endometriosis so they act as if we are making it up.
Oh ! I felt so much empathy with you , for all you’ve endured. You’re strong I admire you 100% . I look forward to your vblog , please keep them coming.
Thank you so much!
Another wonderful day, whether you're feeling your best or not, and you rose above and made it a productive day and some nice recharging time a few days later!! Enjoying these more personal insights you're graciously sharing with us!
Love ur vlogs. I'm sitting watching u in my velcros. Ur IVF story really moved me. Ur an amazing woman and ur right we need to b our own advocate. Look after yourself ❤
Thank you for sharing your day with us!! We love everything Nikol!! Have a wonderful day!! ❤❤
Thank you! You too!
I'm so sorry that you have had all this trouble with fertility. It's a sad story for some of us that's for sure. As you say, God leads the way and some things are meant to be. Thanks for telling us. ❤
Thank you so much!
Very Southern with the rollers! 😁
lol I know
I liked your vlog 👏🏻and I wish you a great day 🌞
I had endometriosis and had no clue what it actually was or how painful it would get. I had laser surgery which turned out to be totally ineffective. After months of continuing pain I finally found a doctor who told me that only a total hysterectomy would help. He told me afterwards that the endometriosis was so bad that he was surprised that I had no trouble with my pregnancies! I have an 8 inch scar now but it was the best thing I have ever done and the only thing that helped me. I hope you get better and find something that works for you! Much love!
Nikol, I love watching your vlogs. I think you have such a positive attitude even thou life doesn't always go smoothly. I also love your style in clothing. You are very classy and sophisticated.
Delightful, Nikol. So intimate and relaxing, the way you show everything, and are so forthright and real as you do it. Thank you, thank you, for these in-the-moment vlogs. 👏🏽👏🏽💋✨🍓💖
Our 3 daughters know all about ENDO.
It's wonderful for us to hear God about matters in your life.
All women need to follow you and get the best tips in life because your expertise is so valuable.
God Bless
Enjoying the vlogs! Take us with you to the salon, that would be cool! So glad you had the surgery and got your life back on track!
I took you to the salon on my last vlog xoxo
@@NikolJohnson I get lots of notifications, guess I missed it. Will check it out. Happy Weekend!
I am sorry to hear about the horrible pain you have suffered. It is generous of you to share what you have been through with others. I am 72 and going through back issues. I almost had major surgery, but it was stopped in a pre op due to another issue. Subsequently, got three more opinions all stating that surgery would not solve my problem. For the last three years, I have been in severe pain and now use a roller to walk. I can walk and swim in my pool with minimum pain. However, I miss traveling, walking, the beach etc. I am glad I got several opinions. I am headed for another procedure and am hopeful. Your advice is so important. Do your research. Thanks for your vlogs. Also, I love your pups!
Sorry your going through rough time. Great watching you. x
Thank you for sharing your story and your day with all of us. ❤❤❤
I got how you’re feeling girl. You hang in there and I want to tell you you look awesome even without make up you are one classy dame lol.❤
Thank you so much!!
I am addicted to your weekly vlogs!!!! Dot
This is awesome! Love your tutorials, this makes you one of us! Love, love, love the live vlogs! Thank you for sharing you being you!❤️
You are so welcome!
Nikol
You will feel so much better when your post menopause! The few years leading up to it is just plain rough, but hang in there, us post. Menopause girls are walking with you!❤
Thank you
Can’t wait for the designer bags to launch!
They are coming soon! I can't wait!
I’m on the waiting list and can’t wait to get them 🤩
I understand all about your pain and struggles. I also had endometriosis for years. Suffered from spasms when ovulation because my ovary was attached to the outside of my uterus. Then I had a cyst on my ovary and my NEW FEMALE gyno dr who really listened to me and was going to remove the cyst and possibly yhe ovary thru laproscopy. Well she wouldn't find my ovaries and could only see a nickel size area of my uterus. Surgery ended and had to schedule me for a complete hysterectomy including my ovaries. My insides were a mess withe endo tissue even on my colon, bowels, etc. My Dr. Said I really made her work for her money, I was a real mess, lol. Felt like a new Woman after healing from this surgery. Yes, you really have to be your own advocate and find another Dr if they don't listen to you.
Wow, that's incredible. I'm glad you found a doctor who listened. My surgeon was surprised by how long the procedure took. It should have been under an hour, but it was more like three hours.
It's a shame what Women have to go through with Dr's not listening. Thank goodness I found a fabulous Gyno Dr and also a wonderful Female PCP Dr. She takes her time with me, really listens to me and doesn't rush me out the door. We know our bodies better than anyone and must remember that we can always fire the Dr and go to another that will listen and take us seriously when we know we have a problem. Wishing you the best of health!
Loving your vlogs thank you for sharing your life with us, so interesting and inspiring. Looking forward to when you sell your makeup range to the UK market, can’t wait to purchase your line, it looks amazing xx
Thank you so much!
I’m still using snd loving your eye makeup Primer!! ❤️
The makeup is wonderful, just about all I use now.
Yes,I can relate I'm 69, had a hysterectomy at 24! But on a happier note love your vlogs Nikol!
WOW lisa thats unbelievable! I am sorry you went through that at 24.
You are such a strong, powerful, heartfelt women whom I admire so much!!! I am so sorry for what you went through with IVF.
I can't even imagine what a painful process that was. You are supporting soooo many women, Thank You!!!
Thank you so much!
You are sooooo awesome!!! Things we all are or have been experiencing, you share with us!!!! Your Vlog format is wonderful!!!
Thank you so much!!
The vlogging is like having you at my table with coffee. I think it took me 20 years to get all that crap out of the way. My last period was the most normal one I had in 5 or 6 years. Now my daughter is entering that arena. I hate that she has to go through all that crap. Keep on vlogging. It's great!
Nikol, you are a beautiful woman. It brings tears to my eyes when you are so hard on yourself.
Awww Nikol, I really feel for you for your IVF, it sounds like you had a terrible experience, I hate how people make money out of people's misery.
Thank you for yet another vlog I enjoyed it yet again, thank you for taking the time to share your week with us, and I'm glad you had a nice 4th July xx
Greetings from the UK xx
I love these vlogs! I hope you feel better, and thank you so much for your time, and sharing!
Thank you so much!
Love that you are a woman of faith! Truly inspiring video, God bless you !
Thank you so much! 🙏🏻
Nikol, I'm so sorry about what you have gone through. Sending lots and lots of hugs!
LOVE these vlogs! Thank you so much for doing these.
Glad you like them!
Nikol, I am loving these vlogs so much! Thank you!
Glad you like them!
Nikol I am loving your vlogs…I feel like we are only getting closer to you through these..so interesting to see your days…thank you for sharing your journey on IVF and your endometriosis, no doubt you have helped many women…my two DIL’s did IVF….one because they lost their first son to a rare genetic disease at 22 months old…because of that factor, IVF is free to them…they conceived naturally having two daughters..it truly is in Gods hands…life is tough, life can really suck at times, all we can do is stay strong and lean on the Lord…I remember I was your age going through perimenopause, I found that the most difficult part of menopause…I will lift you up in prayer, everyday, my friend.. God has certainly blessed you in many ways,but, it doesn’t always take the pain away from all you went through.. ..I understand…losing my grandson was the most difficult thing I ever had to go through, yes, I have 5 other healthy grandchildren, but, it does not erase the pain of losing one of them…you are a gift from God, Nikol, in my opinion!…watching you work and the outfits you put together was so satisfying and enjoyable…I hope you feel yourself soon!…much love and appreciation for you, always!💜🙏
I loved your blog. You are so honest, and you're not out there to please everyone. You do what is good for you. Awesome Thank you
Thank you for sharing. I'm so proud of you too, that you do all of your own marketing/materials. You should be so proud of yourself. I've worked in PR and Marketing for many years, and I know how hard it can be to get that right. So Kudos to you. Your work looks very nice!
Thank you so much!
👏👏👏👏👏FOREVER NIKOL!!!!! NIKOL FOREVER!!!!! 💪💪💪💪💪😍😍😍😍😍😘😘😘😘😘
You are so down to earth and real, which I really appreciate. We all have our stories and by you sharing some of yours, I can relate with you and I'm sure many other woman do too. Your sense of humour at times, ie drivers on their phones who would never see your rollers etc. Had a good chuckle 😂 Love these Vlogs 🌟
Loving the vlogs! Be Blessed
Oh Nikol….i can’t express how much I’m enjoying these vlogs ❤ you work so extremely hard I would so love to support you!!! Please look into shipping to Australia 🇦🇺. I tried to order as I did receive the newsletter but after I made my choice realised it wasn’t possible.
My heart goes out to you, please know after all this grief and pain you are dealing with at the moment, it will settle and the freedom you will finally have ..Is like a new lease on life.. ❤
Hang in there a little longer…you’ve got this 🌸💐🩷🇦🇺
Thank you I am working on our international shipping!!!! It’s just taking longer than expected
❤ I have to believe that God is holding you in the Palm of His hand. Praying that health issues will subside, for both of us. Stay strong, and I will too.🙏 xxx❤
I had endometriosis…the pain is unbearable! Don’t know how you suffered with this for so many years…..I was one stage from cancer..the black stage is what they called it…I hope they are keeping a good eye on you….blessings..Will pray for you Nikol….💜❤️💜
A great natural girl, 🤗, sharing your day is super, take care. From Frances uk ♥️
Thanks so much
THANK YOU SO MUCH, I HOPE YOU ARE FEELING WELL.
I am so sorry for you... my friend has endometriosis and I honestly didn't know how she coped with it. Doctors are astounding.... the greed rather than lets actually help the patient..
Anyway loving the vlogs you look so stunning even tho' you were tired enjoy your relaxation time. Your an inspiration🥰
Loving your vlogs.
U are an amazing woman- blessed to have found ur channel❤
Thank you
Another awesome vlog I really like these. I’m finding out as I get older you have to fight for yourself because no one else will, thank goodness we have God on our side and with us. Thank you for taking us along on your photo shoot that was so cool, going to the beach, and making dinner. Love your all of your videos and now enjoying the vlogs.
I'm so sorry you were lied to about the laparoscopy surgeries. I had 2 surgeries, one in 1992 and one in 1993 to get rid of mine. My doctor told me I would never get pregnant with it which is why I had it removed and than my Dr put me in artificial menopause for 6 months to stop my periods and the endometriosis from coming back. It was a rough ride for 4 years and something I will never forget. I support women who have gone through this.
Loving the vlog! Can''t believe how stunning you look even in your first shots of the day! Oh, so envious!
Oh thank you!
Thank you for your vlog, I do so enjoy it. Calming, relaxing and nicely done. 👍
I kept a Velcro roller in my hair when on my way to an appointment. Unfortunately, I forgot to remove it and was so embarrassed that the polite receptionist, staring at my forehead, never mentioned it.
Nicole, I have to tell you that I admire how strong you are.
You inspire me to always try to look my best in spite of how I feel. I am going through a rough patch. I have a first rheumatology visit this month, and I really need answers as to what I have and how to deal with this type of pain and weakness that I am going through.
Thank you for being YOU❤. I live in Florida too, but like 3-4 hours away from your studio. I already told my husband that I want to be able to see if i can make an appointment. My brother also said he would help to make that happen. But that will have to be when I start feeling stronger. Can't wait!!😂
Anyway, sending you a big hug and will pray that you start to feeling better soon. I don't know you in person, but please know that I care!❤❤❤
Thank you such a sweet comment. I hope you get done answers and start feeling better soon 🙏🏻
I LOVE the vlogging!!! Ty!
Another great Vlog. Thank you for sharing your journey!
Thanks for watching!
Wonderful advice Nikol! Thank you for all the great beauty and self care tips!
Glad it was helpful!
Thank you for your honesty and helpful incitement in ALL your videos. It’s so helpful for all of us who are dealing with so many different issues. ❤
Absolutely loved this video! So very refreshing and entertaining! Enjoyed the behind the scenes as it happens look! 😊❤
Love your vlog! very interesting and informative. Keep up the good work! 👍🏼
I love your vlogs and, today, sharing your excruciating medical past with us I again felt like I was there in your house as a friend. Your ability to weather all the storms in your life is a testament to your strength and flexibility. I’m 72 and consider you as a mentor to me for all things beauty but also for sharing your life and wisdom. I loved the contrast at the start of the vlog telling us of your horrific journey with endometriosis and IVF followed later by the hilarious combination of Carolina Herrera clothes and Velcro curlers while you drove to Miami makes you a superwoman in my book! You are the Real Deal ! Happy 4th 🎉
lol thank you 🥰🥰
So loving these vlogs it’s great to see what your life is like also loving doggie cameos ❤❤❤