If one of my friends said they want to be a giy then sure whatever but if it’s a girl and she wants to be a guy I never know if she just likes haveing short haircuts or something else ;-;
During school, whenever I talk in my head (usually in the 3rd Person.) My brain goes back and forth saying 'He' or 'She' or 'They' it's like a goddamn tug of war. (Trans curious and/or Transfem) But recently when I'm alone or in my thoughts I call myself with the name I picked... Jayden. Before that I would almost subconsciously write it before realizing and having to erase it. But when I look at it for a bit... It makes me happy somewhat. Do you understand or is it just me?
@jacobridgeway2849 i do, a lot actually! I picked the name Zoey.... hence my youtube user... and sometimes i write it too... i just scribble it through and write my deadname (cuz i use it still) and yknow.... seeing the scribble makes me happy, knowing i picked a beautiful name
This is how it is. I can relate so much. (I'm non-binary.) And people keep telling you "You're too young to know" or "Don't be dumb, you can't feel that way" or "That's stupid, you're being so childish and angsty". The worst thing is "Who is influencing you? The Western Culture is getting to you". It destroys a person's self worth and self trust.
Gender dysphoria really is a complex thing that I think this captures really well. Things that might seem small to other people can really help make trans people feel more comfortable. You can just be doing normal everyday things and suddenly something triggers your dysphoria. Good job 🙂
omg... especially the comments like "your hair is such a beautiful color, why don't you ever let it out?" or "why are you wearing baggy clothes all the time? you have such a nice figure"
My mum cut my hair while I was sleeping because it was "too long" I found out I love to have it short and now she wants me to let my hair grow because I "look like a boy" and I'm "being disrespectful to cancer patients/survivors" lmaooooo
I'm MtF but this video is still so relatable. It's so beautiful and is also so painful, the memories, the crying, ect. It so accurately manages to portray my feelings in such a way I could never do with only words. Amazing work!
I don’t know what name you go by, but I hope your okay. I’m Lennon, and I’m non binary, and I just wanted to wish you the very best, it’s gonna be a long journey, but I promise it’ll be worth it. You’re a strong woman and you can do this, I believe in you. 🏳️⚧️💖
it makes me think of how similar the struggles of all gender nonconforming folks are, and how beautiful our community is that even after all the shit we go through and all the systemic oppression we’re still here and we will never go away. much love to everyone reading this and no matter where u are on your journey I see you 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈
I hope you’re doing better these days. It struck me that this resonates as well it does with us, because we’re just on the other side of that mirror. The experience is not the same, but it rhymes.
I can really relate to this. Sadly, I’m not able to come out at the moment because of the environment I’m in but I just have to keep telling myself that it’ll be ok one day and I’ll finally be able to be.... me. It’s hard. But i have some amazing friends that have helped me to accept myself. All that aside, I loveee your artstyle and the animation was really good!! You have earned a sub hehe
Thank you! I spent the majority of my teen years telling myself the same thing, and now I'm finally being able to be me. I promise it gets better and you just gotta hang in there and stick with your friends!
This is so accurate, gender dysphoria is so overwhelming and gut wrenching to the point where you just HAVE to transition because you can’t take it anymore.
Mind if i ask a question. I do not suffer from gender dysphoria and wish to understand it better. I am born male, but i don’t see myself as a very masculine person. I like both male and female things. I wear plain boy clothes and i don’t feel like i need to express my gender identity. I just feel like me. I wish to understand gender dysphoria. If you don’t want to wear a dress, then don’t. Right? You want to cut your hair, then do it. Right? Why do people spend thousands of dollars for a surgery on something most people won’t see? Im not criticizing the trans community. Im just asking why so i can understand it better and change my perspective.
@@Shark97281 This is my best attempt at explaining it. For most people, I don’t think gender is something you think about. You have the body that you have and clothes is just clothes. Maybe you like traditionally feminine clothes/things or traditionally masculine clothes/things but that’s it. For me (AFAB/born female), its not a matter of simply liking/disliking (or being comfortable/uncomfortable with) gendered things but a matter of intense “dissonance". When I look in the mirror, I subconsciously “expect” to see a male version of myself, and seeing the female aspects of my body staring back is like a stunning slap in the face that makes me feel like I need to crawl out of my skin. (It just feels very overwhelmingly wrong in a way I can’t explain). I like masculine clothes but I mainly put them on because they bring a sense of intense/powerful relief because they makes what I "expect to see" line up with what I am "actually seeing.” (It just feels “right”). For some people, pure gender presentation is enough to resolve/cope with dissonance. For others, having the primary and secondary sex characteristics (not aligning with gender identity & bringing dissonance) is still too much. (Even if no one will see, the relief at knowing something is there or not there is immense).
EDIT: Hey all!! Just wanted to say thank you so, so much to everyone that participated in the survey!! It's closed now and I must say it was a brilliant help to figuring out what it is I wanted to do with Euphoric! I hope you all enjoy it when it's released ^-^ Hey, guys! I just want you all to know that I read every one of your comments and that you're all such lovely people and deserve the world. It's been nearly a year since I published Dysphoric, and now it's that time again for me to do another Final Major Project for college. This time, I'd really like to make a short film about gender euphoria! If you've got the time, whether you're under the trans umbrella or not, it would be seriously helpful if you could take this quick survey and tell me how you yourself would describe gender euphoria and/or what you already know about it. Thank you and I hope you all have a lovely day ^-^ forms.office.com/Pages/ResponsePage.aspx?id=d58slY5gsk-aB_5mmDuZZ01SHfpduMpFnvBXF2-bW1hUMTAyTEdOVURPSVI2RlQ2Q1JTOTNNV1NNSC4u
I find it great that you decide to work on these projects. I think they are inspiring and super helpful. In your survey, I just noticed that the age ranges are overlapping (e.g. I'm 25 years old and clicked 25-40, could also have clicked 18-25). I hope I did it right choosing just one, didn't want to mess up your statistics.
@@fluessigFlamme Thank you! Yeah, I probably should have avoided that, now that I think about it, but it's honestly not that big of a deal. The most important part of the survey is how people describe euphoria!
Alright. I just did it! Thank you for working on these amazing projects and I'm looking forward to potentially seeing the gender euphoria video in the future!
Just filled out the survey! I hope my answers were helpful to you; I think this project is a wonderful idea, and I'm wishing you the best of luck with it. 💕✨
My dysphoria mainly manifests in my hair, chest, and voice and that little smile at the end really resonated with me, when I first cut off my hair that what it felt like, it was the happiest I'd been in a while
it's so nice to just see people express their frustrations through a medium like animation. i felt that, i felt the little shivers the feeling that something is wrong when people speak of you in a name in a way you don't feel true to you. "SHE thinks SHE's a boy" "You've been online too much" those are things i both told myself and got told by others. it's a fight and it's not an easy one but breaking out of your shell is a blessing. this animation touched my heart.
"Why can't we just get one girly thing? Why do you have to be so difficult?" Damn. That hit so close to home. I remember breaking down inside a dressing room more than once.
Fuuuck this was so good, I teared up. I'm a trans woman in the midst of her transition and am having a bit of a mini gender crisis right now and this hits hard. The glitching... it's such an accurate portrayal. Incredible film.
This is so accurate to how I feel about myself sometimes, I just quiver. I'm going through hard times right now, and my dad doesn't want me to be female. He keeps hitting me with masculine stereotypes to try to "turn me back", but I'll never stop being a girl, and this film brightened my day. So, thank you so so much.
One of the best that I saw on this argument. I’m trans myself and I cried at the glinching sound because is really like that sometimes...and the end? With the boy that look at the dress that he donated? I’m crying even more! Very good job!
it doesn't look like the same boy that donated it, of anything the "boy" that saw the dress at the end gives me a possible MtF vibes with the way they stopped to look at it (Source: I'm an MtF and can't get a transition yet so i really get the feeling)
Well, I’m now crying my eyes out because I understand all of that fully because I’m ftm and neither of my parents or anyone I know are supportive of me trying to be me, I have all of this dysphoria. If any trans people need to vent (I’m sorry if I can’t give you any advice, I try my best to) then chat to me, I will always listen
I don't know how to cope with these bisexual feelings, I'm babpitized and my family's Christian who is very homophobic. Sometimes I breifly see myself as a boy, but I think Id perfer to be a woman.( It just feels weird that I like talking about manly things and hate girly things, that sometimes I act like I have phisically dick and balls then I remember that I don't, that I like being strong and ripped rather than being soft, round and squishy, that alot of my sexual fantasies I picture myself as a man.) I try to hide my bisexual part but also trying to be sincere is conflicting, like there is this 10/10 girl on TV posing and she shows her butt, (I smile and start drooling) the family starts rating and criticizing her and I let "I'd tap dat ass" slip and everyone looks at me disgusted *WTF?!*.... Stop that... You can't be like that..
@@BrooklyFireyou should talk to more people about this. Idk where you are but diverse sexuality is relatively normal in my country. I hope things have been going better for you, because believe me. Liking hot people isn't weird. Even when they were born like you. This might be a bit intrusive, but may I ask where you're from? I'm from the Netherlands myself. Edit: oh, and if you ARE still a Christian yourself, I may add that there are many Christians that are more than fine with us existing. They know the world is more than just this Ancient book. Things change, take the good messages and beliefs and use those to shape a better world.
Wait.... My new chosen name is liam.. i looked EXACTLY like that b4 my transition. You-- you have animated this in such an amazing way that connected with me, a way I didnt think it would.....
I love your animation. It's very relatable with the glitch sounds and I almost want to see the last person try on the dress if said person was a trans girl. I just love moments like that.
I don’t know a lot about being transgender and I’ve been searching a lot because I think my younger sister might be trans because she always talks about not liking her female body and I just want to be able to learn about this and support her.
my dad's literal reaction to when I said i wanna go on testosterone bc im a FTM trans person he said "Where are you getting this from? The internet?" I wanted to cry.
I dont know how, but you found the exact perfect sound to describe disphoria. I think thats gonna be in my brain forever as the new soundtrack to that pain!
Man, can’t believe this got me. Nothing really makes me cry i just fight tears back if I’m hearing some sad song or what not but this, since it’s so relatable I just felt so bad. I didn’t know dysphoria was a thing till now.
well, this just summed up how I'm feeling right now. what's worse is that it feels like it changes. everyday. I'm either feeling more feminine and like i want to wear dresses and keep my long hair, or I'm left feeling like I'm trapped in my current body. I love being a girl sometimes and other times I wish I could just erase the idea of gender altogether because none of the genders out there describe me. i currently feel like the trapped feeling, and idk why it switches so much, I've only started feeling this but I hope to get through it, even if I can't really tell anyone :)
The sound effects and ripples disrupting the character's form is a really cool way to visualise (audioise? in the case of the sound effects?) dysphoria. I may be trans but I don't think I feel as extreme dysphoria as some other trans people do. I appreciate whenever I can see into how other people live and feel. 💕
The entire film is very much accurate. Especially the beginning. My mom is the same despite me being out to her for 3 years and has yelled at me for choosing a name different from my deadname. Stay strong kiddos
Yup I've been playing as a female character whenever I can since I was 13 my darth Revan was usually female śo my pc in every BioWare and bethesda's rpgs is female
Dyscoria to me is like looking at a photo when looking in a mirror like it’s not me it’s someone else it’s like a cloud that shows you who you are not. Idk if anyone feels that way but this video is very accurate ^^ I love it!!
M trans phobic and homophobic dad just found out I'm pan non binary and said: it's just a trend ua re online too much. He will never understand how feel, how torrible many nights were from thinking and feeling. How many times I cried cuz I was afraid of him..
It's a nice take to show how even on a mental level this can affect someone, but the part that resonated the most with me wa seeing the "true" reflection in the mirror before breaking down. I think it becomes harder to really see your real self when a part of you seems unable to really process it, but the way it conveys the identity crisis works well with little words
This is a great communication of disphoria, I just want to highlight that is can manifest in ways beyond what is depicted. I repressed stuff for a while. Didn't really see an alternative that I believed to be achievable for the longest time. Being so out of touch led to my dysphoria manifesting as a divide between mind and body. My body was meat that I would have left out to rot where it not for social pressures. So I did the bare minimum to not smell and I wore clothes that where comfortable and concealing. I could never bring myself to hate it, I just had no care for it. Sure, I could see that it was not without virtues, but I never expected real joy in what I was.
Oh my God, the emotions, the itching of the whole body, the irrational distress and the urge to cry when you think of someone you want to be. How dare you to make this so accurate?
The feelings hurt even more when everyone in your family that you love would never understand it due ot their own beliefs and opinions, so you either have to stay quiet or rist losing the only people that matter in your life. Shit like that makes me cry myself to sleep, knowing I can't present myself in any other way outside of "joking" around, because if I did, my family would either be disgusted, or worried for my mental health in a "your not supposed to act and be like that, though" way
From a trans male myself and being quite young this is so accurate. It’s hard to look myself in the mirror when I have a feminine chest area. I honestly thank you for this being so accurate. The ending is absolute gold too.
The static glitch is the exact fucking feeling. I always wanted to make an animation so that I could display that exact visual cue thats so creepy. I guess we really are all experiencing the same issues huh
I’m not 100% sure this happens in the film but to anyone that wears binders, DO NOT WEAR THEM TO BED!!! Only wear them for up to 8 hours at a time. If you leave a binder on for too long it can damage and displace your ribs!
Dysphoria is half of the reason why I never go out, hatred being the other one. The reason I'm always in my room is because the instant I leave I'm thrust into a world where I'm better off dead. I end up being completely different online compared to IRL. I can't really be myself for either though as one expects me to be my agab while the other side may get the wrong idea if I show myself IRL (I have to be stealth IRL) But I have this one friend who found out with me who already knows what I look like but still sees me as what I actually am. Pretty much all my stress goes away with them. I think it's very valuable to have people who supported you for the whole thing.
I adore the book on the nightstand. Dreadnought. Translates to "Fear nothing." Theres a particularly large long-necked dinosaur named Dreadnoughtus, as well. It was so big, and so strong, that it had no reason to fear those who might want to kill it... Just like many supersized sauropods, it's sheer presence alone was it's self-defense. Just as Dreadnoughtus didnt fear it's potential killers, we also shouldn't fear ours. Through unity, through support and love, we will be big and strong enough to Dreadnought... To fear nothing 🦕💕
honestly i know how that feels the, mental glitching and indecisive voide which meakes you question your very existence all because you know deep down you are a girl but you also know people will shun you including your family but in the end you decide to just bear the pain of those glitches with the hope that it will end as you watch as you get told you are doing it for attention. i can understand that pain like so many others
This is kinda relatable. So, since my childhood i thought that my style of life didn’t fit the “Male” standard, but it wasn’t until last month that i discovered myself as an Trans Girl and i admit that sometimes i feel like i’m an imposter among other girls. I had an pretty bad gender dysphorya in the days that preceded my discovery as an Trans Girl. But now i have just accepted that in fact I’m just Bloomi here. (And yes. Of all names i chose “Bloomi” as my Trans Name. I just took the word “Blume” that means Flower in German and changed some letters, LOL)
I am 14 and questioning if I had dysphoria. I thought I did, but I have so much doubt surrounding it. This video helped me. Looking at this, it is me. Me before I cut my hair. Me in the mirror.
The glitching feels like such an accurate representation of dysphoria. It's something I'm fortunate to not have experienced very much, but there was one time where I was in a zoom call and my clothes just creased in a way around my body that made it look like I had a huge chest. I'm okay with my chest as it normally is, but that made me feel like there was a glitch in that body part and I wanted to correct it asap. A cis woman would have probably just been happy about it.
I just found this I've been struggling with my gender identity for years... Im also intellectually disabled so i first discovered i was trans at about 18 and then my parents ended up discouraging me to go through with it because they thought i wasn't capable of making a life changing descion like that. I have actually been on testosterone before only for a month earlier this year and I had a panic attack because of the family i had at the time but now i feel so dysphoric in my skin and i have talked to my therapist about it and they validated me and want to go into it more with me and im excited thank you for making this video because it helps people like me feel recognized and able to explain better about how they feel the glitch is so accurate i feel so "glitchy" in my own body honestly to the extreme
I wish future me could step into my life and pull me out of this hell. Or at least point me in the direction I need to go. She seems like an adult who has a lot figured out
The glitching is so accurate, this is beautiful
Very accurate I have dysphoria I wish I had a more feminine and less. Masculine appearance i
@@darthcravus be whoever you want!! As long as it makes you happy
@@darthcravus you and me both
If one of my friends said they want to be a giy then sure whatever but if it’s a girl and she wants to be a guy I never know if she just likes haveing short haircuts or something else ;-;
You will never be what you want to be
The rippling of the skin really resonates with how my dysphoria makes me feel. Beautiful animation!
I never knew how to describe the feeling of dysphoria before and those sounds and glitching are exactly it.
*SHE* thinks *SHES* a boy
*SHE* thinks *SHES* non-binary
*HE* thinks *HES* a girl
*HE* thinks *HES* nonbinary
That shit hurts
He knows he's a boy
they know theyre non-binary
she knows she's a girl
They know theyre nonbinary
In NB and people still call me boy
exactly, it hurts even more when your own mom says suh things "it isnt that you think you're a girl, that you are one" (im a transgirl)
During school, whenever I talk in my head (usually in the 3rd Person.)
My brain goes back and forth saying 'He' or 'She' or 'They' it's like a goddamn tug of war.
(Trans curious and/or Transfem)
But recently when I'm alone or in my thoughts I call myself with the name I picked... Jayden. Before that I would almost subconsciously write it before realizing and having to erase it.
But when I look at it for a bit... It makes me happy somewhat.
Do you understand or is it just me?
@jacobridgeway2849 i do, a lot actually! I picked the name Zoey.... hence my youtube user... and sometimes i write it too... i just scribble it through and write my deadname (cuz i use it still) and yknow.... seeing the scribble makes me happy, knowing i picked a beautiful name
@@Silly_lucy-1 I usually write it until I reach the letter y and realize what I have to do to not get outed or anything similar.
This is how it is. I can relate so much. (I'm non-binary.) And people keep telling you "You're too young to know" or "Don't be dumb, you can't feel that way" or "That's stupid, you're being so childish and angsty". The worst thing is "Who is influencing you? The Western Culture is getting to you". It destroys a person's self worth and self trust.
Same
Ok but the “where did you get this from?” Really hurt from my mom 😔
Yeah :(
@@almondsaresuperior4654 same tho
the worst thing was "your friends are just telling you its cool" that hurt alot
Gender dysphoria really is a complex thing that I think this captures really well. Things that might seem small to other people can really help make trans people feel more comfortable. You can just be doing normal everyday things and suddenly something triggers your dysphoria. Good job 🙂
omg... especially the comments like "your hair is such a beautiful color, why don't you ever let it out?" or "why are you wearing baggy clothes all the time? you have such a nice figure"
@@alexz3585 some of the worst are the "you're so lucky to have -----"
I DONT FEEL LUCKY
Fr I HATE when people ask why I wear baggy clothes and that I'm "lucky" to have something
The “you’ve been online too much” really hit me. I can directly relate to that
sadly, this is how it is. the worst thing is when ur parents don't let u cut ur hair, cuz they'd hit u.
Hit!? That’s like. Illegal. It’s child abuse.
❤️
Wait hol up people do that? And here I thought my mom was strict, she will not hesitate to shave my brother’s hair away if he wanted to be bald.
ayo, transphobic parent check :'[
My mum cut my hair while I was sleeping because it was "too long"
I found out I love to have it short and now she wants me to let my hair grow because I "look like a boy" and I'm "being disrespectful to cancer patients/survivors" lmaooooo
I'm MtF but this video is still so relatable. It's so beautiful and is also so painful, the memories, the crying, ect. It so accurately manages to portray my feelings in such a way I could never do with only words. Amazing work!
I don’t know what name you go by, but I hope your okay. I’m Lennon, and I’m non binary, and I just wanted to wish you the very best, it’s gonna be a long journey, but I promise it’ll be worth it. You’re a strong woman and you can do this, I believe in you. 🏳️⚧️💖
@@oof6431Thanks for such a sweet reply. Thank you so much♥️
@@adwaitagnome your welcome! 🥰 have a good day.
it makes me think of how similar the struggles of all gender nonconforming folks are, and how beautiful our community is that even after all the shit we go through and all the systemic oppression we’re still here and we will never go away. much love to everyone reading this and no matter where u are on your journey I see you 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈
I hope you’re doing better these days. It struck me that this resonates as well it does with us, because we’re just on the other side of that mirror.
The experience is not the same, but it rhymes.
I can really relate to this. Sadly, I’m not able to come out at the moment because of the environment I’m in but I just have to keep telling myself that it’ll be ok one day and I’ll finally be able to be.... me. It’s hard. But i have some amazing friends that have helped me to accept myself. All that aside, I loveee your artstyle and the animation was really good!! You have earned a sub hehe
Thank you! I spent the majority of my teen years telling myself the same thing, and now I'm finally being able to be me. I promise it gets better and you just gotta hang in there and stick with your friends!
same just minus the friends and acceptance part
Thank you for your comment! Itll get better! Jesus loves you!!
Did u cut ur hair ??
same
This is so accurate, gender dysphoria is so overwhelming and gut wrenching to the point where you just HAVE to transition because you can’t take it anymore.
true
Just accept how you were born. Life has lots of other problems
Mind if i ask a question. I do not suffer from gender dysphoria and wish to understand it better.
I am born male, but i don’t see myself as a very masculine person. I like both male and female things. I wear plain boy clothes and i don’t feel like i need to express my gender identity. I just feel like me.
I wish to understand gender dysphoria. If you don’t want to wear a dress, then don’t. Right?
You want to cut your hair, then do it. Right? Why do people spend thousands of dollars for a surgery on something most people won’t see?
Im not criticizing the trans community. Im just asking why so i can understand it better and change my perspective.
@@Shark97281 This is my best attempt at explaining it.
For most people, I don’t think gender is something you think about. You have the body that you have and clothes is just clothes. Maybe you like traditionally feminine clothes/things or traditionally masculine clothes/things but that’s it.
For me (AFAB/born female), its not a matter of simply liking/disliking (or being comfortable/uncomfortable with) gendered things but a matter of intense “dissonance". When I look in the mirror, I subconsciously “expect” to see a male version of myself, and seeing the female aspects of my body staring back is like a stunning slap in the face that makes me feel like I need to crawl out of my skin. (It just feels very overwhelmingly wrong in a way I can’t explain). I like masculine clothes but I mainly put them on because they bring a sense of intense/powerful relief because they makes what I "expect to see" line up with what I am "actually seeing.” (It just feels “right”).
For some people, pure gender presentation is enough to resolve/cope with dissonance. For others, having the primary and secondary sex characteristics (not aligning with gender identity & bringing dissonance) is still too much. (Even if no one will see, the relief at knowing something is there or not there is immense).
How about go accept other people instead of being an asshat. @@DMDadventures
EDIT: Hey all!! Just wanted to say thank you so, so much to everyone that participated in the survey!! It's closed now and I must say it was a brilliant help to figuring out what it is I wanted to do with Euphoric! I hope you all enjoy it when it's released ^-^
Hey, guys! I just want you all to know that I read every one of your comments and that you're all such lovely people and deserve the world. It's been nearly a year since I published Dysphoric, and now it's that time again for me to do another Final Major Project for college. This time, I'd really like to make a short film about gender euphoria!
If you've got the time, whether you're under the trans umbrella or not, it would be seriously helpful if you could take this quick survey and tell me how you yourself would describe gender euphoria and/or what you already know about it. Thank you and I hope you all have a lovely day ^-^
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I find it great that you decide to work on these projects. I think they are inspiring and super helpful.
In your survey, I just noticed that the age ranges are overlapping (e.g. I'm 25 years old and clicked 25-40, could also have clicked 18-25). I hope I did it right choosing just one, didn't want to mess up your statistics.
@@fluessigFlamme Thank you! Yeah, I probably should have avoided that, now that I think about it, but it's honestly not that big of a deal. The most important part of the survey is how people describe euphoria!
Alright. I just did it! Thank you for working on these amazing projects and I'm looking forward to potentially seeing the gender euphoria video in the future!
Just filled out the survey! I hope my answers were helpful to you; I think this project is a wonderful idea, and I'm wishing you the best of luck with it. 💕✨
Just filled it out, I honestly can't wait to see what happens
My dysphoria mainly manifests in my hair, chest, and voice and that little smile at the end really resonated with me, when I first cut off my hair that what it felt like, it was the happiest I'd been in a while
it's so nice to just see people express their frustrations through a medium like animation. i felt that, i felt the little shivers the feeling that something is wrong when people speak of you in a name in a way you don't feel true to you. "SHE thinks SHE's a boy" "You've been online too much" those are things i both told myself and got told by others. it's a fight and it's not an easy one but breaking out of your shell is a blessing.
this animation touched my heart.
"Why can't we just get one girly thing? Why do you have to be so difficult?"
Damn. That hit so close to home. I remember breaking down inside a dressing room more than once.
This is like exactly how it feels ;;~;; , and that little bit at the verry end ;;; . Also your art and animation are very cutte
Fuuuck this was so good, I teared up. I'm a trans woman in the midst of her transition and am having a bit of a mini gender crisis right now and this hits hard. The glitching... it's such an accurate portrayal. Incredible film.
This is so accurate to how I feel about myself sometimes, I just quiver. I'm going through hard times right now, and my dad doesn't want me to be female. He keeps hitting me with masculine stereotypes to try to "turn me back", but I'll never stop being a girl, and this film brightened my day. So, thank you so so much.
One of the best that I saw on this argument. I’m trans myself and I cried at the glinching sound because is really like that sometimes...and the end? With the boy that look at the dress that he donated? I’m crying even more! Very good job!
it doesn't look like the same boy that donated it, of anything the "boy" that saw the dress at the end gives me a possible MtF vibes with the way they stopped to look at it (Source: I'm an MtF and can't get a transition yet so i really get the feeling)
i know im REALLY late to comment but the “youve been online too much” absolutely broke me
It may be just 2 minutes long but it got me crying
Real
Me too, and I'm a cis male so the society says I don't do that.
Well, I’m now crying my eyes out because I understand all of that fully because I’m ftm and neither of my parents or anyone I know are supportive of me trying to be me, I have all of this dysphoria. If any trans people need to vent (I’m sorry if I can’t give you any advice, I try my best to) then chat to me, I will always listen
I don't know how to cope with these bisexual feelings, I'm babpitized and my family's Christian who is very homophobic. Sometimes I breifly see myself as a boy, but I think Id perfer to be a woman.( It just feels weird that I like talking about manly things and hate girly things, that sometimes I act like I have phisically dick and balls then I remember that I don't, that I like being strong and ripped rather than being soft, round and squishy, that alot of my sexual fantasies I picture myself as a man.)
I try to hide my bisexual part but also trying to be sincere is conflicting, like there is this 10/10 girl on TV posing and she shows her butt, (I smile and start drooling) the family starts rating and criticizing her and I let "I'd tap dat ass" slip and everyone looks at me disgusted *WTF?!*.... Stop that... You can't be like that..
@@BrooklyFireyou should talk to more people about this. Idk where you are but diverse sexuality is relatively normal in my country.
I hope things have been going better for you, because believe me.
Liking hot people isn't weird. Even when they were born like you. This might be a bit intrusive, but may I ask where you're from?
I'm from the Netherlands myself.
Edit: oh, and if you ARE still a Christian yourself, I may add that there are many Christians that are more than fine with us existing. They know the world is more than just this Ancient book. Things change, take the good messages and beliefs and use those to shape a better world.
@@NexusSpacey Brazil
the skin rippling really portrays the feeling of dysphoria accurately
Wait.... My new chosen name is liam.. i looked EXACTLY like that b4 my transition. You-- you have animated this in such an amazing way that connected with me, a way I didnt think it would.....
i love ur name
I love your animation. It's very relatable with the glitch sounds and I almost want to see the last person try on the dress if said person was a trans girl. I just love moments like that.
I don’t know a lot about being transgender and I’ve been searching a lot because I think my younger sister might be trans because she always talks about not liking her female body and I just want to be able to learn about this and support her.
the world need more people like you
That's so beautiful.
Literally what dysphoria feels like, it’s painful. I can relate to him so much since my mom tells me that stuff
my dad's literal reaction to when I said i wanna go on testosterone bc im a FTM trans person he said "Where are you getting this from? The internet?" I wanted to cry.
this is beautiful. everything about this is accurate. the glitching is extremely accurate. i genuinely was close to crying.
I just realized at the beginning that the mirror had pink and blue. I love the representation of this animation! WELL DONE!
As a young trans person (girl to boy) this is really relatable. But when I cut my hair short. 1:47 that’s how I felt. :)
I dont know how, but you found the exact perfect sound to describe disphoria. I think thats gonna be in my brain forever as the new soundtrack to that pain!
I feel the exact static and crawling that you’ve shown here, amazingly well done thank you
Man, can’t believe this got me. Nothing really makes me cry i just fight tears back if I’m hearing some sad song or what not but this, since it’s so relatable I just felt so bad. I didn’t know dysphoria was a thing till now.
I'm so scared to transition. And so I haven't. Nobody in my real life knows except for you, reading this.
well, this just summed up how I'm feeling right now.
what's worse is that it feels like it changes. everyday. I'm either feeling more feminine and like i want to wear dresses and keep my long hair, or I'm left feeling like I'm trapped in my current body. I love being a girl sometimes and other times I wish I could just erase the idea of gender altogether because none of the genders out there describe me.
i currently feel like the trapped feeling, and idk why it switches so much, I've only started feeling this but I hope to get through it, even if I can't really tell anyone :)
I gave a lil gasp when I saw that girl at the end ToT
Thank you ^-^ Also we have the same mask!!
@@camkablam42 oh difjfjfj nice XD
This was just sublime. It’s exactly what dysphoria feels like for me. Thank you for making this :)
A beautiful film, it's creativity is among the ranks of those in film festivals!
The part where the dress is held up in front of him hits home, this is an amazing animation
YES BABY BOY CUT THAT HAIR !! So proud of you 🥹 Stay strong, trans siblings!
The sound effects and ripples disrupting the character's form is a really cool way to visualise (audioise? in the case of the sound effects?) dysphoria.
I may be trans but I don't think I feel as extreme dysphoria as some other trans people do. I appreciate whenever I can see into how other people live and feel. 💕
this is beautiful. the skin rippling is something the I have felt, and I loved the inclusion of Dreadnought on the table :)
The entire film is very much accurate. Especially the beginning. My mom is the same despite me being out to her for 3 years and has yelled at me for choosing a name different from my deadname. Stay strong kiddos
I bet both genders who want to be the opposite of their biological gender coz of Gender Dysphoria will play as the opposite gender in RPG games!
Yep
Yup I've been playing as a female character whenever I can since I was 13 my darth Revan was usually female śo my pc in every BioWare and bethesda's rpgs is female
@@darthcravus wait, in what games? I want to try whatever that Bio game is and the other one!
REAL BRO
Dyscoria to me is like looking at a photo when looking in a mirror like it’s not me it’s someone else it’s like a cloud that shows you who you are not. Idk if anyone feels that way but this video is very accurate ^^ I love it!!
i loved the subtle glitch the red sweater kid had when they saw the dress
M trans phobic and homophobic dad just found out I'm pan non binary and said: it's just a trend ua re online too much. He will never understand how feel, how torrible many nights were from thinking and feeling. How many times I cried cuz I was afraid of him..
I feel so bad for you :( I hope it gets better
@@elbasado481 I know but I thought that there's a place I can be open this video. Anyways if u don't care just don't write soemthing
It's a nice take to show how even on a mental level this can affect someone, but the part that resonated the most with me wa seeing the "true" reflection in the mirror before breaking down. I think it becomes harder to really see your real self when a part of you seems unable to really process it, but the way it conveys the identity crisis works well with little words
the glitching and rippling to represent dysphoria is genius. I love this.
This hurts but it's good to know I'm not alone feeling like this
the fact i’ve had the words “she thinks she’s a boy” said to me makes this a lot more relatable
This is a great communication of disphoria, I just want to highlight that is can manifest in ways beyond what is depicted.
I repressed stuff for a while. Didn't really see an alternative that I believed to be achievable for the longest time. Being so out of touch led to my dysphoria manifesting as a divide between mind and body. My body was meat that I would have left out to rot where it not for social pressures. So I did the bare minimum to not smell and I wore clothes that where comfortable and concealing.
I could never bring myself to hate it, I just had no care for it. Sure, I could see that it was not without virtues, but I never expected real joy in what I was.
This was scary relatable
Same
i cried watching this it's so relatable
Oh my God, the emotions, the itching of the whole body, the irrational distress and the urge to cry when you think of someone you want to be. How dare you to make this so accurate?
"these will fit you better" and "you've been online too much" realy fucking hit home
Thank you for portraying this so well.
The feelings hurt even more when everyone in your family that you love would never understand it due ot their own beliefs and opinions, so you either have to stay quiet or rist losing the only people that matter in your life.
Shit like that makes me cry myself to sleep, knowing I can't present myself in any other way outside of "joking" around, because if I did, my family would either be disgusted, or worried for my mental health in a "your not supposed to act and be like that, though" way
The vibrations noises and chills are so accurate to how I feel, thank you for putting it into visuals
every like is from every person who felt so happy when they chopped their hair off
From a trans male myself and being quite young this is so accurate. It’s hard to look myself in the mirror when I have a feminine chest area. I honestly thank you for this being so accurate. The ending is absolute gold too.
The static glitch is the exact fucking feeling. I always wanted to make an animation so that I could display that exact visual cue thats so creepy. I guess we really are all experiencing the same issues huh
The dress scene...when people tell you to not be difficult just because you dont want to appear really feminine
The sound design is amazing and chilling.
This was beautiful, thank you for making this
I’m not 100% sure this happens in the film but to anyone that wears binders, DO NOT WEAR THEM TO BED!!! Only wear them for up to 8 hours at a time. If you leave a binder on for too long it can damage and displace your ribs!
Definitely!! The character was wearing a sports bra :)
The glitching... that's exactly how it feels.
This looks so simple yet so good. Well done
I love how you did the little chills i think that really describes how it feels
As a 13 year old trans kid (male), this is exactly how it is. This is shown so well, thank you for making this -max
Dysphoria is half of the reason why I never go out, hatred being the other one. The reason I'm always in my room is because the instant I leave I'm thrust into a world where I'm better off dead. I end up being completely different online compared to IRL. I can't really be myself for either though as one expects me to be my agab while the other side may get the wrong idea if I show myself IRL (I have to be stealth IRL)
But I have this one friend who found out with me who already knows what I look like but still sees me as what I actually am. Pretty much all my stress goes away with them. I think it's very valuable to have people who supported you for the whole thing.
I adore the book on the nightstand.
Dreadnought. Translates to "Fear nothing."
Theres a particularly large long-necked dinosaur named Dreadnoughtus, as well. It was so big, and so strong, that it had no reason to fear those who might want to kill it... Just like many supersized sauropods, it's sheer presence alone was it's self-defense.
Just as Dreadnoughtus didnt fear it's potential killers, we also shouldn't fear ours. Through unity, through support and love, we will be big and strong enough to Dreadnought... To fear nothing 🦕💕
“you’ve been online too much”
😔😔 it’s always this
I love the ending you need to make a part two based on that.
There's already a part two called Europhic!! It's not about this one's ending, but you do get a little update :)
honestly i know how that feels the, mental glitching and indecisive voide which meakes you question your very existence all because you know deep down you are a girl but you also know people will shun you including your family but in the end you decide to just bear the pain of those glitches with the hope that it will end as you watch as you get told you are doing it for attention. i can understand that pain like so many others
Oh hey! There's an end credit scene! Nice animation, I relate!
Ok first of all, you are way underrated, this is so good, and I love the art style
I love the ending! When he donated the dress to charity, I was thinking, “Give it to a trans girl.”
The glitch while looking in the mirror is really accurate, you've done a great job!!
O is dreadnought!
very cool book. waiting for third part
This is exactly how I feel. I didn't know it was an actual feeling that others also had.
man, this is brilliantly done and quite on point, at least for me (I'm f to demiguy). Thank you and well done for making this brilliant animation!
This is kinda relatable. So, since my childhood i thought that my style of life didn’t fit the “Male” standard, but it wasn’t until last month that i discovered myself as an Trans Girl and i admit that sometimes i feel like i’m an imposter among other girls. I had an pretty bad gender dysphorya in the days that preceded my discovery as an Trans Girl. But now i have just accepted that in fact I’m just Bloomi here. (And yes. Of all names i chose “Bloomi” as my Trans Name. I just took the word “Blume” that means Flower in German and changed some letters, LOL)
I am 14 and questioning if I had dysphoria. I thought I did, but I have so much doubt surrounding it. This video helped me. Looking at this, it is me. Me before I cut my hair. Me in the mirror.
Y‘all are valid with whatever you want to be or identify as. You’re awesome and no one has any right to tell you otherwise.
i wish it was as simple
dude, this made me cry. damn.
I hope the people that go through this have a good day and know that they are human and deserve to be treated with respect!
This is actually so accurate of how it feels
The glitching feels like such an accurate representation of dysphoria. It's something I'm fortunate to not have experienced very much, but there was one time where I was in a zoom call and my clothes just creased in a way around my body that made it look like I had a huge chest. I'm okay with my chest as it normally is, but that made me feel like there was a glitch in that body part and I wanted to correct it asap. A cis woman would have probably just been happy about it.
I never knew how to explain the feelings of dysphoria and this helps, also the ending was so sweet
That was so beautiful!! You did an amazing job!
There is no way this video can be so relatable
*I really cry with this, this is beautiful* 👏
I just found this I've been struggling with my gender identity for years... Im also intellectually disabled so i first discovered i was trans at about 18 and then my parents ended up discouraging me to go through with it because they thought i wasn't capable of making a life changing descion like that. I have actually been on testosterone before only for a month earlier this year and I had a panic attack because of the family i had at the time but now i feel so dysphoric in my skin and i have talked to my therapist about it and they validated me and want to go into it more with me and im excited thank you for making this video because it helps people like me feel recognized and able to explain better about how they feel the glitch is so accurate i feel so "glitchy" in my own body honestly to the extreme
Beautiful and very relatable
I wish future me could step into my life and pull me out of this hell. Or at least point me in the direction I need to go. She seems like an adult who has a lot figured out
I'm in my 30's and finally realised I'm a trans man and yup, this is it. This is how it's been my entire life. Thank you so much for making this.
That hit me so hard it’s almost painful. Amazing work.
I really wish I couldn’t relate to this so much.
this is the most accurate description of dysphoria ive ever seen :)