a good bad week: seasonal depression strikes
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 27 พ.ย. 2021
- this time of year is always a challenge; but i'm extra squishy given the circumstances.
i hope you're doing well. what kinds of things help you get through it?
take care of yourself: DBT exercises-
dialecticalbehaviortherapy.com
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take care of others: indigenous support&thanksgiving education-
www.narf.org/thanksgiving/
www.nativepartnership.org/site...
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I get a bit sad when listening to creators like yourself saying that it's not fair to make money doing "silly" things; eventhough I do understand the sentiment, I would not like to live in a world without "silly" things, without mundane beauty, without people doing things because they want to make and share some beauty. Take all the time you need, that we will be here waiting for another book-that-makes-you-cry suggestion ;)
ya know what, julia? you are very right.
hank green owns a jiggly furby that looks like it was made out of baked beans, and i’m so happy to live on a planet that such things exist.
Having a bad mental health week myself - basically ran to TH-cam hoping you had a new upload bc they always provide me with so much comfort. Crying so hard bc I needed this and I’m literally just grateful you exist and that you share your experience with all of us. Thank you ❤️
this is the most beautiful video, despite the fact you’re going through it right now you created this beautiful piece of ART, keep on loving this crazy lil life even when it’s hard, you’ve totally got this ❤️❤️❤️❤️
even while going through a difficult time you still manage to inspire ! take all the time you need and enjoy yourself
This made me cry. It genuinely felt like spoken word. I hope you`re feeling better and what you do isn`t silly! I look forward to your videos on Sunday they give me so much joy and comfort
Was totally dried eyed until you mentioned your sisters.Still crying now. I know that pain so well, living 8 years overseas and loving the place you’re in but just needing your family. They’re there Ally, and you gonna see them again. I hope you can feel so much love until then ❤️
Thank you for this video. I had a mentor who used to tell us "The world belongs to those who show up". I used to take that as the world belongs to those who participate speak up and give 110% always. Thank you for the reminder that showing up means bringing yourself to the table with whatever you have that day, even if it isnt fun or magical. Your authenticity is so comforting.
Your vulnerability and honesty gets me EVERY TIME, it takes a lotta strength to say that things are hard
Hello from a fellow expat that lives in the same little Belgian city as you do! 👋
I just discovered your channel a week ago (Leena Norms brought me here) and I feel like I can relate to your struggles and feeling so much. From the seasonal depression cycle to anxiety, selfdoubt and feelings of letting everyone and myself down, to the struggles of being abroad in a different country. You managed to put these complex emotions and thoughts into words so beautifully. Thank you for that! I hope you are doing better! 🤗
I always come back to this video when I’m having a bad day or struggling a little more than usual. I must’ve watched it at least 15 times now and it never fails to bring me comfort. Thank you Ally
This felt like the conclusion of a great indie film, beautiful, poignant and powerful
Thank you for sharing this. You often say you’re not a poetry girlie but these words are art. They are so beautifully spoken and you have such a purpose in this space. Thank you for continuing to create art with your words, thoughts, and creativity.
god, fuck. I watched this twice this week and it's made me cry each time. I've had a good bad week too. It's getting better, but it's still hard. I'm showing up tho. Thanks Allie.
"As the days grow shorter so does my tolerance for the current state of everything" just sums up everything right now. But it's nice to know it's not just me.
Dear Ally. Thank you so much for your honesty and thank you for showing up. I just wanted to say that your videos give me so much good energy and I find comfort in your content. I‘m having a really hard time at the moment and the dark season is not helping at all. Today was a day I couldn‘t get out of bed for most of the day, so I watched some of your videos and they filled my heart with warmth, light and joy. So thank you for all your doings. Take care of yourself. Sending you lots of love from Switzerland!
Take care Ally, some days it takes longer than others but the clouds always part after a storm.
I feel that so much right now... I kinda needed this video today and I'm glad I found it. Honestly, I was kind of surprised when I saw a video that I hadn't watched yet, but it was the good kind of surprise. I hope you're doing okay
Stats was an absolute nightmare and the source of my lowest moments in college. I'd spend hours after tests just wandering around trying to deal with the way that class made me feel. I'm sorry you are also having a terrible time in stats. Remember you are strong and lovely even when you are struggling. Thank you for sharing.
you nailed that feeling - it's the worst! glad you survived.
I found your channel this year when I was going through a really challenging time, physically and mentally. I was unwell, and my doctor didn't know what to do about it, and my mental health suffered greatly as a result. There were some days I felt so sad and defeated that I would lie in bed and just watch old videos of yours, because it was nice to see someone similar to me (an immigrant with 2 cats and a nice partner) living their life. It gave me some solace knowing I could go back to living my life soon too. And even though I'm out of that darkness now, I still look forward to your uploads.
I hope this passes for you soon. Thank you for all you put out into the world. Please be kind and patient with yourself.
Ally, you are a gift to this world. But I also know that when we're in the valleys of life, that critical, self-doubting voice in our heads can get so loud and make us believe the worst. Somehow, though, that "still, small voice" that also lives within us gently takes the reins and leads us to self-care: more baths, time with friends when possible, feeding ourselves with nourishing food, and being vulnerable enough to say, "I'm worn down by life right now, and I need a break, but this time *will* pass."
You have been such a beacon of what's good and true about the world for me this past six months since finding your channel. And by "true," I mean that you have allowed us to see some of the hard times in your life, making so many of us feel less alone. "Thank you" seems too weak a phrase, but it's all I've got.
Normally, I save your videos in my TH-cam library under "Favorites" (of course) and "Books." The beautifully filmed and written piece of art you have shared today will be saved not only in those two categories, but these as well: Creativity, Health, and Inspiration.
Laurens isn't the only one who's proud of you. We are, too.
💙💙💙
kathi, your comment made me tear up. you are MY beacon of light.
much love 💛
I have chronic migraines. Thank you for sharing what it feels like in such a beautiful way 💜
Ally!! this was so 🥺😭 I’ve also had a bad week but I know that we can get through this 💙 sending you lots of love!
Currently going through it myself as well. Especially this past week I’ve been really beaten down. But I saw this video pop up when I was out and I almost cried because it felt so assuring that you posted a video. It warmed my heart to know that I would see you again as soon as I got home. That’s not silly. Don’t call what you do on here silly, because it’s so far from silly. And so what, even if it is I wouldn’t want to live in a world without my favorite creators on this platform. It’s a better world because you make videos, how silly you may think they are.
Sending you love, thank you for being so open and real. This video made me emotional. You are amazing and I am so grateful for you and your content.
Sorry to hear you had a bad week, Ally. But thank you so much for your brutal honesty and vulnerability. You've helped me and I'm sure many more in the community feel less alone. Also, if you didn't earn money over things such as your drawings and your book videos, well then you wouldn't be able to make them for us! And those things bring so many people (And you I'm sure!) so much joy and that's why you deserve what you get from it. If people can get rich by using and abusing others, than you one hundred percent deserve to be paid for bringing happiness and a sense of community to a handful of people.
It's okay to have bad days or bad weeks. You take care of you first. ❤️
Such a lovely way to convey these frustrating and painful feelings. Thank you.
When I have hard times list this I look at the 'fun' list I have above my desk which my therapist made me make and its a list of self-care/ things I found fun before depression hit. And then I'm suppose to do at least one of those things on the list daily until things get better. Heres what's on mine, maybe it can help someone (in no particular order): :-)
-Make something new out of a material you never use/do.
-Sketch
-Meditation in the headspace app or do 5 minutes of breathing exercises.
-Do 5-10 minutes of yoga
-Paint a on a 3d object
-Read something ~NEW~ or listen to an audio book if that's too hard
-Dance just because it feels good to be in your body
-Bake something / try a new recipe
-Listen to your favorite podcast or a new one
-Take a skill share class
-Revisit an old hobby
-Take a walk
-Watch a movie
-Try a new restaurant (Ordering in is fine)
-Try a facemask or a bath
Love you Ally! Thank you for sharing the good weeks and the bad weeks, your videos bring me comfort and for that I thank you for the work you do. I can’t imagine how hard it is for you to not see your family after several years, I go several months and feel a bit lost by the end of that period, I hope that everything changes soon and you’ll get to see them all asap 💗
this video is so beautiful, thanks for sharing it. Even during a rough week you managed to make this and wow you inspire me so much. sending you lots and lots of love. I set the I showed up image as my lock screen background to remind me :’) I hope you enjoy your time off!!
also those mandrake butts were everything and you deserve all the monies for those 🧡
I loved every second of this. The pain, the hope, the authenticity. Your content always reminds me of what it is to be human, in the best possible way. Thank you ♥️
🥺 I'm feeling it too. Sending love & joy. Enjoy your break!!!
I constantly have to tell myself that my worth is not defined by my productivity. Rest is a necessary part of getting things done, which is hard to remember sometimes. I can’t achieve balance if I don’t purposely let things slip through the cracks every now and then. I hope you feel better, Ally. Your pals are rooting for you 🖤
you're right, emily! yes. i need to remember that as well.
Just when I started dissecting all the ways that I fucked this week up, this video pops up. I made tea and reflected with you. This week I've done the best I could. And that is really great. Hugs to everyone x
I’ve also been having a bad good week/month.. be kind to yourself and I’ll try to do the same ❤️
This video made me cry, im a very emotional person even though I wont admit it most of the time. Thank you for being on this platform and posting these "Silly" little videos, it helps so many people get through their days., I'm one of those people! Even if you don't know me and I dont know you on a personal level, we both care about each other dearly. Again, thank you for being here.
I got really emotional watching this. You are a wonderful beautiful person and deserve many good things. Most importantly you deserve to rest and take care of yourself. Life can get pretty messy pretty fast. Hope things start looking brighter for you soon!! You got this!! Much love xx
Ally 🥺 sending you so much love and virtual hugs. x I am going through a hard time myself and this made me cry. My job I loved shut down this month and I’m currently transitioning into a new job. I live far away from home too so the holidays are hard and seasonal depression doesn’t help. 😢 Take some time for yourself. You work so hard and deserve a break (take as much time as you need. We will still be here, I promise)!! You are a light on this platform and thank you for being here🤍
yes, something about this time of year... so thankful for your videos! thank you for being you, every time. ❤️
i hope you know you’re not alone in these feelings ally! you’re doing so well my friend 🧡
im literally crying in the club rn. this hit really hard for me. sending you lots of love and light getting through this time. you SHOWED UP!!! 🏆
this just made me cry, you are such a special person. very grateful I found your channel. I needed this
I found your channel today and stumbled across this video as I grapple with dealing with the weight of the change of season. Your videos make life seem a little less heavy
wow i am crying hard. this is exactly the video i needed to see in this exact moment. thank you.
This week was thanksgiving/fall break for my college. And Friday of last week I was slammed with some AWFUL news so my whole break this dark cloud was looking over me. I counted the moments for my few comfort humans to post. This one hit the hardest.
I cried through this whole video - sending you all the love and support lovely 💓 thank you for always showing up for us, you are such a blessing to your community, way more than you know 💞💞
😭😭😭 what a beautiful episode, I started bawling when you started saying everything you were grateful for
This is a beautiful video, thanks for being so honest about yourself. I'm sure it helps a lot of people who struggle with similar things to know they're not alone. Take care of yourself!
Well Im sobbing now in the middle of my workday haha. Thank you for sharing this! It helps seeing how someone else deals with this. Enjoy the time off😊
I just finished my second week of my first ever job. It's been really tiring and anxiety inducing on top of everything else that's been happening in my life.
Thank you for reminding me that I'm not alone in these feelings. This felt like a great big hug that I needed so much it made me cry. I hope you have a spectacular break ❤️ I'll be here waiting for the next video/hug you give us
Sending you love. I know these days are hard. You’re doing your best which is all anyone can ask. Hang in there, and if you need more time then take it. ❤️
wow, this video really made me emotional, thank you for sharing real life, there aren't a lot of those out there, and thank you for making me feel less alone
this video made me cry in a good way, thank you
Ok ok I’m here from Leena’s recommendation vid and this was the first thing I clicked on and to immediately hear the dodie music in the background *chefs kiss* you’ve got me hooked
new to this channel, absolutely love it. hope things start looking brighter for you soon.
this captures everything right now
5:01 MEEE (also, hope you’re doing better, thank you for being so open even when it’s hard) (p.p.s. dont feel bad about those math problems because WTF IS THAT)
I am low at the moment and your videos sustain me.
You are a great soul...one step at a time...God bless you!
Oh Ally, this video is WONDERFUL. True art! Sending you all the love, I hope you feel easier soon
idk what to say but this was a beautiful video, ally I hope you get better soon and for that take as much time as it takes
god ally, this made me cry. i relate to you so much. i suffer from chronic migraines, i'm a student and i live so far away from my friends and family, and i also have depression and anxiety. some days just feel impossible. i'm constantly drowning in guilt that i'm wasting my time, disappointing the people around me, that i'm defined by my physical and mental health problems. seeing other people struggle with the same things and encourage each other to be kind to themselves and that showing up is enough really helps. thank you
i felt this in my bones
This is why I love your youtube channel so much, because is so real and gives a spin in the day to day living, showing how It’s really like not just what we paint and sugarcoat living to be, with every video you show us life, and life is that, a beautiful mixture of love and sadness and all the little and big things in between. I love this video, because lately I have been feeling tired, Uni is draining and as a Med student people spects to much and I try to live up to that level of exigency but to be in that made up stand I demand to much of myself and then I end up so tired. Watching people my age doing so much better than me sometimes paints my mood in shades of blue, so deep blue that I have to constanly remind myself that everybody has different speeds and that is ok to be a little slow in some parts and that does not mean I’m doing things wrong, I’m just living. Thanks for been the way you are and I hope you have a lovely 2 weeks, I will be here waiting and supporting you even though I live miles away and speak a different lenguaje😂❤️
We are only 3 weeks away from the days getting longer again 🌞
Ally thank you so much for sharing this, sending big hugs all the way from America for your physical and mental health from your struggling & book loving follower way over here
Sorry you’re having a rough time but I’m so glad you got to enjoy Thanksgiving with your friends. When I didn’t see you in the discord I was worried you got sick and had to miss it this year.
This made me sob, but in the most cathartic way. Thank you for being you!! Your little videos bring me so much comfort.
Sending you so much love ally ❤️❤️❤️
Ally thank you for showing up when you had a good bad week. We will keep showing up for you too because you are such a special person. Love - Caroline’s mom
today i decided to try and get some things done, because i too have had a hard week and spent a lot of time curled up in bed. i decided not to feel guilty about it, because i needed that time. but today i was going to try and pull myself out of the slump. i decided i would watch your video first because they always both comfort me and motivate me, and this one really hit the mark. i cried a lot watching this, thank you for making such magical videos. they make me feel much better about where i am in life, and about where i am mental health wise. i really needed to hear these things.
thank you so much for this
Oh, Ally! You’re the best, I send you lots of love💕
Love you ally! Enjoy your week off! Best of luck if you have finals happening soon!
Thank you for this 💛
I feel you.i love you so much ally ❤🤗
needed this today, thank you ❤️
I don't usually write comments but I felt like I NEEDED to do this one this time. I'm having a bad week myself - filled with ups and downs, and usually with a lot of anxiety. Today is one of these days. Yet, somehow, I found comfort and ease in your video. Thanks for sharing, caring, and being you.
i live in the north (for the first time in my life) so i have had to adjust to sunsets at 3pm... this week was rough but i tried to show up, to do small things that bring me joy and prioritize spending time w friends. still was a hard one to get through but we did it and are ready for the next :) i also finally just yesterday found a book i enjoy for the first time in like a month so yay for ending my reading slump haha
omg! which book?
@@allisonpaiges uncanny valley by Anna wiener (on audio) ☺️ just finished it haha need to keep the momentum going now 🙌🏻
You’ve provided me comfort today. Thank you, and take all the time you need ❤️
Well thank you for making me cry
I love you. This helped me. ❤️
Ally this made me so emotional! You're good and you're doing good! Have a nice time off, you deserved it and as always thank you for posting, thank you for sharing and thank you for being nice ❤️
you're incredible ally thank you so much for sharing this with us. I've had a horrendous time for the past, well, 2 years but thing's have been getting particularly awful recently; so I was able to relate a lot to you, and got the comfort from this video that I haven't been getting from the people I love most. So from the bottom of my heart, thank you, and I hope your days are filled with unbridled joy from now on- you deserve that and so much more. ❤
This was so special, you make such special and powerful videos.
Hugs! Relate so much!
Ally this was so so beautifully shot !! I am so proud of you and sending you so much love and support ❤️
this video felt like such a big hug. i absolutely adore your honestly with us. mental health is so important, and i’m happy you portrayed that so well. much love 🧚🏼
you are an amazing person ❤️ thank you for inspiring me and providing me comfort while I’m going through a difficult time
What an absolutely beautiful, stunning, touching video. Thank you for everything you do! I’m so glad you’re taking a break, can’t wait to see you when you get back
I really needed this video. Thank you
Thank you for doing your best! We all appreciate it!
Thank you so so much for sharing this with us. It resonated so deeply with me. I appreciate you more than you know!❤️
I'm so proud of you, keep swimming 💙
And, I’ll keep coming.
Ally, you’re an amazing person, thank you for sharing so much of your life with all of us and making a difference.
You mean a lot!
enjoy your week off. You deserve it! Take care 🌸
This video mirrored a lot of sentiments I've had myself the past week. The whole state of everything weighs heavily on me too, I haven't seen my family in 2 years, I booked tickets to London and am due to fly in two weeks but I just don't know if I can actually go. I love living in Germany and it truly is my home, but not being able to see friends and family due to something you can't control is difficult. I love the way you manage to make so many of us here not feel alone in the way we feel and remind us that it's okay to have darker phases. We'll be here when you come back, hopefully feeling somewhat recharged
we adore you, ally. take care and much love
This is beautiful. Thank you so much for showing up for us - you can see in the comments how much we all appreciate you ☺️
This was such a beautiful video. Sending you lots of love! Your health and wellness is the most important!