right? I feel like I am holding it to really high expectations right now though like it's gonna be wonderful with no school, but that's not gonna change everything, you know? it just sucks having to say "just a few more weeks and you won't have to do this" it's like every year I have to survive through school and never enjoy it
There's a song by the same artist as this, under his other band name called Current Joys- Summer. You should check it out I feel like you will like it.
I get what you mean, but why get stuck clinging to the past? Yesterday was fun but it’s over and I can’t go back, so I’ll try to make today better cause tomorrow will never come.
Around three years ago, I lost my grandfather, who was my best friend. This song helps me remember all the memories. It makes me appreciate it, though it may be painful without him with me. I can’t help but cry, because I know he feels the same. He will always be my best bud. Love you Popop ❤️
im so sorry for your loss 🫶 it’s good you can remember those moments with your grandfather I lost mine around 4 years ago but it’s amazing how you can remember him! have a lovely day/night!
Miss my pop too, it’s been 4 years but I still think about him all the time. Swear he visited me in a dream this year while I was studying for my board exams. He pointed to a mountain ahead of me and told me to climb. And climb I did, every single day until I passed my exam. They’re never truly gone💯
As a 23 year old I see comments about being a teenager. All I’ve got to tell the younger generation is to be yourself and surround yourself with safe friends who love you for who your are. Find yourself before you find others. I promise it’ll be okay.
Thank you, I am a teenager and whenever I try to talk about mental health and stuff people always brush it away because I am "too young" but it is very hard. It really gives me a hope, but more like a validation about myself when older people give advices or try to give a hope that whatever I am going through, it's okay and it will get better. Thank you, just THANK YOU. 🙂
@@Ibara1201 omg same my mums like “your wasting your early teenage years go outside” which makes me cry even more so I lock myself in my room all the time ✋😭
I'm 25 Years old and this song make me nostalgia of a past that i didn't live but I'd Have liked to live... If you are a teenager or are you going to become one of those, please listen to me. Do not waste your time, do every thing you feel to do even the bad thing. Cry, laugh, love and above all do not care about anything
It's pretty difficult with a pandemic out there, pretty strict parents and living in the middle of nothing like I always say, although I actually live in a neighbourhood. I'm a homeschooler so I don't have any school friends, my church is closed, my best friends live miles away from me...I still feel like i'm wasting all my teenage years sitting on my butt with the phone and studying things i don't like. But thanks for the reminder anyways.
do yall ever realise how life goes? at first u have no problems and ur just having the best years of ur life but then suddenly, you need to go to school, you get to see your friends less often, you get bad grades and your parents scream at you, it's just sad how this is what we have to go through nowadays, many people even suffer from depression because of this
ik the depression won’t just go away but you have to be grateful and remind yourself that you have parents and a house and stuff like that. life really can be beautiful. the sunsets. the sunrises. the oceans the mountains. but life also really sucks
"Don't kill me, just help me run away from everyone. I need a place to stay, where I can cover up my face. Don't cry, I'm just a fish 🐟" I really felt that one 😭
Vundabar - Out Of It Mac Demarco - On The Level Cigarettes After Sex - Dreaming Of You Shannon and the Clams - Rip Van Winkle Donovan - Hurdy Gurdy Man Moses Gun Collective - Shalala Moses Gun Collective - Dream Girls Moses Gun Collective - Back Into The Womb Black Sabbath - Planet Carvan King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizard - Work This Time The Growlers - Not the Man Noah and the Whale - Blue Skies The Jesus and Mary Chain - Cut Dead Tijuana Panthers - Red Headed Girl Chicano Batman - Cycles of Existential Rhyme Current Joys - Blondie Dayglow - Can i call you tonight Part time - Night Drive Surf Curse - Freaks Current Joys - you broke my heart Current Joys - kids Her's - Harvey Allah Las - Raspberry Jam Devendra Banhart - Saturday Night Beach House - Myth Black Sabbath Solitude Led Zeppelin - No Quarter
Promise to myself and to all of you that I'm not going to waste my teenage years! I'm 14 today (7th May 2021) I'll be back in 4 years :) take care guys, we can do it! edit : hey guys! It's been a year already. just wanted to thank you for the support, it's really appreciated
I feel you, I have friends but they feel like forced friends that I don’t have a string connection with, so I’m all alone. I need friends that listen to this type of music
6 years ago I was 17 … I miss those times so much. Life flies by and nothing ever goes back to old times. Enjoy your youth.. even at 23 I feel nostalgic for my teenage years.
I was 16 and it was the best year of my life. At that time i thought „wow if life‘s like this at 16, how will it be at 18, 20 etc.“ but sadly no other year reached this Level of happieness, freedom, youthfullness etc. The Pandemy Played a big role in this. Now I‘m Turning 23 at the end of this year and just feel old and like i missed sth out all these years. I probably did
@@motmi2356 Never wrote a comment before, but I’m 23 now and I feel in an exact same way. Nevertheless in my opinion, although you can’t go back in time, you have an ability to bring yourself back in that state of mind/soul/spirit, name it, in which you were more, like, sensitive (yet vulnerable), opened to the world and people, energised, fulfilled with different deep and dreamful ideas and thoughts etc. Of course maybe it’s just coping or something like that but I want to believe it’s possible, because I’ve seen some adult and old people in their 30-80’s who were still like kids you know, and this thing inspires me)
Turned 20 recently. I just know I fucked up my life with how isolated I am. I was so funny and loved so many people. Now I'm alone. I loved being a teen, but now being a man awaits I suppose. Best to make the best of it!
This song is honestly super sad to me, its describing someone who's struggling with mental illness, to me sounds like major depression and hes fell in love with someone who's just as sad as him yet they are like his cure "dont kill me, just help me run away from everyone" hes pretty much saying that death is something he has intrusive thoughts about, but he wants to find an alternative with this someone, they are his get away, "I need a place to stay, where I can cover up my face" he wants to be some place where he can be as shy as he wants or open, just simply be himself, "don't cry I am just a freak", that's how he sees himself, just a freak that doesnt belong here, "my head is filled parasites" a reference to mental illness, "black holes cover up my eyes" from crying or being deprived of sleep or stress, "I dream of you almost every night, hopefully I won't wake up this time", such a beautiful line, his only time enjoying his life is when he thinks of their or feels their presence
You could look at it as him being happiest when he's asleep, which is as close to death as you can get without dying. He finds his existence so miserable that he can only tolerate it when he's not experiencing it.
Imagine laying in your bed at 3am listening to this masterpiece while watching your "friends" posts and stories on social media. They're all having fun without but you have yourself,art,music and you close your eyes knowing that you're going to be alone forever but you are happy.
This makes me feel some kind of nostalgia that doesn’t exist, I can’t really explain the feeling but I love it. edit: found out it’s called anemoia. thanks guys 🫶
Same It Gives Me The Nostalgia Of The Times When Everything Was Good And Friends Didn't Change That Much And Flash Player Was Still There But Now It's not the same anymore I really miss the old times with my friend and me eating cheetos and playing pixel gun and yeah it was so nice I really miss the old times ;(
Blessings Proverbs 31:8 Open thy mouth for the dumb in the cause of all such as are appointed to destruction./inspiration+As children of God, made in His image, we are to be His representatives on this earth. Just as He defends those who cannot defend themselves, so must we. We have an ironclad obligation to speak up when we see those who are "dumb," meaning those who have no voice for themselves. These could be unborn babies, children, the disabled, older adults, or animals. We have a voice compelled to use it. When we see someone being bullied or mistreated in any way, we are to speak up. We are called to defend the defenseless, just as God defends us. /prayer+ Father, give me the boldness to speak up for those who have no voice. Give me the wisdom to say what needs to be said, when it needs to be said. Help me never to look away from helpless people, but to act on their behalf, just as You have acted on my behalf. Amen.
I’m just over here liking old comments, so that whoever wrote would get a notification and remember this song. (If a singular like appears on your reply, that’s probably me!)
I caught myself dancing with my dog while my cat was balancing on my shoulder to this song, life is such an incredible place, bunch of memories goes along when i hear this. Today I’ve rapped replay button.
I wanna wake up it makes it even more sadder knowing that you won’t be able to see your mom and you will be stuck in the fake dream knowing that it’s all in your head nothings real
This song makes me either want to sit in my room and cry at 3AM or go out with my friends and have the best time we physically can before we have to grow up
Grow up with them to gain the great memories before you may grow apart. Life won't always be kind and you will grow apart from some friends, unfortunately i have too but i still have those memories that can't be taken. Life takes a turn for the worse randomly, snatch those memories up while you can.
I am listening to this right now, summer is about to start, and yet i am staring at the ceiling on a rainy saturday night, not knowing if what I do in my life right now is meaningful, where to be and who to be. Knowing I will feel lonely this summer even if there isnt a reason to. Not feeling anything right know but a sad vibe and a wish for meaning and identity.
If it helps any, know you're not the only one thinking those things, feeling the emotions. There's me, there's others. Everyone's a bit lost, some more than others… but it's not the end of the line. You have a future to live, and things might just change. As will you ; )
I also am kinda scared of being forgoten, like i jist imagine how crazy and amazing it would be if i could be marked in the history of the world, if someone will jnow that i lived, that i did something good and did something bad, that i existed, that i wasnt just a seed or a plant in someones memory that will slowly die, i will tell my children stories about my dad (the person that i love the most and amidre the most on this world and he will ALWAYS be my number 1, always) because for me, my dad doesnt deserve that horrible scenario of wondering if he even was on this planet, it just kinda tries to burry and lock me in this maze my imagination is creating, all i can say to you, maybe it will help, maybe it wont, is: try to be social, spend time with your friends (if you are kinda quietish and shy i reccommend you watch the video called "Think smart, talk fast; comunnication tehniques" by Matt Abrahams, it really helped me enjoy my convos and spend more time talking than just staying silent and starring at nothing with my friends), take some small risks- make imbalances in your life (i mean adventures), find a hobby or a thing that interests you, u see i like sudoku or chess and that may sound weird but that s how it is, i emjoy playing that games when i m bored (dont play chess if you are mad, it ll only get worse XD) hope u find something helpful in this comment, love you I guess this is our so long, u wont ever see me again, so, try to enjoy your life, go onto some adventures, love in order to be loved ❤
Yes! One of my favourite structures for songs is when you think it ends but then the instrumental comes in again and it's so amazing! A great example of this is Apocalypse by cigarettes after sex...such a good place to put a bridge too!
"i dream of you almost every night, hopefully I won't wake up this time" - My grandfather died 2 months ago from complications of covid and it is being very difficult. Today was the first time that I dreamed of him after his death. You know when you have a nightmare and you wake up relieved that this is just a nightmare that it's not true..? Well this happened to me but in another way, the reality is actually the nightmare.. I woke up crying because I wanted to stay in the dream with him, he was so happy and it was just like he was, I just wanted to be with him there in the dream but I woke up without him.. I wish I didn't wake up...
I am sorry for your loss. Best wishes to you and your family ❤️ My grandmother passed away early in october 2020, when i was supposed to be celebrating my best friends birthday, which was on the same day.
When my grandfather died in 2018, I dreamed of him constantly. It was devastating. I'm so sorry you're going through this. It does get better. Sending you a hug.
Last night me and my best friends were hanging out at the town center. We live in a small town so it’s pretty calm. My friend played this song on their phone and it really filled the vibe. I just want to live a life like that forever, no parents telling us what to do, no school, just freedom.
Just here for nostalgia. Some years ago I was feeling like shit, listening to songs like these, literally as the top comment says… wasting my teenager years away. It is been some time, and now I am achieving everything I have ever dreamed of. Stronger, lots of confidence and good people around me. Lots of money as well. Life changes, people too. Don’t drown yourself, let it flow and take you to shore. I am sure you will get better years, time heals everything when you want it to do so.
This song gives off running away and skating on a skateboard into the sunset on a open dock near a beach. Having no care in the world and doing anything you choose. It changes the perspective of life and opens your mind type vibes.
[Verse 1] 0:20 Don't kill me, just help me run away From everyone, I need a place to stay Where I can cover up my face Don't cry, I am just a freak [Chorus] 0:42 I am just a freak I am just a freak I am just a freak [Verse 2] 1:20 My head is filled with parasites Black holes cover up my eyes I dream of you almost every night Hopefully, I won't wake up this time [Chorus] 1:44 I won't wake up this time I won't wake up this time I won't wake up this time
i really dont want to leave school. as stupid my class is, and how annoying my teachers are i love them, im going to miss them. this year made such an impact in my life and i can’t forget it. i feel likes there’s just so much more to do, i remember the first day of school like it was yesterday. at least that’s what it feels like.
Okay so I’m currently 14, and I’ll come back every year until my teenage years are over to update on how my life has gone so far, see y’all when I turn 15!
A tip: do shit. I'm 20 in less than 4 months and my life has been mediocre at best. I don't know if my teenage years were happy or sad. So do shit that makes you happy, that will make you benefit in any way, I still got plenty of time so don't worry about me.
Summer doesn't even feel fun anymore, it's gotten to the point where school days were a distraction from my thoughts, but now that school's out there is no distraction. It's just me and my mind always reminding me of how alone I am, of how I'm wasting the "greatest years" of my life. Being asleep is the only escape now.
Oh wow. I kinda feel the same. Just wrapped up all the schoolwork stuff today. I thought I’d feel happier. I honestly just feel guilty. I don’t know why. I’m trying to do things I like but they don’t make me happy, I don’t know.
“I dream of you almost every night” that hits a bit hard when you have that one special person in your life who you care about more then you even care about your own self. Edit: today is May 5th 2021. It’s currently 6:55 and I just wanna say ty all for the amount of likes I got. I really do appreciate it and I love you all for that. Stay safe ! Ly all!
When I first heard this song, I saw the comments saying "I hope everyone hearing this the first time knows how special that is", I didn't understand at the time but I totally get it now, this song always hits the hardest the first time you hear it, don't play it on repeat, savour it as much as you can
But thats what People want remember their past. When they had fun and could do any thing. After all "life is short". You dont know when you gonna die so better to make everything right now
I cant get over them, My dads friend had a dog that i was with for maybe six years and one of the last memories i had of him was him barking at me not knowing who i was cause of dementia. Maybe two weeks after that My mom told me that they had to uthinize him and i couldnt stop crying.
Aint no way this life is fucked up bro..... Its okay to able not be able to achieve ur goal in first attempt Its okay to suffer from any disease it will be fine soon Its okay sometimes to be scared Its okay to be sad sometimes Its okay to fail multiple times Its okay to be urself Its okay to be not okay Remember man life will change and u r the one who is going to change it Its not the thoughts that define you but the actions u do.... U r human bro.... Its okay to be human sometimes Talk to people around you See the nature Feel the breeze This world is full of crazy things so if you feel off sometimes grab your cycle and go the farthest u can and enjoy the fucking wayyyyyyyyy....... SPREAD LOVE GUYS THIS WORLD THIS LIFE IS ALLLLLLLLLLLLL ABOUT LOVEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Listening to this reminds me of the times in middle school and high school where i still had a friend group. Remembering doing the dumb shit like exploring abandoned building and running like hell whenever we thought we saw a flash in a window. Remembering parties and gathering. Enjoy it while you can; i miss everyone but life really does have a different path for you and it will break you apart from your friends no matter how close you are
My friend group fell apart in the moment the summer ended before junior year. How am I going to do another two years when all I can think about is how we won't hangout and have fun anymore?
I love this song… It was in my mind the last summer, when me and two friends of mine suddendly decided to bike to the nearest maritime city. It took us 2 days to complete a ride of 304 km, of which we were dreaming since we were kids. I remember I was smiling so much when we finally overcome the last „mountain’s pass“ and we finally saw the sign with the name of city, from where we had a beautiful night-descent to the sea. I just love it, it reminds me of the freedom you can have when you step out the comfort zone and just decide to do something crazy.
This song makes me feel like I'm on my way home from a late and fun night out with my friends, and trying to run away from my problems while crying at the same time. and I love it.
I can’t wait till summer, summer feels like such an escape right now
right? I feel like I am holding it to really high expectations right now though like it's gonna be wonderful with no school, but that's not gonna change everything, you know? it just sucks having to say "just a few more weeks and you won't have to do this" it's like every year I have to survive through school and never enjoy it
i really don’t want summer
True
Totallyyyy
There's a song by the same artist as this, under his other band name called Current Joys- Summer. You should check it out I feel like you will like it.
Goosebumbs when he sings "I won't wake up this time"
Same
@@braydencobb9100 same
Ded
It feels like you really don't want to wake up fr-
Fr
You know that sound you hear and it reminds you of a great time in your life, but it makes you sad because it's all gone now. That's surf curse.
that's called nostalgia
I get what you mean, but why get stuck clinging to the past? Yesterday was fun but it’s over and I can’t go back, so I’ll try to make today better cause tomorrow will never come.
Estevan Marin fuck
Makes me remember a time that didnt actually happen
Walter Muii fuck
Around three years ago, I lost my grandfather, who was my best friend. This song helps me remember all the memories. It makes me appreciate it, though it may be painful without him with me. I can’t help but cry, because I know he feels the same. He will always be my best bud. Love you Popop ❤️
im so sorry for your loss 🫶 it’s good you can remember those moments with your grandfather I lost mine around 4 years ago but it’s amazing how you can remember him! have a lovely day/night!
I’m sorry
Miss my pop too, it’s been 4 years but I still think about him all the time. Swear he visited me in a dream this year while I was studying for my board exams. He pointed to a mountain ahead of me and told me to climb. And climb I did, every single day until I passed my exam. They’re never truly gone💯
❤❤❤🩵
I'm sorry❤
As a 23 year old I see comments about being a teenager. All I’ve got to tell the younger generation is to be yourself and surround yourself with safe friends who love you for who your are. Find yourself before you find others. I promise it’ll be okay.
Hey there a new song u would like is - Quiet Soul by The Impures
I recomend it is good af n underrated as heck
Thank you, I am a teenager and whenever I try to talk about mental health and stuff people always brush it away because I am "too young" but it is very hard. It really gives me a hope, but more like a validation about myself when older people give advices or try to give a hope that whatever I am going through, it's okay and it will get better.
Thank you, just THANK YOU. 🙂
Yeah I tried it failed they turned toxic and they yell I have no friends they're all online anymore and they treat me better than my parents.. :)
Thanks mom
And how exactly am I able to "find myself"? (Serious question I hate myself)
You don’t understand how happy and sad this song makes me.
it feels like summer but its sad
This song makes me feel safe and it also makes me realise that I’m wasting ‘the best years of my life’
right like that’s the perfect way to put it
@@Ibara1201 omg same my mums like “your wasting your early teenage years go outside” which makes me cry even more so I lock myself in my room all the time ✋😭
Me too
This sounds like the teenage years we couldn't had.
Kermit had a stroke reading this
@@jdnoap. bro💀
This is probably my dad and my moms boyfriends teenage years
Dam
Your comment hits different
I hear this song every time I think of every life choice that had led me up to this moment
Me too
GET OUTTTT
I'm 25 Years old and this song make me nostalgia of a past that i didn't live but I'd Have liked to live... If you are a teenager or are you going to become one of those, please listen to me. Do not waste your time, do every thing you feel to do even the bad thing. Cry, laugh, love and above all do not care about anything
alright for sure
THANKYOU FOR THE REMIDER!
OKAAYY I WONT WASTE THESE YEARS :D
It's pretty difficult with a pandemic out there, pretty strict parents and living in the middle of nothing like I always say, although I actually live in a neighbourhood. I'm a homeschooler so I don't have any school friends, my church is closed, my best friends live miles away from me...I still feel like i'm wasting all my teenage years sitting on my butt with the phone and studying things i don't like. But thanks for the reminder anyways.
@@lumorales6477 It's not a problem, Do the Best of what you can do.
do yall ever realise how life goes? at first u have no problems and ur just having the best years of ur life but then suddenly, you need to go to school, you get to see your friends less often, you get bad grades and your parents scream at you, it's just sad how this is what we have to go through nowadays, many people even suffer from depression because of this
ik the depression won’t just go away but you have to be grateful and remind yourself that you have parents and a house and stuff like that. life really can be beautiful. the sunsets. the sunrises. the oceans the mountains. but life also really sucks
Bro. Fr
This is literally the definition of my life
First world problems
im going to the mental hospitial hopefull that solves my problems lol
*this is one of those songs that you replay over and over again because it’s too short.*
Thats why spotify added repeat
currently
Yup
Never gonna get tired of it, I cried to it last night but now I’m listening for enjoyment.
"Don't kill me, just help me run away from everyone. I need a place to stay, where I can cover up my face. Don't cry, I'm just a fish 🐟" I really felt that one 😭
*Vaporeon spinning intensifies*
This song reminds me of memories that haven’t even happened yet
@Goth Pixie nostalgia*
Why in the actual fuck can i actually relate
Same
Me too
i don’t know how.. but i felt this
Vundabar - Out Of It
Mac Demarco - On The Level
Cigarettes After Sex - Dreaming Of You
Shannon and the Clams - Rip Van Winkle
Donovan - Hurdy Gurdy Man
Moses Gun Collective - Shalala
Moses Gun Collective - Dream Girls
Moses Gun Collective - Back Into The Womb
Black Sabbath - Planet Carvan
King Gizzard and the Lizard Wizard - Work This Time
The Growlers - Not the Man
Noah and the Whale - Blue Skies
The Jesus and Mary Chain - Cut Dead
Tijuana Panthers - Red Headed Girl
Chicano Batman - Cycles of Existential Rhyme
Current Joys - Blondie
Dayglow - Can i call you tonight
Part time - Night Drive
Surf Curse - Freaks
Current Joys - you broke my heart
Current Joys - kids
Her's - Harvey
Allah Las - Raspberry Jam
Devendra Banhart - Saturday Night
Beach House - Myth
Black Sabbath Solitude
Led Zeppelin - No Quarter
Alien blues deserves a shot
bye i luv and know all of these
@@amirahflowers7885 Thats great! I'm glad you know them.
MONTY Imma binge listen to all of this
@@angelalba7 Tell me how it goes please 😊
why does this song scream, "its the beginning of summer and everyone else is outside being happy, and im inside crying my feelings away." ??
because thats literally what im doing
Makkusu same
exactly me
gonna be me this summer 😔
@@jukie4117 same
Прошло столько лет , а этот музон до сих пор качает...
Согласен
О дааа он мой номер один обожаю эту песню..
Promise to myself and to all of you that I'm not going to waste my teenage years!
I'm 14 today (7th May 2021)
I'll be back in 4 years :)
take care guys, we can do it!
edit : hey guys! It's been a year already. just wanted to thank you for the support, it's really appreciated
You will be a legend if you actually remember
Good luck!!
Ima keep commenting to remind you :))
We believe in you
Happy bday! Sorry, im late, but yes
i'm not even sad or depressed but damn this song hits different.
Reletable
Damn i wish i was like that(ू˃̣̣̣̣̣̣︿˂̣̣̣̣̣̣ ू)
@@liliel217 same
Same
same :'>>>
It’s just a really bad time. Theoretically I have friends but I feel like I’m so alone and they don’t care about me.
I'm looking for a stronger connection too
Bro...... same.
I feel you, I have friends but they feel like forced friends that I don’t have a string connection with, so I’m all alone. I need friends that listen to this type of music
I’m homeschooled and I don’t even remember how having friends feels like anymore
Honestly same I haven't seen them for so long and I only have like 3 so I'm always lonely
6 years ago I was 17 … I miss those times so much. Life flies by and nothing ever goes back to old times. Enjoy your youth.. even at 23 I feel nostalgic for my teenage years.
I was 16 and it was the best year of my life. At that time i thought „wow if life‘s like this at 16, how will it be at 18, 20 etc.“ but sadly no other year reached this Level of happieness, freedom, youthfullness etc. The Pandemy Played a big role in this. Now I‘m Turning 23 at the end of this year and just feel old and like i missed sth out all these years. I probably did
@@motmi2356 yes the pandemic took so much away :( it’s sad
@@motmi2356 Never wrote a comment before, but I’m 23 now and I feel in an exact same way. Nevertheless in my opinion, although you can’t go back in time, you have an ability to bring yourself back in that state of mind/soul/spirit, name it, in which you were more, like, sensitive (yet vulnerable), opened to the world and people, energised, fulfilled with different deep and dreamful ideas and thoughts etc.
Of course maybe it’s just coping or something like that but I want to believe it’s possible, because I’ve seen some adult and old people in their 30-80’s who were still like kids you know, and this thing inspires me)
I am 17 and I miss being 11
Turned 20 recently. I just know I fucked up my life with how isolated I am. I was so funny and loved so many people. Now I'm alone. I loved being a teen, but now being a man awaits I suppose. Best to make the best of it!
This song is honestly super sad to me, its describing someone who's struggling with mental illness, to me sounds like major depression and hes fell in love with someone who's just as sad as him yet they are like his cure "dont kill me, just help me run away from everyone" hes pretty much saying that death is something he has intrusive thoughts about, but he wants to find an alternative with this someone, they are his get away, "I need a place to stay, where I can cover up my face" he wants to be some place where he can be as shy as he wants or open, just simply be himself, "don't cry I am just a freak", that's how he sees himself, just a freak that doesnt belong here, "my head is filled parasites" a reference to mental illness, "black holes cover up my eyes" from crying or being deprived of sleep or stress, "I dream of you almost every night, hopefully I won't wake up this time", such a beautiful line, his only time enjoying his life is when he thinks of their or feels their presence
I love you
I can tell you put alot of thought in to this man glad to see there is some one like me with music the finds out what It means alot how are you man
You could look at it as him being happiest when he's asleep, which is as close to death as you can get without dying. He finds his existence so miserable that he can only tolerate it when he's not experiencing it.
@@stormfromxmen3701 will do
@@stormfromxmen3701 yo I got to be there thousand subscriber
Imagine laying in your bed at 3am listening to this masterpiece while watching your "friends" posts and stories on social media. They're all having fun without but you have yourself,art,music and you close your eyes knowing that you're going to be alone forever but you are happy.
iihave discover a hidden gem song called - TIME by THE IMPURES
sucha chlLL song frfrfr {0}{0} {+++++++++}
doing that rn
Shit, that's deep.... Bro im crying
You had no right to call me out like this
Wow... So is real... I'm not really alone
This makes me feel some kind of nostalgia that doesn’t exist, I can’t really explain the feeling but I love it.
edit: found out it’s called anemoia. thanks guys 🫶
Same😔
Same It Gives Me The Nostalgia Of The Times When Everything Was Good And Friends Didn't Change That Much And Flash Player Was Still There But Now It's not the same anymore I really miss the old times with my friend and me eating cheetos and playing pixel gun and yeah it was so nice I really miss the old times ;(
Dude same!
U KNOW-I’m nine but this is actually relatable!
It’s kinda like when you eat too much chocolate and then drink orange juice but as an emotion
After a year this song popped up on my playlist again and reminds me why I keep trying
I can’t decide if I want to dance or cry in the rain to this song
Do both
Both. Simultaneously.
do both
cry while dancing in the rain
Basically both
“don’t kill me just help me run away”
my favourite lyrics ever
run away w me.. pls?
@Baseera Khalil yesssssss
"help me runaway from everyone, i need a place to stay where i can cover up my face"
same
Mhm
“i dream of you almost every night,
hope-
-fully
i won’t wake up this time”
Best truly scene
some of the most relatable shi ever istg
Blessings
Proverbs 31:8 Open thy mouth for the dumb in the cause of all such as are appointed to destruction./inspiration+As children of God, made in His image, we are to be His representatives on this earth. Just as He defends those who cannot defend themselves, so must we. We have an ironclad obligation to speak up when we see those who are "dumb," meaning those who have no voice for themselves. These could be unborn babies, children, the disabled, older adults, or animals. We have a voice compelled to use it. When we see someone being bullied or mistreated in any way, we are to speak up. We are called to defend the defenseless, just as God defends us. /prayer+ Father, give me the boldness to speak up for those who have no voice. Give me the wisdom to say what needs to be said, when it needs to be said. Help me never to look away from helpless people, but to act on their behalf, just as You have acted on my behalf. Amen.
@@GracUntoYou Are you trying to spread pro-life propaganda? If so, go find your own place.
@@helio3928 easy for someone who's alive can say, does love only tolerate or does love stand up against evil?
This song always makes me calmer and with a clear conscience when I'm really sad
i want my room to look like how this sounds
update: my room does in fact look like how this sounds now
Fuck yeah.
This is something I’ve thought but not been able to word.
Konetora _ FUCKKKKK EXACTLY!!!😂😂
Just how? Same 😭
i relate to this on spiritual level
*me bawling my eyes out* surf curse: "dont cry"
Me: oh ok
I suggest this song to listen 2 Time by The Impures
@@thaliatelles9419 link?
@@plushpuppy1589 rent?
@@kingmaker5602 yes
@@plushpuppy1589 pay rent?
1:36 “I dream of you almost every night, Hopefully i wont wake up this time” it hits different in my opinion
it really does
Reminds me of Achilles
I love it
Ikr...
off topic but can you tell me the name of the aesthetic of this video?
I’m just over here liking old comments, so that whoever wrote would get a notification and remember this song.
(If a singular like appears on your reply, that’s probably me!)
Here's your reminder. Take care
Listen i agree i dont like or sub to people i have depression
@@Sthrnsnipes what 💀
Reminder
Reminder
"We didn’t know we were making memories, we were just having fun."
That's form Winnie the Pooh
♻️
DONT REAS MY NAME
Facts 😕
but you knew you were making memories too? when im having fun i think ab how its going to be a fun memory all the time
yall ever wanna restart a friendship/relationship so you can fix what went wrong? but you know you cant so instead you just let it go
Yep I am at this point right now. It hurts
The song in too deep by sum 41 is based off of that
The Lunch Club
I can’t let go. And I don’t want to . We’ve been through so much and we’ve overcome obstacles. I don’t want to give up now , or ever .
I love our memories but I just feel that she hates what we have, I wish I could start it over
"I dream of you every single night, hopefully I won't wake up this time."
This shit hits hard
Yeah it does…
It does
It doess..
Lol. Ha. Gaaaaaaaayy
@@davidpaniagua2069 Being a homosexual is not a bad thing, so calling something gay isn't insulting it. Think again.
I caught myself dancing with my dog while my cat was balancing on my shoulder to this song, life is such an incredible place, bunch of memories goes along when i hear this. Today I’ve rapped replay button.
"I dream of you almost every night, hopefully I wont wake up this time"
hits different
so tru
i read this as that part came on 👁👄👁
I wanna wake up it makes it even more sadder knowing that you won’t be able to see your mom and you will be stuck in the fake dream knowing that it’s all in your head nothings real
and that's the reason I shift-
true
This makes feel like I’m a 80 year old man that’s lived his last moments and is just remembering the good parts of his life and I love it
Damn thats very deep
That's pretty deep
Same but it feels like i am on my deathbed. Just thinking to myself.
me
Uzumaki guys always have some good thoughts
This song makes me either want to sit in my room and cry at 3AM or go out with my friends and have the best time we physically can before we have to grow up
i dedicate u this song called miss me by the impures
...
is a hidden gem frfr
I agree with you about that
Both~
Grow up with them to gain the great memories before you may grow apart. Life won't always be kind and you will grow apart from some friends, unfortunately i have too but i still have those memories that can't be taken.
Life takes a turn for the worse randomly, snatch those memories up while you can.
Same i would either cry at 3AM or jam with friends at 3AM
i love this song thank you for posting this song :)
I am listening to this right now, summer is about to start, and yet i am staring at the ceiling on a rainy saturday night, not knowing if what I do in my life right now is meaningful, where to be and who to be. Knowing I will feel lonely this summer even if there isnt a reason to. Not feeling anything right know but a sad vibe and a wish for meaning and identity.
Time by The Impures < hii check out this song is a chill Indie song :)
If it helps any, know you're not the only one thinking those things, feeling the emotions. There's me, there's others. Everyone's a bit lost, some more than others… but it's not the end of the line. You have a future to live, and things might just change. As will you ; )
I listen to this every night🙃
Yeah, I feel the same! Just another summer, without anyone by my side!
I also am kinda scared of being forgoten, like i jist imagine how crazy and amazing it would be if i could be marked in the history of the world, if someone will jnow that i lived, that i did something good and did something bad, that i existed, that i wasnt just a seed or a plant in someones memory that will slowly die, i will tell my children stories about my dad (the person that i love the most and amidre the most on this world and he will ALWAYS be my number 1, always) because for me, my dad doesnt deserve that horrible scenario of wondering if he even was on this planet, it just kinda tries to burry and lock me in this maze my imagination is creating, all i can say to you, maybe it will help, maybe it wont, is: try to be social, spend time with your friends (if you are kinda quietish and shy i reccommend you watch the video called "Think smart, talk fast; comunnication tehniques" by Matt Abrahams, it really helped me enjoy my convos and spend more time talking than just staying silent and starring at nothing with my friends), take some small risks- make imbalances in your life (i mean adventures), find a hobby or a thing that interests you, u see i like sudoku or chess and that may sound weird but that s how it is, i emjoy playing that games when i m bored (dont play chess if you are mad, it ll only get worse XD) hope u find something helpful in this comment, love you
I guess this is our so long, u wont ever see me again, so, try to enjoy your life, go onto some adventures, love in order to be loved ❤
I don’t want to die i just wanna close my eyes and disappear away never to come back
^^
Well thats just not how it works lol.
Enjoy everything while your here, and rest when your time comes!
Exactly 🥺
this.
This
i can’t wait to have friends one day
Me too
same
daaaamn, you got us. :^)
I'll be your friend dude, we'll get a long great since you clearly have a good taste in music
@@DarkKanji7416 do you have discord?
This song perfectly describes anxiety and the fear of living with it
It’s my mental breakdown and I get to choose the song.
Same😞
hope you feel better soon
same lol
yeah same
Imagine listening this in public😔🤡
You have no idea what I'd give to be a happy kid again.
Me to man
I would give my life to be a clueless, happy kid
Just be happy that u will be an old wise man with a little Story:)
even though I’m still a kid, I’m not happy.
Im a happy kid
Oversized shirt , long socks , crazy hair , crazy dancing vibes
yesss!
thats me everyday dude people think its odd but coooomeeeee onnnn its such a vibe
MOOOOOD OMG I LOVE THIS COMMENT
and a skateboard
True.
IM CRYING NICE JOB GUYS!!
This song should’ve been longer :(
i agree
Yes! One of my favourite structures for songs is when you think it ends but then the instrumental comes in again and it's so amazing! A great example of this is Apocalypse by cigarettes after sex...such a good place to put a bridge too!
fr :/
frrr :/
right click and then click the loop option :)
somebody commented on a song once "if youtube puts a song in your recommendations, never scroll past it" and i have stuck by that with no regrets
Yeah but that moment when you get multiple songs in your recommended and you have to choose 😩
@@depressedteadepressoespres186 Mood
@@depressedteadepressoespres186 this
@@depressedteadepressoespres186 that's why I have so many videos in my "watch later" lolol
wait that’s smart
This song makes me want to go dance in the rain while listening to it. This song gives me a feeling,I can’t explain it though.
Serene
nostalgia
Noob
YES
@@8effort792 Noob but backwards. get rid of the N. reverse it again and put a b before the first O
“I dream of you almost every night, hopefully I won’t wake up this time” felt that heavily
"i dream of you almost every night, hopefully I won't wake up this time" - My grandfather died 2 months ago from complications of covid and it is being very difficult. Today was the first time that I dreamed of him after his death. You know when you have a nightmare and you wake up relieved that this is just a nightmare that it's not true..? Well this happened to me but in another way, the reality is actually the nightmare.. I woke up crying because I wanted to stay in the dream with him, he was so happy and it was just like he was, I just wanted to be with him there in the dream but I woke up without him.. I wish I didn't wake up...
I am sorry for your loss. Best wishes to you and your family ❤️ My grandmother passed away early in october 2020, when i was supposed to be celebrating my best friends birthday, which was on the same day.
When my grandfather died in 2018, I dreamed of him constantly. It was devastating. I'm so sorry you're going through this. It does get better. Sending you a hug.
@@olybre Hoping well for you too. Thank you for your kindness 😊
This actually made me cry...
Don't stick on the past you'll only hurt yourself.
Last night me and my best friends were hanging out at the town center. We live in a small town so it’s pretty calm. My friend played this song on their phone and it really filled the vibe. I just want to live a life like that forever, no parents telling us what to do, no school, just freedom.
Wow
Look everyone has that dream but school kinda has a reason.
did you say... freedom?
Yessss😭🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🎇
@@ninjago_gaming3587 yes my brother.
FREEDOM
This song makes me nostalgic for a life I never had.
Bro same 😔
Fr
maybe you did and just don’t remember it?
Maybe you moved on and this song is resurfacing those memories
idk tbh
Weird
Just here for nostalgia. Some years ago I was feeling like shit, listening to songs like these, literally as the top comment says… wasting my teenager years away.
It is been some time, and now I am achieving everything I have ever dreamed of. Stronger, lots of confidence and good people around me. Lots of money as well.
Life changes, people too. Don’t drown yourself, let it flow and take you to shore. I am sure you will get better years, time heals everything when you want it to do so.
If this song isn't played at my funeral, I'm not going.
Exactly like just come back from the dead and bury yourself with this song it’s that simple😫
Same here.
how you gonna not go to your own funeral,
@@robertobarnes7542 physics
@@robertobarnes7542 supposed to be a funny joke
Imagine sneaking out with your friends and skateboard down a hill at high speeds and stop for snacks at a gas station at 3:00 AM
What are you fucking 12?
I wish I had friends
cringe 100 doesn’t matter how old you are tbh, just have as much fun as you can
lol imagine having to sneak out do that
This...this is what I want😔
This is literally the first time I've ever listened to this, but why does it feel so nostalgic
First time?! Omg😫
@@dkdjcd yep lol
@@vieasco 😫😫
i seen this in a meme and i like the song
@@voicelessuvularplosive yea me too, memes songs are so damn good
😢 i love this song so much
I just realize that our kids aren’t gonna know about all these songs and feelings we have...
but we can show them these type of songs
Yes they will either they find out on they’re own or I’ll tell them
our parents probably felt the same about some songs
Im never gonna have kids anyways so it doesn't matter to me
U barely found out about it cuz of tiktok
“who am i without you?”
“yourself.”
:)
ok
“This is it, this is checkmate”
and then he didn’t die
WHY MUST YOU DO THIS TO ME I DIDN'T COME HERE TO CRY EVEN MORE
NO
"Don't cry i'm just a fish"
lol
🐠
Lmao
Oh my God I was in tears but this comment really made me laugh
Lmao stop making me happy
Эта мелодия вызывает прям жосткую ностальгию по годам, когда я о ней ещё даже не знала
This song gives off running away and skating on a skateboard into the sunset on a open dock near a beach. Having no care in the world and doing anything you choose. It changes the perspective of life and opens your mind type vibes.
Couldn’t have said it better 😔
Yup
will someone run away with me?
"Having no care in the world"
I mean, the lyrics talk about a person who clearly has some cares in the world
or some fucks to give but let's be honest there's probably no one for those
This song makes me want to ride a cigar, smoke a skateboard and tattoo an ink bottle.
DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IT
meow bruhhh DO IT DUDE WHATS STOPPING YOU
yea so do i
This song makes me want to cigar a ride, skateboard a smoke and ink bottle a tattoo.
U rlly fucked up my dyslexia
If you're listening to this song there is 80% chance you feel like wasting your teenage years. Don't worry. You're not the only here
lol yeah. ppl my age have friend groups n go to parties n get into relationships n stay out late. then theres me, sitting alone in my room 24/7 lmao
Wtf did I click on the song is dog shit
@@didi-dq9mh felt
Im so close to running away
Yeah i feel like I’m wasting my teenage years too by being sad but i think everything will come at the right time.
if u r still in ur 10-18 ages please appreciate them
This song gives me nostalgia for memories I didn't even have.
C’est exactement ça! 🥲
why is this so accurate?!
Damn I’m not the only one
This makes no sense at all
Legit cought a major case of nostalgia
0:20
Hola bro
THANK YOUUUUU
Achei a música miserável
Thx bro
TU AQUI? nossa, vamo casar?
i want my life to look like how this song sounds ? if that makes sense
me too
yes
what a stolen comment
It’s makes sense
Oh, absolutely.
[Verse 1] 0:20
Don't kill me, just help me run away
From everyone, I need a place to stay
Where I can cover up my face
Don't cry, I am just a freak
[Chorus] 0:42
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
[Verse 2] 1:20
My head is filled with parasites
Black holes cover up my eyes
I dream of you almost every night
Hopefully, I won't wake up this time
[Chorus] 1:44
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
This song has a last day of school vibes
So true, like in the movies when they ring the bell and everyone runs down the stairs out from school.
I swear!
I miss school tho
i really dont want to leave school. as stupid my class is, and how annoying my teachers are i love them, im going to miss them. this year made such an impact in my life and i can’t forget it. i feel likes there’s just so much more to do, i remember the first day of school like it was yesterday. at least that’s what it feels like.
underrated comment
Okay so I’m currently 14, and I’ll come back every year until my teenage years are over to update on how my life has gone so far, see y’all when I turn 15!
dont just wait for something to happen tho, yo need to take action dude
@@krzysiusisiu fax
Same I'm 14 will be 15 in less than 4 months on October
Ight l will see you in a year
A tip: do shit. I'm 20 in less than 4 months and my life has been mediocre at best. I don't know if my teenage years were happy or sad. So do shit that makes you happy, that will make you benefit in any way, I still got plenty of time so don't worry about me.
"Don't kill me just help me runaway"as soon as you hear it.. I cry right away
gocha gocha 10 złotych
@Exo Megalo Ergaleio Exei Apo Kato Kai Alla Dio my furnature floats when i say ur name wtf
More like don’t cry I’m just a fish
so you cry when i hear it?
A bit weird but yeah,okay!
@@V1PER237 We all agree that's the true lyrics
Moving next year from my parent's house, starting study in Toulouse. Love you all and good luck everyone❤❤❤
Good luck ❤️
This song hits different listening to it at night when everyone’s asleep
Im actually doing it rn
@@bhangvillarama7874 same
That is exactly what I'm doing rn
Your next line is, "Same"
No it doesn’t, ppl are acting sooo fake depressed in theses comments section
Summer doesn't even feel fun anymore, it's gotten to the point where school days were a distraction from my thoughts, but now that school's out there is no distraction. It's just me and my mind always reminding me of how alone I am, of how I'm wasting the "greatest years" of my life.
Being asleep is the only escape now.
But then you never want to sleep so you can't really do anything
Oh wow. I kinda feel the same. Just wrapped up all the schoolwork stuff today. I thought I’d feel happier. I honestly just feel guilty. I don’t know why. I’m trying to do things I like but they don’t make me happy, I don’t know.
And there’s always the uncertainty of what the future holds
@@doublecircus feel that 💯
go to the gym and get a sick ass pump my friend, it's such a distraction and it makes you feel good too 💪
“I dream of you almost every night”
that hits a bit hard when you have that one special person in your life who you care about more then you even care about your own self.
Edit: today is May 5th 2021. It’s currently 6:55 and I just wanna say ty all for the amount of likes I got. I really do appreciate it and I love you all for that. Stay safe ! Ly all!
Yea and she fuckin left me like a switch was flicked
@@benwan5425 sorry for that. I’m sure it’ll get better tho,no? :)
@@benwan5425 same smh
its a person you love more than life itself
@@gaughrfield it’s someone that u care abt more then you’d ever care about ur own self 😋
You are not a freak, you are a *masterpiece*
Lie....
this kinda feels like the good feeling you get after your anxiety stops
:(
Yes..
It makes me more anxious
@@SUCOG59 yeah kinda
I don't know that feeling. It never stops
“ I dream of you almost every night, hopefully I won’t wake up this time “ hit hard when you are trying to shift
Viihave discover a hidden gem song called - TIME by THE IMPURES VVVVV
Shifting is fake asf
shifting is very real, don’t worry. you’ll do it soon
shifting is very real, don’t worry. you’ll do it soon
/2
@@Jj-cq6wz says the person with the anime pfp, sucks to be you ig
When I first heard this song, I saw the comments saying "I hope everyone hearing this the first time knows how special that is", I didn't understand at the time but I totally get it now, this song always hits the hardest the first time you hear it, don't play it on repeat, savour it as much as you can
But thats what People want remember their past. When they had fun and could do any thing. After all
"life is short". You dont know when you gonna die so better to make everything right now
I have and it’s still a comfort song. The only song that makes me wanna cry
My first time now and i feel wat you mean
I heard it like 3 years ago,I used to sing this with my girlfrend :) she gone now but atleast I have this hahahah :/
I play it all the time and it don’t get old 😅
Why has my life come not this far
i want a friend who makes me feel like this song.
same honestly
Same
why lol
Right here 🤚
I wouldn’t mind being your friend. We can listen to this song on a rooftop and watch the stars. I’d love to do that with someone
This song makes you remember your saddest moments while also making you happy that you finally got past them
I cant get over them, My dads friend had a dog that i was with for maybe six years and one of the last memories i had of him was him barking at me not knowing who i was cause of dementia. Maybe two weeks after that My mom told me that they had to uthinize him and i couldnt stop crying.
It not only makes you feel happy about being past sad memories, but also makes you feel sad about past happy memories
@@idioten222 That's sad bro. Hope you are doing better now. Stay positive king 👑
It's the opposite for me
I can’t get past them.
"If you try to fit in, you disappear. Just like in Tetris."
This made my day
also made my day cause I spend my time on Tetris
I’m putting this in a vid and giving u a shoutout and that’s that.
That’s from Dunkeys vid on tetris
I’m judged whenever I stand out.
Aint no way this life is fucked up bro.....
Its okay to able not be able to achieve ur goal in first attempt
Its okay to suffer from any disease it will be fine soon
Its okay sometimes to be scared
Its okay to be sad sometimes
Its okay to fail multiple times
Its okay to be urself
Its okay to be not okay
Remember man life will change and u r the one who is going to change it
Its not the thoughts that define you but the actions u do....
U r human bro.... Its okay to be human sometimes
Talk to people around you
See the nature
Feel the breeze
This world is full of crazy things so if you feel off sometimes grab your cycle and go the farthest u can and enjoy the fucking wayyyyyyyyy.......
SPREAD LOVE GUYS THIS WORLD THIS LIFE IS ALLLLLLLLLLLLL ABOUT LOVEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Listening to this reminds me of the times in middle school and high school where i still had a friend group. Remembering doing the dumb shit like exploring abandoned building and running like hell whenever we thought we saw a flash in a window. Remembering parties and gathering. Enjoy it while you can; i miss everyone but life really does have a different path for you and it will break you apart from your friends no matter how close you are
And there is me. I'm in high school and I sit at my pc for the whole time...
Almost a good time x)
SAme sameeeeeeeeee and i lost them all :((
My friend group fell apart in the moment the summer ended before junior year. How am I going to do another two years when all I can think about is how we won't hangout and have fun anymore?
How true this is. I am now feeling this quite often
This reminds of 5th grade with my friends and I still remember the smell of the school it smelled nostalgic ,_,
Played this song with a friends band and I felt so at home on stage
Rin eldo?
Gerard’s face made me go *and I oop*
do you know the tabs?
Hehehe im the 500th like congrats on attention ♡♡♡
667
"The mirror is my best friend because when I cry, it doesnt laugh." - Charlie Chaplin
god that’s deep
I sometimes laugh cry, Cause I always remember that I always think ''why didn't I?'' also u do too :)
@@ashleyanimex7208 can't. Its impossible.
@@Jopa83__ I could try but I might get arrested
@@ashleyanimex7208 what are you trying to do damn
It gets better. I promise keep going.
I love this song…
It was in my mind the last summer, when me and two friends of mine suddendly decided to bike to the nearest maritime city.
It took us 2 days to complete a ride of 304 km, of which we were dreaming since we were kids.
I remember I was smiling so much when we finally overcome the last „mountain’s pass“ and we finally saw the sign with the name of city, from where we had a beautiful night-descent to the sea.
I just love it, it reminds me of the freedom you can have when you step out the comfort zone and just decide to do something crazy.
Damn man
Wish i had a friend like that
@@jistyyt9093 I'm here for you big dawg
@@JP-np8fj thank you bro
@@jistyyt9093 sup man I'm here for ya too
This song makes me feel like I'm on my way home from a late and fun night out with my friends, and trying to run away from my problems while crying at the same time. and I love it.
they might call it weird but i love this feeling
@Clifford the big red dog Can you guys just stop recommending that stupid song? The worst recommended song I've ever heard.
Thats just how i fell but just that i on a plane
BRO I can't explain it better myself
Bandit Gaming
Idc what people say about it. TikTok helped me hear this song for the first time today.
SAME BESTY BAG
Samee
Only today?
@@nat9781 yea
Same
Who's here in 2024?
still any freaks listening today?
even longer :)
hi :)
welcome to gulag
I’m getting too crazy to be considered a freak
Freak reporting for duty
It’s crazy how this song reminds how insanely lonely I am.
How true.
i'm sorry . :(
Real shit
feel u
You can be lonely but still be surrounded by people. I find that more painful
this song makes me wanna delete all social media and start again, move school, do better things. i dont know why
Im in
i would LOVE to move school goddamn
I know that feeling lol, but ultimately it's just a planned fantasy that you are morally obligated not to fulfill. At least for me it is lmao
this song makes me wish i could start all over from the beginning and make things better for me personally.
whats stopping you?