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I know the feeling being a sensitive person (HSP) -Big feelings and big emotions - And you're right we try to be positive but also, it's good to cry and release those emotions! Some people might not understand or think we're "too much" -in that case I remind myself if I'm "too much" then go find less - Lol! anyway -yes, also good to enjoy those kiddos!
3:49 a squirrel passes by the window, you’ve been trying to catch them on camera and seeing them but when you simply sit there and let go you also catch them, same thing will happen with happiness, of course you have to do the work and the therapy, but if you really surrender and let you feel whatever you need to feel it will all be ok, sending you love ♡
I had a therapist tell me one time, "what is the worst that will happen if you let yourself breakdown a little bit?". She also encouraged me to allow myself to be comfortable with being uncomfortable.
The pure panic from Colleen & Erik at the end when Wesley is doing the most 😂😂 I could hear their blood pressure rising with each adventurous jump! I can totally see him doing crazy tricks on his bicycle by the time he’s 6 lol
I’m so sorry you’re feeling the way you are, Colleen. You’re not annoying at all. You’re actually one of my favorite parts of the day. I wish I could give you a hug across the screen and tell you it’d all get better, but what I can tell you is that we are here regardless of how you’re feeling. How you feel is NOT your fault. Don’t put all of this pressure on yourself. It’s understandable to be stressed. Life is so hard, and the world is an incredibly scary place. Your stance in life doesn’t negate the hard times! You can be an escape for people while also being true to your emotions, and you are!! We love you. Thank you for your honesty and openness! I’ve been a silent follower for so long, but I just had to tell you that we love you regardless of if you’re having a good day or not! ❤️
I'm super emotional too. You are NOT alone. We are here for you. We LOVE You SO Much!! Colleen, it doesn't matter what lifestyle you have, rather it's rich, middle class, poor. YOU ARE STILL HUMAN!! Your emotions MATTER, YOU MATTER!! Btw, your rants aren't over "nothing." Trust me, I totally understand. We see you, We hear you!! And, WE LOVE YOU BEAUTIFUL GIRL!! 💯🥹💜 Oh, & When you went from crying to smiling, because of Miranda. Then, Aww. My heart, Maisy & wesley!! 🥹🥰🤣💜
It drives me insane that the standard response to depression/anxiety these days is, "be grateful for what you have." Depression and anxiety have nothing to do with whether or not you're grateful for the good things you have in life.
It is NOT annoying thank you for talking about this, I feel like this a lot and it is super frustrating especially when you're doing everything ' right ' at the end of the day it's your mental health, you are doing so so well I'm so proud of you! I feel so similar today I needed this 💜
Colleen... Im a 50 year old woman who has watched you for over 10 years. I hear you beat yourself up over what you are feeling very often. Might I recommend a few things I have learned from my own past and therapy. First, please stop "shoulding" yourself to death. Instead of thinking you SHOULDN'T feel a certain way (that's shame), accept that you DO feel a certain way and just ask yourself why you do. " I feel anxious. Why do I feel anxious?" Instead of, "I shouldn't feel anxious about xyz." Assigning shame to your already existing anxiety just adds to the anxiety. I try to tell myself, as an example, "I feel anxious because I haven't gotten a lot done today and that makes me feel inadequate. But that doesnt mean I AM inadequate. My FEELINGS are lying to me." And then I weigh the evidence of the facts vs my feelings. Ive learned a ton about shame (look up Brene Brown and also a book called "Why do I feel like hiding?" by Mel Lawrenz and Daniel Green). Ive also learned a TON from the TH-cam channel Therapy in a Nutshell (specifically about black and white thinking and about emotional reactivity). I really hope you see this and that it may possibly help. ❤
Also... PLEASE stop saying "I am TOO MUCH." It's all rooted in shame, my friend, and you are not a burden to those who love and care about you. You are not too much. You are you... a culmination of all the good, the bad and the ugly, how it has all affected you positively and negatively and you're simply navigating that as a normal human being who struggles at times. You are not alone.
Holy hell it's like looking in the mirror I have anxiety up the wazoo I too feel for everybody everything You can't watch the TV It's nothing but chaos people talk behind your back people talk in front of you people are just mean to each other this house is to clean there's dogs and cats and birds to take care of there's kids to take care of bills to take care of everything just seems very overwhelming so I sympathize with you You are definitely not alone I know that doesn't take away the anxiety but for me it's nice to know that I'm not alone watching you do the video I hope you get better soon prayers
Wife of 27 years. Mother of two adult children, 24 & 25, they still live at home. My medical history reads like a novel, so I have BIG feelings all the time. I cry multiple times a day. LOL 😂 I think it is extremely important that if you have a certain feeling that comes over you, then you allow yourself to sit in those feelings until it passes. Masking our feelings is something that is ingrained in us from such young ages, and it comes from a multitude of influences. I truly believe that you can find happiness amidst the trials if you allow yourself to just have those feelings and then move forward. 💛✌🏻💛from Michigan
I used to be exactly like you. ALL of my issues stemmed from low self-esteem coupled with imbalanced hormones. I had to tackle it from two directions. One with HRT, and another by only allowing myself to "wallow" in a specific sadness or emotion for 30 seconds and then I was like NO MORE. It took probably 2 years of doing that exercise with my self-esteem in order for it to become easier. The fact that you want to "stop being this way" and then continuously call yourself annoying is what made me type this comment. You can do this!!
I’ve never thought “here she goes again” when you’re emotional in the vlogs! If anything, you make me feel more normal because I also feel the same way as you! Wayy too big of feelings that I do not feel competent to deal with anything 🥴
as somebody who deeply relates - i find that this is because i spend way too much time isolated. any time i’m out with friends or loved ones my feelings don’t feel SO intense and so like the end of the world. i know you’re a busy mom and you get out every once in a while but i think it’s important and perfectly okay to set a few hours once or twice a week to get out of the house and challenge yourself to get out of your comfort zone
I have ADHD and see a therapist who specializes in ADHD. One of the greatest things she has taught me is that it is okay to not be okay. To allow yourself to feel your feelings and even break down sometimes. Sometimes the energy it takes trying to keep it all together and not be overwhelmed by your emotions can actually be more exhausting and detrimental to your mental health, then just allowing the emotions to take over for a bit and work through them.
♥️🫂 You are NOT annoying. You would be surprised how many of us can relate. I say it often, I’m a grown a** woman to an adult son. You have NO idea what a positive role you played in his life. He never felt seen or like he belonged as a kid. You were always there whether it were for a laugh or reassurance that it was okay to be different. As a Mom that’s priceless. I will forever be grateful for you, Colleen. When you’re neurodivergent, have anxiety, depression along with juggling life it’s real F’N hard.♥️💫🫶🏻
😭 thank you for telling me this it means the world. So many of you have made such a positive impact on my life so it always makes me happy to hear that I made a positive impact on one of you. ❤ sending you and your son big hugs. 🫂
Someone really smart told me one time that the monster living in your head is playing tug-of-war with you and if you win, you get to knock the monster off the ledge into the deep dark tit in between you too, and if you keep fighting, he has a chance to knock you into that deep dark pit But if you simply just let go of the rope, he still gonna be there on his own little island in your head, but he’s not gonna be trying to push you in the hole anymore because you let go. There’s no cure to get rid of the monster. The monster will always be there the matter of letting go of the fight and you start to forget he’s there.
Colleen, you are extremely hard on yourself. You had the internet telling you for years that you weren’t allowed to be yourself. & its hurt your self esteem so bad it hurts me to see you hurt yourself over & over. I think that you are an incredible human. You never have to invalidate your own feelings. Ever. You allowed to feel & you are allowed to express it. Big hugs mama, you. Got this
TTQ: Has a Dr or have you ever considered perimenopause/hormonal imbalance as the reason for your mood/sensitivity ? You’re right at the age of when it starts. Believe me -as a woman in her late 50’s , menopause wasn’t a piece of cake either! Loved your vlogs for years!
Tortilla talk=. Do people seriously not look at Maisy and go “omg she looks JUST like Bailey” Like in the Bailey eats sand vlog from like 12 years ago. Literally twins. Love you so much.
I am so proud of you! You may not realize it but you allowed yourself to feel all those feelings and talk it out and that's a good thing! ❤you may see it as a meltdown, I saw it as you being vulnerable and allowing yourself the grace to go there, feel it and then move on by saying you were gunna try to be more positive.
We are feeling the same things and I don't know about myself but for you I can honestly say that you are loved by so many people and not just because you're celebrity but just because you're real and you tell the truth and you say what you feel and people like me can understand it and we connect through it and it helps us make it through another day we truly truly love you thank you for being exactly who you are
“How do you eat an elephant?” .. one bite at a time. I’m also an emotional person and I try to do all of the helpful things. When I get that “breaking point” I go back to basics and for me that consists of not overthinking. That looks different for everyone, but I’m going to pray for you! You are an awesome person in every capacity. 😊❤️❤️ P.s. remember that elephant from the early ‘90’s where butterflies would come out of the trunk and there were nets to catch the butterflies?! I wonder if they still make that toy!?
Your not just another privileged light skinned women. Yes, you, myself and millions of other people got EXTREMELY lucky, being born in WAY better conditions and surroundings then, sadly many others, that deserve nothing but the best, because every new live coming on this earth does but you and everyone else is still aloud to feel feelings and emotions! The world is fu*king crazy and so many things are confusing, your not alone and you may hear this often but it sadly is true and I really mean, I love you and we ALL will work through this, it's hard and my heart goes out to anyone in even worse situations then me❤
Maybe you should dress up as Miranda and try goofy Miranda Therapy. Be the goofy girl who is Miranda and try to make yourself laugh with Miranda. TTQ: have you ever laughed super super hard to the point where you were crying while laughing?
Hi colleen! Im not really the type to comment much but seeing that you're struggling today makes me want to send a little more love. I've been watching you since I was a literal child-I think the first video i ever saw of you was when Miranda tried to teach us how to sing "The Way" by Ariana Grande. From then, til now, you have been one of my constant sources of happiness. Please know that NO MATTER-and I mean, literally no matter what happens, you will always have people who love and care for you. Sending you love all the way from the Philippines! ❤️
I’m in a similar boat. I hate PMS, especially being someone with mental illness. Everything just becomes so intense all at once. Hope you feel better soon x
So happy to hear you are feeling better. Life is such a rollercoaster. Big hugs and love to you and your family. I’ve been a fan of yours for many, MANY years! You are WONDERFUL ❤
Colleen... I feel for you. 2024 was that for me. I feel like it was relentless. I felt deep sadness and anxiety day in and day out and I complained about it and then I complained about me complaining about it and my boyfriend had to pick up the pieces around me. I kid you not, the last few weeks and especially the last few days are the first time I have felt "normal" in a long time and it might not last but a few days are heaven when you've been feeling like you have for so long. One of the things I did was literally let go of any expectations around me, I limited any social interaction unless I knew I could just be miserable around the person, I started exercising consistently twice a week, I kept up my therapy weekly, I did confidence affirmations every day and I just let be. I let everything be, and stopped trying to feel, be, hope, or even think in a certain way. I don't know what or if any of this helped or if its just a coincidence that I've finally felt a little normal but even if you don't take any of the above on board, just know you are NOT alone. Be kind to yourself and just try and take each day as it comes. I promise the world needs you, even if it doesn't feel like it right now ❤
I love how you and Erik are just so tired on the sofa and the kids have so much energy, looks a lot like us here with our 3 year old !! TTQ: How are the twins getting on with potty training and dropping their naps??
It’s hard to be human. No one tells us that. Especially when our brains /emotions are reacting differently than our actual reality. BUT one thing I’ve learned about myself..is that I’m almost always wrong about my worries! Take care.❤
Ive never ever commented on any TH-cam video ever but I just wanted to say that the reason I’ve watched your videos for so many years is BECAUSE you are so open about your emotions, not in spite of that. It’s sometimes the only thing that makes me feel normal and ok again. People aren’t honest with their emotions most of the time, and it makes me feel crazy! I come to your channel for the authenticity. It gives me so much relief. I just needed you to know this!! ❤
You are not alone with your mental health. I have fussy episodes every single day and I am in the same boat of not wanting to be like that, but the hormones are just crazy especially being pregnant and I just feel so bad for my husband having to put up with this crap that I don't even want to have to deal with either. With how pathetic I am a lot of the time.
Stop believing the thoughts. Start being the observer to those thoughts , they are't real or true 99% of the time . Step out of fear. Only the present moment actually exists. ❤
You don't need that judgment. You are human. And because you are you... I don't feel so alone in my feelings. You are working so so hard it's not all for naught. You are an amazing human. ❤
Colleen take it easy my daughter has just been diagnosed with autism at 25 she is doing great and delighted we do it she has always struggled with everything so 🙏she will be happy and won’t have to panic and start living her life and enjoy who she is and now’s how much we all love her ❤️🥰
So I have pretty server ocd/anxiety. I use to beat myself up for it so my therapist told me to give it a name. I named my anxiety& ocd CHAD! So now when I'm having a hard day I can just say Chad is really picking on me today. It's a way to separate myself from those intrusive thoughts.,it's really helped me. No offense to any Chads. Just a suggestion.
I’m so sorry Colleen:( I’m here for you❤ and I feel the exact same way so know you are not alone! And it’s very comforting for me to know I’m not too even though my brain keeps telling me I am
When I was doing counseling. I NOTICED that sometimes, it was Just too much. I told my counselor tbat I just needed some time off of the overthinking and anyzing and spilling deep thoughts. AND that was it. I JUST was too overwhelmed. Sometimes its ok to say..I need to only do counseling 2x a month vs 4. Or i need 1 week off a month. Therapy days were draining 😊
i think you miss your miranda days.......too many people thinking they control people's happiness because they're overly sensitive. I'm sorry that there are people who think theyre holy. like forgive and move on.
Aw Coleen, please stop trying so hard - you can’t make yourself feel feelings that are not there in that moment, so just allow yourself to express and feel your genuine emotions. I honestly don’t mind if you cry every single vlog if it helps you to feel brighter. You are an incredible mum, a soul mate to Erik and I sure you are a wonderful friend too; please be kinder to yourself. Sending gentle hugs.Xx
Girl. I wonder what’s going on. I’ve been in a funk like that since Canadian Thanksgiving. So anxious and depressed from having to live like that for months thinking this is my new normal although I know there will be a time when I’ll get out of it (and so will you!) So many of my friends are feeling the same way it’s been a few months as well which I find odd. I’m Canadian. Maybe it’s because of all the sad news going on as well… politics are wild right now… plane crashes… ugh. Nothing good is happening right now
It happens to the best of us, I am a therapist and I go through it bad sometimes and I'm so hard on myself because as a professional I should know how to cope, but besides a therapist I am a human being and must go through the process as well. You are doing amazing using your cooking skills.
TTQ: two questions! Number one is who else would you like to be a guest on you and Rachel’s podcast and number two would you be interested in doing another Miranda show live online like the rushtix ones you did? I loved those and I recently watched another TH-camr I like do something similar and it reminded me of those shows you used to do!
Feeling sad is normal. No one is clicking their heels all day. You think you’re annoying? I’m sure if you record lots of humans most days of the week we’d be “annoying” too. You’re just being human which is tough business. Take it easy on yourself and don’t watch the news too much. Also, if you think you have PMDD maybe you can use a specific BC for it. Be well. We ❤ you.
Hey Colleen! This is my first time commenting. I’ve been watching your vlogs for almost 10 years now, you’re my comfort person:). I’ve recently started listening to “The Let Them Theory” by Mel Robbins on Audible. I’ve been loving it. I feel like you might enjoy it and it may help you feel better. ❤️
Colleen all your feelings are valid! I wish you didn’t feel like you have to apologize to us or anyone. We all feel these same emotions and shouldn’t apologize for them. Life is hard. You are doing amazing. Like a million times more things and with more love and patience than most. Give yourself the same grace and understanding that you do for all of us! We love you. 🫂🩵
Colleen good or bad I want to see you it. I'm grateful to you for sharing when your having a bad day or need a cry. Being emotional is not a bad thing isn't annoying and definitely never to much. I love and respect who you are I wish you did it makes sad to hear you talk negative about yourself and you're emotions.
Tortilla talk - how excited are you for Wicked part two coming out this year?? And have you congratulated Ariana or talked to her about her Oscar nomination?
Society says that we should be perfect and feel a certain emotion at a certain time and I know you say that you don't want to be this person but have you ever just stopped and said that it's OK to be who you are. it's OK to be sensitive and over emotional and over caring and Oversharing and upset and happy and mad and all the things because the world is a scary place so you might have times were you just wanna lay on the floor and cry and that's OK and then there's times where you wanna laugh and that's OK I say stop stressing over who you think you should be and just be who you are which I'm sure is easier said than done.
Thank you for being honest about your struggles with your mental heath. You’re not alone with these feelings. You are doing all the right things and eventually things will be better. Keep doing what you’re doing and try to not be too hard on yourself. You’re an amazing person, mother and wife.
Hi Colleen, have you ever tried EMDR? It’s a form of therapy that taps into your brain just by eye movement, if you’ve never had that I would definitely look into it more!! It has helped my ways of thinking TONS!
Not annoying. Just life. Atleast it is for me too! I’m just gonna say, and I’m sorry about it, but, peri menopause?? When I started, I was a damn mess. Maybe that is adding to your stress?
You and me both! I mean, I know there's alot more people going through similar things, but I'm also tired of trying and trying and nothing seems to work! Oddly enough n, since the start of 2025, things have just felt spiraled out of control! Hope you find some comfort in such a chaotic existence soon!
Colleen you're not cuckoo. I know you wouldn't call me cuckoo for doing the exact same thing. Sometimes I just need to let it out. Thank you for including that. It made me feel less alone. I wish you wouldn't be so mean to yourself and not talk down on yourself. If for nothing then those three sets of ears you're raising that are listening very closely to what you say about yourself. Sending love from Los Angeles 💜💛
Praying for you ….. I hate seeing you sad. It does worry me a bit because I’ve been watching your videos since the beginning and I want you to feel happy. A few people mentioned peri-menopause….. I got that when I was 40 and it changed me a lot. So maybe it could be that ….. but I’m not a doctor. I just want you to be happy! ❤️😊
COLLEEN - I've asked this before but not had a response. Do you take any supplements to support your body/mind? I seriously think you could benefit from magnesium to start with, to calm your nervous system down. I feel you're depleted and could benefit hugely from things like B vitamins, Omegas, Iron, magnesium etc x
I’ve been watching you long before your kids. I currently have 3 kids. A 3yo girl and almost 1yo twin boys! I always felt connected to you videos and it’s so funny how I also have twins and how much your videos have helped me feel less alone. I’ll be 27 Feb 13th. Like I said I have 3 kids, a girl and twin boys! I actually had a wonderful pregnancy and postpartum with my first (sorry, I know yours was hard) but I still kept watching your videos even though I couldn’t relate you your pregnancy with Flynn. And then I got pregnant before the twins and lost the baby. I related so hard to your miscarriage video😢 and then after that I got pregnant with the twins. And boy did that pregnancy take me out!!!!! I got SPD AT 14weeks. Worst pain ever! My c section was also scary. Now, I have PPD….anyway, thank you for being so transparent about your struggles. It’s helped me in so many way!
Tortilla talk question- does Flynn know he’s been in a Ariana Grande music video and we love you girl we know you are such a strong woman and you can get passed anything❤️❤️
Heyy Colleen, I’ve been feeling EXACTLY the same almost every day since the beginning of 2025. It’s so weird being sad even tho there no a specific reason for it. And watching this, so many advices came to my head but I don’t think about it when I don’t feel good. So crazyy… I am sending you much love❤️ Just keep doing things that you love and spend time with your family
Are you all so shocked that I cried on camera? So unlike me. lol I had a weekend full of happiness and healing and I'm doing much better now. Life just got overwhelming and I needed a good cry. Hope you all had a good weekend!
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I know the feeling being a sensitive person (HSP) -Big feelings and big emotions - And you're right we try to be positive but also, it's good to cry and release those emotions! Some people might not understand or think we're "too much" -in that case I remind myself if I'm "too much" then go find less - Lol! anyway -yes, also good to enjoy those kiddos!
I’m not annoyed. I feel relieved that there is someone out there who feels the same things that I do, so it makes me feel less crazy.
3:49 a squirrel passes by the window, you’ve been trying to catch them on camera and seeing them but when you simply sit there and let go you also catch them, same thing will happen with happiness, of course you have to do the work and the therapy, but if you really surrender and let you feel whatever you need to feel it will all be ok, sending you love ♡
🥺 this comment made me ugly cry. Thanks for the sweet message. Xoxo ❤
I had a therapist tell me one time, "what is the worst that will happen if you let yourself breakdown a little bit?". She also encouraged me to allow myself to be comfortable with being uncomfortable.
The pure panic from Colleen & Erik at the end when Wesley is doing the most 😂😂 I could hear their blood pressure rising with each adventurous jump! I can totally see him doing crazy tricks on his bicycle by the time he’s 6 lol
I’m so sorry you’re feeling the way you are, Colleen. You’re not annoying at all. You’re actually one of my favorite parts of the day. I wish I could give you a hug across the screen and tell you it’d all get better, but what I can tell you is that we are here regardless of how you’re feeling. How you feel is NOT your fault. Don’t put all of this pressure on yourself. It’s understandable to be stressed. Life is so hard, and the world is an incredibly scary place. Your stance in life doesn’t negate the hard times! You can be an escape for people while also being true to your emotions, and you are!! We love you. Thank you for your honesty and openness! I’ve been a silent follower for so long, but I just had to tell you that we love you regardless of if you’re having a good day or not! ❤️
I love the idea of Maisy Mondays, Wesley Wednesdays and Flynn Fridays! ❤
2:27 you wouldn’t say this to a friend so don’t say it about yourself! You being a human being is never annoying 💗
I'm super emotional too. You are NOT alone. We are here for you. We LOVE You SO Much!! Colleen, it doesn't matter what lifestyle you have, rather it's rich, middle class, poor. YOU ARE STILL HUMAN!! Your emotions MATTER, YOU MATTER!! Btw, your rants aren't over "nothing." Trust me, I totally understand. We see you, We hear you!! And, WE LOVE YOU BEAUTIFUL GIRL!! 💯🥹💜
Oh, & When you went from crying to smiling, because of Miranda. Then, Aww. My heart, Maisy & wesley!! 🥹🥰🤣💜
When you go through something super traumatic it’s normal to feel these feelings in the coming days/months/years unfortunately :(
It drives me insane that the standard response to depression/anxiety these days is, "be grateful for what you have." Depression and anxiety have nothing to do with whether or not you're grateful for the good things you have in life.
It is NOT annoying thank you for talking about this, I feel like this a lot and it is super frustrating especially when you're doing everything ' right ' at the end of the day it's your mental health, you are doing so so well I'm so proud of you! I feel so similar today I needed this 💜
as someone who is going through a depressive episode, i'm here for the tears that i am too weak to cry myself
Colleen... Im a 50 year old woman who has watched you for over 10 years. I hear you beat yourself up over what you are feeling very often. Might I recommend a few things I have learned from my own past and therapy. First, please stop "shoulding" yourself to death. Instead of thinking you SHOULDN'T feel a certain way (that's shame), accept that you DO feel a certain way and just ask yourself why you do. " I feel anxious. Why do I feel anxious?" Instead of, "I shouldn't feel anxious about xyz." Assigning shame to your already existing anxiety just adds to the anxiety. I try to tell myself, as an example, "I feel anxious because I haven't gotten a lot done today and that makes me feel inadequate. But that doesnt mean I AM inadequate. My FEELINGS are lying to me." And then I weigh the evidence of the facts vs my feelings. Ive learned a ton about shame (look up Brene Brown and also a book called "Why do I feel like hiding?" by Mel Lawrenz and Daniel Green). Ive also learned a TON from the TH-cam channel Therapy in a Nutshell (specifically about black and white thinking and about emotional reactivity). I really hope you see this and that it may possibly help. ❤
Also... PLEASE stop saying "I am TOO MUCH." It's all rooted in shame, my friend, and you are not a burden to those who love and care about you. You are not too much. You are you... a culmination of all the good, the bad and the ugly, how it has all affected you positively and negatively and you're simply navigating that as a normal human being who struggles at times. You are not alone.
Holy hell it's like looking in the mirror I have anxiety up the wazoo I too feel for everybody everything You can't watch the TV It's nothing but chaos people talk behind your back people talk in front of you people are just mean to each other this house is to clean there's dogs and cats and birds to take care of there's kids to take care of bills to take care of everything just seems very overwhelming so I sympathize with you You are definitely not alone I know that doesn't take away the anxiety but for me it's nice to know that I'm not alone watching you do the video I hope you get better soon prayers
Wife of 27 years. Mother of two adult children, 24 & 25, they still live at home. My medical history reads like a novel, so I have BIG feelings all the time. I cry multiple times a day. LOL 😂
I think it is extremely important that if you have a certain feeling that comes over you, then you allow yourself to sit in those feelings until it passes. Masking our feelings is something that is ingrained in us from such young ages, and it comes from a multitude of influences. I truly believe that you can find happiness amidst the trials if you allow yourself to just have those feelings and then move forward.
💛✌🏻💛from Michigan
Thank you for talking about it. It’s NOT ANNOYING. I PROMISE. Keep talking about it. We love you so much.
I used to be exactly like you. ALL of my issues stemmed from low self-esteem coupled with imbalanced hormones. I had to tackle it from two directions. One with HRT, and another by only allowing myself to "wallow" in a specific sadness or emotion for 30 seconds and then I was like NO MORE. It took probably 2 years of doing that exercise with my self-esteem in order for it to become easier. The fact that you want to "stop being this way" and then continuously call yourself annoying is what made me type this comment. You can do this!!
I’ve never thought “here she goes again” when you’re emotional in the vlogs! If anything, you make me feel more normal because I also feel the same way as you! Wayy too big of feelings that I do not feel competent to deal with anything 🥴
as somebody who deeply relates - i find that this is because i spend way too much time isolated. any time i’m out with friends or loved ones my feelings don’t feel SO intense and so like the end of the world. i know you’re a busy mom and you get out every once in a while but i think it’s important and perfectly okay to set a few hours once or twice a week to get out of the house and challenge yourself to get out of your comfort zone
I have ADHD and see a therapist who specializes in ADHD. One of the greatest things she has taught me is that it is okay to not be okay. To allow yourself to feel your feelings and even break down sometimes. Sometimes the energy it takes trying to keep it all together and not be overwhelmed by your emotions can actually be more exhausting and detrimental to your mental health, then just allowing the emotions to take over for a bit and work through them.
♥️🫂 You are NOT annoying. You would be surprised how many of us can relate.
I say it often, I’m a grown a** woman to an adult son. You have NO idea what a positive role you played in his life. He never felt seen or like he belonged as a kid. You were always there whether it were for a laugh or reassurance that it was okay to be different. As a Mom that’s priceless. I will forever be grateful for you, Colleen.
When you’re neurodivergent, have anxiety, depression along with juggling life it’s real F’N hard.♥️💫🫶🏻
😭 thank you for telling me this it means the world. So many of you have made such a positive impact on my life so it always makes me happy to hear that I made a positive impact on one of you. ❤ sending you and your son big hugs. 🫂
Same girl, same 🩵🩵🩵 we are in this together
I actually wished I could cry the other day because I knew it would make me feel better. I’m glad you got some of it out!
Someone really smart told me one time that the monster living in your head is playing tug-of-war with you and if you win, you get to knock the monster off the ledge into the deep dark tit in between you too, and if you keep fighting, he has a chance to knock you into that deep dark pit But if you simply just let go of the rope, he still gonna be there on his own little island in your head, but he’s not gonna be trying to push you in the hole anymore because you let go.
There’s no cure to get rid of the monster. The monster will always be there the matter of letting go of the fight and you start to forget he’s there.
Colleen, you are extremely hard on yourself. You had the internet telling you for years that you weren’t allowed to be yourself. & its hurt your self esteem so bad it hurts me to see you hurt yourself over & over. I think that you are an incredible human. You never have to invalidate your own feelings. Ever. You allowed to feel & you are allowed to express it. Big hugs mama, you. Got this
TTQ: Has a Dr or have you ever considered perimenopause/hormonal imbalance as the reason for your mood/sensitivity ? You’re right at the age of when it starts. Believe me -as a woman in her late 50’s , menopause wasn’t a piece of cake either! Loved your vlogs for years!
Tortilla talk=. Do people seriously not look at Maisy and go “omg she looks JUST like Bailey” Like in the Bailey eats sand vlog from like 12 years ago. Literally twins. Love you so much.
I am so proud of you! You may not realize it but you allowed yourself to feel all those feelings and talk it out and that's a good thing! ❤you may see it as a meltdown, I saw it as you being vulnerable and allowing yourself the grace to go there, feel it and then move on by saying you were gunna try to be more positive.
We are feeling the same things and I don't know about myself but for you I can honestly say that you are loved by so many people and not just because you're celebrity but just because you're real and you tell the truth and you say what you feel and people like me can understand it and we connect through it and it helps us make it through another day we truly truly love you thank you for being exactly who you are
“How do you eat an elephant?” .. one bite at a time. I’m also an emotional person and I try to do all of the helpful things. When I get that “breaking point” I go back to basics and for me that consists of not overthinking. That looks different for everyone, but I’m going to pray for you! You are an awesome person in every capacity. 😊❤️❤️
P.s. remember that elephant from the early ‘90’s where butterflies would come out of the trunk and there were nets to catch the butterflies?! I wonder if they still make that toy!?
I have pure o OCD and my heart breaks for you bc I feel like I really understand the wanting to not be this way and having no control.
Your not just another privileged light skinned women. Yes, you, myself and millions of other people got EXTREMELY lucky, being born in WAY better conditions and surroundings then, sadly many others, that deserve nothing but the best, because every new live coming on this earth does but you and everyone else is still aloud to feel feelings and emotions! The world is fu*king crazy and so many things are confusing, your not alone and you may hear this often but it sadly is true and I really mean, I love you and we ALL will work through this, it's hard and my heart goes out to anyone in even worse situations then me❤
Maybe you should dress up as Miranda and try goofy Miranda Therapy. Be the goofy girl who is Miranda and try to make yourself laugh with Miranda. TTQ: have you ever laughed super super hard to the point where you were crying while laughing?
Love you Coleen! You’re still my OG TH-camr that I religiously follow because you are silly, raw honest and humble 🌈 you’re such a babe
Not me saying “Oh Blippi has been to that museum” 😂
Hi colleen! Im not really the type to comment much but seeing that you're struggling today makes me want to send a little more love.
I've been watching you since I was a literal child-I think the first video i ever saw of you was when Miranda tried to teach us how to sing "The Way" by Ariana Grande. From then, til now, you have been one of my constant sources of happiness. Please know that NO MATTER-and I mean, literally no matter what happens, you will always have people who love and care for you.
Sending you love all the way from the Philippines! ❤️
I’m in a similar boat. I hate PMS, especially being someone with mental illness. Everything just becomes so intense all at once. Hope you feel better soon x
So happy to hear you are feeling better. Life is such a rollercoaster. Big hugs and love to you and your family. I’ve been a fan of yours for many, MANY years! You are WONDERFUL ❤
"Ladders are good. We like ladders." -- 🐸🐸🐸🐸🐸
Colleen... I feel for you. 2024 was that for me. I feel like it was relentless. I felt deep sadness and anxiety day in and day out and I complained about it and then I complained about me complaining about it and my boyfriend had to pick up the pieces around me. I kid you not, the last few weeks and especially the last few days are the first time I have felt "normal" in a long time and it might not last but a few days are heaven when you've been feeling like you have for so long. One of the things I did was literally let go of any expectations around me, I limited any social interaction unless I knew I could just be miserable around the person, I started exercising consistently twice a week, I kept up my therapy weekly, I did confidence affirmations every day and I just let be. I let everything be, and stopped trying to feel, be, hope, or even think in a certain way. I don't know what or if any of this helped or if its just a coincidence that I've finally felt a little normal but even if you don't take any of the above on board, just know you are NOT alone. Be kind to yourself and just try and take each day as it comes. I promise the world needs you, even if it doesn't feel like it right now ❤
I love how you and Erik are just so tired on the sofa and the kids have so much energy, looks a lot like us here with our 3 year old !! TTQ: How are the twins getting on with potty training and dropping their naps??
It’s hard to be human. No one tells us that. Especially when our brains
/emotions are reacting differently than our actual reality. BUT one thing I’ve learned about myself..is that I’m almost always wrong about my worries! Take care.❤
Ive never ever commented on any TH-cam video ever but I just wanted to say that the reason I’ve watched your videos for so many years is BECAUSE you are so open about your emotions, not in spite of that. It’s sometimes the only thing that makes me feel normal and ok again. People aren’t honest with their emotions most of the time, and it makes me feel crazy! I come to your channel for the authenticity. It gives me so much relief. I just needed you to know this!! ❤
You are not alone with your mental health. I have fussy episodes every single day and I am in the same boat of not wanting to be like that, but the hormones are just crazy especially being pregnant and I just feel so bad for my husband having to put up with this crap that I don't even want to have to deal with either.
With how pathetic I am a lot of the time.
Stop believing the thoughts. Start being the observer to those thoughts , they are't real or true 99% of the time . Step out of fear. Only the present moment actually exists. ❤
Colleen we need both from you, the funny silly escapism and the hard stuff. because we love every part of you
It's ok Colleen. You're a talented genius.
You don't need that judgment. You are human. And because you are you... I don't feel so alone in my feelings. You are working so so hard it's not all for naught. You are an amazing human. ❤
Colleen take it easy my daughter has just been diagnosed with autism at 25 she is doing great and delighted we do it she has always struggled with everything so 🙏she will be happy and won’t have to panic and start living her life and enjoy who she is and now’s how much we all love her ❤️🥰
You are not alone.
I got escape ladders with my christmas gift cards. I think its a normal part of motherhood the what ifs
So I have pretty server ocd/anxiety. I use to beat myself up for it so my therapist told me to give it a name. I named my anxiety& ocd CHAD! So now when I'm having a hard day I can just say Chad is really picking on me today. It's a way to separate myself from those intrusive thoughts.,it's really helped me. No offense to any Chads. Just a suggestion.
I’m so sorry Colleen:( I’m here for you❤ and I feel the exact same way so know you are not alone! And it’s very comforting for me to know I’m not too even though my brain keeps telling me I am
When I was doing counseling. I NOTICED that sometimes, it was Just too much. I told my counselor tbat I just needed some time off of the overthinking and anyzing and spilling deep thoughts. AND that was it. I JUST was too overwhelmed. Sometimes its ok to say..I need to only do counseling 2x a month vs 4. Or i need 1 week off a month. Therapy days were draining 😊
i think you miss your miranda days.......too many people thinking they control people's happiness because they're overly sensitive. I'm sorry that there are people who think theyre holy. like forgive and move on.
Aw Coleen, please stop trying so hard - you can’t make yourself feel feelings that are not there in that moment, so just allow yourself to express and feel your genuine emotions. I honestly don’t mind if you cry every single vlog if it helps you to feel brighter. You are an incredible mum, a soul mate to Erik and I sure you are a wonderful friend too; please be kinder to yourself. Sending gentle hugs.Xx
Girl. I wonder what’s going on. I’ve been in a funk like that since Canadian Thanksgiving. So anxious and depressed from having to live like that for months thinking this is my new normal although I know there will be a time when I’ll get out of it (and so will you!)
So many of my friends are feeling the same way it’s been a few months as well which I find odd.
I’m Canadian. Maybe it’s because of all the sad news going on as well… politics are wild right now… plane crashes… ugh. Nothing good is happening right now
It happens to the best of us, I am a therapist and I go through it bad sometimes and I'm so hard on myself because as a professional I should know how to cope, but besides a therapist I am a human being and must go through the process as well. You are doing amazing using your cooking skills.
We Love you when you're Feeling Blue And when you Feel Yahoo, Milady
TTQ: two questions! Number one is who else would you like to be a guest on you and Rachel’s podcast and number two would you be interested in doing another Miranda show live online like the rushtix ones you did? I loved those and I recently watched another TH-camr I like do something similar and it reminded me of those shows you used to do!
Feeling sad is normal. No one is clicking their heels all day. You think you’re annoying? I’m sure if you record lots of humans most days of the week we’d be “annoying” too. You’re just being human which is tough business. Take it easy on yourself and don’t watch the news too much. Also, if you think you have PMDD maybe you can use a specific BC for it. Be well. We ❤ you.
I love you Colleen!
I say that because you are precious to me and I would be heartbroken if you weren't there.
So happy to see this post! You always make my day! 💜💜💜
Hey Colleen! This is my first time commenting. I’ve been watching your vlogs for almost 10 years now, you’re my comfort person:). I’ve recently started listening to “The Let Them Theory” by Mel Robbins on Audible. I’ve been loving it. I feel like you might enjoy it and it may help you feel better. ❤️
Colleen all your feelings are valid! I wish you didn’t feel like you have to apologize to us or anyone. We all feel these same emotions and shouldn’t apologize for them. Life is hard. You are doing amazing. Like a million times more things and with more love and patience than most. Give yourself the same grace and understanding that you do for all of us! We love you. 🫂🩵
Colleen good or bad I want to see you it. I'm grateful to you for sharing when your having a bad day or need a cry. Being emotional is not a bad thing isn't annoying and definitely never to much. I love and respect who you are I wish you did it makes sad to hear you talk negative about yourself and you're emotions.
3:09 😂! Girl it’s gonna be okay!!
Tortilla talk - how excited are you for Wicked part two coming out this year?? And have you congratulated Ariana or talked to her about her Oscar nomination?
Society says that we should be perfect and feel a certain emotion at a certain time and I know you say that you don't want to be this person but have you ever just stopped and said that it's OK to be who you are. it's OK to be sensitive and over emotional and over caring and Oversharing and upset and happy and mad and all the things because the world is a scary place so you might have times were you just wanna lay on the floor and cry and that's OK and then there's times where you wanna laugh and that's OK I say stop stressing over who you think you should be and just be who you are which I'm sure is easier said than done.
It’s okay to cry and let it out. We all love you and support you.
The twins are to cute. Wesley scares me either way all them scary jumps
Thank you for being honest about your struggles with your mental heath. You’re not alone with these feelings. You are doing all the right things and eventually things will be better.
Keep doing what you’re doing and try to not be too hard on yourself.
You’re an amazing person, mother and wife.
Tortilla talk question Do you ever run out of ideas or activities do to with the kids? ❤❤😊
I’m a very sensitive person too❤ I feel like if it wasn’t for bad luck I’d have no luck at all
Hi Colleen, have you ever tried EMDR? It’s a form of therapy that taps into your brain just by eye movement, if you’ve never had that I would definitely look into it more!! It has helped my ways of thinking TONS!
TTQ: Has Flynn ever watched the documentary “Our Oceans” on Netflix? If so, is that where he learned about cuttlefish?
Colleen it is so important to cry and release emotions and not hold it in and plus you feel better love you ❤️❤️🩷🩷
Hi coleen❤ TTQ: is Eric still acting? Or is he working in other fields?
Pms symptoms can last 2 weeks Colleen it's not just the one single day before your period
As you said, sometimes you just need to let it out & we are all here for you. Virtual hug ❤❤❤
Same 😢
Not annoying. Just life. Atleast it is for me too! I’m just gonna say, and I’m sorry about it, but, peri menopause?? When I started, I was a damn mess. Maybe that is adding to your stress?
TTQ: would you ever do like zoom meet and greets? I know you said you missed having them and we do too!!
You and me both! I mean, I know there's alot more people going through similar things, but I'm also tired of trying and trying and nothing seems to work! Oddly enough n, since the start of 2025, things have just felt spiraled out of control! Hope you find some comfort in such a chaotic existence soon!
I feel you you’re not alone I promise ❤️❤️🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷
Love you Colleen and your not alone 🩷❤️❤️❤️🩷🩷❤️❤️🌹🌹
Colleen you're not cuckoo. I know you wouldn't call me cuckoo for doing the exact same thing. Sometimes I just need to let it out. Thank you for including that. It made me feel less alone. I wish you wouldn't be so mean to yourself and not talk down on yourself. If for nothing then those three sets of ears you're raising that are listening very closely to what you say about yourself. Sending love from Los Angeles 💜💛
I had bad moody pms😢, it's something we can't control sadly, feel better Colleen
Colleen guess what we all cry and you know what you are an amazing human being and you are a human and humans cry so cry it out girly
I wish I was a man and didnt have to go through PMS. They just go around thinking about food and sports and that's it. Must be amazing
Praying for you ….. I hate seeing you sad. It does worry me a bit because I’ve been watching your videos since the beginning and I want you to feel happy. A few people mentioned peri-menopause….. I got that when I was 40 and it changed me a lot. So maybe it could be that ….. but I’m not a doctor. I just want you to be happy! ❤️😊
COLLEEN - I've asked this before but not had a response. Do you take any supplements to support your body/mind? I seriously think you could benefit from magnesium to start with, to calm your nervous system down. I feel you're depleted and could benefit hugely from things like B vitamins, Omegas, Iron, magnesium etc x
I’ve been watching you long before your kids. I currently have 3 kids. A 3yo girl and almost 1yo twin boys!
I always felt connected to you videos and it’s so funny how I also have twins and how much your videos have helped me feel less alone.
I’ll be 27 Feb 13th. Like I said I have 3 kids, a girl and twin boys!
I actually had a wonderful pregnancy and postpartum with my first (sorry, I know yours was hard) but I still kept watching your videos even though I couldn’t relate you your pregnancy with Flynn. And then I got pregnant before the twins and lost the baby. I related so hard to your miscarriage video😢 and then after that I got pregnant with the twins. And boy did that pregnancy take me out!!!!! I got SPD AT 14weeks. Worst pain ever! My c section was also scary. Now, I have PPD….anyway, thank you for being so transparent about your struggles. It’s helped me in so many way!
Love u colleen
Tortilla talk question- does Flynn know he’s been in a Ariana Grande music video and we love you girl we know you are such a strong woman and you can get passed anything❤️❤️
Sending you a virtual hug you got this girl!!!!!!❤
help and available for you collenne don't give up all our love collenne and family
It's going to be alright Colleen sending you good vibes energy yeah and also good idea it good to be prepared as well😁👍
Heyy Colleen, I’ve been feeling EXACTLY the same almost every day since the beginning of 2025. It’s so weird being sad even tho there no a specific reason for it.
And watching this, so many advices came to my head but I don’t think about it when I don’t feel good. So crazyy…
I am sending you much love❤️ Just keep doing things that you love and spend time with your family
who else loves Collen vlogs?