I always remember this line every time I want to give up on life. I imagine one of my family members says it and it gives me strength to keep living for them.
The author of this song wrote this song in grief of his mother, who died of cancer. The lines were directly taken from the conversation he had with her before passing.
MAFIA GIRL When I saw your initials “TT” I thought at first it was my daughter commenting that “she is the little dove!” Her initials are TT! This song is so moving-and my favorite verse in this verse “Did you get enough love, my little dove...”🌸💞🌸
My Son (My Little HAWK) committed suicide last year in May. I loved this song before, but now I have a deeper appreciation. R.I.P. Jake. I love you forever.
I'm not ashamed to admit that I literally cried reading the comments as the song played on. I'm so sorry for everyone who had to experience grief. I hope one day you will be happy again💌
Hi there. Just wanted to add few lines here. I'm from Ukraine and I was listening to this song while sitting in the basement because of bombs and rockets. I cannot express that feeling of near death, but that were surely the worst four weeks of my life. This song calmed me, when thoughts about absence of tomorrow came. This song calmed me, when the rocket fell in 200 meters near our house (our neighbors were lucky to be at another part of the house that time, so no victims from that one). It calmed me, when I left the dangerous area. And it calms me now, when I think of this whole thing continuing for 3 months already. I hate the war and people who started it. Let the sky be calm. Stay safe, guys. Thank you, Sufjan. UPD: as many of you asked, I'm okay, as well as my family. I'm home now, but the war still continues and we still are waking up to sounds of explosions. Had to get used to it, as well to understanding that I might not wake up next time.
This makes me think about how much little me went through. She didn't deserve any of what happened. She was so confused, sad and alone. She helped everyone, but no one helped her when she needed the most. I imagine present me singing this to old me. I wish i could've taken better care of my inner child. She deserved so much more.
Same, kid me was so selfless that she gave all she had until there was nothing left. I wish i could shild her from all this pain, confusion. I wish i could go back.
When I was a teenager, I’d cry with tears. Now as an adult, there’s no tears. My body just aches, I can’t feel my legs and I shake. *We’re all gonna die*
Got the call this morning that my estranged father is in the active stage of dying. July 4, 2024. Just saw him and got to say my final goodbyes, tell him about his grandchildren that he doesn't know. Asked him to hold on long enough to see my sister, who flies in tonight. This album has always meant a lot to me, this song in particular, but today it means more than ever. Thank you, Sufjan.
Today, the 4th of July, I was supposed to end my life. That was my mission. Yesterday my friends prepare a surprise for me: a cake for me. All this party was my best friend's idea. Now I'm sitting in the living room, dreaming about the travel we're going to start in two weeks. Just want to listen to this song and remember how it feels so sad when I was at my lowest. But now, I can see some light in my future. And this, this feels so relaxing.
@@saam559 Your life worth more than you reliaze. And I'm so proud of you just for being who you are, and for stand still a little bit more! You got this ❤
This song is a conversation between Sufjan and his mother, Carrie, while she was dying in the hospital. Each stanza alternates between them. Sufjan spoke of this time in an interview: She had stomach cancer, and it was a quick demise. We flew to see her in the ICU before she died. She was in a lot of pain, and on a lot of drugs, but she was aware. It was so terrifying to encounter death and have to reconcile that, and express love, for someone so unfamiliar. Her death was so devastating to me because of the vacancy within me… At that point, I was only interested in communicating my love for her, unconditionally. There was a reciprocal deep love and care for each other in that moment. It was very profound and healing. A beautifully sad album overall. This song makes me cry though.
+Liz Bajjalieh I know your comment is a month old, but in case you're still wondering, the quote is from Sufjan's interview with Pitchfork titled "True Myth: A Conversation With Sufjan Stevens"
“Has it ever struck you that life is all memory, except for the one present moment that goes by you so quick you hardly catch it going?”― Tennessee Williams
My sister showed me this song, it's so coincidental to the loss of our mother. She died on the fourth of July at 1am. My heart goes out to those who've lost their parents❤
It's lovely that people like Sufjan gives some people the confidence to share stories with an incredible level of intimacy. It's a beautiful way of connecting.
"did you get enough love, my little dove?" this line always makes me think of my mother and her last words to me before she passed away when i was 5, its currently almost been a decade since she passed and i still continuously wish she was here still just so she could see me and how far ive come in my lifetime and see me graduate high school
Today my grandpa passed away in the morning. When I heard the news I immediatly remembered this song. I was listening to this while remembering all my memories with him and looking at the white snowy forest, until I realised that his birthday was exactly on the fourth of july. He passed away alone in the hospital bed and no one got to say goodbye. I hope he didn’t feel alone though and felt our love towards him. Now he’s finally reunited with his love, my grandma. Rest in peace George. Just know that I love you very much.
The thing I love almost more than the songs by Sufjan is his fan base. The comments section is always interesting and empathetic and emotional... Its the good side of youtube
True. although I'm a year late to say that... still though. That's the biggest problem because some artists are great and clean, but as soon as the gain popularity the comment section goes terrible.
I’m 14. My mom is in her fifties. I’m scared of the time that will come when she will die. I’m not prepared and I don’t think I’ll ever been prepared. I know I should be enjoying the moments with her rather than being scared of when she won’t be here so I will try. I love her so much and this song reminds me so much of her. Great work Sufjan!
This hits home. I'm 19 and my parents are closer to 60. We don't have the best relationship but songs like these make me scared of losing them even if we don't really get along. It's sad I waste so much time being scared of losing people rather than telling them how much they mean to me
@@ashanddoodles13 if you can somehow tell them. My parents are near that age too and the majority of our time together is over perhaps. so with what i have left we'll fight and hurt each other but i hope through all the turmoil they remember they were and are loved by me and the same for me
This hits very close to home I’m 14 and my adopted parents are 67 and 68 now and it’s recently dawned on me that I might not have that long left with them. I’ve already lost my biological parents and I don’t know if I could cope with loosing the people that there for me when I needed them the most
@@Suhani_Arora same girl same.. it was so hard and it’s still but it’s getting better day by day.. we’re so strong let’s live for them they love us, and we were the last person they love.
Only time will heal, my girlfriend also passed away, but it was back in 2016... And I can assure you that it takes a long road with many ups and downs, but you'll heal slowly... Take care Georgie ❤️
i'm laying in bed in the dark listening to this, in tears. my parents don't understand where i'm at in my life. they keep blaming it on my phone and little do they know my phone is my only escape. i have no motivation for anything anymore. this song upsets me so much because it makes me think of my younger and happier self. nothing could ever bring her down. she would be so disappointed in me.
I miss my brother and the times we've spent together. It hurts realizing that I won't ever see him till I die and that I won't be able to play games with him again like we used to. I miss my childhood with him, I miss him so much... the sea reminds me of him, the weather reminds me of him, the trees, the streets, the garden, the shops, our old toys, the cushions that we built and jumped on to break, our old school, even my bicycle... everywhere I look, I see a part of him. He would always buy us extraordinary and silly things no one had never seen. We would race with each other to see him, to be next to him. A smile would always be on my face when I heard his voice and would run outside to get a chance to see him. He was so loved, so so loved... It's been nearly ten years, but it feels as if it happened a few days ago. I still have the presents, the toys you won me from various claw machines, I still ride my bike, which you taught me, in the streets you've shown me. I still play Vice City, but you're not here to write those cool cheats. You're not here on my birthday to pop confetti. You're not here to teach me football so that no boy could ever bully me and I could always have the upper hand. You're not here on new year's day to bring me gifts that no other kids can have or find... You will always be seventeen, you will always be remembered as long as I breathe. Even if I come and see you, someone will read what I left behind and know what a wonderful big brother, and what a kind soul you've been. I will always love you, even in the afterlife. Thank you for giving me a part of your time in your brief but precious life, for loving me, and for giving me the most beautiful childhood I could ever ask for. My star in the sky, Aytuğ. 🌠
to whoever comes across this, i just want to say that you deserve so much more than what you've been through and you are worth so much more than you could ever comprehend
Matthew Dempsey When I heard this track for the first time, I couldn't help but cry. I lost my mother several years ago to a heart attack and she was only 46. This song brought back all those feelings that I thought I was getting over.
jsandlin71 First couple of times I listened to this it brought me back to the night my grandmother died. The tone of the song perfectly matches what that night felt like.
My brother died in a car crash the night before the fourth of July, I was fourteen. It really hits home because this song is a different kind of sad. It sounds hollow and cold and broken rather than deeply emotional, and that's the magic of it.
I’ve never lost someone in my family, and even when I did lose someone, I wasn’t really close to them. Then again, I still feel a profound sadness listening to this song and reading all of your stories. I just want to say that you’re doing great. Even though there might’ve been nothing that you could’ve done, I’m proud of all of you for sharing your stories to the world.
Last year I lost my little sister in December to suicide, this was the song I listened to every night. Sometimes I listen to this song and think of her.
Hey man, this takes some balls to write❤ i Hope you feel a Little bit Better now. As an older Brother i can not even Imagine the horrors of a dead Brother/sister❤
I'm sorry and I know that doesn't take away the pain but I hope you know you're not alone. I lost a very good friend of mine. We were like twins. I loved him and his death has hit me hard. We weren't blood siblings and we weren't even friends in real life just online but still. I can only imagine the shock and sadness I'd feel if my little sister committed suicide. Just know it's not your fault. Please don't blame yourself or feel like you should've been able to know somehow what she was going through. Just try and heal and live for her. Live so that you can make something good of your life and make her proud. That's what's been keeping me going. I hope this helps in some way.💙
My mother died on the fourth of July battling cancer. I can relate to each and every word of this song as I have infact and lived every moment of this song with her before I discovered it, I was with the till the end and the only person I ever loved selflessly in this world. I love this song but I can't listen to it without wet eyes and avoid it because it only makes me cry. I wish you rest in peace maa and I will see you on the other side. I hope I was a good child.
My grandma is on hospice and was predicted to have 24 hrs or less. That was this morning. This song popped into my head at 8:50 at night. I think her spirit is telling me not to cry because everyone dies one day.
An absolutely heartbreaking song. "The hospital asked, 'Should the body be cast?'" is when I lost it. Both my parents died in 2013, six months apart and this is easily the first song I've heard since then that offered me a sort of sonic communion with their memory. Losing people you love can become so numbing, but this made me feel something true. Sufjan's voice is so haunting and beautiful. "Make the most of your life, while it is rife, while it is light" is the takeaway quote for me from this song. A real masterpiece in my opinion.
WCD87 I'm certain that my experiences pale in comparison to that, but recently I lost my dog. She had been there since before I was born and I felt lost without her. And I agree that this song reflects all loss. As I listened to this song, I imagined back when I had to walk out of the room in the veterinarian with my dog lying dead (she was 15 and very sick and we euthanised her) and the fact I felt like I was betraying her. And so I feel this song deep in my heart, where few other things can venture. Thank you for commenting this! It brought out a different part of this song for me.
My mother died around the time Sufjan Stevens - Illinois album came out and i used to listen to the album as i went to visit her. I also totally lost it when he sang " The hospital asked, 'Should the body be cast?'" . I'm sorry for loss and i know that numb feeling you mentioned . Just glad there are little things in life like this that remind me of the people we lose and allow us to smile at there memory thru the tears.
+WCD87 i hear you man. i lost both of my parents in 2014, about 4 months apart. absolutely devastating. as time's gone on i've found it increasingly difficult to move on from it. i hope you don't take this the wrong way, but it's sort of a breath of fresh air to hear someone else has experienced the same hell as me. it's so hard to find people who can relate. and as sad as this song is, it's also sort of life-affirming.
My best friend once told me, "if i die dont cry and take pitty on me. Instead, remeber all all the things i did in my life." Today marks the 8th year since she died. This song reminded me very much of her. Thank you.
I lost my grandma to cancer. It's been two days, and I didn't get to see her for the last time, because her death was so quick I can't even book a flight in time for her funeral. It was a best way to go for her, as it was painless and she was aware up until going to sleep, surrounded by loved ones, and departing peacefully in the hospital. My grandpa lost the love of his life, my father lost his mom and my mother lost a woman who became her mother, not by blood, but by the kindness of her heart. We love her so much, and feel her love still. This song provided some kind of closure, because I know, that our last talk via videocall was this loving and peaceful, and it would have been the same in person. I sent her live flowers for her funeral. The red roses she loved so much. She's with her sister now, and they are finally at peace, together. I miss you so much, Alya.
im so sorry, i also lost my grandma to lung cancer 2 years ago, its so scary how cancer is. im glad she had her loved ones near and i hope your doing okay. love ya
im so sorry, i understand how you feel. i lost my grandfather in october of 2023 and i wasnt able to say my goodbyes or attend his funeral either. i hope your doing ok ml 💗
My dad's funeral is tomorrow. I'm thinking of using this song. It would've been his and my mother's 41st anniversary. He was only 64 yrs old. We didn't get a chance to tell him goodbye because of hospital restrictions on visitors.
My mother passed away 3 months ago, she died 3 days after turning 52, we also didn't get a chance to say goodbye due to restrictions on visitors, I know it feels horrible, I hope you're doing somewhat alright though
My uncle passed away a bit ago, he had two sons and a wife. He was 28 at the time. My mother's twin. We weren't able to see him either because of hospital's restrictions. It was a few months before my brother was born. My uncle never got to see my brother or his kids grow up, never got to see my mum get married. He was a good man. Kindhearted. I'm so sorry for your loss, I know how it feels. I remember being left outside and bursting out into tears when told the news. I never got to say goodbye. I know they aren't my parent but I still understand how you feel, it hurts.
LYRICS : The evil, it spread like a fever ahead It was night when you died, my firefly What could I have said to raise you from the dead? Oh, could I be the sky on the Fourth of July? "Well, you do enough talk My little hawk, why do you cry? Tell me, what did you learn from the Tillamook burn? Or the Fourth of July? We’re all gonna die." Sitting at the bed with the halo at your head Was it all a disguise, like Junior High? Where everything was fiction, future, and prediction Now, where am I? My fading supply "Did you get enough love, my little dove? Why do you cry? And I’m sorry I left, but it was for the best Though it never felt right My little Versailles." The hospital asked should the body be cast Before I say goodbye, my star in the sky Such a funny thought to wrap you up in cloth Do you find it all right, my dragonfly? "Shall we look at the moon, my little loon? Why do you cry? Make the most of your life, while it is rife While it is light Well, you do enough talk My little hawk, why do you cry? Tell me, what did you learn from the Tillamook burn? Or the Fourth of July? We’re all gonna die." We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die We're all gonna die
fourth of july is the saddest song i have ever heard in my life, but it gave me comfort when i needed it the most. It will always be my go-to song whenever I feel so sad and terrified of death.
"and oh dear lord, ill never sin again if only you would bring her back." A thousand miles from home and no hope of making it in time. I could only listen to the panic in the room and the silence that followed before the line went dead.
Here I am, a 40-year-old man, holding my 5-year-old daughter as tears are pouring out after listening to this song.. I never cry about anything. Sufjan, you've destroyed me in 4 minutes and 38 seconds. Well done.. :O
For people who never say: I love you. We're all gonna die... My cousin died 2 years ago, was his death an accident, or was it a suicide, we never find out... His birthday was on the 4 of July. Each time, I cannot help myself but listen to this song whenever I think about him. He was just 19, and a thought that in his lifetime, I never ever said I love you to him... it haunts me till now. It's not like his life, his end would change, but the thought that he would be happier if he knew that I really loved him somehow makes me sad. Luka, Did you get enough love, my little dove? I hope now you are happy and you can feel love from people who never say I love you.
I love this song. My cat that's on my pfp passed off to the sky two weeks ago.. I cry daily as she was my best friend and helped me through my roughest days. Always calmed me down and played with me daily. She really ment the world to me but passed due to a broken rib that pushed through her lounge..
yes indeed it was. i was alone on the balcony listening to this on headphones lookin at the sky filled with fireworks as they all cheered while i cried on my own theres nothing wrong with sorrow its a part of life i think am i wrong lol
My parents are till alive and I am very grateful for them. I started a new job at a new place. They visited me and left today. I couldn't see them off because i was at work. I left the house when they were still there in their pjs and I came back with them gone. It sucks to come home to a empty house. And its so scary doing big girl things without them being around. I hope I make them proud.
It is very depressing being alone and having to deal with everything by your own, but I just keep doing it because I am waiting to see if its going to get better
I've said this hundreds of times but the only time I lie to someone is when I respond to a medical emergency and tell someone who is clearly terminal that he's going to be okay. There's no reason not to and there's that infinitesimal chance that it will release enough life-saving compounds to get her or him through.
My best friend Emily passed away a couple years ago, February 4th 2020. The car hydroplaned off the road, it wasn't raining but the roads were still super wet, she died instantly. A part of me is happy to know that she was never scared. She was maybe 4'11, so when the car came in on her her body was too small to handle it. She died a little over a month until her 17th birthday. Her funeral was beautiful, we had sunflowers and dragonflies and all of her favorite things. She was buried with her funkopop anime characters, stuffed animals, etc. Her body at the viewing, which was two weeks after she passed, looked absolutely beautiful. She looked like she was resting. I'll always remember our plans of moving in together, her going to college for art and me for veterinary science. I loved writing poems for her and she loved drawing pictures for me. I miss you everyday Emmy, my sunflower, my dragonfly, my little pancake. I love you, and I'll never forget our long talks, our dumb fandom interests, our cringy nicknames, I'll never forget us. Forever and always Emmy, you'll be with me forever and always.
@@Etiennevelez I'm so sorry, it's terrible to lose someone on your birthday. My grandpa passed on my birthday in 2019. It's a bittersweet feeling getting older than a loved one, especially when they pass on your birthday, but keep living for them and make them proud. ❤️
The trouble with being born, is you did not ask to be. You were thrown into life with the responsibility of learning to live, and living with an awareness that you are going to die. Your time in between is spent trying to preserve a life you never asked for, while being conscripted to positively contribute to a world that didn’t need you. But in this sea of chaos you will find that life has left you a gift “The Opportunity to Try”
it's mostly because noone wants to turn their lover into your worst nightmare,the one that makes you cry and doubt the choices you've made for that person
I can honestly say this is the first song to have ever made me cry. My mum has stage 3 breast cancer so this resonates with me very much. She doesn't talk about it with me, but lately every hug she gives me feels as if she knows it could be the last and that tells me she's probably not getting better
@@amina7013 hi, so sweet of you to ask, thank you. I'm fine, my mum is still very much fighting the cancer. She had two surgeries and went through lung metastases. It feels like it'll never end honestly. We still don't talk about her illness a lot, but I've gotten used to it by now.
My uncle passed away one year ago today July 4th, his old band mate sent his widow this song today. My family had a memorial for him and we all listened to this together. We miss him.
I’m very sorry for your loss. It’s tough losing someone to suicide. I hope one day you will both be able to see each other again. Keep your head held high.
@@ajisai3160 I lost my love and best friend to suicide 3 yrs ago when I first heard this song in my mind it became a bout me n him , w were 2wks away from our 45th
I don’t want to give up yet. I haven’t fulfilled my dream. And I have friends and family who care for me. I don’t want to let anyone down. And I especially do not want to let my lord down. It’s hard though.
My grandma passed away today. I prayed day and night hoping that she will be able to stay long enough to see me success in life and to meet me one last time. (I study abroad) I wanna hug her, be there for her one last time. See her smile one last time. I feel so lost right now
Hey! I'm sorry you had to go through that. It's okay to feel overwhelmed and cry to express your sorrow. But, you must move on, okay? She wouldn't be there to see you succeed but she would definitely want you to succeed. Hope you achieve it!!!.
hey.. just know you're not alone in this, i lost my granny 4 months ago too, i know how hard it is, but it'll get better i promise, your grandma will always be proud of you, and she'll watch you succeed in the afterlife, keep going and make her proud :,) ❤
The last holiday me and my mother spent together was the 4th of july , it was amazing she was so happy, this Thanksgiving was the first holiday i spent with her in an urn... It doesn't feel right, i still see her face and her smile hear her voice, i can never forget every fiber of who she was, spending the rest of my life without her here is gonna be so difficult, but I'm trying, ptsd, depression, anxiety, my heart is broken, i miss you mommy, this life is gonna be shit without you, but ill always remember, you're love for me, you were always so proud of me , i hope i make you proud, i can only pray we meet again, i love you my dragonfly
My cat died tonight. Didn't imagine it would hurt this much. He added joy to a joyless life I depressingly bear. Thanks for all the love, the warmth, and all the good times. will forever miss you baby.
It's perfectly fine to experience pain, especially when losing a mother, but time helps with how profound the pain is, the more time, the less the pain. But losing a mother is the biggest pain one will experience.
Pain lingers. But most of the time we don't feel it. Just like we don't feel the wound due to immediate numbness that follows. And it is due to this numbness we don't feel pain though pain is still there. During these period we learn valuable things like getting contented, understanding others rather than going in tandem with what people say,valuing life,aaaand getting artistic which wonderfully shapes us. So in a way lingering pain does good things.
0:45 "it was night when you died.." my friend,not long ago, was walking home one evening when a car with an illegal speed killed him without mercy. The killer said she thought she hit a trash can. He was not a trash can,he was the most kind,talented,patient person. He was human. The killer is not in jail. Rest in power buddy
"I thought he was a trash can" this is literally the worst excuse I've ever heard for recklessly killing a person he should be in jail what the fuck man this makes me loose all my hope in mankind.
@@GG-fk2sy exactly! It sounds so dehumanitising,how dare you compare your innocent victim to a trash can??? She s trying to act as if she was insane so she wont go to jail..
My brother passed on June 5th. He listened to this song a lot. Since he always had to think about the thought of death bc of his health. Now I listen. Idk if I'm mentally hurting myself more or healing. But this song means so much.
If you're reading this, I hope you're okay. We're never old enough to learn these lessons. But I hope this song feels like a remedy for you. I've known of this song for years, but I've never truly appreciated what a masterpiece it is... a poem... and reading through the comments here helped me realise just how powerful it is. It was stuck in my head, so I came here, to play it on repeat...
I lost my kitty today (4th july) after 14 years of her by my side. this song has always had a special place in my heart but even more so now. sleep well my baby
No because this made me sob. My sweet cat is everything to me. Losing her would be to lose my baby. I'm so terribly sorru for your loss and may your angel rest now. She will always be in your heart.
So my mother died when I was 11 and dad when I was 16 . I'm 19 now. It's human nature that people tend to forget people or at least they remember not quite often as time goes by. After a long time I've cried for them this much. Music is the best way to reach out to people🖤
I'm not normally the type of person to share stuff like this with a random person I don't know. Hearing this is very similar what I've gone through. My dad passed away when I was 16 and my mom went when I was 17 nearly 18. I'm 20 now. I hope for the both of us that things will get better. I'm rooting for you the same I do for myself. ❤
I first heard this when i was 6 years old. I liked it. When i was 7, I was remembered of the beat somehow. I didn't know the name of the song anymore, though. throughout the next few years this beat has been stuck in my head. Finally, at the age of 14, almost 15, I've found you.
My 18 year old beautiful daughter said to me a few weeks ago... 'dad... If I die I want this song to be played...'... I'm sure she didn't notice my tears, traffic went blurry in my eyes... God... I love her SO much. Allthough she's healthy and we're blessed... This song went straight to my Core... ❤
@MBBracelets-hs9zv the shear feeling of the possibillity of losing a loved one... Especially my daughter... It's the uber father feeling that came over me and the fact that you can only protect your kids so much...
Yes I have a sister who isn't loved by my mother and always letting her be alone and thinking she always knows everything, she wants to commit suicide and its.....painful and makes me cry... I love my sister and I'll take a bullet for her and I want the best for her I just want .....her life to be perfect
Oct 16th 2024 … liam payne, paynos will always be in our heart 😢🤍 “ I’m sorry I left but it was for the best though- It never felt right..” The world was not good or kind enough to his little heart
The line "we're all gonna die" still reminds me that no matter what we've done in life. Whether we were rich or poor, good or bad, small or big, we all face the same end. We don't know what happens after death because no one from there has come to talk about it yet.
There’s nothing after death. That’s what makes it so terrifying. It’s beyond human comprehension. It’s scary but after we die we won’t know anyone or anything.
three days ago a friend of mine hung himself. I can't sleep without thinking about what he felt. what could i have done differently? it's really sad, he was only 18. he was a great boy and taught me so much. sweet, funny, good heart. in the past, i came here and saw some sad comments and I never thought it could be me living this kind of sadness. i close my eyes and I can see him alive. his details, his hands, his eyes. he didn't seem like himself in that coffin "it was night when you died, my firefly. what could I have said to raise you from the deads?"
Yesterday. The 14th of November 2023. That's when he left. That's when cancer took him away from me. He was my best friend. He had the brightest smile and the most contagious laugh. His heart was full of love to give. He was a really smart guy. He knew so much about history. He was always able to comfort me. He was always by my side. We dreamed of the future together. But what now? He was only 18. He deserved so much better. I miss him so much. He will always be in my heart.
(I'm Russian, so I can make mistakes, sorry) Dear friend..we all can understand you..but don't cry..I think, he looks for you from the clouds.. He didn't want to hear your tears.. This autumn I had the same story.. He was my internet-brother. But he had Deadly disease - also cancer.. 15of September, in my b-day, he Ended his life by himself.. But honey..life isn't ended.. that pain inside and you should Convert it in good memories.. I believe in you ❤
14th of November 2023 was the best day of my life. I finally left my country and everything I had behind to start a totally new life. I’m sorry for your loss. Still it’s very interesting to me how we both woke up that day, feeling things that couldn’t be further apart from another. I hope that your happiest day is still ahead of you and I bet your friend is cheering you on, from wherever he is now.
I lost my best friend, my kitty of 15 years to cancer this past weekend. I had listened to this songs many times before and cried to it because I was so afraid to lose her. Now that it has happened I find myself playing the song softly on the guitar and singing the lyrics gently to her. I am no longer afraid. She’s now my star in the sky. Rest well my little dove.
Eu já perdi meu gatinho que se chamava Black, e uma gatinha que se chamava Ravena, quando Black morreu não demorou muito e a Revena partiu também, sempre que olhar as estrelas estarei os vendo 😢❤
That is the sweetest thing. I'm So Sorry for your Loss. You have a Kind soul. And I would give you a Big hug and go through it with you if I could. But I sadly can't.😔The most I can do is give you all my love and support.❤-💔-❤🩹
That is the sweetest thing. I'm So Sorry for your Loss. You have a Kind soul. And I would give you a Big hug and go through it with you if I could. But I sadly can't.😔The most I can do is give you all my love and support.❤-💔-❤🩹
“Mom?” “Yes sweetie.” “Why do my friends fade.” “Why do the beautiful flowers get cut first?” “the best ones go first. That’s the sad truth, but more will bloom”
imagining a mother on her deathbed asking her son "did you get enough love, my little dove?" perfectly encapsulates human compassion
i read this exactly as the lyrics played. blessed.
Couldn't agree more.
How did you just paint the most poignant image in TH-cam in a single comment
That's EXACTLY what I thought!!!
This part of lyrics was supposed to represent her words after death
“I’m sorry I left, but it was for the best, though it never felt right”
I’m sobbing
me too
I’m sad because it will always feel right to me
My little versailles
nao nao
@@thedogsquad2451 opp
We’re all gonna cry.
Beautiful number of likes
@@Bfakz lemme guess, it was at 666
@@scamingnewt3016 yep
Yes we are
I count it again n it is 667...$orr¥
"Did you get enough love, my little dove. Why do you cry?"
That hit me so hard
Same.
Fr😭
FR😭😭😭😭
I always remember this line every time I want to give up on life. I imagine one of my family members says it and it gives me strength to keep living for them.
Same
The author of this song wrote this song in grief of his mother, who died of cancer. The lines were directly taken from the conversation he had with her before passing.
i hate that after reading this i can 100% hear it in the lyrics 😢
That's so sad! 😢🫂
😢
رنج ازدست دادن عزیزان مشهوده شعر وآهنگ متاثر کننده😢😢😢
one of the reasons i love this song. Very relatable with my own mum.
"Did you get enough love, my little dove. Why do you cry?"
This hurts, indeed.
Becky del Monte wehh
read this as he said it
Kathryn Picklesimer same
I'm the little dove TT
MAFIA GIRL When I saw your initials “TT” I thought at first it was my daughter commenting that “she is the little dove!” Her initials are TT! This song is so moving-and my favorite verse in this verse “Did you get enough love, my little dove...”🌸💞🌸
My Son (My Little HAWK) committed suicide last year in May. I loved this song before, but now I have a deeper appreciation. R.I.P. Jake. I love you forever.
I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you stay save and strong during these crazy times
@@_the_
Thank you. Truly. I know he's in the best place possible, shining down on me every single day.
💜💙
i'm so so sorry. i could never even begin to fathom what you have been through, but you must be incredibly strong.
@@tejakausik6205
I come from a lineage of (true and historical) Female Warriors.. but GOD gets all the credit. I'd be dead and gone without HIM. 💜
I can't bear to have my children die before me im truly sorry for your loss
My dad committed suicide on the 4th of july this year, and now this song relates so much to me and has a deeper meaning than before. Miss him lots.
I can't imagine the pain you must be going through. i know the pain will never completely leave, but i hope that one day you can find peace ❤
I hope your doing okay
@@galaxiesdontmix5701getting there. Thank u
July 4th was so recent I feel the pain 😔
U are special❤
I'm not ashamed to admit that I literally cried reading the comments as the song played on. I'm so sorry for everyone who had to experience grief. I hope one day you will be happy again💌
Honestly same. It's 3:30am where I am and I just discovered this song, was not ready for the emotions it would throw at me while I read the comments.
Thank you God bless you.
same.
I'd like to think that will be true, thx darling.
im sobbing ilysm
Devastating and gorgeous.
Eat Your Kimchi
fancy meeting you here!! totally agree btw.. the whole album is gorgeous but this song really does stand out
I was about to post "terrifyingly beautiful", but you said pretty much the same thing.
Of course Simon and Martina have good taste in music ;)
@@randomactsofkindness4590 Running up that hill - Kate Bush
Marking my presence here on 4th July, 2020. This has been a horrible year. A lot of people have lost their loved ones. I hope they all rest in peace.
A lot of people also lost the business they built for generations.
Amen. Rest In Peace, to the loved ones we've lost.
🙏
@@frosteerucker4259 carpe diem ! Choose how ! Good luck !
i will make my mark as well, and your comment is lovely
Everyone misses. Some miss the past, some miss the future, some miss someone who will never come.
😔yes.İts true
Everyone is a overreacted term to use
I miss her.
Hi there. Just wanted to add few lines here. I'm from Ukraine and I was listening to this song while sitting in the basement because of bombs and rockets. I cannot express that feeling of near death, but that were surely the worst four weeks of my life. This song calmed me, when thoughts about absence of tomorrow came. This song calmed me, when the rocket fell in 200 meters near our house (our neighbors were lucky to be at another part of the house that time, so no victims from that one). It calmed me, when I left the dangerous area. And it calms me now, when I think of this whole thing continuing for 3 months already. I hate the war and people who started it. Let the sky be calm.
Stay safe, guys. Thank you, Sufjan.
UPD: as many of you asked, I'm okay, as well as my family. I'm home now, but the war still continues and we still are waking up to sounds of explosions. Had to get used to it, as well to understanding that I might not wake up next time.
God bless your soul.
Hey stay safe over there. Sending love from the US ❤️
Stay safe I send u lots of prayer all the way from Mexico 💕
I hope your safe. This world is horrible, I'm sorry you have to go through this. I wish peace in yours and your loved ones lives
Made me bawl my eyes out hope you’re ok!❤️
This makes me think about how much little me went through. She didn't deserve any of what happened. She was so confused, sad and alone. She helped everyone, but no one helped her when she needed the most.
I imagine present me singing this to old me. I wish i could've taken better care of my inner child. She deserved so much more.
She's still there, deep down. If you want to scoop her up, you can. It's in your mind, but you can tell her that. I'm sure she wants to hear it.
It's not too late, the fact that you acknowledge her presence, means she's still there
Same, kid me was so selfless that she gave all she had until there was nothing left. I wish i could shild her from all this pain, confusion. I wish i could go back.
Little me deserves an apology, It doesn't even feel like i'm talking about myself, it feels like it was another kid, another suffering kid.
thank u for this comment
When I was a teenager, I’d cry with tears. Now as an adult, there’s no tears. My body just aches, I can’t feel my legs and I shake.
*We’re all gonna die*
As a teenager but I feel this one so much.
Me
Fr
Obviously
feel well soon
Got the call this morning that my estranged father is in the active stage of dying. July 4, 2024. Just saw him and got to say my final goodbyes, tell him about his grandchildren that he doesn't know. Asked him to hold on long enough to see my sister, who flies in tonight. This album has always meant a lot to me, this song in particular, but today it means more than ever. Thank you, Sufjan.
im sending all of my hopes and love to you and your family ❤
Today, the 4th of July, I was supposed to end my life. That was my mission. Yesterday my friends prepare a surprise for me: a cake for me. All this party was my best friend's idea.
Now I'm sitting in the living room, dreaming about the travel we're going to start in two weeks.
Just want to listen to this song and remember how it feels so sad when I was at my lowest.
But now, I can see some light in my future. And this, this feels so relaxing.
i don’t know you, but i am extremely proud of you! you got this, you deserve to be happy
Hang in there, you got this!♥
im proud
@@saam559 Your life worth more than you reliaze. And I'm so proud of you just for being who you are, and for stand still a little bit more! You got this ❤
I am so proud of you.. so, so proud
This song is a conversation between Sufjan and his mother, Carrie, while she was dying in the hospital. Each stanza alternates between them.
Sufjan spoke of this time in an interview:
She had stomach cancer, and it was a quick demise. We flew to see her in the ICU before she died. She was in a lot of pain, and on a lot of drugs, but she was aware. It was so terrifying to encounter death and have to reconcile that, and express love, for someone so unfamiliar. Her death was so devastating to me because of the vacancy within me…
At that point, I was only interested in communicating my love for her, unconditionally. There was a reciprocal deep love and care for each other in that moment. It was very profound and healing.
A beautifully sad album overall. This song makes me cry though.
I went through the same thing with my mother (right down to the stomach cancer). I feel like he's in my head, so beautiful.
Amazing lyrics with so much reality & passion I can relate.
Hey, I've been trying to find the source for this, can you link it?
+Liz Bajjalieh I know your comment is a month old, but in case you're still wondering, the quote is from Sufjan's interview with Pitchfork titled "True Myth: A Conversation With Sufjan Stevens"
Omar Neira this tear my heart in half 💔
“Has it ever struck you that life is all memory, except for the one present moment that goes by you so quick you hardly catch it going?”― Tennessee Williams
Profound
This is the best comment I've read in a while
My sister showed me this song, it's so coincidental to the loss of our mother. She died on the fourth of July at 1am. My heart goes out to those who've lost their parents❤
I’m so sorry 💔
It's lovely that people like Sufjan gives some people the confidence to share stories with an incredible level of intimacy. It's a beautiful way of connecting.
every time I listen to this song I cry so hard, it hits differently.
"did you get enough love, my little dove?" this line always makes me think of my mother and her last words to me before she passed away when i was 5, its currently almost been a decade since she passed and i still continuously wish she was here still just so she could see me and how far ive come in my lifetime and see me graduate high school
I feel ur pain it makes me sad that my mom will never be beside me on very important stuff in my life like graduation for high school. 😪
We’re all proud of you guys ❤️
i hope you do well and i wish you the best in life and good luck with whatever comes your way, your mom is very proud of you
I am proud of you. Your mom is proud too, you know. ❤️ She is with you every day. She can see you, she can feel you. 🥰
She sees you. And she's proud of you. ❤️
Today my grandpa passed away in the morning. When I heard the news I immediatly remembered this song.
I was listening to this while remembering all my memories with him and looking at the white snowy forest, until I realised that his birthday was exactly on the fourth of july.
He passed away alone in the hospital bed and no one got to say goodbye. I hope he didn’t feel alone though and felt our love towards him. Now he’s finally reunited with his love, my grandma.
Rest in peace George. Just know that I love you very much.
Aww im so sorry, stay strong.
I´m so sorry for your loss ;( wish you the best xx
I‘m so sorry
Same happened to my grandpa. Wish I didn't know what it feels like.
Love you bb, my grandmother, a mother to me, my guide, and my strength, passed away in November last year..
Sitting at my mom's grave...on 4th of July 2024. And I find this song.
I hope you're okay now. ❤
❤❤
I’m sorry for your loss ❤
3:10 "why do you cry?.."
This part always made me wanna hug someone and cry
Literally.
:(
let's hug🫂
me to!!
@@autostima8263 let's hug i need a hug right now
The thing I love almost more than the songs by Sufjan is his fan base. The comments section is always interesting and empathetic and emotional... Its the good side of youtube
+wooes5 Rarely do I find altercations and hatred.
+wooes5 #yeezy4preezy
+wooes5 the only arguments really I find are the ones about religion and whether he's singing about a dude and not just Jesus
True. although I'm a year late to say that... still though. That's the biggest problem because some artists are great and clean, but as soon as the gain popularity the comment section goes terrible.
wooes5 8
I’m 14. My mom is in her fifties. I’m scared of the time that will come when she will die. I’m not prepared and I don’t think I’ll ever been prepared. I know I should be enjoying the moments with her rather than being scared of when she won’t be here so I will try. I love her so much and this song reminds me so much of her. Great work Sufjan!
You are a loving child. ❤️
This hits home. I'm 19 and my parents are closer to 60. We don't have the best relationship but songs like these make me scared of losing them even if we don't really get along. It's sad I waste so much time being scared of losing people rather than telling them how much they mean to me
@@ashanddoodles13 if you can somehow tell them. My parents are near that age too and the majority of our time together is over perhaps. so with what i have left we'll fight and hurt each other but i hope through all the turmoil they remember they were and are loved by me and the same for me
This hits very close to home I’m 14 and my adopted parents are 67 and 68 now and it’s recently dawned on me that I might not have that long left with them. I’ve already lost my biological parents and I don’t know if I could cope with loosing the people that there for me when I needed them the most
This hits hard, I'm 15 and my mom is 66 and my dad is 63
my boyfriend died the 4th of July 2024..at the age of 16.
I’m praying God every night, oh how I miss and love him..
I hope it gets better for you. My boyfriend also died, on 16 Feb 2024 at the age of 17 accidentally. It's the hardest pain I've ever been through...
My boyfriend died on April 24, 2018. Only a couple people showed up to his funeral. He was 39. 😢
@@Suhani_Arora same girl same.. it was so hard and it’s still but it’s getting better day by day.. we’re so strong let’s live for them they love us, and we were the last person they love.
I'm sorry for your loss, may he rest in peace.
Just remember that your not the only one crying in the other side of the screen. ALL pain will end.
🥺
STOPP IM LITERALLY SOBBING
Thank you
Saying things like that means so much to the people that need to hear it
I don't know wich pain you y'all are going through right now but I hope the Jesus will renew you're strength
My boyfriend passed away a week ago, there's no song that resonates more than this masterpiece.... Thank you Sufjan..
I'm so sorry for your loss :(
you doing okay?
oh.. I'm so sorry..
Only time will heal, my girlfriend also passed away, but it was back in 2016... And I can assure you that it takes a long road with many ups and downs, but you'll heal slowly... Take care Georgie ❤️
I'm so sorry.. Hope now he is in a better place💜
i'm laying in bed in the dark listening to this, in tears. my parents don't understand where i'm at in my life. they keep blaming it on my phone and little do they know my phone is my only escape. i have no motivation for anything anymore. this song upsets me so much because it makes me think of my younger and happier self. nothing could ever bring her down. she would be so disappointed in me.
same bruv
Carry on, things will change
Hang in there 🫶🫶🫶
Beautiful sound thanks for sharing, big like 🌱 😃 ❤
same tbh
I miss my brother and the times we've spent together. It hurts realizing that I won't ever see him till I die and that I won't be able to play games with him again like we used to.
I miss my childhood with him, I miss him so much... the sea reminds me of him, the weather reminds me of him, the trees, the streets, the garden, the shops, our old toys, the cushions that we built and jumped on to break, our old school, even my bicycle... everywhere I look, I see a part of him.
He would always buy us extraordinary and silly things no one had never seen. We would race with each other to see him, to be next to him. A smile would always be on my face when I heard his voice and would run outside to get a chance to see him. He was so loved, so so loved...
It's been nearly ten years, but it feels as if it happened a few days ago. I still have the presents, the toys you won me from various claw machines, I still ride my bike, which you taught me, in the streets you've shown me. I still play Vice City, but you're not here to write those cool cheats. You're not here on my birthday to pop confetti. You're not here to teach me football so that no boy could ever bully me and I could always have the upper hand. You're not here on new year's day to bring me gifts that no other kids can have or find...
You will always be seventeen, you will always be remembered as long as I breathe. Even if I come and see you, someone will read what I left behind and know what a wonderful big brother, and what a kind soul you've been. I will always love you, even in the afterlife.
Thank you for giving me a part of your time in your brief but precious life, for loving me, and for giving me the most beautiful childhood I could ever ask for.
My star in the sky, Aytuğ. 🌠
❤
im sobbing. im so sorry for your loss my love.
@@naaotcherewaamills-owoo4998 thank you for the kind wishes... i hope life offers you the best it has to give
to whoever comes across this,
i just want to say that you deserve so much more than what you've been through and you are worth so much more than you could ever comprehend
Stop omg I'm tearing up rn😭
Wow..I really needed to hear this, I hope you're doing great and you too, are worth absolutely everything ❤ thank you.
This actually made me cry, after a horrible relationship this moved something inside me, thank you so much❤️
That made me cry :(
@@zuzanna..j_ Thank you 😭🥺this made my day🥺😭🥺😭🤧🤧
You've got the world crying in public places Sufjan!
Matthew Dempsey When I heard this track for the first time, I couldn't help but cry. I lost my mother several years ago to a heart attack and she was only 46. This song brought back all those feelings that I thought I was getting over.
***** I was listening at my work desk trying to keep it together!
jsandlin71 First couple of times I listened to this it brought me back to the night my grandmother died. The tone of the song perfectly matches what that night felt like.
I also cried on a tran ..
Matthew Dempsey Cried at work, had to clear my eyes and swallow the lump in my throat before I could talk to customers.
My brother died in a car crash the night before the fourth of July, I was fourteen. It really hits home because this song is a different kind of sad. It sounds hollow and cold and broken rather than deeply emotional, and that's the magic of it.
i am so sorry for your loss😔🕊
Hey, I’m so sorry for your loss. I hope you’re doing alright because this was around the time! ❤️
@Green Soul!! I'm doing much better, really changes your perspective on life
My brother died in a house fire when I was 13, and I couldn't relate more to this comment.
@Green Soul!! Ah :( thank you for your kind words
I’ve never lost someone in my family, and even when I did lose someone, I wasn’t really close to them.
Then again, I still feel a profound sadness listening to this song and reading all of your stories. I just want to say that you’re doing great. Even though there might’ve been nothing that you could’ve done, I’m proud of all of you for sharing your stories to the world.
Last year I lost my little sister in December to suicide, this was the song I listened to every night.
Sometimes I listen to this song and think of her.
Hey man, this takes some balls to write❤ i Hope you feel a Little bit Better now.
As an older Brother i can not even Imagine the horrors of a dead Brother/sister❤
I'm sorry and I know that doesn't take away the pain but I hope you know you're not alone. I lost a very good friend of mine. We were like twins. I loved him and his death has hit me hard. We weren't blood siblings and we weren't even friends in real life just online but still.
I can only imagine the shock and sadness I'd feel if my little sister committed suicide. Just know it's not your fault. Please don't blame yourself or feel like you should've been able to know somehow what she was going through. Just try and heal and live for her. Live so that you can make something good of your life and make her proud.
That's what's been keeping me going. I hope this helps in some way.💙
Nobody should loss someone by suicide, i am so sorry for you ❤
I'm so sorry for your loss love stay strong❤
BALLS?@@lorenzoilmagnifico2431
My mother died on the fourth of July battling cancer. I can relate to each and every word of this song as I have infact and lived every moment of this song with her before I discovered it, I was with the till the end and the only person I ever loved selflessly in this world. I love this song but I can't listen to it without wet eyes and avoid it because it only makes me cry. I wish you rest in peace maa and I will see you on the other side. I hope I was a good child.
❤️
I bet she is doing great on the other side, she's proud of you and when your moment comes, she'll be there waiting for you. She loves you.
im sorry for your loss
you took the words right out of my mouth.
@@animunee if you suffered the same fate, I hope you are fine.
This seriously might be the saddest song I've ever heard
Henry Lansing same here
Listen to ARE YOU THERE by anathema
Also to their mother
Even sadder than this
The Trapeze Swinger wants to say hi
It is
Same
My grandma is on hospice and was predicted to have 24 hrs or less. That was this morning. This song popped into my head at 8:50 at night. I think her spirit is telling me not to cry because everyone dies one day.
An absolutely heartbreaking song. "The hospital asked, 'Should the body be cast?'" is when I lost it. Both my parents died in 2013, six months apart and this is easily the first song I've heard since then that offered me a sort of sonic communion with their memory. Losing people you love can become so numbing, but this made me feel something true. Sufjan's voice is so haunting and beautiful. "Make the most of your life, while it is rife, while it is light" is the takeaway quote for me from this song. A real masterpiece in my opinion.
WCD87 I'm certain that my experiences pale in comparison to that, but recently I lost my dog. She had been there since before I was born and I felt lost without her. And I agree that this song reflects all loss. As I listened to this song, I imagined back when I had to walk out of the room in the veterinarian with my dog lying dead (she was 15 and very sick and we euthanised her) and the fact I felt like I was betraying her. And so I feel this song deep in my heart, where few other things can venture. Thank you for commenting this! It brought out a different part of this song for me.
My mother died around the time Sufjan Stevens - Illinois album came out and i used to listen to the album as i went to visit her. I also totally lost it when he sang " The hospital asked, 'Should the body be cast?'" . I'm sorry for loss and i know that numb feeling you mentioned . Just glad there are little things in life like this that remind me of the people we lose and allow us to smile at there memory thru the tears.
"And I'm sorry I left, but it was for the best, though it never felt right" gets me :(
+WCD87 i hear you man. i lost both of my parents in 2014, about 4 months apart. absolutely devastating. as time's gone on i've found it increasingly difficult to move on from it. i hope you don't take this the wrong way, but it's sort of a breath of fresh air to hear someone else has experienced the same hell as me. it's so hard to find people who can relate. and as sad as this song is, it's also sort of life-affirming.
+Matt and +WCD87, my deepest condolences to you both. I can't even imagine the depth of such loss. I wish you both peace and all good things.
every time i hear "why do you cry" i swear i wanna cry
same :(
I start when i hear the line "Did you get enough love, my little dove" 💔
The line did you get enough love my little dove stacks the tears at 100 already. Then why do you cry just explodes it
My best friend once told me, "if i die dont cry and take pitty on me. Instead, remeber all all the things i did in my life." Today marks the 8th year since she died. This song reminded me very much of her. Thank you.
I’m so sorry for your loss 😞
omg so heart breaking
Whats this Kate BBC assage reporter from airport?
I'm just highlighting they doing all this to themselves
I'm just commenting
I’m so sorry ml I hope you’re doing okay..🫶🏽
I lost my grandma to cancer. It's been two days, and I didn't get to see her for the last time, because her death was so quick I can't even book a flight in time for her funeral.
It was a best way to go for her, as it was painless and she was aware up until going to sleep, surrounded by loved ones, and departing peacefully in the hospital.
My grandpa lost the love of his life, my father lost his mom and my mother lost a woman who became her mother, not by blood, but by the kindness of her heart. We love her so much, and feel her love still.
This song provided some kind of closure, because I know, that our last talk via videocall was this loving and peaceful, and it would have been the same in person.
I sent her live flowers for her funeral. The red roses she loved so much. She's with her sister now, and they are finally at peace, together.
I miss you so much, Alya.
im so sorry, i also lost my grandma to lung cancer 2 years ago, its so scary how cancer is. im glad she had her loved ones near and i hope your doing okay. love ya
im so sorry, i understand how you feel. i lost my grandfather in october of 2023 and i wasnt able to say my goodbyes or attend his funeral either. i hope your doing ok ml 💗
I lost my mother to cancer yesterday. this amazing album will be with me for the coming month and so many more.
+ilan yaniv Sorry to hear of your mothers passing. May she rest peacefully. And may you find peace in your own soul.
+ilan yaniv I am so sorry for your loss. xx
So sorry, for your loss. :'((
I'll keep you and your moms in my prayers big homie, she's in heaven looking after you right now, don't worry
+ilan yaniv sorry for your loss, man.
My dad's funeral is tomorrow. I'm thinking of using this song. It would've been his and my mother's 41st anniversary. He was only 64 yrs old. We didn't get a chance to tell him goodbye because of hospital restrictions on visitors.
My mother passed away 3 months ago, she died 3 days after turning 52, we also didn't get a chance to say goodbye due to restrictions on visitors, I know it feels horrible, I hope you're doing somewhat alright though
My uncle passed away a bit ago, he had two sons and a wife. He was 28 at the time. My mother's twin. We weren't able to see him either because of hospital's restrictions. It was a few months before my brother was born. My uncle never got to see my brother or his kids grow up, never got to see my mum get married. He was a good man. Kindhearted. I'm so sorry for your loss, I know how it feels. I remember being left outside and bursting out into tears when told the news. I never got to say goodbye. I know they aren't my parent but I still understand how you feel, it hurts.
when my grandpa passed away we wore his shirts to his funeral. i collapsed at the ashes box, it didnt register that that was the man who raised me.
It has been hard these years, I hope you guys are alright now
my grandma passed away around a month ago. she was only 62. i’m glad other people understand my pain, i don’t think it will ever get better.
"Did you get enough love, my little dove, why do you cry?"
Oh the feels...
This song helps me grieve for my mother who passed away last year.
LYRICS :
The evil, it spread like a fever ahead
It was night when you died, my firefly
What could I have said to raise you from the dead?
Oh, could I be the sky on the Fourth of July?
"Well, you do enough talk
My little hawk, why do you cry?
Tell me, what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
Or the Fourth of July?
We’re all gonna die."
Sitting at the bed with the halo at your head
Was it all a disguise, like Junior High?
Where everything was fiction, future, and prediction
Now, where am I? My fading supply
"Did you get enough love, my little dove?
Why do you cry?
And I’m sorry I left, but it was for the best
Though it never felt right
My little Versailles."
The hospital asked should the body be cast
Before I say goodbye, my star in the sky
Such a funny thought to wrap you up in cloth
Do you find it all right, my dragonfly?
"Shall we look at the moon, my little loon?
Why do you cry?
Make the most of your life, while it is rife
While it is light
Well, you do enough talk
My little hawk, why do you cry?
Tell me, what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
Or the Fourth of July?
We’re all gonna die."
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
thank u
Thank you ❤
Thanks
o my goodness. the lyrics make the song even more beautiful
thank you 💞
My mom passed away from cancer in my arms three years ago. "Im not afraid of death, Im afraid of.. not being here". I miss you mom..
I hug you with in mind❤
I’m so sorry love I hope you are alright..🫶🏽
I'm here for you 💝🫂
My wife passed from cancer at 31 in march.. she said the exact same thing..
اتمنى ان تكوني بخير عزيزتي
fourth of july is the saddest song i have ever heard in my life, but it gave me comfort when i needed it the most. It will always be my go-to song whenever I feel so sad and terrified of death.
Same
Same
I love this, and Night We Met
momento mori man. we all die. momento mori
It only makes me more sad but it’s so good😭
"and oh dear lord, ill never sin again if only you would bring her back."
A thousand miles from home and no hope of making it in time. I could only listen to the panic in the room and the silence that followed before the line went dead.
Here I am, a 40-year-old man, holding my 5-year-old daughter as tears are pouring out after listening to this song.. I never cry about anything. Sufjan, you've destroyed me in 4 minutes and 38 seconds. Well done.. :O
went up to check the length of the song
Hhjcffh Ghjvh wtf don't assume that
The man should come with a health warning!
One of my best friends caught a one way ticket to the Sun today. This song is potent medicine for my heart. Thank you for sharing.
hugs
For people who never say: I love you.
We're all gonna die...
My cousin died 2 years ago, was his death an accident, or was it a suicide, we never find out... His birthday was on the 4 of July. Each time, I cannot help myself but listen to this song whenever I think about him. He was just 19, and a thought that in his lifetime, I never ever said I love you to him... it haunts me till now. It's not like his life, his end would change, but the thought that he would be happier if he knew that I really loved him somehow makes me sad.
Luka, Did you get enough love, my little dove?
I hope now you are happy and you can feel love from people who never say I love you.
we're here for you :)
thank you
Thats crazy. Damn.. im sobbin❤
This track I have never heard till today …. But absolutely fell in love ….FELT EVERY word
I love this song. My cat that's on my pfp passed off to the sky two weeks ago.. I cry daily as she was my best friend and helped me through my roughest days. Always calmed me down and played with me daily. She really ment the world to me but passed due to a broken rib that pushed through her lounge..
My cat died this thursday... it is so painful but we will get through it
just know that she's still with u, and that she loved u
@@hoi-pp7ds I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you can stay strong.
My heart goes out to you. I genuinely hope you feel better.
@@helenluup5392 thank you... it getting a little better day by day
For the person reading this, healing takes time. I love you. You're so worth it. You're amazing. You're the best person in the world.
thx, I heard this song while crying hard. Hope we get better life.
Thank you
We will : )@@31G-xr8ed
Thanks
I appreciate you so much! Was crying to this at 1am 🫶🏼
Listening to this on the 4th of July. It hits a little differently.
💔💔😭
yes indeed it was. i was alone on the balcony listening to this on headphones lookin at the sky filled with fireworks as they all cheered while i cried on my own
theres nothing wrong with sorrow
its a part of life
i think
am i wrong
lol
@@kirklawrover wow
I'm born the 4th of July and knowing that this song exists and the name is my birthday hits me a little bit so hard
This
My parents are till alive and I am very grateful for them. I started a new job at a new place. They visited me and left today. I couldn't see them off because i was at work. I left the house when they were still there in their pjs and I came back with them gone. It sucks to come home to a empty house. And its so scary doing big girl things without them being around. I hope I make them proud.
It is very depressing being alone and having to deal with everything by your own, but I just keep doing it because I am waiting to see if its going to get better
damn it
death alone is nothing.
watching someone else die is terrifying.
I've said this hundreds of times but the only time I lie to someone is when I respond to a medical emergency and tell someone who is clearly terminal that he's going to be okay. There's no reason not to and there's that infinitesimal chance that it will release enough life-saving compounds to get her or him through.
Someone once said to me: "there's someone who says that having luck is to die at the right moment" now i unsderstand...
Alex price, you dont know how it is to die an unnatural death.
@@Deutschland...Geistkreist well yeah,sure.
My best friend Emily passed away a couple years ago, February 4th 2020. The car hydroplaned off the road, it wasn't raining but the roads were still super wet, she died instantly. A part of me is happy to know that she was never scared. She was maybe 4'11, so when the car came in on her her body was too small to handle it. She died a little over a month until her 17th birthday. Her funeral was beautiful, we had sunflowers and dragonflies and all of her favorite things. She was buried with her funkopop anime characters, stuffed animals, etc. Her body at the viewing, which was two weeks after she passed, looked absolutely beautiful. She looked like she was resting. I'll always remember our plans of moving in together, her going to college for art and me for veterinary science. I loved writing poems for her and she loved drawing pictures for me. I miss you everyday Emmy, my sunflower, my dragonfly, my little pancake. I love you, and I'll never forget our long talks, our dumb fandom interests, our cringy nicknames, I'll never forget us. Forever and always Emmy, you'll be with me forever and always.
this made me cry. you are so strong. i sincerely hope you’re doing better ❤️🩹
I’m so sorry feb 4 is my birthday and I lost one of my best friends that day
@@xannyx thank you so much!! ❤
@@Etiennevelez I'm so sorry, it's terrible to lose someone on your birthday. My grandpa passed on my birthday in 2019. It's a bittersweet feeling getting older than a loved one, especially when they pass on your birthday, but keep living for them and make them proud. ❤️
Rest In Peace Emmy ❤️
when my mum dies im dying with her. bury me in the same casket, i love her too much to be without her
Same when my mother died , but the song was "Concerning sighting near Highland"
I really fell that
Same
we’re all gonna die..
Your songs has helped me and my family while grieve for the loss of our son John von Oehsen. He loved your music. Thank you!
I couldn't cry because in a separate tab I was reading about instant ramen
+seafoam this comment should be framed
seafoam lol
Stinkyfinger oooooooohhhhhh shhhhiiiit!!!!!!
this comment sums up how i study
i never imagined the future would be like this
3:14 "Make the most of your life, while it is rife, while it is light". Those are words that you all need to hear. Hold onto life
I’ll try..I’ll try my hardest
The trouble with being born, is you did not ask to be. You were thrown into life with the responsibility of learning to live, and living with an awareness that you are going to die. Your time in between is spent trying to preserve a life you never asked for, while being conscripted to positively contribute to a world that didn’t need you. But in this sea of chaos you will find that life has left you a gift “The Opportunity to Try”
@@JohnWick-kw8ge Beautifully put
Let go of what you are holding on to and wake up to freedom as soon as possible...
@@JohnWick-kw8geMy goodness, incredibly well put words of wisdom! Thanks for sharing 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼
Sometimes I come back to this song just to read the tributes people have written to their loved ones in the comment section.
Beautifully sorrow, aren’t they?
I wish we could all be together, it feels like a real community here.
yeah
it's mostly because noone wants to turn their lover into your worst nightmare,the one that makes you cry and doubt the choices you've made for that person
this is the first song to actually make me break down in tears.
My mom died a month ago. I've heard this song before but until now I didn't know it was dedicated to Sufjan's mother. I just cried listening to this.
Mauro Hernandez Feel better Mauro
Mauro Hernandez Hope you will get better soon ! I also lost my dad 2 months ago ! Rip your mom and my dad 😔
It get's better but you will never get over.
❤
I can honestly say this is the first song to have ever made me cry. My mum has stage 3 breast cancer so this resonates with me very much. She doesn't talk about it with me, but lately every hug she gives me feels as if she knows it could be the last and that tells me she's probably not getting better
Hi how are you right now?
@@amina7013 hi, so sweet of you to ask, thank you. I'm fine, my mum is still very much fighting the cancer. She had two surgeries and went through lung metastases. It feels like it'll never end honestly. We still don't talk about her illness a lot, but I've gotten used to it by now.
@@isabelanegoita2300 I‘m so so sorry to hear that love. You and your mum do not deserve this. I wish I could help. I‘m sending you a lot of hugs
@@isabelanegoita2300 im praying for you and your mother, i deeply hope she can win the battle against cancer
❤️
You can find comfort in the sadness. This song is the proof. Sending everyone love
Sending love back to you
My uncle passed away one year ago today July 4th, his old band mate sent his widow this song today. My family had a memorial for him and we all listened to this together. We miss him.
My mother took her life June 23. A song has never made me pull my car over before this one. I don't know what else to say. Thank you.
I’m very sorry for your loss. It’s tough losing someone to suicide. I hope one day you will both be able to see each other again. Keep your head held high.
My Sunshine, first born Son committed suicide in 2019. My stepdad committed suicide in 2009. I'm incredibly sorry for your loss. 💜💙
hope you are doing okay. much love to you
@@ajisai3160 I lost my love and best friend to suicide 3 yrs ago when I first heard this song in my mind it became a bout me n him , w were 2wks away from our 45th
I'm sorry for your loss. May your mother rest in paradise. ❤
This song helps a lot.
Reader, please never give up.
I don’t know why I should never give up
it’s hard
I don’t want to give up yet. I haven’t fulfilled my dream. And I have friends and family who care for me. I don’t want to let anyone down. And I especially do not want to let my lord down. It’s hard though.
I want to give up but I want to fulfil my dreams first.
My grandma passed away today. I prayed day and night hoping that she will be able to stay long enough to see me success in life and to meet me one last time. (I study abroad) I wanna hug her, be there for her one last time. See her smile one last time. I feel so lost right now
Hey!
I'm sorry you had to go through that.
It's okay to feel overwhelmed and cry to express your sorrow.
But, you must move on, okay?
She wouldn't be there to see you succeed but she would definitely want you to succeed. Hope you achieve it!!!.
😓💔🥺
❤😢
hey.. just know you're not alone in this, i lost my granny 4 months ago too, i know how hard it is, but it'll get better i promise, your grandma will always be proud of you, and she'll watch you succeed in the afterlife, keep going and make her proud :,) ❤
The last holiday me and my mother spent together was the 4th of july , it was amazing she was so happy, this Thanksgiving was the first holiday i spent with her in an urn... It doesn't feel right, i still see her face and her smile hear her voice, i can never forget every fiber of who she was, spending the rest of my life without her here is gonna be so difficult, but I'm trying, ptsd, depression, anxiety, my heart is broken, i miss you mommy, this life is gonna be shit without you, but ill always remember, you're love for me, you were always so proud of me , i hope i make you proud, i can only pray we meet again, i love you my dragonfly
I'm so sorry for you.. I really am... to make you feel better can I give you a virtual hug..?
My cat died tonight. Didn't imagine it would hurt this much. He added joy to a joyless life I depressingly bear. Thanks for all the love, the warmth, and all the good times. will forever miss you baby.
So sorry for your loss💗🕊️
Thank you dear xx
@@Amberxxbbunni
Mine was poisoned by my own relatives
I'm so so sorry.
@@B4no_shyyrosss oh my God. So sorry for your loss.
both of my parents are dying from cancer, lung and prostate
sufjan carry me away with your melancholy melodies
yeedeedee zeeghee
I hope you are okay. And life has shown you more kindness in the last four years. 💙
How are you?
Hope you're doing okay, especially during these times.
I'm sorry. I hope that your parents are doing better, and I hope that life has treated you better than before.
Lie down. Try not to cry. Cry a lot.
JonPlaysMusic lmao
oh my
ShadowXg0z should have known better
it's called sleep deprivation
Adventure Boy it's about the death of Sufjan Stevens mother. if you look up lyric meanings and the song it should explain the lyrics verse by verse!
I lost my baby 10 weeks last July. Held them in my hand. They will always be my firefly. This song hurts and heals so much.
Pain never goes away, but at some point it becomes bearable.
It's perfectly fine to experience pain, especially when losing a mother, but time helps with how profound the pain is, the more time, the less the pain. But losing a mother is the biggest pain one will experience.
at some point we fall in love with our pain.....
Pain lingers. But most of the time we don't feel it. Just like we don't feel the wound due to immediate numbness that follows. And it is due to this numbness we don't feel pain though pain is still there. During these period we learn valuable things like getting contented, understanding others rather than going in tandem with what people say,valuing life,aaaand getting artistic which wonderfully shapes us. So in a way lingering pain does good things.
0:45 "it was night when you died.." my friend,not long ago, was walking home one evening when a car with an illegal speed killed him without mercy. The killer said she thought she hit a trash can. He was not a trash can,he was the most kind,talented,patient person. He was human. The killer is not in jail. Rest in power buddy
🙁
Rest in peace…🕊
"I thought he was a trash can" this is literally the worst excuse I've ever heard for recklessly killing a person he should be in jail what the fuck man this makes me loose all my hope in mankind.
@@GG-fk2sy exactly! It sounds so dehumanitising,how dare you compare your innocent victim to a trash can??? She s trying to act as if she was insane so she wont go to jail..
i’m so sorry for your loss, may he rest easy and fly high ❤️🕊. also the fact that she’s not in jail is just so unfair.
Why do u cry ?
It hits u so hard feels like someone actually is speaking to u
My brother passed on June 5th. He listened to this song a lot. Since he always had to think about the thought of death bc of his health. Now I listen. Idk if I'm mentally hurting myself more or healing. But this song means so much.
Sorry 😢
If you're reading this, I hope you're okay. We're never old enough to learn these lessons. But I hope this song feels like a remedy for you. I've known of this song for years, but I've never truly appreciated what a masterpiece it is... a poem... and reading through the comments here helped me realise just how powerful it is. It was stuck in my head, so I came here, to play it on repeat...
Love you
I lost my kitty today (4th july) after 14 years of her by my side. this song has always had a special place in my heart but even more so now. sleep well my baby
I am sorry, I wish you nothing but the best and I hope your kitty rest in peace.
@@yuko9104 thank you very much :)
rest in peace little kitten
No because this made me sob. My sweet cat is everything to me. Losing her would be to lose my baby. I'm so terribly sorru for your loss and may your angel rest now. She will always be in your heart.
@@deadaccountwhoops thank you for your kind words. it does hurt but she is no longer suffering now. give your kitty lots of cuddles from me!
So my mother died when I was 11 and dad when I was 16 . I'm 19 now. It's human nature that people tend to forget people or at least they remember not quite often as time goes by. After a long time I've cried for them this much. Music is the best way to reach out to people🖤
i hope you're doing well
@@ruthslattery7683 I am now. Thank you 😊
I'm not normally the type of person to share stuff like this with a random person I don't know. Hearing this is very similar what I've gone through. My dad passed away when I was 16 and my mom went when I was 17 nearly 18. I'm 20 now. I hope for the both of us that things will get better. I'm rooting for you the same I do for myself. ❤
These comments make me have faith that will get better with my grief.
You made me cry when I read your story... I'm so sorry for your lose, I hope you the best in your life...
I first heard this when i was 6 years old. I liked it.
When i was 7, I was remembered of the beat somehow. I didn't know the name of the song anymore, though.
throughout the next few years this beat has been stuck in my head.
Finally, at the age of 14, almost 15, I've found you.
My 18 year old beautiful daughter said to me a few weeks ago... 'dad... If I die I want this song to be played...'... I'm sure she didn't notice my tears, traffic went blurry in my eyes... God... I love her SO much. Allthough she's healthy and we're blessed... This song went straight to my Core... ❤
@MBBracelets-hs9zv the shear feeling of the possibillity of losing a loved one... Especially my daughter... It's the uber father feeling that came over me and the fact that you can only protect your kids so much...
Yes I have a sister who isn't loved by my mother and always letting her be alone and thinking she always knows everything, she wants to commit suicide and its.....painful and makes me cry... I love my sister and I'll take a bullet for her and I want the best for her I just want .....her life to be perfect
@@ichirokai5068 painfull... Keep the Faith ❤️
It is so hard to lose parents, but impossible to to imagine how terrifiyng to lose a child. I hug you
bro tried to use his english major
Rest in Peace Dad, cancer is cruel and evil. You were my best friend and so full of love. Gary Allan 1961-2022.
Im so sorry for your loss❤
My dad died 3 months ago , I'm still in denial
Im so sorry for your loss 🕊
Im so fucking sorry man😢
Cancer also killed my dad I’m so sorry 🕊
one of the most quietly devastating pieces of music i think i'll ever hear
Oct 16th 2024 … liam payne, paynos will always be in our heart 😢🤍
“ I’m sorry I left but it was for the best though- It never felt right..”
The world was not good or kind enough to his little heart
The line "we're all gonna die" still reminds me that no matter what we've done in life. Whether we were rich or poor, good or bad, small or big, we all face the same end. We don't know what happens after death because no one from there has come to talk about it yet.
Holly Quran tells us what will happen....
There’s quite a few people who have died and come back to life and shared their story actually.
There’s nothing after death. That’s what makes it so terrifying. It’s beyond human comprehension. It’s scary but after we die we won’t know anyone or anything.
@@StrykeSZN Life after death is forever, this is just temporary.
✝️🙏
three days ago a friend of mine hung himself. I can't sleep without thinking about what he felt. what could i have done differently? it's really sad, he was only 18. he was a great boy and taught me so much. sweet, funny, good heart. in the past, i came here and saw some sad comments and I never thought it could be me living this kind of sadness. i close my eyes and I can see him alive. his details, his hands, his eyes. he didn't seem like himself in that coffin
"it was night when you died, my firefly. what could I have said to raise you from the deads?"
i'm so so sorry. if you ever need to talk to someone, i know that i'm a complete stranger, but i'm still here.
I know that feeling.. by my self and others close to me.
I’m sorry to hear that :/
I am soo sorry .....
May his soul rest in peace!
I’m so sorry for your lost and i hope he would be in a better place now.
Yesterday. The 14th of November 2023. That's when he left. That's when cancer took him away from me. He was my best friend. He had the brightest smile and the most contagious laugh. His heart was full of love to give. He was a really smart guy. He knew so much about history. He was always able to comfort me. He was always by my side. We dreamed of the future together. But what now? He was only 18. He deserved so much better. I miss him so much. He will always be in my heart.
I’m so sorry for ur loss,ur so strong.
(I'm Russian, so I can make mistakes, sorry)
Dear friend..we all can understand you..but don't cry..I think, he looks for you from the clouds.. He didn't want to hear your tears..
This autumn I had the same story..
He was my internet-brother. But he had Deadly disease - also cancer.. 15of September, in my b-day, he Ended his life by himself..
But honey..life isn't ended.. that pain inside and you should Convert it in good memories.. I believe in you ❤
He’s still here, always. He’s your guardian angel, and you’ll be the one to keep him alive forever.
So sorry for your loss💗🕊️
He maybe be gone, but the thing hurting him is also now gone💗
14th of November 2023 was the best day of my life. I finally left my country and everything I had behind to start a totally new life. I’m sorry for your loss. Still it’s very interesting to me how we both woke up that day, feeling things that couldn’t be further apart from another. I hope that your happiest day is still ahead of you and I bet your friend is cheering you on, from wherever he is now.
This song is actually so beautiful. I almost cried while listening to it. ☹️
I lost my best friend, my kitty of 15 years to cancer this past weekend. I had listened to this songs many times before and cried to it because I was so afraid to lose her. Now that it has happened I find myself playing the song softly on the guitar and singing the lyrics gently to her. I am no longer afraid. She’s now my star in the sky. Rest well my little dove.
I think she was happy to have a friend like you....💔
Your kitty was lucky to have you and I KNOW she knew you loved her. May her memory be a blessing to you forever.
Eu já perdi meu gatinho que se chamava Black, e uma gatinha que se chamava Ravena, quando Black morreu não demorou muito e a Revena partiu também, sempre que olhar as estrelas estarei os vendo 😢❤
That is the sweetest thing. I'm So Sorry for your Loss. You have a Kind soul. And I would give you a Big hug and go through it with you if I could. But I sadly can't.😔The most I can do is give you all my love and support.❤-💔-❤🩹
That is the sweetest thing. I'm So Sorry for your Loss. You have a Kind soul. And I would give you a Big hug and go through it with you if I could. But I sadly can't.😔The most I can do is give you all my love and support.❤-💔-❤🩹
“the hospital asked: «should the body be cast?» before i say goodbye, my star in the sky” this line absolutely broke me.
0:05 makes me feel like a light cloud
indeed
Fr
Frrrr
I am so tired of everything..people are just fading..my memory is fading..i feel like i am in a continuous loop of suffering..
You’re not alone. I love you
“Mom?” “Yes sweetie.” “Why do my friends fade.” “Why do the beautiful flowers get cut first?” “the best ones go first. That’s the sad truth, but more will bloom”
It’s ok we are here with you but always remember the day comes after the dark night
Don't worry my dove, I'm here and am going through sh*t too. I'll listen to what you need to let out.