honestav ft. MOD SUN - I'd Rather Overdose (Remix) (Official Video)

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  • @casswilliamson6224
    @casswilliamson6224 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1083

    "I finally love myself the way I loved getting high." That line just hits so hard. Love y'all, this is amazing. ❤

    • @danielgriffiths5901
      @danielgriffiths5901 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

      Yeah, good choice tying the song together there

    • @tiahacker7991
      @tiahacker7991 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

      Yesssssssss, I felt that to my core❤

    • @casswilliamson6224
      @casswilliamson6224 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      @@tiahacker7991 facts

    • @jacobi666snowfire
      @jacobi666snowfire 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      *sicc*

    • @jacobi666snowfire
      @jacobi666snowfire 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      *its not ii wont*
      *its ii cant*

  • @AmberXXRiot
    @AmberXXRiot 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +689

    “I finally love myself the way I loved getting high”
    We can recover!

    • @michellejessup6618
      @michellejessup6618 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +20

      Yes we all can! I am 14 yrs sober from meth pills and I am Happy I'm not gonna lie it was a long hard fight and journey but I fought like hell for my sobriety If I can do so can anybody can!
      "IF GOD BROUGHT YOU TO IT
      GOD WILL GET YOU THOUGH IT"

    • @crazycatlady4391
      @crazycatlady4391 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +12

      4 years 10 months sober here 🖤🤍 September 29th makes 5 years 🎉
      #WeDoRecover

    • @Diamond420x
      @Diamond420x 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +8

      2 years clean and expecting my first baby so excited for this new journey in life! Just waiting on my parents too get clean and praying everyday 😢

    • @michellejessup6618
      @michellejessup6618 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@crazycatlady4391 congrats to you!👏👏🎊🎉

    • @michellejessup6618
      @michellejessup6618 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      @Diamond420x Way to go, just remember stay in your lane. Take care of yourself. God will take care of your parents and in their time. You can only do what you can do congrats on the baby best wishes 🤗✌️

  • @gena4638
    @gena4638 หลายเดือนก่อน +81

    This is one of the best comments sections I've ever come across. Love seeing strangers connecting and inspiring one another. ❤

  • @playxdeadxbabyy
    @playxdeadxbabyy 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +330

    WE DO RECOVER! ❤ made it out 6-2-19. Still going strong. R.I.P. to the ones lost along the way ❤

    • @Matt-fe2ti
      @Matt-fe2ti 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Congrats

    • @SINNERSAVEDBYGODSGRACE88
      @SINNERSAVEDBYGODSGRACE88 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      16 months still strong god bless

    • @sandramoore2576
      @sandramoore2576 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      8/5/17.. I do it for my friends that couldnt get out and my kids. Never forget them. Fly high my angels 😇

    • @TessaMANE
      @TessaMANE 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      It's a feeling most of us never experience

    • @mistyg715
      @mistyg715 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ❤ YES WE DO 11-03-2019❤

  • @rudydiaz7473
    @rudydiaz7473 หลายเดือนก่อน +57

    As an ex addict myself I’m not to man to admit this brought me to tears 2 years sober now with a 2 year old son he saves me because I finally love someone more than I love being high!

  • @mattduda
    @mattduda 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +196

    THIS GUY NEEDS TO GO WORLDWIDE! AV you’re a lyrical genius dude. Cheers from Canada!

    • @GEORGIABOY23
      @GEORGIABOY23 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      No let’s stay out of mainstream bs

    • @Koawla
      @Koawla 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I agree! This guy.. Keep it up!

    • @krazykuz13cmc
      @krazykuz13cmc 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      He a good singer but he no lyrical genius lmfao.

    • @gavinventer489
      @gavinventer489 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Its not his song. Its Phix who is the artist

    • @gavinventer489
      @gavinventer489 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      But he sings well.

  • @MODSUN
    @MODSUN 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +383

    Love

    • @sierraaaaa6945
      @sierraaaaa6945 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ❤❤❤

    • @MattWebz
      @MattWebz 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Hell yeah

    • @intibaked8614
      @intibaked8614 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Thanks❤

    • @GHANDIBONEZWORLD
      @GHANDIBONEZWORLD 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Incredible song amazing message and the Mod Sun feature?! Pure 🔥🔥🔥🔥

    • @BraidenMajor
      @BraidenMajor 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      This song gets me through the day

  • @CourtneyDull-wl4gc
    @CourtneyDull-wl4gc 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +167

    My husband has been clean and sober for 5 years, and we have a beautiful life. For anyone struggling, you CAN recover ❤️ I thank God everyday that he has one more day sober. ❤

    • @PositivelyPessimistic42
      @PositivelyPessimistic42 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      I was grateful that my wife stayed with me during a rough recovery.
      A woman can really change a man.
      Happy for you two!

    • @LilRedDog
      @LilRedDog 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      What makes a woman beautiful?
      Everything, when you love her.
      Men need women...
      Thank them all for saving our souls.

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💚👏🏾

    • @meganwenner8335
      @meganwenner8335 25 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      Praying I can make this comment one day! So proud of your husband! ❤

    • @Aaliyah_6613
      @Aaliyah_6613 22 วันที่ผ่านมา

      @@LilRedDog women need men to sometimes ( not to be mean just saying )

  • @jary_mane
    @jary_mane 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +199

    Heroin consumed me as a teenager. Homeless, jail, rehabs, that whole cycle. It was brutal man. I just turned 30 and have been clean for 10 years. Now I’m a Respiratory Therapist and put all my addictive tendencies into my health and the medical field. It’s a beautiful life out here away from all that garbage.

    • @andreanickerson4249
      @andreanickerson4249 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

      😂😂😂 so you got clean at 20? Sounds like you’re wise beyond your years.

    • @annabella9039
      @annabella9039 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      I love this. ❤️

    • @Justin-bl1qo
      @Justin-bl1qo หลายเดือนก่อน

      ​@@andreanickerson4249some things make a person grow, some things prevent them from growing.

    • @inkmonster0u812
      @inkmonster0u812 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      Thats great sir. Hope you have happiness..

    • @kaymaheu295
      @kaymaheu295 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      Same but mine was fentynal.
      2 years sober ❤

  • @vanessajohnson2150
    @vanessajohnson2150 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +63

    Finally music that doesn’t push getting drunk and high. We need more of this. This is such a light for people . This song fills my heart and makes me feel so much when I listen. We do recover . 8/12/2002 🖤🖤🖤🖤

  • @CMJourneys
    @CMJourneys 28 วันที่ผ่านมา +17

    I'm 72 days into sobriety from fentanyl and I have been listening to this song since day 13 it just hits so hard with all the people I've lost. Thanks for this it inspires me on the daily!

    • @zachbrewer2985
      @zachbrewer2985 18 วันที่ผ่านมา

      Stay strong big dog

    • @wallacebenfield8229
      @wallacebenfield8229 4 วันที่ผ่านมา

      Congrats shit is really hard

    • @johnbaker2067
      @johnbaker2067 3 วันที่ผ่านมา

      Keep going bro. It’s worth it. I’m just over 2 years clean from H

  • @ItsXBoog
    @ItsXBoog 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +249

    Drinking almost killed me I was diagnosed with necrotizing pancreatitis hospitalized for 5 months in a coma for 1 month 293 days sober today ❤️🤞🏽
    (Edit) the comments passed the vibe check 🥺🤟🏽

    • @brandirice4975
      @brandirice4975 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      I hope you are still going strong 5 days later. So proud!

    • @ItsXBoog
      @ItsXBoog 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@brandirice4975 one more day to 300🥳🥳🥳❤️❤️❤️

    • @aliyahfaye
      @aliyahfaye 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      😂😂😂😂😂

    • @Bisnus-Goose
      @Bisnus-Goose 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      I'll drink to that 🍻

    • @heatseeker_
      @heatseeker_ 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      Keep loving that sober feeling. Congrats!

  • @LouieC
    @LouieC 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +56

    "I know that you hate me and I hate me too" reminds me of my first born. I'm so sorry son. I wasn't there for you when you needed me. I love you so much. You helped me get sober.

    • @michelemcdonald1896
      @michelemcdonald1896 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Same.. my oldest hasnt talked to me in 6 yrs. He has 2 daughters i haven't met, i love u
      Lil Raymond

    • @JamesAlverson-ih3tv
      @JamesAlverson-ih3tv 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      Your not alone brother. Still battling my worst enemy, myself.

    • @nathanshifflett8839
      @nathanshifflett8839 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      Damn I'm proud of you man wish my dad could say this

    • @bobbiboo122
      @bobbiboo122 18 วันที่ผ่านมา

      Tell him not us homie!

  • @derekrobinson8955
    @derekrobinson8955 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +108

    Jfc
    "I finally love myself like i loved getting high"
    Hit me like a ton of bricks, I'm on my road to recovery, and all i want is to love myself, but its so hard. Thanks for the tune.

    • @michellejessup6618
      @michellejessup6618 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      Hang in there keep fighting I am 14 years sober it was a long hard fight for me but I did it you can too
      "If God brought you to it
      God will get you thur it"✌️

    • @tylerhays2174
      @tylerhays2174 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@derekrobinson8955 it gets easier bro keep it going I have 18 months and it gets easier!!! We’re all one bad decision away from loosing everything again…..remember that you have a choice today!!!!

    • @OwnBestFriend
      @OwnBestFriend 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      I love you!! and im so proud of you. one day at a time

    • @c-daddy3129
      @c-daddy3129 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      I feel you brother. This seems like a lonely road, just remember, though were all at different points on it, there's many of us walking the same road with you. You're not alone🤙

    • @ThomasAtiya
      @ThomasAtiya 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Don’t pick up no matter what! You got this!

  • @stevengregg3914
    @stevengregg3914 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +33

    “Finally loved myself the way I loved getting high”
    That one line brought instant tears to my eyes. There is absolutely no way to better word that feeling!

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💚👏🏾

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💚👏🏾

    • @jpXO28
      @jpXO28 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Seriously hit me like a ton of bricks had me all choked up instantly!

  • @TravsCallis
    @TravsCallis 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +29

    Sober 3.5 years. I’ve been the child and the parent, victim and perpetrator. Living with that I’ve done feels impossible some days. But we must soldier on. Thanks for this gift gentlemen

    • @stressedworried8615
      @stressedworried8615 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @@TravsCallis whatever you done….it can’t be that bad brother. Every day a new start. Go easy on yourself son…much love

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💚👏🏾

  • @filipivan5125
    @filipivan5125 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +86

    I first saw Modsun’s youtube short before I discovered the full song. These two are amazing together

    • @Genre_sadgirl
      @Genre_sadgirl 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Same. I'm glad they got to do it together. I love Mod's verse.

    • @HarleaTyler
      @HarleaTyler 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      I heard the OG version after hearing Mods verse and his verse in my opinion makes the song so much more

    • @frosty_759
      @frosty_759 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      bro mod sun go crazy in the freestyle cyphers tooo

    • @richierich6732
      @richierich6732 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Mod sold out to me for his much needed career boost and his fake ass relationship with my wife avril. My wife has been faking public relationships for many years to keep fans out of our private life and because I worked for more than one of the three letter agencies. The hot mess with my wife's former and current fake ass public relationships is her revenge on some nosey fans that pissed her off. Grab your popcorn this shit show is just getting started.

    • @richardvenable1161
      @richardvenable1161 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@HarleaTylerbro Honsetav is a dude they just started up in Springfield mo he’ll get there

  • @Koawla
    @Koawla 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +33

    This song.. it's still on repeat. Love you guys!!

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💚👏🏾

  • @elizabethgehringer194
    @elizabethgehringer194 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +38

    Mods verse got me like it seems it did a lot of us!! Been clean for over 4 years now and it literally takes you hitting your rock bottom!! Everyone’s is different so glad I said babe we gotta stop or we are dying!! We are both still here and so much better than we were!! I’m not as good as I’m going to get but I’m way better than I used to be!

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💚👏🏾

    • @Janellabelle
      @Janellabelle 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Does it? Does "rock bottom" even exist? If it does, I never found it. As long as you're alive, things can ALWAYS get worse. I'm going on almost 5 years sober from oc, heroin, and fentanyl now. I thank my parents all the time for standing by me through it all. They tell me how "proud" they are of me, and I tell them be proud of themselves because I never could've done it without their help. Even when I relapsed over and over they still kept hope that Id get better eventually. They're the reason I never went homeless, never had to sell my body, never got kidnapped, or lured into a human trafficking ring, or murdered by some random person in the streets. It took their unconditional love and my dream of one day being a wife and mother, the opposite of rock bottom, to get sober after many years. (If we didnt hurry up and get sober, my husband and I would never be able to have a family.) Plus, telling ppl that it takes hitting rock bottom to get sober is very dangerous. It makes their support network, their sober family and sober friends, the most important thing in their life when they're sick, believe that they have to abandon their loved ones under a bridge or never speak to them again unless they get sober. Which is terrible. Tough "love" is not real love. Real love is unconditional and never, ever gives up. Which is something an addict desperately needs. And you and I both know taking your heroin addicted kid and dropping them off on the corner and leaving won't be enough to get anyone sober. It'll just make them resent you and any offers of future help. It's just a more dangerous environment/situation to be an addict in. People prey on society's most vulnerable individuals and a homeless drug addict without a family that cares just sets their loved one up to more likely die, and them eventually standing at their grave with massive regrets about their decision to put them in even more harm's way. I'd never push someone to "rock bottom" and expect them to get better. You have to lift them up. Keep encouraging them, not putting a wall of resentment between you and them. They're already suffering immensely which is probably what sparked their addiction in the first place. Everyones path to sobriety is different, but it rarely is through rock bottom. If you've ever been to Portland you'd see "rock bottom" don't mean anything good for an opiate addict. They just nod off in their tent and the dope man lives 3 tents over, and if he's out, the dope man 5 tents over is good to go.

    • @elizabethgehringer194
      @elizabethgehringer194 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@Janellabelle what I refer to when I mean rock bottom which is what I call it.. is the day that you are sitting there and say this is it and something makes you get up and ask for help!
      Everyone’s story is different!! Glad you got clean to.
      I was just commenting on how a verse hit me.. it is a great day when you “finally love yourself like you loved getting high”.
      Even though after the beginning it’s not a love it’s a requirement to get through the day, just glad I don’t wake up like that anymore, and hope and pray someone reading this struggling decides todays the day I choose me, and want to change my life!

  • @LilRedDog
    @LilRedDog 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +69

    Yeah: "I finally loved myself the way I loved getting high" is profound.
    What hit me, harder, was "I knew I couldn't live life like this anymore".

    • @beckhenry8712
      @beckhenry8712 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      For me it was "my dad's dead, my mom's proud" and "I took one last line until both my eyes closed, said one last goodbye and I overdosed", I lost way too many homies that way.

    • @AvitalR88
      @AvitalR88 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      i didnt get why mom is proud?​@@beckhenry8712

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💚👏🏾

  • @xxLOSERxBABYxx
    @xxLOSERxBABYxx 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +32

    When I heard Mods verse I was hoping for a full version! I’m loving this and it will for sure remain on repeat

    • @ciaruhhh
      @ciaruhhh 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      me too! i thought he’d at least sing along w him in this tho😢

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💚👏🏾

  • @nicolasmartinez51
    @nicolasmartinez51 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +24

    Literally the best song out right now

  • @Astrolab.insights
    @Astrolab.insights 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +36

    Seriously can't get enough of this dude

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💚👏🏾

  • @samduce
    @samduce 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +31

    The vulnerability is inspiring to be more human!

    • @mistiquefire3462
      @mistiquefire3462 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Less human. Humans are disgusting

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💚👏🏾

  • @cameronshaffer1592
    @cameronshaffer1592 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +74

    Holy shit . Damn man i got one month clean from fent . This helps so much

    • @MattWebz
      @MattWebz 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      Keep it up homie.

    • @cameronshaffer1592
      @cameronshaffer1592 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      ​@@MattWebzthank you bro 💜

    • @MattWebz
      @MattWebz 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@cameronshaffer1592 ✊🏻 sobriety is a helluva drug

    • @MRGN99
      @MRGN99 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      Keep it up! You’re doing great!

    • @xoautambxo89
      @xoautambxo89 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Congratulations! My mother in law is 13 years sober. You can cont to do this.

  • @1110karin
    @1110karin 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +23

    I love this song, my dad died when I was 15 and been struggling my entire life with addiction, anxiety and depression. I have always been functioning at a decent level but I hope one day to break the Xanax habit but sometimes I don't see it happening. I love how many people get to collab with Mod Sun.

    • @nathanshulkin5012
      @nathanshulkin5012 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      You got this, screw the drugs you don’t need em to find happiness and meaning in life, all they do is take away from what makes you unique and special, just know you are loved and I’ll keep you in my prayers ❤

    • @TheDalyShowSwag
      @TheDalyShowSwag 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      I never thought I could live one day without Xanax. I kicked an 8mg a day habit and I’m one year clean. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I could live a life without substances but now I live a life beyond my wildest dreams. Don’t give up before the miracle happens. Your life matters and I believe in you. We do recover ❤

    • @1110karin
      @1110karin 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@TheDalyShowSwag Congrats. How long to taper off?

    • @ThomasAtiya
      @ThomasAtiya 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      Don’t give up! Do not fucking give up!

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💚👏🏾

  • @zeemotionalsloth
    @zeemotionalsloth 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +22

    Mod and his music helped me get and stay sober 5 years earlier this month.

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💚👏🏾

  • @Weareroses
    @Weareroses 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +18

    I relapsed during the pandemic and have been struggling with being sober for the last three years, one day I will win the fight again. Love this song

    • @ohshutter1799
      @ohshutter1799 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Same

    • @christinetrombly9207
      @christinetrombly9207 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Yes you will. You can do it!!! ❤

    • @marcgallegos1070
      @marcgallegos1070 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      We just got to keep on trucking on bro I'm with you on that

    • @Weareroses
      @Weareroses 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@christinetrombly9207 🙏

    • @Weareroses
      @Weareroses 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@marcgallegos1070 📠 🙏

  • @zoegriffith172
    @zoegriffith172 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    My boyfriend has been sober for a year and half after overdosing and you don’t understand how thankful and how much I praise him❤️ anybody can RECOVER

  • @klissaadams
    @klissaadams 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +8

    Omg yesss. Ive been watching modsuns short with his verse over and over just prayyyiiinnnggg they made it into this!!!

  • @deccentric1993
    @deccentric1993 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +23

    Been waiting for this! What a GEM! 💎

    • @papismom
      @papismom 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Me too!!! Since I heard the others guys verse! I was hoping he'd see it!!! I love it!

  • @Sarah8561
    @Sarah8561 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +13

    I love Av, I’m so happy to see him comin up.

  • @lizzymoncrief1515
    @lizzymoncrief1515 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +11

    That line Mod
    It's how a lot of us in recovery feels! This song was already amazing then Mod did his thing. Good job boys 👏 out here saving lives ❤❤

  • @Requena50
    @Requena50 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    I’m playing ur music non stop on TikTok, Spotify, and TH-cam. Your style is impeccable.

  • @cjharris6753
    @cjharris6753 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    I am only seconds in and already appreciate the vibrations of the bike matching your rasp. Soooooo good!

  • @meganrose2172
    @meganrose2172 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +25

    Almost to 8 years sober from heroin. This song hits home. Thank you for something so relatable. ❤

    • @louisfernandez873
      @louisfernandez873 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      I got 3 years from that (h) and everything else. This song hits so hard.

    • @ybsmood2704
      @ybsmood2704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💚👏🏾

    • @taylorangel902
      @taylorangel902 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Comin up on 7 from the same thing! I’m proud of y’all 🫶🏻

  • @SevenFunctionGaming
    @SevenFunctionGaming 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +12

    "I finally love myself the way I loved getting high" wow.. just, wow.

  • @williammorris3387
    @williammorris3387 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +11

    I watched mod suns freestyle so many times and the line I finally love myself like I loved getting high hits me way to hard both my parents were addicts and they actually started giving me weed and alcohol when I was 9 and I got addicted to a lot of drugs before I was even 16 I’m about to turn 20 I’ve been to rehab twice I was able to get sober off many things but I’m still batting my addiction I moved out and have a beautiful girlfriend that pushes me to be better everyday I thank god for not losing sight of me and keeping me safe all through my years of addiction recovery is possible I pray for every struggling with addiction ❤

    • @laralight8229
      @laralight8229 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Keep. Going.
      You can do it.
      🫶🏻

    • @griffinroberts6925
      @griffinroberts6925 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Keep going kid. Make your life worth living

  • @antiperspirant
    @antiperspirant 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +24

    Both of y'all killed it!

  • @beckhenry8712
    @beckhenry8712 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    "my dad's dead, my mom's proud". Hit hard. My dad's dead, has been since 2022 and my mom's over the moon about me surviving my addiction and getting clean off meth. My 30s, so far, have been trying to kill me, but I'm still here.
    If I, of all people, CAN get sober, YOU can get sober. It's not easy, it's painful, it's traumatizing, but it's WORTH it. I am worth, YOU are worth it, WE are worthy of living a life without drugs.

  • @kozykbaby
    @kozykbaby หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    0:44 'if only you loved me like you loved getting high' - 2:22 'i knew i couldnt live life like this anymore'
    wow. been on repeat for weeks now, i finally had to comment because everytime i hear these words i cry. i relate to every part. i got sober and its been almost 3 years - this is an amazing depiction of love and addiction. im from Minnesota and just moved to LA last year to finally start living. just graduated music school, saw the ocean for my first time, so many things i never thought id be able to accomplish because of my addiction. i commend you both. this song is beautiful, sad, tragic, motivating, inspiring, but most of all a very important story that needed to be heard.
    thank you ❤

    • @glennstarnes3744
      @glennstarnes3744 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Congratulations on your sobriety! Keep it up💪

  • @HoloMinds
    @HoloMinds 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    The tears that fall down my face, are the memories that can't be replaced.

  • @samaracovarrubias7297
    @samaracovarrubias7297 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    I LOVE THE WAY IT SOUNDS WHEN YOU SING I FINALLY LOVE MYSELF THE WAY I LOVED GETTING HIGH MOD! Showed this to my Mom and she cried. You both are such wonderful artists, thank you for this movie 🤍 xx

  • @CassiePatrona
    @CassiePatrona 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    We are watching this man av go places in real time. He deserves it!

  • @jill6968
    @jill6968 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    I’m posting on behalf of someone who lost their battle! I will listen, share and sing from the rooftops this song so others can hear! You’re helping so many people with your story! Thank you both! 🫶🏼🤍

  • @angelanickens7695
    @angelanickens7695 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    As someone who struggled for almost 20 years with drug and alcohol addiction, this version hits hard. 12-14-2022 saved myself from this disease. I'm luckier than so many of my friends and family members

    • @trevorwilliams5103
      @trevorwilliams5103 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I’m 39. been drinking and done every drug under the sun since I was 15. Wanted and have tried to get so er for the past couple years. fentanyl had a death grip on me and I lost a couple life long best friends on top of PTSD from deployments to Iraq early on in the war in the early 2000’s. I finally have been sober Since Jan 22 of this year(‘24). I’ve been scrolling through all these messages and just wanted to tell you, You are amazing and I am proud of you, have a good day today…. one day at a Time!🙂

  • @egrey2005
    @egrey2005 หลายเดือนก่อน +8

    I have been clean for 10 years now, and this song makes me feel proud knowing that I didn't die from the multiple times I overdosed. I lost so many of my friends from drugs, some of them from the drugs they did some from the drugs I did. I love and miss all of them so very much. Life is truly better being sober and sometimes you do have to take it one day at a time. Thanks for an incredible song that helps me be proud to be clean!!

  • @JustJen509
    @JustJen509 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    1/31/2018 clean off meth. 2/10/2023 sober from alcohol. Have had hiccups along the way and lost my gallbladder and the bloodwork now looking scary but I would rather fight to live than just say fuck it. We do recover!!! ❤

    • @MassageSamurai1
      @MassageSamurai1 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Praying for you right now as I read your comment. You got this. Please do fight to live.

  • @Skywlkrharris00
    @Skywlkrharris00 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    I just Woke up !; ,what a Song 🙏

  • @indicamobster4111
    @indicamobster4111 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    2:29 discipline shows me the way

  • @gailgrant3209
    @gailgrant3209 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Once upon a time I only would be with guys who use. If we had to choose which to give up it wouldn’t be the dope. Got 10yrs and am happy for the first time. I’m 71yo. I researched for 45yr. I’m done but I’ll never say never. ❤️🌟💙 God luck to everyone trying to live their life in light.

  • @SmEiF-
    @SmEiF- 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Saved to my dopamine list along with the OG. Play it on repeat anyhow lol. Good shit my boy. Hope life gives ya all ya deserve. Ya song has been a saving grace in a dark time for me. Struggling hard to stay sober and alive. Mainly alive the sober part I have. But fkn A it's a struggle to find a reason to wake up daily.

  • @JdDelay5150
    @JdDelay5150 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    This is instant gold!

  • @mims_i_am
    @mims_i_am 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Lost my little sister a year ago to an overdose and life will never be the same without her here. #getbetter #youareloved

  • @Dripper-h8w
    @Dripper-h8w 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    YO love this video! was SO STOKED to see MOD SUN wanted to be apart of this song. KEEP IT UP KING!!

  • @jjjjx
    @jjjjx 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    Here before this has millions of views.

  • @dannysnead3887
    @dannysnead3887 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Been watching you since the clips on tiktok of this. Makes me feel proud for you to get acknowledgment and this accomplishment. Keep goin Av, the sky is the limit. Great job. I love you guys. Inspirational and I just wanna say thank you. Mod I'm praying you find your peace again. Can't wait to see you in person again and on stage.

  • @tylerhays2174
    @tylerhays2174 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    🔥we do recover!!!!! Celebrating 18 months next month!!!!!❤️

  • @calcilite5334
    @calcilite5334 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Fucking love you guys together in this, as a son of an addict this still resonates with me every listen.

  • @jimbob1496
    @jimbob1496 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    This fentanyl powder is no joke. 2 days ago I overdosed. On barely enough to take a hit. If you have friends on this stuff save them even if you have to get uncomfortable. I luckily wasnt alone, thats not the reality for every addict. Life is too precious.

    • @scootchisme
      @scootchisme 28 วันที่ผ่านมา

      I really wasn't planning on commenting on this video, but your comment hit me. It's been a few weeks, hope you're still clean and doing ok...

  • @kylefitzgerald8785
    @kylefitzgerald8785 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    An amazing video. @HONESTAV so glad you got to collab with the GOAT @modsun !!! Way to rise above a tragedy to find life worth Celebrating. Keep up the good work. Luv u guys!

  • @Yaboyduddus
    @Yaboyduddus 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    I love this song so much

  • @jesiharp
    @jesiharp 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Didn’t know I could live the song any more than I already did until you added Mod! 😍

  • @tannerdzula-w1q
    @tannerdzula-w1q หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    “I know that you hate me and I hate me too”
    This line hurts so much, because I know I’m pushing them to hate me and I hate me too.

  • @haileemarieeee22
    @haileemarieeee22 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    ive been watching you for so long and this song just hits the SOUL. volume all the way up dude, im so proud your so great 😭😭😭❤️

  • @patrickn8355
    @patrickn8355 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +11

    Went from 4+ years sober to 2+ years are hospital visits, police banging in my door and $700 ambulance rides, back to over a year sober ❤
    Congrats Mod, proud of you

  • @Crazy_Beautiful01
    @Crazy_Beautiful01 8 วันที่ผ่านมา

    I met mod and honestav last night. We talked he signed the book he wrote. Told him bout the Jim Morrison room!! The impact that had. He hugged me and it was so sincere. He is the most beautiful human. We watched as he and this kid who had an issue with standing long and his dad was explaining some benefit. This beautiful man just listened and didn’t have his phone to take this kids dad’s number..so he gave a number out to be reached for this fund they had. We watched and just smiled at his beautiful soul. He is so down to earth. I had to be seated with my husband because I have MS and can’t stand long “ I didn’t tell him that. I wanted to be down rocking out. The venue was so well organized. He showed he seen us where we were seated next to stage. Showed his appreciation for Everyone.
    Lastly this guy has a voice and energy both my husband and I were blown away by. He was jumping and head banging and brought REAL energy and TALENT! The way he entertained the crowd!! I told him he should be selling out arenas. BEST concert we have been to! His voice with all that movement never seized to amaze me! He supported the bands he was with as he watched from above rocking out. REAL PLEASURE!! Can’t wait to see him with Huddy. I’d show pic but I’m embarrassed he’s too fine to be next too!!❤😂😊 DO NOT MISS AN OPPORTUNITY TO SEE MOD!! His sister is Beautiful soul!!

  • @jadeune8258
    @jadeune8258 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    My addiction was food 😭
    Binge eating and depression. I’ve listened to your song since it was on TikTok and it made me realize I’m overdosing myself and since then lost 30lbs with dieting.
    You are going to go far with your lyrics buddy congrats!

    • @baejay798
      @baejay798 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      This is so true and I have similar struggles. Congratulations on your weight loss, keep loving yourself and you’ll get there. Down 10lbs and I have a million more to go.

    • @jadeune8258
      @jadeune8258 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @@baejay798 thank you so much! Congratulations on yours too!
      Keep it up! We are doing it for ourselves! If you ever need to talk I’m here for everyone going through it too!
      Much Aloha!

    • @lucasgreyhavoc
      @lucasgreyhavoc 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@baejay798the first ten is the hardest. You’re doing amazing

  • @Menace2Society9
    @Menace2Society9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Just found this channel and I'm digging the music. Has a great sound and talks about real life issues.

  • @HarleaTyler
    @HarleaTyler 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +13

    Mod sun makes the song hit so much different

    • @richierich6732
      @richierich6732 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Mod sold out to me for his much needed career boost and his fake ass relationship with my wife avril. My wife has been faking public relationships for many years to keep fans out of our private life and because I worked for more than one of the three letter agencies. The hot mess with my wife's former and current fake ass public relationships is her revenge on some nosey fans that pissed her off. Grab your popcorn this shit show is just getting started.

  • @Ho-kr6qj
    @Ho-kr6qj 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Your song hit the radio @ work this week congratulations. Keep it up big dawg

  • @xsoban
    @xsoban 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    I'm here for every release!

  • @raeeeee5444
    @raeeeee5444 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    This song was a masterpiece 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼 much love

  • @lukehusky3630
    @lukehusky3630 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Wow…just wow man!

  • @SBCZAY
    @SBCZAY 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    DO YO THING AV🤞🏽💫

  • @inkmonster0u812
    @inkmonster0u812 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Best song in years. Best band in years. Listen to you eveey day, all day. Cant wait to see you in concert..Your music talks to alot of people from all walks of life..Much love. Great songs..

  • @kylemckinney6147
    @kylemckinney6147 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    “It’s been 8 long months since you’ve been gone, I saw your kids at your funeral, it fucked me up and I thought: look what you left behind to chase a high, all those night I stayed up trying to save your life, I never thought you’d fucking die, so I wrote this song for you, I think you’d sing it loud if you were here, cause honest lyrics always made you proud, and I hope you get rest but I’m not dead yet, so while I’m still alive I gotta carry on”
    RIP Kayla Rose
    I might be bitter he chose mod sun, he did do a great song though.

  • @Talls321
    @Talls321 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Nothing is better than windows down, air guitar belting this song out with NO SHAME!!! Rejects rejoice our boys brought us a banger

  • @papismom
    @papismom 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    I finally love myself the way i loved getting high!!!!! This is fucking amazing yall!!! Thank you guys!!! I'm on year 7 of being sober... thank you for putting into words what we can't. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @xzxzxzxzxzzxz
    @xzxzxzxzxzzxz หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Sober 4 years & 2 months 💯 Keep going guys it’s worth it!

  • @cwormington2
    @cwormington2 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    I'm crying it's so good 😢😢😢

  • @brookewolter6506
    @brookewolter6506 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I'm honestly so hyped for you for this . Also I had no clue who MOD SUN was before this but I knew who you were so that's a hype ❤❤❤️❤️❤️

  • @JordanPrater-zd3bk
    @JordanPrater-zd3bk 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    I cant wait until i can say "i finally love myself like i loved getting high" im joining a rehab tomorrow morning to start my recovery journey. Praying for anyone who is struggling. There is a brighter side and we will find it. ❤
    Praying my husband finds the light. He deserves it more than anyone.❤

    • @annabella9039
      @annabella9039 หลายเดือนก่อน

      You got this!

    • @MerricaBryant
      @MerricaBryant 19 วันที่ผ่านมา

      @JordanPrater-zd3bk
      Not so happy (what would have been) 2 year anniversary. You’ll probably never see this but I hope she makes you happy.

    • @JordanPrater-zd3bk
      @JordanPrater-zd3bk 19 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      I told you my love without you I want no one there is nobody else I've been here just sitting working on my self I'm still sober I ask my self a million times why I am still but just knowing how bad you wanted us to get sober I still am I'm happy for you it's killed me I can't eat I can't sleep I can't see everything's black and grey 😔 but your soberity and happiness means more to me then my feelings then my self your good person I hope the best for you for million years I do I miss you so much I don't know who I am anymore I planned my future with you I never saw nothing but you we suppose to get sober for us to be better God where did I go wrong.

    • @MerricaBryant
      @MerricaBryant 19 วันที่ผ่านมา

      @@JordanPrater-zd3bk I’ll love you for a million years. But you broke me. You broke my heart. You left me when I needed you most. And it was so damn easy for you. It was like I never mattered in the first place. I’m so happy to hear you’re still sober. You deserve it more then anyone. More then me.

    • @JordanPrater-zd3bk
      @JordanPrater-zd3bk 19 วันที่ผ่านมา

      @@MerricaBryant merrica look at your dad's phone I tried contacting you you think I just gave up look at your mom and Dad's phone there lieing to you I've tried to get a hold of you over and over again and you fucking broke me and never even cared

  • @LilDirt12
    @LilDirt12 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Oh my God... Honestav... Your song is like therapy for me. In one year 18 people that I was close to overdosed. In one year. So when your song comes on I crank it up on the Bose and I sing out loud with you. Tears flow and I feel what your feeling. It makes me thankful I've been strong enough not to try that drug. Watching everybody around me nodding, never finished a sentence pissed me off more than thinking I could be a hero and get 'em to stop. It hurts deep that they loved a drug more than... everything else. Good people too. So here I am. Left behind. I said it on the kroq interview... I hope your hanging on tight because you are going to be shot out into our stratosphere man!!! Your beats are so good and your lyrics are so real I feel like I wrote them. You deserve all the success in the world. Enjoy it. Live it up. And be thankful for your experiences because they gave you a voice that millions relate to. Love you so much. ❤❤❤ I'm putting you on a repeat loop. Your that good. L&R

  • @Flavaswiff
    @Flavaswiff 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +18

    SO DOPE THANK YALL ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

  • @Skinnytat22
    @Skinnytat22 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Yall killed this🔥🔥🔥 and mods part it’s the feels for us in recovery! Keep on keepin on everyone and remember it’s not a race we are all on the same journey just different points!

  • @Redemi-z6x
    @Redemi-z6x 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    I don’t think I’ll ever love myself the way I love getting high

    • @AvitalR88
      @AvitalR88 หลายเดือนก่อน

      U will

  • @alyssahower339
    @alyssahower339 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Love this!!!! So happy to see you blowing up

  • @guineapigtalks
    @guineapigtalks 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +10

    fave part 1:24

    • @michaelr5209
      @michaelr5209 15 วันที่ผ่านมา

      I know you hate me and I hate you too

  • @Kalebmyg
    @Kalebmyg หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Love this song. And especially love MOD SUN

  • @doug6875
    @doug6875 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +12

    Must be doing something right if mod sun jumps on your track

  • @Amber-r1w
    @Amber-r1w 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Been waiting for this 🖤✨

  • @Robert-e2t
    @Robert-e2t 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Ik you hate me I hate me to..😔

  • @lyndsaykaayy
    @lyndsaykaayy 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Thank you for making this. As a child of an addict I needed this ❤

  • @TheDirtyKenzo
    @TheDirtyKenzo 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I can't let go.....of this fuckin song! My god gentlemen. 👏👏👏

  • @michellejessup6618
    @michellejessup6618 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Huge av fan!! Stuck on the floor is one of many of my favorites of his keep rocking av👋✌️🎤🎶
    Ps very nice Collaboration

  • @kota1640
    @kota1640 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Dude … you have come so far!!!! ❤❤❤ inspirational , been following you since you began on TikTok!!

  • @craftingwithcodio
    @craftingwithcodio 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    When I saw Mods version I thought this would be a banger, and here we are! Well done boys!

  • @annabella9039
    @annabella9039 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Live this song. Share how you got sober to inspire others ❤️❤️❤️💖

  • @kaylamills9750
    @kaylamills9750 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Mod sun u back I love your songs