I love how the lyrics and melody that play during all the song just abruptly stop after that. It's like now that they remember, maybe it wasn't so bad before surgery
I love the small detail that every time the main chorus happens, the main character slowly grows her hair. It really shows the slow progression and beauty of this animation.
Also the words are mixed up, ex: The doctor said she had beutiful eyes, Her name was amnesia and she had memory loss. it should say: the doctor said she had memory loss, her name was amnesia and she had beutiful eyes
coming from someone who experiences memory loss, I can say that this really is what its like. Its not just forgetting certain things, its losing sight of who you are and those who you care about. Crumb be doin us justice with this animation
@@platannapipidae9621 well i'm not them, but I'm pretty sure I have some memory loss going on Idk how to describe it cause I feel normal most of the time, but I forgot over half my childhood (probably 4 the best) and stuff that happened years ago, or even months Sometimes I'm extremly forgetful, like forgetting special dates, what I was gonna do, or smth I wanted to say 2 minutes ago. Sometimes I cry a lot and get depressed over it, what if I forget everyone? Well I gotta live with it I guess, at least my partner understands and helps me remember stuff
That must be tough. Someone very close to me has memory loss and it truly is terrifying. If nothing else remember that there is always hope and that people will be willing to help if you just ask. I hope you are doing well and that if at all possible your memory gets better.
Yeah I really agree, the amount of times I have forgotten peoples names and had to resort to describing them to who I'm talking to used to happen way too often. Now me and one of my friends just joke about the fact that I have a book that has my name, age, birthday, grade and friendship "statuses" in it.
The crumb lore is getting insane, it really seems like all the crumbs hate or have negative feelings towards each other, since more recent animations are from different crumb perspectives
I think the heavy emphasis on her eyes was because it meant a lot to her when the doctor told her she had beautiful eyes. That’s why her whole face is darkened out except her eyes, and that’s why the song’s verses all begin with “Amnesia was her name, she had beautiful eyes.” That’s what she remembers.
@@minecraftroksiak3306 pretty cool because amnesia can create false memories and cause you to mix things up. The song itself commonly mixes up words from different sentences.
No she got things mixed up, with the doctor telling them they had memory loss but they got it mixed up with amnesia had beautiful eyes, this is also the case with the doctor saying that they had tomato loss and ate long term memory sauce, they had long term memory loss and ate tomato sauce
As the daughter of a woman with amnesia, I can say that this is really acurated. Amnesia is not just forgetting a couple of things, its sometimes waking up without having any idea of who you are or who the heck are those people that are in your house and tell you to take some pills that you don't know what they are for. This animation is really painful but real By the way, an incredible job crumb! I will kill to animate this good Edit: thanks for all the cute and supportive messages, actually my mom is much better than a year ago :DD (and yeah, i _will_ kill for animating that good lol)
For anyone wondering, the song is about someone with amnesia who fell in love with their doctor. They think her name is amnesia because it was mentioned so much when they were with her. Edit: Apparently not; the creator said this was pretty much just personified amnesia (credit to RAAT)
I thought it was that they had amnesia and personified it and fell in love with this girl amnesia and misses her when he's cured. Or at least that's how I interpret it
This hits different. Before I was diagnosed with a rare and severe “type” of ADHD, I had intense brain fog, like it wasn’t possible to think but thinking is all you can do. There were days where I couldn’t remember who I was or where I was or how I got there. I couldn’t remember anything and it felt like i was losing myself. Stay strong my friends ❤
i feel like i might have something similar to this, or at maybe a less severe version of it, like i have adhd, and i often forget details like my birthday, my friends or even family members name/who the name belongs to and i often am confused and cant figure out where i am after i wake up, even if im in my own bed, though it has only happened to me when i was already conscious once. i hope ur doing ok tho, stay safe and stay sane
Im sorry for you ❤, it appens also to me but in a way less severe form i just forget a lot of things like birthdays and if i eated breakfast or lunch or dinner…
Anyone wondering, Crumb is fine. She could be going through some problems but most likely these animations are telling a story of whats happenened/happening in her head as she creates the character "cuptoast". This is a guess so take it with a grain of salt.
Watching these genuinely gets me worried/scared. Too many things have happened on the internet and it's made me very paranoid when it comes to these things. I hope Crumb's alright :(
Its happen to me too chance my oc 4 times and still confused to make it better they all my oc i feel not and i dont know who is one my oc,i still love them all
@@ДюсековИльяс but she was probably motivated to animate it because she was experiencing feelings and thoughts the same way as they were portrayed in the song
@@EuropeGalaxyThoraxlol if you made 8 frames just for one second to make a 4 minute video then yeah, it makes sense +you also have to make the illustrations look good
one thing that leaves me unsettled it's the fact that the end of the song doesn't sound like an end at all. The rythm hasn't changed, and it's almost like that Amnesia had something else to say... perhaps she forgot. The music goes on as if it's waiting for some more lyric and then abruptly stops, as much as the Amnesia's stream of cosciousness since "she" disappeared after the surgery. Perhaps there's nothing else to say since she disappeared, but the unchanged rythm of the music suggests a worrying sense of void, different from the previous sense of void. The void before the surgery it's a chaotic one, in which memories disappear and different versions of Amnesia coexist together, while the original one feels this void due to not knowing who she really is. The void after the surgery it's a quiet one. Amnesia is once again owner of herself, but something it's missing- it's not a memory, something in the past, it's something that it's costantly missing, a piece of her true self. It's a quiet void that will stay with her forever. It's not different than losing a dear one.
Im surprised this comment doesnt have more likes, because its extremely true to to the animatic, and song. Whenever i listen to the whole song i always feel a bit null at the end
That's similar to what people with schizophrenia experience when they get medicine. The bad voices are gone, yes, but so is the one that gives good advice.
recently found out i have an amnesia disorder, and i could forget my entire life at any moment. this hits a little harder. i already have random gaps in my memory. i cant say im sad, idk what im missing. but yeah, hits different.
Something I've noticed around 2:38 is that the crumb thats slowly going insane hugging the one that is "insane" and that the sane Crumb has shorter hair, more of the eyes before (wider pupils), and more brightness to it. I think that she's hugging herself and that the "insane" one is Amnesia. It has most of the clues. Every single time I come here, a new thing or two I learn. I sometime wanna make videos like this. Cute, doodle, weird, .. Deep. It's so fascinating to me on how they're able to do this. How you can make something so cute into something so... Dark.. It's sad in a way, almost like I feel sympathy for a fictional character, that means this is very well made, thank you.
My depiction of this is that you’re so used to acting as your persona to the point you’ve forgotten/lost your personality Also the 2 months r worth it cuz of those immersive expressions in the body gesturing its so amazing and some nice camera angles as well !!
My dad told me once how art is projecting yourself through a creative medium. What you create is a look into your brain and how it works, and he was jealous of people's abilities to do that. I miss him, it was the most powerful thing he'd ever said to me. This animatic makes me think of that every time I watch it.
Underrated moment but I like how the beat continues steadily right up until the end then cuts off suddenly. It’s like the feeling of realizing something that puts you into a cold sweat put into music.
As someone who struggles with memory loss, this animation captures the feeling of confusion and fear and just not knowing what you forgot despite knowing you forgot something. This is really nice and cool Edit: some of yall mad wrong for the few jokes I've seen here. But I love them all the same 💕 but yall goin right to HELL
12/24/21 I think this animation was about an identity crisis and confusion about one’s self, because there were multiple things that made me think that. Like how in the beginning of the video there were multiple versions of herself. And there was a part where she was questioning “What is my name?” 1:50. There were also these parts that matched together like the beginning and the end of the video, 0:15 and 3:46. It’s the same scene with differences about how the beginning had all versions of herself standing there with a messy room while near the end, there was nothing left except for herself. Other scenes showed the other versions of her getting blacked out, her eating her own brain, looking through the mirror, etc. So, animation showed herself forgetting who she really was because of how she tangled herself into this mess by overthinking and mixing up who is who, and what is what. So, I guess the mortal of the story is to accept that who you are is who you are. Even if it’s a mess, it’s still you, mostly..? And don’t try to overthink about everything, keep it simple. 1/6/21 Edit: After I looked at the other videos that lead up to this, I noticed that the four videos “i hate you”, “crying”, “its alright”, and “pad thai”were all actually really similar to this. What they all had in common was identity crisis, self-hatred, and suppressed emotions. In the first video “its alright” It’s the first introduction to box crumb. We see these people surround box crumb and then there’s a door that opens and it shows another box crumb except she’s all black then she stabs the other normal box crumb. I’m guessing the black box crumb represent her feelings but also her real self which we are introduced to later on. In conclusion, Box crumb in general represents the real version of her real life counter part except with suppressed emotions. Suppressing your emotions can in cause, exploded right in your face. The next video “pad thai” Is basically a follow up of its alright except the emotions start to hit harder. She starts feeling all of them all of a sudden because of pressing that tiny red button, and she wants to stop feeling them. So she tries her hardest to reach the other the red button so she can stop feeling her own feelings, so she can suppress them away. So, this basically represents the consequences of suppressing all of your feelings. The third video, “i hate you” Had three characters in it, tiny crumb, box crumb, and human crumb. This is the introduction of human crumb We can see that human crumb used to be happier before before she became box crumb, I’m guessing the events after human crumb was happy, all of these negative thoughts and feelings came to her, so she created box crumb as herself to suppress her feelings. And tiny crumb is supposed to be the more happy version of all of the other versions to distract her from her other negative thoughts. But after that scene, we see box crumb crying at human crumb as she starts ripping a picture of tiny crumb. Then box crumb starts ripping inside because it was too much for her as something under her box head seems to have a hundred eyes underneath. Maybe that’s human crumb but as of now, because human was so intoxicated by her own negative thoughts and feelings, that she started to change inside, and in a bad way. After that, we can see box crumb and tiny crumb all torn into pieces, and then human crumb leaves into elevator. I’m guessing why box crumb and tiny crumb got destroyed to pieces is because the negative emotions became so strong inside that it came to the point where it controlled box crumb to destroy tiny crumb too. In the final video leading up to this one, “crying” Shows us one last new version, which is crumb. I’m not really sure what this version is supposed to represent, I guess this version is concerned about the well being of all of the other versions and tries to help them, but she feels like nothing’s going upwards, and she starts breaking down. The video basically has all four versions, human crumb, box crumb, crumb, and tiny crumb, this video seems to surround the idea about crumb and how she’s try to help all the other versions. She seems to have deep sympathy for box crumb as she hugs her, but box crumb disappears, But for tiny crumb on the other hand. Crumb feels off about tiny crumb, tiny crumb seems distorted a little because maybe the damage of suppressing all the negative feelings caused it to leak a little into tiny crumb, causing her to seem you know, a bit off.. But anyways, after box crumb fades away. Crumb misses box crumb. So she feels really concerned and she has a breakdown and shadows behind her flash all the other versions. In the silhouettes, Box crumb is fading, tiny crumb stands there with a off smile with no eyes, crumb is torn, and human crumb is seen in the last flash. After seeing all the videos, I think each version represents something about human crumb herself. Human crumb represents all versions combined. Box crumb, crumb, and tiny crumb. She gets confused who crumb is who, and what is what. Also, box crumb and crumb feel like they aren’t doing enough for human crumb. Box crumb represents human crumb’s suppressed dark emotions and feelings, these dark emotions and feelings can sometimes feel overwhelming so that’s why human crumb created box crumb. But if these emotions keep being suppressed, they’ll always explode in your face. Crumb represents the concerning feeling about all the other versions well beings. She tries to help others like box crumb, but nothing’s working. She also tries to figure out who she is and why she’s like this, and she’s also concerned about what others might think of her like her fans. Tiny crumb represent more of the happy aspects of human crumb, human crumb made tiny crumb because she wanted some happiness to distract herself from all of the other turmoil and messy negative feelings inside her head. But when the negativity becomes to much, some of it leaks into tiny crumb and tiny crumb starts to distort a bit. Which makes her seem a bit off.. And thank you so much if you read all of this, I kind of went over broad with this edit.. o-o
yyea that's exactly what I was thinking I don't wanna overstep crumbs boundaries with my theories if it makes her uncomfortable so if somebody knows please lmk!!1 However I think not only could the be an identity crisis but also because shes probably putting on this internet person of "crumb/cuptoast" it's all her fanbase/people online know her as so people only refer to her as that and it might have caused herself to slowly forget parts of herself, like her own name (maybe not LITERALLY but as in ppl may just refer to her so much with the name crumb it just got engrained into her head) so maybe shes having trouble what's the "real" her and the "online" her TL;DR: I think(MAYBE !!!!) crumb is trying to express that because so many people refer to her as her online persona and see her as that (online) she's slowly forgetting herself/details of herself and the line between her online self and her real life self is getting blurred (annother side theory that corresponds with the video it seems that at first when she started to realize this/when this first started happening she didn't really care all that much but when it really starts to hit her she panics and tries to save herself and possibly spirals into an identity crisis thru this realization) AGGAIN!!! IF TBIS OVERSTEPS CRUMBS BOUNDARIES /ThE THEORY IS REALLY PERSONAL/ UNCOMFY THEN IMM SO SORRY AND ILL DELETE MY REPLY 😨😨😨
I don’t think an animation or song has resonated with me more. The fact that I say my “online name” more often than my _real_ name… how far will it go? Were people like us this young meant to be popular on the internet?
You have such a mastery of space and composition that makes you stand out even among other talented animators. It’s truly impressive what you’re able to do.
@@crumb.crumblet.S.crumbington I think that meant that you did the timing/areas great. And that you made it all put in together as well, that everything fit well. And all that makes you stand out from other creators of art.
just realized some of the “nonsense” lyrics make sense in other places throughout the song- such as these two: “the doctor said I had **tomato** loss” “we had spaghetti with **long-term memory** sauce”
I haven’t heard anyone say this yet, but that part where she lays down in her grave was amazing! The pose was amazing! As well as all of the other poses of course!
Ok, so at 3:40 - 3:42 the crumb's faces are redacted, and I wondered why this creeped me out so much, then I realized. I don't think crumb has ever used that shade of black in a animation before. It's always been a some what dark grey or reddish brown, never pitch black like what's used for the boxes. That's crazy
Right it was such a stark contrast from the soft coffee color of the majority of the animation, liked the faces had been cut right out and only void was keft
I got chills!! The buildup is so well executed! The struggle between yourself and who or what you present yourself as, or just different parts of yourself in general, the way you visualized it is amazing! Remember to take care of yourself, not just for your fans but for yourself
Amazing. Truly shows how memory loss can make one lose sight of everything. You don’t know if you forgot. That is the scary thing, and the lyric distortion and meshing showcases it well. I don’t have any issues with memory loss aside from general forgetfulness, I just am afraid of it and I tend to be imaginative of my fears. I am scared of losing what I am. If I had one wish, it’d be for my lifestyle and memories, family and friends, to persist. This song i feel captures my fear perfectly, loss. 10/10.
one thing I know I want to remember is that one time my friend looked up who The World Machine from the video game OneShot was and shouted - IT’S A CATBOY?
This is a good example of 8 fps animations still looking smooth, honestly I thought it was at least 15 fps. Also the color choice and the way the words were placed looks AMAZING!! Although with the light colors and lack of sharp edges (barely any to even begin with), the animation still gets its point across
I was born while my grandmother had early signs of alzheimer's, the more I grew up the more my grandma's condition worsened to the point where she only recognized my grandpa and my dad. I never really understood what she was going through since I was so young, but during the last few years in which she was still alive I felt bad for her and blamed myself for not doing anything to try and help her. I couldn't live with the fact that there was nothing I can do. She passed away this year and this song reminded me of her. Rest in Peace grandma, you're in a better place now Edit: I just wanted to say, thank you guys for all of your nice comments and support. It really means a lot to me that people cares about a stranger they've never met. Thank you all.
mine passed away with alzheimer's in 2019 (not from alzheimer's, but she did have it), so I feel for you, although she didn't have quite as bad memory loss, but it got to the point where she was forgetting her own name
I like how the chorus changes because it was before the author got the surgery and I like that “oh wait” after they realize that they switched up the words
As someone who has memory loss, this captures what I go through perfectly. I forget where I am, who I am, and certain things about me. I even forget faces after just a minute. And I always mix up words and say nonsense. I’m not always aware of the things I say. In fact, I don’t remember most of today, what was said at dinner less than 20 minutes ago, and so much more.
I probably relate to that way to much. I look at my sister and stare at her for a full ten seconds cuz I forgot whats happening or who she is or where I am and what the heck is happening around me?!
Not saying that you don't have memory loss, but humans usually only remember bits and pieces of their days and memoriew, and nobody can remember what they said less that 20 mins ago, usually they can't even remember 5 mins ago
tbh, as someone who forgets things way more often than a normal person should, i halfheartedly felt this. a lot of the time, i forget things way too fast, or if not too fast, i forget it and i never remember it again until it’s brought up again. it could take months for me to remember it again. it’s really shitty to have memory loss or memory problems, no matter if it’s Alzheimer’s, amnesia, long term memory or short term memory loss. it’s always horrible.
Yes.i always forget things and my Parents are always like: "HOW CAN YOU ALWAYS FORGET? " "You Can't forget Such a thing!" "Do you Even remember to eat or sleep?"
@@Wormthatlivesinahole my mom is always like “get your life together” or “you always claim you’re forgetting smth but you always remember the stuff you like” or “you’re too young to have memory problems” tf am i supposed to say, “i have brain damage”??? and i’m sure the reason why i forget things so frequently for so long is because of undiagnosed adhd. i want so bad to get diagnosed so it’s not as bad but my mom is afraid of anything being wrong with my brain cos she thinks people with adhd are dumb, and they’re not.
@@missingtexturez but like even if she has like two water bottles, one big with a red cap, one big with a blue cap, and she says “go get the big water bottle with the red cap from out of my room”, i’ll walk into the room, forget what she asked me for, ask her again, repeat it to myself as i walk back so i remember, forget again, ask her again, go back, and then end up forgetting again so i grab the wrong one, or i remember what she said and accidentally grab the wrong one cos i think it’s the right one, and then i get yelled at. it’s not like i’m doing it on purpose, i just forget and need to be told directions more than once depending on how well my brain is able to comprehend it. don’t get be wrong, i can comprehend very well; but sometimes it takes me longer than the average person to register certain information i get, and sometimes i have to break it down and say it/read it aloud back to the person or book to better comprehend it. i hate it cos it makes me feel and look slow and i’m afraid other people will look at me in pity or amusement cos they think i’m slow and they’re smarter, but i have to do it. if i was diagnosed and given meds, maybe that might fix that problem. but i’ll never know until i’m 18 bc my mom is a b!tch.
As someone with memory issues, I love finding this video over and over again after forgetting about it and coming back only to be just as mesmerized by it Edit: I still dont remember writing this comment, but its how I know I love this video a lot
@@rexycowmci remember the only thing that seems like memory loss to me being looking at some youtube notifications and one of them is a reply to a comment i left just a day ago but dont recall writing at all, but im still grateful for being to remember that. I hope you do well, it doesnt sound fun to have amnesia
As someone who’s getting tested on memory problems, I relate to this so much. I’ve been beginning to lose so much of my past to the point I can’t even remember what I ate This Morning (Or even if I did 😞) I’ve forgotten majority of my childhood/past and it’s been becoming so concerning. I hope to get help about it soon from my Therapist and that person who you go to get tested for (I forgot what their called LMAO-). Sometimes it’s even hard to tell time, date, people, names, and age. I forget the most important things and I don’t even realize it. Heck I even forgot my Brother and Sister’s name at one point. It’s so frustrating yah know 😔
I...I relate a worrying amount to this,not forgetting my brother's name but I forgot a lot of my childhood,usually certain sounds make me remember stuff associated with them though
I relate a lot to this I forgot half a of my childhood a lot of things I forget and most days I'm worried that I'm not even the same person who I was back then. I try to keep myself from thinking about it because every time I do I feel like I'm going insane. (I deal with dissociation because of my schizophrenia which can cause dissociation and that can lead to memory loss) like for example I can't remember if I went thru what I think did at ages 4-7 but all I can tell what I think happened trough dreams the feel a little too real. But after a while my doctor said that it was trauma induced amnesia. So I have to deal with that answer knowing that there's a part of me that I'll never get back...
so do yall mean that it's not ok to not remember the overwhelming majority of your past... haha... well oh shit... т_т i was never comfortable with the fact that i couldn't remember it anyway.
Getting reccomended this again after a few years and completely forgetting it existed , despite really enjoying it, really puts it into perspective for me. I can't imagine what people deal with their whole life.
Fun fact for those who tough tomato loss wass blood (you have " doctor said I had tomato loss" and then later "spaghetti with long term memory sauce". If you Switch these you get "The doctor said I have long term memory loss" and "we had spaghetti with tomato sauce" ) this is pointing to the fact that the character is losing awareness even as the song progresses
From the perspective of a fellow flipaclip finger animator, I genuinely have no idea how you can make such good-looking animations. Every one of your uploads is absolutely spectacular, and I can understand some of the pain and frustration you probably went through while making this. TL;DR- Great job, Crumb :)
@@lavendersun3025 right?? the first time i noticed that these were FLIPACLIP ANIMATIONS i freaked out i was just amazed on its even freaking possible WITH FINGERS TOO??
@@nexington Actually no offence but for mobile flipaclip is an already amazing app and its so easy to work with I think its thats why its so common! So plenty of animators do use it.
I like how this animation doesn’t go through a loop whenever the song goes back to a slightly changed start and actually goes with the intensity of the song. Good job!
I'm seeing people say they fell in love with the doctor and kept forgetting her, but the grave part makes it seem like they had a girlfriend that died in the same incident and his amnesia made him kinda mix the doctor and her up in a way. They instinctually know something is wrong, thus the unsettling imagery, but they cant remember so when the doctor is gone they finally remember the real girlfriend died.
The amount of detail in your animations is incredible. Just the smallest darkness differ from the lines of your OC's to your actual self is mesmerizing. Still, I hope your okay with whatever you have to face, and God bless you :).
i keep seeing that you've apologized for vent animations in the past instead of happy go lucky shit but its genuinely nice to see you express your emotions thru an animation, keep doing these things until you feel at home with yourself trust me i write lyrics abt ppl that've treated me wrong and it helps me feel better 10 fold
By far, out of all of your animations, this one is the most iconic. It captures your channels entire feels in one video, it even references your old name when you were still Crumb. For gods sake, even SmokeeBee used this song when they were chit chatting about you in a video! I feel that if someone saw this, they could tell it was you with your classic thicker than a rump-a-dump lines that are a nice cool brown!
I notice that “real crumb” aka the shadowed one slowly frowns and grows more franic during each “and every word she said was a little surprise” scenes, as well as her clothes growing duller And the eyes during the “doctor amnesia was her name, she had beautiful eyes” the shadowed real crumbs eyes become duller, they go from wide open and red to half lidded and so forth I feel like every time I rewatch I notice new things, this is such an ingenuity e animation and an impeccable style to covey these emotions in
Coming from an animator. Good job this must have been a massive project. Like actually this is incredible. I love the imagery and the way you show the main character ( I guess you ) losing contact / forgetting about the lighter personas. And the main character losing their mind somewhat. I feel like the part where they get shot is them losing a part of themself or them shutting themself off. This shows so much emotion and you can pretty easily tell how the character feels, which is really cool. I really like the part “ every word I said was a little surprise “ and they are the only one speaking with the 4 text boxes instead of 4 characters with one. At the end where they sit in silence staring at where the other characters used to be shows that they’ve really forgotten / lost or miss the others. This is a masterpiece and I feel it is one of your best ones yet, you never fail to impress and your improvement is clear. A truly great animatic
I have some form of short term memory loss (I think, undiagnosed) and this still resonated with me. My memory used to be just fine but for the past 1.5+ years, my mind has deteriorated and it should *not* be doing that at this point in time. I now struggle to recognise people, even those that are closest to me and I do not understand why. I need to talk to my doctor more about it but it’s hard to explain you have memory loss when you can’t explain the symptoms of what exactly when you forget..
i love to turn this to x2 speed and see how fluid and beautiful the animation is... also I suffer from severe memory loss as a symptom of complex PTSD and DID, 1:51 is such a good example of how everything feels/seems. For anyone who is confused on the French words, it roughly translates to "This is love, bodily harm/assault"
When he says Cest Lamour (which means it is love) it also sounds like he says c est la mort which translates to it is death which I thought was interesting!
@@zebruhmoment I’m fairly certain that her mom said that she didn’t need to make more dark/sad things because there was already enough of it in the world. It’s been a while since then but I guess whatever happened has been cleared up now
Lemon demon somehow manages to make to make disturbing songs about memory loss, and songs about 53 different famous movie characters fighting in Tokyo city
This song and animation were scary to watch since I'm only 25 but I've been noticing my memory becoming worse. Stuff like completely forgetting a person's name and face who I just talked to for multiple hours as soon as that day of class ended. Way more often than what used to be usual for me, I completely forget what I was saying in the middle of saying it, nearly every day. I've been worried about these memory issues.
@becky1224 It seems it might have been a vitamin B12 deficiency this whole time and I actually WAS right that the amount of memory loss I was having wasn't normal. Who knew?
i like a lot of the emphasis used on the eyes visually and not just through the song. throughout the entire video you only see REAL crumb being portrayed with eyes. the rest of the crumb incarnates are blank with an unending smile,,,like damn
The fact that you did this on Flipaclip and your finger is insane. I can't even animate3 fps with a drawing tablet. You are truly an amazing artist. I am so jealous of your animation and artistic skills. Keep up the amazing work Crumb!
i once tried animating some poo in 8 fps, and yes it did look cool, but it was just a weird animation with no sense and with poor ending. because ending was a point where i was tired for a day, and i planned to continue it later, but later i was like "nah boring and dumb animation" and i never finished it oh and i used a computer mouse for drawing
@@king._. nah i am not an artist compared to other people my art is just too weak th-cam.com/video/SUauv_MD1l8/w-d-xo.html please dont watch the last 10 seconds th-cam.com/video/00cg3GvrJ1k/w-d-xo.html th-cam.com/video/XLNkk9nuI6w/w-d-xo.html
You perfectly captured how awkward, uncomfortable, empty and somewhat uncanny the ending to this song is. Oh and the everything else too but that's the part I actually felt remotely qualified to comment on
Man, i have watched this so mamy times, but it never really makes it feel any less sad. This story is really sad, and from the comments, accurate. Also, many people probably realised this, but all the scenary changes over time, their hair, their stance in repeated shots like the "amnesia was her name" as well as the "every word she said". They slowly get more and more crouched over, looking more and more sad. And the fact thaf they cry when they remember the doctor as saying that they have beutiful eyes, is most likely cause their mom used to call their eyes beuitiful. And the thing about their and their moms name is very emotional to me. GOOD job man, this is really well made in all aspects, story wrighting, animation, and emotion.
The fact that this is a song about memory loss with a calming tune makes me feel bliss, without any past holdouts to sentimentalize over, just staying in the present, a thing that rarely happens in normal circumstances. Anyone relate?
crumb is genuinely so talented, and hella inspiring like bro she does most of her art on her ipad WITH HER FINGER, like holy shit dude crumb u r the coolest :D
i love how at the beginning, the characters room was cluttered and had clothes, papers, a computer, and other objects, but at the end, her room is mainly empty. i thought it was a really cool detail :D
I love this animation. I like how you use the theme of memory loss to illustrate how you yourself can't seem to remember who you are. Portraying your own struggles in art is a difficult thing to do, so I admire you being able to do it. I hope you're doing alright!
LOVE the way this video does the song's original meaning justice while simultaneously recontextualizing it to be about identy and losing yourself in a persona.
@@AlexanderHamiltonTheOG I think it was about an amnesiac falling in love with their doctor. This animation twisted the meaning into identity. Hope I helped!
this takes me back to a time in my childhood where everything was blurry and I regularly suffered from delusional episodes. It was like everything was falling apart all the time. Still don't know why they happened, or why they stopped, but I'm glad they stopped
The first time I heard this song it pulled me out of a dissociative episode. It came on autoplay in my headphones during a car ride and I realized I had no memory of the past 30 minutes. I found the irony of the situation very funny.
Ik this isn’t the point of the animation, but as the host of a dissociative system this hits hard asf. Especially the last frame, where she stares at the place the other characters once were. I’ve started EMDR therapy again recently, and it’s like my alters have just all pissed off for the moment. Like theyre all just slightly out of my reach. It feels wrong, and kind of lonely, without them. I know I’ll be able to communicate with them once things start to get easier, but it’s still weird living on without the other parts of myself.
@@furthings short answer is that it’s a type of therapy designed for PTSD (and phobias I believe). Long answer - EMDR therapy mimics REM sleep, the phase of sleep where memories r processed into long term memory. traumatic memories are just memories that are too overwhelming for the brain to be processed. So during EMDR, you have to recall the trauma / distressing images, all the while being guided through some form of bilateral stimulation (side to side eye movement, tapping or vibrations) you can only do one memory at a time and it’s a long n gruelling process, but fuck does it work.
@@furthings yeah it’s a great alternative to talk therapy! I tried talk therapy for like 2 years and got no where, like I just couldn’t talk about it. then I found EMDR and a good therapist and it deadass changed my life. You just got to find what works for you :]
I don’t have any kind of memory disorder, just a common bad memory but I still wanted to say this. I’ve lost a loved one before, and heck it was only a month after I started to forget her. She started to stop being in my thoughts everyday, a part of my memory, she was one of my relatives and had been there my whole life, from my start to her end. I miss her a lot, but sometimes I struggle to remember her face, her voice and what she did for me. I’ve been so afraid of forgetting that I’ve already forgotten so much. This was many months ago and my memory of her only fades with time. She was a big part of my life and how I miss her dearly, but I feel so guilty to for not being able to remember. I just simply have forgotten and I hate how I can’t cry at the mere thought of her like I used to. I don’t want to forget her, but I just can’t remember. It’s so terrifying but I still can’t remember her.
as someone who has issues with memory loss, i literally forgot to watch this video when it got on my recommendation. at the end of the day i felt like something was missing, and finally got on my computer to watch this masterpiece. it shows the embodiment of knowing you forgot something but not being able to find out what you forgot.
This honestly helps me alot. I have very bad memory loss and watching this, makes me feel better cause someone was able to put how the fear of forgetting feels into perspective better then I could ever. Thank you crumb
I have DID and I remember before getting diagnosed we had a therapist that did so much harm to our system. So many of us went dormant and tried not to interact with the host even though it was supposed to be our time to heal. This kinda reminded me of that. Beautiful animation!!
You know, ive never heard anyone, let alone someone with DiD talk about themselves that way before- its fascinating how all of you seem to have a place- I hope you continue to recover, bad therapists are no joke
I am a diagnosed DID person too, i can't recall my childhood neither some stuff, i can't sometimes even recall some people at times and mu boyfriend gets concerned and i don't know why sometimes, sometimes i can't recall being in somewhere or just felt like the time jumped, that was before I got diagnosed, i still sometimes get confused after i got diagnosed, about the therapist I'm very sorry :( that sound awful! My therapist was kind, i think?
By "i think" I meant- i have a alter, i believe they go by jinx? They said they didn't have the best experience with her, and im afraid something bad happened:(
Amnesia Was Her Name is one (1) of my absolute favorite songs, so seeing one (1) of my absolute favorite artists make an animation to it is amazing! Can't wait for this to premiere :] Edit/Update: THAT WAS SO COOL ASKAJDHAJ AAAAAAAAA
Dementia is my biggest fear. The idea of forgetting, replacing and exaggerating memories to the point of it being unrecognisable is a terrifying concept. You dont only loose everything you love, you loose everything you love without knowing you lost it.
1:50 really hit me differently, I go by so many aliases and names that sometimes I forgot who I actually am. Am I James, Ghost, Harpy, Jackson, Slurmp, or Puppy? Like they are all me, I am them, but I also feel so disconnected from these names and it doesn't feel like they actually belong to me. I try to explain to my friends how it feels (I'm the only one I know who is experiencing this) but I just can't do it properly, but that scene does it so amazingly! Everything that I feel is exactly what that scene is! It's so refreshing to know that I'm not the only one who experiences that and the way you animated it is perfect! So thank you (?)
THATS HOW IT IS FOR ME! its like am i bee? am i arson? am i alex? jack, tyler, pico? redd, jiffy, denji? saiki, kiio, little boy blue? all of the names are mine, they all "apply" to me, but it doesnt feel like they all click with me theyre names i have but it doesnt feel like me its like paying rent, i know the apartments mine, its in my name, but it doesnt really feel right to call it my property
Same and I’m just slowly forgetting who am I and I’m losing touch with reality tbh.. and sometimes I think my name is Alex, midori, baked potato, cookie, puddles, and my actual name..And I just question whether I’m actually me or I’m just being who *I and others want me to be* it’s just so confusing and I’m just scared and tired
As someone with memory loss as well, this was really on point. Sometimes we just forget who we are as a person and other ppl we love and care abt. It's nothing like forgetting what you had for lunch 6 years ago. I showed my brother this and he called Crumb over-dramatic. This IS really what it feels like. My brother's a dipshit
I don't have amnesia or any form of long-term memory loss, though as someone that experiences (some form) of dissociation/depersonalization this resonated a lot. Like a lot, like wow. Mostly the visuals, not really the song. It's very difficult to find things that describe how I feel, so it felt nice. Thank you.
Honestly this may be a bit out of place since I have ADHD, not amnesia, but the crappy memory aspect of the ADHD I have is... really bad. It's to the point where most of my childhood memories were either made up or completely fabricated. I remember telling people past memories with them in my childhood and them just looking at me in confusion. I remember now telling family members shared experiences only to be told that this experience never happened. I once felt great guilt for doing something to someone only for them to tell me it never happened. I constantly stop sentences because I forget what I was saying, or what the person said before. It's very occasional, but sometimes even now I'll recall a memory that apparently (according to friends or family) never happened. And on rare occasions, I'll hear voices that nobody else hears. (this honestly might not even be ADHD but I'm not diagnosed with anything else so eioioweoiew) And it's scary because sometimes... I don't know what is and isn't real.
This is actually kinda scary, not knowing what is real or not is a scary idea. And, I kinda of relate to this too… good luck, hope you’ll be alright. Also, eieoieowiewioiw great way to write feeling.
I’ve never seen anyone with the same experience as me, I also have memories that I get that just seem so real but apparently aren’t? And now I don’t know what ones are so I don’t like talking about them in case they’re wrong, also forgetting everything every second is really frustrating
honestly the way she presented this seems a lot more like a representation of depersonalisation and derealisation rather than amnesia and it sfrICKING AMAZING WOW
The fact that they replace “memory” with “tomato” and “loss” with “sauce” makes it all the more better- It’s like trying to recall a memory but can’t quite put your finger on it and start messing things up. I love it. Great animation btw!
In my head, "Amnesia" is someone the protagonist was in love with. The MC and "Amnesia" had a relationship (probably a toxic relationship, because of the line "I guess she doesn't know [how to] treat me right.") before they got into a freak accident where "Amnesia" perished and MC survived, but lost their memories as a consequence. All they can remember are vague memories of "Amnesia", and that is why they are so distressed that they are missing important things (seen from MC trying to dig into a "grave", which could be for their memories OR for "Amnesia"). Since they hear the word "Amnesia" so much after their accident, they associate this as their past lover's name. They also probably confuse their doctor for their past lover because of the doctor's constant presence by their bedside, mistaking the doctor's care as a partner's love. Memories from past and present blur together as MC's brain tries to mend the broken spaces in between. Now, they think the doctor is "Amnesia", the one saying sweet words and compliments, saying things like "You have beautiful eyes" and holding their hand during the surgery. Memories of their lover haunts them until the surgery, where their mind is "repaired", and suddenly their terrifying reality rights itself. They realize who "Amnesia" really was, and that they are gone.
I think it is about the protangist that got amnesia and falls in love with their doctor, he mistakes the name amnesia for the doctor’s because they have amnesia, at the end, he doesn’t need to be a patient anymore and that’s why the doctor goes away.
The partner wasnt toxic. From the other memories we can assume that the partner was actually a really good person. That line is there because they couldnt remember where they slept, so they assumed it wasnt the bed since they cant remember. And if they werent sleeping in a bed, thats probably a bad sign.
this is actually amazing--everything about it is. crumb has improved in animation so much and i am glad to have been able to witness all of it love you, crumb, stay safe
This is probably one of my favourite videos of yours. Something about the animation fits the vibe of the song perfectly. The song itself is also interesting, with some parts being mixed around, eg: "The doctor said I had *tomato* loss" "We had spaghetti with *long-term memory* sauce" Another example (I think): "The doctor said I had *beautiful eyes* " "Amnesia was her name, she had *memory loss* " Edit: Shoot this was posted 9 months ago sorry to bother you-
This comment made me realize there's actually probably another lyric to the song we were missing the name of the girl who actually had the beautiful eyes and who's missing at the end but throughout the song we don't hear it we never "remember" her name
I've always thought it interesting that the meanings of words are often retained by amnesia patients, but I guess that's because a different part of the brain handles words than other memories.
2:07 is really impressive, especially for flipaclip! This whole thing really just... it hurts my brain to imagine copypasting all those frames manually in flipaclip to do all this boiling.
@@freya-the-wolf you want to see me try when its literally my life goal to be an animator. You're very aggressive to someone just expressing their opinion
@@Maber610 that is the impressive thing I was referring to, it's very good posing. But I use flash/animate so I find it hard to imagine doing something as complete and polished as this in FlipaClip, which is far more limited. I'm FlipaClip you have to copypaste frames manually to make pauses instead of making the frame longer, you don't have a timeline, and you have to draw everything manually. And example is the bit where they're looking in the mirror and the eyes pop up. In flash, I could draw that eye animation once and then put it all around the frame, but they had to draw each individually. So it seems more impressive to me because of the limitations they're working with
sorry for misspellings im kjnd of stupid 🙏
edit: this is not an official music video for the lemon demon song!
HOLY SHIT CUPTOAST YOU'RE A LEMON DEMON FAN *pisses self*
Holy im early to this comment
Love the video :D
Hey its okay I always have that problem XD I DIDNT EVEN SEE IF U MISS SPELLED HAHA
It’s fine!
"I remember when I realized she wasn't there"
That gave me chills.
Oh hey it happened when I read this...
🔫 now give me my internet karma since "haha relatable"
(the second part's a joke)
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I love how the lyrics and melody that play during all the song just abruptly stop after that. It's like now that they remember, maybe it wasn't so bad before surgery
ME TOO
@@tacotuesday2489 You got ratioed so hard with that comment omfg 😭😭
I love the small detail that every time the main chorus happens, the main character slowly grows her hair. It really shows the slow progression and beauty of this animation.
Wdym???
@@vixy2321 every time it says “every word she said was a little surprise” the hair on the character gets longer
Also the words are mixed up, ex: The doctor said she had beutiful eyes, Her name was amnesia and she had memory loss. it should say: the doctor said she had memory loss, her name was amnesia and she had beutiful eyes
@@Mr_Erutrot i didnt realise that, that actually makes a lot of sense
@@Mr_Erutrot or the doctor has beautiful eyes?
I think that the sudden French in the lyrics is a reference to people speaking in different languages after head trauma.
Also it's the language of love. Neat detail.
Oh wow, you guys just made me see that differently - thank you
Lemon Demon didn't mess up the French, it sounds exactly like it should! Good on them. (my first language is french)
or because it sounds cool
@@naepoldwhat did he say?
What a horrible realization to find out the person you thought you loved wasn't even real in the first place.
Darn hallucinations!
sometimes i hear
what if she died
@@Omiburia good point actually 🤔
@@LiQuid_FLurrypretty sure it was a carer for them before surgery, then they left cause surgery happened
coming from someone who experiences memory loss, I can say that this really is what its like. Its not just forgetting certain things, its losing sight of who you are and those who you care about. Crumb be doin us justice with this animation
i'm sorry to hear that :(
would you like to share your experience?
I don't have as serious memory loss, but like the animation, it's confusing. It felt very real for me.
@@platannapipidae9621 well i'm not them, but I'm pretty sure I have some memory loss going on
Idk how to describe it cause I feel normal most of the time, but I forgot over half my childhood (probably 4 the best) and stuff that happened years ago, or even months
Sometimes I'm extremly forgetful, like forgetting special dates, what I was gonna do, or smth I wanted to say 2 minutes ago. Sometimes I cry a lot and get depressed over it, what if I forget everyone? Well I gotta live with it I guess, at least my partner understands and helps me remember stuff
That must be tough. Someone very close to me has memory loss and it truly is terrifying. If nothing else remember that there is always hope and that people will be willing to help if you just ask. I hope you are doing well and that if at all possible your memory gets better.
Yeah I really agree, the amount of times I have forgotten peoples names and had to resort to describing them to who I'm talking to used to happen way too often. Now me and one of my friends just joke about the fact that I have a book that has my name, age, birthday, grade and friendship "statuses" in it.
The crumb lore is getting insane, it really seems like all the crumbs hate or have negative feelings towards each other, since more recent animations are from different crumb perspectives
It’s like CRUMBS of evidence being found in a 8-part series (I am not funny)
yes
i hate you (flash) - box crumb
crying - anthro crumb
amnesia was her name - human crumb
@@METHYLENEDlOXYMETHAMPHETAMINE wait but crumb wears a box
They all hate cat crumb and are all strung together by some unwanted need to care for it
I think the heavy emphasis on her eyes was because it meant a lot to her when the doctor told her she had beautiful eyes. That’s why her whole face is darkened out except her eyes, and that’s why the song’s verses all begin with “Amnesia was her name, she had beautiful eyes.” That’s what she remembers.
Yeah the dark face with only eyes is also just how she draws herself lmao
@@Maber610 yea i was gonna say that
@@minecraftroksiak3306 pretty cool because amnesia can create false memories and cause you to mix things up. The song itself commonly mixes up words from different sentences.
No she got things mixed up, with the doctor telling them they had memory loss but they got it mixed up with amnesia had beautiful eyes, this is also the case with the doctor saying that they had tomato loss and ate long term memory sauce, they had long term memory loss and ate tomato sauce
@@finn596 You explained the same thing. Amnesia can do that and make you mix things up by creating false memories
3:39 this is scary because crumb NEVER uses the actual black and i was not expecting that 😭😭
She always use brown or grey, make sense
@@imcuznoIdkwhoor purple
did you mean 3:42?
As the daughter of a woman with amnesia, I can say that this is really acurated. Amnesia is not just forgetting a couple of things, its sometimes waking up without having any idea of who you are or who the heck are those people that are in your house and tell you to take some pills that you don't know what they are for. This animation is really painful but real
By the way, an incredible job crumb! I will kill to animate this good
Edit: thanks for all the cute and supportive messages, actually my mom is much better than a year ago :DD (and yeah, i _will_ kill for animating that good lol)
I wish ur mom gets better soon!
@@localcringe689 thats. not how it works
@@viatanyl umm- what i was trying to say was i hope her amnesia gets better soon and that one day she will remember
@@localcringe689 amnesia isn’t curable
@@goldqnp3tals302 what i meant was i hope she getz better as in maybe she remembers smh
For anyone wondering, the song is about someone with amnesia who fell in love with their doctor. They think her name is amnesia because it was mentioned so much when they were with her.
Edit: Apparently not; the creator said this was pretty much just personified amnesia (credit to RAAT)
Thank you I was wondering about that
i think they thought the doctors name was amnesia because they forgot their real name.
Thank
Explains the lyric "Dr. Amnesia was her name"
I thought it was that they had amnesia and personified it and fell in love with this girl amnesia and misses her when he's cured. Or at least that's how I interpret it
Whoa !!
I love the typography and I see how the speech bubbles barely has the words itself
Keep up the good work :D
I didn't expect to see you here yon >:)
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YON!
Hoi yon
Hullo
This hits different. Before I was diagnosed with a rare and severe “type” of ADHD, I had intense brain fog, like it wasn’t possible to think but thinking is all you can do. There were days where I couldn’t remember who I was or where I was or how I got there. I couldn’t remember anything and it felt like i was losing myself. Stay strong my friends ❤
Relatable
same.
haha (jk)
i feel like i might have something similar to this, or at maybe a less severe version of it, like i have adhd, and i often forget details like my birthday, my friends or even family members name/who the name belongs to and i often am confused and cant figure out where i am after i wake up, even if im in my own bed, though it has only happened to me when i was already conscious once. i hope ur doing ok tho, stay safe and stay sane
Im sorry for you ❤, it appens also to me but in a way less severe form i just forget a lot of things like birthdays and if i eated breakfast or lunch or dinner…
Anyone wondering, Crumb is fine. She could be going through some problems but most likely these animations are telling a story of whats happenened/happening in her head as she creates the character "cuptoast". This is a guess so take it with a grain of salt.
Watching these genuinely gets me worried/scared. Too many things have happened on the internet and it's made me very paranoid when it comes to these things.
I hope Crumb's alright :(
Its happen to me too chance my oc 4 times and still confused to make it better they all my oc i feel not and i dont know who is one my oc,i still love them all
Huh interesting is there anything else because I’m kind of confused??
I just think it's just an animation of a song by lemon demon "Amnesia was her name"
@@ДюсековИльяс but she was probably motivated to animate it because she was experiencing feelings and thoughts the same way as they were portrayed in the song
This is stunningly disturbing. It's so smooth yet so simple. And graphic in a wonderful way.
very simple, *it took 2 months*
"It's horrifying, graphic, disturbing, I LOVE IT!"
@@EuropeGalaxyThoraxlol lmao
welcome to lemon demon, where most songs are oddly blursed
@@EuropeGalaxyThoraxlol if you made 8 frames just for one second to make a 4 minute video then yeah, it makes sense
+you also have to make the illustrations look good
one thing that leaves me unsettled it's the fact that the end of the song doesn't sound like an end at all. The rythm hasn't changed, and it's almost like that Amnesia had something else to say... perhaps she forgot. The music goes on as if it's waiting for some more lyric and then abruptly stops, as much as the Amnesia's stream of cosciousness since "she" disappeared after the surgery.
Perhaps there's nothing else to say since she disappeared, but the unchanged rythm of the music suggests a worrying sense of void, different from the previous sense of void. The void before the surgery it's a chaotic one, in which memories disappear and different versions of Amnesia coexist together, while the original one feels this void due to not knowing who she really is. The void after the surgery it's a quiet one. Amnesia is once again owner of herself, but something it's missing- it's not a memory, something in the past, it's something that it's costantly missing, a piece of her true self. It's a quiet void that will stay with her forever. It's not different than losing a dear one.
Im surprised this comment doesnt have more likes, because its extremely true to to the animatic, and song. Whenever i listen to the whole song i always feel a bit null at the end
@@The_P.ai.nter_0 ahh thank you :) I'm surprised it has so many likes, lol.
that is deep. my smol brain can't even process that (this is a compliment btw).
@@marocelot ahaha thank you! Don't worry, keep enjoying the profound sadness of this song ;)
That's similar to what people with schizophrenia experience when they get medicine. The bad voices are gone, yes, but so is the one that gives good advice.
The French in the song translates to “It’s love and sure hurts”. That… kind of hits hard.
Oh look, new profile pic!
its love and wounds...
@@TheCatOfAges oh- if that’s the correct translation, im sorry I didn’t get it right
the typography in this video is being overlooked; it's _astounding_ ! Great work, Crumb :D
It is
Yeah! I love it!
@@hhhertaaa same!
thanks! it was a really long time to do because writing with my finger is so slow and so hard to make straight lines!
@@crumb.crumblet.S.crumbington you did great tho :D
recently found out i have an amnesia disorder, and i could forget my entire life at any moment. this hits a little harder.
i already have random gaps in my memory. i cant say im sad, idk what im missing. but yeah, hits different.
Hey man I'm really sorry. Is there anything that can done or is this a forever problem?
Would you forget things you learned? Like at school? Feel free to not anwser I’m just curious how it works
Are you ok now? What else have to forgot or have you forgot everything…
forgor
@@annoyingtsukasa i forgor 💀
this song feels like the perfect collab between Jack Stauber and Lemon Demon. Like Jack wrote the lyrics and Neil produced it
If they did a collab it would make my whole life
will i mean it is by Lemon demon
@@CanadianCat64 Well yeah, I know that. But the lyrics sound like something Jack Stauber would write
@@Mx.Cumulonymphus agreed
Jack stauber fans i recommend listening to Soddiken too, their style is somewhat similar to Jack's
Something I've noticed around 2:38 is that the crumb thats slowly going insane hugging the one that is "insane" and that the sane Crumb has shorter hair, more of the eyes before (wider pupils), and more brightness to it. I think that she's hugging herself and that the "insane" one is Amnesia. It has most of the clues. Every single time I come here, a new thing or two I learn.
I sometime wanna make videos like this. Cute, doodle, weird, .. Deep. It's so fascinating to me on how they're able to do this. How you can make something so cute into something so... Dark.. It's sad in a way, almost like I feel sympathy for a fictional character, that means this is very well made, thank you.
AHHH THIS IS SO AWESOME
Hi lamuliz
OMG I LOVE YOUR VIDEOS :DD
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The likes and replys? Like bots are growing
My depiction of this is that you’re so used to acting as your persona to the point you’ve forgotten/lost your personality
Also the 2 months r worth it cuz of those immersive expressions in the body gesturing its so amazing and some nice camera angles as well !!
My dad told me once how art is projecting yourself through a creative medium. What you create is a look into your brain and how it works, and he was jealous of people's abilities to do that. I miss him, it was the most powerful thing he'd ever said to me.
This animatic makes me think of that every time I watch it.
Huh. That's a little scary. During a really dark time in my life, I made A LOT of art that involved the mutilation of my body.
woah, your dad sounds like a genius. i'm gonna think of that anytime i feel like doing art
If you look at my art irl and compare it to this comment that very concerning. I have a good life what-
I mostly draw people which I think are pretty or how I want to look when I'm older or If nobody wouldn't care about looks
@@astro-wi6mi yup me too sometimes
Underrated moment but I like how the beat continues steadily right up until the end then cuts off suddenly. It’s like the feeling of realizing something that puts you into a cold sweat put into music.
As someone who struggles with memory loss, this animation captures the feeling of confusion and fear and just not knowing what you forgot despite knowing you forgot something. This is really nice and cool
Edit: some of yall mad wrong for the few jokes I've seen here. But I love them all the same 💕 but yall goin right to HELL
I feel this SO MUCH!
yeah I can relate, and my parents blame it on me despite it was my head problem
(I'm not good at English sorry)
For me it's only small things but this animation captures the panic and confusion so well!
@@siannn same! Totally agree
@@DANNIE-101 sorry for you man
12/24/21
I think this animation was about an identity crisis and confusion about one’s self, because there were multiple things that made me think that. Like how in the beginning of the video there were multiple versions of herself. And there was a part where she was questioning “What is my name?” 1:50. There were also these parts that matched together like the beginning and the end of the video, 0:15 and 3:46. It’s the same scene with differences about how the beginning had all versions of herself standing there with a messy room while near the end, there was nothing left except for herself. Other scenes showed the other versions of her getting blacked out, her eating her own brain, looking through the mirror, etc. So, animation showed herself forgetting who she really was because of how she tangled herself into this mess by overthinking and mixing up who is who, and what is what. So, I guess the mortal of the story is to accept that who you are is who you are. Even if it’s a mess, it’s still you, mostly..? And don’t try to overthink about everything, keep it simple.
1/6/21
Edit: After I looked at the other videos that lead up to this, I noticed that the four videos “i hate you”, “crying”, “its alright”, and “pad thai”were all actually really similar to this. What they all had in common was identity crisis, self-hatred, and suppressed emotions.
In the first video “its alright”
It’s the first introduction to box crumb. We see these people surround box crumb and then there’s a door that opens and it shows another box crumb except she’s all black then she stabs the other normal box crumb. I’m guessing the black box crumb represent her feelings but also her real self which we are introduced to later on.
In conclusion, Box crumb in general represents the real version of her real life counter part except with suppressed emotions. Suppressing your emotions can in cause, exploded right in your face.
The next video “pad thai”
Is basically a follow up of its alright except the emotions start to hit harder. She starts feeling all of them all of a sudden because of pressing that tiny red button, and she wants to stop feeling them. So she tries her hardest to reach the other the red button so she can stop feeling her own feelings, so she can suppress them away. So, this basically represents the consequences of suppressing all of your feelings.
The third video, “i hate you”
Had three characters in it, tiny crumb, box crumb, and human crumb. This is the introduction of human crumb
We can see that human crumb used to be happier before before she became box crumb, I’m guessing the events after human crumb was happy, all of these negative thoughts and feelings came to her, so she created box crumb as herself to suppress her feelings. And tiny crumb is supposed to be the more happy version of all of the other versions to distract her from her other negative thoughts.
But after that scene, we see box crumb crying at human crumb as she starts ripping a picture of tiny crumb. Then box crumb starts ripping inside because it was too much for her as something under her box head seems to have a hundred eyes underneath. Maybe that’s human crumb but as of now, because human was so intoxicated by her own negative thoughts and feelings, that she started to change inside, and in a bad way.
After that, we can see box crumb and tiny crumb all torn into pieces, and then human crumb leaves into elevator.
I’m guessing why box crumb and tiny crumb got destroyed to pieces is because the negative emotions became so strong inside that it came to the point where it controlled box crumb to destroy tiny crumb too.
In the final video leading up to this one, “crying”
Shows us one last new version, which is crumb. I’m not really sure what this version is supposed to represent, I guess this version is concerned about the well being of all of the other versions and tries to help them, but she feels like nothing’s going upwards, and she starts breaking down.
The video basically has all four versions, human crumb, box crumb, crumb, and tiny crumb, this video seems to surround the idea about crumb and how she’s try to help all the other versions. She seems to have deep sympathy for box crumb as she hugs her, but box crumb disappears, But for tiny crumb on the other hand. Crumb feels off about tiny crumb, tiny crumb seems distorted a little because maybe the damage of suppressing all the negative feelings caused it to leak a little into tiny crumb, causing her to seem you know, a bit off..
But anyways, after box crumb fades away. Crumb misses box crumb. So she feels really concerned and she has a breakdown and shadows behind her flash all the other versions. In the silhouettes, Box crumb is fading, tiny crumb stands there with a off smile with no eyes, crumb is torn, and human crumb is seen in the last flash.
After seeing all the videos, I think each version represents something about human crumb herself.
Human crumb represents all versions combined. Box crumb, crumb, and tiny crumb.
She gets confused who crumb is who, and what is what. Also, box crumb and crumb feel like they aren’t doing enough for human crumb.
Box crumb represents human crumb’s suppressed dark emotions and feelings, these dark emotions and feelings can sometimes feel overwhelming so that’s why human crumb created box crumb. But if these emotions keep being suppressed, they’ll always explode in your face.
Crumb represents the concerning feeling about all the other versions well beings. She tries to help others like box crumb, but nothing’s working. She also tries to figure out who she is and why she’s like this, and she’s also concerned about what others might think of her like her fans.
Tiny crumb represent more of the happy aspects of human crumb, human crumb made tiny crumb because she wanted some happiness to distract herself from all of the other turmoil and messy negative feelings inside her head. But when the negativity becomes to much, some of it leaks into tiny crumb and tiny crumb starts to distort a bit. Which makes her seem a bit off..
And thank you so much if you read all of this, I kind of went over broad with this edit.. o-o
Haha funni animation about mental breakdown goes brrrrr
@@uncanalmas4712 there is two type of people.
@@lilyofluck371 damn u beat me to saying that
yyea that's exactly what I was thinking
I don't wanna overstep crumbs boundaries with my theories if it makes her uncomfortable so if somebody knows please lmk!!1
However I think not only could the be an identity crisis but also because shes probably putting on this internet person of "crumb/cuptoast" it's all her fanbase/people online know her as so people only refer to her as that and it might have caused herself to slowly forget parts of herself, like her own name (maybe not LITERALLY but as in ppl may just refer to her so much with the name crumb it just got engrained into her head) so maybe shes having trouble what's the "real" her and the "online" her
TL;DR: I think(MAYBE !!!!) crumb is trying to express that because so many people refer to her as her online persona and see her as that (online) she's slowly forgetting herself/details of herself and the line between her online self and her real life self is getting blurred
(annother side theory that corresponds with the video it seems that at first when she started to realize this/when this first started happening she didn't really care all that much but when it really starts to hit her she panics and tries to save herself and possibly spirals into an identity crisis thru this realization)
AGGAIN!!! IF TBIS OVERSTEPS CRUMBS BOUNDARIES /ThE THEORY IS REALLY PERSONAL/ UNCOMFY THEN IMM SO SORRY AND ILL DELETE MY REPLY 😨😨😨
It's just an animation about amnesia...
Crumb: *Hears song*
Crumb: hold my toast, ima animate a banger
I don’t think an animation or song has resonated with me more. The fact that I say my “online name” more often than my _real_ name… how far will it go?
Were people like us this young meant to be popular on the internet?
No.
I truly dont think fame was ever meant for any of us. It's horrible on your mental health/physical health.
Which is why I made my internet name my actual name, sort of.
My first name is Marcus but my family and friends call me Marco.
I'm known online as Phantom or The Ghost, The Phantom, Ghost Kitty, etc... Which are all, well, not my real name.
Oh hell i do that too
You have such a mastery of space and composition that makes you stand out even among other talented animators. It’s truly impressive what you’re able to do.
Yessir
i will be honest! i donto know what that means but thank u!
@@crumb.crumblet.S.crumbington I think that meant that you did the timing/areas great.
And that you made it all put in together as well, that everything fit well.
And all that makes you stand out from other creators of art.
AMONG!?
Among us
just realized some of the “nonsense” lyrics make sense in other places throughout the song-
such as these two:
“the doctor said I had **tomato** loss”
“we had spaghetti with **long-term memory** sauce”
smart
@@kutesii always wondered what it meant since I first listened to the song, thanks!!
Because the words are swapped, because the main person has amnesia so the words swapped
You just noticed that? Really?
@@jingwei1 thanks, I was searching the meaning of that part!
My grandpa has altimerz and i can relate knowing that one day he will barely remember anything. Thank you for putting this out there crumb.
Alzheimer's Disease, or Senile Dementia, is NOT spelled "Altimerz"
@@harshhorde3649Look at you out there saving the world by correcting someone’s spelling. 🙄
I haven’t heard anyone say this yet, but that part where she lays down in her grave was amazing! The pose was amazing! As well as all of the other poses of course!
OMG I WAS WAITING FOR THIS COMMENT THE ANIMATION WAS SMOOTH AND FLUID AAAAAAAA
The animation was smoother than butter-
Ok, so at 3:40 - 3:42 the crumb's faces are redacted, and I wondered why this creeped me out so much, then I realized.
I don't think crumb has ever used that shade of black in a animation before. It's always been a some what dark grey or reddish brown, never pitch black like what's used for the boxes.
That's crazy
yea it really makes it stand out
And the fact they aren’t moving with the animation
She used it in her "i hate you (flash)" video
Right it was such a stark contrast from the soft coffee color of the majority of the animation, liked the faces had been cut right out and only void was keft
I audibly said "oh that's horrible"
I got chills!! The buildup is so well executed! The struggle between yourself and who or what you present yourself as, or just different parts of yourself in general, the way you visualized it is amazing! Remember to take care of yourself, not just for your fans but for yourself
Amazing. Truly shows how memory loss can make one lose sight of everything. You don’t know if you forgot. That is the scary thing, and the lyric distortion and meshing showcases it well. I don’t have any issues with memory loss aside from general forgetfulness, I just am afraid of it and I tend to be imaginative of my fears. I am scared of losing what I am. If I had one wish, it’d be for my lifestyle and memories, family and friends, to persist. This song i feel captures my fear perfectly, loss. 10/10.
one thing I know I want to remember is that one time my friend looked up who The World Machine from the video game OneShot was and shouted - IT’S A CATBOY?
I can't get over how well made your animations are; it makes me wanna try! Keep up the great work (also the crumbeanie is SO COMFY)!!
Hey, I know you!
agreed
Wish I had the beanie
*cries*
woooo!
So true!! The beanie was very warm :DDDD
This is a good example of 8 fps animations still looking smooth, honestly I thought it was at least 15 fps. Also the color choice and the way the words were placed looks AMAZING!! Although with the light colors and lack of sharp edges (barely any to even begin with), the animation still gets its point across
Excuse me, hold on, *8?*
what the fuck this is 8?????
Guys this is *e i g h t f p s*
I know- but h o w--
GUYS IT SAYS IN THE DESC ITS 8 FPS LMAO
as someone who uses 8 fps, at first i genuinely thought it was higher too. making smooth animation is hard, especially at low fps.
its amazing.
I was born while my grandmother had early signs of alzheimer's, the more I grew up the more my grandma's condition worsened to the point where she only recognized my grandpa and my dad. I never really understood what she was going through since I was so young, but during the last few years in which she was still alive I felt bad for her and blamed myself for not doing anything to try and help her. I couldn't live with the fact that there was nothing I can do. She passed away this year and this song reminded me of her. Rest in Peace grandma, you're in a better place now
Edit: I just wanted to say, thank you guys for all of your nice comments and support. It really means a lot to me that people cares about a stranger they've never met. Thank you all.
Rip
❤️feel better soon
I’m so sorry. You deserve love and rest
mine passed away with alzheimer's in 2019 (not from alzheimer's, but she did have it), so I feel for you, although she didn't have quite as bad memory loss, but it got to the point where she was forgetting her own name
my great grandma was losing her memory really bad. she died two years ago, but she lived a good 105 years and at least she's in a better place now.
I like how the chorus changes because it was before the author got the surgery and I like that “oh wait” after they realize that they switched up the words
As someone who has memory loss, this captures what I go through perfectly. I forget where I am, who I am, and certain things about me. I even forget faces after just a minute. And I always mix up words and say nonsense. I’m not always aware of the things I say. In fact, I don’t remember most of today, what was said at dinner less than 20 minutes ago, and so much more.
I probably relate to that way to much. I look at my sister and stare at her for a full ten seconds cuz I forgot whats happening or who she is or where I am and what the heck is happening around me?!
Wait so thats not normal?
Not saying that you don't have memory loss, but humans usually only remember bits and pieces of their days and memoriew, and nobody can remember what they said less that 20 mins ago, usually they can't even remember 5 mins ago
Also, I'm curious, were you diagnosed with a disorder?
@@BlitzkriegAP *nervous chuckle*
i know right? uhhm
i feel like i need to say this
“you don’t need to be depressed to make good art
just honesty is enough”
-Mattia Pilhede
I guess you don't know it's a series about how she feels but animated and I do agree with what tour saying but 😞
@@tarapittman6082 she said she felt fine I think! She just likes drawing angst. U should read the description of her other videos!! It’s not a vent
@@amazinglyaverage412 it might be a little bit of a vent but I’m pretty sure they’re okay.
tbh, as someone who forgets things way more often than a normal person should, i halfheartedly felt this. a lot of the time, i forget things way too fast, or if not too fast, i forget it and i never remember it again until it’s brought up again. it could take months for me to remember it again. it’s really shitty to have memory loss or memory problems, no matter if it’s Alzheimer’s, amnesia, long term memory or short term memory loss. it’s always horrible.
Yes.i always forget things and my Parents are always like:
"HOW CAN YOU ALWAYS FORGET? "
"You Can't forget Such a thing!"
"Do you Even remember to eat or sleep?"
@@Wormthatlivesinahole that’s uncool
@@Wormthatlivesinahole yeah my parents often make jokes about me having amnesia because I often forget old stuff
@@Wormthatlivesinahole
my mom is always like “get your life together” or “you always claim you’re forgetting smth but you always remember the stuff you like” or “you’re too young to have memory problems”
tf am i supposed to say, “i have brain damage”??? and i’m sure the reason why i forget things so frequently for so long is because of undiagnosed adhd. i want so bad to get diagnosed so it’s not as bad but my mom is afraid of anything being wrong with my brain cos she thinks people with adhd are dumb, and they’re not.
@@missingtexturez
but like even if she has like two water bottles, one big with a red cap, one big with a blue cap, and she says “go get the big water bottle with the red cap from out of my room”, i’ll walk into the room, forget what she asked me for, ask her again, repeat it to myself as i walk back so i remember, forget again, ask her again, go back, and then end up forgetting again so i grab the wrong one, or i remember what she said and accidentally grab the wrong one cos i think it’s the right one, and then i get yelled at. it’s not like i’m doing it on purpose, i just forget and need to be told directions more than once depending on how well my brain is able to comprehend it. don’t get be wrong, i can comprehend very well; but sometimes it takes me longer than the average person to register certain information i get, and sometimes i have to break it down and say it/read it aloud back to the person or book to better comprehend it. i hate it cos it makes me feel and look slow and i’m afraid other people will look at me in pity or amusement cos they think i’m slow and they’re smarter, but i have to do it. if i was diagnosed and given meds, maybe that might fix that problem. but i’ll never know until i’m 18 bc my mom is a b!tch.
As someone with memory issues, I love finding this video over and over again after forgetting about it and coming back only to be just as mesmerized by it
Edit: I still dont remember writing this comment, but its how I know I love this video a lot
That's both wholesome and dark at the same time
Hey, do you remember it now? Hehe.
@@JamiBun Nope:D
@@rexycowmci remember the only thing that seems like memory loss to me being looking at some youtube notifications and one of them is a reply to a comment i left just a day ago but dont recall writing at all, but im still grateful for being to remember that. I hope you do well, it doesnt sound fun to have amnesia
im here to remind you of this song!!
As someone who’s getting tested on memory problems, I relate to this so much.
I’ve been beginning to lose so much of my past to the point I can’t even remember what I ate This Morning (Or even if I did 😞)
I’ve forgotten majority of my childhood/past and it’s been becoming so concerning. I hope to get help about it soon from my Therapist and that person who you go to get tested for (I forgot what their called LMAO-).
Sometimes it’s even hard to tell time, date, people, names, and age.
I forget the most important things and I don’t even realize it. Heck I even forgot my Brother and Sister’s name at one point.
It’s so frustrating yah know 😔
That must be terrifying. I hope your ok.
I...I relate a worrying amount to this,not forgetting my brother's name but I forgot a lot of my childhood,usually certain sounds make me remember stuff associated with them though
Ayy that's no good.
But don't worry, you have lots of fans here for you, me being one myself :D
I relate a lot to this I forgot half a of my childhood a lot of things I forget and most days I'm worried that I'm not even the same person who I was back then. I try to keep myself from thinking about it because every time I do I feel like I'm going insane. (I deal with dissociation because of my schizophrenia which can cause dissociation and that can lead to memory loss) like for example I can't remember if I went thru what I think did at ages 4-7 but all I can tell what I think happened trough dreams the feel a little too real. But after a while my doctor said that it was trauma induced amnesia. So I have to deal with that answer knowing that there's a part of me that I'll never get back...
so do yall mean that it's not ok to not remember the overwhelming majority of your past... haha... well oh shit... т_т i was never comfortable with the fact that i couldn't remember it anyway.
the premiere hasn't even started and it already looks sick af
Ikr
fr
i know right
ikrr
th-cam.com/video/s_affVTGCzc/w-d-xo.html,
Getting reccomended this again after a few years and completely forgetting it existed , despite really enjoying it, really puts it into perspective for me.
I can't imagine what people deal with their whole life.
Fun fact for those who tough tomato loss wass blood (you have " doctor said I had tomato loss" and then later "spaghetti with long term memory sauce". If you Switch these you get "The doctor said I have long term memory loss" and "we had spaghetti with tomato sauce" ) this is pointing to the fact that the character is losing awareness even as the song progresses
Oh my gosh that makes so much sense
I thought the "doctor said I had tomato loss" was some kind of a blood loss
OOOOOOOHHHHHH THANK YOU
Bruh why are people only recognising this now
@@shaded_1488 ik I thought that was super obvious???
From the perspective of a fellow flipaclip finger animator, I genuinely have no idea how you can make such good-looking animations. Every one of your uploads is absolutely spectacular, and I can understand some of the pain and frustration you probably went through while making this.
TL;DR- Great job, Crumb :)
HSJSJSKSKAS
BRUH I DIDNT MNOW IT WAS fLipAcLiP
FLIPCLIP FINGER ANIMATIONS
HOW :O
@@lavendersun3025 right?? the first time i noticed that these were FLIPACLIP ANIMATIONS i freaked out i was just amazed on its even freaking possible WITH FINGERS TOO??
Mhm
@@nexington Actually no offence but for mobile flipaclip is an already amazing app and its so easy to work with
I think its thats why its so common! So plenty of animators do use it.
@@cozyflurry i didnt actually know that!! if its that good im gonna check it out, thanks!
I like how this animation doesn’t go through a loop whenever the song goes back to a slightly changed start and actually goes with the intensity of the song. Good job!
I'm seeing people say they fell in love with the doctor and kept forgetting her, but the grave part makes it seem like they had a girlfriend that died in the same incident and his amnesia made him kinda mix the doctor and her up in a way. They instinctually know something is wrong, thus the unsettling imagery, but they cant remember so when the doctor is gone they finally remember the real girlfriend died.
The amount of detail in your animations is incredible. Just the smallest darkness differ from the lines of your OC's to your actual self is mesmerizing. Still, I hope your okay with whatever you have to face, and God bless you :).
It makes it seem like the ocs aren't really there
All the clips on twitter looked so cool. I'm excited to see the full thing!
i keep seeing that you've apologized for vent animations in the past instead of happy go lucky shit but its genuinely nice to see you express your emotions thru an animation, keep doing these things until you feel at home with yourself trust me i write lyrics abt ppl that've treated me wrong and it helps me feel better 10 fold
By far, out of all of your animations, this one is the most iconic. It captures your channels entire feels in one video, it even references your old name when you were still Crumb. For gods sake, even SmokeeBee used this song when they were chit chatting about you in a video! I feel that if someone saw this, they could tell it was you with your classic thicker than a rump-a-dump lines that are a nice cool brown!
I notice that “real crumb” aka the shadowed one slowly frowns and grows more franic during each “and every word she said was a little surprise” scenes, as well as her clothes growing duller
And the eyes during the “doctor amnesia was her name, she had beautiful eyes” the shadowed real crumbs eyes become duller, they go from wide open and red to half lidded and so forth
I feel like every time I rewatch I notice new things, this is such an ingenuity e animation and an impeccable style to covey these emotions in
Coming from an animator. Good job this must have been a massive project. Like actually this is incredible. I love the imagery and the way you show the main character ( I guess you ) losing contact / forgetting about the lighter personas. And the main character losing their mind somewhat. I feel like the part where they get shot is them losing a part of themself or them shutting themself off. This shows so much emotion and you can pretty easily tell how the character feels, which is really cool. I really like the part “ every word I said was a little surprise “ and they are the only one speaking with the 4 text boxes instead of 4 characters with one. At the end where they sit in silence staring at where the other characters used to be shows that they’ve really forgotten / lost or miss the others. This is a masterpiece and I feel it is one of your best ones yet, you never fail to impress and your improvement is clear. A truly great animatic
The storytelling and visuals are so GOOD, and this fits the song so well, its all such eye candyyyy
I have some form of short term memory loss (I think, undiagnosed) and this still resonated with me. My memory used to be just fine but for the past 1.5+ years, my mind has deteriorated and it should *not* be doing that at this point in time. I now struggle to recognise people, even those that are closest to me and I do not understand why. I need to talk to my doctor more about it but it’s hard to explain you have memory loss when you can’t explain the symptoms of what exactly when you forget..
i love to turn this to x2 speed and see how fluid and beautiful the animation is... also I suffer from severe memory loss as a symptom of complex PTSD and DID, 1:51 is such a good example of how everything feels/seems. For anyone who is confused on the French words, it roughly translates to "This is love, bodily harm/assault"
I'm French and I think it sounds better to say ''this is love and wounds''
EHY DOES IT SLAP AT 2X WTF
When he says Cest Lamour (which means it is love) it also sounds like he says c est la mort which translates to it is death which I thought was interesting!
Will you forget that you made this comment?, or is it different and or not that bad of memory lose.
Damn... I hope you're doing good, that sounds hard
It’s nice to see that you finished this one especially with the uh… hiccups but I’m sure it’s amazing!
Hiccups😭
@@lemonpie_vanilla I mean how else are you supposed to describe it her mom literally forbode her from continuing the animation but now it’s done so
@@thegreendragon9628 wait what-
@@zebruhmoment I’m fairly certain that her mom said that she didn’t need to make more dark/sad things because there was already enough of it in the world. It’s been a while since then but I guess whatever happened has been cleared up now
@@thegreendragon9628 that's stupid.
Lemon demon somehow manages to make to make disturbing songs about memory loss, and songs about 53 different famous movie characters fighting in Tokyo city
yes
Don't forget the truck sex!
and songs about two trucks having... well...
@@justyouraveragebird5996 TWO TRUCKS HAVING SEX, MY MUSCLES, MY MUSCLES, INVOLUNTARILY FLEX
@@justyouraveragebird5996 best song of all time
This song and animation were scary to watch since I'm only 25 but I've been noticing my memory becoming worse. Stuff like completely forgetting a person's name and face who I just talked to for multiple hours as soon as that day of class ended. Way more often than what used to be usual for me, I completely forget what I was saying in the middle of saying it, nearly every day. I've been worried about these memory issues.
@becky1224 I went to a neurologist for motor/vocal tics, sleep problems, and memory issues. The MRI apparently showed no problems
@becky1224 It seems it might have been a vitamin B12 deficiency this whole time and I actually WAS right that the amount of memory loss I was having wasn't normal. Who knew?
@@Mcwollybobglad to see it wasn’t anything severe dude. Hope you are getting better
i like a lot of the emphasis used on the eyes visually and not just through the song. throughout the entire video you only see REAL crumb being portrayed with eyes. the rest of the crumb incarnates are blank with an unending smile,,,like damn
The fact that you did this on Flipaclip and your finger is insane. I can't even animate3 fps with a drawing tablet. You are truly an amazing artist. I am so jealous of your animation and artistic skills. Keep up the amazing work Crumb!
i once tried animating some poo in 8 fps, and yes it did look cool, but it was just a weird animation with no sense and with poor ending. because ending was a point where i was tired for a day, and i planned to continue it later, but later i was like "nah boring and dumb animation" and i never finished it
oh and i used a computer mouse for drawing
@@vadiks20032 Reading this just made me think "this person is a true artist." lol
@@king._. nah i am not an artist
compared to other people my art is just too weak th-cam.com/video/SUauv_MD1l8/w-d-xo.html
please dont watch the last 10 seconds
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Wait she did this in flipaclip?!
Once i make an 12 fps animation with my finger
It was not that bad and not hard if you used to it
You perfectly captured how awkward, uncomfortable, empty and somewhat uncanny the ending to this song is. Oh and the everything else too but that's the part I actually felt remotely qualified to comment on
Man, i have watched this so mamy times, but it never really makes it feel any less sad. This story is really sad, and from the comments, accurate. Also, many people probably realised this, but all the scenary changes over time, their hair, their stance in repeated shots like the "amnesia was her name" as well as the "every word she said". They slowly get more and more crouched over, looking more and more sad. And the fact thaf they cry when they remember the doctor as saying that they have beutiful eyes, is most likely cause their mom used to call their eyes beuitiful. And the thing about their and their moms name is very emotional to me. GOOD job man, this is really well made in all aspects, story wrighting, animation, and emotion.
The fact that this is a song about memory loss with a calming tune makes me feel bliss, without any past holdouts to sentimentalize over, just staying in the present, a thing that rarely happens in normal circumstances.
Anyone relate?
I've had this song blasted on repeat for the past few days, so yes, I can relate.
factual
crumb is genuinely so talented, and hella inspiring like bro she does most of her art on her ipad WITH HER FINGER, like holy shit dude
crumb u r the coolest :D
On 10 fps
@@kurisu2721 it’s 8
I honestly can't wait for this one. Lemon demon fan animations are always amazing
love the detail where the eye covers the word "name" in the beginning, showing how she doenst even remember her own name
i love how at the beginning, the characters room was cluttered and had clothes, papers, a computer, and other objects, but at the end, her room is mainly empty. i thought it was a really cool detail :D
And all the color's gone at the end, too. It's great.
I love this animation. I like how you use the theme of memory loss to illustrate how you yourself can't seem to remember who you are. Portraying your own struggles in art is a difficult thing to do, so I admire you being able to do it. I hope you're doing alright!
LOVE the way this video does the song's original meaning justice while simultaneously recontextualizing it to be about identy and losing yourself in a persona.
Sorry dumb question, what’s the song’s original meaning?
@@AlexanderHamiltonTheOG tomato loss
@@AlexanderHamiltonTheOG I think it was about an amnesiac falling in love with their doctor. This animation twisted the meaning into identity. Hope I helped!
@@jo4183 no, its about tomato loss
@@SoapConsumer Say what you want to say I guess.
this takes me back to a time in my childhood where everything was blurry and I regularly suffered from delusional episodes. It was like everything was falling apart all the time. Still don't know why they happened, or why they stopped, but I'm glad they stopped
The first time I heard this song it pulled me out of a dissociative episode. It came on autoplay in my headphones during a car ride and I realized I had no memory of the past 30 minutes. I found the irony of the situation very funny.
"Amnesia was her name she had beautiful eyes" and everything turn to eyes. Such a fantastic art..
Ik this isn’t the point of the animation, but as the host of a dissociative system this hits hard asf. Especially the last frame, where she stares at the place the other characters once were. I’ve started EMDR therapy again recently, and it’s like my alters have just all pissed off for the moment. Like theyre all just slightly out of my reach. It feels wrong, and kind of lonely, without them. I know I’ll be able to communicate with them once things start to get easier, but it’s still weird living on without the other parts of myself.
What's EMDR work?
@@furthings short answer is that it’s a type of therapy designed for PTSD (and phobias I believe).
Long answer - EMDR therapy mimics REM sleep, the phase of sleep where memories r processed into long term memory. traumatic memories are just memories that are too overwhelming for the brain to be processed. So during EMDR, you have to recall the trauma / distressing images, all the while being guided through some form of bilateral stimulation (side to side eye movement, tapping or vibrations)
you can only do one memory at a time and it’s a long n gruelling process, but fuck does it work.
Hope ur doing ok! :)
@@LoverScratch WAIT... I MIGHT NEED THIS...
@@furthings yeah it’s a great alternative to talk therapy! I tried talk therapy for like 2 years and got no where, like I just couldn’t talk about it. then I found EMDR and a good therapist and it deadass changed my life. You just got to find what works for you :]
I don’t have any kind of memory disorder, just a common bad memory but I still wanted to say this. I’ve lost a loved one before, and heck it was only a month after I started to forget her. She started to stop being in my thoughts everyday, a part of my memory, she was one of my relatives and had been there my whole life, from my start to her end. I miss her a lot, but sometimes I struggle to remember her face, her voice and what she did for me. I’ve been so afraid of forgetting that I’ve already forgotten so much. This was many months ago and my memory of her only fades with time. She was a big part of my life and how I miss her dearly, but I feel so guilty to for not being able to remember. I just simply have forgotten and I hate how I can’t cry at the mere thought of her like I used to. I don’t want to forget her, but I just can’t remember. It’s so terrifying but I still can’t remember her.
as someone who has issues with memory loss, i literally forgot to watch this video when it got on my recommendation. at the end of the day i felt like something was missing, and finally got on my computer to watch this masterpiece. it shows the embodiment of knowing you forgot something but not being able to find out what you forgot.
This honestly helps me alot. I have very bad memory loss and watching this, makes me feel better cause someone was able to put how the fear of forgetting feels into perspective better then I could ever. Thank you crumb
The shift from forgetting things to the “I remember when” bits at the end made me think of terminal lucidity a little bit
dementia
My heart truly goes out to victims of amnesia and their families. What a truly horrible fate 😢
The line “I remember when I realised she wasn’t there” hit HARD first time I heard this song.
SO TRUE
He forgor to take his pills
@@ordek5751no he had surgery for his memory loss
@@Paige-on-pawz no he had tomato loss
i'm so excited for this all the snippets u posted look amazing‼️
halfpave.
@@ponukii hey
halfpa
Ew TH-cam halfpave
halfpave hello
I have DID and I remember before getting diagnosed we had a therapist that did so much harm to our system. So many of us went dormant and tried not to interact with the host even though it was supposed to be our time to heal. This kinda reminded me of that. Beautiful animation!!
You know, ive never heard anyone, let alone someone with DiD talk about themselves that way before- its fascinating how all of you seem to have a place- I hope you continue to recover, bad therapists are no joke
I am a diagnosed DID person too, i can't recall my childhood neither some stuff, i can't sometimes even recall some people at times and mu boyfriend gets concerned and i don't know why sometimes, sometimes i can't recall being in somewhere or just felt like the time jumped, that was before I got diagnosed, i still sometimes get confused after i got diagnosed, about the therapist I'm very sorry :( that sound awful! My therapist was kind, i think?
By "i think" I meant- i have a alter, i believe they go by jinx? They said they didn't have the best experience with her, and im afraid something bad happened:(
@@galactic-hamster7043 thank you friend!
Not to be rude or anything. Did you get a new therapist?
Amnesia Was Her Name is one (1) of my absolute favorite songs, so seeing one (1) of my absolute favorite artists make an animation to it is amazing! Can't wait for this to premiere :]
Edit/Update: THAT WAS SO COOL ASKAJDHAJ AAAAAAAAA
I absolutely vibe with the unnecessary journalistic/scientific way you add the parentheses numbers
@@ninz_0 I put them there for people who have troubles reading numbers, or people who have troubles reading written out numbers, but thank you! :]
Dementia is my biggest fear. The idea of forgetting, replacing and exaggerating memories to the point of it being unrecognisable is a terrifying concept. You dont only loose everything you love, you loose everything you love without knowing you lost it.
1:50 really hit me differently, I go by so many aliases and names that sometimes I forgot who I actually am. Am I James, Ghost, Harpy, Jackson, Slurmp, or Puppy? Like they are all me, I am them, but I also feel so disconnected from these names and it doesn't feel like they actually belong to me. I try to explain to my friends how it feels (I'm the only one I know who is experiencing this) but I just can't do it properly, but that scene does it so amazingly! Everything that I feel is exactly what that scene is! It's so refreshing to know that I'm not the only one who experiences that and the way you animated it is perfect! So thank you (?)
i feel the same
Same too
THATS HOW IT IS FOR ME! its like am i bee? am i arson? am i alex?
jack, tyler, pico?
redd, jiffy, denji?
saiki, kiio, little boy blue?
all of the names are mine, they all "apply" to me, but it doesnt feel like they all click with me
theyre names i have but it doesnt feel like me
its like paying rent, i know the apartments mine, its in my name, but it doesnt really feel right to call it my property
Same and I’m just slowly forgetting who am I and I’m losing touch with reality tbh.. and sometimes I think my name is Alex, midori, baked potato, cookie, puddles, and my actual name..And I just question whether I’m actually me or I’m just being who *I and others want me to be* it’s just so confusing and I’m just scared and tired
happens sometimes
As someone with memory loss as well, this was really on point. Sometimes we just forget who we are as a person and other ppl we love and care abt. It's nothing like forgetting what you had for lunch 6 years ago. I showed my brother this and he called Crumb over-dramatic. This IS really what it feels like. My brother's a dipshit
amazing comment
refund him.
Get a new bro-wait what was I talking about?
This is joke
forget him
(sorry)
disown that mf
I don't have amnesia or any form of long-term memory loss, though as someone that experiences (some form) of dissociation/depersonalization this resonated a lot. Like a lot, like wow.
Mostly the visuals, not really the song.
It's very difficult to find things that describe how I feel, so it felt nice. Thank you.
SO MUCH DELTARUNE HERE
Honestly this may be a bit out of place since I have ADHD, not amnesia, but the crappy memory aspect of the ADHD I have is... really bad. It's to the point where most of my childhood memories were either made up or completely fabricated. I remember telling people past memories with them in my childhood and them just looking at me in confusion. I remember now telling family members shared experiences only to be told that this experience never happened. I once felt great guilt for doing something to someone only for them to tell me it never happened. I constantly stop sentences because I forget what I was saying, or what the person said before. It's very occasional, but sometimes even now I'll recall a memory that apparently (according to friends or family) never happened. And on rare occasions, I'll hear voices that nobody else hears. (this honestly might not even be ADHD but I'm not diagnosed with anything else so eioioweoiew) And it's scary because sometimes... I don't know what is and isn't real.
You should call your doctor
@@l0sts0ul89 eh maybe dofoodoe
This is actually kinda scary, not knowing what is real or not is a scary idea. And, I kinda of relate to this too… good luck, hope you’ll be alright.
Also, eieoieowiewioiw great way to write feeling.
I’ve never seen anyone with the same experience as me, I also have memories that I get that just seem so real but apparently aren’t? And now I don’t know what ones are so I don’t like talking about them in case they’re wrong, also forgetting everything every second is really frustrating
Dude i relate to you, like word for word, its upsetting but also comforting to know im not alone
2 months at it, yet every single frame and second delivered us this masterpiece. Crumbs, you've done it again.
honestly the way she presented this seems a lot more like a representation of depersonalisation and derealisation rather than amnesia and it sfrICKING AMAZING WOW
Well depending on how much memory was lost or which memories was lost, amnesia can lead to said conditions.
The fact that they replace “memory” with “tomato” and “loss” with “sauce” makes it all the more better-
It’s like trying to recall a memory but can’t quite put your finger on it and start messing things up.
I love it.
Great animation btw!
The doctor said she had beautiful eyes also was meant to mean she had memory loss
In my head, "Amnesia" is someone the protagonist was in love with. The MC and "Amnesia" had a relationship (probably a toxic relationship, because of the line "I guess she doesn't know [how to] treat me right.") before they got into a freak accident where "Amnesia" perished and MC survived, but lost their memories as a consequence.
All they can remember are vague memories of "Amnesia", and that is why they are so distressed that they are missing important things (seen from MC trying to dig into a "grave", which could be for their memories OR for "Amnesia").
Since they hear the word "Amnesia" so much after their accident, they associate this as their past lover's name. They also probably confuse their doctor for their past lover because of the doctor's constant presence by their bedside, mistaking the doctor's care as a partner's love. Memories from past and present blur together as MC's brain tries to mend the broken spaces in between. Now, they think the doctor is "Amnesia", the one saying sweet words and compliments, saying things like "You have beautiful eyes" and holding their hand during the surgery.
Memories of their lover haunts them until the surgery, where their mind is "repaired", and suddenly their terrifying reality rights itself. They realize who "Amnesia" really was, and that they are gone.
I think it is about the protangist that got amnesia and falls in love with their doctor, he mistakes the name amnesia for the doctor’s because they have amnesia, at the end, he doesn’t need to be a patient anymore and that’s why the doctor goes away.
Thats rlly interesting
that line is referring to how he can't remember what happened last night
holy sh!t. this makes sense
The partner wasnt toxic. From the other memories we can assume that the partner was actually a really good person.
That line is there because they couldnt remember where they slept, so they assumed it wasnt the bed since they cant remember. And if they werent sleeping in a bed, thats probably a bad sign.
this is actually amazing--everything about it is. crumb has improved in animation so much and i am glad to have been able to witness all of it
love you, crumb, stay safe
This is probably one of my favourite videos of yours. Something about the animation fits the vibe of the song perfectly.
The song itself is also interesting, with some parts being mixed around, eg:
"The doctor said I had *tomato* loss"
"We had spaghetti with *long-term memory* sauce"
Another example (I think):
"The doctor said I had *beautiful eyes* "
"Amnesia was her name, she had *memory loss* "
Edit: Shoot this was posted 9 months ago sorry to bother you-
omg hi juniper! didn’t expect to see you here 👀
@@scaredycat2002 yoooo hello! lmao yea i've got some interests that make no sense together.
@@juniper_is_confused Oof, same
yo if you like the music it’s by lemon demon you should check out his other stuff
This comment made me realize there's actually probably another lyric to the song we were missing the name of the girl who actually had the beautiful eyes and who's missing at the end but throughout the song we don't hear it we never "remember" her name
I've always thought it interesting that the meanings of words are often retained by amnesia patients, but I guess that's because a different part of the brain handles words than other memories.
2:07 is really impressive, especially for flipaclip!
This whole thing really just... it hurts my brain to imagine copypasting all those frames manually in flipaclip to do all this boiling.
Doesn't seem as hard as you're describing it. I think the hard thing Wouldve been knowing how to draw the pose
I know right!!
@@freya-the-wolf i do, in fact, animate a lot more than its shown on my channel
@@freya-the-wolf you want to see me try when its literally my life goal to be an animator. You're very aggressive to someone just expressing their opinion
@@Maber610 that is the impressive thing I was referring to, it's very good posing. But I use flash/animate so I find it hard to imagine doing something as complete and polished as this in FlipaClip, which is far more limited. I'm FlipaClip you have to copypaste frames manually to make pauses instead of making the frame longer, you don't have a timeline, and you have to draw everything manually.
And example is the bit where they're looking in the mirror and the eyes pop up. In flash, I could draw that eye animation once and then put it all around the frame, but they had to draw each individually.
So it seems more impressive to me because of the limitations they're working with