so often, youtubers downplay the importance of going to school/ a college education. just wanted to say it's extremely heartening for someone to acknowledge the role and experience of college. not in the sense of partying/going out - but in the sense of finding YOURSELF, discovering your passions & uncovering your purpose. so happy and inspired by you!
Good. For. You. I give you and Elle credit for not seeing TH-cam as the only forever option. You were smart (or your parents did you right) for thinking big picture. You did your thing, made your money, and got out, or at least now it can just be a hobby. Too many TH-camrs these days are clinging to these dying channels, and they can't do anything else. You're smart. I don't think you've gotten enough credit for being as smart as you have been financially and businesswise.
From a 25-year-old daughter whose mother's only life goal was to have kids, please find something you are passionate about, a career you enjoy, a hobby. My mum devoted her life to us but now that my brother and I have grown up, moved out, have our own careers, it's so sad as a daughter to see my mum so "empty" with no passion for anything, no other goals. Wishing you the best of luck for this new chapter in your life ❤️ P.S hope this message comes across well, English isn't my first language.
Girl so many of us in our mid 20s are starting/going back to school. I’m 26, I’ve been trying to go to college on and off since I was 18. At 26 I finally know what I want a career in, and it took me many jobs, many relationships, and some moves to figure out what I wanted to do. We’re all a little lost! You got this.
I'll be completely honest that I haven't watched a video of yours in a while, but this was simultaneously the most inspiring and relatable content I've seen in a substantial chunk of time. Listlessness and loss of intention is very obviously an epidemic in the TH-cam community right now and I have so much respect for you figuring out that there might be an unexplored life beyond what you've already created for yourself. As a 26 y/o going through much the same, I understand and identify completely.
I was right where you are 20 years ago. 27 years old and starting fresh. I had just gotten out of a 5 year relationship and headed back to school. I am now 47 with 4 kids, a supportive husband and a great and very flexible career. You’ve got this.
I really feel for you. I was working on a PhD and living with my fiancé in America (I'm from England). I had my life mapped out but I knew deep down I wasn't happy. I was working towards a marriage and career I didn't want while living in a country that is far away from my family. So in one week I quit my PhD, called off my wedding and headed home. I thought of myself as a failure for a while and was put on anti-depressants and attended therapy. I felt like I had let myself down and the people who have supported me over the years. Fast forward two years later and I'm married to the man of my dreams who encourages me to do what I'm most passionate about - writing and painting. Long (boring) story short, give it time. Life is unpredictable. Have long term goals, but know that if nothing comes of them, something different and perhaps even better is waiting around the corner.
You're right, this isn't the channel I subscribed too. I subscribed 10 years ago when I was 14 years old. You're not the same and neither am I and I'm excited for this next chapter in your life!
Be a Labour & Delivery nurse!!! Your passion to be a mother is a quality you can refocus into being a caring and compassionate nurse for people going through their most vulnerable and life changing experience!
I feel like Blair is that childhood best friend that you don’t get to see very often, but when you do it’s like no time has passed at all. So excited to follow you on this new journey in your life. I’m one of those OG subs...first video I watched of yours was a hair curling tutorial where you used a hot pink Bedhead iron. I felt like I was hanging out with a friend watching that for the first time, and now years later in ultra HD, I still feel that way. And it’s ok to be a little lost, you’ll find your way and we’ll all be here to support you through it! Glad you’re back, and please give Teddy a big hug from all of us. 💜 🧸
I Was Dying First I was dying to finish high school and start college, And then I was dying to finish college and start working, And then I was dying to marry and have children, And then I was dying for my children to grow old enough for school so I could return to work. Ant then I was dying to retire, And now, I am dying... and suddenly I realize I forgot to live. Don't wait for a moment for your life to "begin". Your life is now, don't forget to live it.
27 years old feeling like I have no purpose in life. I finished school, got my doctorate just to work at a job I hate. I have no passion. I feel like starting a family would help but I have no interest in going through the motions of starting a new relationship. I RELATE TO THIS VIDEO SO HARD.
I feel like you are rare, we see now a lot of TH-camrs and instagramers who never grow up, never wanna leave move up or mature because of money. They are past 25, adults, and they still do and in the mentality of what they did at 16-17...just for money. You are honest, you are mature, you acknowledge that this virtual world and living in LA is not a real life to live forever. I really admire you for this and for being honest and not being afraid to say you know what, I am mature now and I need to start a new chapter.
I know this video is four years old, but I watched it for the first time today and it brought me comfort because I am in a similar boat. I just ended a 9.5 year relationship and am planning on moving out in the next few months and starting over...and BOY those feelings about losing how you thought your future was going to go are so real. I am definitely in that depressed state without much motivation at all, and feeling a little lost. So thank you for sharing your story and making me feel less alone. Also, I had a bad nose surgery too and have to plan for a revision in the next year or two...so thank you for sharing that story as well, and your nose still looks SO GOOD!! It gives me a lot of hope. You are such a blessing to us all.
You were the VERY FIRST TH-camr I watched and followed for over 10 years. I loved watching your tutorials and hauls back in the day when you filmed in your bright hot pink bedroom! You were honestly one of the best and very first OG "TH-cam gurus" back then. (I learned how to curl my hair and used to store make up brushes inside jars with beads because of you!) I'm happy for all of your accomplishments in your teenage/early adult years and that you were smart about saving your earnings for later in life. As more influencers joined the TH-cam scene I've been falling behind on your content and I apologize for that. However, I am happy to know you are doing fine and for taking the time and courage to film this life update. It's nice to see a familiar face on TH-cam again and hearing your stories. I am beyond excited for the next chapter in your life with school and moving back closer to home, I look forward to these new types of videos soon! I feel like I've been growing up with you too, now that I'm going into my late 20s I feel like my "life goals" aren't going to be achieved anytime soon either. It does put me in a depressing rut sometimes when I am comparing my current situation with my comfortable bf to my married friends and people on social media flaunting their cute kids. I am also dying to become a mom and to feel THAT family life sooner than later. I'm glad you are open and honest about this topic and I don't feel so alone/ashamed after hearing it from somebody relatable and admirable. So thank you for this!!! :) I'm sorry for your heart break but I am wishing you all the best in finding a new man with similar interests and fulfill your mom/family goals! Until then, I hope you are surrounded by constant love and support from your friends and family! I hope you don't let the rude comments ruin your day. Some people like to rain on other people's parade. It's sad some people can't just appreciate a nice update video without attacking you and accusing financial burden... You don't owe anybody an explanation, just do you and whatever makes you happy. P.S. Please show us Teddy in your next video! I hope he will still be "thriving & surviving" in the next update!
Hands down, the best video you have EVER made, Blair. So real, raw, vulnerable, and addressing the modern "issues" of woman in their 20's today. At one point I was tearing up with how I identified with your story. Big big big thing for you to come. You rocked it, sister friend! xoxxo
I completely understand the sentiment of "I'm waiting for my life to start." The one thing I've wanted most in life is to be a mom. The second was to be a doctor. Well, I ended up changing my mind around the age of 20 to become a physician assistant instead (less schooling, still a medical provider, not stuck in a speciality that would require another residency) anyways...6 years later, I'm graduated from grad school and in my first job in Orthopedics and I still feel like my life isn't complete. That desire to be a mom is always nagging me in the back of my mind. I often feel inadequate, even though I've accomplished how much in my life.
Girl that’s amazing you’re going to school. This is a great decision. I went to college out of high school then stopped after a year then went back at age 24 and finished at 26 almost 27 and I was 8 months pregnant at graduation! Long story short I wanted to keep pushing myself so I went back again at age 30 for a masters and again at 33 for a PhD and now I’m graduating for the final time at age 37 with 2 kids. Point is that There are no rules and I think it’s smart and brave that you’re doing this! You’re going to feel a tremendous amount of pride and confidence when you realize what you’re capable of. No one will blink twice at your age, nor will they even know and who cares anyways. This is your life and you’re in the drivers seat! No one will ever be able to take away your education. Best of luck!
How you describe your feelings is the most articulate explanation of what depression feels like for a lot of people. What you're feeling, "waiting for your life to start" sort of equates to a quarter life crisis. Its normal. Reevaluating what your needs really are and what you find fulfilling helps but it's a struggle getting there. Good luck on this chapter in your life and thank you for putting into words what so many people feel.
Blair...the moment you said "I am waiting for my life to start", that hit me so hard and I'm like sitting here tearing up. I understand this SO much. Thank YOU for sharing your story. This feeling is sometimes SO hard to pinpoint, its like you're constantly falling into a hole but you've been falling for so long you've kind of forgotten that you were falling. I have been watching you for literally God knows how long and this video hits home. You are so strong, I am so proud of you for making the best decision for yourself! I am wishing you all the best in life.
I think this might be the most important video you’ve made. You’ve touched on so many issues that a young woman goes through on her journey- waiting on a relationship milestone to be happy, facing depression, career decisions. I know so many of us can relate to the emotional up and downs you’ve described in this video. Cheers to you on taking this brave step and wishing you all the success and happiness!
Blair, this is the most incredible video you have ever produced. Rest assured that we all go through these really tough years, especially in our twenties - I went through a similar thing a couple of years ago and thought it would never end. Your life will turn into something beautiful even if it’s not the picture you have in your mind.
Blair, I went back to school at 26 right after my boyfriend of 4 years decided to end his life. I feel the same way, I thought the babies, the wedding and house were right around the corner and when this happened it brought my whole life to a halt. Fast forward 3 years, I'm about to graduate, I met a man and we got married in November! I couldn't imagine any of this 3 years ago to be quite honest. Stay strong!
Yey for taking us along! Thank you so much for your honesty. I'm 32, on my second year of university. I believe we are all being called to find our truest deepest truth and center. I see this in you as well. You are so strong, so blessed with light, it is lovely! I hope you find a pace and a gentle way with yourself, not being too hard on yourself for the unclarity. We shift and change and grow all the time and having gone through many stints of depression, anxiety and eating disorders myself, I have found that the only thing we really can do, is be present in this very moment. That is really all we can do to live our best life. Be here now. It´s okay to be confused. It´s okay to not know what you want. Our culture is so obsessed with being productive, always moving forward, always having a clear status. That is not sustainable. You are enough just as you are. I have been following along since the beginning and am so happy to hear from you again. I am so excited for your new situation and would love to see more! Take care, best of luck, thanks you so much for sharing!
I think we've been conditioned to think that by mid to late 20s we got everything in our lives together, a stable career, planning a wedding, kids etc. I feel like I grew up watching you and Elle. Truth is, we never really stop growing up, changing and making goals. I've been there too asking myself "now what?". But Blair, one thing i learned from watching you for yeaaaaars, is that you have always been strong and determined regardless of what life throws at you. So Get it girl! I too went back for a second course in college at 26, (had to stop coz of health issues) But i loved it! and again its okay that my plans changed too. so enjoy the present & live in the moment. Let the future & the universe surprise you. cheers to a new chapter
Blair, this is the most honest video you have made, ever. You do not sound ungrateful or entitled, not in this video at all. I feel like this year really made you grow up. The quarter life crisis is a real thing, and I think college, even if it's a few classes or an associate's degree will indeed enrich you in many ways. By the way, whatever you chose to do: 1) don't rely on relationships for your happiness 2) whatever you do, don't wait for it to be perfect, just be consistent and stick to it. By just doing, not overthinking, just doing, you will surely find your path. Good luck xx
The MOST honest and refreshing video I've seen on TH-cam. You're not negating your success, Beautiful Woman, you're stripping down and changing course. Many aren't this strong. Kudos.
I think it's really interesting that you posted this video. As someone who has seen you since the very beginning of your youtube career and knowing how people looked up to you for having it all figured out, it's kind of incredible that all these years down the line you're sitting down and admitting that you don't have it all figured out and doing something about it at your age like going back to school is a really important thing.
Blair I’ve subbed since 2009 but I haven’t been watching your videos since around 2013... and here I am in 2019, falling in love with you again. This is the most real, heartfelt and emotional video that I’ve seen from you. Really hope good things will happen for you.
Girl, it’s not the channel that I subscribed to, it was YOU. You’ve always proven to be such a strong person regardless of what this world throws at you and it’s so inspiring watching you learn and grow. You’re going to do great things in this world Blair Fowler and I, along with many of your other supporters, are here cheering you on and wishing you so much luck on this new journey. You’ve got this!
When I found you, I was 14, in 2009. I was very depressed because of very traumatic family issues going on that still affect me. The way I would cope with it was by rearranging my small bedroom at super late hours because I had bad insomnia. I would look up bedroom tours at 3 AM on school nights from girls who were around my age and your 2009 bedroom tour was the first one I ever watched. Being depressed you don’t always have the desire or energy to clean or take care of yourself, at least that’s how I get. It was incredibly hard to see the point in any of it. Your super early room tours helped me tremendously giving me ideas, pulling me out of negative thoughts with your bubbly personality. I just now today came back to find your channel/see how you’re doing 10 years later, and you’re once again motivating me in a much different way. I ended up dropping out of highsxhool in 2010 and had not been back to school since then. I get down thinking I’m 24 and haven’t done one college course I’m pathetic. But you’re proving those negative thoughts of mine wrong. showing me that there are other people of all ages, successful or not, that still haven’t done college. You and I are completely different people, I’m not girly or feminine in the slightest, but somehow from a distance you’ve taught me a lot about how strong I really am. I’m not even a fan of yours or anything like that to be completely honest, you’ve just helped, and that is extremely powerful. I wish nothing but the best for you on your new journey through life, you deserve everything good that comes to you
The nice thing about going to college after you’re financially stable is that you can cut down your stress and focus on having a rich educational experience. Best of luck!
This is one of the most authentic and genuine videos on TH-cam and I really appreciate you being so candid and opening up for everyone to see. This is inspiring and sending nothing but positivity on your new journey.
This was REALLY relatable - I had a similar epiphany around 6 years ago at 25. I have to say, once you stop living for that next big moment (as you stated) and find your purpose/passion/just live life FOR YOURSELF on your OWN terms, things are such more fulfilling. It's quite liberating, actually. I wish you all the best!!
I can tell a big difference in this video versus your other videos. You have definitely matured a lot and you sound very mature! I can see your sense of humor and authenticity shining through in this video. We are rooting for you in your next life chapter!
This video help me realize that I’m not the only one going through a rut! Thank you for talking about this topic. The beginning of the year has been rough for me, and I too have struggled through depression. So thank you for this video!
I hate when people say ‘other people have it worse’. Honesty that’s like saying you can’t be happy because others have it better. You do you, Blair..... you’re far from having peaked and this is unfortunately a normal thing and I feel like I went through the same thing....all I can say is that it will get better and you will one day be glad this happened. Sending hearts. Xo
You’re still young. I didn’t have my 1st child until 34 yrs old and just recently had my 2nd child at 37yrs old. You will find your person and still have your baby. Good luck!
This is like an old school Blair video! In Elle’s room with her shouting side comments! Love it lol. Go out there and find your passion girl! Clearly, I’ve been watching from the beginning and you deserve to find that success and happiness again! 💗💗💗
Aw honey - I'm much older than you but I could really relate to you and what is going on with you. When I was 23 years old my boyfriend/fiance and I broke up and it devastated me. I had my whole life planned out and that included marrying him and having babies and being a stay at home mom. That all changed. I ended up going to college when I turned 30 and got my BA and my masters degrees and life all worked out just fine. But the bottom line is that when people make plans God giggles. We smart beautiful loving women think we can plan everything out but we just can't. I know everything is going to be great for you. You have a loving family and a huge support group. Put your faith and life into God's hands. Best of luck to you and praying for little Teddy Dog. xoxo Wendy
But when she started talking about finding her person, and only working until getting married and that is when her real life will start. That, I about started crying, I related to that so much. In a way i still do. I recently had a breakup with my bf who I perceived as my person, and after that I still find myself not knowing what to do or who I am. What is next? I've thought about going back to college as well. It's just all so difficult, but I get her
Wow girl you did an amazing job explaining what you went through with that breakup. I can so relate so it was almost therapeutic hearing it from your experience. Thank you for sharing such a tough thing.. it really does help with my own struggle after a break up knowing you’re not alone and you can get through it. God bless!
In Israel it's very unusual to go college at 18. it's more around 22. I started my law degree at 27. you bring something ells at that age. it's a different look on life. it's all for the better! good luck on your new journey! so happy for you!
I really miss the old youtube I'm SO nostalgic for the Tag videos, the collection videos, the unpolished late 2000's vibe. I think the world and youtube within has changed really quickly away from all the people I watched, it's so fascinating that there is such a theme of you tubers from your generation and popularity who are like navigating the youtube space in 2019. I'm back watching, good luck with university xx
Do yall remember years and years ago when Elle and Blair would refuse to say the state they lived in and everyone would guess constantly? Good times. I haven't watched you two in a long time but I'm glad you both are still doing great things.
If only there wasn’t the added risk of developmental delays in children when we have kids after 35:/. I feel like I’d wait til 45 if there was no added risk
Been there! 5 years relationship. 4 years engagement. He came home and abruptly he said he didn’t want to be with me anymore. I thought I would live happily ever after with this man. But he didn’t want it anymore. Come to find out he wanted to be with someone else. So yeah I relate. Good for you for moving on. I have and now I’m with a guy that truly makes me happy.
I enrolled in college at 26 too, and im on my last year. I graduate this yr! Its totally okay!! Ive been watching you for 10 yrs, you saying going to college at 26 makes me feel better about myself. I actually had kids before going back to college, i feel like i did everything backards, and always felt bad about my life. So you, waiting on kids and waiting for that special person is admirable. I think you going to college is a good choice, get your mind off of things, you could discover other passions, pick up other hobbies, meet new people, new friends. Ive met awesome ppl and you get involved with other communities withing your new career, i think it a great idea! I totallly understand you feeling lost. I think what you can do right now is find peace within yourself, in your mind and heart. You got this. Take your time, youre young and beautifull. Everything happens in divine timing xo :)
I know how you feel... I did the college thing, I studied hard, graduated early, and then went downhill. What I thought I wanted to do didn’t feel right. I didn’t get experience while I was enrolled in college and I feel completely lost. My biggest downfall is being too scared and too unsure of my abilities. I’m still working the retail job that I had during college and they want me to move up in the company. But I absolutely loathe the place and don’t know where to go. I am no where near the place I thought I would be in at age 24. And that’s the hardest part.
I watched this on 2X speed so I could finish this quick, but this is my first time ever commenting on a video of yours in the 10 years watching you. I am so proud of you and think you’re doing what’s best for you!!! I have definitely related to that “not really sad about losing the person themselves, but the idea of my future life I wanted”. Also, I hope that aside from just going to college, you look into going to therapy, if you’re not already!!! Best of luck girl!
Dude.... I felt this hard!!! I had a super hard breakup last June, I felt my life was over and lost the whole plan I had and that’s truly the hardest part. I had no drive, no passion. I spent the last year in college and just finished getting my license in dental assisting and met some amazing new friends for life, found some passion, got a dream job at an amazing clinic, and still have so much life ahead of me! You’re gonna love college! I still may go back to actually become a dentist!!! I found what I like and have no doubt you will to! You will absolutely find yourself, you have your whole life to work so just enjoy the journey and don’t stress!
So weird I'm an OG subscriber for maybe 10 years and randomly saw this video. When Blair started on TH-cam she was part of the OG youtube elite like Panacea81, Leesha, lolipop26 etc back when this industry was pure and real si thus is nostalgia. I miss those youtube days.
“By bigger I mean BIGGERRRR” haha You are such an inspiration, you are taking your life and molding it to what you need it to be instead of just sitting there waiting for something to happen. So excited to be here and watch your journey ❤️
I am 36 and I was just like you said, always wanted to be a mom ever since I was a little girl. I had a master degree from a very good school but I thought being a staying home mom was my ultimate career. At the age of 28, I met a man who I thought could be a father of my child and a person I spend the rest of my life with. 7 years later, I found out it was not the life I wanted at all, him and I had no commonalities and no passion for each other. I was too waiting for my life to start when I got married. Now, I have a girl who is 5 and I am going through a divorce. However, in a very weird way, I feel like this is the first time I am actually living my life and I am in control of my life. Life is funny but sometimes you need stumble a little to find what you actually want.
At 26 is the first time I really experienced depression as well. After a breakup. I had to go get lost for a while before things also started to look up when I went back to school, found love again, and realized how strong I am. I’ve carried those two years (during which time my dog died too). Fast forward and even though that love didn’t last, it brought me back. Even though it took 5 years, I now have a new puppy to love. Now I have a real love that feels like the fit I needed. I don’t think you’re waiting for your life to start if you also feel like you’ve already lived a full life. It just seems like you’re aware enough to know that the purest happiest will come with having your family. Good luck, Blair! I hope you come back with an update from time to time. :) (p.s. you were the only beauty blogger I watched, haha)
I think you should shift your TH-cam to an adult vlogging in college and starting over channel. I haven’t been subbed to you for over five years, but I resubbed because I’m excited to see what you are going to do with this channel.
When you said that you feel like you are waiting for your life to start, I connected with that so much. That is how I have always felt, since I was young. I have always felt like I was just going through the motions, making it through, until I get married and have children. Which does sound crazy lol. And I was just so glad to hear another person say that.
Blair this is so relatable, I felt the same way with my life when I was dating my abusive ex-fiancé, I was literally waiting for my life to start with him. Now dating my current boyfriend, I no longer feel that way, I’ve focused so much on me and my career and school and life and he focuses on his things, he and I focus on ourselves and we still plan a future of babies together, but there’s nothing in between us that causes us to expect more or less of each other and when we argue we come up with solutions and we’re fighting for each other not against each other. You’ll find your person, and you find your purpose, you just need to keep striving and keep dreaming.
I've been a subscriber since the days of your pink bedroom at your parent's house... This has to be the realist video I have ever seen you make. Good for you and I support you! YOU GOT THIS GIRL!!!!!
Wow, this makes you come across really... relatable. If I had accomplished so much early in my life, I'd probably be experiencing all of the same insecurities. You came from a high level of privilege and success at an early age, so unless that level of success is maintained or surpassed as you move forward in life, disappointment is inevitable. Like a reality check (not to sound rude, we all have reality checks, right). I don't want you to get your hopes up and think that college is the end-all-be-all answer to unlocking a magical future... it could be good for your worldview and gaining skills, but you have a solid resume already that probably surpasses the face-value of a degree. College is certainly a good path to take to occupy and challenge yourself, to get yourself on track if you are going through depression and need a sense of direction. It would be good for you. Anyway, I appreciate this video, it makes you seem VERY normal and relatable. Good luck!!!
I'm 32, married 8 years and counting, 3 kids. My brother passed away 5 years ago and it completely broke me. We live with my parents, I have no job, and I have no idea what my future holds. I feel like I'm nothing. I have to start over at some point, but I haven't healed since that happened. Many hugs and wishes to you.
Oh my darling Irma. You are something. You are a wonderful mother and a daughter. So terribly sorry for your tragic loss. I can only imagine the depth of your sorrow. I'd feel like a half a person. Dont be sad. He wouldn't want that 💗 grief is so hard... just keep swimming 🐠
Honey, I’m so happy for you, not only to have come so far since this video, but to have been so introspective and honest in this video. You are an impressive young woman!
I experienced the same thing around 24-25 years old. It was a really hard year for me, and I didn't feel like doing anything nor do I know what I want to do with my life. Quarter life crisis is hard! Things will get better, Blair! I always tell myself "I'll be okay. This, too, shall past." You don't see it now, but things will become clearer and you'll become stronger :)
Maybe Teddy is hanging on because he knows you need him right now. I really feel like animals have that special sense about them they can tell when their humans are unhappy 💚
So proud of you Blair. Ive been watching you since I was 10 years old, here I am turning 20 and its amazing that you are going through the same thing I am. Good luck with University, its tough but I am glad you are trying to find your purpose. Also, sending my prayers to Teddy :(
My dear, you have put a lot of pressure on yourself! 26 is so young and you don’t have to know what your future holds! Just find a way to enjoy your journey! Teddy is teaching you a lot! The doctors gave up on him but he’s still here enjoying his time with you! Just wake up every day and see where it takes you!! Enjoy the ride💕
I'm proud of you Blair. As a long time subscriber, I'm just proud of you, for being real and open.. For showing the not so pretty side of life... When you're least expecting it, he's gonna come in your life and you not gonna imagine life without him.. But being good with yourself first is most important! You can't pour from an empty cup. Take care of your dreams
im having goosebumps right now 😳 i went to your channel bc of michelle phan and now hearing you speak made me remind of my teenage years. i can literally hear you showing the candles you bought in bath&body works or your christmas vlogs and it makes me emotional bc i just miss those days when youtube wasn't all about the tea and drama :( now im subscribed again!! im crying i miss those days man 😭
I more or less watched your videos for ten years. This is the most honest and down to earth video I have seen on your channel and on most of the TH-cam platform for so long. Totally get the fellings you had at this stage of your life. This is so nice and inspiring to see you invest this energy on something positive. I am at a simiral stage of my life and going back to college too, and I really appriciated that you have put words on this. Wishing you all the best for this new chapter.
Oh Blair, I have been watching you since your lime green room back in Tennessee. It is such a full circle moment for me listening to your honesty and your story. It is SO relatable and I applaud you for your transparency. I grew up in Nashville, went to college in Alabama, and moved back to Nashville last year. It is such a special place. I hope you love it as much as I do. It is such a great place for growth, experience, true and meaningful people, and of course, music. I went to college and I still struggle with what I am doing with my life now. I know that it will all work out in the end. For you too! Best of luck with this new chapter. I am so excited to start watching your videos again. It really does feel like I grew up with you. xo
Seriously, if I could make a video about my life... this would be it. Depression, break up, waiting for your life to start... you’re not alone beautiful girl! You’re living your best and greatest life and you’re doing a great job❤️
Awe Blaire this is AWESOME! I'm 25 and decided to start school last year. I've been taking general ed courses at Nashville State for the past year and I'm transferring to Belmont this summer for Music Therapy! My boyfriend and many of my friends went to Belmont and absolutely loved it. Hope to see you around campus! Best of luck to you and your journey :)
You can totally open up your channel to a larger audience, and a younger audience! Your style and organization will be so helpful for college students, even if you're older than them (actually especially because you're older than them). Going to college will open up opportunities for your "real" life, but also for your channel. I can't wait for your new chapter!!!!
Best video you've made, ever. So self-reflective, so honest, so raw, so real. I wish you nothing but the best, I think you're well on your way to finding your path again!
This is ridiculously relatable to me !! The mom thing, the breakup, the career sort of ending/ changing and not knowing what to do ... maybe I should take some classes. Thank you for sharing
Coming back to watch this after she just announced her engagement !!! Congrats girl ❤
When you said “I’m waiting for my life to start” I couldn’t relate more that is exactly how I feel
so often, youtubers downplay the importance of going to school/ a college education. just wanted to say it's extremely heartening for someone to acknowledge the role and experience of college. not in the sense of partying/going out - but in the sense of finding YOURSELF, discovering your passions & uncovering your purpose. so happy and inspired by you!
Good. For. You. I give you and Elle credit for not seeing TH-cam as the only forever option. You were smart (or your parents did you right) for thinking big picture. You did your thing, made your money, and got out, or at least now it can just be a hobby. Too many TH-camrs these days are clinging to these dying channels, and they can't do anything else. You're smart. I don't think you've gotten enough credit for being as smart as you have been financially and businesswise.
That part about wanting to be a mom, and "waiting for my life to start"....Man, I get that.
From a 25-year-old daughter whose mother's only life goal was to have kids, please find something you are passionate about, a career you enjoy, a hobby. My mum devoted her life to us but now that my brother and I have grown up, moved out, have our own careers, it's so sad as a daughter to see my mum so "empty" with no passion for anything, no other goals.
Wishing you the best of luck for this new chapter in your life ❤️
P.S hope this message comes across well, English isn't my first language.
Girl so many of us in our mid 20s are starting/going back to school. I’m 26, I’ve been trying to go to college on and off since I was 18. At 26 I finally know what I want a career in, and it took me many jobs, many relationships, and some moves to figure out what I wanted to do. We’re all a little lost! You got this.
I'll be completely honest that I haven't watched a video of yours in a while, but this was simultaneously the most inspiring and relatable content I've seen in a substantial chunk of time. Listlessness and loss of intention is very obviously an epidemic in the TH-cam community right now and I have so much respect for you figuring out that there might be an unexplored life beyond what you've already created for yourself. As a 26 y/o going through much the same, I understand and identify completely.
I was right where you are 20 years ago. 27 years old and starting fresh. I had just gotten out of a 5 year relationship and headed back to school. I am now 47 with 4 kids, a supportive husband and a great and very flexible career. You’ve got this.
I really feel for you. I was working on a PhD and living with my fiancé in America (I'm from England). I had my life mapped out but I knew deep down I wasn't happy. I was working towards a marriage and career I didn't want while living in a country that is far away from my family. So in one week I quit my PhD, called off my wedding and headed home. I thought of myself as a failure for a while and was put on anti-depressants and attended therapy. I felt like I had let myself down and the people who have supported me over the years. Fast forward two years later and I'm married to the man of my dreams who encourages me to do what I'm most passionate about - writing and painting. Long (boring) story short, give it time. Life is unpredictable. Have long term goals, but know that if nothing comes of them, something different and perhaps even better is waiting around the corner.
Jazz Davis Wow, how beautiful ! Thanks for sharing :3
You're right, this isn't the channel I subscribed too. I subscribed 10 years ago when I was 14 years old. You're not the same and neither am I and I'm excited for this next chapter in your life!
Be a Labour & Delivery nurse!!! Your passion to be a mother is a quality you can refocus into being a caring and compassionate nurse for people going through their most vulnerable and life changing experience!
12:29 "I feel like i'm waiting for my life to start" I can so relate to that statement.
I love coming back to this video. It’s a great reminder that change is possible & inspires me when I’m afraid to move forward or feeling stuck!
I feel like Blair is that childhood best friend that you don’t get to see very often, but when you do it’s like no time has passed at all. So excited to follow you on this new journey in your life. I’m one of those OG subs...first video I watched of yours was a hair
curling tutorial where you used a hot pink Bedhead iron. I felt like I was hanging out with a friend watching that for the first time, and now years later in ultra HD, I still feel that way. And it’s ok to be a little lost, you’ll find your way and we’ll all be here to support you through it! Glad you’re back, and please give Teddy a big hug from all of us. 💜 🧸
I Was Dying
First I was dying to finish high school and start college,
And then I was dying to finish college and start working,
And then I was dying to marry and have children,
And then I was dying for my children to grow old enough for school so I could return to work.
Ant then I was dying to retire,
And now, I am dying... and suddenly I realize I forgot to live.
Don't wait for a moment for your life to "begin". Your life is now, don't forget to live it.
27 years old feeling like I have no purpose in life. I finished school, got my doctorate just to work at a job I hate. I have no passion. I feel like starting a family would help but I have no interest in going through the motions of starting a new relationship. I RELATE TO THIS VIDEO SO HARD.
I feel like you are rare, we see now a lot of TH-camrs and instagramers who never grow up, never wanna leave move up or mature because of money. They are past 25, adults, and they still do and in the mentality of what they did at 16-17...just for money. You are honest, you are mature, you acknowledge that this virtual world and living in LA is not a real life to live forever. I really admire you for this and for being honest and not being afraid to say you know what, I am mature now and I need to start a new chapter.
I know this video is four years old, but I watched it for the first time today and it brought me comfort because I am in a similar boat. I just ended a 9.5 year relationship and am planning on moving out in the next few months and starting over...and BOY those feelings about losing how you thought your future was going to go are so real. I am definitely in that depressed state without much motivation at all, and feeling a little lost. So thank you for sharing your story and making me feel less alone. Also, I had a bad nose surgery too and have to plan for a revision in the next year or two...so thank you for sharing that story as well, and your nose still looks SO GOOD!! It gives me a lot of hope. You are such a blessing to us all.
You were the VERY FIRST TH-camr I watched and followed for over 10 years. I loved watching your tutorials and hauls back in the day when you filmed in your bright hot pink bedroom! You were honestly one of the best and very first OG "TH-cam gurus" back then. (I learned how to curl my hair and used to store make up brushes inside jars with beads because of you!) I'm happy for all of your accomplishments in your teenage/early adult years and that you were smart about saving your earnings for later in life. As more influencers joined the TH-cam scene I've been falling behind on your content and I apologize for that. However, I am happy to know you are doing fine and for taking the time and courage to film this life update. It's nice to see a familiar face on TH-cam again and hearing your stories. I am beyond excited for the next chapter in your life with school and moving back closer to home, I look forward to these new types of videos soon! I feel like I've been growing up with you too, now that I'm going into my late 20s I feel like my "life goals" aren't going to be achieved anytime soon either. It does put me in a depressing rut sometimes when I am comparing my current situation with my comfortable bf to my married friends and people on social media flaunting their cute kids. I am also dying to become a mom and to feel THAT family life sooner than later. I'm glad you are open and honest about this topic and I don't feel so alone/ashamed after hearing it from somebody relatable and admirable. So thank you for this!!! :) I'm sorry for your heart break but I am wishing you all the best in finding a new man with similar interests and fulfill your mom/family goals! Until then, I hope you are surrounded by constant love and support from your friends and family! I hope you don't let the rude comments ruin your day. Some people like to rain on other people's parade. It's sad some people can't just appreciate a nice update video without attacking you and accusing financial burden... You don't owe anybody an explanation, just do you and whatever makes you happy. P.S. Please show us Teddy in your next video! I hope he will still be "thriving & surviving" in the next update!
Hands down, the best video you have EVER made, Blair. So real, raw, vulnerable, and addressing the modern "issues" of woman in their 20's today. At one point I was tearing up with how I identified with your story. Big big big thing for you to come. You rocked it, sister friend! xoxxo
I completely understand the sentiment of "I'm waiting for my life to start." The one thing I've wanted most in life is to be a mom. The second was to be a doctor. Well, I ended up changing my mind around the age of 20 to become a physician assistant instead (less schooling, still a medical provider, not stuck in a speciality that would require another residency) anyways...6 years later, I'm graduated from grad school and in my first job in Orthopedics and I still feel like my life isn't complete. That desire to be a mom is always nagging me in the back of my mind. I often feel inadequate, even though I've accomplished how much in my life.
Girl that’s amazing you’re going to school. This is a great decision. I went to college out of high school then stopped after a year then went back at age 24 and finished at 26 almost 27 and I was 8 months pregnant at graduation! Long story short I wanted to keep pushing myself so I went back again at age 30 for a masters and again at 33 for a PhD and now I’m graduating for the final time at age 37 with 2 kids. Point is that There are no rules and I think it’s smart and brave that you’re doing this! You’re going to feel a tremendous amount of pride and confidence when you realize what you’re capable of. No one will blink twice at your age, nor will they even know and who cares anyways. This is your life and you’re in the drivers seat! No one will ever be able to take away your education. Best of luck!
How you describe your feelings is the most articulate explanation of what depression feels like for a lot of people. What you're feeling, "waiting for your life to start" sort of equates to a quarter life crisis. Its normal. Reevaluating what your needs really are and what you find fulfilling helps but it's a struggle getting there. Good luck on this chapter in your life and thank you for putting into words what so many people feel.
Blair...the moment you said "I am waiting for my life to start", that hit me so hard and I'm like sitting here tearing up. I understand this SO much. Thank YOU for sharing your story. This feeling is sometimes SO hard to pinpoint, its like you're constantly falling into a hole but you've been falling for so long you've kind of forgotten that you were falling. I have been watching you for literally God knows how long and this video hits home. You are so strong, I am so proud of you for making the best decision for yourself! I am wishing you all the best in life.
I think this might be the most important video you’ve made. You’ve touched on so many issues that a young woman goes through on her journey- waiting on a relationship milestone to be happy, facing depression, career decisions. I know so many of us can relate to the emotional up and downs you’ve described in this video. Cheers to you on taking this brave step and wishing you all the success and happiness!
Blair, this is the most incredible video you have ever produced. Rest assured that we all go through these really tough years, especially in our twenties - I went through a similar thing a couple of years ago and thought it would never end. Your life will turn into something beautiful even if it’s not the picture you have in your mind.
Blair, I went back to school at 26 right after my boyfriend of 4 years decided to end his life. I feel the same way, I thought the babies, the wedding and house were right around the corner and when this happened it brought my whole life to a halt. Fast forward 3 years, I'm about to graduate, I met a man and we got married in November! I couldn't imagine any of this 3 years ago to be quite honest. Stay strong!
Yey for taking us along! Thank you so much for your honesty. I'm 32, on my second year of university. I believe we are all being called to find our truest deepest truth and center. I see this in you as well. You are so strong, so blessed with light, it is lovely! I hope you find a pace and a gentle way with yourself, not being too hard on yourself for the unclarity. We shift and change and grow all the time and having gone through many stints of depression, anxiety and eating disorders myself, I have found that the only thing we really can do, is be present in this very moment. That is really all we can do to live our best life. Be here now. It´s okay to be confused. It´s okay to not know what you want. Our culture is so obsessed with being productive, always moving forward, always having a clear status. That is not sustainable. You are enough just as you are. I have been following along since the beginning and am so happy to hear from you again. I am so excited for your new situation and would love to see more! Take care, best of luck, thanks you so much for sharing!
I think we've been conditioned to think that by mid to late 20s we got everything in our lives together, a stable career, planning a wedding, kids etc. I feel like I grew up watching you and Elle. Truth is, we never really stop growing up, changing and making goals. I've been there too asking myself "now what?". But Blair, one thing i learned from watching you for yeaaaaars, is that you have always been strong and determined regardless of what life throws at you. So Get it girl! I too went back for a second course in college at 26, (had to stop coz of health issues) But i loved it! and again its okay that my plans changed too. so enjoy the present & live in the moment. Let the future & the universe surprise you. cheers to a new chapter
Blair, this is the most honest video you have made, ever. You do not sound ungrateful or entitled, not in this video at all. I feel like this year really made you grow up. The quarter life crisis is a real thing, and I think college, even if it's a few classes or an associate's degree will indeed enrich you in many ways. By the way, whatever you chose to do: 1) don't rely on relationships for your happiness 2) whatever you do, don't wait for it to be perfect, just be consistent and stick to it. By just doing, not overthinking, just doing, you will surely find your path. Good luck xx
The MOST honest and refreshing video I've seen on TH-cam. You're not negating your success, Beautiful Woman, you're stripping down and changing course. Many aren't this strong. Kudos.
This is the most mature video I’ve seen on TH-cam in a long time. Good for you for not giving in to the new culture here. Best of luck in school!!
I think it's really interesting that you posted this video. As someone who has seen you since the very beginning of your youtube career and knowing how people looked up to you for having it all figured out, it's kind of incredible that all these years down the line you're sitting down and admitting that you don't have it all figured out and doing something about it at your age like going back to school is a really important thing.
Blair I’ve subbed since 2009 but I haven’t been watching your videos since around 2013... and here I am in 2019, falling in love with you again. This is the most real, heartfelt and emotional video that I’ve seen from you. Really hope good things will happen for you.
Watching this after you got married ❤️ so proud of you and your journey. Thank you for sharing it all with us over the years!
Girl, it’s not the channel that I subscribed to, it was YOU. You’ve always proven to be such a strong person regardless of what this world throws at you and it’s so inspiring watching you learn and grow. You’re going to do great things in this world Blair Fowler and I, along with many of your other supporters, are here cheering you on and wishing you so much luck on this new journey. You’ve got this!
When I found you, I was 14, in 2009. I was very depressed because of very traumatic family issues going on that still affect me. The way I would cope with it was by rearranging my small bedroom at super late hours because I had bad insomnia. I would look up bedroom tours at 3 AM on school nights from girls who were around my age and your 2009 bedroom tour was the first one I ever watched.
Being depressed you don’t always have the desire or energy to clean or take care of yourself, at least that’s how I get. It was incredibly hard to see the point in any of it. Your super early room tours helped me tremendously giving me ideas, pulling me out of negative thoughts with your bubbly personality. I just now today came back to find your channel/see how you’re doing 10 years later, and you’re once again motivating me in a much different way. I ended up dropping out of highsxhool in 2010 and had not been back to school since then. I get down thinking I’m 24 and haven’t done one college course I’m pathetic. But you’re proving those negative thoughts of mine wrong. showing me that there are other people of all ages, successful or not, that still haven’t done college. You and I are completely different people, I’m not girly or feminine in the slightest, but somehow from a distance you’ve taught me a lot about how strong I really am. I’m not even a fan of yours or anything like that to be completely honest, you’ve just helped, and that is extremely powerful. I wish nothing but the best for you on your new journey through life, you deserve everything good that comes to you
I can so see Blair being a pediatric nurse/doctor being that she has that motherly nature all ready
You are never alone
The nice thing about going to college after you’re financially stable is that you can cut down your stress and focus on having a rich educational experience. Best of luck!
This is one of the most authentic and genuine videos on TH-cam and I really appreciate you being so candid and opening up for everyone to see. This is inspiring and sending nothing but positivity on your new journey.
This was REALLY relatable - I had a similar epiphany around 6 years ago at 25. I have to say, once you stop living for that next big moment (as you stated) and find your purpose/passion/just live life FOR YOURSELF on your OWN terms, things are such more fulfilling. It's quite liberating, actually. I wish you all the best!!
I can tell a big difference in this video versus your other videos. You have definitely matured a lot and you sound very mature! I can see your sense of humor and authenticity shining through in this video. We are rooting for you in your next life chapter!
The return of not only the JoBros but also JuicyStar07 has to be a sign that all of us late 90s/early 2000s kids are about to start thriving again.
This video help me realize that I’m not the only one going through a rut! Thank you for talking about this topic. The beginning of the year has been rough for me, and I too have struggled through depression. So thank you for this video!
I hate when people say ‘other people have it worse’. Honesty that’s like saying you can’t be happy because others have it better. You do you, Blair..... you’re far from having peaked and this is unfortunately a normal thing and I feel like I went through the same thing....all I can say is that it will get better and you will one day be glad this happened. Sending hearts. Xo
You’re still young. I didn’t have my 1st child until 34 yrs old and just recently had my 2nd child at 37yrs old. You will find your person and still have your baby. Good luck!
This is like an old school Blair video! In Elle’s room with her shouting side comments! Love it lol. Go out there and find your passion girl! Clearly, I’ve been watching from the beginning and you deserve to find that success and happiness again! 💗💗💗
Aw honey - I'm much older than you but I could really relate to you and what is going on with you. When I was 23 years old my boyfriend/fiance and I broke up and it devastated me. I had my whole life planned out and that included marrying him and having babies and being a stay at home mom. That all changed. I ended up going to college when I turned 30 and got my BA and my masters degrees and life all worked out just fine. But the bottom line is that when people make plans God giggles. We smart beautiful loving women think we can plan everything out but we just can't. I know everything is going to be great for you. You have a loving family and a huge support group. Put your faith and life into God's hands. Best of luck to you and praying for little Teddy Dog. xoxo Wendy
But when she started talking about finding her person, and only working until getting married and that is when her real life will start. That, I about started crying, I related to that so much. In a way i still do. I recently had a breakup with my bf who I perceived as my person, and after that I still find myself not knowing what to do or who I am. What is next? I've thought about going back to college as well. It's just all so difficult, but I get her
Wow girl you did an amazing job explaining what you went through with that breakup. I can so relate so it was almost therapeutic hearing it from your experience. Thank you for sharing such a tough thing.. it really does help with my own struggle after a break up knowing you’re not alone and you can get through it. God bless!
In Israel it's very unusual to go college at 18. it's more around 22. I started my law degree at 27. you bring something ells at that age. it's a different look on life. it's all for the better! good luck on your new journey! so happy for you!
I really miss the old youtube I'm SO nostalgic for the Tag videos, the collection videos, the unpolished late 2000's vibe. I think the world and youtube within has changed really quickly away from all the people I watched, it's so fascinating that there is such a theme of you tubers from your generation and popularity who are like navigating the youtube space in 2019. I'm back watching, good luck with university xx
Do yall remember years and years ago when Elle and Blair would refuse to say the state they lived in and everyone would guess constantly? Good times. I haven't watched you two in a long time but I'm glad you both are still doing great things.
I met my sweetheart at 34. Kids at 36 and 38. Age shmage.
If only there wasn’t the added risk of developmental delays in children when we have kids after 35:/. I feel like I’d wait til 45 if there was no added risk
Been there! 5 years relationship. 4 years engagement. He came home and abruptly he said he didn’t want to be with me anymore. I thought I would live happily ever after with this man. But he didn’t want it anymore. Come to find out he wanted to be with someone else. So yeah I relate. Good for you for moving on. I have and now I’m with a guy that truly makes me happy.
What you said about waiting for your life to start. Is SO RELATABLE! your not alone!
I enrolled in college at 26 too, and im on my last year. I graduate this yr! Its totally okay!! Ive been watching you for 10 yrs, you saying going to college at 26 makes me feel better about myself. I actually had kids before going back to college, i feel like i did everything backards, and always felt bad about my life. So you, waiting on kids and waiting for that special person is admirable. I think you going to college is a good choice, get your mind off of things, you could discover other passions, pick up other hobbies, meet new people, new friends. Ive met awesome ppl and you get involved with other communities withing your new career, i think it a great idea!
I totallly understand you feeling lost. I think what you can do right now is find peace within yourself, in your mind and heart.
You got this.
Take your time, youre young and beautifull.
Everything happens in divine timing xo :)
I know how you feel... I did the college thing, I studied hard, graduated early, and then went downhill. What I thought I wanted to do didn’t feel right. I didn’t get experience while I was enrolled in college and I feel completely lost. My biggest downfall is being too scared and too unsure of my abilities. I’m still working the retail job that I had during college and they want me to move up in the company. But I absolutely loathe the place and don’t know where to go. I am no where near the place I thought I would be in at age 24. And that’s the hardest part.
I watched this on 2X speed so I could finish this quick, but this is my first time ever commenting on a video of yours in the 10 years watching you. I am so proud of you and think you’re doing what’s best for you!!! I have definitely related to that “not really sad about losing the person themselves, but the idea of my future life I wanted”. Also, I hope that aside from just going to college, you look into going to therapy, if you’re not already!!! Best of luck girl!
i'd bet on it that blair is gonna start a whole revolution of adult youtubers going back to college
I'm graduating in May, at the age of 42, with a double major. It's never too late!
Dude.... I felt this hard!!! I had a super hard breakup last June, I felt my life was over and lost the whole plan I had and that’s truly the hardest part. I had no drive, no passion. I spent the last year in college and just finished getting my license in dental assisting and met some amazing new friends for life, found some passion, got a dream job at an amazing clinic, and still have so much life ahead of me! You’re gonna love college! I still may go back to actually become a dentist!!! I found what I like and have no doubt you will to! You will absolutely find yourself, you have your whole life to work so just enjoy the journey and don’t stress!
You deserve someone who talks about you the way you talk about Teddy
Vlogging your way through your new life would be so interesting to see!
So weird I'm an OG subscriber for maybe 10 years and randomly saw this video. When Blair started on TH-cam she was part of the OG youtube elite like Panacea81, Leesha, lolipop26 etc back when this industry was pure and real si thus is nostalgia. I miss those youtube days.
“By bigger I mean BIGGERRRR” haha
You are such an inspiration, you are taking your life and molding it to what you need it to be instead of just sitting there waiting for something to happen. So excited to be here and watch your journey ❤️
I am 36 and I was just like you said, always wanted to be a mom ever since I was a little girl. I had a master degree from a very good school but I thought being a staying home mom was my ultimate career. At the age of 28, I met a man who I thought could be a father of my child and a person I spend the rest of my life with. 7 years later, I found out it was not the life I wanted at all, him and I had no commonalities and no passion for each other. I was too waiting for my life to start when I got married. Now, I have a girl who is 5 and I am going through a divorce. However, in a very weird way, I feel like this is the first time I am actually living my life and I am in control of my life. Life is funny but sometimes you need stumble a little to find what you actually want.
They call that the 7 year itch!
I’m 29. I started watching 10 yrs ago. I relate to this on a crazy level. Rooting for you♥️
At 26 is the first time I really experienced depression as well. After a breakup. I had to go get lost for a while before things also started to look up when I went back to school, found love again, and realized how strong I am. I’ve carried those two years (during which time my dog died too). Fast forward and even though that love didn’t last, it brought me back. Even though it took 5 years, I now have a new puppy to love. Now I have a real love that feels like the fit I needed. I don’t think you’re waiting for your life to start if you also feel like you’ve already lived a full life. It just seems like you’re aware enough to know that the purest happiest will come with having your family. Good luck, Blair! I hope you come back with an update from time to time. :) (p.s. you were the only beauty blogger I watched, haha)
I think you should shift your TH-cam to an adult vlogging in college and starting over channel. I haven’t been subbed to you for over five years, but I resubbed because I’m excited to see what you are going to do with this channel.
PLEASE do college vlogs! It’ll be so helpful for people who go to college later 🤓 the change on your channel would be so fun!
When you said that you feel like you are waiting for your life to start, I connected with that so much. That is how I have always felt, since I was young. I have always felt like I was just going through the motions, making it through, until I get married and have children. Which does sound crazy lol. And I was just so glad to hear another person say that.
Blair this is so relatable, I felt the same way with my life when I was dating my abusive ex-fiancé, I was literally waiting for my life to start with him. Now dating my current boyfriend, I no longer feel that way, I’ve focused so much on me and my career and school and life and he focuses on his things, he and I focus on ourselves and we still plan a future of babies together, but there’s nothing in between us that causes us to expect more or less of each other and when we argue we come up with solutions and we’re fighting for each other not against each other. You’ll find your person, and you find your purpose, you just need to keep striving and keep dreaming.
I've been a subscriber since the days of your pink bedroom at your parent's house... This has to be the realist video I have ever seen you make. Good for you and I support you!
YOU GOT THIS GIRL!!!!!
Idk why, I can see you as a nurse. You should look into those kind of classes. Love you, girl! Good luck on this journey ☺️.
Wow, this makes you come across really... relatable. If I had accomplished so much early in my life, I'd probably be experiencing all of the same insecurities. You came from a high level of privilege and success at an early age, so unless that level of success is maintained or surpassed as you move forward in life, disappointment is inevitable. Like a reality check (not to sound rude, we all have reality checks, right). I don't want you to get your hopes up and think that college is the end-all-be-all answer to unlocking a magical future... it could be good for your worldview and gaining skills, but you have a solid resume already that probably surpasses the face-value of a degree. College is certainly a good path to take to occupy and challenge yourself, to get yourself on track if you are going through depression and need a sense of direction. It would be good for you. Anyway, I appreciate this video, it makes you seem VERY normal and relatable. Good luck!!!
I'm 32, married 8 years and counting, 3 kids. My brother passed away 5 years ago and it completely broke me. We live with my parents, I have no job, and I have no idea what my future holds. I feel like I'm nothing. I have to start over at some point, but I haven't healed since that happened. Many hugs and wishes to you.
Oh my darling Irma. You are something. You are a wonderful mother and a daughter. So terribly sorry for your tragic loss. I can only imagine the depth of your sorrow. I'd feel like a half a person. Dont be sad. He wouldn't want that 💗 grief is so hard... just keep swimming 🐠
Honey, I’m so happy for you, not only to have come so far since this video, but to have been so introspective and honest in this video. You are an impressive young woman!
LOVE how honest you were in this video. Meant everything and I have so much respect for you. Thank you for sharing💛
queens are back taking over youtube! i love this, i am here for it, i am supporting it!
I think it would be very cool if you did a monthly update. About how college is, how Nashville is, how your life is going.
I experienced the same thing around 24-25 years old. It was a really hard year for me, and I didn't feel like doing anything nor do I know what I want to do with my life. Quarter life crisis is hard! Things will get better, Blair! I always tell myself "I'll be okay. This, too, shall past." You don't see it now, but things will become clearer and you'll become stronger :)
Maybe Teddy is hanging on because he knows you need him right now. I really feel like animals have that special sense about them they can tell when their humans are unhappy 💚
So proud of you Blair. Ive been watching you since I was 10 years old, here I am turning 20 and its amazing that you are going through the same thing I am. Good luck with University, its tough but I am glad you are trying to find your purpose. Also, sending my prayers to Teddy :(
THIS is the channel we all subscribed to!! before u were a fulltime youtuber in la. im so so happy for you and cant wait to see you grow!!!
My dear, you have put a lot of pressure on yourself! 26 is so young and you don’t have to know what your future holds! Just find a way to enjoy your journey! Teddy is teaching you a lot! The doctors gave up on him but he’s still here enjoying his time with you! Just wake up every day and see where it takes you!! Enjoy the ride💕
I'm proud of you Blair. As a long time subscriber, I'm just proud of you, for being real and open.. For showing the not so pretty side of life... When you're least expecting it, he's gonna come in your life and you not gonna imagine life without him.. But being good with yourself first is most important! You can't pour from an empty cup. Take care of your dreams
im having goosebumps right now 😳 i went to your channel bc of michelle phan and now hearing you speak made me remind of my teenage years. i can literally hear you showing the candles you bought in bath&body works or your christmas vlogs and it makes me emotional bc i just miss those days when youtube wasn't all about the tea and drama :( now im subscribed again!! im crying i miss those days man 😭
Same! Isnt it crazy?
Demi Bishop I remember back then the biggest scandals were rumors of plastic surgery and adsense!
@@dreamwishergirl lol i agree!! it was so funny if you look back now haha
I more or less watched your videos for ten years. This is the most honest and down to earth video I have seen on your channel and on most of the TH-cam platform for so long.
Totally get the fellings you had at this stage of your life. This is so nice and inspiring to see you invest this energy on something positive.
I am at a simiral stage of my life and going back to college too, and I really appriciated that you have put words on this.
Wishing you all the best for this new chapter.
Oh Blair, I have been watching you since your lime green room back in Tennessee. It is such a full circle moment for me listening to your honesty and your story. It is SO relatable and I applaud you for your transparency. I grew up in Nashville, went to college in Alabama, and moved back to Nashville last year. It is such a special place. I hope you love it as much as I do. It is such a great place for growth, experience, true and meaningful people, and of course, music. I went to college and I still struggle with what I am doing with my life now. I know that it will all work out in the end. For you too! Best of luck with this new chapter. I am so excited to start watching your videos again. It really does feel like I grew up with you. xo
10 years with you! im 28 now Ive discovered make up from your videos. thank you for being so honest! im so excited for you!
Presenting your authentic self to the internet isn't easy, but I love that you have done it.
Seriously, if I could make a video about my life... this would be it. Depression, break up, waiting for your life to start... you’re not alone beautiful girl! You’re living your best and greatest life and you’re doing a great job❤️
Awe Blaire this is AWESOME! I'm 25 and decided to start school last year. I've been taking general ed courses at Nashville State for the past year and I'm transferring to Belmont this summer for Music Therapy! My boyfriend and many of my friends went to Belmont and absolutely loved it. Hope to see you around campus! Best of luck to you and your journey :)
Jonas brothers are back, Fowler sisters are back!!!👯♀️🥰💕
You can totally open up your channel to a larger audience, and a younger audience! Your style and organization will be so helpful for college students, even if you're older than them (actually especially because you're older than them). Going to college will open up opportunities for your "real" life, but also for your channel. I can't wait for your new chapter!!!!
So agree with this!!!!!
Best video you've made, ever. So self-reflective, so honest, so raw, so real. I wish you nothing but the best, I think you're well on your way to finding your path again!
This is ridiculously relatable to me !! The mom thing, the breakup, the career sort of ending/ changing and not knowing what to do ... maybe I should take some classes. Thank you for sharing