I'm a fraud.
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- Imposter Syndrome - a psychological occurrence in which an individual doubts their skills, talents, or accomplishments and has a persistent internalized fear of being exposed as a fraud.
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Thank you all for the great feedback and comments of solidarity! You are the reason we are able to do what we do at Eisei-en.
Very well said!
Thank You Bjorn, for opening yourself up to convey your information to the masses... As well as sharing a part of your life with us.
I feel that way on many subjects, and things I'm unsure of, I like to discuss with others regardless of them knowing more or less on the subject.
I always learn something, and continue to grow.
Some people can’t even grow a beard…..and just look at what you have been able to grow!
Keep doing what you do brother. Trust in your thoughts, trust in your feelings and believe in your vision! You do inspire many people to pursue what may have been only a thought of what might be.
Simply being able to question yourself is an indication of a strong moral foundation. That is something that NEVER gets old, it only gets better …
Thanks to you Bjorn who with your great professionalism and technique you are a great source of inspiration! 🙏
Self doubt is natural. Publishing a video to confess it - especially when you're one of the leading figures in this art - now that's brave. Keep your aims high and ... enjoy parenthood, it goes by quicker you can imagine!!!!
Love your videos! Bonsai on, brother!
Yes I think this is a typical case of imposter syndrome.
I've known you for several years now. Good things happen to good people Bjorn. You're the farthest thing from an imposter. You work hard and are kind and patient with people. Your skill set is world class and yet your humble. You are a professional in everyway. Best always.
Amen 👍🏽
Yeah, imposter syndrome, Feeling to be pretty bad, but still being great
I have been working at the same job for 28 years and people look up to me like I am the best but I have the same feelings you do. I learn new things from the newcomers. Never stop learning, stay humble and do what you do best which is bonsai. You are amazing Bjorn!
It's the same for me at my job, everyone always looks to me as if I have all the answers.
But one thing that has changed over the years is instead of pretending to know the answer and say something that sounds right but might not be, I will say I dont know, and then guide them in a direction where they might find the answer.
The more you learn the more you also learn your own limitations and how much you still need to learn.
28 years..u better be getting hella paid
I'm a neuroradiologist and have felt like this my entire life... The very best doctors / surgeons I surround myself with have this exact same mindset. You are obviously extremely adept in your skills with bonsai; while maintaining your humble approach and thirst for improvement which is essential for continual growth, too much self doubt can negatively effect your mindset in certain circumstance long term! I've been through the 'self depreciating' phase myself, but now feel super content acknowledging that I have a super niche level of competence in my field, yet am able to seek advice and learn from those around me no matter what stage of the journey they are on. Be proud of yourself and your level of knowledge!! Be grateful of the luck you have had along the way, but also remind yourself of the sacrifice, hard work and endless hours you have put in to your craft!
This happens to everyone on the way up and who holds morals. Keep climbing and remember those that do “know it all” just realized everyone else felt the way you do now and took advantage of that fact.
I am not an English native speaker, so I will do my best to express myself. Do forgive the awkward phrases and mistakes.
Syndrome is a word used to describe a series of sinals and syntoms of a disease. Nowadays, several aspects of our life are being framed on diseases and syndromes. But, in my point of view, these are just regular aspects of life.
I love the comparison with parenthood because it is very similar and precise in every single aspect.
I am a medical doctor, and this "impostor" feeling is overwhelming. Specially because if it is true, you would be a horrible source of harm. That is why we keep on studying, trying to do our best every single moment.
But, one shall not let this "impostor" feeling halt the effort of improvement. One shall recognize that, the more you know about a subject, the more you recognize how vast that subject is. And may seems impossible to get all the learning done.
About the feeling of "being luck". I am religious, and I believe in God. That said, I actually believe that, we may be guided somehow, "inspired" maybe a better word.... but this may be polemic to discuss.
Nevertheless, I know that you don't seek for audience or words of support. But that feeling is a real thing, and we have two options: (1) be afraid and give up; (2) be afraid and improve. In the journey to perfection, we have to learn to deal with our imprefection. And, even knowing that we may never reach perfection, we shall keep seeking it in order to our personal improvement. The Japanese has an expression: Wabi sabi, thay might help us to seek perfection accepting the imperfections.
I hope that I have make some sense in my words. I have to say that when some "expert" souds too proud or secure, I often doubt his expertise. I see in you the restless feeling that promotes study and self development. Keep up, and go on. When we feel that "impostor" feeling take it as a good feeling. Turn that energy of doubt into effort of beig better. A better bonsaist, a better person, a better father, a better husband. Life is a neverending sequence of apprenticeships, we are always students. Take care.
That was so eloquently stated. You have shared some things about this topic I haven’t thought of yet. Thank you for sharing this here!
Great comment
This is a beautiful showing of encouragement, support and love from one human to another. I gained much from reading it. Life is an endless apprenticeship. 💗
Beautifully stated 💛 Your words bring tears of joy
Yesss 👌🏽👌🏽👌🏽
What you describe is exactly why I practice gratitude. It is the healthy alternative to pride.
I have a neurological disease ... and because of what I have learned from you I have six trees in my balcony ... so I can only say ... Bjorn, thank you.
It's that constant self doubt that drives some of us to a higher level of chasing perfection.
Watching this tells me 2 things about you. You are humble and you have integrity
Thank you for your honesty. My former teacher put it to me this way..."how did I know when I was ready to teach? When people asked me"...
Hi Bjorn,
I have followed a very similar path as you in a different art form and have become a professor. I dont usually make any comments on TH-cam, in fact this is my first, but I felt compelled. As a teacher when I first started I had this exact fear constantly and would try and think of the best answer even if I knew there were some aspects that weren’t perfect. I had lots of anxiety about not knowing everything. I learned to say “I don’t know let’s learn together”to a student. Helping a student learn how to learn maybe more important than the knowledge alone. Learning together and helping them understand the process of figuring things out is vital. No one knows everything, and we can learn something from anyone. You are a great influence on my bonsai practice and I enjoy your content, mostly because of you. Your style and delivery and personality is the type of conduit I enjoy to learn my bonsai information. Thanks. Keep it up.
Absolutely can relate to this. Both professionally as an eye doctor, as a parent, and as a person trying to learn the deep craft of bonsai. I had a professor tell me something I think about a lot that helps: As long as you know even a little more than the person you are trying to help you can be useful. Trust your knowledge and share it.
AND YOU’RE FUCKING AWESOME AND MAKE RAD TREES!!!
Hard work is a major factor in the creation of luck. You've earned your black belt-which my sensei said meant that I now knew enough to start really learning. You're doing great. FWIW: I'd LOVE to see a video of your five biggest screw ups. What were the lessons? How did those mistakes help you grow?
Bjorn, your insights into the amazing art are invaluable! I think we all feel like a fraud no matter our profession, imposter syndrome affects us all, especially the ones who feel like we don't belong. Maybe you feel this way not being traditionally Japanese, but that shouldn't matter when it comes to art. Your videos are splendid, and your information is a gem. Thanks!
knowing you don't know is a good thing. good motivation to keep learning and staying humble.
You are a genuine man. Honorable and honest. You are a master artist of the philosophy of bonsai. It is reflected in every video you make.
Carry on as you are Bjorn, you are admired and respected by so many people. I love your videos and your work and have learnt so much from you. I’ve just bought 2 junipers as nursery stock this afternoon, it is from you alone that I’ve figured out ( all be it by my amateur understanding) what to do with a juniper . You’re recent trio of videos on shohin juniper have been so valuable to me and no doubt thousands of other people.
It’s a low time of year my friend, even though it’s Christmas many are feeling the January blues already. Exercise is important, keep training and keep in shape.
Being a man of few words is what makes you so watchable, no nonsense easy to digest information that is not giving the impression at all of trying to be somebody you are not. Sending man hugs from the UK my bonsai brother. Chin up old chap 👍🏻
These videos that you shoot - the soul is visible in them. And of course, I would like to wish you strength and energy so that we can continue to enjoy you work and art! Thank you!
I think the biggest thing you learned through this whole process is to stay humble and never quit learning.
Your work speaks for itself. And with that I don not only mean the Bonsai you have created and continue to create. I also mean your work as a teacher / mentor / businessman. However, I can really relate to the feeling you have... I work in the music industry both as a musician and an educator and often question myself /ask myself questions like: "why would anyone ask me about anything when there is a TON of other people out there that play just as good or better". I think this character trait has both good and bad sides. Of course it can be a real drag to always have these nagging questions. But on the other hand it will keep you going, learning and improving. And it will also keep you humble - and in general, over a long course of time people tend to prefer having someone who stays humble as their mentor.
Anyone with professional pride in what they do, who are bright and conscientious have doubts and feel imposter syndrome. And in many cases those we look up to and admire are putting on a front and feel the same doubts. Being good at what you do isn’t about being able to talk illegible word salad. It is to your credit that your delivery is clear, concise, understandable and often profoundly beautiful.
Thank you for sharing your journey, your bonsai knowledge, your ethos. Keep growing as a person and keep doing what you are doing. 🙏
That feeling shows all the respect you have for bonsai. I feel just the same as a farmacist I know very very little about anything at all, just because there’s inmensity of knowledge out there. Stay like u are. I watch u from Spain many years ago. Keep doing what u are doing. U are great
Bjorn.... I feel this, and I see you. This is one of the reasons I follow you. I have felt since your Vlog days that you are an honest person, and that you love sharing your knowledge and experience, not because you think you are better or smarter, but because you love this art and want to live it and share it. It comes across in your content. Keep being you, and remember we ALL are faking it til we make it 👍
Excellent video Bjorn! Mistakes are all apart of the learning process 😀I dont think anyone will be able to know absolutely everything about Bonsai in one lifetime. However, if we teach to the best of our ability with the knowledge that we believe to be correct: that is the best we can do! Keep up the great work man!
Thoroughly inspired by your art, and content Bjorn. Grateful for your generosity in sharing it all with us.
Imposter syndrome is really common in all creative fields. I'm an artist and have had the same challenge. It doesn't matter how many years pass, I always think that I will be "found out" someday. I always compare myself to the great artists and wonder how I could expect to be like them. Just trust yourself and know that what you do matters.
What you are experiencing is common, especially in my career field. Imposter syndrome is real and sometimes career shattering. Just remember that these people who you are surrounded by people you admire, or people who have these incredible positions in life have invited you into their life. You earned this. Luck is what you make it. Keep your head up.
Epiphany’s come in all shapes and sizes, you are here because it’s what you wanted, and you had a massive hand up in the process by being open to those of us who watched you and In many cases learned the most from you on TH-cam where bonsai videos were scant at best. Good job man. You’ve made it
Ek hou baie van jou tegniek,ek dink jou werk op bonzia is van die netjieste van almal.Jy werk nie vinnig nie maar as daar so iets soos respek vir ñ boom is, is dit jy.Van n nuweling in bonzia al is ek 87 jaar oud.Goed gedaan.
Walt Whitman said it best in his poem O Me O Life. His answer. That life exists. And identity. You are contributing a verse to the powerful play Bjorn. Much appreciated and inspiring.
This video solidifies why you are BY FAR my favourite bonsai professional that I follow and watch! Thank you for all the incredible content that you share in a format that is an absolute pleasure to watch. I believe that you are firmly in charge of your own success!! All the best to you and your family in the New Year.
This one hits really close to home. I know the feeling all too well. Ever since I started working I've had the privilege to work with people who were so knowledgeable and just knew so much and I couldn't help but compare myself to them. I would hear all these foreign words, applications, tools and so on (I work in IT btw).. so much information I thought I was supposed to know but didn't and it would destroy my self-confidence, I felt so dumb so often that I can honestly say that for a solid year I was going to work feeling like it would probably be my last day there and that I was getting away with not knowing for so long that my luck was probably gonna run out soon and my bosses and colleagues had probably figured out that I was an idiot and didn't belong there. I was as you said "afraid to be found out". In retrospect, and as sad as it is to say, that was probably the biggest driving force for my career, that constant fear and anxiety was not good for my overall health but I grew so much and so quickly because of it. I got home from work and I would go study for certifications or spend my weekends trying to figure stuff out and studying. It humbled me a lot too. I stil feel that way sometimes. You're not alone Bjorn. Ultimately your ambition to understand your craft with great depth and this fear that stems from you realising that there's much more to learn will surely make you a great Bonsai artist and expert.
Congratulations on following your heart and believing in yourself as getting to where you are has taken that along with learning, skill and patience. Although new to your channel I have zero doubt you do know what you are talking about. Keep up the great work.
Not only do you show a fabulous depth of knowledge but your ability to teach it is as amazing a talent. You use your gifts well.
Your the most humble person I know in the bonsai world. Thank you for everything you do. It not luck that you in this position.
I read today that the highest human act is to inspire. You can’t fake inspire people. You’ve dedicated your life to this craft and that’s what draws people to your work. Keep it up. 🌱🙏🏻
I started watching your channel in 2018/19 . You and Nancy have come so far and should be so proud of what you's have achieved and what you have taught people all around the world about Bonsai!! Cheers and Have a happy new year 2023
Those who are most capable, aware and intelligent are haunted by uncertainty, while those who do not have those attributes are often the most confident. I have long admired your work, which speaks of your great skill and commitment. Your uncertainty will likely persist; you will have to live with it, but I, for one, see you as a master. Sending love.
Love your content. Great video and reflection and a significant step towards letting go of imposter syndrome! ❤️🙏🏽
This syndrome is a gift to my opinion....it is more towards spiritual journey that brings you to this moment of exposing yourself...I have been following your videos since you were in Japan, reason is due to your sincerity and passion towards what you do....this is my first comment...thanks for being the right person that I have been following to be my Bonsai guru...this video just gave me stamp of approval to myself...keep going man....
Hi Bjorn, this is totally recognizable for me. I have my own business for almost six years now. Ik work as a communication trainer. And I often find myself thinking "when is this going wrong? When will the day come that my trainings fail and everybody finds out that I've no idea what I'm doing?". Up until now, that day hasn't arrived, but that doesn't stop me having these thoughts every now and then. And you now, lots of people have this. You are absolutely not alone. Maybe look at it this way: you know the term ZEN-mind, beginners-mind? That roughly says that no matter how much experience you have, encounter everything as if you have never seen or done this. It makes sure that you are always in the moment and never take anything for granted. You keep your eyes open and you keep learning. And it ensures that you don't become arrogant, which is not a bad thing. ;) So, maybe don't make a problem of this, but embrace it. And it's not luck that brought you here. It's dedication, damn hard work and taking risks that others do not. You have earned it bigtime! Hope this helps. Best wishes for 2023 and take care!
You are the best! 33 years in bonsai and you got the touch needed to teach. Ryan talks down to people like everyone is 5 years old or ignorant.
You are great man! no need to worry about it.
Hello Bjorn, the fact that you feel that way and have produced what you have with both the teaching platform and your garden/ tree portfolio is very heartening to all of us whom have learned so much from you. The mark of true wisdom is knowing that there is always room to grow and learn and develop. I personally am honoured to count you as one of my teachers and without doubt would cherish an apprenticeship under you. Imposter syndrome is real and difficult to manage but it can also be a driving force to propel you forward. Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to you Nanxi, your darling little girl and the rest of your family.
-Josh Chang, Toronto Ontario Canada.
This is a great video.
Speaks a lot to your character.
I think this is everyone that’s really good at something .
Yes, luck is a component of success but I think it is also a skill or talent to recognize good luck, like being in the right place at the right time, when it is staring us in the face and to act on it. Your videos and work are great.
I’ve been trying to understand how imposter syndrome works too. I’m amazed that despite having a lot of experience and understanding of something (what I KNOW about myself logically), that there are plenty of times when I deeply FEEL like an idiot or an imposter about whatever it is.
Just like I do with any other intense feeling , I try to remain mindful, while still allowing myself to feel those feelings until they pass.
But I recently learned some interesting things about why those feelings actually occur. And that’s been really helpful when I’m in the midst of feeling like an imposter:
1. When a person doesn’t know anything about a topic, it is natural for a person to feel like it isn’t that complicated, and to feel like they probably know a lot about how it would work.
2. As a person learns more about a topic, they start to see how much more complicated it was than they thought. This makes a person increasingly know things that they don’t know. And that increasing awareness of the number of facets that are at play naturally tends to make the person feel LESS KNOWLEDGEABLE, not more knowledgeable.
3. As a person keeps advancing their learning, they start to meet experts that are more knowledgeable about even the facets of the topic than they are. This naturally can lead to feelings of being NOT AT ALL LIKE AN EXPERT themselves as they meet more and more of these people over time.
4. And in combination with the above, the vast amount of knowledge that the person has built over time starts to fade for the person. The knowledge itself doesn’t fade - but THE CONSCIOUS AWARENESS of their knowledge fades. At that point, much of the deep understanding that the person acquired over time becomes so ingrained that the person loses site of it because it is automatic now - like breathing. For example, you prune a bonsai, and you are no longer necessarily mulling over all of the myriad choices you have and actions you are taking.
5. Because by then the habitual nature of the knowledge expresses itself without conscious struggle and decision making like it did in the past, and the pruning just flows, it can then start to feel like one is LOSING SKILLS, because of the lack of awareness in decision making and the more intuitive nature that has taken its place can make the process seem almost absent-minded.
6. And once it is so “like breathing” to the person; once the amount of knowledge is so vast and so intuitive, then it can even begin to be difficult to explain things concisely when teaching other people. - In the step #4 (or so) of the learning process the person has a handful of “go to” steps to consider. And those can be easily rattled off to someone who is earlier in the knowledge building process. But by this stage, it’s no longer a list of “ABC”. When someone asks what “you would do”, it’s more like, “well I see that this feature is like this, and that feature is like that, and then this is the season we’re in right now, and it’s been unusually dry this year for this season, and…” By the time all of that knowledge is brought forward consciously, it can be difficult to quickly cull it down to the thing’s to tell them that are appropriate to that person’s stage in the learning. OR, if those things are SPOKEN instead of just being thoughts, often the other person starts to glaze over and disconnect because it is getting overwhelming. So by then it can easily begin to feel like you must not know much because you can’t even adequately CONVEY knowledge to others.
Anyway, I’ve prattled on enough now. But I hope that some of that will be helpful to you or someone else. 🙂
Beautifully diagnosed. You put me in the remembrance of my own learning journey. I have happy tears of pain. Thank you !
@@danieltillman1500 Thank you. Your words mean a lot to me.
"Imposter syndrome" is fairly common . You do well and provide great content .
Your humility always shines through. You are consumate plantsman, with all the natural insecurities of a truly honest person. It's always a joy listening to you and watching your vidoes. Thanks for posting them. Because of your channel, I started a small "bonsai culture" with my adult children. When they come from overseas for spring or summer visits (we're in northern Italy), we always gather around a table with piles of wires and clippers and spend some of the most memorable moments together. Your videos are most often our guidelines. My sincerest thanks.
Your the whole reason I got into Bonsai and your videos have refreshed my interest time and time again. Hang in there.
Hi Bjorn,
I’ve been following your videos and admiring your achievements in bonsai for a long time, silently as I’m also a bit introvert.
I’d like to tell you that what you describe is called impostor syndrome and it affects many people. Most PhD I know - including myself - have suffered/are suffering from it…
I reconciliate with the unfathomable by thinking that a real incompetent would not doubt his own competence and would rather be judgy.
As a passionate and mostly incompetent bonsai hobbits I can tell you that your work is really inspiring, I’m sorry you feel like that but I hope you’ll continue with what you do as you’re like a bright light shining. Thank you!
Hi Bjorn, the fact that you recognise these thoughts mean you are well on the way to training your head into not needing to worry! Stand back and look at what you have created and continue to do. It is high art!
Having children also flicks some strange switch in our heads that takes another whole load of learning!
You are doing amazing work and bringing true bonsai to the US and the world. We are all individuals, you can't be anybody else and you are making the best of you. Keep making banging trees and things will work out alright I'm sure.
I have the same feeling every day. I think self doubt creeps in when you realize the responsibilities you’ve created. You’re on the threshold of going from great to greater. Happy New Year!
The great thing about your situation is that you took us with you on your journey. We watched you grow, observed your work ethic that is driven by passion and you got better right before our eyes. We understand very well how you got there, it is earned through effort and it is well deserved. Greetings from Germany
You are doing a very good job! Even from afar you seam very correct with your statements, kind and with a lot of knowledge
Happy New Year to you and those you love. It's wonderful to have skill, luck, and opportunity! We all keep coming back to you because of the beautiful things that you do with skill, luck and opportunity.
You are not alone. I feel it every day. It’s what drives us to be better. Trust in your self and trust in the process.
Doing what we do , is what makes us who we are , no matter what it is , I think there is a little bit of insecurity in all of us , you choose your path , alot of people are happy to walk it along with you because of the work you put into the road you built ! Keep moving forward your going the right direction!!
you're doing your thing in the most perfect way and you are one of the most trusted voices out there on the subject, not to mention superior video content
You are putting out 💯 percent quality content. Your passion guides you...let it❣️ That's why it is working. Your genuine love for nature and art comes through to all of us. I'm going to try my first bonsai because of you 💛 Thank you and your wife❣️
Bjorn, As an entrepreneur, there are a number of skills it takes to be successful. The most important skill is unlocking your mind. Several years ago I set out on a journey to do this. I threw myself into an independent self-directed leadership, management, and entrepreneurship crash course. All the resources are free on youtube in the form of audiobooks and library books. I sent you a message a couple days ago on your website with my email address, respond to that and I'll send you my book list. I like audiobooks because I can listen to them while doing other tasks, like bonsai or driving ect. The fact that you have self-doubt means that you remain curious and willing to try new things, experiment, and fail. If you are not failing, you're not trying hard enough. Embrace failure. Lastly, you are a practitioner of balance, power, energy, patience and growth. Concepts that are quite easily translatable to a prince or PM, CEO, small business owner and the like. Systems whether natural, constructed, financial or otherwise all share those traits. If nothing else please listen to or read Simon Sinik, Start with Why and then go from there.
Aren't we all frauds until someone validates us? Introverted people are talented but insecure. When you have knowledge to share you aren't an imposter. You aren't faking anything...we see your talent and your ability to relay that to others. It is a joy to watch your content even though I don't do any bonsai.
That imposter syndrome weighs heavy on me at times. I am a licensed professional counselor here in Michigan and I work with combat veterans for their post traumatic stress. At the same time I am also a combat veteran dealing with my own post traumatic stress. At times I think who am I to talk to this person about their problems when I am struggling with my own problems. Thankfully, I have a good mentor and I can see the changes in the clients I talk to. But that still doesn’t stop the feelings from coming up every once in a while of being a hypocrite. What I like to say to my clients, as well as to myself, is what I’m feeling based off fact or is it based off feeling. That has helped me and my clients through a lot.
Bjorn, I wish I could give you a hug, brother. I'm sure many of us can relate, I know I can and I'm nowhere close to being in a position such as yours. I really appreciate your humbleness and your honesty in being able to share this with us. I find that I'm greatly respected by the people around me and yet, I've felt this my entire life. "What am I doing here? How did I get to where I am?" Sometimes we just need to take a step back and appreciate that everything we've ever done has lead up to this moment right now. You're a master at bonsai, yet you still somehow doubt yourself and sometimes you feel like you don't know anything. You're so humble Bjorn and it's nice to see that someone such as yourself, although you've come such a long way in bonsai and you know so much more than some of us will ever know, a person can still feel these things. I hope one day, you'll be able to find that inner peace to quiet that doubtful voice in the back of your mind. Take care and keep doing what you're doing.
You are an artist, an inspiration and loved by people who love bonsai
You’re an inspiration and motivator to many. It’s refreshing to see you’re just as human as the next guy.
I feel the same way every day with my mlm business. Through the years, I’ve slowly learned to speak to my brain and say “you are a work in progress!” and “you are enough!”
Your honesty and transparency is the right path in your knowledge sharing and what I feel is the best approach in this hyper connected world with digitalization. You are the best Borj, keep doing like this. An example to follow not only in the Bonsai community! So much to learn!
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Bjorn it is so valuable to many us that you are willing to share your knowledge of bonsai with is. I could never go to Japan to study so I have learned all that I can through books, workshops, and now videos and Livestreams. Your self doubt is normal and keeps you from feeling highly superior to the ordinary bonsai hobbyist. I hope you will keep this humble feeling for the rest of your career. I once was at a bonsai workshop that was led by a respected bonsai artist from Japan. I don't remember his name. Someone asked if he thought that he is a bonsai master. His reply was that bonsai is too big for anyone to be able to know everything. He said that we are all students of bonsai and there is no such thing as a bonsai master. If anyone tells you they are a bonsai master he said you should not listen to them. That was many years ago but his humility still impresses me to this day.
Love your content for many years Bjorn. Just keep going. Happy 2023!
Hi Bjorn, as human beings I think we all have doubts that creep into our lives and I totally understand what you mean, I think the years that I have been watching your channel you have been nothing but a professional with everything you do and the calm way you teach. All the best brother.
You’re more relatable and reachable than another certain active person on social media and TH-cam , and you’re content is better and your head isn’t stuck up your ass. Keep it real Bjorn , you’re valued
Men, your “ fear “ makes you so much better throughout the years in every way.
We deal in 'ART' and as such, an item/object is subject to opinion - a sort of some love, some hate. You do the best you can - who could ask for more? There is very little 'ART' that involves living subjects. The Bonsai masters give us guide-lines but some of the best 'show-stopping' Bonsai break all those rules. 'Perfection' like the 'Perfect Bonsai' is never achieved but we get closer every day. In a way, you have become an entertainer and I for one am entertained. I think that doing something useful that you enjoy outweighs any negatives. Happy New Year and have a great 2023.
on some bonsaï videos sometimes i don't like the final result but with your creations everytime i'm blown away by your finesse so you should definitely trust yourself ;-). definitely my favourite bonsaï channel when it comes to aesthetics with bonsaï miraï (even if sometimes he's talking too much :D) and i love nigel saunders "the bonsaï zone" for his simple approach of bonsaï.
i think i've not be successfull as you are but as an introvert perfectionist too i'm often comparing what i'm doing to others and that sometimes blocks me.
Success= skill (acquired through hard work) + luck + timing. You have all three, plus the advantage of knowing what you want in life from an early age. Kudos!
Online thing I can do is tell you that you contributed to my knowledge of bonsai in a tremendous way. Please keep on doing what your doing. Have a good 2023.👍👍
Fell the same. Ive worked as a digital art teacher for 7 years, but I haven’t studied to become a teacher. In the beginning I had the “fake it till you make it” mentality. Nowadays I know That the work I do is making a difference for my students an that they learn a lot. But some day I also get that fraud felling… keep up the good work! You are inspiring people and that’s the greatest gift of all!
Your Trees speak for you and your authenticity. Your path is in the right direction. I spent a lifetime working hard and never accepting the word Can't, those who pause and accept that word will fail. People always rally around those who share their knowledge. Embrace it, your gratitude shows. Keep doin what your doin! All the best to you and family from Canada.🌲
Impostor syndrome shows up quite frequently in people who are breaking into a socioeconomic class above their own, such as those who are the first in their family to attend college or marry into the socioeconomic class above the one they were born and raised. I've experienced it as has my best friend. We were both born into blue-collar, working class families and leveled up (myself into high-tech and my friend into medicine). It's a form of low self-esteem and fear of being judged as 'not enough' by peers and superiors of the new environment we find ourselves in. You've put in the hard work and the mileage to get to where you are now. Be proud of your accomplishments! You are amazing!
Being a human is hard. But you're not alone in this process. It would be strange if you didn't have moments of reflection, moments of freak outs, moments of 'wtf am I doing and how can they not see through my bullshit?!" We're also making it up as we go along beside you. Keep going, Bjorn.
Those feelings are what keep you sharp, when the day arrives that you feel you are an expert and know everything, that is the day you become arrogant and make mistakes. Keep that little doubt in yourself as that is what drives you to constantly be better than you were yesterday.
Stop! You are doing great. You have a great reputation. Your work speaks for itself. Your advice is sound. No, you don't know everything. No one does. What is important is that you keep an open mind and always be open to learning. Doubt is good, when it is accompanied with drive. The drive to improve and the drive to learn. I have been playing with Juniper for 35+ years and I have never lost a tree................ except for the 300+ I lost in a fire. Even though I have never lost a tree, I know I don't know everything. I love to learn and I love to be proven wrong. I started a Facebook group for Juniper Bonsai and I am so glad I did. I am constantly learning and constantly teaching. That is my joy. My friend, you are on the right path for YOU. Get over this and continue on your path.
Dear Bjorn,
I walk in the same shoes and sometimes i am screaming in my head from the panic. BUT! I take a deep breath and let the voices calm down and i do my best what i can do.
About you and your channel. I've started bonsai about 6-7 years ago. I watched all your videos and i am here to tell you EVERY MINUTE IS GOLD! I have learned so much and nowadays i have 52 bonsai trees. I am very proud because from nursery i have bought only 4 . So many thanx. And keep up the teaching.
AND BREATH.
Greetings. :)
That feeling you are talking about is called life, every trade person who want to do the best in his or her trade feels like that. For what it is worth I love what you are providing and I try to do the same with my trees, all the best from South Africa
It's good to question things and yourself.
Never doubt yourself though. It definitely comes across that you have done your research; you've lived and absorbed so much knowledge and skill. That can be a bit intimidating. It's similar for me and teaching climbing. You just have to accept that you can do this and that you can do it very well.
Just let go man.
You do have some great skills.
You wouldn't have made it to where you are without the hard work.
Luck played a part.
Most importantly, you are a good human and a fantastic example of someone who is successfully chasing their dreams and succeeding!
You set a wonderful example to the rest of the world and you do what you do bloody well!
Settle in your Self, find humble confidence and keep on doing what you do best mate. You're the best person out here in this field IMO and you need not change a thing.
Huge love to ya from Australia
No one can access luck without handwork and persistence. Bad luck is just the inaction perpetuated by an individuals inability to see past their current situation.
This may sound like doubt to some people. To me it was humbleness. I think most people are gonna experience this feeling, but still, you have an amazing collection that speaks for itself. You give your time and knowledge to the community and I thank you.
You're the farthest away from being a fraud.
You are thinking about this all wrong. You have worked very hard to be where you are at. You have learned a you can throughout your journey. You and you only have made your dreams come true. Its on to question yourself but its best to not question everything you've done throughout your past. I have learned a ton from you in my bonsai journey and I appreciate it very much . 🙂
When I was getting certified as a bicycle mechanic. The teacher said I am not here to give you all the answers but the how to find the right answer.
I don’t retain all of it but I come to you because how you teach it. I walk away from each class with more confidence, 2 steps forward and 1 step backwards. I see you are exploring with the camera, love it! 👊
To me you are an inspiration, never doubt yourself, you have a great gift,
Amazing to know that someone as brilliant and multitalented as Bjorn ever feels this way.
Bjorn, you are the man, and don't you ever forget it!
I feel blessed to know you.
Thank you Bjorn, love your humble manner! I worked with the Japanese for 20 years, I felt as though I winged the last 10 years, but the truth was I was excellent at my job! Keep up the great work, we love ya man :-)
I have learned so much things about bonsai thanks to you, I started 3 years ago and you’ve helped me ao much. At the end you have to look back and see all the things you have accomplished all thanks to your hard work. Keep it up! Bonsai gives you peace, and harmony, keep trying and enjoy your life!🙏🏼 blessings!
The seed of personal growth is to be aware of everything that we still have to learn,so I think that you are on the right track. I wish you the best Bjorn !!
The work speaks for itself. Keep doing what you're doing.
Owing a bonsai nursery would be a dream come true for me.
Just try your best. If you can’t answer someone, tell them the truth
You're doing great Bjorn! If people didn't respect you and your knowledge then they would not be following you and subscribing to your services. You've got a wonderful nursery and collection of bonsai to display your years of hard work and dedication. I think that many armatures of bonsai could only dream to achieve what you have in such a relatively short space of time.
Keep going mate.