Woow, to have so much positivity.. You must have been through some shit, but instead of getting depressed about it, you took this chance to grow. You are an amazing person!
I quit my job today because it was a work environment that goes against my values and the type of workplace that i want to work at. Although this is a difficult time for me because i am between jobs, this video really helped me with my self worth. I am not my job. Thank you Kristine.
Hey, from one human to another don't get too down on yourself over leaving the job. You did a good thing choosing yourself bc you are worth it!! Jobs come and go all the time anyways. Who knows, maybe it took losing this job to make room for you to get a better one. You got this frfr
Hello. this theme is explored in beautiful ways in the book, "the courage to be disliked", and it makes a really compelling on it. hope you find this helpful.
Never thought words from a stranger could mean this much. I remember watching your your video about "the things I don't have time for." Ever since then your words have helped me so much. I don't know you or ever will, but I'll always remember your words. Thank you. Thank you for saying that.
Thank you Yan. I have been confused as to whats "wrong" with me for a long time and I have figured out that I have neglected to develop any self worth growing up. Everything seems so centered around the external/superficial things in life. I will take your advice to heart and work on myself because I deserve it. And I will appreciate the effort I put in along the way. I hope anyone reading has a good day and be appreciate your inner self.
personally, that’s doing the most. how i’ve understood things is that it’s always been about unlearning, and in this case, unlearning what made you “not feel whole enough” and pretty much whatever makes you feel the need to do the most to begin with. to me, philosophy like this feels like it’s just perpetuating that cycle.
@@jhudjhud although I can agree about the truth of her idea, i don't think if you really want to recognize your wholeness you should be doubling down on trying to convince yourself or others that it is a privilege to know you. i think the truth doesn't need maintenance. if you need a perspective like this to keep you afloat, not saying that it's a bad perspective (surely having an emphasis on this in your perspective must mean some sense of overcompensation that if true, clearly doesn't need to be ringing in your head all the time), then surely you're making it harder to have these two states of beings coexist..
Me too. That's why any time someone pushes one millimeter past "how's the weather, what's for lunch" I never hear from them again. They don't want to become privileged.
Coming across your channel has genuinely been the best thing for me this year. I wanna thank you from heart and pray that each valuable, thoughtful message you have shared will stick through the coming years of your life as well. Nothing but love.
Show up and try - well said! Especially the difference between self worth and self confidence. I actually thought it was the other way around, but your examples made me see otherwise. Thank you, Yan :)
"Everyone has their own pace." Indeed they do. I'm currently stuck behind a semester in college, while I'm seeing my colleagues on social media who have already graduated and got their diploma just last month. It's making me feel a bit depressed and left behind in that I wasn't able to complete the same program they have within the same time frame. It's hard to escape this feeling too.
understandable. I was several YEARS behind my graduating class due to depression and being in my head about what i wanted to do and making the wrong choices in life. but if i didnt go through those things and learn from them, i would still be in a huge rut.
It is such a tragic moment because I faced it too but I accept it as a lesson and move on from it to give time to myself so that I can be a better version of me again with whatever I have. And I pray for you too.
Newer subbie - just wanted to drop a kind word - 😇loving your channel, topics, personal insights & the outlook you share here. That's all, keep on keepin' on & have a lovely day!✨💎✨
I'm reflecting on this video as a somewhat failed mid-20s person, trying to understand where I went wrong. Self-worth is very important, especially (in my view) because we are beings with very very limited knowledge, despite how smart or experienced we may be. If we were perfectly wise and knowledgeable beings, then we could have full control over outcomes, and then, it would probably make sense to base happiness on results. But since we aren't, there's a risk of...I don't know, maybe a loss of control over emotions? That's something everyone viscerally thinks they ought to fully own, right? And failing that risks giving into despair, making us lose out on many opportunities (but by then, you've already redefined those opportunities as simply traps or meaningless things). It's like the inner mind is rebelling against our administrative selves; I fell into this trap before. So at least sometimes, you must "climb to higher ground" for stability, to escape the tsunami of inconsistent real-world results; you do this either by improving your tangible life, or by coping with a different mindset, e.g. inherent self-worth. The premise of the video is that the second is easier, and then it lets you attempt the first with more resilience, which leads to more consistency and less risk of burnout. On the flip side, how did you or I get to where you or I are in life, looking just at our growth and achievements? We tied our work to a reward system, or a punishment system, whether or not it's tangible. (Or perhaps other people tied it for you.) Yes, sometimes it's underdone or overdone and that doesn't work well. But it's generally true. To some degree, emotional states should indirectly be linked to results. For example, does money make people happy? Research shows it definitely prevents unhappiness to a large degree, so it's at least necessary for almost everyone, though insufficient on its own. That's its own can of worms, but point is, there's already existing links between emotional states and real-world results. I'm going to try to make a far-fetched connection in the next 2 paragraphs, it may or may not work: We live in a world of negotiated and empirically determined takes, attitudes, mindsets, rules, etc. Not many can be unilaterally derived, like you might with a mathematical idea. Everything is part of a market, when you define "resources" widely, like money, food, time, and social capital. And your ability to chase the higher levels of Maslow's hierarchy of needs is dependent on you satisfying some or most of the lower levels, where you heavily depend on other people (diplomacy). Moreover, it seems that one-size-fits-all rules can be adequate for survival in an abstract sense, but not enough for dominance, flourishing, or even basic competitiveness in some areas of life. To use an analogy, you can achieve intermediate-high ELO in chess by following rules of thumb, but what makes a player rise to high ELO and beyond is knowing when to break the rules, and that requires specific study, looking deep into narrow and esoteric theory (the META of chess). It's also part of the point of Ph.Ds and specialized jobs. Going back to the video, I sincerely think it's not enough to just say you are worth it. (I know the video also mentions self-confidence apart from self-worth, but I feel it wasn't expanded upon.) You at least have to deal with cases where you are not given respect or money or some other resource that enhances your life. But it's not an idea worth throwing in the garbage can either. We probably (?) have to be intentional with where we draw the line between "I am worthy of respect regardless of outcome" and "I will earn others' respect through my works." Or, we have to try to identify and collect patterns (e.g. showing up and giving effort in writing a 10 page essay) in success (e.g. getting A's on essays where you tried, struggled, and held together a solution) while not discarding useful traits in failures. Then define at least some (?) of those acts as demonstrating self-worth. After all, the brain seems like it can link anything with anything, given it is repeated enough 😂. It's a difficult process, finding out where to draw that line in different situations. Knowing when to retreat and when to push forward isn't a one-size-fits-all rule. So I'm often tempted to completely swing one way or the other. But we gotta trust in the process, or something like that. I lost my train of thought many times writing this, taking over half an hour. And there's probably some questionable logic in there. But these are my genuine thoughts, and I hope someone else can relate or critique. I'm tired now. This was a satisfying thought exercise. Thanks for the video, yan.
I think I have the fortune to get to know people and connect with some on deeper levels. While I do see how giving up innermost aspects of yourself is a privilege for others, are we not just living at the same time through sheer coincidence/luck? maybe this all just exists perpetually at the same time...
I know it's a bit late but I want to congats you for 100k subscriber, i've been watching your video since you're below 50k subscribers and I really like it.
But of course.....As well I shall serve and protect you and as well you shall provide the gifts of your mortal existence that shall provide for both of us shall grow and prosper....honor yourself then you shall honor others
In my view there is no "person" or "self", only the construct of the ego. Why do we need to have "self worth"? Because we feel that we need to be a certain way or a certain type of person? Or have "enough value" as a person? Would we not only be creating the problem for our self at that point? Do we not already have what we need within us, if so then what is there to gain?
As we age, we become less and less relevant and more and more invisible. Right now in your life, you are young and pretty and female, which is at the absolute peak of social value. You will find that that message will apply dramatically less after enough time has gone by. So make peace with yourself now, as you will so, so need it later. If what I have offered sounds alien, it is because your consciousness is so far from it at this particular moment in your perspective of life. But I assure you, it is coming. I have offered you a glimpse of the future. You will do with it as you will.
It's good to recognize your strengths and appreciate them. But when you're around other people, don't feel entitled for them to act as though it really is a privilege, because the light you shine comes from God. It comes from all the things that nurtured you which isn't completely your own making and you don't completely deserve. Don't expect people to see and appreciate your light by default, but recognize it in yourself so that you have confidence to bring your light to others. That's your job, to spread your light. Besides that, always be grateful for the people you have the chance to meet too. Assume there's a reason it's a privilege to know them, often there is. Enjoy unfolding the beauty in their story, helping them see the beauty in themselves, and living their meaningful moments vicariously through them.
I guess I know this. The problem is truly embodying it. Because everyone out there, just wants to judge me, if I feel this way, accordingly, sadly. Thus, over time, I have no choice but to “cave in” to what they want, else they would get “triggered”, and “punish me”, accordingly. People can just embody it, and “narcissistically”, be “righteous” about it, in their own “ways”. But they, don’t allow “me”, to do it, anyways, sadly. Well, fk “others”, I guess? Always to be the “source” of the “problems”, sadly. Always, they “call the shots”, and I have to be the one to “suffer” (feel uncomfortable), when it is actually them, that should be, instead. Double standards, always to their advantage. (Where clearly, objectively, with what I truly am, it likely should be to mine, more so, if they choose to “argue” such “claims”, accordingly).
I mean, “it is a losing game”, because I am “perfect”, when I was born. But “others”, just love to “bring me down”, “shamelessly”, without any form of guilt, with their very “acts”, accordingly. And then, not allowing “me”, to do it “in return”, accordingly. Because of such “natural phenomenon”, my whole life, is only allowed to be “acting” on what “others” deemed is “correct”, and to what they “want”, and not based off my “rules” instead (I mean I am OK with everyone following common rules. The issue, is that objectively, it is to their rules, and still, I am so tolerant of this. The issue, is it is to rules that clearly can’t be “met”. I can’t even do a fraction of this, in return, at all.) This is essentially, how fk up, my “reality”, is. With what I am, shouldn’t I objectively meet people who are at least as “compromising” as me? I mean, is this a sign, that essentially, I shouldn’t be “nice”, to “give in”, then? Why must the world, be “forcing” such “beliefs”, then? Why can’t people just be “respectful” (I mean, how “narcissistic” can they be, to not know how they ar behaving, essentially - thus having no “shame”, with their double standards). Is everyone, just so “brain-dead” (so weak)? I mean, I think I am “not that good”, but what “others” are behaving like, clearly is so “illogical” with “equality”, that objectively, they seem to be “worse than animals” (I am not “exaggerating”, but likely meaning what I say, with this “measurement”).
it is a privilege to know me as a person too
lo mismo Mr.gato, lo mismo
Mr Gato over here, massive W my guy
people forget everyone is a miracle
Woow, to have so much positivity.. You must have been through some shit, but instead of getting depressed about it, you took this chance to grow. You are an amazing person!
I quit my job today because it was a work environment that goes against my values and the type of workplace that i want to work at. Although this is a difficult time for me because i am between jobs, this video really helped me with my self worth. I am not my job. Thank you Kristine.
Hey, from one human to another don't get too down on yourself over leaving the job. You did a good thing choosing yourself bc you are worth it!! Jobs come and go all the time anyways. Who knows, maybe it took losing this job to make room for you to get a better one. You got this frfr
Good job!! I hope you'll figure things out and things will work in your favour keep going!!
Handed in my notice recently as well. Looking for something that aligns more with my value system. Good on you for choosing what’s best for YOU!
Thanks for the insight on self-worth! This is the first time I hear it in a way that actually makes me understand 💛
Thank you for your kind words and support! 🥹❤️
@@kristinethevideoI really really like you and what you’re doing you’re my best friend ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
@@kristinethevideoyou’re very pretty
Hello. this theme is explored in beautiful ways in the book, "the courage to be disliked", and it makes a really compelling on it. hope you find this helpful.
Never thought words from a stranger could mean this much. I remember watching your your video about "the things I don't have time for." Ever since then your words have helped me so much. I don't know you or ever will, but I'll always remember your words. Thank you. Thank you for saying that.
Thank you Yan.
I have been confused as to whats "wrong" with me for a long time and I have figured out that I have neglected to develop any self worth growing up. Everything seems so centered around the external/superficial things in life. I will take your advice to heart and work on myself because I deserve it. And I will appreciate the effort I put in along the way. I hope anyone reading has a good day and be appreciate your inner self.
personally, that’s doing the most. how i’ve understood things is that it’s always been about unlearning, and in this case, unlearning what made you “not feel whole enough” and pretty much whatever makes you feel the need to do the most to begin with. to me, philosophy like this feels like it’s just perpetuating that cycle.
i dont think these two ideas are exclusive
@@jhudjhud although I can agree about the truth of her idea, i don't think if you really want to recognize your wholeness you should be doubling down on trying to convince yourself or others that it is a privilege to know you. i think the truth doesn't need maintenance. if you need a perspective like this to keep you afloat, not saying that it's a bad perspective (surely having an emphasis on this in your perspective must mean some sense of overcompensation that if true, clearly doesn't need to be ringing in your head all the time), then surely you're making it harder to have these two states of beings coexist..
"no matter how tender, how exquisite...
A lie will remain a lie."
Me too. That's why any time someone pushes one millimeter past "how's the weather, what's for lunch" I never hear from them again. They don't want to become privileged.
Coming across your channel has genuinely been the best thing for me this year. I wanna thank you from heart and pray that each valuable, thoughtful message you have shared will stick through the coming years of your life as well.
Nothing but love.
Show up and try - well said! Especially the difference between self worth and self confidence. I actually thought it was the other way around, but your examples made me see otherwise. Thank you, Yan :)
Thank you very much for sharing! Your insights really keep me going.
i love this perspective and little insights especially as i break for college rn, ur voice is so soothing too tysm
this is lovely, thank you for sharing
thankyou for the inspiration. you becoming my light for these days of hardships.
😭 no doubt your an earth angel ✨️ 💛
Thank you this came at the perfect timing
thank you, this came at the right moment!
真正的自我價值、自信不是與他人比較而來的，謝謝Kristine！
Thank you I’ll live another day with this mindset and see how it goes
It is a privilege to know me as a person too. If i don't want you, I'll never tell your anything about me. I'll just block you or I'll hide myself
Self love is the most important love ❤
This type of content and channel deserve massive love and support. Thank you Kristine. I'm genuinely so happy to find you :)
Thanks for showing up once again ❤ and I really loved the distinction between self worth and self confidence. Truly a matter worth pondering about 🤔
Just…thank you dear I was really really need something like that ..I really appreciate your speech 🥹💗💗💗💗
Yess, it is a privilege ❤
holy F!!!! you know how powerful words when its perfectly crafted!!!! thanks for reminding me this🙏🏻❤️
It's the actions, not the outcomes, that matter.
wonderful point of view ❤thank you 🙏
"Everyone has their own pace."
Indeed they do. I'm currently stuck behind a semester in college, while I'm seeing my colleagues on social media who have already graduated and got their diploma just last month. It's making me feel a bit depressed and left behind in that I wasn't able to complete the same program they have within the same time frame. It's hard to escape this feeling too.
understandable. I was several YEARS behind my graduating class due to depression and being in my head about what i wanted to do and making the wrong choices in life. but if i didnt go through those things and learn from them, i would still be in a huge rut.
@@AnimalsMix Like, I know I'll get through this eventually, but I have to take on the hardest parts right now, and it is HARD.
It is such a tragic moment because I faced it too but I accept it as a lesson and move on from it to give time to myself so that I can be a better version of me again with whatever I have. And I pray for you too.
@@KuyaArbin step by step :) before you know it you’ll be done and satisfied.
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this video reached me at the right time .thank youuuuuuu ,seriously thannk youu
Such a lovely video, thanks!
I love your channel
I like your attitude 👋🌹
Great video.
very healthy videos on yt from you. thank you
you bring me peace
I didnt even noticed how fast this channel has grown, and you deserved it
Newer subbie - just wanted to drop a kind word - 😇loving your channel, topics, personal insights & the outlook you share here. That's all, keep on keepin' on & have a lovely day!✨💎✨
I love this video absolutely
these videos are kind of what my dreams look like
it is a privilege to know human mankind as well
All I can say is thank you.
You're an angel 💗💗
damn I needed to hear this, thank you a ton.
I'm reflecting on this video as a somewhat failed mid-20s person, trying to understand where I went wrong.
Self-worth is very important, especially (in my view) because we are beings with very very limited knowledge, despite how smart or experienced we may be. If we were perfectly wise and knowledgeable beings, then we could have full control over outcomes, and then, it would probably make sense to base happiness on results. But since we aren't, there's a risk of...I don't know, maybe a loss of control over emotions? That's something everyone viscerally thinks they ought to fully own, right? And failing that risks giving into despair, making us lose out on many opportunities (but by then, you've already redefined those opportunities as simply traps or meaningless things). It's like the inner mind is rebelling against our administrative selves; I fell into this trap before. So at least sometimes, you must "climb to higher ground" for stability, to escape the tsunami of inconsistent real-world results; you do this either by improving your tangible life, or by coping with a different mindset, e.g. inherent self-worth. The premise of the video is that the second is easier, and then it lets you attempt the first with more resilience, which leads to more consistency and less risk of burnout.
On the flip side, how did you or I get to where you or I are in life, looking just at our growth and achievements? We tied our work to a reward system, or a punishment system, whether or not it's tangible. (Or perhaps other people tied it for you.) Yes, sometimes it's underdone or overdone and that doesn't work well. But it's generally true. To some degree, emotional states should indirectly be linked to results. For example, does money make people happy? Research shows it definitely prevents unhappiness to a large degree, so it's at least necessary for almost everyone, though insufficient on its own. That's its own can of worms, but point is, there's already existing links between emotional states and real-world results.
I'm going to try to make a far-fetched connection in the next 2 paragraphs, it may or may not work: We live in a world of negotiated and empirically determined takes, attitudes, mindsets, rules, etc. Not many can be unilaterally derived, like you might with a mathematical idea. Everything is part of a market, when you define "resources" widely, like money, food, time, and social capital. And your ability to chase the higher levels of Maslow's hierarchy of needs is dependent on you satisfying some or most of the lower levels, where you heavily depend on other people (diplomacy).
Moreover, it seems that one-size-fits-all rules can be adequate for survival in an abstract sense, but not enough for dominance, flourishing, or even basic competitiveness in some areas of life. To use an analogy, you can achieve intermediate-high ELO in chess by following rules of thumb, but what makes a player rise to high ELO and beyond is knowing when to break the rules, and that requires specific study, looking deep into narrow and esoteric theory (the META of chess). It's also part of the point of Ph.Ds and specialized jobs.
Going back to the video, I sincerely think it's not enough to just say you are worth it. (I know the video also mentions self-confidence apart from self-worth, but I feel it wasn't expanded upon.) You at least have to deal with cases where you are not given respect or money or some other resource that enhances your life. But it's not an idea worth throwing in the garbage can either. We probably (?) have to be intentional with where we draw the line between "I am worthy of respect regardless of outcome" and "I will earn others' respect through my works." Or, we have to try to identify and collect patterns (e.g. showing up and giving effort in writing a 10 page essay) in success (e.g. getting A's on essays where you tried, struggled, and held together a solution) while not discarding useful traits in failures. Then define at least some (?) of those acts as demonstrating self-worth. After all, the brain seems like it can link anything with anything, given it is repeated enough 😂. It's a difficult process, finding out where to draw that line in different situations. Knowing when to retreat and when to push forward isn't a one-size-fits-all rule. So I'm often tempted to completely swing one way or the other. But we gotta trust in the process, or something like that.
I lost my train of thought many times writing this, taking over half an hour. And there's probably some questionable logic in there. But these are my genuine thoughts, and I hope someone else can relate or critique. I'm tired now. This was a satisfying thought exercise. Thanks for the video, yan.
I am sure it is. :) Love your vids.... keep it up.
I think I have the fortune to get to know people and connect with some on deeper levels. While I do see how giving up innermost aspects of yourself is a privilege for others, are we not just living at the same time through sheer coincidence/luck? maybe this all just exists perpetually at the same time...
Thank you for being here
Haha i just like how you filmed it in night. It complements your personality well
Thank you for your video ❤
wow, cool
inspiring video my goat🐐
thank you internet lady
great words
love this
i love your videos so much
Thank you!
Omg, I love u, thank u for this.
Thank you 🙏
Thank you for this
"focus on actions and not consequences"
such a beautiful video kristine, your channel is a safe space i hope you know :( ♥♥
**taking notes**
**noted.**
I know it's a bit late but I want to congats you for 100k subscriber, i've been watching your video since you're below 50k subscribers and I really like it.
Thank you
Love you cutie.
8 Billion „I‘s“ and I love myself indivisibly.
Yes
needed this so much
But of course.....As well I shall serve and protect you and as well you shall provide the gifts of your mortal existence that shall provide for both of us shall grow and prosper....honor yourself then you shall honor others
👇under 20 seconds
I appreciate your English ❤
91.9K subs.. also just noticing the neat sync..
thank you.
lets goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehe
Please, I want to get to know you, you are obviously pretty but you also radiate with ethereal energy, what should I do to get you as my gf? 😢🎉
❤❤❤
🙏
it is a burden to know me
💖💖💖💖💖
In my view there is no "person" or "self", only the construct of the ego. Why do we need to have "self worth"? Because we feel that we need to be a certain way or a certain type of person? Or have "enough value" as a person? Would we not only be creating the problem for our self at that point? Do we not already have what we need within us, if so then what is there to gain?
I have no self esteem, anxiety, depression and no talent.
Hello 🤗
💕❤
You should make a spotify podcast
Damn.
As we age, we become less and less relevant and more and more invisible. Right now in your life, you are young and pretty and female, which is at the absolute peak of social value. You will find that that message will apply dramatically less after enough time has gone by. So make peace with yourself now, as you will so, so need it later. If what I have offered sounds alien, it is because your consciousness is so far from it at this particular moment in your perspective of life. But I assure you, it is coming. I have offered you a glimpse of the future. You will do with it as you will.
what's your haircut name?
❤️
I have fall for you
You are a beautiful person. Thanks for spreading the love.
Under an hour 👇
It's good to recognize your strengths and appreciate them. But when you're around other people, don't feel entitled for them to act as though it really is a privilege, because the light you shine comes from God. It comes from all the things that nurtured you which isn't completely your own making and you don't completely deserve. Don't expect people to see and appreciate your light by default, but recognize it in yourself so that you have confidence to bring your light to others. That's your job, to spread your light. Besides that, always be grateful for the people you have the chance to meet too. Assume there's a reason it's a privilege to know them, often there is. Enjoy unfolding the beauty in their story, helping them see the beauty in themselves, and living their meaningful moments vicariously through them.
100%
I'm trying :(
Cheer up :), you are doing good.
It's working
yan 原来会中文！
I guess I know this. The problem is truly embodying it. Because everyone out there, just wants to judge me, if I feel this way, accordingly, sadly.
Thus, over time, I have no choice but to “cave in” to what they want, else they would get “triggered”, and “punish me”, accordingly. People can just embody it, and “narcissistically”, be “righteous” about it, in their own “ways”. But they, don’t allow “me”, to do it, anyways, sadly.
Well, fk “others”, I guess? Always to be the “source” of the “problems”, sadly. Always, they “call the shots”, and I have to be the one to “suffer” (feel uncomfortable), when it is actually them, that should be, instead. Double standards, always to their advantage. (Where clearly, objectively, with what I truly am, it likely should be to mine, more so, if they choose to “argue” such “claims”, accordingly).
I mean, “it is a losing game”, because I am “perfect”, when I was born. But “others”, just love to “bring me down”, “shamelessly”, without any form of guilt, with their very “acts”, accordingly. And then, not allowing “me”, to do it “in return”, accordingly.
Because of such “natural phenomenon”, my whole life, is only allowed to be “acting” on what “others” deemed is “correct”, and to what they “want”, and not based off my “rules” instead (I mean I am OK with everyone following common rules. The issue, is that objectively, it is to their rules, and still, I am so tolerant of this. The issue, is it is to rules that clearly can’t be “met”. I can’t even do a fraction of this, in return, at all.) This is essentially, how fk up, my “reality”, is. With what I am, shouldn’t I objectively meet people who are at least as “compromising” as me? I mean, is this a sign, that essentially, I shouldn’t be “nice”, to “give in”, then? Why must the world, be “forcing” such “beliefs”, then? Why can’t people just be “respectful” (I mean, how “narcissistic” can they be, to not know how they ar behaving, essentially - thus having no “shame”, with their double standards). Is everyone, just so “brain-dead” (so weak)? I mean, I think I am “not that good”, but what “others” are behaving like, clearly is so “illogical” with “equality”, that objectively, they seem to be “worse than animals” (I am not “exaggerating”, but likely meaning what I say, with this “measurement”).
Lol
Can we be friends?:"
Hello I have a question, what’s your webcam that you use to record?