Thank you for your service Sergeant Harrison. I'm from Kosovo. If it wasn't for men like you, me and my family would probably be buried under Belgrade International Airport. God bless you. You have so much to offer the world. I'm praying for you.
Ex-infantry. This guy did ten tours. TEN tours. From the horrors of Bosnia to kinetic ops in Afghan. And all the while carrying a great sense of responsibility to his mates. No wonder that caught up with him. That’s a huge and brave heart sat there. Stay strong. God bless.
Thank you for your service Sgt Craig. You may not believe us, but you ARE a hero. I am sorry that you have had to do so much heavy crap. It isn't fair, Craig, and I am so sorry that you are going through this. Your life is worth living. You are loved, respected, and needed. Thank you for all that you have done
Your story hurts my heart. You are a Hero, you did 10 tours? That’s unbelievable. God bless and keep you in his care. I’m a USMC Veteran that served during Vietnam, I’m pretty familiar with PTSD, have you ever been in a PTSD support group? Stay strong Hero!! Your concern for your men is wonderful, I hope you will come to be proud of yourself!!❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
The military needs to do a lot better job of supporting veterans. Animals are hugely helpful and I think it’s why why vets love animals so much. They’re always there, they never judge. They just love you. My prayer to you sir, and thank you for your service. Stay strong ❤️ Blessings from Canada 🇨🇦
I'm a man, never served in forces, watching this very brave man broken by mental illness. Tears are pouring down my face. Massive respect for you man. Wishing you all the very best pal.
@@davidgilbert2998 Why in war? There are plenty of ways to help society or other nations without fighting in wars. I served over 3 decades and I wish Id never been to war...the unjustified ones we were in anyway.
The mental health issues ive had is NOTHING on what this guy has gone through But the bit where he just said Im sad.....it broke me. Hes a hero and he needs to be protected by this country and should never have to struggle again....
A decent and wonderful man. You've been through enough in one lifetime. Your suicide story with Betsy effectively 'talking you down' had me in tears and I'm a middle aged bloke. Not many gentlemen like you around mate. So glad your life is slowly getting back together. All the very best.
Don't ever apologise for being emotional brother. My uncle was a 28 year SASR and 2CDO veteran. He was paralysed after a black hawk crash in Afghanistan. He now mentors returned vets and police officers with PTSD for the Australian RSL.
I understand where you're coming from, but you gotta understand that apologizing for his own 'emotions' is another way of healing... He's remorseful for taking those lives, and 'apologizing' is one way of saying his eternal apologies to the should he ended... (Make sense?)
@@patrioticsaint2516 I joined the Signal Corp in 1996, I was stationed in Lavarack Barracks in Townsville. I did one deployment in 2003 Iraq, the shit I went through still haunts me.
I just want to hug this man. Animals understand the importance of physical contact and closeness. As men nowadays that kind of emotional gesture isn't allways welcome but it's the most effective. You did the best you could at the time man.
I never served in the armed forces Craig, but I feel your pain, your mental trauma, felt it watching you in this video. The demons, the horrific mental torture, the sleepless nights in torment, the wailing for it to stop, the feeling of unadulterated loneliness, and the decisions to commit suicide, ANYTHING, just to make it go away. I have suffered this for many years ,,,through watching my son. He was an injured veteran , he was was not even 20 yrs old, disabled out of the armed forces in the Falklands. He was sent home after months of hospitalisation, having had a head injury and micro surgery in his eye ,on the field. He never recovered, and finally was diagnosed with P.T.S.D. The last few years was hell on earth,,, his mental health was deteriorating… I tried EVERYTHING I possibly could to scream for help for him,,to no avail,,, Latterly, I was watching him dying before my eyes, and I knew I was failing fast too, mentally and physically,, Last October 2022, he put his arms around me and said , ( Mum!! There is no help for me out there, I can’t bear to watch you die a bit each day)…Life demanded more than he could give, he committed suicide on 14th October 2022.. .. I found him and wanted to die beside him,,,But ,,,HE DIED, SO I COULD LIVE. He left me behind, but each day I find the strength to go on, so his death would not be in vain..But now I live with P.T.S.D. and his symptoms..albeit,,I have never served in The Armed Forces.. THANKYOU for sharing this video Craig, …Unbelievably!! It gave me comfort,, you have much to give, your story reached my heart and my soul and strength to go on. For that ..I THANK YOU SOLDIER… Warm regards, A soldiers mum…Phoebe ❤️🙏❤️🌈🌈🌈
Phoebe hard to find decent words for you, and your story is heart wrenching. I served with Craig not in combat just normal regimental duties, and i am learning lot's of things about him i didn't know. He has so much to offer to so many people, his quest to find strength will be helped in his current survival course set up. Maybe you could spend a weekend with him and meet like minded people? Good luck to you be strong. 😘
I'm so terribly sorry to hear what you're going through. I hope you have or at least find people who love you to surround you in this terrible time. Hang in there!
I myself are diagnosed with PTSD, however not from a "warzone" but from 20 years of abuse form my parents, i ve been so close to commit suicide so many times i really feel with Craig, i dont see a warzone in my daily flashbacks i see me living at home where i have to fight everyday to not die from the abuse my parents did to me, beatings, starvations and other corporeal punishments its horrible that someone who "loves" you can cause you so much pain and misery. take care even if we get to hear them say "man up" we must march on and show them what it is we are dealing with so that others in the future may live without the stigma. peace be with you!
What a genuinely lovely bloke!! After suffering with mental health myself I can’t explain how amazing it is to hear how a man as truly inspiring as himself share such a heart wrenching story! I’d truly love to meet him for a coffee one day!!!
Thankfully, our men have a clinical diagnosis, and ideally therapy and meds, plus support groups to help them navigate this horrible pain. When my father was in WWII, they called it shell shock, or combat fatigue. After he came back from Vietnam, I would wake up hearing him screaming from nightmares, until our mom was able to calm him. Heroes all.
Incredible story and so sad that the military cannot accommodate their own, particularly after serving like this chap has. It's like they are let down by the forces when they need them most ...just letting them go. Thank goodness Craig had a supportive wife and the lovely Betsy. Signing up for the Veterans Lottery after watching this and multiple other veterans stories.
The respect I have for this man is unreal an all the other men that are suffering god love ya staying strong ❤ you’ve made your whole country proud what an incredible inspiration to any man or women in life ❤
Craig please don’t do anything silly,your family needs you . You are a legend,brave strong and yet a very kind person who always puts others first . Thank you for video sharing your demons,you aren’t alone my friend,we do care about you. Best wishes,stay strong and as time goes on you will cope better. P.s Love Betsy ,she was a dear little dog . Love to have an update in 12 months.
This young man's life story is the SADDEST I have ever heard. You have my deepest RESPECT... Although I am from a completely different country to you may I add a THANK YOU!!!
What an incredible bloke. I wish it was as easy as snapping our fingers to take these brave soldiers pain away. They’ve given everything, their blood, sweat & tears for their country. They deserve all the support in the world. I hope Craig can learn to forgive himself & to again see the beauty in life. Bless him ❤
A true display of bravery, to be able to speak out like this. Have you considered or has it ever been suggested to you, that you may have high functioning Autism
Don’t ever apologise for being emotional, after what you’ve seen and been a part of you have nothing to apologise for! You are a hero no matter what you think!! Thank you for your service!
Awww, what a bloody cutie. Such a lovely guy and so brave. I couldn't do anything Craig has done, especially crying or admitting he's hurting mentally... he's so brave and strong.
Craig your story is like mine in so many ways. My dog Brian is my only crutch I don't speak to the boys I was a queit lad anyway and only had a few good pals. I used to put my browning in my mouth with a round in and the only thing that stopped me was the guys would have to clean me up and there was already a bullet hole in the desk from the other boot neck who had done the same. The sadness is the worst and the isolation is a killer and a healer at the same time. I can't be with people they take my energy. I sit on the beach and look at the sea mostly and walk miles with Brian. You are the first guy I feel who has the balls to admit this with the reputation needed to help us. Your purpose is to help me and the others. You can't check out your too necessary to us. You will get time to stand down eventually but on good terms, you will leave us with the right message and not one that it is futile to keep trying because you know we depend on you to show us by living well that it can be done. Thanks Craig
Bosnian here. Thanks man. For you it was a tour but we felt abandoned to be killed by the Serbs. Having you guys helped a lot. So thanks and stay strong
I have no military experience, but committed a part of my life in supporting our service members, our wounded and made a stint at supporting families' losses in France. PTSD is no simple issue and need to be addressed accordingly. But our armies tend to turn a deaf ear on it. The man could work as an instructor - I hear we need excellent snipers. There's no easy way for him. I just wish the man to stay strong.
Takes a brave man to talk as openly as you do it’s obvious to everyone your a brave and caring person it’s always yourself that’s the hardest to convince your an important and special human being weather you believe it or not take care Craig
I got diagnosed with cptsd a few months ago and the way you act etc makes sense. It's supposedly prolonged stress, how I'm alive today I don't know the amount of times overdosing. Thrill seeking, risky behaviour, bad dreams, seeing stuff not good. I'm really deep down a sensible kind of person but the bullshit I've pulled over the years, it's complex PTSD for sure.
My dad had PTSD from vietnam tour and never talked about it. Chronic alcholic and violent outbursts, but he kept it all in and drank. I truly wonder what he experienced and what would have helped him had he sought help. Not sure there was much help. I truly feel bad for him to this day. He's passed on but now as I get older I only ever realize a tiny whisper of what he must have been passing thru. These men deserve the best care when they return. Thank you Craig for helping them and for truly being a warrior, even after you felt totally broken. Your wife is an angel and I pray for you both.
You are so much stronger than you think. You have a purpose, you are saving peoples lives and making a difference. An inspiration, call it what you will. The hardest battles we have to fight aren't in some far away land they're here when we are on leave or retired. Just when you think its all over you have to start fighting again. I don't know you but I hope you read this and carry on what you are doing. Please stay strong and keep talking and raising awareness.
fought 22 months in ukraine, thinking every day about death... Lost almost all of my brothers from the unit, came back lost my lovely woman... She dont even wanna speak to me after the demon she seen that came out of me... indescribable mental pain like he said... Very long nights, very short days... Countless psychologist and fysiotherapy... Still not much changed... I dont wish this to anybody...
This has me in tears i know how it feels to battle with suicidal thoughts daily, but i have no idea how it must feel to have to deal with all the horrific thing's that Craig has seen and been through. To me Craig is a hero for being so honest and open about his suffering, i really hope and pray that he finds peace and happiness soon because he's had an incredible life and so much bravery for doing so many dangerous tours. I have nothing but huge amounts of respect and love for the man ❤❤
I ain't a soldier by any stretch of the imagination, but I have suicidal thoughts every day as well. Hearing you say you're sad all the time and that you think of suicide every day and that you were a mask all the time struck a chord in me I did not know I had. I, too, wear a mask and I, too, am sorry when it slips. I always feel I am burdening those around me when I let it slip. I'm sorry you have to carry such a heavy burden and I'm eternally thankful that you shared your burden with the world. It gives me a bit of hope that I can continue to carry on. So thank you. Thank you very much
Wow, that was very emotional. Craig, you are loved. Always REMEMBER that. Thank you for sharing and speaking about what you went through and what you are still going through. I thank you for your service and appreciate the person you are.. much love mate, be strong and remember there are people that love you...
im not ashamed to admit that this video was the first yt video that made me genuinely tear up. the part with him in the kitchen and betsy saving his life broke me down. what a kind soul you are craig, nothing but the best wishes for you
Thank you for sharing your pain with me, Craig. I've never served in the military but I've had a dozen tramatic brain injuries, survived over a dozen 600 volt electrocutions, dozens of broken bones and I was dead fron exsanguination for over five minutes. But it wasn't until I was diagnosed with two malignant cancers and lost my career because my employer lied to me about the lead paint I was welding on for six years and then they had my union destroy me for standing up for my right not to do unsafe work until it was fixed. Finally, when my doctors quit on me I gave up on ever seeking help from a doctor or hospital ever again. I quit chemo and all my cancer treatments. I cancelled my surgeries and walked away from my friends and family. They broke my trust and faith in humanity, So, now I just wait for the end and just hope I pass in my sleep. I live with CPTSD and high level chronic pain every second of my life. I was so low at one point, I built myself a gaschamber to finally end all the pain. But a very special person saved me from that last action two days before my plan was to play ouit. I feel what you're going through Craig, and I wish you all the best for you and yours for the rest of your days. I haven't gotten to where you are in your recovery, yet. I can't leave the yard or talk to anyone but my wonderful wife and my cats. I lost my cat, Thomas, who was my best friend and kept me alive as well. The unconditional love animals give us means more than I could ever describe. I miss him dearly. I'm so sorry for your loss of Betsy. A friend like that is so very special! But, just knowing men like you have found the strength to keep moving forward gives me a sliver of hope that, maybe some day, I might be able to once again walk out into the world. Stay strong brother, the world need you in it! Thank you for your service.
“Pain that you can’t express.” Absolutely hit the nail on the head with that one. Keep fighting the good fight brother and keep your eyes on the horizon.
Had me in bloody tears here Craig! If I could take your pain away I'd bloody do it because you've got family and friends out there who love you and need you. This world is a much better place WITH you mate...remember that! It really is!
I wish you the best Craig! Always try to fight another day mate!! I can't imagine what you've been through! You seem like an amazing guy! I too have ptsd and struggle daily, Thankyou for your service and there's always somebody that will be there for you as shit as life can seem! I wish you nothing but the best! Regards from Perth Western Australia 🇦🇺
Thank you for sharing your story. I can't imagine how tough that must be but I hope one day you appreciate as much as I do just how incredibly helpful you're being by talking, sharing and being honest. Thank you!
He's one big unit lol my god sooner be in crosshairs of gun than his bare arms lol absolutely different breed and such humble guy. Nothing but respect to him.
Craig I can see your pain, I served in the 70's 3 tours of Northern Ireland. What you must have seen on your tours was a lot more than I saw I'm sure and I wish you the best going forward.
I have heard men .. grown men in an Ojibway Sweat Lodge cry like a children as they spoke of things they witnessed. Crying is a cleansing, a first step to healing. When we talk and share amongst others, secrets and fears become less scary. A gentleman who served in Kosovo and Kuwait was at one Sweet Lodge . He spoke very little in the Lodge unsure the level of trust within the pitch black Sweet and you can speak or decline.. up to the person… Once outside though, he shared something that, in all I could do was smile and nod my bewilderment or acceptance as well as my appreciation for his revelation. He said within the Sweat Lodge he saw a silhouette of a Bear. A Bear represents Strength, Courage, Protection and Healing. It was if in a instant he understood his need for redirection on the suicidal thoughts plaguing him. He said in an instant I felt a profound understanding that if he was to swallow a barrel of his 9mm Browning High Powered Automatic, than he is abandoning his promise to those men whom he served and swore to protect. If he died by his own hand, than those men would see death equally as a way to end the pain and suffering each man had returned home with. They would see his fatal solution as a viable means to follow in the same destructive path. When we listen to the Rascals’ whispering in our head they only get louder and stronger the more we listen and believe. Listening to negative self sympathy and low self esteem, dents to our armour and leaves us vulnerable to more pain. We are stronger than those whispers as we’ve proven during many times when shit hits the fan and your selector switch goes on retarded fire. He later said that he was and still is responsible for the lives of his men he served with through a unshakeable bond of kinship earned in honour. If I was too end my life than I am no longer keeping my men safe and alive. I have failed them. If they lern I had ended my life to escape the pain… they will feel they too can end their life. By my example…phuck that..I will not carry that burden One less of the 22 A-Day
So proud of what you have done, and speaking out on these issues! I hope you truly find peace and comfort. Much love from the other side of the pond! - Morganton, NC USA
Brought me to tears, what a brilliant human with a message so strong for every single one of us. Immense courage to do this interview, Craig I think your best days are ahead of you 💪🏻 All the respect in the world for you brother, much love 🙏🏻
One word .......Legend !!! Everything you have said speaks out to many that are suffering. Your story is valuable for many now and more for the future. The work that you have put into the army is forgotten within minutes. In civvy life your work and purpose will be remembered by many !!!!
What a great guy. A shame how they are treated from the army and some people of us. Highest respect and if I would be in his country, I would participate in one of his classes, even I already know the tasks. The only thing, I can tell, your are needed and your duty hasn't end. You are important for so many people and you should take on that. This is more than many people could say about their situation. Keep fighting the demons and show everybody how to get the win.
I’ve been out of the Silent Service for 25 years and the suicidal thoughts on the daily, multiple times a day, some days every fucking hour just wear you down. The transition out of a tight knit and focused life at a very young age to a rudderless civilian life is more difficult than people think. Hang in their mate and keep living.
Craig, keep on going m8. I am civilian, not ever being in combat, seen it, or barely have an idea how it actually is. I have much respect for you. Much love, from the Netherlands.
I have never been a soldier, but what you experienced is so real to me. At the worst point I was finding it impossible to relax, and the flashbacks were charging up the mental voltage. Several actions brought me on thr road to recovery: 1/. Meds were minimal and taken only to stop the flashbacks from locking in. (Mirtazapine for fear, sadness, Diazepam for anger, one dose taken in the 2 weekly "washing machine cycle" of mood swings.) 2/ I switched my thinking from trying to shrink the conundrum (reductive or solution-focussed thinking) to making it bigger (divergent or holistic thinking). It was when holistically looking for what was missing that I realised I had childhood amnesia about a long-drawn-out abuse scene, and started requesting my care file - that was the moment when the major depression ended, suicidal thoughts ceased, and I was on the road to recovery. The NHS staff who reckoned my lifespan in months, saw me change overnight and come back to life, and were astonished. To learn about convergent/holistic etc, there is a free course with the Open University called "Systems Thinking". Best Wishes.
Mate this is heavy the words this warrior used hit home hard PTSD is not being able to express your mental pain. Animals are truly the most pure innocent uncorrupt non judgmental beautiful beings. My cat saved me the look in his eyes the unconditional love the cries for food. Sometimes just hearing him meow when i know hes hungry makes me grounded in reality its another day another job.
I'm not military, but I worked for my country in a people's war zone, when I was very young. The real hard thing is, like they drop you, like you're a dirt bag, when you hav issues or your job is done. No support at all to adjust to live at home no asking, how you're doing. I can only imagine how long serving soldiers feel.
I know that feeling man. Every vet feels your pain. I’d hug you if I could. We gotta make it through, we need to find our purpose. After 9 years of being out I don’t know mine yet but I do know one day it will be protecting and helping people again. Stay strong.
You my friend are a true legend.. Watching you explain your sadness broke me I felt your pain through your words. Keep fighting on my brother for your self and for your family.
My father was sbs korea he had issues threw out his life, dont ever say sorry mate not for stuff like this, im lucky ex army and RAF ive never been in combat as i say lucky, one daughter army one RAF and navy son submariner i feel so lucky non saw combat, you are an exceptional person who has been treated badley by the armed services. Pleas pleas look after yourself, Wishing you all the best
The men and women I see in these videos are incredibly brave and what they go through both in service, and after, is truly heartbreaking. I can’t help thinking that we should encourage people not to join the armed forces. It seems like they get little to no help from the country they serve unconditionally after they have left.
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Thank you for your service Sergeant Harrison. I'm from Kosovo. If it wasn't for men like you, me and my family would probably be buried under Belgrade International Airport. God bless you. You have so much to offer the world. I'm praying for you.
Ex-infantry. This guy did ten tours. TEN tours. From the horrors of Bosnia to kinetic ops in Afghan. And all the while carrying a great sense of responsibility to his mates. No wonder that caught up with him. That’s a huge and brave heart sat there. Stay strong. God bless.
Thank you for your service Sgt Craig. You may not believe us, but you ARE a hero. I am sorry that you have had to do so much heavy crap. It isn't fair, Craig, and I am so sorry that you are going through this. Your life is worth living. You are loved, respected, and needed. Thank you for all that you have done
Your story hurts my heart. You are a Hero, you did 10 tours? That’s unbelievable. God bless and keep you in his care. I’m a USMC Veteran that served during Vietnam, I’m pretty familiar with PTSD, have you ever been in a PTSD support group? Stay strong Hero!! Your concern for your men is wonderful, I hope you will come to be proud of yourself!!❤️🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
His story of killing innocent civilians in THEIR own country hurts u?Well that's like sympathising with the murderer,do u even have conscience?
The military needs to do a lot better job of supporting veterans. Animals are hugely helpful and I think it’s why why vets love animals so much. They’re always there, they never judge. They just love you. My prayer to you sir, and thank you for your service. Stay strong ❤️ Blessings from Canada 🇨🇦
I'm a man, never served in forces, watching this very brave man broken by mental illness. Tears are pouring down my face. Massive respect for you man. Wishing you all the very best pal.
If only some of these soldiers could remain in the military as instructors etc...Hero is an understatement for this man, hope he gets well.
I agree. It’s messed up
Jesus christ. I'm a 50 years old man crying typing this comment . This poor guy and everyone else with the disorder. My heart goes out to you all. ❤
Same I’m 30 I want to help in war if I die I die. I’m broke
I have no purpose
@@davidgilbert2998 Why in war? There are plenty of ways to help society or other nations without fighting in wars. I served over 3 decades and I wish Id never been to war...the unjustified ones we were in anyway.
The mental health issues ive had is NOTHING on what this guy has gone through
But the bit where he just said Im sad.....it broke me.
Hes a hero and he needs to be protected by this country and should never have to struggle again....
A decent and wonderful man. You've been through enough in one lifetime. Your suicide story with Betsy effectively 'talking you down' had me in tears and I'm a middle aged bloke. Not many gentlemen like you around mate. So glad your life is slowly getting back together. All the very best.
Very well said mate.
Don't ever apologise for being emotional brother. My uncle was a 28 year SASR and 2CDO veteran. He was paralysed after a black hawk crash in Afghanistan. He now mentors returned vets and police officers with PTSD for the Australian RSL.
He served in 2cdo and SASR?. Dude must be a badass.
Nope
I understand where you're coming from, but you gotta understand that apologizing for his own 'emotions' is another way of healing...
He's remorseful for taking those lives, and 'apologizing' is one way of saying his eternal apologies to the should he ended...
(Make sense?)
@@patrioticsaint2516 I joined the Signal Corp in 1996, I was stationed in Lavarack Barracks in Townsville. I did one deployment in 2003 Iraq, the shit I went through still haunts me.
I appreciate the puscifer pfp. Also condolences to your Uncle.
What a brave man , hope he gets the help he needs.
Brave ? He's a murderer war is futile . Men killing men for what nothing .
I just want to hug this man. Animals understand the importance of physical contact and closeness. As men nowadays that kind of emotional gesture isn't allways welcome but it's the most effective. You did the best you could at the time man.
What an incredible man, an amazing human being a lot of people care and love you Craig you are the epitome of a strong human being you are amazing!
I never served in the armed forces Craig, but I feel your pain, your mental trauma, felt it watching you in this video. The demons, the horrific mental torture, the sleepless nights in torment, the wailing for it to stop, the feeling of unadulterated loneliness, and the decisions to commit suicide, ANYTHING, just to make it go away.
I have suffered this for many years ,,,through watching my son. He was an injured veteran , he was was not even 20 yrs old, disabled out of the armed forces in the Falklands. He was sent home after months of hospitalisation, having had a head injury and micro surgery in his eye ,on the field. He never recovered, and finally was diagnosed with P.T.S.D. The last few years was hell on earth,,, his mental health was deteriorating… I tried EVERYTHING I possibly could to scream for help for him,,to no avail,,, Latterly, I was watching him dying before my eyes, and I knew I was failing fast too, mentally and physically,, Last October 2022, he put his arms around me and said , ( Mum!! There is no help for me out there, I can’t bear to watch you die a bit each day)…Life demanded more than he could give, he committed suicide on 14th October 2022.. .. I found him and wanted to die beside him,,,But ,,,HE DIED, SO I COULD LIVE. He left me behind, but each day I find the strength to go on, so his death would not be in vain..But now I live with P.T.S.D. and his symptoms..albeit,,I have never served in The Armed Forces..
THANKYOU for sharing this video Craig, …Unbelievably!! It gave me comfort,, you have much to give, your story reached my heart and my soul and strength to go on. For that ..I THANK YOU SOLDIER…
Warm regards, A soldiers mum…Phoebe ❤️🙏❤️🌈🌈🌈
Phoebe hard to find decent words for you, and your story is heart wrenching. I served with Craig not in combat just normal regimental duties, and i am learning lot's of things about him i didn't know. He has so much to offer to so many people, his quest to find strength will be helped in his current survival course set up. Maybe you could spend a weekend with him and meet like minded people? Good luck to you be strong. 😘
Wow such a sad story, I hope you stay strong and I give you all the love you deserve ❤
I'm so terribly sorry to hear what you're going through. I hope you have or at least find people who love you to surround you in this terrible time. Hang in there!
oh my God I feel Craig`s Pain the silent pain the worst pain a human can feel. I feel you Brother and I pray you will be free from the prison of mind.
I myself are diagnosed with PTSD, however not from a "warzone" but from 20 years of abuse form my parents, i ve been so close to commit suicide so many times i really feel with Craig, i dont see a warzone in my daily flashbacks i see me living at home where i have to fight everyday to not die from the abuse my parents did to me, beatings, starvations and other corporeal punishments its horrible that someone who "loves" you can cause you so much pain and misery. take care even if we get to hear them say "man up" we must march on and show them what it is we are dealing with so that others in the future may live without the stigma. peace be with you!
Big up craigy. The fact this guy is so in touch with how he feels and is brave enough to open up and share this makes him twice the warrior !
What a genuinely lovely bloke!! After suffering with mental health myself I can’t explain how amazing it is to hear how a man as truly inspiring as himself share such a heart wrenching story! I’d truly love to meet him for a coffee one day!!!
Thankfully, our men have a clinical diagnosis, and ideally therapy and meds, plus support groups to help them navigate this horrible pain. When my father was in WWII, they called it shell shock, or combat fatigue. After he came back from Vietnam, I would wake up hearing him screaming from nightmares, until our mom was able to calm him. Heroes all.
Incredible story and so sad that the military cannot accommodate their own, particularly after serving like this chap has. It's like they are let down by the forces when they need them most ...just letting them go. Thank goodness Craig had a supportive wife and the lovely Betsy. Signing up for the Veterans Lottery after watching this and multiple other veterans stories.
Thanks so much for your kind words and support Melanie!
The respect I have for this man is unreal an all the other men that are suffering god love ya staying strong ❤ you’ve made your whole country proud what an incredible inspiration to any man or women in life ❤
You're a wonderful person Craig ❤️
Craig please don’t do anything silly,your family needs you .
You are a legend,brave strong and yet a very kind person who always puts others first .
Thank you for video sharing your demons,you aren’t alone my friend,we do care about you.
Best wishes,stay strong and as time goes on you will cope better.
P.s
Love Betsy ,she was a dear little dog .
Love to have an update in 12 months.
This young man's life story is the SADDEST I have ever heard. You have my deepest RESPECT... Although I am from a completely different country to you may I add a THANK YOU!!!
He bought that sadness congratulations
Giving you a virtual hug brother. So sorry you feel like that.
Cant imagine what it has been to be you, i´m a paramedic for more than 20 years and a UN peacekeeper in Bosnia, i hope you can feel my support
What an incredible bloke. I wish it was as easy as snapping our fingers to take these brave soldiers pain away. They’ve given everything, their blood, sweat & tears for their country. They deserve all the support in the world. I hope Craig can learn to forgive himself & to again see the beauty in life. Bless him ❤
Respect man, you have a purpose and it's to live and tell your story, you've saved many lives
Craig, you help a lot more people than just your comrades by telling your story. I really hope you realize this and draw strength from it
Sgt Craig Harrison.
Thank you 🇬🇧💚
I am ex army i have got tears in my eyes listen too you bless you my brother please come through
STRONG MAN ❤
A true display of bravery, to be able to speak out like this. Have you considered or has it ever been suggested to you, that you may have high functioning Autism
Don’t ever apologise for being emotional, after what you’ve seen and been a part of you have nothing to apologise for!
You are a hero no matter what you think!! Thank you for your service!
Awww, what a bloody cutie. Such a lovely guy and so brave. I couldn't do anything Craig has done, especially crying or admitting he's hurting mentally... he's so brave and strong.
Craig your story is like mine in so many ways. My dog Brian is my only crutch I don't speak to the boys I was a queit lad anyway and only had a few good pals. I used to put my browning in my mouth with a round in and the only thing that stopped me was the guys would have to clean me up and there was already a bullet hole in the desk from the other boot neck who had done the same. The sadness is the worst and the isolation is a killer and a healer at the same time. I can't be with people they take my energy. I sit on the beach and look at the sea mostly and walk miles with Brian. You are the first guy I feel who has the balls to admit this with the reputation needed to help us. Your purpose is to help me and the others. You can't check out your too necessary to us. You will get time to stand down eventually but on good terms, you will leave us with the right message and not one that it is futile to keep trying because you know we depend on you to show us by living well that it can be done. Thanks Craig
Bosnian here. Thanks man. For you it was a tour but we felt abandoned to be killed by the Serbs. Having you guys helped a lot. So thanks and stay strong
I have no military experience, but committed a part of my life in supporting our service members, our wounded and made a stint at supporting families' losses in France.
PTSD is no simple issue and need to be addressed accordingly. But our armies tend to turn a deaf ear on it. The man could work as an instructor - I hear we need excellent snipers.
There's no easy way for him. I just wish the man to stay strong.
What an amazing gentleman thank you for your service , so so brave I feel your pain ptsd is one of the worst things to endure , god bless you 🙏
Takes a brave man to talk as openly as you do it’s obvious to everyone your a brave and caring person it’s always yourself that’s the hardest to convince your an important and special human being weather you believe it or not take care Craig
I love this man ive seen this a few times on fb ive been dealing with ptsd since 2021 videos like this really do help
I got diagnosed with cptsd a few months ago and the way you act etc makes sense. It's supposedly prolonged stress, how I'm alive today I don't know the amount of times overdosing. Thrill seeking, risky behaviour, bad dreams, seeing stuff not good. I'm really deep down a sensible kind of person but the bullshit I've pulled over the years, it's complex PTSD for sure.
Also it's about the dude
My dad had PTSD from vietnam tour and never talked about it. Chronic alcholic and violent outbursts, but he kept it all in and drank. I truly wonder what he experienced and what would have helped him had he sought help. Not sure there was much help. I truly feel bad for him to this day. He's passed on but now as I get older I only ever realize a tiny whisper of what he must have been passing thru. These men deserve the best care when they return. Thank you Craig for helping them and for truly being a warrior, even after you felt totally broken. Your wife is an angel and I pray for you both.
Listen mate, you done your your Job And more.The Regiment you Served in was the best ❤❤❤
First, thank you Craig for your service. What are you what you are doing now is more important than what you did keep fighting never surrender.
Keep fighting Craig. Wishing you well.
You are so much stronger than you think. You have a purpose, you are saving peoples lives and making a difference. An inspiration, call it what you will. The hardest battles we have to fight aren't in some far away land they're here when we are on leave or retired. Just when you think its all over you have to start fighting again. I don't know you but I hope you read this and carry on what you are doing. Please stay strong and keep talking and raising awareness.
I have never cried while watching a TH-cam video. Until now! Someone really understands! Thank you.
Great respect Mr ...I wish health,safe and strong...
All the best 🕊️🤝
fought 22 months in ukraine, thinking every day about death... Lost almost all of my brothers from the unit, came back lost my lovely woman... She dont even wanna speak to me after the demon she seen that came out of me... indescribable mental pain like he said... Very long nights, very short days... Countless psychologist and fysiotherapy... Still not much changed... I dont wish this to anybody...
You have a purpose now brother. Thank you Betsy RIP.
What happened did he commit suicide 😮
This has me in tears i know how it feels to battle with suicidal thoughts daily, but i have no idea how it must feel to have to deal with all the horrific thing's that Craig has seen and been through.
To me Craig is a hero for being so honest and open about his suffering, i really hope and pray that he finds peace and happiness soon because he's had an incredible life and so much bravery for doing so many dangerous tours.
I have nothing but huge amounts of respect and love for the man ❤❤
Haven't cried in a long time but when he said he talks to a pic of his dog it got me. Goddamn man. We NEED to be doing more for these people.
I ain't a soldier by any stretch of the imagination, but I have suicidal thoughts every day as well. Hearing you say you're sad all the time and that you think of suicide every day and that you were a mask all the time struck a chord in me I did not know I had. I, too, wear a mask and I, too, am sorry when it slips. I always feel I am burdening those around me when I let it slip. I'm sorry you have to carry such a heavy burden and I'm eternally thankful that you shared your burden with the world. It gives me a bit of hope that I can continue to carry on. So thank you. Thank you very much
Wow, that was very emotional. Craig, you are loved. Always REMEMBER that. Thank you for sharing and speaking about what you went through and what you are still going through. I thank you for your service and appreciate the person you are.. much love mate, be strong and remember there are people that love you...
You sir are a Fkn Hero 👌🏴💙🙏God Bless you from an ex Paratrooper an ied survivor also badly fkd up with PTSD 😢GTC 👹💥💥💥
Thank you for staying human after all what you went through. Stay strong! I wish you all the best for your family & you!
this made me cry. hope he gets peace
im not ashamed to admit that this video was the first yt video that made me genuinely tear up. the part with him in the kitchen and betsy saving his life broke me down. what a kind soul you are craig, nothing but the best wishes for you
Thank you for sharing your pain with me, Craig.
I've never served in the military but I've had a dozen tramatic brain injuries, survived over a dozen 600 volt electrocutions, dozens of broken bones and I was dead fron exsanguination for over five minutes.
But it wasn't until I was diagnosed with two malignant cancers and lost my career because my employer lied to me about the lead paint I was welding on for six years and then they had my union destroy me for standing up for my right not to do unsafe work until it was fixed.
Finally, when my doctors quit on me I gave up on ever seeking help from a doctor or hospital ever again.
I quit chemo and all my cancer treatments.
I cancelled my surgeries and walked away from my friends and family.
They broke my trust and faith in humanity,
So, now I just wait for the end and just hope I pass in my sleep.
I live with CPTSD and high level chronic pain every second of my life.
I was so low at one point, I built myself a gaschamber to finally end all the pain.
But a very special person saved me from that last action two days before my plan was to play ouit.
I feel what you're going through Craig, and I wish you all the best for you and yours for the rest of your days.
I haven't gotten to where you are in your recovery, yet.
I can't leave the yard or talk to anyone but my wonderful wife and my cats.
I lost my cat, Thomas, who was my best friend and kept me alive as well.
The unconditional love animals give us means more than I could ever describe.
I miss him dearly.
I'm so sorry for your loss of Betsy.
A friend like that is so very special!
But, just knowing men like you have found the strength to keep moving forward gives me a sliver of hope that,
maybe some day, I might be able to once again walk out into the world.
Stay strong brother, the world need you in it!
Thank you for your service.
Of what I understood, the guy is sad because he is not in the army, not because he is sorry of all the people he killed.
You are e good man stai wel broder respect to you greatings from Holland
“Pain that you can’t express.” Absolutely hit the nail on the head with that one. Keep fighting the good fight brother and keep your eyes on the horizon.
One of the most emotional videos I’ve ever watched. A true hero for opening up. Keep on going brother.
Craig, YOU are an inspiration, You are an amazing human being , Stay safe ALWAYS
Had me in bloody tears here Craig! If I could take your pain away I'd bloody do it because you've got family and friends out there who love you and need you. This world is a much better place WITH you mate...remember that! It really is!
I wish you the best Craig! Always try to fight another day mate!! I can't imagine what you've been through! You seem like an amazing guy! I too have ptsd and struggle daily, Thankyou for your service and there's always somebody that will be there for you as shit as life can seem! I wish you nothing but the best! Regards from Perth Western Australia 🇦🇺
Thank you for sharing your story. I can't imagine how tough that must be but I hope one day you appreciate as much as I do just how incredibly helpful you're being by talking, sharing and being honest. Thank you!
He's one big unit lol my god sooner be in crosshairs of gun than his bare arms lol absolutely different breed and such humble guy. Nothing but respect to him.
Craig, I also want to say due to your words at the end, thank you for working towards saving your own life.
Craig I can see your pain, I served in the 70's 3 tours of Northern Ireland. What you must have seen on your tours was a lot more than I saw I'm sure and I wish you the best going forward.
So smart to channel that pain into helping others. Thank you!
I have heard men .. grown men in an Ojibway Sweat Lodge cry like a children as they spoke of things they witnessed. Crying is a cleansing, a first step to healing. When we talk and share amongst others, secrets and fears become less scary. A gentleman who served in Kosovo and Kuwait was at one Sweet Lodge . He spoke very little in the Lodge unsure the level of trust within the pitch black Sweet and you can speak or decline.. up to the person… Once outside though, he shared something that, in all I could do was smile and nod my bewilderment or acceptance as well as my appreciation for his revelation. He said within the Sweat Lodge he saw a silhouette of a Bear. A Bear represents Strength, Courage, Protection and Healing. It was if in a instant he understood his need for redirection on the suicidal thoughts plaguing him. He said in an instant I felt a profound understanding that if he was to swallow a barrel of his 9mm Browning High Powered Automatic, than he is abandoning his promise to those men whom he served and swore to protect. If he died by his own hand, than those men would see death equally as a way to end the pain and suffering each man had returned home with. They would see his fatal solution as a viable means to follow in the same destructive path. When we listen to the Rascals’ whispering in our head they only get louder and stronger the more we listen and believe. Listening to negative self sympathy and low self esteem, dents to our armour and leaves us vulnerable to more pain. We are stronger than those whispers as we’ve proven during many times when shit hits the fan and your selector switch goes on retarded fire. He later said that he was and still is responsible for the lives of his men he served with through a unshakeable bond of kinship earned in honour. If I was too end my life than I am no longer keeping my men safe and alive. I have failed them. If they lern I had ended my life to escape the pain… they will feel they too can end their life. By my example…phuck that..I will not carry that burden
One less of the 22 A-Day
id like to meet that dude and hang out just go for coffee and listen to him.
Craig I just want to hug you and listen to you. ❤
Thank you for your service and bravery ❤
So proud of what you have done, and speaking out on these issues! I hope you truly find peace and comfort. Much love from the other side of the pond! - Morganton, NC USA
Thank you Craig. You are not just a hero you are a legend. This has me in tears. And now subscribing to veterans lottery
I pray this man finds peace. This is fucking horrific.
I'm so in awe and admiration for you Craig
I'd love to come and see you ,shake your hand a buy you a pint, respect
Brought me to tears, what a brilliant human with a message so strong for every single one of us.
Immense courage to do this interview, Craig I think your best days are ahead of you 💪🏻
All the respect in the world for you brother, much love 🙏🏻
The world needs more people like you, people that aren't afraid of telling it how it is. You are a hero mate, keep ya head up brother 👍
One word .......Legend !!!
Everything you have said speaks out to many that are suffering. Your story is valuable for many now and more for the future.
The work that you have put into the army is forgotten within minutes. In civvy life your work and purpose will be remembered by many !!!!
❤ inspiration Craig. Thank you
What a great guy. A shame how they are treated from the army and some people of us.
Highest respect and if I would be in his country, I would participate in one of his classes, even I already know the tasks.
The only thing, I can tell, your are needed and your duty hasn't end. You are important for so many people and you should
take on that. This is more than many people could say about their situation. Keep fighting the demons and show everybody how
to get the win.
I’ve been out of the Silent Service for 25 years and the suicidal thoughts on the daily, multiple times a day, some days every fucking hour just wear you down. The transition out of a tight knit and focused life at a very young age to a rudderless civilian life is more difficult than people think. Hang in their mate and keep living.
Craig, keep on going m8. I am civilian, not ever being in combat, seen it, or barely have an idea how it actually is. I have much respect for you. Much love, from the Netherlands.
I have never been a soldier, but what you experienced is so real to me. At the worst point I was finding it impossible to relax, and the flashbacks were charging up the mental voltage. Several actions brought me on thr road to recovery:
1/. Meds were minimal and taken only to stop the flashbacks from locking in. (Mirtazapine for fear, sadness, Diazepam for anger, one dose taken in the 2 weekly "washing machine cycle" of mood swings.)
2/ I switched my thinking from trying to shrink the conundrum (reductive or solution-focussed thinking) to making it bigger (divergent or holistic thinking). It was when holistically looking for what was missing that I realised I had childhood amnesia about a long-drawn-out abuse scene, and started requesting my care file - that was the moment when the major depression ended, suicidal thoughts ceased, and I was on the road to recovery. The NHS staff who reckoned my lifespan in months, saw me change overnight and come back to life, and were astonished.
To learn about convergent/holistic etc, there is a free course with the Open University called "Systems Thinking". Best Wishes.
Mate this is heavy the words this warrior used hit home hard PTSD is not being able to express your mental pain. Animals are truly the most pure innocent uncorrupt non judgmental beautiful beings. My cat saved me the look in his eyes the unconditional love the cries for food. Sometimes just hearing him meow when i know hes hungry makes me grounded in reality its another day another job.
I'm not military, but I worked for my country in a people's war zone, when I was very young.
The real hard thing is, like they drop you, like you're a dirt bag, when you hav issues or your job is done. No support at all to adjust to live at home no asking, how you're doing.
I can only imagine how long serving soldiers feel.
I know that feeling man. Every vet feels your pain. I’d hug you if I could. We gotta make it through, we need to find our purpose. After 9 years of being out I don’t know mine yet but I do know one day it will be protecting and helping people again. Stay strong.
You my friend are a true legend.. Watching you explain your sadness broke me I felt your pain through your words.
Keep fighting on my brother for your self and for your family.
What a man you are Craig and thank you so much . What a legend thinks
You’re a good man & thanks for your service - man you made my eyes well up. I just want to give you the biggest & tightest hug every. Thanks man 🫡
Hi Craig. Im listening your story from Italy. This video was posted 1 year ago. How are you now?
My father was sbs korea he had issues threw out his life, dont ever say sorry mate not for stuff like this, im lucky ex army and RAF ive never been in combat as i say lucky, one daughter army one RAF and navy son submariner i feel so lucky non saw combat, you are an exceptional person who has been treated badley by the armed services. Pleas pleas look after yourself, Wishing you all the best
Big respect to Craig! Being that vulnerable requires lots of strenth for a veteran! Nothing to be sorry about,emotions mean that you're a human
The men and women I see in these videos are incredibly brave and what they go through both in service, and after, is truly heartbreaking.
I can’t help thinking that we should encourage people not to join the armed forces. It seems
like they get little to no help from the country they serve unconditionally after they have left.
I hope to have my book out in a few months dealing with this subject. I will put it out on my TH-cam.