the "lazy" defition was a mindfuck to me personally. I always thought that it meant "push it even if though you're exhausted" but only recently I learned that it only meant "you can do it but you just don't want to do it". I've been called lazy all my life and thought of myself as a failure because of it and never knew why until i got recently diagnosed with adhd
In psychology terms "laziness" does not exist but procrastination does. Procrastination makes the person look "lazy" but in reality there's a good reason why a person delays a certain task might be cause of negative emotions or a like a negative thought or past negative experience (ex. Trauma) or simply the person has like no energy to do a task (ex. Sensory overload/extreme fatigue)
My ADHD got better with HRT. hard to say if that's just "now im not also dealing with the passive noise of living the wrong gender" or if it did something chemically. Probably both
For me it got worse, but probably not because of HRT. I've just had more traumatic shit happen unrelated to hormones and now I'm a shell of my former self :3 (Well, I am better at some stuff than I used to and I actually like my body so not all bad.)
@@witherschat Yeah my egg cracking revealed that the egg itself was a pile of PTSD coping mechanisms smooshed together to resemble a person. Happier now, with a ton to work on
The rotting and going through depression and knowing you’ll get back to a better position at some point is exactly where I’m at. I also feel like I’m watching myself right now lol
Alternative title: Conure Describes MY Life While Talking About Their Life with ADHD Like... seriously, all of the stuff was to a T, but I've never been diagnosed with anything. Why is there so much identical with it all?!
Because we’ve pathologies anything that doesn’t make you a good productive worker. ADHD is just a natural human state of being, it just doesn’t mesh with capitalism…..
I was a gifted kid, all my teachers would say I "needed to put more effort" even though I was getting max grades in every class, it frustrated me so much because I never knew what to do, I was on the top and my parents and the rest of the adults wanted me to, do even better??? How? I already had the max grades! But I truly never studied, I would be quiet and pay attention at class because I didn't want to study at home, I would even help my friends with class work. I literally didn't studied for ENEM and still got a good enough grade to enter a federal college for biomedical engineering, however, I knew I would get fucked in class because I watched Dr K's videos, so I tried, I would study at my ap, I would study in the library with my friends and pay attention in class and I still failed, so I studied more, would be late at night studying, then I failed again. After that I got depressed, didn't study as much and failed again, then I started taking medicine my psychiatrist gave me, I did better, I was feeling better, then I felt bad again and failed, after that I stopped waking up before 11am, started missing classes, stopped eating breakfast or lunch, some days even dinner, lost some tests dates, wouldn't leave my room, I of course failed again. Now I'm 18 disciplines behind everyone, without any college's side projects, I can't pay attention, focus and for the first time almost had a panic attack during class, I was holding back tears, my heart was racing, couldn't breath that well for like 15 minutes before recomposing myself. I'm crumbling, I'm not okay and I don't lnow what to do becaue I take medicine, I try and still fail.
I relate so hard to this only luckily for me I crashed way earlier in like the middle of secondary school (15yrs old) and my mum took me to a psychologist and I got diagnosed and I took a big break from school in general. I still crash a lot but it's slowly getting better and I hope you find what works for you.
My mind was blown when Jaiden/Conure talked about losing friendships and romantic relationships because of ADHD... my life has been fucking ravaged by this and I'm just now learning that it is because of ADHD. Like, genuinely, I am stunned by this info
As someone who is trans with ADHD, I noticed that my ADHD got MUCH WORSE on estrogen, however I got much better at hyper focusing for longer periods of time. I can manage my DND campaigns so much easier and better now but things I'm moderately interested in is much harder to deal with, such as fighting games and game dev/programming
Oh god I hope that doesn't happen to me. I already struggle to work on my game development stuff, if estrogen makes me have even more adhd then it's over for me
i legit passed tests by reading the material before taking the test. thats how i got my cna in highschool, something you usually have to take a college hosted class to get. it may have been the weed but i dont smoke anymore and i still have shitty memory for most things. im feeling called out a bit
i have adhd but my method has always just been "if i manage do the homework, the course material will stick for the test" the one time i had to study for a test was a high school chemistry test on ions, with no prior homework. studied the sheet in the lunch period before class. 5 or 6 years later i can still tell you that carbonate is CO3 (2-), sulfate is SO4 (2-), sulfite is SO3 (2-), nitrate is NO3 (-), phosphate is PO4 (although i forgot it was 3-), chlorate is ClO3 (-) among hypochlorite, chlorite, (), and perchlorate, and oxalate is spelled with an a instead of a y because that's the one question i got wrong
@@rarebeeph1783 ouch i forgot how brutal high school was, one wrong letter and made it a wrong answer damn. i mean i know the abbreviation is important to get right but damn
@@rarebeeph1783I use(d) the method of paying attention in lecture, and not doing any homework. The active engagement of a lecture really gets me learning incredibly fast, and it sticks very well.
There are so many games I feel like I'll never finish because of my horrible habit of scraping every level for loot or secrets, but I do it in almost EVERY room, and when I do manage to ignore a room I feel like Im making a mistake in how I should be playing the game. And feeling like I can't even play a game I actually like correctly makes me hate it. I have sat on Elden Ring for two entire years because its so much and I cant even think of how to play it right. Baldura Gate ruins me.
I am from the uk, my secondary school had set 1 to 6, 1 being the smartest kids and 6 being the lowest. I have ADHD, diagnosed 22 and in primary school i was top of my classes consistently. In secondary i was in the top 2 sets for every subject, I liked reading and am good with numbers so did well in english and maths. I didnt study at home like Jaiden says at the start and would forget homework. My GCSE results and especially sixth form showed me how bad i was at studying and knowing i have ADHD now I could have done so much better in school but it wasnt spotted because i was smart and quiet not causing trouble
Probably on ADHD and Autism scale. In school, it was hit and miss on how well I did in any class. You can know the answers, and if it's a struggle to get your hands to fill out the answers, you can still fall short on how you perform. Always had problems with small motor functions. Then there was over a decade I spent feeling like my hands were holding live electric wires
Shit, watching Jaiden's video made me realize that maybe there were factors outside of my control for why I couldn't focus on my own 99% of the time unless I had an appointment. Getting diagnosed soon! Hope I can actually focus soon
I felt exactly how Jaiden did with Adderall at first, but after months of it I quickly built up a tolerance to the point where it had seemingly no effect at all, but I'm also going through a depressive episode at the same time, so I don't know how much of the inability to do things is ADHD and how much is depression. After taking a break from adderall, I can feel the effects again, but then still can't bring myself to do "productive" tasks, and instead get really focused on creative stuff that interests me until it wears off. I am also a member of the "gifted to burnout" club.
I'm gonna share my own similar experience with ADHD medication and depression, and hopefully point out some tips. Everyone goes through things differently, take this with big spoonful of salt. I've had adhd meds for 6 years now. In the beginning I had the classic wow effect. My brain chemistry got changed for the better and the contrast was huge. As time went by, the contrast shrunk because the medicated brain was becoming the new normal. Then depression. The way I differentiate the two is, adhd makes things that I'm not interested in harder than the things I am interested in. Depression makes me less interested in things that I "normally" enjoy. So try to approach it from different viewpoint. With the medication the mayhem of noise in your brain is probably quieter, try to take notice of this. For me, I can focus on and remember lyrics in songs when I'm medicated, unmedicated I lose track before the first verse is over. That's my "sanity" check, to proof the medication is still helping, otherwise I don't really notice ANY difference because the contrast between before and after in the morning is completely gone. The medication is supposed to give you leverage to tackle adhd, it's almost never a magic cure. Try to intentionally notice the difference between finding it hard to get motivated to start or focus on things you aren't interested in, and things that you struggle to do, but know you are supposed to love doing. Take notes if necessary.
My country makes getting diagnosed with autism and ADHD basically impossible unless you're a perfectly stereotypical case, its irritating. I've presumed I likely have ADHD-I for a while, both my partners with it said I probably have it, I've gotten it mentioned from my therapist... but 98% of psych staff is somehow convinced you cant have them if you werent diagnosed as a kid, especially if you dared do well in school. Bleh.
I used to take adderall and eventually vyvanse everyday for ADHD but eventually weaned myself off it. Totally was tested for “gifted” programs early on but later on struggled cause I refused to do homework in middle and high school. Like you spend 8-9 hours in school and a lot of that time you COULD do homework on the side but the teachers will yell at ya so I’d end up speed running on the bus when I got to the point where summer school became a looming threat.
I wonder how many people have autism or are ADHD on some level. As someone who knows I am ADHD and would not be surprised if I am slightly on the spectrum, it’s hard for me to tell. It is good that we are doing more research on how our brains work. A lot of people are probably not normal in the brain and that’s okay. There are millions like you and it’s nothing to be ashamed of.
Jaiden's video has got me thinking. Maybe i should stop ignoring my family when they keep telling me i have adhd and i should get it checked out. I thought they were making fun of me but i the more i think about it the more i am starting to feel they are serious. The dam video is describing me.
i have issues in school as someone is on the spectrum was in school. hard to get into school as they are boring, and i struggle with them with learning disability. like dealing with language barriers. (except science or computer but hate dealing with learning to type without looking at the keyboard) though i do enjoy the creative part when playing RPGmaker but struggle with coming up with a good start of the story. i have the direction. I just dont know how to make a good start
Laziness as a concept is just false, People never aren't doing something just because they don't wanna. Its always some mental barrier they need to overcome
And often times, that barrier is overlooked, normalized, demonized, or completely ignored because we/they dont know what it is at it's core. It's a psychological issue, sure, but what exactly is it then? Do we have an answer? Certainly i dont..i havent gotten too much into psychology
Stumbled upon this chanel and has been watching it as my background noise for who knows how long at this point one video after another and i don't know why but it feels SO strnge to hear your own the thoughts and inner monologue spoken iur loud and actually cohesively put into words and not inti a jumble of ideas and concepts (because i struggle with forming sentences about things i think of and often i just butcher them and get completely other thought in attempt to say what i wanted initially) But it feels so good too, i like this, it makes me feel understood!
13:00 is WAY to relatable as I have been doing this for the last year in High School since it is physically difficult for me to be motivated to do my work until I have 5 minutes to turn it in. Then I rush through it and still get overall good grades. But this is a bad feedback loop into me missing more and more homework that just lead to a lot of anxiety.
I was a burn out to gifted to burnout pipeline because of abusive homeschooling that made me over prepared for 6th and 7th grade and then I suffered past that
50:19 *So you're saying stimulants act essentially like a comb straightening out a bad neuron hair day? Huh. So that's the "caffeine hack." Explains a lot. Still bad for my circulatory system though, and by the time I knew enough to give the condition a name or three, I already had developped a heart condition and stress dissorder to boot, so, even when severely abusing caffeine, there's only so far that can help me. So many things we learn from younger people. You give me hope, and it is sorely needed, so thank you.
16:18 my personal experience is that its an executive function issue. I will be lying there in bed and know I need to get up and go, but no amount of me internally cuing my brain, screaming to initiate getting the fuck up gets it the fuck up. it isnt until the threat of either being late, or the threat of my bladder giving out on me cattle prods my brain that it actually gets a move on. its similar with food, if I get way zoned into something, I will eventually start to feel kinda sick and realize its 3pm, I have not eaten or had any water today, and trying to disengage my brain from the task it is getting dopamine from is like trying to pry a live octopus off your arm. the deranged jellyfish living in my skull, jerking around the strings to the flesh suit is incredibly uncooperative under most circumstances, unless there are treats involved, and even then those should really be under somebody else's control because it does not listen to me half the time.
My Executive Dysfunction symptoms are so similar, I swear. I will know I need to do something simple and obvious, but I just............ can't do it, no matter how much I put the effort in. I KNOW I'll feel happier when I do it. It's obvious. Of COURSE I will... but I can't. It's so incredibly hideously awful, and the only way I can force myself to do things is when I get straight up *angry* at times, and then I just feel upset and it's not pleasant. Yes, I have been diagnosed and I do have my meds, which is good. I'm still trying to find the right dosage/maybe change medication so it can work better, though. It takes time. Too much time, but time nonetheless.
41:50 I took concerta as a kid. I could focus, yeah, but I became a shell of who I was, to the point where my family was calling me a zombie. I didn’t complain because I thought that’s what it was SUPPOSED to do
im mad cause i keep flipping through "i dont have adhd" and "oh fuck i prolly have it" but at the same time esp at this time dont see a reason for a diagnosis so im just like screaming inside
Re: hormones affecting ADHD, as someone who only started taking testosterone when they were in their early 20s and already graduated from college, hormones ABSOLUTELY affect how ADHD presents. I've been through the wringer with regards to my hormones (ended up going through surgical menopause and adjusting my hormones from 0 to 100), and I noticed that testosterone made my inattentiveness and impulsiveness feel worse somehow. It's really bizarre! (Disclaimer: I'm not a medical professional section upcoming:) I'm willing to bet it's dependent on every person, too. From what I understand, testosterone technically is a stimulant, and like estrogen, plays a part in dopamine synthesis. So you'd think adding hormones like that would help ADHD rather than the opposite, right? I know in my case, the stimulant medication that actually helps with my ADHD is methylphenidate, which is a dopamine reuptake inhibitor. So in my case, it doesn't matter how much dopamine my body actually has, since it gets reabsorbed uselessly anyways unless I'm medicated. Adding more dopamine probably just made it worse! But someone who Adderall works for might have the opposite effect, as they're typically just dopamine deficient without reuptake issues. Funky stuff!
I was going to write some long comment in detail about "haha wow I'm not diagnosed with ADHD but literally me" but I got tired of writing it. I'll just fidget with two quarters and a dime :3
My ADHD got worse with HRT (testosterone) and I have talked to a handful of people with similar experiences. I wonder if there is any relation the higher diagnosis rate for boys. I definitely had it before, but my symptoms got a little worse and I had to relearn my coping skills. I still manage ok and don’t need medication though (besides coffee which I genuinely need to sit still if it’s a desk job or class day).
yeah my granpa is a brilliant electrical engineer and defs has autism though was born on the year 1950 so hes not getting diagnosed anytime soon, though hes based and has come around as he was raised in a eastern washinton farming community. and he very rarely even makes comments about race compared to the jokes the rest of his siblings make and still think are funny
Adderall and other stimulant medications for ADHD are kind of like this: If you have super-perception, you might be able to _see_ a super-speed attack, but you don't necessarily have the body super-speed to keep up with it. You can send the command to your body to dodge... and then you _wait._ You see the attack coming in slow-motion, and you're waiting for the nerve impulse to crawl down your spine, along the peripheral nerves, into your muscles, and *then* your muscles start contracting _even slower_ than nerve impulses travel! And before you know it, you get whalloped because even though you knew you were about to get hit, you knew how to avoid it, and you already sent the order to your body to _dodge..._ your body was just *too slow!* What if there was some super-drug stimulant that could give your *body* the super-speed to keep up with your perception? It wouldn't make you "hyperactive", it would allow you to move like Quicksilver from the X-Men movies: not _just_ super-fast, but *perfectly precise,* too. Think of him evacuating the *entire* mansion *during* the explosion. He was calm, perceptive, planned _every_ action. Now just shift that up one level: for people with ADHD, impulses are like the super-speed perceptions and our thoughts are like the regular-speed body that can't keep up. And stimulant medications like Adderall speed up the "thought" parts of the brain to keep up with the "impulse" parts, which are "always" racing. So now, everything is in _balance._ And that's really the root of the issue: *balance.* Problems happen when you have lopsided speeds; where one part of the body or mind can't keep up with another. Evening everything out, whether that evened out speed is overall fast or overall slow, helps solve the problem.
I have mourned for almost 20 years at this point that to live I have to find a way to sell something, and that all of my passions do not make enough money to live. I know that I'm a capable and smart person, but oof, that's just not the life I want.
As someone who highly suspects they have ADHD (and possibly autism as well), I’ve never understood how people can drink caffeine and feel sleepy. I usually drink it because it can help me focus, even if only a tiny bit. If I drink too much though, it just makes the lack of focus worse :0
I was decent in school, 'gifted kid' n all. But in the later grades (8-12) i started falling off to adhd. If it wasnt enjoyable to me (like something i wanted to do/draw) i would procrastinate or be distracted by whatever other thing i cared about. Math sucked, english kinda sucked (i liked writing, but eventually i couldnt write anything i wanted but school-related writing, which i didnt like writing, but had to force myself to.) Liked science even less, like it was math class, but a lot worse in relation to the math class i was in. Physical education sucked as my body hated me (asthma/etc) I liked computers/coding for a while, (and one of the few who passed some related tests) but after i got out of stripes i kinda fell off of that in skill. Tried crocheting, i like it, but i never _actually_ got into. Tho i do want to. Same as digital modelling/designing/rigging. It would help in my artistic endeavors. But i dont know how to learn/get into it. Which sucks. I want to learn at my own pace, but i dont know how to make that pace enjoyable. I have specific interests i want to hone, but i dont know how to start/improve others i may want to branch into.
I would like the clarify, the Venn diagram of autism and ADHD isn't almost a circle, but one circle is much smaller. Most autistic people are also ADHD, but there are way more ADHD people than autistic people and most ADHD people don't have autism.
I started watching this video which distracted me from playing elden ring dlc, and then i clicked off youtube to look at instagram and scroll through transphobic comments. ahem, totally unrelated
Im still unsure if i have ADHD but my gfs do. I played magic the gathering starting at 16 until I was 25. I stimmed with shuffling the cards in my hand a lot and its great for the first hour or two maybe even three. but a short magic event is like 4 hours. that gets a bit painful after a while.
Choline helped me increase my dopamine receptor density. Alanine supplements also helped me keep my neurons alive through depression.... still wish i had access to Ritalin tho.
I had no suspicions of me having ADHD for 17 years and then one person releases one video and they have ADHD and I can directly relate to every single thing said in the video But surely I don't have ADHD right
Wait...do I actually have ADHD? They put me on Ritalin when I was a kid and it put me to sleep. I threw it out so often that my parents just stopped making me take it. That was 20 years ago and and I can tick every box in this video...
You don't grow out of it. And if you were sufficiently diagnosed to get Ritalin, you might need to talk to the doc now as an adult. Ritalin was a hammer, though. I'd mention to the doc that it put you to sleep so they can prescribe an alternative.
@SCh1m3ra Yeah, I guess my family and I are pretty bad at the whole mental health side of things. I honestly just assumed I'm just a lazy guy that pops off for the first couple of months of doing anything new and just burns out when there aren't anymore surprises. Couple that with not paying bills on time when I actually have the money, I suppose that's not exactly normal behavior...Thanks for clarifying, I should probably talk to a professional once I figure out how my Healthcare even works lol
As of typing this it came out a whole 11 days ago. Plenty of time for it to make the rounds for it's own views. They're not content farming, mostly just relating their own experience. I watched Jaden's video when it first came out and clicked here to hear some engaging insight on the material. Complain some more.
@MInty56- Im 30 minutes in and the streamer has watched maybe 3-5 minutes of the original video. Most of the video has been them talking about their own experiences with adhd and how its impacted their life. I dont necessarily disagree with your original premise, but if you're going to criticize a video, it's a good idea to make sure your criticism actually applies, unless you just want to make your cause look silly and uninformed.
the "lazy" defition was a mindfuck to me personally. I always thought that it meant "push it even if though you're exhausted" but only recently I learned that it only meant "you can do it but you just don't want to do it". I've been called lazy all my life and thought of myself as a failure because of it and never knew why until i got recently diagnosed with adhd
In psychology terms "laziness" does not exist but procrastination does. Procrastination makes the person look "lazy" but in reality there's a good reason why a person delays a certain task might be cause of negative emotions or a like a negative thought or past negative experience (ex. Trauma) or simply the person has like no energy to do a task (ex. Sensory overload/extreme fatigue)
My ADHD got better with HRT. hard to say if that's just "now im not also dealing with the passive noise of living the wrong gender" or if it did something chemically. Probably both
ADHD is heavily linked with low dopamine! So no longer being depressed about the wrong-body™ would help solve the no dopamine issue a lot
For me it got worse, but probably not because of HRT.
I've just had more traumatic shit happen unrelated to hormones and now I'm a shell of my former self :3
(Well, I am better at some stuff than I used to and I actually like my body so not all bad.)
@@witherschat Yeah my egg cracking revealed that the egg itself was a pile of PTSD coping mechanisms smooshed together to resemble a person. Happier now, with a ton to work on
Okay, I underestimated the comment bots issue.
Theyve even srarted using slurs
how do I get automodded for mentioning a social media or saying a curse word and these bots be out here talking about r word uncensored
Yeah it’s bad
Dude it’s gotten SOOO bad 💀
@@no-be3zvalso literally saying the hard r, no censoring, no weird letters or fonts, just raw hard r
The rotting and going through depression and knowing you’ll get back to a better position at some point is exactly where I’m at. I also feel like I’m watching myself right now lol
Alternative title: Conure Describes MY Life While Talking About Their Life with ADHD
Like... seriously, all of the stuff was to a T, but I've never been diagnosed with anything. Why is there so much identical with it all?!
Welcome to episode 1 of Conure calling me out....
“T”, eh?
@@ElyssaTheTrans Well, I’d prefer some E, but “to a T” is, unfortunately in this instance, the phrase
Because we’ve pathologies anything that doesn’t make you a good productive worker.
ADHD is just a natural human state of being, it just doesn’t mesh with capitalism…..
@@GreenFantom "to an E" will become the new phrase, god willing...
I was a gifted kid, all my teachers would say I "needed to put more effort" even though I was getting max grades in every class, it frustrated me so much because I never knew what to do, I was on the top and my parents and the rest of the adults wanted me to, do even better??? How? I already had the max grades!
But I truly never studied, I would be quiet and pay attention at class because I didn't want to study at home, I would even help my friends with class work.
I literally didn't studied for ENEM and still got a good enough grade to enter a federal college for biomedical engineering, however, I knew I would get fucked in class because I watched Dr K's videos, so I tried, I would study at my ap, I would study in the library with my friends and pay attention in class and I still failed, so I studied more, would be late at night studying, then I failed again. After that I got depressed, didn't study as much and failed again, then I started taking medicine my psychiatrist gave me, I did better, I was feeling better, then I felt bad again and failed, after that I stopped waking up before 11am, started missing classes, stopped eating breakfast or lunch, some days even dinner, lost some tests dates, wouldn't leave my room, I of course failed again.
Now I'm 18 disciplines behind everyone, without any college's side projects, I can't pay attention, focus and for the first time almost had a panic attack during class, I was holding back tears, my heart was racing, couldn't breath that well for like 15 minutes before recomposing myself.
I'm crumbling, I'm not okay and I don't lnow what to do becaue I take medicine, I try and still fail.
I relate so hard to this only luckily for me I crashed way earlier in like the middle of secondary school (15yrs old) and my mum took me to a psychologist and I got diagnosed and I took a big break from school in general. I still crash a lot but it's slowly getting better and I hope you find what works for you.
My mind was blown when Jaiden/Conure talked about losing friendships and romantic relationships because of ADHD... my life has been fucking ravaged by this and I'm just now learning that it is because of ADHD. Like, genuinely, I am stunned by this info
As someone who is trans with ADHD, I noticed that my ADHD got MUCH WORSE on estrogen, however I got much better at hyper focusing for longer periods of time. I can manage my DND campaigns so much easier and better now but things I'm moderately interested in is much harder to deal with, such as fighting games and game dev/programming
Oh god I hope that doesn't happen to me. I already struggle to work on my game development stuff, if estrogen makes me have even more adhd then it's over for me
i legit passed tests by reading the material before taking the test. thats how i got my cna in highschool, something you usually have to take a college hosted class to get. it may have been the weed but i dont smoke anymore and i still have shitty memory for most things. im feeling called out a bit
i have adhd but my method has always just been "if i manage do the homework, the course material will stick for the test"
the one time i had to study for a test was a high school chemistry test on ions, with no prior homework. studied the sheet in the lunch period before class. 5 or 6 years later i can still tell you that carbonate is CO3 (2-), sulfate is SO4 (2-), sulfite is SO3 (2-), nitrate is NO3 (-), phosphate is PO4 (although i forgot it was 3-), chlorate is ClO3 (-) among hypochlorite, chlorite, (), and perchlorate, and oxalate is spelled with an a instead of a y because that's the one question i got wrong
@@rarebeeph1783 ouch i forgot how brutal high school was, one wrong letter and made it a wrong answer damn. i mean i know the abbreviation is important to get right but damn
@@rarebeeph1783I use(d) the method of paying attention in lecture, and not doing any homework. The active engagement of a lecture really gets me learning incredibly fast, and it sticks very well.
There are so many games I feel like I'll never finish because of my horrible habit of scraping every level for loot or secrets, but I do it in almost EVERY room, and when I do manage to ignore a room I feel like Im making a mistake in how I should be playing the game. And feeling like I can't even play a game I actually like correctly makes me hate it.
I have sat on Elden Ring for two entire years because its so much and I cant even think of how to play it right. Baldura Gate ruins me.
I am from the uk, my secondary school had set 1 to 6, 1 being the smartest kids and 6 being the lowest. I have ADHD, diagnosed 22 and in primary school i was top of my classes consistently.
In secondary i was in the top 2 sets for every subject, I liked reading and am good with numbers so did well in english and maths. I didnt study at home like Jaiden says at the start and would forget homework. My GCSE results and especially sixth form showed me how bad i was at studying and knowing i have ADHD now I could have done so much better in school but it wasnt spotted because i was smart and quiet not causing trouble
Probably on ADHD and Autism scale. In school, it was hit and miss on how well I did in any class. You can know the answers, and if it's a struggle to get your hands to fill out the answers, you can still fall short on how you perform. Always had problems with small motor functions. Then there was over a decade I spent feeling like my hands were holding live electric wires
You may have some kind of chronic pain
@@skye4082 I am now 2+ years free of the pain thanks to getting into shape
@@jeremyofficer5038 that’s good! I’m glad you’re no longer feeling that pain! :D
Shit, watching Jaiden's video made me realize that maybe there were factors outside of my control for why I couldn't focus on my own 99% of the time unless I had an appointment. Getting diagnosed soon! Hope I can actually focus soon
I felt exactly how Jaiden did with Adderall at first, but after months of it I quickly built up a tolerance to the point where it had seemingly no effect at all, but I'm also going through a depressive episode at the same time, so I don't know how much of the inability to do things is ADHD and how much is depression. After taking a break from adderall, I can feel the effects again, but then still can't bring myself to do "productive" tasks, and instead get really focused on creative stuff that interests me until it wears off. I am also a member of the "gifted to burnout" club.
I'm gonna share my own similar experience with ADHD medication and depression, and hopefully point out some tips. Everyone goes through things differently, take this with big spoonful of salt.
I've had adhd meds for 6 years now. In the beginning I had the classic wow effect. My brain chemistry got changed for the better and the contrast was huge. As time went by, the contrast shrunk because the medicated brain was becoming the new normal. Then depression. The way I differentiate the two is, adhd makes things that I'm not interested in harder than the things I am interested in. Depression makes me less interested in things that I "normally" enjoy. So try to approach it from different viewpoint. With the medication the mayhem of noise in your brain is probably quieter, try to take notice of this. For me, I can focus on and remember lyrics in songs when I'm medicated, unmedicated I lose track before the first verse is over. That's my "sanity" check, to proof the medication is still helping, otherwise I don't really notice ANY difference because the contrast between before and after in the morning is completely gone. The medication is supposed to give you leverage to tackle adhd, it's almost never a magic cure.
Try to intentionally notice the difference between finding it hard to get motivated to start or focus on things you aren't interested in, and things that you struggle to do, but know you are supposed to love doing. Take notes if necessary.
My country makes getting diagnosed with autism and ADHD basically impossible unless you're a perfectly stereotypical case, its irritating. I've presumed I likely have ADHD-I for a while, both my partners with it said I probably have it, I've gotten it mentioned from my therapist... but 98% of psych staff is somehow convinced you cant have them if you werent diagnosed as a kid, especially if you dared do well in school. Bleh.
I used to take adderall and eventually vyvanse everyday for ADHD but eventually weaned myself off it. Totally was tested for “gifted” programs early on but later on struggled cause I refused to do homework in middle and high school. Like you spend 8-9 hours in school and a lot of that time you COULD do homework on the side but the teachers will yell at ya so I’d end up speed running on the bus when I got to the point where summer school became a looming threat.
I wonder how many people have autism or are ADHD on some level. As someone who knows I am ADHD and would not be surprised if I am slightly on the spectrum, it’s hard for me to tell.
It is good that we are doing more research on how our brains work. A lot of people are probably not normal in the brain and that’s okay. There are millions like you and it’s nothing to be ashamed of.
Jaiden's video has got me thinking. Maybe i should stop ignoring my family when they keep telling me i have adhd and i should get it checked out. I thought they were making fun of me but i the more i think about it the more i am starting to feel they are serious. The dam video is describing me.
Fun thing. I actually got pulled into the left because you reacted to the Jaiden ace video. Now my brain is rotten with woke communism! Thanks!
One of us! One of us! >:D
i have issues in school as someone is on the spectrum was in school. hard to get into school as they are boring, and i struggle with them with learning disability. like dealing with language barriers. (except science or computer but hate dealing with learning to type without looking at the keyboard) though i do enjoy the creative part when playing RPGmaker but struggle with coming up with a good start of the story. i have the direction. I just dont know how to make a good start
Laziness as a concept is just false, People never aren't doing something just because they don't wanna. Its always some mental barrier they need to overcome
And often times, that barrier is overlooked, normalized, demonized, or completely ignored because we/they dont know what it is at it's core. It's a psychological issue, sure, but what exactly is it then? Do we have an answer? Certainly i dont..i havent gotten too much into psychology
Jaidenanimations video made me actually pick up the phone and get my doctor to put me on adhd meds. Nearly 1 week now
Putting your already made Jaidensona to use again 😄
I think conure should put together an irl Jaiden fit since they're both drippy af
0:00 Yea….thats just me, 100%
Conure just describing me
Stumbled upon this chanel and has been watching it as my background noise for who knows how long at this point one video after another and i don't know why but it feels SO strnge to hear your own the thoughts and inner monologue spoken iur loud and actually cohesively put into words and not inti a jumble of ideas and concepts (because i struggle with forming sentences about things i think of and often i just butcher them and get completely other thought in attempt to say what i wanted initially)
But it feels so good too, i like this, it makes me feel understood!
13:00 is WAY to relatable as I have been doing this for the last year in High School since it is physically difficult for me to be motivated to do my work until I have 5 minutes to turn it in. Then I rush through it and still get overall good grades. But this is a bad feedback loop into me missing more and more homework that just lead to a lot of anxiety.
Hey Conure Thanks for the tip about the cards! I never actually thought about using my MTG cards as a replacement fidget toy
I knew Conure is gonna talk about this, and I'm all for it. 👍
10:51 this is what AP chem did to me. I loved chemistry and then I hated it lmao😭😭😭
What you said in the first half of the video puts my feelings into words, finally! Thank you!
the comment of playing cards being a goated fidget toy is so right ive had like 4 decks of card on my desk for years
As someone who has adhd your experience is way too relatable
I was a burn out to gifted to burnout pipeline because of abusive homeschooling that made me over prepared for 6th and 7th grade and then I suffered past that
50:19 *So you're saying stimulants act essentially like a comb straightening out a bad neuron hair day? Huh. So that's the "caffeine hack." Explains a lot. Still bad for my circulatory system though, and by the time I knew enough to give the condition a name or three, I already had developped a heart condition and stress dissorder to boot, so, even when severely abusing caffeine, there's only so far that can help me.
So many things we learn from younger people. You give me hope, and it is sorely needed, so thank you.
16:18 my personal experience is that its an executive function issue.
I will be lying there in bed and know I need to get up and go, but no amount of me internally cuing my brain, screaming to initiate getting the fuck up gets it the fuck up. it isnt until the threat of either being late, or the threat of my bladder giving out on me cattle prods my brain that it actually gets a move on. its similar with food, if I get way zoned into something, I will eventually start to feel kinda sick and realize its 3pm, I have not eaten or had any water today, and trying to disengage my brain from the task it is getting dopamine from is like trying to pry a live octopus off your arm. the deranged jellyfish living in my skull, jerking around the strings to the flesh suit is incredibly uncooperative under most circumstances, unless there are treats involved, and even then those should really be under somebody else's control because it does not listen to me half the time.
My Executive Dysfunction symptoms are so similar, I swear. I will know I need to do something simple and obvious, but I just............ can't do it, no matter how much I put the effort in. I KNOW I'll feel happier when I do it. It's obvious. Of COURSE I will... but I can't. It's so incredibly hideously awful, and the only way I can force myself to do things is when I get straight up *angry* at times, and then I just feel upset and it's not pleasant.
Yes, I have been diagnosed and I do have my meds, which is good. I'm still trying to find the right dosage/maybe change medication so it can work better, though. It takes time. Too much time, but time nonetheless.
Ugh, me.
If only I could word this to my mom, but she’s been telling me my autism is enough lmaooo
41:50 I took concerta as a kid. I could focus, yeah, but I became a shell of who I was, to the point where my family was calling me a zombie. I didn’t complain because I thought that’s what it was SUPPOSED to do
im mad cause i keep flipping through "i dont have adhd" and "oh fuck i prolly have it" but at the same time esp at this time dont see a reason for a diagnosis so im just like screaming inside
Re: hormones affecting ADHD, as someone who only started taking testosterone when they were in their early 20s and already graduated from college, hormones ABSOLUTELY affect how ADHD presents. I've been through the wringer with regards to my hormones (ended up going through surgical menopause and adjusting my hormones from 0 to 100), and I noticed that testosterone made my inattentiveness and impulsiveness feel worse somehow. It's really bizarre!
(Disclaimer: I'm not a medical professional section upcoming:) I'm willing to bet it's dependent on every person, too. From what I understand, testosterone technically is a stimulant, and like estrogen, plays a part in dopamine synthesis. So you'd think adding hormones like that would help ADHD rather than the opposite, right? I know in my case, the stimulant medication that actually helps with my ADHD is methylphenidate, which is a dopamine reuptake inhibitor. So in my case, it doesn't matter how much dopamine my body actually has, since it gets reabsorbed uselessly anyways unless I'm medicated. Adding more dopamine probably just made it worse! But someone who Adderall works for might have the opposite effect, as they're typically just dopamine deficient without reuptake issues. Funky stuff!
I was going to write some long comment in detail about "haha wow I'm not diagnosed with ADHD but literally me" but I got tired of writing it. I'll just fidget with two quarters and a dime :3
My ADHD got worse with HRT (testosterone) and I have talked to a handful of people with similar experiences. I wonder if there is any relation the higher diagnosis rate for boys. I definitely had it before, but my symptoms got a little worse and I had to relearn my coping skills. I still manage ok and don’t need medication though (besides coffee which I genuinely need to sit still if it’s a desk job or class day).
yeah my granpa is a brilliant electrical engineer and defs has autism though was born on the year 1950 so hes not getting diagnosed anytime soon, though hes based and has come around as he was raised in a eastern washinton farming community. and he very rarely even makes comments about race compared to the jokes the rest of his siblings make and still think are funny
Adderall and other stimulant medications for ADHD are kind of like this:
If you have super-perception, you might be able to _see_ a super-speed attack, but you don't necessarily have the body super-speed to keep up with it. You can send the command to your body to dodge... and then you _wait._ You see the attack coming in slow-motion, and you're waiting for the nerve impulse to crawl down your spine, along the peripheral nerves, into your muscles, and *then* your muscles start contracting _even slower_ than nerve impulses travel! And before you know it, you get whalloped because even though you knew you were about to get hit, you knew how to avoid it, and you already sent the order to your body to _dodge..._ your body was just *too slow!* What if there was some super-drug stimulant that could give your *body* the super-speed to keep up with your perception? It wouldn't make you "hyperactive", it would allow you to move like Quicksilver from the X-Men movies: not _just_ super-fast, but *perfectly precise,* too. Think of him evacuating the *entire* mansion *during* the explosion. He was calm, perceptive, planned _every_ action.
Now just shift that up one level: for people with ADHD, impulses are like the super-speed perceptions and our thoughts are like the regular-speed body that can't keep up. And stimulant medications like Adderall speed up the "thought" parts of the brain to keep up with the "impulse" parts, which are "always" racing. So now, everything is in _balance._
And that's really the root of the issue: *balance.* Problems happen when you have lopsided speeds; where one part of the body or mind can't keep up with another. Evening everything out, whether that evened out speed is overall fast or overall slow, helps solve the problem.
I have mourned for almost 20 years at this point that to live I have to find a way to sell something, and that all of my passions do not make enough money to live. I know that I'm a capable and smart person, but oof, that's just not the life I want.
As someone who highly suspects they have ADHD (and possibly autism as well), I’ve never understood how people can drink caffeine and feel sleepy. I usually drink it because it can help me focus, even if only a tiny bit. If I drink too much though, it just makes the lack of focus worse :0
I was decent in school, 'gifted kid' n all. But in the later grades (8-12) i started falling off to adhd. If it wasnt enjoyable to me (like something i wanted to do/draw) i would procrastinate or be distracted by whatever other thing i cared about.
Math sucked, english kinda sucked (i liked writing, but eventually i couldnt write anything i wanted but school-related writing, which i didnt like writing, but had to force myself to.)
Liked science even less, like it was math class, but a lot worse in relation to the math class i was in.
Physical education sucked as my body hated me (asthma/etc)
I liked computers/coding for a while, (and one of the few who passed some related tests) but after i got out of stripes i kinda fell off of that in skill.
Tried crocheting, i like it, but i never _actually_ got into. Tho i do want to. Same as digital modelling/designing/rigging. It would help in my artistic endeavors. But i dont know how to learn/get into it. Which sucks.
I want to learn at my own pace, but i dont know how to make that pace enjoyable.
I have specific interests i want to hone, but i dont know how to start/improve others i may want to branch into.
I would like the clarify, the Venn diagram of autism and ADHD isn't almost a circle, but one circle is much smaller.
Most autistic people are also ADHD, but there are way more ADHD people than autistic people and most ADHD people don't have autism.
Conure going on a 20 minute rant 2 minutes into the video is peak ADHD
My nephew and I watched Jaiden’s video and it was so much fun 😋
This inspired me to try and get back on meds after 4 years of being horribly unmedicated
Normalize reacting to Jaiden's videos. Nice job Conure 😊
And here's me, galavanting around on TH-cam instead of doing the paperwork for college.
I think I need to get tested.
bruh i took medication for a month or so, and the only thing it changed was my poor hearthbeat and my head presion, kinda painful. it was so dumb.
Yoooooo literally the first person I've ever seen who also has keratoconus
9:42 linguistics is cool, my type of linguistics is the conlanging type
The good worker bee rant is my entire life
Yeah no shuffling cards is great just like cant do that in business calls with the camera on
I started watching this video which distracted me from playing elden ring dlc, and then i clicked off youtube to look at instagram and scroll through transphobic comments.
ahem, totally unrelated
Im still unsure if i have ADHD but my gfs do. I played magic the gathering starting at 16 until I was 25. I stimmed with shuffling the cards in my hand a lot and its great for the first hour or two maybe even three. but a short magic event is like 4 hours. that gets a bit painful after a while.
im a terirble worker bee
but im even worse at working for myself 😭
I quite literally choked up watching Jaiden's video 😅
36:30 Conure is not a psychology. confirmed
3:41 Right after you said this an ad popped up and I can’t tell if this was intentional 😭
Choline helped me increase my dopamine receptor density. Alanine supplements also helped me keep my neurons alive through depression.... still wish i had access to Ritalin tho.
yeah holy shit this is all too real and i might have sobbed a bit lmao
I had no suspicions of me having ADHD for 17 years and then one person releases one video and they have ADHD and I can directly relate to every single thing said in the video
But surely I don't have ADHD right
What’s the outdo music? It’s so pretty 😭
Wait...do I actually have ADHD? They put me on Ritalin when I was a kid and it put me to sleep. I threw it out so often that my parents just stopped making me take it. That was 20 years ago and and I can tick every box in this video...
You don't grow out of it. And if you were sufficiently diagnosed to get Ritalin, you might need to talk to the doc now as an adult.
Ritalin was a hammer, though. I'd mention to the doc that it put you to sleep so they can prescribe an alternative.
@SCh1m3ra Yeah, I guess my family and I are pretty bad at the whole mental health side of things. I honestly just assumed I'm just a lazy guy that pops off for the first couple of months of doing anything new and just burns out when there aren't anymore surprises. Couple that with not paying bills on time when I actually have the money, I suppose that's not exactly normal behavior...Thanks for clarifying, I should probably talk to a professional once I figure out how my Healthcare even works lol
I want to go to college for something i love because i want to learn more about it, career oriented shit dont interest me none
Hey I also take Methylphenidate
To all my fellow ADHD brains out there hi and happy pride month
linguistics hype 💯
Are you wearing eyeliner or are your lashes just that pretty? My ADHD keeps getting distracted by your eyes when you're talking😅
Why is this video just waiting for the next moment when they pause and digress, skip to when they resume the video, repeat step one
Same
Too relatable. 😐
Boo way the best thing today for me yee
Conure vid
WE LOVE JAIDEN
This is the 5th time u tried to watch this video.....
Thousandth like, nice
69th like, NICE.
Wow! I was almost about to watch jaidens video. But thanks to you, Your viewers will only watch this vdeo, Fuckin reaction youtubers.
As of typing this it came out a whole 11 days ago. Plenty of time for it to make the rounds for it's own views.
They're not content farming, mostly just relating their own experience. I watched Jaden's video when it first came out and clicked here to hear some engaging insight on the material.
Complain some more.
@@placidqualm I just dont see the point, I didn't watch the full video but maybe they added commentary! Still, I find it messed up
@MInty56- Im 30 minutes in and the streamer has watched maybe 3-5 minutes of the original video. Most of the video has been them talking about their own experiences with adhd and how its impacted their life. I dont necessarily disagree with your original premise, but if you're going to criticize a video, it's a good idea to make sure your criticism actually applies, unless you just want to make your cause look silly and uninformed.