This placement does give you a strong presence you can feel it everywhere you go. In Vedic having rahu in the first house means there’s a lot to do with destiny in this life time a lot of events are fated. this placement gives you a strong durable athletic body,Ascendent in the 1st (Virgo) so true what you said about having Virgo here. I really don’t like wasting my time but I have tendency to fall towards my south node ( pieces) I tend to just want to isolate not participate in the world and just learn about esoteric topics all day. But I know I have to be in my north node for my life to be progressing thankfully I know how to tap into that energy. Also it sucks having to go through so much fucked up shit in order to become solid mentally but I am glad I have my strength. Also the isolation required from having this placement helps you become your best friend.
That’s a good point u mentioned bc I didn’t think about how much I unknowingly fall into my pisces south node because I feel like I can isolate more than what’s necessary for me or just not in a healthy way. And virgo is all about showing up, participation and contributing to society; I really feel like now I have to learn how to integrate both sides because I’m at a point where I’m solid enough mentally too
Wow omg!!!! This is my LIFEEEEEE every word! I didn’t notice how much I was living in my south node (Pisces) until I started watching these type of videos months ago, although it is a little challenging to activate the north node in Virgo I know the rewards will be worth it, thank you for this beautiful intake 🩷and I have NN and Virgo rising in my 1st house 😭
Oh girl, all of this resonated... but I'll try not to overthink and just write down the main things. First off, yes, I have a strong energy... and I've always felt a big responsibility to "balance out" my energy, or clear it or whatever, before I spend time with anyone... otherwise I just know I will bring the energy down because I feel its power. I tended in the past to be ashamed of this, thinking that this way of thinking is, like, egotistical. But it is not something I want... it's just there, and now I see how my energy is very intense and that I'm not just making this up. Secondly, yes, I have always felt the need to choose myself first, even over those closest to me, and this has always felt less like a selfish act and more as a survival strategy. What you mentioned about dying a million deaths and only you knowing/understanding that... can totally relate there too. I've been through the craziest shit, but a lot of it is deeply personal and so bizarre that I don't even attempt to explain it to people. Or when I do, I just get these big eyes and a polite smile in response. I've always felt like an alien. And also how you said that we often change according to what we think people think of us... yet, on the other hand, as you mentioned, when I step into my power and my authenticity I carry this power, almost, that will bend people's misconceptions of me and make them regret ever having thought less of me. Actually, this has been one sort of "redemption" theme in my life that keeps coming up - people understimating me - usually my intelligence or my assertiveness - and then I end up shocking them by showing them who I really am - and the look/feeling of shock is satisfting to me, almost. It's almost been a good test of people's character - there's ones who feed off me being "weak" and "helpless" but they don't know the shit I've been through and how resilient I really am. I just recently started delving deep into astrology, and I only discovered this placement today. When I discovered it, i was like oh.... my.... godddd. No wonder this is where i ended up! I have been isolating for years and in a deep place of self-discovery. I had to cut most of my family off. I had NO sense of who I was until recently, and so this isolation has been amazing and necessary. Sorry this became an essay... I'm sure I've missed stuff, but I'm with you and I get it. I'm not closed off to being in a relationship, but to be honest, it is hard to imagine one that would sync up with the weird life history and soul stuff I have going on... but I am definitely leaving myself open to it. But yeah... thanks again
I have Aries ♈️ in the first house and I definitely felt what u we’re saying, like every time I make a friend and we become close it goes bad, like I feel like the world will not let me get close to ppl
This is a very lonely placement. I have NN in the 1st house of Scorpio. In my 10th house of Leo I have Saturn. In the 12 house (also associated with isolation) I have a stellium: Sun, and then Pluto and Mercury conjunct. I've actually felt lonely all my life. Everytime I would make headway in a career relationships, friendships - the Universe pulled me right back into isolation and solitude. During the covid pandemic I went through a very difficult time, and I had to do it alone. I walked away from toxic family members, narcissistic "friends". I've been completely alone since 2020, and through studying astrology I have come to understand why I must be alone in this lifetime. It sucks. But nobody ever said soul growth was easy. I wish you all well on your individual journeys. Shine bright. 🙏🌟
Jeeeezuss I just read and was like ur fkd… hahaha.. I had a thought today like the container of energy that u are is built perfectly to contain that energy.. so it’s like ur god doing it for god and u built urself as u to do u.. soo take that and know clearly it’s perfect and we’re powerful in our own place.. thank u for holding this energy for us!!
I have the same north node in scorpio 1st house and a totally different vision about it. 😮 I’m a Taurus sun 7th house so I have dealt with putting other people first this lifetime too. Way too much to the point I struggle with suicidal ideation for more than a decade. You are NOT missing out on anything I’m telling you… even if it was our reverse nodal return lately and it ends tomorrow btw… I tried relationships again and it was such a waste of time but I thought I had to try for my reverse nodal return. Still did the work with family members. I also have moon conjunct north node in scorpio 1st house so I felt my whole life that I craved solitude so much. I had to write an essay to my father to explain to him how my solitude was not imposed but chosen and that I felt better this way (because I was forced to go wherever he went for a big part of my life)… When I discovered my north node… I felt understood for the first time in my life. I did a lot for people. When I say a lot I meant I traumatized myself for others. Traumas that I still have to deal with until this day and that makes my life much harder. I volunteered literally to self sacrifice so many times so at some point you learn to take advantage before being taken advantage of. The north node in scorpio 1st house isn’t telling you that you have to stay single but IF you want to enter a relationship, one must do it in an INDIVIDUALISTIC way. Which means your wants and needs are your priority, not the partners… or it won’t work. I decided for me that it’s better that I don’t marry or have kids. It was such a relief when I realized (not long ago) that I could just decide it. Yes people make it harder and ask me all the time when I will marry have kids etc but I don’t even have my career planned out. Most people won’t give you good advices when you have a north node in the 1st house. A lot of things will come to us through our intuition. I cut off people way too easily now. Right now I’m at a point in my life where I feel like I can’t stand people anymore and crave so much solitude but I can’t. Because the north node transiting into aries from tomorrow until January 2025 in the 6th house of us Scorpio rising won’t be about solitude so yeah. It’s more likely to be about relationships breaking up but also work and health and routines… but the 6th house isn’t the 12th house so it’s not about what’s hidden and isolation. I’m like an addict when it comes to solitude. I always tell myself that men aren’t competing witv other men when it comes to dating me… they are competing with my solitude. And there’s no man in this world that will be able to be better than my solitude. None. I have gained so much knowledge and understanding through solitude. I harmed myself so much through self harm and suicide attempts because of drama and issues with people that left me drained. Before realizing my true north node in scorpio 1st house, I didn’t even knew it was a possibility to have to focus on yourself your whole life. I had a vision of selfishness that was so wrong. That’s the thing with us south node (and sun) in the 7th house… we think we are selfish when we just are taking care of ourselves..
I feel like for the first time that people (with a nn in ist house) can actually understand and emphasize with a similar experience to mine. I am nn in 1st house Pisces (ASC). My mars is in 12th Aquarius which squares my sun, mercury, jupiter (stelium 2nd) and pluto (8th), on the bright side it Mars trines moon and venus. My south node is in 7th Libra where my moon lives. However I'm not sure hownto remedy, and transmute the aspects/energies listed above. I'm 35 single and finally realize why I feel destined to experience life for myself. However, being in pisces, I find it very challenging to ground myself and make a plan and take action towards a goal, on this solo journey
Oh, yes, thank you, I really feel so isolated and lonely, I really have no one to help me with anything, despite the fact that I am admired by many. People just have no idea how lonely and challenging my life is. I used to think that Libra first house NN is not a bad thing, that just pushed you to respect your own desires and your own way of doing things, but now I have been through so much solitude, that no one would even believe me.
It resonates so much! I love the "you tell people who you are, people don't tell you who you are". My life was set up in so many ways to force me to be on my own.
As someone with this placement, I can't thank you enough for making this video and also for being as vulnerable as you are in sharing your experiences. I really wanted to applaud you for that. I can truly see the pain that this placement has caused you, and I understand completely. I have North Node in 1st house with my South Node in the 7th conjunct Pluto. There's nothing like the pain that comes with the lifelong yearning for someone else to save you, and having to realize that you are the greatest love that you will likely ever experience. I get that feeling of powerlessness, but through your channel you've created a community of other people who now don't feel so alone because of you. I think you're well on your way to your purpose. Looking forward to binging your other videos x
I have north node conjunct ascendant in Capricorn in the 1st house. It can be a lonely road, with lots of time spent on my own. I have to be my own cheerleader. The good news is that I have been blessed with an outer persona that is intertwined and can handle this karmic path of self discover and achievement. Its very good for growing your spiritual life and learning what true self sufficiency is really all about.
Mám severní uzel v 1. domě ve štíru + uran ve štíru - v krizích nacházím svoji sílu, podporu a štěstí. Učím se překonávat strach a projít temnotou ke světlu. Všechno co hledám nakonec najdu uvnitř sebe sama. Ve své citlivosti musím být i silná. Dávám pochopení sama sobě. V temnotě se rozzáří světlo. Moje jediná jistota je, že žádnou nemám a v tom je ta síla, že se nemůžu opírat o vnějšek, ale o vnitřek. Děkuji!
This is a challenging placement for me because I am an introvert (Gemini rising with Saturn and NN in 1H )but at the same time I like being around people and having a good time (I have sun in 11th house stellium and sag in 7H) So I literally am good at making friends and can adapt to most situations but I still feel alone and like I can’t really count on anyone but me
Oooh I also have my sun and stellium in the 11th house and my NN in 1st house. Like you, I can easily strike conversation with people, and I am quite sociable and friendly, but the moment always come when these friendships, relationships evaporate... pouf! Also, I always feel like people don't really see me/get me. It is challenging indeed!
dude. north node gemini 1st, moon in 10th, pluto 7th house so opposite. It gets so sad sometimes even though it feels somewhat like i’m on the right path. oh and lilith 11th 💀 ugh
I also have NN Gemini in the 1st, Pluto with SN in the 7th. Ascendant ruler Mercury with my Sun and Lilith (I have Sun conjunct Lilith), all in Pisces in the 10th. My 7th ruler Jupiter is in Cancer in the 1st. It's almost exactly trine my Mercury which I think is my saving grace. I have been emotionally and psychologically dependent on others, wanting comfort and support and to just retreat into a safe space. Wanting my relationships to be stable and permanent, but so far, they never have been. I understand now that the only way for me to be in relationships that are good for me, is to do my own thing, and continue focusing on myself and my goals even when I am in relationships. Because I get too comfortable in them, so comfortable that I stop having the desire to put myself out there and experience the difficulties of being my own person. But that's what I'm here to do, so, that's that. I think the universe booted me out of my last romantic relationship because I had started developing the idea that I could just live a quiet life with her and not have to deal with being in the public eye at all. I think I'm back on track now, and hopefully at some point I will be able to balance being in a relationship with pursuing my own goals.
watching this after i went on a drive by myself and i felt so lonely but i knew that nobody else would be able to give me what I’m looking for because I’ve built such a beautiful depth and love within myself that I would just much rather embrace my independence than to rush to a connection thats not meant to happen right now. i feel seen by this video thank you!
my north node is in gemini and the first house, crazy that i’m learning this as i’ve also been learning to step into my authentic self. my spiritual journey has kind of catapulted in the last few months. i defintely still have shit to work through relating to abandonment issues (which makes so much sense after watching this video). i went through so much in my teens and have had to take care of myself since then in so many ways and have felt guilt for not being able to be there for others and have also lost so many friends because of those trying periods in my life. this was so insightful, thank you thank you
Pisces 1st house north node and I have my 10 house In Sagittarius Saturn , Uranus and mars are in there as well and I totally get that walking alone I’ve have and still feel that I have to little children who love me unconditionally 5 and 7 but I’m there guide and protector right now and they give me the strength to stand even firmer in my knowing because of how deeply I love. Now I hold great discernment. Thanks for this video dear right on time!
I have my NN in the 1H, in cancer. It’s conj my cancer ASC and Gemini sun. You mentioned 10H and I do have a sidereal 10H Venus/moon. But I do feel like I’m forced to commit to myself and that will open the door to many possibilities. Now, my mars is in my 6H in sag, it’s rx + conj my pluto/Chiron… and since I have 5 placements in my 12H, I know balancing those out will be important
North node in gemini in the 1st house, Mars in aries in the 11th. I’ve noticed the pattern in myself wanting to shy away from the personal spotlight and lose myself in the group, but the more I embrace being alone I realize how much peace it brings me. The loneliness is definitely there, I find myself in between feeling “stuck” Like the isolation is a punishment, and choosing it. Very informative video❤️I feel very seen and heard
I have Virgo Asc in 30*, Chiron and NN are located in Libra there, in first house. Also I have stellium of Saturn-Mars-Mercury-Sun on the border of Pisces and Aries on Dsc. I always was a "solitary player", having only one friend, but I changed 3 schools and 3 places of living because my family moved a lot. Everybody paid attention to me but I was never happy about that as I wish to be in a small group of friends who could treat each other as brother/sisters (I think this is an influence of Gemini Moon in 9 house). There was plenty of people around me but nevertheless I felt alone and disappointed that I couldn't get in touch with my only friend every time I needed. Some time ago I realized that I live and work better alone without guardians and people who always ask me for help. When I dive into someone's problems I can lost myself in it and forget how I look like or who I am at all. So now I'm 27 and understand that I'm really powerful person (despite of Jupiter squares N/S Nodes and Pluto 45*/135* N/S Nodes) and I can get everything what I want and deserve. I write a sci-fi novel, keep learning advanced English, visit my doctors and recently I've started to study music because that was a dream from my childhood. I have a partner who is independent and we don't interrupt each other. I think that having NN in 1st house is a great opportunity to live your own life, refuse insecurity and lack of strength to keep up alone on your way.
I have an Aries rising Taurus NN in the first house. Literally almost everything you’ve said resonates so much with me haha. Ive been journaling recently and literally ive written word for word some of the things you just said 🤣
Nice to know there's ppl with similar placements , Mars in 9th house and NN in 1st cancer rising with leo north node and I'm fully embracing this spiritual path regardless of who looks at me awkwardly. ✅️
Thank you for sharing your personal and unique perspective. That felt healing to me since we are similar. Yes I feel your pain deeply on the loneliness. I am a Taurus NN and it’s almost an exact conjunction on my ascendant. My Pluto, mars and Juno oppose my 1H inside a BRUTAL Scorpio 7H stellium mafia 😆 I can’t begin to tell you how this one has been to live. Jupiter is in my 10H ruled by Aquarius. I know I’m supposed to be hella famous but it hasn’t happened yet and I have done nothing but struggle my entire life and feel like no one really usually cares, knows what I’ve been through emotionally or has space for me the way I offer others in return. My parents are there for me physically and for that I am grateful, but when it comes to emotions, they don’t understand their own emotions so how can they be there for mine? It’s been a very lonely life indeed but also beautiful I guess. Romantic partners have NEVER worked out. No kids. Single for life and I’m almost 40. Barely have had sex either. Saturn 8H. Deeply starved for intimacy but it’s not happening. I just want to be famous af at this point, I fucking deserve it damnit. I worked so fucking hard for everything and been through so damn much. I’m over it! I’m sure MANY of you feel the same way. I’m ready to tour the world to sold out crowds with my music about all the pain I’ve been through so others can heal through it. We can heal together! I need my music career to take off so I finally win SOMETHING in life and not feel so shitty. Also, thought you all might find this interesting as NN 1H placements. Years ago, part of the reason I named myself Indee Star ⭐️ was to symbolize the independence and stability I have been desperately seeking my entire life. One day. Apparently….it’s my destiny ✨
I’ve never felt so seen nn aqua 1st. moon conjunct sn I’ve spent my first half of my life in karmic relationships and now am learning to live on my own in my thirties. The moon on sn is hard many issues w the mother and inter generational trauma I adopted from her and her same issues.. Uranus conjunct Saturn in 11th so awkward in groups and more outsider qualities 😅 the isolation seems to be my go to coping mechanism and I learn to enjoy my alone time more as I grow older. Growing up I was always with friends and lived communally. Grew up in a big family always active. Now that I have time to myself and am alone a lot it was hard to get used to. I don’t feel like I have a solid friend group anymore, I’m definitely a lone wolf now days. It’s nice to just be responsible for myself now. My childhood imposed some restrictions which led to more feelings of isolation as well which I wonder if that’s common.
Hmm. Ist house Pisces nn and Mars in 9th house as well. I have been forced into foreign lands and isolated there. Super isolated at times because of this. Interesting. Thank you. Most of life has been alone as well and having to let go of criticism and control (Pisces)
i have my mars in the 4th house in Libra where my saturn and pluto are too! This is very confusing to me..I learned how to build a solid relationship with my self over the years but i would like to have a family and children..being a loner my whole life...thank you
Same same same. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. took some time, but I’ve come to similar realisations recently. It’s been a game changer - putting yourself first, with this placement. Anyway, thank you, rooting for you
This is one of the most profound videos that I’ve ever watched. It’s made me cry! I have my North Node in the 1st house (Leo). Pluto in the 4th house (Scorpio). Mars in the 5th house (Sagittarius). I’m older than you (35), but hopefully it’s okay for me to comment here? I have a diagnosis of Complex PTSD as a consequence of childhood abuse and violence. My psychologist suspects that my father is a sociopath and that my mother has “multiple severe” personality disorders. Growing up, I was incredibly lonely. My father was always away from home. He prioritised his own self-seeking interests (women, money, alcohol etc). My mother is extremely violent. She would beat me - kicking and punching my body. I’ve never had a proper conversation with her. She was never interested in knowing me, or allowing me to know her. She never gave hugs or kisses, or told me that she loved me. I have a younger sibling, but my parents triangulated her against me with lies and smears. My parents set up an ‘every man for himself’ model in our family. For example, when I was a teenager, I had to have major life-saving surgery. I went for the surgery alone. My family didn’t visit me in the hospital. They didn’t do the things that normal families do (give a card, bring grapes or magazines to the hospital, keep me company). They didn’t even call the hospital to check if I was okay. 😔 When I was 30, I had a breakdown with PTSD. I’d been a people-pleaser until that point and had burned out. As part of my PTSD, I developed depression, a panic disorder and agoraphobia. I’ve barely left my house in the last five years. I went no contact with both of my parents. The solitude is a blessing - I need to repair from the harm caused by others - but also excruciating because I feel such intense pangs of loneliness. I feel all alone in the world. I feel stuck in this strange place of being alone, but also having no purpose. My life feels pointless. It makes me feel suicidal. My Mars is in the 5th house in Sagittarius. Is this a clue of how I can get out of this unhappiness and find purpose? I’m unable to have children. Should I try to do something creative? Or is the 5th house about more than just children and creativity. You have great wisdom and I feel that I can learn a lot from you. I’ve subscribed to your channel today and will be so happy to support you going forward. 🕊️ x
My mars and north node both in 1st house for Virgo any thoughts ? Very appreciative of this vid. Very great explanation of everything… I’ve dealt with my emotions and everything alone throughout life and I feel so empowered now. Sometimes it sucks thinking about it but I don’t need anyone else to make me feel better lol I am my own healer.
So I have this placement. Mars virgo 1st and North node virgo 1st house. So I can explain from direct experience. You may be the sort of person that places your entire faith into a higher power, astrology, esoteric tools etc You also might be someone who goes with the flow a bit too much. In this current lifetime with that north node virgo 1st you are meant to IMPROVE YOURSELF, CREATE THE FLOW. HAVE A SENSE OF DIRECTION FOR YOUR OWN LIFE, WRITE YOUR OWN GOALS INSTEAD OF JUST SAYING "THE UNIVERSE WILL HANDLE IT", BE SELFISH WITH YOUR TIME, ENERGY, GET CLARITY ON WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU WANT TO SHOW UP IN THIS WORLD, STOP MERGING YOUR IDENTITY SO MUCH WITH OTHERS AROUND YOU AND INSTEAD, GET VERY CLEAR ON WHO YOU ARE AS AN INDIVIDUAL. INITIATE YOUR GOALS, DONT WAIT AROUND FOR ANYONE TO START THINGS IN THIS LIFE TIME YOU GAVE PERMISSION TO BE SELFISH, FOCUSED ON YOU IN ITS ENTIRETY, DEVELOP YOURSELF, SPEND TIME WISELY, QUIT DAYDREAMING AND PARTICIPATE IN LIFE. With this placement - with that south node pisces 7th house we are so use to merging our energy with others and quite literally going with THEIR flow and floating in the background of THEIR lives. But you will find you will never grow STUCK in this habit, it only feels comfortable but it will never lead you to success, fulfillment or satisfaction in this life. I'm not saying you won't have any relationships in this life but we won't have any HEALTHY ones until we embark on our own path. North node virgo 1st.
@@ryyreads Thank you ! This totally makes sense considering I have an issue with wanting to merge energies and become one with romantic partners. What’s really interesting is my current person of interest his NN is in Virgo as well just a different house. I find myself attracting Aquarius moons and dating mainly emotionally independent men. Sometimes I want more attention sometimes I’m like you know what this feels healthy and it teaches me to be okay alone and get in touch with myself. I felt good reading what you wrote to me… over the last past 3 years I’ve written down goals and I feel like everything is achievable it’s more so just getting myself to the financial spot I need to be in to make it all come together. Would you say career could be a big focus for us as well or just self development ? Or would career goals simply tie in with self development ? 🫶🏽🫶🏽
Hihi, north node conjunct asc in cancer, with a sag moon conjunct Neptune and conjunct sun in Cap (out of sign) plus also yes, a asc/dsc squaring Pluto and Saturn. So all this. My experience has been extreme isolation, misidentification , my appearance is unique and it’s impossible to hide, yet through my youth and even now I find myself struggling to maintain a healthy idea of who I am. I keep noticing I can’t rely on others for this but when I can it’s because I can feel emotionally safe with someone (cancer?) and when they don’t mind my boldness (sag moon?) and deep philosophical and spiritual nature, plus I’m extremely sensitive and I see that as a golden quality 😀 (Neptune…) There’s so much more I could say 😄
I have this placement in Scorpio conjunct my AC exactly. I have Mars in Leo 10H conjunct MC. I wouldn’t say I feel lonely (I have a lot of amazing friends), but there’s certain areas I don’t get help in like finances. I had to work my butt off in my career and I’m in my second year of long-term unemployment despite being highly skilled. I decided to stop working as hard in my career because it doesn’t result in anything.
I have Jupiter in Scorpio conjunct the ascendant in the 1st house, and Pluto and the north node conjunct in Scorpio in the 1st house. I feel like my Mars in the 8th house makes it easier working through all this plutonic/scorpionic energy.
Hear hear, hear hear, NN Scorpio in 1 here opposite Lilith Taurus, sextile Neptune and Uranus. Here here, a hard life without any direction, not even ONE DIRECTION. Saturn came back and I came back with it. Thank you NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNorth Node in 1 people.
THIS placement is very intense and prevalent for me. I have north node virgo in 1st house, mars rx in 1st house and rahu in virgo 1st house. aries 8th so the universe is definitely all my life been prompting me towards being more of an aries. And i have always like aries my mom is an aries. I am always consciously incorporating my north node energy. its very satisfying and fulfilling. ❤
You are spot on, I am a Leo rising, Scorpio on the 4th cusp, with a cap sun and moon in the 5th house of Leo, north node Virgo 1st house with mars Jupiter Uranus and Venus in Aquarius 6th house, im still learning the game in this but I experience ALOT.
NN first with Pluto. Mars in 10. All of my personal planets in 7. It’s very confusing to be so into relationship and have this life be focusing me on solitude.
You actually need relationships to enhance your sense of self so you can still seek them out and have them, but those placements just indicate that it will be a balancing act of maintaining your individuality and personal power within those relationships which may warrant periods of isolation
i have gemini north node conjunct my gemini ascendant in my 1st house, orb 1°. also black moon lilith in aries happening in my 11th; very much lone wolf
My NN is in my 1st house in Leo, just imagine how much I have to work on being the protagonist of my own life. I'm doing it and I'll fully get there. The only thing that concerns me is that I have mars in libra in 2nd house. Do you have any suggestions about it?
Hmmm it’s hard to give a good suggestion without seeing the whole chart but I will say mars in the 2nd house is so good because it will drive you to define your values which builds the person you become more than anything else. (essentially supporting your 1st house)- But with libra you might have had issues having clear and defined values that are true to you. You’re so right leo in the 1st house is such a main character energy! And a main character would know what they want, what’s important to them and who they are 🌟
Very insightful. I definitely been through a lot all on my own (Pluto Scorpio pluto in 8th)got an Aries sun in 1st house with Mercury in Pisces on 1st house and Mars in Capricorn in 11 house sextile my Pisces North Node in 1st house also my ascendant in Aquarius in 1st house at 29 degree. I have a busy 1st house!! Other than becoming truly confident in who i am through spirituality ?? Maybe? Is there anything else you could share about my placements? I would very much appreciate it. Thank you!
Pluto is sextiling my NN in my natal chart. Pluto is transiting in the sign opposite my north node as Pluto is in Capricorn right now (anaretic degree 29) while my NN is in Cancer. I think I'm being put in situations to make me feel guilty. With my personal planets in a stellium on the MC in Pisces in the 10th house opposite Pluto conjunct Uranus, it's obvious to me that I must have chosen this experience. I had NO idea that the 10th house is also Isolation, thank you for telling me. My chart's 3/4s water so I'm just Feeling this all day long, and all night too, for decades. My NN is inconjunct Black Moon Lilith. My Mars in the stellium I have in Pisces is sesquiquadrate (35*) from my NN. My Moon is trining Mars too. Anger is my biggest bugaboo emotion since my 1st Saturn Return, and I'm now in my 2nd Saturn Return and anger is still vexing me. I'm mostly bedridden with chronic illness and pain and have been since my 1st Saturn Return. This video was very validating for me. Thank you. 👍
I have a nn Scorpio in my 1st house Libra. Sun, Mercury, venus n Saturn in my 10th house. Rather similar are we2? Had a spiritual awakening since 2020. Life has been exciting n upside down since then. Been a ppl pleaser who is now trying to get independent n be more fucus on myself n this triggered many ppl including family n friends as i m no longer of use to their beck n call. Feeling misunderstood n upset n Def alone for their judgement of me. N subconsciously always wanted to go right back to pleasing them back as a default. I have to learn n continously remind myself to stand in my power n b firmed. 😅
I definitely understand wanting to go back to pleasing as a default 😭 but honestly it feels so good now when people start to exit or slowly distance themself from me after they realize that I’m putting myself first lol
My first house Sagittarius and mars Scorpio in the 12TH I have this feeling that comes over me when it comes to making money or work, if I don’t feel it it’s hard to compromise, sometimes I feel like I give up but it’s hard to fight this feeling.. what is that Also no one truly sees me to help
I share this placement with you and I must say that you are spot on in your explanation of this energy. You are highly intuitive and an intelligent young lady. You are being set up for GREATNESS!! Keep doing what you do!❤️🫂
I disagree. I have this placement in cancer with a moon in the 8th. I’d love nothing more than to have soul deep bonds with all of the people I love and know. I also know that I am misunderstood and judged at times by them, but such is being human. And haven’t we all done the same at some point? We grow from it. Doesn’t mean I need to be alone to grow. It means I need very strong boundaries within myself and my relationships in order to continue to expand spiritually and emotionally in my life for myself. If I have no boundaries with myself or others, and I choose to be alone, how will I learn anything in this life? How will anything new occur if I am just: alone? Meeting no one? NN/Rahu in the 1st is not a life condemned to be alone. I believe it’s the opportunity to finally know that it’s your turn in this lifetime to put yourself first. You just need to learn how to navigate that the right way. Isolation is lonely. To be “alone” and truly focused on yourself is a blessing. Love yourself and your people all the same. put yourself first in the best of ways and watch your life bloom.
This placement does give you a strong presence you can feel it everywhere you go. In Vedic having rahu in the first house means there’s a lot to do with destiny in this life time a lot of events are fated. this placement gives you a strong durable athletic body,Ascendent in the 1st (Virgo) so true what you said about having Virgo here. I really don’t like wasting my time but I have tendency to fall towards my south node ( pieces) I tend to just want to isolate not participate in the world and just learn about esoteric topics all day. But I know I have to be in my north node for my life to be progressing thankfully I know how to tap into that energy. Also it sucks having to go through so much fucked up shit in order to become solid mentally but I am glad I have my strength. Also the isolation required from having this placement helps you become your best friend.
That’s a good point u mentioned bc I didn’t think about how much I unknowingly fall into my pisces south node because I feel like I can isolate more than what’s
necessary for me or just not in a healthy way. And virgo is all about showing up, participation and contributing to society; I really feel like now I have to learn how to integrate both sides because I’m at a point where I’m solid enough mentally too
Hmm.. my car plate that they randomly gave me (because I did not pick a preferential one) has in it the word "destiny" in an old European language...😅
Wow omg!!!! This is my LIFEEEEEE every word! I didn’t notice how much I was living in my south node (Pisces) until I started watching these type of videos months ago, although it is a little challenging to activate the north node in Virgo I know the rewards will be worth it, thank you for this beautiful intake 🩷and I have NN and Virgo rising in my 1st house 😭
Now I understand why I'm always the lone wolf. Thank you for the video.
Oh girl, all of this resonated... but I'll try not to overthink and just write down the main things. First off, yes, I have a strong energy... and I've always felt a big responsibility to "balance out" my energy, or clear it or whatever, before I spend time with anyone... otherwise I just know I will bring the energy down because I feel its power. I tended in the past to be ashamed of this, thinking that this way of thinking is, like, egotistical. But it is not something I want... it's just there, and now I see how my energy is very intense and that I'm not just making this up. Secondly, yes, I have always felt the need to choose myself first, even over those closest to me, and this has always felt less like a selfish act and more as a survival strategy.
What you mentioned about dying a million deaths and only you knowing/understanding that... can totally relate there too. I've been through the craziest shit, but a lot of it is deeply personal and so bizarre that I don't even attempt to explain it to people. Or when I do, I just get these big eyes and a polite smile in response. I've always felt like an alien. And also how you said that we often change according to what we think people think of us... yet, on the other hand, as you mentioned, when I step into my power and my authenticity I carry this power, almost, that will bend people's misconceptions of me and make them regret ever having thought less of me. Actually, this has been one sort of "redemption" theme in my life that keeps coming up - people understimating me - usually my intelligence or my assertiveness - and then I end up shocking them by showing them who I really am - and the look/feeling of shock is satisfting to me, almost. It's almost been a good test of people's character - there's ones who feed off me being "weak" and "helpless" but they don't know the shit I've been through and how resilient I really am.
I just recently started delving deep into astrology, and I only discovered this placement today. When I discovered it, i was like oh.... my.... godddd. No wonder this is where i ended up! I have been isolating for years and in a deep place of self-discovery. I had to cut most of my family off. I had NO sense of who I was until recently, and so this isolation has been amazing and necessary. Sorry this became an essay... I'm sure I've missed stuff, but I'm with you and I get it. I'm not closed off to being in a relationship, but to be honest, it is hard to imagine one that would sync up with the weird life history and soul stuff I have going on... but I am definitely leaving myself open to it. But yeah... thanks again
I have Aries ♈️ in the first house and I definitely felt what u we’re saying, like every time I make a friend and we become close it goes bad, like I feel like the world will not let me get close to ppl
This is a very lonely placement. I have NN in the 1st house of Scorpio. In my 10th house of Leo I have Saturn. In the 12 house (also associated with isolation) I have a stellium: Sun, and then Pluto and Mercury conjunct. I've actually felt lonely all my life. Everytime I would make headway in a career relationships, friendships - the Universe pulled me right back into isolation and solitude. During the covid pandemic I went through a very difficult time, and I had to do it alone. I walked away from toxic family members, narcissistic "friends". I've been completely alone since 2020, and through studying astrology I have come to understand why I must be alone in this lifetime. It sucks. But nobody ever said soul growth was easy. I wish you all well on your individual journeys. Shine bright. 🙏🌟
Jeeeezuss I just read and was like ur fkd… hahaha.. I had a thought today like the container of energy that u are is built perfectly to contain that energy.. so it’s like ur god doing it for god and u built urself as u to do u.. soo take that and know clearly it’s perfect and we’re powerful in our own place.. thank u for holding this energy for us!!
@@foxsilver6273 Thank you. 🙏💖🌟
I have the same north node in scorpio 1st house and a totally different vision about it. 😮
I’m a Taurus sun 7th house so I have dealt with putting other people first this lifetime too. Way too much to the point I struggle with suicidal ideation for more than a decade. You are NOT missing out on anything I’m telling you… even if it was our reverse nodal return lately and it ends tomorrow btw… I tried relationships again and it was such a waste of time but I thought I had to try for my reverse nodal return. Still did the work with family members.
I also have moon conjunct north node in scorpio 1st house so I felt my whole life that I craved solitude so much. I had to write an essay to my father to explain to him how my solitude was not imposed but chosen and that I felt better this way (because I was forced to go wherever he went for a big part of my life)…
When I discovered my north node… I felt understood for the first time in my life. I did a lot for people. When I say a lot I meant I traumatized myself for others. Traumas that I still have to deal with until this day and that makes my life much harder. I volunteered literally to self sacrifice so many times so at some point you learn to take advantage before being taken advantage of. The north node in scorpio 1st house isn’t telling you that you have to stay single but IF you want to enter a relationship, one must do it in an INDIVIDUALISTIC way. Which means your wants and needs are your priority, not the partners… or it won’t work.
I decided for me that it’s better that I don’t marry or have kids. It was such a relief when I realized (not long ago) that I could just decide it. Yes people make it harder and ask me all the time when I will marry have kids etc but I don’t even have my career planned out. Most people won’t give you good advices when you have a north node in the 1st house. A lot of things will come to us through our intuition.
I cut off people way too easily now. Right now I’m at a point in my life where I feel like I can’t stand people anymore and crave so much solitude but I can’t. Because the north node transiting into aries from tomorrow until January 2025 in the 6th house of us Scorpio rising won’t be about solitude so yeah. It’s more likely to be about relationships breaking up but also work and health and routines… but the 6th house isn’t the 12th house so it’s not about what’s hidden and isolation.
I’m like an addict when it comes to solitude. I always tell myself that men aren’t competing witv other men when it comes to dating me… they are competing with my solitude. And there’s no man in this world that will be able to be better than my solitude. None. I have gained so much knowledge and understanding through solitude. I harmed myself so much through self harm and suicide attempts because of drama and issues with people that left me drained.
Before realizing my true north node in scorpio 1st house, I didn’t even knew it was a possibility to have to focus on yourself your whole life. I had a vision of selfishness that was so wrong. That’s the thing with us south node (and sun) in the 7th house… we think we are selfish when we just are taking care of ourselves..
@@helixevol that’s lovely,, ur like poetry!!
I feel like for the first time that people (with a nn in ist house) can actually understand and emphasize with a similar experience to mine.
I am nn in 1st house Pisces (ASC). My mars is in 12th Aquarius which squares my sun, mercury, jupiter (stelium 2nd) and pluto (8th), on the bright side it Mars trines moon and venus. My south node is in 7th Libra where my moon lives. However I'm not sure hownto remedy, and transmute the aspects/energies listed above. I'm 35 single and finally realize why I feel destined to experience life for myself. However, being in pisces, I find it very challenging to ground myself and make a plan and take action towards a goal, on this solo journey
Oh, yes, thank you, I really feel so isolated and lonely, I really have no one to help me with anything, despite the fact that I am admired by many. People just have no idea how lonely and challenging my life is. I used to think that Libra first house NN is not a bad thing, that just pushed you to respect your own desires and your own way of doing things, but now I have been through so much solitude, that no one would even believe me.
@@soul-etude ❤️you’re not alone I feel where you’re coming from
My North Node is in Cancer in 1st house and its been difficult for me but at the same time this isolation phase helps me grow spiritually. ❤
It resonates so much! I love the "you tell people who you are, people don't tell you who you are".
My life was set up in so many ways to force me to be on my own.
As someone with this placement, I can't thank you enough for making this video and also for being as vulnerable as you are in sharing your experiences. I really wanted to applaud you for that. I can truly see the pain that this placement has caused you, and I understand completely. I have North Node in 1st house with my South Node in the 7th conjunct Pluto. There's nothing like the pain that comes with the lifelong yearning for someone else to save you, and having to realize that you are the greatest love that you will likely ever experience. I get that feeling of powerlessness, but through your channel you've created a community of other people who now don't feel so alone because of you. I think you're well on your way to your purpose. Looking forward to binging your other videos x
This means so much, thank you 🥹
I have north node conjunct ascendant in Capricorn in the 1st house. It can be a lonely road, with lots of time spent on my own. I have to be my own cheerleader. The good news is that I have been blessed with an outer persona that is intertwined and can handle this karmic path of self discover and achievement. Its very good for growing your spiritual life and learning what true self sufficiency is really all about.
Yes I really feel the part about having to be your own cheerleader
Pisces rising/Pisces north node in 1st house=dissolation of the self.
I’m so glad I found your channel. This video made me feel so understood 😢. Thank you❤
Mám severní uzel v 1. domě ve štíru + uran ve štíru - v krizích nacházím svoji sílu, podporu a štěstí. Učím se překonávat strach a projít temnotou ke světlu. Všechno co hledám nakonec najdu uvnitř sebe sama. Ve své citlivosti musím být i silná. Dávám pochopení sama sobě. V temnotě se rozzáří světlo. Moje jediná jistota je, že žádnou nemám a v tom je ta síla, že se nemůžu opírat o vnějšek, ale o vnitřek. Děkuji!
I too have both Uranus and the NN in Scorpio in the 1st house
This is a challenging placement for me because I am an introvert (Gemini rising with Saturn and NN in 1H )but at the same time I like being around people and having a good time (I have sun in 11th house stellium and sag in 7H)
So I literally am good at making friends and can adapt to most situations but I still feel alone and like I can’t really count on anyone but me
Oooh I also have my sun and stellium in the 11th house and my NN in 1st house. Like you, I can easily strike conversation with people, and I am quite sociable and friendly, but the moment always come when these friendships, relationships evaporate... pouf! Also, I always feel like people don't really see me/get me. It is challenging indeed!
dude. north node gemini 1st, moon in 10th, pluto 7th house so opposite. It gets so sad sometimes even though it feels somewhat like i’m on the right path. oh and lilith 11th 💀 ugh
I also have NN Gemini in the 1st, Pluto with SN in the 7th. Ascendant ruler Mercury with my Sun and Lilith (I have Sun conjunct Lilith), all in Pisces in the 10th. My 7th ruler Jupiter is in Cancer in the 1st. It's almost exactly trine my Mercury which I think is my saving grace. I have been emotionally and psychologically dependent on others, wanting comfort and support and to just retreat into a safe space. Wanting my relationships to be stable and permanent, but so far, they never have been. I understand now that the only way for me to be in relationships that are good for me, is to do my own thing, and continue focusing on myself and my goals even when I am in relationships. Because I get too comfortable in them, so comfortable that I stop having the desire to put myself out there and experience the difficulties of being my own person. But that's what I'm here to do, so, that's that. I think the universe booted me out of my last romantic relationship because I had started developing the idea that I could just live a quiet life with her and not have to deal with being in the public eye at all. I think I'm back on track now, and hopefully at some point I will be able to balance being in a relationship with pursuing my own goals.
watching this after i went on a drive by myself and i felt so lonely but i knew that nobody else would be able to give me what I’m looking for because I’ve built such a beautiful depth and love within myself that I would just much rather embrace my independence than to rush to a connection thats not meant to happen right now. i feel seen by this video thank you!
I feel seen by this comment lol 🥹thanks for watching
my north node is in gemini and the first house, crazy that i’m learning this as i’ve also been learning to step into my authentic self. my spiritual journey has kind of catapulted in the last few months. i defintely still have shit to work through relating to abandonment issues (which makes so much sense after watching this video). i went through so much in my teens and have had to take care of myself since then in so many ways and have felt guilt for not being able to be there for others and have also lost so many friends because of those trying periods in my life. this was so insightful, thank you thank you
Pisces 1st house north node and I have my 10 house In Sagittarius Saturn , Uranus and mars are in there as well and I totally get that walking alone I’ve have and still feel that I have to little children who love me unconditionally 5 and 7 but I’m there guide and protector right now and they give me the strength to stand even firmer in my knowing because of how deeply I love. Now I hold great discernment. Thanks for this video dear right on time!
I have my NN in the 1H, in cancer. It’s conj my cancer ASC and Gemini sun. You mentioned 10H and I do have a sidereal 10H Venus/moon. But I do feel like I’m forced to commit to myself and that will open the door to many possibilities. Now, my mars is in my 6H in sag, it’s rx + conj my pluto/Chiron… and since I have 5 placements in my 12H, I know balancing those out will be important
North node in gemini in the 1st house, Mars in aries in the 11th. I’ve noticed the pattern in myself wanting to shy away from the personal spotlight and lose myself in the group, but the more I embrace being alone I realize how much peace it brings me. The loneliness is definitely there, I find myself in between feeling “stuck” Like the isolation is a punishment, and choosing it.
Very informative video❤️I feel very seen and heard
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this!
I have Virgo Asc in 30*, Chiron and NN are located in Libra there, in first house. Also I have stellium of Saturn-Mars-Mercury-Sun on the border of Pisces and Aries on Dsc. I always was a "solitary player", having only one friend, but I changed 3 schools and 3 places of living because my family moved a lot. Everybody paid attention to me but I was never happy about that as I wish to be in a small group of friends who could treat each other as brother/sisters (I think this is an influence of Gemini Moon in 9 house). There was plenty of people around me but nevertheless I felt alone and disappointed that I couldn't get in touch with my only friend every time I needed. Some time ago I realized that I live and work better alone without guardians and people who always ask me for help. When I dive into someone's problems I can lost myself in it and forget how I look like or who I am at all. So now I'm 27 and understand that I'm really powerful person (despite of Jupiter squares N/S Nodes and Pluto 45*/135* N/S Nodes) and I can get everything what I want and deserve. I write a sci-fi novel, keep learning advanced English, visit my doctors and recently I've started to study music because that was a dream from my childhood. I have a partner who is independent and we don't interrupt each other. I think that having NN in 1st house is a great opportunity to live your own life, refuse insecurity and lack of strength to keep up alone on your way.
What do you record with? Seeing new, smaller, black, astrologers is truly inspiring. I want to connect more as well
Yess I would love to connect all my socials are in my bio! And I use my iPhone for everything
my daughter has NN intercepted in her 1h. Shes 9 currently but I'll keep this in mind for her
got this one, plus stellium 10th. does get cold
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I have an Aries rising Taurus NN in the first house. Literally almost everything you’ve said resonates so much with me haha. Ive been journaling recently and literally ive written word for word some of the things you just said 🤣
Makes sense 😭😭
Well shoot I’d love to be friends and connect on this deeper bc we have very similar placements but our north node 1H might have other plans 😂
Nice to know there's ppl with similar placements , Mars in 9th house and NN in 1st cancer rising with leo north node and I'm fully embracing this spiritual path regardless of who looks at me awkwardly. ✅️
I have this and suffer from loneliness, Ipray everyday for help but it feels I get no answers and I’m stuck. I hate being stuck.
Thank you for sharing your personal and unique perspective. That felt healing to me since we are similar. Yes I feel your pain deeply on the loneliness. I am a Taurus NN and it’s almost an exact conjunction on my ascendant. My Pluto, mars and Juno oppose my 1H inside a BRUTAL Scorpio 7H stellium mafia 😆 I can’t begin to tell you how this one has been to live. Jupiter is in my 10H ruled by Aquarius. I know I’m supposed to be hella famous but it hasn’t happened yet and I have done nothing but struggle my entire life and feel like no one really usually cares, knows what I’ve been through emotionally or has space for me the way I offer others in return. My parents are there for me physically and for that I am grateful, but when it comes to emotions, they don’t understand their own emotions so how can they be there for mine?
It’s been a very lonely life indeed but also beautiful I guess. Romantic partners have NEVER worked out. No kids. Single for life and I’m almost 40. Barely have had sex either. Saturn 8H. Deeply starved for intimacy but it’s not happening. I just want to be famous af at this point, I fucking deserve it damnit. I worked so fucking hard for everything and been through so damn much. I’m over it! I’m sure MANY of you feel the same way. I’m ready to tour the world to sold out crowds with my music about all the pain I’ve been through so others can heal through it. We can heal together!
I need my music career to take off so I finally win SOMETHING in life and not feel so shitty.
Also, thought you all might find this interesting as NN 1H placements. Years ago, part of the reason I named myself Indee Star ⭐️ was to symbolize the independence and stability I have been desperately seeking my entire life. One day. Apparently….it’s my destiny ✨
That was really nice to listen to.
So young yet so wise...Appreciation!
I’ve never felt so seen nn aqua 1st. moon conjunct sn I’ve spent my first half of my life in karmic relationships and now am learning to live on my own in my thirties. The moon on sn is hard many issues w the mother and inter generational trauma I adopted from her and her same issues.. Uranus conjunct Saturn in 11th so awkward in groups and more outsider qualities 😅 the isolation seems to be my go to coping mechanism and I learn to enjoy my alone time more as I grow older. Growing up I was always with friends and lived communally. Grew up in a big family always active. Now that I have time to myself and am alone a lot it was hard to get used to. I don’t feel like I have a solid friend group anymore, I’m definitely a lone wolf now days. It’s nice to just be responsible for myself now. My childhood imposed some restrictions which led to more feelings of isolation as well which I wonder if that’s common.
Hmm. Ist house Pisces nn and Mars in 9th house as well. I have been forced into foreign lands and isolated there. Super isolated at times because of this. Interesting. Thank you. Most of life has been alone as well and having to let go of criticism and control (Pisces)
i have my mars in the 4th house in Libra where my saturn and pluto are too! This is very confusing to me..I learned how to build a solid relationship with my self over the years but i would like to have a family and children..being a loner my whole life...thank you
Same same same. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. took some time, but I’ve come to similar realisations recently.
It’s been a game changer - putting yourself first, with this placement. Anyway, thank you, rooting for you
Thank you ❤️ I really appreciate that
This is one of the most profound videos that I’ve ever watched. It’s made me cry! I have my North Node in the 1st house (Leo). Pluto in the 4th house (Scorpio). Mars in the 5th house (Sagittarius). I’m older than you (35), but hopefully it’s okay for me to comment here? I have a diagnosis of Complex PTSD as a consequence of childhood abuse and violence. My psychologist suspects that my father is a sociopath and that my mother has “multiple severe” personality disorders.
Growing up, I was incredibly lonely. My father was always away from home. He prioritised his own self-seeking interests (women, money, alcohol etc). My mother is extremely violent. She would beat me - kicking and punching my body. I’ve never had a proper conversation with her. She was never interested in knowing me, or allowing me to know her. She never gave hugs or kisses, or told me that she loved me. I have a younger sibling, but my parents triangulated her against me with lies and smears.
My parents set up an ‘every man for himself’ model in our family. For example, when I was a teenager, I had to have major life-saving surgery. I went for the surgery alone. My family didn’t visit me in the hospital. They didn’t do the things that normal families do (give a card, bring grapes or magazines to the hospital, keep me company). They didn’t even call the hospital to check if I was okay. 😔
When I was 30, I had a breakdown with PTSD. I’d been a people-pleaser until that point and had burned out. As part of my PTSD, I developed depression, a panic disorder and agoraphobia. I’ve barely left my house in the last five years. I went no contact with both of my parents. The solitude is a blessing - I need to repair from the harm caused by others - but also excruciating because I feel such intense pangs of loneliness. I feel all alone in the world.
I feel stuck in this strange place of being alone, but also having no purpose. My life feels pointless. It makes me feel suicidal. My Mars is in the 5th house in Sagittarius. Is this a clue of how I can get out of this unhappiness and find purpose? I’m unable to have children. Should I try to do something creative? Or is the 5th house about more than just children and creativity.
You have great wisdom and I feel that I can learn a lot from you. I’ve subscribed to your channel today and will be so happy to support you going forward. 🕊️ x
My mars and north node both in 1st house for Virgo any thoughts ? Very appreciative of this vid. Very great explanation of everything… I’ve dealt with my emotions and everything alone throughout life and I feel so empowered now. Sometimes it sucks thinking about it but I don’t need anyone else to make me feel better lol I am my own healer.
So I have this placement. Mars virgo 1st and North node virgo 1st house. So I can explain from direct experience. You may be the sort of person that places your entire faith into a higher power, astrology, esoteric tools etc You also might be someone who goes with the flow a bit too much. In this current lifetime with that north node virgo 1st you are meant to IMPROVE YOURSELF, CREATE THE FLOW. HAVE A SENSE OF DIRECTION FOR YOUR OWN LIFE, WRITE YOUR OWN GOALS INSTEAD OF JUST SAYING "THE UNIVERSE WILL HANDLE IT", BE SELFISH WITH YOUR TIME, ENERGY, GET CLARITY ON WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU WANT TO SHOW UP IN THIS WORLD, STOP MERGING YOUR IDENTITY SO MUCH WITH OTHERS AROUND YOU AND INSTEAD, GET VERY CLEAR ON WHO YOU ARE AS AN INDIVIDUAL. INITIATE YOUR GOALS, DONT WAIT AROUND FOR ANYONE TO START THINGS IN THIS LIFE TIME YOU GAVE PERMISSION TO BE SELFISH, FOCUSED ON YOU IN ITS ENTIRETY, DEVELOP YOURSELF, SPEND TIME WISELY, QUIT DAYDREAMING AND PARTICIPATE IN LIFE.
With this placement - with that south node pisces 7th house we are so use to merging our energy with others and quite literally going with THEIR flow and floating in the background of THEIR lives. But you will find you will never grow STUCK in this habit, it only feels comfortable but it will never lead you to success, fulfillment or satisfaction in this life. I'm not saying you won't have any relationships in this life but we won't have any HEALTHY ones until we embark on our own path. North node virgo 1st.
@@ryyreads Thank you ! This totally makes sense considering I have an issue with wanting to merge energies and become one with romantic partners. What’s really interesting is my current person of interest his NN is in Virgo as well just a different house. I find myself attracting Aquarius moons and dating mainly emotionally independent men. Sometimes I want more attention sometimes I’m like you know what this feels healthy and it teaches me to be okay alone and get in touch with myself. I felt good reading what you wrote to me… over the last past 3 years I’ve written down goals and I feel like everything is achievable it’s more so just getting myself to the financial spot I need to be in to make it all come together. Would you say career could be a big focus for us as well or just self development ? Or would career goals simply tie in with self development ? 🫶🏽🫶🏽
@@ryyreads thank you 🩷
Hihi, north node conjunct asc in cancer, with a sag moon conjunct Neptune and conjunct sun in Cap (out of sign) plus also yes, a asc/dsc squaring Pluto and Saturn.
So all this. My experience has been extreme isolation, misidentification , my appearance is unique and it’s impossible to hide, yet through my youth and even now I find myself struggling to maintain a healthy idea of who I am. I keep noticing I can’t rely on others for this but when I can it’s because I can feel emotionally safe with someone (cancer?) and when they don’t mind my boldness (sag moon?) and deep philosophical and spiritual nature, plus I’m extremely sensitive and I see that as a golden quality 😀 (Neptune…)
There’s so much more I could say 😄
I have this placement in Scorpio conjunct my AC exactly. I have Mars in Leo 10H conjunct MC. I wouldn’t say I feel lonely (I have a lot of amazing friends), but there’s certain areas I don’t get help in like finances. I had to work my butt off in my career and I’m in my second year of long-term unemployment despite being highly skilled. I decided to stop working as hard in my career because it doesn’t result in anything.
on gosh i really relate to every word you said as i’m aquarius nn in first house
I agree I shouldn’t get married or will be. Plus I’m gay. Leo north node first house. Ha! 😊
I have Jupiter in Scorpio conjunct the ascendant in the 1st house, and Pluto and the north node conjunct in Scorpio in the 1st house. I feel like my Mars in the 8th house makes it easier working through all this plutonic/scorpionic energy.
Hear hear, hear hear, NN Scorpio in 1 here opposite Lilith Taurus, sextile Neptune and Uranus. Here here, a hard life without any direction, not even ONE DIRECTION. Saturn came back and I came back with it. Thank you NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNorth Node in 1 people.
THIS placement is very intense and prevalent for me. I have north node virgo in 1st house, mars rx in 1st house and rahu in virgo 1st house. aries 8th so the universe is definitely all my life been prompting me towards being more of an aries. And i have always like aries my mom is an aries. I am always consciously incorporating my north node energy. its very satisfying and fulfilling. ❤
I have the south node there. South node Aquarius in 1 house, NN Leo in 7 house.
NN in 1st house Aquarius here! SN in Leo in 7th conjunct my sun btw! I can tell you a lot about this!
@@Freelysafe4 tell
You are spot on, I am a Leo rising, Scorpio on the 4th cusp, with a cap sun and moon in the 5th house of Leo, north node Virgo 1st house with mars Jupiter Uranus and Venus in Aquarius 6th house, im still learning the game in this but I experience ALOT.
NN first with Pluto. Mars in 10. All of my personal planets in 7. It’s very confusing to be so into relationship and have this life be focusing me on solitude.
You actually need relationships to enhance your sense of self so you can still seek them out and have them, but those placements just indicate that it will be a balancing act of maintaining your individuality and personal power within those relationships which may warrant periods of isolation
great video! I have NN in Virgo in the 1st house. My Mars is in Leo in the 11th house.
Both my lilith, rising, Mars and north node are in virgo as a ♓️ sun, all in the first house, while my moon in ♉️ is in the 9th
My Mars is in my 1st house too 😂😅 I'm scared as to what this means haha... but I'm ready for it
i have gemini north node conjunct my gemini ascendant in my 1st house, orb 1°. also black moon lilith in aries happening in my 11th; very much lone wolf
My NN is in my 1st house in Leo, just imagine how much I have to work on being the protagonist of my own life. I'm doing it and I'll fully get there. The only thing that concerns me is that I have mars in libra in 2nd house. Do you have any suggestions about it?
Hmmm it’s hard to give a good suggestion without seeing the whole chart but I will say mars in the 2nd house is so good because it will drive you to define your values which builds the person you become more than anything else. (essentially supporting your 1st house)- But with libra you might have had issues having clear and defined values that are true to you. You’re so right leo in the 1st house is such a main character energy! And a main character would know what they want, what’s important to them and who they are 🌟
My north node is in my 3rd house but in Aries ♈️ Sun/Mercury in Libra, Moon in Cancer, Mars/Rising Capricorn. 🥴 lol. Another great analysis ❤❤❤
pisces 10th house it's very lonely.
Very insightful. I definitely been through a lot all on my own (Pluto Scorpio pluto in 8th)got an Aries sun in 1st house with Mercury in Pisces on 1st house and Mars in Capricorn in 11 house sextile my Pisces North Node in 1st house also my ascendant in Aquarius in 1st house at 29 degree. I have a busy 1st house!! Other than becoming truly confident in who i am through spirituality ?? Maybe? Is there anything else you could share about my placements? I would very much appreciate it. Thank you!
Pluto is sextiling my NN in my natal chart.
Pluto is transiting in the sign opposite my north node as Pluto is in Capricorn right now (anaretic degree 29) while my NN is in Cancer.
I think I'm being put in situations to make me feel guilty. With my personal planets in a stellium on the MC in Pisces in the 10th house opposite Pluto conjunct Uranus, it's obvious to me that I must have chosen this experience. I had NO idea that the 10th house is also Isolation, thank you for telling me. My chart's 3/4s water so I'm just Feeling this all day long, and all night too, for decades.
My NN is inconjunct Black Moon Lilith.
My Mars in the stellium I have in Pisces is sesquiquadrate (35*) from my NN.
My Moon is trining Mars too. Anger is my biggest bugaboo emotion since my 1st Saturn Return, and I'm now in my 2nd Saturn Return and anger is still vexing me.
I'm mostly bedridden with chronic illness and pain and have been since my 1st Saturn Return.
This video was very validating for me. Thank you. 👍
Oddly I have NN conjunct my Ascendant but it actually falls in the 12th house. So not sure how to take that. But I related to this a lot.
I have a nn Scorpio in my 1st house Libra. Sun, Mercury, venus n Saturn in my 10th house. Rather similar are we2? Had a spiritual awakening since 2020. Life has been exciting n upside down since then. Been a ppl pleaser who is now trying to get independent n be more fucus on myself n this triggered many ppl including family n friends as i m no longer of use to their beck n call. Feeling misunderstood n upset n Def alone for their judgement of me. N subconsciously always wanted to go right back to pleasing them back as a default. I have to learn n continously remind myself to stand in my power n b firmed. 😅
I definitely understand wanting to go back to pleasing as a default 😭 but honestly it feels so good now when people start to exit or slowly distance themself from me after they realize that I’m putting myself first lol
My first house Sagittarius and mars Scorpio in the 12TH
I have this feeling that comes over me when it comes to making money or work, if I don’t feel it it’s hard to compromise, sometimes I feel like I give up but it’s hard to fight this feeling.. what is that
Also no one truly sees me to help
Hi could you help to how to utilise my mars , I have my north node in Gemini 1st house and Mars in Pisces in the 10th house
I share this placement with you and I must say that you are spot on in your explanation of this energy. You are highly intuitive and an intelligent young lady. You are being set up for GREATNESS!! Keep doing what you do!❤️🫂
Appreciate ur words so much thank you
I disagree. I have this placement in cancer with a moon in the 8th. I’d love nothing more than to have soul deep bonds with all of the people I love and know. I also know that I am misunderstood and judged at times by them, but such is being human. And haven’t we all done the same at some point? We grow from it. Doesn’t mean I need to be alone to grow. It means I need very strong boundaries within myself and my relationships in order to continue to expand spiritually and emotionally in my life for myself. If I have no boundaries with myself or others, and I choose to be alone, how will I learn anything in this life? How will anything new occur if I am just: alone? Meeting no one? NN/Rahu in the 1st is not a life condemned to be alone. I believe it’s the opportunity to finally know that it’s your turn in this lifetime to put yourself first. You just need to learn how to navigate that the right way. Isolation is lonely. To be “alone” and truly focused on yourself is a blessing. Love yourself and your people all the same. put yourself first in the best of ways and watch your life bloom.
Really struggling 😢
how so?
@@raquelintuitive in the career aspect like purpose with it all
I have north node in the 1st house in cancer (moon in 8th) and i also have mars in the 4th house. Does this mean breaking away from family?
Often times as an end result yes because those all indicate breaking away from family patterns, traditions, ways of being
@@raquelintuitive thank you! definitely feel this energy heavy.
I have my north node in the 1st house in cancer. I have mars in 5th house in libra. Any thoughts?
are they squaring each other?
9:42 10th house placement, “They say it’s lonely at the top!” ⛰️🐐
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