Hey Tabitha. I'm checking your channel after about 2 years since last time i was watching your videos. Id like to thank you for sparking my recovery. I am fully recovered now. No more extreme hunger, no more thinking about food, no more eating "healthy" foods, no more exercising to justify eating. I just became a different person. It feels like im a real person now and its glorious. I finally can enjoy my life and do things i really love. Playing guitar and football with my friends and focusing on my job, my life goals and my personal growth. About my recovery. It was really hard. I went to emergency a hundred times during my recovery, because my body went through drastic changes very rapidly and countless times it felt like i was dying. It was hard because I was feeling very ill day by day and I thought I will never get better. I thought I have broken my body with my extreme behaviours and now I have to live in this misery. This ill feelings went on for about a year. Doctors never found anything wrong with me. I started to visit a psychoterapist and got on antidepressants. But the best thing is that after struggling for a long time (this anorexia thing was the worst experience of my life) I somehow got my body and feeling healthy back, little by little. I strted to live again and slowly but surly the anorexia thoughts started to fade away and got replaced with thinking about my job, my hobby, my love life, my bills... and whats more my self esteem started to rise. So after beating my anorexia i grew stronger than i ever was. Eating disorders are living hell. Thank you for all your efforts with helping people with such diseases. ❤️
Tabitha,i pray you never stop doing what you do.Your videos are such good company on this journey .Each post is a gift.So thank you,really,all the best to you and yours.
@Sheela Narayanan no not at all! yeah the weight gain was/is a though one and sometimes it still brings me down.. like i've changed so quickly in front of others and most of them don't know why.. i don't bother explaining it to everybody, the ones who should, do know honestly, it's hard. i don't want to discourage anybody here, but recovery is a looong ride! i'm doing my best to eat the most i can, but my hunger signals are still all whacky. i often feel sick/full and hungry at the same time, so I have to eat much and often. which again makes life a bit complicated. my biggest recovery goal right now is to have balanced hunger and satiety signals - like ugh! but besides all the struggles, i have no mood swings anymore, i poop daily (i had 10yrs constipation), my hair is soft, nails are firm and my acne is so much better. So yeah, i guess in the aftermath i am doing alright ^^
I am in treatment, and my treatment team has me on a meal plan. I’m not sure how to get out of it, a meal plan is just trying to fix my ED restriction with restriction! How do I just eat? Do I count calories, do I keep on the meal plan. My dietician wants me to not eat without restriction, it I know that the meal plan is not sustainable it’s not NORMAL!!!
What really helped me is keeping in mind that the meal plan is a minimum requirement. My dietician validated this. If my body needs more, then I can have more. Talk to your dietician about this. I expect she would say the same as mine... hope this helps!
I'm in semi recovery for nearly a year, I eat very well but never eat to full satisfaction. During the last month I tried my best to eat more and I allowed myself to eat everything I wanted one day( it was quite a lot) . But now it has been 4 days when i'm never hungry and have to force feed myself everyday! It's very hard because a week ago I always wanted to eat ( and don't really respond to it) and now it's the total opposite ( lack of hunger...) maybe it's because I walk less or reduced compulsive movement. Do you have an idea because my anorexic thought are there but my body, my "true" body isn't hungry at all... It's really triggering... Thank you so much for your answer!
If your body does not ask for food now it may be because you have done a good job in feeding yourself. So when you do feel hungry, eat. If you're not and you feel like your body may protest if you do, no need to make yourself sick.
Hello I know I commented this on the last video but how can I trust my body when I’m trans and it’s wrong? I can’t just let my body do it’s thing if it means breast growth, because then I’m more dysphoric and less of a man. I can’t take it anymore
Alexander Curtis hey bro I’m in the same boat. What’s been most useful for me is to remember that I can only get top surgery etc. at my healthy weight. Plus, i feel like EDs can hyjack anything as an excuse to not recover, so you may want to challenge how much of this fear is because of the ED more than dysphoria. Plus, going on t means you gain weight - if that still scares you, I suggest your fear of gaining weight is more based on your ED than dysphoria. Hope this helps
@@em0t33th7 it will go by quickr than you imagine, and you dont want to have to wait even longer when you reach those ages because you delayed recovery and are still entrenched in your ED.
"I am still bingeing after 6 months of unrestricted eating and i gained already so much weight. i’m afraid it will never end" - Emmi, go see a doctor, psychologist, support worker for eating disorders - Tabitha is far too one-track-minded to answer this question.
There's more to the reasons why and the healing process than hunger/food/eating. So why do people become anorexic or stop eating in the first place? I didn't stop eating because I stopped eating. There were plenty of reasons I stopped eating and it wasn't because I stopped eating.
Hey Tabitha. I'm checking your channel after about 2 years since last time i was watching your videos. Id like to thank you for sparking my recovery. I am fully recovered now. No more extreme hunger, no more thinking about food, no more eating "healthy" foods, no more exercising to justify eating. I just became a different person. It feels like im a real person now and its glorious. I finally can enjoy my life and do things i really love. Playing guitar and football with my friends and focusing on my job, my life goals and my personal growth. About my recovery. It was really hard. I went to emergency a hundred times during my recovery, because my body went through drastic changes very rapidly and countless times it felt like i was dying. It was hard because I was feeling very ill day by day and I thought I will never get better. I thought I have broken my body with my extreme behaviours and now I have to live in this misery. This ill feelings went on for about a year. Doctors never found anything wrong with me. I started to visit a psychoterapist and got on antidepressants. But the best thing is that after struggling for a long time (this anorexia thing was the worst experience of my life) I somehow got my body and feeling healthy back, little by little. I strted to live again and slowly but surly the anorexia thoughts started to fade away and got replaced with thinking about my job, my hobby, my love life, my bills... and whats more my self esteem started to rise. So after beating my anorexia i grew stronger than i ever was. Eating disorders are living hell. Thank you for all your efforts with helping people with such diseases. ❤️
Tabitha,i pray you never stop doing what you do.Your videos are such good company on this journey .Each post is a gift.So thank you,really,all the best to you and yours.
Tabitha please talk about your stages of recovery!!
Gosh, i am also into month 6 and feeling like it's never gonna end. But we keep going, we keep spooning that nutella!
@Sheela Narayanan if you can eat a whole jar, you should eat a whole jar :D how are you keeping up?
@Sheela Narayanan no not at all! yeah the weight gain was/is a though one and sometimes it still brings me down.. like i've changed so quickly in front of others and most of them don't know why.. i don't bother explaining it to everybody, the ones who should, do know
honestly, it's hard. i don't want to discourage anybody here, but recovery is a looong ride! i'm doing my best to eat the most i can, but my hunger signals are still all whacky. i often feel sick/full and hungry at the same time, so I have to eat much and often. which again makes life a bit complicated. my biggest recovery goal right now is to have balanced hunger and satiety signals - like ugh! but besides all the struggles, i have no mood swings anymore, i poop daily (i had 10yrs constipation), my hair is soft, nails are firm and my acne is so much better. So yeah, i guess in the aftermath i am doing alright ^^
If you ever come to Florida I’m cutting and highlighting your hair for free 😂😂😂💕💕❤️❤️💇♀️💇♀️
Where do you live? I am in central Florida
Spring Hill 🌞
I am in treatment, and my treatment team has me on a meal plan. I’m not sure how to get out of it, a meal plan is just trying to fix my ED restriction with restriction! How do I just eat? Do I count calories, do I keep on the meal plan. My dietician wants me to not eat without restriction, it I know that the meal plan is not sustainable it’s not NORMAL!!!
What really helped me is keeping in mind that the meal plan is a minimum requirement. My dietician validated this. If my body needs more, then I can have more. Talk to your dietician about this. I expect she would say the same as mine... hope this helps!
I'm in semi recovery for nearly a year, I eat very well but never eat to full satisfaction.
During the last month I tried my best to eat more and I allowed myself to eat everything I wanted one day( it was quite a lot) . But now it has been 4 days when i'm never hungry and have to force feed myself everyday! It's very hard because a week ago I always wanted to eat ( and don't really respond to it) and now it's the total opposite ( lack of hunger...) maybe it's because I walk less or reduced compulsive movement. Do you have an idea because my anorexic thought are there but my body, my "true" body isn't hungry at all... It's really triggering... Thank you so much for your answer!
listen to your mental hunger - whenever you think about food : eat!!
If your body does not ask for food now it may be because you have done a good job in feeding yourself. So when you do feel hungry, eat. If you're not and you feel like your body may protest if you do, no need to make yourself sick.
Hello I know I commented this on the last video but how can I trust my body when I’m trans and it’s wrong? I can’t just let my body do it’s thing if it means breast growth, because then I’m more dysphoric and less of a man. I can’t take it anymore
Alexander Curtis hey bro I’m in the same boat. What’s been most useful for me is to remember that I can only get top surgery etc. at my healthy weight. Plus, i feel like EDs can hyjack anything as an excuse to not recover, so you may want to challenge how much of this fear is because of the ED more than dysphoria. Plus, going on t means you gain weight - if that still scares you, I suggest your fear of gaining weight is more based on your ED than dysphoria. Hope this helps
Beck Heslop I can’t start T for another two years though, even if I was weight restored, and I can’t get top surgery for another four years.
@@em0t33th7 it will go by quickr than you imagine, and you dont want to have to wait even longer when you reach those ages because you delayed recovery and are still entrenched in your ED.
"I am still bingeing after 6 months of unrestricted eating and i gained already so much weight. i’m afraid it will never end" - Emmi, go see a doctor, psychologist, support worker for eating disorders - Tabitha is far too one-track-minded to answer this question.
There's more to the reasons why and the healing process than hunger/food/eating. So why do people become anorexic or stop eating in the first place? I didn't stop eating because I stopped eating. There were plenty of reasons I stopped eating and it wasn't because I stopped eating.
Because your brain was convinced you were migrating
It might have been stress, unintentional weight loss etc