남주누나가 솔로컴백 준비로 바쁜데도 초롱누나랑 추억 많이 쌓을려고 이것저것 열심히 준비한게 눈에 보여서 감동이었어요ㅠㅠ.. 앞으로도 지금처럼 오래오래 행복하게 에이핑크 활동합시당!! 이제 진짜 곧 남주세끼 구독자 10만 달성이네요ㅎㅎ 실버버튼 미리 축하합니다 누나💜💜 이번 3월도 누나 솔로 앨범 덕분에 행복하게 잘 보냈어요 김남주 화이팅!!
Namjoo, look, if you have 1000000 fans, one of them is me. if you have 100000 fans, one of them is definitely me. if you have 10000 fans, one of them is obviously me. if you have 1000 fans left, one of them is still me. if you have 100 fans, one of them surely me. if you only have 10 fans left, one of them is clearly ME, AND EVEN IF YOU ONLY GOT 5, 3 OR 1 FANS LEFT, THAT WOULD BE MEEE. I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE TO SUPPORT YOU KIM NAMJOO. You are one of the best artists that deserve so much love! (ง ͠° ͟ل͜ ͡°)ง💜
Oh my god! the food in 00:30 is too local!! I always visit that Bing Kee Cha Dong 😂(I am Hong Kong-er) How can you know that, Namjoo? 04:20 that food can only dip into the soup for 3 seconds! Next time, take them out earlier!!
남주투어 2탄 기다리고 있었어요!❤홍콩의 맛집들도 소개해주고 디즈니랜드가 어떻게 되있는지 많이 궁금했는데 덕분에 봐서 좋았어요!남주투어에 참여하면 진짜 좋을 거 같네요!롱언니랑 맛난 거도 많이 먹고 행복하고 즐거운 여행이었네요!다음번 남주투어의 게스트가 누굴 지는 모르겠ㅣ만 기대하고 있을께요!💜💜💜🤩
4:21 "Dried Beancurd Roll" you only put in the pot for 2-3 seconds and eat immediately, when its a bit soft outside with soup but still crunchy inside so that you can enjoy both texture in one go 😁
I hope you guys provide an English caption (subtitles) so that international fans can understand the vlogs n videos🥲 love you Apink. Love you chorong 💜ma bais🫂🤍
00:00 몸만 오는 남쭈 투어 2화 시작🫶🏻 00:27 점심 먹었는데ㅜ 언니들 조식 메뉴 보니까 다시 배고파졌어요🍜🧋 2:36 핑크 걸즈🐰🐹🩷 9:37 디즈니랜드 또 가고 싶어요🥺🎡 10:31 혹시,,초롱 언니 이 댓글을 보게 된다면 키링 구매처 알려주실 수 있나요🐰 10:39 닭발핑크💕 12:52 빼꼼🥺 12:59 에핑은 여덟살.. 13:53 이번에 오픈했다고 본 것 같은데 랜선 여행 하는 기분이구 너무 조아요🤍 16:03 배드쮸 컴백 선물😈🎁 17:00 남쭈 투어 장점 최근에 홍콩 여행 가고 싶었는데 언니 덕분에 랜선 여행 즐겁게 하구 가요🫶🏻🇭🇰 몸만 오는 남주 투어 다음 시즌도 기대할게요💕
Oink Oink.. Is it really You.. I am looking at the Letter.. is it written by YOU.. can YOU please tell me if this writing belongs to YOU.. I want to know because I want it from YOU.. from NO ONE else but just YOU.. and I am looking at the Letter in my hands.. and I just opened the envelope and inside is Your Picture.. as I pulled out your Photo Picture.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I have never seen such a Smile.. but.. I want to tell YOU that YOU are so Beautiful to Me.. I don't care what any one else says about YOU.. as Long as I know that I love YOU.. Not just love YOU.. I do admire YOU.. as I would open the folded Letter and I would look.. It is written by YOU.. I can smell the perfume.. the scent.. I know that I have been writing YOU many letters.. and One of the Letters I have written asking to send me a Letter and a Photo Picture of YOU.. a New Picture of YOU.. I have an Older picture.. but the recent which I can look at YOU.. I watched the Mail Man putting the envelope into the Mail Box and I saw the Truck takes off.. I did Not think that YOU be sending me a Letter.. Of course for a long time I was hoping that YOU would tell me something.. that YOU would write me a letter and give me a New Picture of YOU.. I wanted to see how you looked recently.. hoping that YOU be more beautiful than the One.. the Older Photo Picture I have.. I do remember.. walking Out.. looking out through the window of my Room.. I saw the truck arriving.. I saw the Mail Man putting an envelope into the Mail box and He takes Off.. of course I did not think that It be a Letter from YOU.. Not even a Photo picture added into it.. but On this very night.. I would open the front door of the House.. I would walk and I stopped.. LOOKING at the sky.. I saw the Moon.. the Moon looks at me and I wanted to wave at the Moon.. but I just did Not.. I went to the Mail Box.. and I opened.. my hand grabs the envelope and I just could Not believe it.. It was hand written.. and It had YOUR NAME.. I am wondering.. what if this Does not belong to this Mail Box.. what if the Mail Man brought to the wrong Mail Box which goes to the wrong person.. but is it really for me.. and I am not sure just by looking at the envelope.. I know this Mail Man.. He gets to the right Box into the right hand into the right House.. so I know this Mail Man because He has been around this block for a long time.. So I take the envelope into the house.. I stop and I turn to LOOK UP.. holding the envelope into the air.. I am Not sure if it is to the right person.. BUT I am only hoping that it is to Me.. I see the Name.. and I know it must be for Me.. hoping that it was Not placed into the wrong person's hands.. and I would turn to look at the front door.. and I would walk into the House.. In the room.. I am standing there.. my hands together.. like I am wishing.. that I am hoping.. that I am praying that it is for Me.. I wanted it for Me.. and I opened the envelope.. pulling Out is the New Photo Picture of YOU.. My Heart.. am I going to have an Heart attack.. do I needs to go see the Doctor.. and ask why is My Heart acting this way.. that I am getting a Heart attack.. OH Help me.. help My Heart to stay calm.. I am dying.. as I am looking at the New Photo Picture of YOU.. I feel like it is so Hard for me to breathe.. I feel it be aching inside.. It is so Hard to breathe looking at YOU in this New Photo Picture.. WHY.. WHY do you have to be this Beautiful.. YOU are so gorgeous that It hurts me more to LOOK at this Picture.. should I of asked.. If I asked.. I know that YOU are going to give but when YOU are wearing a White Dress.. and YOU are smiling.. if YOU are so Beautiful.. and I can't do nothing.. it aches and it hurts me More.. it hurts my eyes too keep on looking at this Picture.. I needs to turn away.. My eyes needs to look another way.. because I can get a heart attack.. Now I want to see YOU more.. I want to ask for YOU and I be saying.. I need YOU more.. what if I ask YOU.. can I see YOU.. can I meet YOU.. can I go over and knock on your Door.. can I be the one to get closer to YOU.. and I would look at your New Photo Picture.. it gets harder to look the other way.. and as I would look into the envelope.. I grab the Letter.. the scent.. the perfume.. soft smell.. the sweet smell of YOU.. as I open the Letter which is written by YOU.. I am thinking.. did I do the right thing for asking YOU to write and to respond.. what if I can feel like I am dying inside.. I just can't sleep.. I won't be able to sleep because I be thinking of YOU.. I am already thinking of YOU just too much.. now it is going to add the fuel inside of me because I see the new Photo Picture and Now.. this Letter.. I get to see what YOU be thinking.. as I open the Letter.. and I would read the Letter you written to me.. I only hear.. you only wrote the word Hi.. just wanted to say and Your name is written.. but.. even just the word Hi.. it means everything to me then Not saying or written anything.. but.. it is this Picture.. the New Photo Picture.. I just can't take my eyes off of you.. why can't I just let it rest.. why can't I.. it hurts me More just by looking because YOU are so Beautiful.. why did YOU have to look so Beautiful like this.. as I would sit by the desk.. I am thinking of YOU.. Is my Heart so broken.. am I broken.. do I feel so broken inside.. I feel so sad because Now there is a reason for me to want to get more close to YOU.. then.. what am I suppose to do.. if we are apart and the distance.. this miles of distance.. and when I look at the new Photo Picture of YOU.. My Heart wants to cry.. I want to cry when YOU look this Good.. and I just can't be there for YOU.. My Heart wants to cry.. I want to cry because I want to pull you closer but I know I can't.. I know that I just can't even though I want to get close.. to Hold YOU.. to HOLD you close and smell the same perfume.. this aroma.. it is driving me insane.. it is driving me crazy.. because I want to hold YOU and tell YOU.. what Words should I say to YOU.. can I hold YOU close.. may I hold YOU close.. can I hold your hands Please.. as I would pull a New Piece of Paper.. clean Piece of paper.. with the envelope on the side.. I grab a pencil to tell YOU my Heart.. but the word only Beautiful comes into my Mind.. leaving me speech less.. My Heart.. feels like an Attack.. getting this Heart attack.. I just can't hold back the tears.. my tears of this over joy.. but sadness because I want to love YOU more.. I want to tell YOU who loves YOU.. I want to say it to YOU.. but I can't tell YOU.. I needs to tell YOU.. will you let me say it to YOU.. I need your ears.. I really need your ears.. so that YOU can listen to my words telling YOU.. I know that by now I can say it to YOU.. after a time of writing YOU for a long time.. Now it builds this confident to say it.. I want to say it to YOUR ears.. to Your Heart that I love YOU.. but I need YOU to be hear with me be close by me.. as I am looking at the New clean white piece of paper.. I would begin with.. I have received Your Letter.. and I have gotten a New Photo Picture of YOU.. when I pulled it Out of the envelope.. My hand could not take it.. because of my eyes.. YOU blew my mind to pieces.. my hands opened letting the New Photo Picture to hit the desk.. I couldn't take it.. My Heart couldn't take it any more.. because of the radiant of Your Skin.. YOU are so Beautiful.. why did YOU have to be this Beautiful that it got me caught off guard.. I could not control my emotions.. My Heart crying inside.. telling me that YOU are so Beautiful.. My hand wouldn't to pound on my chest like I am a GORILLA.. I just couldn't hang on to your Beauty.. as I would stop.. I wanted to breathe.. can I breathe.. But it was so Hard for me to breathe.. leaving me speechless.. I wanted to say something.. but it is a Picture.. a New Photo Picture.. it can't speak back or Hear me say a word.. but I wanted to say it any ways.. but How can I say something.. that is why I just had to grab a Piece of paper to write YOU a Letter.. I just can't keep it to myself any more.. any longer because YOU are the Most Beautiful.. Like a Flower.. just too beautiful to be true.. as I am writing this Letter to YOU.. I just opened a wine.. pouring into the glass and I am drinking while I am writing and thinking of YOU.. turning to look at Your New Photo Picture of YOU.. I feel like I needs to cry.. Cry because I can't be with YOU right Now.. even though I want to be close.. My arms wants to hold YOU and tell YOU.. what are you doing to Me.. why does Love have to be this Hard.. why can't I be with you.. YOU know that I can love you right.. YOU know that I be telling YOU that I love YOU.. I be close to YOU.. asking for Your ear.. instead of always turning to look at the Photo Picture.. I can look at YOU.. holding your hands and pull YOU close.. and I will look at your Ear and say.. can YOUR Heart hear me.. will YOU open your Heart so that YOU can hear me right.. I been struggling and dealing this Pain.. the pain and this ache inside because of YOU.. longing for YOU.. crying in the night.. trying to go to sleep but I can't sleep.. my mind rushes of YOU.. seeing you every where and it is YOU who is haunting me every where.. I need YOU.. I need you so that I can stop missing YOU.. I need you so that I can keep on telling YOU that I love YOU.. why can't you be close to Me so that I can love YOU the way YOU NEEDS to be loved.. do YOU NOT want to be loved by me.. I will always love YOU.. YOU know that I can't stop.. or are you afraid that once YOU are here with me.. I will stop caring and loving YOU.. that I won't send YOU letters any more.. because It should Not matter.. is it because of too many Heart breaks and Heart aches.. YOU know that I love YOU still.. don't be afraid because I am only here to love YOU and show YOU what it means to be loved.. just open your Heart and let me tell YOU that I love you.. as I would end with the letter
I just can't stop looking at this Little Piano.. why is it keep on telling me to come Near.. and I am thinking of YOU.. I need your Heart.. I need your Heart here with Me.. that is only way I can tell YOU what is IN my Heart.. I am asking YOU.. Heart to Heart.. Please.. tell me can I have your Heart close to Me.. so that I can tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I want to say that I love you like I am so Crazy in Love with YOU.. Please.. How can I have your Heart close to Me.. I turn to look at the Little Piano.. it is telling me to play a tune.. telling me to touch the Key bars.. that Only it is fingers away from the Touch.. if I can only play.. If I can only write the Music.. compose a Song.. write a Music so that YOU can hear something Out of this Little Piano.. but.. I know that I can't play a tune.. I can't make a sound.. it just be so noisy in your ears.. the tunes will Not sound right which it should make you feel something very special but If I play on this Little Piano.. instead of smiling.. YOU can be angry with me instead saying.. WHY can't I play a Good music that makes you smile and makes you happy.. that is why I am telling YOU I can't play.. but the Little Piano who is in my room.. is looking at me telling me.. I want to play something for YOU.. to tell you that I love YOU.. I have the Recorder in my Hand.. and I put a tape inside the recorder.. and on the Top of the desk is the Empty Glass Jar.. inside is Your Picture.. I took your Picture and someone was able to make it pretty big.. the Picture I put inside the Glass Jar.. I can see your Beautiful Face.. only if YOU were in this room.. Only If I can have your Heart.. and Place your Heart inside the Glass Jar next to Your Picture.. I am able to tell YOU something.. I would turn to look at the Little Piano.. I would ask.. would you let me Play.. even though I would Not be able to play anything.. I can push the Play Button of the Recorder and the Instrument of a Piano.. a Professional Pianist can Play.. I would stand next to the Little Piano.. can Act like I can Play.. when YOU hear the sound of the Music coming Out of the Recorder of playing the Piano.. I would turn and I would LOOK at the Desk.. I would look at your Picture.. I would Look at the Heart.. only If I have your Heart.. I be saying to YOU.. I have written YOU a Letter.. I wrote it last Night.. I was thinking about this very night so I had to write it.. and I had to memorize what I wrote to YOU in the Letter to tell YOU.. Can YOU hear the Song.. the Instrumental of this Piano Playing.. If YOU look towards me who is standing by the Little Piano.. YOU can be pretty confused because It looks like I am playing the Piece of Music.. Yes.. my fingers are pressing into the Key Bars of this Little Piano.. but.. I have turned off the sound that comes Out of this Piano because.. the recorder is playing instead.. Can YOU hear the Music of this Piano Playing.. Please if YOU can't.. Open your ears.. Please tell me that YOU can hear Me.. Please.. open your Heart for me and listen to the Sound of this Music of Piano.. the Instrumental Playing.. I want to give you this Song.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I know that YOU are hearing the Sound of this Little Piano Playing.. it is what I will say to YOU.. that I love YOU.. My Heart can't take it no more.. My fingers pressing.. hands wants to pound on this Key Bars on this Piano.. when ever I think of YOU.. when ever I want to say I love YOU.. I can hear my own Heart.. telling me It wants to beat faster.. it beats faster because I needs to say it and tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I turn to look at the desk.. Looking at the Glass Jar.. I am looking at your Picture.. and.. Only if Your Heart be placed inside.. I be crying Out Loud.. I love YOU.. you do not know what YOU have done to me but I want to say that I love YOU.. as I turn to look at the Little Piano.. I feel so sad.. I feel so happy but sad again.. because all I see is myself.. I don't see YOU.. But I needs to see YOU.. I want to see you.. I needs your Heart here with me.. so that I can tell your Heart.. I do not know How long.. but I have to say to Your Heart.. I love you.. How Long.. I will say it I love YOU.. looking at the Little Piano.. I know that It feels My Heart.. it knows My Heart because it knows my Heart.. I believe the Little Piano hears my voice.. as I am playing and touching the Key bars.. it knows that I love YOU.. knowing how much I needs to be with YOU.. but I will say.. YOU are so Far off.. WHY do you have to be so Far that I can't see YOU.. I wants to find a way where YOU can be near.. will you let me come close to YOU.. Please let me know because.. I want to take this Little Piano with Me.. and stand next to YOU.. I would turn to LOOK at you.. and I will tell YOU.. this is the Little Piano I was talking to Your About.. every Night.. I would turn to look at this Little Piano.. I feel stuffy inside.. sometimes I feel frustrated because I want to be close to YOU.. when I feel so stuffy inside.. I get close to this Little Piano.. and I would turn it on.. where when My Fingers touch the key bars.. and it presses into it.. YOU can hear the sounds of each key bar when YOU press it down.. it makes a noises.. and as my fingers touch and presses into the key bars.. I want to play you a Song.. making a Music and I would face the Wall.. Only if YOU can be right there.. Only if YOU can be that close to Me.. and I would say.. WHY do you have to be so Far.. that I can't find YOU any where.. I can't see YOU any where.. I want to tell YOU so that YOU can hear me but I know that NO matter how much I speak.. or how much my fingers press into the Key bars of this Little Piano and YOU can hear sounds out of the Little Piano.. YOU can't hear me.. it breaks my Heart.. I needs to say It.. I needs to tell YOU that I love YOU.. if I say it to YOU.. I know that I can see YOU to get a certain response.. but in this ROOM.. with the Glass Jar and Your Picture inside of it.. YOU can't never hear me.. that is why it kills me inside because I want to play for you something.. but I know that I can't.. I know that I can't play you a song.. even if YOU were standing here close to me.. I know that the sound will Not come out right.. but. I know that as long as I have a Heart who loves YOU.. I can at least tell YOU what is in my Heart.. that I wants to be with YOU.. I wants to be close to YOU and that I miss YOU.. that I want to say How much I love YOU.. No matter how many times I say it in this ROOM.. you will never hear my words.. this is what is hurting Me the Most.. this is what is killing me inside that I needs to say it to YOU.. but I can't.. I needs to tell YOU but I can't.. the word Can't is driving me crazy right Now.. as I stop the recorder.. and I am standing by the Little Piano.. I am aching so Much.. It is hurting me so Much.. this Pain.. when YOU love so much.. it can also Hurt you the Most because it drives YOU mad.. it drives YOU crazy to see your Face but I can't.. so If you are telling me to wait.. How Long must I wait for YOU to know Your Heart.. How long must I wait.. as I open the recorder.. I put another tape inside the recorder.. and I would push Play to record.. Can YOU hear my voice.. Can you hear me Now. I am looking at the Little Piano.. which I can't play at all.. but it has been with me for a long time.. wanting me to play a tune.. to bring out a sound and make a music with this Little Piano.. for me to play this Little Piano.. I needs you to be here.. I want you to stand next to me so that I can stand next to YOU and show YOU that only when YOU are here.. I am able to do something with it.. only way this Little Piano can bring out the music and the sound is when YOU are here with me.. I can't play anything.. and I won't play it because.. I want you to be here to see it.. I will be standing next to the Little Piano.. and My fingers will be placed on the key bars.. and I would put the Letter I wrote for you.. I want YOU to hold the Letter.. and YOU can read it while I play and I can say it to YOU.. as YOU are standing next to me.. I don't need the Heart to be inside of the Glass Jar.. I don't need to put Your Picture inside of it either.. I want YOU to be here standing next to me.. to hear it as I show YOU how Much I love YOU.. I would be.. my fingers would be pressing onto the Key bars.. and I would turn to look at YOU.. I may not be able to show YOU the voice.. I can't sing at all.. I won't sing to you at all but.. I would press the recorder and let YOU Hear my voice on the Recorder of what I said.. I would let it all Out to tell YOU that I loved YOU.. from the day I first saw YOU.. the moment I had to be far away.. as I would be facing the Walls at night.. going Out at Night looking at the Moon.. watching the showers of the rains fall down on me as I would be playing the Little Piano out side.. My Heart was burning because I kept on missing YOU.. even I would think that the showers of the rain.. it is going to cool me down.. this burning in my heart of Loving YOU and of missing YOU together.. I saw the rain falling from the sky.. I took with me the Little Piano.. and stood.. getting Hit by the rain.. and I would be playing.. fingers would press on the key bars.. and I would open up my Heart to YOU as I would stand looking at the MOON.. asking do YOU Hear me now.. DO you hear me from here where I stand.. I would be crying in the rain because I be missing YOU.. Nothing ever worked Out but.. I wanted you to stand next to me.. maybe this is it.. and giving YOU the Letter.. I press the recorder so that YOU can hear me.. what I needs to say.. and I would tell YOU this.. I been missing YOU lately.. is it because I am growing older.. Maybe.. is it because I am thinking you may forget me.. or is it because YOU may find another Love.. it is None of those things because I know who I love.. when YOU are sure about who YOU love
Stopped loving YOU.. can you still here the Little Piano Playing.. I am playing to tell YOU as you read the Letter.. I love YOU.. I have told you many times that I loved YOU.. do you not still believe me yet.. YOU are wondering.. when am I going to give up on you right.. as long as YOU know right now.. I still love YOU.. why would I give up on you.. when YOU are my Heart Beat away.. I know that I be seeing you very soon.. I would turn to look at you as I am playing on the Little Piano.. as YOU are standing next to me.. I would say to YOU.. I took this Little Piano Out side.. there were nights when you find Peace in the Night.. standing Out side.. alone with this Little Piano.. I would turn to look at the Moon.. I would only see your Face in the center of the Moon.. with Your Smile.. my arm stretches out.. my hand opens wide to touch.. I wanted to touch YOU but YOU were so far.. I saw you in the center of the Moon.. I could Not touch you with this Hand.. but.. I would play on this Piano.. on this Little Piano I would try to play a song.. I would look UP at the MOON and say.. DO you Hear Me.. I know that I will see YOU SOON.. I know that I will meet YOU soon.. of course I don't know when.. I have NO time Line but I know.. if YOU KNOW WHO is the One loving YOU.. I know that YOUR Heart will be opened.. I know that YOUR Ears be opened too.. and I believe YOU want that man to Love you over and over again.. because I want to Love YOU.. just as YOU are.. just the way YOU are suppose to be loved.. and my fingers stop pressing on the Little Piano.. and I turn to look at YOU.. I say.. I love you.. just the way this Little Piano Loves to play a tune to make a sound of its music for YOU.. I just wanted to say.. it is because I love YOU.. I am listening to the Song I am playing on this Piano.. of course I am Not a composer.. I can't write any music.. but I have the Letter I have written just for YOU.. Only YOU can hear the Words that is coming Out of My Mouth.. which it was written last Night before I went to Bed.. I just could Not sleep.. I would be tossing and turning on the side.. I would be laying.. Looking at the wall of the ROOM.. my Heart was Beating Hard from the Inside.. which kept me waking UP.. I would try to close the two eyes.. shut I would close.. but I would see YOU in my Head.. in my Mind I see YOU and I would think of YOU.. opening both eyes does Not work because My Heart is beating Hard.. I would sit on top of the bed.. trying to lay back Down and again I would sit.. I would look across is the Desk.. maybe it is telling me to write YOU another Letter.. why do I have to keep On picking UP the Pen.. putting the White Piece of paper before my eyes.. I would pull the chair closer and I would sit.. but the Night.. it is like deep into the Night.. where I am suppose to be sleeping the Most.. But I would have your picture on the Top of the Desk.. I turn on the side looking at the Door.. I see the Little Piano.. it is waiting for Me.. by the Door which it leads me to the Living ROOM.. the Little Piano looks.. and I look at the Little Piano.. it is telling me to Play so that I can tell YOU.. what is IN MY HEART which it says IN my Heart I love YOU.. I love you so Much that I am Not sure how much to Love any More.. do I have to love you so More.. but How BIG and Wide must this Love must carry through.. How can YOU tell.. but I would look at the Little Piano on the side by the door.. and I know.. I may Not be able to play a SONG.. it may Not come Out right.. YOU will not hear it right.. then.. How about the Letter.. maybe the Letter can over come and the Music YOU listen with YOUR ears of the TUNE of this Piano.. it may Not affect Your Hearing Loss.. but when YOU hear the Words.. the Letter.. I will let YOU hear the Letter that I am writing this Very Night.. as I turn the Other way is the Window.. pulling the Curtains UP.. I can see the Window.. and I can see the MOON from where I am sitting in this Room.. and I look at the Moon as I am sitting.. turning to the Moon.. thinking of YOU.. grabbing the Picture and looking at YOU through this Picture.. What am I suppose to do.. when can I see YOU.. when can YOU hear my Heart.. the Out cry that Comes from within me.. I want to tell YOU I love YOU.. I want to say to YOU that I love YOU so Much.. will you let me tell you these words of Mine to YOU.. will you let me ever come close to YOU and tell YOU how much I love YOU.. How about the times having when I really Really Missed YOU.. I want to pour a Wine on the Glass.. and I want to drink.. take a sip of the Wine of the Glass cup.. taking a Sip and when I face you.. when I see YOU.. I will be first approaching YOU.. holding Your Hands.. It has been so Long I have been waiting.. it took more than thousand days.. even ten thousand days had to pass me by.. how many weeks does it needs to pass by for YOU to ever miss Me.. How many Months does it needs to take for YOU to Miss me.. How many years must it pass by for YOU to miss me and see My Heart.. when will YOU KNOW that I be loving YOU for so Long.. do YOU know that every Night I miss YOU.. I can turn.. looking at the MOON.. if YOU ever have some time.. and when the Day turns into Night.. Please step Out side.. just once in a blue MOON will do.. as I be walking Out side.. Holding the Letter In my Hands.. I would be walking and I stop.. I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. and I would hold UP the Paper.. the Letter in my Hands.. and I would say.. if YOU hear me.. and the Little Piano is there with Me.. as I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. my hands.. my fingers would be pressing the Key Bars.. I am Not sure what kind of sounds YOU can be hearing.. it is good that YOU are ON the Other Side.. if YOU can't hear the Key.. the sounds and the Tunes of this Piano.. I think it can be good for those ears.. instead of hearing the Words that I speak coming from the Heart which I would memorize the Written Words I have written in the Letter for YOU.. YOU may Not hear my words right.. I would be hitting the Key bars.. it is making a lot of sounds and a lot of noises on this Piano.. as I am pressing the Key Bars which it is bring Sounds Out.. I am Looking UP.. turning to the MOON.. and I know.. I can see Your Face inside the Moon.. as I would close my two eyes.. I would say.. DO you Hear Me.. do I must speak Louder to YOU for the waves to go across.. do I needs to Lose my Voice for YOU to hear me Now.. I been waiting for YOU.. but YOU have Not showed UP yet.. I have been waiting for Your Answer.. WHY can't YOU tell me that YOU Miss me.. why can't YOU be truly Honest with me for Once.. Please tell me that YOU love me Too.. Please tell me that YOU also can miss Me.. I been holding IN for a Long time.. I wanted to say it.. to tell YOU that I am missing you so Much right Now.. I am Not even looking at the Key Bars of this Little Piano.. so I have NO idea what I am playing.. If YOU were here.. I know you would tell me to Stop playing on that Little Piano because YOUR ears will Hurt.. and that is why I just can't stop.. if YOU can be hear and hear the sounds of this Little Piano which I am bringing Out some kind of Noise.. YOU will tell me to Stop because It is hurting Your Ears.. that is HOW MY Heart feels at this Point.. that I can't stop that It hurts if I choose to stop.. If I cannot tell YOU that I don't love you.. it hurts me more than the Tune.. the Playing.. the SOUND and the Noise.. It will kill me if YOU tell me to Stop telling YOU that I love YOU.. I can't breath.. I love that I love YOU.. I love the thoughts that I can tell YOU that I love YOU.. to able to tell you this is My Dreams come true.. dreaming of the Day.. I can hold Your hands and truly.. PULL you closer to Me.. and I will speak softly into Your ears.. and I will tell YOU one Hundred times.. How much I love YOU.. and I will tell YOU One thousand times.. how much I will love YOU.. I will cry if I can't say it to YOU any more.. I will sit and ball hard like a Child.. like a baby I can cry if I can't tell YOU that I love YOU.. I have been loving YOU for so Long.. WHY can't YOU see that In me.. I have been here all along.. why can't you accept it.. because it is NOT enough for YOU.. I am trying Hard to tell YOU.. I been here telling YOU that I love YOU.. the Joy that brings into my Heart.. when I am allowed to say it.. to tell it the way it is meant to be said.. I want to tell you that I love YOU.. as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I can feel the tears.. My Heart is burning.. My Heart is beating Hard.. my fingers pressing into the Little Piano.. I am Looking UP at the MOON at Night.. making all kinds of Sounds and Noises YOU just don't want to Hear.. that is why I am here on the Other side which You can't Hear it.. but the Words I am telling.. the Words I been writing to YOU all this time.. Letting YOU know that It is my Heart.. It is the Pencil which I pick UP.. it is the Piece of paper.. and writing to YOU which makes me Happy.. gives me Hopes and to dream Bigger for YOU and to love YOU more and more.. as my fingers stops pressing on the Key bars of this Little Piano.. I would still Look UP at the Moon.. and I would say in the Loud voice.. DO YOU hear Me.. can YOU Please Hear me standing here on the Other side.. I am waiting for YOU.. that is why when YOU take the TIME to come Out.. Please come out at Night.. when YOU can stand out alone.. and YOU can see the MOON above YOU.. what YOU will see is not Me playing on the Little Piano.. YOU are not going to see a Letter with two wings flying down to YOU.. But the MOON is going to show you the Tears that came Out of my eyes.. comes Out from the Heart.. comes Out from my Mind and my thoughts of thinking of YOU.. YOU will see the Moon so differently because the MOON will shows YOU tears.. My Tears because I love YOU.. My Tears because I miss YOU.. My Tears because YOU do Not understand my Heart.. But that is Okay If
At your Picture.. wishing that I can be with YOU.. Can YOU hear me on the other side.. that is why I would stand here alone.. LOOKING at the MOON.. I would cry before the Moon.. because I want YOU to Hear Me.. I want you to able to receive what I can give.. I wish that YOU can Hear me.. but All I see is the MOON before me.. It does not Move.. Does not make any kinds of expression.. It does not speak back to Me.. but I still see the MOON standing still.. How do I get this Letter to YOU.. How am I suppose to deliver this Letter to YOU.. can you please show me the way to Your Heart.. please show me How can this Letter get into your hands.. as I grab the Little Piano into my Hands.. and I am walking back to the House.. and slowly I am walking away from the Moon.... the Door opens and I go into the House.. I am in the ROOM.. looking at the Letter on the Top of the desk.. and I am sitting on the Chair.. Looking at the Picture of YOU.. How can this Letter get to YOU.. what am I suppose to do for YOU to know.. that I needs to give YOU this Letter.. and even though I sit here by the desk and I write YOU a Letter.. I am wondering.. DO I ever come cross your Mind.. that means do YOU even read the Letters.. and I would look at Your Picture.. I want YOU to know that I love YOU.. I want you to know that I needs to give you this Letter so that my Heart Knows that I love YOU.. will you accept the Letters I write to YOU.. Please tell me so.. Please tell me that YOU do read it which I give you from the Heart.. I am laying on the Bed.. trying to go back to the bed.. I am turning on the side.. but I know that I can't sleep.. YOU are always on my Mind.. YOU are always in my Heart.. I think of YOU over and over.. NO matter How much I try to do something else.. I keep on think of YOU.. I see YOU everywhere.. what does this Means to YOU.. it means because I love YOU.. I need YOU and I miss YOU.. but I love YOU the Most.. I am in the Room.. Looking out the window.. I see the rain showering down.. I would like to walk in the rain.. but it be nice If I take this Piano with Me.. I have written YOU another Letter.. I wonder if YOU can Hear Me Now.. I know that just standing Out alone.. and Turning to LOOK up.. LOOKING at the Moon and just speaking to the MOON.. that Moon does Not Hear Me.. so I am trying something New.. something different so that Maybe the MOON can catch the glimpse of Me.. and Can turn to LOOK at Me.. and Hear me.. I am trying to grab and get the attention of that MOON.. so maybe I can bring Out this Little Piano that I bought.. and PUT it outside.. and I can Hit the Keys.. making the Sounds.. and with the Recorder in my hand.. and Push the Recording Button as I can open this Letter.. which I have written just for YOU and share it.. If YOU can Hear Me.. Can the Moon hear me Now.. if I can get the MOON to get closer to Me.. I can ask the MOON.. and show the MOON the Picture of YOU.. and ask the MOON.. if YOU see this Person.. in the Picture.. can YOU do something for Me.. will you send me an Angel.. call an Angel for Me.. and I will show the Angel the Picture of YOU.. and I would open the Recorder.. and give the Angel the Tape I have recorded and If the Angel can do me a favor.. that I have One Wish.. to give this Tape to YOU.. and YOU can hear my Voice.. YOU can hear me say and tell YOU what is deep in my Heart.. as I would speak to the recorder to tell YOU.. HOW much I miss YOU.. How Much I want to be close to YOU.. I know that if I just appear out of the Blue.. I don't want to scare YOU.. I don't want YOU to think that I am stalking YOU because I am Not.. so Maybe the MOON.. which hears me Press the Key notes and making the Sounds of pressing the Key bars can turn to Hear and Notice me that I am here down Below.. and If the MOON comes closer.. I will ask.. DO you know any angels who can do me favor.. because I have One wish.. Not asking Much but just for ONE wish.. so I will tell the MOON.. Please get me an Angel to come at my aid.. and If I see the Angel.. I will give HIM the picture of YOU and the tape which I have recorded over and also if YOU need the Letter.. I will give this Angel the Letter too.. just in case YOU want to read this Letter of Mine.. as I am looking out the window.. looking at the rain pouring down.. I have the Piano.. the Little Piano with Me.. I want to take it Out.. I want to go out side and play the Piano.. of course I don't know how to Play.. so If you hear the back ground and It does Not sound right.. YOU know that it is Me.. it is Me who is pressing the Key bars.. just pressing because I want YOU to hear me.. Please hear Me.. Please hear me what I needs to say and to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. why do I love you this way.. I love you in a way YOU can say.. I am creative with what I do.. I am looking at the Little Piano.. Looking at Your Picture.. and I would say to my self.. I miss YOU.. I really really Miss YOU.. just watching the rain fall and the shower of the rain coming down from the sky.. It makes me more miss YOU.. I wish that I did not have to Miss YOU.. but for some reason.. this very Night I really miss YOU.. the way my Heart truly feels is this.. grabbing an Empty Glass Jar.. I want to pull out My Heart from my chest.. grab a Knife and stab my Heart right in the Middle and put the wounded Heart.. the One with the scars.. Put it inside the Glass jar.. watching my Heart be bleeding.. I feel like I am slowly dying instead.. as I look at the Blood gushing Out of my Heart and I see my own blood filling UP the Glass Jar with my Heart still inside it.. I be looking at it.. and I would take the Little Piano Out side.. does Not matter How wet I get.. But I feel like I am dying inside for YOU.. because I miss YOU.. as I am out side.. standing in the rain.. getting wet by the Rain.. I would also bring the Glass Jar.. with My Heart and the Blood filled.. and let YOU see It.. I would ask the Moon.. do YOU not feel sorry for Me.. Do you not see How much I am in pain and that I am suffering so much right Now.. and I would push the recording Button of the recorder.. pressing with my fingers of the key Bars.. telling YOU what I wrote.. I would memorize the Letter I wrote to YOU.. in the Rain.. I am calling Out for YOU.. crying Out for YOU.. can YOU see my Heart.. DO you want to see My Heart.. if YOU can't see it.. I have brought the Glass Jar.. with my Heart inside.. I am missing YOU so much right Now.. I just don't know what to do.. what am I suppose to do when I miss You like this.. Please tell Me.. I have the tape with me.. with My Voice and words speaking into the recorder.. I am reading the Letter which I wrote.. I am reading as I am looking at the Heart.. LOOKING at my Heart inside the Glass Jar covered in Blood.. Please Help me to recover from this Wound and from the scars I feel in my Heart when I be missing YOU.. I just can't take this pain any more.. Please help me to Love again.. If I don't see YOU.. this is how My Heart feels right Now.. as I would look UP.. looking at the MOON.. I be pressing the key Bars of the Little Piano.. and I am crying.. crying because I want More than just this.. I want More of YOU.. I want to say it to your ears.. and tell YOU as I hold you near.. hold you near in my arms.. telling YOU.. why can't I tell YOU.. why can't I say it to YOU in person.. give me the chance to speak to YOU so that YOU can hear me clearly what is IN my Heart.. help me to love YOU more.. only way to can help me.. only way I can get to YOU.. Please Open Your Heart to me.. show me that YOU care.. show me that YOU are truly listening.. because many nights I am Not sure if YOU are or Not.. as My fingers are hitting.. banging on the Key Bars making sounds on this Little Piano.. I want to hear from YOU.. I needs to hear from YOU.. that YOU are listening on the Other side.. I only see the MOON.. but I can't see YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to see YOU near.. and as I would press the stop button of the tape recorder.. I stand still.. getting more wet by the rain.. showers of water of rain on me.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens out.. towards the MOON.. How can I get to YOU.. How can I get Your attention.. How do I get YOU to notice Me.. I know that I am very small as a person.. but the way I love YOU.. the size of How much I love YOU.. If YOU can come Outside at Night.. My Heart of loving YOU can be as big as the MOON I am looking at.. if YOU look at the MOON.. the same Moon I am looking at.. that is HOW MUCH I love YOU.. that is How much I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. even though my Heart breaks.. I can feel my Heart be breaking on the Night like this because I love YOU.. and because I miss YOU.. why don't you ever see Me.. why don't you ever notice Me.. YOU know that I been hear all this Long.. I been here all this Time telling YOU that it is real.. it is true that I be loving YOU.. YOU needs to see that and believe it too. Please give me a chance to Love YOU.. Please give me One Chance.. One shot is all I am asking for.. Not even a day but even few minutes of the time is all I am asking for.. But I am asking YOU.. that Only YOU can make me smile.. as I see the Rain stopped.. and I am standing alone out side.. I am soaked wet because of the shower of rains would pour down on me.. I would pull out the Letter.. of course the Letter is soaked wet too.. but I can still see the writings.. and I would look at the wet recorder and press the Button of the recording.. and the little Piano has a stand.. so I would place the Glass jar on top of the Little Piano.. and after Opening the Letter.. I would lift UP my head towards and I would look at the MOON.. DO you hear Me.. can YOU Please hear me.. ON this very Night.. I am want to speak to YOU.. would you let me speak because this is the Only thing I can do for right Now.. I want to show YOU this Glass Jar.. I want to take this
Time I been waiting and just kept on missing YOU.. every time I write YOU a Letter.. and I think of YOU and every time I take a Look at your Picture.. I can feel something inside of me wants to cry.. I want to cry More as I keep on missing YOU.. holding YOU in my arms is my first Wish.. and the second is to tell YOU how much I love YOU and how much I missed you.. that I know one day it needs to stop.. that I do not have to miss YOU any more.. I am standing Out here.. LOOKING UP at the MOON.. when would that TIME BE.. when I can stop be missing YOU.. I would be wiping these tears.. most of the nights are very harsh for Me.. because my arms.. my arms wants to hold YOU.. hold you close and hold you still.. just to feel you close and that I get to call YOU mine forever.. will you Let that Happen to me.. Please tell me that I do have a hope still.. that I still have a chance.. a hope to tell you that I need YOU.. I miss YOU and that I love YOU.. Please give me the hope so that I can dream being US together for ever.. I am just waiting for that day to come.. but some nights I would say when.. what if It never happens.. what if you don't want to see Me.. what if YOU are happy being there.. but what I want to say is that I need YOU.. I need you more and more.. so Please tell me that YOU do on the Other side think of me too.. and still there is HOPE for me.. as time goes by.. I start to lose more HOPE.. but when I just think of YOU.. when I say your Name.. call out your Name.. I can feel my Heart once again coming alive.. it is because I know ON my part.. I still do Love YOU and never given up that HOPE on you.. that Hope just to say I love YOU.. the Hope to write YOU a Letter and tell you what is in my Heart.. I just Love YOU.. that I can't live with out you.. that I know that I needs YOU.. and as I am looking at the Little Piano in front of Me and on the Top of the Little Piano is the Glass jar.. looking at my Heart just sitting inside.. my Blood covers and has filled UP.. as I want to show YOU.. I want to show YOU this Heart of Mine.. to tell YOU.. it happens when I think of YOU and when I be missing YOU the Most.. I just can't get YOU off my Mind.. I just can't get YOU off my Head.. off my Heart.. and it feels this way.. LOOKING Up at the MOON.. I feel so sad in the days when I can't see YOU.. only thing my eyes can see is Your Picture.. I guess just the picture just don't cut it when YOU love.. when YOU start to love.. I want More.. More of YOU as I am missing YOU at the same time.. IT did not help at all when the Rain poured down as it showered from the SKY.. it did Not help me at all because I started to miss YOU more and more.. My Heart hurts.. and it aches when I don't see YOU.. that is why I be missing YOU all along.. when can I see YOU.. I am looking at the Piano.. as I would walk into the room.. I look at your Picture.. wishing that YOU can see what I just got.. even though YOU may be far from Me.. at least send me Your Heart.. if I can have your Heart.. I will keep Your Heart safe here with Me.. looking at the Empty Glass jar.. I would Place the Empty Glass Jar on the TOP of the Piano.. and I wish that I can Place your Heart inside this Empty Glass Jar.. even though YOU are far.. Knowing and Looking at your Heart.. I know that YOUR HEART is close with me.. I pull up the Piano Chair closer to the Piano.. and I would sit on the chair.. only if I can get You here.. will YOU ever come closer to Me.. How do I get you closer to Me.. and I would look at the key bars of the Piano.. But.. I can't play the tune.. I can't even sing with my voice.. just sitting here.. it seems like it be better if I was Not here at the first Place.. But.. I can write YOU a Letter.. I know that I can tell YOU how much I miss YOU.. I can tell YOU with the Words.. with the Lips.. with my voice.. What I truly feel deep inside my Heart.. I put all my time when I grab the Pencil.. when I grab the paper.. and I grab the piece of paper.. I know that for sure I can write and tell you.. How I feel.. How it feels to be me here on the Other side.. as long as the Letter is able to get to YOU.. will you please receive the Letters.. will you please unfold the piece of Paper which be folded when I give it to YOU.. will you please open your Heart.. hear the words of Mine that comes from my Heart.. how much I love YOU.. How much I adore YOU and admire YOU and How much I miss YOU too.. you are wondering.. what is it about the Piano.. why am I bringing UP the word Piano to YOU if I can't sing.. or can't play tunes of the keys of the piano to bring Music alive.. why am I telling YOU or sharing you about the Piano.. because I want YOU to know.. I want to Place Your Heart.. I want to place your Heart on this Empty Glass Jar.. which is on top of the Piano.. so that when I look at Your Heart.. I can learn How to play the Piano.. it make take some time for me to Know How to Play.. but when I look at your Heart.. when I look at your Heart inside the empty glass jar.. I would look at your Heart.. it may inspire me to say I love you in a way YOU never felt before.. I would think of many different ways to tell YOU.. that I love YOU and that I want to say to Your Heart first.. I would like to tell Your Heart first so that YOU can truly trust me with Your Precious Heart.. without any trust.. there is NO way I can love YOU where YOU are able to love me back One day.. that is why I need Your Heart first with Me.. I remember when I was Young.. my Mother wanted me to Learn something new.. and bought a Piano for Me.. I wanted to learn something New.. wanted to tell a story through but when my Mother bought the Piano.. it was just too complicated for me to learn.. I would watch the Teacher come.. and she would play on the Piano.. I wish that I learned at that time because Now.. when I look at you.. I would LOOK at your Picture.. and I would say WOW.. I would say YOU are so Beautiful.. I would stand by the Piano and say.. YOU are as beautiful like the Piano because Now.. I want to play and make a Music for YOU.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I want to tell YOU MORE.. I want to step Out of the comfort zone and tell YOU what YOU means to me.. when ever I look at you.. through the Picture.. I would regret when I look at the Piano sitting in the Room.. because.. Now I want to play and make music so that I can tell YOU.. even though I may Not be able to sing YOU a SONG.. I would bring a recorder.. and would record my voice.. as my fingers would press on the key bars of the Piano.. I can at least speak to the recorder.. but before I would play on the Piano making Music to come alive.. I would be sitting in my bed room.. taking Out the Piece of paper.. I would write YOU a Letter first.. telling YOU my Heart.. speaking from my Heart.. and writing that comes from My Heart to let YOU know.. the Letter is Not the Only way I can tell YOU my Heart.. I would sit on the Piano Chair.. regretting because I did Not learn at that time.. I had the chance to learn when I was young.. but I only watched the teacher play.. looking at her back as she played and making Music.. pressing the Key bars.. to the sound of my ears it tingled because she Played so well.. if I only learned from that teacher.. only if I took the time to be more serious about learning the keys.. composing and writing the music Notes.. the keys.. I wonder what could of happened Now.. if I learned at that time.. which My Mother would say.. It be wise to learn this kind of instrument because when it is gone.. YOU will regret it when TIME passes by.. I would stand by the Piano.. I would sit on the Piano Chair.. looking at the key bars.. pressing the key bars.. only sounds but weird sounds will hit.. and I feel so terrible Not because I wish that I learned.. so that I can play for YOU.. so that I can tell YOU.. there is Much more ways to Tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I would even take the Piano out side.. even looking at the MOON in the Night.. when I miss YOU.. when I know that YOU are so Far away and I keep on missing YOU.. at least.. with tears in my eyes of Not able to hold YOU.. unable to be close to YOU and It hurts some nights.. I can play the Piano in the Night.. telling YOU.. looking UP at the MOON.. as my fingers hits the Key bars bringing music.. I would be pulling Out the Letter that is written for YOU and tell YOU a story of How much I love YOU.. if the neighbors would come out telling me about the Noises.. I would turn to that person and say.. DID YOU ever miss someone.. when it hurts.. it just hurts so much when YOU start missing.. I needs to say.. I needs to tell YOU this Heart of Mine.. there are times that it feels so painful.. it hurts.. I see tear drops out of my eyes.. so to take this anger out of My Heart for Missing YOU.. I needs to play YOU a SONG.. this Piano is my friend.. helps me to express what I feel when I am dealing with so Much sorrow in me.. that I love YOU but I miss YOU more.. why.. why do you keep on making me feel this way.. when YOU are so far off.. what am I suppose to do when I miss YOU.. and only thing that I can do is taking out the Picture.. the only thing I can do is pull the Picture out of my pocket.. and LOOK at YOU.. do YOU know How it feels when YOU just can't do nothing.. but only thing I can do is look at you in this Picture.. but I needs to tell YOU that I needs to be with YOU.. I needs to get this Off my Chest.. Off my Heart that I needs to be with YOU.. and it hurts me so much because I am dying right Now without YOU in my life.. and to keep my Anger and this pain.. this suffering away.. if I look at the Piano.. and I am able to pull the Piano chair closer.. and able to play the tunes of the Piano pressing on the key bars.. I know that I can tell YOU what I have written.. pressing the recorder.. as I am in the ROOM.. I would open up my Heart and say.. I miss YOU.. I am not sure why I am missing YOU so much right Now.. and I be
Smaller where I can take it out side so that YOU can hear the key bars.. when you hear the sound of the Music coming out of the Piano.. YOU know that It is me.. which I am telling YOU.. I am hurting right Now.. I miss YOU right Now.. where are YOU so that I can tell YOU my Heart.. Please come Out.. come Out and hear this Piano playing.. making the Music to come alive.. only if YOU knew this Heart of Mine.. every time I am sad.. every time I feel this Pain.. every time I want to cry.. when I be missing YOU.. I will be playing the Piano out side.. where if YOU are able to see the MOON on the Other side.. YOU can hear me.. that I am crying right Now.. I am missing YOU right Now.. so you know that it is me on the Other side looking for YOU.. I am missing YOU.. I am missing YOU because YOU are so far away.. where are YOU.. Please tell me so that I know that How you be doing.. tell me so that I can go to YOU like the wind.. as I am standing.. I am looking at the Piano in the room.. I have the letter in my hand and On the Other hand I have your Picture.. thinking of YOU.. and just loving YOU even though I am not sure if I would ever meet YOU.. will I ever see YOU.. can YOU Please tell me that I can see YOU soon.. or do YOU want me to pull the Piano.. the smaller Piano and walk out side.. do YOU want to hear me playing.. when I play on this Piano.. just please remember I am wailing and I am crying on the Other side because I need YOU.. I need YOU and I love YOU.. but for most I am missing YOU.. between us.. it hurts of the Longing and waiting for YOU.. and many nights I be thinking.. what If YOU never show UP.. what if YOU never come to Me.. what if this is nothing but.. and I would ask this kind of question.. but at the same time.. It is good for my Heart to tell YOU even if it is written how much I love YOU.. to able to explore and express and share.. to tell YOU that I really love YOU.. that I won't give UP until I have YOU in my arms and when that day Comes.. in my arms I will tell YOU looking at Your Ears.. how much I love YOU and How much I missed YOU.. longing day and night just to see YOU very close to me.. and I turn to look at the mail Box.. and I would walk toward the mail box and open.. and put the envelop inside and close the mail box door.. I am looking at the truck.. I am not sure why this Truck is in front of the Mail Box.. I would look out the window but I don't see anyone inside the Truck.. I don't see any movement inside the Truck.. I am putting the Letter into the envelope.. folding the piece of paper into half.. this time I wrote two Letters and putting into One Envelope.. just letting YOU know how much I can't stop telling YOU the way I feel.. My Heart wants to burst.. like my Head wants to Burst.. my eyes wants to burst into tears.. as I would fold the two Letters putting into One envelope.. Looking out the window.. I don't see any One.. I don't see the mail man either.. it has been sitting by the Mail box for few hours Now.. I just did not want to go Out but.. then.. what do I do with the two letters I wrote you this Letters.. if there is No Mail man to drive this Truck.. is that Means I can be the Mail Man tonight.. is this Truck for Me.. is it for me to drive.. so is it time for me to see YOU finally.. maybe I can put the Uniform and can act like I be Your Mail man.. of course I am going to tell YOU that the Letters.. which I wrote is me.. If you are to ask Me.. where is the Other Mail man.. I would tell YOU.. I think he is sick so I have come to drive this Truck.. the Time has come for me to finally see YOU.. to tell YOU that it is Me.. all this Time.. I been sitting in my room.. with the Piece of paper.. and the eraser.. with the pencil.. I would write YOU a Letter.. Looking at YOUR picture.. I would stare.. feeling my chest.. and when It starts to burn from the Inside.. I would wait till I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would wait and wait.. and then picking UP the Pencil.. looking down at the Piece of Paper.. I would start to write YOU something that comes from the Inside.. speaking from my Mind.. speaking from my Heart.. I would open my Mouth and speak to the paper.. as I am watching my fingers hold unto the pencil.. and hand writing on the paper.. I see the piece of Paper with letters to sentences into paragraphs becoming long as I would keep on thinking of YOU to tell YOU this Heart of Mine.. But last night.. I was out side walking.. I saw the Moon above Me and I wanted to see YOU.. I asked the MOON.. when will be the GOOD TIME for me to see YOU.. and looking UP at the Moon.. do YOU think the TIME is right.. asking the Moon Above Me.. I wish that the Moon can speak Back because all I can do is LOOK UP at the MOON and just wait.. waiting can be Hard sometimes.. because what if I wait but the TIME will never come to Me.. what if I keep on waiting but there is NO answer on the Other side.. am I just waiting for Nothing.. I would look UP asking that MOON.. what if the TIME be never.. which I do not like to put myself in that situation.. what if Never comes.. what if I stand still like this and everything just stops or pauses before my eyes and Only thing I do is wait but only waiting continues.. I would stand still.. LOOKING UP.. my eyes.. and I would feel so sad.. and tears fills my eyes.. and I would say.. DO you know that I want to be Loved.. I want to hear what YOU have to say.. I want to hear the words I love YOU and I miss YOU from your Lips.. what if nothing ever happens.. and I would stand in the Night.. LOOKING UP at the sky.. LOOKING at the MOON and only thing I can do is wait.. just wait until YOU are truly ready.. what if YOU never wants to be ready.. or YOU end up loving someone else.. as I would think about this.. the tears would run down.. my eyes.. I close my eyes and I open the two eyes.. two lines of tears streams down.. thinking about what If I just stand here and everything just stops.. or just pauses where I can never meet YOU.. as I would look.. I started to see rain.. rain started to fall from the sky.. and it was very light rain falling.. I am thinking.. it might be the MOON crying for Me.. Does that Moon hears me.. does the Moon understand the words coming Out of my Mouth.. Does the MOON knows how much I love YOU.. and How much I want to see YOU.. and I just would watch the Light rain falling down as I would get wet over the rain fall.. I would turn to look at the Window of My room.. and I would walk into the front door of my house.. grabbing a Bottle of whiskey and the shot Glass.. I would have your Picture in my Hand.. sitting on the chair by the desk in my room.. with the Piece of paper laying on top of the desk.. with the Big eraser and with the pencil next.. I would look at your Picture.. just wishing.. just hoping I can see YOU.. to meet you soon.. and I am just wondering.. would YOU let me see YOU.. would you open the door so that I can see YOU.. will you let me in.. and to hold Your hand.. as I would hold the Paper in my hand.. the Letter and give it to Your hand.. as I would open the TOP lid of the whiskey Bottle.. Holding and pouring into the Shot Glass.. and I am just sitting.. turning to look out the Window watching the light rain fall.. I would grab the Shot Glass after putting the Whiskey Bottle down.. and Open my Mouth and slam into my Mouth.. I can feel the harsh of the Liquor going in.. and I would sit just waiting for the Big Kick.. I would pour another on the Shot Glass and placing the Whiskey Bottle Down.. picking UP the Shot Glass.. Open my Mouth.. and Slam into my Mouth.. I am just waiting to feel that Buzz.. and just looking at YOU in the picture.. WHY can't I see YOU.. why don't you let me see YOU.. DID I ever done anything wrong to YOU.. would YOU let me visit YOU.. just please give me few minutes of your Time.. I am not asking for Hours but just even minutes is all I am asking for.. why can't YOU tell me that I am allowed.. please give me the permission to get close to YOU.. allow me for few minutes is all I need.. just to look at your eyes.. just too look at your hands.. Just to look at your smile.. just to ask if I can say Your Name.. can I say your name and tell YOU that I really Love YOU.. will you allow me to say that I love YOU.. Oh please tell me.. as I feel the kick from the Whiskey I drank.. I would look at the Whiskey Bottle.. half is empty.. did Not know that I drank this much.. but.. I just started to feel like I be missing YOU.. and it was aching me in my Heart.. I just could not stop putting the Whiskey Bottle Down.. I would watch the Shot Glass get filled.. hand grabs.. my Mouth opens wide and Slam the whiskey.. just could Not stop.. I would be looking at your Picture.. asking why can't I be with YOU.. asking why do I have to sit here and just can't see YOU.. hearing the rain falling as I turn to look out the window.. I would put the Whiskey Bottle down.. and the Shot Glass is emptied.. I would pick up the Pencil.. It is my Heart whose been loving YOU.. it is my Heart whose been waiting for YOU.. It is My Heart whose been asking for YOU.. It is my Heart whose been crying from the Inside.. screaming of this pain.. screaming of this Ache of wanting to be with YOU.. I need YOU more and More.. why can't YOU feel the same way as I do.. why is it me whose been loving YOU.. Please tell me.. Please allow me and give me the permission so that I can go to YOU.. so that I can run to YOU.. so that I can be with YOU and to tell you that I love YOU.. as I would look at the Piece of paper in front of me.. sitting on top of the desk.. I would take a look.. final look at your Picture.. and put your picture down on the top of the desk.. closing both eyes.. and I would picture YOU in my head.. and both eyes would open.. I am crying.. I am dying inside and Now I am crying.. as I would start to write on the piece of paper.. I am telling YOU.. My Heart is dying of Love.. my Heart is crying inside.. why
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우리 쥬쥬만 믿고 뽈뽈뽈 쫒아다니는 롱롱이 너무 귀여워...
남주누나가 솔로컴백 준비로 바쁜데도 초롱누나랑 추억 많이 쌓을려고 이것저것 열심히 준비한게 눈에 보여서 감동이었어요ㅠㅠ.. 앞으로도 지금처럼 오래오래 행복하게 에이핑크 활동합시당!! 이제 진짜 곧 남주세끼 구독자 10만 달성이네요ㅎㅎ 실버버튼 미리 축하합니다 누나💜💜
이번 3월도 누나 솔로 앨범 덕분에 행복하게 잘 보냈어요 김남주 화이팅!!
난 남주세끼 편집스타일이 왜이렇게 좋지ㅋ 보기 편함😊
김남주언니
보고싶어요
남주세끼
유튜브재밌어유
Namjoo and Chorong have a happy💗 Holiday🎀🐼🎀 in hongkong
둘이 어울리는 도넛을 먹는 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 아.. 나도 저촉촉한? 도넛 오늘 사먹어야것네
셀이: 롱쥬언니들 민초단즈💚 서로 다르지만 그속에서도 조화를 이루는 상큼케미가 돋보이는 조합🥰💕
Namjoo, look, if you have 1000000 fans, one of them is me. if you have 100000 fans, one of them is definitely me. if you have 10000 fans, one of them is obviously me. if you have 1000 fans left, one of them is still me. if you have 100 fans, one of them surely me. if you only have 10 fans left, one of them is clearly ME, AND EVEN IF YOU ONLY GOT 5, 3 OR 1 FANS LEFT, THAT WOULD BE MEEE.
I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE TO SUPPORT YOU KIM NAMJOO. You are one of the best artists that deserve so much love! (ง ͠° ͟ل͜ ͡°)ง💜
Welcome to Hong Kong😃歡迎你來香港😃
Welcome to 홍콩~ 고마워요
HK Panda ❤
my ChoRong😍
Namjoo ❤❤
박초롱언니
보고싶어요
에이핑크 컴백기대할게요
파이팅
사랑해요❤
와..남주세끼 진짜 너무 힐링있어요
오호!! 맛난거 맛있게 먹는 남주님은 역시 사랑둥이~~~
진짜너무 잘 먹는다!!
맛집 너무잘 찾았어요!
홍콩사람 인정! 대단해요!
welcome to HongKong！💖💖💖
13:25 아이언맨~하는 롱언니 오랜만ㅠㅋㅋㅋㅋ 쇼타임 추억돋는다..❤❤
Oh my god! the food in 00:30 is too local!! I always visit that Bing Kee Cha Dong 😂(I am Hong Kong-er)
How can you know that, Namjoo?
04:20 that food can only dip into the soup for 3 seconds! Next time, take them out earlier!!
사랑둥이 남주 오랜만에 영상 올리네요❤❤
영상미가 너무 좋아요.ㅎ
i live near the chicken hotpot restaurant ~ 🤣🤣 😍
호피 호피
남주투어 2탄 기다리고 있었어요!❤홍콩의 맛집들도 소개해주고 디즈니랜드가 어떻게 되있는지 많이 궁금했는데 덕분에 봐서 좋았어요!남주투어에 참여하면 진짜 좋을 거 같네요!롱언니랑 맛난 거도 많이 먹고 행복하고 즐거운 여행이었네요!다음번 남주투어의 게스트가 누굴 지는 모르겠ㅣ만 기대하고 있을께요!💜💜💜🤩
여행 부럽네용 두분 다 재밌게 사는거같아서 보기좋아요 가보지 못한 곳을 알려주니까 흥미롭네요
와.. 디즈니랜드!
저는 아마 절대 못갈텐데.. 디즈니랜드에서 많은걸 열심히 찍는 남주언니에게 감사합니다! 언니 덕분에 잠시 디즈니랜드를 즐기고 있는 기분이 되었어요💜
남주투어 다음 게스트님 기대할게요~!!😃
Love watching Apink members together Looks like you both had a wonderful time 💞
초롱인아가야
남주랑 같이 여행하는 기분~❤힐링이네요!
신기하다.
초롱이랑 남주가 어떻게 홍콩에서 저렇게 자유롭게 다닐 수 있지?
it's too cute on iced lemon tea
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ who is next ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
야무지게 즐기다 간 것 같아서 홍콩판다로서 괜히 마음이 더 뿌듯해요 남주 가이드님이 이 코스를 준비했지만 ㅎㅎㅎㅎ
너무너무 잘 봤습니다 다음 영상도 기대할게요 활동도 바쁘셨을 텐데 수고많았어요!!!!!🤍🤍
4:21 "Dried Beancurd Roll" you only put in the pot for 2-3 seconds and eat immediately, when its a bit soft outside with soup but still crunchy inside so that you can enjoy both texture in one go 😁
언니들 여행 즐기는 모습에 제가 다 힐링했네요
글구 편집 왤케 웃겨 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
남주투어 2탄!! 기다렸서요오😳 금요일에 선물처럼 와주기 있냐구우우💜 꽁냥꽁냥 롱쥬언니들 넘 ㄱㅇㅇㅜㅜㅜ오늘도 감사히 잘 볼게용 🫶
Las amo demasiado ❤
welcome to HK~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Awwww Olaf 아이스크림 너무 귀여워 ☃️💖
드디어 남주누나와 초롱누나의 홍콩투어 2회가 찾아왔습니다. 남주누나의 더 많은 여행 브이로그 기대하겠습니다!💜❤️
Namjoo chorong love you both ❤
Chorong ❤
남쥬투어 최고 💕💕ㅎㅎ 초롱이도 대만족 😊😊❤
맛있어 보여요! 😳🤤🤤🤤 ไม่แบ่งเลย 😢🔆🔥🥵
Food looked good!!
몸만 오는 남쭈 투어 2화 너무 재밌어요🫶🏻
Always be happy babies ❤❤
우와 언니들 잘 먹는다!!! 계탕 정말 정말 맛있거든요!!! 아 나도 엄청 먹고 싶어용 ㅠㅠ -영국에 살고있는 홍콩 panda 🥲
롱쥬 귀여워!
홍콩2탄 기다렸어~~~;););)
Rong 😍 Joo
앜앜앜앜!!!!!!! (현지인 대충격) 저 두부롤 그렇게 먹으면 안돼요….ㅠㅠ 저거 3초만 수프에 찍었서 먹는거예요ㅠㅠㅠ 그래야 그 바싹함을 먹을 수 있어요ㅠㅠㅠㅠ
그래도..홍콩에 놀러 와주셔서 또 맛있게 먹어 주셔서 감사합니다
남주세끼는 자막이 너무 웃겨욬ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
계속 먹기만 하는거같은거 기분탓인가요???보는 내내 입가에 웃음이 떠나질않았어요❤
무엇보다 제가 이걸보니 디즈니랜드에서 보신 분들의 표정이 저와같지 않았을까하네요😊
Linda
저도 향신료 엄청 좋아해서 홍콩 음식도 되게 좋아해요 ㅎㅎ 다음에 홍콩 가면 남주투어 맛집들 꼭 가볼게요!! 재밌는 영상 고마워요 💜💜
알찬 남주투어
와 남주투어 2편 기다렸습니다 ㅠㅠㅠ 남주투어 실제로 만들어서 함께 떠나주실수는 없나여
초롱이 호피에 선글라스 꼈는데 왜 귀엽지 ㅋ 집순이를 홍콩 보내버리는 남주의 능력 17:57 푸우 무섭게 생겼는데? ㄷㄷ
롱쥬케미 너무 좋아요!❤
둘다기여워 😅
Brazil 🇧🇷
롱스주스
I hope you guys provide an English caption (subtitles) so that international fans can understand the vlogs n videos🥲 love you Apink. Love you chorong 💜ma bais🫂🤍
조카랑 취향이 같은 남쥬 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
how can someone be so fun, cute, lovely, attractive at the same time?! can i be the next one tho huhu hanging out with namjoo seems so much fun :')
Welcome to Hong Kong😍😍
와~남주세끼다 ~^^
00:00 몸만 오는 남쭈 투어 2화 시작🫶🏻
00:27 점심 먹었는데ㅜ 언니들 조식 메뉴 보니까 다시 배고파졌어요🍜🧋
2:36 핑크 걸즈🐰🐹🩷
9:37 디즈니랜드 또 가고 싶어요🥺🎡
10:31 혹시,,초롱 언니 이 댓글을 보게 된다면 키링 구매처 알려주실 수 있나요🐰
10:39 닭발핑크💕
12:52 빼꼼🥺
12:59 에핑은 여덟살..
13:53 이번에 오픈했다고 본 것 같은데 랜선 여행 하는 기분이구 너무 조아요🤍
16:03 배드쮸 컴백 선물😈🎁
17:00 남쭈 투어 장점
최근에 홍콩 여행 가고 싶었는데 언니 덕분에 랜선 여행 즐겁게 하구 가요🫶🏻🇭🇰
몸만 오는 남주 투어 다음 시즌도 기대할게요💕
재밌다
Who’s Next??!!!넘 기대되!!!!💜😈
홍콩에서 먹은 음식들이 맛있어 보입니다
Eng sub please,
초롱남주 둘 이뿐뎅? ㄷㄷ
혹시 남주님이 직접 편집하시나요
아님 편집팀이 따로 있는건가요
남쥬투어 신청하고싶당 ❤
저도 남주투어 가고싶네요ㅠㅠ
Namjoo, i saw you in HK, why you to reply me? So sad.
Can you speak Cantonese with taxi driver ? Because many taxi diver not understand English
千祈唔好介意地方比較不太乾淨🙏🏻香港多數好好食😋的美食都在這些地方🥰千萬別介意🙏🏻
We want English caption 🥺
なむじゅツアーに参加したいです
Oink Oink.. Is it really You.. I am looking at the Letter.. is it written by YOU.. can YOU please tell me if this writing belongs to YOU.. I want to know because I want it from YOU.. from NO ONE else but just YOU.. and I am looking at the Letter in my hands.. and I just opened the envelope and inside is Your Picture.. as I pulled out your Photo Picture.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I have never seen such a Smile.. but.. I want to tell YOU that YOU are so Beautiful to Me.. I don't care what any one else says about YOU.. as Long as I know that I love YOU.. Not just love YOU.. I do admire YOU.. as I would open the folded Letter and I would look.. It is written by YOU.. I can smell the perfume.. the scent.. I know that I have been writing YOU many letters.. and One of the Letters I have written asking to send me a Letter and a Photo Picture of YOU.. a New Picture of YOU.. I have an Older picture.. but the recent which I can look at YOU.. I watched the Mail Man putting the envelope into the Mail Box and I saw the Truck takes off.. I did Not think that YOU be sending me a Letter.. Of course for a long time I was hoping that YOU would tell me something.. that YOU would write me a letter and give me a New Picture of YOU.. I wanted to see how you looked recently.. hoping that YOU be more beautiful than the One.. the Older Photo Picture I have.. I do remember.. walking Out.. looking out through the window of my Room.. I saw the truck arriving.. I saw the Mail Man putting an envelope into the Mail box and He takes Off.. of course I did not think that It be a Letter from YOU.. Not even a Photo picture added into it.. but On this very night.. I would open the front door of the House.. I would walk and I stopped.. LOOKING at the sky.. I saw the Moon.. the Moon looks at me and I wanted to wave at the Moon.. but I just did Not.. I went to the Mail Box.. and I opened.. my hand grabs the envelope and I just could Not believe it.. It was hand written.. and It had YOUR NAME.. I am wondering.. what if this Does not belong to this Mail Box.. what if the Mail Man brought to the wrong Mail Box which goes to the wrong person.. but is it really for me.. and I am not sure just by looking at the envelope.. I know this Mail Man.. He gets to the right Box into the right hand into the right House.. so I know this Mail Man because He has been around this block for a long time.. So I take the envelope into the house.. I stop and I turn to LOOK UP.. holding the envelope into the air.. I am Not sure if it is to the right person.. BUT I am only hoping that it is to Me.. I see the Name.. and I know it must be for Me.. hoping that it was Not placed into the wrong person's hands.. and I would turn to look at the front door.. and I would walk into the House.. In the room.. I am standing there.. my hands together.. like I am wishing.. that I am hoping.. that I am praying that it is for Me.. I wanted it for Me.. and I opened the envelope.. pulling Out is the New Photo Picture of YOU.. My Heart.. am I going to have an Heart attack.. do I needs to go see the Doctor.. and ask why is My Heart acting this way.. that I am getting a Heart attack.. OH Help me.. help My Heart to stay calm.. I am dying.. as I am looking at the New Photo Picture of YOU.. I feel like it is so Hard for me to breathe.. I feel it be aching inside.. It is so Hard to breathe looking at YOU in this New Photo Picture.. WHY.. WHY do you have to be this Beautiful.. YOU are so gorgeous that It hurts me more to LOOK at this Picture.. should I of asked.. If I asked.. I know that YOU are going to give but when YOU are wearing a White Dress.. and YOU are smiling.. if YOU are so Beautiful.. and I can't do nothing.. it aches and it hurts me More.. it hurts my eyes too keep on looking at this Picture.. I needs to turn away.. My eyes needs to look another way.. because I can get a heart attack.. Now I want to see YOU more.. I want to ask for YOU and I be saying.. I need YOU more.. what if I ask YOU.. can I see YOU.. can I meet YOU.. can I go over and knock on your Door.. can I be the one to get closer to YOU.. and I would look at your New Photo Picture.. it gets harder to look the other way.. and as I would look into the envelope.. I grab the Letter.. the scent.. the perfume.. soft smell.. the sweet smell of YOU.. as I open the Letter which is written by YOU.. I am thinking.. did I do the right thing for asking YOU to write and to respond.. what if I can feel like I am dying inside.. I just can't sleep.. I won't be able to sleep because I be thinking of YOU.. I am already thinking of YOU just too much.. now it is going to add the fuel inside of me because I see the new Photo Picture and Now.. this Letter.. I get to see what YOU be thinking.. as I open the Letter.. and I would read the Letter you written to me.. I only hear.. you only wrote the word Hi.. just wanted to say and Your name is written.. but.. even just the word Hi.. it means everything to me then Not saying or written anything.. but.. it is this Picture.. the New Photo Picture.. I just can't take my eyes off of you.. why can't I just let it rest.. why can't I.. it hurts me More just by looking because YOU are so Beautiful.. why did YOU have to look so Beautiful like this.. as I would sit by the desk.. I am thinking of YOU.. Is my Heart so broken.. am I broken.. do I feel so broken inside.. I feel so sad because Now there is a reason for me to want to get more close to YOU.. then.. what am I suppose to do.. if we are apart and the distance.. this miles of distance.. and when I look at the new Photo Picture of YOU.. My Heart wants to cry.. I want to cry when YOU look this Good.. and I just can't be there for YOU.. My Heart wants to cry.. I want to cry because I want to pull you closer but I know I can't.. I know that I just can't even though I want to get close.. to Hold YOU.. to HOLD you close and smell the same perfume.. this aroma.. it is driving me insane.. it is driving me crazy.. because I want to hold YOU and tell YOU.. what Words should I say to YOU.. can I hold YOU close.. may I hold YOU close.. can I hold your hands Please.. as I would pull a New Piece of Paper.. clean Piece of paper.. with the envelope on the side.. I grab a pencil to tell YOU my Heart.. but the word only Beautiful comes into my Mind.. leaving me speech less.. My Heart.. feels like an Attack.. getting this Heart attack.. I just can't hold back the tears.. my tears of this over joy.. but sadness because I want to love YOU more.. I want to tell YOU who loves YOU.. I want to say it to YOU.. but I can't tell YOU.. I needs to tell YOU.. will you let me say it to YOU.. I need your ears.. I really need your ears.. so that YOU can listen to my words telling YOU.. I know that by now I can say it to YOU.. after a time of writing YOU for a long time.. Now it builds this confident to say it.. I want to say it to YOUR ears.. to Your Heart that I love YOU.. but I need YOU to be hear with me be close by me.. as I am looking at the New clean white piece of paper.. I would begin with.. I have received Your Letter.. and I have gotten a New Photo Picture of YOU.. when I pulled it Out of the envelope.. My hand could not take it.. because of my eyes.. YOU blew my mind to pieces.. my hands opened letting the New Photo Picture to hit the desk.. I couldn't take it.. My Heart couldn't take it any more.. because of the radiant of Your Skin.. YOU are so Beautiful.. why did YOU have to be this Beautiful that it got me caught off guard.. I could not control my emotions.. My Heart crying inside.. telling me that YOU are so Beautiful.. My hand wouldn't to pound on my chest like I am a GORILLA.. I just couldn't hang on to your Beauty.. as I would stop.. I wanted to breathe.. can I breathe.. But it was so Hard for me to breathe.. leaving me speechless.. I wanted to say something.. but it is a Picture.. a New Photo Picture.. it can't speak back or Hear me say a word.. but I wanted to say it any ways.. but How can I say something.. that is why I just had to grab a Piece of paper to write YOU a Letter.. I just can't keep it to myself any more.. any longer because YOU are the Most Beautiful.. Like a Flower.. just too beautiful to be true.. as I am writing this Letter to YOU.. I just opened a wine.. pouring into the glass and I am drinking while I am writing and thinking of YOU.. turning to look at Your New Photo Picture of YOU.. I feel like I needs to cry.. Cry because I can't be with YOU right Now.. even though I want to be close.. My arms wants to hold YOU and tell YOU.. what are you doing to Me.. why does Love have to be this Hard.. why can't I be with you.. YOU know that I can love you right.. YOU know that I be telling YOU that I love YOU.. I be close to YOU.. asking for Your ear.. instead of always turning to look at the Photo Picture.. I can look at YOU.. holding your hands and pull YOU close.. and I will look at your Ear and say.. can YOUR Heart hear me.. will YOU open your Heart so that YOU can hear me right.. I been struggling and dealing this Pain.. the pain and this ache inside because of YOU.. longing for YOU.. crying in the night.. trying to go to sleep but I can't sleep.. my mind rushes of YOU.. seeing you every where and it is YOU who is haunting me every where.. I need YOU.. I need you so that I can stop missing YOU.. I need you so that I can keep on telling YOU that I love YOU.. why can't you be close to Me so that I can love YOU the way YOU NEEDS to be loved.. do YOU NOT want to be loved by me.. I will always love YOU.. YOU know that I can't stop.. or are you afraid that once YOU are here with me.. I will stop caring and loving YOU.. that I won't send YOU letters any more.. because It should Not matter.. is it because of too many Heart breaks and Heart aches.. YOU know that I love YOU still.. don't be afraid because I am only here to love YOU and show YOU what it means to be loved.. just open your Heart and let me tell YOU that I love you.. as I would end with the letter
I just can't stop looking at this Little Piano.. why is it keep on telling me to come Near.. and I am thinking of YOU.. I need your Heart.. I need your Heart here with Me.. that is only way I can tell YOU what is IN my Heart.. I am asking YOU.. Heart to Heart.. Please.. tell me can I have your Heart close to Me.. so that I can tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I want to say that I love you like I am so Crazy in Love with YOU.. Please.. How can I have your Heart close to Me.. I turn to look at the Little Piano.. it is telling me to play a tune.. telling me to touch the Key bars.. that Only it is fingers away from the Touch.. if I can only play.. If I can only write the Music.. compose a Song.. write a Music so that YOU can hear something Out of this Little Piano.. but.. I know that I can't play a tune.. I can't make a sound.. it just be so noisy in your ears.. the tunes will Not sound right which it should make you feel something very special but If I play on this Little Piano.. instead of smiling.. YOU can be angry with me instead saying.. WHY can't I play a Good music that makes you smile and makes you happy.. that is why I am telling YOU I can't play.. but the Little Piano who is in my room.. is looking at me telling me.. I want to play something for YOU.. to tell you that I love YOU.. I have the Recorder in my Hand.. and I put a tape inside the recorder.. and on the Top of the desk is the Empty Glass Jar.. inside is Your Picture.. I took your Picture and someone was able to make it pretty big.. the Picture I put inside the Glass Jar.. I can see your Beautiful Face.. only if YOU were in this room.. Only If I can have your Heart.. and Place your Heart inside the Glass Jar next to Your Picture.. I am able to tell YOU something.. I would turn to look at the Little Piano.. I would ask.. would you let me Play.. even though I would Not be able to play anything.. I can push the Play Button of the Recorder and the Instrument of a Piano.. a Professional Pianist can Play.. I would stand next to the Little Piano.. can Act like I can Play.. when YOU hear the sound of the Music coming Out of the Recorder of playing the Piano.. I would turn and I would LOOK at the Desk.. I would look at your Picture.. I would Look at the Heart.. only If I have your Heart.. I be saying to YOU.. I have written YOU a Letter.. I wrote it last Night.. I was thinking about this very night so I had to write it.. and I had to memorize what I wrote to YOU in the Letter to tell YOU.. Can YOU hear the Song.. the Instrumental of this Piano Playing.. If YOU look towards me who is standing by the Little Piano.. YOU can be pretty confused because It looks like I am playing the Piece of Music.. Yes.. my fingers are pressing into the Key Bars of this Little Piano.. but.. I have turned off the sound that comes Out of this Piano because.. the recorder is playing instead.. Can YOU hear the Music of this Piano Playing.. Please if YOU can't.. Open your ears.. Please tell me that YOU can hear Me.. Please.. open your Heart for me and listen to the Sound of this Music of Piano.. the Instrumental Playing.. I want to give you this Song.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I know that YOU are hearing the Sound of this Little Piano Playing.. it is what I will say to YOU.. that I love YOU.. My Heart can't take it no more.. My fingers pressing.. hands wants to pound on this Key Bars on this Piano.. when ever I think of YOU.. when ever I want to say I love YOU.. I can hear my own Heart.. telling me It wants to beat faster.. it beats faster because I needs to say it and tell YOU that I love YOU.. as I turn to look at the desk.. Looking at the Glass Jar.. I am looking at your Picture.. and.. Only if Your Heart be placed inside.. I be crying Out Loud.. I love YOU.. you do not know what YOU have done to me but I want to say that I love YOU.. as I turn to look at the Little Piano.. I feel so sad.. I feel so happy but sad again.. because all I see is myself.. I don't see YOU.. But I needs to see YOU.. I want to see you.. I needs your Heart here with me.. so that I can tell your Heart.. I do not know How long.. but I have to say to Your Heart.. I love you.. How Long.. I will say it I love YOU.. looking at the Little Piano.. I know that It feels My Heart.. it knows My Heart because it knows my Heart.. I believe the Little Piano hears my voice.. as I am playing and touching the Key bars.. it knows that I love YOU.. knowing how much I needs to be with YOU.. but I will say.. YOU are so Far off.. WHY do you have to be so Far that I can't see YOU.. I wants to find a way where YOU can be near.. will you let me come close to YOU.. Please let me know because.. I want to take this Little Piano with Me.. and stand next to YOU.. I would turn to LOOK at you.. and I will tell YOU.. this is the Little Piano I was talking to Your About.. every Night.. I would turn to look at this Little Piano.. I feel stuffy inside.. sometimes I feel frustrated because I want to be close to YOU.. when I feel so stuffy inside.. I get close to this Little Piano.. and I would turn it on.. where when My Fingers touch the key bars.. and it presses into it.. YOU can hear the sounds of each key bar when YOU press it down.. it makes a noises.. and as my fingers touch and presses into the key bars.. I want to play you a Song.. making a Music and I would face the Wall.. Only if YOU can be right there.. Only if YOU can be that close to Me.. and I would say.. WHY do you have to be so Far.. that I can't find YOU any where.. I can't see YOU any where.. I want to tell YOU so that YOU can hear me but I know that NO matter how much I speak.. or how much my fingers press into the Key bars of this Little Piano and YOU can hear sounds out of the Little Piano.. YOU can't hear me.. it breaks my Heart.. I needs to say It.. I needs to tell YOU that I love YOU.. if I say it to YOU.. I know that I can see YOU to get a certain response.. but in this ROOM.. with the Glass Jar and Your Picture inside of it.. YOU can't never hear me.. that is why it kills me inside because I want to play for you something.. but I know that I can't.. I know that I can't play you a song.. even if YOU were standing here close to me.. I know that the sound will Not come out right.. but. I know that as long as I have a Heart who loves YOU.. I can at least tell YOU what is in my Heart.. that I wants to be with YOU.. I wants to be close to YOU and that I miss YOU.. that I want to say How much I love YOU.. No matter how many times I say it in this ROOM.. you will never hear my words.. this is what is hurting Me the Most.. this is what is killing me inside that I needs to say it to YOU.. but I can't.. I needs to tell YOU but I can't.. the word Can't is driving me crazy right Now.. as I stop the recorder.. and I am standing by the Little Piano.. I am aching so Much.. It is hurting me so Much.. this Pain.. when YOU love so much.. it can also Hurt you the Most because it drives YOU mad.. it drives YOU crazy to see your Face but I can't.. so If you are telling me to wait.. How Long must I wait for YOU to know Your Heart.. How long must I wait.. as I open the recorder.. I put another tape inside the recorder.. and I would push Play to record.. Can YOU hear my voice.. Can you hear me Now. I am looking at the Little Piano.. which I can't play at all.. but it has been with me for a long time.. wanting me to play a tune.. to bring out a sound and make a music with this Little Piano.. for me to play this Little Piano.. I needs you to be here.. I want you to stand next to me so that I can stand next to YOU and show YOU that only when YOU are here.. I am able to do something with it.. only way this Little Piano can bring out the music and the sound is when YOU are here with me.. I can't play anything.. and I won't play it because.. I want you to be here to see it.. I will be standing next to the Little Piano.. and My fingers will be placed on the key bars.. and I would put the Letter I wrote for you.. I want YOU to hold the Letter.. and YOU can read it while I play and I can say it to YOU.. as YOU are standing next to me.. I don't need the Heart to be inside of the Glass Jar.. I don't need to put Your Picture inside of it either.. I want YOU to be here standing next to me.. to hear it as I show YOU how Much I love YOU.. I would be.. my fingers would be pressing onto the Key bars.. and I would turn to look at YOU.. I may not be able to show YOU the voice.. I can't sing at all.. I won't sing to you at all but.. I would press the recorder and let YOU Hear my voice on the Recorder of what I said.. I would let it all Out to tell YOU that I loved YOU.. from the day I first saw YOU.. the moment I had to be far away.. as I would be facing the Walls at night.. going Out at Night looking at the Moon.. watching the showers of the rains fall down on me as I would be playing the Little Piano out side.. My Heart was burning because I kept on missing YOU.. even I would think that the showers of the rain.. it is going to cool me down.. this burning in my heart of Loving YOU and of missing YOU together.. I saw the rain falling from the sky.. I took with me the Little Piano.. and stood.. getting Hit by the rain.. and I would be playing.. fingers would press on the key bars.. and I would open up my Heart to YOU as I would stand looking at the MOON.. asking do YOU Hear me now.. DO you hear me from here where I stand.. I would be crying in the rain because I be missing YOU.. Nothing ever worked Out but.. I wanted you to stand next to me.. maybe this is it.. and giving YOU the Letter.. I press the recorder so that YOU can hear me.. what I needs to say.. and I would tell YOU this.. I been missing YOU lately.. is it because I am growing older.. Maybe.. is it because I am thinking you may forget me.. or is it because YOU may find another Love.. it is None of those things because I know who I love.. when YOU are sure about who YOU love
Stopped loving YOU.. can you still here the Little Piano Playing.. I am playing to tell YOU as you read the Letter.. I love YOU.. I have told you many times that I loved YOU.. do you not still believe me yet.. YOU are wondering.. when am I going to give up on you right.. as long as YOU know right now.. I still love YOU.. why would I give up on you.. when YOU are my Heart Beat away.. I know that I be seeing you very soon.. I would turn to look at you as I am playing on the Little Piano.. as YOU are standing next to me.. I would say to YOU.. I took this Little Piano Out side.. there were nights when you find Peace in the Night.. standing Out side.. alone with this Little Piano.. I would turn to look at the Moon.. I would only see your Face in the center of the Moon.. with Your Smile.. my arm stretches out.. my hand opens wide to touch.. I wanted to touch YOU but YOU were so far.. I saw you in the center of the Moon.. I could Not touch you with this Hand.. but.. I would play on this Piano.. on this Little Piano I would try to play a song.. I would look UP at the MOON and say.. DO you Hear Me.. I know that I will see YOU SOON.. I know that I will meet YOU soon.. of course I don't know when.. I have NO time Line but I know.. if YOU KNOW WHO is the One loving YOU.. I know that YOUR Heart will be opened.. I know that YOUR Ears be opened too.. and I believe YOU want that man to Love you over and over again.. because I want to Love YOU.. just as YOU are.. just the way YOU are suppose to be loved.. and my fingers stop pressing on the Little Piano.. and I turn to look at YOU.. I say.. I love you.. just the way this Little Piano Loves to play a tune to make a sound of its music for YOU.. I just wanted to say.. it is because I love YOU.. I am listening to the Song I am playing on this Piano.. of course I am Not a composer.. I can't write any music.. but I have the Letter I have written just for YOU.. Only YOU can hear the Words that is coming Out of My Mouth.. which it was written last Night before I went to Bed.. I just could Not sleep.. I would be tossing and turning on the side.. I would be laying.. Looking at the wall of the ROOM.. my Heart was Beating Hard from the Inside.. which kept me waking UP.. I would try to close the two eyes.. shut I would close.. but I would see YOU in my Head.. in my Mind I see YOU and I would think of YOU.. opening both eyes does Not work because My Heart is beating Hard.. I would sit on top of the bed.. trying to lay back Down and again I would sit.. I would look across is the Desk.. maybe it is telling me to write YOU another Letter.. why do I have to keep On picking UP the Pen.. putting the White Piece of paper before my eyes.. I would pull the chair closer and I would sit.. but the Night.. it is like deep into the Night.. where I am suppose to be sleeping the Most.. But I would have your picture on the Top of the Desk.. I turn on the side looking at the Door.. I see the Little Piano.. it is waiting for Me.. by the Door which it leads me to the Living ROOM.. the Little Piano looks.. and I look at the Little Piano.. it is telling me to Play so that I can tell YOU.. what is IN MY HEART which it says IN my Heart I love YOU.. I love you so Much that I am Not sure how much to Love any More.. do I have to love you so More.. but How BIG and Wide must this Love must carry through.. How can YOU tell.. but I would look at the Little Piano on the side by the door.. and I know.. I may Not be able to play a SONG.. it may Not come Out right.. YOU will not hear it right.. then.. How about the Letter.. maybe the Letter can over come and the Music YOU listen with YOUR ears of the TUNE of this Piano.. it may Not affect Your Hearing Loss.. but when YOU hear the Words.. the Letter.. I will let YOU hear the Letter that I am writing this Very Night.. as I turn the Other way is the Window.. pulling the Curtains UP.. I can see the Window.. and I can see the MOON from where I am sitting in this Room.. and I look at the Moon as I am sitting.. turning to the Moon.. thinking of YOU.. grabbing the Picture and looking at YOU through this Picture.. What am I suppose to do.. when can I see YOU.. when can YOU hear my Heart.. the Out cry that Comes from within me.. I want to tell YOU I love YOU.. I want to say to YOU that I love YOU so Much.. will you let me tell you these words of Mine to YOU.. will you let me ever come close to YOU and tell YOU how much I love YOU.. How about the times having when I really Really Missed YOU.. I want to pour a Wine on the Glass.. and I want to drink.. take a sip of the Wine of the Glass cup.. taking a Sip and when I face you.. when I see YOU.. I will be first approaching YOU.. holding Your Hands.. It has been so Long I have been waiting.. it took more than thousand days.. even ten thousand days had to pass me by.. how many weeks does it needs to pass by for YOU to ever miss Me.. How many Months does it needs to take for YOU to Miss me.. How many years must it pass by for YOU to miss me and see My Heart.. when will YOU KNOW that I be loving YOU for so Long.. do YOU know that every Night I miss YOU.. I can turn.. looking at the MOON.. if YOU ever have some time.. and when the Day turns into Night.. Please step Out side.. just once in a blue MOON will do.. as I be walking Out side.. Holding the Letter In my Hands.. I would be walking and I stop.. I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. and I would hold UP the Paper.. the Letter in my Hands.. and I would say.. if YOU hear me.. and the Little Piano is there with Me.. as I turn to LOOK UP at the MOON.. my hands.. my fingers would be pressing the Key Bars.. I am Not sure what kind of sounds YOU can be hearing.. it is good that YOU are ON the Other Side.. if YOU can't hear the Key.. the sounds and the Tunes of this Piano.. I think it can be good for those ears.. instead of hearing the Words that I speak coming from the Heart which I would memorize the Written Words I have written in the Letter for YOU.. YOU may Not hear my words right.. I would be hitting the Key bars.. it is making a lot of sounds and a lot of noises on this Piano.. as I am pressing the Key Bars which it is bring Sounds Out.. I am Looking UP.. turning to the MOON.. and I know.. I can see Your Face inside the Moon.. as I would close my two eyes.. I would say.. DO you Hear Me.. do I must speak Louder to YOU for the waves to go across.. do I needs to Lose my Voice for YOU to hear me Now.. I been waiting for YOU.. but YOU have Not showed UP yet.. I have been waiting for Your Answer.. WHY can't YOU tell me that YOU Miss me.. why can't YOU be truly Honest with me for Once.. Please tell me that YOU love me Too.. Please tell me that YOU also can miss Me.. I been holding IN for a Long time.. I wanted to say it.. to tell YOU that I am missing you so Much right Now.. I am Not even looking at the Key Bars of this Little Piano.. so I have NO idea what I am playing.. If YOU were here.. I know you would tell me to Stop playing on that Little Piano because YOUR ears will Hurt.. and that is why I just can't stop.. if YOU can be hear and hear the sounds of this Little Piano which I am bringing Out some kind of Noise.. YOU will tell me to Stop because It is hurting Your Ears.. that is HOW MY Heart feels at this Point.. that I can't stop that It hurts if I choose to stop.. If I cannot tell YOU that I don't love you.. it hurts me more than the Tune.. the Playing.. the SOUND and the Noise.. It will kill me if YOU tell me to Stop telling YOU that I love YOU.. I can't breath.. I love that I love YOU.. I love the thoughts that I can tell YOU that I love YOU.. to able to tell you this is My Dreams come true.. dreaming of the Day.. I can hold Your hands and truly.. PULL you closer to Me.. and I will speak softly into Your ears.. and I will tell YOU one Hundred times.. How much I love YOU.. and I will tell YOU One thousand times.. how much I will love YOU.. I will cry if I can't say it to YOU any more.. I will sit and ball hard like a Child.. like a baby I can cry if I can't tell YOU that I love YOU.. I have been loving YOU for so Long.. WHY can't YOU see that In me.. I have been here all along.. why can't you accept it.. because it is NOT enough for YOU.. I am trying Hard to tell YOU.. I been here telling YOU that I love YOU.. the Joy that brings into my Heart.. when I am allowed to say it.. to tell it the way it is meant to be said.. I want to tell you that I love YOU.. as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I can feel the tears.. My Heart is burning.. My Heart is beating Hard.. my fingers pressing into the Little Piano.. I am Looking UP at the MOON at Night.. making all kinds of Sounds and Noises YOU just don't want to Hear.. that is why I am here on the Other side which You can't Hear it.. but the Words I am telling.. the Words I been writing to YOU all this time.. Letting YOU know that It is my Heart.. It is the Pencil which I pick UP.. it is the Piece of paper.. and writing to YOU which makes me Happy.. gives me Hopes and to dream Bigger for YOU and to love YOU more and more.. as my fingers stops pressing on the Key bars of this Little Piano.. I would still Look UP at the Moon.. and I would say in the Loud voice.. DO YOU hear Me.. can YOU Please Hear me standing here on the Other side.. I am waiting for YOU.. that is why when YOU take the TIME to come Out.. Please come out at Night.. when YOU can stand out alone.. and YOU can see the MOON above YOU.. what YOU will see is not Me playing on the Little Piano.. YOU are not going to see a Letter with two wings flying down to YOU.. But the MOON is going to show you the Tears that came Out of my eyes.. comes Out from the Heart.. comes Out from my Mind and my thoughts of thinking of YOU.. YOU will see the Moon so differently because the MOON will shows YOU tears.. My Tears because I love YOU.. My Tears because I miss YOU.. My Tears because YOU do Not understand my Heart.. But that is Okay If
At your Picture.. wishing that I can be with YOU.. Can YOU hear me on the other side.. that is why I would stand here alone.. LOOKING at the MOON.. I would cry before the Moon.. because I want YOU to Hear Me.. I want you to able to receive what I can give.. I wish that YOU can Hear me.. but All I see is the MOON before me.. It does not Move.. Does not make any kinds of expression.. It does not speak back to Me.. but I still see the MOON standing still.. How do I get this Letter to YOU.. How am I suppose to deliver this Letter to YOU.. can you please show me the way to Your Heart.. please show me How can this Letter get into your hands.. as I grab the Little Piano into my Hands.. and I am walking back to the House.. and slowly I am walking away from the Moon.... the Door opens and I go into the House.. I am in the ROOM.. looking at the Letter on the Top of the desk.. and I am sitting on the Chair.. Looking at the Picture of YOU.. How can this Letter get to YOU.. what am I suppose to do for YOU to know.. that I needs to give YOU this Letter.. and even though I sit here by the desk and I write YOU a Letter.. I am wondering.. DO I ever come cross your Mind.. that means do YOU even read the Letters.. and I would look at Your Picture.. I want YOU to know that I love YOU.. I want you to know that I needs to give you this Letter so that my Heart Knows that I love YOU.. will you accept the Letters I write to YOU.. Please tell me so.. Please tell me that YOU do read it which I give you from the Heart.. I am laying on the Bed.. trying to go back to the bed.. I am turning on the side.. but I know that I can't sleep.. YOU are always on my Mind.. YOU are always in my Heart.. I think of YOU over and over.. NO matter How much I try to do something else.. I keep on think of YOU.. I see YOU everywhere.. what does this Means to YOU.. it means because I love YOU.. I need YOU and I miss YOU.. but I love YOU the Most.. I am in the Room.. Looking out the window.. I see the rain showering down.. I would like to walk in the rain.. but it be nice If I take this Piano with Me.. I have written YOU another Letter.. I wonder if YOU can Hear Me Now.. I know that just standing Out alone.. and Turning to LOOK up.. LOOKING at the Moon and just speaking to the MOON.. that Moon does Not Hear Me.. so I am trying something New.. something different so that Maybe the MOON can catch the glimpse of Me.. and Can turn to LOOK at Me.. and Hear me.. I am trying to grab and get the attention of that MOON.. so maybe I can bring Out this Little Piano that I bought.. and PUT it outside.. and I can Hit the Keys.. making the Sounds.. and with the Recorder in my hand.. and Push the Recording Button as I can open this Letter.. which I have written just for YOU and share it.. If YOU can Hear Me.. Can the Moon hear me Now.. if I can get the MOON to get closer to Me.. I can ask the MOON.. and show the MOON the Picture of YOU.. and ask the MOON.. if YOU see this Person.. in the Picture.. can YOU do something for Me.. will you send me an Angel.. call an Angel for Me.. and I will show the Angel the Picture of YOU.. and I would open the Recorder.. and give the Angel the Tape I have recorded and If the Angel can do me a favor.. that I have One Wish.. to give this Tape to YOU.. and YOU can hear my Voice.. YOU can hear me say and tell YOU what is deep in my Heart.. as I would speak to the recorder to tell YOU.. HOW much I miss YOU.. How Much I want to be close to YOU.. I know that if I just appear out of the Blue.. I don't want to scare YOU.. I don't want YOU to think that I am stalking YOU because I am Not.. so Maybe the MOON.. which hears me Press the Key notes and making the Sounds of pressing the Key bars can turn to Hear and Notice me that I am here down Below.. and If the MOON comes closer.. I will ask.. DO you know any angels who can do me favor.. because I have One wish.. Not asking Much but just for ONE wish.. so I will tell the MOON.. Please get me an Angel to come at my aid.. and If I see the Angel.. I will give HIM the picture of YOU and the tape which I have recorded over and also if YOU need the Letter.. I will give this Angel the Letter too.. just in case YOU want to read this Letter of Mine.. as I am looking out the window.. looking at the rain pouring down.. I have the Piano.. the Little Piano with Me.. I want to take it Out.. I want to go out side and play the Piano.. of course I don't know how to Play.. so If you hear the back ground and It does Not sound right.. YOU know that it is Me.. it is Me who is pressing the Key bars.. just pressing because I want YOU to hear me.. Please hear Me.. Please hear me what I needs to say and to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. why do I love you this way.. I love you in a way YOU can say.. I am creative with what I do.. I am looking at the Little Piano.. Looking at Your Picture.. and I would say to my self.. I miss YOU.. I really really Miss YOU.. just watching the rain fall and the shower of the rain coming down from the sky.. It makes me more miss YOU.. I wish that I did not have to Miss YOU.. but for some reason.. this very Night I really miss YOU.. the way my Heart truly feels is this.. grabbing an Empty Glass Jar.. I want to pull out My Heart from my chest.. grab a Knife and stab my Heart right in the Middle and put the wounded Heart.. the One with the scars.. Put it inside the Glass jar.. watching my Heart be bleeding.. I feel like I am slowly dying instead.. as I look at the Blood gushing Out of my Heart and I see my own blood filling UP the Glass Jar with my Heart still inside it.. I be looking at it.. and I would take the Little Piano Out side.. does Not matter How wet I get.. But I feel like I am dying inside for YOU.. because I miss YOU.. as I am out side.. standing in the rain.. getting wet by the Rain.. I would also bring the Glass Jar.. with My Heart and the Blood filled.. and let YOU see It.. I would ask the Moon.. do YOU not feel sorry for Me.. Do you not see How much I am in pain and that I am suffering so much right Now.. and I would push the recording Button of the recorder.. pressing with my fingers of the key Bars.. telling YOU what I wrote.. I would memorize the Letter I wrote to YOU.. in the Rain.. I am calling Out for YOU.. crying Out for YOU.. can YOU see my Heart.. DO you want to see My Heart.. if YOU can't see it.. I have brought the Glass Jar.. with my Heart inside.. I am missing YOU so much right Now.. I just don't know what to do.. what am I suppose to do when I miss You like this.. Please tell Me.. I have the tape with me.. with My Voice and words speaking into the recorder.. I am reading the Letter which I wrote.. I am reading as I am looking at the Heart.. LOOKING at my Heart inside the Glass Jar covered in Blood.. Please Help me to recover from this Wound and from the scars I feel in my Heart when I be missing YOU.. I just can't take this pain any more.. Please help me to Love again.. If I don't see YOU.. this is how My Heart feels right Now.. as I would look UP.. looking at the MOON.. I be pressing the key Bars of the Little Piano.. and I am crying.. crying because I want More than just this.. I want More of YOU.. I want to say it to your ears.. and tell YOU as I hold you near.. hold you near in my arms.. telling YOU.. why can't I tell YOU.. why can't I say it to YOU in person.. give me the chance to speak to YOU so that YOU can hear me clearly what is IN my Heart.. help me to love YOU more.. only way to can help me.. only way I can get to YOU.. Please Open Your Heart to me.. show me that YOU care.. show me that YOU are truly listening.. because many nights I am Not sure if YOU are or Not.. as My fingers are hitting.. banging on the Key Bars making sounds on this Little Piano.. I want to hear from YOU.. I needs to hear from YOU.. that YOU are listening on the Other side.. I only see the MOON.. but I can't see YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to see YOU near.. and as I would press the stop button of the tape recorder.. I stand still.. getting more wet by the rain.. showers of water of rain on me.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens out.. towards the MOON.. How can I get to YOU.. How can I get Your attention.. How do I get YOU to notice Me.. I know that I am very small as a person.. but the way I love YOU.. the size of How much I love YOU.. If YOU can come Outside at Night.. My Heart of loving YOU can be as big as the MOON I am looking at.. if YOU look at the MOON.. the same Moon I am looking at.. that is HOW MUCH I love YOU.. that is How much I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. even though my Heart breaks.. I can feel my Heart be breaking on the Night like this because I love YOU.. and because I miss YOU.. why don't you ever see Me.. why don't you ever notice Me.. YOU know that I been hear all this Long.. I been here all this Time telling YOU that it is real.. it is true that I be loving YOU.. YOU needs to see that and believe it too. Please give me a chance to Love YOU.. Please give me One Chance.. One shot is all I am asking for.. Not even a day but even few minutes of the time is all I am asking for.. But I am asking YOU.. that Only YOU can make me smile.. as I see the Rain stopped.. and I am standing alone out side.. I am soaked wet because of the shower of rains would pour down on me.. I would pull out the Letter.. of course the Letter is soaked wet too.. but I can still see the writings.. and I would look at the wet recorder and press the Button of the recording.. and the little Piano has a stand.. so I would place the Glass jar on top of the Little Piano.. and after Opening the Letter.. I would lift UP my head towards and I would look at the MOON.. DO you hear Me.. can YOU Please hear me.. ON this very Night.. I am want to speak to YOU.. would you let me speak because this is the Only thing I can do for right Now.. I want to show YOU this Glass Jar.. I want to take this
Time I been waiting and just kept on missing YOU.. every time I write YOU a Letter.. and I think of YOU and every time I take a Look at your Picture.. I can feel something inside of me wants to cry.. I want to cry More as I keep on missing YOU.. holding YOU in my arms is my first Wish.. and the second is to tell YOU how much I love YOU and how much I missed you.. that I know one day it needs to stop.. that I do not have to miss YOU any more.. I am standing Out here.. LOOKING UP at the MOON.. when would that TIME BE.. when I can stop be missing YOU.. I would be wiping these tears.. most of the nights are very harsh for Me.. because my arms.. my arms wants to hold YOU.. hold you close and hold you still.. just to feel you close and that I get to call YOU mine forever.. will you Let that Happen to me.. Please tell me that I do have a hope still.. that I still have a chance.. a hope to tell you that I need YOU.. I miss YOU and that I love YOU.. Please give me the hope so that I can dream being US together for ever.. I am just waiting for that day to come.. but some nights I would say when.. what if It never happens.. what if you don't want to see Me.. what if YOU are happy being there.. but what I want to say is that I need YOU.. I need you more and more.. so Please tell me that YOU do on the Other side think of me too.. and still there is HOPE for me.. as time goes by.. I start to lose more HOPE.. but when I just think of YOU.. when I say your Name.. call out your Name.. I can feel my Heart once again coming alive.. it is because I know ON my part.. I still do Love YOU and never given up that HOPE on you.. that Hope just to say I love YOU.. the Hope to write YOU a Letter and tell you what is in my Heart.. I just Love YOU.. that I can't live with out you.. that I know that I needs YOU.. and as I am looking at the Little Piano in front of Me and on the Top of the Little Piano is the Glass jar.. looking at my Heart just sitting inside.. my Blood covers and has filled UP.. as I want to show YOU.. I want to show YOU this Heart of Mine.. to tell YOU.. it happens when I think of YOU and when I be missing YOU the Most.. I just can't get YOU off my Mind.. I just can't get YOU off my Head.. off my Heart.. and it feels this way.. LOOKING Up at the MOON.. I feel so sad in the days when I can't see YOU.. only thing my eyes can see is Your Picture.. I guess just the picture just don't cut it when YOU love.. when YOU start to love.. I want More.. More of YOU as I am missing YOU at the same time.. IT did not help at all when the Rain poured down as it showered from the SKY.. it did Not help me at all because I started to miss YOU more and more.. My Heart hurts.. and it aches when I don't see YOU.. that is why I be missing YOU all along.. when can I see YOU.. I am looking at the Piano.. as I would walk into the room.. I look at your Picture.. wishing that YOU can see what I just got.. even though YOU may be far from Me.. at least send me Your Heart.. if I can have your Heart.. I will keep Your Heart safe here with Me.. looking at the Empty Glass jar.. I would Place the Empty Glass Jar on the TOP of the Piano.. and I wish that I can Place your Heart inside this Empty Glass Jar.. even though YOU are far.. Knowing and Looking at your Heart.. I know that YOUR HEART is close with me.. I pull up the Piano Chair closer to the Piano.. and I would sit on the chair.. only if I can get You here.. will YOU ever come closer to Me.. How do I get you closer to Me.. and I would look at the key bars of the Piano.. But.. I can't play the tune.. I can't even sing with my voice.. just sitting here.. it seems like it be better if I was Not here at the first Place.. But.. I can write YOU a Letter.. I know that I can tell YOU how much I miss YOU.. I can tell YOU with the Words.. with the Lips.. with my voice.. What I truly feel deep inside my Heart.. I put all my time when I grab the Pencil.. when I grab the paper.. and I grab the piece of paper.. I know that for sure I can write and tell you.. How I feel.. How it feels to be me here on the Other side.. as long as the Letter is able to get to YOU.. will you please receive the Letters.. will you please unfold the piece of Paper which be folded when I give it to YOU.. will you please open your Heart.. hear the words of Mine that comes from my Heart.. how much I love YOU.. How much I adore YOU and admire YOU and How much I miss YOU too.. you are wondering.. what is it about the Piano.. why am I bringing UP the word Piano to YOU if I can't sing.. or can't play tunes of the keys of the piano to bring Music alive.. why am I telling YOU or sharing you about the Piano.. because I want YOU to know.. I want to Place Your Heart.. I want to place your Heart on this Empty Glass Jar.. which is on top of the Piano.. so that when I look at Your Heart.. I can learn How to play the Piano.. it make take some time for me to Know How to Play.. but when I look at your Heart.. when I look at your Heart inside the empty glass jar.. I would look at your Heart.. it may inspire me to say I love you in a way YOU never felt before.. I would think of many different ways to tell YOU.. that I love YOU and that I want to say to Your Heart first.. I would like to tell Your Heart first so that YOU can truly trust me with Your Precious Heart.. without any trust.. there is NO way I can love YOU where YOU are able to love me back One day.. that is why I need Your Heart first with Me.. I remember when I was Young.. my Mother wanted me to Learn something new.. and bought a Piano for Me.. I wanted to learn something New.. wanted to tell a story through but when my Mother bought the Piano.. it was just too complicated for me to learn.. I would watch the Teacher come.. and she would play on the Piano.. I wish that I learned at that time because Now.. when I look at you.. I would LOOK at your Picture.. and I would say WOW.. I would say YOU are so Beautiful.. I would stand by the Piano and say.. YOU are as beautiful like the Piano because Now.. I want to play and make a Music for YOU.. I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I want to tell YOU MORE.. I want to step Out of the comfort zone and tell YOU what YOU means to me.. when ever I look at you.. through the Picture.. I would regret when I look at the Piano sitting in the Room.. because.. Now I want to play and make music so that I can tell YOU.. even though I may Not be able to sing YOU a SONG.. I would bring a recorder.. and would record my voice.. as my fingers would press on the key bars of the Piano.. I can at least speak to the recorder.. but before I would play on the Piano making Music to come alive.. I would be sitting in my bed room.. taking Out the Piece of paper.. I would write YOU a Letter first.. telling YOU my Heart.. speaking from my Heart.. and writing that comes from My Heart to let YOU know.. the Letter is Not the Only way I can tell YOU my Heart.. I would sit on the Piano Chair.. regretting because I did Not learn at that time.. I had the chance to learn when I was young.. but I only watched the teacher play.. looking at her back as she played and making Music.. pressing the Key bars.. to the sound of my ears it tingled because she Played so well.. if I only learned from that teacher.. only if I took the time to be more serious about learning the keys.. composing and writing the music Notes.. the keys.. I wonder what could of happened Now.. if I learned at that time.. which My Mother would say.. It be wise to learn this kind of instrument because when it is gone.. YOU will regret it when TIME passes by.. I would stand by the Piano.. I would sit on the Piano Chair.. looking at the key bars.. pressing the key bars.. only sounds but weird sounds will hit.. and I feel so terrible Not because I wish that I learned.. so that I can play for YOU.. so that I can tell YOU.. there is Much more ways to Tell YOU how much I love YOU.. I would even take the Piano out side.. even looking at the MOON in the Night.. when I miss YOU.. when I know that YOU are so Far away and I keep on missing YOU.. at least.. with tears in my eyes of Not able to hold YOU.. unable to be close to YOU and It hurts some nights.. I can play the Piano in the Night.. telling YOU.. looking UP at the MOON.. as my fingers hits the Key bars bringing music.. I would be pulling Out the Letter that is written for YOU and tell YOU a story of How much I love YOU.. if the neighbors would come out telling me about the Noises.. I would turn to that person and say.. DID YOU ever miss someone.. when it hurts.. it just hurts so much when YOU start missing.. I needs to say.. I needs to tell YOU this Heart of Mine.. there are times that it feels so painful.. it hurts.. I see tear drops out of my eyes.. so to take this anger out of My Heart for Missing YOU.. I needs to play YOU a SONG.. this Piano is my friend.. helps me to express what I feel when I am dealing with so Much sorrow in me.. that I love YOU but I miss YOU more.. why.. why do you keep on making me feel this way.. when YOU are so far off.. what am I suppose to do when I miss YOU.. and only thing that I can do is taking out the Picture.. the only thing I can do is pull the Picture out of my pocket.. and LOOK at YOU.. do YOU know How it feels when YOU just can't do nothing.. but only thing I can do is look at you in this Picture.. but I needs to tell YOU that I needs to be with YOU.. I needs to get this Off my Chest.. Off my Heart that I needs to be with YOU.. and it hurts me so much because I am dying right Now without YOU in my life.. and to keep my Anger and this pain.. this suffering away.. if I look at the Piano.. and I am able to pull the Piano chair closer.. and able to play the tunes of the Piano pressing on the key bars.. I know that I can tell YOU what I have written.. pressing the recorder.. as I am in the ROOM.. I would open up my Heart and say.. I miss YOU.. I am not sure why I am missing YOU so much right Now.. and I be
Smaller where I can take it out side so that YOU can hear the key bars.. when you hear the sound of the Music coming out of the Piano.. YOU know that It is me.. which I am telling YOU.. I am hurting right Now.. I miss YOU right Now.. where are YOU so that I can tell YOU my Heart.. Please come Out.. come Out and hear this Piano playing.. making the Music to come alive.. only if YOU knew this Heart of Mine.. every time I am sad.. every time I feel this Pain.. every time I want to cry.. when I be missing YOU.. I will be playing the Piano out side.. where if YOU are able to see the MOON on the Other side.. YOU can hear me.. that I am crying right Now.. I am missing YOU right Now.. so you know that it is me on the Other side looking for YOU.. I am missing YOU.. I am missing YOU because YOU are so far away.. where are YOU.. Please tell me so that I know that How you be doing.. tell me so that I can go to YOU like the wind.. as I am standing.. I am looking at the Piano in the room.. I have the letter in my hand and On the Other hand I have your Picture.. thinking of YOU.. and just loving YOU even though I am not sure if I would ever meet YOU.. will I ever see YOU.. can YOU Please tell me that I can see YOU soon.. or do YOU want me to pull the Piano.. the smaller Piano and walk out side.. do YOU want to hear me playing.. when I play on this Piano.. just please remember I am wailing and I am crying on the Other side because I need YOU.. I need YOU and I love YOU.. but for most I am missing YOU.. between us.. it hurts of the Longing and waiting for YOU.. and many nights I be thinking.. what If YOU never show UP.. what if YOU never come to Me.. what if this is nothing but.. and I would ask this kind of question.. but at the same time.. It is good for my Heart to tell YOU even if it is written how much I love YOU.. to able to explore and express and share.. to tell YOU that I really love YOU.. that I won't give UP until I have YOU in my arms and when that day Comes.. in my arms I will tell YOU looking at Your Ears.. how much I love YOU and How much I missed YOU.. longing day and night just to see YOU very close to me.. and I turn to look at the mail Box.. and I would walk toward the mail box and open.. and put the envelop inside and close the mail box door.. I am looking at the truck.. I am not sure why this Truck is in front of the Mail Box.. I would look out the window but I don't see anyone inside the Truck.. I don't see any movement inside the Truck.. I am putting the Letter into the envelope.. folding the piece of paper into half.. this time I wrote two Letters and putting into One Envelope.. just letting YOU know how much I can't stop telling YOU the way I feel.. My Heart wants to burst.. like my Head wants to Burst.. my eyes wants to burst into tears.. as I would fold the two Letters putting into One envelope.. Looking out the window.. I don't see any One.. I don't see the mail man either.. it has been sitting by the Mail box for few hours Now.. I just did not want to go Out but.. then.. what do I do with the two letters I wrote you this Letters.. if there is No Mail man to drive this Truck.. is that Means I can be the Mail Man tonight.. is this Truck for Me.. is it for me to drive.. so is it time for me to see YOU finally.. maybe I can put the Uniform and can act like I be Your Mail man.. of course I am going to tell YOU that the Letters.. which I wrote is me.. If you are to ask Me.. where is the Other Mail man.. I would tell YOU.. I think he is sick so I have come to drive this Truck.. the Time has come for me to finally see YOU.. to tell YOU that it is Me.. all this Time.. I been sitting in my room.. with the Piece of paper.. and the eraser.. with the pencil.. I would write YOU a Letter.. Looking at YOUR picture.. I would stare.. feeling my chest.. and when It starts to burn from the Inside.. I would wait till I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would wait and wait.. and then picking UP the Pencil.. looking down at the Piece of Paper.. I would start to write YOU something that comes from the Inside.. speaking from my Mind.. speaking from my Heart.. I would open my Mouth and speak to the paper.. as I am watching my fingers hold unto the pencil.. and hand writing on the paper.. I see the piece of Paper with letters to sentences into paragraphs becoming long as I would keep on thinking of YOU to tell YOU this Heart of Mine.. But last night.. I was out side walking.. I saw the Moon above Me and I wanted to see YOU.. I asked the MOON.. when will be the GOOD TIME for me to see YOU.. and looking UP at the Moon.. do YOU think the TIME is right.. asking the Moon Above Me.. I wish that the Moon can speak Back because all I can do is LOOK UP at the MOON and just wait.. waiting can be Hard sometimes.. because what if I wait but the TIME will never come to Me.. what if I keep on waiting but there is NO answer on the Other side.. am I just waiting for Nothing.. I would look UP asking that MOON.. what if the TIME be never.. which I do not like to put myself in that situation.. what if Never comes.. what if I stand still like this and everything just stops or pauses before my eyes and Only thing I do is wait but only waiting continues.. I would stand still.. LOOKING UP.. my eyes.. and I would feel so sad.. and tears fills my eyes.. and I would say.. DO you know that I want to be Loved.. I want to hear what YOU have to say.. I want to hear the words I love YOU and I miss YOU from your Lips.. what if nothing ever happens.. and I would stand in the Night.. LOOKING UP at the sky.. LOOKING at the MOON and only thing I can do is wait.. just wait until YOU are truly ready.. what if YOU never wants to be ready.. or YOU end up loving someone else.. as I would think about this.. the tears would run down.. my eyes.. I close my eyes and I open the two eyes.. two lines of tears streams down.. thinking about what If I just stand here and everything just stops.. or just pauses where I can never meet YOU.. as I would look.. I started to see rain.. rain started to fall from the sky.. and it was very light rain falling.. I am thinking.. it might be the MOON crying for Me.. Does that Moon hears me.. does the Moon understand the words coming Out of my Mouth.. Does the MOON knows how much I love YOU.. and How much I want to see YOU.. and I just would watch the Light rain falling down as I would get wet over the rain fall.. I would turn to look at the Window of My room.. and I would walk into the front door of my house.. grabbing a Bottle of whiskey and the shot Glass.. I would have your Picture in my Hand.. sitting on the chair by the desk in my room.. with the Piece of paper laying on top of the desk.. with the Big eraser and with the pencil next.. I would look at your Picture.. just wishing.. just hoping I can see YOU.. to meet you soon.. and I am just wondering.. would YOU let me see YOU.. would you open the door so that I can see YOU.. will you let me in.. and to hold Your hand.. as I would hold the Paper in my hand.. the Letter and give it to Your hand.. as I would open the TOP lid of the whiskey Bottle.. Holding and pouring into the Shot Glass.. and I am just sitting.. turning to look out the Window watching the light rain fall.. I would grab the Shot Glass after putting the Whiskey Bottle down.. and Open my Mouth and slam into my Mouth.. I can feel the harsh of the Liquor going in.. and I would sit just waiting for the Big Kick.. I would pour another on the Shot Glass and placing the Whiskey Bottle Down.. picking UP the Shot Glass.. Open my Mouth.. and Slam into my Mouth.. I am just waiting to feel that Buzz.. and just looking at YOU in the picture.. WHY can't I see YOU.. why don't you let me see YOU.. DID I ever done anything wrong to YOU.. would YOU let me visit YOU.. just please give me few minutes of your Time.. I am not asking for Hours but just even minutes is all I am asking for.. why can't YOU tell me that I am allowed.. please give me the permission to get close to YOU.. allow me for few minutes is all I need.. just to look at your eyes.. just too look at your hands.. Just to look at your smile.. just to ask if I can say Your Name.. can I say your name and tell YOU that I really Love YOU.. will you allow me to say that I love YOU.. Oh please tell me.. as I feel the kick from the Whiskey I drank.. I would look at the Whiskey Bottle.. half is empty.. did Not know that I drank this much.. but.. I just started to feel like I be missing YOU.. and it was aching me in my Heart.. I just could not stop putting the Whiskey Bottle Down.. I would watch the Shot Glass get filled.. hand grabs.. my Mouth opens wide and Slam the whiskey.. just could Not stop.. I would be looking at your Picture.. asking why can't I be with YOU.. asking why do I have to sit here and just can't see YOU.. hearing the rain falling as I turn to look out the window.. I would put the Whiskey Bottle down.. and the Shot Glass is emptied.. I would pick up the Pencil.. It is my Heart whose been loving YOU.. it is my Heart whose been waiting for YOU.. It is My Heart whose been asking for YOU.. It is my Heart whose been crying from the Inside.. screaming of this pain.. screaming of this Ache of wanting to be with YOU.. I need YOU more and More.. why can't YOU feel the same way as I do.. why is it me whose been loving YOU.. Please tell me.. Please allow me and give me the permission so that I can go to YOU.. so that I can run to YOU.. so that I can be with YOU and to tell you that I love YOU.. as I would look at the Piece of paper in front of me.. sitting on top of the desk.. I would take a look.. final look at your Picture.. and put your picture down on the top of the desk.. closing both eyes.. and I would picture YOU in my head.. and both eyes would open.. I am crying.. I am dying inside and Now I am crying.. as I would start to write on the piece of paper.. I am telling YOU.. My Heart is dying of Love.. my Heart is crying inside.. why
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