The saddest part about trichotillomania is the kids who have it, the parents don’t understand that it’s an impulsive disorder and they can’t control it God bless all of you who are suffering from trichotillomania it will get better you are beautiful on the inside. My prayers go out to y’all!
not to be rude but no one will EVER fully understand. I have had trich since I first got hair. I’m 13. The struggle is real. But thanks for the kind messages
I started having the disorder at 10 y/o till I was 12/13. I was so sad cause I always was disappointed after plucking my hair, but yes I can relate. Now I am 18 and very well ❤️. Hope others also heal. Also I thought I was weird for having it but I am happy I found people talking about this disorder 💗
I’ve struggled with this condition since I was a kid too. I find it helpful to sit on my hands if I feel the urge to pull. Good luck. Let’s get through this.
I’m so glad I found a new youtuber who I can relate with! I'm thirteen with trich and I’ve relapsed from a year and a half clean. I’m really hoping to stop it early. Thank you for the video!
Liu_Yifei_Is_Bae Potato aww im so happy this video is relatable to you, trich sucks but having such a alrge supportive community helps so much because sometimes you really do feel so alone but we arent! im always around if you want to dm me or anything :) my instagram is megannprosser
heyyyy i’ve struggle with tric for a long time now. I’m about ur age and ik u r probably not gonna see this but it could rlly help to talk to someone that can understand u
if you have the chance, get to some Kava bar or order Kava from the internet. Yes, is not so cheap, but is amazing at calming, it would for sure lower down a lot any OCD's. Get the certified noble kava types, as the other wont be effective. Hugs and best wishes
I have permanent hair damage and i have so less hair strands on the crown and right on the middle part so i have bald spots. Its been almost 10 years and i am 21 now. Your video gives me the hope to restart the battle again. Please stay strong everyone. You arent alone, we will get over this.
Warning lots of reading.... I suffered with this really badly in middle school and now... In 5th grade I was just watching Minecraft (no judge please 😂) then I just started plucking my eyebrows...I didn't know why but I kept doing it cuz I liked it for some reason...then it got SOOOOOOO bad... It eventually lead to my eyelashes.... I had 0 eyebrows and 0 eyelashes... (I have barely any pics of me without hair because I always refused pics but if anyone is curious as to how bad my hair plucking was I have middle school pics) My family never understood this disorder so they would always punish me thinking this would make me stop ( it didn't work ) so my mom finally took me to therapy for a while. This all happened in 5-6th grade. I THOUGHT I had stopped but 8th grade came along and I found myself doing it again like oHhhhh shiiiiiiiiizzzz. As of now, I don't pluck my eyebrows, but I pretty much have no eyelashes (I'm a 9th grader). And because of the ocd side of me, if one eye had longer eyelashes than the other, it makes me really want to cut or mess with the longer eyelashes until both eyes are even (sadly with small eyelashes, oof) so I have a similar story to yours, except I don't pluck my head hair as much... Mainly face hair... I went through it, then I thought "WOW IM CUUUURRRED" BUT THEN highschool comes along and I'm f-ed.
Avery Farnsworth Ugh thats the worst, going through waves of it where u think its finally over and then it comes back :( but trust me i completely understand everything youre going through, especially when some eyelashes are shorter than others! its the worst!! i went to therapy a bunch too and it helped to get all my feels out but not really to stop pulling:/ and its hard to get your family to understand its super confusing. if you ever want to message me on instagram feel free to, im always here!
I totally understand I'm in 9th grade (2019) and I pick my eyelashes I'm not badly doing it too the point where I don't have any left but it's getting worse! Also my family don't understand as well my mother doesn't want me too go through therapy cause she says it will lead my down a shite life and whenever she know I'm doing it she will punish me (she has really bad anger issuess) And he punishment can be a bit physical but don't get me wrong I'm not abused I love my family but they just don't understand I want too all too people about this I luckily have a friend that does it as well she mostly pulls her eyelashes out like me (I really hope someday they will find a cure for this or I will stop but that day may not even happen the way I'm going) If you are having trouble just letting you know that your not alone in this world xx
I’m in 6th and I do eyebrows and eyelashes and I’ve been doing it since I was 6 or 7 and I’m trying to beat it. It sucks but I think I’m getting better and I hope I can stop 😔
@@MeganProsser mam please help I had this problem means hair pulling disorders but now I am fine but due hair pulling my 5,6 hair has been thinned .mam Can thin hair can be again thick or not please reply
I had trich twice, once from 2011-2012 and again from the summer of 2017 to the winter of 2018, I haven't pulled in 5 months and it feels great, I hope you are able to get through this and beat your addiction Edit: ok nvm, it looks like you already beat it, good for you 🤗
@@samilhazuniga4392 I understood you very well. She just doesnt understand and she thinks this is can disappear forever and no need to go to treatment.just no try to lean why its happened just mad at me and give me more stress because i was worried when she came to check my pulling hair on the ground ,each page inside of books and just keep telling me why you cant beat yourself.
Honestly I have never heard a single person say they pull out their eyelashes. I did that when I was little for the same exact reasons you did (and now I pull my hair) and I have permanent bald patches on my eyelashes and don’t want to wear falsies so I don’t wear mascara because then it will be more obvious that I have bald spots. I only pulled my top lashes so I had more bottom lashes than top as one point. I have honestly never related more t someone ❤️❤️
This is the first video I have seen of yours and you made me cry, but in the best way! You are so lovely, beautiful and brave because I, and many other girls, know how you feel, but I am so grateful for you doing a channel and videos to help us understand this and get through it. It's such a private subject that isn't talked about a lot but is such a troubling affliction. Bless you 🙏🏼❤
I am very sorry, I couldn’t watch the whole video cause I still can’t deal with the fact that this was part of my past as well and it triggered me to much I developed trichotillomania as a 10 year old, don’t worry I healed from it when I was 12/13. I am now 18 and proud I don’t deal with that anymore ❤️🙌🏼
Thanks for sharing your story. My daughter will be 4 next month and has had Trich since she was 11 months old. I have a 1 1/2 year old as well who just started pulling her hair out and is eating it. I can't imagine what you all must be going thru and I just try to be as supportive as possible.
Maura McCormick Thats really hard I am so sorry to hear that, I can’t imagine what thats like, it must be extremely hard. You’re actually not the first person I have heard of thought with young kids who pull. Are you apart of any support groups for it?
I've been pulling for almost 6 years now. I shaved my head and haven't gotten it past my ears. It sucks..but to everyone out there I'm not gonna say it gets better but you have to make it better
I have trichotillomania too. Last April: no eyebrows at all. Now, they’ve grown back about 80%. You really need to quit the sugar, and also look up the John Kender diet. It’s a lifesaver. NAC is a supplement that helps a lot of people with urges. I’ve been so, so much better after quitting the sugar, my life has changed and wow, I don’t have to have patchy brows every day. I’m not cured, but I’m so much less stressed about trich. Best of luck!
I have trichotillomania as well, but I was misdiagnosed with alopecia because I was to afraid to admit to my family that I pull out my hair- so they took me to the doctor. I was very young and was dealing with some crap. My family still doesn't know that I pull my hair, and have no idea how to admit it to them now that I'm about to be 18. I've come more to terms with what I have and trying to stop pulling- and even reduced pulling to just split ends. But I just don't know how to come clean to my family, living with the shame that I lied for so many years just because I was too embarrassed about my disorder.
i also have tric and i have been using “Toppik hair building fibers” and you pick the one that matches your hair color and it fills in each bald spot while sort of looking like hair. i also wear durags to sleep and when i am at home so i don’t pluck
I have had trichotillomania for a year now and it sucks. It started on a math test and I was really stressed so I started pulling the hair off my arm. I did it the whole test and it relieved the stress.. I started pulling my bangs out and 1 week in of pulling hair, all my hair was gone. I was bald on the top of my head and the school I was at was full of people that hated me.. everyone made fun of me because I had no hairline.. so I got headbands and cut my hair and I liked how it looked! But of course, it gets annoying after a few months/one year. I started pulling my eyebrows but stopped doing that easily. But the eyelashes.. the eyelashes are so hard to quit pulling. So in July of 2018, I was determined to grow back the bangs and have normal hair.. here's a few tips for people who wanna grow their hair on their head. Use valor oil and massage it in your head. You can also use lavender but valor works better. Massage it every day where it's short. Then for shampoo, use Mane n Tail, it works like a miracle! So I used all of that stuff and it grew to the length of bangs. Sometimes I wear my bangs down at home but they are too long to be bangs lol. But sadly, I still wear headbands everyday and I hate it.. I'm doing better now. It's just THE EYELASHES!!
Omg you’re so funny, i couldn’t stop laughing throughout the video! Your personality is so awesome and you are GORGEOUS from the inside out- truly. Absolutely stunning. Keep shining girlfriend. Xoxo
*THANK YOU for making this video!* I'm 32, probably been pulling for 18 years. Always wished I was a girl so I could steal some of your cover-up "tricks". Mine consist of hats, and close shaves for my head and beard. I actually fully removed my right eye brow about 2 months ago. Had to wear a hat REALLY low for a few weeks. Just be glad you don't have a course beard, lots of ear/ nose hair, and hairy knuckles/toes.... FML Good luck, sweetie! You are awesome!
NJ in the MJ aw! yes being a guy with trichotillomania is definitely very tough, i respect guys with trich a lot a lot. hopefully we will both overcome it eventually though!!
I don't necessarily pull on my hair. Been twirling it since 2nd when I first started I had a bald spot cause of all the twirling. The twirling is more of a nervous/anxious habit for me, or when I am getting sleepy.
I just discovered you and you're so cuute and funny and wise at the same time. I think talking about it so open is helping so many people out there youre literally a gift to humanity
This video is so funny, I LOVE IT !! 💜💜 Thank you for bring light to an issue that is often makes one feel embarrassed or ashamed. I hope that you and I can find the strength to overcome trichotillomania ! 😊
I've been going through this for a while, about 6 or 7 years now and I was just scrolling to find vids of people talking about their experiences and I came across yours... I like you girl lmao your adorbs
I just recently trained myself to stop. My fil makes fun of me because of it, behind my back and I have officially gone no contact also went no contact with my mil. She has bad narcissism. Couldn't be happier. My hair is growing! 💗 I shaved the parts of my head that had bald spots because I would rip out huge chunks. I decided to just go with a long haired mohawk. My hair is all the same length now (collar bone length.) My life has been stressful but I am doing so well at not pulling.
Omg I been in this dark place thinking and being ashamed of my self I have the same condition it really sucks sometimes I wish I can be normal 😰 glad I’m not the only one ur so strong wish I had the same confidence like you props to you 😍 ur beautiful
I'm the type to comment before I've finished the video but my last and final comment is yes sis ot helped I may have spent the whole time that I watched ur video pulling out the rest of my eyebrows but I did it with left hand and I'm a righty. U helped me because now o know there's someone out there with my sense of humor and my fucked up strange habit, not letting it consume their life. Sometimes I get so angry looking at what I did to myself but u made that moment lighter and easier to go thru. ThankYou❤❤❤❤
I know I’m late but I just found these videos, I also have trichotillomania - while I don’t pull my hair, my lashes and brows are completely gone. I’ve been doing it since moving to a different school district when I was 10. The school I moved to was in a small town, and I was not only the only black girl, but 1 of 2 Hispanic girls - and I was bullied incessantly, and experienced racism at a very sensitive age. The pulling developed as a coping mechanism - and now at 26 I’m only just now learning my triggers and attempting to repair my lashes and brows. Good luck to you! Also you’re stunning!
Excellent video. Definitely very relatable. I have been pulling on and off for well over a decade now and can't envision my hair ever going back to "normal". I hope you make progress lovely! x
i pull my eyelashes, but when i run out of those i pull my hair. i don’t know what to do. it’s like a habit that no matter how hard i try i cannot break
Hi Megan, I totally understand you. I started pulling when I was 5. I thought it was funny that your cover-up was the whole wish thing. I started pulling out my eyelashes at first, and that is what started it. Now I pull out everything. Literally everything you can think of. Some more than others. Anyway, it is really good to hear from someone like me. I do the same thing with pulling out the top where the part is. I am sorry you have to live with such a struggle. The top of my head feels so good to pull out, too! Good luck, I hope you can recover!
Wow I feel you so much! I’ve had Trich since I was 7 years old. I am 22 now... it’s been a long journey. Can’t wait for it to go away completely. All the best with your journey
Fellow TH-camr. Finally looked this up after my wife has been saying (what I thought was) “trick” forever to get me to be aware of pulling. I didn’t realize that this was actually a thing. Interesting to see so many commenters have this as well. Always thought I was just compulsive in my own way. Thank you for the wrist device recommendation. I really don’t even know that I’m doing it most of the time. Thanks kid!!! 😉
I started pulling my hair when I was 9 years old. Now I am almost 15, and only recently I was able to overcome this, I hope, forever. I believe that anyone who reads this will be able to overcome it too. I also want to say that you are a very brave and beautiful girl ♥️ (I'm sorry for my bad english)
I’ve been pulling since I was around 9, and I’m now nearly 13. I’ve got my first bald patch in such a long time and I don’t know what to do other than cry. And that’s what’s brought me here. I hate it so much and it just makes me so insecure.
Your personality is so amazing and I have trich as well and it used to be bad and I’m going through the same thing u we’re going through In 11th grade bc I’m a junior rn and it’s slowly coming back and getting worse but I hope u get big with TH-cam bc ilysm already u definitely earned my subscription
i have trich and i have very little hair in the back of my head. but i do gymnastics and have to wear my hair up. it makes me super self conscious. ☹️ any tips or hairstyles to use?
I have trich and I feel exactly the same way. It was bad in my teens, then I had a weave of sorts (painful and expensive) and stopped for a while and now I am back to being as bad as I was as a teenager. And like you said I'm not depressed but its rough. Thanks for being brave enough to share.
Watched the one where you showed things to grow your hair back first and now this one. I started bottom lashes in high school and moved onto all lashes in my later years of undergrad university. I'm 33 now and my head hair has just started to become an issue. My hair is thinning a bit from mental health meds as it is and sometimes it comes out easily. Last night I had a go pulling a lot of my head hair for the first time. I was like looking in the mirror saying to myself stop what are you doing but it's like I was in a trance or something and couldn't stop. I pray to God I don't continue. I can deal with no lashes a lot better than bald patches on my head. My hairline in right side by my temple is way far back now. I'm going to change my part and I bought a headband on the way to work as I have to pull my hair up for work. I'll be buying that root cover up today after work because I'm afraid my parents will see it. Yes I'm 33 with a husband and three year old boy and I still don't want my parents to see 😂. They'll just worry about me and ask me how I'm doing and make it worse. I love them and I know they mean well but it just doesn't help. I think I'm going to try wearing long head coverings when at home like you do as well. This is rambly lol. Thank you for your videos and tips.
I can relate a lot cuz my main bald area is around my hairline and at the back of my hair. I was actually diagnosed with alopecia before cuz i didnt know this type of disorder exists. Then, one day i decided to research about DID but then on the recommended section i saw "hair pulling disorder" then i decided to click it. That same day i found out i was misdiagnosed with trichotillomania and til this day my family believes i have alopecia. They dont rlly know about it cuz i decide not to so it cant be a problem to them
It feels so good to know im not the only one suffering from this. I started in the summer from 6th grade to 7th grade and it was so hard because i was switching school, so in 7th grade i was in a new school and with no eye lashes it wss really hard and i will cry almost everyday. Then 8th grade comes up and i kinda stop for like 6 months pullings my eyelashes i mean i will still do it but only I will pull out like 2 hairs. Then 9th grade comes up and we are in the middle of the pandemic so u know how that went again i had 0 eyelashes. Now im going into 10th grade and i have lashes but i have a little spot but i covered with black shadow as an eyeliner and mascara. (I only pull out my eyelashes im so bless because my hair is really long and is my source of confidence because everybody says how long and pretty it is)
Katie Grausam Howd it go shaving your head? did it help? im always in a battle with myself over whether or not i should do it 😅 But thank you for this sweet comment! I will definitely keep posting :)
@@MeganProsser I just shaved it last week. I feel pretty badass actually. My hands still go for my head but it's too short to pull so I don't get that satisfaction. My thin spots don't look as bad now that it's all short.
Katie Grausam aw great im glad to hear it! and yess👏🏼👏🏼 you definitely look like a badass ahh, the only thig holding me back honestly is my bald spots, cause i wont be able to hide them with a buzz cut uk!? its nice to hear from others though and they’re experience so thank you for sharing yours!
I found that, if all else fails, cutting the hair instead of pulling gives me the same relief. It doesnt help with looks at all, but at least you aren't damaging your hair follicles.
The reason i started pulling my hairs out was because i thought they was "infected" because i would pull out the dead ones & there would be this "goop" on the end & it turns out the "goop" was my hair follicles. So yah. Now i have baldspots all over my head & only 3 other people know about it & their not my family. Oh yah & i started pulling my hair out in 5th grade, now im in 8th.
okay hi!! i have trich too. i love this video. in the summer going into 5th grade i started pulling out my eyebrows and i had NONE. and i still don’t have any and i fell them in every single day. then 7th grade i started pulling my hair on my head. in the front and in the back. thankyou for sharing your story. i still struggle. literally no one knows at all. but now you do. so fun. have a good day!!
Claudia Poloney aww this was such a heartfelt comment, im glad you told somebody even if it was just me in the comment section of my video! thats brave!! you are amazing! if you ever need anything message me on instagram or email me!! i believe in you❤️
OMG. i am literally watching this and I had no idea this existed. I have this spot that I used to pull and this hairdresser was like omg, what is this?! I felt so crap and I am literally going to shave my head tomorrow! Yay! But its not so bad, I used to pull out my eyelashes more but its getting better 💜
**FOR ANYONE GOING THROUGH THIS** If its done in some sort of "automatic" mind state, then meditation would certainly help as ultimately yoga's goal is to make any automatic movement into a conscious movement (breath, walk and OCD's). This is not perfect solution though, as now you might have to deal with some sort of "extra" awareness type of anxiety, still this is better as you have more leverage upon this than over the sympathetic/automated one. OCD's might return even when having attained a good meditation level but it would be on a very mild form. If you want the "shortcut" without prescription meds. Try "KAVA" (natural and AMAZING yet a bit pricey) or "Buspirone" (non-prescription safe anti-anxiety) If you have any question, feel free to ask and I will try to reply as fast as I can
screw that kid who made fun of you wearing a "wig" you're beautiful.. I also have Trich, I'm 20 now and have had trich since I can remember. Don't let other people diminish your confidence and self worth just because of your hair..I feel your struggle though
Joe Monaco Thank you so much! Ive learned that the hard ways throughout the years but comments like that nowadays go right over my head. But thank you for this comment! Its nice to know were not alone in this world :)
I just found your channel and wanna say you’re so cute and your personality is so nice and calming. And I also struggle with pulling my hair, it’s not to the same extent as you but I can relate to your struggles! ❤️
I've been suffering from Trich since fourth grade. I'm in ninth grade rn and I'm trying so hard to stop....my parents don't understand this...that's what my worst mistake has been...hiding from my family. I have the perfect hair and good eyebrows (mostly) but when it comes to lashes, I have very few. It makes me feel ugly and hated even though that isn't true. We don't talk about the sadness that trichtillomania causes...whatever you do...don't do what I did...don't hide...for yourself
Hi! Ive been struggling with Trich since 4th too. Im in fifth now, and i’ve pretty much stopped. Things i did to help were when your pulling, stop breath and slow down your thinking. When i eventually stopped pulling i bought castor oil. It helps so much to grow head hair, eyelashes, and eyebrows fast, i really wish you the best, hope this helped! 🙂
Yes the wish thing. Me too. My mum basically said before I started secondary school that I had to grow my eyelashes back or everyone would think I was weird. So now I have my eyelashes but I’m pulling out my head hair.
I started to pull when I was eight too and I know the cause now cause I saw psychologists. I got trichotillomania at 8 and trichophagia at 11 now i’m 16. I pull my hair ( the middle part ) and my eyelashes too. The hardest part is the HAIRSTYLES to hide the damage. I still use eyeliner for my lashes ✨. Good luck it will be alright ❤️
I'm not sure how or why I began pulling out my hair but I do remember it felt like therapy. My mother and step father fought often. Lots of screaming and alcohol involved even throwing of things. I believe anxiety is why I started pulling out my hair. I'd wrap it around my thumb and suck my thumb. Anyway I'm 29 now and I had to do my own research to discover I had trichotillomania.
Megan, ouch, tough gig to have to endure. Your fiery, yet "it is what it is" demeanor displayed while making this video is essential to surviving this potentially life long struggle. Basically you have 2 choices, 1. Stop the triching and live a normal life of activities, walking in the rain, swimming, sweating, being in direct sunlight with people sitting above and behind you. Standing in line at checkout counters, concerts etc. with people behind you. Hopefully most of your hair follicles are nor permanently damaged at your early stage of this maddening obsession. #2 You never get over it and then live a life of concealment. People being how we are, seem to always have something to say about others afflictions. Can't hate them for it, it is just our nature.I started at about 8, was in foster homes for 3 years. Mom was gone (mixed up with the wrong people and got locked up. Dad married another woman, and she was the quint essential wicked step mother. Life with them was pure hell, us 4 kids from the 1st marriage had stress levels that were off the charts. Saw a shampoo commercial one day about split ends, went in looked at my hair in the bathroom mirror, YIKES I have split ends! And that was all it took, break this one off, pull this one out. Years later I realized I was damaged. In middle school kids behind me blurting out and laughing "Hey Greg has a bald spot, very cringe worthy moments. Ended up running away from home (10 times), being truant enough till eventually I dropped out of school. Anything but have my imperfection acknowledged and thus exposing my weakness. I joined the US Army the day I was 17. Head gets shaved and for the next 9 years the problem goes away. Start smoking hash and living the fast life. Eventually the army life and its stresses caused me to not re-enlist. My stammering and stuttering from my youth had come back with a vengeance, and being a Forward Observer, all we do is talk on the field radios. So I pulled the plug and left the army. 82nd Airborne Paratrooper, tough enough, but not tough enough for my demons. The trich re-manifested itself into my life and continued to this day at 63. Oh I became selective about it, not to much from one spot, really thinned out my whole head. But I can still hide it, thanks to my fine hair and concealment products. I did the spray for a bit but it was not cutting it, clumpy etc. I knew I was not ever going to stop it at this point in my life and I deep down knew I had to keep this trick compulsion at bay for as long as possible. Keep up the act, because I still have to interact with the populous and not be such a freak I was shunned from contact. Lets just say I'm a tile contractor and work in homes of many nationally recognized movie stars and other well known figures etc. I'm there because of my insatiable carnal desire to be perfect in everything I do. Try to take on the most demanding exquisite jobs and will almost always succeed in taking them to the point where I'm told I exceeded their expectations. That gratifies my in some strange way, to standout like this. But yet when I'm alone the demon hair pulling urge returns. Something about knowing I'm visually damaging myself and yet I persist at doing this. Almost Like I'm punishing myself for letting my self get here. The numb pain from pulling the hair sensationalizes the area with a tingling that lasts for hours and even the next day I can imagine I feel the tingling, gratifying feel, yet never too far away is the horrible disgusting self loathing thought,regretting that I keep doing this to myself. I have a girlfriend of 15 years who knows of my affliction, she helps out a lot. She is a cosmetologist, was actually the director at a hair academy, so she knows a few tricks to help me conceal. That is another reason I wanted to write you. If your battle persists you will need more weapons to help in different situations. I will use exclusively now a product called "Dermatch". You can be almost totally bald, but as long as there are baby fine hairs for it to attach to it quadruples the hairs appearance and blam no more bald spot. The I use the Keratin hair fibers to finish things off and it looks like I have a whole head of hair. Now I'm a guy who keeps my hair somewhat short and still have about 1/4th of my natural hair and it is about 2 1/2 inches long. So this whole charade can be pulled off quite convincingly. Yet while it will get you through uncomfortable situations its not like I want someone 2 feet away behind me in sunlight scoping me out, it will do a satisfactory job on a day to day basis. Look into it, could be a viable trick to keep on hand for those necessary moments. "Dermatch" , "Hair So Real" from eBay and then a good holding hairspray and life goes on. Your real choice would to be Quit the damn hair pulling, it ill take you down a long miserable road to no where but self loathing. Turn on your inner strength like your life depends on it, because it does. I read where you questioned about shaving and then your thoughts about when it regrows in it will be splotchy. The trick is from my army days is to keep it shaved for a couple years. Let a few grow cycles come and go. Then the thinner areas will fill in. Now when you grow it back out, it will be uniform. But do this sooner than later, don't wait for some crazy period of time, try to save your hair follicles while you are young. massage nutrients into your scalp, come to love your head, treat it with respect, add the vitamins, massage it and dream of a glorious head of hair in a couple of years. You girls are lucky in that you can wear wigs, guys wear hats (I rarely wear hats myself). So look out for some expensive wigs that people are selling off and hook yourself up. You can pull this off, why do I say that? I watched your courageous video (it made me cry). Look at you, going through this crap. But you know what, you are calling yourself out on a very public stage. What courage, what balls. You are taking yourself place I never dared go with my trich. Keep the video alive, don't let that inner demon win honey. Keep getting out and be around people who you love an who love you. I think happiness and a content life will go along way in preventing you from finding a life of self loathing that will be waiting for you if you cant get off this damn self destructive road. The FB group may be just the ticket you need to be around others like us. it could actually be pretty dang cool to be with others sharing a common mania, it would help you fight the fight better than being alone with it. I'm too far down the road for that, never even have had a FB account etc. Go get it done, save your self, save your mind, have a life that you can only dream of having. Come on soldier, there is a battle to be fought, time to get tough!www.dermmatch.com, www.toppik.com, I use the "Hair So Real" fibers, but gave you a link to Toppic, they have a better site to explain things. HSR is just cheaper and works fine.If you want to see my cool car, look at my You Tube Channel. You can see my obsessive compulsive disorder come out there too, lol. Have been building it for about 10 years now.th-cam.com/video/eVvJHbZnUWs/w-d-xo.html, Take care fellow traveler, life is such rollercoaster of emotions and circumstances. Hope your ride brings many memorable moments. You are your ships captain...
TheFatBurito the only solution is A time . In case your brain chemistry changes . It might stop asking u to pull. Free will won’t help u when brain 🧠 asks u to itch 🤣
it sucks a lot :( i sorry youve had it for so long, i believe in you!! i agree though hopefully overtime out brains will just chill out, just gotta stay hopeful
OMG!😮 I'm so proud of you for sharing your experience with trich, I also suffer from this and I only pull my lashes🤪but I've been wearing lashes for about 5yrs now and I learned to put my lashes under my lid placing the glue on top the lash instead of the bottom and it looks so natural looking and you won't see the line at all or try the invisible strip 👍...FYI for my hair pullers family 😚😙👀stay 💪 we're all in this together!😘
My trick story and adventure started around in fifth grade... occasionally an eyelash would fall out and my friend would say make a wish and it might come true... I blew my eyelash off my finger and made a wish.. I wished my crush would ask me out. Since my eyelashes wouldn’t just fall out I decided I was going to pull my eyelashes to make a wish. It eventually came true but we broke up a couple months later. But then I became addicted to pulling my eyelashes when I pulled them out it was so satisfying and I always had blotches in my eyelashes. I stopped for a while then one day my hands led to my eyes and started pulling to the point my fingers hurt but I wanted TO PULL. I... had.... no.... eyelashes.... so eventually I got into 7th grade I told my mom my eyebrow hurt in a specific place and she goes it’s probably an ingrown hair so I started to try and find the ONE eyebrow hair that was ingrown and became bald on one eyebrow. So then... I became upset with how I cope with my trick and started pulling hairs off my legs and arms and places where I don’t prefer to have hair. It worked for a while then I had the urge to pull out EVERYTHING! My eyelashes.. GONE! My eyebrows... GONE! and I’m still struggling. “You can just stop. It’s not hard to stop pulling hair” it’s almost like a drug you cannot stop I promise you at any given opportunity to pull or tug at hair please don’t.
if you have the chance, get to some Kava bar or order Kava from the internet. Yes, is not so cheap, but is amazing at calming, it would for sure lower down a lot any OCD's. Get the certified noble kava types, as the other wont be effective. Hugs and best wishes
Megan! I loved your vid! ❤️❤️. We have similar personalities. Funny story. Although I was not suffering from this disorder, I grew my bangs real long to cover my eyes, but I did it because I was so painfully shy and wanted to avoid eye contact. That whole year no one saw more than one eye at a time, I had that peekaboo look. Turns out I couldn’t walk without at least one exposed eye! I hope you do well with your channel!
I had trichotillomania since I was 4 years… the struggle, the bullying…. Makes me feel bad as I never had the chance of having long hair and eveybody bullied me for that
That's so crazy because my trichotillomania started when I was 8 and now I am twelve. It was really bad the first 3 years. I didn't have any eyelashes or eyebrows, but eventually grew them back over the years. But I still do pull occasionally
Omg we have a similar story ....I saw that Clip of the girl pulling her hair as well and said to my self “wow that’s strange” and then without realising I started doing it too and couldn’t stop and now I have no control over it and do it when I’m depressed and anxious, it’s been 7 yrs since and I curse the day I saw that vid 😔
I have trichotilomania as well so you are not l alone I pulled out my eyes leashes I first started when my love ones passed away so that was way to delt the pian so I pulled out my eyes leashes to soothe my pian and it gone out of control and I still pull my eyes leashes at 23 and my mum is heart broken when I pulled out my eyes leashes my lashes used to be very long when I was younger I but I trying to stop pulling them but is so hard not to pull and I’m worried that they won’t grow back never again because I pulled so much of them you are amazing do this channel you are so brave to do it ♥️
Megan I have the same problem I pull out my eyelashes and eyebrows and my hair it's horrible I hate how I feel I hate how I look it's nice to see someone like you
Amanda Marack aw im glad i can help, but im so sorry you are having such a hard time. if you need anything ever don’t hesitate to contact me. we’re stronger together❤️
youre very funny. thank you for this, i used to pull the hairs where they were kinkiest (on the back of my neck) super straight and then hold from the bottom and pull up and i would make these thick ass knots. i used to just feel them on my fingers and i enjoyed it. now i pull at my "edges" and "sideburns" of my head
Apparently I started pulling my hair out when I was about a year old or so, so this was back in 1991. My parents took me to the doctor, doctors didn't really know about trich at this point, he said it wasn't cause for concern because I wasn't balding, so that was the end of that. I remember I used to ride in the car with my mom in the passenger's seat when I was about 4 or 5 and would stare at the hair on her arms and would pull one or two out and would get fussed at. I don't know if your parents did this, but I got fussed at a lot because they were concerned, wanted me to stop, and just didn't understand it. Didn't work. I also had this "brilliant" idea to cut off part of my eyebrows with scissors when I was sick with chicken pox at one point. I have no idea why... I guess a combination of "eyebrows are weird....", a fever, extreme boredom from being home for several days, extreme itchiness, and being unsupervised, it seemed like a good idea at the time. I looked ridiculous lol. My mom had to put either eyebrow pencil or eye shadow where I had cut them - right in the middle of each brow - for several weeks. Good times. With active pulling, I ended up starting with my eyelashes - I remember mom putting eyeliner while I fought her before school - and I eventually stopped at some point in the 4th grade, but that's unfortunately because I started pulling the hair on my head instead. I pulled a lot of baby hairs that I had out at one point in 5th grade, but I eventually stopped. I stopped completely in 7th grade, but ended up picking it up again because I was really stressed in 8th grade and I honestly thought "maybe just a few hairs and let that be that" .... well it didn't. I didn't have to worry about covering any spots or not, but that's also because I took it out on my eyebrows. They were super, super thin lines. I went to being so self conscious about having thick eyebrows that I had this distorted view that they had to be very thin. It was bad. It look as if I drew a single, thin line of dark brown eyeliner and went about my day. 9th grade rolls around and I'm pulling more because I went into a deep depression. I started seeing a therapist for the trich when I randomly searched "hair pulling" in the baby edition of Google back then (this was 2004). My depression just progressed and that eventually exploded into having a mental breakdown at the beginning of 10th grade and being diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I definitely had some thinner spots on the top of my head in 9th grade, but I had such long and thick hair that I was easily able to hide it, but I knew it was there, so I just kept pulling because for whatever reason my stress about a thin spot makes me do the opposite of leaving it alone. It got a bit worse in 12th grade even though I was doing better with my mental health stability, but I still kept pulling. I would say it got to its worst when I transferred from community college to a university and was dealing with a breakup from a very abusive relationship. My hair was short at the time, so I actually wore a wig for a while. I actually did have a weave as well because I was sick with being in the awkward stage of growing my hair out, except it was a sew-in, so I couldn't take it out at night. That was a disaster because even though I washed it to the best of my ability, it just got so disgusting and moldy after about 3 or so weeks that I had to have my mom cut it out with kitchen scissors. It took me about a good hour or more to scrub all of that crap out of my scalp. Never again! I do NOT miss having to pat it to help stop the itch. I didn't pull a ton of my scalp hair from about late 2012-2015, but in the meantime I was back to obsessively plucking my eyebrows to the point of barely being there :( I had to become a master at using eyebrow wax mixed with powder. It has seriously taken until very recently to have a full set of eyebrows again, but they're not nearly as full as they used to be. Hopefully they'll get there in time, but I can go without having to fill them in. I'm hoping to get them microbladed eventually, but that's expensive. I managed to grow all of my hair back except for a small spot where I kept pulling out white hairs in 2016. I started pulling again pretty badly recently in November, so while I'm not noticeably bald, I'm hiding thin spots around my ears and temples. My hair is long again, so thankfully it's not super obvious. I'm just bummed I'm still fighting it at almost 29, but I know it's usually a life-long thing. Have you ever tried DermMatch? I need to get some more, but it seriously helped me so much. It's as waterproof as it can be, blends in with your scalp with a little bit of brushing, and the texture of it helps me leave thinning spots alone. I've been taking 5000 mcg of Biotin with coconut oil in it since August and it has really been helping my hair grow very quickly, so a lot of my bald and thinning spots have been growing in pretty fast all things considering. I've been wanting to try Habitaware, but I'm limited on funds, so hopefully I can save for it or something. Sorry for the long message, but I really appreciate you taking the time and being brave about sharing what you're going through. I had no idea there were so many people that had the disorder for the longest time until more people started sharing about it on TH-cam over the past several years. It's good to know I'm not alone. I'm also still trying to figure life out, so that's another journey I'm on!
ok? don’t apologize for the long message! we all have a story and its nice to let it out to be heard! im glad you shared it all and got it all out, you are brave! im glad my video helped you in some way. i believe in you and your hair!!
Wow I relate to this so fuckin much lol. I started pulling I think freshman year of highschool. I started on my head and at the same time pulled out all of my eye lashes. It was horrible. Luckily now I don’t pull out my eyelashes but it’s all redirected to my scalp. Im like really embarrassed to admit this but I know other people with trichotillomania experience this but I also eat the hairs and it got so bad that I had to have an endoscopy because my stomach was so irritated so that’s fun. Anyway, I literally lived in this black beanie everyday day of my life from freshman year to junior year of highschool. I remember one time one of my friends pulled it off in the hallway at school as a joke because she didn’t know and I was *mortified* to say the least. I recently saw pictures of myself when I used to wear my beanie and I didn’t think it was that bad but seeing the pictures was shocking. I literally pulled out all the hair in front and in the back it was not a look lol. I then got a hair piece which was kind of a traumatic experience because I was supposed to get a clip on weave because it was my first one but they actually glued it to my head and when I tell you I freaked the fuck out and we went back and they took it off lol. I got the clip in one and actually wore it to junior prom and my hair looked fucking snatched™️. I also fucking lived for the root cover up stuff that you shook on your head lol. I wasn’t pulling as much so my hair kind of grew in and I decided to cut it and dye it red. Life was going good and my hair was starting to grow in and it wasn’t really noticeable but low and behold college started kicking my ass and now I’m going into my third year of college and now my hair is kind of taking a turn for the worst but ya know it’s chill lol. Btw ur makeup looks amazing and ur hilarious!
for me it all started when i found these super curly & wavy strands of hair in my naturally straight hair , and i started picking them out . now it’s rare that i find any , but i pull out any hair that feels abnormal to me . & now i have a tiny bald spot in the back of my head...and have to wear a hood whenever my hair is out . ☹️
that’s exactly how mine started. i remember finding this one really curly hair and then it just went from there trying to pull out every single one of them. i have a bald spot in the back of my head now. 🙁😭
I have trich also, and you made me feel better about it. ❤ I have no lashes and pulled out most of my brows, so makeup is essential when I leave the house. 😭
I’ve been dealing with this condition since I was three years old. Unfortunately it’s gotten worse over the past couple years. I’ve tried medications and I also tried this thing called CBD oil. I thought they were working for a while, but lately they haven’t. I’ll see if I can try the keen habit bracelet. Maybe it’ll help me control it better. I don’t know what else to do.
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The saddest part about trichotillomania is the kids who have it, the parents don’t understand that it’s an impulsive disorder and they can’t control it God bless all of you who are suffering from trichotillomania it will get better you are beautiful on the inside. My prayers go out to y’all!
not to be rude but no one will EVER fully understand. I have had trich since I first got hair. I’m 13. The struggle is real. But thanks for the kind messages
I started having the disorder at 10 y/o till I was 12/13. I was so sad cause I always was disappointed after plucking my hair, but yes I can relate.
Now I am 18 and very well ❤️.
Hope others also heal.
Also I thought I was weird for having it but I am happy I found people talking about this disorder 💗
I’ve struggled with this condition since I was a kid too. I find it helpful to sit on my hands if I feel the urge to pull. Good luck. Let’s get through this.
Japan -Ichiban thank you! yes we got this!
I’m so glad I found a new youtuber who I can relate with! I'm thirteen with trich and I’ve relapsed from a year and a half clean. I’m really hoping to stop it early. Thank you for the video!
Liu_Yifei_Is_Bae Potato aww im so happy this video is relatable to you, trich sucks but having such a alrge supportive community helps so much because sometimes you really do feel so alone but we arent! im always around if you want to dm me or anything :) my instagram is megannprosser
heyyyy i’ve struggle with tric for a long time now. I’m about ur age and ik u r probably not gonna see this but it could rlly help to talk to someone that can understand u
if you have the chance, get to some Kava bar or order Kava from the internet. Yes, is not so cheap, but is amazing at calming, it would for sure lower down a lot any OCD's.
Get the certified noble kava types, as the other wont be effective.
Hugs and best wishes
I have permanent hair damage and i have so less hair strands on the crown and right on the middle part so i have bald spots. Its been almost 10 years and i am 21 now. Your video gives me the hope to restart the battle again. Please stay strong everyone. You arent alone, we will get over this.
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I suffered with this really badly in middle school and now... In 5th grade I was just watching Minecraft (no judge please 😂) then I just started plucking my eyebrows...I didn't know why but I kept doing it cuz I liked it for some reason...then it got SOOOOOOO bad... It eventually lead to my eyelashes.... I had 0 eyebrows and 0 eyelashes... (I have barely any pics of me without hair because I always refused pics but if anyone is curious as to how bad my hair plucking was I have middle school pics) My family never understood this disorder so they would always punish me thinking this would make me stop ( it didn't work ) so my mom finally took me to therapy for a while. This all happened in 5-6th grade. I THOUGHT I had stopped but 8th grade came along and I found myself doing it again like oHhhhh shiiiiiiiiizzzz. As of now, I don't pluck my eyebrows, but I pretty much have no eyelashes (I'm a 9th grader). And because of the ocd side of me, if one eye had longer eyelashes than the other, it makes me really want to cut or mess with the longer eyelashes until both eyes are even (sadly with small eyelashes, oof) so I have a similar story to yours, except I don't pluck my head hair as much... Mainly face hair... I went through it, then I thought "WOW IM CUUUURRRED" BUT THEN highschool comes along and I'm f-ed.
Avery Farnsworth Ugh thats the worst, going through waves of it where u think its finally over and then it comes back :( but trust me i completely understand everything youre going through, especially when some eyelashes are shorter than others! its the worst!! i went to therapy a bunch too and it helped to get all my feels out but not really to stop pulling:/ and its hard to get your family to understand its super confusing. if you ever want to message me on instagram feel free to, im always here!
I need help i keep pulling stands of my hair out XD :P
I totally understand I'm in 9th grade (2019) and I pick my eyelashes I'm not badly doing it too the point where I don't have any left but it's getting worse! Also my family don't understand as well my mother doesn't want me too go through therapy cause she says it will lead my down a shite life and whenever she know I'm doing it she will punish me (she has really bad anger issuess) And he punishment can be a bit physical but don't get me wrong I'm not abused I love my family but they just don't understand I want too all too people about this I luckily have a friend that does it as well she mostly pulls her eyelashes out like me (I really hope someday they will find a cure for this or I will stop but that day may not even happen the way I'm going) If you are having trouble just letting you know that your not alone in this world xx
I’m in 6th and I do eyebrows and eyelashes and I’ve been doing it since I was 6 or 7 and I’m trying to beat it. It sucks but I think I’m getting better and I hope I can stop 😔
I’m in fifth grade
ur so inspiring i have trich also and it’s bad rn and i hate leaving the house 💜💜 ur stunning
Lily Bardin youll be okay, we all will be eventually, i have hope for us! dm me if you ever need
@@MeganProsser mam please help I had this problem means hair pulling disorders but now I am fine but due hair pulling my 5,6 hair has been thinned .mam Can thin hair can be again thick or not please reply
Megan Prosser I have it too :(
I had trich twice, once from 2011-2012 and again from the summer of 2017 to the winter of 2018, I haven't pulled in 5 months and it feels great, I hope you are able to get through this and beat your addiction
Edit: ok nvm, it looks like you already beat it, good for you 🤗
It's scary when your parents see you bold spots and they overery act
maria lopez i knowwww my dad does this
that happens to me too and my mom overeacts even though she causes me to do it
yeah my dad just yells at me ;(
Yeah, they don’t understand how bad you feel after you pull
@@samilhazuniga4392 I understood you very well. She just doesnt understand and she thinks this is can disappear forever and no need to go to treatment.just no try to lean why its happened just mad at me and give me more stress because i was worried when she came to check my pulling hair on the ground ,each page inside of books and just keep telling me why you cant beat yourself.
I currently pull my hair out and I’m trying to beat it. My hair line is completely fucked up and it’s hard to hide
Leeann Pulchny ugh yes it get really tricky:( try to keep yourself busy as much as possible and figure out what triggers you most!
Hope it gets better!
Honestly I have never heard a single person say they pull out their eyelashes. I did that when I was little for the same exact reasons you did (and now I pull my hair) and I have permanent bald patches on my eyelashes and don’t want to wear falsies so I don’t wear mascara because then it will be more obvious that I have bald spots. I only pulled my top lashes so I had more bottom lashes than top as one point. I have honestly never related more t someone ❤️❤️
This is the first video I have seen of yours and you made me cry, but in the best way! You are so lovely, beautiful and brave because I, and many other girls, know how you feel, but I am so grateful for you doing a channel and videos to help us understand this and get through it. It's such a private subject that isn't talked about a lot but is such a troubling affliction. Bless you 🙏🏼❤
I am very sorry, I couldn’t watch the whole video cause I still can’t deal with the fact that this was part of my past as well and it triggered me to much
I developed trichotillomania as a 10 year old, don’t worry I healed from it when I was 12/13.
I am now 18 and proud I don’t deal with that anymore ❤️🙌🏼
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Thanks for sharing your story. My daughter will be 4 next month and has had Trich since she was 11 months old. I have a 1 1/2 year old as well who just started pulling her hair out and is eating it. I can't imagine what you all must be going thru and I just try to be as supportive as possible.
Maura McCormick Thats really hard I am so sorry to hear that, I can’t imagine what thats like, it must be extremely hard. You’re actually not the first person I have heard of thought with young kids who pull. Are you apart of any support groups for it?
I've been pulling for almost 6 years now. I shaved my head and haven't gotten it past my ears. It sucks..but to everyone out there I'm not gonna say it gets better but you have to make it better
Sadie, does the hair from the plucked hair grow back ?
I have trichotillomania too. Last April: no eyebrows at all. Now, they’ve grown back about 80%. You really need to quit the sugar, and also look up the John Kender diet. It’s a lifesaver. NAC is a supplement that helps a lot of people with urges. I’ve been so, so much better after quitting the sugar, my life has changed and wow, I don’t have to have patchy brows every day. I’m not cured, but I’m so much less stressed about trich. Best of luck!
I have trichotillomania as well, but I was misdiagnosed with alopecia because I was to afraid to admit to my family that I pull out my hair- so they took me to the doctor. I was very young and was dealing with some crap. My family still doesn't know that I pull my hair, and have no idea how to admit it to them now that I'm about to be 18. I've come more to terms with what I have and trying to stop pulling- and even reduced pulling to just split ends. But I just don't know how to come clean to my family, living with the shame that I lied for so many years just because I was too embarrassed about my disorder.
I'm newly diagnosed. I'm so glad I came across this. Thank you. I'll use the tips. And I feel less alone
Our stories are so similar🥺 I don’t feel so alone now. Thank you for being so open
i also have tric and i have been using “Toppik hair building fibers” and you pick the one that matches your hair color and it fills in each bald spot while sort of looking like hair. i also wear durags to sleep and when i am at home so i don’t pluck
briana delacruz yes! the hair fibers are great! and so are the durags they help so much!!
I have had trichotillomania for a year now and it sucks. It started on a math test and I was really stressed so I started pulling the hair off my arm. I did it the whole test and it relieved the stress.. I started pulling my bangs out and 1 week in of pulling hair, all my hair was gone. I was bald on the top of my head and the school I was at was full of people that hated me.. everyone made fun of me because I had no hairline.. so I got headbands and cut my hair and I liked how it looked! But of course, it gets annoying after a few months/one year. I started pulling my eyebrows but stopped doing that easily. But the eyelashes.. the eyelashes are so hard to quit pulling. So in July of 2018, I was determined to grow back the bangs and have normal hair.. here's a few tips for people who wanna grow their hair on their head. Use valor oil and massage it in your head. You can also use lavender but valor works better. Massage it every day where it's short. Then for shampoo, use Mane n Tail, it works like a miracle! So I used all of that stuff and it grew to the length of bangs. Sometimes I wear my bangs down at home but they are too long to be bangs lol. But sadly, I still wear headbands everyday and I hate it.. I'm doing better now. It's just THE EYELASHES!!
oh my god why are our stories so fucking similar minus the eyelashes... i’m quaking. i’m 19 too and you’re my new fav ily queen
Omg you’re so funny, i couldn’t stop laughing throughout the video! Your personality is so awesome and you are GORGEOUS from the inside out- truly. Absolutely stunning. Keep shining girlfriend. Xoxo
Kelly J awwww!!!! This is so so so sweet thank you!!! it means so much seriously!❤️❤️
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*THANK YOU for making this video!* I'm 32, probably been pulling for 18 years. Always wished I was a girl so I could steal some of your cover-up "tricks". Mine consist of hats, and close shaves for my head and beard. I actually fully removed my right eye brow about 2 months ago. Had to wear a hat REALLY low for a few weeks. Just be glad you don't have a course beard, lots of ear/ nose hair, and hairy knuckles/toes.... FML
Good luck, sweetie! You are awesome!
NJ in the MJ aw! yes being a guy with trichotillomania is definitely very tough, i respect guys with trich a lot a lot. hopefully we will both overcome it eventually though!!
Hats don’t cover low sideburns which sucks
Also . My bald spot is HUGE it goes right through the middle of my head and I barely put my hair down it is in a ponytail .
pastel alpaca ive been there 😓 its really rough but i have hope for you and your hair! we got this!
I don't necessarily pull on my hair. Been twirling it since 2nd when I first started I had a bald spot cause of all the twirling. The twirling is more of a nervous/anxious habit for me, or when I am getting sleepy.
BitterSweet Remie yes!! when im sleepy my pulling is the worst!
Same but I don't have a bald spot. I can't stop it and the only way it stops is if all of my hair is up. I'm scared if a bald spot comes up... 😕
me too! i only stopped doing it recently but my hairline is so fucked up and i’m so embarrassed about it. i’m 16 now.
I just discovered you and you're so cuute and funny and wise at the same time. I think talking about it so open is helping so many people out there youre literally a gift to humanity
This video is so funny, I LOVE IT !! 💜💜 Thank you for bring light to an issue that is often makes one feel embarrassed or ashamed. I hope that you and I can find the strength to overcome trichotillomania ! 😊
Yulisa Cortez this was such a sweet comment thank you!!!!! im glad you liked the video❤️❤️
I’ve never laughed so much. You make me feel like I’m not alone and you turn a hard conservative situation into something amazing. Thank you 🥰x
I've been going through this for a while, about 6 or 7 years now and I was just scrolling to find vids of people talking about their experiences and I came across yours... I like you girl lmao your adorbs
Jazmyn King aww ahaha thank you!!!
I just recently trained myself to stop. My fil makes fun of me because of it, behind my back and I have officially gone no contact also went no contact with my mil. She has bad narcissism. Couldn't be happier. My hair is growing! 💗 I shaved the parts of my head that had bald spots because I would rip out huge chunks. I decided to just go with a long haired mohawk. My hair is all the same length now (collar bone length.) My life has been stressful but I am doing so well at not pulling.
Omg I been in this dark place thinking and being ashamed of my self I have the same condition it really sucks sometimes I wish I can be normal 😰 glad I’m not the only one ur so strong wish I had the same confidence like you props to you 😍 ur beautiful
It will get better I have faith in you!
my daughter looks a lot like you same face shape and everything except she has blue eyes.
I'm the type to comment before I've finished the video but my last and final comment is yes sis ot helped I may have spent the whole time that I watched ur video pulling out the rest of my eyebrows but I did it with left hand and I'm a righty. U helped me because now o know there's someone out there with my sense of humor and my fucked up strange habit, not letting it consume their life. Sometimes I get so angry looking at what I did to myself but u made that moment lighter and easier to go thru. ThankYou❤❤❤❤
I know I’m late but I just found these videos, I also have trichotillomania - while I don’t pull my hair, my lashes and brows are completely gone. I’ve been doing it since moving to a different school district when I was 10. The school I moved to was in a small town, and I was not only the only black girl, but 1 of 2 Hispanic girls - and I was bullied incessantly, and experienced racism at a very sensitive age. The pulling developed as a coping mechanism - and now at 26 I’m only just now learning my triggers and attempting to repair my lashes and brows. Good luck to you! Also you’re stunning!
Excellent video. Definitely very relatable. I have been pulling on and off for well over a decade now and can't envision my hair ever going back to "normal". I hope you make progress lovely! x
Rosie hargreaves aw thank you this was so sweet, i hope so too for the both of us!
Love your humor!
i pull my eyelashes, but when i run out of those i pull my hair. i don’t know what to do. it’s like a habit that no matter how hard i try i cannot break
Keep trying you can beat this don’t give up 😉
Hi Megan, I totally understand you. I started pulling when I was 5. I thought it was funny that your cover-up was the whole wish thing. I started pulling out my eyelashes at first, and that is what started it. Now I pull out everything. Literally everything you can think of. Some more than others. Anyway, it is really good to hear from someone like me. I do the same thing with pulling out the top where the part is. I am sorry you have to live with such a struggle. The top of my head feels so good to pull out, too! Good luck, I hope you can recover!
Wow I feel you so much! I’ve had Trich since I was 7 years old. I am 22 now... it’s been a long journey. Can’t wait for it to go away completely. All the best with your journey
Genesis Pena-Carabajo You as well!!
Fellow TH-camr. Finally looked this up after my wife has been saying (what I thought was) “trick” forever to get me to be aware of pulling. I didn’t realize that this was actually a thing. Interesting to see so many commenters have this as well. Always thought I was just compulsive in my own way. Thank you for the wrist device recommendation. I really don’t even know that I’m doing it most of the time. Thanks kid!!! 😉
OMG YOUR FIRST EYELASH STORY HAPPENED TO ME TOO!!! that’s exactly how it went for me along with this main event that triggered everything
I started pulling my hair when I was 9 years old. Now I am almost 15, and only recently I was able to overcome this, I hope, forever. I believe that anyone who reads this will be able to overcome it too. I also want to say that you are a very brave and beautiful girl ♥️ (I'm sorry for my bad english)
Crucin, does your hair grow back from the plucked bald spots ?
@@jishnu5451 Hi, yes, I was also very worried about this, but my hair grows back
@@ІраСеменчук-в1ч what are the things did you do to grow it back ? Can you please elaborate a bit ?
I’ve been pulling since I was around 9, and I’m now nearly 13. I’ve got my first bald patch in such a long time and I don’t know what to do other than cry. And that’s what’s brought me here. I hate it so much and it just makes me so insecure.
I’m a 39 year old male and I’ve hade trick since I was 11 years young. Eye brows and eye lashes plus my beard is what I pull. I need to stop
Your personality is so amazing and I have trich as well and it used to be bad and I’m going through the same thing u we’re going through In 11th grade bc I’m a junior rn and it’s slowly coming back and getting worse but I hope u get big with TH-cam bc ilysm already u definitely earned my subscription
Thank you for sharing your story!
Also, you are so pretty and cute! Excited to see what other videos you will make!
Sprinkle Creativity Aw thank you!! Youre so sweet💗 and yes! Im excited for you guys to see other videos too!!
i have trich and i have very little hair in the back of my head. but i do gymnastics and have to wear my hair up. it makes me super self conscious. ☹️ any tips or hairstyles to use?
Tatum Masterson you messaged me about this and im glad you did! message me whenever!
after suffering for 13 years i have finally found a way to control it and am pull free for 5 weeks! there always hope everyone
How did you learn to control it?
Keep doing what your doing I love you! Thank you for raising awareness and helping people xxo 💜💓
I have trich and I feel exactly the same way. It was bad in my teens, then I had a weave of sorts (painful and expensive) and stopped for a while and now I am back to being as bad as I was as a teenager.
And like you said I'm not depressed but its rough. Thanks for being brave enough to share.
i’m proud of you! keep staying strong and i’m excited to see more videos from you :)
p.s. i really love that headband haha
aww thank you!! thanks for sticking around 💗 filming today!
This was an amazing video, I hope your hair grows back quickly and healthy
Emma Panda thank you! me too!
Watched the one where you showed things to grow your hair back first and now this one. I started bottom lashes in high school and moved onto all lashes in my later years of undergrad university. I'm 33 now and my head hair has just started to become an issue. My hair is thinning a bit from mental health meds as it is and sometimes it comes out easily. Last night I had a go pulling a lot of my head hair for the first time. I was like looking in the mirror saying to myself stop what are you doing but it's like I was in a trance or something and couldn't stop. I pray to God I don't continue. I can deal with no lashes a lot better than bald patches on my head. My hairline in right side by my temple is way far back now. I'm going to change my part and I bought a headband on the way to work as I have to pull my hair up for work. I'll be buying that root cover up today after work because I'm afraid my parents will see it. Yes I'm 33 with a husband and three year old boy and I still don't want my parents to see 😂. They'll just worry about me and ask me how I'm doing and make it worse. I love them and I know they mean well but it just doesn't help. I think I'm going to try wearing long head coverings when at home like you do as well. This is rambly lol. Thank you for your videos and tips.
I can relate a lot cuz my main bald area is around my hairline and at the back of my hair. I was actually diagnosed with alopecia before cuz i didnt know this type of disorder exists. Then, one day i decided to research about DID but then on the recommended section i saw "hair pulling disorder" then i decided to click it. That same day i found out i was misdiagnosed with trichotillomania and til this day my family believes i have alopecia. They dont rlly know about it cuz i decide not to so it cant be a problem to them
You are really pretty! I also suffer from trich, I mostly pull my eyebrows & eyelashes. Still working on growing them 15 years later.
Hello Jewell, does your hair grow back from the plucked bald spots ?
Jishnu Doley my hair actually does grow back and fast
It feels so good to know im not the only one suffering from this. I started in the summer from 6th grade to 7th grade and it was so hard because i was switching school, so in 7th grade i was in a new school and with no eye lashes it wss really hard and i will cry almost everyday. Then 8th grade comes up and i kinda stop for like 6 months pullings my eyelashes i mean i will still do it but only I will pull out like 2 hairs. Then 9th grade comes up and we are in the middle of the pandemic so u know how that went again i had 0 eyelashes. Now im going into 10th grade and i have lashes but i have a little spot but i covered with black shadow as an eyeliner and mascara. (I only pull out my eyelashes im so bless because my hair is really long and is my source of confidence because everybody says how long and pretty it is)
Thank you for sharing this! I just shaved my head to try and break the pulling habit. Also you're adorable and fun to watch. I hope you keep posting.
Katie Grausam Howd it go shaving your head? did it help? im always in a battle with myself over whether or not i should do it 😅 But thank you for this sweet comment! I will definitely keep posting :)
@@MeganProsser I just shaved it last week. I feel pretty badass actually. My hands still go for my head but it's too short to pull so I don't get that satisfaction. My thin spots don't look as bad now that it's all short.
Katie Grausam aw great im glad to hear it! and yess👏🏼👏🏼 you definitely look like a badass ahh, the only thig holding me back honestly is my bald spots, cause i wont be able to hide them with a buzz cut uk!? its nice to hear from others though and they’re experience so thank you for sharing yours!
I’m so thankful that I’m learning to stop it
You're so cute.
Stay strong!
I have this condition too, and I have had it for a while 😔
I found that, if all else fails, cutting the hair instead of pulling gives me the same relief. It doesnt help with looks at all, but at least you aren't damaging your hair follicles.
The reason i started pulling my hairs out was because i thought they was "infected" because i would pull out the dead ones & there would be this "goop" on the end & it turns out the "goop" was my hair follicles. So yah. Now i have baldspots all over my head & only 3 other people know about it & their not my family. Oh yah & i started pulling my hair out in 5th grade, now im in 8th.
okay hi!! i have trich too. i love this video. in the summer going into 5th grade i started pulling out my eyebrows and i had NONE. and i still don’t have any and i fell them in every single day. then 7th grade i started pulling my hair on my head. in the front and in the back. thankyou for sharing your story. i still struggle. literally no one knows at all. but now you do. so fun. have a good day!!
Claudia Poloney aww this was such a heartfelt comment, im glad you told somebody even if it was just me in the comment section of my video! thats brave!! you are amazing! if you ever need anything message me on instagram or email me!! i believe in you❤️
Love you and so proud of you meg ❤️
Melissa Cooney love youuuu!!
I’m so happy I found this channel I haven’t ever had anyone to talk to about lol his
You on the hairbrush mic warmed my heart lol! And this iPhone quality is beautiful. Bless Cole for that bracelet it's awesome. Luh u beautiful. 💖
Kristy Jahchan I love you kj!! thank you for everything!💗💗
OMG. i am literally watching this and I had no idea this existed. I have this spot that I used to pull and this hairdresser was like omg, what is this?! I felt so crap and I am literally going to shave my head tomorrow! Yay! But its not so bad, I used to pull out my eyelashes more but its getting better 💜
**FOR ANYONE GOING THROUGH THIS**
If its done in some sort of "automatic" mind state, then meditation would certainly help as ultimately yoga's goal is to make any automatic movement into a conscious movement (breath, walk and OCD's).
This is not perfect solution though, as now you might have to deal with some sort of "extra" awareness type of anxiety, still this is better as you have more leverage upon this than over the sympathetic/automated one.
OCD's might return even when having attained a good meditation level but it would be on a very mild form.
If you want the "shortcut" without prescription meds. Try "KAVA" (natural and AMAZING yet a bit pricey) or "Buspirone" (non-prescription safe anti-anxiety)
If you have any question, feel free to ask and I will try to reply as fast as I can
screw that kid who made fun of you wearing a "wig" you're beautiful.. I also have Trich, I'm 20 now and have had trich since I can remember. Don't let other people diminish your confidence and self worth just because of your hair..I feel your struggle though
Joe Monaco Thank you so much! Ive learned that the hard ways throughout the years but comments like that nowadays go right over my head. But thank you for this comment! Its nice to know were not alone in this world :)
I just found your channel and wanna say you’re so cute and your personality is so nice and calming. And I also struggle with pulling my hair, it’s not to the same extent as you but I can relate to your struggles! ❤️
I've been suffering from Trich since fourth grade. I'm in ninth grade rn and I'm trying so hard to stop....my parents don't understand this...that's what my worst mistake has been...hiding from my family.
I have the perfect hair and good eyebrows (mostly) but when it comes to lashes, I have very few. It makes me feel ugly and hated even though that isn't true. We don't talk about the sadness that trichtillomania causes...whatever you do...don't do what I did...don't hide...for yourself
Hi! Ive been struggling with Trich since 4th too. Im in fifth now, and i’ve pretty much stopped. Things i did to help were when your pulling, stop breath and slow down your thinking. When i eventually stopped pulling i bought castor oil. It helps so much to grow head hair, eyelashes, and eyebrows fast, i really wish you the best, hope this helped! 🙂
I love the positivity!
Yes the wish thing. Me too. My mum basically said before I started secondary school that I had to grow my eyelashes back or everyone would think I was weird. So now I have my eyelashes but I’m pulling out my head hair.
I started to pull when I was eight too and I know the cause now cause I saw psychologists. I got trichotillomania at 8 and trichophagia at 11 now i’m 16. I pull my hair ( the middle part ) and my eyelashes too. The hardest part is the HAIRSTYLES to hide the damage. I still use eyeliner for my lashes ✨.
Good luck it will be alright ❤️
¡GRACIAS! Thanks for giving us this information. My sister and I have this condition too, and this tips have been sooo helpful. Saludos desde Perú. :)
I'm not sure how or why I began pulling out my hair but I do remember it felt like therapy. My mother and step father fought often. Lots of screaming and alcohol involved even throwing of things. I believe anxiety is why I started pulling out my hair. I'd wrap it around my thumb and suck my thumb. Anyway I'm 29 now and I had to do my own research to discover I had trichotillomania.
I pull my hair when I study. But I don't know why I do that..
The SSt i know its tricky:/ none of us really know why we do it but there are things you can do to help prevent it! you got this, i believe in you!
Megan, ouch, tough gig to have to endure. Your fiery, yet "it is what it is" demeanor displayed while making this video is essential to surviving this potentially life long struggle. Basically you have 2 choices, 1. Stop the triching and live a normal life of activities, walking in the rain, swimming, sweating, being in direct sunlight with people sitting above and behind you. Standing in line at checkout counters, concerts etc. with people behind you. Hopefully most of your hair follicles are nor permanently damaged at your early stage of this maddening obsession. #2 You never get over it and then live a life of concealment. People being how we are, seem to always have something to say about others afflictions. Can't hate them for it, it is just our nature.I started at about 8, was in foster homes for 3 years. Mom was gone (mixed up with the wrong people and got locked up. Dad married another woman, and she was the quint essential wicked step mother. Life with them was pure hell, us 4 kids from the 1st marriage had stress levels that were off the charts. Saw a shampoo commercial one day about split ends, went in looked at my hair in the bathroom mirror, YIKES I have split ends! And that was all it took, break this one off, pull this one out. Years later I realized I was damaged. In middle school kids behind me blurting out and laughing "Hey Greg has a bald spot, very cringe worthy moments. Ended up running away from home (10 times), being truant enough till eventually I dropped out of school. Anything but have my imperfection acknowledged and thus exposing my weakness. I joined the US Army the day I was 17. Head gets shaved and for the next 9 years the problem goes away. Start smoking hash and living the fast life. Eventually the army life and its stresses caused me to not re-enlist. My stammering and stuttering from my youth had come back with a vengeance, and being a Forward Observer, all we do is talk on the field radios. So I pulled the plug and left the army. 82nd Airborne Paratrooper, tough enough, but not tough enough for my demons. The trich re-manifested itself into my life and continued to this day at 63. Oh I became selective about it, not to much from one spot, really thinned out my whole head. But I can still hide it, thanks to my fine hair and concealment products. I did the spray for a bit but it was not cutting it, clumpy etc. I knew I was not ever going to stop it at this point in my life and I deep down knew I had to keep this trick compulsion at bay for as long as possible. Keep up the act, because I still have to interact with the populous and not be such a freak I was shunned from contact. Lets just say I'm a tile contractor and work in homes of many nationally recognized movie stars and other well known figures etc. I'm there because of my insatiable carnal desire to be perfect in everything I do. Try to take on the most demanding exquisite jobs and will almost always succeed in taking them to the point where I'm told I exceeded their expectations. That gratifies my in some strange way, to standout like this. But yet when I'm alone the demon hair pulling urge returns. Something about knowing I'm visually damaging myself and yet I persist at doing this. Almost Like I'm punishing myself for letting my self get here. The numb pain from pulling the hair sensationalizes the area with a tingling that lasts for hours and even the next day I can imagine I feel the tingling, gratifying feel, yet never too far away is the horrible disgusting self loathing thought,regretting that I keep doing this to myself. I have a girlfriend of 15 years who knows of my affliction, she helps out a lot. She is a cosmetologist, was actually the director at a hair academy, so she knows a few tricks to help me conceal. That is another reason I wanted to write you. If your battle persists you will need more weapons to help in different situations. I will use exclusively now a product called "Dermatch". You can be almost totally bald, but as long as there are baby fine hairs for it to attach to it quadruples the hairs appearance and blam no more bald spot. The I use the Keratin hair fibers to finish things off and it looks like I have a whole head of hair. Now I'm a guy who keeps my hair somewhat short and still have about 1/4th of my natural hair and it is about 2 1/2 inches long. So this whole charade can be pulled off quite convincingly. Yet while it will get you through uncomfortable situations its not like I want someone 2 feet away behind me in sunlight scoping me out, it will do a satisfactory job on a day to day basis. Look into it, could be a viable trick to keep on hand for those necessary moments. "Dermatch" , "Hair So Real" from eBay and then a good holding hairspray and life goes on. Your real choice would to be Quit the damn hair pulling, it ill take you down a long miserable road to no where but self loathing. Turn on your inner strength like your life depends on it, because it does. I read where you questioned about shaving and then your thoughts about when it regrows in it will be splotchy. The trick is from my army days is to keep it shaved for a couple years. Let a few grow cycles come and go. Then the thinner areas will fill in. Now when you grow it back out, it will be uniform. But do this sooner than later, don't wait for some crazy period of time, try to save your hair follicles while you are young. massage nutrients into your scalp, come to love your head, treat it with respect, add the vitamins, massage it and dream of a glorious head of hair in a couple of years. You girls are lucky in that you can wear wigs, guys wear hats (I rarely wear hats myself). So look out for some expensive wigs that people are selling off and hook yourself up. You can pull this off, why do I say that? I watched your courageous video (it made me cry). Look at you, going through this crap. But you know what, you are calling yourself out on a very public stage. What courage, what balls. You are taking yourself place I never dared go with my trich. Keep the video alive, don't let that inner demon win honey. Keep getting out and be around people who you love an who love you. I think happiness and a content life will go along way in preventing you from finding a life of self loathing that will be waiting for you if you cant get off this damn self destructive road. The FB group may be just the ticket you need to be around others like us. it could actually be pretty dang cool to be with others sharing a common mania, it would help you fight the fight better than being alone with it. I'm too far down the road for that, never even have had a FB account etc. Go get it done, save your self, save your mind, have a life that you can only dream of having. Come on soldier, there is a battle to be fought, time to get tough!www.dermmatch.com, www.toppik.com, I use the "Hair So Real" fibers, but gave you a link to Toppic, they have a better site to explain things. HSR is just cheaper and works fine.If you want to see my cool car, look at my You Tube Channel. You can see my obsessive compulsive disorder come out there too, lol. Have been building it for about 10 years now.th-cam.com/video/eVvJHbZnUWs/w-d-xo.html, Take care fellow traveler, life is such rollercoaster of emotions and circumstances. Hope your ride brings many memorable moments. You are your ships captain...
I have it too for 29 years . Try leech therapy. Stay away from mirror. There is no treatment. I saw the best Doctors .
Do hairs grow back? I've had this too
Helena Husky some do some don’t
Stop it with free will. Thats the only solution.
TheFatBurito the only solution is
A time . In case your brain chemistry changes . It might stop asking u to pull. Free will won’t help u when brain 🧠 asks u to itch 🤣
it sucks a lot :( i sorry youve had it for so long, i believe in you!! i agree though hopefully overtime out brains will just chill out, just gotta stay hopeful
YOUR MAKE UP IS PERFECT WOW
OMG!😮 I'm so proud of you for sharing your experience with trich, I also suffer from this and I only pull my lashes🤪but I've been wearing lashes for about 5yrs now and I learned to put my lashes under my lid placing the glue on top the lash instead of the bottom and it looks so natural looking and you won't see the line at all or try the invisible strip 👍...FYI for my hair pullers family 😚😙👀stay 💪 we're all in this together!😘
Thank youuuu
My trick story and adventure started around in fifth grade... occasionally an eyelash would fall out and my friend would say make a wish and it might come true... I blew my eyelash off my finger and made a wish.. I wished my crush would ask me out. Since my eyelashes wouldn’t just fall out I decided I was going to pull my eyelashes to make a wish. It eventually came true but we broke up a couple months later. But then I became addicted to pulling my eyelashes when I pulled them out it was so satisfying and I always had blotches in my eyelashes. I stopped for a while then one day my hands led to my eyes and started pulling to the point my fingers hurt but I wanted TO PULL. I... had.... no.... eyelashes.... so eventually I got into 7th grade I told my mom my eyebrow hurt in a specific place and she goes it’s probably an ingrown hair so I started to try and find the ONE eyebrow hair that was ingrown and became bald on one eyebrow. So then... I became upset with how I cope with my trick and started pulling hairs off my legs and arms and places where I don’t prefer to have hair. It worked for a while then I had the urge to pull out EVERYTHING! My eyelashes.. GONE! My eyebrows... GONE! and I’m still struggling. “You can just stop. It’s not hard to stop pulling hair” it’s almost like a drug you cannot stop I promise you at any given opportunity to pull or tug at hair please don’t.
if you have the chance, get to some Kava bar or order Kava from the internet. Yes, is not so cheap, but is amazing at calming, it would for sure lower down a lot any OCD's.
Get the certified noble kava types, as the other wont be effective.
Hugs and best wishes
Megan! I loved your vid! ❤️❤️. We have similar personalities. Funny story. Although I was not suffering from this disorder, I grew my bangs real long to cover my eyes, but I did it because I was so painfully shy and wanted to avoid eye contact. That whole year no one saw more than one eye at a time, I had that peekaboo look. Turns out I couldn’t walk without at least one exposed eye! I hope you do well with your channel!
I had trichotillomania since I was 4 years… the struggle, the bullying…. Makes me feel bad as I never had the chance of having long hair and eveybody bullied me for that
That's so crazy because my trichotillomania started when I was 8 and now I am twelve. It was really bad the first 3 years. I didn't have any eyelashes or eyebrows, but eventually grew them back over the years. But I still do pull occasionally
Thank you for being so fucking brave!!!
Omg we have a similar story ....I saw that Clip of the girl pulling her hair as well and said to my self “wow that’s strange” and then without realising I started doing it too and couldn’t stop and now I have no control over it and do it when I’m depressed and anxious, it’s been 7 yrs since and I curse the day I saw that vid 😔
Damnnn I miss my long and shiny hair when I was a kid. I started to pluck my hair since I was 11... And now I'm 19, still can't stop plucking...
I have trichotilomania as well so you are not l alone I pulled out my eyes leashes I first started when my love ones passed away so that was way to delt the pian so I pulled out my eyes leashes to soothe my pian and it gone out of control and I still pull my eyes leashes at 23 and my mum is heart broken when I pulled out my eyes leashes my lashes used to be very long when I was younger I but I trying to stop pulling them but is so hard not to pull and I’m worried that they won’t grow back never again because I pulled so much of them you are amazing do this channel you are so brave to do it ♥️
I love the part right before you were gonna do your hair!
You're hilarious Megan, thought you should know :)
Honey I got it too since 3 years love you there is hope anxiety is the cause honey so be happy be around good people
Megan I have the same problem I pull out my eyelashes and eyebrows and my hair it's horrible I hate how I feel I hate how I look it's nice to see someone like you
Amanda Marack aw im glad i can help, but im so sorry you are having such a hard time. if you need anything ever don’t hesitate to contact me. we’re stronger together❤️
I have Trich too but my parents don’t know. I’m only young but I don’t know how to tell them.
youre very funny. thank you for this, i used to pull the hairs where they were kinkiest (on the back of my neck) super straight and then hold from the bottom and pull up and i would make these thick ass knots. i used to just feel them on my fingers and i enjoyed it. now i pull at my "edges" and "sideburns" of my head
Apparently I started pulling my hair out when I was about a year old or so, so this was back in 1991. My parents took me to the doctor, doctors didn't really know about trich at this point, he said it wasn't cause for concern because I wasn't balding, so that was the end of that. I remember I used to ride in the car with my mom in the passenger's seat when I was about 4 or 5 and would stare at the hair on her arms and would pull one or two out and would get fussed at. I don't know if your parents did this, but I got fussed at a lot because they were concerned, wanted me to stop, and just didn't understand it. Didn't work. I also had this "brilliant" idea to cut off part of my eyebrows with scissors when I was sick with chicken pox at one point. I have no idea why... I guess a combination of "eyebrows are weird....", a fever, extreme boredom from being home for several days, extreme itchiness, and being unsupervised, it seemed like a good idea at the time. I looked ridiculous lol. My mom had to put either eyebrow pencil or eye shadow where I had cut them - right in the middle of each brow - for several weeks. Good times. With active pulling, I ended up starting with my eyelashes - I remember mom putting eyeliner while I fought her before school - and I eventually stopped at some point in the 4th grade, but that's unfortunately because I started pulling the hair on my head instead. I pulled a lot of baby hairs that I had out at one point in 5th grade, but I eventually stopped. I stopped completely in 7th grade, but ended up picking it up again because I was really stressed in 8th grade and I honestly thought "maybe just a few hairs and let that be that" .... well it didn't. I didn't have to worry about covering any spots or not, but that's also because I took it out on my eyebrows. They were super, super thin lines. I went to being so self conscious about having thick eyebrows that I had this distorted view that they had to be very thin. It was bad. It look as if I drew a single, thin line of dark brown eyeliner and went about my day. 9th grade rolls around and I'm pulling more because I went into a deep depression. I started seeing a therapist for the trich when I randomly searched "hair pulling" in the baby edition of Google back then (this was 2004). My depression just progressed and that eventually exploded into having a mental breakdown at the beginning of 10th grade and being diagnosed with bipolar disorder. I definitely had some thinner spots on the top of my head in 9th grade, but I had such long and thick hair that I was easily able to hide it, but I knew it was there, so I just kept pulling because for whatever reason my stress about a thin spot makes me do the opposite of leaving it alone. It got a bit worse in 12th grade even though I was doing better with my mental health stability, but I still kept pulling. I would say it got to its worst when I transferred from community college to a university and was dealing with a breakup from a very abusive relationship. My hair was short at the time, so I actually wore a wig for a while. I actually did have a weave as well because I was sick with being in the awkward stage of growing my hair out, except it was a sew-in, so I couldn't take it out at night. That was a disaster because even though I washed it to the best of my ability, it just got so disgusting and moldy after about 3 or so weeks that I had to have my mom cut it out with kitchen scissors. It took me about a good hour or more to scrub all of that crap out of my scalp. Never again! I do NOT miss having to pat it to help stop the itch. I didn't pull a ton of my scalp hair from about late 2012-2015, but in the meantime I was back to obsessively plucking my eyebrows to the point of barely being there :( I had to become a master at using eyebrow wax mixed with powder. It has seriously taken until very recently to have a full set of eyebrows again, but they're not nearly as full as they used to be. Hopefully they'll get there in time, but I can go without having to fill them in. I'm hoping to get them microbladed eventually, but that's expensive. I managed to grow all of my hair back except for a small spot where I kept pulling out white hairs in 2016. I started pulling again pretty badly recently in November, so while I'm not noticeably bald, I'm hiding thin spots around my ears and temples. My hair is long again, so thankfully it's not super obvious. I'm just bummed I'm still fighting it at almost 29, but I know it's usually a life-long thing. Have you ever tried DermMatch? I need to get some more, but it seriously helped me so much. It's as waterproof as it can be, blends in with your scalp with a little bit of brushing, and the texture of it helps me leave thinning spots alone. I've been taking 5000 mcg of Biotin with coconut oil in it since August and it has really been helping my hair grow very quickly, so a lot of my bald and thinning spots have been growing in pretty fast all things considering. I've been wanting to try Habitaware, but I'm limited on funds, so hopefully I can save for it or something. Sorry for the long message, but I really appreciate you taking the time and being brave about sharing what you're going through. I had no idea there were so many people that had the disorder for the longest time until more people started sharing about it on TH-cam over the past several years. It's good to know I'm not alone. I'm also still trying to figure life out, so that's another journey I'm on!
ok? don’t apologize for the long message! we all have a story and its nice to let it out to be heard! im glad you shared it all and got it all out, you are brave! im glad my video helped you in some way. i believe in you and your hair!!
@@MeganProsser thank you 😊😊😊😊
Wow I relate to this so fuckin much lol. I started pulling I think freshman year of highschool. I started on my head and at the same time pulled out all of my eye lashes. It was horrible. Luckily now I don’t pull out my eyelashes but it’s all redirected to my scalp. Im like really embarrassed to admit this but I know other people with trichotillomania experience this but I also eat the hairs and it got so bad that I had to have an endoscopy because my stomach was so irritated so that’s fun. Anyway, I literally lived in this black beanie everyday day of my life from freshman year to junior year of highschool. I remember one time one of my friends pulled it off in the hallway at school as a joke because she didn’t know and I was *mortified* to say the least. I recently saw pictures of myself when I used to wear my beanie and I didn’t think it was that bad but seeing the pictures was shocking. I literally pulled out all the hair in front and in the back it was not a look lol. I then got a hair piece which was kind of a traumatic experience because I was supposed to get a clip on weave because it was my first one but they actually glued it to my head and when I tell you I freaked the fuck out and we went back and they took it off lol. I got the clip in one and actually wore it to junior prom and my hair looked fucking snatched™️. I also fucking lived for the root cover up stuff that you shook on your head lol. I wasn’t pulling as much so my hair kind of grew in and I decided to cut it and dye it red. Life was going good and my hair was starting to grow in and it wasn’t really noticeable but low and behold college started kicking my ass and now I’m going into my third year of college and now my hair is kind of taking a turn for the worst but ya know it’s chill lol. Btw ur makeup looks amazing and ur hilarious!
for me it all started when i found these super curly & wavy strands of hair in my naturally straight hair , and i started picking them out . now it’s rare that i find any , but i pull out any hair that feels abnormal to me . & now i have a tiny bald spot in the back of my head...and have to wear a hood whenever my hair is out . ☹️
that’s exactly how mine started. i remember finding this one really curly hair and then it just went from there trying to pull out every single one of them. i have a bald spot in the back of my head now. 🙁😭
maddie we are literally the same person .
senpaii 。 good luck to you. don’t give up
I have trich also, and you made me feel better about it. ❤ I have no lashes and pulled out most of my brows, so makeup is essential when I leave the house. 😭
Omg, you're so pretty. You kinda look like young Wynona Ryder
хочу умереть но жду камбэк omg aww!! thats so nice!
I’ve been dealing with this condition since I was three years old. Unfortunately it’s gotten worse over the past couple years. I’ve tried medications and I also tried this thing called CBD oil. I thought they were working for a while, but lately they haven’t. I’ll see if I can try the keen habit bracelet. Maybe it’ll help me control it better. I don’t know what else to do.