I used to be a little sad about the thought of getting older on my birthday because I felt I wasn’t where I wanted to be at that age. But now I feel as though I’m back on track! I still struggle with indecisiveness on what to do for my birthday last minute though 😂
Yes! I’m turning 23 tomorrow & feeling anxious right now. Like you said, feeling unworthy of love & fear of not accomplishing. Thanks for sharing, feeling less alone in this struggle. It’s just sad that we feel this way on a day when we’re supposed to be happy & celebrating our life. And feeling like this perpetuates the anxiety loop 😩 small reminders & mantras help
@@Marina-hm9vk Happy early birthday! Channel your anxiety into energy toward things you'd like to make progress on by your next birthday. I hope tomorrow's peaceful for you!
I dislike my birthday because I’m usually the one to remember people’s birthday and make them feel special and when it’s my turn that energy isn’t reciprocated
Bro they are not worth your time. I got separated from the same kind of toxic group of friends during the new semester, and while I was devastated at that time, I'm extremely grateful for the blessing in disguise
Yes finally someone talks about birthday anxiety 😂😭😭... like if I'm alone on my birthday it triggers my abandonment/rejection issues and I start thinking no one really cares.
For me, About a month before my birthday I start feeling anxious and depressed because I expect people to disappoint me and reject me and not care about me. Growing up my birthdays weren't celebrated and I internalized that as I didn't matter, my life meant nothing to anyone, and I was rejected. As an adult, it reminds me of that.
Thanks for sharing your story ♥️. It sounds like you have some celebrations to catch up on. As adults, we have the opportunity to work on the things that negatively impacted us from our childhood. It can be SO HARD, but the last thing you want to do is prove that the thought about you not mattering is true. You do matter! Take some time to consider who you matter to and why. If you can't think of anything that you've done that matters, make a plan to change that by your next birthday.
I guess my perspective is that, "you don't normally treat me well or value me as a person why pretend on my birthday?". Makes me feel so alone especially when this feeling applies to other big milestones.
It started when i turned 14, im turning 20 tomorrow and i know i have no particular to be sad. I just feel so sad and lousy right now 😞 i have a hard time reminding myself “you’re alive for a reason, people Will be sad if you’re gone. Have some empathy”
i just turned 20 today and had a mental breakdown in the car on my way to get food. i ended up just saying i want to go home crying my eyes out. i’m in bed now and feel much better i just want today to be over lol
started at 14 as well and has bbeen an issue since. just turned 27 last month. thought i was crazy feeling this way, glad to know there is a way to work this out
Trying not to self-sabotage before my big 30 this year. Three days away and I’m still in the funk. Trying to reset, reframe and build a new lens. Thank you for this video 💛✨
omg I cried in the beginning because this is how I've felt for years and everyone thought I was weird or denied my depression about it. Its my birthday soon. Thank you.
So glad it resonated with you. What really helped me is being honest with myself and planning for it instead of denying it. If you need to schedule a moment for tears, maybe watch an emotional movie or talk with someone that you feel comfortable with. Don’t run from it. Best thing that could happen is you plan for sadness and it never comes, but don’t let it sneak up on you. Happy early birthday! ♥️
My birthday is in 15 days and I’m turning 30. I’m not happy about it. I know I’m blessed to even see 30, but I’m getting older. I remember when my mom was 30. And now I’m 30. My issue is I’m aging, which means I’m closer to death, and my body is changing. I just feel like I need to do so much before that day. Birthdays were huge for me, but as I get older I’m just not interested. I was planning a trip but I said no I’ll stay home and save my money. It’s just a rush of emotions. Thank you for this video.
Finding this exactly one year after this was published. It’s my birthday in 2 hours on September 29th and am feeling so anxious and sad. I just typed feeling anxious on your birthday and this video was the first one that popped up. I’m taking this as a sign from the universe. I’m hoping to find a lot of comfort from this.
Bless this video. Tomorrow is my birthday and I am feeling so low and blue. My therapist left the practice that accepts my insurance, so I don't have anyone to let it out with. I appreciate this and you. ♥
Watching this video for the first time as someone who’s experiencing the birthday blues at an all time high today. Hearing you so happy to have reached 130 subscribers when you made this video, to now having 133K… I’m in awe of you and your accomplishment and is just a testament to show you that you were right- these resources were needed!!! So thank you❤️🙌🏼
Hi Steph! Thank you so much for making this video. Today is my birthday, and I've e been feeling a little down for the exact same reason. I get so anxious and rob myself of happiness because of the expectations that I put on my friends. It's really nice that you could relate because I honestly thought that I was the only one. I appreciate your videos; thanks a lot!
Watching this the day after my birthday❣️ I had a meltdown per usual lol. I was thinking of going away next year, not necessarily to sabotage but to just escape these mixed emotions. I have spent every one of my birthday’s sad and disappointed
Steph, your TH-cam channel has changed my life for the better. For someone who can afford therapy these videos are such a privilege. I’m so thankful you were able to push past the fear of starting it and are now flourishing and changing lives ❤️
I appreciate this video I’m turning 21 tomorrow and I’m scared and sad and don’t even feel like celebrating it anymore just felt like I was the only one who felt like this
I woke up on my birthday and listened to this and it really helped me! My self agency activated and I gave my church fam the opportunity to wish me happy birthday ^_^
Watching this today cause I was wondering if feeling blue around your birthday was actually a thing. Glad to know it's normal. I always loved my birthday, and still do, but last year before I turned 20, I started getting a bit blue. It ended up being one of the best years of my life💕 So I didn't expect to feel birthday blues again this year... but here they are. I think it's due to my expectations regarding the celebrations, that are suffering due to finals. But it's ok. It's currently 2 days until my birthday, so I'm trying to cheer myself up and plan out things I love to do. Even though not all my friends will be around, I know some of them will, and I'll make sure to enjoy this birthday, knowing that a whole new age brings out so many awesome possibilities. Steph, I wanted to congratulate you on your channel. As I watch this, you no longer have 130 subscribers, but 147k😱🤩 That's incredible. Keep up the great work❤️ Best regards from Brazil💚
4 years later and you now have over 200.000 subscribers! Congratulations! 😊🥳 It’s the first time I‘ve heard anyone talk about birthday anxiety and it’s always so great to hear that you’re not alone. I have a hard time letting people get close to me and at the same time long for deep friendships. Birthdays confront me with the fact that I don’t have the kind of friend group I would like to have and I also feel uncomfortable with being the center of attention. I have been going on vacation for my birthday for several years now- mostly to have a great answer to the „What are you doing for your birthday?“ question… Your video has made me take a closer look at that. I want to shift these patterns!
this video helped me a lot. My birthday is in the winter and I've never had a good one always lonely but now I'm really trying to change my perspective. Also, you're stunning!
I absolutely love your approach to therapy! I’ve definitely experienced some of these things, especially the passage of time. I didn’t have a childhood and every year reminds me that I just never will have a carefree time in life.
Wow, that’s a tough one. I hope that you’re able to let your hair down sometimes by being silly, wild, etc. I think that as adults, we sometimes take life so seriously and forget the importance of adventure. I’ll have to think more on this though because of course we can’t escape the reality of our responsibilities. Thank you so much for sharing ♥️
I can relate. It’s heartbreaking to be sad on ur special day. It’s hard because ur family will go crazy for this one person’s bday and won’t do the same for u because you’re not good enough
Thank you! Yes, can relate to that one time in the year feeling that you are loved and cared for. Yes, the tension and pain can start weeks before.... Really working deep with my parts holding those beliefs and disappointments, turning 40 this year and for the first time travelling, to really own my own special day.
My birthday is in 12 days. This was a very enlightening video and helped my mood a bit. I resonated a lot with feeling like the part you were saying about you have expectations for yourself and that could be the source for the sadness for my birthday. At the same time though, my family said when I was younger I never really seemed to enjoy my birthdays, and all I can remember is being sad and being alone every year. I do have stuff planned for myself this time around though.
Lol. My dad can’t even remember how old I am or when my birthday is. He had to ask me. I don’t really care for when my birthday is or even just the month. I don’t ask for anything because I feel guilty if I do. Well for anyone’s birthdays that are coming up or have happened recently then happy birthday ^-^
i started my youtube channel, and i still feel so much anxiety about my birthday this week! but you're right, I do put this pressure on people to remember and make it big. i feel bad that I do that, but it always leads me to disappointment because no one can ever live up to my own expectations
It's 00:07 here Sooo it's my 19 birthday And everyone forgot it even my parents and it hurts it really really hurts, even my parents, I'm so sad and I'm in a terrible mood, I feel like I'm nothing, no one care, no one caree and I can't stop crying I really can't stop this 💔
for me, I feel so happy and at peace when everyone forgets my birthday. I love to be alone and celebrate it quietly without noise of HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLA BLA BLA. I get angry when people want to make a deal about it. I hope I'm okay
it’s my birthday tomorrow and so much has changed, im scared, last year I had a loving boyfriend who made it all special but this year im scared no body will remember. I’m always someone who makes everyone feel really great on their birthdays and im scared this year won’t be like the previous year. I acknowledge everything that has changed for the better since last year but I deeply miss not feeling insecure about friendships. My birthday just ends up being a reminder of that. I hope I can let go of this feeling because it sucks to constantly overthink your position in everyone else’s life.
I feel that exact same experience as you!!! It’s so upsetting, specially because my partner does normal things that partners do for birthdays, gifts, dinner etc. But somehow it feels empty and every thing that doesn’t go my way on my bday like a disappointment. It’s so hard on him and I’m miserable on my bday.
I like celebrating holidays, birthday, etc... any reason to give gifts. My birthday tends to be the same week as a fun event my friends and I go to every year. This past year, I've been told by more than one person that my birthday was forgotten about. I realize I started to tell myself that 'I'm just a forgettable person' or I just don't matter as much in our friend group. While i haven't found a solution....it's good to know I'm not the only one dreading my birthday when it comes.
This made me feel sm better. You've helped me understand why I'm always sad around my birthday even though I grew up being thrown parties and what not. Your background completely resonates with me and it makes sm sense. My birthday is in 9 days, I'm turning 20. I'll conquer those fears❤️
I don't like my birthday because nobody in my family celebrates bday, but my mom always encourage me to throw a party. But I feel like it would be so awkward, most of my friends don't know each other. Also, I feel like it's not such a big deal and celebrating my Bday is forced. I would like someone to throw a party for me, so I don't look desperate. At the other hand, my mother encourages me to celebrate my Birthday with friends so much, that afterwards I feel bad that I've had nothing prepared and like it was wasted
for my birthday i don't like big gatherings nor do i like being center of attention. i just like the day to be treated like any other day. no presents no cake just a normal day. for my 40th i just watched a movie with my kids and wife. it was great! its not depressing or nerve racking for me, but it's just another day for me
Today is my birthday ❤️ I'm turning sixteen and feel nothing. But I wanna feel happy for myself, I wanna celebrate. But I feel like no one wants to with me. But maybe some day, someone will. Thank youuu
My parents always made a birthday table for me. Every year when I would wake up, I would walk into the kitchen and there would be cake, flowers, candles, gifts. And now I have this expectation that I put on my spouse and it’s so frustrating and hard every year. Today is my birthday and it has been really bad
Stumbled across this vid while trying to calm myself down. Thank you for this vid! Actually removed my bday on social media for people not to greet me. Glad that you touched this topic!
watching this the night of my birthday and i’m currently crying because my dad is stuck in the hospital, and my family couldn’t do anything too special for my 13th birthday today, i keep questioning why it had to happen on my special birthday and why he wasn’t able to get out in time
I turned 32 today. My expectations have been low since my mother died in 2017, because my mother's side stopped talking to me after she died and my Father's side never bothered. I'm still feeling so sad that noone on either side at least called or texted saying happy birthday. I don't expect presents, never have. But just a simple "hey, happy birthday" would have been nice.
45 today and as someone wrote, my birthdays weren't celebrated as a child (once I reached 10), so I learned I didn't matter. I've bought myself a ticket to a concert of a band I like, but now of course, I'm anxious going alone! I used to go to concerts alone all the time, in various countries, so I need to suck it up and get to the gig. I don't feel happy at all that it's my birthday but that's why I bought this ticket in advance, to make sure I have fun today whether I want to or not!
My birthday is tomorrow and I am feeling this way today . I will be 21 tomorrow. I feel like this because whenever it’s someone else birthday whether it is my close family member or a friend I get really excited for them and do small yet special things for them like baking cake for them making them handmade gifts and letters . But no one actually does that for me and it makes me feel worthless , rejected and that no one really cares for me .
I have never had great birthdays, so I do try to keep my expectations to the minimum every year. Generally those don't get met either. Even by the loved ones I had gone above and beyond for on their birthdays. The complete lack of effort/thoughtfulness hurts every year. Yet, I never actually express that I wish for something special and personal to be on my birthday, on the possibility that I come off as high-maintenance or self-centered.
Thank you for this video! Tomorrow is my bday and last night the anxiety kicked in. I don't have a problem with the getting older part, but I've had a lot of pretty bad birthdays and I get anxious thinking about it, even though I know I'm in a much better place this year relationship, career and life goals -wise. I love celebrating others' birthdays but not my own.
Personally I don’t like my birthdays because, everyone always says it’s supposed to be about you, and I normally can’t pick what I want to do because I either don’t want the other people to not be happy, I don’t want to be the center of attention, and that I don’t mind most things, and hearing people always say it’s about you not about others, I just feel hurt by it even though I know they were just trying to be nice and make me feel better and not feel bad if they don’t enjoy it, but it just makes me feel like, I was wrong for feeling like I want people to be happy, because it makes me happy to see them feeling like they are having fun and enjoying themselves without forcing it. Like I’d rather us all have fun or just not have a birthday at all, I mean i don’t even remember my birthday until I’m reminded about it so yeah. “Not exactly the same as what you talked about but this video did help a lot, I just felt like I was the one wrong, and why am I not more selfish or why can’t I just not care and enjoy myself either way, but that’s just not me.” Thanks for this video quite late but it was very helpful 💞💞💞💞
I have had anxiety about my own birtday for many years. First of all, I really don't care too much about other people's birthdays and I care especially little about mine. Then there is the whole congratulations thing: both on- and offline. Hate that part. Then there is presents: hate that too, because most presents I don't really like (and then it become an awkward game of faking it). Also, I really hate the attention and the whole "we are here for you". Well, not really. I don't invite people on my birthday. It's others that suggest to do something together. Once they gave me sort of a surprise by inviting friends over which I did not know about. Since then I have also the "there might be a surprise" stress. In 3 weeks I will turn 34 and have told my family that we are not going to do anything. Let's see how that feels. Maybe I will hate it and regret it and probably stick with this strategy for the rest of my life. It's a nice test at least. Having said that, I hate that I'm like that. In the end it's all about the people you love. Then why reject them?
I'm turning 27. I get depressed 2 weeks before my birthday (right after my wife's birthday) because I had setbacks that derailed my progression and I still haven't recovered from. The closer I get to 30, the more I feel like a loser and the worst it gets.
It's my birthday. I've been working at the same place since 2019, and I remember crying at work that year because I just felt so alone, you know. I'm celebrating 24 today, and the feeling is still the same (yes I have family members ), but I just think that birthday's are supposed to be fun. I just feel anxious and really down. It's the time of the year when I want to resign from my job. I'm in school so I'll just relax today and do some assignments. Maybe I can try something next week. Sigh
Today is my birthday, and I've always been so excited tvo turn this age, until like last month when I was just feeling ugh.. I'm crying right now, and the whole day I've bottled up my feelings, and I just feel like shit
It's currently my birthday and I hate it. I'm 29 and it's the worst. I have no one to celebrate it and i don't want to celebrate it unless its going to be big and I hate parties.
So sorry to hear this! The smallest way to celebrate a birthday is to reflect on what we're proud of ourselves for and what we love most about ourselves. Take some time to jot that down today to celebrate your 29 years. Happy birthday!
@@StephAnya Pride? Me? Miss, you must mistake me for someone who had actually accomplished something. I am nothing. I have never done anything in my life to earn such praise or self-love ( I hate that word). Also, please do not wish me a hally birthday. There's no such thing. It's not something to be celebrated. It's just a reminder that I'm cursed.
idk the thought of having a birthday just makes me sad i’m neurodivergent so i like very structured routine and a big party with lots of people pampering me just makes me sad
It's my 16th birthday, and I've been dealing with birthday blues all day, my dad got killed when I was 5 and it's just sad for me to be able to not see him today for my 16th, my mom and the rest of my family tried to take me out to D&B but I didn't feel like doing anything, so they were aggravated for "wasting their gas" even though I didn't ask to do anything at all. So now I've tried to make that up while creating a board game night, putting my feelings aside, so everyone got back at me for doing the thing I did, so I just went into my bed early and started crying.. they told me to come out of my room so they could sing happy birthday to me, but I just stood there unhappy and then I went to bed. I've been thinking about this all night long, and it's in my head...
i do the same things. tell everybody something for their birthday but felt bad if i didn't get the same reciprocation back, so now i just try to ignore it altogether. putting my phone on airplane mode, taking the date off all my social media accounts, etc. that and yeah i hate that i'm not where i should be in life either. i feel like time's winding down and i'm a failure. that's how today makes me feel. but i didn't know others felt like i do. like the ignoring your birthday because you know people won't tell you anything for it anyway. i feel less weird about it now.
I had normal childhood birthdays but then an event at another childhood friend’s birthday was a trigger and led to CPTSD. As well an anxiety and depression. As an adult I always went all out for other others only to have no on much for me. Did I have high expectations yes but I would have been happy if they just did something. Fast forward to mid 20’s a weird thing started happening. Terrible events would always happen around my bday. This continued and got worse. I’m now 44. I thought this year will break it but my dad almost died. None of these events are in my control and are just awful. My birthday is curse.
I liked how you talked about self-discloser. I would probably benefit from therapy but get angry and envious thinking the therapist is so much smarter and better than me. At 18 I became a caregiver for my mom and all my money and resources go to her. I love my mom, but I hardly have any life experience. Now I'm 30 and I feel like my 20s were so empty I feel like I can't have my own life. I also get extremely envious of people on TH-cam. I know they had to work hard to get to where they are but on social media you only see the success of people. I sometimes feel like an old 90-year-old man not full of maturity but just outdated. I know this is two years old but how old are you and when did you go get your license?
My birthday and Christmas both make me sad. At least I can decide to not be bothered on my own birthday to lessen the ache, eventhough some may get offended; airplane mode is the way to go.
I’ll be an adult this year. Tomorrow actually..I’m not ready to be 18. Adults don’t get anything in my family so I have my friend who’s getting me a gift. We don’t have the money for a birthday, mom just spent 2,000 on skin care randomly for herself, my sister, and I. Didn’t consult us on it, her money I get it but we are already not doing well enough financially for that. I already am unimportant to family and nothing this year feels worse. Maybe I’m materialistic or selfish. Though I don’t buy myself much or ask for any because how “needy” I’ve always been. (Moms told me many times). I would like just new clothes this year. A lot my stuff is old, dying, or graphic tees. I’ve been depressed for years but my birthday is so much worse, feelings of worthlessness and despair. It’s too much.
Tomorrow is my birthday. Last year I got so sad, because literally none of my friends congratulated me, until after I uploaded an insta post about my day. Not even my husbands family remembered. Birthdays always mean so much to me, and I always try to make everyone feel special on their birthdays, but.. yeah.. apparently no one wants to do that for me. 🤷♀️ trying to keep expectations low, and just enjoy my day with my own family.
Todays my birthday and I agreed to have a joint birthday with my boyfriends uncle. He’s turning 70 and I’m turning 26, his wife has made the whole day about him and it’s hurtful to feel like an afterthought when I thought I would be celebrated too. 😢
I’ve never been a fan of my birthday. I share my father’s name and birthday (August 31). He never raised me and left my mother before I was born. I wouldn’t be the first kid and mother he abandoned, and I wasn’t the last. I am his namesake and him being a bad father always sticks to me and I don’t really know how to shake that feeling. I’ve expressed these feelings to family members and they all look at me like I’m crazy instead of actually trying to help me seek solutions to my unresolved issues.
I feel like I'm asking too much on my birthday lol, that's why I try to avoid the topic a week or so before it comes, so nobody remembers it and feels obliged to do anything, although not a lot of people do, dont want to be a burden
Being the fact that my birthday is on the 17th of February and right after Valentine’s so not only was I single and broken up with a month before Valentine’s but I’m gonna be all alone in my birthday too . No one to celebrate me sigh
When i was a kid all my cousin comes on my birthday they are way older then me so make my birthday as there only relax from work party no kid was allowed on my birthday everyone do what they like no one ask me ever what i want on my birthday if i say something they always make fun of me like its so childish thing to do and never do that and now i just don't know what to do on my birthday what's the prosizer every Birthday bring that childhood sadness remember going to bathroom and crying with water on because no one let me wear even a simple dress i like now i never feel like dressing up on my birthday or making some good food or go out its just like a day where i have to pretend aw thank you for your wishes am so happy are you happy about it
Today is my birthday and I hate it because I am always forgotten by my family don;t never call or text but when it's their birthday they always expect me to throw them big birthdays and decorate ( I'm an event decorator) I never get anything like that. I don't need a birthday party but a text come on
For me it’s cause of getting older. Gonna be 30 tomorrow Also, I see people that have friends and they go out and party and stuff and I don’t have many friends, mostly associates or just old friends from the old neighborhood. It’s like I don’t have any memories of my bday after I turned maybe 14. It’s just a blur. Had good bdays as a kid. But somewhere along the lines I just felt depressed and anxious a month before my bday
I'll be 30 tomorrow. I can't ever get excited about my bday. I don't want to plan anything. People don't give me the love I give them. At the same time I don't want to pass up my only 30 year birthday ever.. at the same time I already feel past my expiration most of the time.
Yeah whenever someone is like let me organize it. I'm always like please don't invite friends of friends, I don't need to be rejected. I also say to not get my hopes up bc I just can't deal with it.
Today is my birthday. I am leading this life only for my wife. Even my wife doesnt know how to make me feel happy on my birthday .hardest moment of my life. Very painful too.
This particular year has been the weirdest for any special occasion. Happy birthday! I hope it exceeds your expectations and that you can soak up any love sent your way.
I was feeling really sad because I have a great support system (family, friends and boyfriend) but no one texted me happy birthday after midnight. Maybe it's part of growing up that people aren't awake during the week after 12, maybe i shouldn't be sad cause my dad texted me something nice before midnight.. i just felt so insecure already about asking my friends to come party with me today, and them not having the time or money to come over. Then again I feel like an asshole for continuously asking them if they could before they declined, like i have some grand expectation of them. Is it bad that i want to feel special today? And that I'm worth buying a train ticket for? Ugh I'm a mess i should just go to bed
Have you ever gotten the birthday jitters or blues?
I used to be a little sad about the thought of getting older on my birthday because I felt I wasn’t where I wanted to be at that age. But now I feel as though I’m back on track! I still struggle with indecisiveness on what to do for my birthday last minute though 😂
Yes! I’m turning 23 tomorrow & feeling anxious right now. Like you said, feeling unworthy of love & fear of not accomplishing. Thanks for sharing, feeling less alone in this struggle. It’s just sad that we feel this way on a day when we’re supposed to be happy & celebrating our life. And feeling like this perpetuates the anxiety loop 😩 small reminders & mantras help
@@Marina-hm9vk Happy early birthday! Channel your anxiety into energy toward things you'd like to make progress on by your next birthday. I hope tomorrow's peaceful for you!
Yes! My birthday is in 3 days and I’ve been feeling very depressed and anxious as it arrives, thank you for this video! You have a new subscriber 💕
@@chandlers.5970 So sorry you're feeling this way. I hope that your birthday pleasantly surprises you! Happy early birthday!
I dislike my birthday because I’m usually the one to remember people’s birthday and make them feel special and when it’s my turn that energy isn’t reciprocated
omf same this is my exact problem. You end up feeling so lonely and insignificant, but I realized to just lower my expectations coz people aint shit
Same here... I have my birthday coming up n I know I'll be hurt yet again 😭
exactly! today’s my 16th birthday and no one but my family wished me happy birthday cause i’m pretty sure no one at my school likes me
Yeah this is very relatable.
Bro they are not worth your time. I got separated from the same kind of toxic group of friends during the new semester, and while I was devastated at that time, I'm extremely grateful for the blessing in disguise
Yes finally someone talks about birthday anxiety 😂😭😭... like if I'm alone on my birthday it triggers my abandonment/rejection issues and I start thinking no one really cares.
I relate to that
Yep 😂
For me, About a month before my birthday I start feeling anxious and depressed because I expect people to disappoint me and reject me and not care about me. Growing up my birthdays weren't celebrated and I internalized that as I didn't matter, my life meant nothing to anyone, and I was rejected. As an adult, it reminds me of that.
Thanks for sharing your story ♥️. It sounds like you have some celebrations to catch up on. As adults, we have the opportunity to work on the things that negatively impacted us from our childhood. It can be SO HARD, but the last thing you want to do is prove that the thought about you not mattering is true. You do matter! Take some time to consider who you matter to and why. If you can't think of anything that you've done that matters, make a plan to change that by your next birthday.
Same 🙃
It keeps happening to me.
Exact same thing for me !!😭
Same
I guess my perspective is that, "you don't normally treat me well or value me as a person why pretend on my birthday?". Makes me feel so alone especially when this feeling applies to other big milestones.
It started when i turned 14, im turning 20 tomorrow and i know i have no particular to be sad. I just feel so sad and lousy right now 😞 i have a hard time reminding myself “you’re alive for a reason, people Will be sad if you’re gone. Have some empathy”
Ugh I'm going to be 20 lol
it started when i turned 13 and now i'm 16 (my birthday is oct 26) it's just a reminder that life is moving too fast and i'm getting older :'(
i just turned 20 today and had a mental breakdown in the car on my way to get food. i ended up just saying i want to go home crying my eyes out. i’m in bed now and feel much better i just want today to be over lol
@@jade3501 I hope you’re feeling better! You’re amazing and just take it day by day
started at 14 as well and has bbeen an issue since. just turned 27 last month. thought i was crazy feeling this way, glad to know there is a way to work this out
Trying not to self-sabotage before my big 30 this year. Three days away and I’m still in the funk. Trying to reset, reframe and build a new lens. Thank you for this video 💛✨
We’re almost there! Take some time to reflect on what you’re proud of over these last 30 years. Happy Birthday to a fellow Stephanie!
omg I cried in the beginning because this is how I've felt for years and everyone thought I was weird or denied my depression about it. Its my birthday soon. Thank you.
So glad it resonated with you. What really helped me is being honest with myself and planning for it instead of denying it. If you need to schedule a moment for tears, maybe watch an emotional movie or talk with someone that you feel comfortable with. Don’t run from it. Best thing that could happen is you plan for sadness and it never comes, but don’t let it sneak up on you. Happy early birthday! ♥️
My birthday is in 15 days and I’m turning 30. I’m not happy about it. I know I’m blessed to even see 30, but I’m getting older. I remember when my mom was 30. And now I’m 30. My issue is I’m aging, which means I’m closer to death, and my body is changing. I just feel like I need to do so much before that day. Birthdays were huge for me, but as I get older I’m just not interested. I was planning a trip but I said no I’ll stay home and save my money. It’s just a rush of emotions. Thank you for this video.
Today is my birthday. I'm feeling sad today but I have felt this sadness almost every year that I remember. I'm glad you made this video, thank you ❤️
Me too😊 on my birthday today
You are not alone after 18 I started to feel sad every single birthday including today(my birthday)
Finding this exactly one year after this was published. It’s my birthday in 2 hours on September 29th and am feeling so anxious and sad. I just typed feeling anxious on your birthday and this video was the first one that popped up. I’m taking this as a sign from the universe. I’m hoping to find a lot of comfort from this.
Bless this video. Tomorrow is my birthday and I am feeling so low and blue. My therapist left the practice that accepts my insurance, so I don't have anyone to let it out with. I appreciate this and you. ♥
So sorry to hear. I hope today pleasantly surprises you. Happy birthday!!🎁🎈🎊
Watching this video for the first time as someone who’s experiencing the birthday blues at an all time high today. Hearing you so happy to have reached 130 subscribers when you made this video, to now having 133K… I’m in awe of you and your accomplishment and is just a testament to show you that you were right- these resources were needed!!! So thank you❤️🙌🏼
Hi Steph! Thank you so much for making this video. Today is my birthday, and I've e been feeling a little down for the exact same reason. I get so anxious and rob myself of happiness because of the expectations that I put on my friends. It's really nice that you could relate because I honestly thought that I was the only one. I appreciate your videos; thanks a lot!
Watching this the day after my birthday❣️ I had a meltdown per usual lol. I was thinking of going away next year, not necessarily to sabotage but to just escape these mixed emotions. I have spent every one of my birthday’s sad and disappointed
Steph, your TH-cam channel has changed my life for the better. For someone who can afford therapy these videos are such a privilege.
I’m so thankful you were able to push past the fear of starting it and are now flourishing and changing lives ❤️
I appreciate this video I’m turning 21 tomorrow and I’m scared and sad and don’t even feel like celebrating it anymore just felt like I was the only one who felt like this
I woke up on my birthday and listened to this and it really helped me! My self agency activated and I gave my church fam the opportunity to wish me happy birthday ^_^
Watching this today cause I was wondering if feeling blue around your birthday was actually a thing. Glad to know it's normal. I always loved my birthday, and still do, but last year before I turned 20, I started getting a bit blue. It ended up being one of the best years of my life💕 So I didn't expect to feel birthday blues again this year... but here they are. I think it's due to my expectations regarding the celebrations, that are suffering due to finals. But it's ok. It's currently 2 days until my birthday, so I'm trying to cheer myself up and plan out things I love to do. Even though not all my friends will be around, I know some of them will, and I'll make sure to enjoy this birthday, knowing that a whole new age brings out so many awesome possibilities. Steph, I wanted to congratulate you on your channel. As I watch this, you no longer have 130 subscribers, but 147k😱🤩 That's incredible. Keep up the great work❤️ Best regards from Brazil💚
It's my birthday today ❤️🎉 I needed a video like this, thank you ❤️
4 years later and you now have over 200.000 subscribers! Congratulations! 😊🥳
It’s the first time I‘ve heard anyone talk about birthday anxiety and it’s always so great to hear that you’re not alone. I have a hard time letting people get close to me and at the same time long for deep friendships. Birthdays confront me with the fact that I don’t have the kind of friend group I would like to have and I also feel uncomfortable with being the center of attention. I have been going on vacation for my birthday for several years now- mostly to have a great answer to the „What are you doing for your birthday?“ question… Your video has made me take a closer look at that. I want to shift these patterns!
this video helped me a lot. My birthday is in the winter and I've never had a good one always lonely but now I'm really trying to change my perspective. Also, you're stunning!
I hope your next one is more peaceful. Thank you for that sweet compliment!
Happy birthday guys 🎉🥳🥳🥳
You all are awesome.Keep making earth a better place💕💕💕
I absolutely love your approach to therapy! I’ve definitely experienced some of these things, especially the passage of time. I didn’t have a childhood and every year reminds me that I just never will have a carefree time in life.
Wow, that’s a tough one. I hope that you’re able to let your hair down sometimes by being silly, wild, etc. I think that as adults, we sometimes take life so seriously and forget the importance of adventure. I’ll have to think more on this though because of course we can’t escape the reality of our responsibilities. Thank you so much for sharing ♥️
Steph Anya I’ll definitely have to let to let up and just have fun. I hope I learn before I’m 60! Lol thanks for the feedback
I can relate. It’s heartbreaking to be sad on ur special day. It’s hard because ur family will go crazy for this one person’s bday and won’t do the same for u because you’re not good enough
Happy birthday!! Wow you are so knowledgeable about psychology and all these dynamics. I love learning about it all!
So glad to have you here! Thank you, Gabby!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPH. You’ve been a huge help during this quarantine for me ❤️.
Thank you! That means so much to me!
Thank you! Yes, can relate to that one time in the year feeling that you are loved and cared for. Yes, the tension and pain can start weeks before.... Really working deep with my parts holding those beliefs and disappointments, turning 40 this year and for the first time travelling, to really own my own special day.
My birthday is in 12 days. This was a very enlightening video and helped my mood a bit. I resonated a lot with feeling like the part you were saying about you have expectations for yourself and that could be the source for the sadness for my birthday. At the same time though, my family said when I was younger I never really seemed to enjoy my birthdays, and all I can remember is being sad and being alone every year. I do have stuff planned for myself this time around though.
Lol. My dad can’t even remember how old I am or when my birthday is. He had to ask me. I don’t really care for when my birthday is or even just the month. I don’t ask for anything because I feel guilty if I do. Well for anyone’s birthdays that are coming up or have happened recently then happy birthday ^-^
i started my youtube channel, and i still feel so much anxiety about my birthday this week! but you're right, I do put this pressure on people to remember and make it big. i feel bad that I do that, but it always leads me to disappointment because no one can ever live up to my own expectations
It's 00:07 here
Sooo it's my 19 birthday
And everyone forgot it even my parents and it hurts it really really hurts, even my parents, I'm so sad and I'm in a terrible mood, I feel like I'm nothing, no one care, no one caree and I can't stop crying I really can't stop this 💔
Starting my micro loc journey with my birthday in 4 days!!!! I think this will really help me move past my annual bday blues!
for me, I feel so happy and at peace when everyone forgets my birthday. I love to be alone and celebrate it quietly without noise of HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLA BLA BLA. I get angry when people want to make a deal about it. I hope I'm okay
it’s my birthday tomorrow and so much has changed, im scared, last year I had a loving boyfriend who made it all special but this year im scared no body will remember. I’m always someone who makes everyone feel really great on their birthdays and im scared this year won’t be like the previous year. I acknowledge everything that has changed for the better since last year but I deeply miss not feeling insecure about friendships. My birthday just ends up being a reminder of that. I hope I can let go of this feeling because it sucks to constantly overthink your position in everyone else’s life.
I feel that exact same experience as you!!! It’s so upsetting, specially because my partner does normal things that partners do for birthdays, gifts, dinner etc. But somehow it feels empty and every thing that doesn’t go my way on my bday like a disappointment. It’s so hard on him and I’m miserable on my bday.
I like celebrating holidays, birthday, etc... any reason to give gifts. My birthday tends to be the same week as a fun event my friends and I go to every year. This past year, I've been told by more than one person that my birthday was forgotten about.
I realize I started to tell myself that 'I'm just a forgettable person' or I just don't matter as much in our friend group.
While i haven't found a solution....it's good to know I'm not the only one dreading my birthday when it comes.
This is maybe one of my most relatable videos I’ve seen on YT. I feel so seen!
This made me feel sm better. You've helped me understand why I'm always sad around my birthday even though I grew up being thrown parties and what not. Your background completely resonates with me and it makes sm sense. My birthday is in 9 days, I'm turning 20. I'll conquer those fears❤️
I don't like my birthday because nobody in my family celebrates bday, but my mom always encourage me to throw a party. But I feel like it would be so awkward, most of my friends don't know each other. Also, I feel like it's not such a big deal and celebrating my Bday is forced. I would like someone to throw a party for me, so I don't look desperate. At the other hand, my mother encourages me to celebrate my Birthday with friends so much, that afterwards I feel bad that I've had nothing prepared and like it was wasted
Literally have the same thing this year, this whole week I didnt want to do anything and now its my bday and I feel sad for not planning anything
Happy Birthday Steph Anya!!🎈 Wow! This may be my favorite video thus far. Thank you for sharing your personal experience with the world. 😊👍
Thank you for watching and those kind words!
for my birthday i don't like big gatherings nor do i like being center of attention. i just like the day to be treated like any other day. no presents no cake just a normal day. for my 40th i just watched a movie with my kids and wife. it was great! its not depressing or nerve racking for me, but it's just another day for me
Today is my birthday ❤️ I'm turning sixteen and feel nothing. But I wanna feel happy for myself, I wanna celebrate. But I feel like no one wants to with me. But maybe some day, someone will. Thank youuu
This was the best birthday gift. Thank you for your wise words ❤
My parents always made a birthday table for me. Every year when I would wake up, I would walk into the kitchen and there would be cake, flowers, candles, gifts. And now I have this expectation that I put on my spouse and it’s so frustrating and hard every year. Today is my birthday and it has been really bad
Stumbled across this vid while trying to calm myself down. Thank you for this vid! Actually removed my bday on social media for people not to greet me. Glad that you touched this topic!
watching this the night of my birthday and i’m currently crying because my dad is stuck in the hospital, and my family couldn’t do anything too special for my 13th birthday today, i keep questioning why it had to happen on my special birthday and why he wasn’t able to get out in time
I turned 32 today. My expectations have been low since my mother died in 2017, because my mother's side stopped talking to me after she died and my Father's side never bothered. I'm still feeling so sad that noone on either side at least called or texted saying happy birthday. I don't expect presents, never have. But just a simple "hey, happy birthday" would have been nice.
Thank you so much for this. Was crying days ago and now on my bday eve. Glad I’m not alone on this 🙏🏼💚
130 subscribers when uploaded this and now look at where u r!!!! That’s amazing
It’s still so surreal! 🙌🏽
Happy Birthday Steph! I can totally relate to this 😘 Thank you for always been real.
Thank you!! 💕
Thank you so much for sharing this with the world. It helped me a lot today that is my birthday. That was a beautiful birthday gift. Bless you!
Happy birthday!! ♥️
@@StephAnya Thanks!!! :-)
45 today and as someone wrote, my birthdays weren't celebrated as a child (once I reached 10), so I learned I didn't matter. I've bought myself a ticket to a concert of a band I like, but now of course, I'm anxious going alone! I used to go to concerts alone all the time, in various countries, so I need to suck it up and get to the gig. I don't feel happy at all that it's my birthday but that's why I bought this ticket in advance, to make sure I have fun today whether I want to or not!
My birthday will be so soon next month, 😪😪 every year I got anxious and depressed . I am always rejected and feel insecure about my age.
My birthday is tomorrow and I am feeling this way today . I will be 21 tomorrow. I feel like this because whenever it’s someone else birthday whether it is my close family member or a friend I get really excited for them and do small yet special things for them like baking cake for them making them handmade gifts and letters . But no one actually does that for me and it makes me feel worthless , rejected and that no one really cares for me .
I have never had great birthdays, so I do try to keep my expectations to the minimum every year. Generally those don't get met either. Even by the loved ones I had gone above and beyond for on their birthdays. The complete lack of effort/thoughtfulness hurts every year. Yet, I never actually express that I wish for something special and personal to be on my birthday, on the possibility that I come off as high-maintenance or self-centered.
I’m soooo happy I found you!!!! I actually am pursuing the same field!!!!!!! Literally applying NOWWWW 😍❤️
Very powerful and insightful video, I encourage you to keep the videos coming people need and want to hear your message!
Thank you!
Thank you for this video! Tomorrow is my bday and last night the anxiety kicked in. I don't have a problem with the getting older part, but I've had a lot of pretty bad birthdays and I get anxious thinking about it, even though I know I'm in a much better place this year relationship, career and life goals -wise. I love celebrating others' birthdays but not my own.
Happy birthday. My birthday was yesterday. I am anxious about my b-day too, you are not alone🙂
Personally I don’t like my birthdays because, everyone always says it’s supposed to be about you, and I normally can’t pick what I want to do because I either don’t want the other people to not be happy, I don’t want to be the center of attention, and that I don’t mind most things, and hearing people always say it’s about you not about others, I just feel hurt by it even though I know they were just trying to be nice and make me feel better and not feel bad if they don’t enjoy it, but it just makes me feel like, I was wrong for feeling like I want people to be happy, because it makes me happy to see them feeling like they are having fun and enjoying themselves without forcing it. Like I’d rather us all have fun or just not have a birthday at all, I mean i don’t even remember my birthday until I’m reminded about it so yeah.
“Not exactly the same as what you talked about but this video did help a lot, I just felt like I was the one wrong, and why am I not more selfish or why can’t I just not care and enjoy myself either way, but that’s just not me.”
Thanks for this video quite late but it was very helpful 💞💞💞💞
To anyone reading this:
Happy Early/Late Birthday!
I have had anxiety about my own birtday for many years. First of all, I really don't care too much about other people's birthdays and I care especially little about mine. Then there is the whole congratulations thing: both on- and offline. Hate that part. Then there is presents: hate that too, because most presents I don't really like (and then it become an awkward game of faking it). Also, I really hate the attention and the whole "we are here for you". Well, not really. I don't invite people on my birthday. It's others that suggest to do something together. Once they gave me sort of a surprise by inviting friends over which I did not know about. Since then I have also the "there might be a surprise" stress. In 3 weeks I will turn 34 and have told my family that we are not going to do anything. Let's see how that feels. Maybe I will hate it and regret it and probably stick with this strategy for the rest of my life. It's a nice test at least. Having said that, I hate that I'm like that. In the end it's all about the people you love. Then why reject them?
I'm turning 27. I get depressed 2 weeks before my birthday (right after my wife's birthday) because I had setbacks that derailed my progression and I still haven't recovered from. The closer I get to 30, the more I feel like a loser and the worst it gets.
It's my birthday. I've been working at the same place since 2019, and I remember crying at work that year because I just felt so alone, you know. I'm celebrating 24 today, and the feeling is still the same (yes I have family members ), but I just think that birthday's are supposed to be fun. I just feel anxious and really down. It's the time of the year when I want to resign from my job. I'm in school so I'll just relax today and do some assignments. Maybe I can try something next week. Sigh
Today is my birthday, and I've always been so excited tvo turn this age, until like last month when I was just feeling ugh.. I'm crying right now, and the whole day I've bottled up my feelings, and I just feel like shit
It's currently my birthday and I hate it. I'm 29 and it's the worst. I have no one to celebrate it and i don't want to celebrate it unless its going to be big and I hate parties.
So sorry to hear this! The smallest way to celebrate a birthday is to reflect on what we're proud of ourselves for and what we love most about ourselves. Take some time to jot that down today to celebrate your 29 years. Happy birthday!
@@StephAnya Pride? Me? Miss, you must mistake me for someone who had actually accomplished something. I am nothing. I have never done anything in my life to earn such praise or self-love ( I hate that word). Also, please do not wish me a hally birthday. There's no such thing. It's not something to be celebrated. It's just a reminder that I'm cursed.
I think you could benefit from talking with someone to make your 30s very different from your 20s then. www.therapistlocator.net//
@@StephAnya There is no one to talk to because no one understands me.
@@oblivious108 chilllllllll
idk the thought of having a birthday just makes me sad i’m neurodivergent so i like very structured routine and a big party with lots of people pampering me just makes me sad
It’s my Birthday today and your video was the best present, good advice, thanks.
It's my 16th birthday, and I've been dealing with birthday blues all day, my dad got killed when I was 5 and it's just sad for me to be able to not see him today for my 16th, my mom and the rest of my family tried to take me out to D&B but I didn't feel like doing anything, so they were aggravated for "wasting their gas" even though I didn't ask to do anything at all. So now I've tried to make that up while creating a board game night, putting my feelings aside, so everyone got back at me for doing the thing I did, so I just went into my bed early and started crying.. they told me to come out of my room so they could sing happy birthday to me, but I just stood there unhappy and then I went to bed. I've been thinking about this all night long, and it's in my head...
i do the same things. tell everybody something for their birthday but felt bad if i didn't get the same reciprocation back, so now i just try to ignore it altogether. putting my phone on airplane mode, taking the date off all my social media accounts, etc. that and yeah i hate that i'm not where i should be in life either. i feel like time's winding down and i'm a failure. that's how today makes me feel.
but i didn't know others felt like i do. like the ignoring your birthday because you know people won't tell you anything for it anyway. i feel less weird about it now.
I had normal childhood birthdays but then an event at another childhood friend’s birthday was a trigger and led to CPTSD. As well an anxiety and depression.
As an adult I always went all out for other others only to have no on much for me. Did I have high expectations yes but I would have been happy if they just did something.
Fast forward to mid 20’s a weird thing started happening. Terrible events would always happen around my bday. This continued and got worse. I’m now 44. I thought this year will break it but my dad almost died. None of these events are in my control and are just awful. My birthday is curse.
I liked how you talked about self-discloser. I would probably benefit from therapy but get angry and envious thinking the therapist is so much smarter and better than me. At 18 I became a caregiver for my mom and all my money and resources go to her. I love my mom, but I hardly have any life experience. Now I'm 30 and I feel like my 20s were so empty I feel like I can't have my own life. I also get extremely envious of people on TH-cam. I know they had to work hard to get to where they are but on social media you only see the success of people. I sometimes feel like an old 90-year-old man not full of maturity but just outdated. I know this is two years old but how old are you and when did you go get your license?
My birthday and Christmas both make me sad.
At least I can decide to not be bothered on my own birthday to lessen the ache, eventhough some may get offended; airplane mode is the way to go.
Also, thank you for this. Glad I’m not the only one that goes through this.
I’ll be an adult this year. Tomorrow actually..I’m not ready to be 18. Adults don’t get anything in my family so I have my friend who’s getting me a gift. We don’t have the money for a birthday, mom just spent 2,000 on skin care randomly for herself, my sister, and I. Didn’t consult us on it, her money I get it but we are already not doing well enough financially for that. I already am unimportant to family and nothing this year feels worse. Maybe I’m materialistic or selfish. Though I don’t buy myself much or ask for any because how “needy” I’ve always been. (Moms told me many times). I would like just new clothes this year. A lot my stuff is old, dying, or graphic tees.
I’ve been depressed for years but my birthday is so much worse, feelings of worthlessness and despair. It’s too much.
Thanks, Steph Anya, you are a great example to all of us!
Awww how nice! Thank you!!
Tomorrow is my birthday. Last year I got so sad, because literally none of my friends congratulated me, until after I uploaded an insta post about my day. Not even my husbands family remembered. Birthdays always mean so much to me, and I always try to make everyone feel special on their birthdays, but.. yeah.. apparently no one wants to do that for me. 🤷♀️ trying to keep expectations low, and just enjoy my day with my own family.
Todays my birthday and I agreed to have a joint birthday with my boyfriends uncle. He’s turning 70 and I’m turning 26, his wife has made the whole day about him and it’s hurtful to feel like an afterthought when I thought I would be celebrated too. 😢
I’ve never been a fan of my birthday. I share my father’s name and birthday (August 31). He never raised me and left my mother before I was born. I wouldn’t be the first kid and mother he abandoned, and I wasn’t the last. I am his namesake and him being a bad father always sticks to me and I don’t really know how to shake that feeling. I’ve expressed these feelings to family members and they all look at me like I’m crazy instead of actually trying to help me seek solutions to my unresolved issues.
I feel like I'm asking too much on my birthday lol, that's why I try to avoid the topic a week or so before it comes, so nobody remembers it and feels obliged to do anything, although not a lot of people do, dont want to be a burden
From 130 to 130,000 subscribers!!!
Being the fact that my birthday is on the 17th of February and right after Valentine’s so not only was I single and broken up with a month before Valentine’s but I’m gonna be all alone in my birthday too . No one to celebrate me sigh
after 3 months its my birthday
and its 1 am rn idk i am kind of anxious
My 18th birthday is tomorrow. Idk I feel so anxious but it’s okay ❤️ I know I can handle it
It's really depressing especially if you can't celebrate your birthday
When i was a kid all my cousin comes on my birthday they are way older then me so make my birthday as there only relax from work party no kid was allowed on my birthday everyone do what they like no one ask me ever what i want on my birthday if i say something they always make fun of me like its so childish thing to do and never do that and now i just don't know what to do on my birthday what's the prosizer every Birthday bring that childhood sadness remember going to bathroom and crying with water on because no one let me wear even a simple dress i like now i never feel like dressing up on my birthday or making some good food or go out its just like a day where i have to pretend aw thank you for your wishes am so happy are you happy about it
Today is my birthday and I hate it because I am always forgotten by my family don;t never call or text but when it's their birthday they always expect me to throw them big birthdays and decorate ( I'm an event decorator) I never get anything like that. I don't need a birthday party but a text come on
For me it’s cause of getting older. Gonna be 30 tomorrow Also, I see people that have friends and they go out and party and stuff and I don’t have many friends, mostly associates or just old friends from the old neighborhood. It’s like I don’t have any memories of my bday after I turned maybe 14. It’s just a blur. Had good bdays as a kid. But somewhere along the lines I just felt depressed and anxious a month before my bday
My birthday was almost a week ago. It always felt like the worst day of the year to me. I feel depressed and lonely.
I'll be 30 tomorrow. I can't ever get excited about my bday. I don't want to plan anything. People don't give me the love I give them. At the same time I don't want to pass up my only 30 year birthday ever.. at the same time I already feel past my expiration most of the time.
you’re so amazing
Yeah whenever someone is like let me organize it. I'm always like please don't invite friends of friends, I don't need to be rejected. I also say to not get my hopes up bc I just can't deal with it.
Today is my birthday. I am leading this life only for my wife. Even my wife doesnt know how to make me feel happy on my birthday .hardest moment of my life. Very painful too.
So this year I decided to tell people they can celebrate my birthday on any other day but today. 🤣 So far so good👍
In another 2 hours it's my birthday and I'm here.... Phew the entire week was full of anxiousness 😑😑😑
This particular year has been the weirdest for any special occasion. Happy birthday! I hope it exceeds your expectations and that you can soak up any love sent your way.
3:53 that's exactly the way I view my birthday
I was feeling really sad because I have a great support system (family, friends and boyfriend) but no one texted me happy birthday after midnight. Maybe it's part of growing up that people aren't awake during the week after 12, maybe i shouldn't be sad cause my dad texted me something nice before midnight.. i just felt so insecure already about asking my friends to come party with me today, and them not having the time or money to come over. Then again I feel like an asshole for continuously asking them if they could before they declined, like i have some grand expectation of them. Is it bad that i want to feel special today? And that I'm worth buying a train ticket for? Ugh I'm a mess i should just go to bed
Awesome content! Definitely resonate with this topic ❤️
I’m glad you enjoyed it!!
yup, im in the right place:’) thank u
I just don't want to get hurt his bday too!! it'd in few hrs