There is so much research and examples that show growing up with mentally ill parents (like his mom) does not properly teach children social behaviors and often leads to them feeling like outcasts. Things that are socially unacceptable have been acceptable throughout childhood and it makes a child unable to understand social cues.
@@thrakner Oh thank you doctor! another diagnosis set by someone who has no fking idea. Ive worked in a mental ward for 4+ years and even the doctors cant do a proper diagnosis on the get go. Ive even seen many of em being wrong. But yeah "aspbergers baby!" proves it. what we need: LESS ppl watching youtube and actually believe they can put diagnosis on people. Pls, stop, you have no fking clue.
lol this take is wild. Having someone listen is nice, but dealing with serious internal issues is another thing. Asmon just spend too much time around his old dad and is stuck in a war vets mentality. Childhood trauma is most likely the cause and he needs help
@@breed187Yet he still gets asked why he lives the way he does. This video distills things into people being rhetorical and hateful from this point forward.
One of my friends killed himself this year. He never reached out. I wasn’t quite paying attention to the signs. We were separated by 2000 miles so we didn’t interact as often as we used to. But I really wish I had known he was struggling. I would have done anything possible to try and help.
The worst thing is that helping someone with severe depression can be next to impossible, even when you're 100% aware. I'm doing everything in my power right now and they just keep shutting themselves off more and more. It's starting to mess with my own mental health while realistically I've accomplished nothing.
@@tsurutom In my eyes its very important at this point to watch out for yourself. My Dad took his life a few years after my mom died. We both had a rough time but at some point, i felt like i was getting over it, but no matter what i did my dad felt worse and worse. There was nothing i could do to help him and i started to feel very bad and usless cuz of that. Was hard to understand for me that its not my or his fault. Depressions can just hit so hard u dont belive it until you find out urself. You can try as much as u can, at the end you just have to be realistic, the outcome wont be in your hands. We can try our best but the rest is up to god or w/e you like to belive in.
I completely sympathize with Asmond. I grew up with a violent alcoholic father with undiagnosed bipolar disorder. Couldn’t hold a job so my mother worked for jobs just to keep a roof over our head and we were left home with his madness
The amount of people who think they can just diagnose someone with sociopathy is pretty nuts. Sociopathy, narccisism and aspergers are very, very often confused with eachother.
its pretty crazy lmfao. u can speculate, and say there's parallels. but people think they are psychologist for some reason lmfao. i personally think asmon is probably fine, hes had a rough upbringing but theres lots of people who have weird backstories. at the end of the day asmon isnt hurting anybody
There's substantial overlap for mental illness. You can't diagnose people without seeing them in different situations. The broad use of psychological terms causes "semantic shift" where the actual meaning of the words change. It's up to the DSM (diagnostic book) to maintain these diagnoses, eg 'depression' is a feeling and 'major depressive disorder' is a condition.
@@TreesPlease42 We’re discussing a public figure who consistently displays their behavior across multiple contexts, so there's plenty of data to make informed observations. While we can’t make a clinical diagnosis without a formal evaluation, we can recognize when behavioral patterns align closely with DSM definitions. Asmon shows clear signs of antisocial personality disorder (ASPD). Yes, terms like "antisocial" and "depression" can be misused or watered down, but that's not what's happening here. I'm attributing the term ASPD to Asmon based on observable, consistent traits that fit the medical criteria.
As someone who has extreme ADHD, and a spouse with ADHD and autism, his background screams autism. A lot of his actions and such, and the way he lives, etc, screams autism. He's wicked smart and high functioning at some things but also other things he just isn't good at, things that neurotypical people would do just automatically, like cleaning the house, etc etc. I really get what's going on with him. And the loss of his mom has only made things worse. Like, my spouse just went through testing and found out they had autism. People who say he is "lazy" have no goddamned clue what it is like to live with executive functioning disorders like ADHD and autism. And even 2 people with either of those disorders can have different experiences because you can have a deficit in one executive function while not having a problem with another one. That is what makes everything complicated. I have a deficit in most executive functions. But there are things that make ADHD different from autism. Also, once I heard how old his mom was when she had him, there are studies showing that kids born when the parents are that old, autism is more prevalent. My spouse was born to 40 year old parents, too. He's not a sociopath, people who say that also have no clue what it is to live with those disorders, either.
Honestly it seems more to me like borderline personality disorder that was exacerbated by a lack of stability by different factors from his childhood. For example, he would often have explosive changes in mood and have limerence in romantic relationships or would do things like hit other kids and enjoy doing it as a child. He also feels that everything social-related is performative/learned and has been violent and suicidal many times, which aren’t things characteristic of the typical presentation of adhd/autism as a child. BPD fits his description perfectly and would have most likely been diagnosed much earlier if it were not due to his family’s inability to have access to healthcare services, like therapy for him or for the treatment of his mother’s familial hypertension, which induced vascular disease symptoms in his mother (nocturnal hypoxemia and retinal hemorrhaging) and most likely led to her death, which I’m betting was a stroke. Asmondgold also has stated that he has very severe hypertension and that his systolic blood pressure was 190, which probably was the factor that finally forced him to take his health more seriously. I’m betting that after he went to the doctor for his hypertension, he probably was given access to resources, like a psychiatrist, that has helped him recognize all of the adverse childhood experiences that precipitate the things he deals with in the present day, like his sense of foreshortened future and again, the limerence in his romantic relationships.
When I was in middle and highschool I hated those "write your future self a letter" assignments because I was so sure I'd have killed myself by then. Kind of like Asmon, never made plans for my future, never bothered to dream or have ambitions because I was so stuck in the mud. I'm glad I'm still around, though, with all of my actual teeth.
A dose of apathy can be helpful for a time. I think you’re right Xar, it’s not advisable for the long term. But certainly if you’re feeling crushed by stress and worry, some apathy can be helpful.
Rise up!! Our bald over lord and king of the attic goblins is crying out for help. He needs to start streaming wow again to fix it. He needs to fight his own war within.
Honestly, doing this shows strength, and I think there would be people out there who are far better than a therapist, and don't rob you blind giving device or just listening. So so many people do not feel heard, and it is very isolating in a world of 'social' (joke, more like it) media.
@@museluvr Ah yes, random people give better guidance than the ones educated about it. I guess I pick random people to build a house or to consult for medical advice too.
He clearly states this isn't therapy. He clearly states that this is an informative dialogue. It's not a cry for help. It's not a virtue signal. You can fairly assume that if he is sharing this with us, that he is three steps ahead. However I would agree that he thinks he can do it all on his own and there's a chance he flys to close to the sun. But he is a very intelligent person. Like probably more intelligent than 99% of the therapists he could potentially see. And that in itself can be damaging. So let him cook dude......
i was in a similar situation like him. it was a cognitive thing for me that made me believe i didnt fit in etc or am not "normal" could fix it pretty easy cuz theres specific therapy sessions for it. i also get the sympathy part. if i talk about my mental health its because i feel the need to explain myself so people understand why i react to things like i do. but i never felt the need to "farm sympathy" from someone
10:55 Deep stuff Xar. I moved in feb. of this year thinking I would change somehow after living in one place for 40 years. I didn't change unfortunately. I am the same person I have always hated.
After moving across the US a couple years ago, I learned that where you live doesn't matter nearly as much as who your community is. Your location doesn't automatically change you and a fresh start doesn't automatically happen. It has to be an active choice. As I said to a friend of mine a couple weeks ago, actually *being* somewhere, actually really living in a place, is an active thing you have to do. If you're inside on the computer, where you live doesn't change a thing.
@@AgentNoun I did well for about 2 months then my alcoholism took over again. That got me in with the wrong people once again and I was back where II was
The chat being full of judgement and diagnosing someone from behind their computer screen is cringe, respect for Asmon for opening up and being authentic (and definitely on the 'tism spectrum).
Nowhere near his level but your family.... It wasn't until I met my first gf and started spending time at their house that I realised how different it was. They weren't the Waltons but the whole family's interactions were just different to what I was used to. Can you imagine being abut 7, your family in Germany as your dad was a Staff Sergeant in the British Army and your young mind aware that your dad was a bit of a lad and often did things that drove your mum into such a state that it was possible for me at 7 to say something that may have been where's dad? I forget. For my mum to literally burst with rage and sling a table knife at me which stuck in the table an inch from the edge quivering madly and her face to go shock at what she did. It's never left me. And friends? Army brat who remembers moving around a lot and a fight in school on day one every time at the new kid with his odd accent. Make a few friends, leave as you're moving to a new base area. But when you look further down the chain? One parent was raised by a vicious harpy of a woman in Dublin the other was abandoned by her mom at birth on Xmas eve. (religious Ireland) If your parents are a bit fucked up chances are that's your mould.
Kinda wild how often i hear the same kind of rhetoric from the homeless population that i work with. The learned helplessness the escapism the acceptance of immediate pleasure over any long term planning and other things. Im glad asmon has something in life giving him fufillment thats not drugs/alcohol. Crazy watch tho to hear these things from someone who ended on the complete oposite side of the economic spectrum but goes to show money doesnt solve all problems. That attitude of completely letting go and no longer caring does suck to see because its so so so hard to come back from. Hope asmon one day does. 🙏 but if not i hope he enjoys life until he dies and lives happy.
Noone can choose the family they are born in, not only Asmongold. And many of us have a backpack from the past they also didnt choose to have. And the older you get the more you are aware of this.
This is called ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder). I’m not even trying to meme or anything my 4 year old is autistic, and he has to be “taught” certain feelings/things that a typical child would do on their own.
There’s a lot of people that would kill themself if/when this happens: mom dies, etc. Please get therapy. When you have a broken leg, you go to the doctor. If you are struggling, seek professional help.
getting older is realizing those "cliche" or "dumb" sayings like "find a new crowd or clique" makes much more sense. These types of sayings should be expanded upon though.
Everybody is so obsessed with labels. he's a this, or he's a that. Our lives are so astronimcally complex - that no single life can match another, across billions of lifetimes. Billions of us all experiencing different things on a day to day basis, and people think they know someone's a this or a that after they speak for 10 minutes. Stop labelling everything.
He has no self respect for himself. He lost it as a child. Which is fairly common in most of us. Neglect. Abuse. These and others can strip away a child's self respect. And learning to love yourself again is difficult. Seems he still doesn't respect himself today.
You have to wonder why he felt the need to be this deep with the internet. What gets me is he doesn't cuss in this, yet elsewhere, I stop the videos do to *f every 2 seconds being said. He' very well spoken when the cussing is left out. Praying for him and millions who deal with loss and a hole in their lives only God can fill. Believe me, who are we to judge others when we ourselves are broken and do or say things that are not loving. Love thy neighbor ... as you would them you.
I disagree. My best friend literally died next to me and 2 of my other friends killed themselves. Those are only a couple examples but I've dealt with a lot of loss in my life. I have a decent amount of friends that care about me and their support as well as therapy helped fill that "void". I did not need "God" or any other make-believe fairy tale to find happiness and solace again. Just letting others know that read this, you don't have to do/follow something that someone else says will heal you. Find your own path
It is actually proven as well that some people are born without the ability to have an Internal monologue. Imagine not being able to think and weigh the negatives and positives of a situation and every thing you do is impulse. There is millions of those people around us. Anyone saying 2 to that question is straight full of shit lol I see you weird chatters.
Some people are too dumb to feel anxiety, fear, sadness. The world can be burning around them, and they are literally too dumb to comprehend it. In a way, I envy them
Mostly what he described is Anti-social behavior. Or a sociapath. You always know when your different. I am and I don't mind. My niece and I are both OCD.
Anti-social behavior yes, sociopathic behavior no. It's OCD and ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder). I have ADHD, ASD, OCD and I can cope well. But yeah I hate hanging out with people, big crowds, slow people and so on. That's why I only have 1 friend that understand and has ADHD as well... so yeah.
So quickly, your main support structure passes away. You are left alone and feel like your strenths are doing what needs to be done versus doing what people thinks should be done. Look at the videos that he talks about income he can live off of. Its very stressful to suddenly be in charge of a house, bills, and all these things you were oblivious to. With all the sudo internet experts, people forget that because these trates exist doesnt discount all the perseived positive ones or what makes him special. Nor that if he really wanted to hid these things, they would not be on the Internet. Hes very much publically confronting these things about himself and in turn sharing them with the whole world. We arent experts. Hes had to transverse all of this by himself. How many years later has finally found that the floor isnt going to fall out beneath his feet. Agree, dont agree. Its his journey and life lessons.
First thing first, This dude cant unwire his own WHY IM LIKE THIS< it dont work like that, its the same with personal attributes , like kind, good, intelligent, Alpha, beta, handsome, you cant give yourself those , they don't matter, it only matters if OTHERS See that , and or give you those attributes, onto your as a person, but i guess if you live alone and in a box , that don't matter either way. cause if he knew he would have changed course, lets be real in the end we are flock animals not cave dwellers. its as simple as that. all this is, is 1 little part of his own problems from his view. but w/e make him happy.
20:00 empathizing with Asmon's experience, at some point outcasts have to embrace and lean into it. My mom was in a similar situation, I felt bad about the situation, but the insecurity is really rough to go through. I think this will become more common as the internet encourages niche communities. Recommend Glink's video about Japan and Hikikomori "12 Days in Japan changed how I see the world" @22:00
Alot of this is me... Im autistic or what they called aspie. Not saying he is aspie or something else but it sounds like he might be on a spectrum. Important to know, all is on the spectrum. That means almost every time i tell about my problems in life with this "they also have this problems". Well, yes and no, they can turn of what i can not.
Its realy simple. People that want to unalive them self when they get older. We know the best time in our life is as kid and teen. Sonif life is allready hard imagine as an adult. I was not like that i had top 99% good life as a kid. But when i hit like 22. I qas doing nothing with my life no work no school. I wqs thinking i had a great life. Went of multiblw trip out side my country, Party hard, got girl. Was rank top 10% in the mmo i was playing, had alot of friend, great time with my famillly on chrismas and stuff. Most of that was gon. What was the point of living. Now i have a good job in construction, kids in doing my thing. Yes life was better as a teen. But its still pretty good
i don't mean to tell someone how to live their life, but this is just sad. i'm only 9 minutes in and his reactions to the examples of his behavior are jarring. it's like he's proud of the bad things he's done to other people. i understand that was his point of making the video to a degree, but damn. he needed therapy like 20 years ago. i'm not sure if it would even help at this point.
Bro ive dine the same thing but with a softball and it was an accident but i did NOT feel sorry whatsoever. Bro wasnt paying attention and talking so you get what you deserve in that case. He woulda lost all his teeth btw if he didnt have braces lmaao
i love asmon and think he’s a great guy at heart, but i just feel off about this. i feel like venting in this way to the wider world is extremely unhealthy. he needs to speak with a professional. sorry if i come off as rude or don’t fully understand the situation, but i just feel strange hearing him say these things in a video rather than with a counselor.
Zac is a perfect example of why a two parent house hold is so important. The man literally has no concept of a healthy relationship and what makes it beautiful.
@@jamesg9468 Came from a small Northern Canadian town and almost everyone was either an alcoholic, addicted to some heavy drug, or just living in depression. Small towns have an unfortunate amount of feelings of nothingness that drives many to substance abuse, or worse.
My guy what are you yapping about ? First of all, he never made a "im gonna fix myslef" video. His attitude has always been this who I am and i dont give a f what you think. Here he shares his traymatic experiences and WHY he is how he is. Simple as that.
I think this guy is a child and felt suicidal because he made childish decision and his parent never parented him. He said it himself - he would fail school and drink soda and live how he wanted. So instead of exploring areas of interest to grow, he focused on his friends. What happened after high school? His friends go to college, army, and work and he still wants to do child like shit like games and hanging out. But now thats over. You add that his mom needed his help for him to support her after high school, he was doomed to think this way. Its more interesting that hes 35 and hasnt figured it out
There is so much research and examples that show growing up with mentally ill parents (like his mom) does not properly teach children social behaviors and often leads to them feeling like outcasts.
Things that are socially unacceptable have been acceptable throughout childhood and it makes a child unable to understand social cues.
pls thats not it, Aspbergers baby
@@thrakner Oh thank you doctor! another diagnosis set by someone who has no fking idea. Ive worked in a mental ward for 4+ years and even the doctors cant do a proper diagnosis on the get go. Ive even seen many of em being wrong. But yeah "aspbergers baby!" proves it.
what we need: LESS ppl watching youtube and actually believe they can put diagnosis on people. Pls, stop, you have no fking clue.
@@thrakner ?
lol this take is wild. Having someone listen is nice, but dealing with serious internal issues is another thing. Asmon just spend too much time around his old dad and is stuck in a war vets mentality. Childhood trauma is most likely the cause and he needs help
Social cues* (not "queues")
respect the honesty and it was nice to watch
dude has said all the same shit for years
@@breed187Yet he still gets asked why he lives the way he does. This video distills things into people being rhetorical and hateful from this point forward.
Chat was having their own civil war throughout this lol
One of my friends killed himself this year. He never reached out. I wasn’t quite paying attention to the signs. We were separated by 2000 miles so we didn’t interact as often as we used to. But I really wish I had known he was struggling. I would have done anything possible to try and help.
The worst thing is that helping someone with severe depression can be next to impossible, even when you're 100% aware.
I'm doing everything in my power right now and they just keep shutting themselves off more and more. It's starting to mess with my own mental health while realistically I've accomplished nothing.
@@tsurutom In my eyes its very important at this point to watch out for yourself. My Dad took his life a few years after my mom died. We both had a rough time but at some point, i felt like i was getting over it, but no matter what i did my dad felt worse and worse. There was nothing i could do to help him and i started to feel very bad and usless cuz of that. Was hard to understand for me that its not my or his fault. Depressions can just hit so hard u dont belive it until you find out urself. You can try as much as u can, at the end you just have to be realistic, the outcome wont be in your hands. We can try our best but the rest is up to god or w/e you like to belive in.
I completely sympathize with Asmond. I grew up with a violent alcoholic father with undiagnosed bipolar disorder. Couldn’t hold a job so my mother worked for jobs just to keep a roof over our head and we were left home with his madness
Dude can be autistic. Harder to understand how people work. You just try to learn how to act in certain situations.
Bad /rnd on parents, skill issue
This man legit just said, WotLK saved his life essentially.. That's pretty deep.
I don't think people fully understand or appreciate how growing up in a functional house hold is so important for the development of a young mind.
The amount of people who think they can just diagnose someone with sociopathy is pretty nuts.
Sociopathy, narccisism and aspergers are very, very often confused with eachother.
its pretty crazy lmfao. u can speculate, and say there's parallels. but people think they are psychologist for some reason lmfao. i personally think asmon is probably fine, hes had a rough upbringing but theres lots of people who have weird backstories. at the end of the day asmon isnt hurting anybody
@@pinkleWeenkiesthey watch all seasons of Criminal Minds and think they can do the same
There's substantial overlap for mental illness. You can't diagnose people without seeing them in different situations. The broad use of psychological terms causes "semantic shift" where the actual meaning of the words change. It's up to the DSM (diagnostic book) to maintain these diagnoses, eg 'depression' is a feeling and 'major depressive disorder' is a condition.
Aspergers doesn't exist anymore, it's part of the autism spectrum
@@TreesPlease42 We’re discussing a public figure who consistently displays their behavior across multiple contexts, so there's plenty of data to make informed observations. While we can’t make a clinical diagnosis without a formal evaluation, we can recognize when behavioral patterns align closely with DSM definitions. Asmon shows clear signs of antisocial personality disorder (ASPD).
Yes, terms like "antisocial" and "depression" can be misused or watered down, but that's not what's happening here. I'm attributing the term ASPD to Asmon based on observable, consistent traits that fit the medical criteria.
As someone who has extreme ADHD, and a spouse with ADHD and autism, his background screams autism. A lot of his actions and such, and the way he lives, etc, screams autism. He's wicked smart and high functioning at some things but also other things he just isn't good at, things that neurotypical people would do just automatically, like cleaning the house, etc etc. I really get what's going on with him. And the loss of his mom has only made things worse. Like, my spouse just went through testing and found out they had autism.
People who say he is "lazy" have no goddamned clue what it is like to live with executive functioning disorders like ADHD and autism. And even 2 people with either of those disorders can have different experiences because you can have a deficit in one executive function while not having a problem with another one. That is what makes everything complicated. I have a deficit in most executive functions. But there are things that make ADHD different from autism.
Also, once I heard how old his mom was when she had him, there are studies showing that kids born when the parents are that old, autism is more prevalent. My spouse was born to 40 year old parents, too.
He's not a sociopath, people who say that also have no clue what it is to live with those disorders, either.
Also, this is how he shoots all his personal "Zack" videos to separate himself from being Asmongold. Lo-fi and confessional style.
He plays and played WoW, we're all on a spectrum somewhere. 😝 Jk
YUP
thanks for your thoughtful comment
Honestly it seems more to me like borderline personality disorder that was exacerbated by a lack of stability by different factors from his childhood. For example, he would often have explosive changes in mood and have limerence in romantic relationships or would do things like hit other kids and enjoy doing it as a child. He also feels that everything social-related is performative/learned and has been violent and suicidal many times, which aren’t things characteristic of the typical presentation of adhd/autism as a child.
BPD fits his description perfectly and would have most likely been diagnosed much earlier if it were not due to his family’s inability to have access to healthcare services, like therapy for him or for the treatment of his mother’s familial hypertension, which induced vascular disease symptoms in his mother (nocturnal hypoxemia and retinal hemorrhaging) and most likely led to her death, which I’m betting was a stroke.
Asmondgold also has stated that he has very severe hypertension and that his systolic blood pressure was 190, which probably was the factor that finally forced him to take his health more seriously. I’m betting that after he went to the doctor for his hypertension, he probably was given access to resources, like a psychiatrist, that has helped him recognize all of the adverse childhood experiences that precipitate the things he deals with in the present day, like his sense of foreshortened future and again, the limerence in his romantic relationships.
When I was in middle and highschool I hated those "write your future self a letter" assignments because I was so sure I'd have killed myself by then. Kind of like Asmon, never made plans for my future, never bothered to dream or have ambitions because I was so stuck in the mud. I'm glad I'm still around, though, with all of my actual teeth.
I’m so glad you’re still around too!
A dose of apathy can be helpful for a time. I think you’re right Xar, it’s not advisable for the long term. But certainly if you’re feeling crushed by stress and worry, some apathy can be helpful.
Rise up!! Our bald over lord and king of the attic goblins is crying out for help. He needs to start streaming wow again to fix it. He needs to fight his own war within.
Dudes will literally expose every childhood vulnerability to millions of people before going to therapy.
Honestly, doing this shows strength, and I think there would be people out there who are far better than a therapist, and don't rob you blind giving device or just listening. So so many people do not feel heard, and it is very isolating in a world of 'social' (joke, more like it) media.
For a Lot of people Sharing their Story and getting Response is the therapy dude
@@museluvr Ah yes, random people give better guidance than the ones educated about it. I guess I pick random people to build a house or to consult for medical advice too.
@@museluvr yeah, you have no idea what therapy is
He clearly states this isn't therapy. He clearly states that this is an informative dialogue. It's not a cry for help. It's not a virtue signal. You can fairly assume that if he is sharing this with us, that he is three steps ahead. However I would agree that he thinks he can do it all on his own and there's a chance he flys to close to the sun. But he is a very intelligent person. Like probably more intelligent than 99% of the therapists he could potentially see. And that in itself can be damaging. So let him cook dude......
i was in a similar situation like him. it was a cognitive thing for me that made me believe i didnt fit in etc or am not "normal" could fix it pretty easy cuz theres specific therapy sessions for it.
i also get the sympathy part. if i talk about my mental health its because i feel the need to explain myself so people understand why i react to things like i do. but i never felt the need to "farm sympathy" from someone
10:55 Deep stuff Xar. I moved in feb. of this year thinking I would change somehow after living in one place for 40 years. I didn't change unfortunately. I am the same person I have always hated.
After moving across the US a couple years ago, I learned that where you live doesn't matter nearly as much as who your community is. Your location doesn't automatically change you and a fresh start doesn't automatically happen. It has to be an active choice.
As I said to a friend of mine a couple weeks ago, actually *being* somewhere, actually really living in a place, is an active thing you have to do. If you're inside on the computer, where you live doesn't change a thing.
@@AgentNoun I did well for about 2 months then my alcoholism took over again. That got me in with the wrong people once again and I was back where II was
The chat being full of judgement and diagnosing someone from behind their computer screen is cringe, respect for Asmon for opening up and being authentic (and definitely on the 'tism spectrum).
Respect for the honesty, asmons a good guy tbh
Xaryu Asmon reaction videos never get old.
lmao the story of him hitting a boy in the face with the ball and being happy about it literally made me cry from laughter. I can 100% relate! XD
Nowhere near his level but your family.... It wasn't until I met my first gf and started spending time at their house that I realised how different it was. They weren't the Waltons but the whole family's interactions were just different to what I was used to. Can you imagine being abut 7, your family in Germany as your dad was a Staff Sergeant in the British Army and your young mind aware that your dad was a bit of a lad and often did things that drove your mum into such a state that it was possible for me at 7 to say something that may have been where's dad? I forget. For my mum to literally burst with rage and sling a table knife at me which stuck in the table an inch from the edge quivering madly and her face to go shock at what she did. It's never left me. And friends? Army brat who remembers moving around a lot and a fight in school on day one every time at the new kid with his odd accent. Make a few friends, leave as you're moving to a new base area. But when you look further down the chain? One parent was raised by a vicious harpy of a woman in Dublin the other was abandoned by her mom at birth on Xmas eve. (religious Ireland)
If your parents are a bit fucked up chances are that's your mould.
Kinda wild how often i hear the same kind of rhetoric from the homeless population that i work with. The learned helplessness the escapism the acceptance of immediate pleasure over any long term planning and other things. Im glad asmon has something in life giving him fufillment thats not drugs/alcohol.
Crazy watch tho to hear these things from someone who ended on the complete oposite side of the economic spectrum but goes to show money doesnt solve all problems.
That attitude of completely letting go and no longer caring does suck to see because its so so so hard to come back from. Hope asmon one day does. 🙏 but if not i hope he enjoys life until he dies and lives happy.
Yeah I need to pray for him holy moly.
I love watching vids with Xaryu, you basically watch them twice because he keeps rewinding
Noone can choose the family they are born in, not only Asmongold. And many of us have a backpack from the past they also didnt choose to have. And the older you get the more you are aware of this.
16:10 100% I noticed from some recordings that when I'm thinking/concentrating my eyes start looking side to side. 😅
bro that braces story is UNHINGED!!!
Asmongold hitting a ball was the hardest to believe part of the story.
I don't see how. Dude can accurately swing a 2 handed sword and split a piece of wood. Hitting a ball with a bat is nothing.
Amazing video, thank you for sharing!
That braces story hurt to hear. Straight nightmare fuel
Just don't look at Xaryu's chat if you don't want your blood pressure to rise (and don't drink dr.pepper either lol)
This is called ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder). I’m not even trying to meme or anything my 4 year old is autistic, and he has to be “taught” certain feelings/things that a typical child would do on their own.
True and ASD people are gifted and highly intelligent usually. Asmongold is as well.
He needs to seek help. This seems like his best form of reaching out.
Surely he has been doing this way longer
There’s a lot of people that would kill themself if/when this happens: mom dies, etc. Please get therapy. When you have a broken leg, you go to the doctor. If you are struggling, seek professional help.
getting older is realizing those "cliche" or "dumb" sayings like "find a new crowd or clique" makes much more sense. These types of sayings should be expanded upon though.
The "stab someone" was with a fork when he was in 1-2nd grade, he's stold the story a few times over the years
Not for everyone. A psychopath and sociopath feel no empathy. People are on different scales.
I feel like this is just growing up in the pacific northwest
Everybody is so obsessed with labels. he's a this, or he's a that. Our lives are so astronimcally complex - that no single life can match another, across billions of lifetimes.
Billions of us all experiencing different things on a day to day basis, and people think they know someone's a this or a that after they speak for 10 minutes.
Stop labelling everything.
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It's interesting how Asmon's conclusions are quite aligned with Buddhism
He has no self respect for himself. He lost it as a child. Which is fairly common in most of us. Neglect. Abuse. These and others can strip away a child's self respect. And learning to love yourself again is difficult. Seems he still doesn't respect himself today.
The amount of doctors in the comments holy hell. All graduated from distinguished universities did you all? LMFAO.
Yep, armchair university is the best n biggest world renowned uni, that even Yale or Harvard wish to emulate.
growing up poor with separated parents really fucks you up
Asmongold come up story is amazing
Here is an honest take - Asmon is probably the realest mtrfkr ever, lmao.
aspergers ... and something else in the mix
This video is actually really sad
You have to wonder why he felt the need to be this deep with the internet. What gets me is he doesn't cuss in this, yet elsewhere, I stop the videos do to *f every 2 seconds being said. He' very well spoken when the cussing is left out. Praying for him and millions who deal with loss and a hole in their lives only God can fill. Believe me, who are we to judge others when we ourselves are broken and do or say things that are not loving. Love thy neighbor ... as you would them you.
I disagree. My best friend literally died next to me and 2 of my other friends killed themselves. Those are only a couple examples but I've dealt with a lot of loss in my life. I have a decent amount of friends that care about me and their support as well as therapy helped fill that "void". I did not need "God" or any other make-believe fairy tale to find happiness and solace again. Just letting others know that read this, you don't have to do/follow something that someone else says will heal you. Find your own path
@@0kJaymieok mate we will all pat you on the back it’s okay now
It is actually proven as well that some people are born without the ability to have an Internal monologue. Imagine not being able to think and weigh the negatives and positives of a situation and every thing you do is impulse. There is millions of those people around us. Anyone saying 2 to that question is straight full of shit lol I see you weird chatters.
Some people are too dumb to feel anxiety, fear, sadness. The world can be burning around them, and they are literally too dumb to comprehend it. In a way, I envy them
Your heights can only reach as deep as roots go. As below so above. Go all the way asmon.
Insane...
Mostly what he described is Anti-social behavior. Or a sociapath. You always know when your different. I am and I don't mind. My niece and I are both OCD.
we all perform dissocial behaviours. its nothing new to our society (it is built on it) and it is not rare or unique. it is not a diagnosis.
He describes autism, 100%.
Anti-social behavior yes, sociopathic behavior no. It's OCD and ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder). I have ADHD, ASD, OCD and I can cope well. But yeah I hate hanging out with people, big crowds, slow people and so on. That's why I only have 1 friend that understand and has ADHD as well... so yeah.
@@AriinPHD It isn't new correct, but not all people show signs of Anti-social. Infact most people I know aren't.
So quickly, your main support structure passes away. You are left alone and feel like your strenths are doing what needs to be done versus doing what people thinks should be done. Look at the videos that he talks about income he can live off of. Its very stressful to suddenly be in charge of a house, bills, and all these things you were oblivious to. With all the sudo internet experts, people forget that because these trates exist doesnt discount all the perseived positive ones or what makes him special. Nor that if he really wanted to hid these things, they would not be on the Internet. Hes very much publically confronting these things about himself and in turn sharing them with the whole world. We arent experts. Hes had to transverse all of this by himself. How many years later has finally found that the floor isnt going to fall out beneath his feet. Agree, dont agree. Its his journey and life lessons.
look at Athene and his wow days
Not the chat, but 1 for sure. He is basically describing having undiagnosed autism.
Yikes dude I had no idea how toxic Xaryu's twitch community is, they seem to loath this homeless dude
What u mean?
@@villejohansson3007 Dude
@@villejohansson3007 You can't be real lol
Homeless, millionaire.....
Casual twitch chat nothing new
First thing first,
This dude cant unwire his own WHY IM LIKE THIS< it dont work like that,
its the same with personal attributes , like kind, good, intelligent, Alpha, beta, handsome, you cant give yourself those , they don't matter, it only matters if OTHERS See that , and or give you those attributes, onto your as a person, but i guess if you live alone and in a box , that don't matter either way.
cause if he knew he would have changed course, lets be real in the end we are flock animals not cave dwellers.
its as simple as that.
all this is, is 1 little part of his own problems from his view.
but w/e make him happy.
Some of us are just semin that spawned that should have been flushed how did we get here 😂
I see Xaryu is a Kantian
20:00 empathizing with Asmon's experience, at some point outcasts have to embrace and lean into it. My mom was in a similar situation, I felt bad about the situation, but the insecurity is really rough to go through. I think this will become more common as the internet encourages niche communities. Recommend Glink's video about Japan and Hikikomori "12 Days in Japan changed how I see the world" @22:00
My dad took the pliers from the garage. xD that's all I'm gonna say xD what a chads xD
Alot of this is me... Im autistic or what they called aspie. Not saying he is aspie or something else but it sounds like he might be on a spectrum. Important to know, all is on the spectrum. That means almost every time i tell about my problems in life with this "they also have this problems". Well, yes and no, they can turn of what i can not.
Hello Xaryu
I wish I could help Asmongold somehow
Wellp his community and his fall into being Tate bros makes sense now
Its realy simple. People that want to unalive them self when they get older. We know the best time in our life is as kid and teen. Sonif life is allready hard imagine as an adult. I was not like that i had top 99% good life as a kid. But when i hit like 22. I qas doing nothing with my life no work no school. I wqs thinking i had a great life. Went of multiblw trip out side my country, Party hard, got girl. Was rank top 10% in the mmo i was playing, had alot of friend, great time with my famillly on chrismas and stuff. Most of that was gon. What was the point of living. Now i have a good job in construction, kids in doing my thing. Yes life was better as a teen. But its still pretty good
He reminds me of Christian Bale in American Psycho. He's struggling with felling Empathyfor anything.
Asmongold admits he’s a sociopath??
He wants to use phone because audio is like his life before... Crappy.
Xaryu learns about the Autism spectrum live on twitch
filth=garbage=filth=garbage
hello there.
i don't mean to tell someone how to live their life, but this is just sad. i'm only 9 minutes in and his reactions to the examples of his behavior are jarring. it's like he's proud of the bad things he's done to other people. i understand that was his point of making the video to a degree, but damn. he needed therapy like 20 years ago. i'm not sure if it would even help at this point.
"I dont want to spoil the book" *proceeds to spoil the book* 😂
how to be a black person in world of warcraftish
twitch chat r worst that what they think asmon is
Xaryu's chat is effing awful.
Bro ive dine the same thing but with a softball and it was an accident but i did NOT feel sorry whatsoever. Bro wasnt paying attention and talking so you get what you deserve in that case. He woulda lost all his teeth btw if he didnt have braces lmaao
i love asmon and think he’s a great guy at heart, but i just feel off about this. i feel like venting in this way to the wider world is extremely unhealthy. he needs to speak with a professional. sorry if i come off as rude or don’t fully understand the situation, but i just feel strange hearing him say these things in a video rather than with a counselor.
So he's anti-social with bad parenting.
Very reductionist - the guy considers himself wired up differently to other people, that’s a very difficult thing to navigate in the real world
@@razman95xeveryone feels this way during teenage years. Teen angst is a widely known phenomenon
no, he's autistic. when he says he is wired differently, that's what it is.
No one should celebrate mental health issues.
Everyone is different. If this is alien to you then that is the difference..
god the chat was so cringe this entire time...can't just listen to a story
xaryu youre hot, you dont know whats it like for us 😅😂😢❤
Started it then realised there aint enough time in the day to listen to some guy yammer about cleaning his room up lol
Ignorance at its best with this comment
Zac is a perfect example of why a two parent house hold is so important. The man literally has no concept of a healthy relationship and what makes it beautiful.
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"I was raised in a small town in..." is seriously just becoming a meme at this point for how people are justifying their current lifestyles.
The small towns are infinitely better than the soulless urine-stenched supercities
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who the fuck says that?
@@jamesg9468amen to that
@@jamesg9468 Came from a small Northern Canadian town and almost everyone was either an alcoholic, addicted to some heavy drug, or just living in depression. Small towns have an unfortunate amount of feelings of nothingness that drives many to substance abuse, or worse.
sounds like a socio
He’s admitting to being a sociopath.
Asmongold
its yar boi
Asmon needs Jesus
Isn't this like the 5th time Asmon has made a "I'm gonna sort myself out" video over the last few months? Don't just talk about it, DO IT
huh, i have never seen him make such a video
You didn't watch the video did you?
Lol more of a, this is the way I live and I don't give a fuck what you think video.
You obviously didn't even watch this video, he's never released a video where he goes into this much detail about his life.
My guy what are you yapping about ? First of all, he never made a "im gonna fix myslef" video. His attitude has always been this who I am and i dont give a f what you think. Here he shares his traymatic experiences and WHY he is how he is. Simple as that.
This entire comments section is rot lol, why does this guy react to everything too lmao
what an immature way to look at life
at least he's honest
I think this guy is a child and felt suicidal because he made childish decision and his parent never parented him. He said it himself - he would fail school and drink soda and live how he wanted. So instead of exploring areas of interest to grow, he focused on his friends.
What happened after high school? His friends go to college, army, and work and he still wants to do child like shit like games and hanging out. But now thats over. You add that his mom needed his help for him to support her after high school, he was doomed to think this way.
Its more interesting that hes 35 and hasnt figured it out
hes rich and wants to help people.. literally hire a maid
Asmon is the very worst type of people and has a following of people like a cult. He needs major therapy
Asmon is that kid that lies on the spot in his stories because he needs to feel accepted, he's the person who says you know what I mean