Oink Oink.. I am looking at the waters.. watching the waves coming in.. I am looking Up at the Moon.. asking when will I see YOU.. I have come to this Beach.. and I left for awhile.. the last time I came.. I brought a Bottle.. and sat on a Big rock.. bringing a Shot Glass and having Your Picture in my hand.. Looking at YOU through the Picture.. missing YOU.. and I would take Shot after another Shot.. as I would look at your Picture.. I would open my mouth.. taking to the Picture.. but NO matter how much words I would say looking at your Picture.. I don't hear anything on the Other side.. I remember before I came to this Beach.. I was at Home.. sitting on the desk.. and decided to pick UP a pen and looking at a piece of paper.. I started to write YOU something on the Piece of paper and it became a Written letter I wrote from My Heart.. asking YOU.. Pleading for YOU.. telling How much I missed YOU.. and I would write about the daily days that was happening around me and asking if YOU can Come.. because I know that If I don't ask YOU.. YOU are Not going to know anything at All.. so I have decided to write on a piece of paper.. telling YOU how much I love YOU.. How much YOU means to me.. that YOU means everything to Me.. and that I want to see YOU.. be close to YOU and wants to wrap my arms around YOU and hold YOU close in my arms and whisper into your ears.. that I love YOU.. just sitting down by the desk.. and just can't stop thinking about YOU.. that I wanted to be with YOU for ever and that when YOU come.. I will never let YOU go.. I will not these arms let go of YOU because I have been sitting here.. standing here missing YOU.. waiting for YOU.. longing for YOU.. waiting for YOU and longing all over again because I just can't stop think of YOU.. How much I love YOU.. that it kills me that I can't be close.. it kills me inside that why you have to be gone for so Long.. and that no matter what.. I be here waiting for YOU till you come.. I even wrote on the Piece of paper.. my love Letter that I am standing by this One Beach and I gave the address where the Beach is at and that I am going to bring a Bottle.. and with me is a Piece of Paper which I wrote to you.. a Love that comes from my Heart and On this Beach.. I am going to put the Piece of Paper.. My Love Letter inside the Bottle and I am going to toss it into the waters and let the Message in the Bottle goes to YOU.. and I know.. I believe that if it means meant to be for Us.. I know that Some way and Some How it will go to where you at and YOU are able to receive this Letter.. a Message in the Bottle.. the Piece of paper I wrote.. I hope that it is able to get to you.. Now I am here at the beach.. standing here on the Other side.. I am looking at the waters.. it has been few weeks that has passed by.. If you are wondering why has it taken me this long to come back to this Beach.. It is because I know that it is going to take time for the Message in the Bottle be delivered to YOU.. I had to wait for a while.. it was hard waiting by my House.. as I would stand Out side.. every night I would come OUT from my house and I would turn to face the Moon.. and I am wondering is it the time for me to GO to that Beach.. and I would be looking at the Moon.. asking over and over.. I would not hear.. there would be NO answer I hear as I would stand out side by the House.. so I would tell myself.. it must not be right now.. so I would go back inside the House.. and would wait for the Next day.. waiting for the Sun to go down and I would wait till the Moon comes UP.. walking out the Front door.. I would turn to face the Moon and be asking the same Question.. every New Day.. I wait for the Night to rise.. looking for the MOON to show UP before my eyes and I would wait.. some nights I would not see the MOON at all.. so I would just go back inside the House.. just waiting for the Next Night.. waiting for the Moon to show UP.. too appear before my eyes.. and I would turn to look at that Moon.. asking.. finally weeks would pass by.. and I do not hear any answers from that same Moon.. maybe it does not hear me.. or does Not even know what is going on.. that Moon never tells me anything.. but it does show up many Nights and appears before my eyes.. I get tired of hearing.. I get tired of hearing no answers so I have finally told myself.. May be this is the very Night.. and I would drive in the car.. coming to the same Beach.. and I would walk on the sand and I would see the Big Rock.. Looking at How I was hurt.. I was drinking.. taking shots.. looking at your Picture.. the Piece of paper in my pocket.. I was hurt.. with a Pain and Heart ache.. It was my birthday.. and I wanted YOU to celebrate with me.. but How can YOU celebrate with me if YOU are gone.. YOU are far away and I started to take shots.. I would be looking Up.. LOOKING at the MOON.. shouting and screaming.. crying and balling.. tears kept on dropping.. Just missing YOU.. wanting to see YOU so bad.. Missing you Hard.. Missing you that I just had to let out.. pouring out my tears.. and I would look at the Bottle.. and it was empty.. I dropped the shot glass on the sand.. and In the pocket I pulled OUT the piece of paper.. the Written.. I wrote you a Love Letter on this Piece of Paper and I would fold to roll it UP and put into the Bottle.. and I would LOOK at the waters.. waves coming in and leaving.. I would walk up and I am looking at the Bottle.. inside is the Message I wrote to YOU and I yelled Out loud.. saying I miss YOU.. and Yelling Out Loud.. I love YOU and throw the Bottle into the Waters.. and I just sat on the sand.. looking at the Bottle.. the water waves hitting it and I don't see it no more.. and I am sitting on the sand crying.. I wish that the Bottle gets to YOU.. I have wrote you something.. I hope that the waters can help it to get across to YOU.. As I am standing here.. I am thinking of when I was here like few weeks ago.. the same spot which I was drunk.. and I was crying.. watching the waves and the Bottle in the waters.. I am here wondering if YOU have received the Message in the Bottle.. How do I know if it will get to YOU.. but I know that I have written a Letter to YOU.. what if it is Not you who grabs the Message in the Bottle but I don't want it to be in someone else's hands.. because I have written on that piece of Paper to YOU.. as I am standing here at Night.. I look UP.. I see the MOON.. it looks so Big this very night and yes.. I have been waiting now for weeks.. did YOU received the Message in the Bottle.. I know that by Faith.. I do believe in love.. and loving YOU is who I believe it is to be true.. I know that I can wait for YOU.. No matter How far.. or How many bottles I needs to drink UP.. or HOW many pieces of papers I needs to write and to tell YOU in many little words.. I can always wait for YOU till you are ready for Me.. there is NO problem for me to wait because I know I love YOU.. I just don't want my Words get to you become empty words.. it is words that I am speaking and telling YOU through writing because this is the Only way I can get across to YOU.. I wish there are some other way but this is the Only way I can get YOU across my Mind.. I tell you my Heart.. I tell you from the deeper side of My Heart because I love YOU.. but I am standing here on the Beach.. I wish that the message got to YOU.. I will come back to this Beach Soon because I am going to bring YOU another Letter.. a Piece of paper written as my Love Letter.. that is the Only way I can tell YOU.. express my Heart and feelings.. all my emotions how much I love YOU.. but it seems like that YOU have Not received the Message Yet.. but what if YOU did receive it.. are you going to send me a Message in the Bottle to let me know YOU have read the written.. the Piece of Paper I wrote to YOU of How much I miss YOU.. How much I love YOU.. are you going to show UP next time I come here.. because that be the greatest answer you can give me.. if YOU are not sure.. I know that I can truly wait.. wait for YOU until you are sure.. Until you are ready for me to Love YOU.. YOU do not have to do anything because it is ME who loves YOU first.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. and I told you many times that I can keep on loving YOU.. as long as YOU show UP and Open your Heart to me.. YOU are wondering what do YOU needs to do.. I will tell you this simple.. NOTHING.. I am not asking YOU for anything but for YOU to get ready to receive all my Love.. all I can do is Love YOU.. what more can I do or say but to tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I am standing here.. I am looking at the MOON.. it is staring over Me.. and I am looking at that MOON.. I can see tears falling from the MOON.. am I just tired.. because it is very late in the Night.. Must be that my eyes are getting tired because I am watching the MOON showing me tears.. I hope that if you are close by a Beach.. and if it is at Night.. walk on the sand and what I am seeing right Now is that the MOON is crying before my eyes.. if you are able to see that Same Moon.. you can see what I am seeing that it is My Heart who is crying for YOU.. reflection comes from that MOON because I truly believe that MOON knows my Heart.. that MOON has seen me many nights.. I would show UP.. I would walk out side from my House.. I would turn to face that MOON and I am sure it does not forget my Face.. the few weeks back.. that MOON appeared before Me.. that Moon saw me sitting on the Big Rock.. saw me looking at Your Picture.. I was taking shots from the Bottle.. and Saw me putting a Letter.. piece of paper rolled UP into the Bottle.. and saw Me Toss the message in the Bottle into the waters.. I turned to the MOON that
I am trying to draw Picture of YOU.. grabbing the Pencil and Looking at the sketch paper.. the Picture is in front of me as I am sitting by the desk.. as I am smiling looking at the Picture of YOU.. I just can't believe I have your Picture.. YOU are the Most Beautiful.. Just too beautiful to be true.. and the Baby Teddy Bear sitting on my Lap.. The most Beautiful Baby Boy.. I am trying to concentrate drawing.. the Baby Teddy Bear sitting on my Lap.. I see the hands trying to grab the Pencil.. losing me to Put the Pencil Down.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. this little Son.. starts to cry.. wanting to hold the Pencil.. I tell this baby Teddy Bear.. I am trying to draw a picture.. why can't You just sit on my lap and just watch me Draw.. I am looking at your Picture.. and I just want to see YOU.. the baby Teddy Bear looks at my eyes and turns to look at the direction I am looking at.. This Little Son looks at your Picture.. and hands wants to grab your Picture.. and tries to get closer to the Picture.. But.. I would pull the Baby Teddy Bear away.. and He looks at me starts to cry.. saying that is MOMMA.. and I just can't believe.. this Baby Teddy Bear knows the Picture is YOU.. knows who his Momma is.. and as I would pull away.. I want to draw.. I tell the Baby Teddy Bear.. Please.. let me draw on the sketch paper.. I hear another Crying on the back.. it is His Sister.. and they are twins.. two Baby Teddy Bears.. One.. the sister is sleeping on the Bed.. the Daughter.. and I can hear a crying and I would turn to look back.. and I see the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. she has woken UP from sleep.. and Looking for MOMMA.. and I turn around.. as I get up.. the Little Son.. He starts to cry as I am holding.. I turn away from the desk.. holding the Little Son.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. Now I hear both crying.. Both crying for their Momma.. and as I put the Little Son.. the Baby Teddy Bear on the Bed.. next to His sister.. both are crying as I am looking at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. I just don't know what to do.. when Both are crying together.. looking for Momma.. and it breaks my Heart because I do also Miss YOU as well.. I want to see YOU.. then I wonder how these two Baby Teddy Bears be feeling.. when they belong to YOU and being that part of family.. I am watching both crying and crying.. hands are asking to be Hold.. and I am just standing here.. ALL I wanted to do is to draw picture of YOU.. sitting by the desk.. looking at the picture of YOU.. and just to draw the picture.. to know how much I love YOU.. and I wanted to show YOU and to give it as a gift to YOU.. but it seems like it is Not working at this point.. What am I suppose to Do.. the two baby Teddy bears are crying.. they are looking for MOMMA.. am I suppose to call YOU.. because they will not stop Crying.. I can't even draw picture of YOU any More because.. they are crying.. I can't concentrate with Two babies crying.. as I would look.. I would pick up the Phone.. but when I picked UP the Phone.. it was YOU who was calling.. and I would hear your voice on the Other side.. I smile because I was about to call YOU.. and YOU have read my mind.. asking about How the two baby Teddy Bears be doing.. and YOU can hear the two crying.. the twins.. Baby Girl and baby Boy.. both crying for MOMMA.. and I would look at the two.. and I would tell the two.. It is MOMMA on the Phone.. and I see both stops crying and I would give the Phone to the Daughter first.. and I see the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. hands grab and pulling away from His sister.. wanting to hear the voice of their MOMMA.. and I am just.. my Heart.. My Chest.. My Heart.. How much these two are missing their MOMMA.. wanting to see.. I see both ears.. trying to listen to the Voice of their MOMMA.. and I would look at the two.. they are so Beautiful.. both.. the twins.. the Baby Teddy Bears.. both so Cute but so Beautiful.. I would turn around.. and I do remember.. I was sitting down on the chair.. by the desk.. Looking at your Picture.. I would look and say to Your Picture.. when can I see YOU.. will you let me hold YOU.. will you let me love YOU.. I know I can love you the way YOU want to be held and want to be loved.. I know that I can love you in a way you would never felt before.. I can tell YOU.. tell YOU how much I miss YOU.. How Much I love YOU.. but.. YOU have to give me the permission.. allow me to tell YOU that I love YOU.. and I would be looking at your Picture.. when will you come around so that I can see YOU.. My hand grabbing unto the Pencil.. looking at a sketch of paper.. My hand starts to trace.. using the pencil to draw.. and I am looking at your picture.. to draw you on this sketch paper.. and right when I was about to go deeper.. I hear a knock on the door.. DOK DOK DOK.. and I am wondering.. who be knocking at the front door at this time of hour.. it is getting late.. and I am thinking.. maybe I am just too tired that I am hearing things.. so I would begin to use my hand to draw.. I hear another Knocking at the Door.. DOK DOK DOK.. and I know this time I heard it right.. so I put the Pencil down.. on top of the Desk and I get UP.. pull out of the chair and I would walk to the front door.. I hear another knocking.. DOK DOK DOK.. I would unlock and Open the Door.. I see you standing there.. and I see you have brought companies.. it is the Twins.. two Baby Teddy Bears.. and I am wondering.. why would you bring the two Babies here late at night.. is something wrong.. but.. YOU be telling me you are leaving on a vacation.. and wanted me to baby sit the two Baby Teddy Bears.. but I have No children.. and I have NO experiences with kids.. or babies.. why would you bring them over to my House.. and YOU are asking me that it be for few days.. but looking at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. they are the most cute and you have brought what I can use for the two.. what do I do if the two Baby Teddy Bears starts to cry.. asking for MOMMA.. and if they start to miss their MOMMA.. what am I suppose to do then.. because I have No experiences at all.. and I see you get closer.. trying to hand me over the Little SON.. and as I would hold on with my arms.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little Son starts to cry.. and I see the Little SON.. arms stretching out to YOU.. because He does not want to come to me.. the Cry gets louder and louder.. and arms stretching out to YOU.. wanting to Go to YOU instead of Me.. and His cry so Loud.. hurting my ears.. and I am not sure.. It is so hard for me to control.. and I would ask YOU to come inside.. I see the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter starts to cry too.. both being very loud cries.. I just don't know what to do.. why are you leaving them with Me.. they are both crying loud for YOU.. asking to take them with YOU.. My Heart hurts.. it hurts because I know How it feels to be in a pain when YOU leave.. as YOU would try to give me the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter.. She is even more worst.. YOU had to hold Her close.. and She would sleep in your arms.. Would not even come to me.. kicking and screaming when YOU try to get her close to me.. and what happens when the Other Baby Teddy Bear wakes UP and knows YOU are not in the House.. but has left her with Me.. the Other Baby Teddy Bear will find Out that YOU are gone.. but for now.. she may sleep.. if the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter did not come to me when YOU were here.. I know she is Not going to come to me when I am alone with Her.. I feel so Bad.. My Heart breaks as I would watch the Little SON.. He sees you walking.. the BABY TEDDY Bear starts to crawl after you.. I am watching.. my eyes.. I feel my tears going to pour out.. as I see you walking fast.. going to the front DOOR and the Little SON.. the Baby Teddy Bear crawls crying after you.. as I watch YOU leave the front door.. and the door closes behind.. the Little Son.. baby Teddy Bear sits and cries.. and sits by the door waiting for YOU as He keeps on crying for his MOMMA.. I am standing behind.. just wiping my tears.. It hurts.. this Pain.. it feels like a sharp pain has entered in me.. It hurts watching the Little Son.. hurting.. crying for his Momma.. and turn to look at me crying.. tears hitting the floor.. and turns to look at the door.. what do I do.. tell me.. what am I suppose to do when It hurts me just watching One breaking Heart.. what do I do.. I wanted to go.. Open that front Door and run after YOU.. grab Your Arm and pull and to let YOU see.. LOOK at the Little SON.. look at HIM crying.. why do I have to be the one to watch His tears run down like this.. WHY do you have to break my Heart when I have done nothing to YOU.. why come over and look at the Heart pieces falling apart.. WHY do I have to be the one with the Broken Heart.. it hurts me more than It hurts YOU.. as I would walk.. closer to the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little Son.. keeps on crying.. pointing to the Door.. wanting to go with YOU.. but.. I know that I can't take this Little ONE to YOU.. and I am just standing here.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do at this Point.. because I can't help this Little Son.. even though I want too.. but.. YOU be telling me you wanted to be time alone.. you just wanted so time off.. to refresh Your Head and that is why YOU are leaving and has made me to be the Baby sitter for the Two Baby Teddy Bears.. I know you have brought all that is needed for them.. so that part I am ready to do what I was told me to do.. but.. I just can't take the pains of the two baby Teddy Bears be crying.. Now.. I am looking at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. both sitting on the top of the Bed.. with the Phone in their Ears listening to Your Voice.. Both looks at each other and smiles knowing that They are hearing their MOMMA on the Other side.. so
I am getting closer.. and I am wondering.. few days.. but when is that the few days end.. so that I can focus on drawing picture of you on the New Sketch Paper Book I just bought from an Art Shop.. I want to draw a picture of YOU and to show YOU when it is all completed.. I be drawing YOU.. for a long time I wanted to draw a picture of YOU.. I know that I am Not good in drawing.. but I do want to try so that I can tell YOU.. I can show YOU this is My Heart.. Not Just My Heart.. but it is My Love.. this is a way I want to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. but I need a time alone.. I need my own time.. if the two Baby Teddy Bears are here.. I know that I can't draw anything.. so I would get close to the Two baby Teddy Bears.. I am asking if I can have the phone Back.. so that I can talk to YOU.. but it seems like the two Baby Teddy Bears does Not want to give me the Phone.. they want to hear their Momma speak on the Other side.. I see the smiles and giggles together.. it look so beautiful.. how the two are so Beautiful when they smile.. just like their MOMMA.. YOU are the most Beautiful when YOU smile.. as I would watch the Phone being hung UP.. and the two sitting on the Bed.. looking at me.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do now.. they just looks at me.. and both starts to cry.. crying loud wanting to see their MOMMA.. My arms around the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I am looking for YOU.. I heard this Giant Teddy Bear crying.. asking me if this Bear can go to YOU.. as I am walking.. I am walking into a Room.. and I stop.. there is a Square box.. on top of a stand.. and I am looking at the Square Box.. Inside is the Big Heart.. I just can't believe it.. Is this Your Heart.. I want to know if this Big Heart belongs to YOU.. because if this Big Heart is Yours.. I want it.. and can I keep this Big Heart if it belongs to YOU.. I am looking at the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I would say.. DO you see that Heart.. It is so Big.. I love when a Heart is this Big.. do you know why.. LOOK at my arms.. My Arms loves to HOLD and Snuggle.. just like this Giant Teddy Bear.. I was trying to sleep.. this Giant Teddy Bear was sitting on top of my Bed.. this Giant Teddy Bear kept on waking me UP.. telling me She misses YOU.. that She wants to know where YOU at.. and Calls YOU MOMMA.. I am wondering.. WHO is MOMMA.. is it MAMA.. or I am not sure and I would turn my Head to look.. I tell this Giant Teddy Bear.. I need my sleep.. I need some rest tonight.. I just could not sleep the Other night.. and I would look at this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I saw Your picture.. when I saw YOUR picture.. I just could not wake my eyes off of YOU.. and I would be having the Picture underneath the Pillow and I pulled it off.. holding in my hand is Your Picture and I showed this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. do you see.. take a good look.. like a Flower.. the Most beautiful Flower.. do YOU see the One whom I love.. take a LOOK for me.. and the Giant Teddy bear looks at your Picture.. and starts to say.. YOU are her MOMMA.. and starts to cry asking me to take her to YOU.. I am wondering.. what Have you done to this Giant Teddy Bear.. she is crying for YOU.. like YOU are her Momma.. and I would lay and turn on the side.. closing my eyes.. THIS Giant Teddy Bear keeps on crying.. she keeps on crying for her Momma.. and I open both eyes.. I need some rest.. I need some sleep.. and I turn and I sit UP looking at the Giant Teddy Bear.. what if you are not her Momma.. and the Giant Teddy bear cries and cries.. looking for YOU.. both arms opens to me and says.. YOU are her Momma.. I would wrap my arms around this Giant Teddy Bear.. lift and I would walk off of the room.. going into.. I am not sure where I was going.. am I sleep walking.. or am I walking in the right direction.. and the Giant Teddy Bear leads me to the ROOM.. I have never seen this room before.. so I must be sleeping right.. I must be dreaming or something.. and I see a DOOR opens before me.. and I stop.. my breathe is taken away.. looking at the Square Box.. sitting on top of a Stand.. I see a Big Heart.. I want it.. Now I feel like this Giant Teddy Bear.. I want to Cry with this Bear.. because I do not want to drop this Giant Teddy Bear.. but I do want to Hold that Big Heart.. I want to know.. why is this Big Heart inside a Square Box.. who has put this Big Heart inside.. and why would YOU Leave this Big Heart behind.. it just don't make any sense to Me.. because If I want it.. I want this Heart so Bad.. I want it that I want to walk to this Square Box and Beat It.. what happens if the Square Box starts to rock and it can Hurt this Big Heart.. as I would lower to Put the Giant Teddy Bear on the Floor.. I would raise UP.. and I would walk closer and closer.. I step so close.. placing my hands on the Side of this Square Box.. I can see Your Heart.. It is Your Big Heart.. is this Your Heart.. can YOU hear me because if this Big Heart do Not belongs to YOU.. I don't want it.. I want it because it is Your Heart.. I would pull the Picture from my back pocket and I am looking at You through this Picture and I would say.. I have brought some thing.. but has become some one.. it is the Giant Teddy Bear.. this Bear cries.. and she be saying.. YOU are her Momma.. will you accept her as Your Daughter.. because I can't put her with me any more.. the Giant Teddy Bear.. she tells me she has lost her Momma.. I showed the Giant Teddy Bear a picture of YOU.. and she says YOU are her Momma.. I am not sure how this became to Be.. but.. I came here because of this Giant Teddy Bear.. I guess she belongs with YOU and Not with me.. so I am going to leave this Giant Teddy Bear behind.. but before I go.. I want to see that YOU would accept her.. and I turn to look back and I lower too look at the Giant Teddy Bear.. I see her crying.. wiping the tears with two small hands.. saying She wants her Momma.. misses her Momma.. wondering where YOU at.. and I turn to look at the Square Box.. looking through the Glass.. looking at the Big Heart.. How can YOU leave your Daughter behind.. why would you let her cry like that.. I feel so sad when something like this Happens to a SON or a Daughter.. can YOU not hear this Giant Teddy Bear crying.. I hear MOMMA.. and I hear crying and tear drops.. and I would look at the Square BOX.. I would hold the Picture and I turn to look at YOU through the Picture.. of course I too want to see YOU.. I want to hold YOU IN my arms.. just the way I would hold this Giant Teddy Bear.. but I wish that it be you.. I rather be YOU instead.. but I don't know where YOU are.. I only can see you through this Picture.. but I can't find YOU anywhere else as I would turn.. looking at the Square Box.. I am looking through this Glass and I am looking at the Big Heart.. and I would get closer to the Glass and I would look at the Big Heart.. I do love Your Heart.. I love how beautiful your Heart is.. the shape of your Heart.. I wish that I can take this Square Box.. am I allowed to lift this Square Box.. can I carry it away and go to my room.. will you please let me take this Square Box.. because right when my eyes saw your Big Heart.. something inside of me just froze.. I felt like my feet were glued to the floor and it was very Hard for my feet to move forward.. my Heart just kept on telling me.. to GO.. walk forward.. but my eyes.. when both eyes saw what was inside this Square Box.. it told my feet to stay glued.. for a moment.. I wanted to step back.. not to enter the room.. to turn around and to go back.. but the Giant Teddy Bear kept on crying.. telling me it is MOMMA's Heart.. that is MOMMA and made me realize that I was at the right place.. in the right room.. I just fell in love with the Big Heart because this is the starting point I wish to have.. I can say many wishes on a star.. it may never come true when YOU make too make wishes on a star.. but when I look at this Big Heart.. I know that One day my wish can be a true reality.. means it can really happen.. I came so close.. I can't turn back and cannot walk off.. I am able to look at this Big Heart so Close.. I want it.. really really want it.. but what am I suppose to do now.. I see the Square Box on top of a stand.. I brought the Giant Teddy Bear with me.. I have your picture.. which I am looking at it right Now.. I have come this very far.. but.. I need this Heart.. my finger points and touches the glass.. it does not matter any more because Now I know what I need.. what I want is this.. the Big Heart.. I don't want to steal it.. I just can't carry it off.. but I want this Heart.. this Big Heart.. my finger taps and taps the Glass of the square Box.. this Giant Teddy Bear has lead me here.. why.. if I can't take this Big Heart with me.. if this Square Box is attached to the Stand.. I tried to pull the Square Box off the stand.. the Giant Teddy Bear started to kick and scream crying and looking at me Not to take it.. then what am I suppose to do.. she is crying.. I want the Heart.. I did not come all the way here just to look at the Big Heart.. should I lift the Stand.. maybe this stand can go with me because I want Your Big Heart.. tell me.. why can't I have it.. I want Your Heart.. do I must beg.. I am not a beggar to beg for your Big Heart.. but if I must beg.. I can be a beggar just for YOU.. but please.. tell me.. I want Your Heart.. I want this Big Heart.. I want to hold Your Big Heart in my arms and my head lean on your Heart and I want to tell Your Heart.. I have been waiting for YOU.. waiting for this Heart to come to Me.. like my Pillow.. I want to lay my head and sleep on top of your big Heart and say to YOU.. I love YOU.. I would hear steps.. I am thinking.. where is this sound coming from and I hear the steps.. walking steps and the sound is coming from the
Back.. and I would turn to look back.. and I see the Giant Teddy Bear crying and crying.. and I am wondering.. it must be YOU.. because when the steps stopped.. YOU lowered yourself and the Giant Teddy Bear stops crying.. arms would stretch out and I hear the word MOMMA.. and I see you wrapping your arms around the Giant Teddy Bear.. as I see YOU lift up the Giant Teddy Bear.. my Heart starts to beat.. I am wondering.. where is this Sound coming from.. Is it my Heart and I turn around.. LOOKING at the Square Box.. through the Glass.. I see your Big Heart.. and I am not sure.. I am hearing the beating of a Heart.. I would get close to the Square Box.. putting my ear on the side of the glass of the Square Box.. But I do not hear any sound.. and I would turn too look at YOU.. I see the Giant Teddy Bear smiling.. arms wrapping around YOU and snuggling.. I want that too.. I want to be held by YOU like the way YOU be holding that Giant Teddy Bear.. maybe we can switch places for a Day.. I want to be the Giant Teddy Bear.. and she can be me switching shoes.. I want your Heart.. I want your BIG HEART.. but Now I want to be held by YOU.. can I please be a little Boy.. I want your arms around me.. and holding me tight and I get to snuggle in your arms.. Please.. YOU know how much I want Your Love.. to be loved by YOU because I love YOU.. I am sitting by the desk.. I am looking at the shot glass.. and grabbed the Bottle of whiskey and poured into the Shot glass.. placing the whiskey down.. picked up the shot glass.. opened my mouth and take a shot.. I am trying to forget YOU.. but I just can't.. I have placed your picture on the top of the desk.. I keep on looking at this picture.. I tell myself I needs to stop.. but I feel like I needs to keep on looking.. I would look at your picture and say.. why are you doing this to me.. why do I have to keep on looking at you.. of course I have a pencil and a clean white sheet of paper.. I want to draw.. looking at your picture.. I want to draw the picture of you.. but I know that I am not that good in drawing at all.. but I can feel.. this whiskey starts to kick my head.. I feel light headed and buzzing.. I know I drank so that I can forget you.. but why is it that I am missing you more now.. I just can't take my eyes off of you.. as I am looking at your picture.. why can't your picture talk back to me.. I want to hear something from you.. but no matter how many times I am going to tell you looking at your picture.. I will not hear anything from the Other side.. but I want to hear from you.. Please.. tell me something so that I don't feel the light headed I am feeling at this point right now.. YOU know that I love you.. I can tell you many times that I love YOU.. can you tell me something.. can you hear me say the words to YOU.. I love you.. and I grab the pencil.. starts to trace and starts to draw.. of course I am looking at your picture.. as I stopped.. putting the pencil down.. I have drawn a picture of a Heart.. I know that I am missing your Heart.. and I am looking at this pieces of paper.. looking at the Heart.. this is suppose to be your Heart.. so that I can touch it.. as my hand touches the paper.. my hand touch the Heart.. can you feel my hand.. I am touching your Heart.. can you please tell me that you can feel my Hand touching your Hand.. as my eyes would look at the picture.. it is YOUR Heart I drew.. maybe you would tell me that Heart does not look like yours at all.. I told you that I am not an artist who can paint or draw pictures.. but I know that I can try to draw a Heart.. it is only Your Heart I want to draw.. I want to touch your Heart too.. How about me write my Name on this Heart.. and can I take this piece of paper and give it to YOU.. telling you that I have wrote my name so that YOU know that it is me who loves YOU and asking you to remember my Name.. so that you know that I love you.. I belong to YOU only.. so please.. tell me that I can.. as I grab the bottle of whiskey and pour into the shot Glass.. and place the bottle of whiskey on the top of the desk.. I grab the shot glass and open my mouth and take a shot.. I can feel it burning.. it feels like it wants to burn my Heart instead.. why.. I don't know.. you tell me why.. because I want to hear from you saying that I am allowed too.. as I am sitting down.. looking at the piece of paper.. looking at the Heart I drew.. I turn to look at your picture.. and I would hear a Crying.. I am wondering.. who is crying at this time of night.. is it my Heart.. is My Heart crying from the inside.. is it because of the whiskey.. the shot glass.. the shot of this whiskey.. I don't think my Heart would cry because of it.. and I would sit still.. maybe it is this Heart.. the Heart I drew.. which it is suppose to be Your Heart.. so is Your Heart crying.. and I would sit still trying to figure out why I am hearing crying.. and the Cry I am comes behind me.. and I would turn to look back.. and when I turn to look back.. I see a Teddy Bear.. the arms are stretching out.. and keeps on crying.. and I am wondering.. when did this Teddy Bear got here.. it is smaller and wearing a blue shirt.. must be.. and I would stand up from the chair.. and I hear from the Teddy Bear crying.. MOMMA.. and I stop.. I just can't.. I see tears in the eyes of this Baby Teddy Bear.. and He is crying for Momma.. and I am thinking.. why are you asking me for MOMMA.. I am trying to get over and I grab the Picture and I walk to the bed.. the Baby Teddy Bear sitting on the top of the bed.. and I would sit next to the Baby Teddy Bear and I show the picture.. and I would point.. is this Your MOMMA and the Baby Teddy Bear head goes UP and down telling me that YOU are.. I am wondering.. I am trying to get.. How come now.. and the Baby Teddy Bear wraps the arms around your Picture.. I think you must be a Son.. I am very confused.. so YOU are looking for Momma and the Baby Teddy Bear cries and cries and cries looking for YOU.. and I am sitting down.. what am I suppose to do.. and I start to feel my tears running down.. if you keep on crying.. how about me.. you are going to make me cry with you and I would grab the Picture.. I want you to let go so that YOU don't cry no more and I pull the picture away from the Baby Teddy Bear.. I hear the cry getting louder and louder.. I would get up from sitting on top of the bed.. I would be walking and I stop.. I turn to look back.. the baby Teddy Bear keeps crying and crying.. arms are stretching out.. CRYING FOR MOMMA.. what am I suppose to do.. I do not think your Momma is here.. I am here on my own.. and I just stand there.. I am looking at your picture.. I can't stop my tears running down.. I am here looking at your picture.. wanting to talk to you and wanting to hear from you.. I don't even know where you are.. there is a baby Teddy Bear.. a Son.. who is crying for YOU.. asking me where is MOMMA.. how am I suppose to answer the Baby Teddy Bear's question.. I want to know where YOU are.. but only thing I have is your picture.. I want to hear from you as much as this SON in the room.. crying and crying.. I thought that something was wrong with me.. I thought that My Heart was crying.. crying because I miss YOU.. that I love YOU.. that I want to see YOU and that I want to be close to YOU.. I heard this cry.. but it is Loud cry.. and I turn to look at the bed.. the baby Teddy Bear looks at me.. and I see the tears keeps on dropping.. wetting the bed.. and starts to cry and cry.. I am getting more emotional.. I am trying to get drunk.. but this Baby Teddy Bear is not helping me at at.. and I go over to the Bed and I sit.. I show the Baby Teddy Bear.. this Picture.. is it your Momma and the head moves up and down.. and I give the baby Teddy Bear the picture.. He wraps his arms around your picture and says MOMMA.. and I ask him.. where is your Momma.. please tell me.. and I would say.. I will take you to her.. I would wrap my arms around the baby Teddy Bear and I would lift him up and I get up out of the bed.. Tell me where is Your Momma.. so I can take you to her.. the Baby Teddy bear does not answer.. and I would walk out of the room.. and I am walking down the hall way and I stop.. I see you Holding the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter and I see you turn around and you looking at me.. and I am holding the Baby Teddy Bear.. my arms wrapped around.. and I look at you.. I think you have left this.. He is looking for Momma.. and I would see you placing the Other Teddy Bear.. wearing a pink shirt.. and she starts to cry.. Arms stretching out towards you.. and I see you walking closer to me.. and I hear.. MOMMA.. and I look down.. the Baby teddy Bear.. arms are around your picture.. I see you kneel and arms stretches out.. and I would lower myself.. opens my arm.. the Baby Teddy Bear walks slowly.. arms around your picture.. and falls.. starts to cry loud.. and I am thinking.. this Baby Teddy Bear.. I see you get up and I see your arms around the Baby Teddy Bear.. arms around and Lift him up.. I see you holding the Baby Teddy Bear close in your arms.. I see the picture falling and hits the floor.. as you are stand up walking.. the Baby Teddy Bear falls asleep in your arms.. I am looking.. and you go over to the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter and you are looking at the two.. my hand grabs your picture and I am looking at Your Picture.. looking at you with two children.. and I see smiles with the Daughter.. the Other Teddy bear as you are touching.. am I suppose to fall in love with this.. what am I suppose to do at this point.. and how about me.. can I be a part of that circle.. I want to hold YOU.. and I want to be held by you the way you are holding the two Teddy Bears.. I see smiles and giggles.. but I want to be a part.. I want to smile and giggle along side.. holding YOU
close in my arms.. and holding the baby Teddy Bear.. and Holding YOU to tell you that I love you.. as I am sitting on the floor.. I just want to be with YOU.. I want to be a part so that I can feel the love.. loving YOU will be the most happiest times.. just to love you and to say I love you.. would you let me love YOU.. I want to love YOU.. as I am looking.. I see you holding the hand of the Other Teddy Bear.. the other arm wraps the baby Teddy Bear the son.. and I am watching you walking off.. can I please be a part.. Can I join in that circle too.. Let me be a part of that family.. I know that I can love you.. so Please.. stop and see.. I am sitting on the desk.. Looking at the Piece of paper.. I see the Heart.. the Heart I drew thinking that this is the shape of your Heart.. next to the piece of paper is Your Picture.. I just can't take my mind off of YOU.. I can't take my eyes off of your picture.. I go crazy when I tell you that I love YOU.. as I see the shot Glass.. and I grab the Bottle of the whiskey.. and I pour into the shot glass.. putting the bottle of the whiskey on the top of the desk.. I grab the shot glass.. open my mouth and take a shot.. I can feel the burning again in my Heart.. it keeps on burning harder as I would keep on drinking and taking shots.. and I hear.. Do not tell me I am hearing again.. I am hearing the crying of the Babies.. I turn to look back.. I am hearing cries.. I look back.. I see two Teddy bears.. One is wearing pink the Other is wearing Blue.. and I hear.. MOMMA.. I want my Momma and cries get louder and louder.. I am trying to go to sleep.. laying on the Pillow.. and my arms wrapped around the Giant Teddy Bear.. I want to hold you close.. but I know that NO matter How long.. I know that it is Not You.. my both eyes would close.. shutting them tight.. But for some reason.. I just can't sleep.. I want to sleep because I feel so tired this very night.. But I still can't sleep.. so my arms holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. I want to hear Your Heart beat.. I want to hear your voice.. but I know that this Giant Teddy Bear is not YOU.. and will Not going to say a word to Me.. eyes are still closed.. I am seeing your face.. even though the room is dark.. why am I seeing the vision of YOU.. why can't you go away especially when I need to go to sleep.. it is so Hard to get away from YOU.. I am holding the Giant Teddy Bear tight.. and squeezing because I want YOU.. I need you.. I want to hold you in my arms and tell you.. whisper to your ears how much I need to be with YOU and that I love YOU.. and I just can't wait until YOU come into my arms and I be holding YOU.. and just loving YOU.. loving you more.. even you can get tired of Me.. and even push me both hands.. I still will tell YOU I love YOU.. grabbing you with both arms.. and holding YOU close and telling YOU.. can I hear your Heart.. I want to know how your Heart sounds.. please.. I want to hear what YOUR Heart needs to say.. if YOU have no words to tell me.. at least I want to hold YOU close.. and listening to your Heart beat be enough for Me.. Please.. let me hear Your Heart Beat.. and Holding the Giant Teddy Bear in my arms I would turn to roll.. facing the wall.. and I would sit UP on the Bed.. looking at the wall.. wondering.. WHY can't I just go to sleep.. I need my rest.. I have long day ahead.. and needs to be working.. but on this very Night.. I even tried to close both eyes.. as tight as I could.. and I just need to go to the Night zone.. but I am seeing YOU in my head.. in my thought I see Your beautiful face.. I know that before I came to lay on the Bed.. I was sitting on the chair next to the desk.. I would be looking at Your Picture.. just wondering when can I see YOU.. when Can I be with YOU.. when will your answer be Yes to me.. when will that day Come because I been looking at your Picture.. my Heart is crying from the Inside.. I can feel my Heart just crying because I am longing for YOU.. been waiting and waiting.. but only thing I can do at this point.. sitting on the Chair.. and by the desk.. I be looking at your picture.. It hurts me deep inside that I can't be with YOU.. I would hold the Picture in my hand and I am looking at you through the Picture and I would be asking the Picture of YOU.. why can't I be with YOU now.. why can't my arms just open wide and I can hold you.. hold you close just to hear YOUR Heart beat.. if YOU come close.. can I please hear the sound and the beatings of Your Heart.. because I am dying inside for YOU.. I want you in my arms.. can YOU Please come sooner so that My arms will not feel so alone.. I want to be with YOU.. for the rest of my life.. my arms can hold YOU.. I will ask for Your ears so that I can speak and whisper telling YOU How much I missed YOU and how much I love YOU.. I am sitting on the top of the bed.. I just can't sleep.. I know I needs to sleep.. but I can't until you tell me something.. as I am facing the Wall.. my arms wrapped around the Giant Teddy Bear.. I can't live with out YOU.. I feel like I can't breathe well until I get YOU close to me.. I been waiting.. I been wanting.. I been needing YOU.. I still need YOU because I love YOU.. tell me what is IN your Heart.. as I am looking at the wall.. since I know I just can't sleep.. then what I can do is to sit and stare at this Wall.. I wish then at least I can see Your Heart.. If I can't be with YOU.. only if I can put Your Heart and place to this wall.. and I can look at your Heart.. I will look at your Heart and just tell YOUR Heart how much I am suffering.. I am in such a great pain.. this hardship of waiting for YOU sometimes makes me more emotionally then ever because I want to be with YOU.. I am holding this Giant Teddy Bear.. but it is Not YOU.. I want to hold YOU like the way I am holding this Giant Teddy Bear.. it does not feel the same because I want it to be YOU instead.. I want YOU to be here with Me.. it is Hard to be in a place where I can't be with YOU.. I am looking at this wall.. this Wall do not talk back.. even no matter How many words I would say to this Wall.. looking and staring.. since I just can't sleep.. I know I have to get this Off my chest.. asking YOU.. when can I see YOU.. so that I can tell YOU what is in my heart.. but no matter How many times I tell YOU.. are you receiving it.. I want to ask YOU.. do you know how much I love YOU.. do you know that I been staring at this wall.. is my words going empty because I know it comes from My Heart.. as I am looking at the wall.. I would turn to look at the Desk.. but I know only thing that is on that Desk is your Picture.. I know that if I go to the desk and sit on that chair.. I would be grabbing your picture and my eyes is going to cry.. just the way My Heart is crying right Now.. it is crying because I am longing for YOU to be in my arms and only thing I want to do is hear Your Heart.. is it wrong if I want to see Your Heart and Not just look but to hear Your Heart.. I want to hear how does Your Heart sound.. I want to listen to your Heart beating.. so that I know I am hearing that YOU are alive.. that I know that YOU will never let Other men get close to Your Heart.. so that I want to be the One who can get close to Your Heart.. as My both arms opens wide and the Giant Teddy Bear is release from holding.. I want YOU.. why can't it be YOU.. I am so tired of holding this Giant Teddy Bear because NO matter How many times I would hold it.. I know it is Not YOU.. I want it to be YOU.. forever in my arms and when YOU are able to get close to me.. I want to tell Your ears.. I love YOU.. I would say.. and whisper.. I love YOU and my arms will never let YOU go.. so please be close.. and as I would lay back down.. and On the Pillow.. I would close both eyes.. trying to get some rest.. trying to get some sleep.. my eyes would close.. close tight then it opens.. and I am looking UP.. and I see YOUR beautiful Face.. I see your Beautiful smile.. looking at the ceiling.. I must be going crazy.. am I going mad or crazy.. I am seeing YOU up on that ceiling.. but I am trying to get some rest.. wanting to sleep.. I just can't let YOU go.. I can't even think right.. I am seeing YOU everywhere.. let me please love YOU then.. If I can't let you go.. then Please.. let me love YOU.. I want to love YOU.. and I want to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. since I can't ever get rid of YOU and I keep on seeing YOU everywhere.. then.. tell me How can I reach YOU.. how can I get close to YOU so that I can tell YOU and show YOU how much I love YOU.. since I see You when I close both eyes.. and when I open both eyes.. I am looking at the ceiling.. I still see YOU.. if I sit up and go to the desk sitting on the chair.. I have your picture there.. I will see you there again.. NO matter How I am trying to escape.. I keep on seeing YOU.. Now Holding this Giant Teddy Bear in my arms.. I am holding thinking of YOU.. that I rather want it to be YOU.. and I know that it is not YOU.. it hurts me.. keep longing and longing.. this yearning of Not able to be with YOU kills me inside.. because I know I want to be with YOU.. as I sit UP.. and I would get out of the bed.. Out of the room I go to the rest room.. turning on the light and on the Bottom corner.. I remember I have put Your Picture there too.. which I would look down on the corner.. I see Your Picture.. the water runs down.. I am washing my face with both hands.. I just can't go to sleep.. I am trying to get you off my Mind.. but the More I try too escape and get rid of YOU.. something is driving me crazy because I can't escape YOU.. my hand grabs the bottom corner and my hand grabs the picture.. what am I suppose to do now.. I am seeing YOUR picture here.. It is driving me Craze like I am insane.. must be that I must love YOU a lot.. because I have forgotten that I put your Picture here.. I would put your Picture
down.. YOU are so Beautiful.. that it drives me crazy because YOU are so Beautiful.. as I am looking at myself.. looking at the Mirror.. I would say.. what are you doing to Me.. I wish I had answer.. maybe a solution.. but right Now I just can't figure OUT what do I do.. there is Nothing I can do at this point.. then tell me.. how do I get to YOU.. How do I get close to YOU.. tell me how so that I can tell you My Heart.. at least tell me where can I find Your Heart.. if I can't get to YOU.. let me please speak to your Heart.. let me please have your Heart.. then I know for sure there is a chance.. that there is an assurance that some day.. One day I am able to get close to YOU.. because this situation I am in is taking me NO where.. I am going insane.. it is driving me crazy.. I been holding that Giant Teddy Bear.. and I don't want to hold that Giant Teddy Bear any more because I want YOU more.. I want YOU instead.. but holding that Giant Teddy Bear only reminds me that I am going crazy.. because I wish.. I am wanting.. Please Help Me.. tell me and show me something.. Please give me an answer so that I know which way to YOU.. I need Your Love.. I need Your Heart.. I need YOU close.. I need you in my arms instead.. and It is killing me that YOU are so far.. that there is a long distance between us.. at least show me that YOU know where Your Heart is.. show me Your Heart.. tell me your Heart because I need to Know.. I want to know that I am heading on the right direction.. which is to YOU.. to Your Heart.. please.. as I am looking at the Mirror and sharing it to the Mirror.. I know that this Mirror cannot answer me anything either.. but why am I looking at this Mirror and just telling it if the person I am seeing is not YOU but I am looking at myself.. I do not want to be the One who is talking to myself.. is this Not crazy too YOU.. I call it insane because I am looking at the Mirror.. the person I am seeing.. the face I am looking at is suppose to be YOU.. but I did put your Picture on the Bottom corner so that I feel like I am not talking or telling to Me.. but I am telling it to YOU instead.. I need YOU.. I want YOU.. I want to love YOU.. I need to love YOU because only thing my Heart wants to do and to say is I love YOU.. will you please tell me something so that I know YOU can hear me.. can Your Heart hear me.. can YOU Hear me on the Other side.. because I am standing here speaking to YOU.. How much I love YOU.. because I do love YOU.. and as I am looking at the Mirror.. I see tears running down my cheeks.. I want to be the One to love YOU and to be with YOU.. but Look at me.. I feel like I am only talking to myself.. but I am telling YOU instead.. I want YOU forever in my arms.. I want to hold YOU forever in my arms.. because I love YOU.. I am standing out here.. Looking at the Moon.. I wondering if YOU can hear me.. If I tell you something.. will you be able to hear on the Other side.. Can you please hear Me because right Now.. I need YOU.. and Yes.. I miss you too.. only YOU is who I need and WHO I love.. loving you is the Only thing I can do.. But.. if you want to hear me.. right Now I am standing Out side.. It is Night here because I am looking at the Moon.. I know that I miss YOU.. I think you have forgotten to take something with YOU.. WHY did you leave it behind.. why did YOU not take this with YOU.. my Both arms are holding around.. the Pillow.. the Shape is a Heart and the color is Pink.. the Most Beautiful color.. Please.. tell me that YOU have forgotten to take this with YOU.. or please tell me that YOU did leave it behind for me to see.. that YOU know as much as I love YOU.. I first want YOUR Heart.. WHY did you not leave your Real Heart instead.. if this Pillow Pink Heart which I am holding in my arms.. I want to hold YOU.. I want to hold Your Real Heart.. will you please let me have a Peek of Your Real Heart.. I want to know if I can see your Heart.. and to Love Your Heart.. Only you can tell me the answer because Right Now I am waiting.. beneath this Tent shade.. I am out on the patio.. looking up at the Moon.. I am missing YOU.. I have been missing YOU for a long time.. WHY.. tell me why did YOU leave this Pillow behind.. Now I am thinking of YOU.. thinking more about your Heart.. I wish that I can have your Heart.. Hold your Heart close to my Arms.. Hold your Heart so that I can put my lips as close and tell your Heart.. My Heart sings inside of me.. because it starts with my Heart.. who knows that I love YOU.. My Heart truly loves YOU.. that is why I want your Heart.. I need your Heart.. I do not want this Pillow Pink Heart.. of course if it belongs to YOU.. I love it.. but I really really want Your Real Heart is what I am talking about.. when will you show me Your Heart.. Please tell me that I am able to see your Heart.. and get close to you so that I can see your Real Heart.. if you let me get close to YOU.. can I tell your Heart something.. I want to tell your Heart.. I want to hear.. I want to hear it.. hear the sound.. I want to hear your Heart beating.. can I please hear your Heart Beat.. as I put my ear and to tell YOU.. Listen to the Heart Beat.. I love the sound of the beating of Your Heart.. because I know that it is I who loves you the Most.. But How can I hear.. I want to hear.. only thing I can do is just look UP.. I am looking at the Moon.. I can't even see your Face.. my arms stretches far.. hands holding the Pink Heart Pillow.. LOOK.. I am looking at the Moon.. I can feel my tear drops.. running down my cheeks.. LOOKING UP at the Moon.. missing YOU so Bad.. Missing you so Much right now.. I am holding this Pillow.. Pink Heart.. Can you please see this.. I know that you are miles and miles away.. I know that you can't even hear me at all.. Only if you can come Out at Night.. Please come Out.. see if there is Night on the Other Side.. Come Out Please.. and If is Night on the Other Side.. is the MOON Up in the sky showing Up.. Is the MOON there.. I know that the Moon can show UP and show you a picture.. Show you a shadow of a person.. It is Me.. and I know that YOU are able to see a figure.. I am holding the Heart Pink Pillow.. you have left it behind here.. and I want to show you something on the Other side.. Can you please come Out.. if it is Night over there.. please step Out side.. see if you can see the Moon appear before YOU.. if you are standing out side in the Night and YOU see the Moon.. can YOU Hear me.. Can you hear my voice.. I know that YOU can't see me but I can tell you this.. I have found something.. YOU have left something behind and I am asking does it belongs to YOU.. and If you are over there on the Other side struggling for what YOU have lost.. DID you lost a Pillow.. a Heart shape color Pink.. I have it over here.. my arms around the Shape Heart Pink Pillow.. I wanted to ask YOU.. why did you leave it behind.. WHY did you lose this Heart.. DID you left it behind or did you lost it on your way going somewhere because I have it with Me.. Please tell me that I can have the Heart.. Can We make a trade when YOU see me soon.. if you come to see me.. can we trade Heart to Heart.. I will give YOU this Pillow.. shape of a Heart color Pink and YOU can give me your Real Heart.. I know that if you give it to Me.. I will love your Heart forever.. I will love your Heart which YOU never felt before.. Only give me a chance to Love your Heart.. I am asking you.. can I please have your Real Heart because I need you now.. as I am standing out side.. Looking UP at the Moon.. I know that without YOU.. my life is going to be incomplete.. that is why I need you.. I want you near me but only way is to Love your Heart.. What do I must do to get to Your Heart.. I been asking you for a while.. but YOU have never given me a straight Answer.. I am only asking for just one thing.. it is Your Real Heart.. Not a Pillow.. Not a Shape of a Heart.. Not a Color Pink either.. but Your Real Heart.. and as I stand Looking UP at the Moon.. my arms around the Shape Heart.. color Pink pillow.. I wish that it was the real Heart.. at least I can say something to the Real Heart.. what can I do with this Pillow.. shape of a Heart.. No matter how much I say to this Pillow.. it only wants me to lay my Head down on it.. If I lay down.. at least I want to hear the sound.. the beating.. I want to hear it.. listen to your Heart Beat and I would turn to Your Heart as I be listening to the sound and the beating of the Heart.. LOOKING at your Heart.. I would say.. I love YOU.. DO you love me too.. I would turn again to your Heart and I will say.. I love YOU.. Do you love me too.. can YOU please tell me that YOU can love me too.. because YOU know how much I love you.. I have been waiting for this for a long.. to tell you but also to hear from you if YOU DO.. and can I please turn to Your Heart and tell your Heart my words.. that I love you.. as I would step few steps back.. I would think about before I came out to the Patio.. I was sitting on the top of the Bed and as I lay on the Bed.. something laying beside me.. and I turn to face.. the Shape of the Heart.. color Pink.. the Pillow is next to me.. and I would sit UP on the bed.. I have the phone with me.. and I hit to see the Picture.. many pictures I have saved and there is One Picture.. as I would take a LOOK at the Picture.. it is you on this bed.. I have taken a picture of you.. you were laying on the side.. holding your arms around this Pillow.. the shape of the Heart.. the color Pink.. and both of your eyes were closed.. that means you were sleeping and I have taken a picture of you while you were falling asleep.. Like a Sleeping Beauty.. in such a peace and beauty you were.. as I am sitting on the bed.. I see the same Pillow.. the shape of the Heart.. the color Pink.. and
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How can you so beautiful and pretty so much even you just woke up? 😅
I'm so proud become your fan. I wish you all the best forever. ❤❤
GK photoshoot is always pretty like everything is perfect fit to her.
Kwon Yuri is always irresistibly beautiful it’s hard to take your eyes off from her. ❤❤❤
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My lovely unnie so pretty 😍
Yuri so classy~
Yuri is so very nice and beautiful
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Miss Glass has a very calm face. But sometimes his behavior is very random 😅
Será verdad que está saliendo con alguien joven? No lo creo pero las dudas son más emocionantes :)
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Oink Oink.. I am looking at the waters.. watching the waves coming in.. I am looking Up at the Moon.. asking when will I see YOU.. I have come to this Beach.. and I left for awhile.. the last time I came.. I brought a Bottle.. and sat on a Big rock.. bringing a Shot Glass and having Your Picture in my hand.. Looking at YOU through the Picture.. missing YOU.. and I would take Shot after another Shot.. as I would look at your Picture.. I would open my mouth.. taking to the Picture.. but NO matter how much words I would say looking at your Picture.. I don't hear anything on the Other side.. I remember before I came to this Beach.. I was at Home.. sitting on the desk.. and decided to pick UP a pen and looking at a piece of paper.. I started to write YOU something on the Piece of paper and it became a Written letter I wrote from My Heart.. asking YOU.. Pleading for YOU.. telling How much I missed YOU.. and I would write about the daily days that was happening around me and asking if YOU can Come.. because I know that If I don't ask YOU.. YOU are Not going to know anything at All.. so I have decided to write on a piece of paper.. telling YOU how much I love YOU.. How much YOU means to me.. that YOU means everything to Me.. and that I want to see YOU.. be close to YOU and wants to wrap my arms around YOU and hold YOU close in my arms and whisper into your ears.. that I love YOU.. just sitting down by the desk.. and just can't stop thinking about YOU.. that I wanted to be with YOU for ever and that when YOU come.. I will never let YOU go.. I will not these arms let go of YOU because I have been sitting here.. standing here missing YOU.. waiting for YOU.. longing for YOU.. waiting for YOU and longing all over again because I just can't stop think of YOU.. How much I love YOU.. that it kills me that I can't be close.. it kills me inside that why you have to be gone for so Long.. and that no matter what.. I be here waiting for YOU till you come.. I even wrote on the Piece of paper.. my love Letter that I am standing by this One Beach and I gave the address where the Beach is at and that I am going to bring a Bottle.. and with me is a Piece of Paper which I wrote to you.. a Love that comes from my Heart and On this Beach.. I am going to put the Piece of Paper.. My Love Letter inside the Bottle and I am going to toss it into the waters and let the Message in the Bottle goes to YOU.. and I know.. I believe that if it means meant to be for Us.. I know that Some way and Some How it will go to where you at and YOU are able to receive this Letter.. a Message in the Bottle.. the Piece of paper I wrote.. I hope that it is able to get to you.. Now I am here at the beach.. standing here on the Other side.. I am looking at the waters.. it has been few weeks that has passed by.. If you are wondering why has it taken me this long to come back to this Beach.. It is because I know that it is going to take time for the Message in the Bottle be delivered to YOU.. I had to wait for a while.. it was hard waiting by my House.. as I would stand Out side.. every night I would come OUT from my house and I would turn to face the Moon.. and I am wondering is it the time for me to GO to that Beach.. and I would be looking at the Moon.. asking over and over.. I would not hear.. there would be NO answer I hear as I would stand out side by the House.. so I would tell myself.. it must not be right now.. so I would go back inside the House.. and would wait for the Next day.. waiting for the Sun to go down and I would wait till the Moon comes UP.. walking out the Front door.. I would turn to face the Moon and be asking the same Question.. every New Day.. I wait for the Night to rise.. looking for the MOON to show UP before my eyes and I would wait.. some nights I would not see the MOON at all.. so I would just go back inside the House.. just waiting for the Next Night.. waiting for the Moon to show UP.. too appear before my eyes.. and I would turn to look at that Moon.. asking.. finally weeks would pass by.. and I do not hear any answers from that same Moon.. maybe it does not hear me.. or does Not even know what is going on.. that Moon never tells me anything.. but it does show up many Nights and appears before my eyes.. I get tired of hearing.. I get tired of hearing no answers so I have finally told myself.. May be this is the very Night.. and I would drive in the car.. coming to the same Beach.. and I would walk on the sand and I would see the Big Rock.. Looking at How I was hurt.. I was drinking.. taking shots.. looking at your Picture.. the Piece of paper in my pocket.. I was hurt.. with a Pain and Heart ache.. It was my birthday.. and I wanted YOU to celebrate with me.. but How can YOU celebrate with me if YOU are gone.. YOU are far away and I started to take shots.. I would be looking Up.. LOOKING at the MOON.. shouting and screaming.. crying and balling.. tears kept on dropping.. Just missing YOU.. wanting to see YOU so bad.. Missing you Hard.. Missing you that I just had to let out.. pouring out my tears.. and I would look at the Bottle.. and it was empty.. I dropped the shot glass on the sand.. and In the pocket I pulled OUT the piece of paper.. the Written.. I wrote you a Love Letter on this Piece of Paper and I would fold to roll it UP and put into the Bottle.. and I would LOOK at the waters.. waves coming in and leaving.. I would walk up and I am looking at the Bottle.. inside is the Message I wrote to YOU and I yelled Out loud.. saying I miss YOU.. and Yelling Out Loud.. I love YOU and throw the Bottle into the Waters.. and I just sat on the sand.. looking at the Bottle.. the water waves hitting it and I don't see it no more.. and I am sitting on the sand crying.. I wish that the Bottle gets to YOU.. I have wrote you something.. I hope that the waters can help it to get across to YOU.. As I am standing here.. I am thinking of when I was here like few weeks ago.. the same spot which I was drunk.. and I was crying.. watching the waves and the Bottle in the waters.. I am here wondering if YOU have received the Message in the Bottle.. How do I know if it will get to YOU.. but I know that I have written a Letter to YOU.. what if it is Not you who grabs the Message in the Bottle but I don't want it to be in someone else's hands.. because I have written on that piece of Paper to YOU.. as I am standing here at Night.. I look UP.. I see the MOON.. it looks so Big this very night and yes.. I have been waiting now for weeks.. did YOU received the Message in the Bottle.. I know that by Faith.. I do believe in love.. and loving YOU is who I believe it is to be true.. I know that I can wait for YOU.. No matter How far.. or How many bottles I needs to drink UP.. or HOW many pieces of papers I needs to write and to tell YOU in many little words.. I can always wait for YOU till you are ready for Me.. there is NO problem for me to wait because I know I love YOU.. I just don't want my Words get to you become empty words.. it is words that I am speaking and telling YOU through writing because this is the Only way I can get across to YOU.. I wish there are some other way but this is the Only way I can get YOU across my Mind.. I tell you my Heart.. I tell you from the deeper side of My Heart because I love YOU.. but I am standing here on the Beach.. I wish that the message got to YOU.. I will come back to this Beach Soon because I am going to bring YOU another Letter.. a Piece of paper written as my Love Letter.. that is the Only way I can tell YOU.. express my Heart and feelings.. all my emotions how much I love YOU.. but it seems like that YOU have Not received the Message Yet.. but what if YOU did receive it.. are you going to send me a Message in the Bottle to let me know YOU have read the written.. the Piece of Paper I wrote to YOU of How much I miss YOU.. How much I love YOU.. are you going to show UP next time I come here.. because that be the greatest answer you can give me.. if YOU are not sure.. I know that I can truly wait.. wait for YOU until you are sure.. Until you are ready for me to Love YOU.. YOU do not have to do anything because it is ME who loves YOU first.. I have never stopped loving YOU.. and I told you many times that I can keep on loving YOU.. as long as YOU show UP and Open your Heart to me.. YOU are wondering what do YOU needs to do.. I will tell you this simple.. NOTHING.. I am not asking YOU for anything but for YOU to get ready to receive all my Love.. all I can do is Love YOU.. what more can I do or say but to tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I am standing here.. I am looking at the MOON.. it is staring over Me.. and I am looking at that MOON.. I can see tears falling from the MOON.. am I just tired.. because it is very late in the Night.. Must be that my eyes are getting tired because I am watching the MOON showing me tears.. I hope that if you are close by a Beach.. and if it is at Night.. walk on the sand and what I am seeing right Now is that the MOON is crying before my eyes.. if you are able to see that Same Moon.. you can see what I am seeing that it is My Heart who is crying for YOU.. reflection comes from that MOON because I truly believe that MOON knows my Heart.. that MOON has seen me many nights.. I would show UP.. I would walk out side from my House.. I would turn to face that MOON and I am sure it does not forget my Face.. the few weeks back.. that MOON appeared before Me.. that Moon saw me sitting on the Big Rock.. saw me looking at Your Picture.. I was taking shots from the Bottle.. and Saw me putting a Letter.. piece of paper rolled UP into the Bottle.. and saw Me Toss the message in the Bottle into the waters.. I turned to the MOON that
I am trying to draw Picture of YOU.. grabbing the Pencil and Looking at the sketch paper.. the Picture is in front of me as I am sitting by the desk.. as I am smiling looking at the Picture of YOU.. I just can't believe I have your Picture.. YOU are the Most Beautiful.. Just too beautiful to be true.. and the Baby Teddy Bear sitting on my Lap.. The most Beautiful Baby Boy.. I am trying to concentrate drawing.. the Baby Teddy Bear sitting on my Lap.. I see the hands trying to grab the Pencil.. losing me to Put the Pencil Down.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. this little Son.. starts to cry.. wanting to hold the Pencil.. I tell this baby Teddy Bear.. I am trying to draw a picture.. why can't You just sit on my lap and just watch me Draw.. I am looking at your Picture.. and I just want to see YOU.. the baby Teddy Bear looks at my eyes and turns to look at the direction I am looking at.. This Little Son looks at your Picture.. and hands wants to grab your Picture.. and tries to get closer to the Picture.. But.. I would pull the Baby Teddy Bear away.. and He looks at me starts to cry.. saying that is MOMMA.. and I just can't believe.. this Baby Teddy Bear knows the Picture is YOU.. knows who his Momma is.. and as I would pull away.. I want to draw.. I tell the Baby Teddy Bear.. Please.. let me draw on the sketch paper.. I hear another Crying on the back.. it is His Sister.. and they are twins.. two Baby Teddy Bears.. One.. the sister is sleeping on the Bed.. the Daughter.. and I can hear a crying and I would turn to look back.. and I see the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. she has woken UP from sleep.. and Looking for MOMMA.. and I turn around.. as I get up.. the Little Son.. He starts to cry as I am holding.. I turn away from the desk.. holding the Little Son.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. Now I hear both crying.. Both crying for their Momma.. and as I put the Little Son.. the Baby Teddy Bear on the Bed.. next to His sister.. both are crying as I am looking at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. I just don't know what to do.. when Both are crying together.. looking for Momma.. and it breaks my Heart because I do also Miss YOU as well.. I want to see YOU.. then I wonder how these two Baby Teddy Bears be feeling.. when they belong to YOU and being that part of family.. I am watching both crying and crying.. hands are asking to be Hold.. and I am just standing here.. ALL I wanted to do is to draw picture of YOU.. sitting by the desk.. looking at the picture of YOU.. and just to draw the picture.. to know how much I love YOU.. and I wanted to show YOU and to give it as a gift to YOU.. but it seems like it is Not working at this point.. What am I suppose to Do.. the two baby Teddy bears are crying.. they are looking for MOMMA.. am I suppose to call YOU.. because they will not stop Crying.. I can't even draw picture of YOU any More because.. they are crying.. I can't concentrate with Two babies crying.. as I would look.. I would pick up the Phone.. but when I picked UP the Phone.. it was YOU who was calling.. and I would hear your voice on the Other side.. I smile because I was about to call YOU.. and YOU have read my mind.. asking about How the two baby Teddy Bears be doing.. and YOU can hear the two crying.. the twins.. Baby Girl and baby Boy.. both crying for MOMMA.. and I would look at the two.. and I would tell the two.. It is MOMMA on the Phone.. and I see both stops crying and I would give the Phone to the Daughter first.. and I see the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. hands grab and pulling away from His sister.. wanting to hear the voice of their MOMMA.. and I am just.. my Heart.. My Chest.. My Heart.. How much these two are missing their MOMMA.. wanting to see.. I see both ears.. trying to listen to the Voice of their MOMMA.. and I would look at the two.. they are so Beautiful.. both.. the twins.. the Baby Teddy Bears.. both so Cute but so Beautiful.. I would turn around.. and I do remember.. I was sitting down on the chair.. by the desk.. Looking at your Picture.. I would look and say to Your Picture.. when can I see YOU.. will you let me hold YOU.. will you let me love YOU.. I know I can love you the way YOU want to be held and want to be loved.. I know that I can love you in a way you would never felt before.. I can tell YOU.. tell YOU how much I miss YOU.. How Much I love YOU.. but.. YOU have to give me the permission.. allow me to tell YOU that I love YOU.. and I would be looking at your Picture.. when will you come around so that I can see YOU.. My hand grabbing unto the Pencil.. looking at a sketch of paper.. My hand starts to trace.. using the pencil to draw.. and I am looking at your picture.. to draw you on this sketch paper.. and right when I was about to go deeper.. I hear a knock on the door.. DOK DOK DOK.. and I am wondering.. who be knocking at the front door at this time of hour.. it is getting late.. and I am thinking.. maybe I am just too tired that I am hearing things.. so I would begin to use my hand to draw.. I hear another Knocking at the Door.. DOK DOK DOK.. and I know this time I heard it right.. so I put the Pencil down.. on top of the Desk and I get UP.. pull out of the chair and I would walk to the front door.. I hear another knocking.. DOK DOK DOK.. I would unlock and Open the Door.. I see you standing there.. and I see you have brought companies.. it is the Twins.. two Baby Teddy Bears.. and I am wondering.. why would you bring the two Babies here late at night.. is something wrong.. but.. YOU be telling me you are leaving on a vacation.. and wanted me to baby sit the two Baby Teddy Bears.. but I have No children.. and I have NO experiences with kids.. or babies.. why would you bring them over to my House.. and YOU are asking me that it be for few days.. but looking at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. they are the most cute and you have brought what I can use for the two.. what do I do if the two Baby Teddy Bears starts to cry.. asking for MOMMA.. and if they start to miss their MOMMA.. what am I suppose to do then.. because I have No experiences at all.. and I see you get closer.. trying to hand me over the Little SON.. and as I would hold on with my arms.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little Son starts to cry.. and I see the Little SON.. arms stretching out to YOU.. because He does not want to come to me.. the Cry gets louder and louder.. and arms stretching out to YOU.. wanting to Go to YOU instead of Me.. and His cry so Loud.. hurting my ears.. and I am not sure.. It is so hard for me to control.. and I would ask YOU to come inside.. I see the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter starts to cry too.. both being very loud cries.. I just don't know what to do.. why are you leaving them with Me.. they are both crying loud for YOU.. asking to take them with YOU.. My Heart hurts.. it hurts because I know How it feels to be in a pain when YOU leave.. as YOU would try to give me the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter.. She is even more worst.. YOU had to hold Her close.. and She would sleep in your arms.. Would not even come to me.. kicking and screaming when YOU try to get her close to me.. and what happens when the Other Baby Teddy Bear wakes UP and knows YOU are not in the House.. but has left her with Me.. the Other Baby Teddy Bear will find Out that YOU are gone.. but for now.. she may sleep.. if the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter did not come to me when YOU were here.. I know she is Not going to come to me when I am alone with Her.. I feel so Bad.. My Heart breaks as I would watch the Little SON.. He sees you walking.. the BABY TEDDY Bear starts to crawl after you.. I am watching.. my eyes.. I feel my tears going to pour out.. as I see you walking fast.. going to the front DOOR and the Little SON.. the Baby Teddy Bear crawls crying after you.. as I watch YOU leave the front door.. and the door closes behind.. the Little Son.. baby Teddy Bear sits and cries.. and sits by the door waiting for YOU as He keeps on crying for his MOMMA.. I am standing behind.. just wiping my tears.. It hurts.. this Pain.. it feels like a sharp pain has entered in me.. It hurts watching the Little Son.. hurting.. crying for his Momma.. and turn to look at me crying.. tears hitting the floor.. and turns to look at the door.. what do I do.. tell me.. what am I suppose to do when It hurts me just watching One breaking Heart.. what do I do.. I wanted to go.. Open that front Door and run after YOU.. grab Your Arm and pull and to let YOU see.. LOOK at the Little SON.. look at HIM crying.. why do I have to be the one to watch His tears run down like this.. WHY do you have to break my Heart when I have done nothing to YOU.. why come over and look at the Heart pieces falling apart.. WHY do I have to be the one with the Broken Heart.. it hurts me more than It hurts YOU.. as I would walk.. closer to the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little Son.. keeps on crying.. pointing to the Door.. wanting to go with YOU.. but.. I know that I can't take this Little ONE to YOU.. and I am just standing here.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do at this Point.. because I can't help this Little Son.. even though I want too.. but.. YOU be telling me you wanted to be time alone.. you just wanted so time off.. to refresh Your Head and that is why YOU are leaving and has made me to be the Baby sitter for the Two Baby Teddy Bears.. I know you have brought all that is needed for them.. so that part I am ready to do what I was told me to do.. but.. I just can't take the pains of the two baby Teddy Bears be crying.. Now.. I am looking at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. both sitting on the top of the Bed.. with the Phone in their Ears listening to Your Voice.. Both looks at each other and smiles knowing that They are hearing their MOMMA on the Other side.. so
I am getting closer.. and I am wondering.. few days.. but when is that the few days end.. so that I can focus on drawing picture of you on the New Sketch Paper Book I just bought from an Art Shop.. I want to draw a picture of YOU and to show YOU when it is all completed.. I be drawing YOU.. for a long time I wanted to draw a picture of YOU.. I know that I am Not good in drawing.. but I do want to try so that I can tell YOU.. I can show YOU this is My Heart.. Not Just My Heart.. but it is My Love.. this is a way I want to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. but I need a time alone.. I need my own time.. if the two Baby Teddy Bears are here.. I know that I can't draw anything.. so I would get close to the Two baby Teddy Bears.. I am asking if I can have the phone Back.. so that I can talk to YOU.. but it seems like the two Baby Teddy Bears does Not want to give me the Phone.. they want to hear their Momma speak on the Other side.. I see the smiles and giggles together.. it look so beautiful.. how the two are so Beautiful when they smile.. just like their MOMMA.. YOU are the most Beautiful when YOU smile.. as I would watch the Phone being hung UP.. and the two sitting on the Bed.. looking at me.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do now.. they just looks at me.. and both starts to cry.. crying loud wanting to see their MOMMA.. My arms around the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I am looking for YOU.. I heard this Giant Teddy Bear crying.. asking me if this Bear can go to YOU.. as I am walking.. I am walking into a Room.. and I stop.. there is a Square box.. on top of a stand.. and I am looking at the Square Box.. Inside is the Big Heart.. I just can't believe it.. Is this Your Heart.. I want to know if this Big Heart belongs to YOU.. because if this Big Heart is Yours.. I want it.. and can I keep this Big Heart if it belongs to YOU.. I am looking at the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I would say.. DO you see that Heart.. It is so Big.. I love when a Heart is this Big.. do you know why.. LOOK at my arms.. My Arms loves to HOLD and Snuggle.. just like this Giant Teddy Bear.. I was trying to sleep.. this Giant Teddy Bear was sitting on top of my Bed.. this Giant Teddy Bear kept on waking me UP.. telling me She misses YOU.. that She wants to know where YOU at.. and Calls YOU MOMMA.. I am wondering.. WHO is MOMMA.. is it MAMA.. or I am not sure and I would turn my Head to look.. I tell this Giant Teddy Bear.. I need my sleep.. I need some rest tonight.. I just could not sleep the Other night.. and I would look at this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. I saw Your picture.. when I saw YOUR picture.. I just could not wake my eyes off of YOU.. and I would be having the Picture underneath the Pillow and I pulled it off.. holding in my hand is Your Picture and I showed this GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. do you see.. take a good look.. like a Flower.. the Most beautiful Flower.. do YOU see the One whom I love.. take a LOOK for me.. and the Giant Teddy bear looks at your Picture.. and starts to say.. YOU are her MOMMA.. and starts to cry asking me to take her to YOU.. I am wondering.. what Have you done to this Giant Teddy Bear.. she is crying for YOU.. like YOU are her Momma.. and I would lay and turn on the side.. closing my eyes.. THIS Giant Teddy Bear keeps on crying.. she keeps on crying for her Momma.. and I open both eyes.. I need some rest.. I need some sleep.. and I turn and I sit UP looking at the Giant Teddy Bear.. what if you are not her Momma.. and the Giant Teddy bear cries and cries.. looking for YOU.. both arms opens to me and says.. YOU are her Momma.. I would wrap my arms around this Giant Teddy Bear.. lift and I would walk off of the room.. going into.. I am not sure where I was going.. am I sleep walking.. or am I walking in the right direction.. and the Giant Teddy Bear leads me to the ROOM.. I have never seen this room before.. so I must be sleeping right.. I must be dreaming or something.. and I see a DOOR opens before me.. and I stop.. my breathe is taken away.. looking at the Square Box.. sitting on top of a Stand.. I see a Big Heart.. I want it.. Now I feel like this Giant Teddy Bear.. I want to Cry with this Bear.. because I do not want to drop this Giant Teddy Bear.. but I do want to Hold that Big Heart.. I want to know.. why is this Big Heart inside a Square Box.. who has put this Big Heart inside.. and why would YOU Leave this Big Heart behind.. it just don't make any sense to Me.. because If I want it.. I want this Heart so Bad.. I want it that I want to walk to this Square Box and Beat It.. what happens if the Square Box starts to rock and it can Hurt this Big Heart.. as I would lower to Put the Giant Teddy Bear on the Floor.. I would raise UP.. and I would walk closer and closer.. I step so close.. placing my hands on the Side of this Square Box.. I can see Your Heart.. It is Your Big Heart.. is this Your Heart.. can YOU hear me because if this Big Heart do Not belongs to YOU.. I don't want it.. I want it because it is Your Heart.. I would pull the Picture from my back pocket and I am looking at You through this Picture and I would say.. I have brought some thing.. but has become some one.. it is the Giant Teddy Bear.. this Bear cries.. and she be saying.. YOU are her Momma.. will you accept her as Your Daughter.. because I can't put her with me any more.. the Giant Teddy Bear.. she tells me she has lost her Momma.. I showed the Giant Teddy Bear a picture of YOU.. and she says YOU are her Momma.. I am not sure how this became to Be.. but.. I came here because of this Giant Teddy Bear.. I guess she belongs with YOU and Not with me.. so I am going to leave this Giant Teddy Bear behind.. but before I go.. I want to see that YOU would accept her.. and I turn to look back and I lower too look at the Giant Teddy Bear.. I see her crying.. wiping the tears with two small hands.. saying She wants her Momma.. misses her Momma.. wondering where YOU at.. and I turn to look at the Square Box.. looking through the Glass.. looking at the Big Heart.. How can YOU leave your Daughter behind.. why would you let her cry like that.. I feel so sad when something like this Happens to a SON or a Daughter.. can YOU not hear this Giant Teddy Bear crying.. I hear MOMMA.. and I hear crying and tear drops.. and I would look at the Square BOX.. I would hold the Picture and I turn to look at YOU through the Picture.. of course I too want to see YOU.. I want to hold YOU IN my arms.. just the way I would hold this Giant Teddy Bear.. but I wish that it be you.. I rather be YOU instead.. but I don't know where YOU are.. I only can see you through this Picture.. but I can't find YOU anywhere else as I would turn.. looking at the Square Box.. I am looking through this Glass and I am looking at the Big Heart.. and I would get closer to the Glass and I would look at the Big Heart.. I do love Your Heart.. I love how beautiful your Heart is.. the shape of your Heart.. I wish that I can take this Square Box.. am I allowed to lift this Square Box.. can I carry it away and go to my room.. will you please let me take this Square Box.. because right when my eyes saw your Big Heart.. something inside of me just froze.. I felt like my feet were glued to the floor and it was very Hard for my feet to move forward.. my Heart just kept on telling me.. to GO.. walk forward.. but my eyes.. when both eyes saw what was inside this Square Box.. it told my feet to stay glued.. for a moment.. I wanted to step back.. not to enter the room.. to turn around and to go back.. but the Giant Teddy Bear kept on crying.. telling me it is MOMMA's Heart.. that is MOMMA and made me realize that I was at the right place.. in the right room.. I just fell in love with the Big Heart because this is the starting point I wish to have.. I can say many wishes on a star.. it may never come true when YOU make too make wishes on a star.. but when I look at this Big Heart.. I know that One day my wish can be a true reality.. means it can really happen.. I came so close.. I can't turn back and cannot walk off.. I am able to look at this Big Heart so Close.. I want it.. really really want it.. but what am I suppose to do now.. I see the Square Box on top of a stand.. I brought the Giant Teddy Bear with me.. I have your picture.. which I am looking at it right Now.. I have come this very far.. but.. I need this Heart.. my finger points and touches the glass.. it does not matter any more because Now I know what I need.. what I want is this.. the Big Heart.. I don't want to steal it.. I just can't carry it off.. but I want this Heart.. this Big Heart.. my finger taps and taps the Glass of the square Box.. this Giant Teddy Bear has lead me here.. why.. if I can't take this Big Heart with me.. if this Square Box is attached to the Stand.. I tried to pull the Square Box off the stand.. the Giant Teddy Bear started to kick and scream crying and looking at me Not to take it.. then what am I suppose to do.. she is crying.. I want the Heart.. I did not come all the way here just to look at the Big Heart.. should I lift the Stand.. maybe this stand can go with me because I want Your Big Heart.. tell me.. why can't I have it.. I want Your Heart.. do I must beg.. I am not a beggar to beg for your Big Heart.. but if I must beg.. I can be a beggar just for YOU.. but please.. tell me.. I want Your Heart.. I want this Big Heart.. I want to hold Your Big Heart in my arms and my head lean on your Heart and I want to tell Your Heart.. I have been waiting for YOU.. waiting for this Heart to come to Me.. like my Pillow.. I want to lay my head and sleep on top of your big Heart and say to YOU.. I love YOU.. I would hear steps.. I am thinking.. where is this sound coming from and I hear the steps.. walking steps and the sound is coming from the
Back.. and I would turn to look back.. and I see the Giant Teddy Bear crying and crying.. and I am wondering.. it must be YOU.. because when the steps stopped.. YOU lowered yourself and the Giant Teddy Bear stops crying.. arms would stretch out and I hear the word MOMMA.. and I see you wrapping your arms around the Giant Teddy Bear.. as I see YOU lift up the Giant Teddy Bear.. my Heart starts to beat.. I am wondering.. where is this Sound coming from.. Is it my Heart and I turn around.. LOOKING at the Square Box.. through the Glass.. I see your Big Heart.. and I am not sure.. I am hearing the beating of a Heart.. I would get close to the Square Box.. putting my ear on the side of the glass of the Square Box.. But I do not hear any sound.. and I would turn too look at YOU.. I see the Giant Teddy Bear smiling.. arms wrapping around YOU and snuggling.. I want that too.. I want to be held by YOU like the way YOU be holding that Giant Teddy Bear.. maybe we can switch places for a Day.. I want to be the Giant Teddy Bear.. and she can be me switching shoes.. I want your Heart.. I want your BIG HEART.. but Now I want to be held by YOU.. can I please be a little Boy.. I want your arms around me.. and holding me tight and I get to snuggle in your arms.. Please.. YOU know how much I want Your Love.. to be loved by YOU because I love YOU.. I am sitting by the desk.. I am looking at the shot glass.. and grabbed the Bottle of whiskey and poured into the Shot glass.. placing the whiskey down.. picked up the shot glass.. opened my mouth and take a shot.. I am trying to forget YOU.. but I just can't.. I have placed your picture on the top of the desk.. I keep on looking at this picture.. I tell myself I needs to stop.. but I feel like I needs to keep on looking.. I would look at your picture and say.. why are you doing this to me.. why do I have to keep on looking at you.. of course I have a pencil and a clean white sheet of paper.. I want to draw.. looking at your picture.. I want to draw the picture of you.. but I know that I am not that good in drawing at all.. but I can feel.. this whiskey starts to kick my head.. I feel light headed and buzzing.. I know I drank so that I can forget you.. but why is it that I am missing you more now.. I just can't take my eyes off of you.. as I am looking at your picture.. why can't your picture talk back to me.. I want to hear something from you.. but no matter how many times I am going to tell you looking at your picture.. I will not hear anything from the Other side.. but I want to hear from you.. Please.. tell me something so that I don't feel the light headed I am feeling at this point right now.. YOU know that I love you.. I can tell you many times that I love YOU.. can you tell me something.. can you hear me say the words to YOU.. I love you.. and I grab the pencil.. starts to trace and starts to draw.. of course I am looking at your picture.. as I stopped.. putting the pencil down.. I have drawn a picture of a Heart.. I know that I am missing your Heart.. and I am looking at this pieces of paper.. looking at the Heart.. this is suppose to be your Heart.. so that I can touch it.. as my hand touches the paper.. my hand touch the Heart.. can you feel my hand.. I am touching your Heart.. can you please tell me that you can feel my Hand touching your Hand.. as my eyes would look at the picture.. it is YOUR Heart I drew.. maybe you would tell me that Heart does not look like yours at all.. I told you that I am not an artist who can paint or draw pictures.. but I know that I can try to draw a Heart.. it is only Your Heart I want to draw.. I want to touch your Heart too.. How about me write my Name on this Heart.. and can I take this piece of paper and give it to YOU.. telling you that I have wrote my name so that YOU know that it is me who loves YOU and asking you to remember my Name.. so that you know that I love you.. I belong to YOU only.. so please.. tell me that I can.. as I grab the bottle of whiskey and pour into the shot Glass.. and place the bottle of whiskey on the top of the desk.. I grab the shot glass and open my mouth and take a shot.. I can feel it burning.. it feels like it wants to burn my Heart instead.. why.. I don't know.. you tell me why.. because I want to hear from you saying that I am allowed too.. as I am sitting down.. looking at the piece of paper.. looking at the Heart I drew.. I turn to look at your picture.. and I would hear a Crying.. I am wondering.. who is crying at this time of night.. is it my Heart.. is My Heart crying from the inside.. is it because of the whiskey.. the shot glass.. the shot of this whiskey.. I don't think my Heart would cry because of it.. and I would sit still.. maybe it is this Heart.. the Heart I drew.. which it is suppose to be Your Heart.. so is Your Heart crying.. and I would sit still trying to figure out why I am hearing crying.. and the Cry I am comes behind me.. and I would turn to look back.. and when I turn to look back.. I see a Teddy Bear.. the arms are stretching out.. and keeps on crying.. and I am wondering.. when did this Teddy Bear got here.. it is smaller and wearing a blue shirt.. must be.. and I would stand up from the chair.. and I hear from the Teddy Bear crying.. MOMMA.. and I stop.. I just can't.. I see tears in the eyes of this Baby Teddy Bear.. and He is crying for Momma.. and I am thinking.. why are you asking me for MOMMA.. I am trying to get over and I grab the Picture and I walk to the bed.. the Baby Teddy Bear sitting on the top of the bed.. and I would sit next to the Baby Teddy Bear and I show the picture.. and I would point.. is this Your MOMMA and the Baby Teddy Bear head goes UP and down telling me that YOU are.. I am wondering.. I am trying to get.. How come now.. and the Baby Teddy Bear wraps the arms around your Picture.. I think you must be a Son.. I am very confused.. so YOU are looking for Momma and the Baby Teddy Bear cries and cries and cries looking for YOU.. and I am sitting down.. what am I suppose to do.. and I start to feel my tears running down.. if you keep on crying.. how about me.. you are going to make me cry with you and I would grab the Picture.. I want you to let go so that YOU don't cry no more and I pull the picture away from the Baby Teddy Bear.. I hear the cry getting louder and louder.. I would get up from sitting on top of the bed.. I would be walking and I stop.. I turn to look back.. the baby Teddy Bear keeps crying and crying.. arms are stretching out.. CRYING FOR MOMMA.. what am I suppose to do.. I do not think your Momma is here.. I am here on my own.. and I just stand there.. I am looking at your picture.. I can't stop my tears running down.. I am here looking at your picture.. wanting to talk to you and wanting to hear from you.. I don't even know where you are.. there is a baby Teddy Bear.. a Son.. who is crying for YOU.. asking me where is MOMMA.. how am I suppose to answer the Baby Teddy Bear's question.. I want to know where YOU are.. but only thing I have is your picture.. I want to hear from you as much as this SON in the room.. crying and crying.. I thought that something was wrong with me.. I thought that My Heart was crying.. crying because I miss YOU.. that I love YOU.. that I want to see YOU and that I want to be close to YOU.. I heard this cry.. but it is Loud cry.. and I turn to look at the bed.. the baby Teddy Bear looks at me.. and I see the tears keeps on dropping.. wetting the bed.. and starts to cry and cry.. I am getting more emotional.. I am trying to get drunk.. but this Baby Teddy Bear is not helping me at at.. and I go over to the Bed and I sit.. I show the Baby Teddy Bear.. this Picture.. is it your Momma and the head moves up and down.. and I give the baby Teddy Bear the picture.. He wraps his arms around your picture and says MOMMA.. and I ask him.. where is your Momma.. please tell me.. and I would say.. I will take you to her.. I would wrap my arms around the baby Teddy Bear and I would lift him up and I get up out of the bed.. Tell me where is Your Momma.. so I can take you to her.. the Baby Teddy bear does not answer.. and I would walk out of the room.. and I am walking down the hall way and I stop.. I see you Holding the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter and I see you turn around and you looking at me.. and I am holding the Baby Teddy Bear.. my arms wrapped around.. and I look at you.. I think you have left this.. He is looking for Momma.. and I would see you placing the Other Teddy Bear.. wearing a pink shirt.. and she starts to cry.. Arms stretching out towards you.. and I see you walking closer to me.. and I hear.. MOMMA.. and I look down.. the Baby teddy Bear.. arms are around your picture.. I see you kneel and arms stretches out.. and I would lower myself.. opens my arm.. the Baby Teddy Bear walks slowly.. arms around your picture.. and falls.. starts to cry loud.. and I am thinking.. this Baby Teddy Bear.. I see you get up and I see your arms around the Baby Teddy Bear.. arms around and Lift him up.. I see you holding the Baby Teddy Bear close in your arms.. I see the picture falling and hits the floor.. as you are stand up walking.. the Baby Teddy Bear falls asleep in your arms.. I am looking.. and you go over to the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter and you are looking at the two.. my hand grabs your picture and I am looking at Your Picture.. looking at you with two children.. and I see smiles with the Daughter.. the Other Teddy bear as you are touching.. am I suppose to fall in love with this.. what am I suppose to do at this point.. and how about me.. can I be a part of that circle.. I want to hold YOU.. and I want to be held by you the way you are holding the two Teddy Bears.. I see smiles and giggles.. but I want to be a part.. I want to smile and giggle along side.. holding YOU
close in my arms.. and holding the baby Teddy Bear.. and Holding YOU to tell you that I love you.. as I am sitting on the floor.. I just want to be with YOU.. I want to be a part so that I can feel the love.. loving YOU will be the most happiest times.. just to love you and to say I love you.. would you let me love YOU.. I want to love YOU.. as I am looking.. I see you holding the hand of the Other Teddy Bear.. the other arm wraps the baby Teddy Bear the son.. and I am watching you walking off.. can I please be a part.. Can I join in that circle too.. Let me be a part of that family.. I know that I can love you.. so Please.. stop and see.. I am sitting on the desk.. Looking at the Piece of paper.. I see the Heart.. the Heart I drew thinking that this is the shape of your Heart.. next to the piece of paper is Your Picture.. I just can't take my mind off of YOU.. I can't take my eyes off of your picture.. I go crazy when I tell you that I love YOU.. as I see the shot Glass.. and I grab the Bottle of the whiskey.. and I pour into the shot glass.. putting the bottle of the whiskey on the top of the desk.. I grab the shot glass.. open my mouth and take a shot.. I can feel the burning again in my Heart.. it keeps on burning harder as I would keep on drinking and taking shots.. and I hear.. Do not tell me I am hearing again.. I am hearing the crying of the Babies.. I turn to look back.. I am hearing cries.. I look back.. I see two Teddy bears.. One is wearing pink the Other is wearing Blue.. and I hear.. MOMMA.. I want my Momma and cries get louder and louder.. I am trying to go to sleep.. laying on the Pillow.. and my arms wrapped around the Giant Teddy Bear.. I want to hold you close.. but I know that NO matter How long.. I know that it is Not You.. my both eyes would close.. shutting them tight.. But for some reason.. I just can't sleep.. I want to sleep because I feel so tired this very night.. But I still can't sleep.. so my arms holding the Giant Teddy Bear.. I want to hear Your Heart beat.. I want to hear your voice.. but I know that this Giant Teddy Bear is not YOU.. and will Not going to say a word to Me.. eyes are still closed.. I am seeing your face.. even though the room is dark.. why am I seeing the vision of YOU.. why can't you go away especially when I need to go to sleep.. it is so Hard to get away from YOU.. I am holding the Giant Teddy Bear tight.. and squeezing because I want YOU.. I need you.. I want to hold you in my arms and tell you.. whisper to your ears how much I need to be with YOU and that I love YOU.. and I just can't wait until YOU come into my arms and I be holding YOU.. and just loving YOU.. loving you more.. even you can get tired of Me.. and even push me both hands.. I still will tell YOU I love YOU.. grabbing you with both arms.. and holding YOU close and telling YOU.. can I hear your Heart.. I want to know how your Heart sounds.. please.. I want to hear what YOUR Heart needs to say.. if YOU have no words to tell me.. at least I want to hold YOU close.. and listening to your Heart beat be enough for Me.. Please.. let me hear Your Heart Beat.. and Holding the Giant Teddy Bear in my arms I would turn to roll.. facing the wall.. and I would sit UP on the Bed.. looking at the wall.. wondering.. WHY can't I just go to sleep.. I need my rest.. I have long day ahead.. and needs to be working.. but on this very Night.. I even tried to close both eyes.. as tight as I could.. and I just need to go to the Night zone.. but I am seeing YOU in my head.. in my thought I see Your beautiful face.. I know that before I came to lay on the Bed.. I was sitting on the chair next to the desk.. I would be looking at Your Picture.. just wondering when can I see YOU.. when Can I be with YOU.. when will your answer be Yes to me.. when will that day Come because I been looking at your Picture.. my Heart is crying from the Inside.. I can feel my Heart just crying because I am longing for YOU.. been waiting and waiting.. but only thing I can do at this point.. sitting on the Chair.. and by the desk.. I be looking at your picture.. It hurts me deep inside that I can't be with YOU.. I would hold the Picture in my hand and I am looking at you through the Picture and I would be asking the Picture of YOU.. why can't I be with YOU now.. why can't my arms just open wide and I can hold you.. hold you close just to hear YOUR Heart beat.. if YOU come close.. can I please hear the sound and the beatings of Your Heart.. because I am dying inside for YOU.. I want you in my arms.. can YOU Please come sooner so that My arms will not feel so alone.. I want to be with YOU.. for the rest of my life.. my arms can hold YOU.. I will ask for Your ears so that I can speak and whisper telling YOU How much I missed YOU and how much I love YOU.. I am sitting on the top of the bed.. I just can't sleep.. I know I needs to sleep.. but I can't until you tell me something.. as I am facing the Wall.. my arms wrapped around the Giant Teddy Bear.. I can't live with out YOU.. I feel like I can't breathe well until I get YOU close to me.. I been waiting.. I been wanting.. I been needing YOU.. I still need YOU because I love YOU.. tell me what is IN your Heart.. as I am looking at the wall.. since I know I just can't sleep.. then what I can do is to sit and stare at this Wall.. I wish then at least I can see Your Heart.. If I can't be with YOU.. only if I can put Your Heart and place to this wall.. and I can look at your Heart.. I will look at your Heart and just tell YOUR Heart how much I am suffering.. I am in such a great pain.. this hardship of waiting for YOU sometimes makes me more emotionally then ever because I want to be with YOU.. I am holding this Giant Teddy Bear.. but it is Not YOU.. I want to hold YOU like the way I am holding this Giant Teddy Bear.. it does not feel the same because I want it to be YOU instead.. I want YOU to be here with Me.. it is Hard to be in a place where I can't be with YOU.. I am looking at this wall.. this Wall do not talk back.. even no matter How many words I would say to this Wall.. looking and staring.. since I just can't sleep.. I know I have to get this Off my chest.. asking YOU.. when can I see YOU.. so that I can tell YOU what is in my heart.. but no matter How many times I tell YOU.. are you receiving it.. I want to ask YOU.. do you know how much I love YOU.. do you know that I been staring at this wall.. is my words going empty because I know it comes from My Heart.. as I am looking at the wall.. I would turn to look at the Desk.. but I know only thing that is on that Desk is your Picture.. I know that if I go to the desk and sit on that chair.. I would be grabbing your picture and my eyes is going to cry.. just the way My Heart is crying right Now.. it is crying because I am longing for YOU to be in my arms and only thing I want to do is hear Your Heart.. is it wrong if I want to see Your Heart and Not just look but to hear Your Heart.. I want to hear how does Your Heart sound.. I want to listen to your Heart beating.. so that I know I am hearing that YOU are alive.. that I know that YOU will never let Other men get close to Your Heart.. so that I want to be the One who can get close to Your Heart.. as My both arms opens wide and the Giant Teddy Bear is release from holding.. I want YOU.. why can't it be YOU.. I am so tired of holding this Giant Teddy Bear because NO matter How many times I would hold it.. I know it is Not YOU.. I want it to be YOU.. forever in my arms and when YOU are able to get close to me.. I want to tell Your ears.. I love YOU.. I would say.. and whisper.. I love YOU and my arms will never let YOU go.. so please be close.. and as I would lay back down.. and On the Pillow.. I would close both eyes.. trying to get some rest.. trying to get some sleep.. my eyes would close.. close tight then it opens.. and I am looking UP.. and I see YOUR beautiful Face.. I see your Beautiful smile.. looking at the ceiling.. I must be going crazy.. am I going mad or crazy.. I am seeing YOU up on that ceiling.. but I am trying to get some rest.. wanting to sleep.. I just can't let YOU go.. I can't even think right.. I am seeing YOU everywhere.. let me please love YOU then.. If I can't let you go.. then Please.. let me love YOU.. I want to love YOU.. and I want to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. since I can't ever get rid of YOU and I keep on seeing YOU everywhere.. then.. tell me How can I reach YOU.. how can I get close to YOU so that I can tell YOU and show YOU how much I love YOU.. since I see You when I close both eyes.. and when I open both eyes.. I am looking at the ceiling.. I still see YOU.. if I sit up and go to the desk sitting on the chair.. I have your picture there.. I will see you there again.. NO matter How I am trying to escape.. I keep on seeing YOU.. Now Holding this Giant Teddy Bear in my arms.. I am holding thinking of YOU.. that I rather want it to be YOU.. and I know that it is not YOU.. it hurts me.. keep longing and longing.. this yearning of Not able to be with YOU kills me inside.. because I know I want to be with YOU.. as I sit UP.. and I would get out of the bed.. Out of the room I go to the rest room.. turning on the light and on the Bottom corner.. I remember I have put Your Picture there too.. which I would look down on the corner.. I see Your Picture.. the water runs down.. I am washing my face with both hands.. I just can't go to sleep.. I am trying to get you off my Mind.. but the More I try too escape and get rid of YOU.. something is driving me crazy because I can't escape YOU.. my hand grabs the bottom corner and my hand grabs the picture.. what am I suppose to do now.. I am seeing YOUR picture here.. It is driving me Craze like I am insane.. must be that I must love YOU a lot.. because I have forgotten that I put your Picture here.. I would put your Picture
down.. YOU are so Beautiful.. that it drives me crazy because YOU are so Beautiful.. as I am looking at myself.. looking at the Mirror.. I would say.. what are you doing to Me.. I wish I had answer.. maybe a solution.. but right Now I just can't figure OUT what do I do.. there is Nothing I can do at this point.. then tell me.. how do I get to YOU.. How do I get close to YOU.. tell me how so that I can tell you My Heart.. at least tell me where can I find Your Heart.. if I can't get to YOU.. let me please speak to your Heart.. let me please have your Heart.. then I know for sure there is a chance.. that there is an assurance that some day.. One day I am able to get close to YOU.. because this situation I am in is taking me NO where.. I am going insane.. it is driving me crazy.. I been holding that Giant Teddy Bear.. and I don't want to hold that Giant Teddy Bear any more because I want YOU more.. I want YOU instead.. but holding that Giant Teddy Bear only reminds me that I am going crazy.. because I wish.. I am wanting.. Please Help Me.. tell me and show me something.. Please give me an answer so that I know which way to YOU.. I need Your Love.. I need Your Heart.. I need YOU close.. I need you in my arms instead.. and It is killing me that YOU are so far.. that there is a long distance between us.. at least show me that YOU know where Your Heart is.. show me Your Heart.. tell me your Heart because I need to Know.. I want to know that I am heading on the right direction.. which is to YOU.. to Your Heart.. please.. as I am looking at the Mirror and sharing it to the Mirror.. I know that this Mirror cannot answer me anything either.. but why am I looking at this Mirror and just telling it if the person I am seeing is not YOU but I am looking at myself.. I do not want to be the One who is talking to myself.. is this Not crazy too YOU.. I call it insane because I am looking at the Mirror.. the person I am seeing.. the face I am looking at is suppose to be YOU.. but I did put your Picture on the Bottom corner so that I feel like I am not talking or telling to Me.. but I am telling it to YOU instead.. I need YOU.. I want YOU.. I want to love YOU.. I need to love YOU because only thing my Heart wants to do and to say is I love YOU.. will you please tell me something so that I know YOU can hear me.. can Your Heart hear me.. can YOU Hear me on the Other side.. because I am standing here speaking to YOU.. How much I love YOU.. because I do love YOU.. and as I am looking at the Mirror.. I see tears running down my cheeks.. I want to be the One to love YOU and to be with YOU.. but Look at me.. I feel like I am only talking to myself.. but I am telling YOU instead.. I want YOU forever in my arms.. I want to hold YOU forever in my arms.. because I love YOU.. I am standing out here.. Looking at the Moon.. I wondering if YOU can hear me.. If I tell you something.. will you be able to hear on the Other side.. Can you please hear Me because right Now.. I need YOU.. and Yes.. I miss you too.. only YOU is who I need and WHO I love.. loving you is the Only thing I can do.. But.. if you want to hear me.. right Now I am standing Out side.. It is Night here because I am looking at the Moon.. I know that I miss YOU.. I think you have forgotten to take something with YOU.. WHY did you leave it behind.. why did YOU not take this with YOU.. my Both arms are holding around.. the Pillow.. the Shape is a Heart and the color is Pink.. the Most Beautiful color.. Please.. tell me that YOU have forgotten to take this with YOU.. or please tell me that YOU did leave it behind for me to see.. that YOU know as much as I love YOU.. I first want YOUR Heart.. WHY did you not leave your Real Heart instead.. if this Pillow Pink Heart which I am holding in my arms.. I want to hold YOU.. I want to hold Your Real Heart.. will you please let me have a Peek of Your Real Heart.. I want to know if I can see your Heart.. and to Love Your Heart.. Only you can tell me the answer because Right Now I am waiting.. beneath this Tent shade.. I am out on the patio.. looking up at the Moon.. I am missing YOU.. I have been missing YOU for a long time.. WHY.. tell me why did YOU leave this Pillow behind.. Now I am thinking of YOU.. thinking more about your Heart.. I wish that I can have your Heart.. Hold your Heart close to my Arms.. Hold your Heart so that I can put my lips as close and tell your Heart.. My Heart sings inside of me.. because it starts with my Heart.. who knows that I love YOU.. My Heart truly loves YOU.. that is why I want your Heart.. I need your Heart.. I do not want this Pillow Pink Heart.. of course if it belongs to YOU.. I love it.. but I really really want Your Real Heart is what I am talking about.. when will you show me Your Heart.. Please tell me that I am able to see your Heart.. and get close to you so that I can see your Real Heart.. if you let me get close to YOU.. can I tell your Heart something.. I want to tell your Heart.. I want to hear.. I want to hear it.. hear the sound.. I want to hear your Heart beating.. can I please hear your Heart Beat.. as I put my ear and to tell YOU.. Listen to the Heart Beat.. I love the sound of the beating of Your Heart.. because I know that it is I who loves you the Most.. But How can I hear.. I want to hear.. only thing I can do is just look UP.. I am looking at the Moon.. I can't even see your Face.. my arms stretches far.. hands holding the Pink Heart Pillow.. LOOK.. I am looking at the Moon.. I can feel my tear drops.. running down my cheeks.. LOOKING UP at the Moon.. missing YOU so Bad.. Missing you so Much right now.. I am holding this Pillow.. Pink Heart.. Can you please see this.. I know that you are miles and miles away.. I know that you can't even hear me at all.. Only if you can come Out at Night.. Please come Out.. see if there is Night on the Other Side.. Come Out Please.. and If is Night on the Other Side.. is the MOON Up in the sky showing Up.. Is the MOON there.. I know that the Moon can show UP and show you a picture.. Show you a shadow of a person.. It is Me.. and I know that YOU are able to see a figure.. I am holding the Heart Pink Pillow.. you have left it behind here.. and I want to show you something on the Other side.. Can you please come Out.. if it is Night over there.. please step Out side.. see if you can see the Moon appear before YOU.. if you are standing out side in the Night and YOU see the Moon.. can YOU Hear me.. Can you hear my voice.. I know that YOU can't see me but I can tell you this.. I have found something.. YOU have left something behind and I am asking does it belongs to YOU.. and If you are over there on the Other side struggling for what YOU have lost.. DID you lost a Pillow.. a Heart shape color Pink.. I have it over here.. my arms around the Shape Heart Pink Pillow.. I wanted to ask YOU.. why did you leave it behind.. WHY did you lose this Heart.. DID you left it behind or did you lost it on your way going somewhere because I have it with Me.. Please tell me that I can have the Heart.. Can We make a trade when YOU see me soon.. if you come to see me.. can we trade Heart to Heart.. I will give YOU this Pillow.. shape of a Heart color Pink and YOU can give me your Real Heart.. I know that if you give it to Me.. I will love your Heart forever.. I will love your Heart which YOU never felt before.. Only give me a chance to Love your Heart.. I am asking you.. can I please have your Real Heart because I need you now.. as I am standing out side.. Looking UP at the Moon.. I know that without YOU.. my life is going to be incomplete.. that is why I need you.. I want you near me but only way is to Love your Heart.. What do I must do to get to Your Heart.. I been asking you for a while.. but YOU have never given me a straight Answer.. I am only asking for just one thing.. it is Your Real Heart.. Not a Pillow.. Not a Shape of a Heart.. Not a Color Pink either.. but Your Real Heart.. and as I stand Looking UP at the Moon.. my arms around the Shape Heart.. color Pink pillow.. I wish that it was the real Heart.. at least I can say something to the Real Heart.. what can I do with this Pillow.. shape of a Heart.. No matter how much I say to this Pillow.. it only wants me to lay my Head down on it.. If I lay down.. at least I want to hear the sound.. the beating.. I want to hear it.. listen to your Heart Beat and I would turn to Your Heart as I be listening to the sound and the beating of the Heart.. LOOKING at your Heart.. I would say.. I love YOU.. DO you love me too.. I would turn again to your Heart and I will say.. I love YOU.. Do you love me too.. can YOU please tell me that YOU can love me too.. because YOU know how much I love you.. I have been waiting for this for a long.. to tell you but also to hear from you if YOU DO.. and can I please turn to Your Heart and tell your Heart my words.. that I love you.. as I would step few steps back.. I would think about before I came out to the Patio.. I was sitting on the top of the Bed and as I lay on the Bed.. something laying beside me.. and I turn to face.. the Shape of the Heart.. color Pink.. the Pillow is next to me.. and I would sit UP on the bed.. I have the phone with me.. and I hit to see the Picture.. many pictures I have saved and there is One Picture.. as I would take a LOOK at the Picture.. it is you on this bed.. I have taken a picture of you.. you were laying on the side.. holding your arms around this Pillow.. the shape of the Heart.. the color Pink.. and both of your eyes were closed.. that means you were sleeping and I have taken a picture of you while you were falling asleep.. Like a Sleeping Beauty.. in such a peace and beauty you were.. as I am sitting on the bed.. I see the same Pillow.. the shape of the Heart.. the color Pink.. and
Is there any new project for Actress Yuri? . I miss Actress and Singer Yul ❤❤❤
Kwon yuri look so fresh and young.
유리 누나의 새로운 프로필 사진도 생겼고, 누나도 올해 새로운 작품과 활동을 많이 할 수 있기를 기대합니다!❤
유리 언니 올해 당신의 새로운 프로젝트를 기대하고 있겠습니다 😄🫶🏻 화팅!!!!✊️
유리 언니가 얼마나 예쁜지 말하는 것에 질리지 않을 것입니다 💗💗💗
글라스권은 쿨톤임 웜톤임? 아니면 내가평생완주하지못할사랑의마라톤임? 아니면 내인생에뛰어든행복일톤임? 아니면 내인생의달달한메카톤임?
Glass Kwon’s photo shoots are always the best 🫰🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼
언니 사진 더풀어줘ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ
당신은 항상 예쁘다 😍
0:26에서 본인 자신이 '내가 권유리다'라는걸 알릴 필요는 없을것 같은데요~~ 이미~ 충분히~ 알렸다고 생각이 제 갠적으론 드는데요~
언니 왜이렇게 예뻐요 오늘은 너랑 수영이 피자먹는다 대표이사 유리 권유리 미소비싸 ❤❤😊언니 항상 건강하시길 바랍니다
I love you unnie!!! We won't get tired of telling you how pretty you are. 💗💗💗
Yuri is gorgeous😍
Yuri's natural cuteness 🥰
썸넬 보고 홀린듯 들어옴...
We'll be waiting for all the projects you're gonna do this year!
시간 참 빠르다.
벌써 새해가 되었네요
"너 예쁘다" 이런 말 많이 들었지?
정말 예쁘다는 말을 참지 못하고
예쁘다는 것 외에도 많이 성숙해 보인다
새해에는 저희도 많이 봤으면 좋겠습니다
그 외 건강하시고 평안하시길 바라겠습니다❤
유리님 사랑해요
유리한 TV 업로드 자주해주세요~ ❤별거 없는 브이로그라도 괜찮아요 ㅎㅎ
솔직히 달력보다 훨씬 예쁜 스타일이에요
이런 스타일링의 탁상용 달력이 있으면 좋을 것 같아요
I love your smile, Yuri. I don't care about the makeup or the fashion shoot...one smile just is the best way for me to start a day.
Hi Yuri-noona, thank you for being inspiring and being a net positive in my 2023 :) 😊😊😊
It's lovely to see radiant girl Yuri 😍😍😍enjoying the work with full of joy and with your pretty smile it's charming ❤💕💖😍😍😍
Yuri so beautiful love you ♥️
so pretty❤
Oh my oh my, you are so prettttty and gorgeous, I want to faint already …Everything is just perfect ❤
너무 예뻐요 ❤❤❤❤
유리한TV권유리배우님 아주예쁘군요.
언니 사랑해 ❤❤❤
Yuriah ❤
진짜 개예뻐 내 워너비얼굴 ㅜ 언니 사랑해요
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보고싶어율
이쁘다
나날이 예뻐지는 글라스 권❤
권유리 씨 예뻐요!세상에서 가장 예쁘고 부드러운 여자입니다!❤❤❤
Thank you for uploading✨🥰😍😍😍The Unreal beauty of Glass Kwon✨
pretty always
유리야 안녕 🌸오랜많에보는구나 잘지내는걸보니보기좋다 건강하게잘지내야한다 홧팅 🤗👍
유리누나는 언제나 얼굴도 마음도 따듯한 천사입니다 ❤️💟💕
리누나는
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유리누나는 언제나 얼굴도 마음도 따듯한 천사입니다 ❤💟
To me Yuri have always been among the top kpop visuals of all time.
정경호님이 너무 좋아서 영상 보다보니 소녀시대분들까지 와버렸네요❤ 이쁘세요
0:40 율: 자고 일어난 상태인데 이렇게 예뻐?
Answer: 권유리니까🫶🏻
I need a season 3 of Yuri's Winning Recipe and a solo Yuri full album comeback, it's been five years.
유리씨 소시 첨나왔을때부터 예뻤는데 더 예뻐졌네요.사랑해요~💙
내가 꿈에서 본 셀럽들......모대통령 & 그리고 유리 이렇게 두명....근데 왜 유리??
GK noona's beauty is so unbelievable
앞으로 우리세대의 대표 아이콘......유리 vs 이세영.....이세영 vs 유리.....
Hello po from Philippines shout out na po sayo lahat ng mga supporters at maraming salamat po Kay Kwon yuri and myself po ate
프로미스나인의 노지선을 초대할 수 있나요
고요한 밤 거룩한 밤이라지만, 조용한 것은 보장 못합니다. ㅋ.ㅋ
권유리 언니 너무너무 예뻐 😍 GK's 2023 profile so gorgeous
Boleh bawa pulang aja gx sih? 😂❤❤❤
All members of SNSD must be tired of being called pretty, beautiful, fairy, Goddess.
미쳤구나 .... 진짜 미모가... 고급짐을 찢는다.
안ㄴᆢㅇ하세요!오늘구독합니다
맞아여 예쁘다는 말로는 너무 부족해..
ever wanted to be different !? ""A talk show"" with the most unlikely members ! Like being with Taeyeon , hehe, because of the same alien thoughts ?!🛸, even if you stare at each other and run out of "topic" conversation talks orz ...... the reverse combination of South & North Pole like this would be great !!😁
*Don't need anything else to look nice.* That staff was absolutely right about that, with or without make-up Yuri is always perfect.
수술은 잘된거지? 괜찮은거지율?😢
헐!
여신이 여기 있었따아😊😊😊
하시는 작품 잘 쌓아가시길❤❤
유리언니사랑해요으으아아아ㅏ아아
빨리 차기작 보고싶어요
Deadanada ✨💖
Very nice clothes 👍🏻✨
얼굴이 국보다ㅠㅠ❤❤
너무 예뻐요❤❤❤
프리즘유리~~
프리즘유리~~
Welcome back GK I missed your vlog. I love you.
배우 권유리
힘내세요
Black pearl kwon yuri ssi..saranghe
glass kwon unnie yul are so beautiful 🤍🥟🫶🏻
Cakep sekali kakak Yuri
공쥬다 공쥬..🖤
Gorgeous Glass as always 😍
I'm just curious why gorgeous glass?
@@gracedanseur Glass is Yuri in Korea.. and she likes to call her Glass Kwon now :)
😍♥️ My pretty glass yul
I miss you so much 🤗😘