Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. A massive thank you to Kevin for telling his story. You can follow Kevin’s journey here: instagram.com/kevinhinesstory/ If you are feeling suicidal or want to talk to someone, please reach out to Samaritans, the free helpline is available 24/7: Call 116 123
thanks. i had a dream i jumped off the GG. theres signs all over it saying that "jumping off is fatal and tragic" and thats how i feel sometimes about waking up everday.
Same here, didn't recognize him at first, but once I heard his story, it all came back. Truly deep, impactful story! Sounds like the guy has learned tons about his illness and has a lot of insight also. Glad to see him as a grown man.
Breaks my heart because I wonder how many other people who jumped to their death realised in the last few seconds that they made a mistake and they really didnt want to die... and they never got a chance to tell that to anyone... Kevin is a great storyteller, touched my heart...
@@shy604 yeah, i’m sure all of them honestly, i’ve seen interviews with other people who survived suicide attempts and all have talked about the same instant regret
@@rem672 mental illness is a nasty and ruthless creature. It tricks people into thinking they are prepared to die. The human body and brain are never prepared for such a thing. Survival instincts will always kick in and I is widely believed that every successful suicide attempt ends full of regret and sheer terror because of this. Whether that horrific moment can be worth the eternal peace for some can be debated, but those last seconds seem to universal to all and to me that is the most terrifying and heartbreaking aspect to any suicide or attempted suicide, apart from the pain and suffering for the family.
Yeah because when your life is in that grave danger, it's human nature to instantly 'feel' like you wanna fight to live, but only because you're in fight or flight mode, which overrides ALL the thoughts, feelings, reasons, rationale, & logic that brought you there in the first place. If you happen to live & come to, you'll probably wake up in the hospital. And once the novelty of medical care, treatment, & attention wears off quickly, in a few days to a week, reality hits again & all those feeling come right back.
@@1w598 Yup, it’s like when I go to the crisis center feeling suicidal, eventually I think about my dogs and my home and how much I want to get back. I usually feel great once I get home but that feeling quickly erodes when all of the issues that made me go to the crisis center come right back.
"Kevin you can't die here. You die here, no one's gonna know you didn't want to". One of the most hauntingly beautiful phrases I've ever heard. He's really a masterful storyteller, and I'm exceedingly glad he's gotten/getting the help, love, care and affection he wasn't brought into this world with.
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@@memyself6360 but they do. It's not ego. If he had not survived that death would have devastated his parents and his friends around him for the rest of their lives. If he had died his parents would possibly ask until they died "what could I have done to save him, save my son?" You're looking at the statement at an incredibly superficial and shallow level. It's important to think about the meaning behind statements before blowing them off based on your first initial reaction.
He has an overly scripted way of speaking. I guess because he has reiterated the same spiel time and time again. More appealing to an American audience I suppose.
@@Crazyclay78YT...re-read your comment and verify it makes sense to you. I think you have your statement backwards. If his brain was truly compromised the realization of the mistake to jump wouldn't have occurred.
I have a student that is extremely mentally ill and he has attempted suicide a few times. It is heart breaking. I asked him to watch the few interviews with this man. We then spoke. I told him I understand that not everyone will feel that regret, but I bet quite a few did. I reminded my student that he is loved by not only his biological family but also his school family and friends. Thankfully this young man trusts me enough to confide in me when he is struggling and I will get him help each and every time. Mental illness is no joke. It breaks my heart at how much some people suffer.
I suffer a lot. Everyday is a struggle. Also chronic pain. I have no reason to live cos i am alone and will always be. I cannot forgive myself for beeing like that.
I can appreciate your concern and efforts toward helping your student. But it's my understanding that you can't convince someone of the value of something simply by virtue of it being valued by yourself... or even by a majority. And, when one finds themself particularly deep in the abyss, the love of one's family/friends doesn't mitigate the problem that, for the suffering individual, the psychological agony of breathing for even the next five MINUTES can be unfathomable, unrelenting torture with no end. Ask me how I know.😶
12:15 “I believed I wanted to die, but I do desperately wanted to live”, As person that’s survived more than a dozen suicide attempts, this statement resonates with me deeply. I come back to this video a lot
I’m raising my hand with the Many people in your life who love and value you. If you are ever feeling down just remember that I too care for you and value every moment of your life. Keep up the good fight 💞
I don’t know you but I care enough about you to please ask you not to take your own life. You are unique, there is no one like you anywhere else in the world. Look… I don’t know you but I’m taking time to write to you because I care. God Bless.
My last suicide attempt was a little over 11 years ago now... After my son was born and I finally understood what it meant to be a father, I decided to tell my mum why I had turned to drugs from such an early age… I decided to tell her the truth, that I was sexually abused by my biological father... I needed to ask her why she did not save me? When she told me that she had always suspected that was the case, it sent me over the edge… I could never imagine not saving my son if I had suspected something like that. I spent my childhood attempting to cope with my childhood trauma via self-mutilation... I was desperate to feel anything other than the misplaced guilt and shame that had been forced upon my person, the sick irony of such a statement still manages to stir emotions of fear, embarrassment and confusion, with each physical laceration manifesting a scar, a scar that brings myself one step closer to complete annihilation of my psyche, as my soul seeps from the gaping wound. Continuously blaming myself, like I must have done something wrong for that to happen. I used drugs to escape that pain, a pain that *NEVER* leaves or ceases, even now, I have become an expert at hiding my emotions behind various masks, each smile 'hiding the pain lest the mask slip and people see the broken boy behind the facade'. My son was a couple of months old at the time and the absolute terror that I might turn out like my father had gripped me by the throat and I felt like I was being pulled under, slowly drowning, so I had to end it all to ensure I could not only stop my own pain but potentially stop my son from being damaged (that was how I justified it to myself anyway) so I decided that ‘Fentanyl’ was the route I was going to go down. I had read that you simply slip away as you sleep, a fitting painless end to a life full of pain, I felt as if I had earned that much at least. I woke up in the hospital, my wife gripping my hand and tears streaming down her face while holding my son who was laughing and smiling at his daddy… It was at that moment I finally saw the damage I had done, and I cried like a baby, I did not care about shame or embarrassment. Like Kevin Hines, I truly regretted my choice. I had finally agreed to engage with mental health services and chose to be as honest as possible with my psychiatrist. Not long after, I was diagnosed with type 2 bipolar disorder… a medicated dad is the best kind of dad. I have so much to be thankful for… a loving, patient wife and a son who calls me his best friend. I am also grateful for my failed attempt because I needed to learn that lesson to become who I was always meant to be. I would be lying if I said the pain has gone, it never goes away, but I have more to live for as opposed to dying for. Thank you for reading my story.
Wow. Thank you for sharing your story. Something similar happened with my mom. She saw I was more depressed than usual and immediately brought up that “thing that happened when you were younger” (also inappropriate behavior from a family member). She said she’s thought about it everyday for years. The day it happened I told my parents and we never spoke about it ever again. She would always ask “why don’t you like ___?” “do you feel uncomfortable around ____?” Asking questions I didn’t even know she already knew the answer to. You are crazy strong for ensuring what you have. I’m proud you were able to seek help, that takes balls.
My dad talked a stranger off the bridge about 20 years ago. I used to think someone must have lost their mind to do something like that. But having suffered with depression since then, I understand what it feels like to get to that point. Depression is no joke.
@@SeregaOrgan if you felt depressed for 5 minutes you would beg for it to stop. Its a level of suffering that no one can imagine unless you’ve felt it yourself. You can take meds for physical bodily pain but you cant escape your own mind. Now you can kindly delete your disgusting comment and go educate yourself on mental illness or never speak on it again with your ignorance
This just hit me so hard, I haven’t cried this much in years because I haven’t had the courage to deal with the pain. My dad jumped off a bridge and took his own life in 2019, and then soon after I attempted to take mine. I had got it in my head that I needed to uphold the family tradition because my dad and his dad (my grandpa), and my cousin all took their own lives. I was under a tremendous amount of stress, on the eve of homelessness, starving, 3000 miles away from my family. But somehow I reached out to a friend that called paramedics and got me to the hospital where I was admitted for 10 days. I feel ashamed of myself for that night, but the help I got made so much of an important difference in my life…. I wish my dad could have gotten the help he desperately needed.
This is why I could never succumb to this because I know that if I did that my daughter's chances of doing it go up exponentially as well. I keep fighting the good fight because my love for her is pure and I value her. I know that my energy, wherever it goes, would be cognizant that I left her alone in this cruel plane of existence as well. It is so sad that mental sickness is not taken as seriously as physical though. We could save many if we did.
As a suicidal 29 year old woman, I watch these videos to break myself out of a spiral. Sometimes it’s so unbearable and feels like I could just go for it but I never want to experience an attempt 😰 if I have to cry so loud and hard for it to pass till the next day then so be it. I love this guys story. Absolutely love it.
As someone who has been where you are, this will pass darling. I promise. Life will get better, just let the better in and take it day by day. Life can be so beautiful but so cruel. You got this x
I lived in San Francisco years ago when I was in my twenties and i can remember walking accross golden gate bridge and feeling so proud of myself that I was in America and I could admire the wonderful view from the bridge looking accross the bay,it never dawned on me that people would want to jump off this bridge until I came accross what looked like i guess an emergency phone for anyone feeling that way!the point im making is one guy walks accross a bridge not a care in the world with the sun on his back and the world at his feet!another guy walks accross it with the weight of the world on his shoulders a cloud over his head and lead in his boots!so be kind and compassionate to everyone because you don't know what that person is going through!if you see someone in life who is distressed or struggling help them because some day that could be you,this guy kevin is an inspiration and he is going to save many peoples lives!bless him
Gosh! I ABSOLUTELY LOVED what you wrote (paraphrasing): “A person can walk across that bridge with the sun on his back and world at his feet; another with the weight of the world on his shoulders, a cloud over him and lead in his boots!” That’s just so incredibly ultimately true. We all wear a pair of glasses called “LIFE”; we ALL just view life when wearing those glasses differently; some people’s vision is crystal clear, some rosey and others shattered. I really love you comment and had to read it twice. Thank you for writing that message. It was so well written and someone needed to read that today. Your words were very inspiring as well and may help save someone’s life also. ❤
Huge thanks to @ladbible and Joshua Brown and your entire team for making this Minutes With LADBible Film a reality! So incredibly grateful to work with all of you!
Amazing story! I remember seeing you in the Golden Gate Bridge documentary a few years ago. How come you left the part out about the seal helping you to stay afloat? I thought that part was super miraculous and touching (along with the fact you even survived!).
Hi Kevin. Thanks for sharing. I'm wondering about a missing part of your story??? An animal rescued you?!? "...a helpful Sea Lion that carried Hines on his back to shore, and encircled the injured young man until rescue teams arrived"?!?! Oddly, a few hours after watching this LADBible video, I happened to come across your story a SECOND TIME today in another video by Facts Junkie called "12 Times Animals Saved Human Lives" here on youtube Your story was amazingly heartwarming as it was, add the sea lion part, and it sounds like a tall tale!?! Please confirm. Props to your foster dad for raising such a humble man that's not afraid to be vulnerable
We watched a film called ‘The Bridge’ about suicides on Golden Gate Bridge when I was at university as a mental health nursing student. Kevin was interviewed for that. They put it on the big screen in a lecture hall full of students and every body cried, this was 2007 or 2008 and the suicide awareness he is sharing now is still just as relevant today as it was then. Good to see he is still sharing his story and trying to help others.
@@TheScaryTruthCatalyst they had a camera situated somewhere near the water watching the bridge for a whole year. They videoed lots of people jumping then they found out who the family’s were and interviewed some of them. The only person they filmed who survived was Kevin. So yes to answer the question. It does start with someone who actually jumped.
My uncle killed himself 3 years ago at the age of 19, it tore our family to shreds and left us heartbroken. No note, no final last words and no explanation. This video gives me peace that maybe he had a change of mind when he jumped but couldn’t go back. I miss him everyday and I named my son after him❤
To me the most powerful thing he said, what really hit home for me, was that he continued to have involuntary stays in the psych ward AFTER the attempt. When he jumped off the bridge he didn't want to die but that didn't suddenly cure him. He continues to have suicidal ideation to this day. I felt such a sense of relief and gratitude that he shared that. I always feel so ashamed that I still struggle with the lies my brain tells me.
That’s powerful and the truth right there that you said “the lies my brain keeps telling me” they are just lies. As someone who suffers from ideations myself, I have to keep telling myself they are just lies. To not listen to the mean part of my brain.
He came to my High School around 5 years ago or so and I got a chance to meet Mr. Hines. It was the first time I heard someone openly talk about things that I have observed in people that were close to me. It was the only school assembly that resonates with me.
I will never be able to thank the people enough when they saw me on the overpass with my leg over. They got off the freeway and drove up to me and started talking to me. Before that I had sat down on the road, there was no sidewalk or shoulder. As I stood up there and looked down, nor when I had my leg up and was getting ready. The thought came into my head that there was a high possibility that someone who was driving down the freeway would end up hurt, most likely dead. I had just sat down when they pulled up and stopped right there and got out, even though there was traffic behind them. They stayed and talked to me till I looked up and realized that there were police cars on either side of the overpass. I thought oh no, they are blocking traffic. I hope I didn't ruin anyone's day. Unknown to me until I stood up to walk to one of the officers, all lanes of the freeway on both sides had been shut down with multiple firetruck crews and squad cars. The lines of stopped traffic went on for as far as I could see. I felt so embarrassed and ashamed that I had impacted so many people like that. But in that short time of sitting down and crying, every single car that went by was just almost with the gust of wind in my face from it going by, "nobody cares," "they don't give a fuck." Then all the sudden, they did. I don't know for certain, how many more cars flying by hitting me in the face with the wind, it would have taken to get me back up on that railing. But the count was low. My story growing up was nowhere close to the horror he speaks of. I don't have voices in my head, I haven't been diagnosed with any mental illness. A growing depression, drinking, and feeling like I was a disappointment, a burden, and an overall feeling that anyone I knew would rather I not be around (which was completely wrong) and growing up in the age of, "if you talk about your feelings, you're a pussy. You're weak. Keep it to yourself and get really good at wearing that "happy mask" everywhere," was what we were told. What was portrayed in most movies. So I did that till I felt like I couldn't anymore. Those people in that car, if they weren't driving down that freeway at that time and just happened to look up from their phones to see me and choose that in that moment, my life was more important than their plans that day, are the reason I'm able to write this today. Thank you whoever you were. I love you with all my heart.
❤️ it takes a lot to share a truth like that…. But sharing stories is part of the human connection. Feelings of defeat are real, and the more we share the less people will feel alone in their thoughts. Take care!
I feel you bro. I had a terrible childhood as well and for most these experiences ruin our adulthood just the same. A very tiny percentage of people can overcome terrible parents and live a normal happy life but for most it just kills something inside of you. I used to get mad at myself and think I lacked character for allowing things in my childhood affect me so greatly as an adult. As I've matured I now realize how important early childhood development is and the impact it has on ones whole life. I now realize it really isn't my fault that I am a bit fucked up and the problems I experience are not due to lack of character. Life is full of sad realities. I will never have a normal life because of my parents but I have found peace of mind and am mostly content now. I can live with this.
Hello Tac, These words are coming from someone who had a wonderful upbringing and lost almost every bit of happiness overnight. "Time doesn’t heal pain". But God does. I am not sure if you're an atheist or believer! When you believe and submit to someone/something much much greater and capable then you, your mind starts to heal. It heals when you accept whatever happened, happened for a greater good. You can express your pains to God without being judged. It helped me heal. God helped me to cope.
The brave yet deeply scarred, deserve attention and the upmost respect… but sadly, and I hate to state this.. most do not really overcome and live normal lives … they bottle it all up inside the worst place to hide/store things which is the consciousness.. the more we store sad,evil,guilty and negative thoughts,the more it grows and grows then eventually reaches over capacity and explodes causing rage, suicide, harm to self/others…people who study psychology are mainly taught this in the beginning of there college career
My father committed suicide by jumping off of the Tappan Zee Bridge. I’ve always wondered how he felt at that moment. Because he didn’t survive I hope he just felt free.
I know this comment is old but it's one of the most touching things I've ever come across on TH-cam. My condolences (no matter how belated) to you and your loved ones on the loss of your father. I hope you and your family are doing well despite such a tragic loss. I'll keep you and yours in my thoughts and prayers. If you aren't a religious person, I hope the sentiments aren't lost as they are genuinely meant with good intention. 😊
What an absolute miracle that a man who once wanted to end his life can now say that he loves life. This story is really touching and inspirational for those of us who struggle with suicidal ideation.
I really appreciate this guy sharing his story and giving clear instructions on suicide prevention. My brother went missing last year and from what the police have been able to put together it's likely he ended his life. He took action without contacting me but had he rang me I would have done anything to talk him out of what he was planning on doing. His absence has left a huge hole in our hearts and lives. If you are struggling with thoughts of killing yourself please tell someone. Whatever you're going through there are people who can help and who genuinely care ♡
I hope maybe one day find your brother, at the very least you find out what happened to him, a very good friend of mine took his life last year by crashing his car on the motorway then running in front of a lorry, I wish he would of spoke to someone, it messes my head up thinking about what happened in his last moments, I think about him often
I love how he's not saying that he's now magically fixed and still struggles because we tell ourselves we need fixing but that only results in more disappointment. It's ok to just learn to cope the best we can and tell ourselves we deserve the help we need.
I had a full blown mental breakdown in January 2019. I was clearly in a crisis, but no one helped. I was just living to focus on moment by moment to not harm myself. To not do anything I would regret. I finally checked myself into an Intensive Outpatient Program. I was diagnosed as bipolar in Early 2018, but I thought I was fine. I didn’t need to look into my condition and have that support group. I discovered Kevin Hines during my healing journey in IOP and he helped me so much. No one is honest 100% about all their thoughts and feelings, and sometimes they don’t even know them themselves how to vocalize what is going on in their head (like what Kevin described). Kevin vocalized the feelings I had for years, but didn’t know how to say what was happening in my head. I felt alone and didn’t want to say what the voices in my head said. Kevin gave me the courage to say so, as did my peers and therapists at my IOP. I am so thankful for them, and for Kevin specifically. He helped so much with opening up discussions and ideas to talk with my support system. Kevin, if you read this, thank you. I have much love and gratitude for you. So much.
I wish my son had sought help that day before he went to the railway lines. You are doing a great job helping others, thank you, I hope you can save lots of people and help them to continue to live.
What a horrible thing to lie about. What parent says "I wish my son sought out help" instead of "I wish I could've seen the signs to help"? And the worst what parent nonchalantly tells online strangers the graphic way their son took his own life? "He went to the railway lines" The mentally ill people who live on this channel are a dime a dozen.
Back in 1983, my friend attempted suicide. He was placed in a psych hospital for a mandatory 72 hours, then was released. Then soon after, he succeeded. I miss him still to this day, and think about him often.
The system does fail more than it should, I took a friend to hospital a couple of weeks ago they released him, we had to get a road shut down as he was going to jump from a bridge into on coming traffic.. Unfortunately this is not the only time I know of the local services failing. Really sorry for your lose.
@@tvathome562 Thanks for your sentiment. My friend took his life in a non-violent manner...he parked his car on a beautiful river bank, then ran a hose from the exhaust pipe of his car into the interior...then, just let it idle as he died from carbon monoxide poisoning. Another friend of mine...just a few years ago...his son took his own life with a gun to his head...and the absolute worst part is that he did it in front of his parents (my friend and his wife) while sitting across from them at the kitchen table. I honestly cannot comprehend how my friend is able to keep it together after this. I do not think of it often...it is too dark...too painful to dwell on.
Dealing with suicide right now..my sons teacher is out because her son committed suicide. He could not deal with the isolation that happened during the pandemic and suffered for years in silence. So at the age of 6 my son and I have had this conversation about suicide and how you should ask for help, nothing is so bad that you have to take your life.
Thanks for sharing. I tried to end it three times in my life and in these last seconds, when I thought it was too late, I felt regrets. Today, I am treated for bipolar disorder, I am not happy about life but I don't dislike it anymore. I go and raise awareness for mental health issues and I listen. If you ever meet anyone suicidal, what can make a difference is to listen, understand and not judge. A small talk can go a long way. A difference between life and death. Seeking help is OK, it doesn't mean you are crazy or weak. It happens to everyone, you are not alone.
Thank you for sharing. Far too often, especially for men, the idea of getting help seems weak and pathetic. What help actually means is that you are human and you have the courage to seek help when needed and you’ve got the balls to take these challenges head on. Ignoring it doesn’t mean you’re strong. Recognizing the challenge and acting upon those challenges shows true strength.
I'm so pleased you are here, and so are the people you listen to. It's not weak to speak it's brave to say I'm hurting but I'm going to win and with help you will.
Kevin, I watched your story years ago but learned so much more here today. Half way through, sobbing, I called my 33 year old son into my room, a wonderful, kind young man who has struggled with acute schizophrenia since the age of ten, who has heard and still hears all those horrible voices who hate him, voices that told him over and over to kill himself when he was younger, and who now manages his illness and lives a happy life with me ..I called him in and thanked him for never taking his own life. I think it had been a long time since I had said that to him. He reminded me that when he was a teenager, I made him promise never to do that and he stuck to it. Kevin, you are an amazing ,generous man to do this segment. I wish you nothing but peace, prosperity and happiness all the days of your precious life. And to everyone else, be conscious of all those around you because we get too caught up and often don't notice what is right in front of us. All we have to look out for each other, strangers and all. It is the only hope for humanity. Love , above all else, will always be the answer. God help us all.
Had 2 suicides in my family and I just want to say … if anyone out there is struggling no matter how hard it may be please speak to someone please every life is precious
My family also has a history of mental health struggles. I have a history of suicidal thoughts, most intensely in 6th and 7th grade. I never attempted, but those two years of my life were a hell that my own mind trapped me in. Since then I’ve gotten the help I needed, and I’m grateful for everything and everyone I know. I still go into recessions sometimes, but I’m never going to forget the fear in my mothers eyes when she saw the pain I was in, and how much I am loved. I don’t have some crazy traumatic upbringing, I’m not a war veteran, I’m just an autistic/ADHD teenager. You are never alone, no matter how alienated you may feel. You are a human, and that in itself gives you worth. ❤️
My 29 year old grandson is severely suicidal and has been all his adult life. His 'big dream' is to jump off the Golden Gate Bridge. He claims he just does not have the money to get there. Your story moved me to write that I did not know that anyone ever survived actually doing it. I will share your story with him soon. God blessed you in your pain. I believe he too would cry out to God. He may also be lucky enough to survive. I hope that he never gets enough money to make that awful decision from Iowa. Thank you and your father for boldly sharing your tragic experiences of how it was to live through such an event. I am pretty sure that a lot of people will benefit from your newfound wisdom before it is too late for them too. God bless you and keep up the good work. Your message is important!
I love that he says he continues to need help instead of putting on an act that he's 'fixed' now. Makes me less scared to ask for help after I've been told I should have been healed by now
Mental health isn't something to be simply fixed its something to learn to cope with and having the right help and people around you is the most important thing. It's ok to ask for help no shame in doing so because we all deserve to live a happy life❤️
This espiode hits hard I'm a reccent bridge survivor and still coming to terms with recovery and my injuries. This guy is amazing so very strong telling your story as its not easy x
Your video made me pick up the phone to the Samaritans because I was feeling suicidal. Thank you my friend. I’ve got bi polar but having hope is so important
I'm suffering from depression and severe anxiety since I was a teenager, stuff like this help me believe jump would just bring more misery and pain to everyone I know.
Yeah that's pretty much me. I think my depression has gotten better but my anxiety has gotten worse and I hate that. Depression I can deal with but anxiety I can't. But I will deal with it and tell my dumb brain to go fuck itself for doing this to me.
I believe his early childhood did have a profound effect on him. Like he said, it played a big role in his mind breaking. But from the moment he was born and thereafter, until he was adopted at least, his very survival was under threat and though a baby, he was aware of it. He never felt safe in those early formative years. As the saying goes; give me a child until he’s seven and I’ll give you the man. Kevin, like many of us, truly are the unsung heroes.
I cannot imagine what kind of trauma this brave guy had from his childhood. It’s makes me take another look at my life and be grateful for life. So glad he’s alive and hope his life is amazing now
My close friend jumped off the building at Brown University where he was a d1 athlete. We trained our whole high schools together to make it there. I’m happy you survived man, ppl that commit suicide seem to often be the kindest hearted ppl
Glad your still here brother!!! Sorry to hear all these negative events happened to you, but im glad your here and willing to share your experiences. People need to hear this.
I'm fortunate that I don't have suicidal feelings, but seeing this makes me want to be so much more aware of people who do. I'm very grateful to have heard this man talk.
I remember not understanding suicide. Or like anti depressant commercials as a kid. Then at some point in time I started to understand. I’ve never had the feeling of taking my life but I’ve been through some deep hurt that made me empathize. I don’t know what’s better being able to empathize or not understanding it at all. Cause I remember being so happy when I didn’t understand but now things are rough. I’m happy I’m able to empathize with it but I think if I could go back to being unaware of the horrors that come with just living life, I would.
I am truly honored and grateful to have Kevin come to my school to tell his story a few months back. As a student who struggles with mental health, his story is so inspiring and helps me at my lowest points. Thank you Kevin, thank you for saving so many lives ❤🙏
As a veteran of the Vietnam War and a retired Firefighter I commend you for what you did after the Jump...no doubt that action has saved more lives than the combined effort of the entire Fire Departments throughout the United States and they have saved many but preventable suicide is perhaps one of the top reasons many young people are not aware of nor here today. I WANT TO SAY AS A PARENT,GRANDPARENT,AND GREATGRANDPARENT THANKS. Your actions have unknowingly saved one of my family members life.
They could make a movie from this gentleman’s story of life events that he has been through. Absolute masterful explaining of his life. Truly unbelievable.
@@ryanbuckner2405 I went 72 hours with no sleep due to the fear of what I called “wasting life” it seems dumb but in my head sleep was a waste of time. I had one life to live and sleep wasted it. Obviously I was not ok mentally. By the end of it I was seeing things hearing things. I finally fell asleep vomiting over the toilet. I can’t imagine going through that
I went 7 days once, insomnia from opiate withdrawal. I smoked a round 2 ounces of pot during this period trying to bring on sleep but it didn't work. RLS is a bad part of withdrawal and it won't allow sleep. So I in quite a state after 7 days of constant pot smoking, no sleep and only toast to eat. The only good thing was that experience convinced me of the nature of opiates and what they can do to a person
Pretty sure I’ve seen this guy on a suicide documentary about suicide survivors. His story helped me so much to understand and forgive someone close to me who took his life 7 years ago. His man’s words about his instant regret after clearing the bridge makes me believe 100% that my loved one regretted his decision the moment after he made it and it was too late. Please if you’re feeling like ending your own life, please understand that you’re loved and people care. Your death *will* impact people, people you love, people you know, even people you don’t know. Suicidal tendencies are temporary and those feelings will fade and when they do you’ll be so thankful you didn’t go down that road. Ask for help. It’s ok. We’re all humans trying to survive. I speak from experience.
Perfectly said Tim. Condolences on your loss. From personal experience, I'm thankful I said the words before it was too late. My heart breaks for those who didn't 🙏
Ho my god that video made my day. 1-What a good human 2-What a good story-teller 3-Very honest and talk very well about mental health 4-Good advice to people who thinks about suicide 5--He makes me cry because I'm fighting depression now and it feels like he know what is like to don't feel right too. I understand why he is the 1% that survived from jumping from the golden gate, and i think that made is purpose. LOTS of respect for this guy. Love you all xxx
I love his “I need help now” method. I would add that you can use this for any other serious problem as well. Being a survivor of intense heroin addiction, I desperately wanted to just grab someone and say that I’m not well and need help. Nothing should stop anyone from doing so. It wasn’t until the day I sat down my girlfriend and parents, whom I had lied to for years telling them I am clean, and I said, “I’ve been using. I’m sick. I need help”. That was April 6, 2019, and I have been sober since that day. My life now is happier than ever. I’m getting married. I have a baby girl arriving next month. And it pains me so much to see obituaries on a near monthly basis of those I knew who didn’t make it. But it can be done, and yes it can be hard, but it can start very easily with just that “I need help now”.
I had to watch Kevin in a documentary when I was doing CBT and ERP for my severe and debilitating OCD. His story really helped me get through a lot and work on my issues and I'll be forever grateful to him.
Incredible interview, thank you for posting this. Prior to the pandemic I was on the edge just like he was, except I didn't jump. I was a stay at home dad with no outside assistance/interactions and the thought of my kids is what saved me. I sought help but I was met with indifference and each person was just trying to push me to the next step in the admin process. What eventually helped me ironically was the first pandemic lockdown where I live. I realized that the isolation of being a stay at home parent is what was really eating at my mental state, but now the whole world was in a similar state of mind. Friends who were dismissive of my texts and communication were now reaching out to me and telling me about how isolated they felt during the series of lock downs that we had. Thank you for helping others, thank you for helping me realize how lucky I am for not jumping.
Just coming out of a real bad patch myself. Suffered all my life, but, recently, for the first time, self harmed. I knew I had to reach out. I did. Thank you so much for posting this interview. Its already helping me right now. Its going to be a life long struggle for me, but we'll worth it. I hope I never stop reaching out.
My dad attempted to take his life and succeeded. I have no idea if he regretted it or not. There were signs, like bruising on his fingers from trying to loosen the rope around his neck but I do believe his soul is finally at peace, after battling his inner demons for so many year's
as someone who lost two cousins to suicide, I’m so glad you survived. losing someone like this is heartbreaking and i’m glad that it’s a topic that’s becoming less taboo. you are not alone. you are loved. you are worthy. ❤
I had a teacher in school who survived this jump as well. He’d take one class period every year to tell the story, and explain why he did it and what he was feeling. I’m very grateful he survived to share his story, as I’m sure it’s helped many of his students.
"Kevin you can't die here. You die here, no one's gonna know you didn't want to" This really hit me hard - I know too many beautiful people that have committed suicide and thinking this about them breaks my heart all over again ❤️ thank you for sharing your story and giving us some of the tools we need moving forward
I have issued those words to my husband, “I need help now”. And that day, I was admitted to a psych ward and those amazing people helped me to “cancel my plans”. I am so thankful for those people and for my husband, who apparently still wants me around! ❤
thank you kevin. i love you bro. im glad youre here. coming from a 21 yr old who did have ppl in high school come to talk about similar stuff, it helped me when i was just 15 and suicidal. i grew up in a mentally unstable family with many issues. thank you for talking to kids. even if they dont realize how much it helps them now, they will when theyre older. i appreciate you.
Thank you for telling your story. I relate deeply to that instant regret feeling. I am one of the lucky ones- I woke up on a ventilator in the ICU with 65 stitches. I couldn’t walk for a while. I saw the look on my mom’s face. My partner thought I was dead and nearly died himself that night because he didn’t care if he did or not. All that havoc and pain and suffering would have been indescribably larger if I had actually died. I still struggle with drug addiction and several mental illnesses. But I have not had the desire to Jill myself ever since then
I remember I had an experience like that. Someone I knew was suffering and I did nothing, and now I can't forget it. If you see someone suffering, if you see something, think "I'm here, so I have to do something" rather than turn your head and hope it goes away. If you're suffering, tell someone. But if someone's suffering in front of you, DO SOMETHING - talk to them, listen to them.
Not only am I thankful for Kevin having the courage to share his experiences but what an absolutely fantastic story teller he is. I could absolutely picture everything and it made me feel as though I was there watching the ordeal. Hopefully this story will make people think and save lives, whether that be hundreds of lives or one life, either will make a drastic difference to society.
Been depressed for quite some time and I have attempted suicide many times only stopping because I was too scared. This guy has shown me and many others that suicide is not the answer and never the answer.
Hearing you talk about the bud driver, bikers, runners, and police officers breaks my heart. I wish so badly people could get out of their own head and try to see if someone else is okay. I’ve fought with mental illness (bpd) and suicidal ideation for more than half my life. I’ve been through hell. But I’m also thankful because I’m still choosing to fight. And I’m still here
i watched the Golden Gate bridge documentary a few years back and heard Kevin's story there, it still makes me cry! I have suffered with Suicidal thoughts for over half my life and I totally understand where he is coming from. Props to him as it still feels like a stigmatised subject to talk about. Kevin, you have saved so many people with your story, including yourself and you should be proud
Sir, thank you for sharing your journey. This was a very moving recount of your story and I am thankful to be here to listen to it. I've taken ASIST - Applied Suicide Intervention Skills Training several times as I work with Youth and it has been very valuable. I always hope I never need it, but you just never know what people are going through. I hope you continue choosing to live daily and in pursuit of helping others choose the same.
I used to be so suicidal and now, right now in this moment, I feel so fortunate to be alive. Life is f-ing hard, but I’m so glad I get to experience it. The world is so big and there’s so many wonders to see. There’s so many people I love dearly. I’m even learning to love myself. Life is so weird. Be here to see tomorrow. It’s worth it.
Thank you for telling your story. I also jumped, but off my balcony... in a fit of impulse and rage at how unfair life can be. I am now permanently paralyzed waist down...but I am so lucky to have survived. I was 4 stories up and hit the frozen ground feet first...and I also remember every single millisecond of the fall. I am so glad you survived buddy❤ Love from Canada
My good friend lost a leg after jumping off a balcony in South Korea. He died on the table and almost lost his other leg and arm. Then. Korea held him hostage as a foreign national owing millions in hospital bills. When they let him leave he hesitated because he had fallen in love with his nurse. They held him again, and the nurse left him. Through it all he was such a goood friend to me when his problems were much greater than mine. I will never forget him. Sadly he passed after he was finally released to the US but at least he made it home and had several good years after the incident before his heart gave out. I miss him so much. I wish you all the best especially since your story reminds me of my friend.
@@AliciaGuitar I am so sorry to hear that. I appreciate you telling his story💜 Such a tragically common weight to bear...having debt from medical care. I pray he is at peace now.
This guy came to talk at my school! His story made me tear up from the bleachers, and some of the dark moments he talked about still help me find light in life to this day. He's a really good speaker, im glad he's doing better.
The similarities in this story and mine absolutely broke me. The bit about rocking on the floor in tears next to his sleeping father as he contemplated suicide… it’s the most lonely, horrible place you can possibly be.
After seeing this video it changed my life. It made me see what is real and people are there for you not matter how little or awful you feel someone can help. I spent an hour just thinking how much this one video is going to change my life.
Your childhood sounds so much like mine. I was in foster care most of my life, my father kidnapped me from my mother. He made me drink sour milk, and if I puked it up I would get the hell beat out of me. My brother was in a body cast most of my childhood from cerebral palsy corrective surgeries. Crazy life. I was sexually abused by many relatives, babysitters, my mother's friends etc. I'm not sure how I made it out alive, but I'm very grateful that I don't have suicidal thoughts. Thank you for sharing your story. God bless.
The Human race needs brave, courageous, awesome people like you Kevin, to save the lives of others. And for doing the work you do, you deserve a plentiful, healthy and happy life. Please keep fighting and getting the help you so much deserve.
I already knew his story, but if suffered with severe depression before and have also felt suicidal. This randomly came up in the background as I played video games and once it got to the part of him trying to reach out to his dad but couldn’t I broke down sobbing. I related to that so much, thank you for sharing your story and never stop ❤️
Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. A massive thank you to Kevin for telling his story. You can follow Kevin’s journey here: instagram.com/kevinhinesstory/
If you are feeling suicidal or want to talk to someone, please reach out to Samaritans, the free helpline is available 24/7: Call 116 123
thanks. i had a dream i jumped off the GG. theres signs all over it saying that "jumping off is fatal and tragic" and thats how i feel sometimes about waking up everday.
@@wrgbwrudskjfbfso5511 you are loved. It’s going to be okay x
He's a suicidal person who failed. 💯
I held my breath for this entire story.... Didn't even know I could do that. Please reach out for help if you need it. Anyone
Same here, didn't recognize him at first, but once I heard his story, it all came back. Truly deep, impactful story! Sounds like the guy has learned tons about his illness and has a lot of insight also. Glad to see him as a grown man.
Breaks my heart because I wonder how many other people who jumped to their death realised in the last few seconds that they made a mistake and they really didnt want to die... and they never got a chance to tell that to anyone... Kevin is a great storyteller, touched my heart...
I'd be willing to bet almost all of them regret it
@@shy604 yeah, i’m sure all of them honestly, i’ve seen interviews with other people who survived suicide attempts and all have talked about the same instant regret
@@rem672 mental illness is a nasty and ruthless creature. It tricks people into thinking they are prepared to die. The human body and brain are never prepared for such a thing. Survival instincts will always kick in and I is widely believed that every successful suicide attempt ends full of regret and sheer terror because of this. Whether that horrific moment can be worth the eternal peace for some can be debated, but those last seconds seem to universal to all and to me that is the most terrifying and heartbreaking aspect to any suicide or attempted suicide, apart from the pain and suffering for the family.
Yeah because when your life is in that grave danger, it's human nature to instantly 'feel' like you wanna fight to live, but only because you're in fight or flight mode, which overrides ALL the thoughts, feelings, reasons, rationale, & logic that brought you there in the first place. If you happen to live & come to, you'll probably wake up in the hospital. And once the novelty of medical care, treatment, & attention wears off quickly, in a few days to a week, reality hits again & all those feeling come right back.
@@1w598 Yup, it’s like when I go to the crisis center feeling suicidal, eventually I think about my dogs and my home and how much I want to get back. I usually feel great once I get home but that feeling quickly erodes when all of the issues that made me go to the crisis center come right back.
"Kevin you can't die here. You die here, no one's gonna know you didn't want to". One of the most hauntingly beautiful phrases I've ever heard. He's really a masterful storyteller, and I'm exceedingly glad he's gotten/getting the help, love, care and affection he wasn't brought into this world with.
...AND I BELIEVE THE POWER OF WORDS... 'GOD SAVE ME' BLOWS THE HELL OUT OF SATAN AND HIS DEMONS... EVERY BEING ON THIS PLANET SHOULD CALL ON THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST AND PUT SATAN AND HIS DEMONS ON THE RUN PERMANENT FOR EVER... AND PARENTS SHOW YOUR CHILDREN THE POWER AND LOVE OF GOD... AND STOP ENTERTAINING SATAN AND HIS DEMONS IN YOUR LIVES... BRING YOUR CHILDREN TO CHURCH OR READ GODS WORD TO THEM AND TEACH THEM HOW TO PRAY... AND BUILD THEM UP IN THE POWER OF JESUS CHRIST 'HIS WORD IS ALL POWERFUL AND CAN OBLITERATE THE POWER OF SATAN AND HIS DEMONS IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE'... IMMERSE YOUR CHILDREN IN THE POWER OF CHRIST BY LIVING IT EVERYDAY THROUGH HIS WORD HIS BOOK THE BIBLE BY GOOD CHURCHES AND PEOPLE AND THE POWER OF PRAYER... AMEN
@@memyself6360 but they do. It's not ego. If he had not survived that death would have devastated his parents and his friends around him for the rest of their lives. If he had died his parents would possibly ask until they died "what could I have done to save him, save my son?" You're looking at the statement at an incredibly superficial and shallow level. It's important to think about the meaning behind statements before blowing them off based on your first initial reaction.
@GarTree People may move on, but they do not forget.
He has an overly scripted way of speaking. I guess because he has reiterated the same spiel time and time again. More appealing to an American audience I suppose.
@@damianbutt4573 ...or heal
Hearing "I loved life" from a person who willingly decided to leave it really breaks something inside you
What did it break in you?
What did it break in you?
"willingly"
I wouldn't say willingly. His brain doesn't want to, but his body is forcing him
@@Crazyclay78YT...re-read your comment and verify it makes sense to you. I think you have your statement backwards.
If his brain was truly compromised the realization of the mistake to jump wouldn't have occurred.
I have a student that is extremely mentally ill and he has attempted suicide a few times. It is heart breaking. I asked him to watch the few interviews with this man. We then spoke. I told him I understand that not everyone will feel that regret, but I bet quite a few did. I reminded my student that he is loved by not only his biological family but also his school family and friends.
Thankfully this young man trusts me enough to confide in me when he is struggling and I will get him help each and every time.
Mental illness is no joke. It breaks my heart at how much some people suffer.
you are a godsend.
Its people like you who make the world a better place.
♥️
I suffer a lot. Everyday is a struggle. Also chronic pain. I have no reason to live cos i am alone and will always be. I cannot forgive myself for beeing like that.
I can appreciate your concern and efforts toward helping your student. But it's my understanding that you can't convince someone of the value of something simply by virtue of it being valued by yourself... or even by a majority. And, when one finds themself particularly deep in the abyss, the love of one's family/friends doesn't mitigate the problem that, for the suffering individual, the psychological agony of breathing for even the next five MINUTES can be unfathomable, unrelenting torture with no end. Ask me how I know.😶
12:15 “I believed I wanted to die, but I do desperately wanted to live”, As person that’s survived more than a dozen suicide attempts, this statement resonates with me deeply. I come back to this video a lot
I’m raising my hand with the Many people in your life who love and value you. If you are ever feeling down just remember that I too care for you and value every moment of your life. Keep up the good fight 💞
Poor pig
I don’t know you but I care enough about you to please ask you not to take your own life. You are unique, there is no one like you anywhere else in the world. Look… I don’t know you but I’m taking time to write to you because I care. God Bless.
Thanks for posting. I hope you can find the support that you need. Thinking of you xx
If you tried a dozen times, you didn't really try. It was a cry for attention and help.
I've seen this guy's story over and over again, and the way he breaks down everything is top notch. Big respect for this guy. 💪💪
there was on kid who jumped for a dare and survived.
@@tedcrilly46 omg wow
@@tedcrilly46 kinda insensitive to bring up when we're talking about suicide but ok
@@ferninthehouse nobody gives the slightest fk what you think. ok.
@@ferninthehouse how is what he typed insensitive? What am I missing
My last suicide attempt was a little over 11 years ago now... After my son was born and I finally understood what it meant to be a father, I decided to tell my mum why I had turned to drugs from such an early age… I decided to tell her the truth, that I was sexually abused by my biological father... I needed to ask her why she did not save me? When she told me that she had always suspected that was the case, it sent me over the edge… I could never imagine not saving my son if I had suspected something like that.
I spent my childhood attempting to cope with my childhood trauma via self-mutilation... I was desperate to feel anything other than the misplaced guilt and shame that had been forced upon my person, the sick irony of such a statement still manages to stir emotions of fear, embarrassment and confusion, with each physical laceration manifesting a scar, a scar that brings myself one step closer to complete annihilation of my psyche, as my soul seeps from the gaping wound.
Continuously blaming myself, like I must have done something wrong for that to happen. I used drugs to escape that pain, a pain that *NEVER* leaves or ceases, even now, I have become an expert at hiding my emotions behind various masks, each smile 'hiding the pain lest the mask slip and people see the broken boy behind the facade'. My son was a couple of months old at the time and the absolute terror that I might turn out like my father had gripped me by the throat and I felt like I was being pulled under, slowly drowning, so I had to end it all to ensure I could not only stop my own pain but potentially stop my son from being damaged (that was how I justified it to myself anyway) so I decided that ‘Fentanyl’ was the route I was going to go down. I had read that you simply slip away as you sleep, a fitting painless end to a life full of pain, I felt as if I had earned that much at least.
I woke up in the hospital, my wife gripping my hand and tears streaming down her face while holding my son who was laughing and smiling at his daddy… It was at that moment I finally saw the damage I had done, and I cried like a baby, I did not care about shame or embarrassment. Like Kevin Hines, I truly regretted my choice.
I had finally agreed to engage with mental health services and chose to be as honest as possible with my psychiatrist. Not long after, I was diagnosed with type 2 bipolar disorder… a medicated dad is the best kind of dad. I have so much to be thankful for… a loving, patient wife and a son who calls me his best friend. I am also grateful for my failed attempt because I needed to learn that lesson to become who I was always meant to be. I would be lying if I said the pain has gone, it never goes away, but I have more to live for as opposed to dying for.
Thank you for reading my story.
Wow. Thank you for sharing your story. Something similar happened with my mom. She saw I was more depressed than usual and immediately brought up that “thing that happened when you were younger” (also inappropriate behavior from a family member). She said she’s thought about it everyday for years. The day it happened I told my parents and we never spoke about it ever again. She would always ask “why don’t you like ___?” “do you feel uncomfortable around ____?”
Asking questions I didn’t even know she already knew the answer to.
You are crazy strong for ensuring what you have. I’m proud you were able to seek help, that takes balls.
That was powerful. Thank you for sharing your story
I’m so happy you are still here! Keep fighting
you are loved, keep fighting!!
I'm glad you failed as well... In your failing you ultimately succeeded in life!
My dad talked a stranger off the bridge about 20 years ago. I used to think someone must have lost their mind to do something like that. But having suffered with depression since then, I understand what it feels like to get to that point. Depression is no joke.
You just feel sorry for yourself, stop crying. Nobody cares
@@SeregaOrgan if you felt depressed for 5 minutes you would beg for it to stop. Its a level of suffering that no one can imagine unless you’ve felt it yourself. You can take meds for physical bodily pain but you cant escape your own mind. Now you can kindly delete your disgusting comment and go educate yourself on mental illness or never speak on it again with your ignorance
its fucking horrific
@@cosmic687 : ...to put it mildly.
Agreed, depression really drives you fucking crazy.
This just hit me so hard, I haven’t cried this much in years because I haven’t had the courage to deal with the pain. My dad jumped off a bridge and took his own life in 2019, and then soon after I attempted to take mine. I had got it in my head that I needed to uphold the family tradition because my dad and his dad (my grandpa), and my cousin all took their own lives. I was under a tremendous amount of stress, on the eve of homelessness, starving, 3000 miles away from my family. But somehow I reached out to a friend that called paramedics and got me to the hospital where I was admitted for 10 days. I feel ashamed of myself for that night, but the help I got made so much of an important difference in my life…. I wish my dad could have gotten the help he desperately needed.
that is alot to deal with X I'm glad you are still here xox hugs
You've nothing to feel ashamed for that night. You had the strength to reach out to a friend who got help for you. 💖
@@eshqa your response was so much more eloquent than mine,thank you well said.
@@debeichmann236
Thanks a lot for telling me, Deb. ✨ I don't see your response that you're referring to.
This is why I could never succumb to this because I know that if I did that my daughter's chances of doing it go up exponentially as well. I keep fighting the good fight because my love for her is pure and I value her. I know that my energy, wherever it goes, would be cognizant that I left her alone in this cruel plane of existence as well. It is so sad that mental sickness is not taken as seriously as physical though. We could save many if we did.
As a suicidal 29 year old woman, I watch these videos to break myself out of a spiral. Sometimes it’s so unbearable and feels like I could just go for it but I never want to experience an attempt 😰 if I have to cry so loud and hard for it to pass till the next day then so be it.
I love this guys story. Absolutely love it.
❤❤❤❤ Im glad you are here ❤❤❤❤
As someone who has been where you are, this will pass darling. I promise. Life will get better, just let the better in and take it day by day. Life can be so beautiful but so cruel. You got this x
We love you
Glad you are here
Glad you are here!
I lived in San Francisco years ago when I was in my twenties and i can remember walking accross golden gate bridge and feeling so proud of myself that I was in America and I could admire the wonderful view from the bridge looking accross the bay,it never dawned on me that people would want to jump off this bridge until I came accross what looked like i guess an emergency phone for anyone feeling that way!the point im making is one guy walks accross a bridge not a care in the world with the sun on his back and the world at his feet!another guy walks accross it with the weight of the world on his shoulders a cloud over his head and lead in his boots!so be kind and compassionate to everyone because you don't know what that person is going through!if you see someone in life who is distressed or struggling help them because some day that could be you,this guy kevin is an inspiration and he is going to save many peoples lives!bless him
Very true. You’ve said it all
Thats the way it is
Beautifully said
Lovely, thank you for showing both sides, I love how you see the greatness in life but understand the struggle. Really cool
Gosh! I ABSOLUTELY LOVED what you wrote (paraphrasing): “A person can walk across that bridge with the sun on his back and world at his feet; another with the weight of the world on his shoulders, a cloud over him and lead in his boots!” That’s just so incredibly ultimately true. We all wear a pair of glasses called “LIFE”; we ALL just view life when wearing those glasses differently; some people’s vision is crystal clear, some rosey and others shattered. I really love you comment and had to read it twice. Thank you for writing that message. It was so well written and someone needed to read that today. Your words were very inspiring as well and may help save someone’s life also. ❤
Huge thanks to @ladbible and Joshua Brown and your entire team for making this Minutes With LADBible Film a reality!
So incredibly grateful to work with all of you!
thank you for being here❤️ you’re story and presence means more then you will ever know to millions.
Thanks for taking part Kevin. Incredible story and a pleasure to have you on. The audience reaction has been so positive, wonderful to see.
Amazing story! I remember seeing you in the Golden Gate Bridge documentary a few years ago. How come you left the part out about the seal helping you to stay afloat? I thought that part was super miraculous and touching (along with the fact you even survived!).
big love man. you have an incredible way with words. this interview will stay with me for a long time.
Hi Kevin. Thanks for sharing. I'm wondering about a missing part of your story??? An animal rescued you?!?
"...a helpful Sea Lion that carried Hines on his back to shore, and encircled the injured young man until rescue teams arrived"?!?!
Oddly, a few hours after watching this LADBible video, I happened to come across your story a SECOND TIME today in another video by Facts Junkie called "12 Times Animals Saved Human Lives" here on youtube
Your story was amazingly heartwarming as it was, add the sea lion part, and it sounds like a tall tale!?!
Please confirm.
Props to your foster dad for raising such a humble man that's not afraid to be vulnerable
We watched a film called ‘The Bridge’ about suicides on Golden Gate Bridge when I was at university as a mental health nursing student. Kevin was interviewed for that. They put it on the big screen in a lecture hall full of students and every body cried, this was 2007 or 2008 and the suicide awareness he is sharing now is still just as relevant today as it was then. Good to see he is still sharing his story and trying to help others.
I saw that. Very powerful.
I watched that, unbelievably heartbreaking but needed to be put out there to show the world what is going on ❤️
I saw that film too a while back. Doesn't it open with someone actually jumping?
@@TheScaryTruthCatalyst they had a camera situated somewhere near the water watching the bridge for a whole year. They videoed lots of people jumping then they found out who the family’s were and interviewed some of them. The only person they filmed who survived was Kevin. So yes to answer the question. It does start with someone who actually jumped.
Bless him
My uncle killed himself 3 years ago at the age of 19, it tore our family to shreds and left us heartbroken. No note, no final last words and no explanation. This video gives me peace that maybe he had a change of mind when he jumped but couldn’t go back. I miss him everyday and I named my son after him❤
To me the most powerful thing he said, what really hit home for me, was that he continued to have involuntary stays in the psych ward AFTER the attempt. When he jumped off the bridge he didn't want to die but that didn't suddenly cure him. He continues to have suicidal ideation to this day. I felt such a sense of relief and gratitude that he shared that. I always feel so ashamed that I still struggle with the lies my brain tells me.
I do too. You are not alone.
That’s powerful and the truth right there that you said “the lies my brain keeps telling me” they are just lies.
As someone who suffers from ideations myself, I have to keep telling myself they are just lies. To not listen to the mean part of my brain.
@@BABiiB420
If relatives only know you at the holiday season then I can assure they DON'T care !
He came to my High School around 5 years ago or so and I got a chance to meet Mr. Hines. It was the first time I heard someone openly talk about things that I have observed in people that were close to me. It was the only school assembly that resonates with me.
That's really cool that your high school allowed that assembly.
WCHS?
I will never be able to thank the people enough when they saw me on the overpass with my leg over. They got off the freeway and drove up to me and started talking to me. Before that I had sat down on the road, there was no sidewalk or shoulder. As I stood up there and looked down, nor when I had my leg up and was getting ready. The thought came into my head that there was a high possibility that someone who was driving down the freeway would end up hurt, most likely dead. I had just sat down when they pulled up and stopped right there and got out, even though there was traffic behind them. They stayed and talked to me till I looked up and realized that there were police cars on either side of the overpass. I thought oh no, they are blocking traffic. I hope I didn't ruin anyone's day. Unknown to me until I stood up to walk to one of the officers, all lanes of the freeway on both sides had been shut down with multiple firetruck crews and squad cars. The lines of stopped traffic went on for as far as I could see. I felt so embarrassed and ashamed that I had impacted so many people like that. But in that short time of sitting down and crying, every single car that went by was just almost with the gust of wind in my face from it going by, "nobody cares," "they don't give a fuck." Then all the sudden, they did. I don't know for certain, how many more cars flying by hitting me in the face with the wind, it would have taken to get me back up on that railing. But the count was low. My story growing up was nowhere close to the horror he speaks of. I don't have voices in my head, I haven't been diagnosed with any mental illness. A growing depression, drinking, and feeling like I was a disappointment, a burden, and an overall feeling that anyone I knew would rather I not be around (which was completely wrong) and growing up in the age of, "if you talk about your feelings, you're a pussy. You're weak. Keep it to yourself and get really good at wearing that "happy mask" everywhere," was what we were told. What was portrayed in most movies. So I did that till I felt like I couldn't anymore. Those people in that car, if they weren't driving down that freeway at that time and just happened to look up from their phones to see me and choose that in that moment, my life was more important than their plans that day, are the reason I'm able to write this today. Thank you whoever you were. I love you with all my heart.
I'm so glad you're here with us. Hope you're okay!
You're meant to be here!
I’m so, so glad you’re here ✨
❤️ it takes a lot to share a truth like that…. But sharing stories is part of the human connection.
Feelings of defeat are real, and the more we share the less people will feel alone in their thoughts.
Take care!
Incredible story!!!! So glad you are here today
I feel you bro. I had a terrible childhood as well and for most these experiences ruin our adulthood just the same. A very tiny percentage of people can overcome terrible parents and live a normal happy life but for most it just kills something inside of you. I used to get mad at myself and think I lacked character for allowing things in my childhood affect me so greatly as an adult. As I've matured I now realize how important early childhood development is and the impact it has on ones whole life. I now realize it really isn't my fault that I am a bit fucked up and the problems I experience are not due to lack of character. Life is full of sad realities. I will never have a normal life because of my parents but I have found peace of mind and am mostly content now. I can live with this.
This is an important and necessary comment. Thank you. I’m glad you are here with us.
You could live a happy life if you really wanted too people can over come there past i really hope you can get trough this and live a happy life
Hello Tac, These words are coming from someone who had a wonderful upbringing and lost almost every bit of happiness overnight. "Time doesn’t heal pain". But God does. I am not sure if you're an atheist or believer! When you believe and submit to someone/something much much greater and capable then you, your mind starts to heal. It heals when you accept whatever happened, happened for a greater good. You can express your pains to God without being judged. It helped me heal. God helped me to cope.
@@Azzymantried Matthew 6:1
The brave yet deeply scarred, deserve attention and the upmost respect… but sadly, and I hate to state this.. most do not really overcome and live normal lives … they bottle it all up inside the worst place to hide/store things which is the consciousness.. the more we store sad,evil,guilty and negative thoughts,the more it grows and grows then eventually reaches over capacity and explodes causing rage, suicide, harm to self/others…people who study psychology are mainly taught this in the beginning of there college career
My father committed suicide by jumping off of the Tappan Zee Bridge. I’ve always wondered how he felt at that moment. Because he didn’t survive I hope he just felt free.
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We love you and your Father did too. The way his life ended doesn’t mean a damn thing, celebrate the good times. ❤️
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I know this comment is old but it's one of the most touching things I've ever come across on TH-cam. My condolences (no matter how belated) to you and your loved ones on the loss of your father. I hope you and your family are doing well despite such a tragic loss.
I'll keep you and yours in my thoughts and prayers. If you aren't a religious person, I hope the sentiments aren't lost as they are genuinely meant with good intention. 😊
This guy and his dad are both heroes. So many lives helped and changed for the better, amazing!
What an absolute miracle that a man who once wanted to end his life can now say that he loves life. This story is really touching and inspirational for those of us who struggle with suicidal ideation.
I really appreciate this guy sharing his story and giving clear instructions on suicide prevention. My brother went missing last year and from what the police have been able to put together it's likely he ended his life. He took action without contacting me but had he rang me I would have done anything to talk him out of what he was planning on doing. His absence has left a huge hole in our hearts and lives. If you are struggling with thoughts of killing yourself please tell someone. Whatever you're going through there are people who can help and who genuinely care ♡
Prayers to you and your family 🙏❤️, never give up on him, he may still be out there.
I’m sorry for your loss.
I hope maybe one day find your brother, at the very least you find out what happened to him, a very good friend of mine took his life last year by crashing his car on the motorway then running in front of a lorry, I wish he would of spoke to someone, it messes my head up thinking about what happened in his last moments, I think about him often
💓💓💓💓💓 I'm so sorry
If I'd not called to say goodbye to my mother I'd not be here today. So grateful. Even if it's to say goodbye. Tell someone.
This guy is the definition of a glow up, massive respect to him for his journey
“If you die here no one’s gonna know you didn’t want to” had me in tears. What an amazing man with a gut wrenching story. Thank you for sharing!
I love how he's not saying that he's now magically fixed and still struggles because we tell ourselves we need fixing but that only results in more disappointment. It's ok to just learn to cope the best we can and tell ourselves we deserve the help we need.
I had a full blown mental breakdown in January 2019. I was clearly in a crisis, but no one helped.
I was just living to focus on moment by moment to not harm myself. To not do anything I would regret.
I finally checked myself into an Intensive Outpatient Program.
I was diagnosed as bipolar in Early 2018, but I thought I was fine. I didn’t need to look into my condition and have that support group.
I discovered Kevin Hines during my healing journey in IOP and he helped me so much. No one is honest 100% about all their thoughts and feelings, and sometimes they don’t even know them themselves how to vocalize what is going on in their head (like what Kevin described).
Kevin vocalized the feelings I had for years, but didn’t know how to say what was happening in my head. I felt alone and didn’t want to say what the voices in my head said.
Kevin gave me the courage to say so, as did my peers and therapists at my IOP.
I am so thankful for them, and for Kevin specifically. He helped so much with opening up discussions and ideas to talk with my support system.
Kevin, if you read this, thank you.
I have much love and gratitude for you. So much.
I wish my son had sought help that day before he went to the railway lines. You are doing a great job helping others, thank you, I hope you can save lots of people and help them to continue to live.
May he Rest In Peace.
❤ so sorry x
My condolences and prayers to you Sylvia with the loss of your Son. 😢
What a horrible thing to lie about. What parent says "I wish my son sought out help" instead of "I wish I could've seen the signs to help"? And the worst what parent nonchalantly tells online strangers the graphic way their son took his own life? "He went to the railway lines" The mentally ill people who live on this channel are a dime a dozen.
Back in 1983, my friend attempted suicide. He was placed in a psych hospital for a mandatory 72 hours, then was released. Then soon after, he succeeded. I miss him still to this day, and think about him often.
@@Raxs0G Thanks
They don't do nearly enough to keep people who are currently a risk to themselves safe. I'm sorry to hear what happened to your friend.
God Rest Your Earthly Friends Soul Amen xxxxxxx Home To Heaven Amen xxxxxxx With Our Ever Growing Ever Loveing Heavenly Family Amen xxxxxxx
The system does fail more than it should, I took a friend to hospital a couple of weeks ago they released him, we had to get a road shut down as he was going to jump from a bridge into on coming traffic..
Unfortunately this is not the only time I know of the local services failing.
Really sorry for your lose.
@@tvathome562 Thanks for your sentiment. My friend took his life in a non-violent manner...he parked his car on a beautiful river bank, then ran a hose from the exhaust pipe of his car into the interior...then, just let it idle as he died from carbon monoxide poisoning.
Another friend of mine...just a few years ago...his son took his own life with a gun to his head...and the absolute worst part is that he did it in front of his parents (my friend and his wife) while sitting across from them at the kitchen table. I honestly cannot comprehend how my friend is able to keep it together after this. I do not think of it often...it is too dark...too painful to dwell on.
Dealing with suicide right now..my sons teacher is out because her son committed suicide. He could not deal with the isolation that happened during the pandemic and suffered for years in silence. So at the age of 6 my son and I have had this conversation about suicide and how you should ask for help, nothing is so bad that you have to take your life.
Thinking of you. I hope you and your son are doing well.
Your dad seems like a world class dude glad you lived for him
I couldn’t tell if that was bio or adopted dad
@@Monkeyatemysoul23adopted dad
I heard his story many years ago. So glad he is here to tell the tale and I hope he is still enjoying life
Thanks for sharing. I tried to end it three times in my life and in these last seconds, when I thought it was too late, I felt regrets. Today, I am treated for bipolar disorder, I am not happy about life but I don't dislike it anymore. I go and raise awareness for mental health issues and I listen. If you ever meet anyone suicidal, what can make a difference is to listen, understand and not judge. A small talk can go a long way. A difference between life and death. Seeking help is OK, it doesn't mean you are crazy or weak. It happens to everyone, you are not alone.
Thank you for hanging in there and sharing
Keep your head up man👏🙏
Thank you for sharing. Far too often, especially for men, the idea of getting help seems weak and pathetic. What help actually means is that you are human and you have the courage to seek help when needed and you’ve got the balls to take these challenges head on. Ignoring it doesn’t mean you’re strong. Recognizing the challenge and acting upon those challenges shows true strength.
TIM TIM TIMMYYYYY
I'm so pleased you are here, and so are the people you listen to. It's not weak to speak it's brave to say I'm hurting but I'm going to win and with help you will.
This was so powerful. I'm going to show this video to my high school students. Thank you Kevin for sharing your story, you're saving lives.
I could’ve used a video like this in high school. thank you for thinking of your students
Your brother is your guardian angel. I've heard this story a couple times and it always makes me tear up.
Wow he tells his story so professionally just like reading a really good book.
Kevin, I watched your story years ago but learned so much more here today. Half way through, sobbing, I called my 33 year old son into my room, a wonderful, kind young man who has struggled with acute schizophrenia since the age of ten, who has heard and still hears all those horrible voices who hate him, voices that told him over and over to kill himself when he was younger, and who now manages his illness and lives a happy life with me ..I called him in and thanked him for never taking his own life. I think it had been a long time since I had said that to him. He reminded me that when he was a teenager, I made him promise never to do that and he stuck to it. Kevin, you are an amazing ,generous man to do this segment. I wish you nothing but peace, prosperity and happiness all the days of your precious life. And to everyone else, be conscious of all those around you because we get too caught up and often don't notice what is right in front of us. All we have to look out for each other, strangers and all. It is the only hope for humanity. Love , above all else, will always be the answer. God help us all.
Had 2 suicides in my family and I just want to say … if anyone out there is struggling no matter how hard it may be please speak to someone please every life is precious
Sometimes no one cares
@@WholeHeartily always someone out there just keep looking for that help and never give up on yourself
My family also has a history of mental health struggles. I have a history of suicidal thoughts, most intensely in 6th and 7th grade. I never attempted, but those two years of my life were a hell that my own mind trapped me in. Since then I’ve gotten the help I needed, and I’m grateful for everything and everyone I know. I still go into recessions sometimes, but I’m never going to forget the fear in my mothers eyes when she saw the pain I was in, and how much I am loved.
I don’t have some crazy traumatic upbringing, I’m not a war veteran, I’m just an autistic/ADHD teenager. You are never alone, no matter how alienated you may feel. You are a human, and that in itself gives you worth. ❤️
My 29 year old grandson is severely suicidal and has been all his adult life. His 'big dream' is to jump off the Golden Gate Bridge. He claims he just does not have the money to get there. Your story moved me to write that I did not know that anyone ever survived actually doing it. I will share your story with him soon. God blessed you in your pain. I believe he too would cry out to God. He may also be lucky enough to survive. I hope that he never gets enough money to make that awful decision from Iowa. Thank you and your father for boldly sharing your tragic experiences of how it was to live through such an event. I am pretty sure that a lot of people will benefit from your newfound wisdom before it is too late for them too. God bless you and keep up the good work. Your message is important!
I love that he says he continues to need help instead of putting on an act that he's 'fixed' now. Makes me less scared to ask for help after I've been told I should have been healed by now
Mental health isn't something to be simply fixed its something to learn to cope with and having the right help and people around you is the most important thing. It's ok to ask for help no shame in doing so because we all deserve to live a happy life❤️
Never ever feel scared to ask for help. I did and it saved my life.
This espiode hits hard I'm a reccent bridge survivor and still coming to terms with recovery and my injuries. This guy is amazing so very strong telling your story as its not easy x
Glad you made it through
Glad you are here
Peace and love
We love you Hannah so happy you’re here
I hope you’re doing well and thriving Hannah 😊
Heard his story a few times before, but I don't think I ever needed to hear it more than I needed to today. So thank you, everybody involved. Truly.
Hope u good
Hope you are okay friend.
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wow. im lost for words. this was hands down THE best and most important interview you have ever done
So much respect for this guy. He might not realize it, but this world is a better place with him and his story in it.
Your video made me pick up the phone to the Samaritans because I was feeling suicidal. Thank you my friend. I’ve got bi polar but having hope is so important
I'm suffering from depression and severe anxiety since I was a teenager, stuff like this help me believe jump would just bring more misery and pain to everyone I know.
Please keep fighting you are meant to be here
Jesus loves you
You're loved ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤!!!
YOU'RE WONDERFUL 💙💙💙💙💙💙💙
Yeah that's pretty much me. I think my depression has gotten better but my anxiety has gotten worse and I hate that. Depression I can deal with but anxiety I can't. But I will deal with it and tell my dumb brain to go fuck itself for doing this to me.
I believe his early childhood did have a profound effect on him. Like he said, it played a big role in his mind breaking. But from the moment he was born and thereafter, until he was adopted at least, his very survival was under threat and though a baby, he was aware of it. He never felt safe in those early formative years. As the saying goes; give me a child until he’s seven and I’ll give you the man. Kevin, like many of us, truly are the unsung heroes.
Aristotle was a wise man, beautiful and true quote
I cannot imagine what kind of trauma this brave guy had from his childhood. It’s makes me take another look at my life and be grateful for life. So glad he’s alive and hope his life is amazing now
My close friend jumped off the building at Brown University where he was a d1 athlete. We trained our whole high schools together to make it there. I’m happy you survived man, ppl that commit suicide seem to often be the kindest hearted ppl
This guy actually came to our high school to talk about his amazing experience.
Glad your still here brother!!! Sorry to hear all these negative events happened to you, but im glad your here and willing to share your experiences. People need to hear this.
I'm fortunate that I don't have suicidal feelings, but seeing this makes me want to be so much more aware of people who do. I'm very grateful to have heard this man talk.
I remember not understanding suicide. Or like anti depressant commercials as a kid. Then at some point in time I started to understand. I’ve never had the feeling of taking my life but I’ve been through some deep hurt that made me empathize. I don’t know what’s better being able to empathize or not understanding it at all. Cause I remember being so happy when I didn’t understand but now things are rough. I’m happy I’m able to empathize with it but I think if I could go back to being unaware of the horrors that come with just living life, I would.
I am truly honored and grateful to have Kevin come to my school to tell his story a few months back. As a student who struggles with mental health, his story is so inspiring and helps me at my lowest points. Thank you Kevin, thank you for saving so many lives ❤🙏
As a veteran of the Vietnam War and a retired Firefighter I commend you for what you did after the Jump...no doubt that action has saved more lives than the combined effort of the entire Fire Departments throughout the United States and they have saved many but preventable suicide is perhaps one of the top reasons many young people are not aware of nor here today. I WANT TO SAY AS A PARENT,GRANDPARENT,AND GREATGRANDPARENT THANKS. Your actions have unknowingly saved one of my family members life.
They could make a movie from this gentleman’s story of life events that he has been through. Absolute masterful explaining of his life. Truly unbelievable.
Not sleeping in 14 days is a horrifying feat to accomplish. God bless this man and his tremendous story!
I survived 9 days with zero sleep in a horrific bout of insomnia. It was one of, if not the worst experience of my life.
@@ryanbuckner2405 I went 72 hours with no sleep due to the fear of what I called “wasting life” it seems dumb but in my head sleep was a waste of time. I had one life to live and sleep wasted it. Obviously I was not ok mentally. By the end of it I was seeing things hearing things. I finally fell asleep vomiting over the toilet. I can’t imagine going through that
@@ryanbuckner2405 yeh I went 12 days and literally felt so weird it’s hard to explain
I went 7 days once, insomnia from opiate withdrawal. I smoked a round 2 ounces of pot during this period trying to bring on sleep but it didn't work. RLS is a bad part of withdrawal and it won't allow sleep. So I in quite a state after 7 days of constant pot smoking, no sleep and only toast to eat. The only good thing was that experience convinced me of the nature of opiates and what they can do to a person
This man really knows how to tell a story, I couldn't miss a millisecond of his incredible yet tragic past.
Pretty sure I’ve seen this guy on a suicide documentary about suicide survivors. His story helped me so much to understand and forgive someone close to me who took his life 7 years ago. His man’s words about his instant regret after clearing the bridge makes me believe 100% that my loved one regretted his decision the moment after he made it and it was too late.
Please if you’re feeling like ending your own life, please understand that you’re loved and people care. Your death *will* impact people, people you love, people you know, even people you don’t know. Suicidal tendencies are temporary and those feelings will fade and when they do you’ll be so thankful you didn’t go down that road. Ask for help. It’s ok. We’re all humans trying to survive. I speak from experience.
Perfectly said Tim. Condolences on your loss. From personal experience, I'm thankful I said the words before it was too late. My heart breaks for those who didn't 🙏
I saw the documentary too years ago maybe a decade, i can't find the title online though.
It’s a documentary called The Bridge.
Perfectly said ❤️
@nah I’m so triggered by this comment too
Ho my god that video made my day.
1-What a good human
2-What a good story-teller
3-Very honest and talk very well about mental health
4-Good advice to people who thinks about suicide
5--He makes me cry because I'm fighting depression now and it feels like he know what is like to don't feel right too.
I understand why he is the 1% that survived from jumping from the golden gate, and i think that made is purpose.
LOTS of respect for this guy.
Love you all xxx
I love his “I need help now” method. I would add that you can use this for any other serious problem as well.
Being a survivor of intense heroin addiction, I desperately wanted to just grab someone and say that I’m not well and need help. Nothing should stop anyone from doing so. It wasn’t until the day I sat down my girlfriend and parents, whom I had lied to for years telling them I am clean, and I said, “I’ve been using. I’m sick. I need help”. That was April 6, 2019, and I have been sober since that day. My life now is happier than ever. I’m getting married. I have a baby girl arriving next month. And it pains me so much to see obituaries on a near monthly basis of those I knew who didn’t make it. But it can be done, and yes it can be hard, but it can start very easily with just that “I need help now”.
I had to watch Kevin in a documentary when I was doing CBT and ERP for my severe and debilitating OCD. His story really helped me get through a lot and work on my issues and I'll be forever grateful to him.
Incredible interview, thank you for posting this. Prior to the pandemic I was on the edge just like he was, except I didn't jump. I was a stay at home dad with no outside assistance/interactions and the thought of my kids is what saved me. I sought help but I was met with indifference and each person was just trying to push me to the next step in the admin process. What eventually helped me ironically was the first pandemic lockdown where I live. I realized that the isolation of being a stay at home parent is what was really eating at my mental state, but now the whole world was in a similar state of mind. Friends who were dismissive of my texts and communication were now reaching out to me and telling me about how isolated they felt during the series of lock downs that we had. Thank you for helping others, thank you for helping me realize how lucky I am for not jumping.
Just coming out of a real bad patch myself. Suffered all my life, but, recently, for the first time, self harmed. I knew I had to reach out. I did. Thank you so much for posting this interview. Its already helping me right now. Its going to be a life long struggle for me, but we'll worth it. I hope I never stop reaching out.
My dad attempted to take his life and succeeded. I have no idea if he regretted it or not. There were signs, like bruising on his fingers from trying to loosen the rope around his neck but I do believe his soul is finally at peace, after battling his inner demons for so many year's
Mine died the same way
as someone who lost two cousins to suicide, I’m so glad you survived. losing someone like this is heartbreaking and i’m glad that it’s a topic that’s becoming less taboo.
you are not alone. you are loved. you are worthy. ❤
As a dad I'd hate for my kids to feel like this. I hope I'm doing my best to raise my 2 girls.
I don't usually cry watching TH-cam, but today I did.
I had a teacher in school who survived this jump as well. He’d take one class period every year to tell the story, and explain why he did it and what he was feeling. I’m very grateful he survived to share his story, as I’m sure it’s helped many of his students.
Teaching made me suicidal. Idk how the rate for teachers isn’t higher
"Kevin you can't die here. You die here, no one's gonna know you didn't want to"
This really hit me hard - I know too many beautiful people that have committed suicide and thinking this about them breaks my heart all over again ❤️ thank you for sharing your story and giving us some of the tools we need moving forward
I have issued those words to my husband, “I need help now”. And that day, I was admitted to a psych ward and those amazing people helped me to “cancel my plans”. I am so thankful for those people and for my husband, who apparently still wants me around! ❤
you and your husband are amazing and I am so glad you are still here 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
Of course he wants you around 😊
thank you kevin. i love you bro. im glad youre here. coming from a 21 yr old who did have ppl in high school come to talk about similar stuff, it helped me when i was just 15 and suicidal. i grew up in a mentally unstable family with many issues. thank you for talking to kids. even if they dont realize how much it helps them now, they will when theyre older. i appreciate you.
Thank you for telling your story. I relate deeply to that instant regret feeling. I am one of the lucky ones- I woke up on a ventilator in the ICU with 65 stitches. I couldn’t walk for a while. I saw the look on my mom’s face. My partner thought I was dead and nearly died himself that night because he didn’t care if he did or not. All that havoc and pain and suffering would have been indescribably larger if I had actually died. I still struggle with drug addiction and several mental illnesses. But I have not had the desire to Jill myself ever since then
We love you Emma so happy you’re here
Your story is golden. And so are you. Keep telling it and may your life be blessed.
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Emma we love you and care for you hope you and your partner are ok❤
“You are valued, you are loved you are worthy”. I didn’t know I needed to hear those words at the end of the video but man, that really helped me.
Sensitivity is common amongst those who have been abandoned. What a man, what a story 🙏❤️
I remember I had an experience like that. Someone I knew was suffering and I did nothing, and now I can't forget it.
If you see someone suffering, if you see something, think "I'm here, so I have to do something" rather than turn your head and hope it goes away.
If you're suffering, tell someone. But if someone's suffering in front of you, DO SOMETHING - talk to them, listen to them.
First watched him roughly 10 years ago and everytime I am bawling when he talks about the love he has with his dad. It is amazing to watch him💚
Not only am I thankful for Kevin having the courage to share his experiences but what an absolutely fantastic story teller he is. I could absolutely picture everything and it made me feel as though I was there watching the ordeal. Hopefully this story will make people think and save lives, whether that be hundreds of lives or one life, either will make a drastic difference to society.
“I need to be here, or I won’t be here” Phew. That was powerful
OMG, I'm really emotional with your history...I'm so glad you are alive!
He talks about the experiences with such a genuine feeling. I’m sure he’s told it hundreds of times, but it really got through to me. ♥️
Been depressed for quite some time and I have attempted suicide many times only stopping because I was too scared. This guy has shown me and many others that suicide is not the answer and never the answer.
Hearing you talk about the bud driver, bikers, runners, and police officers breaks my heart. I wish so badly people could get out of their own head and try to see if someone else is okay. I’ve fought with mental illness (bpd) and suicidal ideation for more than half my life. I’ve been through hell. But I’m also thankful because I’m still choosing to fight. And I’m still here
I was so concerned to watch this, but what an incredible gift it was to me. Thank you, Kevin.
That moment of regret right after someone jumps is what is most haunting to me. I wish so badly they could still be here like this amazing guy is.
i watched the Golden Gate bridge documentary a few years back and heard Kevin's story there, it still makes me cry! I have suffered with Suicidal thoughts for over half my life and I totally understand where he is coming from. Props to him as it still feels like a stigmatised subject to talk about.
Kevin, you have saved so many people with your story, including yourself and you should be proud
Sir, thank you for sharing your journey. This was a very moving recount of your story and I am thankful to be here to listen to it. I've taken ASIST - Applied Suicide Intervention Skills Training several times as I work with Youth and it has been very valuable. I always hope I never need it, but you just never know what people are going through. I hope you continue choosing to live daily and in pursuit of helping others choose the same.
His delivery is amazing.. really hooked me along
Agreed
Wow. When he said 'god please save me', I choked up. Masterful storytelling. ❤️ Much love, Kevin.
I used to be so suicidal and now, right now in this moment, I feel so fortunate to be alive. Life is f-ing hard, but I’m so glad I get to experience it. The world is so big and there’s so many wonders to see. There’s so many people I love dearly. I’m even learning to love myself. Life is so weird. Be here to see tomorrow. It’s worth it.
Deluded
Thank you for telling your story. I also jumped, but off my balcony... in a fit of impulse and rage at how unfair life can be. I am now permanently paralyzed waist down...but I am so lucky to have survived. I was 4 stories up and hit the frozen ground feet first...and I also remember every single millisecond of the fall. I am so glad you survived buddy❤ Love from Canada
My good friend lost a leg after jumping off a balcony in South Korea. He died on the table and almost lost his other leg and arm. Then. Korea held him hostage as a foreign national owing millions in hospital bills. When they let him leave he hesitated because he had fallen in love with his nurse. They held him again, and the nurse left him. Through it all he was such a goood friend to me when his problems were much greater than mine. I will never forget him. Sadly he passed after he was finally released to the US but at least he made it home and had several good years after the incident before his heart gave out. I miss him so much. I wish you all the best especially since your story reminds me of my friend.
@@AliciaGuitar I am so sorry to hear that. I appreciate you telling his story💜 Such a tragically common weight to bear...having debt from medical care. I pray he is at peace now.
Jesus dude. I’m sorry to hear that.
Im glad you are still here with all of us ❤
@@hangoutwithme346 awww..thank you so much
I've lost numerous family members and even more friends to suicide, I'm glad this man survived and went on to save other people, what a great man 🙏
Kevin, glad you are still with us, the world needs you.
This guy came to talk at my school! His story made me tear up from the bleachers, and some of the dark moments he talked about still help me find light in life to this day. He's a really good speaker, im glad he's doing better.
The similarities in this story and mine absolutely broke me. The bit about rocking on the floor in tears next to his sleeping father as he contemplated suicide… it’s the most lonely, horrible place you can possibly be.
This guy's story is incredible, he is also gifted at telling it.
He’s probably told it 3 million times. It’s kind of rote. It’s like script.
So happy you are here today to tell your story . You are an amazing person
After seeing this video it changed my life. It made me see what is real and people are there for you not matter how little or awful you feel someone can help. I spent an hour just thinking how much this one video is going to change my life.
Your childhood sounds so much like mine. I was in foster care most of my life, my father kidnapped me from my mother. He made me drink sour milk, and if I puked it up I would get the hell beat out of me. My brother was in a body cast most of my childhood from cerebral palsy corrective surgeries. Crazy life. I was sexually abused by many relatives, babysitters, my mother's friends etc. I'm not sure how I made it out alive, but I'm very grateful that I don't have suicidal thoughts. Thank you for sharing your story. God bless.
The Human race needs brave, courageous, awesome people like you Kevin, to save the lives of others.
And for doing the work you do, you deserve a plentiful, healthy and happy life.
Please keep fighting and getting the help you so much deserve.
I already knew his story, but if suffered with severe depression before and have also felt suicidal. This randomly came up in the background as I played video games and once it got to the part of him trying to reach out to his dad but couldn’t I broke down sobbing. I related to that so much, thank you for sharing your story and never stop ❤️