Seems to happen every twenty yrs Why aren’t those evil fucks @ Purdue pharma in jail? Fines don’t bother them Lock those shits up like the heads of the cartels And get these humans some help!
This is a life I don't miss. Receipts was my jam. I made a killing. Then i almost died of sepsis and spent 4 weeks in a coma. Been clean since 2/22/19.
You have to think....what would ever make someone want to live like this? The feelings that people get from these drugs feel so good that it overtakes all inhibitions and normal perceptions of right and wrong. Surely you can imagine that no sober minded person would ever behave like this? Drugs take over everything that makes people human and turns them into monsters.
G Pow Some people move from the glamour of it, to a place where they hate substance addiction and it’s in here someone can break free of drugs/ alcohol and become sober. We have no idea where the next stage of her addiction will take her to, it’s early on.
Nikki Velazco The vast majority of drug addicts don’t turn into monsters. A substance addiction usually comes from someone being unable to handle their emotions and reality. That could be as simple as being freezing cold on a hard street floor at night, general anxiety (self medicating) or from some childhood trauma. Escapism is a pretty scary thing and when you get a pet hamster as a child and it dies due to their tiny lifespan, this helps us at a young age to face problems and work through them. When trauma happens young, the unlucky few can fall stagnant. Even writing this I’m glad I got a pet hamster as a child - “Why aren’t you a drug addict”? Hamsters.
I feel like I’m listening to a 12 year old...not that she’s stupid at all but she actually sounds sweet and innocent like a child. Makes her enduring but her story even more heartbreaking to listen to.
@@YouAreMySunshine2 ...She shouldn't be called a loser, that is a bit close minded. I agree, there is nothing glamorous about this and it shouldn't be glorified.
This is soul crushing. You can tell by the way she talks that she is an intelligent person. There’s something magnetic about her. Her past is killing her future. She will hopefully get out of this and shine bright. I have hope for this one.
Mr. Spaghettios Na withdraws from serious addicting to benzo’s is pretty bad but nothing like getting off brown and methadone it’s the worst pain and your an emotional wreck you think it’s never gonna end but it does it just takes dedication and will power to really want your life back but then on the flip side of that some of this people have so much emotional baggage getting clean isn’t even on der radar.. to be honest you have to be a junkie to really understand. Some people just say oh for gods sake just stop but it has such a grip on it them and are alone wit no love in der life and without that your in a difficult situation I’m afraid 😕 I pay that they wake up some day and just say enough is enough it’s the only way people putting you in when your not ready it’s never gonna work. I just wish the states and my country in Ireland would treat this as a health issue and not a criminal issue. Libby your only on it 4/5 years plz young woman get off the heroin and just use benzodiazepines and weed and sleeping tables and it can be done wish her all the best in the world 🙏🏻
I hate every comment saying “she’s so beautiful, this is sad” or “You’re beautiful, get clean so you can get older and become a wife and mother”. Like why is her life’s worth based on her beauty? She should get clean because heroin is terrible for you. She shouldn’t get clean because she is beautiful therefore she has actual worth people. It’s just fucking sad the way most people view women and what they’re worthy of and assume what they want in life will be being a wife and mother. Like I get the sentiment; she is beautiful. But that doesn’t make her life more worthy of living/ that shouldn’t be the first reason people are saying she should look forward to her future and get clean.
Eh, it’s not that. It’s just an observation of her physical beauty...not some moralistic thing. She’s beautiful so people notice and comment. It’s perfectly human.
I hate to see people like her in this state. Clearly a very intelligent and engaging person, so sad to see her like this. I wish her health and happiness
That was one of the most engrossing portrayals of heroin-chic I've ever seen. She's an incredibly insightful, articulate and bitterly-sweet desperate individual - straight out of fiction, but real! Her ability to share the sick appeal of such a harrowing lifestyle is profound. She could really be something if she could manage to escape (survive long enough to escape!) the substances and the lifestyle. At such a young age there's still hope for her.
what does this have to do with heroin-chic??? just because a beautiful woman with style and enthralling personality appears?! this girl has an alluring presence whether she's on smack or not, believe me! I know such individuals. it's solely because of her, not because of the dope!!!
Not trying to be rude, but as an ex heroin addict, there is nothing chic about it. This is her, it is raw and real. Not chic. She is a beautiful soul and I pray she gets the help she needs.
I’m sitting here grinding my teeth and salivating, but at the same time my guts hurt and I feel sick. I have 6 years off of heroin and meth. No human being should ever feel that feeling in their life. After that nothing compares. I’m grateful that I’ve overcome my addiction, but the dragon always lingers in the back of my mind. I wish I had NEVER touched that shit. She reminds me of me back in the day. I hope she gets help and cleans her life up, my heart hurts for her and I hope she doesn’t die.
Life is many more things than feelings. I have never tasted happiness. I have done suffering my entire life but i still wouldn't go for better feelings. There are lifes where outlets don't exist. These can become highs too. You have stayed off for 6 years, that in itself is a high, meaning it can get higher.
Her vocabulary is sharp because she is smart and young, but that will fade over the next 10 years until she stops. H really eats away at/fogs your thinking and memory.
Yeah it's called fog brain, like alcoholics get what's called wet brain... it so messed up, u can hardly remember anything from coming out of crack nd heroin addiction myself I well know about fog brain...🤦♀️🤦♀️ hopefully shes not caught up in it for yrs upon yrs were her intelligence is overly non existent nd she gets the help she needs by the grace of god or sum high power 👌💯
Yep, I'm 40 and used to be so smart and focused, now I'm a scatterbrain and have a difficult time picking up on things. That's all the booze and drugs combined over 25 years. I think the crack is what really fucked my head and made me all a.d.d. and anxious while the booze and heroin made me dumb...
Damian I noticed the same thing, her imagination is extremely vivid and her verbal explanations of how heroin and withdrawals "feel" really speak from a mind that has incredible potential, it sucks she found herself in this situation...
This is a child that never had parents teach her how to be an adult. I’ve worked with addicts and most of them are like children. It’s so, so sad. I wish the US had the same heroin programs as my country does. The heroin is free and safe in special shelters, so they don’t go out to steal or do other crime for it. They have special day jobs for them to keep them off the street and earn a little cash to buy stuff like cigarettes. When they are really done they can go to rehab and after rehab they will get assisted living until they can manage for themselves, but usually a social worker will still come over for coffee once a week. They just need to learn a new way of life.
i really wish america was like this but unfortunately so many people are against it and think that it's making people addicts because they arent educated on the subject
I'd like to find out where Eve is, and study all the research there is! I'd pass on the information. Sometimes the ways to respond to a situation is different than we think, it's important to not judge, more beneficial to ask questions and keep an open mind.
Heroin is the best high ever, don't EVER try it. I know exactly what she meant with stretching . Don't miss that!! 5-6 years heroin addiction. I have a year & 5 months clean. Hope she gets help😢
Well done to you for being clean for over a year! Not sure if you are familiar with Gabor Mate’s work but every time I see someone’s addiction it reminds me of what he always says, that the real question is not “why are you addicted but why are you in pain”? You can find him on TH-cam and get his books because he understands human pain and he has spent decades of his life with heroin addicts who are essentially “people in pain”. Well done to you, you deserve an applause! 👏👏👏
This is the hardest one I’ve watched. Shes making stupid choices but her intelligence is astonishing. The way she forms her sentences and tells her stories, she could write a best selling novel. I seriously hope the best for her.
Jamie Tripp Utitus She had family members looking for her in 2017 & 2018....So it looks like she does have family who care for her...but her priorities are skewed.... facebook.com/MissingHomelessOrg/photos/a.1609038739369636/1987687974838042/?type=3
sounds like she's using heroin to try and get close to her dead father, very sad, in truth if her dad could see her after dying from an overdose, he'd be urging her to quit.
@@anthonylowney1395 oh, thanks so much!, i've spent nearly all my life speaking to mental health professionals as a patient, i guess my own experience has given me some worthwhile insight
@@crabbtrixexp I was being sarcastic. Fuck psychology, it has too much power over us. Problems are usually more complex than they seem. Addiction is a horrible thing, and while I am not saying she is not telling the truth, many facts can be fabricated, and the addict starts to believe in things that may never have even happened to them.
Really not much different than the huge pharmaceutical companies that got millions hooked on oxy.... at least “street dealers” are more honest/upfront about their occupation and intentions
Kacy Winns well they don’t go around misleading their customers, telling people it’s a harmless drug, easy to stop at any time etc. and not that’s it’s any of your business but yes, I do know. I’ve had thorough experience with both “professionals”.
Please get clean☹️I just lost my aunt and uncle these past 2 years from heroin. My aunt lived with heroin addicts. They were her friends & she was letting them stay with her because they lost their place & they ended up getting her on heroin but when she overdosed they cleared her phone out and robbed her & left. Then my uncle, he has overdosed 19 times but the 20th time he wasn’t around anyone and when someone found him his heart wasn’t even beating anymore, he was narcaned multiple times and it didn’t work so he was rushed to the hospital and his heart started beating again but he was in there for months, there was so much damage done to the brain that he couldn’t look around, talk, or move. He could only move his eyes alittle bit but they were stuck looking up. His body started shutting down after a couple of months and ended up dying. Please please get help☹️
i will never undersrtand why ppl do drugs im 48 asnd never had the desire to go thru what ive seen other go threw im not a curious ppl and i dont trust ppl with my life anyone can evil person can put pioson in that shit and kill you
It's so sad. It was a love/hate for me. I never thought I'd get beyond it. October I hit my 3 year sobriety. I typically won't watch anything regarding addiction but sometimes it's a good reminder of what I am not missing.
@@janelle009 i am trying to find the courage to figure how to get of after 10 years of using it as a medical user with legal prescription and way to happy to write them docs. I deal with spinal injury and many disability related issues which are of high complexity, and have no idea what would I do without it for my pain... but I do know it feels like it dominats my world now after 10years and its a high level of price i dont want to pay no more
Probably because heroin doesn't feel amazing all the time. In fact, mostly it feels lonely with brief intermissions of numbness. Sure, sometimes that initial rush feels good but it so incredibly short lived when you're an addict. In fact, once your tolerance reaches a certain point, you may not get a rush at all (or at least you can't afford the amount it would take to get the rush). You're just trying not to be sick after a while. But if you do get a rush, no matter what, you know its artificial bliss and in a matter of hours you'll be in such pain from withdrawal that you'd wish you were dead & all your emotional baggage that you were running from just comes rushing back. That's always looming over you...
That heroin withdrawal stretch is the worst! I could never stretch my legs out enough. That was the worst part of withdrawal for me. Clean for eight yrs w/ no plans of going back. This girl is so beautiful & intelligent, but her mind is becoming a blur. You can hear her keep grasping for words, but unable to find them right away. When I was getting clean, I had to learn how to speak again. I hope she finds the will & want to get clean.
I don’t think anybody here is lying about how they feel, but these empathetic emotions are only ever expressed when a case like hers is neatly placed in front of them, the second she goes back out she’s probably as helpless as everyone else. “Oh she’s just a bum” mentality keeps her trapped . She’s bigger than her addictions and problems I wish she realized and made an effort
I agree. But, there are some bum addicts who would change themselves for the better, and then there are some who are far too deep in the dark to pull through. No matter how much you can motivate those types and make them see they are better than what they think they are, they just cannot be helped. They are gone. They wont come back. They choose the darkness over the ones that they once loved and cared about. I lost my cousin to heroin, he was in the process of an overdose and went home to my aunts (first time in a long time he stepped foot in her house since being on it) house telling her he didn't feel good. The next morning she went to knock on his door to tell him that breakfast was ready, he wouldn't answer so she went in and thought he was just tired. Then she noticed he wasn't responding, so she tried to shake him awake but he was already stiffed up. He probably passed an hour later when he went to bed. In a way, he knew his time was up, he knew the drugs took him over so he went home to where he was comfortable to pass. We've tried so much to help him realize he had a whole life ahead of him, and that he also had a wife and two beautiful children at home. We tried to get him professional help, and even let him decide for himself because how aggressive and aggravating he was getting with us. Nothing helped. Some will make an effort to get better only to relapse and end up dying. It is a sad case for those who have been through such a hard life and traumatic events. Drugs are horrible..
@@dltbarron That is your opinion you are def entitled to. But, sometimes a words CAN be a cure to those who are willing to sit and think about what they are doing with their lives, and they have the chance and choice on whether they want to continue on their path to destruction or stop and get help. Most addicts are far too deep into the drugs that it has them thinking that the drugs love them way more than their own family, and that is why they choose to continue with their addiction because they think that their family are out to get them and be against them when they are really trying to help. Some families only write them off as bums and hold grudges against them only because they probably tried all they can to get them help and they refused, so they no longer wanted to tolerate seeing them kill themselves. Adding to that, just because they held some grudges and what not doesnt mean they didn't love them. I know addiction is a disease, and I am surprised there is some one out there such as yourself that also agrees that it is.. Because most sit there and say it isn't and that it was a choice. Yes, it was a choice to the individual but it can lead to a disease because their body is so used to it that it needs the drugs to actually survive. My uncle has been an alcoholic for more than several years, and he has to have alcohol in order to function right;.my CNA instructor has also said the same thing about her father. And it is sad. I wholeheartedly agree with your comment, but do know that there are some addicts out there who can be cured by a loved ones words if they choose to listen to them. Sometimes these addicts need a healthy and motivational push to get started in the right direction to treatment. And as with my cousin, we did try to provide him with treatments, the proper treatments he refused because he didn't care. That is always a number one step when it comes down to this, so don't think we missed that because we tried everything we could to save him.
@@dltbarron dltbarron Are you sure I need to be the one educated, or you? I am educated enough to know that mental disorders/traumatic events play the part of drug abuse, and drug abuse eventually will trigger a mental disorder. Also will add in that motivation and encouragement CAN be effective to get an addict that CHOOSES to surrender their addiction in order to accept the help that their family are desperately wanting them to get and continue to a treatment plan and rehabilitation . You cannot expect to force a treatment plan on them without an intervention whether they go through with the decision or not. An intervention helps indicate where the addict is at in their life and to see if they are willing to comply with their family's decision for them, and to see what treatment option is best for them. There is such thing as motivational interventions; which I can specifically remember it being used as our attempt to see if he would have changed his mind even though we used it before. He agreed for an intervention, but as soon as he heard options he refused the help. Our interventionist had given helpful tips and resources in order to try to make it successful; same tactics that my sisters and I had used on my mother when she was a coke addict and alcoholic. Self-motivation, leverage, and seduction (a term that Jeffery S Smith uses as "detach") - as well with having to leave behind the stress and combativeness with words because they are in denial that they don't have an addiction problem. We did it out of love and desperation because we needed our mother, and she needed to see that her numbing her pain until she killed herself will only bring us much more pain. Seduction has really helped us out; which it defines as letting them know that continuing their drug/alcoholism habit will result into something worse, and if they choose to change their mind to let the family know because we are walking away since they aren't accepting help. I will also lay down that she had manic depression and PTSD from being in an domestic violence relationship for 3 years that i also had to witness as a child, and thats where she eventually turned to drugs. In order to get through to the addict you have to build their trust, respect their privacy and be honest about the whole situation . Something we had to do because being angry or holding grudges weren't our thing when we truly care for somebody. Even if we were angry. Sometimes "digging" into their problems will only result into aggravation and make them refuse to get help then pull away from their family. Again, some addicts will comply and some will refuse. Helping my cousin wasn't as easy as helping my mother regardless if he had two small children, he just didn't want the help and we had no choice but to let him have his space. Which if you are educated as you claimed to be, you would know that an addict who constantly refuses helps no matter how many times you tried to approach the situation at different times with different ways to help, it is best to leave them alone.And it doesn't mean we failed him or didn't show him the love he needed, he just wouldn't realize that his life, his daughters and wife meant way much more than drugs. We were exhausted from pleading and crying. Addicts like him will refuse until it's too late, and thats when he decided to make it to my aunts before passing because he was scared, and he was probably regretting his decision of not wanting to take help. So don't tell me that I do not truly understand what addiction is, half my family were addicts whether they had an mental diagnosis, had a traumatic past that lead them to drug abuse and addiction or they did it just to do it. some chose to get help and some didn't. These are the resources and experiences I've learned from being involved in family interventions of addicts and what I had learned listening to our family interventionist. I also suffer depression and anxiety, I was also an addict that was using met and overdosed in July of 2017 and that is what it took to get help and change my life around. It was hard to fight the urges, but I managed to get myself cleaned, detoxed and help. Again, I do know what addiction is and I sympathize for these people and whoever was an addict in the past as well with those who lost their battle. I made my mistakes in my past that lead me to thinking drugs or any type of addiction was the only way out. So yes, I am using these experiences, my past and loss of my cousin of this year to motivate myself on becoming a counselor to help those who are struggling with addiction and with depression/anxiety/etc
@@dltbarron i think everything she said was fairly accurate . i was a heroin addict at for 11 years i was only 25 when i began to use. im not gonna put my sob story but i was stubborn as a mule when my auny an uncle wanteed to get me help,i lost both my parents an little sister, i was dense and far too deep in the hole thinkin i had no way out of thos darkness until their motivation helped me without them i am pretty surei would have been 6ft under so yes ones words and compassion can help motivate an addict if they are willing to listen and it can be a step towards to cure for a user to get help if they have a large support system,most families get frustrated and give up and thats what leads them diggin their grave deeper some users can be helped if they are willingly to allow it if you think someone is misinformed dont be a dick about it and tell them to educate themselves , you help them understand what you think you only observed what addicts were going thru and knew their story on what leadthem to the path of addiction so until you can get an education or degree indealing with addicts and substance abuse along with psychology then come back and help educate people.,
16:54 ...the “choker” on her neck is her tourniquet and you can see her orange-capped needle fall out of her tourniquet as she’s talking. I don’t think she’s ready to give it up yet, but I hope and pray that she finds the right path soon. ❤️
Lindsey Voigt what an idiotic and ignorant, limited comment . Are you nuts? That’s not the reason. He “set the barre” by doing it and gambling to live by it or to die of an overdose, over being her dad. Garbage in, garbage out. Cute yes but she’s so fucked up. How would you feel if this was your little sister or daughter? Don’t bother to reply, I NEVER check.
My sister is recovering from heroin addiction. It was very sad and still is. She stole from everyone and only cared about getting high. Im proud of her for getting help and trying.
She looks like a child and an older woman at the same time. It's like her youth is being ripped from her. God, someone please save her before it's too late.
Crystal Clear the world isn’t all flowers and butterflies, dear. It’s important to not shelter yourself. Open yourself up to seeing the hard, rough truths. You can’t just live under a rock because it’s comfortable.
Zoe Rae Actually- I can do whatever I want. And life is hard enough as is for myself. So if I want to live under a rock. That’s my fucking choice, not your’s.
An angel. I’m in love with her. And not in a perverted way, there just isn’t another expression for it. Libby seems like such a sweet, kind soft soul. I wish you the best angel. I got clean and sober at 17. I’m 19 now, watching this gave me gratitude for my painful, but miraculous recovery.. I wish I could hold you in my arms and hug away the pain. You’re not alone. X
Kitten xx it breaks my heart that you where so young when you got addicted. I’m currently 17 and I’ve had a codeine addiction for a year and heroin always felt like it was creeping up on me but luckily I know if I can’t cope with weed I’ll never be able to cope with heroin which is why I turned to codeine instead. I could only cope with prescription drugs. I so far haven’t relapsed for a good 2 months now. I wish you luck
@@jessietherat1691 Instead of codein use Morphine ... codein gets metabolized to morphine and the process is destroying your body. also morphine is cheaper and you cant overdose on that shit so ez when u follow the guidelines. but it would be better to stop that shit or do u wanna die like Juicewrld. Wish u luck my dude
@@maipoina-xk5zk Exacty, morphine is a man made heroin. Sister's been abusing that and methadone for years and years and years, she's totally f**king gone and tore the whole family apart. Getting it from a doctor, she's been on pills for 35+ years.
Shes a vivid person and so interesting to listen to. I feel like if she ever decided to get clean, she could totally pen an autobiography that could sell.
She has such a colorful personality and sweetness to her! She's also pretty articulate. Something about her gives me good vibes, like she's easy to get along with. I think if she didn't have this lifestyle she'd be surrounded with friends and love.
This girl has a large ❤️. She like an intelligent child trapped in a young woman’s body. She Soul isn’t bad, her addiction is. She WILL TRIUMP OVER THIS🙏
I first tried heroin when I was 16. It's crazy how accessible hard drugs are to children now. Many overdoses of young kids, me being one of them. Been clean ever since, but many kids in my town weren't so lucky.
I was doing heroin from the time I was 14-19, I am now 54 & I have to say it still haunts & terrifies me everyday . The reasons I got wrapped up in drugs in the first place are still in the front of my mind, affecting my whole life. It is not something you overcome, it is a fight everyday to just maintain. Skating & heavy metal, punk saved me, but it’s still a struggle. I never had a family cause of all the bad shit that happened to me. People who haven’t experienced it can never understand. People who do have families, Protect your fucking kids from pedos cause their lives are basically ruined after that. Shit, sigh, I have no fucking answers..
it seems like she accepted her fate of being a heroin addicted from a young age. The way she speaks of her growing up it seems like she just expected it would happen, that she would be just like daddy. Just sad.
@@snoozyq9576 But I knew him well enough to say that. No offense to her, she's an admitted addict, so it's not like I'm knocking her down. It's just annoying when we glorify drug use by comparing addicts to talent that they are not even remotely exhibiting. Did I miss the part where she is writing songs and performing them? The only similarity between her and Kurt is that she's an addict. I'd love to hear her music if she's made any. I'm sure it's deep and profound. In addition, Kurt never would have sat for 20+ minutes sharing as much personal information about himself. He was a pretty quiet guy, not the chatty sort.
To see these people in this format is beautiful, we're rooting for them and we want to see them succeed in life as we see fit, but more than likely you pass them on the street and shun them, ignore them, spit on them, most folks aren't thinking "wow, they remind me of a rock star". We tend to project onto desperate people when we're forced to see them as human, we form them into a more pallitable version of themselves so that it's easier to accept their desperate reality. If we say "Oh, yeah, she reminds me of a junkie rock star who made tens of millions of dollars" rather than "Damn, she might end up a brutal statistic" it makes us sleep better. Truth is, she is living her own version of herself. None of our expactations thoughts or prayers are going to sway her.
I love her openness and positivity. Addiction is a way to cope with pain, emotional or physical. The opiate high is like no other and until you've experienced it you have no right to judge. Everyone commenting their opinions on what she should be doing or what's gonna happen to her, you're missing the point of the video.
That portrait of her was absolutely stunning. She seems positive for the most part but I hope she finds a life that makes her happier, she deserves so much more.
she’s my age and it’s tripping me out. i hope she gets clean. not bc she’s smart and beautiful (she is) but because she has such a bright future ahead of her and she deserves to see it
The REAL QUESTION is not “why are you addicted but why are you in pain”? Gabor Mate said this and the way he understands addiction, of any kind, is extremely useful! I must say, this amazing girl is a definition of charisma and what it means to have an x-factor!
She’s a beautiful girl, living a fast life. She has no clue how lucky she is to be alive! I hope her going out in style, ends up being a change of lifestyle. It’s a hope an a prayer from here.
She still can be anything she wants to be she’s only 24 and just cuz she’s an addict doesn’t mean she won’t amount to anything who knows she may just get sober and achieve each and every one of her dreams. Being an addict doesn’t mean you’re doomed.
wow she is so gorgeous just like a film star ! It's never to late for Libby to get well and start a good life. Hope one day she will become a big star of helping other people : )
Lilly if you’re reading this I’m praying for you. I am also a recovering opioid addict and I hope that maybe you can minimally get on some Suboxone or some type of maintenance therapy if you can find help. I promise you there’s a better way.
Juana Ortega bless you and your beautiful, kind and encouraging heart & spirit. Keep spreading your joy and your positive energy to others. Thank you for making my day. Blessings 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
It’s concerning to me how much she’s glamorized this lifestyle and seems to think that it’s cool, and I can’t blame her, clearly she doesn’t have the best role models. I hope she realizes one day that she doesn’t have to go out the way her dad did, she can make a better life for herself if she gets some help.
She’s 24....dammit that breaks my heart for her. You can tell her soul is hurt. I’m also an addict, never H but I didn’t opiates. I’ve been clean a little over a year now so I understand all her struggles. I hope she finds her way ❤️
Im watching this to see maybe how my aunt felt before she died. She died of a heroin overdose and i guess watching these sorta gives me an insight on how she felt.
I think she related a lot to her father, that when he passed away she got traumatized, and her mind is still in that phase. Her coping mechanism is copying the life her dad had. I really hope she gets help
Shes only 24. She can change. Wow I'm 21 I couldnt imagine ever living this kind of life I feel for her. All the stuff they see and been through. Addiction is so crazy
And I crying over my amazing father who died at 84 years old and gave me an amazing life. I feel so sorry for these people. But Im so grateful. Thanks GOD!!!!
If you're smart and know what is going on, you know it from the 1st day(or early on) that you're in trouble. Just never HOW MUCH trouble. Like life-deviating-fucked-up-tangent type of trouble.
All smoke and mirrors, just a lovely girl trying to dig her way out the whole heap of shit life has given her, she has so much heart, hard to watch, never point the finger at anyone never ever,
I am actually her age. I am born at the end of 1995 too. I look at my life and hers... it’s heartbreaking. I am watching your interviews because my mother used to be on heroin when I was a child. I was taken away from her, moving around from relative to relative and everyone wanted a piece of me. Until I grew older my father never really cared. I saw a lot of drugs, blood and violence as a kid. Death... But the difference is, I had one person in my life who would always be there and never give up on me. My granny ♥️ Without her... I don’t know. I moved out last september into my first own apartment, I work and study (I‘m from Germany 😅) and my life is rough sometimes because a past like this never lets go of you. But I am fine. Never used drugs, have a solid relation to alcohol 😅 I have good friends... And right now I just wish she would have had someone like I had. And I am so sorry for all these broken children out there who never asked to be born into this cruel world 🥺
Jen Sowers Jen, I’m impressed that you can handle watching so many of these. Most people can only get through one or two of them. Thanks for watching. Mark
I had a horrendously abusive and traumatic childhood (in and out of foster care) and Im not a drug addict. Just saying. People react to things differently.
Content. Yep. A lot of people talk about “the blanket” or the warm feelings associated with heroin, it’s a lot more then that, it’s everything you’ve ever wanted to feel, it covers up the gut wrenching emptiness and the self loathing (at first) so you keep going back again and again and again coz it’s that dam good, and then you end up using just to feel your old “normal”, you need the shit to not feel sick. And once your at the stage, welcome to the trap. It’s such a horrible path.
The only plus about heroin is that it does not give users drug induced psychosis. But its highly addictive and most addicts who come off it substitute it with Methadone or Suboxone and synthetic opioids are just as addictive. Doctors have to be careful not to overprescribe Fentanyl patches because users can cook the patches and overdose.
@@silvervalleystudios2486 Actually I am on methadone and I can tell you without a shadow of doubt it's not a " substitute" for heroin, fentanyl, oxycontin or any opiate high. There's 0 comparison there. You're comparing apples and oranges here. I could bet you've never been on anything so you are talking out arse. However methadone is physically addictive you have 2 be weened off it suboxone is not. Methadone takes the craving to use away and rids you of withdraw. If used properly it does exactly what it was made for, getting addicts clean .
Amanda Morgan There was a tv program over here 🇬🇧 a few years ago with 5 or 6 people on a methadone withdrawal program. They all said it was worse than heroin to withdraw off, even under medical help
@@jimthornberry6774 Your saying buprenorphine is not addicting? I would beg the differ. The wd isn't as intense as heroin although it can be close at times but it drags on from 10 days to weeks depending on your dose and length of time taking it. It has the typical restless legs and arms, insomnia, always cold ect ect. It fucking sucks.
She has so much to offer the world. Listening to the way she told stories had me locked in. She is gifted. I hope and pray she gets the help she needs to get off of the streets.
Such a radiant woman. I have hope for her, I hope the company that films these offers help for some of these people. This woman has so much magic about her you can feel it. Shes also gorgeous but that's besides the point. Her soul is great and she deserves an amazing life.
she really looks like some 90's rockstar, It's fucked up how this was so glamourized back then and still lingers for some.
Too bad. God help them. Help us all
She looks like Courtney Love
Seems to happen every twenty yrs
Why aren’t those evil fucks @ Purdue pharma in jail?
Fines don’t bother them
Lock those shits up like the heads of the cartels
And get these humans some help!
It is crazy because all the people from the era grew up and realised that it's dumb to burn out, but the others obviously died
more do it now..it's more prevalent today
I googled her uncle, "the ginger bandit" and he did what she said he'd done. I think her story is book worthy. God please save her.
Valkyries SS @Vile why cause she uses. Lots of people doped up or straight. Quite happily take it up the--💕🏴🥴
Valkyries SS that’s sick to say
Valkyries SS you need help bye
Valkyries SS she ain’t gonna fuck you, but keep on dreaming.
@Valkyries SS Most certainly
This is a life I don't miss. Receipts was my jam. I made a killing. Then i almost died of sepsis and spent 4 weeks in a coma. Been clean since 2/22/19.
Coming up on a year then - takes a lot of work, happy for you :)
i don't miss this life either
Congrats love
God bless. You’re making it through
Wow. That’s pretty amazing. Glad you made it.
She doesn’t sound like she’s ready to stop. Hope she gets through this.
she's not
finalPattern that’s what I was thinking
You have to think....what would ever make someone want to live like this? The feelings that people get from these drugs feel so good that it overtakes all inhibitions and normal perceptions of right and wrong. Surely you can imagine that no sober minded person would ever behave like this? Drugs take over everything that makes people human and turns them into monsters.
G Pow Some people move from the glamour of it, to a place where they hate substance addiction and it’s in here someone can break free of drugs/ alcohol and become sober. We have no idea where the next stage of her addiction will take her to, it’s early on.
Nikki Velazco The vast majority of drug addicts don’t turn into monsters. A substance addiction usually comes from someone being unable to handle their emotions and reality. That could be as simple as being freezing cold on a hard street floor at night, general anxiety (self medicating) or from some childhood trauma. Escapism is a pretty scary thing and when you get a pet hamster as a child and it dies due to their tiny lifespan, this helps us at a young age to face problems and work through them. When trauma happens young, the unlucky few can fall stagnant. Even writing this I’m glad I got a pet hamster as a child - “Why aren’t you a drug addict”? Hamsters.
I feel like I’m listening to a 12 year old...not that she’s stupid at all but she actually sounds sweet and innocent like a child. Makes her enduring but her story even more heartbreaking to listen to.
She's high.
Ped o
b. gul ...you have issues...
People that have been through childhood trauma can sometimes revert and use a childlike voice as a coping mechanism.
Well some people never had the chance to grew up.
She has a movie star personality, I pray for her safety and healing.
kyjo_ ren you have a point
she sure does. she could be a model .
Thats the words i was seraching for her 👌
@@lhamon2994 yes this is so sexy and romantic. Glad SWU is glamourizing losers.
@@YouAreMySunshine2 ...She shouldn't be called a loser, that is a bit close minded. I agree, there is nothing glamorous about this and it shouldn't be glorified.
This is soul crushing. You can tell by the way she talks that she is an intelligent person. There’s something magnetic about her. Her past is killing her future. She will hopefully get out of this and shine bright. I have hope for this one.
stpetechia727 I can’t agree more. She has a magnetic intelligence. But, you’re right, her past is indeed suffocating a future.
Dick she's an addicted girl not a specimen, you make me sick, hope you make it through your trials
@N P
Troll.
My exact thoughts....
For the most of us who have addictions, the past is our present and predicts our future.
Jeez, she describes the high and withdrawals more accurately than anyone I've ever heard.
For sure. In my experience opiate addicts are seeking that feeling of loving contentment and safety. Like a warm hug. That's what I love/loved anyway
mosipd I agree
Yup
Wonder if withdrawal from antidepressants is similar to withdrawal from other drugs
Mr. Spaghettios Na withdraws from serious addicting to benzo’s is pretty bad but nothing like getting off brown and methadone it’s the worst pain and your an emotional wreck you think it’s never gonna end but it does it just takes dedication and will power to really want your life back but then on the flip side of that some of this people have so much emotional baggage getting clean isn’t even on der radar.. to be honest you have to be a junkie to really understand. Some people just say oh for gods sake just stop but it has such a grip on it them and are alone wit no love in der life and without that your in a difficult situation I’m afraid 😕 I pay that they wake up some day and just say enough is enough it’s the only way people putting you in when your not ready it’s never gonna work. I just wish the states and my country in Ireland would treat this as a health issue and not a criminal issue. Libby your only on it 4/5 years plz young woman get off the heroin and just use benzodiazepines and weed and sleeping tables and it can be done wish her all the best in the world 🙏🏻
I hate every comment saying “she’s so beautiful, this is sad” or “You’re beautiful, get clean so you can get older and become a wife and mother”. Like why is her life’s worth based on her beauty? She should get clean because heroin is terrible for you. She shouldn’t get clean because she is beautiful therefore she has actual worth people. It’s just fucking sad the way most people view women and what they’re worthy of and assume what they want in life will be being a wife and mother. Like I get the sentiment; she is beautiful. But that doesn’t make her life more worthy of living/ that shouldn’t be the first reason people are saying she should look forward to her future and get clean.
Exactly.
I was thinking the same. But at least there’s people motivating her I guess
It has nothing to do with her being a woman. If a men was beautiful the same thing would've been said.
Eh, it’s not that. It’s just an observation of her physical beauty...not some moralistic thing. She’s beautiful so people notice and comment. It’s perfectly human.
Right? Omg
Her voice. I know she is literally saying a lot but her voice says a lot. She's not ready to stop.
Really reminds me of Nichols from Orange is the new black
I hate to see people like her in this state. Clearly a very intelligent and engaging person, so sad to see her like this. I wish her health and happiness
That was one of the most engrossing portrayals of heroin-chic I've ever seen. She's an incredibly insightful, articulate and bitterly-sweet desperate individual - straight out of fiction, but real! Her ability to share the sick appeal of such a harrowing lifestyle is profound. She could really be something if she could manage to escape (survive long enough to escape!) the substances and the lifestyle. At such a young age there's still hope for her.
dooples totally agree ❤️
Love the way you described this young lady. So real its scary.
what does this have to do with heroin-chic??? just because a beautiful woman with style and enthralling personality appears?! this girl has an alluring presence whether she's on smack or not, believe me! I know such individuals. it's solely because of her, not because of the dope!!!
Heroin chic? Wow.
Not trying to be rude, but as an ex heroin addict, there is nothing chic about it. This is her, it is raw and real. Not chic. She is a beautiful soul and I pray she gets the help she needs.
I’m sitting here grinding my teeth and salivating, but at the same time my guts hurt and I feel sick.
I have 6 years off of heroin and meth.
No human being should ever feel that feeling in their life. After that nothing compares. I’m grateful that I’ve overcome my addiction, but the dragon always lingers in the back of my mind. I wish I had NEVER touched that shit. She reminds me of me back in the day. I hope she gets help and cleans her life up, my heart hurts for her and I hope she doesn’t die.
Kaycee Botte same all these videos are making me so emotional because i don’t just see a drug addict i see the person and they’re all so beautiful
One day a time
Life is many more things than feelings. I have never tasted happiness. I have done suffering my entire life but i still wouldn't go for better feelings. There are lifes where outlets don't exist. These can become highs too. You have stayed off for 6 years, that in itself is a high, meaning it can get higher.
Did you go on Methadone or Suboxone to cope with withdrawals?
Kaycee B
Thank god I've never touch that shit, I don't even have curiosity anymore after reading these comments. Like: nope, not for me.
This girl really reminds me of my daughter who died of a overdose 3 yrs ago. I hope she gets help
Her vocabulary is sharp because she is smart and young, but that will fade over the next 10 years until she stops. H really eats away at/fogs your thinking and memory.
Yeah it's called fog brain, like alcoholics get what's called wet brain... it so messed up, u can hardly remember anything from coming out of crack nd heroin addiction myself I well know about fog brain...🤦♀️🤦♀️ hopefully shes not caught up in it for yrs upon yrs were her intelligence is overly non existent nd she gets the help she needs by the grace of god or sum high power 👌💯
Yep, I'm 40 and used to be so smart and focused, now I'm a scatterbrain and have a difficult time picking up on things. That's all the booze and drugs combined over 25 years. I think the crack is what really fucked my head and made me all a.d.d. and anxious while the booze and heroin made me dumb...
Damian I noticed the same thing, her imagination is extremely vivid and her verbal explanations of how heroin and withdrawals "feel" really speak from a mind that has incredible potential, it sucks she found herself in this situation...
Man its almost like drugs are bad for your brain? Never knew that fuck
Damian Nicholas 👏👏👏🤷♀️ So true 👍🏻🏴💕🙂 first couple years.- last couple 😖☹️. 🖤
She needs to get help ASAP she’s not too far in and can save herself.
Paula Hillman I think a shirt ASAP
@@mrpanda2655 oh will you shut up please.
@@mrpanda2655 stfu
@@mrpanda2655 she probably likes wearing it
@@victoriachristensen6324 i understand she's in a bad place, but it's not a nice way to dress, is it?
This is a child that never had parents teach her how to be an adult. I’ve worked with addicts and most of them are like children. It’s so, so sad. I wish the US had the same heroin programs as my country does.
The heroin is free and safe in special shelters, so they don’t go out to steal or do other crime for it. They have special day jobs for them to keep them off the street and earn a little cash to buy stuff like cigarettes. When they are really done they can go to rehab and after rehab they will get assisted living until they can manage for themselves, but usually a social worker will still come over for coffee once a week. They just need to learn a new way of life.
Eve lion what country are you from? Sounds like they really do care about their people and that’s wonderful!
i really wish america was like this but unfortunately so many people are against it and think that it's making people addicts because they arent educated on the subject
Where are u from? Eve lion?
Maybe she is from another planet, a planet, a place, a much nicer, more intelligent world then this one. 😔🙏☮️
I'd like to find out where Eve is, and study all the research there is! I'd pass on the information. Sometimes the ways to respond to a situation is different than we think, it's important to not judge, more beneficial to ask questions and keep an open mind.
“Feels like the feeling you get when you are loved...” that part killed me.
Heroin is the best high ever, don't EVER try it. I know exactly what she meant with stretching . Don't miss that!! 5-6 years heroin addiction. I have a year & 5 months clean.
Hope she gets help😢
Well done to you for being clean for over a year! Not sure if you are familiar with Gabor Mate’s work but every time I see someone’s addiction it reminds me of what he always says, that the real question is not “why are you addicted but why are you in pain”? You can find him on TH-cam and get his books because he understands human pain and he has spent decades of his life with heroin addicts who are essentially “people in pain”. Well done to you, you deserve an applause! 👏👏👏
Me too. That stretching analogy is spot on! I have 23 years clean and I wouldn’t go back to that for anything.
Well done. Keep fighting❤️
This is the hardest one I’ve watched. Shes making stupid choices but her intelligence is astonishing. The way she forms her sentences and tells her stories, she could write a best selling novel. I seriously hope the best for her.
Libby doesn’t speak about her life or her parents with any contempt or blame ... there’s so much hope for her
Jamie Tripp Utitus She had family members looking for her in 2017 & 2018....So it looks like she does have family who care for her...but her priorities are skewed....
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sounds like she's using heroin to try and get close to her dead father, very sad, in truth if her dad could see her after dying from an overdose, he'd be urging her to quit.
Elliot Smith
oh man you should totally be a psychologist, you're so smart.
@@anthonylowney1395 oh, thanks so much!, i've spent nearly all my life speaking to mental health professionals as a patient, i guess my own experience has given me some worthwhile insight
@@eboscrubbly1187 nice to get a shout from another fan, he was so awesome, :)
@@crabbtrixexp I was being sarcastic. Fuck psychology, it has too much power over us. Problems are usually more complex than they seem. Addiction is a horrible thing, and while I am not saying she is not telling the truth, many facts can be fabricated, and the addict starts to believe in things that may never have even happened to them.
Interesting how she calls drug dealers “salesmen”
Molly Early perhaps its what her father told her he was.
Really not much different than the huge pharmaceutical companies that got millions hooked on oxy.... at least “street dealers” are more honest/upfront about their occupation and intentions
Because dealers now say, "Come shop with me." Or they ask who you shop with.
Molly Early it’s what I usually say, but as a sort of semi-joke I guess
Kacy Winns well they don’t go around misleading their customers, telling people it’s a harmless drug, easy to stop at any time etc. and not that’s it’s any of your business but yes, I do know. I’ve had thorough experience with both “professionals”.
If she got clean she would be a hell of a writer
This girl is mesmerising, hope she gets through this, coming from a fellow heroin addict.
Dan Of The Dead same here. 2 years clean. These are so hot breaking to watch
seriously. i hope so too. also a fellow addict. hope youre doing well also.
Please get clean☹️I just lost my aunt and uncle these past 2 years from heroin. My aunt lived with heroin addicts. They were her friends & she was letting them stay with her because they lost their place & they ended up getting her on heroin but when she overdosed they cleared her phone out and robbed her & left. Then my uncle, he has overdosed 19 times but the 20th time he wasn’t around anyone and when someone found him his heart wasn’t even beating anymore, he was narcaned multiple times and it didn’t work so he was rushed to the hospital and his heart started beating again but he was in there for months, there was so much damage done to the brain that he couldn’t look around, talk, or move. He could only move his eyes alittle bit but they were stuck looking up. His body started shutting down after a couple of months and ended up dying. Please please get help☹️
i will never undersrtand why ppl do drugs im 48 asnd never had the desire to go thru what ive seen other go threw im not a curious ppl and i dont trust ppl with my life anyone can evil person can put pioson in that shit and kill you
It’s not mesmerizing it’s horrifying . Wow dude
She is in love with heroin. She gets so happy talking about getting high. She makes me anxious
Agreed!
That's what I feel about fentanyl... Its those drugs
It's so sad. It was a love/hate for me. I never thought I'd get beyond it. October I hit my 3 year sobriety. I typically won't watch anything regarding addiction but sometimes it's a good reminder of what I am not missing.
@@janelle009 i am trying to find the courage to figure how to get of after 10 years of using it as a medical user with legal prescription and way to happy to write them docs.
I deal with spinal injury and many disability related issues which are of high complexity, and have no idea what would I do without it for my pain... but I do know it feels like it dominats my world now after 10years and its a high level of price i dont want to pay no more
@@janelle009 im proud of you. I have family who battles heavy addictions
Funny how she says he best time of her life is being with her dad, without drugs....rather than doing heroin all the time and feeling amazing
Probably because heroin doesn't feel amazing all the time. In fact, mostly it feels lonely with brief intermissions of numbness. Sure, sometimes that initial rush feels good but it so incredibly short lived when you're an addict. In fact, once your tolerance reaches a certain point, you may not get a rush at all (or at least you can't afford the amount it would take to get the rush). You're just trying not to be sick after a while. But if you do get a rush, no matter what, you know its artificial bliss and in a matter of hours you'll be in such pain from withdrawal that you'd wish you were dead & all your emotional baggage that you were running from just comes rushing back. That's always looming over you...
Because,like she explained it, she wants to feel loved, she can’t do it for herself and neither did her dad, at least I think
r.i.p that memory with her dad was the first and probably one of the last times she’s ever felt loved that’s why it was her happiest I think
Mckenzie Kerr yea, she’s craving that “warmth” to feel complete
LOL if u think heroin/opiate addicts feel amazing all the time u are insanely uneducated about addiction
Her choker is her tourniquet and she has her needles on her ready to go. Jesus it's so crazy, I hope she turns it all around
That heroin withdrawal stretch is the worst! I could never stretch my legs out enough. That was the worst part of withdrawal for me.
Clean for eight yrs w/ no plans of going back.
This girl is so beautiful & intelligent, but her mind is becoming a blur. You can hear her keep grasping for words, but unable to find them right away. When I was getting clean, I had to learn how to speak again. I hope she finds the will & want to get clean.
She’s just like her dad, she’s following in his footsteps hopefully, she don’t end up like him tho. Bless her.
like 90% of them do
I don’t think anybody here is lying about how they feel, but these empathetic emotions are only ever expressed when a case like hers is neatly placed in front of them, the second she goes back out she’s probably as helpless as everyone else. “Oh she’s just a bum” mentality keeps her trapped . She’s bigger than her addictions and problems I wish she realized and made an effort
I agree. But, there are some bum addicts who would change themselves for the better, and then there are some who are far too deep in the dark to pull through. No matter how much you can motivate those types and make them see they are better than what they think they are, they just cannot be helped. They are gone. They wont come back. They choose the darkness over the ones that they once loved and cared about. I lost my cousin to heroin, he was in the process of an overdose and went home to my aunts (first time in a long time he stepped foot in her house since being on it) house telling her he didn't feel good. The next morning she went to knock on his door to tell him that breakfast was ready, he wouldn't answer so she went in and thought he was just tired. Then she noticed he wasn't responding, so she tried to shake him awake but he was already stiffed up. He probably passed an hour later when he went to bed. In a way, he knew his time was up, he knew the drugs took him over so he went home to where he was comfortable to pass. We've tried so much to help him realize he had a whole life ahead of him, and that he also had a wife and two beautiful children at home. We tried to get him professional help, and even let him decide for himself because how aggressive and aggravating he was getting with us. Nothing helped. Some will make an effort to get better only to relapse and end up dying. It is a sad case for those who have been through such a hard life and traumatic events. Drugs are horrible..
@@dltbarron That is your opinion you are def entitled to. But, sometimes a words CAN be a cure to those who are willing to sit and think about what they are doing with their lives, and they have the chance and choice on whether they want to continue on their path to destruction or stop and get help. Most addicts are far too deep into the drugs that it has them thinking that the drugs love them way more than their own family, and that is why they choose to continue with their addiction because they think that their family are out to get them and be against them when they are really trying to help. Some families only write them off as bums and hold grudges against them only because they probably tried all they can to get them help and they refused, so they no longer wanted to tolerate seeing them kill themselves. Adding to that, just because they held some grudges and what not doesnt mean they didn't love them. I know addiction is a disease, and I am surprised there is some one out there such as yourself that also agrees that it is.. Because most sit there and say it isn't and that it was a choice. Yes, it was a choice to the individual but it can lead to a disease because their body is so used to it that it needs the drugs to actually survive. My uncle has been an alcoholic for more than several years, and he has to have alcohol in order to function right;.my CNA instructor has also said the same thing about her father. And it is sad. I wholeheartedly agree with your comment, but do know that there are some addicts out there who can be cured by a loved ones words if they choose to listen to them. Sometimes these addicts need a healthy and motivational push to get started in the right direction to treatment. And as with my cousin, we did try to provide him with treatments, the proper treatments he refused because he didn't care. That is always a number one step when it comes down to this, so don't think we missed that because we tried everything we could to save him.
@@dltbarron dltbarron Are you sure I need to be the one educated, or you? I am educated enough to know that mental disorders/traumatic events play the part of drug abuse, and drug abuse eventually will trigger a mental disorder. Also will add in that motivation and encouragement CAN be effective to get an addict that CHOOSES to surrender their addiction in order to accept the help that their family are desperately wanting them to get and continue to a treatment plan and rehabilitation . You cannot expect to force a treatment plan on them without an intervention whether they go through with the decision or not. An intervention helps indicate where the addict is at in their life and to see if they are willing to comply with their family's decision for them, and to see what treatment option is best for them. There is such thing as motivational interventions; which I can specifically remember it being used as our attempt to see if he would have changed his mind even though we used it before. He agreed for an intervention, but as soon as he heard options he refused the help. Our interventionist had given helpful tips and resources in order to try to make it successful; same tactics that my sisters and I had used on my mother when she was a coke addict and alcoholic. Self-motivation, leverage, and seduction (a term that Jeffery S Smith uses as "detach") - as well with having to leave behind the stress and combativeness with words because they are in denial that they don't have an addiction problem. We did it out of love and desperation because we needed our mother, and she needed to see that her numbing her pain until she killed herself will only bring us much more pain. Seduction has really helped us out; which it defines as letting them know that continuing their drug/alcoholism habit will result into something worse, and if they choose to change their mind to let the family know because we are walking away since they aren't accepting help. I will also lay down that she had manic depression and PTSD from being in an domestic violence relationship for 3 years that i also had to witness as a child, and thats where she eventually turned to drugs. In order to get through to the addict you have to build their trust, respect their privacy and be honest about the whole situation . Something we had to do because being angry or holding grudges weren't our thing when we truly care for somebody. Even if we were angry. Sometimes "digging" into their problems will only result into aggravation and make them refuse to get help then pull away from their family. Again, some addicts will comply and some will refuse. Helping my cousin wasn't as easy as helping my mother regardless if he had two small children, he just didn't want the help and we had no choice but to let him have his space. Which if you are educated as you claimed to be, you would know that an addict who constantly refuses helps no matter how many times you tried to approach the situation at different times with different ways to help, it is best to leave them alone.And it doesn't mean we failed him or didn't show him the love he needed, he just wouldn't realize that his life, his daughters and wife meant way much more than drugs. We were exhausted from pleading and crying. Addicts like him will refuse until it's too late, and thats when he decided to make it to my aunts before passing because he was scared, and he was probably regretting his decision of not wanting to take help. So don't tell me that I do not truly understand what addiction is, half my family were addicts whether they had an mental diagnosis, had a traumatic past that lead them to drug abuse and addiction or they did it just to do it. some chose to get help and some didn't. These are the resources and experiences I've learned from being involved in family interventions of addicts and what I had learned listening to our family interventionist. I also suffer depression and anxiety, I was also an addict that was using met and overdosed in July of 2017 and that is what it took to get help and change my life around. It was hard to fight the urges, but I managed to get myself cleaned, detoxed and help. Again, I do know what addiction is and I sympathize for these people and whoever was an addict in the past as well with those who lost their battle. I made my mistakes in my past that lead me to thinking drugs or any type of addiction was the only way out. So yes, I am using these experiences, my past and loss of my cousin of this year to motivate myself on becoming a counselor to help those who are struggling with addiction and with depression/anxiety/etc
@@ImYourHuckleBearer 👏👏 that las reply
@@dltbarron i think everything she said was fairly accurate . i was a heroin addict at for 11 years i was only 25 when i began to use. im not gonna put my sob story but i was stubborn as a mule when my auny an uncle wanteed to get me help,i lost both my parents an little sister, i was dense and far too deep in the hole thinkin i had no way out of thos darkness until their motivation helped me without them i am pretty surei would have been 6ft under so yes ones words and compassion can help motivate an addict if they are willing to listen and it can be a step towards to cure for a user to get help if they have a large support system,most families get frustrated and give up and thats what leads them diggin their grave deeper some users can be helped if they are willingly to allow it if you think someone is misinformed dont be a dick about it and tell them to educate themselves , you help them understand what you think you only observed what addicts were going thru and knew their story on what leadthem to the path of addiction so until you can get an education or degree indealing with addicts and substance abuse along with psychology then come back and help educate people.,
16:54 ...the “choker” on her neck is her tourniquet and you can see her orange-capped needle fall out of her tourniquet as she’s talking. I don’t think she’s ready to give it up yet, but I hope and pray that she finds the right path soon. ❤️
This looks like a magazine photo shoot...this girl could literally be a model.
Yes she could have been. Before
Lol
Michelle Griffin still can if she gets clean. She still has her beauty in tact.
Wtf are yall niggas looking like she ugly asf
Tommy Perez she’s not ugly
The ending went over everyone's heads "I'll go out in style"...
Oh yikes this one is tough. She’s got charm and seems very intelligent. Hoping something changes and she can move toward the direction she deserves
I truly hope she makes it through. She’s obviously smart and has a good head on her shoulders. Just addicted. Praying for her
This lady misses her dad that is why she is using. The feelings makes her feel happy like she was with her dad.
Yes..i taught so too..
I als miss my dad and he was a gangster and never spend time with me. but i know to be a lady still
Lindsey Voigt what an idiotic and ignorant, limited comment . Are you nuts? That’s not the reason. He “set the barre” by doing it and gambling to live by it or to die of an overdose, over being her dad. Garbage in, garbage out. Cute yes but she’s so fucked up. How would you feel if this was your little sister or daughter? Don’t bother to reply, I NEVER check.
No doubt
@@jbird4754 wow such insight !! dickhead.......
these interviews are already iconic.
My sister is recovering from heroin addiction. It was very sad and still is. She stole from everyone and only cared about getting high. Im proud of her for getting help and trying.
She looks like a child and an older woman at the same time. It's like her youth is being ripped from her. God, someone please save her before it's too late.
"I'll go out in style" my father was similar to hers. We know what that means.. Don't forget that you are loved Libby
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She does not look like she’s 24 years old. I have to stop watching these interviews. They are making me sad.
Crystal Clear the world isn’t all flowers and butterflies, dear. It’s important to not shelter yourself. Open yourself up to seeing the hard, rough truths. You can’t just live under a rock because it’s comfortable.
If it makes you sad or angry, maybe keep watching. Learn.
@@shade247 better to watch someone else's mistakes instead of making the same mistakes they did.
Keeping your head in the sand is not going to help anyone
Zoe Rae Actually- I can do whatever I want. And life is hard enough as is for myself. So if I want to live under a rock. That’s my fucking choice, not your’s.
An angel. I’m in love with her. And not in a perverted way, there just isn’t another expression for it.
Libby seems like such a sweet, kind soft soul. I wish you the best angel.
I got clean and sober at 17. I’m 19 now, watching this gave me gratitude for my painful, but miraculous recovery.. I wish I could hold you in my arms and hug away the pain. You’re not alone. X
Kitten xx it breaks my heart that you where so young when you got addicted. I’m currently 17 and I’ve had a codeine addiction for a year and heroin always felt like it was creeping up on me but luckily I know if I can’t cope with weed I’ll never be able to cope with heroin which is why I turned to codeine instead. I could only cope with prescription drugs. I so far haven’t relapsed for a good 2 months now. I wish you luck
@@jessietherat1691 Instead of codein use Morphine ... codein gets metabolized to morphine and the process is destroying your body. also morphine is cheaper and you cant overdose on that shit so ez when u follow the guidelines. but it would be better to stop that shit or do u wanna die like Juicewrld. Wish u luck my dude
U got clean at 17?? How old were you when U started?!
@@hydrogehtab wtf are you talking about???
You CAN overdose on morphine.
@@maipoina-xk5zk Exacty, morphine is a man made heroin. Sister's been abusing that and methadone for years and years and years, she's totally f**king gone and tore the whole family apart. Getting it from a doctor, she's been on pills for 35+ years.
That's the best explanation I've ever heard of what heroin feels like. I'm 5 years clean but you never forget that...
I could watch an entire series of her either telling stories or doing like a day in the life kind of shit. Something about her is captivating aaf.
She played you.
Shes a vivid person and so interesting to listen to. I feel like if she ever decided to get clean, she could totally pen an autobiography that could sell.
They all could
She has such a colorful personality and sweetness to her! She's also pretty articulate. Something about her gives me good vibes, like she's easy to get along with. I think if she didn't have this lifestyle she'd be surrounded with friends and love.
I thought the same thing....such a beautiful soul with a deadly disease. unfortunately I know it all too well.
Why doesn't that popsicle melt?
it doesnt want to get on her.
It’s the little things right? Lol
melanie I’m glad I’m not the only one thinking that! 🤣
I can't not stare at it.
@@Mofasho
An observation m'dear 😉
I'm 24, only 3 months clean and this makes me scared.. I feel for her so much.
Hannah Kearney i hope you’re doing well 🧡
This girl has a large ❤️. She like an intelligent child trapped in a young woman’s body. She Soul isn’t bad, her addiction is. She WILL TRIUMP OVER THIS🙏
She's got a good sense of humour. "Heroin salesmen" I don't know why that's so funny but it is.
Dan Lebofsky agreed. You can tell that, to her, it’s just as legitimate of a career as an insurance salesman. She’s never known anything else.
"Employed as a heroin salesman".....LOL. Well, that's about the only part of the video that was funny. Very sad otherwise.
Shes smart. Too bad
I can’t watch the rest of this, I’m older than she is.. this is terrifying.
I first tried heroin when I was 16. It's crazy how accessible hard drugs are to children now. Many overdoses of young kids, me being one of them. Been clean ever since, but many kids in my town weren't so lucky.
I was doing heroin from the time I was 14-19, I am now 54 & I have to say it still haunts & terrifies me everyday . The reasons I got wrapped up in drugs in the first place are still in the front of my mind, affecting my whole life. It is not something you overcome, it is a fight everyday to just maintain. Skating & heavy metal, punk saved me, but it’s still a struggle. I never had a family cause of all the bad shit that happened to me. People who haven’t experienced it can never understand. People who do have families, Protect your fucking kids from pedos cause their lives are basically ruined after that. Shit, sigh, I have no fucking answers..
it seems like she accepted her fate of being a heroin addicted from a young age. The way she speaks of her growing up it seems like she just expected it would happen, that she would be just like daddy. Just sad.
She gives me the vibe of kurt cobain and that 90’s grunge scene
NO. She is nothing like Kurt Cobain other than a drug addiction.
@@pattio666 You don't know her well enough to say that.
@@snoozyq9576 But I knew him well enough to say that.
No offense to her, she's an admitted addict, so it's not like I'm knocking her down. It's just annoying when we glorify drug use by comparing addicts to talent that they are not even remotely exhibiting. Did I miss the part where she is writing songs and performing them? The only similarity between her and Kurt is that she's an addict. I'd love to hear her music if she's made any. I'm sure it's deep and profound.
In addition, Kurt never would have sat for 20+ minutes sharing as much personal information about himself. He was a pretty quiet guy, not the chatty sort.
To see these people in this format is beautiful, we're rooting for them and we want to see them succeed in life as we see fit, but more than likely you pass them on the street and shun them, ignore them, spit on them, most folks aren't thinking "wow, they remind me of a rock star".
We tend to project onto desperate people when we're forced to see them as human, we form them into a more pallitable version of themselves so that it's easier to accept their desperate reality. If we say "Oh, yeah, she reminds me of a junkie rock star who made tens of millions of dollars" rather than "Damn, she might end up a brutal statistic" it makes us sleep better. Truth is, she is living her own version of herself. None of our expactations thoughts or prayers are going to sway her.
Courtney Love u mean
I love her openness and positivity. Addiction is a way to cope with pain, emotional or physical. The opiate high is like no other and until you've experienced it you have no right to judge. Everyone commenting their opinions on what she should be doing or what's gonna happen to her, you're missing the point of the video.
That portrait of her was absolutely stunning. She seems positive for the most part but I hope she finds a life that makes her happier, she deserves so much more.
I love her soul....she is extremely respectful
she’s my age and it’s tripping me out. i hope she gets clean. not bc she’s smart and beautiful (she is) but because she has such a bright future ahead of her and she deserves to see it
The REAL QUESTION is not “why are you addicted but why are you in pain”?
Gabor Mate said this and the way he understands addiction, of any kind, is extremely useful! I must say, this amazing girl is a definition of charisma and what it means to have an x-factor!
She’s a beautiful girl, living a fast life. She has no clue how lucky she is to be alive! I hope her going out in style, ends up being a change of lifestyle. It’s a hope an a prayer from here.
she describes everything so well. she has a great personality about her. i feel like there is hope for her and I would love to meet her.
She has a beautiful turn of phrase, highly intelligent, unique looking. Heartbreaking she could have been anything she wanted to be 😔
People do exactly what they want to do, until it's not what they want to do. Then they change.
*she could still be. ANYTHING she wants to be
I hope she has a chance to change 🤞🙏
She still can be anything she wants to be she’s only 24 and just cuz she’s an addict doesn’t mean she won’t amount to anything who knows she may just get sober and achieve each and every one of her dreams. Being an addict doesn’t mean you’re doomed.
Absolutely right
Theres something about her that makes me want to see more of her and hear all her stories
Felorina Lorch shes charming, articulate and imo attractive and beautiful.
she looks like a character from bladerunner...
and she has such a great personality, so laid back and sweet
i hope the best for her future
You're right. That lust for life like pris...but god, I feel so bad for her. I hope she gets help
So beautiful. So well spoken and smart. So devasting is this waste of a decent life. Heartbreaking.
She’s only 24. There’s still hope.
wow she is so gorgeous just like a film star ! It's never to late for Libby to get well and start a good life. Hope one day she will become a big star of helping other people : )
13:53 her needle is literally on her neck. That choker is a tourniquet and the orange cap is a syringe. Jeez
JoshnKrystal Mitschke i thought i was the only one who saw it.. it's heartbreaking
Almost the whole video you can see it
16:57 both of the needles drop
It's a look lol
She reminds me of Sarah Paulson on AHS Hotel
That story at 6:10 about her dad, the arcade prizes, her mom bitching about it, and her keen insight into the dynamics tore my heart out!
Lilly if you’re reading this I’m praying for you. I am also a recovering opioid addict and I hope that maybe you can minimally get on some Suboxone or some type of maintenance therapy if you can find help. I promise you there’s a better way.
Felicia Fuehrer keep going you will have a wonderful Future and God bless you always send you a Huge hugs you are Wonderful 🙏
Juana Ortega bless you and your beautiful, kind and encouraging heart & spirit. Keep spreading your joy and your positive energy to others. Thank you for making my day. Blessings 🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻❤️🙏🏻
We are all here to support you!!! I am an addict also.. this disease will kill us
❤
proud of you!
@@sjmorrison1021 thankyou! I have a channel and would love to have YALLS support
A child trapped in a woman's body !!!! So Sad !!!!!!
She's still 3yrs old
I think it’s just the drugs, slows down speech and the body movements is due to drugs
@@goddess4249 i think so too
as addicts we are basically the same age as when we started using mentally.
Pamela Zandarski
It’s so sad I’m just glad she had no kids so get clean is a lot easier without Child protection services gettin in involve
So incredibly articulate. Raw writing talent. A powerful storyteller. Take care child.
It’s concerning to me how much she’s glamorized this lifestyle and seems to think that it’s cool, and I can’t blame her, clearly she doesn’t have the best role models. I hope she realizes one day that she doesn’t have to go out the way her dad did, she can make a better life for herself if she gets some help.
She’s 24....dammit that breaks my heart for her. You can tell her soul is hurt. I’m also an addict, never H but I didn’t opiates. I’ve been clean a little over a year now so I understand all her struggles. I hope she finds her way ❤️
Im watching this to see maybe how my aunt felt before she died. She died of a heroin overdose and i guess watching these sorta gives me an insight on how she felt.
This is the saddest documentary I've seen in awhile. Praying she gets healed from that sickness.
The fact that she remembers what happened at age 3 is crazy to me...she’s amazin yo God please save her
That ending.... When she says “I’ll go out in style” omg my heart :,(
sofia garzon ...Style meaning on her back in a dirty squat with a needle hanging out of her arm. I hope she gets help...
I think she related a lot to her father, that when he passed away she got traumatized, and her mind is still in that phase. Her coping mechanism is copying the life her dad had. I really hope she gets help
Libby is like a cartoon character! That cheeky little smile.
Shes only 24. She can change. Wow I'm 21 I couldnt imagine ever living this kind of life I feel for her. All the stuff they see and been through. Addiction is so crazy
And I crying over my amazing father who died at 84 years old and gave me an amazing life. I feel so sorry for these people. But Im so grateful. Thanks GOD!!!!
She has a beautiful personality and very clever! Hopefully she gets out of that lifestyle, she gets help from someone who has resources to help her 🙏🏼
Heroin promises heaven but ends up delivering hell.
If you're smart and know what is going on, you know it from the 1st day(or early on) that you're in trouble. Just never HOW MUCH trouble. Like life-deviating-fucked-up-tangent type of trouble.
This is sooo true!!
Exactly!
So true.
Well said
All smoke and mirrors, just a lovely girl trying to dig her way out the whole heap of shit life has given her, she has so much heart, hard to watch, never point the finger at anyone never ever,
She’s incredible . So eloquent. So watchable. Captivating. I hope she heals.
I was a heroin addict for several years and this is one of the most articulate descriptions of the high and withdrawal process that I've heard.
Shes such a character. I hope she will be OK.
she's still so young and evidently very intelligent. i really hope she gets the help she needs before she faces irreversible consequences
My birthday is Dec 5, 1975. My father was an alcoholic. So I relate to her a little. But our lives took vastly different paths.
I’m a little younger but my dad also died from heroin overdose when I was 14... I never tried heroin or any harsh drugs.. different paths for sure.
I have family suffering from addiction so this is something I'm use to seeing, prayers for her
I am actually her age. I am born at the end of 1995 too. I look at my life and hers... it’s heartbreaking. I am watching your interviews because my mother used to be on heroin when I was a child. I was taken away from her, moving around from relative to relative and everyone wanted a piece of me. Until I grew older my father never really cared. I saw a lot of drugs, blood and violence as a kid. Death... But the difference is, I had one person in my life who would always be there and never give up on me. My granny ♥️ Without her... I don’t know. I moved out last september into my first own apartment, I work and study (I‘m from Germany 😅) and my life is rough sometimes because a past like this never lets go of you. But I am fine. Never used drugs, have a solid relation to alcohol 😅 I have good friends... And right now I just wish she would have had someone like I had. And I am so sorry for all these broken children out there who never asked to be born into this cruel world 🥺
This is heart breaking. Wish her the best.
So many of these sweet souls never had a chance from their awful early beginnings. Damn evil drugs.
Jen Sowers Jen, I’m impressed that you can handle watching so many of these. Most people can only get through one or two of them. Thanks for watching. Mark
To many evil people who make numb your d.o.c..
I had a horrendously abusive and traumatic childhood (in and out of foster care) and Im not a drug addict. Just saying. People react to things differently.
@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly i binge watch them.
Content. Yep.
A lot of people talk about “the blanket” or the warm feelings associated with heroin, it’s a lot more then that, it’s everything you’ve ever wanted to feel, it covers up the gut wrenching emptiness and the self loathing (at first) so you keep going back again and again and again coz it’s that dam good, and then you end up using just to feel your old “normal”, you need the shit to not feel sick. And once your at the stage, welcome to the trap.
It’s such a horrible path.
The only plus about heroin is that it does not give users drug induced psychosis. But its highly addictive and most addicts who come off it substitute it with Methadone or Suboxone and synthetic opioids are just as addictive. Doctors have to be careful not to overprescribe Fentanyl patches because users can cook the patches and overdose.
@@silvervalleystudios2486 Actually I am on methadone and I can tell you without a shadow of doubt it's not a " substitute" for heroin, fentanyl, oxycontin or any opiate high. There's 0 comparison there. You're comparing apples and oranges here. I could bet you've never been on anything so you are talking out arse. However methadone is physically addictive you have 2 be weened off it suboxone is not. Methadone takes the craving to use away and rids you of withdraw. If used properly it does exactly what it was made for, getting addicts clean .
Amanda Morgan There was a tv program over here 🇬🇧 a few years ago with 5 or 6 people on a methadone withdrawal program. They all said it was worse than heroin to withdraw off, even under medical help
@@jimthornberry6774 Your saying buprenorphine is not addicting? I would beg the differ. The wd isn't as intense as heroin although it can be close at times but it drags on from 10 days to weeks depending on your dose and length of time taking it. It has the typical restless legs and arms, insomnia, always cold ect ect. It fucking sucks.
@@tylerdurden8939 💯
She has so much to offer the world. Listening to the way she told stories had me locked in. She is gifted. I hope and pray she gets the help she needs to get off of the streets.
Such a radiant woman. I have hope for her, I hope the company that films these offers help for some of these people. This woman has so much magic about her you can feel it. Shes also gorgeous but that's besides the point. Her soul is great and she deserves an amazing life.
It's never to late for her ❤