The newest news was this one btw: "Thankyou everyone for the well wishes. Ren is out of A&E and at home resting and in the care of specialists to figure out the next step in managing his condition."
From listening to Knox who was with Ren at the time, I think it is safe to say that the legal situation which Ren was plunged in as soon as he got home was an enormous unwanted stress and I would guess it was this that really tipped things over the edge as it was clear for many to see (and Ren said himself too) that he was really happy to be home and spending time with his friends. From what I understand in this recent shoot, they got a lot of it done but Ren suffered an autoimmune attack to his eye (maybe through where he has has a previous injury) which kicked off other symptoms. He is now back home and recovering but is likely to have a year or two antibiotic regime to contend with and having to manage this going forward too. He has been told he may have to adjust his lifestyle to reduce stress (very difficult when you have ADHD and are a perfectionist). It just seems it's going to be another part of his life he will have to manage and learn from flare ups what he can and can't do. Rest assured his team are on it and I think it is safe to say that the latest video short released by Connor yesterday on Ren's twitter was maybe a nod for us all - an excerpt of It's Alright from the Big Push.
Yo, Michael. It’s 4 in the morning here and I happen to be awake. I’ve been avoiding listening to anyone talk about Ren’s situation but immediately jumped on this video. I didn’t realize how much I trust you. So, thank you for that. When I read Ren’s posts, I felt such deep concern and sadness. I feel like Ren is always racing against the clock. I just wish he could feel relaxed and confident enough to enjoy some lazy, slow days with friends. I wish him peace of mind and I have faith that he will pull through this.
Not much more to say Mike… this is breaking all of our hearts… Ren has become such an integral part of our lives these few years. It’s so much more than the music… we all think of him as a friend, a brother etc.. we have grown to love him which honestly was not hard at all.. I have loved a lot of music throughput the years, but have never been as invested emotionally in someone like I have Ren… he truly is special and we all pray or what ever good intentions we have put them out there for him… we love yo Ren… thanks Mike always… 🫶🏻🌻🫶🏻
Ren was amazing at SGP Gutted for him with the audio, his poor health & MH Just hope & pray he rests & next treatment successful. He's having a right time of it lately, my heart hurts for him 💔😔
Auto immune issues can take years to learn to cope with. It's really hard when you start to feel ok and in excitement end up over doing it and relapse. You have to learn to pace yourself. I'm 60 and lived with auto immune issues my whole life. It's a balancing act. Best of luck Ren. Yo thanks Michael 👌
I feel like this is so similar to when he saw the golden ring and got signed, only to have it snatched away by his illness. Only now, it's just on a bigger scale. But the good news is that we all have his back and aren't going anywhere ❤
True Renegades aint going anywhere lol... Ren has such resilience and his fan base isn't just there for him as a Musician, we are there for him as a "proper human being", we are there for him as he has inspired us and has been an aspirational influence for many many people and absence, will just make the heart grow fonder for his return. His team will be managing his accounts, he has music available to release so can remain "relevant" to the fair weather fans. I just hope he takes the time to heal properly.
Ren's quite famous for his typos even in better times (and in his current state before the A&E situation no wonder it shows even more), so Michael is right, it is "agoraphobia" - which is exactly what you describe.
He definitely meant agoraphobia. My heart breaks for Ren. I've cried several times over Ren's condition. Please, everybody, pray for Ren. I'm not a religious person, but prayers can't hurt. 🙏 ❤
The stress of the Kujo situation no doubt impacted his health far more than he was probably able to process at the time. To be trying to organise the performances, recording and writing new music while also attempting to navigate abnormal legal issues, would burn anyone out, let alone someone with chronic health issues. I hope he becomes ok with slowing down again.
His friends are operating his SM accounts due to an acute eye problem caused by autoimmunity. (I suppose he has to spare his eyes now to let it heal properly.) And of course, we can wait. We will wait as long as needed. I think Ren's ADHD plus the feeling of his health slipping through his fingers again might cause some kind of anxiety and need to hasten things as much as possible before going away to deal with everything health-wise. We can speculate about some mania, yes, but it could be simply the combo of the above. Either way - it's just a Ferrari in a traffic jam again. And I'm really sorry for that. Must be extremely difficult to feel slightly better, to come back home, full of energy and ideas and stuff - and everything taken away all over again. And eff the dang greedy K. for making everything so much worse for nothing! 💙
Agoraphobia is what it sounds like. I’ve got a mean case of it after years at home because of really crappy health, including an autoimmune issue myself. I agree about the possible mania. It could very well be because of his condition coming back with a vengeance but likely it combined with the incredible stress he’s been under from both internal and external sources. 💜
Yeah I know what agoraphobia is but it was written “Agrophobia”. Yeah what he’s done is a lot for anyone let alone someone who has been hidden away in recovery for a long time. Man that sucks about your health as well….I hope better days lay ahead for you. Sending love. ✌️
@@michaelgoyettemusic I wouldn’t have known for sure but it reminded me of all of his discussion about his bedroom being his tomb in his Chapters series. Thanks for the kind words.
In the UK we pronounce it as Agraphobia. I've only heard Ameriicans pronounce it as Agorophobia. Obviously, with advent of social media, younger Brits are using American versions as with a lot of speech e.g. shedule and schedule. Nice to see you.
Yeah, today was the first time I heard it pronounced "agoraphobia" which sound like an affliction of ancient Greeks who were afraid of being seen in the town square.
As someone with severe chronic illness, I feel a lot of what he's saying is pretty on the nose. Every time I relapse or get worse I find myself pushing too hard. I don't want to fall behind again, and once I'm better, I don't want to be rushing to catch up. There's a certain denial it's happening even if you know better and it's hard to overcome that. I often don't truly listen to myself and slow down until I'm absolutely forced to. I get very overwhelmed and almost hyper about it wanting to believe it won't be as bad this time. In the end though I have to listen to my body or I'll suffer even more. I get the feeling that's what Ren is going through and that it's a painfully normal response. I cried when he said he was having more trouble again. I know the feeling all too well. I hope he can get the rest and care he needs so he can continue to do what he loves. ❤️
Yo Michael think his ADHD drives him too, partucularly the hyperactive element. I can understand why he wants to complete as much as possible. At least he'll have something to release while he's away, as he did last year.
Agoraphobia is fear of leaving the home or somewhere safe, I suffer from it. I wont even leave the home for food shopping, going for a walk, will cancel appointments, unless urgent and only then will I go if my husband comes with me. Ren has a milder version, if he doesn't need to leave the home for something important he wont, but I guess with a bit of persuasion or discipline he can work through it and leave the home. Discipline is important to work through this, as he and his friends will be telling him its going to be fine, nothing will happen etc. however he will probably have anxiety. Its our brains silly way of thinking it needs to keep us safe, when it actually hinders us from living. Its so easy to succumb to Agoraphobia if you say to yourself, meh I don't need to, cant be bothered. Its raining, I feel in my gut something bad will happen, Using every excuse you can find not to leave the home. This is my experience but mine is severe and I don't have Ren's determination, discipline and strength. I am sending lots of positive thoughts his way.
Even a perfectly healthy body is likely to implode with so much stress.Especially in his condition. On the one hand the excitement for his work and projects, on the other all the problems especially for the situation of sick boi. Without forgetting, being a perfectionist himself, the weight of his fans' expectations (and sometimes the need to call to order those a little more "extreme")
Thougj the update didn't make it onto TH-cam, some of his other social media was updated yesterday. 21 hours ago this was on his Facebook: "Thank you everyone for the well wishes. Ren is out of A&E and at home resting and in the care of specialists to figure out the next step in managing his condition ❤️" A clip from The Big Push's "It's Alright" was also published... I think here on TH-cam, but I can't verify that while posting. It specifically included the part about things maybe not working out today, but it's alright. Definitely still concerning, but I feel like the message is that his friends have him. We just have to trust that he gathered really good people to him and they're willing to step up - and step in - when they need to. He's spoken about how he trusts his group and is willing to take criticism and critique from them. So if anyone can keep him balanced above and beyond removing some stressors, it will be them.
When you've so much potential and want to achieve so much, everything opening up for you and have lost so much time to illness already it must be very hard not to overdo things trying to make up for lost time. Ren said himself he knew there had been some burnout and started reigning in the targets but pushed himself a bit too far this time. Even without the underlying infection and unresolved vulnerabilities a person could run too fast and hit the same roadblocks. But when you're driven it's easy to try to power through minor burnout after minor burnout again and again until you get taken out by a health episode. Many of us have done it. As others have said, what sets him apart is that his music is not fickle - and growing "fan base" is not a fleeting one. He needs to believe that affords him time industry-backed artists are often denied... and to have faith he can once again turn adversity into positivity. Which I am sure he will. ❤ Gutted for him nonetheless.
I think he NEEDS to work, it’s the thing that pushes him forward, what keeps him motivated to go on. But, with that being said, he also needs to take it easier. Not stop working completely, but not asking so much of himself either. He needs to balance it.
He did hint in one of his IG stories a while back, about avoiding the stress by adding more things to do to avoid/ignore it, and joked that it’s all fine while twitching. I thought at the time ‘many a true word is said in jest’, and was probably heading for something.
As someone who has dealt with many of the same issues as Ren, I also saw the changes in his wording and the rushed nature of it, letting me think things were getting rough. I myself notice the signs of when my own shit is going off the rails. He says in Animal Flow that he gets sick when he's stressed, and we all know the stress he was under. Thank you for making me feel like I wasn't just reaching. You, as a songwriter, would notice his change is phrasing and the internal tempo of his thought process. ❤
Well said mike, can see you care as deeply as we all do with how he is doing. Hopefully this isn't too much of a setback and that this next phase of treatment proves to be successful. He is clearly strong mentally to have got through all the difficulties he has faced over the years, just now he may have to make adjustments to how hard he pushes himself and his body moving forward to manage the situation Get Well Sickboi!!!!
Between us, I want to say something. I've always been worried about the expectations of the stem cell treatment. I have similar conditions to Ren and when I enquired as to whether I could be part of a trial or get stem cell treatment, I was told the results are as yet unproven and will not be available here in the foreseeable future. I'm not doubting Ren's improvement but the problem is once you stop, the symptoms return. It is not a cure and I am really worried about Ren's expectations and what this will do to him psychologically. Its devastating when you think you have found a solution to the pain etc and you then realise it isnt and your life is static. I also find the phrasing he's been given is horrific. To tell a patient that "you have failed the treatment" is morally and ethically wrong. It isn't his fault if it didnt take. That's an awful thing to lay on someone. That will affect your mind. I'm worried about him, I really am.
Whilst he refers to his stem cell treatment as his saving grace in “Troubles”, that was a few years ago in LA and he’s no longer receiving treatment from that doctor at all. It did help him quite a lot to get back into life in a way he’s not lost, but he speaks pretty openly in his Chapters series about his mixed thoughts on it as some are helped and others not, in fact some come out of it worse than they started. He was receiving antibiotic and supportive treatments in Canada to treat Bartonella and brain retraining to help improve the brain damage caused by years of misdiagnosed/untreated Lyme disease. He has some BTS vids on his renmakesstuff channel and Patreon that cover some of what he was up to there. I doubt the clinic framed his positive Bartonella result as a personal failure. I’m guessing that was all him in that moment. He’s very tough and resilient, though, and will no doubt recover a better mind state once the shock of disappointment wears off. Survivors do that, as you seem to know well. 💜
@@lolly_golightly I thought he was on another stem cell plan so my apologies for my error however my point still stands regarding the crushing disappointment when treatments don't work or last. I truly only want the best for him and anyone and everyone else here who is suffering in any way. Strength and love to all.
I have suffered from ME for 50 years (post-viral or tick bites) and I usually had 2-3 productive years (able to work) followed by 6 month-3years of unproductive (housebound) time. I never got the stem cell boost Ren had but did use fistfulls of supplements to have as much function as possible until age 45 when my kidneys could no longer take the load. Ren will survive if he has the will for it and come back, just give him time and peace to do so. I attribute the agoraphobia (fear of leaving the house) to our instinctual fear of being the weak one in the herd and most likely to be preyed upon. I hope folks can better understand the condition of folks like us and be similarly patient with the new cohort of long covid sufferers as well.
No disrespect meant. But as someone who is chronically ill and was misdiagnosed with Bipolar for years, I am not too fond of the term manic, in this case. Yes, people make spontaneous decisions and appear hyperactive when manic, but the choices Ren has made to push himself and everything, are pretty normal and understandable from my perspective. I have also done similar, it’s hard not to push yourself too hard when your body is preventing you from doing what you love but you feel it’s POSSIBLE to do it even if it might not be a good idea. In my experience, people with mania often start making less sense or think in a very grandiose way, so I really don’t think he is manic. I know no matter what, us renegades will support him. Sending everyone reading this some love ❤
I didn’t mean it disrespectfully. I’m also not a doctor so take my opinion with a grain of salt…maybe there’s a better word but I don’t think he has quite been himself and no wonder with the gigs and law situation.
The newest news was this one btw: "Thankyou everyone for the well wishes. Ren is out of A&E and at home resting and in the care of specialists to figure out the next step in managing his condition."
Thanks for the update….everyone sub to Hexenkind for more Ren news. 🙏 ❤️
Thank you for this video and always supporting Ren! Much respect and love to you for this. 💙💙💙
From listening to Knox who was with Ren at the time, I think it is safe to say that the legal situation which Ren was plunged in as soon as he got home was an enormous unwanted stress and I would guess it was this that really tipped things over the edge as it was clear for many to see (and Ren said himself too) that he was really happy to be home and spending time with his friends.
From what I understand in this recent shoot, they got a lot of it done but Ren suffered an autoimmune attack to his eye (maybe through where he has has a previous injury) which kicked off other symptoms. He is now back home and recovering but is likely to have a year or two antibiotic regime to contend with and having to manage this going forward too. He has been told he may have to adjust his lifestyle to reduce stress (very difficult when you have ADHD and are a perfectionist). It just seems it's going to be another part of his life he will have to manage and learn from flare ups what he can and can't do.
Rest assured his team are on it and I think it is safe to say that the latest video short released by Connor yesterday on Ren's twitter was maybe a nod for us all - an excerpt of It's Alright from the Big Push.
Yo, Michael. It’s 4 in the morning here and I happen to be awake. I’ve been avoiding listening to anyone talk about Ren’s situation but immediately jumped on this video. I didn’t realize how much I trust you. So, thank you for that. When I read Ren’s posts, I felt such deep concern and sadness. I feel like Ren is always racing against the clock. I just wish he could feel relaxed and confident enough to enjoy some lazy, slow days with friends. I wish him peace of mind and I have faith that he will pull through this.
Also, yo, Michael, love you, brother!
Not much more to say Mike… this is breaking all of our hearts… Ren has become such an integral part of our lives these few years. It’s so much more than the music… we all think of him as a friend, a brother etc.. we have grown to love him which honestly was not hard at all.. I have loved a lot of music throughput the years, but have never been as invested emotionally in someone like I have Ren… he truly is special and we all pray or what ever good intentions we have put them out there for him… we love yo Ren… thanks Mike always… 🫶🏻🌻🫶🏻
Ren was amazing at SGP
Gutted for him with the audio, his poor health & MH
Just hope & pray he rests & next treatment successful. He's having a right time of it lately, my heart hurts for him 💔😔
Auto immune issues can take years to learn to cope with.
It's really hard when you start to feel ok and in excitement end up over doing it and relapse. You have to learn to pace yourself. I'm 60 and lived with auto immune issues my whole life. It's a balancing act.
Best of luck Ren.
Yo thanks Michael 👌
I feel like this is so similar to when he saw the golden ring and got signed, only to have it snatched away by his illness. Only now, it's just on a bigger scale. But the good news is that we all have his back and aren't going anywhere ❤
That’s a good point!! It has happened before….
I just hope he takes the time he needs for himself. Like you say, we can wait. ❤️
Respect you Mike
We can all see you really really care
Thank you 🙏
Daz
True Renegades aint going anywhere lol...
Ren has such resilience and his fan base isn't just there for him as a Musician, we are there for him as a "proper human being", we are there for him as he has inspired us and has been an aspirational influence for many many people and absence, will just make the heart grow fonder for his return.
His team will be managing his accounts, he has music available to release so can remain "relevant" to the fair weather fans.
I just hope he takes the time to heal properly.
Preach brother. We here for him.
Thank you so much for this! 🌹❤️
Agrophobia the fear of going outside and wide open spaces
Ren's quite famous for his typos even in better times (and in his current state before the A&E situation no wonder it shows even more), so Michael is right, it is "agoraphobia" - which is exactly what you describe.
He definitely meant agoraphobia. My heart breaks for Ren. I've cried several times over Ren's condition. Please, everybody, pray for Ren. I'm not a religious person, but prayers can't hurt. 🙏 ❤
I’m sending healing vibes to back you up!!! ❤️
The stress of the Kujo situation no doubt impacted his health far more than he was probably able to process at the time. To be trying to organise the performances, recording and writing new music while also attempting to navigate abnormal legal issues, would burn anyone out, let alone someone with chronic health issues. I hope he becomes ok with slowing down again.
His friends are operating his SM accounts due to an acute eye problem caused by autoimmunity. (I suppose he has to spare his eyes now to let it heal properly.)
And of course, we can wait. We will wait as long as needed. I think Ren's ADHD plus the feeling of his health slipping through his fingers again might cause some kind of anxiety and need to hasten things as much as possible before going away to deal with everything health-wise. We can speculate about some mania, yes, but it could be simply the combo of the above.
Either way - it's just a Ferrari in a traffic jam again. And I'm really sorry for that. Must be extremely difficult to feel slightly better, to come back home, full of energy and ideas and stuff - and everything taken away all over again.
And eff the dang greedy K. for making everything so much worse for nothing!
💙
Agoraphobia is what it sounds like. I’ve got a mean case of it after years at home because of really crappy health, including an autoimmune issue myself.
I agree about the possible mania. It could very well be because of his condition coming back with a vengeance but likely it combined with the incredible stress he’s been under from both internal and external sources. 💜
Yeah I know what agoraphobia is but it was written “Agrophobia”.
Yeah what he’s done is a lot for anyone let alone someone who has been hidden away in recovery for a long time. Man that sucks about your health as well….I hope better days lay ahead for you. Sending love. ✌️
@@michaelgoyettemusic I wouldn’t have known for sure but it reminded me of all of his discussion about his bedroom being his tomb in his Chapters series. Thanks for the kind words.
In the UK we pronounce it as Agraphobia. I've only heard Ameriicans pronounce it as Agorophobia. Obviously, with advent of social media, younger Brits are using American versions as with a lot of speech e.g. shedule and schedule. Nice to see you.
Yeah, today was the first time I heard it pronounced "agoraphobia" which sound like an affliction of ancient Greeks who were afraid of being seen in the town square.
As someone with severe chronic illness, I feel a lot of what he's saying is pretty on the nose. Every time I relapse or get worse I find myself pushing too hard. I don't want to fall behind again, and once I'm better, I don't want to be rushing to catch up. There's a certain denial it's happening even if you know better and it's hard to overcome that. I often don't truly listen to myself and slow down until I'm absolutely forced to. I get very overwhelmed and almost hyper about it wanting to believe it won't be as bad this time. In the end though I have to listen to my body or I'll suffer even more. I get the feeling that's what Ren is going through and that it's a painfully normal response. I cried when he said he was having more trouble again. I know the feeling all too well. I hope he can get the rest and care he needs so he can continue to do what he loves. ❤️
That makes total sense. We like to accomplish things. I wish you good health. ✌️ ❤️
Yo Michael
think his ADHD drives him too, partucularly the hyperactive element. I can understand why he wants to complete as much as possible. At least he'll have something to release while he's away, as he did last year.
Yo. Here but I have no words. Just hoping Ren takes care of himself. ❤
Agoraphobia is fear of leaving the home or somewhere safe, I suffer from it. I wont even leave the home for food shopping, going for a walk, will cancel appointments, unless urgent and only then will I go if my husband comes with me. Ren has a milder version, if he doesn't need to leave the home for something important he wont, but I guess with a bit of persuasion or discipline he can work through it and leave the home. Discipline is important to work through this, as he and his friends will be telling him its going to be fine, nothing will happen etc. however he will probably have anxiety. Its our brains silly way of thinking it needs to keep us safe, when it actually hinders us from living. Its so easy to succumb to Agoraphobia if you say to yourself, meh I don't need to, cant be bothered. Its raining, I feel in my gut something bad will happen, Using every excuse you can find not to leave the home. This is my experience but mine is severe and I don't have Ren's determination, discipline and strength. I am sending lots of positive thoughts his way.
Even a perfectly healthy body is likely to implode with so much stress.Especially in his condition. On the one hand the excitement for his work and projects, on the other all the problems especially for the situation of sick boi. Without forgetting, being a perfectionist himself, the weight of his fans' expectations (and sometimes the need to call to order those a little more "extreme")
Exactly. ✌️ ❤️
Thougj the update didn't make it onto TH-cam, some of his other social media was updated yesterday.
21 hours ago this was on his Facebook:
"Thank you everyone for the well wishes. Ren is out of A&E and at home resting and in the care of specialists to figure out the next step in managing his condition ❤️"
A clip from The Big Push's "It's Alright" was also published... I think here on TH-cam, but I can't verify that while posting. It specifically included the part about things maybe not working out today, but it's alright.
Definitely still concerning, but I feel like the message is that his friends have him. We just have to trust that he gathered really good people to him and they're willing to step up - and step in - when they need to. He's spoken about how he trusts his group and is willing to take criticism and critique from them. So if anyone can keep him balanced above and beyond removing some stressors, it will be them.
I hope he has friends close who aren’t on the payroll….I have no reason to think he doesn’t have a great supportive team. ❤️
When you've so much potential and want to achieve so much, everything opening up for you and have lost so much time to illness already it must be very hard not to overdo things trying to make up for lost time. Ren said himself he knew there had been some burnout and started reigning in the targets but pushed himself a bit too far this time.
Even without the underlying infection and unresolved vulnerabilities a person could run too fast and hit the same roadblocks. But when you're driven it's easy to try to power through minor burnout after minor burnout again and again until you get taken out by a health episode. Many of us have done it. As others have said, what sets him apart is that his music is not fickle - and growing "fan base" is not a fleeting one. He needs to believe that affords him time industry-backed artists are often denied... and to have faith he can once again turn adversity into positivity. Which I am sure he will. ❤ Gutted for him nonetheless.
Yo!
Thank you.
I think he NEEDS to work, it’s the thing that pushes him forward, what keeps him motivated to go on. But, with that being said, he also needs to take it easier. Not stop working completely, but not asking so much of himself either. He needs to balance it.
Absolutely. ❤️
He did hint in one of his IG stories a while back, about avoiding the stress by adding more things to do to avoid/ignore it, and joked that it’s all fine while twitching. I thought at the time ‘many a true word is said in jest’, and was probably heading for something.
Yes I’d say that was a warning sign.
Michael, you are a better public speaker than you think. I am so disappointed with what is happening to Ren. A very sad Yo.
Thanks so much…I still carry some trauma from reading for the class or something. :)
It’s very sad. The universe isn’t fair. ❤️ ✌️ 🪀
As someone who has dealt with many of the same issues as Ren, I also saw the changes in his wording and the rushed nature of it, letting me think things were getting rough. I myself notice the signs of when my own shit is going off the rails. He says in Animal Flow that he gets sick when he's stressed, and we all know the stress he was under. Thank you for making me feel like I wasn't just reaching. You, as a songwriter, would notice his change is phrasing and the internal tempo of his thought process. ❤
❤️ 🙏
Hopefully he’ll rest up n be well enough to get what he wants to be done in time. Thanks n yo! ❤
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What’s the song…Under Pressure. I think that he needs to feel the love and understand that he has already made a HUGE ,mark. Be well brother Ren.❤❤❤
Well said mike, can see you care as deeply as we all do with how he is doing. Hopefully this isn't too much of a setback and that this next phase of treatment proves to be successful. He is clearly strong mentally to have got through all the difficulties he has faced over the years, just now he may have to make adjustments to how hard he pushes himself and his body moving forward to manage the situation
Get Well Sickboi!!!!
Well said to you as well. ❤️
Just wishing him the best and some recovery. Chronic illness is a wave. Hope he feels the love.
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Between us, I want to say something. I've always been worried about the expectations of the stem cell treatment. I have similar conditions to Ren and when I enquired as to whether I could be part of a trial or get stem cell treatment, I was told the results are as yet unproven and will not be available here in the foreseeable future. I'm not doubting Ren's improvement but the problem is once you stop, the symptoms return. It is not a cure and I am really worried about Ren's expectations and what this will do to him psychologically. Its devastating when you think you have found a solution to the pain etc and you then realise it isnt and your life is static.
I also find the phrasing he's been given is horrific. To tell a patient that "you have failed the treatment" is morally and ethically wrong. It isn't his fault if it didnt take. That's an awful thing to lay on someone. That will affect your mind. I'm worried about him, I really am.
Whilst he refers to his stem cell treatment as his saving grace in “Troubles”, that was a few years ago in LA and he’s no longer receiving treatment from that doctor at all. It did help him quite a lot to get back into life in a way he’s not lost, but he speaks pretty openly in his Chapters series about his mixed thoughts on it as some are helped and others not, in fact some come out of it worse than they started.
He was receiving antibiotic and supportive treatments in Canada to treat Bartonella and brain retraining to help improve the brain damage caused by years of misdiagnosed/untreated Lyme disease. He has some BTS vids on his renmakesstuff channel and Patreon that cover some of what he was up to there. I doubt the clinic framed his positive Bartonella result as a personal failure. I’m guessing that was all him in that moment. He’s very tough and resilient, though, and will no doubt recover a better mind state once the shock of disappointment wears off. Survivors do that, as you seem to know well. 💜
@@lolly_golightly I thought he was on another stem cell plan so my apologies for my error however my point still stands regarding the crushing disappointment when treatments don't work or last. I truly only want the best for him and anyone and everyone else here who is suffering in any way. Strength and love to all.
I have suffered from ME for 50 years (post-viral or tick bites) and I usually had 2-3 productive years (able to work) followed by 6 month-3years of unproductive (housebound) time. I never got the stem cell boost Ren had but did use fistfulls of supplements to have as much function as possible until age 45 when my kidneys could no longer take the load. Ren will survive if he has the will for it and come back, just give him time and peace to do so.
I attribute the agoraphobia (fear of leaving the house) to our instinctual fear of being the weak one in the herd and most likely to be preyed upon.
I hope folks can better understand the condition of folks like us and be similarly patient with the new cohort of long covid sufferers as well.
Thanks for explaining…..it’s so unfair that some must live this way. I pray for Ren and you and everyone suffering. ❤️ ✌️
Just don’t allow yourself to be so driven Ren, as they say…a step at a time.
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The fear of being sexually abused, but it is very easily misspelled with agoraphobia so I would not assume on either.
Yo 😢❤
No disrespect meant. But as someone who is chronically ill and was misdiagnosed with Bipolar for years, I am not too fond of the term manic, in this case. Yes, people make spontaneous decisions and appear hyperactive when manic, but the choices Ren has made to push himself and everything, are pretty normal and understandable from my perspective. I have also done similar, it’s hard not to push yourself too hard when your body is preventing you from doing what you love but you feel it’s POSSIBLE to do it even if it might not be a good idea. In my experience, people with mania often start making less sense or think in a very grandiose way, so I really don’t think he is manic.
I know no matter what, us renegades will support him. Sending everyone reading this some love ❤
I didn’t mean it disrespectfully. I’m also not a doctor so take my opinion with a grain of salt…maybe there’s a better word but I don’t think he has quite been himself and no wonder with the gigs and law situation.
Sorry, the comma was not meant to be there, haha (I edited it now). i meant from me. I am not disrespecting you. Thank you for that response though.
Yo, Mike! Good morning!👊
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