as I watch this video, I try to focus on what is being said... but, I can't. because I'm desperately, painfully lonely. drowning and suffocating in grief and loneliness... today's a significant-important day for me. I should be out celebrating... but anything celebratory I could think to do, only sounds horrifically-awfully lonely. there's a person in my life, I cling to this person desperately, because they are all that I've got. they provide me with the *illusion* of love and friendship, but that's all it really is: an illusion. I want them to want me, to need me, to love me, to desire me. and they don't. and I'm all alone. perpetually alone and single and in poverty, my whole damn life. I wish to die...
you need to relax. you will find somone who loves you. now you need to talk to that person tell them how or what you feel deep inside. dieing is not an option my friend. you are strong way stronger then you think.
Beautiful couple and a wonderful family. I wish them many more wonderful and prosperous years ahead.
I thank Jesus Christ for your lives ❤
as I watch this video,
I try to focus on what is being said...
but, I can't. because I'm desperately, painfully lonely.
drowning and suffocating in grief and loneliness...
today's a significant-important day for me.
I should be out celebrating...
but anything celebratory I could think to do,
only sounds horrifically-awfully lonely.
there's a person in my life,
I cling to this person desperately,
because they are all that I've got.
they provide me with the *illusion*
of love and friendship, but that's all it really is:
an illusion. I want them to want me,
to need me, to love me, to desire me.
and they don't. and I'm all alone.
perpetually alone and single and in poverty,
my whole damn life. I wish to die...
you need to relax. you will find somone who loves you. now you need to talk to that person tell them how or what you feel deep inside. dieing is not an option my friend. you are strong way stronger then you think.