its marionne I made a vlog about my depression story and I would love for everyone to check it out on my channel! It would mean so much to help as many people as I can who struggle with mental illness! Thanks!
@Ligeia D.Aurevilly They were probably trying to say martyr, but that's not a correct usage. Martyrs die for a cause or for something they believed in. Suicide for personal reasons is different.
Wrong. People love you when your alive. Depression holds the person back. The whole world Can love you but if you can’t find a strong enough reason to love yourself all the love in the world will never work. This is coming someone with 3 suicide attempts. 3 I’m glad I failed. It taught me exactly who I would be hurting. The people I love the most in this whole wide world. Don’t blame the the victims of this tragedy you don’t know know them. And even so it seemed they loved them enough. Just stop with this lie. Maybe you’re hurting. Wake up now and look at who loves you. I guarantee one person does and don’t come at with that “no one does because xyz” mentality LOOK deeper into your life someone cares.
@@lovewillsetyoufree I'v had about the same amount of attempts, but I'll kindly disagree with you on that one. People will always love you and the difference between being loved and receiving love are two totally different things. We all need validation and encouragement. It's not easy for those victims but I totally resonated with that statement.
Thats not true at all. Theres never been more people that cared. We live in a society now where practically anyone is prepared to listen and a stranger is willing to talk with someone over the phone for hours to help them. Youve got to start seeing the reality and stop feeling sorry for yourself. That will never get anybody anywhere. The reality is is that life has never been easier. Let that sink in for a moment. Compared to a thousand years ago and all the time periods throughout history humans have never had more ease. We no longer have to hunt for our food, no longer have to live in caves for shelter, were less likely to die from illnesses, we dont have to travel for months at a time. Life is very different to what it used to be, and for the most part thats good. For others not so. “As life becomes easier, we become weaker physically, and emotionally as well.” Chad Howse We need to harness strength. Every single one of us. It shouldnt be only the few that ever aspire to be strong, tough and gritty but everyone. Depression isnt something unique or new, its been around for as long as humans have. More people than not experience depression at some point in their life, so its not an excuse not to live and not an excuse to quit life. In fact its probably a bigger reason not to give up
To Live is an Act of Courage “I saw not my own courage in dying, but his courage broken by the loss of me. So I said to myself, ‘You must live’. Sometimes even to live is an act of courage” Seneca (4BC-65AD)
@@LightningWolf09 aka "Stop being sad, other people have it worse"...please NEVER speak to someone who has major depression in a time of crisis. You will literally make everything so much worse as you clearly don't understand mental health with all these insane generalizations and ignoring how difficult longterm help is to find.
they just want to save themselves from the shame of being affiliated with someone who successfully commit suicide. in truth, people only care about themselves and their image. its all superficial.
2:30 yes suicidal people think about loved ones. That’s why they leave notes. But suicide and depression are strong things that not even support from loved ones can be enough sometimes.
@@kelliequinn3565 I don’t really have the right words to say to you if you’re struggling but I really do want you to know that you’re stronger than you think. I hope you’re keeping your head up
@@Nillowo I agree sometimes love just ISN'T enough, I know that I have a lot of people in my life who love me to death and would do anything that could if they could help me and stop my agony and despair, that's why I'm fighting for my life every single day to resist the overwhelming desire to steal a gun and eat a bullet, I know it would absolutely LITERALLY kill my Mommy if I did that, she's a strong Woman but she isn't strong enough to handle finding her Baby Boy's corpse with a hole in his Skull in a pool of his Blood and his special Aspie Brain all over the damn wall, it would literally kill her, she'd either A, take her own life the minute she put me in the ground or B, she'd drink herself to death cause she'd have constant unrelenting night terrors and die that way, also I know it'd break the Hearts of my Friend Chris and his wife Haley, as well as their little Daughters Gwen and Genevieve, it'd absolutely crush my Best Friend Makoto Kaiser (shout out to her YT btw) and Dontae, it'd break my Boyfriend's Heart, same for my Friend Laura back in Oregon it'd break the Hearts of all my Friends and Colleagues at New Moon where I worked before covid, I have so many people who love me and I don't want to give up and hurt them, but that being said I'm scared that I'm losing the fight and I don't know how much longer I can keep fighting, cause like I said love sometimes isn't enough when you're in constant unrelenting horrific AGONY, constant sleep deprivation AND despair from loneliness mostly because of Boyfriend who I'm in an LDR with!😞
Its sad because there are a lot of suicidal people like me who have no best friends, no loving family, no nothin. This would be a lot more comforting if I knew people actually liked me
Jesus is the only way truth and life. Seek him he loves you. You were born into Gods though and you were created because you are loved and have a great life ahead of you. read the bible and learn about Jesus please. If you need someine to talk to on a deeper scale i an here. X
@double donut, firstly, Islam is the truth. Turn to our Creator, Allah, may He be exalted. Ask Him for guidance and to give you the peace you seek. Also: Don't compare your life to what you see portrayed by others. Have you heard of photoshop? People recreate their physical appearance with this tool. Similarly, when you see the good things about others, you may be seeing one aspect of their reality. Sometimes, like the photo-shopped images, this too may be fabricated. For all you know, a person may have friends, family, opportunities etc, and be even more unhappy than you. Start socializing more and extend your circle. If you don't go out much, join an online forum where you get to chat with people. But stay away from those forums where people just sit around discussing their misery and problems. I think some people get even more unhappy by constantly focusing on their problems.
I have depression and it isn’t that I am physically lonely, it is that even though I have these friends and people who care about me I still feel empty.
I tried to commit suicide when I was 18. I have had chronic depression since I was a child and I took enough pills to kill an elephant. By some miracle I survived. All these years later, I realize that I didn't REALLY want to die.....I just wanted the pain to stop. Recently I confessed to my sister what I had done and the first thing she said was "how could you be so selfish.....have you any idea what that would have done to us?" In all honesty, I wasn't even thinking about my family when I made my suicide attempt.......I just wanted to find peace. But I am wondering.....who are the REAL selfish ones? The only thing my sister cared about was what effect it would have had on HER......she didn't even ask me the reason WHY I wanted to die at such a young age. MAYBE if people who are suicidal had some REAL support and love in their lives (instead of selfish families complaining about how it would hurt THEM).....then MAYBE there would be less suicides.
I agree with you, and that's what I don't like about this video. Yes, the effect of a loved one committing suicide is awful, but it's not about that. It's about the person who is struggling every day to survive. Hey, by the way, if you ever want to talk, say the word!
How are you now? Do you suffer from depression? Please watch this: th-cam.com/video/mxxxH_cX1zg/w-d-xo.html . It's about how a lady came out of years of depression
As someone who was on the verge of taking my own life many times before, imagining that there might be people that would react like this to my death held me back. I just wish people would tell eachother how much they mean without them having to die first. We should open up about our feelings more.
I was there too (I only planned and not committed or tried) but same story for me. I watched videos of people grieving and the after effects of suicide. That's what stopped me.
marte me Thousands, maybe millions of people care about you....we just haven't met you yet and if you're gone we will never have the chance to meet you. I agree wholeheartedly, we should tell eachother more about how we feel. So I'm going to tell you....I want you alive in this world....I care about you and hope you are feeling better.
It’s hard it really is to be open about your feeling in my head I am one person and around everyone else I am a different person no one in the whole world accepts me for who I am everyone judges me and I take those judgements and add another thing about my personality that changes I am not who I really would like to be I am who people want me to be I cry a lot and my dad being an drunk and high all the time doesn’t help at all I keep so many thoughts to myself no one even knows I am depressed my life should end I am worthless
As a live long sufferer of depression and suicidal thoughts I found this video a bit tone deaf. I know how much it would hurt the people I left behind but do they know how painful it is for me to stay alive? People who don’t suffer from depression have no idea what we go through daily. I just lost my mom to cancer and everyone was like, “It’s better now that she doesn’t have to suffer.” Yet, no one will say that about someone who takes his/her own life. Just bc our pain isn’t physical doesn’t mean we aren’t dying inside. If more people practiced empathy and tried harder to understand our circumstances maybe we wouldn’t take our own lives. Sorry, I know you mean well but this video just proves how far we still have to go in order to understand depression.
To Live is an Act of Courage “I saw not my own courage in dying, but his courage broken by the loss of me. So I said to myself, ‘You must live’. Sometimes even to live is an act of courage” Seneca (4BC-65AD)
KimmyKim96 this makes me sad but I didn't cry. I've never delt with a family/friend who committed suicide and I'm thankful for that praying I never will but...I just can't imagine how these people feel dealing with this
AMEN TO THAT ... Preach It!!! Know The Truth and The Truth Will Set You Free!!! - John 8:32 :) Don't Say Things Like This to People When Their Dead, Say it Too Them When Their Alive!!! :)
Knowing that the people around you care about you and struggling with depression and other issues that become too painful to bear are two very different things. Please don't blame their loved ones for their passing..
I lost my brother to suicide two months ago. There’s so much I want to say to him. The most important one is that he’s so valued, and so loved. My heart is broken.
Yeah... Iam so sorry my boyfriend lost his brother and he's going insane about him he doesn't even think about me anymore I just want to know what would he do if iwas dead?
You matter more than you think. You are more loved than you know. I am certain of it. You matter, and things can get better. Wishing you all the best and sending love.
They do, I promise. There are always people who love you unconditionally no matter what. In those really dark days it seems like no one really cares about you and everything is too heavy to carry alone. But I can tell you that's not true. You never have to fight completely alone, even if it seems like you have to. Most of the times we just forget to tell others how important and beloved they are and that their lives matter so much to us. Never give up, because there are sooo many great storys people can tell about you and there are more to come. You are worth of love, hope and happiness:) You will feel better;) (Sorry for the bad english. I'm not a native)
People do. You may think it's best to leave them, but, oh, how they'd miss you. I cannot remember where I heard this, but: "To the world, you're someone. To someone, you're the world."
Don’t worry, they do. It might seem like the world hates you, like you were a mistake, but, you were put on this earth for a reason, and I assure you that people love you and they care. Stay strong, you’re not in this alone.
It takes a lot of strength to reach out when you're hurting. It can be so hard when life feels overwhelming, but I am glad you shared how you were feeling. If you ever feel in crisis, you can text HELLO to 741741, and someone will respond with ideas and tools to help keep you strong and safe. We are glad you are here with us.
I'm sending much love and courage and I hope you will find peace in your life and that the strength that's within you will become obvious to your eyes... ♥
Maggie k I'm glad complete strangers can bring you comfort but keep in mind that you're here for yourself and no one else. You matter. People do care. ❤️
I don't think that people who commit suicide don't think about how it would affect loved ones. Thats the main reason they didn't do it sooner, I know for a fact that thinking about my family has definitely saved my life. Sometimes the pain is too much and you don't think clear enough.
To Live is an Act of Courage “I saw not my own courage in dying, but his courage broken by the loss of me. So I said to myself, ‘You must live’. Sometimes even to live is an act of courage” Seneca (4BC-65AD)
This morning i was thinking about killing myself. Depression got me again. This video has saved me this time. These strangers, i feel like they're talking to me...
I know this comment is long ago… but if you need someone to talk to I'm here. I know how it feels if you think you have no one to talk about you're problems… and this loneliness just makes it worse… … so if you need someone, you can talk to me :) have a hug and a cookie 🤗🍪
Bri Chafin Hi :) Can you please watch this video? It's about how this person came out of years of depression : m.th-cam.com/video/mxxxH_cX1zg/w-d-xo.html
As someone who lost their best friend from elementary school almost a year ago, this helps. I wasn't there for him after we started middle school, or even when he moved away for high school. It hurts. Knowing you were so close and then weren't and haven't kept in contact after he moved. It hurts, but one day, it won't hurt as much,
I relate to you so much my best friend since elementary moved to a different middle school but I blamed myself because my other friends convinced my I was too old to be playing around so I decided to be more of an "adult" but that separated us. She was always there for me and I regret it. She came back this yeah and I cried seeing her but when I talked to her she was like the same and I was different I changed for the worse and she better. I don't deserve her as my best friend anymore
Leonardo Ravinchi are you guys seriously whining about moving to different schools than your best friends; meanwhile these people literally lost somebody that they can never see again. Wtf yall is fucked in the head
OctieBoopTurtle I always cried the first night. You never know what to expect. But going has changed the way I saw the world. Made my problems seem a lot less when you get to hear other people's struggles. Going is not weakness, going means you're strong. You're willing to face what many can't. While you're there. Listen, and take advice. You will be okay. You are not alone.
Manni Interrupted Thank you so much. I'm glad to hear that it will get better and that I am not alone. Thanks so much for sharing your experience with me, I'm glad I found your comment. I'm also thankful that you are feeling okay too :)
@@sherylg2601 that's really kind of you to ask. If I'm being honest, no. I go through times of serious depression very often but I manage.. just as we all do. I hope youre well and I appreciate your comment♡
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For everyone who reads this. I love you. I may never have seen you or have never known your name, but that doesn't stop me from caring about you. The world is better with you in it and know that you can always reach out.
I know that the guy in the blue shirt said something about wishing that he could have saved his friend's life physically. So, I'm putting out a little PSA. If you find somebody who has overdosed, the most important thing is to *open their airway.* Many people use drugs that, in some way or another, suppress breathing. So make sure their tongue is out of the way, roll them to the side, and don't be afraid to give a couple of breaths if they are breathing shallowly (of course, if they aren't breathing and/or don't have a heart rate, start CPR immediately). You could save their life, either completely or from coma or brain damage/death!
i had a cat i loved it with all my heart now its gone we could not afford its oparation, money comes first before life.did you know the police will arrest you if you die by suicide. ha ha ha they are stupid.
@@qwertyman459 I'm sorry for your loss. I agree it's awful that people put money before life. Just because you didn't have enough money shouldn't have meant your cat had to die.
@@lindenlynx thank you, why is it so expensive for a cat or dog to be fixed. is it so you wont try and help them i know they dont have long in this world. my its family. its not a pet. its love waiting for you every day all ways happy to see you.
Suicide, to friends and loved ones left behind seems selfish; but really it is a selfless act. When someone is done with life, they are done.....their reasons are personal. Those reasons do not need to be justified, and may never be fully understood as they are not meant to be. Sometimes when someone knows or feels, that they have fulfilled their purpose in this earthly realm, it is simply time to move on. Friends and love ones may never understand. The flip side is to ask yourself, if the person who decided to end their own life was in that much pain (emotional, physical or both) then would you not want them to have the peace they craved, that they so desired in life but could not attain? It’s very much a double edged sword & every situation is different.
You know instead of calling it a selfish act, just act the right way and help that said person; calling it selfish won’t help anyone, the “ Selfish “ person would feel much more sadder and the guilt would increase by ten folds. Please, help those who are in need of dire love and affection.
Recently my father passed away from suicide last year and to be completely honest I’ve never felt more shitty in my entire life. It took such huge toll on me that I started missing school, dropping out of sports I enjoyed, stopped socialising to people I would usually talk to, and basically giving up on everything I used to love. I eventually had to get put into counselling because I started to get the same thoughts my dad must’ve had on the day he took his life. His death impacted me greatly and made me start thinking and believing awful things like “If suicide brought you peace dad, well hey maybe it might bring me peace too and ease the pain of dealing with your death” Suicide does not end the pain, but only passes it on to someone else. And to me that doesn’t feel or sound very selfless.
xdead_acc0untx I’m very sorry for your loss. I’m sure you miss your dad very much and that it is so hard for you. I lost my love 20 years ago to suicide. It has gotten easier as time goes by. Hugs.
To Live is an Act of Courage “I saw not my own courage in dying, but his courage broken by the loss of me. So I said to myself, ‘You must live’. Sometimes even to live is an act of courage” Seneca (4BC-65AD)
That one hit really close to home I recently got diagnosed with bipolar disorder 2 and I really struggle with depression so sometimes when I am really down low I come back to this (edit)
Same I tried to end it, so happy I failed. I see how precious life is now, good times were waiting for me I just couldn’t see them at the moment. If you’re scrolling thru reading this, your life does matter don’t let anybody tell u different 💙
as someone who has been suicidal for years and has attempted many times, we always think of you. we wouldn’t forget you. you were most likely one of the people keeping them alive. the only thing you can hope about the people you love and who love you when attempting suicide is that they will be able to recover and live a good life without you. the last thing we would ever want is for someone we love to feel the same pain as we do. we do love and care about you and I want you to know that it’s not your fault. you gave them light when there was only darkness, and eventually the darkness took over. you did the best you could at the time. it’s alright. they love you and miss you. they won’t ever leave you in your heart.
Dear Dad, I miss you more and more everyday, and people keep saying that one day it won’t hurt anymore but it just keeps getting worse and worse. I don’t know what to do without you, I try to stay strong for you, I never saw or knew you were hurting and I wish I could go back in time and change what happened that day. That morning when my mum walked in my room crying “your dads gone, he died” broke me. When I found out you committed suicide 4 years later, that crushed me even more. You always seemed so happy, how did you stay so strong on the outside? I miss you so much, I love you dad
"i wish i knew why" top 10 bullsh*t words that come out of people mouth when their related family or friends took their own life , but when they were alive, no one cares about what they said/what they shared about
It's not their fault,as a person who struggles alot with suicidal thoughts,I'm screaming on the inside but when someone notices the change in my behavior,I just dismiss them with a smile so they would stop looking at me differently...so, yeah it's not their fault if the say these words
Thank you... I've been contemplating suicide and I needed to see this. This was an excellent reminder that ending my life would impact everyone I love.. It's so frustrating that I can't trust my own thoughts and emotions.
It's definitely frustrating and scary and uncomfortable, but you are so right. There are absolutely people in your life who love you and would want to help. And remember, you can always text "HELLO" to 741-741 if you ever need to talk about it.
vivimivi When people are considering suicide, they are often not thinking straight; it is the nature of strong unpleasant feelings like depression/grief/anxiety/anger to trick our minds and cause us to focus more on the negative aspects of our thoughts and emotions. This is why it is vitally important to talk to someone about what's going on - a therapist, a counselor, a guidance counselor, a spiritual leader, a suicide/depression helpline, whomever/whatever you prefer (as long as it's someone who will really hear you) - because keeping those thoughts hidden inside often leads to them growing, resulting in more psychological suffering. Please find someone to talk to soon; there are caring people who are helpers out there who are nonjudgmental, wise, respectful and nurturing. If the first person you talk to doesn't reflect those qualities, talk to someone else. Please. You deserve to feel better and have a happier and healthier life. If you're in the U.S., call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (they take calls 24/7) at 800-273-8355. Their website is suicidepreventionlifeline.org We're with you.
A therapist said something similar, you dont want to die, you want the pain to End. Its kept me going, if i look at life as problem-solving, not an endless cycle of pain and misery, how would it change? If we could meet, id buy you a coffee, and offer a warm hug, and a sympathetic ear, and ask, What is youre pain? I genuinely want to hear. Why do you think it will not end. Share as much as you want or need, but after youre done, How would you feel about Brainstorming solutions together, or lookng at life as a problem-solving endeavour. I may not know you, but would you be willing to take this chance, to make a new Friend?
I'm almost 20.. and many times I sit and look out my bedroom window and just wonder if this is all worth it. I think of it many times but I never act. Watching these videos reminds me that I'm not alone in this battle. I love you all, thank you for sending hope.
Im not suicidal but Im depressed, and lonely and have social anxiety. Seeing this just annoyed me so much. People will say all this stuff when youre gone, never when youre still there. When youre still there they take you for granted and dont see you at all. Sometimes people like us just feel like "maybe they will see me then". Even though its pointless, it feels as if its worth everything to get you feeling noticed and appreciated. Sometimes it gets too hard and you cant take it anymore. I was just so angry.
People always care about you, even if it seems as though they take you for granted. But when someone is gone, they realise what they're missing. If you speak to someone about the way you feel, no doubt they will show you they love you. People are just so cought up with what is going on in their own lives, just like you are with yours, and that's not bad, it's a normal thing to do. But don't blame anyone for it. Everyone is struggling with something you don't know anything about, just like you or anyone else. ❤️
Tanaka Mlambo I agree, I struggle with the same issues. But I know I definitely don't feel angry like you do when I watch this. We don't know these people. We don't know that they didn't say all of this out loud next to the person when they were still alive. It's not right to but blame on them, and unfortunately that's what it sounds like you are doing. At the same time, how could we ever put that pressure on ourselves to not take someone/something for granted? We all do. We take many things for granted everyday. It's not fair to put that guilt on ourselves. We aren't perfect.
You should tell those that you love that you love them while they're here. Too often we assume that they just know. "Well of course they know, we talk all the time." "Of course they know. They're my kid. I'll always love them." That's not always true. Don't assume. It can help. Not always, but if it does it can save a life. If it doesn't at least you got to say it and let them know that there's someone, anyone, who cares.
evie may sellars I made a vlog about my depression story and I would love for everyone to check it out on my channel! It would mean so much to help as many people as I can who struggle with mental illness! Thanks!
I miss you. I still remember that boyishly charming smile, those incredibly blue eyes, and that contagious giggle. I regret not being able to help you. Once I lost you, I felt incomplete. So many thoughts raced throughout my mind. How could you leave me alone ? Lots of things remind me of you. The sunset, baseball bats, the ocean, etc. You were always so selfless and sweet. I still hear that angelic voice occasionally. Words cannot describe how much I miss everything about you. It has been two years. All that time spent without you by my side. It's funny - You would have made a joke about me becoming so emotional. You had such an amazing personality, bub. So much potential. As time continues, I keep finding new ways to cope. I no longer feel at fault - Nobody was at fault. You hit a rough patch, and couldn't recover. You always were very sensitive. I'm becoming stronger, and more aware. I'll always miss you, Luke. I will never, ever forget you. I'll cherish our memories. I'll think back to simpler times - Like when we would dig up worms as little kids. You always loved that. I love you, Luke. You were the best friend I could have ever asked for. Hope you're at peace - May we meet again. >
To my friend Andy. You're an amazing person and everyday I miss you man. I'm gonna head over to your grave in December to say hi again buddy. Love ya. 🐬
Is there any way to like this video 291992282 times???😭❤️ To quote my absolute favourite band, All Time Low, "don't lose your fight, kid. It only takes a lil push to pull it through.."
My cousin committed suicide when I was little. I miss him a lot. If he were alive today I'd thank him for teaching me how a real man treats women. I'd also tell him how much l miss his bear hugs and hanging out with him and the family. RIP Alex👼❤️
Every children was born as a bless, but I can't help feeling... I was born as a curse. To myself and to my parents... I feel the need to be completely gone
You are a precious gift. You're not here by accident, you have a purpose. Please don't think you're a curse! Can you please read all the notes in this series? : www.apcwo.org/sermon-series-the-fathers-love/messages/series/the-father-s-love . I want you to realize how valuable you are.
To Live is an Act of Courage “I saw not my own courage in dying, but his courage broken by the loss of me. So I said to myself, ‘You must live’. Sometimes even to live is an act of courage” Seneca (4BC-65AD)
Why does my intention of committing suicide get stronger with these videos? I mean, They've got to help me right? I got confused and this is a reason for me to live a bit longer. I wanna figure out why...
Hrmicö I know exactly how you feel. I wish I knew why. When I watch these videos they do help, but at the same time I feel like I’m all alone and worthless.
You should both talk to someone. If this isn't helping, (and I don't know why), then you need to find another method of treatment. Stay alive. Stay strong. Sending hope and love your way.
Maybe you're feeling like all the suicide victims in the video have people who miss them and you don't feel like anyone would miss you. That's not true. You matter much more than you know. People love you much more than you think. You are loved. You will be missed whenever you go. Please, don't make it soon.
Guys! Can y'all watch this? m.th-cam.com/video/mxxxH_cX1zg/w-d-xo.html . It's about a person who came out of depression and anxiety. Don't give up. There is still hope and love around you.
People are selfish monsters. They never care about you, even after you're gone. They only feel guilt because they think they failed as parents/friends/family, not because they think about you.
I can relate to this....People know about my suffering and call me mean names like negative or confrontational when I try to advocate for myself. They do not realize the damage this is causing. How can people kick me when I am down? They know that I am experiencing almost every kind of loss.
Your comment is from a year ago but I hope you're doing well and are feeling better. Especially right now as the pandemic has made some peoples mental health even worse, my own included. I'm glad your family saved you. Stay safe!
Thank you your voices are soothing and calming for me I've listened to you for a long time. I'm still alive I'm still listening. Some times people connect in the darkest hours and the comfort of calm. I know your voices all around ❤️ Love all of you Ron
This week I lost a friend to suicide I still don’t wanna think that it’s real it’s so heartbreaking…. Our mental health system definitely failed him and it makes me so upset Rip my dear friend you will be missed forever
I have reached my endurance capacity. I don't know how the kid I once was ended up so badly... I mean sure the world is unkind, and especially brutal to some (raises hand). I just hope there'll be something good to remember about me, something valuable to learn, and just because its okay to dream, maybe something treasurable too. I have lived, I have loved, I have tried to overcome, and now my moves are over.
@@mountainous_port Tbh for me it’s different T-T. My childhood was a hell, and that mostly reason why I want leave early. I feel like I was cursed since 8, day when my brother ended his own life was my day when my childhood ended. I just want visit him, I want him take me out of my life into piece and happiness. I want follow him.
I never in a million lifetimes would I imagine my 36 y.o.old son would take his life over rough patch in his marriage . Left behind so many in pain including a then 11 y.o. son and a then 7 y.o.daughter. I had been helping him pack up his house. Forever grateful I told him how much I loved and appreciated him. I'm so broken five years in and next week he would be 42. My heart goes out to all who are enduring this
Dear Ellie, You were my best friend. No one compared to you. Everyday I looked forward to coming home from school and texting you until 4am. You were like a brother to me. I felt as if I could tell you anything without being judged. You also gave the best advice. Everyday I wish that I would've listened to some of the things you said. You're the reason I'm still alive. I remember the day we made our promise to not commit suicide so we could always be there for each other. Even though you didn't hold up your side of the promise... I will continue to go on with you always on my mind. Fifteen was way to young for you to leave. You had so much to live for. R.I.P Ellie 5/17/17💕
@@annmurphy7012 their journey in life never had to come to an end so soon though. If only there were stable worldwide mental health support for those suffering with depression 😔 But until there is, we all have to look out for each other.
I am so sorry for your loss. Each of you are so very brave to talk about your experience with suicide, we need to hear It. We each need to remember that there is someone who loves you, you are valued. Please take the time to listen to those positive voices in your life. If we each take the time to realize our value and the value of those around us, we could make this world a better place. Never stop telling your story, listen to the positive voice, it's there.
I find myself watching these videos right now because the thoughts have crossed my mind more lately. As much as I’ve tried to stop my own child from wanting to commit suicide & have friends that have died of suicide I now understand why. Sometimes you feel you’ve made so many mistakes in life & your tired of being a failure that the world is better without you. Thanks for the video I have to find my own encouragement.
Thank you, soul pancake, for creating such a... Soulful content. Right now, I am struggling with the loss of a friend for suicide. He was amazing, an incredible friend, always with us, always supporting us, an incredible light. It has been a month since he's been gone and I miss him terribly, but little by little I have been trying to live with the loss without carrying so much pain, if that is even possible. Sometimes I write my feelings down, sometimes I talk to my friends, anything not to let my feelings bottled up inside.
I don’t know why I torture myself with this. When I turned 18, I had literally only been 18 for one month, my dad killed himself. My dad and I weren’t especially close until I was about 17, that’s when I was old enough to understand his depression, and pain. I had finally bonded with my father, but my mother chose to leave the marriage to him, and within three days, he shot himself. I am now 39 years old, and I have never stopped trying to understand why he chose to leave me. Why he thought I would be able to go on and manage. It tore my whole world open in a way I never imagined. I have done so many things to seek happiness and joy and to somehow make up for the loss. But, I’ve never been able to. People will say that it gets easier, but it never ever gets easier, we just better learn how to cope. Instead of being destructive with my pain, I went through a phase where I channeled it into amazing accomplishments. Then, after a particularly bad break up, I spent almost two years, shutting everyone out, and of course, any trauma brings his death right back. I always think about how things would be easier to deal with in life if he was still here. So instead of sobbing daily, and making trips to the graveyard, I think about him. I think about him every single day, no matter what. Because when he died, my mom treated it like that whole chapter of her life died. I have no siblings, but I also lost having a relationship with my mother. So, in a way, I feel like an orphan. And even as an almost 40 yr old adult, my heart breaks for that. I have had to be my own support system and I have had to go through some of my worst times alone. When I’ve reached out to my mother, she never seems to be able to give me any support, or just even ask me if I’m ok. It pains me greatly. And I really wish my dad wouldn’t have done it. Because I think my life would have gone a lot smoother to this point. Instead, I’ve chased demons, and I’ve spent so much time trying to figure out why, and if I could have saved him. At this point, it’s been more years without him, than I spent with him, and I sometimes think maybe that I imagined having a father. Suicide leaves behind a legacy of grief and pain. And most often, it affects the people who you didn’t plan to hurt, in the worst way. Believe me, I have wanted to end my life and be with my dad, but I remember what it did to me. As much as I love him, I find myself angry. I have had counseling, I’ve been on medications, but I don’t think I will ever find true peace in regards to his suicide. I never stop looking for him, because I’ve convinced myself that maybe it didn’t really happen even. I want nothing more than to one day have peace with it. But it’s not that simple. Please don’t choose to leave life this way.
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Perfect timing. Yesterday I was home alone which is a rare occurrence. I thought this was my chance to finally end my suffering. I basically just sobbed until someone got home. I've been dealing with depression for so long. I don't know how much I can take. But I'm still alive today which is something.
it's a shame that the organizations can't work effectively to help people live better lives because "it costs too much money " the deaths wether on a battlefield of war, or on the street due to overdose , or hanging on self in a mansion is a sign that it's all a problem of the society in General. if your friends forget to talk to you that means they're not doing their part to check in on people that seem depressed or troubled. sometimes they avoid It because they don't want to feel like they're to blame somehow by association.
IV ketamine treatment is successful with PTSD, OCD, depression, anxiety, and is even showing promise with addiction. It is very effective with bipolar depression too. and it stops suicidal thinking... in a couple hours. It's saving lives but people need to know.
Cyndee Davis I suppose it can help with a perspective shift, however I believe often times there needs to be a team commitment that makes the individual feel accomplished with tasks. however there is issues of letting go of trouble from the past that I think has to be completed with acceptance of disappointment. medication may help with that but it's temporary alteration.
Matfey Avgustin: Sweetheart, you are very ill and need to get help for yourself. It is not your fault that you are ill, but you do need help. How do I know that? Because your cold heart and lack of empathy for people who hurt so bad that they believe death is the only way to end their pain, is a symptom of your illness. Sorry to reveal your secret, but you hurt inside as much as they do. You do not have to continue hurting so. You will be so much happier when you are given your heart transplant. When you allow GOD to take your heart of stone and replace it with a heart of flesh. It is those with the hearts of stone who are causing our children to take their lives. Not to mention causing adults to do the same. I beg of you to become part of the solution as opposed to continuing to be the problem.
i lost my girl to suicide.. the pills got her in the end and i could never blame her for what she did, i just wish i could help her and take her pain away while she was still alive. i told her how much i love her all the time and if anything i know she knew i meant it every single time. my last words to her were perfect so at least i don't blame myself for anything i said. my last words to her were "i love you my little snowman"..
Don't let your thoughts overwhelm. Don't let them control you. Because, that is what depression really is - when your thoughts start controlling you instead of you controlling them. Hold tight, I also have suicidal tendencies, but in the morning, when i wake up, I know that the new day begins and so does hope arrive - hope of better days. Someone cares for you. You are not alone.
@@SuperVladdrakula Doesn't seem like you're in the mood to argue. I know how to back off when I should. Sorry for interrupting your hopefully pleasant day with my comment. Enjoy the rest of your day. Bye.
Dear Jonghyun You were such an inspiration to me, I might’ve not been a shawol since debut but i love you, you didn’t know I exist, but I know you still loved me, I still talk to the sky at night because I miss you so much, if you were still here maybe I’d be okay, when I found out that you were gone for good... I just sat there numb for 15 minutes and then reality slapped me across the face and I just broke down, I couldn’t breathe, all I could do is cry, I started to hate myself for being so oblivious to the situation because you seemed so happy. I’ve been listening to Excuse Me Miss on repeat ever single day because that’s the song that got me into SHINee, Minho, Taemin, key, and ownew are so hurt that you’re gone along with me and every other shawol but we don’t blame you, we still love and support you no matter what, I’m happy for you, it hurts a lot, but I’m happy for you, I’m happy you’re happy now, and I’m sure everyone else is too. We miss you Jonghyun, I still hear your voice repeating in my head when I’m sad, but don’t worry sweetie, you did good❤️ 천국에 쉬다 종현 사랑해 그리고 그리워✨❤️
*wipes tears*. I've been on both sides of this. (Sort of) ... I've been suicidal in the past... (I'm ok these days...though, some days are still pretty hard to live through). And yes. I do think about my loved ones.... and That's main reason I am still here. I've lost a friend who killed himself..... and that was/is hard... but I understand. And another friend came close a few times... but thankfully, she is still with us today. Anyway. Thank you for this.
I'm in exactly the same situation. I just didn't kill myself two years ago because of my friends and my mother. My best friend killed himself last year, and dammit... it's been hard to deal with since then.
Dear G: You were one of the few people who made my husband, one of your best friends, laugh. He absolutely loved the time you spent together with him working on restoring cars. And I loved you for how safe you always made me feel. Even though our political views differed, we always could have really amazing conversations about it. And you made me laugh, my god did you make me laugh. I adopted you as a heart brother. I wish you had told me that you were in so much pain. I'm sorry we weren't as close near the end. I miss you and I think of you often. I sometimes am still mad at you for leaving like you did - but I still love you. I can be mad at you and still love you. May you know peace, bro.
NathanJamesOfficial you are amazing. I am so glad you are still here. And you are so brave for sharing. I bet a million dollars you make the world a brighter place.
I cried so hard watching these ppl telling memories of their closed one, who once looked so energetic and alive, suddenly passed away. I feel so sorry for their leaving as I can relate with the pain. There are darkness in many souls, and they just needed to be seen and handle delicately to bring back hope and miracles.
Living with bipolar depression, i have my ups and downs. And every time i come back to that evil little thought I watch this video, and it stops something inside of me. Thabk you for posting this
Such an important topic to be discussed! Many people who commit suicide just needed to be heard or to hear from someone that she's loved no matter what.
Dear mom, I was nine when you took your life. My brothers were 16 and 11. I just wish you knew we loved you so so much. No matter you weren't there and you were in and out of our lives, we loved you. I loved you. You were the only one who gave me presents when everyone favorited one of my brothers over me. And It hurt a lot when I found out you died, and I became deeply depressed when I found out you died by suicide. Maybe if I stayed that weekend you'll still be here. But I can't keep blaming myself, and I can't blame you for wanting the suffering to stop. I hope you can see this message and understand that I loved you with all your flaws and all your mistakes you may have ever made
We feel this way because we want to stop hurting. The joy loved ones bring to life is outshined by the darkness of the pain. Death is the only peace, the only relief. And it does come at a cost. but the cost to us is less than the toll of pain to continue living. That is the truth of the "why".
@@thisgirl5933 Im atheist, and my family is reason why I got into such a situation, but I can’t end this because I still want live :’), I want feel things and I remember how it was to be happy and carefree, I just want stop suffering and pain. It’s weird feeling, I want end it as much as I want live. I still keep hope inside me even if everything ruined and I’m already mentally de@d. I just want stop sufferings.
Why won't my family reach out to me and say all of this while I'm still here? Makes me sick to think that they would solicit sympathy from others if I passed, when they are the reason I'm so depressed. Reach out to people NOW. Don't wait to talk about them after they're gone. And give your children a childhood they don't have to recover from.
"Your dad is still..... looking for peace." That pause broke me. I lost my childhood friend this week to suicide. Never be afraid to reach out for help. There's so many people in the world that care about you.
As someone who has lost someone to suicide, has had friends attempt, know friends and family still struggling, and someone who has been there...I’ve come to terms that you can’t save everyone. And you’re not always going to understand the circumstances. But the important thing is to celebrate the life they had and to be proactive in aiding others through educating yourself and others, in breaking the barriers between silence, ignorance and the stigmas, to create that “safe place” where everyone can feel loved. No matter your relation to another person, know that your story matters. Believe in it. LIVE it. I’m here for anyone who needs an ear to listen, a hand to hold, a shoulder to cry on, a motivational push, a reminder that you’re loved. I’m serious, I’m here for you.❤️
My funeral would be empty. It would be a vacant lot. I’m fine with that. That day will come too. My time is running out. I’m just enjoying the remainder of my time until I make that move.
@evamaurer3838 @auouraschannel5230 @kennethclarke4192 @CJCody2006 You all seem like such wonderful people. For all of you, and for me, our brain is telling us why Suicide would be ok or good. But in times of Emotional Pain our brain lies to us. I say that having seen firsthand the effects of suicide. There was a Soldier, in the Soldiers Hostel i was living at, around 20, We were all there because we were either far from home, or our parents didnt want us, for various reasons. One day i come "home" and my and everyones lockers have been forced open, and everyones crying, i dont understand why. Turns out, a new soldier came, and us all being mates, one of them gave him a key to his locker so he could take soap and shower stuff, he also left his m-16 rifle there, the soldier took it and shot himself lethally, killing himself. The Military Police had launched an investigation which is why they forced open all our lockers. The next day we organized ourself to go to his family, to pay our condolences and give them whatever information we had. You can not imagine the pain he caused, the way it tore his family apart. They were jewish orthodox faith, and he liked to watch TV, which they dont allow in their househould. So they kicked him out, and didnt want contact with him. I dont know what happened after that day, but... There, i saw his sister lock herself in her room, casting angry looks at her dad, the wife angrily looking at the father, IT was a scene of a family on the verge of ripping apart. My Family ripped apart when my Dad died, because he broke his spine, and the complications resulting from that. I dont know youre story, so im trying not to tell you what to think or feel. But ill take a risk, and say no matter how bad things are, you can not imagine how much pain, and devastation you would bring to the people who love and care about you, because i have seen it first hand. And in my heart i feel it with the death of my Dad. Try to understand this. When someone you love dies, A Piece of youre Heart and youre Soul goes with them. You never get it back, EVER. You may move on, with Grief, not from it. But that part of you has died, and it will never come back. This is what you will do to youre loved ones, whether friends or Family. At some level Emoetionally you know this, and feel this. Life is hard, but when we leave making it easier for ourselves, we open gaping wounds in the hearts of all we leave behind. If you wonder why youre still here, id guess this is why. So you cant die, because youll hurt other, but you dont want to live the emoetional or practicall hell youre in, Why not try problem-solving? What could you do to improve youre situation? Im here to listen or offer advice. I know you dont know me, i just want to help. Im here if you want it.
I cried so much when I heard the news. I never met you, but I learn to love you through your mother's eyes and conversations. I heard how much she was trying to keep you alive. She missed you so much and she is devastated. There is nothing that can replace all the love you inspire to her. The pain to see her in pain is unbearable.
People will travel miles to be at your funeral, but won't walk across the street to see how your doing
@Marina Mansfield So sorry to hear that, it's awful
that is so true
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So sad but true, now more than ever i realise that 💙
People only care when something big happen. If we die, or if we suffer greatly and result in dying.
i watch these videos to remind myself why i shouldnt
its marionne omg same 🤦🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️
its marionne same
its marionne I made a vlog about my depression story and I would love for everyone to check it out on my channel! It would mean so much to help as many people as I can who struggle with mental illness! Thanks!
same
Same here.
Such a sad irony that you usually only get the love you seek once you're dead
Ligeia D.Aurevilly you become a Marder
@Ligeia D.Aurevilly They were probably trying to say martyr, but that's not a correct usage. Martyrs die for a cause or for something they believed in. Suicide for personal reasons is different.
@Ligeia D.Aurevilly EXACTLY.
Wrong. People love you when your alive. Depression holds the person back. The whole world Can love you but if you can’t find a strong enough reason to love yourself all the love in the world will never work. This is coming someone with 3 suicide attempts. 3 I’m glad I failed. It taught me exactly who I would be hurting. The people I love the most in this whole wide world. Don’t blame the the victims of this tragedy you don’t know know them. And even so it seemed they loved them enough. Just stop with this lie. Maybe you’re hurting. Wake up now and look at who loves you. I guarantee one person does and don’t come at with that “no one does because xyz” mentality LOOK deeper into your life someone cares.
@@lovewillsetyoufree I'v had about the same amount of attempts, but I'll kindly disagree with you on that one. People will always love you and the difference between being loved and receiving love are two totally different things. We all need validation and encouragement. It's not easy for those victims but I totally resonated with that statement.
“funny when you’re dead how people start listening”.
I know right?
Thats not true at all. Theres never been more people that cared. We live in a society now where practically anyone is prepared to listen and a stranger is willing to talk with someone over the phone for hours to help them.
Youve got to start seeing the reality and stop feeling sorry for yourself. That will never get anybody anywhere. The reality is is that life has never been easier. Let that sink in for a moment. Compared to a thousand years ago and all the time periods throughout history humans have never had more ease. We no longer have to hunt for our food, no longer have to live in caves for shelter, were less likely to die from illnesses, we dont have to travel for months at a time. Life is very different to what it used to be, and for the most part thats good. For others not so.
“As life becomes easier, we become weaker physically, and emotionally as well.” Chad Howse
We need to harness strength. Every single one of us. It shouldnt be only the few that ever aspire to be strong, tough and gritty but everyone. Depression isnt something unique or new, its been around for as long as humans have. More people than not experience depression at some point in their life, so its not an excuse not to live and not an excuse to quit life. In fact its probably a bigger reason not to give up
To Live is an Act of Courage
“I saw not my own courage in dying, but his courage broken by the loss of me. So I said to myself, ‘You must live’. Sometimes even to live is an act of courage” Seneca (4BC-65AD)
If I die young band perry best song I want it at my funeral
@@LightningWolf09 aka "Stop being sad, other people have it worse"...please NEVER speak to someone who has major depression in a time of crisis. You will literally make everything so much worse as you clearly don't understand mental health with all these insane generalizations and ignoring how difficult longterm help is to find.
"I wanted to save you"
that broke my heart
Joshua Ian Mission I watch this video a lot. That line just crushed me. Completely
Mine too... when he adds, “and I didn’t know what to do.”
sameeee
they just want to save themselves from the shame of being affiliated with someone who successfully commit suicide.
in truth, people only care about themselves and their image. its all superficial.
Romans 10:9 -= eternal life +++..
2:30 yes suicidal people think about loved ones. That’s why they leave notes. But suicide and depression are strong things that not even support from loved ones can be enough sometimes.
True.
Yes yr so right I do love them but I can't help my feelings I'm scared fearful everday I don't no how much longer I can stand it ❤️❤️❤️❤️
@@kelliequinn3565 I don’t really have the right words to say to you if you’re struggling but I really do want you to know that you’re stronger than you think. I hope you’re keeping your head up
@@Nillowo I agree sometimes love just ISN'T enough, I know that I have a lot of people in my life who love me to death and would do anything that could if they could help me and stop my agony and despair, that's why I'm fighting for my life every single day to resist the overwhelming desire to steal a gun and eat a bullet, I know it would absolutely LITERALLY kill my Mommy if I did that, she's a strong Woman but she isn't strong enough to handle finding her Baby Boy's corpse with a hole in his Skull in a pool of his Blood and his special Aspie Brain all over the damn wall, it would literally kill her, she'd either A, take her own life the minute she put me in the ground or B, she'd drink herself to death cause she'd have constant unrelenting night terrors and die that way, also I know it'd break the Hearts of my Friend Chris and his wife Haley, as well as their little Daughters Gwen and Genevieve, it'd absolutely crush my Best Friend Makoto Kaiser (shout out to her YT btw) and Dontae, it'd break my Boyfriend's Heart, same for my Friend Laura back in Oregon it'd break the Hearts of all my Friends and Colleagues at New Moon where I worked before covid, I have so many people who love me and I don't want to give up and hurt them, but that being said I'm scared that I'm losing the fight and I don't know how much longer I can keep fighting, cause like I said love sometimes isn't enough when you're in constant unrelenting horrific AGONY, constant sleep deprivation AND despair from loneliness mostly because of Boyfriend who I'm in an LDR with!😞
Thanks for saying it cuz nothing is helping me even the unlimited love I’m getting from my family
Its sad because there are a lot of suicidal people like me who have no best friends, no loving family, no nothin. This would be a lot more comforting if I knew people actually liked me
Read Islam book you will find solutions to your depression I promise you
Jesus is the only way truth and life. Seek him he loves you. You were born into Gods though and you were created because you are loved and have a great life ahead of you. read the bible and learn about Jesus please. If you need someine to talk to on a deeper scale i an here. X
double donut stay atheistic please
If you ever want to talk hmu
@double donut, firstly, Islam is the truth. Turn to our Creator, Allah, may He be exalted. Ask Him for guidance and to give you the peace you seek.
Also: Don't compare your life to what you see portrayed by others. Have you heard of photoshop? People recreate their physical appearance with this tool. Similarly, when you see the good things about others, you may be seeing one aspect of their reality. Sometimes, like the photo-shopped images, this too may be fabricated. For all you know, a person may have friends, family, opportunities etc, and be even more unhappy than you.
Start socializing more and extend your circle. If you don't go out much, join an online forum where you get to chat with people. But stay away from those forums where people just sit around discussing their misery and problems. I think some people get even more unhappy by constantly focusing on their problems.
I have depression and it isn’t that I am physically lonely, it is that even though I have these friends and people who care about me I still feel empty.
How are you now? Please watch this: th-cam.com/video/mxxxH_cX1zg/w-d-xo.html . It's about how a lady came out of years of depression
I know exactly how you feel 😢
Your not alone
Thank you guys for replying 🙂
@@carolinievm i know the feeling. I hope your doing better
I tried to commit suicide when I was 18. I have had chronic depression since I was a child and I took enough pills to kill an elephant. By some miracle I survived.
All these years later, I realize that I didn't REALLY want to die.....I just wanted the pain to stop.
Recently I confessed to my sister what I had done and the first thing she said was "how could you be so selfish.....have you any idea what that would have done to us?"
In all honesty, I wasn't even thinking about my family when I made my suicide attempt.......I just wanted to find peace.
But I am wondering.....who are the REAL selfish ones? The only thing my sister cared about was what effect it would have had on HER......she didn't even ask me the reason WHY I wanted to die at such a young age.
MAYBE if people who are suicidal had some REAL support and love in their lives (instead of selfish families complaining about how it would hurt THEM).....then MAYBE there would be less suicides.
Loving anything or anyone means being happy. Guess what, haha?
I'm so sorry that your family didn't think about you. They really do love you, they just didn't understand what you were going through.
selfish your in pain you want to end it. how is that selfish. its your story you diside how it gos.
I agree with you, and that's what I don't like about this video. Yes, the effect of a loved one committing suicide is awful, but it's not about that. It's about the person who is struggling every day to survive. Hey, by the way, if you ever want to talk, say the word!
Gurl, you said it all! 👏👏👏
That young man who's father died has the most amazing smile❤
He's so vibrant
Sammy mine
I was thinkin the same! Its like so attractive
" i still hear your voice"
I can hear dead people
i cried harder at that part
I got chills when she said that
Irony how people doesn’t have time to talk instead they grieve and shower all the love once you are dead
It's called hypocrisy...
Everyday I’m fighting to survive and I thank the people I have in my life.
Keep going, you've got this 🥰You are an amazing person ❤ you deserve so much love ❤
Keep fighting ❤️ you are very strong ❤️
You are gonna be alright. We will pray for you.
I’m so proud of you for making it through each and every day!! Keep on pushing through. Life’s tough but so are you. You are so strong and inspire me.
How are you now? Do you suffer from depression? Please watch this: th-cam.com/video/mxxxH_cX1zg/w-d-xo.html . It's about how a lady came out of years of depression
As someone who was on the verge of taking my own life many times before, imagining that there might be people that would react like this to my death held me back. I just wish people would tell eachother how much they mean without them having to die first. We should open up about our feelings more.
I was there too (I only planned and not committed or tried) but same story for me. I watched videos of people grieving and the after effects of suicide. That's what stopped me.
marte me Thousands, maybe millions of people care about you....we just haven't met you yet and if you're gone we will never have the chance to meet you. I agree wholeheartedly, we should tell eachother more about how we feel. So I'm going to tell you....I want you alive in this world....I care about you and hope you are feeling better.
Jennifer Jiang Same for you....I want you in this world....I care about you and hope you feel better. You're not alone.
Emotions are for girls
It’s hard it really is to be open about your feeling in my head I am one person and around everyone else I am a different person no one in the whole world accepts me for who I am everyone judges me and I take those judgements and add another thing about my personality that changes I am not who I really would like to be I am who people want me to be I cry a lot and my dad being an drunk and high all the time doesn’t help at all I keep so many thoughts to myself no one even knows I am depressed my life should end I am worthless
As a live long sufferer of depression and suicidal thoughts I found this video a bit tone deaf. I know how much it would hurt the people I left behind but do they know how painful it is for me to stay alive?
People who don’t suffer from depression have no idea what we go through daily. I just lost my mom to cancer and everyone was like, “It’s better now that she doesn’t have to suffer.” Yet, no one will say that about someone who takes his/her own life. Just bc our pain isn’t physical doesn’t mean we aren’t dying inside.
If more people practiced empathy and tried harder to understand our circumstances maybe we wouldn’t take our own lives.
Sorry, I know you mean well but this video just proves how far we still have to go in order to understand depression.
Yes, thank you.
Hey NOMO FOMO. Can you please watch this?: th-cam.com/video/mxxxH_cX1zg/w-d-xo.html . It's about how a lady came out of years of depression.
@@sherylg2601 sorry Sheryl just saw this comment. I will take a look. Thank you
That's true💯💯💯💯💯
👏👏👏👏👏👏PERFECT! THANK YOU!!!👏👏👏👏👏👏👏
For those who don’t appreciate my presence, I gift you my absence
Heyyy. How are you ? Can you please watch this video? m.th-cam.com/video/mxxxH_cX1zg/w-d-xo.html . It's about a lady who came out of depression
@@sherylg2601 Bruh way too long
@@linkfromzelda1002 Hehe. Yeah. Coz she tells her full story there
To Live is an Act of Courage
“I saw not my own courage in dying, but his courage broken by the loss of me. So I said to myself, ‘You must live’. Sometimes even to live is an act of courage” Seneca (4BC-65AD)
Facts 💯
How can you watch this and not cry? It's just not possible.
KimmyKim96 this makes me sad but I didn't cry. I've never delt with a family/friend who committed suicide and I'm thankful for that praying I never will but...I just can't imagine how these people feel dealing with this
KimmyKim96 I cried so hard
Of course it's possible. I didn't even tear..
I'm sorry, but, Kim Poss-i-ble
KimmyKim96 I honestly don't feel anything tbh...
Bet none of these people heard this when they were alive
Thank you!
Luke Gomer fr
AMEN TO THAT ... Preach It!!! Know The Truth and The Truth Will Set You Free!!! - John 8:32 :) Don't Say Things Like This to People When Their Dead, Say it Too Them When Their Alive!!! :)
Knowing that the people around you care about you and struggling with depression and other issues that become too painful to bear are two very different things. Please don't blame their loved ones for their passing..
Agreed.
I lost my brother to suicide two months ago. There’s so much I want to say to him. The most important one is that he’s so valued, and so loved. My heart is broken.
I'm very sorry for your loss. That must be extremely difficult...love and prayers from SC ♡
I'm very very sorry. You could say it to me like I was him. Because I'm really thinking of going
Charlotte R I'm so sorry about your brother. I lost a friend of mine to suicide in April 2018. And I wish I could talk to him again.
Yeah... Iam so sorry my boyfriend lost his brother and he's going insane about him he doesn't even think about me anymore I just want to know what would he do if iwas dead?
I doubt people think about me like this.
You matter more than you think. You are more loved than you know. I am certain of it. You matter, and things can get better.
Wishing you all the best and sending love.
They do, I promise. There are always people who love you unconditionally no matter what. In those really dark days it seems like no one really cares about you and everything is too heavy to carry alone. But I can tell you that's not true. You never have to fight completely alone, even if it seems like you have to. Most of the times we just forget to tell others how important and beloved they are and that their lives matter so much to us. Never give up, because there are sooo many great storys people can tell about you and there are more to come. You are worth of love, hope and happiness:) You will feel better;)
(Sorry for the bad english. I'm not a native)
Yes. They do.
People do. You may think it's best to leave them, but, oh, how they'd miss you. I cannot remember where I heard this, but:
"To the world, you're someone. To someone, you're the world."
Don’t worry, they do. It might seem like the world hates you, like you were a mistake, but, you were put on this earth for a reason, and I assure you that people love you and they care. Stay strong, you’re not in this alone.
i needed this.
Maggie k I don't know you but just know that I really want you to be alive. I don't know if it matters to u but it does to me
It takes a lot of strength to reach out when you're hurting. It can be so hard when life feels overwhelming, but I am glad you shared how you were feeling. If you ever feel in crisis, you can text HELLO to 741741, and someone will respond with ideas and tools to help keep you strong and safe. We are glad you are here with us.
I'm sending much love and courage and I hope you will find peace in your life and that the strength that's within you will become obvious to your eyes... ♥
Thank you to everyone for your kind words and understanding. I'm here because of people like all of you.
Maggie k I'm glad complete strangers can bring you comfort but keep in mind that you're here for yourself and no one else. You matter. People do care. ❤️
I don't think that people who commit suicide don't think about how it would affect loved ones. Thats the main reason they didn't do it sooner, I know for a fact that thinking about my family has definitely saved my life. Sometimes the pain is too much and you don't think clear enough.
hamster play big big i agree
Some of them do. They just think that their loved ones would be better off without them. That’s the exact thought I had.
To Live is an Act of Courage
“I saw not my own courage in dying, but his courage broken by the loss of me. So I said to myself, ‘You must live’. Sometimes even to live is an act of courage” Seneca (4BC-65AD)
@@LightningWolf09 true.. to live is an act of massive courage
@@ミナミリナ-t6w Absolutely
This morning i was thinking about killing myself. Depression got me again. This video has saved me this time.
These strangers, i feel like they're talking to me...
Thanh Hien Nguyen Me too
I know this comment is long ago… but if you need someone to talk to I'm here. I know how it feels if you think you have no one to talk about you're problems… and this loneliness just makes it worse… … so if you need someone, you can talk to me :)
have a hug and a cookie 🤗🍪
I hope you are still there, because you matter. Don't let anybody tell you otherwise, even when it is yourself.
Thanh Hien Nguyen I hope you are doing okay. We all believe you matter. You don’t have to go through this alone. Stay strong.
♥️
I watch this video maybe once every 2 weeks to make myself imagine that people would say this about me
Brian Chafin you’re loved.
Hi Bri if you ever need to talk to anyone who’s going through the same situation as you here I am !
Bri chain
You matter, you are loved.
You are beautiful man
We need you to stay
Bri Chafin Hi :) Can you please watch this video? It's about how this person came out of years of depression : m.th-cam.com/video/mxxxH_cX1zg/w-d-xo.html
I love you and you are needed.. God loves you
"and to this day everytime I walk in that house, I still look up those stairs. I still hear your voice.
As someone who lost their best friend from elementary school almost a year ago, this helps. I wasn't there for him after we started middle school, or even when he moved away for high school. It hurts. Knowing you were so close and then weren't and haven't kept in contact after he moved. It hurts, but one day, it won't hurt as much,
I relate to you so much my best friend since elementary moved to a different middle school but I blamed myself because my other friends convinced my I was too old to be playing around so I decided to be more of an "adult" but that separated us. She was always there for me and I regret it. She came back this yeah and I cried seeing her but when I talked to her she was like the same and I was different I changed for the worse and she better. I don't deserve her as my best friend anymore
Leonardo Ravinchi are you guys seriously whining about moving to different schools than your best friends; meanwhile these people literally lost somebody that they can never see again. Wtf yall is fucked in the head
Leonardo Ravinchi Here's a tip, grow up
Seb Sports I think he meant he lost his friend to suicide ‘almost a year ago’
Fatima Camp I me to reply to the other person I think
I just want to say, coming from someone who was in and out of rehab. It gets better. I'm better. It will all be okay. *Don't give up* ❤️
Manni Interrupted I don't know who you are but I'm very proud of you rn.
Muskan Chhajer I'm just a person who doesn't want to die anymore. I'm here to give life hell. Enjoy it as much as possible.
Manni Interrupted I'm about to go into rehab. I'm scared, what should I expect? I'm scared of what will happen, can you please help? Thank you :)
OctieBoopTurtle I always cried the first night. You never know what to expect. But going has changed the way I saw the world. Made my problems seem a lot less when you get to hear other people's struggles. Going is not weakness, going means you're strong. You're willing to face what many can't. While you're there. Listen, and take advice. You will be okay. You are not alone.
Manni Interrupted Thank you so much. I'm glad to hear that it will get better and that I am not alone. Thanks so much for sharing your experience with me, I'm glad I found your comment. I'm also thankful that you are feeling okay too :)
The problem is... people only miss you when you're gone.
Everything ok?
Devastating truth
@@sherylg2601 that's really kind of you to ask. If I'm being honest, no. I go through times of serious depression very often but I manage.. just as we all do. I hope youre well and I appreciate your comment♡
@@lbo6050 Hey :) Umm... can I share a video with you? th-cam.com/video/mxxxH_cX1zg/w-d-xo.html . It's about how this lady comes out of years of depression. She shares her story in this video. Please watch it whenever you're free.
Take care
I hope everyone is okay. I love all yas
For everyone who reads this. I love you. I may never have seen you or have never known your name, but that doesn't stop me from caring about you. The world is better with you in it and know that you can always reach out.
😊 🌹
Zisha not cool I don't care if you were joking rape is not funny
janoortje ❤️❤️
THIS is so nice! Thanks a lot ❤
Janoortje you have touched many hearts with your comment
To my Brother and my best friend,
Danny, I miss you every single day and I wish you were still here with me 😢
I love you so much ❤️
❤️❤️
Epoy Tejada I lost my brother too, I know the pain 😢💔
Epoy Tejada Don't be sad he's gone, be happy he was here. Keep your chin up. Much love.
Who is Danny?
I know that the guy in the blue shirt said something about wishing that he could have saved his friend's life physically. So, I'm putting out a little PSA. If you find somebody who has overdosed, the most important thing is to *open their airway.* Many people use drugs that, in some way or another, suppress breathing. So make sure their tongue is out of the way, roll them to the side, and don't be afraid to give a couple of breaths if they are breathing shallowly (of course, if they aren't breathing and/or don't have a heart rate, start CPR immediately). You could save their life, either completely or from coma or brain damage/death!
You don’t know what you have until it’s gone 😔
i had a cat i loved it with all my heart now its gone we could not afford its oparation, money comes first before life.did you know the police will arrest you if you die by suicide. ha ha ha they are stupid.
@@qwertyman459 I'm sorry for your loss. I agree it's awful that people put money before life. Just because you didn't have enough money shouldn't have meant your cat had to die.
@@lindenlynx thank you, why is it so expensive for a cat or dog to be fixed. is it so you wont try and help them i know they dont have long in this world. my its family. its not a pet. its love waiting for you every day all ways happy to see you.
You don’t know what you had until it’s gone
Luke Williams true
Suicide, to friends and loved ones left behind seems selfish; but really it is a selfless act. When someone is done with life, they are done.....their reasons are personal. Those reasons do not need to be justified, and may never be fully understood as they are not meant to be. Sometimes when someone knows or feels, that they have fulfilled their purpose in this earthly realm, it is simply time to move on.
Friends and love ones may never understand. The flip side is to ask yourself, if the person who decided to end their own life was in that much pain (emotional, physical or both) then would you not want them to have the peace they craved, that they so desired in life but could not attain?
It’s very much a double edged sword & every situation is different.
Lela Gallo it’s not a selfless act in any way
You know instead of calling it a selfish act, just act the right way and help that said person; calling it selfish won’t help anyone, the “ Selfish “ person would feel much more sadder and the guilt would increase by ten folds. Please, help those who are in need of dire love and affection.
Recently my father passed away from suicide last year and to be completely honest I’ve never felt more shitty in my entire life. It took such huge toll on me that I started missing school, dropping out of sports I enjoyed, stopped socialising to people I would usually talk to, and basically giving up on everything I used to love. I eventually had to get put into counselling because I started to get the same thoughts my dad must’ve had on the day he took his life.
His death impacted me greatly and made me start thinking and believing awful things like “If suicide brought you peace dad, well hey maybe it might bring me peace too and ease the pain of dealing with your death”
Suicide does not end the pain, but only passes it on to someone else. And to me that doesn’t feel or sound very selfless.
xdead_acc0untx I’m very sorry for your loss. I’m sure you miss your dad very much and that it is so hard for you. I lost my love 20 years ago to suicide. It has gotten easier as time goes by. Hugs.
To Live is an Act of Courage
“I saw not my own courage in dying, but his courage broken by the loss of me. So I said to myself, ‘You must live’. Sometimes even to live is an act of courage” Seneca (4BC-65AD)
That one hit really close to home
I recently got diagnosed with bipolar disorder 2 and I really struggle with depression so sometimes when I am really down low I come back to this (edit)
I survived my suicide attempt & this hit so close to home, I can‘t stop crying.
Aileen xo glad you are still with us.
💙💙💙💙 stay. I too survived
So glad you are still with us. You are so brave.
Same I tried to end it, so happy I failed. I see how precious life is now, good times were waiting for me I just couldn’t see them at the moment. If you’re scrolling thru reading this, your life does matter don’t let anybody tell u different 💙
Hope your doing Good!
as someone who has been suicidal for years and has attempted many times, we always think of you. we wouldn’t forget you. you were most likely one of the people keeping them alive. the only thing you can hope about the people you love and who love you when attempting suicide is that they will be able to recover and live a good life without you. the last thing we would ever want is for someone we love to feel the same pain as we do. we do love and care about you and I want you to know that it’s not your fault. you gave them light when there was only darkness, and eventually the darkness took over. you did the best you could at the time. it’s alright. they love you and miss you. they won’t ever leave you in your heart.
thank you
someone is cutting onions in my room
Lea Lammers
Damn ninjas
Ohhh yes, those sneaky ninjas
dolan twins. i love them and ur profile pic. ok sorry bye
Somemones cutting onions in my life
in mine too...D:
Dear Dad,
I miss you more and more everyday, and people keep saying that one day it won’t hurt anymore but it just keeps getting worse and worse. I don’t know what to do without you, I try to stay strong for you, I never saw or knew you were hurting and I wish I could go back in time and change what happened that day. That morning when my mum walked in my room crying “your dads gone, he died” broke me. When I found out you committed suicide 4 years later, that crushed me even more. You always seemed so happy, how did you stay so strong on the outside? I miss you so much, I love you dad
"i wish i knew why"
top 10 bullsh*t words that come out of people mouth when their related family or friends took their own life , but when they were alive, no one cares about what they said/what they shared about
True asf bro
When people ask why, i think they always expect some deep reason. But sometimes the reason can be as simple as just being tired of breathing
They knew why, they just refused the reason and gave bs and cliche explanation.
It's not their fault,as a person who struggles alot with suicidal thoughts,I'm screaming on the inside but when someone notices the change in my behavior,I just dismiss them with a smile so they would stop looking at me differently...so, yeah it's not their fault if the say these words
@@DesmondMwangi-qo7bh good luck surviving with that attitude bro
“You don’t know what you had until it’s gone. Truth is, you did know. You just thought you’d never lose it”.
Thank you... I've been contemplating suicide and I needed to see this. This was an excellent reminder that ending my life would impact everyone I love.. It's so frustrating that I can't trust my own thoughts and emotions.
It's definitely frustrating and scary and uncomfortable, but you are so right. There are absolutely people in your life who love you and would want to help. And remember, you can always text "HELLO" to 741-741 if you ever need to talk about it.
SoulPancake thank you ❤
vivimivi stay strong, you've got so much life to live! Sending you love and positive energy :)
vivimivi When people are considering suicide, they are often not thinking straight; it is the nature of strong unpleasant feelings like depression/grief/anxiety/anger to trick our minds and cause us to focus more on the negative aspects of our thoughts and emotions. This is why it is vitally important to talk to someone about what's going on - a therapist, a counselor, a guidance counselor, a spiritual leader, a suicide/depression helpline, whomever/whatever you prefer (as long as it's someone who will really hear you) - because keeping those thoughts hidden inside often leads to them growing, resulting in more psychological suffering. Please find someone to talk to soon; there are caring people who are helpers out there who are nonjudgmental, wise, respectful and nurturing. If the first person you talk to doesn't reflect those qualities, talk to someone else. Please. You deserve to feel better and have a happier and healthier life. If you're in the U.S., call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (they take calls 24/7) at 800-273-8355. Their website is suicidepreventionlifeline.org We're with you.
Some really strong fellings .Made me cry .
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This changed my mind about possibly ending my life. I needed to see this.
That Theatre Jen great man glad to hear! Stay strong!
Me too, stay strong ❤️
It’s just that you want your pain to end. You realize it never ever gets better no matter how much you try to wait and see. It never does.
A therapist said something similar, you dont want to die, you want the pain to End.
Its kept me going, if i look at life as problem-solving, not an endless cycle of pain and misery, how would it change?
If we could meet, id buy you a coffee, and offer a warm hug, and a sympathetic ear, and ask,
What is youre pain?
I genuinely want to hear.
Why do you think it will not end.
Share as much as you want or need, but after youre done,
How would you feel about Brainstorming solutions together,
or lookng at life as a problem-solving endeavour.
I may not know you, but would you be willing to take this chance, to make a new Friend?
Idk and people think you're ungrateful but do you think there's an possibility to be cursed from birth ?
That’s very true. Sometimes it doesn’t get better. You just live with it.
I'm almost 20.. and many times I sit and look out my bedroom window and just wonder if this is all worth it. I think of it many times but I never act. Watching these videos reminds me that I'm not alone in this battle. I love you all, thank you for sending hope.
"Somewhere in the decision making process you figured that everyone would be better without you and that's not true."
Im not suicidal but Im depressed, and lonely and have social anxiety. Seeing this just annoyed me so much. People will say all this stuff when youre gone, never when youre still there. When youre still there they take you for granted and dont see you at all. Sometimes people like us just feel like "maybe they will see me then". Even though its pointless, it feels as if its worth everything to get you feeling noticed and appreciated. Sometimes it gets too hard and you cant take it anymore. I was just so angry.
Tanaka Mlambo yea i feel you. they say "did you think about us?" well did YOU think about me?? when i was hurting so badly??
Wow you just wrote down exactly what I was thinking
Yeah people can be cruel when you're alive
People always care about you, even if it seems as though they take you for granted. But when someone is gone, they realise what they're missing. If you speak to someone about the way you feel, no doubt they will show you they love you. People are just so cought up with what is going on in their own lives, just like you are with yours, and that's not bad, it's a normal thing to do. But don't blame anyone for it. Everyone is struggling with something you don't know anything about, just like you or anyone else. ❤️
Tanaka Mlambo I agree, I struggle with the same issues. But I know I definitely don't feel angry like you do when I watch this. We don't know these people. We don't know that they didn't say all of this out loud next to the person when they were still alive. It's not right to but blame on them, and unfortunately that's what it sounds like you are doing. At the same time, how could we ever put that pressure on ourselves to not take someone/something for granted? We all do. We take many things for granted everyday. It's not fair to put that guilt on ourselves. We aren't perfect.
The thing is, no one ever says anything until the funeral.
You should tell those that you love that you love them while they're here. Too often we assume that they just know. "Well of course they know, we talk all the time." "Of course they know. They're my kid. I'll always love them." That's not always true. Don't assume. It can help. Not always, but if it does it can save a life. If it doesn't at least you got to say it and let them know that there's someone, anyone, who cares.
Thank you for this❤️
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evie may sellars hi
evie may sellars I made a vlog about my depression story and I would love for everyone to check it out on my channel! It would mean so much to help as many people as I can who struggle with mental illness! Thanks!
I miss you.
I still remember that boyishly charming smile, those incredibly blue eyes, and that contagious giggle. I regret not being able to help you. Once I lost you, I felt incomplete. So many thoughts raced throughout my mind. How could you leave me alone ?
Lots of things remind me of you. The sunset, baseball bats, the ocean, etc. You were always so selfless and sweet. I still hear that angelic voice occasionally. Words cannot describe how much I miss everything about you.
It has been two years. All that time spent without you by my side. It's funny - You would have made a joke about me becoming so emotional. You had such an amazing personality, bub. So much potential.
As time continues, I keep finding new ways to cope. I no longer feel at fault - Nobody was at fault. You hit a rough patch, and couldn't recover. You always were very sensitive. I'm becoming stronger, and more aware.
I'll always miss you, Luke. I will never, ever forget you. I'll cherish our memories. I'll think back to simpler times - Like when we would dig up worms as little kids. You always loved that.
I love you, Luke. You were the best friend I could have ever asked for. Hope you're at peace - May we meet again.
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He was 12??
@@kerry1022 Yes
It never ends, the pain won’t end until the last breath.
how do you know the pain will end after the last breath? it may become more intense if the soul lingered
I agree.
@@ioidt Im atheist ,_,
To my friend Andy.
You're an amazing person and everyday I miss you man. I'm gonna head over to your grave in December to say hi again buddy. Love ya. 🐬
I'm so sorry for your loss. Wish you the best
Is there any way to like this video 291992282 times???😭❤️
To quote my absolute favourite band, All Time Low, "don't lose your fight, kid. It only takes a lil push to pull it through.."
Missing you- All Time Low one of the most inspirational songs if you ever feel depressed
Mattie Stricker yesss, can’t agree more it’s so motivating
with so much left to do, you'll be missing out, and we'll be missing you
Muskan Chhajer fave all time low song for sure!! i cried when i saw them play it live
My cousin committed suicide when I was little. I miss him a lot. If he were alive today I'd thank him for teaching me how a real man treats women. I'd also tell him how much l miss his bear hugs and hanging out with him and the family. RIP Alex👼❤️
one thing they are doing wrong is the typical "didnt you think of us?" that is the most selfish reason i have ever heard
Consider the human factor and the process of grief before you call someone selfish for reacting to a traumatic event.
Every children was born as a bless, but I can't help feeling... I was born as a curse. To myself and to my parents...
I feel the need to be completely gone
You are a precious gift. You're not here by accident, you have a purpose. Please don't think you're a curse! Can you please read all the notes in this series? : www.apcwo.org/sermon-series-the-fathers-love/messages/series/the-father-s-love . I want you to realize how valuable you are.
To Live is an Act of Courage
“I saw not my own courage in dying, but his courage broken by the loss of me. So I said to myself, ‘You must live’. Sometimes even to live is an act of courage” Seneca (4BC-65AD)
Why does my intention of committing suicide get stronger with these videos? I mean, They've got to help me right? I got confused and this is a reason for me to live a bit longer. I wanna figure out why...
Hrmicö I know exactly how you feel. I wish I knew why. When I watch these videos they do help, but at the same time I feel like I’m all alone and worthless.
You should both talk to someone. If this isn't helping, (and I don't know why), then you need to find another method of treatment. Stay alive. Stay strong. Sending hope and love your way.
Maybe you're feeling like all the suicide victims in the video have people who miss them and you don't feel like anyone would miss you. That's not true. You matter much more than you know. People love you much more than you think. You are loved. You will be missed whenever you go. Please, don't make it soon.
Guys! Can y'all watch this? m.th-cam.com/video/mxxxH_cX1zg/w-d-xo.html . It's about a person who came out of depression and anxiety. Don't give up. There is still hope and love around you.
@@sherylg2601 you're so sweet, you've been spamming the comment section with that video link 😌💗
who else is watching this while crying? Cause i know i am😩😭
People are selfish monsters. They never care about you, even after you're gone. They only feel guilt because they think they failed as parents/friends/family, not because they think about you.
Agreed
I can relate to this....People know about my suffering and call me mean names like negative or confrontational when I try to advocate for myself. They do not realize the damage this is causing. How can people kick me when I am down? They know that I am experiencing almost every kind of loss.
So true
Agree
My first thought. They only mention themselves. Not Even one Word about how person that commited suicide felt before she or he died
It took a lot for these people to talk about this. Respect.
I attempted and my family saved me. I am so glad i’m still here.
Your comment is from a year ago but I hope you're doing well and are feeling better. Especially right now as the pandemic has made some peoples mental health even worse, my own included. I'm glad your family saved you. Stay safe!
@@leeriches8841 thank you! I am doing great! Back in school and exercising a lot! Life is 10x better.
"Did you think about us? Or maybe you didn't so you wouldn't change your mind?"
Damn. Did that hit home. 😔
That felt disrespectful, like hell yea she thought about you, but she was in more pain daily than she could take
I think that sentence was incredibly disrespectful and selfish.
Oh we think about everyone but rarely does anyone until it’s too late
Thank you your voices are soothing and calming for me I've listened to you for a long time. I'm still alive I'm still listening. Some times people connect in the darkest hours and the comfort of calm. I know your voices all around ❤️ Love all of you Ron
This week I lost a friend to suicide
I still don’t wanna think that it’s real it’s so heartbreaking….
Our mental health system definitely failed him and it makes me so upset
Rip my dear friend you will be missed forever
Does anybody know the feeling, when you’re so sad, that your body begins to tingle all through your body? Idk just wondering
I feel this in my cheeks when I have a mental breakdown
Yes
yea
Yes
Literally rn lmao
I have reached my endurance capacity. I don't know how the kid I once was ended up so badly... I mean sure the world is unkind, and especially brutal to some (raises hand). I just hope there'll be something good to remember about me, something valuable to learn, and just because its okay to dream, maybe something treasurable too. I have lived, I have loved, I have tried to overcome, and now my moves are over.
God bless you
Felt the same. When I look at my childhood, its like a different life time. Completely opposite to this hell im currently in.
@@mountainous_port Tbh for me it’s different T-T. My childhood was a hell, and that mostly reason why I want leave early. I feel like I was cursed since 8, day when my brother ended his own life was my day when my childhood ended. I just want visit him, I want him take me out of my life into piece and happiness. I want follow him.
I never in a million lifetimes would I imagine my 36 y.o.old son would take his life over rough patch in his marriage . Left behind so many in pain including a then 11 y.o. son and a then 7 y.o.daughter. I had been helping him pack up his house. Forever grateful I told him how much I loved and appreciated him. I'm so broken five years in and next week he would be 42. My heart goes out to all who are enduring this
I'm sorry for your loss. How are your grandchildren doing with this?
Dear Ellie,
You were my best friend. No one compared to you. Everyday I looked forward to coming home from school and texting you until 4am. You were like a brother to me. I felt as if I could tell you anything without being judged. You also gave the best advice. Everyday I wish that I would've listened to some of the things you said. You're the reason I'm still alive. I remember the day we made our promise to not commit suicide so we could always be there for each other. Even though you didn't hold up your side of the promise... I will continue to go on with you always on my mind. Fifteen was way to young for you to leave. You had so much to live for. R.I.P Ellie 5/17/17💕
I'm so sorry for your loss...fifteen is so young. Rest in peace Ellie.
I'm so sorry for your loss❤ he's in Heaven watching over you
understand there life's journey had come to a end for them and it was ment to be Ann Murphy Ireland
@@annmurphy7012 their journey in life never had to come to an end so soon though. If only there were stable worldwide mental health support for those suffering with depression 😔 But until there is, we all have to look out for each other.
I am so sorry for your loss. Each of you are so very brave to talk about your experience with suicide, we need to hear It. We each need to remember that there is someone who loves you, you are valued. Please take the time to listen to those positive voices in your life. If we each take the time to realize our value and the value of those around us, we could make this world a better place. Never stop telling your story, listen to the positive voice, it's there.
You can see how powerless the guy in blue looks when he's talking about his experience. It's heartbreaking.
Sexy101 helpless * not powerless
I find myself watching these videos right now because the thoughts have crossed my mind more lately. As much as I’ve tried to stop my own child from wanting to commit suicide & have friends that have died of suicide I now understand why. Sometimes you feel you’ve made so many mistakes in life & your tired of being a failure that the world is better without you. Thanks for the video I have to find my own encouragement.
No. That is not Why people take their life. Mistakes has nothing to do with it. Mistakes are a «peace of cake».....
@@rikkemarial.b.2567 Well, everyone have different reasons. By mistakes he probably meant like serious and awful mistakes that changed his life.
Thank you, soul pancake, for creating such a... Soulful content. Right now, I am struggling with the loss of a friend for suicide. He was amazing, an incredible friend, always with us, always supporting us, an incredible light. It has been a month since he's been gone and I miss him terribly, but little by little I have been trying to live with the loss without carrying so much pain, if that is even possible. Sometimes I write my feelings down, sometimes I talk to my friends, anything not to let my feelings bottled up inside.
I don’t know why I torture myself with this. When I turned 18, I had literally only been 18 for one month, my dad killed himself. My dad and I weren’t especially close until I was about 17, that’s when I was old enough to understand his depression, and pain. I had finally bonded with my father, but my mother chose to leave the marriage to him, and within three days, he shot himself. I am now 39 years old, and I have never stopped trying to understand why he chose to leave me. Why he thought I would be able to go on and manage. It tore my whole world open in a way I never imagined. I have done so many things to seek happiness and joy and to somehow make up for the loss. But, I’ve never been able to. People will say that it gets easier, but it never ever gets easier, we just better learn how to cope. Instead of being destructive with my pain, I went through a phase where I channeled it into amazing accomplishments. Then, after a particularly bad break up, I spent almost two years, shutting everyone out, and of course, any trauma brings his death right back. I always think about how things would be easier to deal with in life if he was still here. So instead of sobbing daily, and making trips to the graveyard, I think about him. I think about him every single day, no matter what. Because when he died, my mom treated it like that whole chapter of her life died. I have no siblings, but I also lost having a relationship with my mother. So, in a way, I feel like an orphan. And even as an almost 40 yr old adult, my heart breaks for that. I have had to be my own support system and I have had to go through some of my worst times alone. When I’ve reached out to my mother, she never seems to be able to give me any support, or just even ask me if I’m ok. It pains me greatly. And I really wish my dad wouldn’t have done it. Because I think my life would have gone a lot smoother to this point. Instead, I’ve chased demons, and I’ve spent so much time trying to figure out why, and if I could have saved him. At this point, it’s been more years without him, than I spent with him, and I sometimes think maybe that I imagined having a father. Suicide leaves behind a legacy of grief and pain. And most often, it affects the people who you didn’t plan to hurt, in the worst way. Believe me, I have wanted to end my life and be with my dad, but I remember what it did to me. As much as I love him, I find myself angry. I have had counseling, I’ve been on medications, but I don’t think I will ever find true peace in regards to his suicide. I never stop looking for him, because I’ve convinced myself that maybe it didn’t really happen even. I want nothing more than to one day have peace with it. But it’s not that simple. Please don’t choose to leave life this way.
Hello 👋. For me my life is a mess and I won’t make it in the real world. I hate my life. The future isn’t going to be good so it’s better to end it.
I give up. There’s no moving forward.
Also, your father shot himself- so how did he get a gun ?? I want to get a gun but where or how can I get a gun ???
May God send you comfort and healing... HUGS
I really needed this today... I changed my mind...
anaviveri 💛💛 I hope you’re somehow feeling better
Anaviveri. Hi :) Hope you're doing well. Just wanted to share this video with you : m.th-cam.com/video/mxxxH_cX1zg/w-d-xo.html . It's about a person who came out of years of depression. Please watch and share it with anyone else who needs it.
Hi, I just came across this video and wanted ask if your still here?
People who tries to make everyone happy ends up being alone that much alone that nobody pays attention to them.
Perfect timing. Yesterday I was home alone which is a rare occurrence. I thought this was my chance to finally end my suffering. I basically just sobbed until someone got home. I've been dealing with depression for so long. I don't know how much I can take. But I'm still alive today which is something.
Are u alive now?
it's a shame that the organizations can't work effectively to help people live better lives because "it costs too much money "
the deaths wether on a battlefield of war, or on the street due to overdose , or hanging on self in a mansion is a sign that it's all a problem of the society in General.
if your friends forget to talk to you that means they're not doing their part to check in on people that seem depressed or troubled.
sometimes they avoid It because they don't want to feel like they're to blame somehow by association.
IV ketamine treatment is successful with PTSD, OCD, depression, anxiety, and is even showing promise with addiction. It is very effective with bipolar depression too. and it stops suicidal thinking... in a couple hours. It's saving lives but people need to know.
Cyndee Davis I suppose it can help with a perspective shift, however I believe often times there needs to be a team commitment that makes the individual feel accomplished with tasks.
however there is issues of letting go of trouble from the past that I think has to be completed with acceptance of disappointment.
medication may help with that but it's temporary alteration.
I agree with you..
Matfey Avgustin: Sweetheart, you are very ill and need to get help for yourself. It is not your fault that you are ill, but you do need help. How do I know that? Because your cold heart and lack of empathy for people who hurt so bad that they believe death is the only way to end their pain, is a symptom of your illness. Sorry to reveal your secret, but you hurt inside as much as they do. You do not have to continue hurting so. You will be so much happier when you are given your heart transplant. When you allow GOD to take your heart of stone and replace it with a heart of flesh. It is those with the hearts of stone who are causing our children to take their lives. Not to mention causing adults to do the same. I beg of you to become part of the solution as opposed to continuing to be the problem.
Cyndee Davis I think CBD helps me.
i lost my girl to suicide.. the pills got her in the end and i could never blame her for what she did, i just wish i could help her and take her pain away while she was still alive. i told her how much i love her all the time and if anything i know she knew i meant it every single time. my last words to her were perfect so at least i don't blame myself for anything i said. my last words to her were "i love you my little snowman"..
......snowman. No wonder she wanted to go.
@@skyjack8541 kitten is worse
I wish people would know that its not always about being selfish to live..but instead sometimes its being selfless to live for others too.
Don't let your thoughts overwhelm. Don't let them control you. Because, that is what depression really is - when your thoughts start controlling you instead of you controlling them. Hold tight, I also have suicidal tendencies, but in the morning, when i wake up, I know that the new day begins and so does hope arrive - hope of better days. Someone cares for you. You are not alone.
You apparently don't even know what you're talking about.
@@SuperVladdrakula Judging by some of your other comments, you're the one who doesn't know what they're talking about.
@@AceOfWaffles Oh, I know what I'm talking about, unlike all of you. And you apparently isn't fit to be a judge to anything, let alone, me.
@@SuperVladdrakula Doesn't seem like you're in the mood to argue. I know how to back off when I should. Sorry for interrupting your hopefully pleasant day with my comment. Enjoy the rest of your day. Bye.
@@AceOfWaffles Yes, very pleasant. How can it be pleasant with people like these in a place like this?
Dear Jonghyun
You were such an inspiration to me, I might’ve not been a shawol since debut but i love you, you didn’t know I exist, but I know you still loved me, I still talk to the sky at night because I miss you so much, if you were still here maybe I’d be okay, when I found out that you were gone for good... I just sat there numb for 15 minutes and then reality slapped me across the face and I just broke down, I couldn’t breathe, all I could do is cry, I started to hate myself for being so oblivious to the situation because you seemed so happy. I’ve been listening to Excuse Me Miss on repeat ever single day because that’s the song that got me into SHINee, Minho, Taemin, key, and ownew are so hurt that you’re gone along with me and every other shawol but we don’t blame you, we still love and support you no matter what, I’m happy for you, it hurts a lot, but I’m happy for you, I’m happy you’re happy now, and I’m sure everyone else is too. We miss you Jonghyun, I still hear your voice repeating in my head when I’m sad, but don’t worry sweetie, you did good❤️ 천국에 쉬다 종현 사랑해 그리고 그리워✨❤️
Every*
*cries internally* you did well jonghyun..
ㅠㅠㅠ😭😭😭😭😭😭...
you did well...💔
it’s been a year. :(
*wipes tears*.
I've been on both sides of this. (Sort of) ...
I've been suicidal in the past... (I'm ok these days...though, some days are still pretty hard to live through).
And yes. I do think about my loved ones.... and That's main reason I am still here.
I've lost a friend who killed himself..... and that was/is hard... but I understand.
And another friend came close a few times... but thankfully, she is still with us today.
Anyway. Thank you for this.
I'm in exactly the same situation. I just didn't kill myself two years ago because of my friends and my mother.
My best friend killed himself last year, and dammit... it's been hard to deal with since then.
Leandro, I'm sorry to hear that. I wish I had good helpful things to say..
Keep up the rewarding work of living, don't quit! You are making a difference by being an integral part of the hi.an family. I'm praying for you!
Dear G: You were one of the few people who made my husband, one of your best friends, laugh. He absolutely loved the time you spent together with him working on restoring cars. And I loved you for how safe you always made me feel. Even though our political views differed, we always could have really amazing conversations about it. And you made me laugh, my god did you make me laugh. I adopted you as a heart brother. I wish you had told me that you were in so much pain. I'm sorry we weren't as close near the end. I miss you and I think of you often. I sometimes am still mad at you for leaving like you did - but I still love you. I can be mad at you and still love you. May you know peace, bro.
I miss me.
I am proud to say, I am a suicide attempt survivor ♥ ✨
NathanJamesOfficial Yeah! Never be ashamed of your past. You are a fighter, and you've won this battle, so you got every damn right to be proud! ❤️☺️
NathanJamesOfficial you are amazing. I am so glad you are still here. And you are so brave for sharing. I bet a million dollars you make the world a brighter place.
Sonya Chemouni Bach omg you're making me so emotional. Thank you so much ♥
Yukino Fairytail omg. Thank you so much, that means so much to me ✨
NathanJamesOfficial you are so welcome. You got through this!! You conquered your worst fears and I am amazed by your strength.
Rips my heart to shreds
I cried so hard watching these ppl telling memories of their closed one, who once looked so energetic and alive, suddenly passed away.
I feel so sorry for their leaving as I can relate with the pain.
There are darkness in many souls, and they just needed to be seen and handle delicately to bring back hope and miracles.
When people say the suicide is selfish, i think it's that talk that drives people to do it.
Living with bipolar depression, i have my ups and downs. And every time i come back to that evil little thought I watch this video, and it stops something inside of me. Thabk you for posting this
Hotdog water How are you now? Please watch this: th-cam.com/video/mxxxH_cX1zg/w-d-xo.html . It's about how a lady came out of 18 years of depression.
Such an important topic to be discussed! Many people who commit suicide just needed to be heard or to hear from someone that she's loved no matter what.
Flavia Costa or live in pain/s they know for a fact will never change and only get worse.
It’s not to be called Commit/Committed Suicide anymore. It used to be illegal to end your own life, hence “Commit”
Dear mom, I was nine when you took your life. My brothers were 16 and 11. I just wish you knew we loved you so so much. No matter you weren't there and you were in and out of our lives, we loved you. I loved you. You were the only one who gave me presents when everyone favorited one of my brothers over me. And It hurt a lot when I found out you died, and I became deeply depressed when I found out you died by suicide. Maybe if I stayed that weekend you'll still be here. But I can't keep blaming myself, and I can't blame you for wanting the suffering to stop. I hope you can see this message and understand that I loved you with all your flaws and all your mistakes you may have ever made
We feel this way because we want to stop hurting. The joy loved ones bring to life is outshined by the darkness of the pain. Death is the only peace, the only relief. And it does come at a cost. but the cost to us is less than the toll of pain to continue living. That is the truth of the "why".
life hurts
so much trauma
so much suffering
heartache and despair
rage and grief
I can no longer bear the darkness
Same
May God hear your prayers. I feel the same. But can't end it because of God and my family.
Same
@@thisgirl5933 Im atheist, and my family is reason why I got into such a situation, but I can’t end this because I still want live :’), I want feel things and I remember how it was to be happy and carefree, I just want stop suffering and pain. It’s weird feeling, I want end it as much as I want live. I still keep hope inside me even if everything ruined and I’m already mentally de@d. I just want stop sufferings.
Dear all of you,
I love your book! Please don't end it this soon!
Whoever sees this YOU ARE WORTH IT! You can make it through anything you amazing beautiful person💛 you can do this.
Thank u
Why won't my family reach out to me and say all of this while I'm still here? Makes me sick to think that they would solicit sympathy from others if I passed, when they are the reason I'm so depressed. Reach out to people NOW. Don't wait to talk about them after they're gone. And give your children a childhood they don't have to recover from.
Same, I wish my mother di-d T-T (sorry, she just did kinda weird stuff to me). I would’ve be so much happier if that day she left instead my brother.
"Your dad is still..... looking for peace." That pause broke me. I lost my childhood friend this week to suicide. Never be afraid to reach out for help. There's so many people in the world that care about you.
Their "caring" apparently doesn't help much.
As someone who has lost someone to suicide, has had friends attempt, know friends and family still struggling, and someone who has been there...I’ve come to terms that you can’t save everyone. And you’re not always going to understand the circumstances. But the important thing is to celebrate the life they had and to be proactive in aiding others through educating yourself and others, in breaking the barriers between silence, ignorance and the stigmas, to create that “safe place” where everyone can feel loved. No matter your relation to another person, know that your story matters. Believe in it. LIVE it. I’m here for anyone who needs an ear to listen, a hand to hold, a shoulder to cry on, a motivational push, a reminder that you’re loved. I’m serious, I’m here for you.❤️
If I died tomorrow, I can envision all my family and friends being sad for about 10 minutes and then just going on with their lives.
Same here. I'm still here, I don't know why😢.
The pain never goes away.
My funeral would be empty. It would be a vacant lot. I’m fine with that. That day will come too. My time is running out. I’m just enjoying the remainder of my time until I make that move.
@@auouraschannel5230Yes it does. People move on.
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You all seem like such wonderful people.
For all of you, and for me, our brain is telling us why Suicide would be ok or good.
But in times of Emotional Pain our brain lies to us.
I say that having seen firsthand the effects of suicide.
There was a Soldier, in the Soldiers Hostel i was living at, around 20,
We were all there because we were either far from home, or our parents didnt want us, for various reasons.
One day i come "home" and my and everyones lockers have been forced open, and everyones crying, i dont understand why.
Turns out, a new soldier came, and us all being mates, one of them gave him a key to his locker so he could take soap and shower stuff,
he also left his m-16 rifle there, the soldier took it and shot himself lethally, killing himself.
The Military Police had launched an investigation which is why they forced open all our lockers.
The next day we organized ourself to go to his family, to pay our condolences and give them whatever information we had.
You can not imagine the pain he caused, the way it tore his family apart.
They were jewish orthodox faith, and he liked to watch TV, which they dont allow in their househould.
So they kicked him out, and didnt want contact with him.
I dont know what happened after that day, but...
There, i saw his sister lock herself in her room, casting angry looks at her dad, the wife angrily looking at the father,
IT was a scene of a family on the verge of ripping apart.
My Family ripped apart when my Dad died, because he broke his spine, and the complications resulting from that.
I dont know youre story, so im trying not to tell you what to think or feel.
But ill take a risk, and say no matter how bad things are, you can not imagine how much pain, and devastation you would bring to the people who love and care about you, because i have seen it first hand.
And in my heart i feel it with the death of my Dad.
Try to understand this.
When someone you love dies, A Piece of youre Heart and youre Soul goes with them.
You never get it back, EVER.
You may move on, with Grief, not from it.
But that part of you has died, and it will never come back.
This is what you will do to youre loved ones, whether friends or Family.
At some level Emoetionally you know this, and feel this.
Life is hard, but when we leave making it easier for ourselves, we open gaping wounds in the hearts of all we leave behind.
If you wonder why youre still here, id guess this is why.
So you cant die, because youll hurt other, but you dont want to live the emoetional or practicall hell youre in,
Why not try problem-solving?
What could you do to improve youre situation?
Im here to listen or offer advice.
I know you dont know me, i just want to help.
Im here if you want it.
I cried so much when I heard the news. I never met you, but I learn to love you through your mother's eyes and conversations. I heard how much she was trying to keep you alive. She missed you so much and she is devastated. There is nothing that can replace all the love you inspire to her. The pain to see her in pain is unbearable.