I Thought Sex Could Fill the Emptiness I Felt Until Jesus Did This…
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God doesn't use perfect people, He just does perfect things through them
That’s soo true. Guess that’s why He didn’t just make new people. He knew fixing us would show the depths of His Love.
Amen
All glory to God! 🙏🏻❤️✝️
So true praise God. ❤
AMEN. 💜💛❤️
God bless whoever is reading this ❤️✝️
May God Bless you too!
Bless you aswell ❤
Godbless u
Thank you I appreciate it and you too as well.
God bless you too ❤️🙏🏽✨
Amazing testimony. I grew up being very sexual, due to my abandonment, Loneliness, trauma. I’d led me down a path of a severe porn addiction for 8 years, one of which I’m still recovering from to this day. I grew up in a Christian household yet never really knew Jesus or had a relationship with him. I gave my life to him fully a few months ago yet I’m just starting the process of unmasking all the buried and repressed trauma I had from my childhood. I always had the mindset that I had food to eat and a roof over my head, and lots of people had it worse than me so I would downplay my feelings. The Lord had to work on me about that. I learned that my feelings mattered. I just pray the Lord works on me and everyone else reading this.
Jesus loves you all
Praise God!😊🙌
You can get through this! 💪
@@DemonPrinceofHell thanks man. I’ve been porn free for 17 days now, everyday is a war. I just pray that I overcome this once and for all
@Mlobb7 There’s nothing impossible to Jesus he will work on you keep going I’m happy for you, you chose the perfect way
@@Mlobb7Not sure where you are but there is a 12 step group (sex addicts anonymous), which provides support and a structured (spiritual) way to work through some if this stuff....you are NOT alone. Some churches have 'Recovery' groups too. Don't try to do it on your own.
As a mother with 2 sons.. i am crying inside. ..... i am guilty of this..thank you so much for your testemony
Me too am coming from a place of brokenness too
Dear sister, don't let Satan condemn you for this. Find the healing in Jesus' arms that you need and you will engage your sons differently. Blessings!
Honest confession is the beginning of freedom from bondage and oppression. Good on you for proclaiming your truth! God is doing it for you, and healing you and your family, in the mighty name of Jesus! Amen! Hallelujah! ❤❤❤
Thank you so much for your repentance. I am as one of your boys. I am now 38 years old. I feel your apology and am in tears. We need your love. I had grown into a monster and God is now leading me back but I wish He didn't have to. I don't blame you, mother, I believe you did the best you could from what you know but please get help and have faith God will transform you to be the Godly mother your boy needs. I am in Christian counseling, I highly recommend it for you. When the parents are whole and spirit filled, the children grow whole and spirit filled.
The Lord is forgiveness and incomprehensible mercy! He loves you and your children love you, and praise God that you are turning back to his way, truth, life, and love! Your love for your sons will only grow as you reach to Jesus and receive his love... rejoice!!! 🙏
Thank you, Jesus, for pursuing this Man of God and giving him the strength to share his testimony.
Praise YESHUA
Amen.
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This is one of the most amazing testimonies. To be able to share this so calmly. To discuss sexual problems I still have issues discissing with a counselor. My past didn't involve a mom like his. But it is the childhood sexual abuse by four different people. An older brother the worst. No memory but still need trauma counseling. Rape by an abusive boyfriend. First relationship with a man. Plus attempt rape by his friend.So much trauma is sexual. Don't meet men who are like him, who want help. Who admit he made an idol of his wife. So blessed he got married and had children after the lifestyle he lived. He inspires me at 66. A black Christian woman. No children abandoned by two husbands. But realized I must still repent for my sins. Love the journaling. Still do aince I was a child. God bless all who seek God. Plus to want Jesus as their Lord and Savior. Only Savoir in the world. ❤God is still love. Never give up on God and His holy Word.❤❤🙏🏾
Please share what you are experiencing with your counselor to the best of your ability without shame, guilt, fear, torment, or embarrassment in Jesus' name. Please choose not to see men as vilians but as broken individuals just like you. Men tend to get rapes, molested, physically, sexually, emotionally, and psychologically abused as well. They have been taught to suppress their feelings and have been influenced to treat and see women as sex objects. Please ask the Lord to help you forgive them. I pray your strength in the Lord in Jesus' name. AMEN.
Amen. God bless you Sister. I pray you continue to experience God’s amazing love and healing on an ever deeper level
God bless you. Thank you for your support. I do need deeper healing. I am at a place called the Healing Center. Through the Vineyard church. ( Not my church. I am a member of a Baptist church). They have amazing prayer teams. Some know about the incest. Have prayed with me many times. So blessed my niece brought me here many years ago. Had so many needs after losing the house. My ex husband did a lot of wrong. Credit fraud, online bank fraud, stole my identity. But glad he abandoned me. Primary owner. Did not pay mortgage for a year. Lost it through foreclosure. But worked out for me. Long story I have peace in my own place. God is so good.🙏🏾♥️
Well said sis. I'm in my 60"s and I didn't know how much childhood trauma had really affected me on deeper levels. Thought it was something I just had to get over. These testimonials are so powerful and needed in the body of christ. One day you and I will be so free that our testimonies will be just a powerful to the glory of God. I believe that and I praise God for it.😇
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Same here 🥲❤️🫂
His mother sounds very similar to mine, who has borderline personality disorder. It's crazy how much I can relate to the emptiness that causes in a person and how I have had a very similar healing path that the Lord has been walking me down. God bless this man for being brave enough to share and use his story and experience to help others 🙏💚
I am 5 min in listen to his testimony and I came across your comment I know you don't know me and I don't know you but I am truly truly sorry for what you went thru as a child I can't even begin to imagine how everything you experience must have felt 🇿🇦
This is interesting - I was just listening to June Hunt talk about this today (episode 1443 from 7/12/23 on her podcast Hope in the Night - begins around minute 10 or so) … I had some of the very same thoughts today as I was listening to her and then again listening to this man’s testimony
@bulelwakowa3920 Awe thank you 💚 I appreciate it 😊 God is so good He turned it around for my good and growth. Although I've still got a lot of growing to do 😅 He's used it all to make me a stronger, more aware, and more compassionate person. I've learned lessons I would not have otherwise. Praise the Lord 🙌
I told Lord to give me any video on TH-cam and I'll click on the first one and this came up. I'm going to therapy tomorrow to address something I've never got encourage to talk to anyone before. This testimony hit home so close cuz I've been going thru something similar. Ty for sharing this. God bless!
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God bless you, I pray Jesus will comfort and heal you and bring you to the truth of the gospel message. I pray the Holy Spirit will fill you up and heal all the broken parts and pain in your life. ✝️❤️
Good for you! I hope God uses therapy to heal and touch parts of you that have been wounded. Reaching out for help is half the battle.
Jesus loves you never forget that He will surely take you through your ordeal❤
Although childhood trauma was never my issue as I grew up in a loving, Christian home, there was one problem in my life that took decades to heal. Your testimony is a confirmation that we ALL live in a world that has given full access to the devil and to which ONLY Jesus, the bread of life is the answer. Thanks for sharing your story!
Well said. Amen
Amen.
Out of every testimony I’ve seen on this channel so far this is the one that I relate to the most. The rabbit holes we go down in sexual sin. It is so addicting. And sometimes it seems like the only way I can stop is if I die. But I like how he says he is still a work in progress. But he’s also come a long way. I’m greatly blessed from this.
Death of old habbits through healing and rebirth of self through God is the way
Me too
All Glory to Jesus Christ 🙏
This man reminds me of the verse in Acts 4:13 When they saw the courage of Peter and John and realized that they were unschooled, ordinary men, they were astonished and they took note that these men had been with Jesus.
I felt so sad at 14:35 , nobody followed up with you for youth group 🥺🙏🏼Thankyou Mr Russell for your beautiful testimony and you’re journey of healing … definition of seek God first and the rest shall follow✨
What a testimony! I loved hearing him speak about the different levels of healing. Revelation 12:11🙌🏼
Thank you for your comment. I am so happy you were blessed by my testimony.
Praise Jesus!!! Love this brother’s testimony- his honesty and willingness to be vulnerable will help others going through the same as he went through or similar. Thanks for sharing and praise be to God.
Amen! Thank you for watching
This has to be the best testimony I’ve ever seen and heard. I’m literally gonna watch it all over again. Thank You Jesus and Godbless you Russel!
Definitely one to watch over again… so much to learn and ponder upon. Praise God!
This is so comforting to hear - how his relationship with Christ is so alive & daily heals him
Wow I LITERALLY just finished writing Proverbs 11:14 (multitude of counselors Russel mentioned) on index cards to have as a reminder that I NEED to ask for help and NEED counseling!
No coincidences with the Holy Spirit! 🕊️
@@01379 AMEN
Pray to god he will protect you always:)❤🙏
As someone who also struggles with severe PTSD, this testimony is such a blessing to me. Only God's love can heal all the hurt I've had. I also desperately need God's reassurance of His love throughout my life.
Thank you for your testimony! I went through similar things. I was addicted to sexual immorality and lust. I have been battling this for a very long time and seeing what Jesus has done for you is very hopeful in my walk with Christ!
I'm so glad my testimony blessed you, brother.
I so completely randomly clicked on this & it’s everything I needed to hear. Not the s$xual aspects but the utter trauma & how it distracts and impedes a relationship with Jesus. Im more traumatized from realizing im traumatized than from the actual abuse Ive experienced.
I had such an incredibly beautiful life that I fully dedicated 25 years of sacrificing friends, family & marriage or any personal hobbies just to stay fully dedicated to my mission from God. And then at the height at the apex of this spiritual mission: it was all YANKED absolutely yanked away fr me & I was plunged in a persecution prison of Biblical proportions.
Its been utterly confounding. Bizarre. Jolting.
But….this man here is detailing exactly the feelings and suspicions ive been having about the purpose of all of this.
Incredibly thankful and blessed for this testimony. Its sooo amazing this man exists to tell this tale of hope & healing!!!
So this man’s intricate details about “the cave” are so fascinating to me & resonate so deeply.
I'm from the caverns area....I understand completely
@@mightymouse1005 haha so its not just a metaphor for you? 😉
No idea 🤷♀️ how I got here but wown
One of the best testimonies I’ve heard , why ? Because I can relate for the first time Iv discovered what my issue actually is 💙
wow. our upbringings with our moms are so so similar!! it wasn’t until I went to counseling as an adult and she told me the same thing, “well, you know that’s abuse right? that’s not normal” well it was all I knew!! “it was normal to me”!! mine also had a rough upbringing too and my dad was also the very nice spiritual person growing up. fortunately, they stayed together (even tho I thought for sure they wouldn’t) and she’s in therapy now and our relationship is better than ever. praise God!!!! an answered prayer… never give up ❤
I had a very similar childhood and my mom had a very similar childhood to your moms. I’m so grateful God heals us broken people and loves us through it. ❤ I can’t imagine the mess I’d be without Jesus finding me and making me a new creation. ✝️ God bless u, thanks for sharing your story!!
When he gave encouragement at the end.. It broke me to tears. I heard Jesus! I struggle to be this good child of God and I hate when I fall. Jesus DOES love when we cant love ourselves. 🥺💜
I just caught the end of this right when you ask him to pray. Whoa!!! That was an amazing prayer. I’m rewinding now to listen from the beginning ❤❤❤
Thank you Lord for using your servant...honest and transparent...
"Same route different fruit" that's a deep saying❤ bless you brother in Christ wonderful testimony
I watched this video by no accident .. and I totally hear Him speaking to me and I’m grateful. I too come from a place of brokenness and abandonment, that stemmed from broken parents.
I’m learning to truly give all to Him .. I have such a passion to love on the lowly and my passion is to love on others through the love that God gives me ❤
John 14:6 also changed my whole life for Jesus. Ironically I heard it In a Hillsong song “just Jesus “ we all know no church is perfect so I do not judge them but the song really led me to the spirit where she says if He is the way the truth and the life what more could I want “ I realized do not be distracted by this world Jesus is the way ! He is everything we need and what he gives us 🙏🏻 it was at a point of emptiness in my life too. I totally understand what russel is saying too about the void. The amazing gifts we have here are temporary always .. we are waiting for the eternal as Jesus promises. Jesus is perfection, ALL the glory to Him “let us endure until the end “ ✝️
That prayer at the end really hit me different. Really touched me. God bless Russell.
this is the first testimony ive watched & i feel sooo seen. actually my favorite part is🎉 how he talks about how he still hasnt filled his personal pit after all this time. how hes not totally healed after decades, using it as a springboard. healing gives experience to jesus in the journey ❤❤❤ this is a real one.
Yeah I can relate, my Mum has bi polar and as a child it greatly affected the way I received love. God has just started dealing with me in this area of my life. I've locked so much away that I don't feel I have access to as far as the hurt ad a child. When I was in a relationship with a girl my insecurities spiked and I so desperately wanted her to fill that void without knowing it. It seems impossible to breakfree and it is on out own but with God all things are possible
I haven’t watched tv in 3 years!!
Developing a distaste for TV and secular music was the first thing God did for me. Now I seem to waste alot of time watching Christian based YT videos instead of soaking in His Word. 😢
My boys are a year apart and I raised them alone. Once, when they were about 4 and 5.....they did a similar thing with a TV. IDK exact what they did, BUT the soaked the cord in water and my youngest plugged it in. I heard a loud CRACK and ran in...the TV was heavy and thick back then and had fallen on my son......I was terrified he was dead or hurt as the plug was black and smoking . I pulled the TV off him and hugged my baby.....thank God he was OK...
@@chellecat247You aren't wasting time
This testimony spoke to me and brought me to tears…I wasn’t into the porn but I lived the neglect and physical and mental abuse. I married a Christian man who was raised in a missionary family and he divorced me in 2016 to marry a a “Christian” woman he met on a dating site. I did get saved in 1987 and married him in 1989. I told him I had a lot of issues to deal with before marriage and he didn’t care. He dealt with porn our whole 25.5 years of our 26 years marriage. I discovered it in 2013. I was raised Catholic and he told me I should have stayed Catholic because I didn’t give up fighting for our marriage. He took me to court and forced the divorce on me, bifurcated the marriage telling the judge I was holding him captive in the marriage and wouldn’t sign the divorce papers. He also told me I was born with issues and had no hope. He has now been married seven years and does Ministry with her telling our four adult kids she’s the right wife for him from God. I always pray and ask the Lord to show him how he lacked compassion for me and to show him a glimpse of my childhood and life. I know what my issues were and was always going to Christian counseling. He told me he didn’t have issues except for the porn which he said was sin and not an addiction. The thing is death doesn’t scare me. I’d rather be dead than here and struggle with that feeling. And now hearing this I see it stems from abandonment. Interesting because I’ve been asking the Lord to heal me at a deeper level and I’ve also been considering in going back to counseling.
Dear sister, I am so sorry to hear about the way you were treated! Continue to seek Jesus, get counseling, and practice self-care. Be patient with yourself and with the process. Grace to you!
Jesus loves you so much
Out of all of the De’lafe testimonies this one really hit me and have read other comments and I agree that at the end it just broke me to tears and I cried so hard because I have always struggled to get it right my relationship with Jesus and I still do. I don’t have a story like yours because I grew up in a very strict Christian home, but it was a very dysfunctional home with my dad commiting suicide when I was 7 and my sister did the same thing 9yrs. ago and I struggle with depression often. I also seem to have adult ADHD where I can’t focus and forget what people just told me and people have teased me and told me I’m a dumb blonde and so I don’t have a lot of friends and I seem to get into relationships with men who are not Christians and do not want God in their lives. I struggle with alcohol because I don’t know how to deal with it. I know partly what is missing is I don’t even have Christian females to be a role model for me or to steer me and keep me in an environment where I can have a healthy relationship with Jesus. I live in a small white town with people are very cliquish and sometimes racist and I am alone. And it’s not even about getting involved in bad relationships with males but all the females I meet out here also not Christians and are no support for me. I am often so mad at God and usually end up quitting on him because he won’t let me move away from this place and I have tried twice and prayed so hard and I admit I don’t pray anymore and I just think God is mad at me because of for some reason I am not doing or enough to get out of here. I just don’t understand and even though I struggled with suicide in the past I really feel like you did Russell every day I wake up I just want the car to hit me. I still feel that way so glad I never had kids. I’ve never been married and I always feel like there’s something wrong with me that I’m unlovable I’m stupid or I’m a dumb blonde that’s why so many people have rejected me but I am going to look up your book and read it. Thank you.
Thank you for your honesty, dear sister. Don't give up on God and don't give up on yourself! Keep looking for healthy people who can support you, mentor you, and guide you into everything God has for you. And stop calling yourself names! You are not who you say you are; you are not who others say you are--you are who Jesus says you are. And he left the glories of heaven to die for you, pursue you and give you the love you have always ached for.
You are not alone, God is always with you. We all have things we are going through, this world is less than perfect because of sin, but God will come and make all things new, have faith in Him and know that He has the perfect plan for your life, trust in Him and take refuge in Him. Keep your eyes on Him sister in Christ. ❤
I thank you Russell for your response especially since there are millions of people to reach out to. You don’t need to answer me again and I talk quite a bit. Even when I quit on God I know he still there. I did have a mentor, but needed to take a break because we used to have a toxic relationship because he was like a dad to me and God has changed him so much but sometimes it’s still triggers bad memories because I always feel if I disagree with him then God is upset with me even if it’s not true, I have also heard in these other testimonies that they had the assurance once they prayed for an answer, but not me and somehow I need to get out of my mind that the reason God isn’t sending me healthy relationships is because somehow I am flawed and that’s why male and female have rejected me in this small white town where they are very cliquish and already don’t accept me. I really feel like I could thrive spiritually and help other people like me who have been through mental illness trauma in childhood but everyone in this town acts like they have no issues and don’t open up to me because I don’t have history here! I have asked God many times to get me out of here but for some reason I’m still here and feel I don’t have any purpose. one thing you said which I will start doing is journaling. I am a kind, friendly and very thoughtful towards people but it always get turned against me and people exploit my weaknesses and make me feel obligated to them. So then I just withdraw and I’m often a loner here have manipulated me and make me feel like I am obligated to them, and have turned my weaknesses and flaws against me, and have always made me feel like there’s something wrong with me so I withdraw and avoid people because I’m so burnt out of being rejected but I must believe that God is going to help me please keep continuing to do what you do in spite of the enemies attacks and the enemy whenever I journal tries to discourage me but I know I need to do it! I truly think he’s trying to keep me from tell me my own story
@@TheFunkypant. Ijust your reply has made me feel like I have Christian friends even though I’ve never met any of you. There’s just some connection-you all are real people with real issues and i don’t experience that where I live. People around here are so secure and independent, and never share any of their struggles. Thank you!
@@joycekelly8191 I think most of us are guilty of that. It's easier to share one's struggles online where you can find people sharing similar stories and having the same beliefs. Generally people online aren't afraid to show empathy and sympathy for others. People are ashamed of sharing their struggles with others in the physical world as you are made to believe it's a perfect paradise, and no one has time for someone else's worries and stresses, its a fast paced environment and everyone has their own life to worry about and most people are just trying to succeed in the physical, but in the spiritual many are lost and wondering, searching for salvation in all the wrong things. and many are being deceived. Do not fret, our redemption draws near. Have a blessed day.
Thank you for sharing this beautiful, transparent testimony of your journey to freedom in Christ!
Thank your for watching!
Thank you, Russell for sharing your awesome testimony! My childhood was very similar to yours, and I too looked at people to validate me. My reality was too painful to deal with, so I looked at other things to fulfill me. I am learning now the true intimate relationship with Jesus. Jesus is my constant! 💗 I have been a believer for 8 years. Thanks!
So moving and honest. My husband had a tough childhood, I hear him in your speaking my brother. May the Lord continue to bless and use you. ❤
I’m was a 23 yr meth/porn addict who could not get clean. Even in the church. Playing worship and then living in evil. Then I found a 12 step program. I have found that those 12 steps are everything he just explained. Surrender. Dealing with our past. Teaching us how to deal with everyday relationships. Bringing ourselves into true relationship with God. Then helping others towards God. Huge thing the church is missing. When that Big book was written, they started with the Bible. All those steps are straight from God’s Word. Everyone needs those 12 steps. Not just addicts. Clean 7yrs 5/2/24. The fruit of the spirit overflows from my life today. Joy overflowing. Able to truly love people. 12 step programs work!!!
Powerful
I agree with the power of confession to one another, I have been through the most and I talk to people about my pain and how God healed me and is still healing me
I noticed that a lot of people get encouragement and healing from my testimony.
Thank you for sharing your real life testimony 🙏🏾
So gentle and faithful is our Lord!
Love this Testimony....
What a beautiful testimony! Its no surprise that God has used him in service to other broken abandoned ppl. 🕊
This was really soul fulfilling. I have been down a similar road. Jesus is always leading, loving, and developing us.
I absolutely love how you described the human experiences and needs etc in such a physiological way yet easy to understand. I kept thinking this is profound. Thank you!
That's touching. We depend on miracles. Jesus, you are my miracles.
Damn this is me now if I'm being honest
Thank you for your Testimony. This was an amazing watch that I could relate to. God bless you and everyone reading this.
I can’t like this video enough. Russell’s words are amazing. This testimony is a gift I plan to share with many. Thank you Russell for your courage and vulnerability. I know with you it is truly about Jesus. I just purchased your book and am looking forward to reading more. Thank you and God bless you for your courage to help others.
Thank you for posting this. And we thank God for Russell's journey and transparency. It has blessed me.
God bless you brother. This testimony and describing your mom hits home for me, it was almost like you were describing my own mom
Oh what boundless love that has Never left Us, and is so evident in your son's life! Thank you Jesus!!! 🙏
Russel~TY4 being brave enough to share your story with the world & God bless you for it! I can relate to the “childhood trauma” part of your story! I’m the 9th kid in a big Irish Catholic fam of ten kids..my dad was alcoholic & when he drank was abusive with the belt but was tolerable when straight & working…but my mom & gramps (her dad) who lived with us all our lives they never drank & were great & nurturing…mom enabled him but didn’t realize that’s what she was doing? Cuz she loved him & he loved her & I knew they both loved me some how yet I don’t remember my dad ever “saying” it to me? He always had a suit on for car salesman job so us kids were kept at arms length & not hugged much by him cuz of his suit (was the excuse)..anyway I suffered tons of childhood trauma & I still never had counseling for it just always went to the Wonderful Counselor & put it all under the blood of Jesus after I got saved Oct 86’ but many times down through the decades things triggered me😞 but the “way” you explained getting counseling..kinda made me think perhaps I should? I’ve been very angry lately about certain things that are pretty bad that I have no control over…my daughter was falsely accused & now sits in a womens prison because of the lies of her evil Ex bf & losing her toddler son because of it!😞Went to court today to “be there” for her…she lost 30 lbs in a month! Awful things go on there by the CO’s & it’s all swept under the rug they get away with it!💔😭Praying for her protection & that the truth be exposed & she will be released & free! But today the judge was a tyrant philistine & wouldn’t even let her speak!💔so back to jail she went, next court date 8/31/23! My innocent daughter has to be in that hell hole till last day in August now ugh! It’s unbelievable how inadequate the Public defender was!😩I can’t afford an Atty I’m a widow now for 2 years living paycheck to paycheck so I feel so bad for her! The only thing she is guilty of was picking the wrong man who charmed her playing the nice guy act had us all fooled but really is covert abusive narcissist with Nazi mentality behind closed doors!🥺& complete imbecile dcf gave him my grandson!😭who lives 10 min away & I can’t even see him!😭 I keep forgiving everyone involved over & over again but today was UNREAL! I lost it on the way home in the car by myself! Screaming so loud! Told satan I hate him for doing all this to my daughter & grandson & I can’t wait to see him burn in the lake of fire! Man was I mad today & didn’t manifest like that in LONG TIME!! Asked Jesus to forgive me for screaming how much I hated the judge the PD & the whole corrupt awful judicial system in the state of Corrupticut!😭💔😞Help me Jesus! Help my daughter Jesus! Help her precious toddler son dear Jesus! Protect him & keep him innocent dear God in Jesus mighty name! Thanks for anyone who prays for them!💔✝️📖🕊🙏Russel I wish you said the name of your book?📖God bless & TY Delafe testimonies! They really minister to me! God bless! Hugs in Christ! Ephesians 4:3 Endeavoring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. Amen! I put all of this in the awesome capable nail-scarred hands of my Savior & Lord!💔✝️🙏🕊🔥📖🎵🎸🥺🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
I heard hundreds if not thousands of testimonies. This one though shows facettes and sides of the faith that, I feel, are very important. Sometimes we think JESUS has to fix it. Other times we think somebody or something worldly has to fix it. Either way we try to separate the one from the other. He did counceling with a counceller AND JESUS. The councellor led him to the doors, the patient opened the doors, JESUS cleaned the room behind the door. Of course JESUS is responsible for all the lifes so actually in the end he did it all but that doesn‘t mean that we don‘t have to go these ways in order to learn and understand.
Amazing & so HELPFUL, Brother & De Crew!!! (I’m adopted, but by Christian patents who also divorced, not emotionally close to either even so. Was angry my mom passed w/o our Healing Relationship few yrs after I grad from Freedom House Teen Challenge….. THANK YOU LORD GOD YEHOSHUAH/JESUS I was able to listen to his Tedtimony! YOU ARE filling in misssing pieces Right Here right now! SO NEEDED!
-Azariah
(THE LORD GOD HELPS)
PS 20:1,6-8; IS 43; MATT 24; DAN 3; JOHN 14; IS 30:18-22
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Wow....this is a life-transforming testimony. Thank you Brother Russell for sharing. May the Lord continue to do miracles is your life.❤
I could listen to this man Russel for hours,WOW your testimony is so building,and the honesty is beyond.
Thanks
What a powerful and sincere testimony. I truly felt Russel’s conviction and love of the Lord. Thank you Delafe for allowing these individuals to bare their hearts for Christ in such a public way. May this work continue to inspire, restore and heal all those who are watching! To God be the glory! 🙌🏾
He was very transparent and honest!!! Love this testimony TGBTG
Amazing testimony. I cried through the whole thing. So many simular experiences with my own life. Grateful for all the people you can help and hope many will hear your story.
GOD BLESS.
He articulated all of this so well! He is so self-aware and emotionally intelligent. ♥️
뜨겁게 하나님을 만난 사람들의 신앙간증 입니다 베스트셀러 책한권을 읽은것 같습니다 예수를 따라 살기로 했네 뒤돌아 보지 않겠네 주일 학교때 부르던 찬송 이 생각 납니다
Wow a great testimony of a greater Jesus who really loves us and understands our feelings
Thank you for the testimony. Thank you Jesus for healing us. Amen
Thank you Lord Jesus for wonderful testimony! Only You Lord Jesus can help us thru on same struggles! God Bless this Man of God! Love you Jesus 🙏🏻
This is by far the best testimony I have heard so far. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you for watching!
I love this story a lot of points really resonate with me; this video was a blessing ❤ love your content God bless everyone! I pray everyone brings whatever trouble that is burdening them to Christ and leaves it there amen 🙏🏼
I really needed to hear this. I have beat myself up so much for the sins I have committed.
Of all the testimonies that I've watched on this channel this one hit me the most. A lot of what this fella said I can relate to. And I know I'm not the only one obviously. I just want to say thank you to both of you for doing this interview and testimony, I really helped a lot and it will help I believe. I need to understand certain things that don't about certain issues in life you know some of these testimonies have really opened my eyes to different ways of looking at things thanks to Jesus. Maybe I'm not the failure I think I am and that definitely makes me feel better to know that through Jesus I can find that that I'm missing so bad I just got to get there now.
So far.....this is the one I've related to the most❤ I want to get his book
Just another confirmation that " Jesus Is the Answer " to everything.
Each testimony I watch is as amazing as the previous. Thank you all for sharing
Thank you for sharing! This will help many men!❤
I only recently at 37 discovered i suffered the exact same childhood trauma as this man and the exact same path i went down. Ive been in christian counseling for a few months now. Its been slow but life changing. This video shed so much more light for me. Thank you so much for sharing.
I relate to the parental and abandonment wounds - I also relate to some of the destructive thoughts and actions too. Great to see someone that has overcome, I have alot to learn
I now feel so blessed scrolling and watching this video coz I suffered something so familiar child abandoness been bullied and people always walking out of my life and I never new real happiness and to get rid of my pain and fill up my happiness I turned to alcohol and all sort of drugs I payed prostitutes just to feel minutes of been loved, but I want to turn to Jesus coz I hear stories of people's experiences of feeling comforted and loved by him just don't know the steps
You have answered my questions...all my questions. God has answered my prayers through this channel and this video. Next step is to go find a counselor.... I'm afraid, but I know I need it.
AMEN. GREAT TESTIMONY AND GREAT PRAYER. THANKS FOR SHARING. GOD BLESS. THE JOY OF THE LORD IS YOU ALL'S STRENGTH. ❤️ ✨️ 💖
Amazing testimony thank you Russell, thank you Delafé Testimonies for sharing this with us, wanted to ask about having counselling and thank you Russell for answering it with so much wisdom and clarity using scripture too. I pray that God will continue to use you, use myself and other broken people to reach other broken and lost people back to the Good Shepherd that is The Lord Himself.
Condolences on your first wife. My father remarried six years after we lost our Mother the same way it’s a tough thing
Really grateful for this testimony! Thank you for sharing this!
I needed this prayer thank you, pls keep praying for me
I Can relate to him . Please I ask for prayer to be set free from all impurities and need the Lord to help me be free from all Lust, sex immorality
Thank God, this man is sharing and speaking ❤
The name of his book is "Breaking Free"
Hallelujah glory to Jesus Christ Great Savior He IS Hallelujah! The Lord IS SO GOOD! He made us we belong to Him! He is our Rescue, Redeemer,the Great Encourage and Holy Spirit Is our Helper and Comforter! Glory to God in Heaven!
Praise God for your honesty.
Great testimony, God bless you for sharing🙏🙏🙏🙏
Thank you for sharing this Russell, glory to God
I hope your mother is healed and in a better place. God bless you !
Deep raw and so helpful for many. ❤
Thank you brother 💚 this testimony is changing so many.
Praise God for His grace
Lovely testimony, with heart. Thank you.
Thank you for your testimony and courageous transparency brother🙏🏼🔥🙏🏼
Thank you for your testimony! God bless you 🙏🏿
Thank you so much for this testimony I am one who have been trying to rid myself of this desires to be approved or affirmed and I know Jesus and still learning more of him daily thank you for helping me to see that in the right hands this is ok as long as I don’t seek this from men.