I want to make an updated video w/ some tips on how I deal w/ depression & anxiety now and especially during quarantine so feel free to reply to this with any questions and I'll be sure to include it in the video:)
I've been thinking about this for a long time. Couldn't understand why people do this but now I understand so well that. I feel like I'll never get out of this situation.I want to be able to give hope to people like you, and I want to be able to give myself hope. I hope you are very happy right now 💘
@@Aloedenovera Please get help. I may not know you, but I love and care about you so much and I don’t want you to get hurt. Please don’t end it and get help.
Oh honey. First off, I sure hope you’re okay. I cut when I was a teenager and always felt so alone. But if you just reach out, SOMEONE who loves you will grab your hand. Life gets better, life is hard when you’re a teenager but life is BEAUTIFUL. Stay alive to see that, stay alive to see what beautiful future you hold. You’re not alone ❤️
Thanks for sharing the story! I have had Suicidal thoughts before related to the fact my parents divorced and being bullied by loads of people. Not helped by the fact that I was losing friends very fast. I didn’t know what to do with myself after that but then I understood that ending your life is not the way to go. You have loads of confidence to share your story and this is the first time I’ve told this story and I now have found my passion. Well done you have a new sub!
I'm so glad you were able to come to that realization! I know it can be so hard when you can't seem to catch a break or see a light at the end of the tunnel so it's awesome that you have now! What you've gone through will make you that much stronger:) Thanks for subscribing, I appreciate it!
Sorry to hear about this. I’ve felt so miserable after a year of just partying and drinking that I feel I just need to refocus myself entirely and just try to get better. Hope your doing okay and very brave if you to share your emotions.
I'm so sorry to hear that:( It's really cool that you realize that though and are taking the steps to feeling better! And thank u, I am doing a lot better:) Wish you all the best!
I have suicidal thoughts as well and whenever I have them I think I’m over dramatic and I shouldn’t be thinking about that. I told my mom I was stressed and she told me that I shouldn’t be stressed about anything because I don’t have much to worry about. I feel really alone, and my parents expect so much from me, my friends even forgot my birthday, and I want to die. This isn’t for attention or anything I just want to tell my story.. Thanks for reading this.
Please, please, please try to talk to your mom again. Beg her to listen. Just because someone seems fine doesn’t mean they are. Ask her to watch some of these documentaries on TH-cam about depression and suicide. I wish I could speak to her myself. I wish I knew a year ago what I know now.
Cora, i know you’ve posted this a year ago but thank you for sharing ur story. Everything you’ve gone thru eerily parallels my teenaged years. I love your chill ass personality and it seems like you’ve put in the work to get better and I am so proud of you. Also thank you for mentioning how important it is to “click” with ur therapist in order to heal bc that’s something not talked about enough. Lol was also on Zoloft for 3 years and completely relate with being so good at putting on that mask in front of family and friends. Sending you love and hoping you are staying healthy this quarantine
Thank you for sharing your story I also deal with depression, self harm, and suicidal ideation. I also have PTSD from the time I was 4 years old I remember my father beating my mother he would hit her and slam her head against the counter it was so traumatizing and by the age of ten my sister got taken by child Protection services as my father has sexually abused her I can remember hearing her crying all night. Then social development took her and they just left me because I was to scared to tell them what was happening I was only ten and they just left me there. I was sexually abused and emotional and physically abused until I finally asked for help when I was 15 I have tried to end my life a few times before I even got taken by child protection the first time I tried to end my suffering I was 11 and I ended up in the hospital when I was 15 and I was in there on and off for 1 year and a half and I still struggle with thoughts of self harm I am now 17 and even though I still struggle with thoughts of self harm and suicid I have not been in the hospital for 5 months and I have been free of self harm for 6 months every day is still a struggle but I have been doing so much better I still have a lot of flashbacks from my childhood and I have panic attacks every day but I have been pushing through and I am planning on being a nurse after high school and I have been working so hard to make a future for my self.
wow, I first off wanna say I'm so proud of you. It makes me so upset and angry you had to go through this but you're so strong for rising against your circumstances and persevering. I'm so proud of you being six months free of self harming, that's not an easy feat! Don't forget to celebrate your milestones and take a second to realize how strong and powerful you are
You are SO brave to reveal all this online. My story with this is very similar to yours and after seven years I’m finally recovering! People like us with severe mental illnesses that suffer for a long time with the wrong types of treatment are overlooked in society. We need to get rid of the stigma. I wish you all the best in life, you are and will do just fine!
Thank you, your comment made my day! Sometimes I look back on this video and cringe at how open I was so I really appreciate you saying that. I agree and hope to help end that stigma. Wishing you the best as well
props to u for being brave and sharing your story. I appreciate you sharing and promoting mental health. I hope things have gotten better for you, and on those rough days remember that the pain is temporary
Thank you so much for talking about this, Cora. You are strong and brave to talk about it and are helping so many people. Your story is so similar to my daughter's, but her story has ended. Thank you and much love and luck to you. Brava!
YOU’RE NOT ALONE!!!!! We’re all human and it’s perfectly okay to feel anxious sometimes. A very wise mall Santa that I met, back in 2018, once told me that “even on the cloudiest day the sun STILL shines behind those clouds meaning that no matter how dark it looks, the sun is STILL there and the joy and happiness is there for you as well”. No matter how scary or how uncomfortable things get for you, just know that everything’s going to be okay because you deserve to feel safe, loved, comforted, encouraged and for those who loved you and who really want to help u and be there for you and stay by your side either way. Whether from friends, family or anyone you trust and feel safe with. I maybe an autistic women whose probably may or may not have had a lot of panic attacks but I can honestly tell u. I’ve had anxiety attacks due to my fear of failure in school or at work and not being good enough as a person and losing my job and I’ve also struggled with anxiety and depression for quite a long time so I do understand perfectly well the feelings of worthlessness, lack of self esteem, anxiety, depression, self hatred, loneliness, feeling trapped, frustration, remorsefulness, insecurity and the feeling of wanting to get try to better yourself but always coming out as a failure. Plus having been through Covid and being forced to follow Covid safety protocols like many others, myself, has been deeply traumatizing and extremely difficult for me as well socially, mentally, physically and emotionally. The point is, your anxieties, your depression and everything mental health related DOES NOT define u for who you are, it’s what’s inside your heart and all the things we’ve accomplished in life and the kind of person u REALLY are in your heart that truly defines u for who u are. Some people are not gonna always understand what you’re going through and maybe they never will but as long as you have the people in your life who loved and cared about you or that special someone whom deeply loves u and genuinely cares about u and will do anything in the world to help u to overcome this, you’re gonna come out even stronger and more courageous than ever and before you’ll know it, you’re gonna surprise people by how far you’ve come in the end. The fact that you had the courage to make this video and open up about your inner struggles and your vulnerability REALLY MAKES U A MUCH STRONGER AND BRAVER PERSON IN MY BOOK. Give yourself a pat on the back. U did an amazing job!! 😊😊 Stay strong, have courage, be kind to yourself, take heart and NEVER EVER give up hope because you ARE beautiful and practically perfect just the way you are in every way . ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Wow this comment hit me hard (in a good way)! I am so sorry you can relate but I also appreciate you sharing because it reminds me, I'm not the only one struggling. Thank you so much for your kind words and for being vulnerable online. It does make you stronger and we will get through any hard times!
Hello Cora. I've been suffering with depression for the past year and a half. I self harm and I have recently attempted suicide. As you can tell I'm alive. I was unsuccessful. I just found this video and I'm glad that I did. It's nice to know that there are people out there who are going through the same thing as me. Take care my dear. Hang in there.
Vin Vlogger Wow this truly made my night. I’m so sorry you’re going through that right now but I’m so so happy you’re alive. Depression makes us feel so alone and isolated when really we aren’t. I’m rooting for you and if you ever need someone to talk to please message me and i’d be happy to talk:)💗
11:20 I had a kidney stone a few years ago in 8th grade (I’m a senior in high school now) and I can certainly vouch for this. I wouldn’t wish a kidney stone on my worst enemy
Your very brave to talk about this. Just remember depression and lack of self worth can make us feel bad about ourselves, and we think death is the only way out. Just remember that you are a beautiful person. What matters is how we handle our lives not other peoples opinions. Shalom.
I'm so sorry:( I definitely understand that and I'm sorry to hear that's how you're feeling. I try to remind myself I don't always feel that and it's all temporary but it can be hard to do that while at war with your mind. Sending you good thoughts
My life has been a living hell since 2009. Life got worse in 2014 and In 2016 it got a billion times worse when I ended up loseing family members eversince. You are always asking what happend. I am really not trying to sound like a crazy person but sometimes you even ask your self are you even In reality. The situation is so horrible and so unexplainable that is like something you see In the movies. What keeps me going is I don't want to end up in hell and self improvement. I been feeling more better and better eversince. Working out, learning guitar, learning how to make life better and other things so if anyone reads this and if you think about commiting suicide it just not worth it
Ive been struggling with depression for like 3 years now and its getting to that point where im selfharming everyday and constantly trying to get an opportunity to steal pills from the closet and take all of em and simply die. Life is not rly worth living at this point and its just going down hill. Somewhere after my depression started i brokeup with my girlfriend and that killed me inside. After that i started all my selfharm and stuff. Im really suicidal and feel numb all the time.
I just made my own suicide attempt story so I was wondering if anyone would be willing to watch mine as well. It’s also a suicide prevention video. Stay strong lady. Proud of you for posting this! You are helping so many!
I’m having suicidal thoughts almost nearly everyday because of my past mistakes as a child. I’m not really sure what I should do but I don’t think I can hold on any longer.
ariana. Im so sorry to hear that Ariana. I know how hard that pain is, especially when it’s over things you can’t change. I think you need to forgive yourself. I don’t know your situation or circumstances but part of adolescence is making mistakes, the important thing is just to learn from them. I know it’s not as simple as that but sometimes you have to forgive yourself to heal, even if you don’t 100% love or forgive yourself in the moment. Sending you good thoughts, when you get through this it’ll be so worth it
I'm 23 amd have depression and anxiety aswell suicide thoughts am on meds but they don't help much. It doesn't help i have 0 friends i try but everyone thinks I am freak . 😞
I'm so sorry, that must feel so isolating. I wasn't on the right meds for so long and it took finally finding the right combo for me to be able to function and do day to day tasks. Thinking of you
There is definitely nothing more beautiful than life. your fight and courage to get out of this situation is admirable you are so beautiful inside and out keep it up 😀👍🇵🇪
My eyes are open I can see it blow in the wind, with my eyes closed and not physical, I feel it beating across my skin, means the realist thing is the unseen, I HAVE FOUND
@@Rockabillyman26 depression is a demon that lies to you (not in a spiritual sense) it tells you are that you are worthless, unlovable and nobody cares if you died or it would be better if you wouldn't be a "burden" anymore. I know exactly how it feels like and I don't know you but I really care
I’ve been going threw depression for about 5 years now same with cutting and self arming myself and I’ve been in and out of mental hospitals and I’ve had Anorexia for about a year now and I still have both of them sadly
I'm so sorry to hear that:( I can't imagine how hard everything seems right now. I hope that you have ppl to lean on, things will get better. keeping you in my thoughts
I have been suffering from depression/Suicidal thoughts for many years and it has been getting worse since I turned 18 and have had 3 attempts in the last month. I just want to die and end it all.
I was diagnosed with type one diabetes at 10 years old too. I wouldn’t say I have depression but I’ve been self harming for a few months now but I’m so scared to tell my family
I'm so sorry to hear that. Self harm isn't always exclusive with depression, it can also be a way to cope with anxiety or sadness in your life. I'm going to have a video out within next week talking about how to deal with this! Keeping you in my thoughts
I can honestly relate because ive been deeling with deppresion and anixity for almost two years ....yeah all I can really say your aloud to feel depprest but your never aloud to give up fighting .
I wish I had parents that believed me. I was diagnosed with depression when I was 13. Last year I attempted suicide. My friends reported me to my school counselor. When my parents found out, it took a threat to call CPS for them to get me a therapist. Fast forward to now and I don’t have a therapist anymore and no medication despite being it being recommended by 5 healthcare professionals. I don’t get what’s so difficult for my parents to help me (there are no financial problems).
I’m so sorry to hear that:( It’s so unfair that you’ve reached out asking for help and been denied it. It sounds like you have some pretty good friends who love and value you so much that they spoke to your counselor. you’re so appreciated in ways u have no idea of and i’m so sorry your parents aren’t giving you the support that they should. it’s so hard dealing with mental illnesses without medication. i’ve def been there and it sucks but if u know any of ur insurance information i think there are free services u can try to get it through. Do you feel close enough with a teacher, coach, or even a close friends parent to confide in them or hell no? I’m so sorry Sara, I’m keeping you in my thoughts
@@corarberry I have a counselor at school and that’s about it. I’ve found that therapy doesn’t do much for me because I have severe trust issues (thanks mom). It takes a lot for me to finally confide in someone what’s really going on and I have yet to find someone like that. I’m going to try to push for it again. Only 2 years before I can do it myself at least.
I’ve miss 2 year off school and every one says I’m lucky and I don’t go because I’m lazy even my mum and sis think its out of chose and all the time my sis alway say how I have no friend x
Waow! You´re so brave. You are the coolest! Im through something at the moment, and i dont know what it is. My whole arm is filled with scars, and i cant really stop. Im 12 years old, and i dont know whats wrong with me
I have major depressive disorter, anxiety and loneliness when i 13 until now... i will pass 25 years old until June but Sadly i have too many Suicidal thoughs. Any day maybe is my last day and i Don't want to live till i 30 when i'm such a failure and useless in this world. I don't know how am i suppose to live when i feels hate my body like want to harm myself or try to get it out. I feels like all of my life is imperfect and i don't know where is the way to bring me to the future i want to see. My toxic family want me to perfect in anyway they want not my way, i always try to hurt myself because i can not hurt anyone in my family when they try criticism me for every single tiny things. And i'm so lonely, like begging for loves, humble for a random girlfriend...and no one came for me after everything i have done just to keep my relationship with them for longer, without them i feel like they abandoned me and let me in defendless and carry every stress by my own without any friend to share with.
thank you and love you for your nice video. from the outside i am looking happy , but the inside i get eaten alive....... my mind is still thinking about...... 50 is a nice year...........
dude please stop it really won't work it won't fix anything. Trust me on this you are cared for and loved for lots of people care about you including myself so please don't do self harm and reach out for help i beg you it will help
I've been there:( It's so hard but start with little victories (ie 1 month self harm free treat yourself to your favorite dessert). Try shocking your senses w/ an ice cube or call a friend who can distract you until the urge passes. You're so strong
No one believes that I feel hurt, so I have to lock it inside. I did write my feelings on a note in a box but my sister pulled it out and said, "What's this." Inside I was so mad, about to scream at her for daring to touch my stuff. When she put them back and left, I threw it away. Also, in google docs I had something with my feelings but i'm scared someone will find it so I've also deleted that. Now all I can do is rot in anger and so much hurt, but no one wants to sit and be a loyal listening ear. I want to end it so bad, i'm trying to fight, but i'm losing so badly. I guess at 11 people think you lie. I know I seem like another dumb 11 year old trying to sound cool but it just hurts, so much. I'm sorry...
I'm so sorry to hear that. I felt like that for a really long time but I truly believe writing/journaling helps. It won't fix anything but it helps to get your feelings out on paper. I know it's so so hard to fight when you feel like there's no light at the end of the tunnel but I promise you there is. If I had decided to end it at 12 there's so much I wouldn't have experienced that changed my life in the best way possible. I suggest reaching out to a trusted adult if at all possible. Your struggles are completely valid and I don't think you're lying. Sending you good thoughts
please do not:( Something that helps for me when I have urges is to put an ice cub on my wrist because the shock of the cold produces a somewhat similar sensation. If you like seeing blood you can dip the ice cub in red dye. Please stay strong, you are so loved and I know it might not seem like that right now but I promise you it does get better. sending love
I think you mean attempts dude. But lots of people make multiple attempts even if it means they may just get help from it. Mental illness is not something to joke about.
It all comes down to knowing what the purpose of our existence is. If not, we will be like a ship without a port, struggling with emptiness and darkness and meaninglessness that we will try to fill up our life with things that entertain us, but still leave us empty. But there is a purpose for our life. The purpose of our existence is to be perfectly happy: Our mind is made for Truth, and our will is made for goodness and love. When we stop thinking about ourselves and sacrifice for those in need, happiness begins to flow into our being. Once we realize that God Himself is Truth and Love itself, and understand that our time on earth is to serve God with all our heart, mind and soul, then one begins to grow serene and happy on our journey toward God. But the big danger is Sin. Yes, sin. Sin is the misuse of our intellect and our will. Sin is like poison which destroys happiness in our life. Sin separates us from God, who is the Source of Happiness itself. Life is a preparation for the greatest event of our life: our death and judgment. Hear is a video that explains the journey, worth watching: th-cam.com/video/1CAwTnaJ9MM/w-d-xo.html
Maybe you could 'clean up' your comment section. There are people commenting stuff like 'cut harder' 'cut deeper' to others who opened up about their self harm methods. This is evil! Maybe you could delete it ...
While I don’t know you personally, I would very much recommend you do not do this. suicide doesn’t end your pain, it just passes it to others. i would really really recommend you try to distract yourself in any way you can until this urge passes, and it will.
I care about you, and I'm a christian, If you turn to Jesus now and receive his gift of salvation and confess your sins to him you will be saved and you won't go to hell when he comes back to judge us, I really hope you pray to him today and do that, if you confess with your tongue that Jesus is Lord and believe in you heart that Jesus died on the cross for your sins and God raised him up on the third day you will be saved, lot's of love, God bless you, and God loves you and I do too
respectfully, no. My experience with suicide and suicidal thoughts does not and has not effected MY relationship with God. I'm only responding to this because I don't want ppl who are struggling to read this comment and think that they should be ashamed for how they feel.
I’m 15, and I suffer from suicidal thoughts and depression daily. Self harm is one of my biggest issues as well. Your story has really inspired me and I cannot express my gratitude. Although I really don’t see a future for myself, I can tell you are headed for GREAT THINGS! I’m sorry that I can’t stay around to see and hear more people’s stories.
I'm so sorry you're going through that. please don't make a permanent solution for temporary feelings and thoughts. you might think it will solve your problems but it won't. I'm coming out with a vid soon on how I deal and cope w/ those same problems and I think it might be helpful if you struggle with similar issues. keeping you in my thoughts
Mom: I put you in this world, I can take you out of it Me: PLEASE DO I never asked to be born!!! Edit: this has nothing to do with the video just felt like commenting
I want to make an updated video w/ some tips on how I deal w/ depression & anxiety now and especially during quarantine so feel free to reply to this with any questions and I'll be sure to include it in the video:)
How would you say you can become positive when coming out of a negative headspace from mental illness? :) xox
How do you open up about it...I want to ask for help but it's terrifying!
@@mercedesrpublish 0pen your mouth Mercedes! Find someone to open up to before it's too late! I care!
I've been thinking about this for a long time. Couldn't understand why people do this but now I understand so well that. I feel like I'll never get out of this situation.I want to be able to give hope to people like you, and I want to be able to give myself hope. I hope you are very happy right now 💘
I hope you'll be okay and know, that you also deserve to be happy
Thank you for your comment I'm trying to be better
@@Aloedenovera Please get help. I may not know you, but I love and care about you so much and I don’t want you to get hurt. Please don’t end it and get help.
I’ve been cutting & going through depression since I was 10 I’m now 14 still going through it...
Makayla McCandlish it’s ok I’ve gone through cutting just reach out and get help that’s what I did and I’m doing great now I don’t hide my scars
Makayla McCandlish I’m so sorry to hear that! I know exactly what you’re going through, if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to message me💗
Makayla McCandlish ME TOO
Oh honey. First off, I sure hope you’re okay. I cut when I was a teenager and always felt so alone. But if you just reach out, SOMEONE who loves you will grab your hand. Life gets better, life is hard when you’re a teenager but life is BEAUTIFUL. Stay alive to see that, stay alive to see what beautiful future you hold. You’re not alone ❤️
Do it harder than
Thanks for sharing the story! I have had Suicidal thoughts before related to the fact my parents divorced and being bullied by loads of people. Not helped by the fact that I was losing friends very fast. I didn’t know what to do with myself after that but then I understood that ending your life is not the way to go. You have loads of confidence to share your story and this is the first time I’ve told this story and I now have found my passion. Well done you have a new sub!
I'm so glad you were able to come to that realization! I know it can be so hard when you can't seem to catch a break or see a light at the end of the tunnel so it's awesome that you have now! What you've gone through will make you that much stronger:) Thanks for subscribing, I appreciate it!
Sorry to hear about this. I’ve felt so miserable after a year of just partying and drinking that I feel I just need to refocus myself entirely and just try to get better. Hope your doing okay and very brave if you to share your emotions.
I'm so sorry to hear that:( It's really cool that you realize that though and are taking the steps to feeling better! And thank u, I am doing a lot better:) Wish you all the best!
To everyone in the comments who relate to this even if it's in the slightest way: I love you and you're so strong
I have suicidal thoughts as well and whenever I have them I think I’m over dramatic and I shouldn’t be thinking about that. I told my mom I was stressed and she told me that I shouldn’t be stressed about anything because I don’t have much to worry about. I feel really alone, and my parents expect so much from me, my friends even forgot my birthday, and I want to die. This isn’t for attention or anything I just want to tell my story.. Thanks for reading this.
I know exactly how you feel. Cut off those toxic people and change your life around for the better. you can do this and you are strong
abigail rossiter this means so much to me. thank you 💗
Please, please, please try to talk to your mom again. Beg her to listen. Just because someone seems fine doesn’t mean they are. Ask her to watch some of these documentaries on TH-cam about depression and suicide. I wish I could speak to her myself. I wish I knew a year ago what I know now.
Cora, i know you’ve posted this a year ago but thank you for sharing ur story. Everything you’ve gone thru eerily parallels my teenaged years. I love your chill ass personality and it seems like you’ve put in the work to get better and I am so proud of you.
Also thank you for mentioning how important it is to “click” with ur therapist in order to heal bc that’s something not talked about enough. Lol was also on Zoloft for 3 years and completely relate with being so good at putting on that mask in front of family and friends. Sending you love and hoping you are staying healthy this quarantine
wow your comment really made my night
Thank you for sharing your story I also deal with depression, self harm, and suicidal ideation. I also have PTSD from the time I was 4 years old I remember my father beating my mother he would hit her and slam her head against the counter it was so traumatizing and by the age of ten my sister got taken by child Protection services as my father has sexually abused her I can remember hearing her crying all night. Then social development took her and they just left me because I was to scared to tell them what was happening I was only ten and they just left me there. I was sexually abused and emotional and physically abused until I finally asked for help when I was 15 I have tried to end my life a few times before I even got taken by child protection the first time I tried to end my suffering I was 11 and I ended up in the hospital when I was 15 and I was in there on and off for 1 year and a half and I still struggle with thoughts of self harm I am now 17 and even though I still struggle with thoughts of self harm and suicid I have not been in the hospital for 5 months and I have been free of self harm for 6 months every day is still a struggle but I have been doing so much better I still have a lot of flashbacks from my childhood and I have panic attacks every day but I have been pushing through and I am planning on being a nurse after high school and I have been working so hard to make a future for my self.
wow, I first off wanna say I'm so proud of you. It makes me so upset and angry you had to go through this but you're so strong for rising against your circumstances and persevering. I'm so proud of you being six months free of self harming, that's not an easy feat! Don't forget to celebrate your milestones and take a second to realize how strong and powerful you are
Thank you for sharing not a lot of people relate to this and what it’s like living day to day.🤗
of course:) im sorry you relate though, you're so strong!
You are SO brave to reveal all this online. My story with this is very similar to yours and after seven years I’m finally recovering! People like us with severe mental illnesses that suffer for a long time with the wrong types of treatment are overlooked in society. We need to get rid of the stigma. I wish you all the best in life, you are and will do just fine!
Thank you, your comment made my day! Sometimes I look back on this video and cringe at how open I was so I really appreciate you saying that. I agree and hope to help end that stigma. Wishing you the best as well
props to u for being brave and sharing your story. I appreciate you sharing and promoting mental health. I hope things have gotten better for you, and on those rough days remember that the pain is temporary
thank you! your comment made my day:)
Thank you for posting this. ❤️ your humor cracks me up btw. 😭
omg thank you so much that made my day!
Ur so bright and pretty and strong. U deserve a place on this earth. I’m so sorry u feel this way
thank you, you're so sweet
Thank you so much for talking about this, Cora. You are strong and brave to talk about it and are helping so many people. Your story is so similar to my daughter's, but her story has ended. Thank you and much love and luck to you. Brava!
Thank you so much, you're so sweet!
Thank your for sharing! You have a new subscriber!
SocialAnxietyAnd Me thank u so much! made my day
YOU’RE NOT ALONE!!!!! We’re all human and it’s perfectly okay to feel anxious sometimes. A very wise mall Santa that I met, back in 2018, once told me that “even on the cloudiest day the sun STILL shines behind those clouds meaning that no matter how dark it looks, the sun is STILL there and the joy and happiness is there for you as well”. No matter how scary or how uncomfortable things get for you, just know that everything’s going to be okay because you deserve to feel safe, loved, comforted, encouraged and for those who loved you and who really want to help u and be there for you and stay by your side either way. Whether from friends, family or anyone you trust and feel safe with.
I maybe an autistic women whose probably may or may not have had a lot of panic attacks but I can honestly tell u. I’ve had anxiety attacks due to my fear of failure in school or at work and not being good enough as a person and losing my job and I’ve also struggled with anxiety and depression for quite a long time so I do understand perfectly well the feelings of worthlessness, lack of self esteem, anxiety, depression, self hatred, loneliness, feeling trapped, frustration, remorsefulness, insecurity and the feeling of wanting to get try to better yourself but always coming out as a failure. Plus having been through Covid and being forced to follow Covid safety protocols like many others, myself, has been deeply traumatizing and extremely difficult for me as well socially, mentally, physically and emotionally.
The point is, your anxieties, your depression and everything mental health related DOES NOT define u for who you are, it’s what’s inside your heart and all the things we’ve accomplished in life and the kind of person u REALLY are in your heart that truly defines u for who u are. Some people are not gonna always understand what you’re going through and maybe they never will but as long as you have the people in your life who loved and cared about you or that special someone whom deeply loves u and genuinely cares about u and will do anything in the world to help u to overcome this, you’re gonna come out even stronger and more courageous than ever and before you’ll know it, you’re gonna surprise people by how far you’ve come in the end.
The fact that you had the courage to make this video and open up about your inner struggles and your vulnerability REALLY MAKES U A MUCH STRONGER AND BRAVER PERSON IN MY BOOK. Give yourself a pat on the back. U did an amazing job!! 😊😊
Stay strong, have courage, be kind to yourself, take heart and NEVER EVER give up hope because you ARE beautiful and practically perfect just the way you are in every way . ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Wow this comment hit me hard (in a good way)! I am so sorry you can relate but I also appreciate you sharing because it reminds me, I'm not the only one struggling. Thank you so much for your kind words and for being vulnerable online. It does make you stronger and we will get through any hard times!
That camera falling in the beginning is a big mood.
lowkey the story of my life
I’m just now seeing this idk if you will see this comment but you just helped me your really just helped me in the best way I’m so proud of you!
Aw you're so sweet! Thank you so much
Hello Cora. I've been suffering with depression for the past year and a half. I self harm and I have recently attempted suicide. As you can tell I'm alive. I was unsuccessful. I just found this video and I'm glad that I did. It's nice to know that there are people out there who are going through the same thing as me. Take care my dear. Hang in there.
Vin Vlogger Wow this truly made my night. I’m so sorry you’re going through that right now but I’m so so happy you’re alive. Depression makes us feel so alone and isolated when really we aren’t. I’m rooting for you and if you ever need someone to talk to please message me and i’d be happy to talk:)💗
cora berry thank you so much! I’d love to talk sometime!
11:20 I had a kidney stone a few years ago in 8th grade (I’m a senior in high school now) and I can certainly vouch for this. I wouldn’t wish a kidney stone on my worst enemy
oh f no I couldn't imagine going through that at 13:(
Your very brave to talk about this. Just remember depression and lack of self worth can make us feel bad about ourselves, and we think death is the only way out. Just remember that you are a beautiful person. What matters is how we handle our lives not other peoples opinions. Shalom.
thank you! ur so right
I had such a great teacher at school who committed suicide, it made me so sad because I wish I knew what was going on with her.
I'm so sorry, shes hopefully in a better place now. A boy in my school killed himself, it was really upsetting.
@@icryinwalmart it is very upsetting!
I'm so sorry to hear that:( I can't imagine what an impact that must have had on you
@@corarberry thank you!
I am just ready for it all to go away or end I have been like this my whole life and am 35
I'm so sorry:( I definitely understand that and I'm sorry to hear that's how you're feeling. I try to remind myself I don't always feel that and it's all temporary but it can be hard to do that while at war with your mind. Sending you good thoughts
My life has been a living hell since 2009. Life got worse in 2014 and In 2016 it got a billion times worse when I ended up loseing family members eversince. You are always asking what happend. I am really not trying to sound like a crazy person but sometimes you even ask your self are you even In reality. The situation is so horrible and so unexplainable that is like something you see In the movies. What keeps me going is I don't want to end up in hell and self improvement. I been feeling more better and better eversince. Working out, learning guitar, learning how to make life better and other things so if anyone reads this and if you think about commiting suicide it just not worth it
You are a precious soul. Thank you for sharing your story
thank you! you’re so sweet to take the time to comment on my video
Ive been struggling with depression for like 3 years now and its getting to that point where im selfharming everyday and constantly trying to get an opportunity to steal pills from the closet and take all of em and simply die. Life is not rly worth living at this point and its just going down hill. Somewhere after my depression started i brokeup with my girlfriend and that killed me inside. After that i started all my selfharm and stuff. Im really suicidal and feel numb all the time.
I just made my own suicide attempt story so I was wondering if anyone would be willing to watch mine as well. It’s also a suicide prevention video. Stay strong lady. Proud of you for posting this! You are helping so many!
thx for sharing girl. im so tired of going through it. im so tired. just so fucking tired. and its always people , people are always the culprit.
I’m having suicidal thoughts almost nearly everyday because of my past mistakes as a child. I’m not really sure what I should do but I don’t think I can hold on any longer.
ariana. Im so sorry to hear that Ariana. I know how hard that pain is, especially when it’s over things you can’t change. I think you need to forgive yourself. I don’t know your situation or circumstances but part of adolescence is making mistakes, the important thing is just to learn from them. I know it’s not as simple as that but sometimes you have to forgive yourself to heal, even if you don’t 100% love or forgive yourself in the moment. Sending you good thoughts, when you get through this it’ll be so worth it
I'm 23 amd have depression and anxiety aswell suicide thoughts am on meds but they don't help much. It doesn't help i have 0 friends i try but everyone thinks I am freak . 😞
I'm so sorry, that must feel so isolating. I wasn't on the right meds for so long and it took finally finding the right combo for me to be able to function and do day to day tasks. Thinking of you
There is definitely nothing more beautiful than life.
your fight and courage to get out of this situation is admirable
you are so beautiful inside and out
keep it up
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Thank you so much! Your kind words mean a lot:)
you haven’t been to my realm then if you just said that, ur safe for now, i doubt u would even reach it to my point
@@lyricaldestruction603 my intention is to advise you for good Everything is in the mind
My eyes are open I can see it blow in the wind, with my eyes closed and not physical, I feel it beating across my skin, means the realist thing is the unseen, I HAVE FOUND
What was the longest depressed mood ?
I have depression I feel like nobody cares about me.
I can relate
@@meganhenry5795 you know what it feels like.
Are you ok? Do you need to talk? Instagram: @finny_p , I'm here if u need me, you matter.
@@finnyp2055 nobody cares if I died
@@Rockabillyman26 depression is a demon that lies to you (not in a spiritual sense) it tells you are that you are worthless, unlovable and nobody cares if you died or it would be better if you wouldn't be a "burden" anymore. I know exactly how it feels like and I don't know you but I really care
I started at 10 and im now 12,my mom keeps asking why i do it.little does she know its her fault..
Probably should stop, wait 5 years and look back at yourself and the things that have happened over the years
I’ve been going threw depression for about 5 years now same with cutting and self arming myself and I’ve been in and out of mental hospitals and I’ve had Anorexia for about a year now and I still have both of them sadly
I'm so sorry to hear that:( I can't imagine how hard everything seems right now. I hope that you have ppl to lean on, things will get better. keeping you in my thoughts
I have been suffering from depression/Suicidal thoughts for many years and it has been getting worse since I turned 18 and have had 3 attempts in the last month. I just want to die and end it all.
It's been a year, wake up!
No point in doing it to let the bullys' win.
I was diagnosed with type one diabetes at 10 years old too. I wouldn’t say I have depression but I’ve been self harming for a few months now but I’m so scared to tell my family
I'm so sorry to hear that. Self harm isn't always exclusive with depression, it can also be a way to cope with anxiety or sadness in your life. I'm going to have a video out within next week talking about how to deal with this! Keeping you in my thoughts
I can honestly relate because ive been deeling with deppresion and anixity for almost two years ....yeah all I can really say your aloud to feel depprest but your never aloud to give up fighting .
I'm so sorry to hear that:( but that's exactly the mindset to have! pls keep fighting and staying strong! sending you good thoughts
I wish I had parents that believed me. I was diagnosed with depression when I was 13. Last year I attempted suicide. My friends reported me to my school counselor. When my parents found out, it took a threat to call CPS for them to get me a therapist. Fast forward to now and I don’t have a therapist anymore and no medication despite being it being recommended by 5 healthcare professionals. I don’t get what’s so difficult for my parents to help me (there are no financial problems).
I’m so sorry to hear that:( It’s so unfair that you’ve reached out asking for help and been denied it. It sounds like you have some pretty good friends who love and value you so much that they spoke to your counselor. you’re so appreciated in ways u have no idea of and i’m so sorry your parents aren’t giving you the support that they should. it’s so hard dealing with mental illnesses without medication. i’ve def been there and it sucks but if u know any of ur insurance information i think there are free services u can try to get it through. Do you feel close enough with a teacher, coach, or even a close friends parent to confide in them or hell no? I’m so sorry Sara, I’m keeping you in my thoughts
@@corarberry I have a counselor at school and that’s about it. I’ve found that therapy doesn’t do much for me because I have severe trust issues (thanks mom). It takes a lot for me to finally confide in someone what’s really going on and I have yet to find someone like that. I’m going to try to push for it again. Only 2 years before I can do it myself at least.
Thank you for sharing your story. ♥️
thanks for watching
I’ve miss 2 year off school and every one says I’m lucky and I don’t go because I’m lazy even my mum and sis think its out of chose and all the time my sis alway say how I have no friend x
i was just here to listen and then you said you had t1d and i do to and i’m a competitive dancer and this makes me so sad
awe im sorry don't be sad! I'm doing so much better, sometimes you gotta hit rock bottom to appreciate life better
Waow! You´re so brave. You are the coolest! Im through something at the moment, and i dont know what it is. My whole arm is filled with scars, and i cant really stop. Im 12 years old, and i dont know whats wrong with me
Want to give u a hug. Ppl around u are lucky to have u.
Thank you, that's so sweet
I have major depressive disorter, anxiety and loneliness when i 13 until now... i will pass 25 years old until June but Sadly i have too many Suicidal thoughs. Any day maybe is my last day and i Don't want to live till i 30 when i'm such a failure and useless in this world. I don't know how am i suppose to live when i feels hate my body like want to harm myself or try to get it out.
I feels like all of my life is imperfect and i don't know where is the way to bring me to the future i want to see. My toxic family want me to perfect in anyway they want not my way, i always try to hurt myself because i can not hurt anyone in my family when they try criticism me for every single tiny things. And i'm so lonely, like begging for loves, humble for a random girlfriend...and no one came for me after everything i have done just to keep my relationship with them for longer, without them i feel like they abandoned me and let me in defendless and carry every stress by my own without any friend to share with.
How are you ding right now? Hmu on insta so u csn tell me:) x_xgreenbeanx_x
thank you and love you for your nice video.
from the outside i am looking happy , but the inside i get eaten alive.......
my mind is still thinking about...... 50 is a nice year...........
You are incredible!!
Maeve Ryan thank u sm maeve!💗
I've been cutting since 5 months now
dude please stop it really won't work it won't fix anything. Trust me on this you are cared for and loved for lots of people care about you including myself so please don't do self harm and reach out for help i beg you it will help
I've been there:( It's so hard but start with little victories (ie 1 month self harm free treat yourself to your favorite dessert). Try shocking your senses w/ an ice cube or call a friend who can distract you until the urge passes. You're so strong
Thank you for sharing!
thanks for listening!
you are so brave
thank u so much:)
I had gallstones a couple of years ago now at 24 . It’s the worse pain in the world. Suppose to be worse than kidney stones
I'm so sorry to hear that! I hope you're feeling better now:)
No one believes that I feel hurt, so I have to lock it inside. I did write my feelings on a note in a box but my sister pulled it out and said, "What's this." Inside I was so mad, about to scream at her for daring to touch my stuff. When she put them back and left, I threw it away. Also, in google docs I had something with my feelings but i'm scared someone will find it so I've also deleted that. Now all I can do is rot in anger and so much hurt, but no one wants to sit and be a loyal listening ear. I want to end it so bad, i'm trying to fight, but i'm losing so badly. I guess at 11 people think you lie. I know I seem like another dumb 11 year old trying to sound cool but it just hurts, so much. I'm sorry...
@@gabrielgherasim1894 Thanks for trying...
Things really will get better. Just reach out to someone.
I'm so sorry to hear that. I felt like that for a really long time but I truly believe writing/journaling helps. It won't fix anything but it helps to get your feelings out on paper. I know it's so so hard to fight when you feel like there's no light at the end of the tunnel but I promise you there is. If I had decided to end it at 12 there's so much I wouldn't have experienced that changed my life in the best way possible. I suggest reaching out to a trusted adult if at all possible. Your struggles are completely valid and I don't think you're lying. Sending you good thoughts
i RELATE about the kidney thing omg after going through that i can't even think about having kids
bruh that shit was no joke lmfao sorry you had to go through that too
I relapsed with self harm the other night
I'm so sorry. Sending you love
Instagram: @xetou
Let me know if any of you need help
I like your piercing it suits you
thanks girl!
I think many people at some point is considering doing that!
true most ppl will go through a period of depression in their life at some point:( it's usually situational tho and not chronic like mdd
can i kms? i was wanting to cut so bad so i did and was bleeding profusely.
please don't. you are amazing and loved
please do not:( Something that helps for me when I have urges is to put an ice cub on my wrist because the shock of the cold produces a somewhat similar sensation. If you like seeing blood you can dip the ice cub in red dye. Please stay strong, you are so loved and I know it might not seem like that right now but I promise you it does get better. sending love
Correct me if I m wrong ... I think you got sick at age 10 with diabetes ... Of course chronic pain makes you feel lonely ....it did to me too
most definitely! chronic pain can make you feel ostracized from ppl you love the most because you feel misunderstood. hope you’re doing better now
I started laughing at the star bucks part
Bruh it was insane. I think back on it like why didn't I see that as a read flat lmao
I have Type 1 diabetes as well
gang gang
My time is coming 😭 tonight
no u better reply to this comment paul i’m here for you just talk to me.
Are you okay ?
Hey are u ok???
Im sorry but if you made three attendees and failed then you're not really that serious about it.
attendees? I have no idea what that means man but have a good day
I think you mean attempts dude. But lots of people make multiple attempts even if it means they may just get help from it. Mental illness is not something to joke about.
It’s the same with me
I'm sorry:(
It all comes down to knowing what the purpose of our existence is. If not, we will be like a ship without a port, struggling with emptiness and darkness and meaninglessness that we will try to fill up our life with things that entertain us, but still leave us empty. But there is a purpose for our life. The purpose of our existence is to be perfectly happy: Our mind is made for Truth, and our will is made for goodness and love. When we stop thinking about ourselves and sacrifice for those in need, happiness begins to flow into our being. Once we realize that God Himself is Truth and Love itself, and understand that our time on earth is to serve God with all our heart, mind and soul, then one begins to grow serene and happy on our journey toward God. But the big danger is Sin. Yes, sin. Sin is the misuse of our intellect and our will. Sin is like poison which destroys happiness in our life. Sin separates us from God, who is the Source of Happiness itself. Life is a preparation for the greatest event of our life: our death and judgment. Hear is a video that explains the journey, worth watching: th-cam.com/video/1CAwTnaJ9MM/w-d-xo.html
Maybe you could 'clean up' your comment section.
There are people commenting stuff like 'cut harder' 'cut deeper' to others who opened up about their self harm methods.
This is evil!
Maybe you could delete it ...
Oh no, I haven't seen any of those comments?
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2:10 same
Stay blessed
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Im still thinking if i should swallow 20 paracetamol w
WHile watching this i cant deal w life no more idk why i post this comment
While I don’t know you personally, I would very much recommend you do not do this. suicide doesn’t end your pain, it just passes it to others. i would really really recommend you try to distract yourself in any way you can until this urge passes, and it will.
That is a very bad idea. I know this is an old post but that will make you very I'll and you will end up in the hospital.
Can we be friends 😊
duh of course
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I to have T1D but dignosed at 1 and 1/2 and have anxiety and depression
im sorry:(( diabetes is so isolating and frustrating, keeping you in my thoughts:)
I care about you, and I'm a christian, If you turn to Jesus now and receive his gift of salvation and confess your sins to him you will be saved and you won't go to hell when he comes back to judge us, I really hope you pray to him today and do that, if you confess with your tongue that Jesus is Lord and believe in you heart that Jesus died on the cross for your sins and God raised him up on the third day you will be saved, lot's of love, God bless you, and God loves you and I do too
shut up lol
respectfully, no. My experience with suicide and suicidal thoughts does not and has not effected MY relationship with God. I'm only responding to this because I don't want ppl who are struggling to read this comment and think that they should be ashamed for how they feel.
Lol
Believe in Jesus Christ and you will be saved, John 3:16, KJV.......
Must not be a good story if you can tell it.
I had a seizure reading this comment
@@corarberry then why didn't you let it kill you, it would have been better than to live and write your comment.
@@higgiemosstheprophetsincer5982 you are sick
@@ProdDreco2 yeah thanks for asking.
@@higgiemosstheprophetsincer5982 wtf? Why do you say these things
that' s a fake attention seeking video
fuck up
how does it feel to have a name that sounds like a sexually transmitted disease:/ thanks for the view mwah
WOW
@@corarberry PFt you fuckin got them my dude😞✊
I’m 15, and I suffer from suicidal thoughts and depression daily. Self harm is one of my biggest issues as well. Your story has really inspired me and I cannot express my gratitude. Although I really don’t see a future for myself, I can tell you are headed for GREAT THINGS! I’m sorry that I can’t stay around to see and hear more people’s stories.
I'm so sorry you're going through that. please don't make a permanent solution for temporary feelings and thoughts. you might think it will solve your problems but it won't. I'm coming out with a vid soon on how I deal and cope w/ those same problems and I think it might be helpful if you struggle with similar issues. keeping you in my thoughts
Mom: I put you in this world, I can take you out of it
Me: PLEASE DO I never asked to be born!!!
Edit: this has nothing to do with the video just felt like commenting
mooooood