If you are still spending time with the root cause of your marriage problem then you are not ready to let go of it. I, too, almost made what would have been a huge mistake for myself, one I would have never recouped from. Luckily the love was strong in my home life and I had never stepped over that final line. I'm where I belong, and I'm staying right here. Choose wisely.
Praying for healing for you, your family and the bundle. Being alone isn’t always so bad. I’ve been living alone for years. And recently my only companion Wyatt crossed over from cancer last October. I’m not the same but I’m not supposed to be. I was told I now need to learn how to be without him. It is hard or painful sometimes and I do cry at times. But - Feeling connection to the Creator is crucial for all of us. Wyatt (my companion dog) he’s still around and sometimes shows up to see me. Spirit is good. 🌟🦅
Ryan I don't understand if you truly want to build your marriage with Mahoney back up, how you can consider taking Chelsea out on what sounds like a date & then back to her apartment where you don't have to "be in bed alone". Sounds to me like you want to stay married and have a girlfriend on the side, I think eventually one or both of these women are going to put their foot down and say enough is enough make a choice which one do you truly want to be with!
Cross ties are extremely heavy to work with. Please go back home, Mahoney is wanting to reestablish some sense of normality. You said that is what you wanted and need. If you keep this up, the back and forth with your apt. friend, you'll lose Mahoney. You can't have your cake and eat it to.
Great news that you and your wife are on the path to reconciliation. Divorce is bad news ... especially for children. Until death do you part. Best wishes to you both.
Hey Buddy, Catching up on your life while mine has been hectic. I have a different perspective.. Based on my own life and marriage. Feb 1 is my anniversary and we've been married 22 years now. We had infidelities in our marriage, and for about five years it was so hard that we were sure we'd divorce. At the time, I had two friends going through the ends of marriages (they have both since remarried and seem happy). So I see both sides. Our actions are another way we communicate, and the message is individual. For me, what I was vocalizing at the time didn't seem to be heard, so unconsciously I chose to speak with actions. I thought a lot about that. I thought a lot about what I wanted and what I didn't want, and I realized that whatever happened I had to figure out how to make myself happy. That was the beginning of a journey of real change. The reasons we're still together are so complex but let me tell you: it starts with the individual. Maybe even for each of you. I think we survived because under our marriage is a friendship that was there first, so that we can speak as friends even when we don't want to be lovers. I love you and all you do. Your journey is important too. Peace.
FAMILY is the MOST important!! REBUILD your bonds. She's more important than you realize so treasure her & give her respect. Turn towards Jesus & pray about it first & foremost. HE's gonna see yall through this. I've been married for a long time & it takes work. DEVOTE your time & energy to what's important!! Don't loose her over pride or selfishness or anything else. Make her feel like she's the MOST important person to you. Make her feel wanted & loved. She needs that. GOOD LUCK U 2 GOD BLESS
@Journal of my life AWWE, I'm truly sorry hun about what yall are going through. Don't throw your life away. It's too important. I only want what's best for both yall. I hope yall can work things out. Look upon Jesus. HE shall see yall through this.
Watching you drape the canvas I had an idea and you may have already tried this but here goes ... what about creating a cover that the trap sleeves into leaving both ends open or leaving just one end open so you aren't having to sneak up so to speak to cover them?
All kidding aside... it’s great to hear from you. It’s been awhile! As far as all of your comments about what you’re doing about your personal life & what you’re not doing...well that’s entirely between you & Mahoney & the rest of your family. BUT...& you knew this was coming...BUT, I’ve been where you’ve been. Not only personally but am now going through it with my daughter. It’s all very difficult...& there is no respite from it. Bc it’s so VERY emotional...& emotions are something, that no matter what you do, they are always with you! Even in your sleep...they can affect all of our daily cycles that we go through. Another one is eating! You have really lost some weight, my friend. Maybe your rock friend could help you find it? (Another dumb joke...🙃!) Back to serious...& this is only my opinion & you know what they say about those. Anyway, in my experienced opinion...I’ve learned you really have to commit to one thing or another. Either spending every night & hopefully your days, at home & trying to rebuild what you have with Mahoney & go to counseling with & w/o her or don’t. It just doesn’t work otherwise. AND...it’s not fair to your family...ALL OF YOUR FAMILY. It may not work & again, it might. But just like the wall you’re working to rebuild, you can’t just go half way with it, then say, “Ok, let’s go do something else”. Maybe build a fence in your yard...then half way through, you stop & go somewhere else. What you end up with is a bunch of unfinished “fences” & no one is happy, including yourself. Just my opinion...from someone who cares...just so you know it’s not just for nothing & I have been thinking a lot about your situation. I hope that whatever you & everyone else decides, you ALL can come to some kind of solution that you ALL can commit to!! Keep warm...yes, you do have some cold wind blowing your way. So hunker down & stay safe. Suggestion: When the wx allows...go out & do something fun, something that makes YOU happy, all by yourself & take a day off from your emotions!! Just get out of your own head for a bit...it’ll help.
I came across something that I think you should read. It is online at Marriage Advice I Wish I Would Have Had by Gerald Rodgers. Maybe all of married folks should read this. It is geared towards men. Let me know if you read it.
I read it, but don't know that I'd agree with it. Doesn't make the woman responsible for anything in the relationship. Sounds like, if she's an angry person, the man is just supposed to accept that. If she shuts herself off, he needs to give her space. Etc. This is the "wife can do no wrong" version of marriage reality
From what I can see, you seem to be trying to figure things out in probably the most difficult way imaginable. You can't live at the house, live at Chels, go out with one, go to counseling with the other. If your therapist hasn't told you yet, you have to finish one relationship before starting another and you can't keep both relationships in any kind of intimate way. You are being unfair to everyone involved. You need to be thinking and making decisions on what you want out of life, but you need to stop bouncing between both woman. Finish what you have with Mahoney if that's what you choose, and leave Chels alone until you are done with your marriage. If you want to stay married to Mahoney, then you're going to have to cut Chels out and seriously work at your marriage. One or the other, you can't have both. I'm sorry you are all going through this, but do it in the right way. Don't make more hurt than their needs to be because the scenario you have going is hurting everyone. Just my opinion, I've been on both ends of this kind of thing. Just back away from both and figure yourself out first. Then you can do what you need and want to do where Mahoney is concerned. Chels shouldn't be in the picture at all right now.
Part of me feels like a coward for sleeping in Belle's room right now, instead of at Chelsea's where I probably should be. Same time, I also feel like I'm at least being honest, finally, with everyone (YT included). And I don't think that I necessarily need to choose one woman over another. They occupy different positions in relation to me, and I'm okay with that. They're not in competition, at least in my mind. Though in theirs? Or in the opinions of others? That's where things get muddy. I am hurting everyone, from this position. But is it better for me to choose - even though it would be dishonest - one side to turn my back on? That seems fucked up to me
@@akayokaki I am sure they both have a place in your life, and yes that's fine, but what place is that? Do they know where that is, or what it means? That is really what you need to distinguish, for them and for you. If Mahoney's place has changed, then you need to deal with that first because she is still your wife. Yes, it would be really fucked up to turn your back on one or the other, but that's not what I said. Women deal in emotions, we can't turn it off, ever. So, even though intellectually you believe your being honest and are trying to do right with both, your hurting them both every time you spend time with the other. Decide what you need, and deal with it from there. Only you know what is really in your heart, mind, and soul.
I know it's hurting everyone. So, the answer is to focus on hurting one person more, and quickly? Give'em some hard(er) trauma that's rooted in convenience rather than truth? I don't know about that, even though it's clearly the standard way of negotiating these things
No one is getting out of the situation unscathed, unfortunately. I didn't mean quickly, but the longer it is drawn out the harder it will be on all of you. I don't know all the answers, I didn't ever claim to, but I know how each of you feels since I've been in each of those situations. I've been the cheater, the cheated, and the other woman and they all fucking suck! This is a difficult situation, it has to be dealt with carefully, but I know that jumping from one relationship into another without finishing the chapter on the first is detrimental to all.
It seems you are going about your relationship like tackling the railroad ties. You have to try to fix your relationship with Mahoney, she is a very special person, she has been there for you. Stay away from Chealsi, your with her for all the wrong reasons, being with her won't help your relationship with Mahoney. Like the railroad ties it's up to you what is salvageable. Search your heart and ask spirit for guidance. I like you for the way you care for animals. Best of luck to you Ryan.
It doesn't look like he is interested in fixing his relationship with Mahoney, not as long as he is staying with Chelsea.Oh well it's his life Let's see if when he starts coming home smelling like skunk how Chealsi likes that.
it is very brave of you to be this public with the situation you created, many will not be understanding. the most important thing is that you be totally honest. you need to figure out why you cheated and how you can not do that again. I have told people for years that if u get the urge to cheat that means something is wrong and u need to find out what before you hurt a lot of people. many times during this segment it sounded to me that you had made up your mind that for you the marriage is over and now it is about healing... I wish you well in this, it wont be easy and it shouldn't be.
Bless your heart. I feel your pain, frustrations and loneliness. I have been thru it all. I went thru my divorce many years ago, and lost almost everything. Every year was different trying to recover, but in doing so I found myself. "She had been lost and buried for years". I still have a therapist, which I am grateful for, as she has insights I wouldn't have seen on my own. The 1st therapist may not be the one you need. I went thru several until I connected with one. I will put you and your wife and family in my prayer book. Above all, that I FINALLY learned, be true to yourself and take care of yourself first. Blessings💖 PS....On a different note I would like to tell you how I found you and how you have helped me. I hate snakes, especially rattlesnakes....they scare me shitless. I have tried to face my fears, but nothing has worked until I found your channel. You have given me a whole new insight to especially rattlesnakes. I forced myself to watch your videos, and found the fear lessening. I also think that you are a very wise man and I like listening to your stories . I love your laugh, it makes me smile. I have NA heritage that my family has always denied, but I have always felt a deep connection to. I am trying to discover that part of me. I like how you go out into nature and take your barefoot walks. I know I need to do that, as that is how one becomes grounded and healed. I know that for me being in nature and in the mountains is where I become healed. You have set a good example for me and have given me hope. Thank you for being here. I feel like I know you because of your videos. We all have a purpose in this life and the journey is not always clear. Stay strong brother....and know that you are helping others in ways you haven't realized ✨
I'm a bit interested in how you feel about these 'comments'. You never really address them by replying. Are you taking them all in or do you feel that we don't have any right to address your situation? This is an open vlog, does Mahoney read and have any reactions to the comments.? I'm glad your financial situation is looking better and hopefully that will ease the burden you are carrying right now. We just went thru the 'polar vortex' here in the midwest. It was so stinking cold! Our poor 10 lb. dog had a heck of a time going potty. Her little feet got so cold when nature called. But she was a trooper and always went outside, no accidents! We are headed for a warm up now. Crazy weather! Keep up the time alone to do some serious thinking and decision making. It may take many therapists and a whole lot of time to figure out what to do. And in some cases there is no right choice -- just the best for you and those you care about. The grass is may look greener on the other side of the fence but those feelings change over time when you really get to know the person you think you want to be with. Remember what you have invested yourself into. One more thing, I too started watching your channel because I am scared to death of ALL snakes, the smaller the worse! You are slowly, and I mean slowly, helping me to see the beauty in them. Good luck on that! Best Wishes!
I'm definitely taking all the comments into consideration. Mahoney and Chelsea probably are too. One of the big benefits of sharing a journal publicly is that I can receive important feedback from people who have been observing my life for a decent stretch of time. I'm not much concerned with privacy, and that alone bugs some subscribers
Hello Ryan, it's good to see a post from you, for a bit there I was afraid we'd lost you to the dark side. I appreciate your honesty and openness about your dilemma. How will Chelsea handle knowing you're sleeping in your wife's home and possibly making amends with her over your potential relationship with her? How will Mahoney react to your spending a few nights with Chelsea obviously for predetermined actions and then coming back home to her? Sounds like a lot of drama to me. What is in your heart? Naturally you'll choose what brings you the most pleasure.... but will either selection still be in the "Mood" throughout your mind making period? I wouldn't want to be in your shoes friend. I'm keeping you in my prayers.... life is more than existing. You get one shot at it and must thrive and enjoy to be happy. To serve others you must first serve yourself. God Bless friend. Stay warm next week! Take care...... Peace and Love from Oklahoma USA
SuperDave21 .....Yes, life is more than existing. Sometimes when life gets overwhelming, some of us isolate to feel safe, then just are existing. That would be me, but I am trying to take baby steps back into living. Ryan, obviously you have a following of people that care very much about you. Thank you for being open and sharing with us. I admire you !!
What are you thinking? Truth is in your face and you're behaving like Freddie Lee. Sounds like you're having a midlife crisis. Hope things work out otherwise change your name to Ryan Freddie Lee!
The crow knows ...always ....... best of trails ....... take time.
If you are still spending time with the root cause of your marriage problem then you are not ready to let go of it.
I, too, almost made what would have been a huge mistake for myself, one I would have never recouped from. Luckily the love was strong in my home life and I had never stepped over that final line. I'm where I belong, and I'm staying right here.
Choose wisely.
Praying for healing for you, your family and the bundle. Being alone isn’t always so bad. I’ve been living alone for years. And recently my only companion Wyatt crossed over from cancer last October. I’m not the same but I’m not supposed to be. I was told I now need to learn how to be without him. It is hard or painful sometimes and I do cry at times. But - Feeling connection to the Creator is crucial for all of us. Wyatt (my companion dog) he’s still around and sometimes shows up to see me. Spirit is good. 🌟🦅
Ryan I don't understand if you truly want to build your marriage with Mahoney back up, how you can consider taking Chelsea out on what sounds like a date & then back to her apartment where you don't have to "be in bed alone". Sounds to me like you want to stay married and have a girlfriend on the side, I think eventually one or both of these women are going to put their foot down and say enough is enough make a choice which one do you truly want to be with!
Sounds like he's facing a midlife crisis.
Awww how fun for Oscar! I bet he is having fun.
I think he's loving the new level of attention and diversity of experience
You should keep up his adventures.
Thank you Ryan again!
Lucky Oscar 💙
Cross ties are extremely heavy to work with.
Please go back home, Mahoney is wanting to reestablish some sense of normality.
You said that is what you wanted and need.
If you keep this up, the back and forth with your apt. friend, you'll lose Mahoney.
You can't have your cake and eat it to.
Rule number one, Don’t KISS and tell!
Great news that you and your wife are on the path to reconciliation. Divorce is bad news ... especially for children. Until death do you part. Best wishes to you both.
@Journal of my life I am very sad to hear this. It's never too late to consult your Creator in prayer. With God, all things are possible.
It is always great to see you. I don't know if I missed what happened with the bearded dragon. I hope you the best with your struggles.
Hey Buddy,
Catching up on your life while mine has been hectic. I have a different perspective.. Based on my own life and marriage. Feb 1 is my anniversary and we've been married 22 years now. We had infidelities in our marriage, and for about five years it was so hard that we were sure we'd divorce. At the time, I had two friends going through the ends of marriages (they have both since remarried and seem happy). So I see both sides.
Our actions are another way we communicate, and the message is individual. For me, what I was vocalizing at the time didn't seem to be heard, so unconsciously I chose to speak with actions. I thought a lot about that. I thought a lot about what I wanted and what I didn't want, and I realized that whatever happened I had to figure out how to make myself happy. That was the beginning of a journey of real change.
The reasons we're still together are so complex but let me tell you: it starts with the individual. Maybe even for each of you. I think we survived because under our marriage is a friendship that was there first, so that we can speak as friends even when we don't want to be lovers.
I love you and all you do. Your journey is important too. Peace.
FAMILY is the MOST important!! REBUILD your bonds. She's more important than you realize so treasure her & give her respect. Turn towards Jesus & pray about it first & foremost. HE's gonna see yall through this. I've been married for a long time & it takes work. DEVOTE your time & energy to what's important!! Don't loose her over pride or selfishness or anything else. Make her feel like she's the MOST important person to you. Make her feel wanted & loved. She needs that. GOOD LUCK U 2 GOD BLESS
@Journal of my life AWWE, I'm truly sorry hun about what yall are going through. Don't throw your life away. It's too important. I only want what's best for both yall. I hope yall can work things out. Look upon Jesus. HE shall see yall through this.
Watching you drape the canvas I had an idea and you may have already tried this but here goes ... what about creating a cover that the trap sleeves into leaving both ends open or leaving just one end open so you aren't having to sneak up so to speak to cover them?
I've got some like that
@@akayokaki does it help to minimise the spray factor?
All kidding aside... it’s great to hear from you. It’s been awhile!
As far as all of your comments about what you’re doing about your personal life & what you’re not doing...well that’s entirely between you & Mahoney & the rest of your family. BUT...& you knew this was coming...BUT, I’ve been where you’ve been. Not only personally but am now going through it with my daughter. It’s all very difficult...& there is no respite from it. Bc it’s so VERY emotional...& emotions are something, that no matter what you do, they are always with you! Even in your sleep...they can affect all of our daily cycles that we go through. Another one is eating! You have really lost some weight, my friend. Maybe your rock friend could help you find it? (Another dumb joke...🙃!)
Back to serious...& this is only my opinion & you know what they say about those.
Anyway, in my experienced opinion...I’ve learned you really have to commit to one thing or another. Either spending every night & hopefully your days, at home & trying to rebuild what you have with Mahoney & go to counseling with & w/o her or don’t. It just doesn’t work otherwise. AND...it’s not fair to your family...ALL OF YOUR FAMILY. It may not work & again, it might. But just like the wall you’re working to rebuild, you can’t just go half way with it, then say, “Ok, let’s go do something else”. Maybe build a fence in your yard...then half way through, you stop & go somewhere else. What you end up with is a bunch of unfinished “fences” & no one is happy, including yourself. Just my opinion...from someone who cares...just so you know it’s not just for nothing & I have been thinking a lot about your situation. I hope that whatever you & everyone else decides, you ALL can come to some kind of solution that you ALL can commit to!!
Keep warm...yes, you do have some cold wind blowing your way. So hunker down & stay safe.
Suggestion: When the wx allows...go out & do something fun, something that makes YOU happy, all by yourself & take a day off from your emotions!! Just get out of your own head for a bit...it’ll help.
I came across something that I think you should read. It is online at Marriage Advice I Wish I Would Have Had by Gerald Rodgers. Maybe all of married folks should read this. It is geared towards men. Let me know if you read it.
I read it, but don't know that I'd agree with it. Doesn't make the woman responsible for anything in the relationship. Sounds like, if she's an angry person, the man is just supposed to accept that. If she shuts herself off, he needs to give her space. Etc. This is the "wife can do no wrong" version of marriage reality
Thanks for taking time to read it and for letting me know what it meant to you.
@@akayokaki
From what I can see, you seem to be trying to figure things out in probably the most difficult way imaginable. You can't live at the house, live at Chels, go out with one, go to counseling with the other. If your therapist hasn't told you yet, you have to finish one relationship before starting another and you can't keep both relationships in any kind of intimate way. You are being unfair to everyone involved. You need to be thinking and making decisions on what you want out of life, but you need to stop bouncing between both woman. Finish what you have with Mahoney if that's what you choose, and leave Chels alone until you are done with your marriage. If you want to stay married to Mahoney, then you're going to have to cut Chels out and seriously work at your marriage. One or the other, you can't have both. I'm sorry you are all going through this, but do it in the right way. Don't make more hurt than their needs to be because the scenario you have going is hurting everyone. Just my opinion, I've been on both ends of this kind of thing. Just back away from both and figure yourself out first. Then you can do what you need and want to do where Mahoney is concerned. Chels shouldn't be in the picture at all right now.
Part of me feels like a coward for sleeping in Belle's room right now, instead of at Chelsea's where I probably should be. Same time, I also feel like I'm at least being honest, finally, with everyone (YT included). And I don't think that I necessarily need to choose one woman over another. They occupy different positions in relation to me, and I'm okay with that. They're not in competition, at least in my mind. Though in theirs? Or in the opinions of others? That's where things get muddy. I am hurting everyone, from this position. But is it better for me to choose - even though it would be dishonest - one side to turn my back on? That seems fucked up to me
@@akayokaki I am sure they both have a place in your life, and yes that's fine, but what place is that? Do they know where that is, or what it means? That is really what you need to distinguish, for them and for you. If Mahoney's place has changed, then you need to deal with that first because she is still your wife. Yes, it would be really fucked up to turn your back on one or the other, but that's not what I said. Women deal in emotions, we can't turn it off, ever. So, even though intellectually you believe your being honest and are trying to do right with both, your hurting them both every time you spend time with the other. Decide what you need, and deal with it from there. Only you know what is really in your heart, mind, and soul.
I know it's hurting everyone. So, the answer is to focus on hurting one person more, and quickly? Give'em some hard(er) trauma that's rooted in convenience rather than truth? I don't know about that, even though it's clearly the standard way of negotiating these things
No one is getting out of the situation unscathed, unfortunately. I didn't mean quickly, but the longer it is drawn out the harder it will be on all of you. I don't know all the answers, I didn't ever claim to, but I know how each of you feels since I've been in each of those situations. I've been the cheater, the cheated, and the other woman and they all fucking suck! This is a difficult situation, it has to be dealt with carefully, but I know that jumping from one relationship into another without finishing the chapter on the first is detrimental to all.
Yep. Some great advice I was given once. "You have to land one plane before you take off in another"
Canadian soap-opera ?
Pretty much
It seems you are going about your relationship like tackling the railroad ties. You have to try to fix your relationship with Mahoney, she is a very special person, she has been there for you. Stay away from Chealsi, your with her for all the wrong reasons, being with her won't help your relationship with Mahoney. Like the railroad ties it's up to you what is salvageable. Search your heart and ask spirit for guidance. I like you for the way you care for animals. Best of luck to you Ryan.
It doesn't look like he is interested in fixing his relationship with Mahoney, not as long as he is staying with Chelsea.Oh well it's his life
Let's see if when he starts coming home smelling like skunk how Chealsi likes that.
Yeah...Ryan...a very dumb joke...but I still got a good chuckle out of it!! 🥴🙃😀😀!
it is very brave of you to be this public with the situation you created, many will not be understanding. the most important thing is that you be totally honest. you need to figure out why you cheated and how you can not do that again. I have told people for years that if u get the urge to cheat that means something is wrong and u need to find out what before you hurt a lot of people. many times during this segment it sounded to me that you had made up your mind that for you the marriage is over and now it is about healing... I wish you well in this, it wont be easy and it shouldn't be.
Bless your heart. I feel your pain, frustrations and loneliness. I have been thru it all. I went thru my divorce many years ago, and lost almost everything. Every year was different trying to recover, but in doing so I found myself. "She had been lost and buried for years". I still have a therapist, which I am grateful for, as she has insights I wouldn't have seen on my own. The 1st therapist may not be the one you need. I went thru several until I connected with one. I will put you and your wife and family in my prayer book. Above all, that I FINALLY learned, be true to yourself and take care of yourself first. Blessings💖
PS....On a different note I would like to tell you how I found you and how you have helped me. I hate snakes, especially rattlesnakes....they scare me shitless. I have tried to face my fears, but nothing has worked until I found your channel. You have given me a whole new insight to especially rattlesnakes. I forced myself to watch your videos, and found the fear lessening. I also think that you are a very wise man and I like listening to your stories . I love your laugh, it makes me smile. I have NA heritage that my family has always denied, but I have always felt a deep connection to. I am trying to discover that part of me. I like how you go out into nature and take your barefoot walks. I know I need to do that, as that is how one becomes grounded and healed. I know that for me being in nature and in the mountains is where I become healed. You have set a good example for me and have given me hope. Thank you for being here. I feel like I know you because of your videos. We all have a purpose in this life and the journey is not always clear. Stay strong brother....and know that you are helping others in ways you haven't realized ✨
hello
Take care and God loves you.
I'm a bit interested in how you feel about these 'comments'. You never really address them by replying. Are you taking them all in or do you feel that we don't have any right to address your situation? This is an open vlog, does Mahoney read and have any reactions to the comments.? I'm glad your financial situation is looking better and hopefully that will ease the burden you are carrying right now.
We just went thru the 'polar vortex' here in the midwest. It was so stinking cold! Our poor 10 lb. dog had a heck of a time going potty. Her little feet got so cold when nature called. But she was a trooper and always went outside, no accidents! We are headed for a warm up now. Crazy weather!
Keep up the time alone to do some serious thinking and decision making. It may take many therapists and a whole lot of time to figure out what to do. And in some cases there is no right choice -- just the best for you and those you care about.
The grass is may look greener on the other side of the fence but those feelings change over time when you really get to know the person you think you want to be with. Remember what you have invested yourself into.
One more thing, I too started watching your channel because I am scared to death of ALL snakes, the smaller the worse! You are slowly, and I mean slowly, helping me to see the beauty in them. Good luck on that!
Best Wishes!
I'm definitely taking all the comments into consideration. Mahoney and Chelsea probably are too. One of the big benefits of sharing a journal publicly is that I can receive important feedback from people who have been observing my life for a decent stretch of time. I'm not much concerned with privacy, and that alone bugs some subscribers
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Hello Ryan, it's good to see a post from you, for a bit there I was afraid we'd lost you to the dark side. I appreciate your honesty and openness about your dilemma. How will Chelsea handle knowing you're sleeping in your wife's home and possibly making amends with her over your potential relationship with her? How will Mahoney react to your spending a few nights with Chelsea obviously for predetermined actions and then coming back home to her? Sounds like a lot of drama to me. What is in your heart? Naturally you'll choose what brings you the most pleasure.... but will either selection still be in the "Mood" throughout your mind making period? I wouldn't want to be in your shoes friend. I'm keeping you in my prayers.... life is more than existing. You get one shot at it and must thrive and enjoy to be happy. To serve others you must first serve yourself. God Bless friend. Stay warm next week! Take care...... Peace and Love from Oklahoma USA
SuperDave21 .....Yes, life is more than existing. Sometimes when life gets overwhelming, some of us isolate to feel safe, then just are existing. That would be me, but I am trying to take baby steps back into living. Ryan, obviously you have a following of people that care very much about you. Thank you for being open and sharing with us. I admire you !!
What are you thinking? Truth is in your face and you're behaving like Freddie Lee. Sounds like you're having a midlife crisis. Hope things work out otherwise change your name to Ryan Freddie Lee!
are you on a diet, looks like you have lost some weight
Lost about fifteen pounds
Bumblebee tuna