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I have news for you.. :( I thought teenage years would be great.. I thought young adult years would be great.. well.. it’s not turning out that way. It’s getting worse 😔 day by day. You feel trapped, no way out. I just don’t see a reason to carry on. I feel like my life is not my own.
Feel you. I had the same thing, every day got darker and darker and I never thought that it will get better. But believe me, it will get better. You will get through this, no matter how awful it is at the moment. (I came here, because I was looking at videos that I had watched at that time.)
I can relate to well but I am scared so scared to tell an adult because i don't know what will happen to me.. I go through so much I ve had so many breakdowns
I've be depressed to the point where the pain has been hurting do much im so used to the pain every single day of my life where I've become numb to it and it hurts because it's always every body else around me and im the only odd one out that can't find happiness and everything and everyone hates me im always bullied constantly cyber bullied but do people care no and I don't know what im still fighting for cause the only reason I still live and breathe is because I care to much about other people because the way I feel about myself would hurt them and self love hasn't come first, second or even ever for me
Courtney Simon thank you for shareing bc i couldn’t described it better... Just know if you’ll ever gonna see this that we’ll get through this together ALL OF US WHO ARE HURTING.❤️
"They ask you express your feelings but they don't mean your real feelings,they mean the ones they want to hear" It's painful how relatable this is...I'm just hopless.Why the fuck do I have to live anymore ? I just wanna end it all.
There are people, who wanna know your real feelings, maybe you haven't meet them yet or maybe they're already there but you don't know, that they wanna know them. There is always someone who wants to hear what you have to say. You can even speak with me if you want to...I'm all ears.
Why do people think it's ok to make others feel worthless for their own benefit. Why the fuck do they break your heart over and over again until you become numb to it. Until you are so used to it that you just..... Break.
im having a conversation with my psychiatrist in a few minutes and im thinking about letting him hear this. because it's just how im feeling right now. It's so hard everything is so hard and everything hurts so much..
Depending on age I don’t tell therapists or psychiatrists anything about my depression or anything because any time I do I get kicked out of wherever I am I get calls about a hospital and getting taken away from my family which is all that really makes me have any sliver of happiness and any time I mention my depression I have to fight to keep all I have left so I vowed myself I’m never opening up I’m not talking because if I got taken from my family I wouldn’t have anything left emotionally and there would be no point be careful what you say to your psychiatrist
a day will come when you will feel so much, almost too much that afterwards you will not feel anything anymore because you have felt too much before. Nothing hurts anymore and it sounds amazing but believe me you don't want this. I watch videos like this every night with the hope that I will feel something, anything, even if it is just one tear. But I don't feel it anymore and no matter how crazy it sounds, I would do anything to get that feeling back. So don't say you want to stop feeling because you will regret it. I speak from experience, and it's anything but great.
I only feel emptiness I can cry but it like even my tears are empty there’s nothing left in me every I lost. I just want to know when did I lost myself
I remember feeling alone in a room full of people who love and care about me. I remember crying myself to sleep and staying up until 2 am every night crying just because of life. I remember as a young child being woken up in the middle of the night by a nightmare of people that I love dying. I remember suffering everyday and telling people I’m fine. I remember everything but I don’t remember living.
that was deep... but really true. I also suffer from depression. and I know exactly how it feels and what those people were saying on that video, explained many things that I couldn't put into words. that I couldn't speak. that I couldn't tell a soul. so thank u.
When people cry it doesn’t make them weak. It shows that even the strongest people care and have emotional brake downs. It make them a stronger person because it’s like a glass of water if you hold it for a while it starts to hurt if you hold it for a day your arm will feel like it’s going to fall off but guess what put the glass of water down just like putting your stress down when you put the glass of water down you put down fear, stress, anger,sadness,tears and everything that hurts.
32 years old and I can’t stop feeling this pain. I try so hard and it seems like everything I work towards ends up being for nothing. I’m trying to provide for my wife and children and it seems like it will never be enough. Not through them, but through life in general. It’s always one step forward with a smile as I slide down 5 steps….
This never stops to help me cry. Sometimes I need to let it go, because I keep the pain inside and when I can't release it and it hurts the most I come here. To let myself feel. Sometimes when I can't feel anything at all this helps me feel and let it go.
The worst pain for anyone to feel is that knowing you could of helped and saved someone you loved but you didn't because you were scared how they would react so all you did was just stand there and do nothing
One day I got a call that my Aunty killed herself She had three children... I spent the night with them. The youngest one was only 5 yrs old, the oldest was 8, the other one was only 6. It broke my heart having to explain that their mummy was never coming back. I had to tell my little cousins that she was gone forever. When she died I was only 16, apart of me will be missing forever. I went through a lot of abuse as a child but no matter what my beautiful Aunty was always there for me. No matter how many times I pushed her away she always came back... I miss you Penny 1985-2014
Maybe someday... everything is gonna be okay...and maybe someday the dark sky will turn onto a sunny sky...but maybe this day...we all gonna be down already
I’ve tried letting go but I can’t. It doesn’t matter what I do. Nothing takes the pain away. I pray for the right thing. It’s the most selfless thing you could ask. Not for God to put this person in my path again. But to remove everything that it’s in my heart.
The seconds i spent crying my life away i felt happy knowing i won't have to hurt anyone i felt alone and this pain building inside made me cry so much I haven't cried in years and now I want nothing I just want to be alone my words doesn't matter to know one not even to myself because I am the pain to my hole life a life I don't want to live or have death has become my friend
does anyone just feel like they are sinking in quicksand? like there is no way out. u can try so hard and get no where. just keep falling back down into your depression. idk i just want to know if i'm alone someone like ig
Pain is sth really extremely good. It gets us to think about the fact of leaving this world. We always get hurt cause we’re so emotional. You know sth readers, someday each and everything will end. We’re gonna leave this world happily. Happily cause of leaving each and every pain behind us. Ending our lives with our own hands is sth not good for those who believe in god. So let’s just wait and the pain inside of us will do the job for us. Someday we’ll leave this universe that it kept hurting us daily. Pain would the job. It’s lovely to see people weeping at our grave. L It’s lovely to have the feeling of they at least care. Thanks for reading this misery. Thanks for having great feelings. Thanks for not fitting in. Thanks for being that special. Wish ya all all the best.
I know a lot of people will miss my comment. Its just i feel like i cant do it anymore, i got through tons of thing, i loved people, i learned how to play piano, i teached strangers how to be kind, i learned how to hide my feelings, my anger, my sadnes i showed everyone my fake love, fake face, fake smile, my-my fake talented side, but i cant do it anymore. I just need the pain to be gone, i dont need future, i need now i need to be happy now, i need to be okay, i hate everyone that is happy, i am jelly of them, i hate people that can breathe like a normal person, that can break hearts without pain, i hate people dont need to cry, dont have secrets, got parents, i hate everyone that says "i understand" well you dont so stop saying that already. I feel scared please help me if any of you can help me please i-i need help i beg you please..
@Valor Thank you so much it made my life love you it is so good to know there is still people like you. Keep your beautiful head up angel that saved my life ♡
I too wanna die every single moment... Bcz I lost the only thing that mattered to me.... I can never be happy again... Ever.... I just want to quit.. I really try to fight every single day..but i don't seem to find a point in going through all of this.. It hurts so bad that i can't actually breath
@@Kdramaticlove I hope you will get a better life with things you want to have people you want to have. I understand you i lost my father too he cheated on my mom insulted her and bullied me and my family (includes my mok and brother) but sometimes the ones you love can do awful things to you they can change into the ones you fear. If you wanna talk about my instagram is @ilkeclk_ you can dm me Lizzie we can talk about things. Hope you replay me angel ♡
Sitting here in the parking lot listening to this, watching people walk by, staring at the sun rays in the clouds, 49 years old and nothing to truly show for my life, I feel used, useless I want peace, not to feel physical pain anymore, no more obligations or high expectations of me. I can't do it anymore, I am tired, tired of giving and giving and working at my dead job and noone caring
I understand that you guys must be going through some shit but trust me you don't want to be numb. There was a time when, for my own reasons, I just wasn't at the best mental state. I cried myself to sleep every night and every morning had to act like everything was right in the world. I was sick of crying and I just kept wishing that I could just feel nothing. Be free of emotions. And one day my wish became reality. I was numb. Not completely but close enough to feel the void, the hole inside of me. That must of have been one of the scariest days of my life. Next morning I woke up feeling again. After that I was determined to make myself feel better and after less that a year even my friends have realised that I am better and I am getting better every second of the day. Because I knew that if I had let myself go into that void I wouldn't be able to find a way out. So, the morale of the story is: be careful what you wish for.. (I hope I helped)
Too late. I used to cry myself to sleep, wake up every morning go to school, and do it all over again. I'm numb. And holy crap this is scary. I'm glad you got through it. I hope I can do the same.
@@judyandrade1927 Just know that I am here for you and i bet so are your friends. Know you can ask for help if not from your parents from your friends. You are strong. You can and you will get through this ♡
I know I'm only a 13 year old girl but I can't take it anymore because I'm weak , I'm scared , I'm broken inside but I only show it when I'm alone I cry day to night and most of the pain ,my brother gives me that pain I can't breathe when I feel that pain thats why I want to give up.
My grandma asked why someone would ever feel the need to hurt themself (self-harm) and I told her sometimes people become so numb they become desperate to feel anything at all
If there is no tomorrow than there is no hope as the sun dies the clouds burn as they feel the end of times at least someone will always remember you and will never forget about you look up and see that your God won’t forget about you even if you close your eyes or go to sleep he won’t forget about you
I just want someone to be there and say "im here for you, no matter if you fight me, push me away, im here"...but no. They leave you with disgust and disappointment knowing your just wasting everyone's time with your sadness and negativity. But thats all i ever known...thats all I've ever been shown...
Why would you be sad when you have the ability to be happy?? F the world f the people who broke your heart f the people who let you down, this life have a lot of good things you just need to see it❤️
Just a happy reminder: no one cares about your feelings, unless you are a pretty girl or beautiful woman. No one ever really cared and no one will ever care. It is okay to go. Why do you think that your death will make somebody sad? Rather think that you living and suffering makes this person feel better, than letting you go and having relief. Care about yourself, not about others.
“You must be upset. Are you upset? No. Yes you are upset” This hits be bad. I’ve had a teacher tell me that my smile makes them smile and i almost started crying 😭💔
Every time I try I end up having these episodes where I randomly cry and I don’t know why,it doesn’t matter if I’m looking at these audios,I’m attached to a character but all I know is that that character WOULD NEVER BE WITH ME OR SOMEONE LIKE ME
Nothing is physically or mentally wrong with me I'm healthy, and I have a perfect life.... The only problem is that I can't love. I can't put my trust in someone, or all my love in someone without the fear of getting hurt in the end. I did it once on a boy and boy I loved, he broke my heart. I've been coping with it for 3 years, and I still can't heal. He is the one who made me this way, and I was so young...
@S K I'm so sorry you went through that. You will find somoene that was meant for you. Most of us have soulmates in the world rn that are THE person for us. The one we were supposed to marry, the one we are meant to find. I personally dont think there Is anyone out there for me but idc
I believe that there is hope for everyone of us, because there is a God who loves us and wants to take our pain away! because only He can do this! He loves us, we just can give him everything and he will show us, what it means to truly live!
Just gone through the comments and seen everyone who wasnt cried for a period cried after watching this .....I also wanted to cry by watching this but still havent got a drop from my eyes. I think i have lost my emotions already ...........
Most relatable lines: (in my opinion) "Part of me just wants to *end it.* " "It hurts so bad i cant breath." "They want you to smile and say: "yeah im fine, -everythings great- " "your so concerned with getting through today without a hint of how'd you feel tomorrow..and then i relized, *you dont want to feel tomorrow* ." " *i feel hopeless* ..,depressed, angry...but most of all..im *SCARED* ." "I feel...okay? *AND IT SUCKS* " "I dont have feelings" " *YOU'LL BE FINE! BUT WHAT ABOUT ME?!* " "I feel like im gonna die."
i should be fine. there’s no reason for me to be this fucked up. i’m so fucking privileged and i have a loving family and perfect friends that i love more than anything. i just don’t see a point anymore. i’ve tried everything but i’m not living for myself anymore. i’m only living for the people i love. it’s so fucking hard though. i don’t want to do this for the rest of my life. just fucking end it.
I'll leave a comment because I know none of my irl or online friends would see this... Feeling sad, depressed, and anxiety at such a young age is horrible. But people keep saying "Keep your head up! it'll go away soon!" "Get some rest, you've been drawing a lot" just makes me feel more hollow, drawing is my only way to make me happy or at least slightly better. Faking my happiness, is the closest thing to being happy to me. Them not knowing that I am *always* sad is the best feeling ever! I'm just typing this so that none of my Discord friends would know. Because.... They're all always happy without me.
I see you, I hear you, so don’t ever stop talking about what you feel.. reach for help because you deserve to be happy.. You deserve to live. You deserve to be loved. And you’re not alone with all this, we feel the same.. But it all can be changed, so don’t give up on hope.
I only eat 1 or 2 meals a day now. Im always hungry but I lie and say i already ate and I’m full :) my stomach is always hurting my eyes are always burning, my whole body is numb I don’t have an ed but I just hate eating, I do eat yes but I don’t like eating it’s to the point where I wake up and check how big/flat my stomach is, I hate my body sm, I cry myself to sleep wishing I was d3ad, skinny, and much prettier
Some guys don't wanna feel things but I would give everything just to feel something and I don't mean something like pain when your cutting yourself I mean something like happiness oder even sadness
I wanted to send this to my family and friends.. but I don't think my family would care... Because the last time I tried explaining to them I can't stand being here on earth. and there's nothing here that I wanna stay. the Hallucinations are killing me. I go to therapy/counseling every two weeks. and she is the best person to speak to. and I finally found someone who could help me. I won't say the rest. but honestly, it's hard to tell people abt your hallucinations depression anxiety and what you're dealing with every day... and how school doing... and I wish I had my friends in my classes bc if I did I wouldn't feel so alone. I hate it.. it makes me feel bad bc I lied to people and whenever i keep lying abt what I'm dealing with it kills me inside. I found out on Wednesday my "Crush" got with my best friend. and after I found out it crushed me. I don't know what to feel.. other than cry alone.. or act like I'm okay. but then today i found out they broke up and my best friend message me and said "Hey, me and he broke up. and I hope your happy. and you can have him now..." but i don't want him after he played me... tbh. Every day i just wanna end it. and stop this...
I'm tired, need sleep, I can no longer understand people and no longer want to. I've lost everything my positions and contact with my kids and family and I no longer care. Life is for those who want to live.
I just sit here in the dark at 2AM watching sad things wanting to let out all the pain I've been building up for 3 years.. But I can't feel nothing so I just sit here numb and just starting.. 💔 I feel sad.. erged - I'm 2 days clean trying to make it a week but I feel so sick and upset and ugly.. and everything negative :(
I'm hungry but can't eat I'm dirty yet I can't clean I'm sad yet I can't frown I'm numb but I cry I'm scared but I smile I'm dead yet I'm alive I know im wrong yet I know I'm right I can't breathe yet im alive I fight but I break
I'm in no way trying to force this on you. I'm just showing you something that seems to be helping me as well The disciples left to follow Jesus in two ways: instantly and completely. They didn’t hesitate in their decision. They didn’t take anything (from their past ) with them Reflect When you think of how the disciples responded to Jesus’s call to follow Him, what do you feel? Do you feel overwhelmed or inspired at the thought of fully surrendering your life to Jesus? Matthew 4:19 AMP And He said to them, “ Follow Me [as My disciples, accepting Me as your Master and Teacher and walking the same path of life that I walk], and I will make you fishers of men.” Matthew 16:24-25 AMP Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone wishes to follow Me [as My disciple], he must deny himself [set aside selfish interests], and take up his cross [expressing a willingness to endure whatever may come] and follow Me [believing in Me, conforming to My example in living and, if need be, suffering or perhaps dying because of faith in Me]. For whoever wishes to save his life [in this world] will [eventually] lose it [through death], but whoever loses his life [in this world] for My sake will find it [that is, life with Me for all eternity]. SURENDER When we surrender to Jesus, we have the ability to agree to forego in favor of His purpose. We get to choose to be a part of His eternal game plan. Jeremiah 29:11 says that His plans are not harmful, but are good, bring hope, and a bright future. Our full surrender to Jesus usually boils down to one question: How much will be required of me? And the answer is simple. Everything. Surrendering to Jesus means setting aside our selfish appetites and allowing Him to live through us. It’s choosing to trust His faultless plan even when we can’t make sense of it. Yes, trouble will still find its way to our doorstep. Burdens will still leap onto our shoulders. Hardship will still stumble in front of us. But through it all, we get... His peace that’s impenetrable. His joy that’s indescribable. His freedom that’s unexplainable. His love that’s outrageous. His mercy that’s generous. His grace that’s undeserving. His presence that’s soothing. His wisdom that’s reassuring. All because we trusted in the plan of the God of the universe instead of our own.
@Jamie Forman I got kicked out of school because I couldn't learn so I became the class clown, it hurts to not be able to start again, we got eachothers back ❤
“it hurts so bad I can’t breathe” actual words I said to my parents when I couldn’t stop having panic attacks and all I wanted to do in that moment was die
Savvas Blackcross me too and for such a long time I thought I was the only one but everytime I hear some of these videos and listen to them and pay attention it almost feels like I'm there like it's me there so exact The Emptiness inside the sorrow without the pain and then when I have a good day it feels wonderful can somebody please help me with this
Maybe if I fall in love with my depression maybe it’ll leave just like everyone else 🙃 for all those people out there sad and lost like me i just wanna say that all you need in life is yourself no one cares other than you believe in yourself and only yourself. others will just let you down...
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They said teenage years were the best, but guess what, they lied.
True
For the majority of people thats the case
I have news for you.. :( I thought teenage years would be great.. I thought young adult years would be great.. well.. it’s not turning out that way. It’s getting worse 😔 day by day. You feel trapped, no way out. I just don’t see a reason to carry on. I feel like my life is not my own.
@@amethystapex i feel u
Feel you. I had the same thing, every day got darker and darker and I never thought that it will get better. But believe me, it will get better. You will get through this, no matter how awful it is at the moment.
(I came here, because I was looking at videos that I had watched at that time.)
i'm always like "yeah, i'm fine. i can smile so i'm ok, right?"
but i'm not ok and i'm fucking dying inside :)
ephort I know that feeling all to well tho I can't tell an adult because I am scared...
I can relate to well but I am scared so scared to tell an adult because i don't know what will happen to me.. I go through so much I ve had so many breakdowns
same :/
Vickytje XDX it sucks because people think I am a happy or that I have Nonthing to be depressed about
Kaitlyn Zearfoss ikr same here tbh. The things i always smile when i'm with friends or family but deep inside i'm broken.
This is recommended to me.. And i frickin cried... I relate so much..
Me too...
"i get it, you'll be ok, you'll be fine, but what about me?" I've never heard any song, or qoute(s) describe how i feel better.
Isabella Lamberty,
Sometimes all you have is yourself. So I'm done waiting for people to help me, I shall heal myself.
Isabella Lamberty agreed..it's sad
It is very sad, but from greys anatomy
"The worst day of loving someone is the day you lose then." ....broke down right there
Idk Idc, Its so hard not to feel sad.
(btw I love your profile pic)
I've be depressed to the point where the pain has been hurting do much im so used to the pain every single day of my life where I've become numb to it and it hurts because it's always every body else around me and im the only odd one out that can't find happiness and everything and everyone hates me im always bullied constantly cyber bullied but do people care no and I don't know what im still fighting for cause the only reason I still live and breathe is because I care to much about other people because the way I feel about myself would hurt them and self love hasn't come first, second or even ever for me
Courtney Simon thank you for shareing bc i couldn’t described it better...
Just know if you’ll ever gonna see this that we’ll get through this together ALL OF US WHO ARE HURTING.❤️
Now how are you? Same shit? Same feelings? Same days? Same people? Same thoughts? 💭 Same thinking? Tell now how are you now? 💫
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"They ask you express your feelings but they don't mean your real feelings,they mean the ones they want to hear"
It's painful how relatable this is...I'm just hopless.Why the fuck do I have to live anymore ? I just wanna end it all.
There are people, who wanna know your real feelings, maybe you haven't meet them yet or maybe they're already there but you don't know, that they wanna know them. There is always someone who wants to hear what you have to say. You can even speak with me if you want to...I'm all ears.
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Sugar is sweet
And so are you
The roses have wilted
Violets are dead
Sugar bowl is empty
My wrists stained red...
Why do people think it's ok to make others feel worthless for their own benefit.
Why the fuck do they break your heart over and over again until you become numb to it.
Until you are so used to it that you just.....
Break.
I honestly used to get hated by myself.... it's just,I'm not good at anything...... I'm just good at being the worst.
@Lina Honey i guess you are right
im having a conversation with my psychiatrist in a few minutes and im thinking about letting him hear this. because it's just how im feeling right now. It's so hard everything is so hard and everything hurts so much..
90's kid Did you let him hear it?
Arkana Veltink no i didn't, i was too nervous to say anything at all. so all i did was crying 😅
Joëlle Vdb are you okay?
Depending on age I don’t tell therapists or psychiatrists anything about my depression or anything because any time I do I get kicked out of wherever I am I get calls about a hospital and getting taken away from my family which is all that really makes me have any sliver of happiness and any time I mention my depression I have to fight to keep all I have left so I vowed myself I’m never opening up I’m not talking because if I got taken from my family I wouldn’t have anything left emotionally and there would be no point be careful what you say to your psychiatrist
RaiiDz FN same 😄
a day will come when you will feel so much, almost too much that afterwards you will not feel anything anymore because you have felt too much before. Nothing hurts anymore and it sounds amazing but believe me you don't want this. I watch videos like this every night with the hope that I will feel something, anything, even if it is just one tear. But I don't feel it anymore and no matter how crazy it sounds, I would do anything to get that feeling back. So don't say you want to stop feeling because you will regret it. I speak from experience, and it's anything but great.
I only feel emptiness I can cry but it like even my tears are empty there’s nothing left in me every I lost. I just want to know when did I lost myself
I overcame this and sometimes I want to come back to the moment when there was nothing
I remember feeling alone in a room full of people who love and care about me. I remember crying myself to sleep and staying up until 2 am every night crying just because of life. I remember as a young child being woken up in the middle of the night by a nightmare of people that I love dying. I remember suffering everyday and telling people I’m fine. I remember everything but I don’t remember living.
Hey how are doing? If you want to talk i am here been through I am stranger. Keep your head up
I just want to disappear n sometime feel like go and never comeback
Hey xan we talk about it ?
Like I wanna die but I'm scared
that was deep... but really true. I also suffer from depression. and I know exactly how it feels and what those people were saying on that video, explained many things that I couldn't put into words. that I couldn't speak. that I couldn't tell a soul. so thank u.
I haven’t cried in years. Watching this, I’m not feeling it. It’s sad but it doesn’t make me cry. I can somewhat relate to this.
Yeah
Oh the supernatural one brought me to tears ❤😣😣
When people cry it doesn’t make them weak. It shows that even the strongest people care and have emotional brake downs. It make them a stronger person because it’s like a glass of water if you hold it for a while it starts to hurt if you hold it for a day your arm will feel like it’s going to fall off but guess what put the glass of water down just like putting your stress down when you put the glass of water down you put down fear, stress, anger,sadness,tears and everything that hurts.
32 years old and I can’t stop feeling this pain. I try so hard and it seems like everything I work towards ends up being for nothing. I’m trying to provide for my wife and children and it seems like it will never be enough. Not through them, but through life in general. It’s always one step forward with a smile as I slide down 5 steps….
I can I feel this all the time it goes through my mind daily and it gets worse
"It hurts so bad I can't breathe..." "The worst part of loving someone is the day you lose them" 💔💔
This never stops to help me cry.
Sometimes I need to let it go, because I keep the pain inside and when I can't release it and it hurts the most I come here. To let myself feel. Sometimes when I can't feel anything at all this helps me feel and let it go.
I think I've listened to this a few too many times... I can't cry anymore
I'm back again lol
❤🖤
The worst pain for anyone to feel is that knowing you could of helped and saved someone you loved but you didn't because you were scared how they would react so all you did was just stand there and do nothing
One day I got a call that my Aunty killed herself
She had three children... I spent the night with them. The youngest one was only 5 yrs old, the oldest was 8, the other one was only 6. It broke my heart having to explain that their mummy was never coming back. I had to tell my little cousins that she was gone forever. When she died I was only 16, apart of me will be missing forever.
I went through a lot of abuse as a child but no matter what my beautiful Aunty was always there for me.
No matter how many times I pushed her away she always came back...
I miss you Penny 1985-2014
No wonder why some people are heartless, feeling can be curse sometimes
Everyday is the same, each filled with equal amounts of pain.
2:16"I hate him i hate i feel like i am never gonna be happy again " omg these lines hit me so hard bcz i totally relate to this 💔
Am. I the only one who got a notification and had to confirm?
Yea me too so weird
Maybe someday... everything is gonna be okay...and maybe someday the dark sky will turn onto a sunny sky...but maybe this day...we all gonna be down already
Welp....I cried ;-;
• MrNug • izziee
Thought this would get me but I’m to numb I can’t even cry anymore
I’ve tried letting go but I can’t. It doesn’t matter what I do. Nothing takes the pain away. I pray for the right thing. It’s the most selfless thing you could ask. Not for God to put this person in my path again. But to remove everything that it’s in my heart.
"WHAT ABOUT ME!" I felt that in my soul.
The worst day of loving someone is the day u lose them..
If anyone needs me I am here okay? If you need to talk I'm here
just had the courage to tell my best friend I have depressions. she won't believe me. this threw me back so hard
Rita well I'm here
little_baby_psycho are you still willing to talk to people?Because I need to talk...
little_baby_psycho tanks
little_baby_psycho can we talk
God I hate the pain the numbness and the loneliness
The seconds i spent crying my life away i felt happy knowing i won't have to hurt anyone i felt alone and this pain building inside made me cry so much I haven't cried in years and now I want nothing I just want to be alone my words doesn't matter to know one not even to myself because I am the pain to my hole life a life I don't want to live or have death has become my friend
does anyone just feel like they are sinking in quicksand? like there is no way out. u can try so hard and get no where. just keep falling back down into your depression. idk i just want to know if i'm alone someone like ig
Like the more you try to climb out, the faster you fall? I feel that way too.
Pain is sth really extremely good.
It gets us to think about the fact of leaving this world.
We always get hurt cause we’re so emotional. You know sth readers, someday each and everything will end. We’re gonna leave this world happily. Happily cause of leaving each and every pain behind us. Ending our lives with our own hands is sth not good for those who believe in god. So let’s just wait and the pain inside of us will do the job for us.
Someday we’ll leave this universe that it kept hurting us daily.
Pain would the job.
It’s lovely to see people weeping at our grave. L
It’s lovely to have the feeling of they at least care.
Thanks for reading this misery.
Thanks for having great feelings.
Thanks for not fitting in.
Thanks for being that special.
Wish ya all all the best.
I know a lot of people will miss my comment. Its just i feel like i cant do it anymore, i got through tons of thing, i loved people, i learned how to play piano, i teached strangers how to be kind, i learned how to hide my feelings, my anger, my sadnes i showed everyone my fake love, fake face, fake smile, my-my fake talented side, but i cant do it anymore. I just need the pain to be gone, i dont need future, i need now i need to be happy now, i need to be okay, i hate everyone that is happy, i am jelly of them, i hate people that can breathe like a normal person, that can break hearts without pain, i hate people dont need to cry, dont have secrets, got parents, i hate everyone that says "i understand" well you dont so stop saying that already. I feel scared please help me if any of you can help me please i-i need help i beg you please..
@Valor Thank you so much it made my life love you it is so good to know there is still people like you. Keep your beautiful head up angel that saved my life ♡
I too wanna die every single moment... Bcz I lost the only thing that mattered to me.... I can never be happy again... Ever.... I just want to quit.. I really try to fight every single day..but i don't seem to find a point in going through all of this.. It hurts so bad that i can't actually breath
@@Kdramaticlove I hope you will get a better life with things you want to have people you want to have. I understand you i lost my father too he cheated on my mom insulted her and bullied me and my family (includes my mok and brother) but sometimes the ones you love can do awful things to you they can change into the ones you fear. If you wanna talk about my instagram is @ilkeclk_ you can dm me Lizzie we can talk about things. Hope you replay me angel ♡
Sitting here in the parking lot listening to this, watching people walk by, staring at the sun rays in the clouds, 49 years old and nothing to truly show for my life, I feel used, useless I want peace, not to feel physical pain anymore, no more obligations or high expectations of me. I can't do it anymore, I am tired, tired of giving and giving and working at my dead job and noone caring
This is to relatable as soon as I heard this video I just started to draw intanltly
I understand that you guys must be going through some shit but trust me you don't want to be numb. There was a time when, for my own reasons, I just wasn't at the best mental state. I cried myself to sleep every night and every morning had to act like everything was right in the world. I was sick of crying and I just kept wishing that I could just feel nothing. Be free of emotions. And one day my wish became reality. I was numb. Not completely but close enough to feel the void, the hole inside of me. That must of have been one of the scariest days of my life. Next morning I woke up feeling again. After that I was determined to make myself feel better and after less that a year even my friends have realised that I am better and I am getting better every second of the day. Because I knew that if I had let myself go into that void I wouldn't be able to find a way out. So, the morale of the story is: be careful what you wish for.. (I hope I helped)
Too late. I used to cry myself to sleep, wake up every morning go to school, and do it all over again. I'm numb.
And holy crap this is scary.
I'm glad you got through it. I hope I can do the same.
@@judyandrade1927 Just know that I am here for you and i bet so are your friends. Know you can ask for help if not from your parents from your friends. You are strong. You can and you will get through this ♡
@@aphroditezara4314 thank you so much this gives me some hope.
If you want to go, I want you to know that's it's going to be okay... it's okay...I understand...
Makes you think that know one lives forever...
i hate faking a smile everyday, but what makes it worst is no one notices...
The last one hit me 😢😢😢
I know I'm only a 13 year old girl but I can't take it anymore because I'm weak , I'm scared , I'm broken inside but I only show it when I'm alone I cry day to night and most of the pain ,my brother gives me that pain I can't breathe when I feel that pain thats why I want to give up.
“But then i realised.. you don’t wanna feel tomorrow”
hits every god damn time..
My grandma asked why someone would ever feel the need to hurt themself (self-harm) and I told her sometimes people become so numb they become desperate to feel anything at all
We All Had.. Have These Feelings. The Word's is real in Someone Life. Together We are Strong. Stay Strong enough
it feels like everyone around me is happy. I want the feeling of happines again. End the pain...
If there is no tomorrow than there is no hope as the sun dies the clouds burn as they feel the end of times at least someone will always remember you and will never forget about you look up and see that your God won’t forget about you even if you close your eyes or go to sleep he won’t forget about you
I feel & agree with all that's said no one knows no one understands I'm to scared to say anything
Z😞
I just want someone to be there and say "im here for you, no matter if you fight me, push me away, im here"...but no. They leave you with disgust and disappointment knowing your just wasting everyone's time with your sadness and negativity. But thats all i ever known...thats all I've ever been shown...
The worst feeling ive felt is nothing at all
Same
I made someone cry ...
Why would you be sad when you have the ability to be happy?? F the world f the people who broke your heart f the people who let you down, this life have a lot of good things you just need to see it❤️
Just a happy reminder: no one cares about your feelings, unless you are a pretty girl or beautiful woman. No one ever really cared and no one will ever care. It is okay to go. Why do you think that your death will make somebody sad? Rather think that you living and suffering makes this person feel better, than letting you go and having relief. Care about yourself, not about others.
How does it feel to be happy, how does it feel 5o satisfied, how does it feel to be wanted by atleast someone
I can't stop crying...
The worst part about this bs is the amount of ppl that relate
I mean just look at the views..
“You must be upset. Are you upset?
No.
Yes you are upset”
This hits be bad. I’ve had a teacher tell me that my smile makes them smile and i almost started crying 😭💔
Every time I try I end up having these episodes where I randomly cry and I don’t know why,it doesn’t matter if I’m looking at these audios,I’m attached to a character but all I know is that that character WOULD NEVER BE WITH ME OR SOMEONE LIKE ME
Why I feel so numb inside 😞💔
Nothing is physically or mentally wrong with me I'm healthy, and I have a perfect life.... The only problem is that I can't love. I can't put my trust in someone, or all my love in someone without the fear of getting hurt in the end. I did it once on a boy and boy I loved, he broke my heart. I've been coping with it for 3 years, and I still can't heal. He is the one who made me this way, and I was so young...
I sae the thumbnail and almost started crying again
@S K I'm so sorry you went through that. You will find somoene that was meant for you. Most of us have soulmates in the world rn that are THE person for us. The one we were supposed to marry, the one we are meant to find. I personally dont think there Is anyone out there for me but idc
I believe that there is hope for everyone of us, because there is a God who loves us and wants to take our pain away! because only He can do this! He loves us, we just can give him everything and he will show us, what it means to truly live!
Just gone through the comments and seen everyone who wasnt cried for a period cried after watching this .....I also wanted to cry by watching this but still havent got a drop from my eyes. I think i have lost my emotions already ...........
I'm to the point I can't even cry anymore
Most relatable lines: (in my opinion)
"Part of me just wants to *end it.* "
"It hurts so bad i cant breath."
"They want you to smile and say: "yeah im fine, -everythings great- "
"your so concerned with getting through today without a hint of how'd you feel tomorrow..and then i relized, *you dont want to feel tomorrow* ."
" *i feel hopeless* ..,depressed, angry...but most of all..im *SCARED* ."
"I feel...okay? *AND IT SUCKS* "
"I dont have feelings"
" *YOU'LL BE FINE! BUT WHAT ABOUT ME?!* "
"I feel like im gonna die."
From my teenager to now my life is it I just wanna die now.
were all suicidal kids telling each other suicide isn’t an option
I’ll always feel like this
i should be fine. there’s no reason for me to be this fucked up. i’m so fucking privileged and i have a loving family and perfect friends that i love more than anything. i just don’t see a point anymore. i’ve tried everything but i’m not living for myself anymore. i’m only living for the people i love. it’s so fucking hard though. i don’t want to do this for the rest of my life. just fucking end it.
My tears are worthless so It doesn't' matter anyway to lose them
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He was the person who helped me manifest back my ex three day ago with out delay💯💯
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I don't want to think because my thoughts will make me do something I don't want to do
All feelings all the time……😓sometimes you just need it to stop!
I think this is great.. As the pain I feel..
I'll leave a comment because I know none of my irl or online friends would see this...
Feeling sad, depressed, and anxiety at such a young age is horrible. But people keep saying "Keep your head up! it'll go away soon!" "Get some rest, you've been drawing a lot" just makes me feel more hollow, drawing is my only way to make me happy or at least slightly better. Faking my happiness, is the closest thing to being happy to me. Them not knowing that I am *always* sad is the best feeling ever! I'm just typing this so that none of my Discord friends would know. Because.... They're all always happy without me.
@S K Sure..
I see you, I hear you, so don’t ever stop talking about what you feel.. reach for help because you deserve to be happy.. You deserve to live. You deserve to be loved. And you’re not alone with all this, we feel the same.. But it all can be changed, so don’t give up on hope.
If people really knew how depressed I was, they would be scared. I’m hurting so much. It’s like I’m actually suffocating. My whole chest just hurts..
I only eat 1 or 2 meals a day now. Im always hungry but I lie and say i already ate and I’m full :) my stomach is always hurting my eyes are always burning, my whole body is numb
I don’t have an ed but I just hate eating, I do eat yes but I don’t like eating it’s to the point where I wake up and check how big/flat my stomach is, I hate my body sm, I cry myself to sleep wishing I was d3ad, skinny, and much prettier
U don't have to be skinny to be pretty
Another Night sitting here with pain which i'm trying to numb with alcohol
It’s sad when you relate😒
Some guys don't wanna feel things but I would give everything just to feel something and I don't mean something like pain when your cutting yourself I mean something like happiness oder even sadness
I wanted to send this to my family and friends.. but I don't think my family would care... Because the last time I tried explaining to them I can't stand being here on earth. and there's nothing here that I wanna stay. the Hallucinations are killing me. I go to therapy/counseling every two weeks. and she is the best person to speak to. and I finally found someone who could help me. I won't say the rest. but honestly, it's hard to tell people abt your hallucinations depression anxiety and what you're dealing with every day... and how school doing... and I wish I had my friends in my classes bc if I did I wouldn't feel so alone. I hate it.. it makes me feel bad bc I lied to people and whenever i keep lying abt what I'm dealing with it kills me inside. I found out on Wednesday my "Crush" got with my best friend. and after I found out it crushed me. I don't know what to feel.. other than cry alone.. or act like I'm okay. but then today i found out they broke up and my best friend message me and said "Hey, me and he broke up. and I hope your happy. and you can have him now..." but i don't want him after he played me... tbh. Every day i just wanna end it. and stop this...
Somethimes we break down without any reason
I haven't cryd for a vieuw days and I cryd now realy much 😭😭😔❤️
Rose are dead Violets are gone but I still cry every night and day
I'm tired, need sleep, I can no longer understand people and no longer want to. I've lost everything my positions and contact with my kids and family and I no longer care.
Life is for those who want to live.
Thank you for make me cry
I just sit here in the dark at 2AM watching sad things wanting to let out all the pain I've been building up for 3 years.. But I can't feel nothing so I just sit here numb and just starting.. 💔 I feel sad.. erged - I'm 2 days clean trying to make it a week but I feel so sick and upset and ugly.. and everything negative :(
The whole thing: I can relate
Me: I wanna die 💔
I'm hungry but can't eat
I'm dirty yet I can't clean
I'm sad yet I can't frown
I'm numb but I cry
I'm scared but I smile
I'm dead yet I'm alive
I know im wrong yet I know I'm right
I can't breathe yet im alive
I fight but I break
That's literally me my whole world
Im alive but im dead 😭✨
I feel this
Basically everyone with a form of mental illness.
I'm in no way trying to force this on you. I'm just showing you something that seems to be helping me as well
The disciples left to follow Jesus in two ways: instantly and completely.
They didn’t hesitate in their decision. They didn’t take anything (from their past ) with them
Reflect
When you think of how the disciples responded to Jesus’s call to follow Him, what do you feel? Do you feel overwhelmed or inspired at the thought of fully surrendering your life to Jesus?
Matthew 4:19 AMP
And He said to them, “ Follow Me [as My disciples, accepting Me as your Master and Teacher and walking the same path of life that I walk], and I will make you fishers of men.”
Matthew 16:24-25 AMP
Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone wishes to follow Me [as My disciple], he must deny himself [set aside selfish interests], and take up his cross [expressing a willingness to endure whatever may come] and follow Me [believing in Me, conforming to My example in living and, if need be, suffering or perhaps dying because of faith in Me]. For whoever wishes to save his life [in this world] will [eventually] lose it [through death], but whoever loses his life [in this world] for My sake will find it [that is, life with Me for all eternity].
SURENDER
When we surrender to Jesus, we have the ability to agree to forego in favor of His purpose. We get to choose to be a part of His eternal game plan. Jeremiah 29:11 says that His plans are not harmful, but are good, bring hope, and a bright future.
Our full surrender to Jesus usually boils down to one question:
How much will be required of me?
And the answer is simple. Everything.
Surrendering to Jesus means setting aside our selfish appetites and allowing Him to live through us. It’s choosing to trust His faultless plan even when we can’t make sense of it.
Yes, trouble will still find its way to our doorstep. Burdens will still leap onto our shoulders. Hardship will still stumble in front of us. But through it all, we get...
His peace that’s impenetrable.
His joy that’s indescribable.
His freedom that’s unexplainable.
His love that’s outrageous.
His mercy that’s generous.
His grace that’s undeserving.
His presence that’s soothing.
His wisdom that’s reassuring.
All because we trusted in the plan of the God of the universe instead of our own.
Bet more than half of us are under 18 but feels the pain-
@Jamie Forman get some help make sure your eating and sleeping well don't give up I swear on my whole families life and mine it'll get better
16
@Jamie Forman I'm with you all the way I'm 18 without anything
@Jamie Forman I got kicked out of school because I couldn't learn so I became the class clown, it hurts to not be able to start again, we got eachothers back ❤
I‘m 15 and I feel it since I‘m 8 because I lost my home and my family...
A girl once said:”What if the only way not to feel bad is to stop feeling anything, at all”
Hannah baker I guess
It is ture??😄😄😄
I will give anything to feel something. I felt sad, happy, disappointed, surprised, and now nothing, complete emptiness.
hannah Baker
There is one thing to do ,and that is to end it ,end this life where we are
“it hurts so bad I can’t breathe” actual words I said to my parents when I couldn’t stop having panic attacks and all I wanted to do in that moment was die
Your actually beautiful
I hope your doing so much beter
It is true for me as well.... the pain and the hurt is so bad I can't breath. 😔😪
I hope u are better ❤
I am speaking honesty within my souls ... i am feed up living !!!!!
I cried yesterday
I cried today
and I still think tomorrows going to better in some way.
How's it going?
unknownə wruwai¿? Right today is my birthday I’m supposed to be happy buh I’m not
Susiss.
I’m sorry:(
You’re beautiful. Things will get better. Please try, and please have hope.
goofypotatonuts was that tomorrow better x
goofypotatonuts hello love , i hope you are doing better now :) i love you. i know i don’t know you. but i do. be safe. live your beautiful life.
I haven't cried in 4 months and I've just felt... nothing. Now I listened this and cried so much I could barely breathe.
So, thank you.
Lauren twistedpeppermint I think you missed the point of his comment :/
RAWRSOFFE same😢
RAWRSOFFE exactly the same thing here
RAWRSOFFE It's been years since i cried about anything other than extreme physical pain, now i just feel numb emotionally and physically
Savvas Blackcross me too and for such a long time I thought I was the only one but everytime I hear some of these videos and listen to them and pay attention it almost feels like I'm there like it's me there so exact The Emptiness inside the sorrow without the pain and then when I have a good day it feels wonderful can somebody please help me with this
"The worst day of loving someone is the day you lose them" 💔
Fetishes as I read this comment it said it this is my first time listening to this
Fuck love?
NO!!Fuck the person who made you think like that
TVD
Joshua Montanez it's hard to let go of someone but you can't hold on to them forever if they're the ones that let go of you. :/
Fetishes elena❤️
Maybe if I fall in love with my depression maybe it’ll leave just like everyone else 🙃
for all those people out there sad and lost like me i just wanna say that all you need in life is yourself no one cares other than you believe in yourself and only yourself. others will just let you down...
For Real
Maybe just maybe..
That's a good idea imma try it
I smell you dog
Exactly I hav been left alone