Just sit down for awhile and don't think about anything at this simple *moment* Just breathe- Listen to this song- Dont get distracted by social media- Don't worry be happy-
and of course Stop with these idiotic comments, im going through hard time, kid insulted my parents and i got expelled because his dad was a cop, this world is cruel and music cant fix it, it can only make you forget, but that wont help, and i will keep on remembering because im always in a hard time, i got held to a knife point
@@BitsEUismynamelilbish listen you little piece of shit its not my fucking fault you got problems so fuck off i am not a Kid so you shouldn't be talking you poor ass bastard i can say whatever the hell i want so if you got a problem with it go fuck yourself.
It was the start of freshman year. After i finished eight grade i was so happy i felt freedom (off topic but i was quite popular cause i wasnt present during my eightgrade cause i had moved at the time and my friends were pretty hyped to see me) Anyways It had been a month already and I head into my fourth period math. Our teacher had arranged our seating chart. so there i was sitting there. I saw Irene. cheating on a test looking at my paper. I caught her cheating and we both kinda giggled in the middle during a test. I had known irene since seventh grade but we never been that close. And the fact that i had a crush on her during the start of seventh grade got me all messed up! (In a good way) we had a conversation after the test so after, i ask her for her snapchat. long story short, She had been dating this guy who was a total jerk to her. Every time they would argue or when ever he harassed her (yes thats true harassed) she would tell me. And thats when I had the guts to tell her to break up with him. So she did... it was hard for her. Cause her boyfriend was threatening her. I believe she probably had tried breaking up more than once. We talked more and more. Until i fell for her. Just thinking about her everynight made me smile in hoping that we would get together for a long time. She was a girl like any other. She was the key to my happiness My forbidden fruit. As we grew closer, she started calling me nicknames and she would even call me baby sometimes. We would text for hours on end. We would even facetime eachother till we slept. We were always connected. I had never seen her so happy in my life! I knew it was time that i would ask her out. Its Christmas day, 2am. We were on winter break at the time. We were talking about how children should play an instrument when they’re young and how piano was the best option. We were discussing and laughing about it alittle argument here and there but it was all fun and games... after our conversation she said, “ If only I find someone that wont be a regret i would stick with for the rest of my life.” I said, “hey can i tell you something?” “Yeah Sunshine?” I smiled... “Theres only three words that ive been having on my mind lately... I love you” She sheds a tear “hold on” *hangs up* I text her whats wrong. She says... If i date you the whole world around us would turn to a wrong turn (for context: she meant that if she dated me, her friends and her ex would target me. She said as if she was... dangerous and that no one shoild deserve to date her) I tell her... well if it does... just know that we can both be there be eachother. She sends a heart, “ ill always have you in my heart... thank you” First day of second semester winter break is over. We lived in the same neighborhood so we would walk to school together. So it was 4:10 pm. She says to stay after school during orchestra. We stay there till 7pm and we both head home. She said, “hey” “Yeah?” ( we both stop ) “I cant help it anymore...I love you.” I smile..”i love you too.” We shared our first kiss...the whole world paused...my heart was pounding...i could be in this moment for hours... i never fell so deep in love before. The pink clouds and dim sky was the perfect setting. “Hey ... wanna text when i get home?” ( she was about separate streets from me) “Sure” , i said. We text and call every day we start to grow And grow in our relationship than ever. We would hug kiss and hold hands in the hallway. All my friends would compliment. (This was the golden age of my youth for sure) We were on our 6th month relationship! Everything was going well until one day when we we’re walking home, i notice she had a bandage wrap on her arm. “Hey, what happened” She stops “She starts to cry and i hug her” “Im moving to my home country” (sweden) “Wait but what does the bandage have to do...” “I slit myself Andrew...” “WHATS WRONG WITH YOU?! YOU COULDVE DIED” *silence* “Please dont hate me.. im sorry” I had no words... i was just so out of it. Before i had the words to say she runs away sobbing. I never knew she suffered from such a heavy depression... I text her, “hey you ok?” No response Ive been doing this for a week until i start panicking. I head to her house. ( Her parents were on vacation at the time ) I bang on the door after waiting 20 minutes. I decide to open the door. Surprisingly it was open. Her house a/c wasnt even on and all her lights were off except her room. As i walked in the living room a smell so foul overwhelmed my nostrils. I walk to her room. My heart dropped to the floor Shattered She killed her self. Her neck was slit wide open with both her arms seared open. Flys and maggots all around her arms I go to her and gently grab her by the cheek. Her dead blue eyes... I stayed there for hours. Just looking at her. I look at her phone on her dresser. A stickey with her passcode on it, “check notes” It was a suicide note for her parents and for me. I had copied in my notes and i have no words... Dear Andrew Ever since we were together... i always wanted to give my whole life to you. And that we would live together forever for years to come...maybe to get engaged or maybe even have one or two children” Im sorry you had to see this. You dont deserve to see me like this. I know you found out i was moving to sweden permanently and you were on my head the whole time... but that wasnt just it. My ex... raped me and took pictures of me. And posted it on a secret account where all his friends shared it even to my parents and family members. *note from me, i saw the pictures a friend sent me but never believed it i talked to her about it and said it wasnt her* Back to note, I felt you were gonna find out sooner or later... i didnt want to see my baby leave me. I wanted my life to end with you. My Social life was even more miserable than it already was. I just wanted us to be together though... but ive been hurt by so many people. I cant handle it I cant take it I cant see it Not any longer (End of note) I called 911 and they took her in a body bag. Ive been keeping touch with her parents. I thought of jumping off a cliff. And I was so close to ending my life. Until a car passed by and stopped and the driver immediately got off and pulled me back after i had been tilted over the edge. She was an african american lady. She was nice. I didnt even know her and she was hugging me. “Can we pray?” , she said “Yes... please” We pray and i start to cry But after that... i felt no more pain No more suffering My chains were broken It was a sign possibly from God himself But my life was saved. The woman dropped me off at my house. She told me she was a co-pastor at a church To this day i still go. The moral? Well maybe you already know it in your heart... dont go the way irene went. People will destroy your life and one choice can ruin it for you. Her ex is now in prison for 18 years for sexual assault and black mail. People can hurt and destroy your life not even the love of your life can stop it. After that choice...theres never going back. Never. Since then... my life has been better and ive kept in touch with her parents till they moved. It was time to move on. Let go of something before it lets go of you
As I get older I realize there are things that have been with us for a long time, or maybe most of our lives that we can consciously choose to get rid of. Every person has the ability to tap into that inner strength and change anything they want to. My love for her? It is something I consciously and unconsciously cannot and will not get rid of.
It is said that just before you die, your life plays before you in a seven minute film, or dream. What if youre in that seven minutes right now? What would you do?
I love lofi music ❤️ also so where does the audio in the beginning come from? The “fulfill all your wishes, 75 years” thing, where does that come from? I’ve heard it before on another lofi track n I never knew where it came from so yea someone tell me
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If I remember right, it's from Nuages - Dreams, but I don't know if this is the original source
Just sit down for awhile and don't think about anything at this simple
*moment*
Just breathe-
Listen to this song-
Dont get distracted by social media-
Don't worry be happy-
and of course
Stop with these idiotic comments, im going through hard time, kid insulted my parents and i got expelled because his dad was a cop, this world is cruel and music cant fix it, it can only make you forget, but that wont help, and i will keep on remembering because im always in a hard time, i got held to a knife point
@@BitsEUismynamelilbish listen you little piece of shit its not my fucking fault you got problems so fuck off i am not a Kid so you shouldn't be talking you poor ass bastard i can say whatever the hell i want so if you got a problem with it go fuck yourself.
take a deep breath, picture yourself sitting/laying listening to this at this moment..
..everything will be fine.
♥
Cringe Master.
Heyyy thank you so much for the upload!!
GJ man!
Today was a good day iki-gang well goodnight
Damn thats good.
It was the start of freshman year. After i finished eight grade i was so happy i felt freedom (off topic but i was quite popular cause i wasnt present during my eightgrade cause i had moved at the time and my friends were pretty hyped to see me)
Anyways
It had been a month already and I head into my fourth period math. Our teacher had arranged our seating chart. so there i was sitting there. I saw Irene. cheating on a test looking at my paper. I caught her cheating and we both kinda giggled in the middle during a test. I had known irene since seventh grade but we never been that close. And the fact that i had a crush on her during the start of seventh grade got me all messed up! (In a good way) we had a conversation after the test so after, i ask her for her snapchat. long story short, She had been dating this guy who was a total jerk to her. Every time they would argue or when ever he harassed her (yes thats true harassed) she would tell me. And thats when I had the guts to tell her to break up with him. So she did... it was hard for her. Cause her boyfriend was threatening her. I believe she probably had tried breaking up more than once.
We talked more and more. Until i fell for her. Just thinking about her everynight made me smile in hoping that we would get together for a long time. She was a girl like any other. She was the key to my happiness
My forbidden fruit.
As we grew closer, she started calling me nicknames and she would even call me baby sometimes. We would text for hours on end. We would even facetime eachother till we slept. We were always connected. I had never seen her so happy in my life!
I knew it was time that i would ask her out.
Its Christmas day, 2am. We were on winter break at the time. We were talking about how children should play an instrument when they’re young and how piano was the best option. We were discussing and laughing about it alittle argument here and there but it was all fun and games... after our conversation she said, “ If only I find someone that wont be a regret i would stick with for the rest of my life.”
I said, “hey can i tell you something?”
“Yeah Sunshine?”
I smiled...
“Theres only three words that ive been having on my mind lately... I love you”
She sheds a tear “hold on”
*hangs up*
I text her whats wrong. She says... If i date you the whole world around us would turn to a wrong turn (for context: she meant that if she dated me, her friends and her ex would target me. She said as if she was... dangerous and that no one shoild deserve to date her) I tell her... well if it does... just know that we can both be there be eachother.
She sends a heart, “ ill always have you in my heart... thank you”
First day of second semester winter break is over. We lived in the same neighborhood so we would walk to school together. So it was 4:10 pm. She says to stay after school during orchestra. We stay there till 7pm and we both head home. She said, “hey”
“Yeah?” ( we both stop )
“I cant help it anymore...I love you.”
I smile..”i love you too.”
We shared our first kiss...the whole world paused...my heart was pounding...i could be in this moment for hours... i never fell so deep in love before. The pink clouds and dim sky was the perfect setting.
“Hey ... wanna text when i get home?” ( she was about separate streets from me)
“Sure” , i said.
We text and call every day we start to grow And grow in our relationship than ever.
We would hug kiss and hold hands in the hallway. All my friends would compliment. (This was the golden age of my youth for sure)
We were on our 6th month relationship! Everything was going well until one day when we we’re walking home, i notice she had a bandage wrap on her arm.
“Hey, what happened”
She stops
“She starts to cry and i hug her”
“Im moving to my home country” (sweden)
“Wait but what does the bandage have to do...”
“I slit myself Andrew...”
“WHATS WRONG WITH YOU?! YOU COULDVE DIED”
*silence*
“Please dont hate me.. im sorry”
I had no words... i was just so out of it.
Before i had the words to say she runs away sobbing. I never knew she suffered from such a heavy depression...
I text her, “hey you ok?”
No response
Ive been doing this for a week until i start panicking. I head to her house. ( Her parents were on vacation at the time )
I bang on the door after waiting 20 minutes. I decide to open the door. Surprisingly it was open. Her house a/c wasnt even on and all her lights were off except her room.
As i walked in the living room a smell so foul overwhelmed my nostrils.
I walk to her room.
My heart dropped to the floor
Shattered
She killed her self.
Her neck was slit wide open with both her arms seared open. Flys and maggots all around her arms
I go to her and gently grab her by the cheek.
Her dead blue eyes...
I stayed there for hours. Just looking at her. I look at her phone on her dresser.
A stickey with her passcode on it, “check notes”
It was a suicide note for her parents and for me.
I had copied in my notes and i have no words...
Dear Andrew
Ever since we were together... i always wanted to give my whole life to you. And that we would live together forever for years to come...maybe to get engaged or maybe even have one or two children”
Im sorry you had to see this.
You dont deserve to see me like this.
I know you found out i was moving to sweden permanently and you were on my head the whole time... but that wasnt just it. My ex... raped me and took pictures of me. And posted it on a secret account where all his friends shared it even to my parents and family members.
*note from me, i saw the pictures a friend sent me but never believed it i talked to her about it and said it wasnt her*
Back to note,
I felt you were gonna find out sooner or later... i didnt want to see my baby leave me. I wanted my life to end with you. My
Social life was even more miserable than it already was. I just wanted us to be together though... but ive been hurt by so many people.
I cant handle it
I cant take it
I cant see it
Not any longer
(End of note)
I called 911 and they took her in a body bag. Ive been keeping touch with her parents.
I thought of jumping off a cliff. And I was so close to ending my life. Until a car passed by and stopped and the driver immediately got off and pulled me back after i had been tilted over the edge. She was an african american lady. She was nice. I didnt even know her and she was hugging me.
“Can we pray?” , she said
“Yes... please”
We pray and i start to cry
But after that... i felt no more pain
No more suffering
My chains were broken
It was a sign possibly from God himself
But my life was saved.
The woman dropped me off at my house. She told me she was a co-pastor at a church
To this day i still go.
The moral? Well maybe you already know it in your heart... dont go the way irene went. People will destroy your life and one choice can ruin it for you.
Her ex is now in prison for 18 years for sexual assault and black mail.
People can hurt and destroy your life not even the love of your life can stop it. After that choice...theres never going back. Never.
Since then... my life has been better and ive kept in touch with her parents till they moved.
It was time to move on.
Let go of something before it lets go of you
Your story was so heartbreaking and eye opening, I wish you the best of everything, keep going. 👍👍
Behnam Alimoradi thanks for the motivation! Glad i can share this... just makes me feel better yk! : )
I hope you be happy in every moments of your life. Thanks for sharing this to us
may god bless you
Staggering...my heart goes out to you. May I ask what it is about this song that moved you to share this experience with us?
haven't watched the whole thing I already knew I would love it
2 am i think melancholy hours are open
cry in bed until morning hours
@@soulkiss7297 every night
@@slowdknive ☻👊🏼 rad
I LOVE THIS OMG YES
Theres also something so different about guitar or ukulele lofi, i cant explain it , they give me an even more chill vibe
I just found this channel and figured id post this on your latest vidio, you have a new subscription my friend
What’s up ikigang?!?!?!
The roof
KoolBeenz, 🤙🤙
👋🏻🤙🏻
As I get older I realize there are things that have been with us for a long time, or maybe most of our lives that we can consciously choose to get rid of. Every person has the ability to tap into that inner strength and change anything they want to. My love for her? It is something I consciously and unconsciously cannot and will not get rid of.
Let’s create our own world in our imaginations.
Magnifiques
Relaxing as life should be👍
It's that time again boys
mysticewhale 2, yes it is 🖤
Hecc yeah
Just Chilling 🎩 🌈👍 ♥️
This artist has me Lost in Fiction
Boruto learns how to be a real ninja
The good vibes!
so good.
Beautiful landscape ! 🤩🧡~
Notification gangwhere you at???
👀
Josiah Ortega here 👋🏻
Heyyo!
Noti gang
there is no better feeling
Beautiful! 🧡
🌅😌
Luke, I feel you 🙌🏻
cooly chilled out yeah
safe travels
Geez wiz, now this is a bop.
This song reminds me of my boring afternoon..♥️
😊
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ben de tam orada bi tebessüm ettim :)
@@furkankrk1249 nasin bi turk bultun ? bayram mu barek olsun
I love this
vibes👌
It is said that just before you die, your life plays before you in a seven minute film, or dream. What if youre in that seven minutes right now? What would you do?
🖤
💜💙💚
Let’s just get lost in time
I love lofi music ❤️ also so where does the audio in the beginning come from? The “fulfill all your wishes, 75 years” thing, where does that come from? I’ve heard it before on another lofi track n I never knew where it came from so yea someone tell me
If I remember right, it's from Nuages - Dreams, but I don't know if this is the original source
I took the audio from "Alan Watts - Any Dream You Want" glad you like it
Its also from inzo’s music: overthinker REALLY GOOD SONG
Griffith its going to active the behelit?
Good
👍🖤👏👏
Yeet
Me encantaría algo más movido 🔥❤
Is this an actual scene from Boruto?
Yes
@@soulusnight666 what episode
B D episode 92; you could probably find a clip of this scene on TH-cam