full circle moment: Sad holiday blue hair-self realization niki with music red hair. Life is colorful and shes thriving even more. I love seeing the growth and breakdown through all the years. I remember watching all these. Thanks for sharing the behind the scenes thoughts. This is the kind of content I love!
Thank you Niki. I have been following u since "oversaturated era" and now I am almost in my mid twenties. I do not know what to do. Your vlogs and honesty showed me how it is completely normal to feel lost and confused with life - no idea what to do next. You inspire me to be a better person.
Proud of you Niki. I know this is a safe space so I just wanna say that “Sad Holiday” and “Messy Room” got me through 2021. That was my worst year ever. My depression was crippling and it’s so contagious and annoying even for myself. But now I feel like in my Slay Queen era 😂. Crazy how life throws us for a loop. Anyways you’re the realest there is and thank you!
I feel like you're at your happiest here in this house. As much as you may think you want move to have less obligations, I feel like the Taurus in you appreciates the structure. And you're still traveling to LA and doing everything you've wanted to. You're so much healthier and leading a balanced lifestyle. This house seems like what you didn't know you needed.
My 20s were up and down too! And I've always said that, no one is going to save you but yourself. The only person you have to face for the rest of your life is you. ❤
It's so amazing to see how much you have grown over these years and that you can reflect and learn from your past. It's so good to see that you understand where you are at in life and where to go from here. Keep on growing girlie x
I’ve always loved that you keep it so authentic. Not going to lie sometimes it felt a bit too honest for a viewer that doesn’t actually know you in real life, but now I realize that’s why I enjoy your videos so much and what makes you different. I feel like I’m growing with you 💕
I love that I've gotten to watch you and your channel grow and develop. I've been following you since you and Gabi were posting covers of songs on your cover channel. Thank you for being one of the realest and keeping us up to date with real life, it truly makes us feel included. You've grown a lot and matured as well. Keep up the great work, I can't wait to keep watching your videos.
Niki I've watched you for years. Literally forever and you are my ride or dye queen. I'm so proud and happy for you!! I'm also in love with this content as I'm now in my early 20s. 💙 I have a twin sister too hehe! We stan vlogmas!
This was incredible to watch. Thanks for sharing your life through the years of vlogmas. Takes a lot of emotional strength to be transparent about tough times in your life. This was giving all the nostalgia feels as I've watched you since 2016. We have grown so much, and you inspire me to keep trying to be the best version of myself and admit and learn from my mistakes ❤❤
I admire you for being so raw and honest, not skirting around hard topics ❤ 20's are so scary but watching you grow and learn is so comforting and reaffirms that good things take time! Love u Niki x
love this for u so much niki. also it’s so interesting seeing you with warm toned hair reflect on blue niki with such like yin and yang future self past self energy… like she would be so proud of u now
idk why but i’m in such a niki era rn. i cannot stop watching her vlogs. i definitely went thru this phase with gabis videos back in her clickbait days 😂 but i just love nikis videos they’re such a comfort for me
So much growth and maturity. Thank you for always being vulnerable! You made me become way more empathetic to my mental health struggles. ❤ we loved you then and we love you now!
I absolutely loved this video.. I love a self realization video. Niki, I'm so proud of how far you've come as a person and an influencer. You're doing great!! Keep it up
Niki this feels like you. This feels so authentic and honest and although you don't owe anyone an explanation, the explanations you gave were from such a mature perspective. You understood how others did/would view you in that era but also acknowledged how you felt too. You've grown so much Nik
Hi Niki! I don’t think you will see this but I was having a really hard day and this video made me so happy because I feel like you’re my best friend, I’m typing this with tears but thank you so much for your videos, I’m so happy for you and I feel like we are healing together 🤍
Niki I’m so proud of you. It’s crazy that I been watching you since you started! The fact it’s been over 10 years now I feel so old!🥴 lol I feel like I grew up with you! It’s so cool to see how much you’ve grown and evolved! I feel like a proud big sister seeing you truly find yourself and thrive!🥰
i loved the 2018 vlogmas 70s theme intro and the sad holiday era! that song in 2019 really stuck with me when i was having my own sad holiday in 2019. i loved this vid niki, thank you for making this
i havent liked all your content over the years, i've really liked some and felt meh about some but this video is great cause you're able to look at yourself critically but also with a fondness and respect for who you are and who you used to be
I love this i am so glad you did a reaction video I watched Alicia's and now yours. I remember all these eras and I am so proud to see how far u have grown and accomplished.
Girl, every year Sad Holiday gets added to my Christmas playlist I don’t care how old or what it sounds like. It’ll always be a Christmas season song for me. I’m not even depressed and I still bop to it. Keep creating and keep blooming. You’re magical 🎄🎄🎄
I love watching your vlogs because you're one of the most real vloggers. I also went through a crazy rollercoaster in my early/mid-twenties, and I'm also 28 now and just finding myself.
thank you for a beautiful reflective video! your realness and honestly is always inspiring and uplifting, we’re all learning behind the scenes and i hope you give yourself enough credit to be able to share with the world your human experience. love you! 💗
Omg Sad Holiday?? I forgot about that bop! That song got me through my first Christmas without my great-grandma, who would've been 100 years old that year. Also Niki thank you so much for your transparency with us throughout the years. We love you ♥
This was great :) I'm 27 myself and I relate so much to what you're saying. Things are still not exactly how I want them to be but THE LESSONS. Wow. I've learnt more in the last 2 years than 20-25 😅 It's so funny how you think you want all this stuff in your early twenties and then you realise: I just want peace of mind. Balance. Trustworthy loving friends. Builing stuff that will last long. I loved this. Thanks Niki, all the best :)
Left the fandom in 2018/2019 for personal reasons. Saw you on my fyp today so I decided to check in on ya and I’m so glad I did. Seeing the difference in you from then to now is so so special. I’m glad you’re doing well babe. Love from a former fan page ❤
niki please can you make a video giving all your tips and advice on how you evolved and what you did to become more confident and happier and your routines and habits what help maintain your wellbeing and what you've learnt?xoxo
Omg Niki I love this video! I’m currently in my quarter life crisis so this was super relatable and helpful. I always find your perspective comforting. Thank you Niki ❤
Loved this, Niki - super insightful and great to see. 💛 Also - anyone else miss the podcast?? I don’t know if I missed why they stopped it, but I really enjoyed it and hope maybe sometime it’ll come back 🥺
Great video. Its Awesome to see how self aware you have become and especially how accepting you are of yourself. You are definitely someone girls can look up too. LOVE you 💕 Nik!❣️
Hi, Niki! ♥ First, I am so sorry that I am 4 days late to this lovely video. Second, I loved this video! I have been following you since the beginning and I honestly feel like I have grown up with you. You have come so far and I am so proud of you. Sending you so much love always.
Sad holiday was def a moment I felt heard and it’s crazy it feels like we’ve been trying to adult together but don’t worry about being the villain or the hero in your breakup was it sad and change feels bad yeah but you got remember there are people that subscribed and stood by you and will stand by you and your decisions. Until we meet again love you girl 💙💙💙
I think it’s a good representation of how our 20’s can be. I dropped out of college at 19 and was so confused and depressed. Now I’m 27, back in school, and have way more clarity. Sometimes we just have to live longer to really understand.
I feel like 2017 was so authentic and real like those kinda vlogs are enjoyable, you cleaning a messy room and just showing a real day over like a more scripted video was a lot more fun to watch as a viewer.
I love how you turn your life lessons and troubles into music. If theres something that other people cant take from artistic people its their rawness and creativity.
Niki, I mean this with so much love, I NEED to know exactly where you have filler right now because oh my gosh your face is optimized, and seeing how far you've come from these old vids is amazing! You look stunning now in this era
Niki omg. Ik you don’t know me & may very well be an NPC. I am literally just a girl lmao I’m 23 and I feel like you are my big sister. Everything you go through I am like right behind & going through it myself unknowingly. it’s cool to see someone really lay it all out there. I always knew you were a genuinely beautiful soul. seeing your growth through the years gives me the hope that I too may grow and get to the mindset of “I’m not where I want to be, but I’m okay with myself.” And Ty for the context on half of these things. They filled in SO many blanks that I Fr thought we just wouldn’t know.
full circle moment: Sad holiday blue hair-self realization niki with music red hair. Life is colorful and shes thriving even more. I love seeing the growth and breakdown through all the years. I remember watching all these. Thanks for sharing the behind the scenes thoughts. This is the kind of content I love!
I completely agree with you ❤❤
I’m loving seeing Alisha and now you react to old vlogmas! It’s crazy but amazing to see how much you’ve grown!
Completely agree ❤❤
Thank you Niki. I have been following u since "oversaturated era" and now I am almost in my mid twenties. I do not know what to do. Your vlogs and honesty showed me how it is completely normal to feel lost and confused with life - no idea what to do next. You inspire me to be a better person.
Proud of you Niki. I know this is a safe space so I just wanna say that “Sad Holiday” and “Messy Room” got me through 2021. That was my worst year ever. My depression was crippling and it’s so contagious and annoying even for myself. But now I feel like in my Slay Queen era 😂. Crazy how life throws us for a loop. Anyways you’re the realest there is and thank you!
Absolutely agree. Love messy room era ❤🎉
I feel like you're at your happiest here in this house. As much as you may think you want move to have less obligations, I feel like the Taurus in you appreciates the structure. And you're still traveling to LA and doing everything you've wanted to. You're so much healthier and leading a balanced lifestyle. This house seems like what you didn't know you needed.
My 20s were up and down too! And I've always said that, no one is going to save you but yourself. The only person you have to face for the rest of your life is you. ❤
I love the honesty and maturity in this :) 2017 you would’ve talked about everything that happened so differently, I’m so proud of you niki!
the 70's intro from your 2018 vlogmas was actually my favorite cinematic moment on your CHANNEL. I love it.
It's so amazing to see how much you have grown over these years and that you can reflect and learn from your past. It's so good to see that you understand where you are at in life and where to go from here. Keep on growing girlie x
I’ve always loved that you keep it so authentic. Not going to lie sometimes it felt a bit too honest for a viewer that doesn’t actually know you in real life, but now I realize that’s why I enjoy your videos so much and what makes you different. I feel like I’m growing with you 💕
Absolutely agree. I respect Niki's honesty ❤❤
i REALLY loved this video! something about you just sitting down and talking like we’re on facetime is always so comforting
I love that I've gotten to watch you and your channel grow and develop. I've been following you since you and Gabi were posting covers of songs on your cover channel. Thank you for being one of the realest and keeping us up to date with real life, it truly makes us feel included. You've grown a lot and matured as well. Keep up the great work, I can't wait to keep watching your videos.
Niki I've watched you for years. Literally forever and you are my ride or dye queen. I'm so proud and happy for you!! I'm also in love with this content as I'm now in my early 20s. 💙 I have a twin sister too hehe! We stan vlogmas!
This was incredible to watch. Thanks for sharing your life through the years of vlogmas. Takes a lot of emotional strength to be transparent about tough times in your life. This was giving all the nostalgia feels as I've watched you since 2016. We have grown so much, and you inspire me to keep trying to be the best version of myself and admit and learn from my mistakes ❤❤
I admire you for being so raw and honest, not skirting around hard topics ❤ 20's are so scary but watching you grow and learn is so comforting and reaffirms that good things take time! Love u Niki x
OMG YOUR PASTEL BLUE HAIR AT 5:54 IS SO AMAZING!
love this for u so much niki. also it’s so interesting seeing you with warm toned hair reflect on blue niki with such like yin and yang future self past self energy… like she would be so proud of u now
love these longer videos with more real talk
Same, though. Real talk ❤🎄
This is literally the Niki I've rooted forrr! Im so happy she is happy
Same though ❤❤
idk why but i’m in such a niki era rn.
i cannot stop watching her vlogs.
i definitely went thru this phase with gabis videos back in her clickbait days 😂 but i just love nikis videos they’re such a comfort for me
Fr😂
niki honestly feels like an older sister when i watch her videos. i love her videos
So much growth and maturity. Thank you for always being vulnerable! You made me become way more empathetic to my mental health struggles. ❤ we loved you then and we love you now!
This was a good video. Thank you for being honest and being able to reflect on your past it shows how far you've come
I always do appreciate u being so open! Going through my 20’s is so hard but it’s nice knowing I’m not alone🩷
I absolutely loved this video.. I love a self realization video. Niki, I'm so proud of how far you've come as a person and an influencer. You're doing great!! Keep it up
Niki this feels like you. This feels so authentic and honest and although you don't owe anyone an explanation, the explanations you gave were from such a mature perspective. You understood how others did/would view you in that era but also acknowledged how you felt too. You've grown so much Nik
Hi Niki! I don’t think you will see this but I was having a really hard day and this video made me so happy because I feel like you’re my best friend, I’m typing this with tears but thank you so much for your videos, I’m so happy for you and I feel like we are healing together 🤍
I completely agree with you there ❤❤
I high key miss the podcast :( it made my day everytime u guys posted but so glad that we’re growing and glowing ❤️
i’ve always enjoyed watching u because u always made me feel less alone when there was stuff going on irl, love u 🤍
growth is such a beautiful part of life 🤎
Niki I’m so proud of you. It’s crazy that I been watching you since you started! The fact it’s been over 10 years now I feel so old!🥴 lol I feel like I grew up with you! It’s so cool to see how much you’ve grown and evolved! I feel like a proud big sister seeing you truly find yourself and thrive!🥰
i loved the 2018 vlogmas 70s theme intro and the sad holiday era! that song in 2019 really stuck with me when i was having my own sad holiday in 2019. i loved this vid niki, thank you for making this
i havent liked all your content over the years, i've really liked some and felt meh about some but this video is great cause you're able to look at yourself critically but also with a fondness and respect for who you are and who you used to be
You’re like the older sis I always needed, thank you🖤🤍
I love this i am so glad you did a reaction video I watched Alicia's and now yours. I remember all these eras and I am so proud to see how far u have grown and accomplished.
Girl, every year Sad Holiday gets added to my Christmas playlist I don’t care how old or what it sounds like. It’ll always be a Christmas season song for me. I’m not even depressed and I still bop to it. Keep creating and keep blooming. You’re magical 🎄🎄🎄
I love watching your vlogs because you're one of the most real vloggers. I also went through a crazy rollercoaster in my early/mid-twenties, and I'm also 28 now and just finding myself.
I’ve been here for every era and will be here for every one after 🫶 happy Vlogmas Niki!
Niki you really grew into mature women ❤ So happy for you 🎉
Absolutely agree ❤🎉
thank you for a beautiful reflective video! your realness and honestly is always inspiring and uplifting, we’re all learning behind the scenes and i hope you give yourself enough credit to be able to share with the world your human experience. love you! 💗
Omg Sad Holiday?? I forgot about that bop! That song got me through my first Christmas without my great-grandma, who would've been 100 years old that year. Also Niki thank you so much for your transparency with us throughout the years. We love you ♥
This was great :) I'm 27 myself and I relate so much to what you're saying. Things are still not exactly how I want them to be but THE LESSONS. Wow. I've learnt more in the last 2 years than 20-25 😅 It's so funny how you think you want all this stuff in your early twenties and then you realise: I just want peace of mind. Balance. Trustworthy loving friends. Builing stuff that will last long. I loved this. Thanks Niki, all the best :)
You are Delivering this December!! We love your niki you are so creative ❤
I'm so happy you did this. I really like this version of you. It seems real and genuine and I love it.
Left the fandom in 2018/2019 for personal reasons. Saw you on my fyp today so I decided to check in on ya and I’m so glad I did. Seeing the difference in you from then to now is so so special. I’m glad you’re doing well babe. Love from a former fan page ❤
This is the Niki I’m rooting for seems like your maturing and self reflecting and getting back to your more authentic self.
So proud of you Niki 🖤
niki please can you make a video giving all your tips and advice on how you evolved and what you did to become more confident and happier and your routines and habits what help maintain your wellbeing and what you've learnt?xoxo
Omg Niki I love this video! I’m currently in my quarter life crisis so this was super relatable and helpful. I always find your perspective comforting. Thank you Niki ❤
“Good decision can’t be impulsive” is my quote of 2023 ❤ I love this video
thank you for being so vulnerable with us!! i loved your vids then and i do now
This was a great video! Love seeing you grow
Your growth is inspiring ❤
Absolutely agree ❤❤
I love the Vlogmas intro!❤
such a wonderful video, love your editing 🤍 been such an amazing thing to watch you grow and wish you all the best, Niki!
When things are raw and authentic and just real i love it. It shows how relatable we all actually are lol. Luv u niki ❤
Loved this, Niki - super insightful and great to see. 💛 Also - anyone else miss the podcast?? I don’t know if I missed why they stopped it, but I really enjoyed it and hope maybe sometime it’ll come back 🥺
Great video. Its Awesome to see how self aware you have become and especially how accepting you are of yourself. You are definitely someone girls can look up too. LOVE you 💕 Nik!❣️
Hi, Niki! ♥
First, I am so sorry that I am 4 days late to this lovely video. Second, I loved this video! I have been following you since the beginning and I honestly feel like I have grown up with you. You have come so far and I am so proud of you. Sending you so much love always.
Sad holiday was def a moment I felt heard and it’s crazy it feels like we’ve been trying to adult together but don’t worry about being the villain or the hero in your breakup was it sad and change feels bad yeah but you got remember there are people that subscribed and stood by you and will stand by you and your decisions. Until we meet again love you girl 💙💙💙
I think it’s a good representation of how our 20’s can be. I dropped out of college at 19 and was so confused and depressed. Now I’m 27, back in school, and have way more clarity. Sometimes we just have to live longer to really understand.
I feel like 2017 was so authentic and real like those kinda vlogs are enjoyable, you cleaning a messy room and just showing a real day over like a more scripted video was a lot more fun to watch as a viewer.
I love how you turn your life lessons and troubles into music. If theres something that other people cant take from artistic people its their rawness and creativity.
so much love for u. thank u for always being real
absolutely loved this video, thank you for being so raw with us. i love you sm.
I LOVE THIS VIDEO AND I'M SO PROUD OF YOU
Niki, I mean this with so much love, I NEED to know exactly where you have filler right now because oh my gosh your face is optimized, and seeing how far you've come from these old vids is amazing! You look stunning now in this era
I love this concept!!! This was so nostalgic for me ❤
Why did the video cut off right at an important moment where Niki opened up about things!!??? I wish she notices that and fixes the vid
NIKI I could hear you talk all day! Please start your own podcast 🫶🏻😊
Literally grew up watch u niki!!!! I’m 25 now still watching 🩷
I love the woman you’re becoming queen! ❤❤
we need niki’s eras tour! 😅
Hearing this as a 28 yo who has watched you since high school is so refreshing.
if it makes you feel better i just got covid on thanksgiving and had to quarantine in my room! very happy for you niki!
I LOVE you and Gabi for selfreflection✨💯 Keep it up 😍
I LOVED THAT YOU DID THIS NIKI IT WAS AMAZING!
2018-2019 was for me too such a bad time. "Sad holiday" came at the right time
this style video is so cozy n sleepover vibes
So excited ❤
your slay queen 2021 era is when I began waching y more consistently!!!!!
i still love your sad holiday song 🥹💙
Just thank you I needed this ❤
u are amazing girl we all love u💘💘💘💘
I loved seeing those ups and downs and ups again. Seeing different versions of you
you missed your opportunity to put sleigh queen 😂😂 lol ily!! all of your eras are so relatable 🥹
I’m 22 now and I didn’t realise how young you were when I was watching this at the time holy
I really love this video Niki I’m proud of you love ya❤
Dude I miss y’all’s podcast ❤️😭😍😍
Loved loved this video. Cool & warm tones forever haha 💙🧡
Niki omg. Ik you don’t know me & may very well be an NPC. I am literally just a girl lmao I’m 23 and I feel like you are my big sister. Everything you go through I am like right behind & going through it myself unknowingly. it’s cool to see someone really lay it all out there. I always knew you were a genuinely beautiful soul. seeing your growth through the years gives me the hope that I too may grow and get to the mindset of “I’m not where I want to be, but I’m okay with myself.” And Ty for the context on half of these things. They filled in SO many blanks that I Fr thought we just wouldn’t know.
I love the long vlog!
Total 360! Great freaking job!
Can't wait for vlogmas this year!!!
This is ur inspiration/motivation era!🎉🎉🎉
ily niki
I love you so much Nikki, I loved you the vlogmas and I really enjoyed watching it.
Brilliant ❣️
Pretty as always ✨
We love you Niki ❤
I’m doing my first Vlogmas right now and I feel like it’s not good😂 I do relate to the “I have nothing to film right now”😂
lol same