Childhood Sexual Abuse Survivor-William

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  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of William, a survivor of sexual abuse as a child now living on Skid Row.
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  • @PsychopathSurvivor
    @PsychopathSurvivor ปีที่แล้ว +445

    If a child has the courage to confide in you about any abuse, it’s your highest priority for immediate action & intervention. A false alarm is better then the ramifications of lifelong trauma.

    • @talitamo7465
      @talitamo7465 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      I needed to read this comment . Thank you .

    • @TK-ij2xi
      @TK-ij2xi ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I actually wondered if she didn't push it because she feared deportation. I don't know if she was a citizen when the abuse came to light.

    • @princesstakaloo
      @princesstakaloo ปีที่แล้ว +5

      you would think so, no matter the family circumstances- from the poorest to the richest - has no real effect on how the adult reacts. I know this from experience, my mother never believed my sister or myself at the ages of 11 and 12 or again at 42 and 43yrs... its just as painful as the original abuse x x I just think some people are too weak to cope with dealing with something so horrific. it lasts a complete lifetime

    • @TK-ij2xi
      @TK-ij2xi ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@princesstakaloo Typically, but not always, our parent doesn't listen when we tell them of abuse because then they'd have to look at their own. My mother didn't, after I walked away from our relationship she died and THAT'S when I found out about how much buried sexual abuse there was for her. If she listened to me, she'd have to dig up her own pain that had been buried under a reactionary life of 6 decades. She preferred death to that.

    • @2julsofmine
      @2julsofmine ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@princesstakalooI agree with you. To mentally weak to acknowledge it. It’s actually very selfish to be honest with you. Protecting themselves instead of protecting you.

  • @2wobad
    @2wobad ปีที่แล้ว +110

    the judge seems like someone who actually cared, may his soul rest in peace

  • @roxy1522
    @roxy1522 ปีที่แล้ว +138

    He is so fucking sweet dude. Are you kidding me!?!? I can’t believe this shit happens. I hope you gets to live in another life as the best Cub Scout in history. He deserves a greater second life

    • @Amanda-if1wn
      @Amanda-if1wn 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Amen ❤

  • @paradisestruggle404
    @paradisestruggle404 ปีที่แล้ว +111

    Awww the “phew” at the end got me. A sense of relief to tell his story after all this time. Thank you for the gift you gave to William, Mark. Spirituality = open and honest interaction

  • @heathernikki5734
    @heathernikki5734 ปีที่แล้ว +33

    If you are a MOTHER who lets this go on, you’re not worthy of being a mother! Sick!

  • @helenaneumann1872
    @helenaneumann1872 ปีที่แล้ว +117

    This is such a terrible childhood that started a chain of unhappiness and violence off. I have deep sympathy for William and his sister. William is a great storyteller. The codependent mother is an accomplice...It always takes an environment of the silent and ignorant for abuse...

  • @booradley6673
    @booradley6673 ปีที่แล้ว +888

    I find it so odd that barely anyone in the comments is addressing Blanca - the 25 year old woman that slept with (abused) him when he was 12. The double standard is shocking

    • @nattytheyoungreader7572
      @nattytheyoungreader7572 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I know, I thought the same. Nasty pedo woman

    • @berniekatzroy
      @berniekatzroy ปีที่แล้ว +70

      Its extremely screwed up. Idc man or woman does it.

    • @leelee5593
      @leelee5593 ปีที่แล้ว +25

      She was wrong it’s crazy

    • @moreiscomingeasy6710
      @moreiscomingeasy6710 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      I think she was Miserable Soul.. trying to "fix" him

    • @deondraa
      @deondraa ปีที่แล้ว

      Came here for this comment it’s so sad he feels like it was his first sexual encounter when someone was assaulting him

  • @asapmonkey2393
    @asapmonkey2393 ปีที่แล้ว +51

    Why nobody talking about the judge blessing him? One in a million judge.

  • @vuela_
    @vuela_ ปีที่แล้ว +33

    Heartbreaking story, childhood trauma can change the rest of your life. Protecting children should always be crucial. Blessings from Spain

  • @ceglenn1245
    @ceglenn1245 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    Blanca, she is worst of all. knowing this boy was abused, then abused him further… so sad!

    • @RosieWilliamOlivia
      @RosieWilliamOlivia ปีที่แล้ว

      Well... I'd say the guys raping him were worse.

    • @realSiRGRiFT
      @realSiRGRiFT 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

      How so​@@RosieWilliamOlivia

  • @dawnserrano737
    @dawnserrano737 ปีที่แล้ว +45

    Telling your truth is so hard!..that judge was a good one...

  • @veggiekatt_
    @veggiekatt_ ปีที่แล้ว +12

    That judge is incredible omg Jesus protect our boys and girls

    • @seeyouinthegarden
      @seeyouinthegarden 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Amen

    • @seeyouinthegarden
      @seeyouinthegarden 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      He's this nations only hope for right acting. How can a nation forsake God and expect to have right actions still. We are being judged.

    • @seeyouinthegarden
      @seeyouinthegarden 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      But thankfully His grace is in our hearts to pray this. Praise the Lord.

  • @tita1m
    @tita1m ปีที่แล้ว +6

    What a story!!! Hope William is doing well. Thanks for making these videos.

  • @Dalester1979
    @Dalester1979 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Wow!! What an amazing judge to have done all that he did for this 12-13 year old little broken boy.

  • @juliemackenzie1978
    @juliemackenzie1978 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    So very sad that alot of these adults were abused by adults, that were supposed to be there to protect them when they were children. 😳😕

  • @atolliver91
    @atolliver91 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    It was good he found righteous men to balance him out…

  • @petuladavis9561
    @petuladavis9561 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Such a sad story thank U for sharing sending luv to U and your sister from Australia Xxx❤️

  • @iamgoliath225
    @iamgoliath225 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I lost count of how many of these ive watched in the last 3 days i like listening to them while im at work its very interesting and helps time pass

  • @vipauctiongroup9527
    @vipauctiongroup9527 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Being a survivor of SA t definitely change your entire life and self confidence.

  • @toybean6713
    @toybean6713 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    We have to do a better job at protecting our children.🙏🏾

  • @Mardilking
    @Mardilking ปีที่แล้ว +12

    thank you william for talking

  • @roxilove984
    @roxilove984 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Stories with these titles break my heart. Praying for you

  • @dface6447
    @dface6447 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    i have no experience whatsoever with sex offenders but in my opinion they are the lowest of the low 🤬🤬🤬🤬 and should be executed period,the damage they cause is irreparable !!!! every time i see victims 99.9% of the time they end up severely messed up!!!,so not to condone murder or violence i think William did the world a favour!,i wish you the best William 👍 and i hope you can get clean 🙂.you deserve to have a chance! because the fentanyl will kill you soon 😐.

  • @brianplunkett4002
    @brianplunkett4002 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I pray for this man.

  • @melindamullins9272
    @melindamullins9272 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    gods bless this man and thank you for getting rid of that scumbag.

  • @mikewartnaby
    @mikewartnaby ปีที่แล้ว +6

    My heart breaks hearing these stories.

  • @GaiaMiranda
    @GaiaMiranda ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Literally, a most the very first words out of his mouth...
    "My father was a great father, he was a drug dealer" SMH
    I wonder how many families and lives that were ruined or lost because of his "great father".
    He may have treated HIM well, but I think that's about all you can say about how "great" he was.

    • @guzelfetkulina9599
      @guzelfetkulina9599 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      True. He ruined other peoples kids lives, and someone ruined his kids lives. A boomerang law exists. At the end kids are always the ones to pay for their parents mistakes, and that hurts 💔

    • @RosieWilliamOlivia
      @RosieWilliamOlivia ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Pharmaceutical companies are responsible for a huge number of deaths due to addiction and the call out from that addiction. I hope you hold those profiting from the pharmaceutical industry in the same level of contempt you hold illegal drug dealers.

    • @GaiaMiranda
      @GaiaMiranda ปีที่แล้ว

      @@RosieWilliamOlivia I'm just stating a factual statement he made which irks you for some reason. Examine yourself and maybe YOU will learn something.

  • @thefrontporch8594
    @thefrontporch8594 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    It's very interesting that so many of these interviews are from people from Ca.. Also, Mothers always know, but he is not by far the only kid that has been through these things. There are 12 step programs where he can find kindred spirits, and he should seek them out.

  • @Maria-jp6eo
    @Maria-jp6eo ปีที่แล้ว +1

    What an amazing man. Can’t express it enough.

  • @sip2saki
    @sip2saki ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I’m so sorry 😢

  • @musiclover5480
    @musiclover5480 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This was painful to watch I pray for you Sir . May you find peace in life sending healing vibes.

  • @clarkme8952
    @clarkme8952 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    William is so intelligent. I love hearing about his aspirations

  • @NobodysGh0sT
    @NobodysGh0sT ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I really wish I could clip the guy who drugged and r@ped me for 2 years as a 14 - 17 year old. It took a lot from me and I acquired a lot of bad habits I've been working to get rid of. Clean from hard drugs for 19yrs sober from Alcohol for 12yrs and I'm 460 days clean today from Opiate pain pills but I'm in a bad way.
    I'm very upset because I couldn't get the medication I needed and I even saved and tried to sell my Funko Pops and nobody serious answered the ad so I am honestly just questioning everything. I don't want to use pills or hard drugs and I don't want to drink either. I just really need the medication. My right leg and now my right arm are all swollen and I can't figure out why. I'm on long term antibiotics for my prostate which will probably kill me maybe even before the H1N1 Vaccine Damage will.
    I'm really having a bad time and nothing seems to help. I feel lost. If there is a God wht does he want me to feel this way? What have I done so wrong that I don't deserve to treat myself with the best possible medication for my condition? I'm always in perpetual withdrawl as well because I'm trying to get clean from Diazepam and am tapering down 7.5mg a day rather than just the 0.5mg titration I'm supposed to do per month. I'm doing all this "work" and in the end it just doesn't matter and nobody really cares. I only see my parents twice a year. I haven't seen my extended family in years. My life is always sad and I've been thru so much shit in my short 38 years of existence in this life and I can honestly say I really hope I just don't wake up one of these mornings. I'm ready to throw in the towel. Life sucks. Bad things happen to good people.

  • @mrexcelsior1414
    @mrexcelsior1414 ปีที่แล้ว

    This is the kind of damage that can never be repaired

  • @elizabethcristobal7084
    @elizabethcristobal7084 ปีที่แล้ว

    Man.... One hell of a judge👨‍⚖️. Thank you for sharing your story

  • @raysmith6930
    @raysmith6930 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Im sorry this happened to you.. William,,God Loves You And So Do I 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽❤️❤️

  • @Ramzilla14
    @Ramzilla14 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Felt good to know he took them out

  • @egopower2264
    @egopower2264 ปีที่แล้ว

    HELLAVU STORY THAT TOOK A SLOT COURAGE TO TELL 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍💪💪💪💪💪💪💪👌👌👌👌👌👌👌💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

  • @Xtelahhh
    @Xtelahhh ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Wow what a story 😢 my ❤ goes out to William Wishing him the best 🙏🏻

  • @gonagetcha8102
    @gonagetcha8102 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hi Mark....Happy New Year. Hope its a great one for you. I will pray A LOT MORE for you this yr. I don't know how you do it but if I had to guess it would be that your numb to all these stories. I don't mean it in a bad way. I say thus bc I find myself numb to crime bc I live in Philadelphia and murder death shootings rape is all you hear all day everyday. I worked in our morgue and I thank God I worked there when I did bc I don't know if I would be able to handle now a days. I give you all the credit in the world . God bless your Golden Heart.

  • @Mardia100
    @Mardia100 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hi Mark, I'm a big fan of your work. Are there any updates on Rebecca?

  • @mirriamvalentin8634
    @mirriamvalentin8634 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I pray to God 🙏 He continues to get help.

  • @twinkievsdingdong
    @twinkievsdingdong ปีที่แล้ว +3

    At the end of this, I couldn't hold back my tears. Get yourself help man, my friend tried, died a week later before getting into a program. Good luck sir.

  • @heatherh.197
    @heatherh.197 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    It's never too late to find yourself in Christ♥️ prayers going up🎶🎶

  • @kimberleydecker9507
    @kimberleydecker9507 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for sharing your story

  • @JustEye_La
    @JustEye_La ปีที่แล้ว

    A lot of boys are molested and its actually far more traumatic for males
    .
    One bc its not usually reported and two bc CPS does not take it seriously at all.
    We have our son in counseling bc of inappropriate things that have happened to him with his biological mom and older brother.
    Our son had a speech impediment bc of trauma and so his dad & I could not understand what happened to him.
    We have pd thousands to have his biological mom diagnosed.
    She has HPD.
    Still the family court system allows her to have overnight visits.
    As a crisis center told me " children, especially little boys are not valued or respected in America ".
    Sad but true.
    My sincere prayers for this gentleman.

  • @smae61
    @smae61 ปีที่แล้ว

    Lord God bless you for telling your story...What I can never understand is what a grown ass man can get out of being with a child...Disgusting 🤢 ..

  • @PrincessOPD_Utah
    @PrincessOPD_Utah ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thanks for videos 😊

  • @tleemf6923
    @tleemf6923 ปีที่แล้ว

    THAnk YOu wIlLiAm f0r sHaReInG yOu sToRy...Sending you big safe comforting Hugs ....and blessings that you may find peace in Your life 💞🕊🙏if you havent heard of
    Gabor Matte William...I recommend you do ..he had a tone of videos on youtube💞

  • @agifitter3179
    @agifitter3179 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Good luck with everything! :)

  • @zsazsarose
    @zsazsarose ปีที่แล้ว

    My hero… he did the world A favor. So sad to rob their childhoods. They had to pay. Seems like the universe evened out the score. I salute u William and condolences for your sjsgwew

    • @zsazsarose
      @zsazsarose ปีที่แล้ว

      For your sister - typo

  • @Itsfrickinbatsbabe
    @Itsfrickinbatsbabe 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I don’t understand how a parent can just tell their kids they’re lying about SA..what child lies about SA?? They don’t even know what it is they just know they don’t like it and it hurts, it makes them feel bad about themselves. I don’t talk to my mother anymore because she never believed me. As a mother myself now if my children ever came to me with accusations like that there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do to make sure their abuser got what they deserved legal or not. no one is hurting my children and getting away with it.

  • @bigbitsmama4802
    @bigbitsmama4802 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you william, For sharing your story comma it's a powerful one and I truly hope that you Continue on your road of self discovery and healing.

  • @Beautiful-Sickening-Rolex
    @Beautiful-Sickening-Rolex ปีที่แล้ว +689

    I categorise abusers as worse than murderers...there are murder cases where someone snapped in a fit of recklessness, but child abusers are extremely calculated and repeat the offence for years

    • @jen-ms4xo
      @jen-ms4xo ปีที่แล้ว +36

      Yes I agree with you 💯 I've experienced it myself for from the earliest that I can remember I was 3 up until I was 15 my mother unfortunately chose a man over me and didn't protect me at all she's not here anymore R.I.P 😢 and the best thing I got from her death was that I never have to see or speak to her husband again

    • @babyemilyf
      @babyemilyf ปีที่แล้ว +17

      Couldn't agree more! This story is heartbreaking.

    • @babyemilyf
      @babyemilyf ปีที่แล้ว +17

      @@jen-ms4xo So sorry to hear. Stay strong.

    • @pjams2745
      @pjams2745 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@jen-ms4xo Agree. They are worse than scum.

    • @michelemelucci4667
      @michelemelucci4667 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Right on

  • @gonagetcha8102
    @gonagetcha8102 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hi Mark....Happy New Year. Hope its a great one for you. I will pray A LOT MORE for you this yr. I don't know how you do it but if I had to guess it would be that your numb to all these stories. I don't mean it in a bad way. I say thus bc I find myself numb to crime bc I live in Philadelphia and murder death shootings rape is all you hear all day everyday. I worked in our morgue and I thank God I worked there when I did bc I don't know if I would be able to handle now a days. I give you all the credit in the world . God bless your Golden Heart.

  • @sacralbutterfly
    @sacralbutterfly ปีที่แล้ว +561

    People who do harm to children are the most EVIL people on the planet. This is absolutely horrifying and disgusting. I wish child molesters would get the death penalty.

    • @hwb-zalpach
      @hwb-zalpach ปีที่แล้ว +3

      everything is relatively. it's about your values system. this statment. so much evil in the world, there is no most.

    • @Jax1317
      @Jax1317 ปีที่แล้ว

      It never will have the death penalty. The most powerful and wealthy do it so judgment of that extreme are hard to push. Only general population and execution by the mob truly punish these people.

    • @hyperabbit
      @hyperabbit ปีที่แล้ว

      @@hwb-zalpach if your value system even has the slightest excuse for this type of stuff, you need the rope.

    • @hwb-zalpach
      @hwb-zalpach ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@hyperabbit i am an animal lover. treasure them more.

    • @hyperabbit
      @hyperabbit ปีที่แล้ว +15

      @@hwb-zalpach So am I. Doesn't mean I think abusing children is ok in any sense no matter what your "values". Your comment gave me the chills, purely that someone would even try to defend anything like this.

  • @baublesanddolls
    @baublesanddolls ปีที่แล้ว +255

    So many mothers refuse to believe their children. I think it's denial and they're afraid of being alone and not having the security of the pay cheque from their husband. Sickening!

    • @crazycatladyjo2688
      @crazycatladyjo2688 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      They are selfish.

    • @caitlinweedon7498
      @caitlinweedon7498 ปีที่แล้ว +21

      Your job as a Mother is to protect. And if your kiddo tells you they're being abused you believe them, no questions asked. I'm disgusted and dissapointed by everyone involved in this poor dude's life. His childhood, or lack thereof, directly contributed to the state he's in.

    • @aliciagrajeda9953
      @aliciagrajeda9953 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      This is true, you said it just as it is. It happened to me with my mother when my stepdad abused me. Then I became a parentified child around 12 years old. So much has happened the last 30 years, now we are estranged, and I live with guilt everyday because I don't talk to her. I have children now, and I can't imagine not protecting them from anyone and everyone.

    • @katel1849
      @katel1849 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Scorpions dedicated a song to child abuse wrapped with mother's denial, the problem is horrible.
      Sweet little child
      You know nothing
      About a cold world outside
      You're too young to realize
      What he wants from you tonight
      Poor little girl
      There is no one
      You can trust in the world
      In the darkness of the night
      What he's doing is a crime
      Your mother denies
      There's a problem
      She's looking away
      She don't wanna hear you cry
      She will pray
      That it's over for a while
      Sweet little child
      You know nothing
      About a cold world outside
      You're too young to realize
      What he wants from you tonight
      Your mother denies
      There's a problem
      She's looking away
      She don't wanna hear you cry
      She will pray
      That it's over for a while
      An ocean of silence
      Is drowning your heart
      What never should be
      Will remain in the dark
      Poor little girl
      There is no one
      You can trust in the world
      In the darkness of the night
      What he's doing is a crime
      Sweet little child
      You know nothing
      About a cold world outside
      You're too young to realize
      What he wants from you tonight
      Your mother denies
      There's a problem
      She's looking away
      She don't wanna hear you cry
      She will pray
      That it's over for a while
      An ocean of silence
      Is drowning your heart
      What never should be
      Will remain in the dark

    • @baublesanddolls
      @baublesanddolls ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@crazycatladyjo2688 Absolutely 💯

  • @chansetwo
    @chansetwo ปีที่แล้ว +162

    I can't express how important these interviews are to a functioning society. Most people will never hear these stories or interact with these people. Last week someone told me they were tired of hearing people blame their childhood sexual abuse for their problems. I lost quite a lot of respect for that individual. But, it illustrates how important it is to get these stories out to the public. I don't think one can really understand the effects of child abuse until one sees the statistics and hears the stories.

    • @warmblood8016
      @warmblood8016 ปีที่แล้ว

      People with that attitude are beyond stupid. Stupid, ignorant fools. A child's entire life is shaped in the first few years.

    • @ap8441
      @ap8441 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      It’s certainly isn’t fair for someone to judge someone when they’ve never been in their shoes so I totally understand why you lost respect. Instead of judging someone this person you speak of should be lucky they were never in the shoes of someone that suffered abuse.

    • @lisatsuda
      @lisatsuda ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I've had several people, boyfriends included, tell me to keep it quiet. Never understood that.
      Abduction, blindfolded, sexually tortured for names (mine and parents), four point bound to a table, and you know the rest. At five yrs old, I knew he was coming back. No one would listen to me, he came back. Started sending remorse gifts after about 9 yrs. A brand new convertible sports car, exactly the one I dreamed of, and money, lots of it. Mom stole everything, using my sister posing as me, whom bragged about it day of stealing trust fund. Creating Stockholm syndrome, bc now the perp, in my eyes, is a better person than lying, stealing family. No help to date on this crappy life.

    • @jenniferl6553
      @jenniferl6553 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@lisatsuda I'm so, so sorry. Prayers and hugs. I wish I knew what else to say. May you find peace and healing.

    • @tambourine36
      @tambourine36 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      I agree. It's not blaming. It's just simply stating the harm and trauma it creates. You can only push it down for so long then it resurfaces later in life if you suppress the feelings. It's a common thread in mental illness and addiction. I've listened to people's stories for many years with my work and I feel that it's at the root of the issues of at least 80% of the clients that I spoke with...so it's definitely not an excuse at all. It ruins people's lives, people die younger because of developing addictions. I wish people would do the research before commenting on things they have no idea about. It's very ignorant and inconsiderate.

  • @NiniThomass
    @NiniThomass ปีที่แล้ว +130

    This is so sad. Mark, you have done countless interviews where sexual abuse victims told their mothers and they did nothing. I couldn’t imagine. My heart goes out to everyone❤

    • @magdabak5797
      @magdabak5797 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Well Yes, they dont. Mine was pretening she is bli d when I was Little, told me that I'm lying at 16 and even now, when I'm 40 she is still not sure, even that my "father" is dead.

    • @LeonaDesomd
      @LeonaDesomd ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@magdabak5797 so sorry to hear that 😢

    • @colemannagy7514
      @colemannagy7514 20 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      Correct. Her boyfriend was more important to her than her children

  • @zoe3723
    @zoe3723 ปีที่แล้ว +231

    I hate all mothers who think an innocent child could ever bring up and make up a story like this and lie. My mother was one of them-I beg you all to help victims of sexual abuse, open up your homes and pour into them. Sexual abuse is murder to one’s soul-it won’t go away without an act of God.

    • @mirriamvalentin8634
      @mirriamvalentin8634 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Your comment is amazing. Thank you ❤️🙏

    • @HoneySuckle123
      @HoneySuckle123 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      That woman knew, all women can tell a shift in their man’s energy. It is an extension of satisfying “him” and protecting “him.”

    • @littlebear06142007
      @littlebear06142007 ปีที่แล้ว

      God Bless you.Turn yourself in and get help to be clean so you can live the life you deserve.xoxo

    • @princesstakaloo
      @princesstakaloo ปีที่แล้ว +4

      my mother too, I just think she is and was just too weak to deal with the fact she never protected her daughters, we both truly believe even before we told her she knew, but just chose to turn a blind eye. it is as painful to think about it now as 30 years ago.

    • @helenadams1807
      @helenadams1807 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      So sorry dude I hope you have people who listen and believe in your life. My husband is an SA survivor.

  • @xXxDigitalBathxXx
    @xXxDigitalBathxXx ปีที่แล้ว +70

    The woman he described as his first real sexual experience who told him what that guy did was wrong was also wrong... He was 12 and she was an adult

    • @annoravetz5908
      @annoravetz5908 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      The first man I dated had been sexually abused by his mother's woman friend at the age of 12. He had a lot of issues. He was really gay, but the first sexual abuse confused him, and so he tried to mask as heterosexual. I think he had a lot of hostility built up toward women, because he began physically and emotionally abusing me, so I left him. My sister later said, "We were so glad you broke up with him because were afraid he was going to kill you."

    • @tambourine36
      @tambourine36 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Exactly. Surrounded by predators.

    • @gbabybaby6523
      @gbabybaby6523 หลายเดือนก่อน

      She is a fing c

  • @hunterlange5973
    @hunterlange5973 ปีที่แล้ว +222

    Some of us survived child abuse,
    Some of us never used drugs or become alchohalic but for sure something is missing forever.
    We feel being lost and pain never go away, just we keep going.
    I feel this man.
    Very good interview.
    Thank You

    • @guzelfetkulina9599
      @guzelfetkulina9599 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      💔😞

    • @nicoletheresa6654
      @nicoletheresa6654 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Ugh 😢❤

    • @PatyM00N
      @PatyM00N ปีที่แล้ว +4

      There are different kinds if addictions. Food, sex, promiscuity, shopping, TV binging and even excessive phone use are all addictions. Anything we use to get that hit of temporary dopamine is a drug. Obesity, for example, is hard to overcome, because the drug is food.

    • @nicoletheresa6654
      @nicoletheresa6654 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@PatyM00N food and sex are the hardest addictions to quit. Sad

  • @marshareed1438
    @marshareed1438 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    Men don’t share these things like women do… I’m so proud of him for speaking out against this horrible crime! My heart aches for this beautiful person! I pray that God shows him how to heal from this evil that has been done to him!

  • @GenRN
    @GenRN ปีที่แล้ว +265

    I am also a childhood sexual abuse survivor. Sending hugs to this dude.

    • @Im_just_a_little_potato
      @Im_just_a_little_potato ปีที่แล้ว +15

      I'm also a child sexual abuse survivor. Sending hugs to this guy and you

    • @lisarodriguez6966
      @lisarodriguez6966 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      I am as well. It's heartening to hear others open up about their experiences but incredibly sad to see how common it is.

    • @jen-ms4xo
      @jen-ms4xo ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Me to I pray 🙏 this guy can come out of being a victim and into a survivor 🙏

    • @brianmay7111
      @brianmay7111 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      @J C I went through the same thing like many people in this comment section. I hate when someone mentioned god in this context. What does 'God didn't allow what happened to you' even mean? Isn't god all-powerful? According to the Bible he is so why would he allow so many kids suffer abuse. I remember thinking as a kid that if there is a god, he is a horrible and cruel being. What happened to me made me not only stop believing in god, it made me hate the very idea of the concept. Kids tortured, filmed, abused and even killed is something that happens every single day but god does nothing about it. What possible excuse could there be for this?

    • @Sarah19902
      @Sarah19902 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@michaeldes1800 dude don’t ask stuff like that…

  • @prismbrandingrealestatebra6301
    @prismbrandingrealestatebra6301 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    Abusers look for single mothers. The mothers think these men are interested in them, not realizing these men were always after their kids.

  • @mjgerleman
    @mjgerleman ปีที่แล้ว +201

    The silver lining to the awful dark cloud of this man's life is that there were people in places of authority who tried to help him.

    • @pointpleasant6708
      @pointpleasant6708 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Very difficult to follow….chaotic which reflects the chaos HE experienced as a young boy. It’s hard to talk about.

    • @tnt2324
      @tnt2324 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@pointpleasant6708I wonder if he s.a.ed anyone or if he stayed true to the code.

    • @pambeforethestorm9784
      @pambeforethestorm9784 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@tnt2324 good point, I wonder as well

  • @agnesfox8349
    @agnesfox8349 ปีที่แล้ว +57

    Mothers out there believe your kids when they tell you that they have been abused. These kids normally put everything on the line when they tell you something like this. They know that they probably could be beaten up, thrown to the curb,etc for doing so. They are not going to lie to you about something like this. All I have to say is UNBELIEVABLE when parents ignore something like this. All of this could have been avoided (2 murders) if his mother took the proper action that she should have taken

  • @kendrajones9791
    @kendrajones9791 ปีที่แล้ว +205

    Not to say this with ill intent but I get anxiety watching some of these where people ramble on and on. Mark sits there for 20-40 minutes and simply ask questions…allowing people to say what they need to say and never passes judgement. Only sometimes does he redirect. This man was truly sincere at the end when he told him thank you….he took a deep breathe and said that felt good. Thank you Mark for providing all these people you interview a safe place to vomit their life stories without judgement.

    • @Simplegirltv
      @Simplegirltv ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Love mark he is amazing & handsome

    • @lisamariealaniz7538
      @lisamariealaniz7538 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      💯 agree thank u mark

    • @leahflower9924
      @leahflower9924 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @Russiawithlove Love he seems like he has the stammering or whatever you call it that trauma survivors get sometimes when they try to explain abuse, the memories are all over the place so that's how they talk

    • @SkybabyandStar
      @SkybabyandStar ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I would imagine he's nervous. Nervous opening up, nervous talking to Mark, nervous knowing it's being recorded , nervous knowing than anybody and everybody may hear his story, etc. there's A lot of things to be stammering about. I don't have a story that even compares to his and I'd be stammering five times as much. Honestly, I did not Even pick up on it. I think I was nervous with him just talking. It takes a man to be able to get the courage to open up and talk about such a horrific past. Im so thankful for my life yet I sit up and gripe about the pettiest things. Mark thank you for everything that you do. I don't even know half of what you do - I know the videos I watch of yours but I cannot even imagine all the effort and time spent in preparing these. You have certainly touched so many lives and I thank you for adding so much to mine. You've truly made me a better person but I'm nowhere near to what I aim to be.

    • @princesstakaloo
      @princesstakaloo ปีที่แล้ว +2

      as well as how Mark seems to know exactly when and where to intervene or to ask questions, what mark has is something that cannot be taught or learned-just his presence is enough for people to literally open up their souls, open their memories of such unimaginable pain... just wondersome fantastic human being doing such work with this channel. so much love missing in the world x x

  • @vvc_551
    @vvc_551 ปีที่แล้ว +72

    I get extremely angry and sad at the same time at the effect of sexual abusers do to their abuser’s life. They destroyed it! Look at his sister. 😞 I can tell how this has always been painful, the sadness of his voice breaks me. No one deserves this.

  • @LilaSp3aks
    @LilaSp3aks ปีที่แล้ว +160

    What a truly horrifying story! I'm so disgusted by the mother's in these kind of stories. She leaves the first husband that didn't beat her, to be a with a man whose a PED! I have so much respect for this. Realizing that he does have power and agency, he rid this earth of the lowest form of human existence- PEDs! He is an exceptional man! If only every victim of this kind of trauma were as impressive as him! What a remarkable story, a true hero! The Gods only know how many children were saved due to his selfless actions! 🖤

    • @brianmay7111
      @brianmay7111 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      The absolute worst story regarding this type of horrible stuff was that interview with the woman who is a sex offender, the one who had sex with her son. The amount of horrible shit that happened to her made it so hard to watch and the stuff with her son made me sick. This one is almost as bad.

    • @jacquelinefitzpatrick2405
      @jacquelinefitzpatrick2405 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      One thing to remember, every PED is also a victim. It's a sad cycle. People are not born this way.

    • @Parrotgirl-tattoo
      @Parrotgirl-tattoo ปีที่แล้ว

      @@brianmay7111 Tracy was her name I think. I can never unsee that old interview. 😢🤮🤢

    • @brianmay7111
      @brianmay7111 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@jacquelinefitzpatrick2405 It seems so. I realized while watching these videos that we, as a society, are not even thinking about prevention of child abuse. If someone realizes they have urges towards children, they should be able to get treatment without having to be listed as a sex offender. But I only mean the ones who have done nothing to a child, they just know they are attracted to kids. I could respect someone like that, the ones who have abused kids however I have no sympathy for. We only act after the act happened and a childs life is ruined. Even if we killed people like that, it would mean nothing to the child.

    • @brianmay7111
      @brianmay7111 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@Parrotgirl-tattoo Yeah, I could not believe how many child molestors she encountered.

  • @dixonsusa
    @dixonsusa ปีที่แล้ว +69

    Just heartbreaking. Wishing him healing and success.

  • @Polz10
    @Polz10 ปีที่แล้ว +59

    I hope he can find closure and happiness in his later years. Children are so vulnerable 😢

  • @Goodasteebaby
    @Goodasteebaby ปีที่แล้ว +21

    Omg she took him to the doctor and doctor never alerted the DCF OR POLICE 😮😮😮 their mother is EVILLLLLL

  • @annenoran8383
    @annenoran8383 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    There’s something about this guy that I love; he is honest, unpretentious and completely authentic in expressing emotions. I find your videos revelatory and transcendent. They raise my awareness and identification to a poetic level of joyous human experience. I am William and he is me. I want to kill perps and I am damaged by my past. You are doing a great service to humanity, Mark. I bless you every day.

  • @maureent8653
    @maureent8653 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    Mark. I came back from florida last week on vacation. While boarding the plane in ft lauderale, the one flight attendant, as I walked by, said to another one, omg, I love that show. I listen to it all the time. I had my long sleeve soft white underbelly shirt on. When I was getting off the plane in cold pa, she said I love your shirt, I listen to those videos all the time! I said me too!! My morning ritual!!

  • @lisarodriguez6966
    @lisarodriguez6966 ปีที่แล้ว +31

    For someone who allegedly had no idea, his mother's actions and alcoholism sure pointed to absolutely knowing. But I get that he can't entertain the thought at this point.

  • @msblondon1465
    @msblondon1465 ปีที่แล้ว +38

    I am so angry with the mother, she is thesame as the ones who were abusing her children because she did not nothing.... and her younger brother should watch this and realize that perhaps he has a better life now because his older brother killed the person (although it was his father) who might have harmed him the same way he did to this man when he was young.

    • @janellenevarezgomez3935
      @janellenevarezgomez3935 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Wow spoiler alert over here. I read the comments before finishing the interview.

  • @jen-ms4xo
    @jen-ms4xo ปีที่แล้ว +44

    William I barely almost 7 min into your video and I wanted you to know you're not alone and that you're so brave for coming on here speaking with Mark I know you've touched countless people all over the world sharing your life's story I juss want to be able to teleport myself through my phone and give you a great big old hug that's if you'd let me I also suffered many years of abuse at my mother's R.I.P 2nd husband's , father of my youngest siblings and I am talking about every form of abuse you name it it started in the mid 70's and didn't end till the late 80's I believe I was the the literal red headed step child in my family I will never get the answers I want especially even more so now that my mother has been dead since 2019 plus whenever I do feel it's the right time ( like when is there ever a right time ) to ask certain very deep questions regarding my childhood life growing up in the same household as my eldest sister , my younger brother, and my youngest sister whenever I do bring up an event most of em don't wanna talk about it and that pisses me off royally I'm sure if I had the right amout of money to compensate them for their time they'd be willing to admit and share a lot more about our broken , toxic , dysfunctional, and abusive family well I believe I shared enough of about myself I hope you see my comment and have sometime to respond 😊 God bless you Dear fellow friend and brother in Jesus Christ you rock I wish nothing but the best for you in your lifetime God is good 👍 😊 ❤️ 💙 ☺️ 💖 1 last thing I wanted to let you know the beat thing that could ever happened for me from my mother's death is that I don't have to ever see or speak to her punk-ass no good husband for the rest of my life good riddance to him you reap what you sew 😊

  • @franbeller5897
    @franbeller5897 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    I hope William reads the comments to learn that others see what a good person he is and that we want him to find the better path which he deserves. We would love to see him back in a year, clean and content with a good life. You are not your past. Please see these posts to know people care who you become in the future

  • @TracyVanBrocklin
    @TracyVanBrocklin ปีที่แล้ว +29

    "that felt good", that felt good. good luck to this dude, this story was so vulnerable it was beautiful

  • @rocio_ins_services
    @rocio_ins_services ปีที่แล้ว +18

    Wow this is such a sad beautiful story. I understand why he killed his abusers and how it brought him peace. This happens in many families, and it's swept under the rug or its the family "secret." I know the pain myself, and it takes a while to heal. He is brave to share his story with the wolrd❤️

  • @natalievu4399
    @natalievu4399 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    So, this Blanca was 25 & he was 12 & she has the nerve to say it wasn't right what happened to him.
    So many people failed him.

  • @witchywoman4139
    @witchywoman4139 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    One of the best interviews on this channel. Good on William for taking out his abusers. Hopefully he is now on a path of healing from all the trauma, and finding out who he really is. My heart goes out to him.

  • @dionnedeniseeveryday
    @dionnedeniseeveryday ปีที่แล้ว +83

    Wrapping my arms around ALL survivors❤️
    Have hope for a better day, it will come. This is still a beautiful life if you make it one.

    • @Dpurple28
      @Dpurple28 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Sadly 😥 that isn't the case, than everyone would make a beautiful life for themselves!!!

    • @silethaking279
      @silethaking279 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      It is…ALWAYS FORWARD!🙏🏾

  • @zo3_luv578
    @zo3_luv578 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    When will laws be set into place to protect children....it is ALL OF OUR RESPONSIBILITIES to protect ALL children. Parents get your shit together...children don't deserve ish like this. 🤬

    • @luvyatubers
      @luvyatubers 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Because harsh laws mean rich power criminals have to be punished. Popes priests politicians pediatricians principals hollyweirdos... The powerful don't punish each other. They have a buddy system

  • @ows8426
    @ows8426 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    I believe everything he said, It’s just mind blowing.

  • @Daniea3
    @Daniea3 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    Thank you William for so candidly telling your story. I know you're trying to grieve your dear sister.

  • @jacksonfamily678
    @jacksonfamily678 ปีที่แล้ว +24

    I wish I could be this guy's neighbor and be some kindness and stability for him.

  • @petebutler5139
    @petebutler5139 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    This guy has amazing physical character! His face is very unique! I could draw, sketch and paint this guy for days!

  • @ukalypse
    @ukalypse ปีที่แล้ว +42

    Such a sweet man. I love the way he cared for his sister. I hope therapy can help him accept being treated well.

  • @mybrutaltruth9359
    @mybrutaltruth9359 ปีที่แล้ว +100

    At about 5:45 onto video, I had to stop. I started crying and couldn't stop for around 15 minutes. Aside from myself not being on Skid Row, as my heroin addict mother was frequently, my story is quite similar to William. I was born a product of rape by one of the six men who raped my drug addled mother. My youth was basically living on the street, in churches and surviving by eating out of trash cans and such. Mother was gone months at a time. We had a "good period" when she got clean and I was about 9 years old, which didn't last. She and I ended up living in Stockton California. Living in absolute squalor, a family friend of my grandmother (was on cover of Vogue magazine back in the day and my mother is also god-daughter of Kathleen (Kit) Kennedy, which is another story). This person sent me to a summer camp to try and get me out of the nastiness of my mother and aunt doing drugs every day in front of me. Pythian Youth Camp in Kings Canyon near Fresno. Met counselor named Randy (Daniel) Ronk. Long story short, he was married with newborn, gave me/my mother money for power bill and phone, obviously wasn't used for that. Eventually after he became city councilman in Stockton (later became mayor) he purchased me from my mother. For about 8 years he drugged me and sexually abused me with promises of money and things that never came to fruition. When William started talking about the creamy substance, I lost it. I suffer badly from PTSD, live in small apt in MN that I haven't left for nearly 18 months or more, severe agoraphobia. Stemming from my abuser, who also forced me to drink hard liquor, putting porno mags on my bed and snipping holes into my curtains, so he could stand outside naked pleasing himself sts. So I appreciate your work beyond words.

    • @HoneySuckle123
      @HoneySuckle123 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Wow, at first I was happy to hear you moved from the Bay Area to MN but sounds like you took your pain with you. I am so sorry for your sadness. Step by step my love, positive vibes can provide so much more light into your life. I want to hug you 🌷

    • @mybrutaltruth9359
      @mybrutaltruth9359 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@HoneySuckle123 thats so very kind. It seems to not be the norm any longer, to be kind and generous to others. Thank you, truly.

    • @sunlight8299
      @sunlight8299 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I'm so sorry this happened to you. I hope you have love and safety in your life now

    • @mybrutaltruth9359
      @mybrutaltruth9359 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      @@sunlight8299 I do, although agoraphobia sucks and I haven't left my domicile in over 18 months, I have friends I've know for 8 years I play video games with online and the joys of my life are a dog and cat who are best pals, even tho dog is 12 yrs and cat is 1 they still ❤ each other.

    • @shamtriklo4320
      @shamtriklo4320 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      It absolutely breaks my heart that you were stripped of your innocence and childhood and all the injustice you suffered!! I truly believe one of the most EVIL creatures God put on this Earth is a lustful MAN! But please know that you owe it to yourself to regain happiness and peace as a TRUE SURVIVOR!! You are a HERO(INE) in my book!! 🏆🏆🏆

  • @adrianchadwick9524
    @adrianchadwick9524 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    It’s so sad that even his grown adults we still try to justify molestation and abuse is something we may have done or that it wasn’t a big deal it was a big deal and it was done! I wish you all the peace in the world
    And to every victim 😢

  • @erincraig9109
    @erincraig9109 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    🧡 Jesus the amount of people molested is just unbelievable, it breaks my heart for them, wish him health and peace

    • @paolapargman-levy6669
      @paolapargman-levy6669 ปีที่แล้ว

      Read its 20% world population

    • @erincraig9109
      @erincraig9109 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@paolapargman-levy6669 heartbreaking

    • @jul5ki
      @jul5ki ปีที่แล้ว

      @@paolapargman-levy6669 uff ... That's sickening 🤮🤮🤮

  • @montanagabrielle
    @montanagabrielle ปีที่แล้ว +18

    Thank you SO much for your vulnerability. I know you putting yourself out there like this will help SO many people

  • @baleighmorey1626
    @baleighmorey1626 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This guy grew up surrounded by predators. Blanca talking about his childhood having issues like ya you psycho you are part of his problems!? The damage this does to children is irreparable and generational. I hust want to give him a hug and make him feel safe. I wosh someone wouldve protected this poor boy. Good for him for still becoming a good man. Also gotta agree with fidel about how to handle child predators...

  • @Schiffon
    @Schiffon ปีที่แล้ว +17

    William thank you for your story! This helps us all learn what this abuse does to our perfect, precious children. It is always life ruining, and absolutely never forgotten 😞.

  • @Goodasteebaby
    @Goodasteebaby ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Thank God for great Teachers that pay attention to their students ❤🎉

  • @robloxmilkycow7756
    @robloxmilkycow7756 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    So sorry u went through this

  • @espyxelz2847
    @espyxelz2847 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Poor William, I feel so bad he had to go thru this. This is truly hearbreaking😢...I wish him healing....and a happy life going forward.

  • @mpat100
    @mpat100 ปีที่แล้ว +48

    Blessings and healing for William