In a good way.... nostalgia for those sweet logos and noises....now my BIOS check flashes past before me in the blink of an eye....just like every waking day.... time is going by so fast.... gonna die alone soon.
Army of Two: the 40th day and Lost Planet 1, games that are dead. I was one of the last playing. The empty lobby mean it that time online wont never comeback again, and will become just a nice memory. I feel sad now, thanks HAHA fuk
@@jimmyjenkins1907 Actually, the TH-cam algorithm is really easy to abuse if you know how it works. It may be a temperamental mistress, but I still wring their servers for every ounce of entertainment-related gold.
Mr. Kill Myself is like the first 45 seconds of doing something you know you'll regret. The entire song feels like the world is slowing down so that we all may gather around and witness your downfall.
@@kyle73376 damn bro that's pretty fucked up from your part, but hey we all fuck up at some point, just make sure you learn from it, thats the only way you can make something good out of a crappy situation. That's life summarized right there.
I’d describe it as “liquid jungle”. Similar to moment by lildeath. It had the energetic fast paced drum breaks of a jungle tune combined with the soothing melodies of liquid dnb. One hell of a combo.
I do believe the first seconds of Goodbye used the first 10 seconds of this song. Gave me chills. And a great call back to your most popular song. This song and Kawaii Razor Blade took me back to Christmas of 2020. For some odd reason it took me there. It sucks that Jvne was short lived but I understand why.
Yeah it also reminded me of this song this was the first song by them I heard about 2 years ago good memory's its a shame they stopped making music but I hope it works out best for them
@@naners22 Sewerslvt them self announced it on there patreon a couple months ago, saying that there next album would be there last. It was dedicated in the memory of the person they loved who unfortunately committed suicide. You can probably find out more if you search the internet for people discussing it.
@@Bani0000 i knew of the unfortunate suicide but i didnt know about the announcement. it was definitely a good run, this song we were commenting on was the first sewerslvt song i ever heard when it was just a few months old. it’s unfortunate to know that no more projects are coming. thanks for the info.
Late 90's anime, DDR, Touhou, OG Xbox and 360, Gamecube and Wii, DS Lite, PS1 and PS2, Newgrounds, Flash games and animations, Marble Blast Ultra, giggling at swear words, and falling asleep to music like this. I know I am not unique, but it feels so special.
DANDAN THE DANDAN Of course not. It’s pop culture that you were not around for or too young to really know about. If you’re into this stuff just look for more, the knowledge will come
This song is a perfect reminder of how I felt when holding a DMT vape in my hand, about to take a hit for the first time. It was my first time taking psychedelics and I remember my buddy saying "Calm down, bro. Just relax and take a few hits.", I felt very anxious. Life is a short trip, just like DMT.
It's officially been 1 year since the last song she has released. I am aware of her story, I just I hope she's doing okay, somewhere out there. She deserves nothing but happiness. Thank you for making all this phenomenal music.
It still amazes me how one amazing little drum break in a song from 1969 has been in use for like 40 years. Something about the way those drums are tuned
I am enjoying this song while living. I have experienced depression, but right now I am hearing this and thinking... dang this is good music. I don't have to be screwed up to enjoy this, I don't enjoy this because I am screwed up, it just has so many rythms to follow and all of them wonderfully crunchy.
You're right. I'd consider myself to be an optimist and I enjoy sewerslvt's music a lot. Doesn't mean you have to be scared of admitting some craziness in your life, though. :)
yes. I am a chill guy, I am not depressed and haven't gone through depression (luckily somehow), but Sewerslvts music, especially their last album, just has so much emotion flowing out of it and little melodies and things I just love it and am addicted. I love how this music makes me want to just lay down on a bed and stare at the ceiling while blasting the music on my headphones. It's such a strange, unique, and good feeling.
Can't get over how good this song is. It has such a scary chaotic feel that I've never quite heard before. I really hope you do an OST for a game someday!
I’m back to where it all began… It’s already been nearly 2 years since this popped up in my recommended. So much has happened and changed, some of it for the better. I’ve met so many people that are still friends through this music, and I even got to watch a live set on skyward+. It all ends tomorrow, but i’m glad i got to experience all of this in the first place. Thanks for the memories!
wait, what do you mean by "ends tomorrow"? is she going to delete everything about her? or what? sorry if i'm overreacting or over exaggerating but that, given a context of last album, is pretty concerning
@@kurokamikage_official i more so meant that she said she’s done making music after the new album and nov 12 is tomorrow for me but she released the album today so uh yeah
Me too. This music has been with me on the cell phone in my pocket for so long I've forgotten how I came about it. It's been a small piece of my coping for the last few years. Sad to see it end, but I'm so happy to have been a part of it.
@@GalileoAV Same here also have been listening for 2 years. Its been a journey and I usually am not very emotional but I felt kinda sad listening to there last album, I hope this works out best for them and ill never forget about them.
And I've gained Stockholm syndrome and am now attracted to the boss because at least it's keeping me away from the fear and anxiety that typically come with trying to survive in this society.
other producers: nooo you can't just put a shitload of overdrive on the kick drum that makes it too muddy!!!!~!@ Sewerslvt: haha bass drum go PBVBVBVBVVBVVVBVBVVVBVV also wanna say how much I love the wet bass that comes in later on it's v good
Uuuuhhh, it's just such a genre in which there are a lot of drums.... it supposed to be how it is, other producers of this genre also do this. The genre is called neurofunk, drumstep or dnb
It's been 4 years now and I'm still shocked on how did sewerslvt even managed to make this peak. I'm having goosebumps every time I hear this song, and I'm not jocking. Every. Single. Time This song is really is god tier.
This song sounds so mind crushingly depressing but at the same time it feels like heaven and an uplifting feeling of content, your work is simply magic. I hope your doing better now.
It’s a mix of both I think. The fact so many showed up in a short amount of time is worrying, but at the same time being into both ambient and dnb isn’t gonna be the most mainstream mindset so idk
It definitely is bro. I just went back and relistened to a bunch of vaporwave and trance after getting super into virtual self. Now songs like this have been popping up occasionally.
I don't know how to describe this, but this feels like the feeling of nostalgia or just emotion when you remember something important in your life is about to happen. A beginning. But something begins when I don't realize it so when something happens and I'm flashing back, I think about the beginning and how it all started, I keep thinking of this song. Back in a time where I was so clueless something big and important was about to happen in my life
In moments like those, it makes me wonder if tuning in to and trusting my intuition could have helped in any way... but that begs the question, how do you learn something like that?
@@IN-eb3lm that's true, but let's create abstract universe where everything goes the same way, instead a human has a soul, a different personality. and so, his human body - brain - is what he achieved through his life. and his soul - is a thing that knows something outside of life. and the soul was creating the character - choosing available DNA options, talents, approximate appearance based on both parents genes and other. and while choosing a huge amount of aspects of what you'll be like in life, you hear this song. you also have an option to delete the character and choose the other genes, which will lead either to death while being in your mother, or death after getting born, or just not getting born at all
holy shit dude this slaps, no joke, it really makes me wanna get up and dance, it makes me feel like im being taken to another world, and i dont wanna leave that world
FINALLY I found a dnb artist who just goes beast mode and just shits all over the normal conventions while still sounding good! Astounding job! Keep it up man!
@@raptorf-7774 it's a mix of different things... First thing that came to my mind was dnb as well... Some sewerslvt songs even have elements of rawstyle or uptempo. And dnb is found in many other genres as well and can easily be built on
I fell asleep listening to a playlist and this song had popped up as soon as i woke up from a traumatic nightmare, this song is so comforting and i feel like sobbing listening to it, thank you so much Sewerslvt ilysm.
attention people coming from the algorithm, please sub to sewerslvt, he is an amazing talented guy, and a huge inspiration for me. also, sewerslvt, if you are reading this, i hope you don't you have to deal with thoughts of harming yourself anymore, cheers to a new decade.
Sewerslvt your song is very creative and sounds something out of some old school beats with adult swim vibe into it and its amazing keep up the great work I love it 🥰
@@Sewerslvt Came here from Recommendation Gang. Just enjoy the ride for now. I'm a depresso myself and srsly I know how it feels like when people have high expectations of you. But do not worry. People will just vibe and be glad whenever you upload I bet
What I like about this song is that the title makes you think that it'll be just another stupid joke song about killing yourself, but instead you get an absolute banger *without any lyrics at all.* This means that the piece excellently proves humanity's ability to convey emotions through music, regardless of vocals. Believe it or not, this is a truth that isn't apparent to a large portion of modern music listeners, so this has its place. You've truly created something wonderful here; I can't wait to hear more from you!
Please this comment is amazing. People still have the audacity to call non english music crap when this comment and this song exists. People need to see this more
It says die in japanese lol but yea just being an ass. This is my favorite type of music. Not in terms of genre, but in the sense it has no real lyrics and conveys deep hidden emotions that most abandon and forget exist if they ever knew them in the first place.
Flávia, Interesting theory. Freudianism gets flak these days for being an "outdated" mode of understanding psychoanalytical paraphenomenon, but Freud actually had some fairly deep insights on morality and the genealogy of desire in humans.
@deadmananderman that's why I'm busy all day with uni and games. If I wasn't like this, I'd be dead. We should keep ourselves busy sometimes, I can't stand my mind talking to me all day long
This is soo good it’s like a nostalgic melody which is combined the start and end of a rpg game that you used to play from day to night... my soul has been blessed by the TH-cam recommendation system..... keep up the good work
the main drumline is a very much so early 2000s trance type of sound, just paced up a lot more, which takes away the trueb trance part, really. this song certainly has elements from early trance music, but it's definitely not trance. several synths used here were common in early trance tho, so i can understand where youd have gotten the idea from
A google search for the exact phrase brings up this and another video by the same creator of this one. Its probably just a personal riff off of statements like "make your own luck" and "fortune favors the bold."
I think this means that luck is more likely to come to the person that keeps trying. Like, when you constantly roll the dice, you'll eventually get a good outcome. As opposed to someone that rarely takes risks, and therefore doesn't have as many chances to get the lucky roll.
@@doodlemcgee GampsterFragment makes pixel art drawings of a character who constantly tries to kill herself in many different yet creative ways, there is nothing too bloody. I definitely recommend to check the artist on twitter...the art style is good too
Yo man, just wanted to tell you that you introduced me to a huge array of genres. I'm a fan of VIRTUAL SELF but pretty new to the genres VS displayed, so I searched into similar artists. Wasn't satisfied with what I found. Then 2 days ago I found your music when I saw someone post their favorite EPs of 2019 on FB and included your Sewer//Slvt EP. The cover art caught my attention and I listened to it and holy shit man. The shit you do has the perfect blend of chaos and order. Dark and light. Yin and Yang. Dark and depressing titles, loud, expressive and cathartic drums mixed with the soothing and ethereally-beautiful pads. Fuckin amazing. Keep it up man.
@@jasminebaldwin7615 its not that deep man chill and clearly alot of people agreed with me its not a.generalization but an observation haha dont take it so serious
Your music is wonderful and fully expresses sorrow and that feeling of lingering in white noise, thoughts buzzing a thousand miles an hour with possibilities. Thank you for making it. Many of us needed it.
*_I've never thought that depression can be this beautiful and mysterious at the same time...._* No gonna lie tho, combining DnB with I think is Acid trance (if I don't say shit) is pure genius, well done ! And I hope you doesn't have any problems or issues in your life because I think that you're really talented and underrated for an artist in my opinion
I don't know in what state of mind you have to be in order to make this kind of music, but I can tell you what state this song reminds me of. Ever felt peckish, a bit hungry, but not hungry enough to actually have to eat? Just hungry enough to feel that pain. And have you then ever opened your fridge to grab something, looked at everything in it, and then closed it not having taken anything? You're kind of hungry, but don't have any appetite. You want to eat, but you can't find anything you want to eat. Not even the smell of freshly cooked food is enough to rouse your appetite. And so you don't eat, and have to go on, feeling that pain, feeling that push to eat something, you keep going to the fridge only to look with apathy at what's inside, and then close it again. The state of mind I'm talking about is similar. You want to do something, anything, but nothing is interesting enough. But not only that, it feels like you don't want to do anything. It feels like laying in bed, and just staring at a wall, or celling is what you want to do. But if you do, you're going to start feeling restless. You'll feel like you have to move, do something. There are so many things you want to do, or that you could do just for the fun of it. But no, there's nothing that interest you. Any activity seems either too difficult, too mundane, too annoying, not stimulating enough, it would take too much time, it doesn't last long enough, too complex, etc. So you end up standing up in order to lay back down again. Now, you can force yourself to do something, but it doesn't fill you with joy. Nothing does. The only thing you feel consistently is frustration. And not the kind that turns into anger. No, that would be too easy to deal with. Anger can at the very least motivate you to action. If you feel angry, you want to do something about it, express it in some form or another. You're just plain frustrated. There doesn't seem to be any reason for you being like this. There's nothing that overly worries you, nothing to keep you awake at night, nothing going wrong, nothing that feels too inadequate, you're quite happy with the direction in which your life's headed. This state seemingly appears out of nowhere, at random, with nothing that could be considered a cause, and doesn't last for a consistent amount of time. There doesn't seem to be any similarity between these... episodes. If you're out for a walk while in this state, you might think you're staring at nothing in particular. Your eyes are fixated, but on a point, and not an object. But then you find out you have been staring at something all along, and you only notice it when something drastically changes, like the window you've been looking at suddenly opens, or someone looks out of it. And all of this could be fine if it was just that. Yeah, you're frustrated for no particular reason, but at least you can think to entertain yourself. But it's not just that. You can't think, or rather, you can't perceive your thoughts. You have them, you're sure of it, but you can't recall them. Not even after you've just had them. The reason you're certain you were thinking, is because you remember thinking, but that's all. You don't remember what it was, or how it made you feel, you just remember your mind was preoccupied with something, and if it came from the previous thought, or it was something entirely new. Sometimes you think about something for quite a bit, and sometimes thoughts exit your mind as quickly as they entered. And no matter how hard you try, you can't recall anything other than there having been something to recall. It's as if you're laying in the backseat of a car that's driving somewhere. Your eyes are closed, and the only thing you can hear is the engine running. You don't know where you are, or where you're headed. You're simply there, along for the ride. But there's nothing fun about this ride. You want to open your eyes, see what's out there, but you can't. They just won't, not because you've been blindfolded, or something like that, but because they simply won't. You're drowsy, but you want to stand up. But your body doesn't want to move. You're between wakefulness and sleep. Both and neither at the same time. You want to speak to the driver, but your mouth won't move. All this frustrates you, but it's being kept in check by the lethargy, making sure it doesn't build up into anger. All you can do if lay there, and feel how the car moves. Each turn the car makes is like a thought exiting, and a new one entering. The straight parts of the journey are you thinking about something. You know the car made turns. You know that it spent quite a bit of time not making any turns, you can even remember some of the sequences of turns. First left, drive a bit, left again, quick right, drive a bit longer, turn left again... But you don't remember all of them, or where they were made, or even where the journey started. Usually it's not this extreme, you can still function normally, your mind is just a bit fogged, your interests faded a bit, you want to do a bit more of everything, and also a bit less. But the frustration is a constant. You ask your friend if you want to meet. You want to do something with them. But once you've met, you feel unsatisfied. You want to be alone again. You talk to them about some subject or another, but you can't express yourself precisely enough. You hear your own words, and think: "No, that's not quite what I mean". So you get frustrated. And of course your friend doesn't understand what you actually mean, you failed to adequately express yourself. So you get frustrated at their not getting it. But never enough for you to change the subject. Never enough for you to call it a day. Nothing feels satisfactory, nothing scratches that itch quite right. Not even discovering something new, something you might otherwise enjoy, or be at least interested in, nothing manages to excite or calm you enough. This is what this song feels like. I first found this song outside of this... lethargic hyperactivity, narcoleptic restlessness, whatever you'd like to call it. And I didn't like it. It feels too frantic, and the slower parts feel too long. But when I listend to in that state, the frustration lessened. It was still there, but not as much. It's as if both sides got what they wanted. The ps2 startup-like sound, as well as the "oh"s and "ah"s playing in the same pattern, constantly being clearly audible, and them being so soothing managed to satisfy the need for something calming. But at the same time, everything else playing quite frantically managed to keep the hyperactive side preoccupied. So both sides, both needs were met at the same time. And so, the frustration wasn't as severe as before. Quite the song.
When I think about it. The reason this song is so alluring is because it feels like finding a nice quiet spot during a point of severe stress so much so that the overwhelming anxiety becomes almost soothing
Subscribing even though I know you’re done making music. This shit Incapsulates my thoughts perfectly at this point in time. It’s the first time I’ve been sober off drugs AND medications in years, trying to figure out what’s really wrong with my brain. The first month was fine, but now it’s pure aggression. This is the only music I’ve been able to listen to without it pissing me off or physically hurting me for some reason.
Sewer has really helped me through trying times. There is a certain brand, a concise range of emotions in the mood spectrum that is so perfectly captured. Words don't represent these feelings well, they don't do them any justice. It's hard to describe something so perpetually oppressive. One of the things I've learned is that the first step to curing yourself is the recognition of your pain, whether you recognize it yourself or others recognize it for you. This music lets me know that my pain is known, it has been felt before. It is unfortunate that this dark tunnel that we're walking perpetually within is this long. We don't know when it'll end. We don't know when the horrors that stain our minds will fade away, but if we don't keep walking, we may never witness the euphoria that takes us when the invisible rope around our neck loosens up. We may never discover the light at the end of this tunnel. We may never discover how lovely it is to be free when the dark chain that fetters us snaps. These times are difficult. That much is true. But we can be stronger than this. We must muster the courage to see the dawn of the next day, and the days beyond that. Therefore, I ask you to keep walking, even if it is difficult. We will find meaning in this pain, and we will stand over it triumphantly. Here's hoping someone who needed to see those words, sees them.
hilarious timing , recovering from a recent attempt and listening to this , ive been working on myself both mentally and physically , but its hard to forget such a day where you completely go against yourself and your survival instincts . now , i am better , i got help , sort of , but its funny how the person who tried to take their life was the exact same person who decided to work on their life and get better . and even if its been only just a couple of weeks since my attempt , i do not feel like dying anymore , i dont want to die anymore . i want to live , i want to see myself grow , experience life and joy , i have so much potential , i want to fulfill my dreams , thrive in my hobbies and create a space for myself . my only goal in life has always been to just , be here , i guess , to just do whatever i want to . the memories of that night still linger in my mind , the reminders will always be here with me , but i can choose to either learn from myself and get stronger or fall back into a worse spot . the choice is mine , its all mine , and maybe , maybe , maybe , just this once , i will actually take this , not my life , but the choice , to live , and experience life and joy . life always finds a way
The only way I could imagine myself having got here is the old Hotline Miami 2 X Death Grips mashups you made, and the ancient TH-cam gods gifted me your work in my recommended. For me, I decided only recently that I didn't want to let go just yet, despite everything. Why, I don't think I could tell even myself, but I can understand and respect your terms. You've certainly been something to me, if only a short yet powerful music influence. I remember when artists like Virtual Self/Porter Robinson spoke to me unlike anything else in the past, and who knows, maybe your work could do much the same. Good luck out there, to you all.
I always come back to this song, no matter what mood I am. I just really appreciate the sort of story this song is telling. Maybe I'm just reading too much into this song, but it's always such a thrill listening to this and I really really enjoy Sewerslvt's content !
Well thats the thing with these tarcks, they all ahve some kind of story embedded into them. The titles is often all that is needed to get the listener guessing and constructing thier own emaning with the themes presented. Its actually really great of not sad that all the titles revolve around such dark themes. If anything it says somthing about Jvne, i really hope things turn out well for her. But at the same time its relatable. I was going through a rough time some years ago when an album was released. Thats when i first heard her music. And again this summer as i went through a rough time another album dropped with perfect timing.
Ambient music, stuff like Aphex Twin, and like this is slowly becoming my favourite thing to listen to... the world it brings you to is immersive like nothing else.
Finally a piece of my heart and mind translated into a beautiful work of art. The sadness waving in the baground, the anger beating in my chest, and the hopelessness crying out every few seconds. Then the overwhelming desire to release the pain build and builds and builds until-drop- tears. I cannot bring myself to death, but i will experience the lowest of lows before i die. Thank you @Sewerslvt for making feel less alone today.
Life is both a mix of good and bad. It is about how you can overcome adversity and flourish in times of good. Start talking to strangers, anyone, dont stay silent, you'll come to find that many other are in the same boat as you. You are not alone, and what you need is to love yourself to achieve self actualization. Even though you are a total stranger to me, I love you and hope you can realize that there is so much for life to offer you.
A year has just passed and i just played this song full volume at my headphones. Cant describe how much your music has helped me jvnko, thanks for all the great memories.
Came for the cute drawing ended up transcended into a different dimension.
welcome in hell
me with every single song of sewerslvt lmao
*to
Bloreen Kobux didn’t see the gun
@Kloreen Bobux if you think this is cute you should look at the rest of HamsterFragment's artwork lmao
i don't remember the playstation taking this long to turn on
Compared to todays gaming computers it might as well be eons
In a good way.... nostalgia for those sweet logos and noises....now my BIOS check flashes past before me in the blink of an eye....just like every waking day.... time is going by so fast.... gonna die alone soon.
*THIS IS NOT OKAY*
Speaking of the playstation, this sounds a lot like the Ridge Racer Type 4 soundtrack
@@true_neutral3378 definitly sound like ridge racer (well I remember it as rage racer... the "french" version which isn't actually translated.
this song gives me the vibe of being the only one in an online game lobby
gives me the vibe of being the only one who still plays on a really old minecraft server.
@@DJGeosmin and while you grinding your own someone comes you talk do some stuff and be friends one of the nicest things in internet
New players welcome! Clan XYZ | No rules, have fun!
Open Lobby - No Password - 1/64
Nice dude
Army of Two: the 40th day and Lost Planet 1, games that are dead. I was one of the last playing.
The empty lobby mean it that time online wont never comeback again, and will become just a nice memory. I feel sad now, thanks HAHA fuk
happy 5 years
Rest easy.
I can't believe it's been 5 years..
bruh..
Kids in 20 years wishing to be born in this generation for this nostalgia
Well not exactly nostalgia just this music, the feeling.
@@dal_luna but this music sounds like something from the early '00 even later '90s
im already nostalgic
This already sounds like it's from the late 90s though, that's exactly what this style is
@@dal_luna I feel it too but I just don't know when or where did I hear this.
This is how waking up in the middle of the night just to get a cold cup of water feels like
Oooh damn, now that’s a description!
@@mattfluffy6954 fr
that's true
Accurate
Put some Ice on that.
the cultivation of my recommended videos has finally payed off
hah- imagine recommended being correlated to any of ur watch history
@@jimmyjenkins1907 From my perspective it seems to work that way
@David Vanwinkle
*pathetic*
Same, brother. Sometimes I dislike videos just so they don't show up again
@@jimmyjenkins1907 Actually, the TH-cam algorithm is really easy to abuse if you know how it works. It may be a temperamental mistress, but I still wring their servers for every ounce of entertainment-related gold.
I'm not really sad you quit. All good things must come to a end. I hope your doing great. Gonna be jamming to your music for a long time.
thank you mcrides
you're
@@jamesv6990 ur
@@sketchiefello9002 ur what??😳
@@elitrizien8908 ur mom lol
this is what hitting your elbow on the edge of a table sounds like
or drinking mcdonalds sprite
or standing up quickly
Or looking up at the sky directly
Or having parents that ignore your needs
Ah, I'm fine lol
My parents just ignore my mental health :l
I got into an accident listening to this song in my car, scary shit. No one got hurt tho.
LOL
no wonder why its called ''Mr. Kill Myself''
Glad your ok.
@@edwardmarshall2035 Thanks man, hope you're doing ok too.
another song not to listen to while driving: obsessive - macky gee
fire af
Oh hi Artzie
Ejllo artzie!
I always see you on so many videos whether it be up and coming artists, old anime, vaporwave from 2012 or just random "deep youtube" vids
OMG
hello artzie
Mr. Kill Myself is like the first 45 seconds of doing something you know you'll regret. The entire song feels like the world is slowing down so that we all may gather around and witness your downfall.
The fuck did you just say you waste of space
I am crying 😭😭
That describes my life after I cheated on the person I loved.
@@kyle73376 we all fuck up. its never the end of the world tho. although it sure as hell can feel like it.
@@kyle73376 damn bro that's pretty fucked up from your part, but hey we all fuck up at some point, just make sure you learn from it, thats the only way you can make something good out of a crappy situation.
That's life summarized right there.
how can a song be overwhelming and calming at the same time?
beauty has chaos
I’d describe it as “liquid jungle”. Similar to moment by lildeath. It had the energetic fast paced drum breaks of a jungle tune combined with the soothing melodies of liquid dnb. One hell of a combo.
Its a song that breathes so you feel release and pent up by listening to it
my thoughts exactly
welcome to dnb
Listening to this song at 5am gives me a nostalgic feeling of watching anime late at night in the early 2000s on adult swim.
th-cam.com/video/jnxbreSfQ48/w-d-xo.html
holy fuck you’re so right
The Dawn is Your Enemy
My favorite anime is king of the hill
You should check out deep space bass and black hole megamix, it includes alot of the tracks they used to use in the bumpers
YO THAT BEAT KICKED ME RIGHT IN THE TEETH AND STOLE MY WALLET
fuckING SUBBED
basically this
@Pin Head why this comment section so horny
alright
@Pin Head damn ok you spittin out some hot fire right there
Hiro why are you horny
I do believe the first seconds of Goodbye used the first 10 seconds of this song. Gave me chills. And a great call back to your most popular song. This song and Kawaii Razor Blade took me back to Christmas of 2020. For some odd reason it took me there. It sucks that Jvne was short lived but I understand why.
Yeah it also reminded me of this song this was the first song by them I heard about 2 years ago good memory's its a shame they stopped making music but I hope it works out best for them
@@Bani0000 they are quitting? who says?
@@naners22 Sewerslvt them self announced it on there patreon a couple months ago, saying that there next album would be there last. It was dedicated in the memory of the person they loved who unfortunately committed suicide. You can probably find out more if you search the internet for people discussing it.
@@Bani0000 i knew of the unfortunate suicide but i didnt know about the announcement. it was definitely a good run, this song we were commenting on was the first sewerslvt song i ever heard when it was just a few months old. it’s unfortunate to know that no more projects are coming. thanks for the info.
Amazing observation!
This song is like the pure rush of emotions before doing something youll never be able to take back
Perhaps that's the point, considering the title, image and music video
ya it really is
Isn't it just wonderful?
Exactly
this explains it so well
Late 90's anime, DDR, Touhou, OG Xbox and 360, Gamecube and Wii, DS Lite, PS1 and PS2, Newgrounds, Flash games and animations, Marble Blast Ultra, giggling at swear words, and falling asleep to music like this. I know I am not unique, but it feels so special.
I see you're a touhou player as well nice
Dude hell yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesss
holy fuck marble blast ultra
Am I a degenerate for not recognizing anything despite being 18?
DANDAN THE DANDAN Of course not. It’s pop culture that you were not around for or too young to really know about. If you’re into this stuff just look for more, the knowledge will come
this is not Lo-Fi Hip Hop Anime Chil Beats To Study and Relax To
Correct. Congratulations on passing your test. Now ***ASCEND***
@@nickdance965 Kayne Quest
Nah THIS IS JUNGLE
@@drifter402 More like breakcore.
@@hibikiballs8353 It's fast enough to be breakcore, but it doesn't have as many "cuts" and meshes in the drum break samples. Most likely just jungle
I hope your doing better, I hope you can recover from the lost from your lover.
i understand why this song feels so familiar to me. it sounds like one of those run games on cool maths games but on acid.
yeeeeeea dudeee
Facts bro
this breakbeat sample was used in some tracks from sf3rd strike's soundtrack and also some toonami ads
and I think that the PlayStation boot sound is processed into a pad sound
This song is a perfect reminder of how I felt when holding a DMT vape in my hand, about to take a hit for the first time. It was my first time taking psychedelics and I remember my buddy saying "Calm down, bro. Just relax and take a few hits.", I felt very anxious. Life is a short trip, just like DMT.
This sounds like something you'd find on a CD someone left buried in their backyard. I love it
i remember finding a CD buried somewhere in the countryside and it had a song that sounds like the ambient part of this song
@@scratch5244 dude, you should upload that
@@RBWendy that happened years ago and i don't know where the CD is tho
@@scratch5244 seems legit
@@scratch5244 :(
I only realized now, at 12:25 AM on a monday, that she is holding a gun against her head
Funny thing it's Monday for me but it's 12:40am and I just realised that too
@@jolyneslover3803 oh my god its a sign. a sign for something. i dont know what for
thank you for the insight
it is also 12:25 am on a friday :0
It was Monday 5:39 PM for me
It's officially been 1 year since the last song she has released. I am aware of her story, I just I hope she's doing okay, somewhere out there. She deserves nothing but happiness. Thank you for making all this phenomenal music.
I can't believe its already been a year, that's crazy
>she
@@trabant3060 yes
I really miss her
WAIT SEWERSLVT IS A GIRLLL???? WTF
It still amazes me how one amazing little drum break in a song from 1969 has been in use for like 40 years. Something about the way those drums are tuned
??
@@a_3435 The Amen Break, look it up.
@@MagnificentlyHighAlien ohh thanks
50 years.
The original drummer is long gone but I find it beautiful how his work still lives on and inspires new ideas
The 2000s nostalgia wave is coming. This song is its wake.
+1
Early Cartoon Network, Adult Swim, and late 90's anime.
I’m here to ride that wave
Man, I been sayin.
stan 100 gecs
damn, combining the old school sounds of acid trance and DnB never sounded so better
I thought it was the _psy_ trance basis, but you're more accurate!
@@benjamintoulouse7052 agree, song good
What's DnB?
Drum and Bass?
@@justwow768 yes
I am enjoying this song while living. I have experienced depression, but right now I am hearing this and thinking... dang this is good music. I don't have to be screwed up to enjoy this, I don't enjoy this because I am screwed up, it just has so many rythms to follow and all of them wonderfully crunchy.
You're right. I'd consider myself to be an optimist and I enjoy sewerslvt's music a lot. Doesn't mean you have to be scared of admitting some craziness in your life, though. :)
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@@canacana6484???????????
Ahh so agreeable and truee,
yes. I am a chill guy, I am not depressed and haven't gone through depression (luckily somehow), but Sewerslvts music, especially their last album, just has so much emotion flowing out of it and little melodies and things I just love it and am addicted. I love how this music makes me want to just lay down on a bed and stare at the ceiling while blasting the music on my headphones. It's such a strange, unique, and good feeling.
I feel like i glitched out of the map in a video game, but there was a secret boss outside waiting for me, and this is its theme
"̷̱̟̜̦̙̻̼I̞̠̱͖̯̻̰ Ạ̯͇̫ͅM̨͎̩͔̥̟ͅ ͎̗Y͎̟̩̼̲͔̖͟O̻͜U͍͈̰R̫͉̲͈ ͈͔̞G̜͖R̵̩̳E̘̺̦̪̜̺̺Ḁ̢͕̼̱̟T̟EŞ͙T͙͈̘̖͓̪ͅ ҉͙̝̠̲̥̯̭F̷̥̹̪̜̼̼͍O̩ͅE̳.̹̟͎̣"̶̞͓̜̻̭ͅ
My fantasy...
@@Blackberry0.9 Honestly I'd shit myself if I saw that come up on screen
@@neurolucky43 imagine actually HEARING it... Pretty chilling...
bruh the shiversssss
Ironically, this song is saving my life.
@k3nny same
same
Same lmfao
It's the power of life. Love , joy, pain, sadness they all have a common power of making life worth living
Idk but yeah it is lol
Can't get over how good this song is.
It has such a scary chaotic feel that I've never quite heard before. I really hope you do an OST for a game someday!
honestly same
ok so apparently a strong break is "scary and chaotic"
@TriVos Ahren i know unity, im shit at making music tho
Drum and bass is ur way
Kilowatt
yes..? breakcore is chaotic
I’m back to where it all began… It’s already been nearly 2 years since this popped up in my recommended. So much has happened and changed, some of it for the better. I’ve met so many people that are still friends through this music, and I even got to watch a live set on skyward+. It all ends tomorrow, but i’m glad i got to experience all of this in the first place. Thanks for the memories!
wait, what do you mean by "ends tomorrow"? is she going to delete everything about her? or what?
sorry if i'm overreacting or over exaggerating but that, given a context of last album, is pretty concerning
@@kurokamikage_official i more so meant that she said she’s done making music after the new album and nov 12 is tomorrow for me but she released the album today so uh yeah
@@kurokamikage_official dw i more so meant the end of the music making not anything bad
Me too. This music has been with me on the cell phone in my pocket for so long I've forgotten how I came about it. It's been a small piece of my coping for the last few years. Sad to see it end, but I'm so happy to have been a part of it.
@@GalileoAV Same here also have been listening for 2 years. Its been a journey and I usually am not very emotional but I felt kinda sad listening to there last album, I hope this works out best for them and ill never forget about them.
POV: You’re fighting the last boss, but it has a ton of transformations.
And I've gained Stockholm syndrome and am now attracted to the boss because at least it's keeping me away from the fear and anxiety that typically come with trying to survive in this society.
>transformations
I GET IT
Flowey
the last phase is yourself
@@SKreatywny based
When you get a weird video in your recommended but it's not 6 years old and/or over a million views
Edit: We over 1 million now!
These songs are giving me ideas for my own music
Yep
@@leaderofthebunch-deadbeat7716 yeeeee
Indeed this was a good reccs
This artist is so good and seems underrated glad the algorithm is working for someone who deserves it
other producers: nooo you can't just put a shitload of overdrive on the kick drum that makes it too muddy!!!!~!@
Sewerslvt: haha bass drum go PBVBVBVBVVBVVVBVBVVVBVV
also wanna say how much I love the wet bass that comes in later on
it's v good
type like a normal person.
This is great.
@@JayAreAitch Realise that this is a joke like a normal person.
@@HARBINGER8752 jokes are supposed to be funny
Uuuuhhh, it's just such a genre in which there are a lot of drums.... it supposed to be how it is, other producers of this genre also do this. The genre is called neurofunk, drumstep or dnb
It's been 4 years now and I'm still shocked on how did sewerslvt even managed to make this peak.
I'm having goosebumps every time I hear this song, and I'm not jocking.
Every. Single. Time
This song is really is god tier.
it really is good, isn't it?
My dad was blasting this song on the speaker's downstairs
Your dad has good taste
Edit: autocorrect turned "dad" unto "df d"
@@lemmesleep1858 i indeed have a dfd but not cool as the commenter's.
ask him if he's doing okay
Cool dad
woah u have a cool dad wth
This music must've been what the Bomberman Hero soundtrack sounded to a wide eyed 90s kid introduced to a new musical flavor
I never tasted this one
*simply delicious*
Holy shit you're everywhere
@@ThePyschicBuzz Thank you, I love when I get comments like this
@@MapleMilk I find you here too hahaha. Get ready new music coming soon.
@@TVTheHumanAI Sweet
Listening to this while driving your car at night would be such a vibe
Thanks for the idea
If you want to know whether a song is good or not, play it while driving at night
Yea if you wanna crash
I deliver food for Doordash. I put this song on during a delivery and ended up at the customer's house 15 minutes earlier than expected.
i just saw a comment of someone who got in a car crash while listening to this-
This song sounds so mind crushingly depressing but at the same time it feels like heaven and an uplifting feeling of content, your work is simply magic. I hope your doing better now.
Srsly how is this depressing at all?
as much as I like this, I hope it's recommended not because of some algorithm kink but because of my actual watch patterns and tastes
Hopefully, TH-cam sometimes act like shit when their Recommendation algorithm change over time...
yes
It’s a mix of both I think. The fact so many showed up in a short amount of time is worrying, but at the same time being into both ambient and dnb isn’t gonna be the most mainstream mindset so idk
I'm not into ambient or dnb. I usually look for doom or black metal on here. I think it's just the algorithm, boys. But it's a good song.
It definitely is bro. I just went back and relistened to a bunch of vaporwave and trance after getting super into virtual self. Now songs like this have been popping up occasionally.
this is what rubbing your eyes and staring at the sun sounds like
I wanna try that
@@dionan1fan dont
also diona pfp?
No it is not
Sounds like the exact kind of song that would piss me off in Beat Saber with its excessive difficulty and length.
@@Sewerslvt idk your songs are good stamina and consistency training on a game i shall not name
@@nyasafox1265 real
I don't know how to describe this, but this feels like the feeling of nostalgia or just emotion when you remember something important in your life is about to happen. A beginning. But something begins when I don't realize it so when something happens and I'm flashing back, I think about the beginning and how it all started, I keep thinking of this song. Back in a time where I was so clueless something big and important was about to happen in my life
In moments like those, it makes me wonder if tuning in to and trusting my intuition could have helped in any way... but that begs the question, how do you learn something like that?
@@NahNoWayy trial and error, courage, experimentation, and learn what matters the most
@@werami9126 you couldn't be more right. I hope you are doing well out there, and taking good care.
@@NahNoWayy love and nothing but
This song cured my erectile disfunction
That's good
Tube bend it
Tube now use electrical tape
This song cured by nymphofapping by 5 minutes
These are some hard beats...
stay safe. we're out here, silent. but we get it. we're all in this together. alone, but together.
We must "Stick Apart"
just a reminder to seek help if you need it. You don't know how great it feels
dude that was really touchy...
I respect this comment
In an age of constant change and stimulation, we only grow more apart. To appreciate the company of another human makes the other feel real.
the anime aesthetic, DnB, and "kill myself" mood make me feel a weird connection to you. hell yeah.
Trash Caliente everyone here is connected
"No matter where you go, everyone is connected" -Lain Iwakura
It amazes me that I've been listening to their music for a little over 5 years.
Captures a feeling I can't even identify.
I can hear colors and see sound
nice
Are you by any chance a mantis shrimp?
same
I can taste sound and feel colors after listening to this song
I'm 12 and this is deep
Retro is getting more and more modern, we’ve gone from ‘80s synthwave, to ‘90s vaporwave, now we’ve reached ‘2000s wave
crazy frog vibes
Scary😳
It's about time, too...
80's has vapour. just like synth, vapor is a concrete approach now. As much as I hated the thou's, any 'wave is good 'wave.
It’s like the OG PlayStation intro meets the “sonic Heroes” theme
Hahahahhaahahahhahah
it gives me vibes of white jungle from sonic adventure 2
This sounds like what it feels like to go insane
Sewerslvt is back people! 😍😭
Let's all love Cynthoni and Jvne 💜
I knew I wans't the only one to notice
I don't know how you've managed to create a sound so nostalgic in CURRENT YEAR but please don't stop.
I watched your Vids man. Love the Tutorials. :)
This song was a trip and a half. The immersion was perfect. Well done.
This is what falling sounds like. It’s rapid, melancholic and euphoric all at once.
As someone who does action sports (Freestyle BMX to be specific) I have to disagree.
I swear I remember seeing an internet argument here lol
In your head maybe but falling in reality is different
@@AramaxTheHuman haha that would be really dumb lol
@@kawosdhdos totally valid, but i was really going off of how it looks like it would feel in media and stuff :)
Finally a song that describes my mood
I did not expect to find the Finnish domino guy here
Nautin videoistasi ^^
taikamuna i love ur videos!!! i didnt know u liked sewerslvt!!!!!!
on god
It just doesnt
right???
why people feel its nostalgic song because they heard this song while creating their real life character
i love this
*You can’t just choose who you want to be in life like some big Game...*
-Inspired off DELTARUNE
woah best comment on yt right there
@@IN-eb3lm that's true, but let's create abstract universe where everything goes the same way, instead a human has a soul, a different personality. and so, his human body - brain - is what he achieved through his life. and his soul - is a thing that knows something outside of life. and the soul was creating the character - choosing available DNA options, talents, approximate appearance based on both parents genes and other. and while choosing a huge amount of aspects of what you'll be like in life, you hear this song. you also have an option to delete the character and choose the other genes, which will lead either to death while being in your mother, or death after getting born, or just not getting born at all
@@vadiks20032 I must've been drunk when customising mine
holy shit dude this slaps, no joke, it really makes me wanna get up and dance, it makes me feel like im being taken to another world, and i dont wanna leave that world
WELCOME TO THE DRUM & BASS FIELDS.
ngl make me wanna go on a acid trip while watching adult swim
This song makes me feel like I'm a bath bomb, dissolving into the universe...
Discord?
@ʀᴏᴛᴛᴇɴ ɪɴsɪᴅᴇ what a mood though
@@aarchon8276 check my channel description I just added it
Lmao
isnt that ego death or smth
It has been a most wonderful journey. I wish you the best of luck Sewerslvt!
FINALLY I found a dnb artist who just goes beast mode and just shits all over the normal conventions while still sounding good! Astounding job! Keep it up man!
I mean... have you ever heard of ambient jungle
It's Breakcore
There's a lot of dnb or dnb-orbiting artists that do that.
@@raptorf-7774 i'd say it's more footcore
@@raptorf-7774 it's a mix of different things... First thing that came to my mind was dnb as well... Some sewerslvt songs even have elements of rawstyle or uptempo.
And dnb is found in many other genres as well and can easily be built on
is it weird that I never want sewerslvt's songs to end... when I listen to them I feel like I go to another universe...
I fell asleep listening to a playlist and this song had popped up as soon as i woke up from a traumatic nightmare, this song is so comforting and i feel like sobbing listening to it, thank you so much Sewerslvt ilysm.
I feel like if this was playing after a nightmare I’d be terrified lol
@@cadenhannon3273 so basically you think this is boss music
wherever you are, I hope you're okay.
No, but thanks for caring ❤
attention people coming from the algorithm, please sub to sewerslvt, he is an amazing talented guy, and a huge inspiration for me.
also, sewerslvt, if you are reading this, i hope you don't you have to deal with thoughts of harming yourself anymore, cheers to a new decade.
@@Sewerslvt I am just saying, use the praise well, use it to fuel your creative mind. People will come back for more.
Sewerslvt your song is very creative and sounds something out of some old school beats with adult swim vibe into it and its amazing keep up the great work I love it 🥰
@@Sewerslvt yay \o/ good for you man!
B E T
@@Sewerslvt Came here from Recommendation Gang. Just enjoy the ride for now. I'm a depresso myself and srsly I know how it feels like when people have high expectations of you. But do not worry. People will just vibe and be glad whenever you upload I bet
What I like about this song is that the title makes you think that it'll be just another stupid joke song about killing yourself, but instead you get an absolute banger *without any lyrics at all.* This means that the piece excellently proves humanity's ability to convey emotions through music, regardless of vocals. Believe it or not, this is a truth that isn't apparent to a large portion of modern music listeners, so this has its place. You've truly created something wonderful here; I can't wait to hear more from you!
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I live for music that conveys emotion without vocals
Please this comment is amazing. People still have the audacity to call non english music crap when this comment and this song exists. People need to see this more
It says die in japanese lol but yea just being an ass. This is my favorite type of music. Not in terms of genre, but in the sense it has no real lyrics and conveys deep hidden emotions that most abandon and forget exist if they ever knew them in the first place.
"kill myself" is such a complicated mood
Flávia, Interesting theory. Freudianism gets flak these days for being an "outdated" mode of understanding psychoanalytical paraphenomenon, but Freud actually had some fairly deep insights on morality and the genealogy of desire in humans.
@@colbyboucher6391 Correct.
FUCK YES!
@deadmananderman that's why I'm busy all day with uni and games. If I wasn't like this, I'd be dead. We should keep ourselves busy sometimes, I can't stand my mind talking to me all day long
this song carried me through 1 failed attempt and 5 years of self improvement
Sewerslvt - Mr. Improve Yourself
This is soo good it’s like a nostalgic melody which is combined the start and end of a rpg game that you used to play from day to night... my soul has been blessed by the TH-cam recommendation system..... keep up the good work
At 3:21, the voices say "Shindeee" which essentially translates to "DIEEE!".
Kawaiiest moment EVER, also best drop XD
@@Chaosequencer how is that kawaii
SHINEEEEEEEE!!!
whats it sampled from?
@@hayaku3909 ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
i walked in expecting a hardcore electronic noise song only to have 2000s trance music (or whatever this is called) to vibe with. this is great
dnb/jungle mix up
its breakcore
yeah I always thought with a name like sewerslvt her music would be really angry and aggressive, not this haha
@@yuyuqk this is dnb, or intelligent dnb, but it had elements of breakcore in it. I like to call it ravecore
the main drumline is a very much so early 2000s trance type of sound, just paced up a lot more, which takes away the trueb
trance part, really. this song certainly has elements from early trance music, but it's definitely not trance. several synths used here were common in early trance tho, so i can understand where youd have gotten the idea from
Not only the songs but the covers are genuinely pieces of art
Luck is the skill afforded to the one who never gives up.
Then it's no more luck than their effort.
@@Juan-yn4zs not really, you can try without any goal or motivation and get lucky.
What’s that from?
A google search for the exact phrase brings up this and another video by the same creator of this one. Its probably just a personal riff off of statements like "make your own luck" and "fortune favors the bold."
I think this means that luck is more likely to come to the person that keeps trying. Like, when you constantly roll the dice, you'll eventually get a good outcome. As opposed to someone that rarely takes risks, and therefore doesn't have as many chances to get the lucky roll.
Damn recommended pulled through on this one
the fact that the drawing is that character from GampsterFragment , does really relate to the title
could you introduce us to GampsterFragment is
Thanks for mentioning him dude, i discovered a brand new world
@@doodlemcgee GampsterFragment makes pixel art drawings of a character who constantly tries to kill herself in many different yet creative ways, there is nothing too bloody.
I definitely recommend to check the artist on twitter...the art style is good too
@@horrornumber much appreciated, sounds interesting!
@@horrornumber I don't see "GampsterFragment" but I do see HamsterFragment
One of the most vivid songs I've ever heard. I imagine everyone who listens to this has their own music video in their mind.
Yo man, just wanted to tell you that you introduced me to a huge array of genres. I'm a fan of VIRTUAL SELF but pretty new to the genres VS displayed, so I searched into similar artists. Wasn't satisfied with what I found.
Then 2 days ago I found your music when I saw someone post their favorite EPs of 2019 on FB and included your Sewer//Slvt EP. The cover art caught my attention and I listened to it and holy shit man.
The shit you do has the perfect blend of chaos and order. Dark and light. Yin and Yang. Dark and depressing titles, loud, expressive and cathartic drums mixed with the soothing and ethereally-beautiful pads.
Fuckin amazing. Keep it up man.
Omg a fellow VIRTUAL SELF fan!
What are y'all talking about whenever you mention Virtual Self? Pardon my ignorance, it's been a while since I don't listen to music.
Agostina Lucía Ietri VIRTUAL SELF is a side project of Porter Robinson
Did adult swim influence the music taste of all 2000 kids. Yes
Toonami
flying lotus
nah fam this shit is just good
Hush your face. Don't make broad generalizations like that, m8. They're obnoxious.
@@jasminebaldwin7615 its not that deep man chill and clearly alot of people agreed with me its not a.generalization but an observation haha dont take it so serious
This isn't a song, it's an experience.
FACT
Your music is wonderful and fully expresses sorrow and that feeling of lingering in white noise, thoughts buzzing a thousand miles an hour with possibilities. Thank you for making it. Many of us needed it.
*_I've never thought that depression can be this beautiful and mysterious at the same time...._*
No gonna lie tho, combining DnB with I think is Acid trance (if I don't say shit) is pure genius, well done ! And I hope you doesn't have any problems or issues in your life because I think that you're really talented and underrated for an artist in my opinion
Engrish, but fax
Liquid DnB has been around for years
Look up an artist named The Flashbulb, he invented this shit in the 00s
I don't know in what state of mind you have to be in order to make this kind of music, but I can tell you what state this song reminds me of.
Ever felt peckish, a bit hungry, but not hungry enough to actually have to eat? Just hungry enough to feel that pain. And have you then ever opened your fridge to grab something, looked at everything in it, and then closed it not having taken anything? You're kind of hungry, but don't have any appetite. You want to eat, but you can't find anything you want to eat. Not even the smell of freshly cooked food is enough to rouse your appetite. And so you don't eat, and have to go on, feeling that pain, feeling that push to eat something, you keep going to the fridge only to look with apathy at what's inside, and then close it again.
The state of mind I'm talking about is similar. You want to do something, anything, but nothing is interesting enough. But not only that, it feels like you don't want to do anything. It feels like laying in bed, and just staring at a wall, or celling is what you want to do. But if you do, you're going to start feeling restless. You'll feel like you have to move, do something. There are so many things you want to do, or that you could do just for the fun of it. But no, there's nothing that interest you. Any activity seems either too difficult, too mundane, too annoying, not stimulating enough, it would take too much time, it doesn't last long enough, too complex, etc. So you end up standing up in order to lay back down again.
Now, you can force yourself to do something, but it doesn't fill you with joy. Nothing does. The only thing you feel consistently is frustration. And not the kind that turns into anger. No, that would be too easy to deal with. Anger can at the very least motivate you to action. If you feel angry, you want to do something about it, express it in some form or another. You're just plain frustrated.
There doesn't seem to be any reason for you being like this. There's nothing that overly worries you, nothing to keep you awake at night, nothing going wrong, nothing that feels too inadequate, you're quite happy with the direction in which your life's headed. This state seemingly appears out of nowhere, at random, with nothing that could be considered a cause, and doesn't last for a consistent amount of time. There doesn't seem to be any similarity between these... episodes.
If you're out for a walk while in this state, you might think you're staring at nothing in particular. Your eyes are fixated, but on a point, and not an object. But then you find out you have been staring at something all along, and you only notice it when something drastically changes, like the window you've been looking at suddenly opens, or someone looks out of it.
And all of this could be fine if it was just that. Yeah, you're frustrated for no particular reason, but at least you can think to entertain yourself. But it's not just that. You can't think, or rather, you can't perceive your thoughts. You have them, you're sure of it, but you can't recall them. Not even after you've just had them. The reason you're certain you were thinking, is because you remember thinking, but that's all. You don't remember what it was, or how it made you feel, you just remember your mind was preoccupied with something, and if it came from the previous thought, or it was something entirely new. Sometimes you think about something for quite a bit, and sometimes thoughts exit your mind as quickly as they entered. And no matter how hard you try, you can't recall anything other than there having been something to recall.
It's as if you're laying in the backseat of a car that's driving somewhere. Your eyes are closed, and the only thing you can hear is the engine running. You don't know where you are, or where you're headed. You're simply there, along for the ride. But there's nothing fun about this ride. You want to open your eyes, see what's out there, but you can't. They just won't, not because you've been blindfolded, or something like that, but because they simply won't. You're drowsy, but you want to stand up. But your body doesn't want to move. You're between wakefulness and sleep. Both and neither at the same time. You want to speak to the driver, but your mouth won't move. All this frustrates you, but it's being kept in check by the lethargy, making sure it doesn't build up into anger. All you can do if lay there, and feel how the car moves.
Each turn the car makes is like a thought exiting, and a new one entering. The straight parts of the journey are you thinking about something. You know the car made turns. You know that it spent quite a bit of time not making any turns, you can even remember some of the sequences of turns. First left, drive a bit, left again, quick right, drive a bit longer, turn left again...
But you don't remember all of them, or where they were made, or even where the journey started.
Usually it's not this extreme, you can still function normally, your mind is just a bit fogged, your interests faded a bit, you want to do a bit more of everything, and also a bit less. But the frustration is a constant. You ask your friend if you want to meet. You want to do something with them. But once you've met, you feel unsatisfied. You want to be alone again. You talk to them about some subject or another, but you can't express yourself precisely enough. You hear your own words, and think: "No, that's not quite what I mean". So you get frustrated. And of course your friend doesn't understand what you actually mean, you failed to adequately express yourself. So you get frustrated at their not getting it. But never enough for you to change the subject. Never enough for you to call it a day.
Nothing feels satisfactory, nothing scratches that itch quite right. Not even discovering something new, something you might otherwise enjoy, or be at least interested in, nothing manages to excite or calm you enough.
This is what this song feels like. I first found this song outside of this... lethargic hyperactivity, narcoleptic restlessness, whatever you'd like to call it. And I didn't like it. It feels too frantic, and the slower parts feel too long. But when I listend to in that state, the frustration lessened. It was still there, but not as much. It's as if both sides got what they wanted. The ps2 startup-like sound, as well as the "oh"s and "ah"s playing in the same pattern, constantly being clearly audible, and them being so soothing managed to satisfy the need for something calming. But at the same time, everything else playing quite frantically managed to keep the hyperactive side preoccupied. So both sides, both needs were met at the same time. And so, the frustration wasn't as severe as before.
Quite the song.
the first parts really described how ive been feeling recently. youre really amazing at writing honestly.
Reading this while listening to the song, specially the midpoint was so on point. Thanks for putting on text a recurring emotion
this is such a good comment holy shit, describes the song perfectly and I can also relate a bit to pretty much everything here unfortunately
thank you for putting it into words
Dude you just described my entire life better than I ever could. Allow me to screenshot this for my therapist to understand a bit better.
When I think about it. The reason this song is so alluring is because it feels like finding a nice quiet spot during a point of severe stress so much so that the overwhelming anxiety becomes almost soothing
Subscribing even though I know you’re done making music. This shit Incapsulates my thoughts perfectly at this point in time. It’s the first time I’ve been sober off drugs AND medications in years, trying to figure out what’s really wrong with my brain. The first month was fine, but now it’s pure aggression. This is the only music I’ve been able to listen to without it pissing me off or physically hurting me for some reason.
The bot doing recommended videos is getting much better
The one doing trending videos is not
Don't talk about trending videos ever.
Trending videos are hand picked
@@dumbass3427 aren't they just like, pure statistics? Like the most videos in the last 24 hours or so?
@@binarycat1237 no, TH-cam staff chooses what to put on the trending.
"I'm still the same guy as I've always been. & one of these days I'll simply be nothing."
Same.
Keep it up
and Thank you for the music lad.
woah description
don't rush yourself to work harder or faster because of all the people coming around, take your usual time, and don't feel obligated to work quicker
needed to hear tjis. thank u lobster!❤️
Sewer has really helped me through trying times. There is a certain brand, a concise range of emotions in the mood spectrum that is so perfectly captured. Words don't represent these feelings well, they don't do them any justice. It's hard to describe something so perpetually oppressive.
One of the things I've learned is that the first step to curing yourself is the recognition of your pain, whether you recognize it yourself or others recognize it for you. This music lets me know that my pain is known, it has been felt before. It is unfortunate that this dark tunnel that we're walking perpetually within is this long. We don't know when it'll end. We don't know when the horrors that stain our minds will fade away, but if we don't keep walking, we may never witness the euphoria that takes us when the invisible rope around our neck loosens up. We may never discover the light at the end of this tunnel. We may never discover how lovely it is to be free when the dark chain that fetters us snaps.
These times are difficult. That much is true. But we can be stronger than this. We must muster the courage to see the dawn of the next day, and the days beyond that.
Therefore, I ask you to keep walking, even if it is difficult. We will find meaning in this pain, and we will stand over it triumphantly.
Here's hoping someone who needed to see those words, sees them.
Thanks I needed this
I'm like ready for war now
That was beautiful, thank you
thank you
Thank you kind user
time is eternal yet nonexistent in the void.
@Mr Purple would have been better if you added commas
@@overeactive36 that's pretty deep and im actually 14.
Time is eternal yet nonexistent in this vid
That’s a black hole my friend.
the perfect existencial crisis music doesnt exi-
3:22 USING THE POWER OF GOOGLE TRANSLATE
"Shi nee!" means "I know!" I like that.
@@Sewerslvt well I feel dumb now
@@Sewerslvt lol
hilarious timing , recovering from a recent attempt and listening to this , ive been working on myself both mentally and physically , but its hard to forget such a day where you completely go against yourself and your survival instincts . now , i am better , i got help , sort of , but its funny how the person who tried to take their life was the exact same person who decided to work on their life and get better . and even if its been only just a couple of weeks since my attempt , i do not feel like dying anymore , i dont want to die anymore . i want to live , i want to see myself grow , experience life and joy , i have so much potential , i want to fulfill my dreams , thrive in my hobbies and create a space for myself . my only goal in life has always been to just , be here , i guess , to just do whatever i want to . the memories of that night still linger in my mind , the reminders will always be here with me , but i can choose to either learn from myself and get stronger or fall back into a worse spot . the choice is mine , its all mine , and maybe , maybe , maybe , just this once , i will actually take this , not my life , but the choice , to live , and experience life and joy . life always finds a way
mfw i want to kill myself again. where has my mind gone oh good heavens
tldr please
The only way I could imagine myself having got here is the old Hotline Miami 2 X Death Grips mashups you made, and the ancient TH-cam gods gifted me your work in my recommended.
For me, I decided only recently that I didn't want to let go just yet, despite everything. Why, I don't think I could tell even myself, but I can understand and respect your terms. You've certainly been something to me, if only a short yet powerful music influence. I remember when artists like Virtual Self/Porter Robinson spoke to me unlike anything else in the past, and who knows, maybe your work could do much the same.
Good luck out there, to you all.
I always come back to this song, no matter what mood I am. I just really appreciate the sort of story this song is telling. Maybe I'm just reading too much into this song, but it's always such a thrill listening to this and I really really enjoy Sewerslvt's content !
Well thats the thing with these tarcks, they all ahve some kind of story embedded into them. The titles is often all that is needed to get the listener guessing and constructing thier own emaning with the themes presented. Its actually really great of not sad that all the titles revolve around such dark themes. If anything it says somthing about Jvne, i really hope things turn out well for her. But at the same time its relatable. I was going through a rough time some years ago when an album was released. Thats when i first heard her music. And again this summer as i went through a rough time another album dropped with perfect timing.
Ambient music, stuff like Aphex Twin, and like this is slowly becoming my favourite thing to listen to... the world it brings you to is immersive like nothing else.
Finally a piece of my heart and mind translated into a beautiful work of art. The sadness waving in the baground, the anger beating in my chest, and the hopelessness crying out every few seconds. Then the overwhelming desire to release the pain build and builds and builds until-drop- tears. I cannot bring myself to death, but i will experience the lowest of lows before i die. Thank you @Sewerslvt for making feel less alone today.
Life is both a mix of good and bad. It is about how you can overcome adversity and flourish in times of good. Start talking to strangers, anyone, dont stay silent, you'll come to find that many other are in the same boat as you. You are not alone, and what you need is to love yourself to achieve self actualization. Even though you are a total stranger to me, I love you and hope you can realize that there is so much for life to offer you.
after all these years, i can still listen to this song and it makes me feel the same way it did back then
This song is used a lot by the JP Community. Junko is pretty popular by a lot of JP artist.
in what?
@@gungun5845 I assume JP stands for Japanese
@@22Owls thank you
@@gungun5845 VRChat.
Sometimes, this is how being a maladaptive dreamer feels like.
This was the most accurate one for me
No it is not
theres something about this song that i can't explain it's so overwhelming but calm at the same time
A year has just passed and i just played this song full volume at my headphones.
Cant describe how much your music has helped me jvnko, thanks for all the great memories.