I self harm to punish myself for being a terrible daughter to my family and half of the time I sit in my room and think 'Would they really miss me? would they even care? I want to find out' But every time I reach for something to help me leave the world something in the back of my head tells me 'what are you doing?! don't do that I love you!' And it feels like something wraps itself around my hand, and I feel what seems like arms around me, and I just start crying, I feel a warm embrace around me and a hand rubbing against the back of my head. I don't know what that means but it's kept me clean for almost a year now and whatever it was I'm grateful, I still get those thoughts sometimes but them I feel something around my shoulder and something pulls me close and suddenly those thoughts are gone.... Thank you for doing this Cardlin it has brought me more comfort as well as the embrace.
I have the same issues only I never self-harm, just consider it. Ily u are so strong and so worth to everyone. And as for the "would they even care" I WOULD CARE! 😭💝💖❤️💕💘😍
I feel you mu dad left me when I was born and I was abused by my sister dad and I was reaped my a boy from my church and I’m tried of being a disappointment and I’m trying my best
Hi, can you do another one of your ddlg voice videos please? Something that's kind of sexual but not sexual at the same time and can It be something with baby bottle feeding please? :3
CardlinAudio could you do another ddlg one that isn't sexual? Not that your other ones aren't great because WHOOH they were but it'd be nice to have one that isn't sexual. Maybe a going to bed or something sweet like that :)
+PapaGrillbz I understand that feeling 😞 please stay strong, though. you are stronger than it and so, so, worth loving yourself and living life. You got this!
U could use subliminals on youtube like moocha xysteria luminalplay etc if u need any help dm me on ig cinnamonex_babies subliminals have to do with law of attraction
Kai K same..... don't worry I promise there is someone out there who loves you. you are a fabulous person, even though I don't really know you. everyone is. so I love you even if we don't know each other. everyone is worthy of love and happiness. have a nice day/night!!! ^u^
hey, i know you might not see this, but.. just wanted to send a little reminder that you’re loved. i love you so much, and i’m so proud of you for staying strong through all of your tough times.
My boyfriend is amazing when handling my self harm, he is always encouraging me to let him know when I feel bad or if I don't tell him before to tell him after. Since I'm not of legal age for confidentiality to be kept when talking to professionals abiut self harm he promises to keep it a secret. I am so grateful for him and wish more people would understand self harm the way he does 💞
My ex best friend said, that she doesn't want to be my friend anymore, because I do self harm, and I have many scars, on different spots on my body. Especially my waist, wrists/arms, and my thighs. Since then, I only talk about it online, without anyone else knowing about it, because here people don't know who I actually am, and tell my friends/family. So uhh. Yea. This hit different for me.
I just wanna say to all those who are alive... You are worth it. You are beautiful, inside and out. Don't change to satisify to be like anyone else. And for all of us who stayed strong and alive through the deepest and darkest times, Congratulations. You conquered your demons and became a much stronger warrior. You have no idea how much you are treasured. We did it ||-// Stay alive frens♡ [2020 edit] If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say it. That message was supposed to give encouragement, so just ignore it or even thumbs down if you don't like it. I don't care. For those who might've cared even for the slightest second, don't listen to the negative energy. They don't need that, and neither do you. Please do your best to hold onto hope for a better and happier life. I'm proud of you. Keep this year strong even with the events going on.
SophiesThoughts That’s amazing!! You’ve been clean for two and a half years?! I can barely stay clean for three days...but that’s awesome for you!!!! 🖤🖤🖤
Not me curdling into a ball and crying because he knew exactly where my self harm is. It hit so hard because all of it was accurate to me. I don't think I've ever needed an audio more. Thank you
I wish most people could understand and act like this, it's hard to keep a relationship now a days and being shamed for all my scars never help. Listening to this video made me thankful, I honestly feel like most asmr people understand both sides to the situation a little more than others.
Where can I get a guy like this??????? 😂 my boyfriend keeps yelling at me,getting mad,arguing or judging me about cutting..i NEED this type of care instead..I really hate the way he acts.. (Edit) damn I never saw the replies to this, I was in such a dark place at that time and I thought I needed him when I really didn’t, I did end up dumping him 2 weeks after this comment so...THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR THOSE COMMENTS I APPRECIATE IT!
It's a beautiful thing what we are doing here. Thanks Cardlin for giving new chances for those people in need. I'm very proud to be part of this community. Your videos helps people in need, and people who don't know very well how to react in this situations. Keep the good work!
Ik a lot of people wont see this due to the fact that this was like 3 years ago but here. Y’all matter okay? I care for you guys, even if I don’t even know you like at all. You’re still a person. Ily.
I don't know how this is going to sound, but I'm only bringing this up because I went through a really horrible dependent relationship recently, to the point where I couldn't function on my own and I depended on him to make me whole, I have chronic anxiety/depression and yeah, low self esteem and a bunch of other problems in my life, but long story short I'm just out of the relationship, and the whole thing made me realize how self worth needs needs needs to be developed from within. Everyone needs help, but only because I romanticized a toxic relationship I made all my problems multiply. You should seek out people who will be there for you, and definitely a health professional, but it's really dangerous when it comes to romantic relationships. We're not sane when it comes to love and personally I tied my happiness and value and health on a person who wasn't there in the end, and it was catastrophic.
Your videos are amazing and you're helping so many people, but I wanted to voice what happened to me personally just to be cautious. Everyone's different but I went down that path and it took a lot to come out the other end okay.
I wish I could find somebody who cared this much and wasn't judgmental of self-harm. My last relationship ended from my boyfriend finding my cuts.. he didn't want the "drama" and didn't care. He walked out. People like this need to exist more.
I like that he recognized not all self harmers cut their arms. The stereotype that cuts are normally on the arms makes me and probably others feel way more ashamed of their leg scars.
i want to relapse so bad & i joked about it around my friends (bc humor is my defense & its how i cope) but this helped me sm and idk how but thank you so fucking much. i love this & your content i sweaaar
To be honest, I wasn't expecting to feel what I felt while listening to this. I usually just listened to your audio to help me sleep when I can't but this one really stood out to me. I found myself actually replying to the question asked, crying, feeling sorry, and actually feel like I was being cared for. I haven't harmed myself for maybe almost a year by now and I'm glad I haven't no matter what, since this last couple of weeks have been so terrible. Listening to this just made feel better and is honestly what I needed instead of my mother or anyone just yell at me for answer and just to make me over feel more terrible then I already am. It reminded me when my grandma took care of me after I told, and even if I couldn't tell her everything she still listened tried to understand and didn't even tell my mom, who I was so scared to talk to. Overall thank you for such a powerful and meaningful audio, and to the writer as well.
Lately I've actually had thoughts of self harming myself and I always go into fear mode when that happens. I'm not really going to go in depth with why but all I know is that I feel sad whenever I hear stories of people who do it constantly. It really hurts and I want everyone to know that you are not alone, even if you think you are. And to the people who overcame, thank you so much!!
This really hit me hard at home. I am the one everyone in my friend group comes to for help, plus all the stress life puts on me. I've been here. But I've been clean for almost a year and I'm proud of myself.
One year and almost 4 months clean. This is just so powerful to me. I didn't actively cut during a relationship, but my current boyfriend is so good about my past. We don't even really talk about it anymore, my scars are just a part of me now. But if it would help anyone, I'd like to tell my story for anyone who cares to listen. I started cutting in 2012, when I was in 7th grade. I was struggling with school, and becoming old enough to really understand what was going on around me. My family has always been poor, and I didn't have a lot. I was self conscious and timid, and I was afraid of what other people thought. I started to fail classes, and I got so upset one day that I dug a pencil in my arm and dragged. It didn't bleed, just left a decent scratch. But I felt better. After that, it went from jagged pieces of plastic to craft scissors to half a scissor to blades out of pencil sharpeners. I moved from my wrist to my ankle to my thigh to my hip. In freshman year, 2 years in, I cut too deep for the first time. That was when my best friend contacted my mom, who, in trying to understand, just made me feel worse. I didn't cut for awhile, because the deep cut scared me. I ended up in the psych ward for a suicide attempt in March of 2015. I had been clean about a month after beginning a relationship with my then boyfriend.I had gone 8 months before a relapse in November 2015. My uncle died about a month before my relapse, and the immediate trigger was that boyfriend breaking up with me. I took apart a sharpener and just sat on the toilet, totally dissociated, and sliced 5 deep cuts into my hip. I went back to the psych ward that night. Now, I have better coping skills, but that isn't to say I never feel the urge. Even after almost a year and a half, I look at my scars sometimes and remember when they were such a solid thing that could make me feel better, at least for a moment. Sometimes I feel lost because I don't rely on it anymore. My therapist has told me that recovering from something like self harm can stir up those feelings. I just wanted to share this for anyone going through it, or recovered like I am, just for those days when the urge nags at you again. We are stronger than those thoughts. We are strong.
I'm not proud to say I've been getting closer and closer to restarting my bad habits and listening to this helped me put the metaphorical blade down I'm so glad that you exist and you make these for people like us, it's so nice to hear someone say they want to listen and they're not mad even if it is in one of these videos
I just broke five years of being clean last week. Ive been feeling broken for days with the levels of self hatred going through my mind. I can’t stop crying, but the amount of help and love this videos gives isn’t measurable by human standards. Thank you. I love you for doing this for me and so many others.
God if I had had someone so understanding and actually there for me things probably would have turned out differently. all I got told was that I was a freak and that it was stupid to feel like that. It ruined me more than it ever helped.
I've been suffering from depression and anxiety for as long as I remember but after hearing this audio it helps me to not overthink things and it made me feel loved. I'm two months clean and I know it's because of Cardlin. Thank you very much for every audio you make it makes us feel loved and protected. ❤
My absolute favorite line. "Of you're having a hard time loving yourself, I'll love you for the both of us." it's such a perfect thing to say. I hate being told to love myself because it's not that easy. Thank you for this.
I wasn't sure about watching cause i get really anxious when i just...hear about it. But hell, this is good, actually makes me feel good because people often just...make fun of us, thanks :)
This hits me so hard, it's beautiful, because I've never felt much comfort during... those moments. I honestly want more than anything to be normal, but for some reason, that's proving to be really hard.
I've only told 2 people and they just kinda forgot about it the next day. I feel like if I go to anyone about it they won't take me seriously because I avoid the veins. I went to my mom about therapy for coping with my anxiety and she told me that it was hormones. Watching this, I felt like someone actually cared. Thank you so much.
This has got all the feels with me because i know what it feels like to be the person who suffers to get through this sort of topic, this has made me so much calmer about this topic. This made me feel like there is someone who cares so much about me and will always be there for me through this sort of struggle. This is exactly the sort of audio that helps me get through the dark place. i cried listening to this because i have been through this struggle many times and mostly to all the time i felt so alone, however this audio made me feel so much better and showed me that i don't have to be ashamed of it. This audio has made me feel like my bad days are a little brighter. I could feel myself going through that with you and it made me feel so loved and appreciated for the person i am even with all of the scars that follow.
I needed this. I just had a fit of rage and attacked my leg, so I feel like shit about it. I just recovered from a major depressive episode and just got out of the hospital last month. This makes me feel slightly less self conscious about it.
This may be tmi but, I just got hit with so much stress, a wave all at once, sort of a mini anxiety attack Relapsed from 4 months free of cutting tonight and afterwards I came straight to this video. I just have to leave this comment cause I want you to know that you seriously help people. When I have no one to say that everything's going to be ok I have you and, even though I don't know you and everything is online and digital roleplay, your presence really helps. so, thank you! never stop voice acting you have a true gift! X
Hi, I just want to say that you arent alone. Trust me I went through the same thing. Videos like this can help! I got put in a hospital from breaking down (tmi? Sorry) I couldnt help it. Be strong 💜
questions for you. how are you? do you need to talk about anything ? are you still clean? if not, remember that it’s a process and that it’s okay. and this isn’t a question, but i’m very very proud of you. i know this is a late reply but still.
@@sstarrlloverr im actually going amazing now! i have been clean for about a year and a half and i feel so much better. sometimes i feel a temptation but i remember that i’ve managed to hold back for so long and that i can continue without doing it because its not necessary. thank you for caring
this is such a tiny thing for me, but most vids talk about the scars being on your wrists, but mine are on my thighs and this was really nice to see it talked about :)
I don't even... I don't even self-harm yet, just... The idea that someone could care this much about me is something I've never really thought I deserved, and when I listen to audios like this where the person still cares no matter how broken I am inside, just... God...
Bruh.. He said "Your thigh" and I froze like a deer in head lights and felt panic setting in. That shit was one of the scariest moments in the world when my best friend found out.. She was so fucking pissed. I wish she would've reacted like this.. I wish she would've taken care of me like this.. As comforting as these are, it makes me sad too.. Fml
Gooooooodddddd- I know all too well how awkward and embarassing this type of situation is- On one hand you know WHY you do it, but you feel horrible about it later. And then feel even worse when anyone else sees it- But it's the only thing you know to fix things? Aaaagghhh
Cardlin taking care off the wounds: “I guess you don’t mind it hurting right? Sorry, too soon?” Me: laughing into my pillow trying not to wake the whole house up because it’s currently 1:55 AM and i should be asleep as well but I just really needed this video right now.
I been clean for a long time now not sure how long exactly but I still can see faint scars and now I look at them, they just remind me of that and I regret so much now. This video is so comforting
PFF OKAY THAT JOKE WAS GOLD in actuality though, thank you for this. I recently relapsed and I was over 3 years clean. Then, I relapsed again. I've been in a mood about it but this really helped. Thank you.
I've been calling the crisis line pretty frequently, between schizophrenia, paranoia, anxiety, and depression. It's nice to here someone that's supportive, and not threatening to send me away. For some random stranger that I listen to, you make me feel loved. Thank you, cardlin,
I've been 3 months clean and its hard to not want to cut. I've been listening to these for a long time and they make me feel like someone cares about me. My parents stopped caring a long time ago and so the world sucks and I feel like I'm neve getting out of here. Never gettting out of this darkness and this anger and this want to see blood. I needed this cardlin. Thank you so much. You help me realize sometimes I have to open up. Sure the boyfriend audios aren't made for me because I like girls but I had this one guy friend who mindlessly flirted with me and it feels like he's here to care for me again. Thank you
Finding this after 7 months of being clean and relapsing and ugghhhh I love him so much! The makes me so happy💕 thank you to the writer and Cardlin this means alot
Wow...this..I've been clean for 7 years. The urge is still there and sometimes I feel like I'm about to break, but I overcome, my addictions have no hold of me anymore, and I had no one to talk me through this, no one to understand, just judgements, and scoldings. So I appreciate this video so much.
⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ (I don’t know what triggers others but I’m being very vague in my description and avoiding triggering words as much as possible). Thank you… you can’t comprehend how much I cried and held my pillow. I never get this type of comfort and I’ve been dealing with this for 4 1/2 years now and I do it to punish myself for things that I think I caused and I have done it on my thighs, calfs, arms, stomach, neck, etc.. and after I feel worthless but, cardlin has made me cry more than I have in years and it’s weird but it felt very freeing. Thank you cardlin even though you’ll probably never see this but you don’t know how much this ment to me and so many other I’m crying as I’m writing this and trying to find the words for how thankful I am that you took the time to record and post an audio like this. Thank you❤️
I was cleaning my thigh while listening to this and a piece of advice: DONT BREATHE IN THE RUBBING ALCOHOL FUMES. Cause I poured that shit all over my leg and JESUS FUCKING CHRIST I was coughing alot.
I'm still in recovery I am six months clean but I still struggle but... This video is really calming and it helps my feelings just come naturally and makes the world of difference and I just don't feel all self harmy anymore thank you for this... I feel strong that I'll be able to fight my addiction.
No matter what I do people I date always react to my cutting by telling me they're either going to do it themselves or break up with me if I cut again and it just makes me want to do it more and more and I just wish I had someone supportive like this.
I’m 1 month clean and honestly before I even listened to this I was planning on self harming in my bathroom but then my dad started taking a shower. This video came in my recommended and idk something urged me to listen to this and I did. This made me feel better and made me not want to self harm. Thank you Carlson for making videos like this- you probably saved a ton of people by this and I just wanna thank you. Keep up the good work.
Can u possibly make a comfort from a break up or comfort from finding out partner cheated video? I have recently found out my boyfriend cheated on me and since then I haven't been feeling more depressed so I feel like a video like this would be helpful.
one of your best, in my opinion. very reassuring tone of voice, made me feel so much better as i found this video by coincidence just after a bad relapse.
I did not expect this to hit me as hard as it did. 2 months since the last time and every day is a struggle. But this seriously helped and reminded me to stay strong. And to everyone else going through this too, I am so, so sorry. But you can do this. You are perfect in every way~ keep fighting 💙💙 Thank you Cardlin xx
this hits so close to home. proud to be almost 2 years clean
Kerenza Congratulations keep up the great work☺️👌
Ffgg Hhhh thank you:-)
It gets easier as time goes by, I'm at 4 years no cutting
Patunya3 well done !! yeah definitely the first few days/weeks are the hardest
I'm 2 years clean too. That's so amazing. keep up the good work :)
I self harm to punish myself for being a terrible daughter to my family
and half of the time I sit in my room and think 'Would they really miss me? would they even care? I want to find out'
But every time I reach for something to help me leave the world something in the back of my head tells me 'what are you doing?! don't do that I love you!' And it feels like something wraps itself around my hand, and I feel what seems like arms around me, and I just start crying, I feel a warm embrace around me and a hand rubbing against the back of my head. I don't know what that means but it's kept me clean for almost a year now and whatever it was I'm grateful, I still get those thoughts sometimes but them I feel something around my shoulder and something pulls me close and suddenly those thoughts are gone....
Thank you for doing this Cardlin it has brought me more comfort as well as the embrace.
Stay strong , you are worth everything to anyone in this world 😢
I have the same issues only I never self-harm, just consider it. Ily u are so strong and so worth to everyone. And as for the "would they even care" I WOULD CARE! 😭💝💖❤️💕💘😍
I feel that same warm, sweet feeling too. Around my hand, back, I just feel an embrace. Happened for me when I attempted
Hope you’re doing ok now
I feel you mu dad left me when I was born and I was abused by my sister dad and I was reaped my a boy from my church and I’m tried of being a disappointment and I’m trying my best
Probably one of my most highly requested script ideas. Big thanks to the amazing writer, Ann (Thalita Koema)~
Hi, can you do another one of your ddlg voice videos please? Something that's kind of sexual but not sexual at the same time and can It be something with baby bottle feeding please? :3
CardlinAudio could you do another ddlg one that isn't sexual? Not that your other ones aren't great because WHOOH they were but it'd be nice to have one that isn't sexual. Maybe a going to bed or something sweet like that :)
Anna Norwalt Uhm, he's made pleeeenty of those
CardlinAudio hey um... have
You ever concidered writing a script about us thinking about relapsing? I've been having a hard time with that lately....
+PapaGrillbz I understand that feeling 😞 please stay strong, though. you are stronger than it and so, so, worth loving yourself and living life. You got this!
I'm literally crying because I want someone to take care of me like this, instead of just brushing off like its nothing.
U could use subliminals on youtube like moocha xysteria luminalplay etc if u need any help dm me on ig cinnamonex_babies subliminals have to do with law of attraction
ily :((
4 months clean 💖trying to stay strong.
You're doing good ^.^
Just That Sapphire Thank you ❤❤❤
Anytime :)
Mia Rice Thank you!! and I shall! things are getting better ^°^
Lapis Lazuli you were trapped in a mirror and it couldn't be clearer
i started crying, noone has ever said they loved me before
i dont even care if you're a stranger ;-;
Kai K same..... don't worry I promise there is someone out there who loves you. you are a fabulous person, even though I don't really know you. everyone is. so I love you even if we don't know each other. everyone is worthy of love and happiness. have a nice day/night!!! ^u^
Saaaaammeww
I spelled same wrong ;-;
hey, i know you might not see this, but..
just wanted to send a little reminder that you’re loved. i love you so much, and i’m so proud of you for staying strong through all of your tough times.
I love you bitch, i ain't never gonna stop loving you BiTch
My boyfriend is amazing when handling my self harm, he is always encouraging me to let him know when I feel bad or if I don't tell him before to tell him after. Since I'm not of legal age for confidentiality to be kept when talking to professionals abiut self harm he promises to keep it a secret. I am so grateful for him and wish more people would understand self harm the way he does 💞
Bless his soul! I'm so happy you found him :D
My ex best friend said, that she doesn't want to be my friend anymore, because I do self harm, and I have many scars, on different spots on my body. Especially my waist, wrists/arms, and my thighs. Since then, I only talk about it online, without anyone else knowing about it, because here people don't know who I actually am, and tell my friends/family. So uhh. Yea. This hit different for me.
@@rimoishere564 I'm sorry :( ill be your friend cause I can relate 100%
awe thats the freaking cutest
@@pbjellyf1sh Awww. ❤ I hope we all will find our own angel, who's gonna take care of us..
I just wanna say to all those who are alive...
You are worth it.
You are beautiful, inside and out.
Don't change to satisify to be like anyone else.
And for all of us who stayed strong and alive through the deepest and darkest times, Congratulations. You conquered your demons and became a much stronger warrior. You have no idea how much you are treasured.
We did it ||-//
Stay alive frens♡
[2020 edit]
If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say it. That message was supposed to give encouragement, so just ignore it or even thumbs down if you don't like it. I don't care. For those who might've cared even for the slightest second, don't listen to the negative energy. They don't need that, and neither do you. Please do your best to hold onto hope for a better and happier life. I'm proud of you. Keep this year strong even with the events going on.
katsudon_on_ice I love you now lmao 😂
You are officially subscribed for your kindness
Ok I cried even more reading this comment
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Needed this today
Am I the only one sobbing right now? oh my god I love this so much. I've only ever been with people who got mad at me for cutting.
Abi Comstock who's cry I'm not what?
Abi Comstock fuck those people who get mad at those who are hurting
Abi Comstock
Same.....aha I don’t have much luck....most of the time they’re abusive and jerks....and I don’t see it until it’s too late....
I have the urge to cry when I hear stuff like this...but tears won't come out...even if I try and force it out.
Me too
2 and a half years clean but sad nostalgia hit me. This is really reassuring though. Made me feel less alien about the topic.
SophiesThoughts I'm so happy for you being clean for 2 and a half years ❤
SophiesThoughts I'm so happy for you🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤
SophiesThoughts
That’s amazing!! You’ve been clean for two and a half years?! I can barely stay clean for three days...but that’s awesome for you!!!! 🖤🖤🖤
SophiesThoughts i’m 1 week clean (::
@@samaaislam good for you! I'm proud!
Not me curdling into a ball and crying because he knew exactly where my self harm is.
It hit so hard because all of it was accurate to me. I don't think I've ever needed an audio more. Thank you
I would love to hear you do one on eating disorders like encouraging us to eat or to not purge and feel better it would be so nice
Ed isn't only anorexia dude
Thank you for this, self harm is something I am currently overcoming and this helps me :)
I wish most people could understand and act like this, it's hard to keep a relationship now a days and being shamed for all my scars never help. Listening to this video made me thankful, I honestly feel like most asmr people understand both sides to the situation a little more than others.
I was doing great, almost a year of no self harming, until a few weeks ago
Yuri Katsuki same gurl.
Same
i hope ur doing better💞💞
Cardlin: I love waking up next to you.
Me: *Pillow Talk plays in my head*
Extreme Otaku samee
Sameee
honestly me lmao
Me. I'm so lonely xD
Aha........we’re all lonely little lost children....(not literally children XD)
I remember going through self harm and everything... hearing this made me break down. but it made me realize that I overcame it and that I'm better.
Hails how did you overcome it?
I overcame it by using a rubber band
Where can I get a guy like this??????? 😂 my boyfriend keeps yelling at me,getting mad,arguing or judging me about cutting..i NEED this type of care instead..I really hate the way he acts..
(Edit) damn I never saw the replies to this, I was in such a dark place at that time and I thought I needed him when I really didn’t, I did end up dumping him 2 weeks after this comment so...THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR THOSE COMMENTS I APPRECIATE IT!
Pinkpanda Girl please dump him
U better have dumped him tbh
Slap him so hard!!
Leave that dumbass! >:(
If you haven't, DUMP HIS ASS! no one deserves someone like that
It's a beautiful thing what we are doing here. Thanks Cardlin for giving new chances for those people in need. I'm very proud to be part of this community. Your videos helps people in need, and people who don't know very well how to react in this situations. Keep the good work!
When a boyfriend audio understands more than your parents do.
Ik a lot of people wont see this due to the fact that this was like 3 years ago but here.
Y’all matter okay? I care for you guys, even if I don’t even know you like at all. You’re still a person. Ily.
Thanks you this means a lot💕
Bb gun
Thank you I have no one to help so I use this audio as comfort
I don't know how this is going to sound, but I'm only bringing this up because I went through a really horrible dependent relationship recently, to the point where I couldn't function on my own and I depended on him to make me whole, I have chronic anxiety/depression and yeah, low self esteem and a bunch of other problems in my life, but long story short I'm just out of the relationship, and the whole thing made me realize how self worth needs needs needs to be developed from within. Everyone needs help, but only because I romanticized a toxic relationship I made all my problems multiply. You should seek out people who will be there for you, and definitely a health professional, but it's really dangerous when it comes to romantic relationships. We're not sane when it comes to love and personally I tied my happiness and value and health on a person who wasn't there in the end, and it was catastrophic.
Your videos are amazing and you're helping so many people, but I wanted to voice what happened to me personally just to be cautious. Everyone's different but I went down that path and it took a lot to come out the other end okay.
Well put.
I wish I could find somebody who cared this much and wasn't judgmental of self-harm. My last relationship ended from my boyfriend finding my cuts.. he didn't want the "drama" and didn't care. He walked out. People like this need to exist more.
“You are the most beautiful blanket thief”
Me: rolled up like a burito in the blanket with a snotty nose and sneezing
I bet you are still beautiful regardless
Okay this hit me hella hard :(
Panic! At The Twenty Øne Melanies Omg Panic! Omg TØP 😂😍
your name is terrible and you should be ashamed
Panic! At The Twenty Øne Melanies I just love your profile pic bc Drunk History is the best
Kheraja I love your picture
snoop loop whats wrong with her/his name???
I like that he recognized not all self harmers cut their arms. The stereotype that cuts are normally on the arms makes me and probably others feel way more ashamed of their leg scars.
This one hit home for me...I was not a cutter but I did self harm in a different way. Thank you for this one Cardlin. Absolutely touching
I still really want the comfort for anger issues video. I think it's a really good idea
Sophia Says yeah anger/mood issues would be a good video idea 👌🏽
Sophia Says YEP YEP YEP
Sophia Araceli ur so talented
That's a good idea
"most gorgeous blanket theif in the world"
*Dies of awh*
i want to relapse so bad & i joked about it around my friends (bc humor is my defense & its how i cope) but this helped me sm and idk how but thank you so fucking much. i love this & your content i sweaaar
skylar you are strong and I love you
skylar LAUREN BELIEVES IN YOUUUUU
Almost two years clean so this brought back memories. If only all guys were like this. My ex wasn't so sweet or supportive. Thanks for this Cardlin
GizmoGurlie41786 I'm so proud of you! 🖤🖤🖤🖤 stay strong
Cardlin you are more helpful than my mom she says i did it for attention ):
Agnes Todd same ;(
same here :(
I'm so sorry :(
same 😔
Thats some bull i cant tell my mom anything either cuz i think she will act the same and it sucks
Could you please do an audio about family issues? I've been dealing with that for some time now and it seems to get worse every day.
That moment you woke up and 2seconds later your phone goes off with this notification
Stupidly Amazing ooh that happened to me before,,, it the best thing
Stupidly Amazing same!
11 months clean...Thank you for doing this video
Daniazz vlogs that's awesome good for you :)
Sooo proud of you
To be honest, I wasn't expecting to feel what I felt while listening to this. I usually just listened to your audio to help me sleep when I can't but this one really stood out to me.
I found myself actually replying to the question asked, crying, feeling sorry, and actually feel like I was being cared for. I haven't harmed myself for maybe almost a year by now and I'm glad I haven't no matter what, since this last couple of weeks have been so terrible. Listening to this just made feel better and is honestly what I needed instead of my mother or anyone just yell at me for answer and just to make me over feel more terrible then I already am. It reminded me when my grandma took care of me after I told, and even if I couldn't tell her everything she still listened tried to understand and didn't even tell my mom, who I was so scared to talk to.
Overall thank you for such a powerful and meaningful audio, and to the writer as well.
Lately I've actually had thoughts of self harming myself and I always go into fear mode when that happens. I'm not really going to go in depth with why but all I know is that I feel sad whenever I hear stories of people who do it constantly. It really hurts and I want everyone to know that you are not alone, even if you think you are. And to the people who overcame, thank you so much!!
Kate Brinfour dont do it i know that i dont know u but once u do 1 u cant stop dont do it i know i am 1 year late
This really hit me hard at home. I am the one everyone in my friend group comes to for help, plus all the stress life puts on me. I've been here. But I've been clean for almost a year and I'm proud of myself.
my grounded me when she saw my sh, so you actually being comforting, is a really nice change. thanks
One year and almost 4 months clean. This is just so powerful to me. I didn't actively cut during a relationship, but my current boyfriend is so good about my past. We don't even really talk about it anymore, my scars are just a part of me now. But if it would help anyone, I'd like to tell my story for anyone who cares to listen.
I started cutting in 2012, when I was in 7th grade. I was struggling with school, and becoming old enough to really understand what was going on around me. My family has always been poor, and I didn't have a lot. I was self conscious and timid, and I was afraid of what other people thought. I started to fail classes, and I got so upset one day that I dug a pencil in my arm and dragged. It didn't bleed, just left a decent scratch. But I felt better. After that, it went from jagged pieces of plastic to craft scissors to half a scissor to blades out of pencil sharpeners. I moved from my wrist to my ankle to my thigh to my hip. In freshman year, 2 years in, I cut too deep for the first time. That was when my best friend contacted my mom, who, in trying to understand, just made me feel worse. I didn't cut for awhile, because the deep cut scared me. I ended up in the psych ward for a suicide attempt in March of 2015. I had been clean about a month after beginning a relationship with my then boyfriend.I had gone 8 months before a relapse in November 2015. My uncle died about a month before my relapse, and the immediate trigger was that boyfriend breaking up with me. I took apart a sharpener and just sat on the toilet, totally dissociated, and sliced 5 deep cuts into my hip. I went back to the psych ward that night.
Now, I have better coping skills, but that isn't to say I never feel the urge. Even after almost a year and a half, I look at my scars sometimes and remember when they were such a solid thing that could make me feel better, at least for a moment. Sometimes I feel lost because I don't rely on it anymore. My therapist has told me that recovering from something like self harm can stir up those feelings.
I just wanted to share this for anyone going through it, or recovered like I am, just for those days when the urge nags at you again. We are stronger than those thoughts.
We are strong.
i love you and i’m proud of you for being here. u r unbelievably strong.
Ilysm
"Looking at your hair that's basically everywhere"
Me, with a 1 inch long haircut: :\
*cant relate*
@@marshyhell7800 I-
@@Clownie.e wait I can relate now I commented that year ago now I have a short pixie cute lmao
@@marshyhell7800 Oop
@@Clownie.e I changed alot lmao
I'm not proud to say I've been getting closer and closer to restarting my bad habits and listening to this helped me put the metaphorical blade down I'm so glad that you exist and you make these for people like us, it's so nice to hear someone say they want to listen and they're not mad even if it is in one of these videos
I’ve relapsed recently and haven’t been well. I’m scared, thank you.
Same for me but we can stay strong and get over our demons.
I just broke five years of being clean last week. Ive been feeling broken for days with the levels of self hatred going through my mind. I can’t stop crying, but the amount of help and love this videos gives isn’t measurable by human standards. Thank you. I love you for doing this for me and so many others.
I bloody love your voice 😭❤️
was that pun intended?
Nicole Engelhuber woops i never even realised 🙃 hope no one gets offended :/
Hahaha, I figured it probably wasn't intentional.
Nice pun there
haha, totally unintentional i promise
God if I had had someone so understanding and actually there for me things probably would have turned out differently. all I got told was that I was a freak and that it was stupid to feel like that. It ruined me more than it ever helped.
I can't relate to cutting but I definitely can relate to depression and sarcasm. I appreciate this. Thank you
I feel kinda rude giving you more things to think about but I think an eating disorder type of video would be helpful for many like this video is ☺️
Lauren Owens YES. please.
"I'll love enough for the both of us" That hit me HARD.
**is smiling because it’s so sweet**
**remembers nobody cares about you and every relationship you’ve been in has been bad**
**cries in the corner**
I've been suffering from depression and anxiety for as long as I remember but after hearing this audio it helps me to not overthink things and it made me feel loved. I'm two months clean and I know it's because of Cardlin. Thank you very much for every audio you make it makes us feel loved and protected. ❤
My absolute favorite line. "Of you're having a hard time loving yourself, I'll love you for the both of us." it's such a perfect thing to say. I hate being told to love myself because it's not that easy. Thank you for this.
wow I cried alot this helped.14 months clean ❤❤
lost boy I'm so happy for you🖤🖤🖤🖤
I wasn't sure about watching cause i get really anxious when i just...hear about it.
But hell, this is good, actually makes me feel good because people often just...make fun of us, thanks :)
This hits me so hard, it's beautiful, because I've never felt much comfort during... those moments.
I honestly want more than anything to be normal, but for some reason, that's proving to be really hard.
I've only told 2 people and they just kinda forgot about it the next day. I feel like if I go to anyone about it they won't take me seriously because I avoid the veins. I went to my mom about therapy for coping with my anxiety and she told me that it was hormones. Watching this, I felt like someone actually cared. Thank you so much.
Him: "I guess you don't mind it hurting?"
Me, laughing my ass off: "listen....it's a good joke...a great joke even...but imma need you to stop"
HELL 💀
This has got all the feels with me because i know what it feels like to be the person who suffers to get through this sort of topic, this has made me so much calmer about this topic. This made me feel like there is someone who cares so much about me and will always be there for me through this sort of struggle. This is exactly the sort of audio that helps me get through the dark place.
i cried listening to this because i have been through this struggle many times and mostly to all the time i felt so alone, however this audio made me feel so much better and showed me that i don't have to be ashamed of it. This audio has made me feel like my bad days are a little brighter. I could feel myself going through that with you and it made me feel so loved and appreciated for the person i am even with all of the scars that follow.
I needed this. I just had a fit of rage and attacked my leg, so I feel like shit about it. I just recovered from a major depressive episode and just got out of the hospital last month. This makes me feel slightly less self conscious about it.
This may be tmi but, I just got hit with so much stress, a wave all at once, sort of a mini anxiety attack Relapsed from 4 months free of cutting tonight and afterwards I came straight to this video. I just have to leave this comment cause I want you to know that you seriously help people. When I have no one to say that everything's going to be ok I have you and, even though I don't know you and everything is online and digital roleplay, your presence really helps. so, thank you! never stop voice acting you have a true gift! X
Happy to help =] Thanks for listening, Sid!
Hi, I just want to say that you arent alone. Trust me I went through the same thing. Videos like this can help! I got put in a hospital from breaking down (tmi? Sorry) I couldnt help it. Be strong 💜
2 months clean. I’m going stronger than ever
questions for you.
how are you? do you need to talk about anything ?
are you still clean? if not, remember that it’s a process and that it’s okay.
and this isn’t a question, but i’m very very proud of you. i know this is a late reply but still.
@@sstarrlloverr im actually going amazing now! i have been clean for about a year and a half and i feel so much better. sometimes i feel a temptation but i remember that i’ve managed to hold back for so long and that i can continue without doing it because its not necessary. thank you for caring
this is such a tiny thing for me, but most vids talk about the scars being on your wrists, but mine are on my thighs and this was really nice to see it talked about :)
honestly a huge inspiration
damn kpoppers
BAEKYEOL THO
is there something wrong?
Omg jimin we have the same bias 😂
nah fam you good i see kpoppers everywhere
Kiki _ your profile picture is now tae, we love character development
Relapsed this afternoon after being clean for years. Idk what happened but it helped numb the pain for a little bit.
having been there in my early teens it would have helped so much if I had a kind person like you stand by me. this was an amazing audio. thank you.
Thank you so Much for this inspiring video. I self-harm and this is so relaxing. It relieves the pain I feel inside.
I don't even... I don't even self-harm yet, just...
The idea that someone could care this much about me is something I've never really thought I deserved, and when I listen to audios like this where the person still cares no matter how broken I am inside, just... God...
Update: I'm getting help. I'm currently going through a mental health program and I'm slowly getting better. :)
@@vibes5805
@@vibes5805how r u now?
I've been clean for 3 years now. While it was hard and i almost relasped many times i'm still here today and it does get better. It really does
Bruh.. He said "Your thigh" and I froze like a deer in head lights and felt panic setting in. That shit was one of the scariest moments in the world when my best friend found out.. She was so fucking pissed. I wish she would've reacted like this.. I wish she would've taken care of me like this..
As comforting as these are, it makes me sad too.. Fml
I feel si sorry for you !
You will find the right friends !
I have been a week clean.
I listen to this everyday to help me get through the day, thank you for this.
I am so proud of you
okay this is pretty triggering but for some reason I have to keep listening to it idek
Same. Like, its triggering, but also comforting?
Gooooooodddddd- I know all too well how awkward and embarassing this type of situation is- On one hand you know WHY you do it, but you feel horrible about it later. And then feel even worse when anyone else sees it- But it's the only thing you know to fix things? Aaaagghhh
Cardlin taking care off the wounds: “I guess you don’t mind it hurting right? Sorry, too soon?”
Me: laughing into my pillow trying not to wake the whole house up because it’s currently 1:55 AM and i should be asleep as well but I just really needed this video right now.
I been clean for a long time now not sure how long exactly but I still can see faint scars and now I look at them, they just remind me of that and I regret so much now. This video is so comforting
I cleaned my cuts while I listened to this :) I’m very proud
PFF OKAY THAT JOKE WAS GOLD in actuality though, thank you for this. I recently relapsed and I was over 3 years clean. Then, I relapsed again. I've been in a mood about it but this really helped. Thank you.
four hours clean...god damnit
5 minutes clean......
@@yourdaughter7020 three years clean. it gets better.
@@whathuhwhuh this made my heart genuinely burst. Wow. I’m so fucking proud of you.
I've been calling the crisis line pretty frequently, between schizophrenia, paranoia, anxiety, and depression. It's nice to here someone that's supportive, and not threatening to send me away. For some random stranger that I listen to, you make me feel loved. Thank you, cardlin,
I hit 2 years this year in July. It's the longest I've gotten so far, and for once, I can say I'm proud of myself, at least for this one thing ❤️.
i’m so proud of you!!
it's really f-ing hard, the relapses and finding someone that's like cardlin.
I've been 3 months clean and its hard to not want to cut. I've been listening to these for a long time and they make me feel like someone cares about me. My parents stopped caring a long time ago and so the world sucks and I feel like I'm neve getting out of here. Never gettting out of this darkness and this anger and this want to see blood. I needed this cardlin. Thank you so much. You help me realize sometimes I have to open up. Sure the boyfriend audios aren't made for me because I like girls but I had this one guy friend who mindlessly flirted with me and it feels like he's here to care for me again. Thank you
proud of u :)
Finding this after 7 months of being clean and relapsing and ugghhhh I love him so much! The makes me so happy💕 thank you to the writer and Cardlin this means alot
I know this video was 4 years ago but I really need more of these
Wow...this..I've been clean for 7 years. The urge is still there and sometimes I feel like I'm about to break, but I overcome, my addictions have no hold of me anymore, and I had no one to talk me through this, no one to understand, just judgements, and scoldings. So I appreciate this video so much.
I don't usually comment but this video really touched me. Thank you, Cardlin.
You made me ugly cry and I thank you a lot I felt so alone thank you for being the only person who cared
⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ (I don’t know what triggers others but I’m being very vague in my description and avoiding triggering words as much as possible).
Thank you… you can’t comprehend how much I cried and held my pillow. I never get this type of comfort and I’ve been dealing with this for 4 1/2 years now and I do it to punish myself for things that I think I caused and I have done it on my thighs, calfs, arms, stomach, neck, etc.. and after I feel worthless but, cardlin has made me cry more than I have in years and it’s weird but it felt very freeing. Thank you cardlin even though you’ll probably never see this but you don’t know how much this ment to me and so many other I’m crying as I’m writing this and trying to find the words for how thankful I am that you took the time to record and post an audio like this. Thank you❤️
I hadn’t self harmed in 2 years until last night. I’ve listened to this lots of times now and I don’t think I can ever listen to it enough times.
I hope you're doing good!💖
I hope you're doing good!💖
I was cleaning my thigh while listening to this and a piece of advice: DONT BREATHE IN THE RUBBING ALCOHOL FUMES. Cause I poured that shit all over my leg and JESUS FUCKING CHRIST I was coughing alot.
8:48 STOP
NO
NO
STOP
NO
THAT WAS PERSONAL
THAT WAS WAY TOO ACCURATE TO MY REAL LIFE
I'm still in recovery I am six months clean but I still struggle but... This video is really calming and it helps my feelings just come naturally and makes the world of difference and I just don't feel all self harmy anymore thank you for this... I feel strong that I'll be able to fight my addiction.
5hrs and 22 mins clean
feeling ok ngl
I love how understanding he is
I'm so happy that you addressed the more 'secretive' parts.
No matter what I do people I date always react to my cutting by telling me they're either going to do it themselves or break up with me if I cut again and it just makes me want to do it more and more and I just wish I had someone supportive like this.
Alex Long bless your heart that's really horrible and manipulative of them
I’m 1 month clean and honestly before I even listened to this I was planning on self harming in my bathroom but then my dad started taking a shower. This video came in my recommended and idk something urged me to listen to this and I did. This made me feel better and made me not want to self harm. Thank you Carlson for making videos like this- you probably saved a ton of people by this and I just wanna thank you. Keep up the good work.
Can u possibly make a comfort from a break up or comfort from finding out partner cheated video? I have recently found out my boyfriend cheated on me and since then I haven't been feeling more depressed so I feel like a video like this would be helpful.
This actually made me cry... I've been suffering with depression for almost 5 years now, and that was really sweet! Thank you for that...
OMG I almost fell asleep and this stupid ad popped up and it was for a horror movie. I am wide awake now..
I really like this video, depression and self harm are what I’m suffering with too and this is so nice to hear from someone❤️
one of your best, in my opinion. very reassuring tone of voice, made me feel so much better as i found this video by coincidence just after a bad relapse.
I did not expect this to hit me as hard as it did. 2 months since the last time and every day is a struggle. But this seriously helped and reminded me to stay strong. And to everyone else going through this too, I am so, so sorry. But you can do this. You are perfect in every way~ keep fighting 💙💙 Thank you Cardlin xx