I'm honestly not happy, because I still feel to this day my translations aren't accurate. The time I took a jab at translating the song, I had so much doubt even after asking my Japanese teacher at the time not because of personal reasons, but because she wasn't good in English like I wasn't good at Japanese. Also mostly because I felt discouraged by the Vocaloid Database/ Wiki listing me as unreliable (in which they are correct, though because I never had thorough and professional training in the Japanese language other than elementary/ intermediate lessons from a community college) under the list of subbing accounts like vgperson or Sunny Subs. My only thoughts for now are that I'm extremely flattered, still fanboying, and STILL treasuring my Utsu-P albums at home. When I saw the comments telling me that Utsu-P re-uploaded the song, I was shook as hell in a good way. When people find out about this and see some mistakes, I am more than happy to rectify it and I am more than happy to let them personally speak with Utsu-P and maybe fix my English translations, because while the passion to make subtitles is still there, a small part of me wants to continue this as a hobby and a huge part of me is there needing constant assurance or corrections so they're not misinforming others :3 Because of Utsu-P, I'm still going to do my best to keep learning and making sure the things I rarely put out there are accurate and convey the message as clearly as possible~ (Lastly, I'm still intending to delete my cringy translation of that one Masa song right after I find a better/ perfect translation and re-do the subtitling thing hehe)
壬晴 I don’t know what to say other than “YASS looking forward to your cover!” and “thank you.” But still, it’s all music in the end, and people can always correct things whenever there’s a mistake, and that’s an unseen beauty and struggle in subtitling hehe Thanks again for the encouragement and I’m still looking forward to that cover hehe
Migikun I think your translations were pretty good for the most part! But one unnatural thing I noticed was that 覚えている doesn’t translate to “remembering” but simply “remember”. Remembering would be something like 思い出している. Also 肌は緑色 means that their skin is green, not body.
this song is so beautiful and it's depressingly relatable. living with a constant disability to communicate that makes you literally feel like an alien but still wanting to be loved hurts
@@XxNightmare_KittyxX i don't have autism but i have ADHD. because of that i can't say i understand your experience 100% but i think we get each other on this one. it's hard and i'm really sorry but keep going my fellow alien. just because some things get lost in translation for us it doesn't mean we are not destined for so much love 🫂
@@greenlitlleman Except you can't claim to know what autism feels like without having it. Hence why OP rightfully assumed the responder has autism. So no, you cannot make that comparison without having it. Otherwise it is the responder making assumptions. Not OP.
man. Utsu-P makes a lot of songs that hit really hard with (usually developmentally) disabled people. specifically im thinking of this and I Thought I Was an Angel. its not my place to assume, but i kinda wonder if he has some experience with that stuff
I often wonder that as well. I think Utsu-P may be one of those autistic geniuses that appear every so often. Another song of his, Fools Are Attracted to Anomaly, describes what it's like to be a genius in a world that seems to praise normalcy above all else. The narrator of that song is not a genius, but a desperate aspiring genius, but I think there is a good chance that when Utsu-P wrote the parts about the genius the narrator wants to emulate, he was speaking from his own experience. His songs critize hypocrisy, normalcy, and contemporary society at such a high level, so indisputably, that I think he is truly a genius. Agreed?
I also noticed this, as someone who is diagnosed neurodivergent (though I grew up undiagnosed till my late teens) not just him, but many other vocaloid producers and utaites. From what I've seen the community seems to be a gathering ground for neurodivergents, both creators and viewers, which is lovely imo, it's a safe place for us all :D
Watashi wa umareta toki kara Me ga mittsu de te ga yottsu de hada wa midoriiro Mazushikumo atatakai katei de Sukusuku to sukoyaka ni sodachimashita Hajimete no otomodachi wa Sakura ki ga utsukushii youchien de ai Anata no okaasan ga Mayu wo hisometeita no ga mieta kedo Yagate toshi wo kasanete mo Sukoshi dake mitame ga chigau watashi to Kawarazu ni tayasazu ni omoide kasanete kuremashita I love you I love you I love you I love you Konna kimochi hajimete desu Akai mi ga hajiketa harusaki Dakedo kore ijou chikadzukenai Watashi ni wa 『shikaku』 ga nai kara aa Mawari no kotachi ga yagate Yosoyososhiku naru koro anata mo kieta Sono hi wa ima mo oboeteru Tokuchuu no taisougi ga ukunatta hi Manabiya no naka de minna Azawarai nagara watashi monomane wo shita Sono koui wa aijou to shinjite watashi wa kao de warau I love you I love you I love you I love you Anata ga suki soredake de Anata no mawari ga guchagucha ni naru Dakara suki ni natte wa ikenai Watashi ni wa 『shikaku』 ga nai kara aa 「Hito wa mina aisareru kenri wo Umarenagara dareshimo ga motteimasu」 Nankai mo haru ga sugita heya de hitori Hibiku LABU SONGGU Samishikunai to ieba uso desu Watashi wa kemono janai Shokubutsu janai Ningen desu I love you I love you I love you I love you Yojouhan de okiagarezu Mado wo mitara soto wa harusaki Kareteshimatta sakura ki kara Inochi no kehai wa mou nai Anata wa ima doko ni imasuka Watashi no koto oboeteimasuka Hito wo suki ni natte wa ikenai Watashi ni wa 『shikaku』 ga nai kara Sayonara arigatou Deaete yokattana Shikaku wa nai kedo Saigo ni I love you
You have been releasing amazing shit all 2020 in this horrible time, Alien's "I love you" came out around the time I was really struggling with the love of my life breaking up with me, this song made me cry so much but also helped me heal. Thank you Utsu, I couldn't be more grateful to stumble upon someones music like yours ♡♡
One of the main reasons I love vocaloid is because there are so many songs that make me feel seen. I grew up with undiagnosed autism and adhd, and was always an outcast. Songs like this are very important to me
Jesus, this song actually still makes me cry. It really hits me since I fall in love so easily, but all my life I've been judged for myself as a person. And when I find someone I love, everyone around me always has something to laugh at me for. And it always makes me worry if the person I love will join them. This song hits hard especially right now. No matter how hard it makes me cry, I always find comfort in this song. Since I know I'm never alone. 💖💖💖
Wow, as someone with adhd, this song really hits hard for me. When I was young, before I knew how to mask (hide my symptoms), I remember being made fun of at school for stimming. I remember my parents being embarrassed when I would flap my hands in public, at vocal tics, etc. For a lot of people with adhd, it’s hard for us to control our emotions, so in elementary school I used to cry more than other kids. I remember hearing other kids talk about me behind my back, talking about my developmental delays (such as my speech, which was less than perfect), and so, so much more. The worst part was I wasn’t aware that what I was doing wasn’t “normal”. Even now I lack social awareness, and I’ll say rude and insensitive things without even thinking that they’re rude or insensitive; most of my friends now a days have adhd and/or autism, simply because their easier to talk to and interact with than most neurotypicals. Still, nothing hurts more than hearing neurotypical friends who don’t know I have adhd talk about those same friends, talk about how they think kids with learning disabilities/mental illnesses don’t belong in the same classes as them, and a slew of other things. Sorry this practically turned into an essay but this song brings back so. SO many memories.. edit: so uh turns out I possibly have autism-
as someone with adhd and opposition troubles, it was hard at school cuz most people didn't understand what vocal tics(tics in general just i have vocals tics mostly) they didn't understand what adhd was and all the blablabla so they end up thought i was "weird" not normal like u said, now that is more common to meet people memtal illness/disabilities/ and all of that stuff. people are more cool with it... stay strong bestie
I'm autistic and also have ADHD, and yeah I can relate. My stims are that I nibble on the inside of my cheek, my lips and I let out these short, breath-like 'hm's so they haven't been very noticable to other people, but when I get excited, I love doing jazz hands basically and twitching my hands from side to side quickly and my dad has always commented on it. I get that him just smiling in a kinda teasing way and commenting on when I do my jazz hands isn't negative, but I always get really self-conscious when he does. But I'm the kind of neurodivergent that is hyperaware of what kind of things are not generally ok to say in which situations but at the same time have no idea how not to be awkward so I just get so scared of saying the wrong thing that I say nothing most of the time
I also have autism (high-functioning) and not ADHD but ADD. I think I've become very cynical and am just never hyper. So there goes the H, now I just have ADD. I don't think anyone ridicules me at school. Maybe they don't even notice, or maybe I'm the one who isn't noticing them. I've stopped caring. But it still hurts that it's several times harder to find love than our neurotypical counterparts who don't have communication disorders. I really love that part "'All people possess the right to love and be loved by anyone since birth' I'm all alone in my room for how many springs have passed An echoing love song" People always say there's someone for everyone but we remain alone with little to no hope, and there are all those jarring songs about love that you hear when you're out and about. Always the different one, always the alien, it feels like this song was made for us autists.
Never has a vocaloid song or a song in general made me cry. This is the only song. It has one of the deepest meanings I've ever heard in music. I am so glad this song exists.
Thank you UtsuP, This reminds me back then in my childhood when I really felt like I have no place at all. It's all better now but this song really hits me. I'll always appreciate your works この曲はむかしに全然愛されてなく感じるのとき思い出した もう今そんなわけないですけどその感じ今も忘れないです いつでも全部鬱Pさんの曲今も聞いています。ありがとうございます 鬱P 日本語悪くなったらごめんなさい
I'm a really new Utsu-p fan, only having discovered his music this year. This song...this particular song hits me the hardest as someone with ASD (diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome specifically) and ADHD. So much of it, I've experienced myself, and every time I hear it I tear up. Thank you, Utsu-p, for this wonderful work of art.
As obvious as the lyrics is, they still hit me hard like "I thought I was an angel" in a way how people (esp. myself) relate to this song. Kudos to Utsu-P for making such straightforward, yet sublime songs like this one!
Just found this song, I'm diagnosed with asd as well as some other serious things and my entire life is affected by them. The isolation is so horrible, but it's nice to know i'm not completely alone. Hopefully we can all find someone who understands one day
I have ASD with a special interest in music and no song has ever felt like it called me out the way this one did I avoid listening to it most of the time because I'll usually start crying, and that is not a joke, lol but overall I love this song a lot if anyone's curious here's a longer explanation/rambling about my personal experience: As I said I was born with ASD, (incl. alexithymia, sensory issues and more fancy terms) and I was always picked on but when the people around me started getting better at being human people unlike me, the picking on turned into bullying, I later came out of the closet and I lost all but ~2 of my friends, both of which mostly stopped spending time with me and spent more time with their cishet neurotypical friends, made excuses for their friends' shitty behavior, made alt accounts to friend and follow me on social media separate from the ones they used for everybody else and so on and so forth. Currently I don't have any close friends, and it truly feels like crap feeling like I could never become a respected-ish member of human society but I'm currently waiting until therapy is available and it feels really great knowing I'm not alone in this
Hey there, I know I’m just a stranger on the internet and I don’t really have any fancy words to share. I just wanted to let you know that you were seen, and I hope that you don’t get ignored by the people in your real life any more. I hope therapy goes well for you
damn... I'm crying. so many old, not so pleasant, memories just came back to me. this song is so beautiful, and tragically relatable to me and many others. "I love you". I will treasure this song.
i don't cry much. usually when something makes me shed a tear it means it hit me deep in the feels. i can't remember the last time i cried. so this hit pretty deep for me to shed some tears.
This song just strikes a chord so very deeply with me. I was finally diagnosed with autism and AvPD at 20 and my childhood of being treated like a plague despite my best efforts to fit in finally clicked. It also didn't help I had a very abusive home life, traumas besides school and other more visible disabilities.
I’ve always loved this song,the added harmony on the I love you part honestly is so emotional compared to the original which has no harmony on that part. I love your music so much Utsu-P,one of my favorite vocaloid producers ever
Look at his past albums and try to listen to them fully. You might love 1 or 2 song or the whole album. I love to look at the lyrics like everyone but try to just listen to the music, hear how each instrument used makes it all a music.
this is my first time i know the translation. i know this is sad song but even before knowing the translation, i always can feel the despair in the tone. great song, definitely one of my favourite song.
Anytime smth bad happens and i get reminded of the past, i go back to this song... The lyrics really describe how i feel, growing up with mental illness...Thank you for making this song ❤
still listening to this song. though i am not formerly diagnosed yet, everyone around me (including my fam, friends, psychiatrist, and therapist.. yea) agree im likely on the autism specfrum with adhd. knowing this now makes me understand why i resonated with utsup so much. i have both made fun of others and been made fun of. i understand now
i dont know why this song in particular hits so goddamn hard, maybe it is the pitch of the voice that is in so much pain and it just screams "Why?", or the lyrics which unfold a movie in my head as i read and it is by far the most tear inducing movie i have ever had the right to "see". the end part just hits like a train, i can see her sitting in the room face sunken in, dark rings under her eyes cause of sleep deprivation, soulless eyes slowly looking up to the window and just seeing the dead tree. preparing the noose, crying and repeating "why?". i love this song
@@kiwii.06I got Autism too but like... This song is not about it. Ots about disabilities you actually see, but are not as bad that you get condolence points.
I love this song a lot, actually this is wonderful, I don't know what the original is but the current version really gives it that feel of 'I've been crying for the past few hours' I like it a lot.
Cute song❤ a ruinene fanfic based on this brought me here. Thank you author. If you didn't exist i wouldn't be here and I wouldn't be feeling like this.
I've always loved Utsu-P growing up. His songs always resonated with me. I don't listen to this song often, not for it being bad or anything (it's great). I never knew how to feel about it until now. It reminds me of how closed off from people I feel. At this point in my life, I think my autism leads me to being somewhere on the ace spectrum. I want so badly to be warm and loving and held, but my autism makes me feel so adverse to physical contact and almost incapable of expressing romantic feelings (emotions in general). I can say "I love you" but what's the point if the other person doesn't understand you? They just think you're a cold b!tch. My attempts at displaying what I know I should be feeling are taken as not genuine and just acting. I wish I could show love and affection in their language, but I feel wrong or get chastised for attempting even when I know that's how normal people show it.
I really don't know what you're going through in your life, what your difficulties are or what you like and are good at, but I really think that if you try your best to express affection and love to someone and they can't accept it as something real, they really don't deserve anything from you, "You should only love those who love you" is how I was taught. But as I said, I don't really know your life so I'm sorry if everything I'm saying offends you in any way. I really hope that everything you have problems with resolves itself with time and everything in your life works out, I don't know you but I'm sure you're a great person!!
@@Zbyamada Thank you for your kind words. I've been thinking more about things and finally got into it with my therapist. I hope I can learn to connect better. Thank you again for your reply. I wish you all the best in life!
This is one of my favorites songs and when I saw it on my dash again I had to play it. And just like all the times I heard it, I started crying once again.
I've listened this song 7 years ago since I was a child but I can't speak Japanese so I don't know what is that means. Now I'm in college and every time I hear this song, it make me think back to my tragic experiences in high school and can't help crying😢😢😢
I only just started to get into Utsu-P songs and figures the notification I get this morning is a music vid and translation for this just to make me very sad
I might be a little late, but none the less still a fan of this song, I may not have cried or been emotionally moved as much as others but the idea of feeling like I am not worthy of love due to not feeling normal do to my disabilities hits home. Good job Utsu-P keep making more bangers!
@@violet_flower "easy for aces to feel like we're missing something that makes us human" that perfectly describes it.. but looking from another side.. just imagine how annoying it must be to have a sexual drive, so we are the only free ones ^^
@@violet_flower "it's hard to find love when everyone expects that of you" ..i met a girl a few months ago, i loved her personality so much she was so pretty and nice, we spent about 2 months with each other watching movies and talking a lot and it was a great time, but once we sat on her bed watching movies like most of the other evenings prior, and at one point she stared me in the eyes and made signaling movements, she might have done it before not sure, but this time there was no way to ignore it, she made it impossible to misunderstand, and it felt like there was not other way out than telling her that i cant do anything but love her too.. she didnt spoke much with me afterwards and was very... strange and ... rejecting ... why does love have to involve sex i dont understand it its so fckin gross, id rather be an alien instead of an reproducedrive driven human like that, they probably just fake love to mate most of the time, its so disgusting,...
@@Deadbeeing sex to me is like eating, sleeping or breathing and without it i feel like i can't survive. Sex is such a big part of my life. I feel jealous of a sexual people though. Not having to worry about sex frees up so much time and probably keeps your head way clearer too
@@violet_flower Yeah so I was referring more to the melody of the song and the feel for it, not the actual lyrics. Should probably have written that one down as well :P
For what it's worth, I'd love a 3 eyed 4 armed green miku.
Lmao he used migikun's translations as the official subtitles, I bet the guy must be really happy rn
I'm honestly not happy, because I still feel to this day my translations aren't accurate. The time I took a jab at translating the song, I had so much doubt even after asking my Japanese teacher at the time not because of personal reasons, but because she wasn't good in English like I wasn't good at Japanese. Also mostly because I felt discouraged by the Vocaloid Database/ Wiki listing me as unreliable (in which they are correct, though because I never had thorough and professional training in the Japanese language other than elementary/ intermediate lessons from a community college) under the list of subbing accounts like vgperson or Sunny Subs.
My only thoughts for now are that I'm extremely flattered, still fanboying, and STILL treasuring my Utsu-P albums at home. When I saw the comments telling me that Utsu-P re-uploaded the song, I was shook as hell in a good way. When people find out about this and see some mistakes, I am more than happy to rectify it and I am more than happy to let them personally speak with Utsu-P and maybe fix my English translations, because while the passion to make subtitles is still there, a small part of me wants to continue this as a hobby and a huge part of me is there needing constant assurance or corrections so they're not misinforming others :3
Because of Utsu-P, I'm still going to do my best to keep learning and making sure the things I rarely put out there are accurate and convey the message as clearly as possible~
(Lastly, I'm still intending to delete my cringy translation of that one Masa song right after I find a better/ perfect translation and re-do the subtitling thing hehe)
壬晴 I don’t know what to say other than “YASS looking forward to your cover!” and “thank you.” But still, it’s all music in the end, and people can always correct things whenever there’s a mistake, and that’s an unseen beauty and struggle in subtitling hehe Thanks again for the encouragement and I’m still looking forward to that cover hehe
Migikun I think your translations were pretty good for the most part! But one unnatural thing I noticed was that 覚えている doesn’t translate to “remembering” but simply “remember”. Remembering would be something like 思い出している. Also 肌は緑色 means that their skin is green, not body.
Migikun Also is think 見た目が違う私 means that his appearance is different from everyone else, and not that it changed from before.
@Kyrie Blake bot?
"i never gonna cry to a utsu-p song i am a ma-"
this song is so beautiful and it's depressingly relatable. living with a constant disability to communicate that makes you literally feel like an alien but still wanting to be loved hurts
Literally what having autism feels like tbh
@@XxNightmare_KittyxX i don't have autism but i have ADHD. because of that i can't say i understand your experience 100% but i think we get each other on this one. it's hard and i'm really sorry but keep going my fellow alien. just because some things get lost in translation for us it doesn't mean we are not destined for so much love 🫂
@@wrongplanet1717 Why did you assume that he has autism? He just made a comparison you can make even without having it.
@@greenlitlleman i felt like it
@@greenlitlleman Except you can't claim to know what autism feels like without having it. Hence why OP rightfully assumed the responder has autism.
So no, you cannot make that comparison without having it. Otherwise it is the responder making assumptions. Not OP.
man. Utsu-P makes a lot of songs that hit really hard with (usually developmentally) disabled people. specifically im thinking of this and I Thought I Was an Angel. its not my place to assume, but i kinda wonder if he has some experience with that stuff
I often wonder that as well. I think Utsu-P may be one of those autistic geniuses that appear every so often. Another song of his, Fools Are Attracted to Anomaly, describes what it's like to be a genius in a world that seems to praise normalcy above all else. The narrator of that song is not a genius, but a desperate aspiring genius, but I think there is a good chance that when Utsu-P wrote the parts about the genius the narrator wants to emulate, he was speaking from his own experience. His songs critize hypocrisy, normalcy, and contemporary society at such a high level, so indisputably, that I think he is truly a genius. Agreed?
I also noticed this, as someone who is diagnosed neurodivergent (though I grew up undiagnosed till my late teens) not just him, but many other vocaloid producers and utaites. From what I've seen the community seems to be a gathering ground for neurodivergents, both creators and viewers, which is lovely imo, it's a safe place for us all :D
How to get depressed af by a 2 steps
1) Emmure - We Where Just Kids
2) Utsu-P - Alien's "I love you"
Wow you are right i'm depressed!
thanks, now i'm sad
This hurts so bad, I can't stop crying
Watashi wa umareta toki kara
Me ga mittsu de te ga yottsu de
hada wa midoriiro
Mazushikumo atatakai katei de
Sukusuku to sukoyaka ni sodachimashita
Hajimete no otomodachi wa
Sakura ki ga utsukushii
youchien de ai
Anata no okaasan ga
Mayu wo hisometeita no ga mieta kedo
Yagate toshi wo kasanete mo
Sukoshi dake mitame ga chigau watashi to
Kawarazu ni tayasazu ni
omoide kasanete kuremashita
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
Konna kimochi hajimete desu
Akai mi ga hajiketa harusaki
Dakedo kore ijou chikadzukenai
Watashi ni wa 『shikaku』 ga nai kara aa
Mawari no kotachi ga yagate
Yosoyososhiku naru koro
anata mo kieta
Sono hi wa ima mo oboeteru
Tokuchuu no taisougi ga ukunatta hi
Manabiya no naka de minna
Azawarai nagara watashi
monomane wo shita
Sono koui wa aijou to
shinjite watashi wa kao de warau
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
Anata ga suki soredake de
Anata no mawari ga guchagucha ni naru
Dakara suki ni natte wa ikenai
Watashi ni wa 『shikaku』 ga nai kara aa
「Hito wa mina aisareru kenri wo
Umarenagara dareshimo ga motteimasu」
Nankai mo haru ga sugita heya de hitori
Hibiku LABU SONGGU
Samishikunai
to ieba uso desu
Watashi wa kemono janai
Shokubutsu janai
Ningen desu
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
Yojouhan de okiagarezu
Mado wo mitara soto wa harusaki
Kareteshimatta sakura ki kara
Inochi no kehai wa mou nai
Anata wa ima doko ni imasuka
Watashi no koto oboeteimasuka
Hito wo suki ni natte wa ikenai
Watashi ni wa 『shikaku』 ga nai kara
Sayonara arigatou
Deaete yokattana
Shikaku wa nai kedo
Saigo ni
I love you
I love you の音程まじで天才だと思う。切実な、悲痛な感じが伝わる。
This song hits as a disabled person, I didn't think i could love anything more than the original but I've been proved wrong 💖
Vazazell what does this comment mean
@Vazazell bruh
@Vazazell what.
@Vazazell pardon me, what?
@Vazazell sir-
この歌聞いて自分見てるみたいで思いっきり聞き終えて泣いた
This song genuinely made me cry
You have been releasing amazing shit all 2020 in this horrible time, Alien's "I love you" came out around the time I was really struggling with the love of my life breaking up with me, this song made me cry so much but also helped me heal. Thank you Utsu, I couldn't be more grateful to stumble upon someones music like yours ♡♡
Holy fu... Exactly the same for me..!
@@nouille3928 its such a good song so Im sure people have had the same experience, its so moving 😭😭
Me three ayyy
Bruhh same
「わたしは獣じゃない」は私の大好きな歌詞です。
Wait…
One of the main reasons I love vocaloid is because there are so many songs that make me feel seen. I grew up with undiagnosed autism and adhd, and was always an outcast. Songs like this are very important to me
tetchou pfp spotted! :)
I relate to you.
Ah, there's my favorite Utsu-P song. Just gotta wait for MiKUSABBATH now.
good news, it just came out
What kind of witchcraft is this?
@@grimmel9894 green witch craft
2:17 - 2:36
I don't think I've ever felt as connected to the lyrics in a song as much as I did with these lines.
I'm with you fam
Jesus, this song actually still makes me cry.
It really hits me since I fall in love so easily, but all my life I've been judged for myself as a person.
And when I find someone I love, everyone around me always has something to laugh at me for.
And it always makes me worry if the person I love will join them.
This song hits hard especially right now.
No matter how hard it makes me cry, I always find comfort in this song.
Since I know I'm never alone.
💖💖💖
Wow, as someone with adhd, this song really hits hard for me. When I was young, before I knew how to mask (hide my symptoms), I remember being made fun of at school for stimming. I remember my parents being embarrassed when I would flap my hands in public, at vocal tics, etc. For a lot of people with adhd, it’s hard for us to control our emotions, so in elementary school I used to cry more than other kids. I remember hearing other kids talk about me behind my back, talking about my developmental delays (such as my speech, which was less than perfect), and so, so much more. The worst part was I wasn’t aware that what I was doing wasn’t “normal”. Even now I lack social awareness, and I’ll say rude and insensitive things without even thinking that they’re rude or insensitive; most of my friends now a days have adhd and/or autism, simply because their easier to talk to and interact with than most neurotypicals. Still, nothing hurts more than hearing neurotypical friends who don’t know I have adhd talk about those same friends, talk about how they think kids with learning disabilities/mental illnesses don’t belong in the same classes as them, and a slew of other things. Sorry this practically turned into an essay but this song brings back so. SO many memories..
edit: so uh turns out I possibly have autism-
as someone with adhd and opposition troubles, it was hard at school cuz most people didn't understand what vocal tics(tics in general just i have vocals tics mostly) they didn't understand what adhd was and all the blablabla so they end up thought i was "weird" not normal like u said, now that is more common to meet people memtal illness/disabilities/ and all of that stuff. people are more cool with it...
stay strong bestie
I'm autistic and also have ADHD, and yeah I can relate. My stims are that I nibble on the inside of my cheek, my lips and I let out these short, breath-like 'hm's so they haven't been very noticable to other people, but when I get excited, I love doing jazz hands basically and twitching my hands from side to side quickly and my dad has always commented on it. I get that him just smiling in a kinda teasing way and commenting on when I do my jazz hands isn't negative, but I always get really self-conscious when he does.
But I'm the kind of neurodivergent that is hyperaware of what kind of things are not generally ok to say in which situations but at the same time have no idea how not to be awkward so I just get so scared of saying the wrong thing that I say nothing most of the time
I'm very glad you added the edit because uh. Nothing you listed are direct symptoms of ADHD, those are all autism traits lmao
I also have autism (high-functioning) and not ADHD but ADD. I think I've become very cynical and am just never hyper. So there goes the H, now I just have ADD. I don't think anyone ridicules me at school. Maybe they don't even notice, or maybe I'm the one who isn't noticing them. I've stopped caring. But it still hurts that it's several times harder to find love than our neurotypical counterparts who don't have communication disorders. I really love that part "'All people possess the right to love and be loved by anyone since birth' I'm all alone in my room for how many springs have passed An echoing love song" People always say there's someone for everyone but we remain alone with little to no hope, and there are all those jarring songs about love that you hear when you're out and about. Always the different one, always the alien, it feels like this song was made for us autists.
i was thinking how none of those symptoms you mentioned really had to do with adhd, but yes autism, but then i saw your edit so yeah...
Never has a vocaloid song or a song in general made me cry. This is the only song. It has one of the deepest meanings I've ever heard in music. I am so glad this song exists.
I have 100% tear rate with this song...
Thank you UtsuP, This reminds me back then in my childhood when I really felt like I have no place at all. It's all better now but this song really hits me. I'll always appreciate your works
この曲はむかしに全然愛されてなく感じるのとき思い出した
もう今そんなわけないですけどその感じ今も忘れないです
いつでも全部鬱Pさんの曲今も聞いています。ありがとうございます 鬱P
日本語悪くなったらごめんなさい
I'm a really new Utsu-p fan, only having discovered his music this year.
This song...this particular song hits me the hardest as someone with ASD (diagnosed with Aspergers Syndrome specifically) and ADHD. So much of it, I've experienced myself, and every time I hear it I tear up.
Thank you, Utsu-p, for this wonderful work of art.
We are all aliens but we deserve love! 💚
この曲めちゃくちゃ好きなのに歌詞見つからなくて泣いてたのでめちゃくちゃ嬉しいです、、、
As obvious as the lyrics is, they still hit me hard like "I thought I was an angel" in a way how people (esp. myself) relate to this song. Kudos to Utsu-P for making such straightforward, yet sublime songs like this one!
I'm autistic and this song brought me to literal tears, it's so real
Just found this song, I'm diagnosed with asd as well as some other serious things and my entire life is affected by them. The isolation is so horrible, but it's nice to know i'm not completely alone. Hopefully we can all find someone who understands one day
2:17 僕は自閉症だから、みんな僕の行動をバカにするんだ。私は醜いので、人々は私の見た目をからかう。でも、それはこれからも変わらないから、一緒に笑わないと、"繊細 "な人だと思われてしまう。
I have ASD with a special interest in music and no song has ever felt like it called me out the way this one did
I avoid listening to it most of the time because I'll usually start crying, and that is not a joke, lol but overall I love this song a lot
if anyone's curious here's a longer explanation/rambling about my personal experience:
As I said I was born with ASD, (incl. alexithymia, sensory issues and more fancy terms) and I was always picked on but when the people around me started getting better at being human people unlike me, the picking on turned into bullying, I later came out of the closet and I lost all but ~2 of my friends, both of which mostly stopped spending time with me and spent more time with their cishet neurotypical friends, made excuses for their friends' shitty behavior, made alt accounts to friend and follow me on social media separate from the ones they used for everybody else and so on and so forth. Currently I don't have any close friends, and it truly feels like crap feeling like I could never become a respected-ish member of human society but I'm currently waiting until therapy is available and it feels really great knowing I'm not alone in this
Hey there, I know I’m just a stranger on the internet and I don’t really have any fancy words to share. I just wanted to let you know that you were seen, and I hope that you don’t get ignored by the people in your real life any more. I hope therapy goes well for you
damn... I'm crying. so many old, not so pleasant, memories just came back to me. this song is so beautiful, and tragically relatable to me and many others. "I love you". I will treasure this song.
i don't cry much. usually when something makes me shed a tear it means it hit me deep in the feels. i can't remember the last time i cried. so this hit pretty deep for me to shed some tears.
This song just strikes a chord so very deeply with me. I was finally diagnosed with autism and AvPD at 20 and my childhood of being treated like a plague despite my best efforts to fit in finally clicked. It also didn't help I had a very abusive home life, traumas besides school and other more visible disabilities.
This song makes me genuinely sad...
I’ve always loved this song,the added harmony on the I love you part honestly is so emotional compared to the original which has no harmony on that part. I love your music so much Utsu-P,one of my favorite vocaloid producers ever
Now, we need a metal cover of Alien Alien.
This song still hits me too close home in such a particular way.
Thanks sir, it's so painfully beautiful and I'm loving it even more.
Damn, this is so amazing, I'm not a fan of metal but your songs are an exception
Look at his past albums and try to listen to them fully. You might love 1 or 2 song or the whole album. I love to look at the lyrics like everyone but try to just listen to the music, hear how each instrument used makes it all a music.
Today in songs that make me cry like a baby; This one.
Every damn time.
this is my first time i know the translation. i know this is sad song but even before knowing the translation, i always can feel the despair in the tone. great song, definitely one of my favourite song.
This hits my Kokoro
Anytime smth bad happens and i get reminded of the past, i go back to this song... The lyrics really describe how i feel, growing up with mental illness...Thank you for making this song ❤
the drop in the chorus destroys me every time
It doesnt matter how many times I listen to this song, I always tear up
Oof crying while headbanging. Beautiful song.
It sounds more orchestral and epic now, aaaaaa
still listening to this song. though i am not formerly diagnosed yet, everyone around me (including my fam, friends, psychiatrist, and therapist.. yea) agree im likely on the autism specfrum with adhd. knowing this now makes me understand why i resonated with utsup so much. i have both made fun of others and been made fun of. i understand now
first heard this song, sounded great but then the lyrics got translated and im dying on the inside now
IM CRYNG
i dont know why this song in particular hits so goddamn hard, maybe it is the pitch of the voice that is in so much pain and it just screams "Why?", or the lyrics which unfold a movie in my head as i read and it is by far the most tear inducing movie i have ever had the right to "see". the end part just hits like a train, i can see her sitting in the room face sunken in, dark rings under her eyes cause of sleep deprivation, soulless eyes slowly looking up to the window and just seeing the dead tree. preparing the noose, crying and repeating "why?". i love this song
As an autistic person with ADHD, I can't begin to tell you just how much this song means to me ~
same here, alot of utsu-p's songs have really relateable lyrics to autistic/adhd people in my opinion
@@kiwii.06I got Autism too but like... This song is not about it. Ots about disabilities you actually see, but are not as bad that you get condolence points.
I love this song a lot, actually this is wonderful, I don't know what the original is but the current version really gives it that feel of 'I've been crying for the past few hours' I like it a lot.
Such a beautiful song. It's feel related to me
When they said "i love you" i really felt that fr fr on god, no lie
real
wow did i forget how hard this song makes me cry especially if i really think about it
Listening to this again I see we in the same boat
Cute song❤ a ruinene fanfic based on this brought me here. Thank you author. If you didn't exist i wouldn't be here and I wouldn't be feeling like this.
pls I need to know where to find it
This one of my favorite songs and some days it hits hard enough to make me cry 🥲
I swear this makes me cry everytime I listen to it
I've always loved Utsu-P growing up. His songs always resonated with me. I don't listen to this song often, not for it being bad or anything (it's great). I never knew how to feel about it until now. It reminds me of how closed off from people I feel. At this point in my life, I think my autism leads me to being somewhere on the ace spectrum. I want so badly to be warm and loving and held, but my autism makes me feel so adverse to physical contact and almost incapable of expressing romantic feelings (emotions in general). I can say "I love you" but what's the point if the other person doesn't understand you? They just think you're a cold b!tch. My attempts at displaying what I know I should be feeling are taken as not genuine and just acting. I wish I could show love and affection in their language, but I feel wrong or get chastised for attempting even when I know that's how normal people show it.
I really don't know what you're going through in your life, what your difficulties are or what you like and are good at, but I really think that if you try your best to express affection and love to someone and they can't accept it as something real, they really don't deserve anything from you, "You should only love those who love you" is how I was taught. But as I said, I don't really know your life so I'm sorry if everything I'm saying offends you in any way.
I really hope that everything you have problems with resolves itself with time and everything in your life works out, I don't know you but I'm sure you're a great person!!
@@Zbyamada Thank you for your kind words. I've been thinking more about things and finally got into it with my therapist. I hope I can learn to connect better. Thank you again for your reply. I wish you all the best in life!
@@BlueLemonsXX I wish you all the best too! Remember not to push yourself too hard and always take care of yourself ;)
This song is so much fun to learn and play
I really like this song , this brings so many emotions
I Didn't realise this song was so sad 😥
When I saw this in my inbox I was so excited that I started crying
It slaps so hard but my heart hurts
Such a beautiful song makes me want to bawl every time
oh, dude, this one touched me..
鬱Pの曲の中でダントツにエモくて好きな曲！
【宇宙人のアイラブユー/鬱P】
私は生まれた時から 目が三つで手が四つで肌は緑色
貧しくも温かい家庭ですくすくと健やかに育ちました
初めてのお友達は 桜木が美しい幼稚園で会い
あなたのお母さんが 眉をひそめていたのが見えたけど
やがて年を重ねても 少しだけ見た目が違う私と
変わらずに絶やさずに 思い出重ねてくれました
アイラブユー アイラブユー
アイラブユー アイラブユー
こんな気持ち初めてです
赤い実がはじけた春先
だけどこれ以上近付けない
私には『資格』がないから 嗚呼
周りの子達がやがて よそよそしくなる頃 あなたも消えた
その日は今も覚えてる 特注の体操着が失くなった日
学び舎の中でみんな 嘲笑いながら私の物真似をした
その行為は愛情と信じて 私は顔で笑う
アイラブユー アイラブユー
アイラブユー アイラブユー
あなたが好き それだけで
あなたの周りがぐちゃぐちゃになる
だから好きになってはいけない
私には『資格』がないから 嗚呼
「人はみな愛される権利を
生まれながら誰しもが持っています」
何回も春が過ぎた部屋でひとり 響くラブソング
寂しくないと言えば嘘です
わたしは 獣じゃない
植物じゃない 人間です
アイラブユー アイラブユー
アイラブユー アイラブユー
四畳半で起き上がれず 窓を見たら外は春先
枯れてしまった桜木から 命の気配はもう無い
あなたは今どこにいますか 私の事覚えていますか
人を好きになってはいけない
私には『資格』がないから
さよなら ありがとう
であえて よかったな
しかくは ないけど
さいごに アイラブユー
Desperte escuchando buena musica. Yeahh
utsu-p is amazing for adding subtitles to the video!! this should be the norm for producers i swear
the ending brings such chills.... Started studying japanese bc this language has so much emotion
Now I'm glad and that i know the meaning of the song and wish at the same time to never have learned it, this song is so beautiful and sad
Wow a reupload with English translation? Thanks a lot, Utsu-P!
gets me everytime :'(
We need this in the next miku expo
It's tomorrow dude
This is one of my favorites songs and when I saw it on my dash again I had to play it. And just like all the times I heard it, I started crying once again.
Never listened to this some before now. It slaps.
2010 年からあなたの声を聞いてきました、そしてこれからもそうしていきます、メキシコからのご挨拶
I relate to a lot of the things said in that song. I've been through all that, even if they weren't necessarily all in that order.
This song is always in my head. It's an unstoppable ear worm. And somehow I never get tired of it.
I've listened this song 7 years ago since I was a child but I can't speak Japanese so I don't know what is that means. Now I'm in college and every time I hear this song, it make me think back to my tragic experiences in high school and can't help crying😢😢😢
i wanna cry.
i'm so glad i clicked on this
Una de las mejores canciones de ALGORITHM.
Ciertamente x2
Ésta e imperfect Animals son de lo mejorcito de ese album.
@@grimmel9894 No te olvides de Chocolate Girl.
I came here for recommendation of Hakka, I already loved utsu-p but I have never heard this song...this heats really hard
I only just started to get into Utsu-P songs and figures the notification I get this morning is a music vid and translation for this just to make me very sad
この曲まじ好き！良く聴いてます！
いい歌です！
I might be a little late, but none the less still a fan of this song, I may not have cried or been emotionally moved as much as others but the idea of feeling like I am not worthy of love due to not feeling normal do to my disabilities hits home. Good job Utsu-P keep making more bangers!
Not my favorite song, but this is a nice improvement!
Definitely rose up on the score board for me!
@@violet_flower "easy for aces to feel like we're missing something that makes us human" that perfectly describes it..
but looking from another side.. just imagine how annoying it must be to have a sexual drive, so we are the only free ones ^^
@@violet_flower "it's hard to find love when everyone expects that of you"
..i met a girl a few months ago, i loved her personality so much she was so pretty and nice, we spent about 2 months with each other watching movies and talking a lot and it was a great time, but once we sat on her bed watching movies like most of the other evenings prior, and at one point she stared me in the eyes and made signaling movements, she might have done it before not sure, but this time there was no way to ignore it, she made it impossible to misunderstand, and it felt like there was not other way out than telling her that i cant do anything but love her too.. she didnt spoke much with me afterwards and was very... strange and ... rejecting ...
why does love have to involve sex i dont understand it its so fckin gross, id rather be an alien instead of an reproducedrive driven human like that, they probably just fake love to mate most of the time, its so disgusting,...
@@Deadbeeing sex to me is like eating, sleeping or breathing and without it i feel like i can't survive. Sex is such a big part of my life. I feel jealous of a sexual people though. Not having to worry about sex frees up so much time and probably keeps your head way clearer too
@@violet_flower Yeah so I was referring more to the melody of the song and the feel for it, not the actual lyrics.
Should probably have written that one down as well :P
@@violet_flower 🤷♂️
this song just like me fr
That was a pretty beautiful song 🖤
One of my favourite songs in the world.
I love this song so much, I'm so glad he remixed it
Really cool music, I don't normally like to listen to vocoloid, but I like this kind of vocolid.
Really beautiful
Don't know why this song makes me cry
This song always made me emotional and it still does. I will always love Utsu-p! ❤️🤘
When my all time favorite song gets remade... 💕💕💕
One of my favorite songs!!