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  • @TheMakeupChair
    @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +240

    Hello my friends, been a long time. I am pretty nervous about sharing this video, the phrase "I might delete this later...' comes to mind. I'm not sure of the reaction but I appreciate all the support. I have avoided coming online because it was a reminder of my inability to create videos. I've put on a brave face but it has been a struggle, even as I write this I am exhausted and feeling so unwell. I want to take the time to reply to everyone I can but it might take me some time before I get to everyone. I'm so thankful to you for taking the time to send a message, I have felt so guilty for not being able to respond. I hope you bare with me as I try to catch up. Thank you for the kind words, it means so much to me. - Sinead ❤️

    • @bexblah
      @bexblah 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Sending you all the love ❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      @@bexblah thank you lovely ❤️ I feel ready to finally catch up on everything, excited to watch your vlogs, hope you are still living your best life 🙌😘

    • @paogallardo924
      @paogallardo924 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Thanks for your honesty! It takes a real strong and brave person to acknowledge you need help and your body may fail you though you do your best. Don't push yourself for others. Just let yourself feel and do whatever gives you peace of mind. Love from Ecuador, you are an amazing human being Sinead

    • @sourbuttasty4424
      @sourbuttasty4424 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      It´s brave to be honest and you are taking a step towards respecting yourself and your boundaries by telling the people around you that you indeed have boundaries. A lot of people watch your channel and you are a good advocate speaking for all of us with invisible illnesses. I have gotten better and in time living with the same illness and I think you will too. It takes a long time to be brave enough to respect limitations and handle life in a way that´s completely differently to what it once was. My biggest lesson was that by doing less, in time I could do more. Don´t push limits because of things you think you need to do for others, always listen to your own needs first. Sending you all my love!

    • @kalliopi4301
      @kalliopi4301 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      hope you get better! it is indeed very hard and indeed you can feel invisible through all that. and it's ok that you find it hard, because it is and it is okay to feel disappointed. and you made it, i feel less alone. you also taught me how to do my makeup 8-9 years ago. :)

  • @WolfJade
    @WolfJade 3 ปีที่แล้ว +98

    Chronic illnesses are so misunderstood by those who don’t suffer from them. The daily pain, lack of energy, and just never feeling “okay”, etc. I hate it; wouldn’t wish it on anyone. Even now with this neverending pandemic, it’s like one more added weight. As if all the usual symptoms aren’t enough now we have to worry about this too.
    You and what you need is more important than any of us. Do what you need to do and we will support you in whatever that is. 💕

    • @MamaBearBrock
      @MamaBearBrock 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      It honestly sounds like physical depression even if the emotional component isn't there... breaks my heart for y'all...

  • @DramaticMac
    @DramaticMac 3 ปีที่แล้ว +78

    Ah Sinead this video was so raw and real. I am so sorry to hear about your chronic illness I can not imagine how difficult it must be for you. You are so brave for coming online and telling your story. You will help so many people by making this video. Xx

    • @lorinewcomb4717
      @lorinewcomb4717 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I love you. I follow your videos too. This shows your empathy and kindness towards others which I applaud.

  • @ElleIsForLiving
    @ElleIsForLiving 3 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    I had 4 autoimmunes that impacted my life horrifically and I came close to losing my work. I remember the fear and frustration that I felt. I am so grateful that my Functional Dr helped me to have healed. For me to have healed and have my health back and be able to function completely is such an amazing gift that I try to be grateful for every day. I feel for you sweet girl. Do not give up. I have missed you Sinead but, do what is right for you. Sending healing prayers to you. ♥ Elle

  • @BethanyGrey1
    @BethanyGrey1 3 ปีที่แล้ว +38

    As someone with a chronic illness, is very distressing when you feel like no one understands, especially when your illness is not 'visible' for everyone else and they tag you as dramatic or overreacting. It is very tough, not knowing if you'll feel better on the next day, even the next hour.
    I wish all the best for you, your channel is an actual favorite of mine, and believe me I understand. It's very hard taking time for yourself and feeling like you should do more, but in reality, without our health or without feeling well at the very least every tasks seems so draining and impossible.
    I hope with all my heart for healthier and happy days ahead for you and everyone else with chronic / invisible illnesses. 💛

  • @trendymaths2467
    @trendymaths2467 3 ปีที่แล้ว +76

    I’m so grateful for your tutorials but I will fully support you in what ever decision you make. Keeping up the content is really hard and I acknowledge that, I’m sure other people do too.

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Thank you lovely, I appreciate it so much ❤️

    • @Ms10yearsafter
      @Ms10yearsafter 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Nicely put 😊!
      We will understand Fully 🥰
      Hey from Helsinki Finland 👋Charlotte

  • @DaintyDiaries
    @DaintyDiaries 3 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    Aww, Sinead, you are a beautiful soul! I am so proud of you for sharing your story and the relief it will give you many x

  • @franromany8096
    @franromany8096 3 ปีที่แล้ว +41

    It's been a year I found your channel. Love your soft spoken words while tutoring. I didn't know you are going through challenges as I have found out based on the comments here. I really did miss you for a while and was wondering if all was well. As a follower I support whatever decision you make. Don't delete your channel and much love ❤

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Thank you Fran, I appreciate it so much ❤️ You are so lovely, means so much to me to have your support!

  • @rubies200
    @rubies200 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    I understand. I have an autoimmune disease, since birth. It took me 40 years to figure it out, and no doctor has diagnosed me. It is hard every day to figure what to eat, what to avoid eating, how much energy do I have to expend today, etc. So, please don't tax yourself. Everyone who cares about you, will be there when you're feeling low. Thank you!

  • @Dennyspuncakes
    @Dennyspuncakes 3 ปีที่แล้ว +24

    You were one of the first channels I have ever subscribed to. Even if I wasn't that much into makeup, I found a lot of comfort just watching these videos. Whatever you do, we'll be here to support you all the way! ❤

  • @lydiaryan5177
    @lydiaryan5177 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you so much for this... I have a chronic illness.. Fibromyalgia and CFS... I hate being trapped inside this usless body. I was so hard working, so independent. If had to stop working, letting my family down both financially and physically is killing me... I know people look at me and think she looks fine what's the problem??? And I can't explain the pain the exhaustion. I totally get what you mean about wanting to run away because I wana go there too. However I've no idea where there is... its never ending and is frustrating and its horrible.. your such an inspiration. Thank you xxx

  • @KateOBrienMMEd
    @KateOBrienMMEd 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I have Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome (with POTS and MCAS and all of that) and a Chiari Malformation. I see you - and you are not alone, neither in your physical suffering nor in the way your professional life has had to change. I love my career as a brass and woodwind teacher, but had to leave it for 14 years, and I just started teaching and playing in the last month or two. And you are NOT complaining; you are helping people understand us better, and what a great thing it is for you to do with this platform. (Groceries TWICE?? Two days in a row??? You’re a total rockstar.)
    Please remember that your pain is YOUR pain, not to be diminished by comparison to others.
    And also, this really sucks.
    And we’re not crazy.
    I would love to connect with you.
    Sending you zebra love.

  • @Michelle_Lynnn
    @Michelle_Lynnn 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    From another person with multiple chronic invisible illnesses, thank you so much. Thank you for using your platform, for being brave and vulnerable, yet vocal. I appreciate your heart Sinead.

  • @anadelwrites2144
    @anadelwrites2144 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    You’ve articulated what it’s like living with an invisible illness and the mental and emotional toll it takes on. I too have an invisible illness and I felt every word and every tear in your eye. It’s lovely to see you and will happily watch your videos as when or if you feel like posting them.

  • @tanyaevers-jordan8624
    @tanyaevers-jordan8624 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I will miss your videos and tutorials, Sinead, but your health and happiness matter more. We’re here to support you in whatever way you need.

  • @seruntulbamboo
    @seruntulbamboo 3 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    I've been waiting an update from you. I know that you've been struggling with your health since years ago and I always pray for you. If this are the way you're saying goodbye for awhile (or permanent) to us, I truly hope that you never deleted your channel. Cause I never find a makeup youtube channel who could teach me about makeup precisely and in the simpliest way for me to understand like the way you do. Trust me dear, I always back to your video if I want to learn a new technique 😉
    So whatever decision you make, I'll apreciate it. Wish the best for your healthy, Sinead ❤️

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Thank you so much for the support, I appreciate it so much ❤️ That ❤️

  • @rachelgrubbs
    @rachelgrubbs 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Your problems are not diminished by the problems of others. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for fighting. You are worth fighting for

  • @jessva5591
    @jessva5591 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I really appreciate that you posted this video. Please don't delete it because I really think it would help someone in a similar position.
    I'm glad to see you back. I have missed your videos.

  • @InsomniOwl_
    @InsomniOwl_ 3 ปีที่แล้ว +62

    I know exactly how you feel. Being so sick but not outwardly disabled- it's difficult. People just don't seem to understand. I hate the comments like, "You're so young, nothing is wrong with you!" 😭
    I was just diagnosed with Polycythemia Vera and have to get my bone marrow tested for Leukemia. Every single day is a struggle and my mental health has steeply declined. I'm unable to enjoy life and I feel like my body is giving out. 😓
    Not here for sympathy or pity party, I just wanted to tell you that you are not alone. ❤️ I have always enjoyed your videos and did notice your absence. I completely understand if you simply cannot keep filming and keeping up with social media. If you need to say ,"Goodbye", I will be sad but sympathetic. You are more than a TH-cam persona and you need to put yourself first. 🙏🏼💕✌️❤️

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      This hit me so hard, it's so true, people just don't see it. I totally get the body giving out part, that happens so often to me ❤️ Thank you for being so supportive! ❤️

    • @InsomniOwl_
      @InsomniOwl_ 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@TheMakeupChair Always ❤️🙏🏼

    • @lyds7771
      @lyds7771 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      20 years living with an autoimmune illness ppl get tired of us because we don’t look sick. Just take care of yourself and enjoy the feeling we’ll times

  • @veronicahayes2635
    @veronicahayes2635 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I have a chronic illness or rather a few of them and I completely understand. There’s days where I cry when nobody knows and days when I get so angry I could scream. Multiple Dr visits and not being able to do the things I’ve always done. Feeling like you’re letting your family snd yourself down but not being able to do anything about it. I’ve been dealing with this for over 20 yrs and I’m sick of being sick and being in pain. Unless you deal with this daily you have no clue how exhausting it is. Thanks for sharing your struggle

  • @melaniemurphyofficial
    @melaniemurphyofficial 3 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    Aw Sinead I want to give you such a big hug!

  • @DaniWendee
    @DaniWendee 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I have vascular EDS and lost my sister to an aortic rupture just over a week ago at age 32. Unfortunately, I very much understand what having an invisible illness is like… lean on those around you for love & support. Hugs. 💜

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I am so sorry to hear that, I can only imagine how difficult this is for you and your family, and I am sure it is flaring you your own illness, I hope you have support, sending you love and you will be in my thoughts ❤️❤️

    • @theresas2520
      @theresas2520 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I am so sorry Danielle for your loss.

  • @annieanna2900
    @annieanna2900 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Welcome back and thanks for your words🙏 I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and arthritis (in my whole body) in 2018 and I have chronic pain and fatigue 24/7. I’m a Psychologist and even when I say to my patients is ok to not be okay, sometimes I cry because I feel like nobody understands my pain. Blessings!

  • @yasimartinez8435
    @yasimartinez8435 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I’m so glad you’re ok, that’s what matters most, you’re one of the best TH-cam channels, work at your own pase. I always look forward to your videos 😊. You’re not invisible, you’re an amazing person, don’t forget that. 💖💖

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      You are too lovely, thank you for the kind words, you are such a lovely kind person thank you for the support and taking the time to comment ❤️❤️

  • @Artemisia28
    @Artemisia28 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I've just got diagnosed with something I've had since birth. Sick since 9, too sick for full time education at 12, then too sick for part time. I'm 21 now. Your not alone, suffering with no end to it can to be hard to face. That you just see the next day is a victory. You are seen, loved. Thankyou for sharing it and using your platform to make others aware of us. Makes me feel less alone 💜

    • @FayeBush381
      @FayeBush381 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      💜Soft hugs💚

    • @Torch0362
      @Torch0362 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hugs to you.

  • @jenpad2008
    @jenpad2008 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    We love you. I hope and pray for your wellness and strength. 🙏❤️

  • @FisBeautyTales
    @FisBeautyTales 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Hello #MyFaveTH-camr I’m seeing you since almost 8years now.. N I’m here to support you in every decision you make. Whatever it may be.. Live your life to the fullest and thanks for always being my mentor. I love you with all my heart and I’ll support you always ❤️

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Oh gosh you are too kind! Thank you so much, I appreciate it so much ❤️

  • @pnizzlefoshizzle9529
    @pnizzlefoshizzle9529 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    I've been so worried about you! Can't wait to see you again!

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Gosh you are so lovely, I'm so sorry you have been worried about me, that's so kind of you to think of me, I'm glad to be back ❤️

  • @naziasahil3313
    @naziasahil3313 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Hey I am from an island in india...and I learnt doing makeup from ur channel...I am one of ur subscribers...urs is the most sober, natural and proper makeup .... instead of the usual instagrammers 'over makeup' ......we pray for ur recovery...n Insha Allah u will surely recover!! But please do not delete ur channel as it is very educational!

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Thank you, so glad you enjoy them, don't worry they aren't going anywhere, still gonna keep uploading and keep my older videos too, thank you for the support, I appreciate it so much ❤️

  • @EvidentLEE
    @EvidentLEE 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I’ve missed you tremendously. I too have a chronic illness and your videos made me feel not so alone. I know just me saying that is a heavy responsibility to lay at your feet, that was not my intention. I just want you to know you are not alone. There are so many of us feeling exactly like you feel and who deal with all the same questions we ask ourselves. I’m so so thrilled you are back. I’ve perhaps less than a handful of times, left a comment, but I wanted you to know there are so so many of us s we ho adore you and who feel like you’re family and who are right here with you, struggling but surviving. Thank you for coming back. 💕💕💕💕💕

  • @christina_lee_4345
    @christina_lee_4345 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I am so proud of you for posting this video and not taking it down. I know the struggles of an invisible disease and even started my own channel this week to get more out there for people to understand. You are strong and beautiful never feel ashamed and keep standing up and being strong.

  • @hadeerkhaled8429
    @hadeerkhaled8429 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I've missed you so much please don't leave us.. Your channel is the first one i subscribe to from 8 years no one is like you sineady no is more genuine and helpful and have the purest smile like you ❤️❤️❤️

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Missed you right back!! Thank you, that's so lovely of you to say, you are too sweet, I appreciate it so much ❤️

  • @andyquilla
    @andyquilla 3 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    Thanks to your tutorials I learnd to do my make up ❤ I hope we can have you back❤

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I hope so too my friend, that's so lovely to hear I really appreciate it! ❤️

  • @vintagegirl2739
    @vintagegirl2739 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Girl cry, let it out. I understand. I have Fibromyalgia which is a daily battle as well. It rob's you of your independence & strength & brings on anxiety big time. Just look after you, call out to Jesus, he'll give you strength & peace. By the way, you look gorgeous, love your hair. 😊💕

  • @BelindaHII
    @BelindaHII 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I closed my eyes while listening to you and it was as if I was listening to my youngest son. He too has an invisible, chronic, and at this moment in time, incurable illness. I hear you. And yes it sucks! It's hard for you and for the person who is close to you. Never keep quiet. Take each day at a time and live it the best you can. Such an inspiring video. Xxx

  • @cindymartin1929
    @cindymartin1929 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I do not have chronic illness, but I have family that do, so I understand. Thank you for sharing your experience. 🙏🙏🙏 You openess helps others realize how important independence and freedom are to an individual's quality of life.

  • @mommascasa
    @mommascasa 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Sinead, it was so lovely to see you here. Yes, we've missed you so much, but your health comes first. You're so brave to talk about this because so many people suffer in silence. Thank you for sharing. Many blessings to you!

  • @kylieky7
    @kylieky7 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you so much for sharing. I started to cry when you said sometimes you just want to run away. I’ve been dealing with invisible illnesses for years now and it’s so difficult and can feel so lonely. It makes daily things hard and is hard to enjoy anything. Everything you said is exactly how I feel and it’s so nice to hear others feel the same💜

  • @kimharris8903
    @kimharris8903 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I completely understand and feel the same feelings you have. You are describing my life, and millions of others. Like you and so many others, autoimmune disease has taken away my ability to work, caused severe depression, and the end of my 28 year marriage. My ex didn't believe the severity of symptoms, didn't believe in depression and couldn't deal with the limitations I now have. So an affair and divorce were his answers. Chronic disease often changes one's entire life, and it can be soul-crushing. Every day is a struggle, some more than others. Rarely, I will have a pain-free, fatigue-free day and remember what my life was like before pain and fatigue decided my days. You have to do what's best for you, forget perfection (I've learned no one cares about that anyways), and pace yourself to your daily needs. I never dreamed at 52, I would be divorced going on five years and financially just above the poverty level. Definitely one day at a time.

  • @silviabrowne2308
    @silviabrowne2308 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Doll, I want you to know we all stand by you. I appreciate you. You were one of the first that I subscribed to. Luv ya girl.

  • @maluspezzano7928
    @maluspezzano7928 3 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    Hi!! I enjoyed following your tutorials as well, they were so well-thought-out, and your style was so relaxing - mental health is at the number one place, but I hope you will be back! Love from Italy. ❤️

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Thank you lovely, you are too kind, ❤️❤️❤️ I appreciate it so much ❤️ Love from Ireland!

  • @jenniferkemp6454
    @jenniferkemp6454 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Oh my gosh, you managed to verbalise how I feel with my ME/CFS! I feel that as invisible illness sufferers we learn to mask our illness which is awful in a way as people don't see us suffer, but I think it's a dignity thing. I haven't worked in so long because my fatigue is crippling, and not just the fatigue. The inability to think clearly, to speak in sentences and even chew food. I feel like when I got sick I lost my identity. I lost friends because it's so hard to keep in touch, and that feeling of wanting to feel like a normal person is overwhelming. Crying is such a release, and talking about something that affects every aspect of your life is important. It matters. Illness sucks, and invisible illness is hard for 'healthy' people to understand. They only see us when we are having a GOOD DAY. I'm so glad you shared your feelings. And the toxic positivity I see everywhere in the disability community makes me so depressed. It's ok to express your true feelings about how your illness affects you, we just have to keep going. Sending you so much love xxxxx

  • @alineparadis8444
    @alineparadis8444 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Just sending you lots of love. It sucks to have an invisible (chronic) illness. Thanks for this video.. We've missed you but will be here when you're ready to be back!

  • @soniamoll5177
    @soniamoll5177 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    This channel was one of the first few makeup channels that I learned to do my makeup from, and from all the tutorials I have watched over and over again, all the time and practice I have put in I love to do makeup now. I thank you so much! I hope you take all the time you need to be healthy and well again! Hugs and best wishes from a 7 year subscriber! ❤️🥰

  • @FayeBush381
    @FayeBush381 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    💜Soft Hugs💚
    I completely understand what you are going through. I have Fibromyalgia, borderline personality disorder, anxiety disorders, ptsd, agoraphobia, Lyme disease, chronic fatigue, chronic migraines and more. Seems every time I think I am getting better something new happens. I live in pain mentally and physically. And doctors can't do anything to help me. I fight cause giving up it's not in my heart. I am here if you for you. Your not alone. And yes finding someone who understands is awesome. Talking to people who understand is freeing. God bless you

  • @JessieLee_
    @JessieLee_ 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    It’s so okay to be upset sweetheart, I’m so glad you’re sharing your story and I relate. Living in chronic pain since 2007 , after a horrible cervical spinal fusion that lead to nerve damage, cervical arthritis, DDD, more herniated disc’s above my plate and possibly below ( seeing a neurosurgeon after I get an X-ray & MRI for the 100000 time & I’m so scared bc of 1st surgery , but I literally can’t use my right arm bc the pain is radiating from my neck , shoulders down my arm into hands) I have fibromyalgia, ME/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome , stomach issues, sleep issues, generalized anxiety disorder and depression + every single joint has arthritis. My whole entire body hurts so damn bad and I’m laying in bed crying with you bc I’m in that flare right now & I get it! I never leave this house , I can’t work , my dreams can’t come true rn and I know how it feels to look put together…I mean my God you’re just so gorgeous, but I know you feel so awful on the inside & that’s almost worst bc no one can see , maybe the ones closest to you can see the pain in your eyes or see you maybe not be able to get out of bed. It’s hard! Oh and the worst part for me besides not being able to do what I love ,but the judgment from the people I cared about for not working & it kills me to that they think I want this life of constantly going to doctors and specialists from the age of 26 - 42!? Living in 24/7 pain….do they really think that I don’t want to make my handmade candles, whipped body butter, whipped body scrubs , lip balm , bath salts and diaper rash cream plus more.. and on top of that watching huge companies do what I was doing back in 2010-2012. Making all natural, organic ingredient products is a passion of mine and my stuff works. I’ve spent countless months doing my research all to not be able to do it anymore and get talked about behind my back bc I can’t physically work anymore. It’s so frustrating! So sweetheart videos like yours helps know I’m not alone. Thanks for sharing and sorry for my little rant.

  • @yummylife8984
    @yummylife8984 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I support you a lot! I also have a chronicle illness and two days before it was crisis… I could not walk 😭 in such moments you realise that going by yourself in supermarket is a happiness. Wish you all the best and everyone take care of yourself!:)

  • @carolclopper9020
    @carolclopper9020 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    You are so right. It really sucks. I understand the struggle with an invisible illness and the disappointment that comes with it. We just keeping doing the best we can. Thank you for being so honest with your story. ❤️

  • @chemt4684
    @chemt4684 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I am sorry for your illness. Thank you for your honesty. You are so brave. I will pray for you. I hope you get better soon. All my love to you.

  • @leannbaker5725
    @leannbaker5725 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I am so sorry to hear this news. I am not on here a lot. I didn't realize this was something so bad. I am very sorry and I can empathize with you. You are beautiful inside and out. God loves you! God will bless you! We are a God fearing household and we will keep you in our prayers.
    Lord, please relieve Sinead of her illness and allow her freedom from this chronic illness. Please allow for all of us to continue to support her and be there for her in any way needed. We have all been so blessed knowing Sinead and for all of her helpful tutorials.
    Amen

  • @dodge10P1N
    @dodge10P1N 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Im so sorry! I hope you have more better days than hard ones. I am glad to see you!!! But if you need a break, then you do whats best for you. 💕

  • @sandrapatenaude186
    @sandrapatenaude186 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thanks so much 🙏 I always have my eye out for you. Love

  • @dianeb2349
    @dianeb2349 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You are so loved… don’t forget that…. I’ve been watching your videos for years and patiently waiting. When you’re ready, if ever I’d be so happy to see you again. I’m so sorry for your struggles. You’re right invisible illnesses are hard. I was diagnosed with depression at the beginning of April this year and only just started going back to work a little bit. Depression has worn me out. Mentally and physically. In the beginning you were able to tell I wasn’t well. Now I can disguise it more and it’s finally getting a little better. So yes invisible illness. But your illness…it makes me so sad to hear that. I can’t imagine. It’s much worse than what I’m going through. 😔 it sounds terrible. So so tough. It must be so scary. Sending you love and warmth sweetheart. Thinking of you.

  • @ladygenius95
    @ladygenius95 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I have nothing to say besides I hear you, and I support you.

  • @diva4jewelry
    @diva4jewelry 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I hear you. I live with an invisible illness. I understand and I get it. You are beautiful and you are real. Keep believing, keep pushing, and listen to your body without guilt. If you are tired your body will tell you. Don’t worry about what others think. This is your battle, your life, and your blessings.

  • @ginar3442
    @ginar3442 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    So glad to see your beautiful face again! Thank you for sharing! Stay strong, we love you!♥️

  • @janna8147
    @janna8147 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Sending love 💗 from the US. I do hope you are able to do videos again, but take care of yourself first! Someone else's pain does not invalidate yours - just because you aren't the only person struggling, doesn't mean your struggle isn't real or important. Don't devalue your feelings and experience. I'm sorry it has been so difficult, it does really suck.

  • @Buhkneee
    @Buhkneee 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    you’re not alone and so loved. It’s so hard living with a chronic illness. Thank you for sharing your story🤍

  • @raekaye7678
    @raekaye7678 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    It's more than okay to feel however you are going to feel - don't ever feel like you have to apologise for that. Chronic illness is so hard for others who have never experienced it or know someone who has it to understand. A good friend of mine has CFS and POTS and it's been more than challenging to say the least. But she's a rockstar - just like you! Your story is important. We see you. Sending love ❤️

  • @marianne8352
    @marianne8352 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Like many here I also suffer from an invisible illness. I’ve had it for over a decade now, & thought I’d learnt how to deal with it. But recently I’ve had a massive flare up, worse than ever before, & I had to change to part time work. It’s been one of the hardest decisions I’ve ever made, & I am so frustrated at my body! I tell myself every day that it’s giving my body what it needs to heal, & is the best decision… but it doesn’t really make it any easier right now!!! So my heart is very much with you, & I appreciate you so very much for making this video, & not keeping it private!!!!

  • @alexandriamallios932
    @alexandriamallios932 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hello Sinead, it’s nice to see your face again.illnesses suck. I hope today is a good day for you, I feel for you and your struggles. I too suffer with an illness that affects my balance, have yet to be diagnosed with any certainty. I use a walker now and it sucks. I do appreciate the small things in life but to be able to go for a walk would be great. Stay strong girl and to everyone that is dealing with any issue. One day at a time.☀️

  • @gayleromano3986
    @gayleromano3986 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Sinead. So happy to see you filming and sharing your story. It helps to talk about and share your struggles. I wish you all the best. Prayers and hugs

  • @dr5981
    @dr5981 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you for posting this! I always loved your tutorials simply for what they were. Honestly, I was never really "into makeup" in my teens and early adulthood. It was shortly after my diagnosis for an "invisible illness" that I started to want to self-care more and doing makeup became that little boost in confidence (when I physically could manage it) for myself but I was admittedly not very good at it. Your channel was one of the first makeup tutorials I started watching.
    So, from one person suffering with an illness who is also a novice at makeup, I am now even more grateful for finding your channel.

  • @helenhirsch5717
    @helenhirsch5717 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I just found your channel today and I wish you the best. You are so brave to both face this without giving up and to share your deepest privacy with us out here. I look forward to viewing your older material and your new videos whenever I find them. Sail on, brave girl.

  • @fei7245
    @fei7245 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve been struggling. It does suck, and you absolutely have every right to feel that way even when people have it worse. For what it’s worth I’m so proud of you, I’ve been following you since 2015 and you’ve taught me almost everything I know about makeup. You’re such a light Sinead, even when you’re battling your illness and I hope you know that. I’m sending you so much love❤️

  • @jenniferrobinson9177
    @jenniferrobinson9177 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you Sinead for making this. I’m bawling my eyes out that you are having to go through this. I have Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and migraines and while I don’t exactly know what you go through I understand exactly what you mean. Chronic illness sucks! I love all of your videos where you share how you are doing. I appreciate you being raw and telling it like it is. Please know you are in my prayers!

  • @bexblah
    @bexblah 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Sinead!! I have missed your videos ❤️ so glad you’ve posted this. Chronic Illnesses are not fun to deal with but I’m so glad to see an update from you ❤️🥰

  • @FisBeautyTales
    @FisBeautyTales 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I couldn’t agree more with you Sinead. It is so tough specially when fighting an invisible illness .. I don’t have chronic illness but I could relate with your difficulties so much.. I’ve been diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis since 9years n I’m still fighting.. I hv had my ups n downs.. but it’s so difficult to even complete an normal everyday routine.. some days are good , some are bad.. but however we fight with it.. it doesn’t come to my face but every action is so difficult.. I too feel depressed on some days when I can’t shoot or do any work n then seeing my frnds being updated daily on social media.. n achieving their goals as easily anyone should.. But on a serious note, thank you so much Sinead.. it feels so good and warming to see this particular post seeing that someone out there is there who feels the pain.. And whatever it may be .. I pray you have a speedy recovery and will always be waiting for your next video whatever it may be. Take care n Love you always #MyFaveTH-camr ❤️

  • @o.h.8337
    @o.h.8337 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Stay strong ❤
    I had an illness, was diagnosed at 2 and had a transplant in 2016 and so now I'm okay thankfully . When I thought about those around me going about their normal lives and how they had no idea what I had to face, and the endless appointments that I had to go to,I felt left out and alone sometimes too.
    Your not silly for crying because of this illness,you have the right to cry because of it. Keeping the emotions in will make you feel even worse and more lost.Having the ability to speak out and be as raw as you are in this video just shows how strong you really are. Whenever you want to speak out,just know that we're right here to listen respectfully ❤❤❤

  • @emmalcm
    @emmalcm 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I'm so sorry to hear what you've been going through. My mum has fibromyalgia that was brought on by a car accident, caused by the other person not looking before pulling out. It must have been so difficult for her to accept that she's gone from being very independent to struggling to carry a shopping bag or walk for 10 minutes without being in a lot of pain. It does absolutely suck but she tries to get on with it and stay positive, difficult but she says being negative isn't going to help her. I really admire people who try their best to carry on with a chronic illness, takes a lot of mental strength x

  • @melissaferguson3231
    @melissaferguson3231 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    It takes so many years for us to learn to live with the ups and downs of our health and the waves of depression that goes along with them.

  • @kellibella0804
    @kellibella0804 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    From a fellow spoonie/POTSie .... I feel you, I hear you, and I *SEE* you!! I am so sorry about your recent rough patch. We just moved into a new house a couple weeks ago and my body is still recovering. It's good to see your face again. I'm sending you tons of spoons & hugs 🥄🥄🤗. We will get through the hard times, hun. Promise 🖤
    (I hope you know about the Spoon Theory regarding chronic illness, or this is a strange comment for sure 😂)

  • @RedHeadTea
    @RedHeadTea 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I think you were one of the first beauty channels I subscribed to. I love your tutorials, eventho I don't consume beauty content as much as I used to. I wish you all the best from the bottom of my heart. ♥️ from Croatia.

    • @TheMakeupChair
      @TheMakeupChair  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Thank you lovely friend, that's so sweet of you, sending you love from Ireland ❤️❤️

  • @liezlviljoen9649
    @liezlviljoen9649 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    So much love for you Sinead ❤ Thinking of you and praying for you. You are allowed to feel all of these feelings because it does suck!

  • @doomicus1986
    @doomicus1986 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I am thankful that you did not delete this video and I was able to watch it. I see your struggle and I feel your pain. It is a constant battle with ups and downs. You are not alone. We'll be here for you 🙌💛

  • @cristyleigh
    @cristyleigh 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you for sharing with us. I have loved your videos since your old channel. It’s important to take time to focus on yourself.

  • @cherries44
    @cherries44 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I am sorry for what happened. I have been a supporter of your channel for a long time from the Philippines. Thank you for being so honest on this video. Will pray for your healing and well being.

  • @URMakeupPro
    @URMakeupPro 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Sinead I too live with an invisible illness and had to give up work over a year ago. I completely feel for you and understand what you are going thru. You're amazing xxx

  • @janinerutherford3062
    @janinerutherford3062 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you for sharing what you're going through. Sending you warmest healing hugs. 🤗

  • @lynndalton1
    @lynndalton1 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    hi sinead i missed u. I was very happy to get a notification that you had upload i never knew u are ill. Alot of ppl cant see my illnesses so they dont know im in extreme pain 6 days a week mostly. i see it was a few days since u uploaded but when im really ill i dont look at my phone or laptop. i do be so sick i dont care about those things and the pain is off the charts. im glad we cud share something very important about eachotherand all the medication is just a reminder of how u couldnt live with the body u have u need all those meds and still with those the illnesses or pain never goes and its for life. its totally ok to cry knowing you have to fight for the rest of yur life just to feel ok for 1 day. proud of you for coming back Xxx

  • @nancyjustme
    @nancyjustme 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I just found you today, because I found myself missing tutorials. I have a invisible chronic illness and I spend a lot of time on TH-cam. I play in my makeup and try looks I see. It’s something I enjoy and can do that doesn’t cause fatigue or pain. I have POTS also. So I truly understand the challenges, my Service Dog has really helped me in the past 2 years. I know how hard it is to be vulnerable and terrified at the same time. Enjoy the good moments and rest through the bad💜💜💜

  • @mojisolaoladipo8531
    @mojisolaoladipo8531 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I missed you so much.
    I was diagnosed with diabetes two years ago. I felt just the way you do. I found peace and courage in Jesus. Try Jesus my dear sis and his blood with see you through. Praying for you!

  • @MTB603
    @MTB603 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    My sister struggles with the same illness. You are not alone! I admire your honesty and I'm sure this has helped a lot of sufferers and the loved ones who support them. 💕🙏🏻

  • @marielle658
    @marielle658 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you for making this video! I have hEDS myself, and watching people talking about this is really helping me not feeling alone. I feel you, I am rooting for you. Living with this illness can really suck the life out of you, also emotionally. Know that you are not alone, even though it can feel like that. I also think you should be proud that you are taking care of yourself, even though it sometimes means you cannot work or do other things you enjoy doing. Thank you for being so honest and raw - because life is honest and raw. Thank you!

  • @savannahb8584
    @savannahb8584 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I was going through my subscription page the other day and I was wondering why you stopped posting. I’m so sorry to hear about your struggles with your illness 😞 But of course your health and happiness should always come first so I’m glad you took a break to take care of yourself! I miss your tutorials and hope you will come back to youtube when you’re ready. Even if your content changes as long as you’re doing what makes you happy, we’re here to support you!

  • @lindaroberts2282
    @lindaroberts2282 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Yes, please be kind to yourself! Thank you for opening up and sharing something so personal. You were missed.

  • @Hamhannah
    @Hamhannah 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Dear Sinead, I’ve been watching you for so so many years and always found your videos so professional and your voice and aura are just so calming. I’m so sorry you’ve been going through all of this. I wish you all the best and I pray that you will recover and have a life you deserve ❤️❤️❤️

  • @morganpiskorski
    @morganpiskorski 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Oh my gosh! I’ve been thinking about you so much. ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • @desireeferrer5321
    @desireeferrer5321 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    OMG I have hEDS, pots and Ibs due to EDS as well as dysautonomia and Erythromelalgia so I really get it, sometimes I feel like I am no longer the person I used to be. I also get that feeling of wanting to run away. Hang in there, we can’t lose hope that things may get better

  • @rachealalice1449
    @rachealalice1449 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank You for sharing it brought me to tears. As someone who has several invisible illnesses and have been on disability since 30... Your words could be my own. Do what you can take care of yourself. *Hugs* I am here if you ever need to talk to someone who "gets it"

  • @loufox4954
    @loufox4954 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    You are not alone and pain is terrible. It’s okay to not be okay and we are here. I felt it when you said your body is failing you because I definitely feel that at moments. You are strong even when no one is seeing it

  • @nicekaiken
    @nicekaiken 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you for being so open about your illness and struggles. It must be hard to be confronted with people's opinions, comments and unsolicited advice concerning your problems and absence from social media. I really appreciate your effort to make videos again - I do love them and look forward to your next one. Wish you many happy and pain-free days!

  • @deidraspangler534
    @deidraspangler534 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Wow!! just wow! I am beyond blown away by this beautiful message! I have been following your makeup turtorials for a very long time now and I can honestly say I have learned more techniques from you then anyone else! Today you have shined a light on another side of you that has me lost for words! Please do not delete this video!!! You have no idea how many lives you have touched and will continue to touch the more this gos viral! So many people feel alone in this world with these kind of illnesses and unfortuanantly this can go hand in hand with depression. YOU my dear, could very well have saved a life!! Thank you for your bravery and making the decision to open up such a personal matter with the world! Dont for one second feel the need to apologize for the way you are feeling bcuz it is valid and it matters! it is OK to not be ok!! You are such a beautiful soul! Prayers sent your way!!! Take care pretty lady!!!

  • @kimgarrison2904
    @kimgarrison2904 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I'm so glad you're here and coming back. Praying for you everyday.

  • @sasscam
    @sasscam 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you for speaking about this. I have very similar symptoms to you and have been trying to get a diagnosis for 3 years. People don't realise how debilitating it is.

  • @jacktherat2
    @jacktherat2 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    As someone that has a chronic illness, ALL your feelings are valid, your tears are allowed. Feel all the feels! I’m so thankful you made this video but I’m even more thankful you took this break. You obviously needed it. Your videos have always been so calming and I look forward to each and every one. But it would break my heart to know you would be making them at your own expense, not taking care of your health and putting YOU first.❤️

  • @fizafiza1982
    @fizafiza1982 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Chronic illness do suck thank you for sharing I can't imagine not been able to work it's hard your stronger than you think thank you for sharing sending you lots of prays

  • @dleola
    @dleola 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you for sharing this. The more you share, the more you break through it. You are helping those who have it. Or giving strength to those who have a illness that is oppressing.

  • @missverito90
    @missverito90 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You teach me everything I know about makeup, your passion for teaching was always evident. Your videos will always be my favorites. I have struggled with anxiety for 2 years, I understand every word you say. I hope you feel all the support of these messages and that you find in the community that you formed a happy and safe place to return to when you need it. I send you all the love and my total gratitude for everything. 💕

  • @francyl29
    @francyl29 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    You helped me a lot with this video, I don't feel alone right now. I know that many people feel the same pain as me. 🙏🏻❤️