why it is, that the greatest sweetest joys, can turn in the the most bittersweet memmories is something ive been asking myself forever,. but especially the last half year,.. really the last 5 years has been such a struggle, when i finally find a work that i loved it had to end, and my last day 1st of december i crashed 2 times on my bike omw there bcus of,.. ice, had alreaddy got a new deal and since i REALLY had to move on with my life i just bite it in and didnt go to the hospital eventho my chest felt kinda cracked,. the new job whas catering but as the new guy u know,. so lots of heavy lifting and stuff.. THEN CORONA before i get a full contract ofc.. i dint get it but we where called home for quanrentten bcus of it, so i went to the doctor (from the crash) about a month and a half later,.. he didnt even look at me he just called me a cap. and said i have to go to the hospital,. NOW haha 14 days there IN THE BEGINNING OF COVID became homeless cus the house ive rentet a tiny room in got sold,.. and alot of other stuff,.. sry for makeing it long i promise ill get to the point now,.. half a year ago,. after 2 years of deep depression, i meet this girl,.. we hooked up and bang, it whas like i whas cured, ive honestly never felt this good in my life EVER.. but i did an oopsie,.. cus of my ffed up life i smoked alot of weed,. and been trying to stop for so long and in 2 years i actually felt like i moved alittle, she didnt smoke, and being with her, just the thougt of being with her whas enough that i never touched it while i whas with her, i didnt crave it one bit,.. then 3 months after,.. u know when the shit is on its way out and i just got,.. mad weird messed up i talked shit and didnt know wtf whas going on,.. for the last 3 months i took to hospital with her for her, did alot of good shit for her cus my problems where washed away so i cud easy focus on her,.. so i forgot,.. had i thougt about me being at the last stage i cud have said something maybe, insead i said something really fucked up,.. and she never wants to talk to me again,.. half a year,.. ive been thinking about her feeling so lost,.. crazy even so yeh, why is it that the greatest joys can have the most bittersweet memorries.. maybe bcus were human,.. we feel shit think stuff sometimes too much,. way too much,.. i love youre Quotes man,.. see how they get me to think,..
It's been so long since we had Dutch here, loving the vibes
i’m glad i found your channel, everything here is great.
been going a year and i’m planning on staying here for the future. keep posting great music
the artwork tho 😍😍😍
the artwork hit me harder then those deep lyrics
i really need a goth gf asap.. its been so long
so beautiful
Nice.
I was feeling a bit anxious but this song calmed me down. I love it
Underrated!!!!
Wow, it's was a second after I realized that music ended)
🤍🤍🤍
Hi Wanderlust
Question: is Dutch Melrose in fact Dutch?
Thats a good question, gonna have to ask him mate haha
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why it is, that the greatest sweetest joys, can turn in the the most bittersweet memmories is something ive been asking myself forever,. but especially the last half year,.. really the last 5 years has been such a struggle, when i finally find a work that i loved it had to end, and my last day 1st of december i crashed 2 times on my bike omw there bcus of,.. ice, had alreaddy got a new deal and since i REALLY had to move on with my life i just bite it in and didnt go to the hospital eventho my chest felt kinda cracked,. the new job whas catering but as the new guy u know,. so lots of heavy lifting and stuff.. THEN CORONA before i get a full contract ofc.. i dint get it but we where called home for quanrentten bcus of it, so i went to the doctor (from the crash) about a month and a half later,.. he didnt even look at me he just called me a cap. and said i have to go to the hospital,. NOW haha 14 days there IN THE BEGINNING OF COVID became homeless cus the house ive rentet a tiny room in got sold,.. and alot of other stuff,.. sry for makeing it long i promise ill get to the point now,.. half a year ago,. after 2 years of deep depression, i meet this girl,.. we hooked up and bang, it whas like i whas cured, ive honestly never felt this good in my life EVER.. but i did an oopsie,.. cus of my ffed up life i smoked alot of weed,. and been trying to stop for so long and in 2 years i actually felt like i moved alittle, she didnt smoke, and being with her, just the thougt of being with her whas enough that i never touched it while i whas with her, i didnt crave it one bit,.. then 3 months after,.. u know when the shit is on its way out and i just got,.. mad weird messed up i talked shit and didnt know wtf whas going on,.. for the last 3 months i took to hospital with her for her, did alot of good shit for her cus my problems where washed away so i cud easy focus on her,.. so i forgot,.. had i thougt about me being at the last stage i cud have said something maybe, insead i said something really fucked up,.. and she never wants to talk to me again,.. half a year,.. ive been thinking about her feeling so lost,.. crazy even so yeh, why is it that the greatest joys can have the most bittersweet memorries.. maybe bcus were human,.. we feel shit think stuff sometimes too much,. way too much,.. i love youre Quotes man,.. see how they get me to think,..