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- 0:00 Rory in early 20s - リサがいない。
1:12 dandelion hands - it's all in your head
2:54 Hisohkah - School Rooftop
5:00 dandelion hands - wren's lullaby
6:55 OMORI OST - 004 Spaces In-between
7:54 dandelion hands - self harmageddon
11:31 Six Forty Seven loop - instupendo
16:53 may roosvelt - memoir #2
18:52 reidenshi - november 8
21:28 karamel kel - aglow (intro)
25:44 Yoshi Island Ending Theme
I dunno where this came from but the word "traumacore" was a word ive been looking for to describe a variety of content that affects me deeply. I spend my entire life looking through rose tinted glasses, but the lens is cracked and the frame is bent. I have nothint to be nostalgic about
Damn, you should be a poet. This hits hard.
Love your words. So relatable
I relate to this. Had to grow up too fast. I’m nostalgic for the bits and pieces of childhood I was able to hold on to, and yearn for the ability to experience it again without the stresses I endured so I could really experience being a kid
XDDDDDDDD
@@beanmachine917 I microdose and I do therapy and every day I tell myself that I'll recreate all those moments, in entirely new ways
I've had to do so much self reflection the past 2 weeks and I'm trying to be positive
Traumacore is the perfect example of dissonance as it combines seemingly cute images (like cartoon characters, Sanrio characters, pink shades, childhood photos, sometimes even images of nature) with heavily disturbing topics like abuse (emotional, physical, s*xual, etc), neglect, pain, fear of being abandoned, religious themes and other similliar topics. And based on my personal experience, you get a few different feelings as you look at these images.
There could be Sanrio characters on the image with words like "Why did you do this to me?!" or "I feel so much pain" and at first you take a look at that Sanrio character and think "Oh, the image is so cute!" but then you take a look at the words (and backgrounds around them) and think "Oh...". You get a totally different feeling.
In my personal experience its a feeling of wanting to help the character in the photo - you want to get them out of here, to comfort them, to give them some sleep, to give them some comfort food.
But wait... There's a catch.
Characters in the images represent the people behind them. You start to think deeper. What happened to them? Who did this to them? How did this happen? And most importantly... How are they?
You wonder how are they now, days, months, years after creating these images. You don't know them personally, and yet you want to let them know that... Well, things might not get better overnight, but they're not alone in their situation. That someone could relate to them.
And again, you don't know that person, yet you want to give them a hug or a high five. Its a confusing feeling, really, but that's just what i feel when I see this type of images.
Well, im leaving this essay here. Just sharing my thoughts.
Turns out that its actually bunch of 50 yrs old pdf files who created this relatable #traumacore aesthetic to lure and target those affected victims and retraumatize them again.
@@boysteacher3818 Do you mind elaborating?? This sounds rather baffling.
There seems to be the people who do it trying to feel better by sharing their situation or the people who do it by trying to picture what they understand from a situation that they don't know well but want to understand it or they can relate to, so its a way of unburden for them. But sometimes it seems like they needed just to tell someone by showing a picture to describe a situation and that it helps them to recover a little by telling it. To me some of them make me feel unconfortable and creepy, and at the same time, relieved and hopeless, since I never went through these things but I wanna help these people too.
@@boysteacher3818 That's kind of cynical in my opinion, no offense. I'm sure that that some people who make traumacore stuff are like that [vulnerable people are more easily harmed, unfortunately] but I really think to most it's more of a way for folks to express their emotions and vent their experiences. Or to connect to others who have shared these feelings, to feel less alone. To see people resonate. Or even just to make art, something thoughtful out of something horrible. As a means of control over it.
There are many, many reasons why people make art.
I feel like it’s more like for example a picture of hello kitty and remembering a traumatic moment as a child and whenever I was sad I would look at these happy cute characters and I’d want help from these characters so I’d look at them for comfort when I was in distress.
To me this is really relaxing in a kind of depressing way. Like you’re just sitting there feeling empty, just accepting all the shit that’s happened, feeling numb.
Whoever you are, whatever reason you come here, I'm sorry for what happened; it wasn't your fault.
Thank you. ❤
ty 😢
Why can't they understand that traumadosent just come from parents?jst because I have wonderful family dosent mean I haven't been hurt....
They may know. I think they would definetely understand.
Being autistic is so fucking hard and I hate it and nobody gets it but I'm just DIFFERENT and I hate it. I don't feel human. All my life I've worried that there is something fundamentally wrong with me. And in my loneliness I delve deeper and deeper into vivid daydreams to occupy my mind within my emotionally empty life. Every day I sit on my bed and dream for HOURS about being somebody skinnier, prettier, and more femme than I'll ever be. Her name is Karmavania Veilaris and She's all I think about. He's all I am. And I get lost thinking about her, becoming him in my frequent casual delusions. And I've been doing it for a while. I've created a vast number of characters, magical abilities, and villains for Karma to fight! And i have friends who need me and rely on me and are perfect and beautiful and I love them. They're all I think about. For hours and hours I sit there and every thing is beautiful. Until its not. Until I'm not Karmavania Veilarris. I'm me and I am miserable. I hate this body and the organs that operate it. I wish I was small. So small that I could fit into the petite clothing adorning the mannequins at hot topic. But im not tiny. and im not strong and im not capable and im not loved and im not a girl. I am not Karmavania Veilarris.
so i sit here, and i dream.
Hey though i know this may or may not be fake, well if you are just rememeber: You arent different your normal! your gorgeous the way you are! theres nothing wrong wth you! dont hate how you look.....i learned that the wrong way. Just many people who feel likes this is mostly to become suscidal and (or) go into cutting. please dont its not worth it felt like this and went into it i thought it will take all my sadness and greif away it just made t worse. And you are loved its just hard showing it for people surrounding i know i may just be a child still but i dont have a mind of it and i can stll help people, but just rememeber atleast 3 or more off these:
- you are perfect the way you are
- you arent defferent nor unique your normal
-your gorgeous the way you are
-Dont care what others think
-you are loved by many people just you cant tell
-i am here for you always to talk to tho i may be a stranger i know very much of this topic
-if you need help dont be afraid to get help
please have a good day
This hits hard. I'm not autistic, but I'm extremely lonely at times. I have many friends, male and female in my head, who occupy my time when I'm just alone and doing nothing. My parents think that's weird.
Get a workout routine, diet, name change and you'll be right. Maybe a sex change too if you really want too. Then start making friends by going to a class or something. If you are too shy to make friends its ok, but other wise you might get bored.
i feel like this playlist perfectly represents some of the things that people cover up. another comment was talking about how traumacore was a perfect example for dissonance and how at the first glance you think everything is adorable but when you look deeper then you go "ohhhh.."
as someone who struggled with depression and sh the last few years, people were all shocked to discover that i had been struggling so much, even the people who lived with me. but that's just because i covered it up so well and everybody took the one glance at me before patting me on the back and moving on. i was basically JUST the sanrio character of sorts to the people around me, and they did not see the words or disturbing backgrounds that were added to the image to give it a deeper meaning.
to anybody who may be covering up anything about their mental health, my darling, don't let yourself push down everything just so you look okay to the people around you. you deserve so much more than to say, "i'm fine."
people were made to have trials and tribulations, it is a natural course of our life. however horrible things may be, you deserve to live to press on and see how things will turn out for you.
there are professionals out there who are so willing to help you get better, and i know it's hard to believe that they really care, but they do. if they didn't care about you and your mental health, they wouldn't actively be working the job as a therapist/psychologist/etc.
as someone who has journeyed through the biggest lows of my life, take these words to heart for a second:
you will NOT be your personal punching bag.
please never remove this, it's so comforting.
you could pirate it so that you still have a copy if it ever does get deleted. js
@@cats9994i know!! i don't pirate / download from individuals for my own personal preference. if the playlist were to get deleted, i'd probably just make my own playlist with as many songs i can remember from this playlist as possible - but i try not to illegally download when i can avoid it!!
Y2mate confirm
25:44 this song sounds like comforting animal crossing music tbh
for me it sounds like a song that could be in any liminal space area or maybe in an old super mario game@@Macmillerfan82-92
Listening to these familiar tunes and seeing the images, to then legitimately seeing someone vent about their life and wanting to end it, I can't help but feel like a ghost watching something i can't fully comprehend. I cant stand here and watch knowing that i can make some kine of positive impact, even if its not much due to me being a stranger.
For what its worth, to anyone reading this and is going through a hard time, *you are not alone.*
i love you
Needed this ❤ thank you
thank you, i actually shed a tear when reading this. you have a good heart
i really just can’t take it anymore sometimes
Hang in there
It'll be ok don't trip like what Mac Miller says.
I’m so sorry god please forgive me I don’t know why I sin. Why am I told I sin for showing skin, speaking up or against, rejecting, regretting, forgiving, wishing, and being willing. Father I’m so sorry please forgive me for being impure. Why must you bring me into this world that I wish to escape from. What is your plan for me?
Maybe in another universe my destiny wouldn’t be linked to my “loving family” I don’t even know them. Who am I?
we were created by Him for a reason, a purpose. whatever it is, there's still hope. Us being imperfect is just how it is. Keep believing in God and be grateful even if your life is hard.
there is no pure or impure; there is only human. everything you have done labelled as "sin" is merely a condition of morality, of humanity. you are not filthy, nor condemned. you must find what you want, what allows your heart to love without fear of consequence; for without the rocks destabilizing the path you walk, you will never learn how to move around them. without understanding winter, you may never live in the spring.
if there is a divine being waiting for you in the clouds, why would they think of you as impure? after all, you are learning. they would not have created you without the intention of letting you make mistakes; if not for those blunders, you would never grow, you would never learn your limits and strengths and what you love and what you fear.
its okay to not know who you are yet. no one does. but keep your feet on the ground and your head in the sky. let yourself dream and love and live. let yourself fear and stumble and cry. let yourself experience everything there is to feel. you are human, and your existence is not and never was in vain.
You are me, me too
The thing I love about a lot of these images is the meaning is ambiguous enough that you can project your own meaning and insecurities onto them
For me it's to cope and to see if others who are abused in any sort of relationship either past or present, for me the 25:45 part gets in a hard way to me because verbal and emotional and being psychologically abused when I was young I used to write that and now I see it that I wish I had another family biologically but you can't in life wish for that, sometimes the family you got you wish you wouldn't have when you have childhood trauma from abuse I know that trauma core is about venting about CSA, all abuse hurts and will scar you and not let you grow.
the first one makes me feel weird… like smth bads gonna happen idk why
i hardly remember my childhood but when i can remember a couple things
its either
my mom yelling
playing outside with my brother and my cousins
going for walks with my mom and brother
my mom being drunk most of the time
arguing
maybe other things too i cant remember
hey man, same kinda roots different tree, it'll be okay to grow from the pain of that alcoh0lism, it doesn't define all of your childhood and you can be comfortable in your own skin knowing you have seen the worst and the best of your most trusted peers. It'll be okay to heal from that, I believe in you
@@Cyburim thank you so much 🙁💗
This playlist (in my point of view) conveys the feeling of a person who is trapped in a nostalgic world. Both in the sense of going there and wanting to leave there. I deeply feel the anguish through the images and disconcerting song. I've been to that place and I can totally relate to it.
worst thing is that i feel safer talking to strangers in the internet instead of real life men and my parents and brother, honestly something went wrong with me, i dont know at all, im just being dramatic most probably.
you don't are being dramatic, you probably just don't feel comfortable talking with your parents abt things, i understand this.
Nothing is wrong with you. Something being wrong with you implies that who you are, at your core, is flawed. But you're not. You may have issues, yes, but you are not a mistake. You are lovable, and you are not built wrong. You just haven't been in a safe enough environment for who you are to shine. I hope you will have that in the future.
And you're not being dramatic about this. Everyone has their issues and pitfalls, and it's okay to be scared. Just don't let it rule you, because you really are so much more than anything that you might have been through. You are more than the darkness.
If you would like to talk about yourself, I'm willing to listen. Just don't share identifying details. This is the internet after all.
me too :..)
I have no strength to even vent but I thank everyone who can because it shows me that I'm not alone 💓 it's been so hard
I used to have a negative stance on this kind of thing. but i was wrong, and didn't realize how much it actually helps. it feels weird, but it helps.
ok?
me too
I.. I don’t know why my head feels funny and my heart feels heavy listening to this
girl same
I used to think I didnt have trauma so I only came to traumacore bc it reminded me of liminal spaces and to comfort people
and later realized a thought came to me about the internet and I realized I was being gr00med. . .
ok
At least you noticed it
OMG WHAT ARE YOU OKAY???? dude when i was 8 this 30 year old tried to groom me online
@@Ihatefarikalittastesreallybad i hope your ok too
@@mell_yzma4726 *ok*
its so weird i cant recall anything from my past but this feels oddly comforting. Like being alone in an opened mall.
I still feel his touch on me. Hearing his voice genuinely repulses me. Theres nothing i can do to feel clean again.
Малыш, ты чист как ангел …
@@user-ui8mh7ek3k Спасибо. извините, я не говорю по-русски, поэтому использую переводчик, чтобы помочь. я подверглась сексуальному насилию и изнасилованию со стороны бывшего, и его прикосновения и злые слова никогда не покидали меня. он шутил, что изменял мне и насиловал меня тоже :(
@@user-ui8mh7ek3k Я думаю, что TH-cam удалил мой комментарий. я не говорю по-русски, поэтому мне нужен переводчик. Благодарю вас за ваши добрые слова. мой бывший оставил на мне огромный шрам, и это заставляет меня чувствовать себя отвратительно.
@@user-ui8mh7ek3k thank you :,)
🫂🫂🫂💞
that last song hits hard. like a nostalga thats almost painful. i wish i could go back.
same fr i dont want to grow up
Makes me think of the n64 I had growing up. Basically the only thing that I had to keep me distracted. Good times
It was like that for me too. All I had to comfort me was a big stuffed unicorn and the wide world of strangers on the internet.
glass beach has a simmilar song to that, also called yoshis island. it gives me the same vibes u should listen to it :3
its my first time hearing traumacore . i feel like its calming my inner child which is always angry and empty at the same time. thanks for your effort
i still water dead plants
I just wanted to say that, for many of us, there is an inner child just begging to be heard. That may also include our inner toddler crying to be seen, and our inner baby screaming to be loved.
But when it comes to mourning our childhood for what it was and truly lamenting what our caregivers did and didn’t do; basic needs, protection, patience, respect etc…all that matters is knowing someone out there would have done that. That any good person at the right moment would have been there to do whatever it took to save you.
So whether you know someone who has done that for you, or that person IS you, any time your trauma brings you down let this be your saving grace❤️🩹
even though it was a very 'looked down upon' aesthetic, I understand why people used the cutesy sanrio characters to express their pain and memories. As someone who has been in the weirdcore longtime before it became popular in 2021, Knowing that there is a community of hurt souls expressing to vent their art in meaningful beautiful pain always leaves me a little hopeful that all of us can heal through it together even if mot people don't understand why we do the things we edit/make.
I don't have any trauma I think, but I love these playlists. Comforts me.
Same lol.
It's the best traumacore playlist I listened
I read many people's comments here and I was very upset. Yes, I've been through a few traumas too, but I can't even compare to you. I just wanted to say that we can be friends. I want to make you feel good. Maybe you have a bad family, friends or even social circle, but I will try to be as good a friend as possible. Love to everyone. 😣💖
“We can be friends”. You have no idea how much I appreciate those words. Those aren’t words I hear often. Even tho I don’t know you, I love you too ❤️
@@ArtsyDoll. Yes, I want everyone to feel good because I know how bad it is to be excluded and selfish people.
I just want to be a good friend to everyone, I want to heal their wounds as much as I can.
And if you want, I want to be friends with you, if you don't, I understand 💗
@@imfeelsick that’s really nice of you. There should be more people like you in the world. And, I’d love to be your friend honestly 💕 /gen
@@ArtsyDoll. understand 💗
God, now that i think about it, i really have gone through some shit. This somehow calms my mind, in a strange way. Oh, damn. Guess I'm crying now.
this feels like accidentally walking in on a therapy session or something it feels wrong that i was reccomended this
i dont relate to this but i hope the people who have connections to traumatic experiences are doing okay
CW: SSA (Sibling SA), and other sensitive topics
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Sometimes I lay in my bed and wondered about an alternate world where I had a loving family. Where my brothers and sister didn't play those games with me. Where my father wasn't an alcoholic abuser and actually loved us. Where my mother wasn't so self absorbed and cared about my little brother and I. Where I wasn't such a f-up and grew up as a normal person. But somewhere in my head, I feel like I deserve it. But with a lot of stuff happening, I'm grateful for having my little brother. My little brother is really the only one I can call my family and I'll protect him with my life.
Off topic but when I'm having those episodes, when where those thoughts about my trauma come in my head even it's out of nowhere, I usually come to these videos. I don't automatically feel better from it per say, but it makes me feel like I'm not alone but seen or understood?? If that makes sense. I really don't know how else to describe it
I know how feels, i have a trauma from my childhood, i haved a time when i felt like a ghost, a body without soul, walking in middle of everyone but no one heared me then i start to hate myself for not being better but i haved a break in my mind and i started to think, and i realized so many, many things.. things about my life and the environment i was living and just for no reason i fight more than never, i really wanted to live besides the saddness, now im better, still fighting with depression but im a lot better i hope everyone with a trauma can fight like i did in my past, life is not fair but always we can still fight no matter what ❤ only trust on yourself
You are soooo strong! Proud of you dude keep going, I bet there's so sunny and shiny days for you
I’m still fighting thru this ❤️🩹 thank you
Ever since i was a child i've been told "oh you're just overexaggerating because you are capricious as always", "well world's not fair!" or "you're a stubborn child arent you".
All i want is people who understand me and my perception of the world. I want people who wont criticize me or think im weird. I want my own world. Where everyone is never mean to me, where i am accepted and cared about. Yes, i want to be pleased, i want to not have to care about anything else but my hyperfixiations, i want to talk about them all day, to every person i meet, even tho i know they are just gonna think im weird.
I want a perfect world, just for me, and me only, a world that i can cry for whatever reason i want and won't be judged or yelled at
I am not su¡c1d4l or anything but its hard to just even wake up when you know all that's gonna happen today is be misunderstood or not taken seriously. And when all you rely on is your phone.
I know i have a loving family but, is it actually a loving family when you're being told on a dialy basis that you're just being 'capricious'? When you only feel safe in your own room? When you're actually so happy when no one's in the house? When do you feel happier about something about one of your interests than about something related to your family?
you want a perfect world? bud, I'm sorry to break it to ya, but that idea sounds envious to me. You have to understand and acknowledge that this life is a test from God. Always rely on Allah (SWT) for help. A friend of mine once told me 'everything is a blessing in disguise'.
Your family might be bad, but it's a test. All of our lives are either easy or hard for a reason, and it sounds like you and I (and many others) got this hard life. A hard life is a GOOD SIGN. A sign God could love you.
Listen, maybe wishing for our world and having our own better one will be or seen as too much to ask for, because it is since this world will never be the perfect confort zone for each one of us, and sometimes no people undertand how we see it and why we like more just some things of the real one. People will judge and sometimes our circunstances will make those thoughts get worse everytime.
But if there's something I know too, is that you don't deserve to be ignored because of it. Maybe you just need to be listen from the ones who hurted. It could be the clouds inside their heads or the way they would like you to be so this world doesn't go so hard on them, or you, that guides them to tell you these things. I don't know their intentions. I dunno how someone who knows their world still ask for a better one for their own. Just let me tell you to not emcapsulate on that wish.
To let you know it's ok to want it, maybe not to much. You can feel yourself better thinking on how you like your world and not letting a comment get on you the rest of the day. You can try to feel better on knowing that you can't be mistreated and it won't get you as you grow up. But if I must tell you on something that could help you to feel better here, is that you can still feel (maybe not thankful but) relieved about who is surrounding you, they don't deserve to have someone who need sometimes to tell them their thoughts by being itself, but at least. they love you
woah this is kinda crazy to see in a random comment section it feels like you just described my whole life story ;-;
@@mr.incognitoyt2235 insensitive but you mean good
@@Ihatefarikalittastesreallybad Thank you for understanding I mean good. I know this person is going through a lot and I wish them the best.
I still remember that night. I was up past my bedtime when he came home, after being gone most of the day. 1:32 AM. She started yelling, and heard some bumping downstairs. He was pushing her, mumbling angry obscenities while she threatened to call the police. We begged and pleaded and cried for him to stop, but he wouldn't listen. Her phone shattered. She fell. I should have called the police. She was okay. I like to keep a weapon by my bed, in case I ever need it. I always jumped when he made a sudden move, froze up when they asked me questions, dreaded 5:30 PM when her car would pull into the driveway every night. The drugs don't work. I know they don't because I always paid for it when she skipped them; one way or another. It's my fault. If they didn't have a reason, they found one. School wasn't much better, either. I could either get walked on at school or at home; it didn't really matter which. It's all the same in the end.
The reason doesn't matter. The reason is little more than justification, in their own minds. It's not even about the reason, anyway. It changes, but the situation doesn't. It's always the same. I lock up. Can't say anything at all, and it only makes it worse. I can't speak. Why can't I speak? Why can't I move? What is this feeling in my chest? Why do their eyes burn so hot? How can their words cut me like daggers? Do I deserve it?
They want to act like it never happened. They tell me it's normal. Fighting is normal. Arguing is normal. Conflict is normal. Screaming is normal. Crying is normal. Drinking is normal. Being miserable is normal. We're all normal. I'm normal.
i dont recall any traumatic event happening to me but idk why i relate to traumacore and i love the aesthetic so much
Probably because your mind covered up the traumatic parts. The brain does that to protect us. Thats why so many people feel comfort in trauma core.
OR.......ORR..... they dont have trauma@@midnightfoxy3026
Same here this is most likely recommended bc it's a relaxing music mix but I really like the songs included
Same here. I love traumacore.
I just really like the childhood nostalgia aesthetic and the sort of creepy vibe about it. Quite artistic and expressive.
As someone who's been through emotional verbal and mental trauma it gets very deep trauma core opens up my wounds but cleans them with the songs they use, anyone who is struggling you are definitely not alone and one day you will be safe, I'm just here to grieve about the trauma, no childhood deserves this, as a kid I used to hide in my room it was like a safe place because the abuse was so much hiding under my bed was really soothing and listening to sailor moon locket theme when I was in pain. Somedays crying is so good it let's out my trauma and I smile knowing the one that abused me is dead and not living. 25:45 this is how I used to write about myself and it was a struggle to talk all self positive stuff, no one understands unless they have been abused and always heard such words of themselves, you should never feel disgusting about yourself but abused people see different.
I run my paws across the one of the many marks I have left from my rage.
My head is fuzzy, and full of dandelions.
My head is fuzzy, and full of dandelions.
My head is fuzzy, and full of dandelions.
My head is fuzzy, and full of dandelions.
My head is fuzzy, and full of dandelions.
My head is fuzzy, and full of dandelions.
My head is fuzzy, and full of dandelions.
My head is fuzzy, and full of dandelions.
My head is fuzzy, and full of dandelions.
My head is fuzzy, and full of dandelions.
My head is fuzzy, and full of dandelions.
My head is fuzzy, and full of dandelions.
My head is fuzzy, and full of dandelions.
when will it stop?
stop it.
stop gnawing at where my skin used to be, leave it.
please
stop it
i dont have any more left
picking flowers in an open field
i grab a rose
then i snap back
to only realize the biting at my ankle.
gnaw
chomp
squish
chomp
burp
rip
squish
squish
chomp
chomp
chomp
chomp
slurp
Mhm yummy
an unstable cannibal?
@@Cornelleus I spit out my drink 💀
om nom nom
Aint no way my guy slide 5 bud
i know this is supposed to be trauma related but this is so oddly peaceful and scerene to me
Thats the point, its to match the old traumatized you while not being so obvious about it
Art is supposed to disturb the comfortable and comfort the disturbed.
Welcome to the backrooms. Please make yourself comfortable. You'll be here for a very long time..
dandelion hands my beloved. his music has been my crutch for like 4 years atp
great playlist after you've lost friends :,)
Right now Im feeling kinda lost. My friends are ghosting me more day by day and I hate it. I hate it all and I get so damn jealous when I see friend groups that dont ghost their friends. Why cant my friend group be like that? And also, whenever I accomplish something they dont actually congratulate me, and if so the compliments are hollow and they dont actually mean it. Im studying harder out of rage and a starvation for attention. And I feel so heavy abt it and so hurt like, why wont anyone notice me? WHY WONT THEY JUST GODDAMN NOTICE ME? When will my good works finally be noticed? And when will I feel whole? I feel so rotten and empty and hollow inside. I tend to overthink everything and now Im afraid that they'll leave me for being boring or always deciding to study instead of playing with the other kids in the basketball court. The only time im ever noticed by everyone in my class is when we have an arts project. They only recognize me for being good at art because Ive been getting first place in art competitions ever since last school year. I hate it all and I'm so tired. Help me
Jeez this vent was long! I'm sorry i just needed to get stuff outta my chest y'know? Lmao
I hope your better after letting it out. Sorry if I can't tell you anything else now, but to let you know that your not alone, and that I know small good works are worth it
Feel proud for yourself on being able to do them + that you are good at something so beautiful as art. You'll be noticed one day 🤝
You will find the right people, it is not your fault that they behave like this. I hope you feel better working on it and having you daily. That your art does not decay. 🫂
Thank you for this playlist with the timestamps. I had the first song on repeat during some of my worst times. I really find this playlist calming :)
this whole playlist was amazing but the picture you put with aglow
made me feel something
I don't know why but for some reason I really resonated with the music and the images and this honestly came at the perfect time for me so I didn't feel so alone
It's six in the morning, the weather feels like it used to when I was still eighteen and not medicated. It is like I can feel that same scent in the air, the same emptyness and despair, even I got better with time, taking pills. It feels somehow good and nostalgic, to remind of those days, even that it makes me wanna stop breathing. I hate feeling sorry for myself, I hate seeing me as a victim, I was told it means weakness and I still believe in those words, but I can't help, when I think about it, to feel like I want to hug little me from the past. She was so badly disturbed, I am glad I got better, but I still can't save her. She will never feel calm or safe.
The lost memories. And time lost. It hurts 😢
this is way more comforting than i thought, feels strange yet calming...
A lot of the songs remind me of how it felt as a kid when my parents would comfort me and told me they loved me when I cried. I would just cry and cry after they would hit and yell at me. They would always say sorry afterwards, but it would still hurt. Every word they said would hurt. Every time they’re wooden spoon, belt, shoe, whatever they used would hurt. I just wish I only remembered the comfort after word. They are sorry for all they had done, so why can’t I forget. I want to forget all the pain they caused me.
Maybe if you weren't a disappointment they wouldn't have hit you. Ever think about that?
@@punishedsquilliam9962yeah I know
@punishedsquilliam9962 What the fuck is wrong with you? Did you miss the part where they said they were a child? No child is a dissapointment. Teenagers? Heavily depends. Adults? Also depends but more plausible depending on what they've done. But a CHILD? Children need their parents. Children need them to be an example, a source of comfort, a source of security, no child is a disappointment and no child deserves to be abused like that. No child should have to appreciate comfort after being abused because there is no child that deserves to be abused in the first place. As far as I know, this commentor is a STRANGER to you. I hope you don't grow up to be a fucking cop. "Officer, this person touched my privates, can you help me?" "Dumb eight year old! You were OBVIOUSLY asking for it!! Which I totally know even though I don't know you and you are EIGHT YEARS OLD!!" How the fuck would they even be a dissapointment in the first place? "What's that?? You broke my plate?? Oh well, guess that justifies ABUSING you!! :3" That's so stupid. Where'd you even get the audacity to say this shit? Grow the fuck up.
@@punishedsquilliam9962 What is wrong with you? Did you miss the part where they said they were a child? No child is a dissapointment. Teenagers? Heavily depends. Adults? Also depends but more plausible depending on what they've done. But a CHILD? Children need their parents. Children need them to be an example. Children need them to be a source of comfort. Children need them to be a source of security. No child is a dissapointment. As far as I know, this person is a STRANGER to you. I hope you don't become a cop. "Officer, this person touched my privates! Can you help me?" "Dumb eight year old! You were OBVIOUSLY asking for it!! Which I totally know even though I don't know you and you are EIGHT YEARS OLD!" How does a child even be a dissapointment? "You broke my plates? Oh well, guess I hace to ABUSE you physically and verbally now!" That's so illogical. Please grow up before assuming that child abuse is justifiable in any circumstance.
I'm so sorry that happened to you. Just because they apologize doesn't mean what they've done never happened. Their apologies can't erase the past, can't erase the physical, emotional, and mental marks they've left on you. They have caused you pain, and however you feel about it is entirely, completely valid.
You are not a disappointment. You are not a mistake. You are not anything that they've said you are. You are so much more. You are a living, breathing, beautiful human. You are precious, you have worth. I'm so, so sorry that your parents are treating you otherwise. You don't deserve what they're doing/have done to you.
I don't know why they're hitting you. But no reason is ever enough.
And no apology is enough for the torment they continued to cause you. The only apology that matters is if the person promises to change their ways, and then /actually/ changes their ways.
I hope you're okay.
i'm listening to this before bed and now it's heavy and i couldn't move.
that's making me calm down and accepting my miserable stuff that happen in my life more well
this video is so comforting and it helps me fall asleep even if im having a mental breakdown!!!!!!!! tysm for making this :D
The more I remember the more It hurts. But the more I try to forget the bad painful memories the worse it gets because deep down I know it's the reality and I can't keep ignoring it. I just wanna stop getting reminded cause I wish to forget it. All I want is to be able to be happy atleast for a while.
i like this kind of picture style
and music too
dear god
please make me a flower
I could to be beautiful
i did not expect an omori ost in here. thanks for giving me more tears!! 😀
la miniatura ): un horrible recordatorio de lo feo que fue tener un tc4💔pero a la vez una paz y de cierta forma comprension fue lo que me produjo este video... un abrazo para todas las personas que vean este video animooooo
this page is my deepest comfort
U ,U 💤
i dont have trauma, at least i dont think i do but i have ocs who have never had a childhood bc of trauma and these playlists r really nice
the music is very comforting, cant even believe this is only at 14k views D:
don't kill yourself.
I think I’ve given up trying :,>
@@ArtsyDoll. you like yume nikki too. is it okay if i talk to you? i could use someone to talk to
I'm scared of the future.
Aren't we all? The future is terrifying, anything could happen, and at the same time everything could be okay
The last song reminds me of one of my traumas..
I was on youtube back in 2021, searching a video to watch when I see a video called Fun dead and I’ve never have seen that video and channel before so I decided to watch it and I liked it (when I was little I was watching smile HD, so i have no problem about gore), so I go to the channel and I scroll down to see the first video.. and I found a video that was talking about the creator’s death.. eddsworld is still one of my fav cartoons but I still feel bad for him.. and I miss him even though I’ve never seen him irl.. the song also reminds me of him and I just tear up when I hear this song..
What a good playlist, a good mix that makes me feel a little nostalgic, when I subscribed I realized that I was your 100th subscriber XD
tramuacore is just slapping a saniro character on a dark background anf calling it deep
u must not understand it then ig, if it resonates with the target audience ofc its gonna be ''deep'' ignorant comment
@@portallzz of course u listen to kpop
With a username like 'wetfart', I'm not sure your opinion is reliable when it comes to mature subjects.
@@SugarbirdyOvO well thank god i dont understand this corny shit. putting hello kitty on an image with a messed up house isnt deep :(
my melo scale is crazy😭🙏
How? I’m genuinely confused as to what you mean, I’m sorry
Edit: never mind I understand it now
to my friends: thank you. for everything.
are you okay?
@@JessicaPereira-hf2pz yes! thank you for asking!! im just happy my friends exist and i love them! sorry if i made u worry!
for the past little while, i've been trying to heal my inner child and in the process of doing so, i discovered that there was more trauma that i didn't know was affecting me. i was sexually abused at 8 years old and for the longest time i thought it was this silly little story. it wasn't until a few years ago that i was like, "hey maybe that wasn't okay", and it's taken me up until now to realize that because of him, i tried to be as "not like other girls" as i possibly could. i disassociated myself from my girlhood and i missed out on so many things because i was afraid of being taken advantage of again. it's been so scary and really hard to go back to those moments to be there for the little me that's still stuck there but i owe it to myself to heal from it, from that and everything afterwards. it wasn't my fault, i didn't deserve that and i didn't deserve to be treated like garbage by all of my classmates. i'm 24 now, still traumatized by so much of my past but i'll heal from all of it :)
that Yoshi ending.. my brothers and I would play that all the time when we was little crazy way to end a mix 😭😎tearin up behind these shades 😹
im a trans girl, i suffer from disassociation because of gender dysphoria.
im tired of being told im not doing enough. years and years of "you have never done anything for me"
i shake when his call comes. it means that he is at the door.
and when its at night, i know he is drunk.
father, werent you supposed to protect me...?
before id give anything to get away from him but now id do anything just to get him to talk to me again
Can't help but smile
Wtf?
weew, this is oddly comforting for me. ive went through emotional, mental, and physical trauma but im somewhat unfamiliar with traumacore
the nightmares are back 💔
OMORI SONG IN A VID??
*IMMIDIATELY ADDS IN PLAYLIST*
sadly nostalgic
Love this playlist! :)
I love rory in early 20s so much, especially the first song, brings me sm comfort
Stand tall and never forget, the only way things won't ever get better is if you give up.
The fight is always worth it, no matter how hard you've been beat down. I love you
Instant W playlist for dandelion hands
i miss him, but how could i miss him?... he hurt my feelings in ways i can't explain...
Thank you so much I needed this if am I not ok💗
Playlist of songs!!
0:00 Rory in early 20s-Start
1:06 Rory in early 20s-Final
1:12 dandelion hands-start
2:49 dandelion hands-final
(I'm tired after I finish)😊
I love this playlist sm, it brings me comfort
This just. Matches me perfectly
(THIS IS A VENT, PLS SKIP IF YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE)
TW : ABUSE (?)
I hate the fact I remember it all clearly.
I hate the fact of how vivid my memory is of my mom screaming and crying while my dad completely ignored her and act like he's the good guy when he realize that I woke up from my sleep in the middle of the night.
I hate that I remembered my mom suddenly became distant and a little bit violent with me because of her stress.
I hate the fact that I have so many arguments with my parents.
I hate the fact that I crave for men's validation and attention so bad because I found out my dad's true nature and I want just one man to care about me.
I hate the feeling after yelling at my dad to let mom alone, I feel like a bad child.
I hate being told by people that "you look and act like your dad", because that felt like an insult to me.
I hate the look of dissapointment in my mother's face and called me useless because I can't get proofs of my dad cheating on her.
I hate that day when I found out my dad keeps a video of other woman in his phone.
I hate the fact that my mom still wanted to be with my dad after all the pain she went.
I hate remembering that my mom rather sleeps in my room because my dad is sleeping in her room.
I hate that my friends point and laugh at me.
I hate when my friends sweet talks me so they can get something from me.
I hate it when my real friends got hurt the same way as me.
I hate that friends my age treats other differently because one is " prettier" or "smarter" than other.
...I don't hate myself, I just hate people for treating others badly.
I just want to be a normal child in a loving family.
My heart aches and hurts everytime I think of it. One day I can let go
it's going to come off as desperate, but i can't tell anyone about this because he's my best friend...
is it really worth it being with someone that treated me like his girlfriend for a long time, only to give me a vague response when i confessed? i love him to death, but, he makes me doubt my worth, and i don't know if the right thing is staying or leaving
honestly? communicate how you're feeling so not only can he get the full picture (he might not realise how much he's hurting you) but also so you can - you'll see if he's truly worth keeping around. don't let anyone into your life that makes you doubt your worth. you're so special and deserving of love ♡
Take some distance from him so both of you can have some perspective... a couple of weeks to a month, at least. Tell him what you said here and say that you need some time to figure out how to set some boundaries. Spend that time with people who love you or do something for yourself, like exercising, taking walks, meditating, reading, catching up on sleep, eating good foods, and writing about how you feel. Either you will break the romantic attachment and go back to being friends, or you will see that he was hurtful in ways that you overlooked because of your attachment, or he will realize that he messed up. Any of these outcomes is better than suffering in limbo. Communication matters.
I personally felt stalked as soon as I saw this- saved it in My playlists thanks
damn, this is a perfect playlist
I kinda needed this, I love this 🧡
added to my playlist ;9
I didn't expect Dandelion Hands to be in this video, totally shock me.. it melt my heart
I came across this and listened to it while studying, is so comfortable plz never delete it :)
dear god, pls make me a flower so i could b beautiful ^_^
25:44 • I have this exact diary on my nightstand right now. I've had it for a really long time, probably since I've been born. Recently I looked through it, and there are some things I have no memory of writing or drawing at all (which isn't saying much, most of my childhood is pretty blurry.) Some of it isn't even mine, it's from other kids in my class who (now that I think about it) weren't actually my friends.
One of the pages has a guide to finding friends, and the only criteria is for the other person to talk to you for a long time. Not to be there for you, not to make you laugh, but simply to _want to be around you_ . Low standards, am I right?
It feels like my past is just a vague collection of facts, like I wasn't ever in it, like it's not mine to remember. I have _ideas_ of what could've happened, but those are probably just intrusive thoughts, right? All I have to go off of is anecdotes and random feelings.
the omori ost always gets me 😭
Fr
Love the second one
I wish I had a normal childhood like the others...