My father was a 3 time combat veteran and I went 1 time. He would talk to me about Viet Nam since we shared that experience. However, he NEVER spoke of the atrocities he saw in the Korean conflict. He would just shut everyone out. We kept each other going until his passing of cancer in April 2018. He was 87. I miss our talks but I have a large and loving family. That's what keeps me going. Very thoughtfully made film. Point on with todays veterans. Some of these kids do 2-3 tours in 4-5 years. Hard to come home after that. So sad. Reach out to these veterans. They deserve all the help they can possibly get.
almost 3 years ago, at almost 22 years old i almost took my own life. I was abused as a kid, broken, depressed, anorexic, bulimic, suicidal. I went in & out of psych units like it was a game of Chess. Suicide watch. I was on enough Antidepressants to kill a horse. I hated myself. I wanted out. I wanted the pain to stop. The gaslighting* to end. *(when a psycho makes a sane person question their own sanity, and thus think they themselves are the insane one). I wanted power. I got into witchcraft. I thought it would give me the identity i wanted, to be set apart from people who hurt me. It only made me sicker. Sicker. Thats what it did to me. The doctors said i’dnever get well. That i would suffer severe Chronic Manic depression, and never be well, that id be stuck on antidepressants all of my life. I would plot suicide on a daily basis, binging and purging my food as often as opening and closing a door. The pain was too real. People choked me. Assaulted me. Told me i was ugly, i felt worthless. Nothing ever got better. Then my mother died. The (1) & only soul who ever loved /emotionally supported me was removed from the earth. I was stuck living with people who broke me, ruined my identity, thus causing me to hate God. I thought God hated me, that he was just like the ones who tortured me, a family of abusers, who cover up all their actions with the mask of religion. I didnt know that God is on my side. I didnt know that Jesus would Love and Defend me, and fight for me and that He later would heal me, rescue me from Family. The ones who caused me pain. The ones who choked me for wearing a necklace. I moved out after family threatened to throw all my belongings on the front yard, and have me permanently institutionalized in an insane asylum, when they were the ones who caused my mental illness via abuse. They blamed me for the abuse they did to me. To take my life in an insane asylum when they were the ones who made me suicidal. Next morning i spoke with my dead moms parents who let me live with them. I stayed on the antidepressants, prescribed. But they only made me sicker. I got deeper and deeper into witchcraft, thinking it was a solution. But it made me even more suicidal. Self hatred was inescapable. All my cards have fallen down. I have nothing left. But out. I wanted out. I decided i was going to kill myself. I was going to take all my pills. But then Jesus stepped in. I didnt die. I surrendered my life to Jesus to make me well and heal me. The deity i blamed for me being abused wanted to heal me. He Was fighting for me and Loved me all along. He wanted to love me. He wanted to give me His Heart. HE LOVES ME. JESUS. LOVES. ME . Jesus miraculously healed me - i am off all drugs and dont need them and i dont have any mental illnesses. I have a job and am totally healed , full of joy. I’m now a born again Christian, in my 20’s who wants the entire world to know that JESUS WANTS TO HEAL YOU HE. LOVES. YOU.
Another powerful message from Tyler Mendelson and company. It leaves you thinking. It does its job. There’s a world out there where Veterans are vulnerable and so many times we just don’t see it. But Tyler has first hand experience dealing with the dark struggles veterans go through through close friends and fellow soldiers that just had seen enough and took their own lives. He brings awareness to a problem that desperately needs a solution. I’m glad I could contribute at least something to help make others aware. Perhaps through efforts like Tyler’s film, a life or many lives might be saved. Let us not forget out Veterans. For me it’s personal. Please share this film and if you know a Veteran, stay aware. You never know what effect you could have on giving them hope!
My name is Cody and I want to thank you for making this. I have felt that way so many times, but never gave up. I figure I have spent my life helping other people as much as I can and I'm going to keep on as long as I can. God knows people need it now more than ever. Thanks again, it made me feel less alone.
Even if you come back, war will kill you, don't go okay, just don't go, your country doesn't love you, we do. The is and The Hun are very touching works of art, I felt I was there.
Here in Australia we are about to have a Royal Commission into Veteran Suicide - long overdue, and very necessary. Thank you for this thoughtful and poignant film.
This is so true, I feel safer around my brothers, ever since I got out my senses are heightened always causing anxiety, I stay away from alcohol because I get violent, I sit in my apartment in the dark in the weekend and struggle to get out.
Again Mr.Mendelson, I am beside myself. It took me about 15 mins. or so just to begin to wrap my head around what I had just experienced. Well done Sir. Much respect. Peace.
This was very powerful. I served 21 years with multiple combat deployments. I lost 8 of my friends/co-workers to suicide. The guilt I am saddled with daily is almost overwhelming…sometimes all I can think about. I don’t understand why it bothers me so much.
Over 60,000. This film sheds light on that. This does so much good to show what we civilians aren't privy to. Thank you Tyler for making such a great film and conveying a tough subject. Very well done. ❤️
Tyler, thanks for making this, brother. Decided to pursue clinical social work to help us figure out why we keep killing ourselves. Keep bringing awareness, Tyler. #EndVeteranSuicide
I had a friend who landed rough after Iraq. He eventually od'd on alcohol and vicadin. Many of his unit attended. All of his pall bearers served with him. I marveled at how we all start giving each other crap, like we had never been apart. I resolved to do a reunion after that. We have them about every 3 years. It doesn't have to be that grand. Friggin make the time. Even if its beer and bs, in the garage or living room. There's the family that loves us, and the family that gets us. No orders, no uniform, no paycheck, but we're still stuck with each other and many don't care.
Well portrayed with good background piano, let's hope that this raises awareness for the help and support that needs to be out there. Thanks, David UK.
I am a veteran I have dementia and unable to walk without a walker. I live alone. When I went to Dr Cannava in Soldotna about being suicidal, he told me to sit on my porch in zero degrees and freeze to death. He also reported me to adult protective services and they are going to take away my rights. The person who occasionally drops off a meal couldn't make it on Christmas so I had no visitors. I hope you all had a Merry christmas
What a powerful message. In a world so connected with technology, there isn't the human touch anymore. Please check on our vets with more than just a text. Thank you MendelFilms for this very impactful film. I hope the entire county can watch it and learn something from it.
As requested, this is a short clip addressing the difference between honoring those we've lost to combat, substance use, or suicide. For some Vets, you may struggle moving forward without them. Some Veterans may question why they've survived and others didn't or hold on to their memory to ensure they're not forgotten. As a combat Veteran and psychologist, I'm passionate about helping my fellow veterans, as I've seen them struggle with dealing with these losses. If your struggling to move forward with your live after losses you've experiences I hope this reaches you, your family/friends, and other Veterans who need to hear it! #Gonebutnotfogotten #WeWillHonorThem th-cam.com/video/_7xLVHudYSg/w-d-xo.html
Really good man. Saw you on our page Medleton. Keep it up. I miss the boys. Bullshit we lost them. Fucking bullshit. Thanks for your videos. You’re a great Marine.
Darkest issue is that in real life fellow veterans will not answer the phone when you call. Trust me on that. Also very few veterans are broken like this. Trust me on that.
All of this film is based on my own experiences. I answered plenty phone calls, and I’ve seen many veterans like this, between those I served with and those I serve now as a mental health provider.
Look im activity suicidal, thankfully scared. But I'm not ok, the va kris cancels my appointments. I called the crisis line. They cancel my therapy appointments. I get to see my psychologist once every 3 months. He says the pills ain't working try these... im dying... im losing my drive... im scared of me and they don't care
I tried to kill myself on call, my weapon misfired. They cancled my therapy.... they can still send the blue envelopes saying they care. Im fucking tired of being alone. They don't care about me.
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Remember I said to you when you made your first movie..."Do good things, Kid"...You have.
I am glad to have played a small part...A Marine Vet Dad
My father was a 3 time combat veteran and I went 1 time. He would talk to me about Viet Nam since we shared that experience. However, he NEVER spoke of the atrocities he saw in the Korean conflict. He would just shut everyone out. We kept each other going until his passing of cancer in April 2018. He was 87. I miss our talks but I have a large and loving family. That's what keeps me going.
Very thoughtfully made film. Point on with todays veterans. Some of these kids do 2-3 tours in 4-5 years. Hard to come home after that. So sad. Reach out to these veterans. They deserve all the help they can possibly get.
Same shit happen here in England, I heard two veterans decided enough was enough and ended it last week...rip brothers
Wow, extremely captivating film. Our country's warriors need a better system of help and attention. Thank you for this.
almost 3 years ago, at almost 22 years old i almost took my own life. I was abused as a kid, broken, depressed, anorexic, bulimic, suicidal. I went in & out of psych units like it was a game of Chess. Suicide watch. I was on enough Antidepressants to kill a horse. I hated myself. I wanted out. I wanted the pain to stop. The gaslighting* to end. *(when a psycho makes a sane person question their own sanity, and thus think they themselves are the insane one).
I wanted power. I got into witchcraft. I thought it would give me the identity i wanted, to be set apart from people who hurt me. It only made me sicker. Sicker. Thats what it did to me.
The doctors said i’dnever get well. That i would suffer severe Chronic Manic depression, and never be well, that id be stuck on antidepressants all of my life.
I would plot suicide on a daily basis, binging and purging my food as often as opening and closing a door. The pain was too real. People choked me. Assaulted me. Told me i was ugly, i felt worthless. Nothing ever got better. Then my mother died. The (1) & only soul who ever loved /emotionally supported me was removed from the earth. I was stuck living with people who broke me, ruined my identity, thus causing me to hate God. I thought God hated me, that he was just like the ones who tortured me, a family of abusers, who cover up all their actions with the mask of religion. I didnt know that God is on my side. I didnt know that Jesus would Love and Defend me, and fight for me and that He later would heal me, rescue me from Family. The ones who caused me pain. The ones who choked me for wearing a necklace.
I moved out after family threatened to throw all my belongings on the front yard, and have me permanently institutionalized in an insane asylum, when they were the ones who caused my mental illness via abuse.
They blamed me for the abuse they did to me.
To take my life in an insane asylum when they were the ones who made me suicidal.
Next morning i spoke with my dead moms parents who let me live with them.
I stayed on the antidepressants, prescribed. But they only made me sicker. I got deeper and deeper into witchcraft, thinking it was a solution. But it made me even more suicidal. Self hatred was inescapable. All my cards have fallen down. I have nothing left. But out. I wanted out.
I decided i was going to kill myself. I was going to take all my pills.
But then Jesus stepped in. I didnt die. I surrendered my life to Jesus to make me well and heal me.
The deity i blamed for me being abused wanted to heal me. He Was fighting for me and Loved me all along.
He wanted to love me. He wanted to give me His Heart.
HE LOVES ME. JESUS. LOVES. ME .
Jesus miraculously healed me - i am off all drugs and dont need them and i dont have any mental illnesses. I have a job and am totally healed , full of joy.
I’m now a born again Christian, in my 20’s who wants the entire world to know that JESUS WANTS TO HEAL YOU
HE. LOVES. YOU.
Another powerful message from Tyler Mendelson and company. It leaves you thinking. It does its job. There’s a world out there where Veterans are vulnerable and so many times we just don’t see it. But Tyler has first hand experience dealing with the dark struggles veterans go through through close friends and fellow soldiers that just had seen enough and took their own lives. He brings awareness to a problem that desperately needs a solution. I’m glad I could contribute at least something to help make others aware. Perhaps through efforts like Tyler’s film, a life or many lives might be saved. Let us not forget out Veterans. For me it’s personal. Please share this film and if you know a Veteran, stay aware. You never know what effect you could have on giving them hope!
My name is Cody and I want to thank you for making this. I have felt that way so many times, but never gave up. I figure I have spent my life helping other people as much as I can and I'm going to keep on as long as I can. God knows people need it now more than ever. Thanks again, it made me feel less alone.
I'm glad it had that affect on you. Keep on trucking on man! Hang tough.
Even if you come back, war will kill you, don't go okay, just don't go, your country doesn't love you, we do.
The is and The Hun are very touching works of art, I felt I was there.
Here in Australia we are about to have a Royal Commission into Veteran Suicide - long overdue, and very necessary. Thank you for this thoughtful and poignant film.
Amazing work by everyone involved. It's not easy making something this impactful.
Absolutely a heartbreaking reality. 😭💔 well done
This is so true, I feel safer around my brothers, ever since I got out my senses are heightened always causing anxiety, I stay away from alcohol because I get violent, I sit in my apartment in the dark in the weekend and struggle to get out.
So incredibly powerful and in a unique way!! Thank you for sharing such an impactful message.
Thank you :)
Awesome job again Tyler! Couldn't be more proud of you. A hard subject to watch, but much needed to make people aware. I love you!!
Again Mr.Mendelson, I am beside myself. It took me about 15 mins. or so just to begin to wrap my head around what I had just experienced. Well done Sir. Much respect. Peace.
Thank you :)
Outstanding job Tyler! For sure to make an impact!
My heart...sinks as I watch this. All of it. Till the end.
-Tip Of The Spear
Thumbs up, subbed.
Thank you!
Thank you I needed it. The "love you" at the end was amazing on the phone. 7 combat deployments now what. I struggle. Thank you.
It is never easy, but I am glad you are still here. Keep going.
Thank you for this.
This was very powerful. I served 21 years with multiple combat deployments. I lost 8 of my friends/co-workers to suicide. The guilt I am saddled with daily is almost overwhelming…sometimes all I can think about. I don’t understand why it bothers me so much.
Over 60,000. This film sheds light on that. This does so much good to show what we civilians aren't privy to. Thank you Tyler for making such a great film and conveying a tough subject. Very well done. ❤️
Thanks so much, Matt! Very much appreciated!
@@MendelFilms you da man!
Tyler, thanks for making this, brother. Decided to pursue clinical social work to help us figure out why we keep killing ourselves. Keep bringing awareness, Tyler. #EndVeteranSuicide
Thank you!
I had a friend who landed rough after Iraq. He eventually od'd on alcohol and vicadin. Many of his unit attended. All of his pall bearers served with him. I marveled at how we all start giving each other crap, like we had never been apart. I resolved to do a reunion after that. We have them about every 3 years. It doesn't have to be that grand. Friggin make the time. Even if its beer and bs, in the garage or living room. There's the family that loves us, and the family that gets us. No orders, no uniform, no paycheck, but we're still stuck with each other and many don't care.
Well portrayed with good background piano, let's hope that this raises awareness for the help and support that needs to be out there. Thanks, David UK.
Just sent your work to David Hoffman to look at and help further support. See what happens.
I am a veteran
I have dementia and unable to walk without a walker. I live alone. When I went to Dr Cannava in Soldotna about being suicidal, he told me to sit on my porch in zero degrees and freeze to death. He also reported me to adult protective services and they are going to take away my rights. The person who occasionally drops off a meal couldn't make it on Christmas so I had no visitors.
I hope you all had a Merry christmas
always making great shorts. I shall be in contact soon.
What a powerful message. In a world so connected with technology, there isn't the human touch anymore. Please check on our vets with more than just a text. Thank you MendelFilms for this very impactful film. I hope the entire county can watch it and learn something from it.
As requested, this is a short clip addressing the difference between honoring those we've lost to combat, substance use, or suicide. For some Vets, you may struggle moving forward without them. Some Veterans may question why they've survived and others didn't or hold on to their memory to ensure they're not forgotten. As a combat Veteran and psychologist, I'm passionate about helping my fellow veterans, as I've seen them struggle with dealing with these losses. If your struggling to move forward with your live after losses you've experiences I hope this reaches you, your family/friends, and other Veterans who need to hear it! #Gonebutnotfogotten #WeWillHonorThem
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Thanks - going to share with my vet friends
blumenthol Thank you!
Two Thumbs up!, If I had more thumbs....Thanks for sharing.
Really good man. Saw you on our page Medleton. Keep it up. I miss the boys. Bullshit we lost them. Fucking bullshit. Thanks for your videos. You’re a great Marine.
It's what you do with the gift of life that ultimately matters.
Isnt that a Mewtwo quote lol
Gratitude. Semper Fi.
I hope its good, Dean. Thank you.
Them: “You shouldn’t be thinking about this crap”.
Me: *But that’s the only thing I think about. Well, that and* “...”
Tonight is my first night at getting sober. Tomorrow is my first AA meeting
I wish you good luck
How you doing? If you stayed sober,congratulations. If you messed up,you can start again. Hope you’re doing better. ✌️
Darkest issue is that in real life fellow veterans will not answer the phone when you call. Trust me on that. Also very few veterans are broken like this. Trust me on that.
All of this film is based on my own experiences. I answered plenty phone calls, and I’ve seen many veterans like this, between those I served with and those I serve now as a mental health provider.
Im 67, crippled. Va is garnishing my social security
Look im activity suicidal, thankfully scared. But I'm not ok, the va kris cancels my appointments. I called the crisis line. They cancel my therapy appointments. I get to see my psychologist once every 3 months. He says the pills ain't working try these... im dying... im losing my drive... im scared of me and they don't care
I tried to kill myself on call, my weapon misfired. They cancled my therapy.... they can still send the blue envelopes saying they care. Im fucking tired of being alone. They don't care about me.
I have the rim fire round.. it didn't go off... even though it should have.... im trying but fuck... why won't they help us?
Im ok tonight.. but im not ok... I havent been in awhile. I'll be ok tonight
I litterly called the veteran crisis line. Still they belive im ok that I dont need help. I havent slept a full night in months.....
Where are you located? Lets find you some real help. I work for Mental Health of America. I can try my best to get you the support you need.
Tough shit.
Deja vu. 3 days
Whats going on?