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Oink Oink.. I am looking at the Moon.. I am waiting for YOU.. just thinking about YOU.. Looking at the Moon.. I feel like I am starting to Miss YOU.. when can I see YOU.. can I hear Your Heart.. Can I see your Heart.. Please let me touch Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I truly need YOU to love me Back.. only wish.. Only hope.. only dreaming if YOU can show me your Heart.. as I am looking UP toward the Moon.. I can picture in that Moon.. the Shape of Your Heart.. I want to see Your Heart.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens Wide.. my Other arm reaches.. stretches Out.. My Other Hand opens Wide.. if YOU can hear Me.. If YOU are able to hear.. Please listen with Your Ears.. Hear my words because I am talking to that MOON.. can YOU Hear through that Moon.. I want to know.. If YOU are Unable to hear my words.. If YOU are Unable to Hear my Voice.. On the Other side.. Is it Night.. because at this Point.. the Sun has went down and Now.. it is the Moon's Turn to get UP.. and I am looking at this Moon.. Hoping that It is Night on that Other side.. if it is.. Can YOU please come Out.. If YOU are able to see that MOON.. Please come Out from the Place YOU are.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to speak and tell YOU something.. my hands are both open wide.. asking.. Can YOU Please give me Your Heart.. I will be standing still.. Until you give me Your Heart.. I been asking YOU for a long time.. Did you not forget.. ever since I first laid my eyes On you.. all I ever wanted is Your Heart.. All I ever talked about and asking YOU is for that Heart.. Please give me Your Heart.. Please Open your Heart.. I do not want anything else but Just for YOU to show me Your Heart and Please.. let me have Your Heart.. My Heart has been breaking.. It has been shattered into Pieces.. I am trying to put the Pieces of my Heart together.. without YOU.. I know that the Pieces of my Heart cannot come together.. that is why I am asking for Your Heart.. Only if YOU can show Me.. so that I can see the Shape of Your Heart.. and I can open my chest.. and Put your Heart inside the Chamber.. which been waiting for your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. I want to have YOUR HEART and Put close to my chest.. to see How can I live without YOU.. I know that I can't unless I have Your Heart.. I told YOU already.. How is my Heart be broken and How was it torn into Pieces and Cannot put it back together.. I broke my Own Heart.. So that I can put Your Heart instead of Mine.. that is How close I want to feel Your Heart.. to Feel the Beating of Your Heart.. to hear the Beating.. to hear the sound of Your Heart.. I want YOU very close.. SO close that I can hear Your Heart inside of Me.. so that I can see YOU close.. I am truly missing YOU.. I don't know why.. because it is so Hard to explain at this Point.. if YOU are asking me.. WHY do I miss YOU so Much.. I just saw your Picture.. which I would have it close to Me.. I would take a Look at your Picture.. and only Wish.. Only Hope when can I see YOU close.. will you ever come close to Me.. because the More away YOU are.. the More I want to see YOU close.. the More I miss YOU.. the More My Heart breaks.. breaking and hearing the sound of my Heart.. just breaking into pieces.. and I want to know.. Does Love hurts.. does it hurt you.. because for Me.. it hurts to Love YOU.. it hurts me so much that I can feel the breaking of my Heart.. I want to cry.. I want to cry a lot because it Hurts me more when I don't see YOU.. when I miss YOU.. when I step out side.. and I stand still in silent.. and I look UP.. toward the Moon.. I want to shout at the Moon and Cry when looking at the Moon.. I would say.. Can YOU please come Out tonight.. I wonder if it is Day.. Or is it Night.. If I am able to see the Moon tonight.. can YOU Please step Out side.. On the Other side.. do YOU see the Moon appear before Your eyes.. Look UP at the dark skies.. do you see the stars.. do you see the Moon.. if YOU can see the Moon appear before YOU.. Can YOU Hear me.. Can YOU Hear my voice.. Listen to my words because there is something very Important that I would like to say.. to tell YOU.. and I know for sure you know this and maybe heard it more than thousand times by Now.. But I never get tired of telling you this.. I just hope that YOU never get tired too.. If you do please tell Me so that I can stop.. if YOU hear me.. Please LOOK at the Moon.. can YOU see that MOON.. the same Moon that we can see together.. as I am standing still alone.. I am here by myself.. Looking at that Moon.. I been coming here.. from time to time.. when I think of YOU a lot and my Mind.. it gets very busy because I am thinking of YOU.. before I came Out side.. I saw Your Picture.. I saw the Picture of YOU smiling.. when I saw Your Picture.. My Heart was touched.. I put my hand on the Chest.. and I can feel the Beating of My Heart.. and I would tell Your Picture looking at YOU.. I love YOU.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. I am still here.. I am still able to tell YOU.. I am able to write to YOU still.. that shows that I have never lost the touch.. that I think of YOU always.. when I saw Your Picture.. it felt Like I got drunk.. I wanted to fall.. and sit on the floor.. I felt dizzy and my knees got weak when I saw YOUR picture.. I told myself.. I should Not keep on looking at your Picture.. because once I start to look.. I would miss YOU.. Missing YOU leads me to walk Out side.. Missing YOU leads me to Look at the Moon.. and my eyes would wander looking UP at the sky.. Looking for the stars.. and Looking for the Moon.. I would close my eyes.. Both eyes shut closed as I would put YOU in my Head.. a Picture pops in my Mind as I would think of YOU.. and envision YOU.. wanting to see YOU.. I would open my eyes.. as I am staring at the Moon.. I would look at the Moon.. and I would open my mouth and say.. Do you know why I am here tonight.. Do you know why I am lead here.. I saw YOUR Picture.. I saw your Beautiful Picture.. saw Your Beautiful Face.. Now Look what YOU have made me do.. I am asking YOU if YOU can hear me.. Please say something back.. Please tell me something because My Heart is listening.. say something because My Heart is opened to listen.. Say something because my ears wants to hear Your Voice and Your Words.. Please say something because tonight is the Night I really want to hear YOU.. that this very Night.. for some reason I am missing YOU much more.. even though every night I miss YOU.. and I want to see YOU every day.. But on this very Night.. I really really want to hear from YOU.. I want you to Know that I love YOU.. I really really Love YOU.. Why can't I hear from YOU on the Other side.. is it because YOU can't hear me at all.. YOU know that every time I come Out.. every time I look UP at the sky and Look towards the Moon.. I am always expecting to hear from YOU.. but every night.. I would be the One who is speaking.. saying something as I am looking toward the Moon.. after I am done speaking as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I would be so sad.. My Heart be broken.. My Heart be breaking.. My Heart be crying as I would go inside back to the House.. because I would come Out side on this Night just to hear something.. Your Words and Your Voice but I don't hear anything from YOU.. I would be Looking UP towards the Moon.. asking YOU.. if You can Hear me.. if YOU want to hear my Voice.. to hear my words.. I am here this very Night.. I am standing here All alone.. Just waiting for YOU to show Up on the Other side.. if YOU can see the Moon.. If you can hear Me Out.. Please say something so that I know I am speaking to YOU as I am here On the Other side.. I want My words to be Heard.. I want my Voice to be Heard.. if I say the Word I miss YOU.. I am telling YOU from My Heart.. that Means I really Miss YOU.. if I say the Word I love YOU.. it comes from the Deep within expressing my Heart felt to tell YOU that it is what it is.. that I am telling YOU this because I do.. But I am not sure if My Words are being heard.. if My Voice is being heard on the Other side.. What If YOU are Not there.. What if It is Night there.. and yes.. the Moon has come UP.. but YOU are Not standing Out side where YOU can see that Moon.. I want my Voice to be heard for YOU.. I want my Words to be Heard to YOU.. because None of it is empty words.. it is Words that comes from My Heart and My Mind.. from Inside of Me.. that is why I been asking for YOUR HEART.. If I can have your Heart just for One Night.. if I am able to put Your Heart inside the Chamber in my Chest.. and I close the Chamber of the gates of my Chest.. I know that if YOUR Heart is inside of Me.. I can walk out alone.. stand by myself in the Night.. Looking UP at the MOON.. so that My Words can be Heard.. so that My Voice may be heard.. and if YOUR HEART is inside my Chest in the chamber.. I would look UP at the Moon.. and YOU are able to hear all of My words.. my Voice.. and even what comes within Me to tell YOU.. YOUR Heart being so Close to Me.. I know that My Words would not go empty.. and I can just express and tell YOU.. and YOU can Hear me.. that YOU can hear me finally and that I know that YOUR HEART is able to hear my words and My Mind.. and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would know for sure.. I can come Out side every night.. without questions rather YOU are listening or Not.. But I know for sure YOU can Hear Me.. that YOU know How much I love YOU.. YOU know How much I miss YOU and able to know my Heart.. that I am able to tell YOU.. and I can finally cry Out Loud knowing we are looking at the SAME MOON.. that YOU can hear me speak.. YOU can hear me talk and share.. that I know YOU are listening to My Heart.. that I can finally hear Your Heart.. listen to the Sound and the Beating of Your Heart.. when it comes so Close.. I can tell your Heart.. DO YOU HEAR ME.. Can YOU Hear me.. because NOW I know.. Now I feel..
I just can't take my off of the Two Baby Teddy Bears.. Son and Daughter who came into my House.. of course I never thought that I would ever meet your Children.. they are the two most beautiful children.. looking at the Son and looking at the daughter.. both are in the second room where it is suppose to be Only for the Guests to spend the night.. I am looking at the two.. holding hands and both are looking at the Art Sketch paper.. I drew a Picture of YOU looking at a picture that YOU gave me.. I would sit alone in the room.. while the two children were in the Guest room sleeping.. I just couldn't sleep.. I feel like even though YOU are far in a distant.. YOU had to go to a Business meeting and of course it is YOUR work.. as I would peek at the Door.. at the Guest room.. it is the room where the Two baby Teddy Bears would fall asleep.. and I told them both.. that YOU are going to be coming Home very SOON.. MOMMA is coming soon so be a Good Little boy.. Be a Good little Girl because YOUR MOMMA told me that she is going to give you something that YOU will Love forever and will enjoy to keep.. and I saw them Both sleeping.. as I would sit by the Desk.. picking UP an Art pencil and I bought the Art Sketch Book.. your Picture.. I put and it lean on the back of the desk where I can see your Whole Face.. it was a Nice peaceful time I had because I had the time to THINK for myself.. I had the Time to LOOK at your Picture.. which makes me Heart fall even deeper in Love with YOU.. changing the Diapers of the Two baby Teddy Bears.. putting on the T - shirt for the Boy and for the Girl.. your SON and Daughter.. I would have to call YOU which I know you are so Busy working and just the business meetings YOU have to spend for the company is NOT easy for YOU to get calls.. But.. of course YOU are so Kind.. YOU are so gentle with Care because your Children comes first.. I would watch YOU on the Face Time.. and the two baby Teddy bears.. the SON and Daughter.. when the Boy starts to cry for his MOMMA.. for YOU.. I would watch his Sister.. your Daughter starts to cry.. both holding hands and crying Loud for MOMMA.. and wanting to see YOU.. so I would have to pick Up my Phone.. call.. dial your Number just to see if it can reach YOU at this POINT of time.. which I would ask YOU.. your children are crying for YOU.. asking where is MOMMA.. I want to see My MOMMA and the cry grows louder.. My Heart would pound Heart as I would watch the two Holding hands.. sitting next to each Other.. asking for MOMMA.. of course it feels like the first day when they both came into the House.. it was the Most Hardest day I had to go through.. they just did Not stop crying.. I had to put the two BABY TEDDY BEARS.. SON and Daughter.. and they would sit on the couch or can be the sofa.. crying through the Night.. I just could not sleep.. they are so loud but when Both cries together.. I can feel the walls in the House be shaking.. so I had to just sit on the sofa.. if they two were on the couch.. if they both.. SON and Daughter were sitting on the SOFA.. I be sitting on the couch.. just wondering when would they stop crying.. Until I would call YOU.. and when YOU told me that it has to be a Face Time.. the two always wanted to see Your Face.. their MOMMA'S face.. I remember why did I not think of this SOONER.. but of course.. when I find that Out.. and I would walk up to the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the Son.. he grabs the Phone with two hands.. I see the Daughter his sister next to HIM and wipes the tears off his face.. the care and Love.. which touches my Heart and the Daughter.. I see her hugging her Brother and both cries together in each Other's shoulder asking for MOMMA.. I am thinking.. why do I have to see all these things to HIT my Heart.. feels like someone Hit me hard on my stomach and knock the wind off of Me when I see something like this.. and It was very hard to get through the first day.. I wanted to cry because I just did Not know what to do when the two Baby Teddy Bears feel so Scared.. and feels like they have lost their MOMMA.. just made me realize that I had to do something so that the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the Son and the Daughter feels more closer to YOU.. that is when I would pick UP the Phone and dial your Number and wait for YOU to pick UP on the Other Line.. and Yes.. right when I needed you the Most.. at the Most Hard moment.. I see you pick Up and asking me that YOU wanted to speak to your Children.. and I do remember YOU told me one thing.. a secret that the Children Loves.. the two baby Teddy Bears are so In to and to get their attention.. to read the two Baby Teddy Bears.. they have favorite BOOK that YOU would always read and start to choose books to read for them.. they.. the two BABY TEDDY BEARS.. the SON and the DAUGHTER.. they both loves to listen to stories.. a children's book is the best choice.. when I look at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the SON and the Daughter.. it seems like they would NOT like to hear or will not want me to read them any Books.. it is just they don't want to listen right.. but.. the right Book stories.. they will.. so I would try to find Books in the House.. wondering.. which BOOK should I read to these two baby Teddy Bears.. what would the SON and the Daughter would enjoy to hear stories.. I know that They are NOT going to like what I like right.. So I would be spending some time on the Internet.. trying to find BOOKS that is very Popular for the children's Book.. and it shows just too many Books.. I would order it online and I would be waiting for the Next day shipping to come.. so that I can start to read Books to these Little Ones.. the Two Baby Teddy Bears.. I would hear the Knock.. and I would Open the Door to find a Box.. the Two baby Teddy Bears has been into the coloring Books.. I would buy crayons and thin books where it is Black and white which the two baby Teddy Bears.. the Son and the Daughter would love to color on the pages of these thin coloring Book.. I would peek open the Guest Door.. I would see the two Baby Teddy Bears sitting next to each Other.. holding crayons in the hands.. My Heart.. the SON is looking at the Sister.. the daughter.. she has the Little Princess coloring BOOK.. and the SON.. it is Ninja Turtles and transformers which I loved when I was a small Boy.. wondering will this SON.. the baby Boy love this too.. but I am looking at the SON looking at this Sisters colors.. the crayons and coloring over.. copying the same color as his sister.. of course.. I wanted to show this to YOU.. so I would call and dial up your Number.. of course I hope that I am not bothering you at this TIME of the day because it can be your Meeting at work.. and YOU pick UP and I would put on face time.. I would see you through the screen on this Phone.. in my heart.. I am missing YOU.. I am looking at your Children.. and I am watching your Children love colors.. they love to color on the Book on the pages.. and I wanted to show YOU what YOUR SON and your Daughter is doing.. I would give them the same Crayon Box and it has the crayon pencils and chalks.. as I open the guest door wide.. and I walk into the second room and I would sit in the middle of the two baby Teddy Bears.. and I would say to the children.. YOUR MOMMA on the Phone.. the two will stop coloring and turn to LOOK at YOU on the Phone.. the SON.. He grabs the Phone first and LOOKS at YOU.. and the shirt is dirty with colors all over.. and smiles looking at YOU.. I can hear your voice and you are asking your SON.. show MOMMA the Picture you color.. the SON.. the baby Teddy Bear turns to look at the Coloring BOOK on the Floor and picks UP to show YOU the Picture he is coloring.. my tears.. I just can't stop crying because I have never seen this SON being so Happy showing YOU he has an ART.. and the SON gives the Phone which is on FACE TIME to his Sister.. your Daughter.. and YOU say the same thing to your Daughter.. and the color are the Same with her Brother so I would see the Daughter.. the baby Teddy Bear smiles looking at you through the Face time on the Phone and I can hear your voice.. your Brother is copying YOU HUH and I hear both smiling.. and I am just sitting watch the SON.. He smiles real Big.. saying he loves to color and follow his sister.. I put my hand on my chest.. it touches my Heart.. why does it touch my Heart so bad right Now.. and the Daughter looks at Me and gives me the Phone and I am LOOKING at YOU.. and I see you smile real Big.. and I would say to YOU.. the Two baby Teddy Bears has come a long ways.. because.. I see the two baby Teddy Bears.. your SON and Daughter has a change of Heart.. when I came as the stranger who they did not even Know.. the two children would cry because they were afraid.. they were frighten.. they were both.. your Son and your Daughter were scared.. they did Not even look at me.. both holding hands.. and all they did was cry because I was a stranger to them.. I thought for a Long time.. the two Baby Teddy Bears will not accept Me.. I don't think they both.. your SON and Daughter would not give me a chance to get Close and will TEDDY BEARS.. SON and Daughter.. and they would sit on the couch or can be the sofa.. crying through the Night.. I just could not sleep.. they are so loud but when Both cries together.. I can feel the walls in the House be shaking.. so I had to just sit on the sofa.. if they two were on the couch.. if they both.. SON and Daughter were sitting on the SOFA.. I be sitting on the couch.. just wondering when would they stop crying.. Until I would call YOU.. and when YOU told me that it.. Has to be a Face Time.. the two always wanted to see Your Face.. their MOMMA'S face.. I remember why did I not think of this SOONER.. but of course.. when I find that Out.. and
I would walk up to the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the Son.. he grabs the Phone with two hands.. I see the Daughter his sister next to HIM and wipes the tears off his face.. the care and Love.. which touches my Heart and the Daughter.. I see her hugging her Brother and both cries together in each Other's shoulder asking for MOMMA.. I am thinking.. why do I have to see all these things to HIT my Heart.. feels like someone Hit me hard on my stomach and knock the wind off of Me when I see something like this.. and It was very hard to get through the first day.. I wanted to cry because I just did Not know what to do when the two Baby Teddy Bears feel so Scared.. and feels like they have lost their MOMMA.. just made me realize that I had to do something so that the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the Son and the Daughter feels more closer to YOU.. that is when I would pick UP the Phone and dial your Number and wait for YOU to pick UP on the Other Line.. and Yes.. right when I needed you the Most.. at the Most Hard moment.. I see you pick Up and asking me that YOU wanted to speak to your Children.. and I do remember YOU told me one thing.. a secret that the Children Loves.. the two baby Teddy Bears are so In to and to get their attention.. to read the two Baby Teddy Bears.. they have favorite BOOK that YOU would always read and start to choose books to read for them.. they.. the two BABY TEDDY BEARS.. the SON and the DAUGHTER.. they both loves to listen to stories.. a children's book is the best choice.. when I look at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the SON and the Daughter.. it seems like they would NOT like to hear or will not want me to read them any Books.. it is just they don't want to listen right.. but.. the right Book stories.. they will.. so I would try to find Books in the House.. wondering.. which BOOK should I read to these two baby Teddy Bears.. what would the SON and the Daughter would enjoy to hear stories.. I know that They are NOT going to like what I like right.. So I would be spending some time on the Internet.. trying to find BOOKS that is very Popular for the children's Book.. and it shows just too many Books.. I would order it online and I would be waiting for the Next day shipping to come.. so that I can start to read Books to these Little Ones.. the Two Baby Teddy Bears.. I would hear the Knock.. and I would Open the Door to find a Box.. the Two baby Teddy Bears has been into the coloring Books.. I would buy crayons and thin books where it is Black and white which the two baby Teddy Bears.. the Son and the Daughter would love to color on the pages of these thin coloring Book.. I would peek open the Guest Door.. I would see the two Baby Teddy Bears sitting next to each Other.. holding crayons in the hands.. My Heart.. the SON is looking at the Sister.. the daughter.. she has the Little Princess coloring BOOK.. and the SON.. it is Ninja Turtles and transformers which I loved when I was a small Boy.. wondering will this SON.. the baby Boy love this too.. but I am looking at the SON looking at this Sisters colors.. the crayons and coloring over.. copying the same color as his sister.. of course.. I wanted to show this to YOU.. so I would call and dial up your Number.. of course I hope that I am not bothering you at this TIME of the day because it can be your Meeting at work.. and YOU pick UP and I would put on face time.. I would see you through the screen on this Phone.. in my heart.. I am missing YOU.. I am looking at your Children.. and I am watching your Children love colors.. they love to color on the Book on the pages.. and I wanted to show YOU what YOUR SON and your Daughter is doing.. I would give them the same Crayon Box and it has the crayon pencils and chalks.. as I open the guest door wide.. and I walk into the second room and I would sit in the middle of the two baby Teddy Bears.. and I would say to the children.. YOUR MOMMA on the Phone.. the two will stop coloring and turn to LOOK at YOU on the Phone.. the SON.. He grabs the Phone first and LOOKS at YOU.. and the shirt is dirty with colors all over.. and smiles looking at YOU.. I can hear your voice and you are asking your SON.. show MOMMA the Picture you color.. the SON.. the baby Teddy Bear turns to look at the Coloring BOOK on the Floor and picks UP to show YOU the Picture he is coloring.. my tears.. I just can't stop crying because I have never seen this SON being so Happy showing YOU he has an ART.. and the SON gives the Phone which is on FACE TIME to his Sister.. your Daughter.. and YOU say the same thing to your Daughter.. and the color are the Same with her Brother so I would see the Daughter.. the baby Teddy Bear smiles looking at you through the Face time on the Phone and I can hear your voice.. your Brother is copying YOU HUH and I hear both smiling.. and I am just sitting watch the SON.. He smiles real Big.. saying he loves to color and follow his sister.. I put my hand on my chest.. it touches my Heart.. why does it touch my Heart so bad right Now.. and the Daughter looks at Me and gives me the Phone and I am LOOKING at YOU.. and I see you smile real Big.. and I would say to YOU.. the Two baby Teddy Bears has come a long ways.. because.. I see the two baby Teddy Bears.. your SON and Daughter has a change of Heart.. when I came as the stranger who they did not even Know.. the two children would cry because they were afraid.. they were frighten.. they were both.. your Son and your Daughter were scared.. they did Not even look at me.. both holding hands.. and all they did was cry because I was a stranger to them.. I thought for a Long time.. the two Baby Teddy Bears will not accept Me.. I don't think they both.. your SON and Daughter would not give me a chance to get Close and will Not open their Hearts to Me at all.. but I remember you are the ONE who told Me.. that the two baby Teddy Bears.. both your SON and your Daughter.. all they needed was some TIME and patient and just give them LOVE.. share kindness and be gentle to them.. the Hearts will open UP as long as I am waiting and being patient but always go to them first.. and Love the two Children.. I would be asking.. what if it takes a Long time but.. your Words reassured me that the Two children.. the SON and the DAUGHTER will open UP.. just give time.. when I heard those words from YOU and How you told Me.. know what the two Children.. your SON and your Daughter Loves.. and I am trying to think.. and YOU told me.. when I look into the bag you brought to Me.. when I search and seek into It.. I will find OUT what they love and enjoy the Most. I remember opening the Bag.. I would find the crayons.. two Boxes and the coloring BOOK.. and I would find even the children's BOOK.. and that is when I started to work with Them.. and I would watch the tears turn into smiles as they would sit into the Guest ROOM.. the minds be so busy coloring.. I remember when the BOOKS of the children came.. I was able to go into the Guest ROOM.. and I would ask the SON and the Daughter.. can I read you a Children's BOOK to YOU.. will you please give me your TIME so that I can share you some stories.. and I was truly amazed how the Two baby Teddy Bears.. the SON and the DAUGHTER both drops what they were doing.. which is coloring on the coloring Books.. and they would sit next to each other holding Hands.. and it was time for the two Baby Teddy Bears to listen to stories and for me to read from the Book.. I would hear the Phone be ringing because it was that time.. the Hour has come and of course.. YOU would also listen to the Book.. the Children's BOOK as I would answer your CALL and put on the Face TIME.. I would be charging the PHONE as I would switch to Face time.. and I would give the Phone on face TIME.. the SON would grab the Phone first looking at you on face time.. and the Daughter sitting next to her Brother and Both are staring on to the screen of the Phone ON face time looking at YOU.. I would open the BOOK.. the children's Book and from the chapter One.. I would read from the first page and I would turn to the next page.. and I can see The two Baby Teddy Bears listening.. and I would hear your voice on the Other line.. asking the two Children about the page I was reading.. to share their thoughts to YOU.. and I would sit there and I would paused.. the SON would Look at you on the Phone confused.. I would hear the daughter able to share her thoughts to YOU looking at you on Daughter I ever seen.. and I saw the smile.. grabbing the SPOON.. putting a RICE and the beef.. the Mouth opens wide and I put the spoon into her mouth.. as I see her chew and eat.. I just could NOT hold my tears in.. I just could Not believe that finally I am able to feed this Little Daughter.. in the hand.. there is a Picture.. I would open her Hand and to look at what Picture and it is a Picture of YOU.. and I would look at YOU through this Picture.. my hand touches My Chest and I would say.. WHY do you Burn my Heart.. WHY do you do this TO ME and even bringing the Twins.. the Little SON and the Little Daughter.. my Heart beat faster as I spend the time with Them.. they are so Adorable and so Cute.. never imagined in my Life that I could even fall more harder for YOU because I feel like I am a part of something Bigger now.. I remember when YOU first called me on the Phone.. and asking ME that YOU had to go somewhere.. and YOU had a problem.. that YOU could Not take your Children with YOU.. and needed them to be place by somewhere safe and secure and wanted to ask me a Favor if I could baby sit your children while YOU are away on this Business journey.. I remember I paused for a few minutes.. trying to think straight because I was Not sure if it was the right THING to bring your Two Children
And YOU told me that they are two.. One is a Boy and the Other is a girl.. and they are Twins.. Little SON and the Little Daughter.. and it is a hard decision for YOU to leave them behind but this trip was very important for YOU.. of course I did Not want to say NO.. I had NO experience of How to deal with kids.. I never had any children on my own so I am Not sure what I am suppose to DO.. but.. of course I know that THIS IS a very Important business meeting.. this trip YOU must take and YOU MUST go so I told YOU.. Yes.. it is because I love YOU.. it is because It is YOU and as long as it is YOU WHO I LOVE the Most.. it does Not matter.. because I will try to be a GOOD baby sitter.. I remember when the DOOR knocked on the Front Door.. did Not expected much.. opening the DOOR.. I saw the Two crying.. I was Not sure.. How am I suppose to handle both be crying.. holding unto MOMMA.. and when YOU try to bring the LITTLE SON closer.. and He was in your Arm and the Little Daughter.. You were holding her hands.. and I saw your steps closer asking me to hold and Carry the Little SON.. he started to Cry Louder as He came into my Arms.. and the Little Daughter started to cry louder and sat on the Floor.. did Not want to come into the House.. and as I would look at this.. My Heart started to feel cracking inside.. started to feel this breaking deep within me.. WHY.. they do not understand why YOU have to leave them with Me.. and when I went inside the House holding the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little SON.. He is looking at YOU from the back.. arms stretching to YOU.. and Made me stop.. My Heart just could Not handle this pain of hearing this ONE cry and asking for YOU.. asking for His MOMMA and WHY you had to leave HIM with me.. and I would stand still thinking.. what am I suppose to do if they keep on crying.. asking for YOU.. and what do I do when they keep crying over and over.. and I turn around to ask YOU this Question.. I see you walk into this House.. YOU were holding the Other Little BABY Teddy Bear.. the Little Daughter.. and YOU went over to the Couch and Put the Little Daughter to sit still and I would come over to Place and sit the Little SON next to her.. both crying.. and hands be rubbing the eyes looking at YOU and Looking at me.. and I would say.. and YOU would give a Phone to the Little Daughter.. and Placing the Hand of the Little SON.. telling the Two YOU be coming Home soon.. and that I am a BABY Sitter for few days so Don't cry.. and I see the two Stop crying when YOU tell them that.. and I see YOU with Your Other Phone and YOU dial the Number.. and the Phone would ring.. the Little Daughter looks at the Phone.. the Little SON looks at the Phone and presses.. and It is the Face Time.. and the two looks at the Face Time.. I see YOU walking back.. and YOU are talking to the two Little BABY TEDDY BEARS and I would watch them smile.. hands be waving looking at YOU through the Phone and giving them two Pictures.. One for the Little SON and the Other for the Little Daughter.. so that YOU are near and YOU gave me One too.. and as I would look at YOU.. I would watch YOU say good bye and Left the Front Door.. I remember the first Night.. I just could Not sleep at all.. and the two Would Not sleep either.. both sitting on the Couch and would be crying.. asking for YOU.. for MOMMA.. of course every one Hour I would hear the Phone ringing and the Two siting next to each Other.. they would fight for the Phone.. pushing the Button for the Face TIME.. I see them showing Teeth and growling that One of them has to talk and the Other.. as I would watch still on the corner.. I did Not want to bother any of them because of how the two.. the Little BABY TEDDY bears kept on crying crying after YOU would hang UP the Phone.. pushing and shoving who is going to answer next.. after a long period of time crying.. I would hear silence.. and when I look at the Couch.. the two be sleeping next to each other.. and I would walk into the ROOM.. and the Picture YOU gave me.. I would go over to the desk and sit alone.. looking at your Picture.. I would be thinking.. they been crying all through the day after you left.. and the two do Not want to eat either.. they do NOT want to drink any waters.. sits on that couch.. LOOKS at your Pictures crying and looks at the Phone to see it rings.. and I am looking at your Picture.. but YOU are so Beautiful.. why did YOU have to bring those two into my House and I know that I have NO experience with children.. what if they keep on crying asking for YOU.. I hear where is MOMMA.. why isn't MOMMA calling the Phone.. and Keeps on crying for YOU.. and Now there is Peace and silence as I am sitting in this ROOM alone.. of course if the Two Little Ones are crying Out for YOU.. asking and missing YOU.. I know that my Heart truly feels the same.. that I do want to see YOU SOON too and that I know what the two Little TEDDY BEARS are feeling.. that they want to see YOU SOON.. how about me.. How about My Heart.. what would you do if I cry like the two Little Ones.. the Teddy Bears missing their MOMMA.. what would you do if I showed you my tears and telling you that my Heart is being shattered.. it is this Pain.. this sharp pain I feel inside because I miss YOU.. that I want to be near YOU and to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. would you let me show YOU my Tears because what My Heart truly feels for YOU.. that I want to say I love YOU.. why can't I say it to YOU and tell you how much I do.. I want to tell YOU to let YOU know to say it and to say I love you hurts me the Most because that is when I misses YOU the Most.. I wish that YOU knew.. I wish that YOU know right Now.. the Two baby Teddy bears are sleeping right Now which NOW I am able to speak to YOU.. but I know that Heart.. I know this Heart.. I know How it feels to be broken and missing.. wanting to see YOU over and over again.. this Cry.. it cries and cries.. My Heart cries OUT loud the way the two Baby Teddy Bears be crying Out.. wiping the Tears.. grabbing unto the Phone.. pushing each Other for the Next to LOOK at YOU.. saying It is Mine turn to see.. and cries after the Hanging UP on the Phone and looking at YOU.. LOOKING at your Picture crying of these sorrows in the Hearts.. I would watch the Two Little BABY Teddy bears.. sitting on that Couch.. I know that Heart.. I can feel that Pain in the Heart because that is HOW I feel to when YOU are Gone.. when YOU are far away which leaves me to be more lonely than ever.. just to be with YOU.. just to tell YOU.. but my Words can't say it.. I see the two., saying I MISS YOU.. and I love YOU.. LOOKING at you when the Two looks at YOU through the Face Time.. but I stand still.. it kills me the Most.. it eats me at it inside because I wish that I can be like the two TEDDY BEARS.. your Children who is able to say it and tell It the way it just feels inside but I just cannot.. and I would watch them cry.. I cry with the Two watching on the SIDELINE because.. I want to go over to the Phone.. looking at you on the Face TIME and when I look at you through the PHONE on FACE TIME.. just to tell YOU with my tears in my eyes to say it with Means.. I miss YOU and I love YOU.. why can't you be here so that I don't needs to cry any more and watch the Children to cry along with me.. it burns My Heart into pieces.. it burns because it hurts so much.. this PAIN of loving YOU.. I may become sick.. sick inside because I am Loving you just too much just for too long.. that IS how much I love YOU..I am sitting on the Couch.. on my Lap is the Little Son.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. Next to me sitting is the Other baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter.. I am smiling.. looking at the Picture.. and on my Lap.. the Little Son.. the baby Teddy Bear is looking at YOU.. and I am missing YOU.. asking when YOU are coming.. I want to show you the Two Little Ones.. the children are.. YOU to me.. and tells me I love YOU.. and I miss MOMMA.. I am sitting on the couch.. they are expressing what I am feeling all of the Time.. I know that I can truly relate but the problem is there is Nothing I can do.. what am I suppose to say when YOU Miss.. and has NO answers to what I am feeling because I know How it is hurting me More.. I feel like for myself.. but when YOU can the children involve.. I feel like I am taking more loads on my Heart.. why can't you come Home.. why cant you come sooner.. the two are always missing YOU.. asking me where are YOU.. and they sit on the floor.. LOOKING at the front Door.. and I know if I try to pick the two UP.. One will cry because.. and I have to hear the other One cry too.. and it can get to YOU sometimes.. I wish I can find a way that NO ONE gets hurt and I just don't have to be hearing more cries.. as I walk out of the room.. I would watch the two Baby Teddy Bears falls asleep.. I had to give the two a Bath.. putting the Bubbles into the bath tub.. the two enjoyed taking a Bath in the bubble.. I had to put them into the Crib because It was the bed Time.. I grab a Book and started to read them and I saw the two baby Teddy Bears.. the Little SON and the Daughter.. they both started to sleep while I was reading a children's book.. as I watch the two sleeping.. I would smile looking at the two children.. they are so Beautiful.. of course they are Your Babies so it makes it more beautiful for me to see.. as I would walk out of the room.. I go into my room and sit on the chair.. with the desk.. I am looking at Your Picture.. and it is the Picture of YOU and the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the Little SON sitting on your Lap.. and the Daughter.. she is sitting on the couch next to YOU.. with a Yellow Bow on top of the Head.. My Heart moves.. LOOKING at this picture.. My Heart screams from the Inside.. and
I have bought an Art.. the GIANT SKETCH BOOK.. and I would sit.. wanting to draw the Picture of YOU.. with the two Children.. am I loving YOU more.. I can't stop looking at Your Picture.. with the two children.. the Little SON and the Daughter.. why did you have to come and introduce me to the two.. when ever I look at the two.. I am only seeing YOU more but my Heart just loves YOU more.. when the two sits next with me.. and I watch them smile.. it kills me inside because they make me smile.. my heart lights UP on fire when I see the two.. I am holding the hands of the Little SON.. I try to get him to walk.. but He sits and cries instead.. trying to teach the BABY TEDDY BEAR.. the Little SON to walk.. I remember I called YOU on the Phone.. and I wanted to face time.. and I saw YOU on the Phone.. with my two hands.. I held the two hands of the Little SON.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. trying to get two legs to get UP.. and through the Face time YOU saw your SON.. and he falls and starts to cry.. and the Daughter starts to cry with her Brother.. and I had to let you go on the Face time.. and I am sitting on the chair.. looking at the Picture and thinking of these little flashbacks.. and I grab the Pencil.. which it is use to draw.. but I just could not draw.. I know that YOU be coming soon.. when YOU come.. I know the two Little Ones.. the Two Baby Teddy Bears are going to go with you.. that Means.. it is going to break my Heart.. not just going to be missing YOU but also the two Little ones you brought.. I know that I needs to do this.. so I would look at the Picture of YOU.. Looking at the Little SON sitting on top of Your lap and LOOKING at the Daughter who is sitting next to YOU.. OH MY HEART.. these precious Little Ones.. MY Heart.. what are you doing to this Heart of Mine.. why did YOU have to bring them to Me.. so that YOU can Punish me for doing you a good thing.. but Look what is going to happen to My Heart.. and I grab the Pencil.. the Art pencil and starts to draw on the Piece of Ark sketch Paper.. what if I just can't finish because of My Heart.. LOOK at the Precious Little Ones.. the Little SON.. and the Daughter.. and I would think about.. Holding the Book.. and I am sitting on the floor.. the Two baby Teddy Bears.. the brother and sister.. the children.. they are holding hands and I am reading the children story.. and I be reading Out loud so the two can hear the stories.. and I asked the two.. the Little SON and the Daughter.. do YOU like stories.. and I see the heads goes UP and down telling me Yes.. they love stories.. and I would say to the two children.. I love stories too.. and I would hear the Phone ring.. and On face time it is YOU who was calling.. at this Hour.. before going to Bed.. YOU would tell me that the two Needs to be read.. that I needs to pick a children's book and starts to read or they will Not go to sleep.. so I would look at the Phone.. and I would see YOU.. and the two baby Teddy Bears.. they know it is MOMMA on the Other side.. and I would give the Daughter the Phone.. and I see her looking at YOU and with a Big SMILE.. waving hand at YOU.. and I would open the Book.. and I would start to read the sentences.. paragraphs it becomes.. and I can hear YOU on the Phone telling the Two LITTLE ONES.. and the Daughter would hand to the LITTLE SON.. and Looks at YOU.. Looking at MOMMA.. and I can hear YOU on the Other side asking the two Children.. what is the story about and to explain to YOU.. as I would read and Pause.. I hear answers coming out trying to answer the questions.. and I sit still.. the two Baby Teddy Bears.. both looking at YOU through the Face TIME of the Phone.. trying to tell YOU the answers.. Fussing and bumping into each other.. of course.. after a time.. I would watch the two Letting YOU go on the Other side.. and I would look at the two Little Ones looking at me.. and I would continue to read the Children's Book.. open my mouth loud and clear.. and I would watch the two.. the eyes would get heavy and both sleeps on the Floor.. One at a time.. I would pick UP.. with the Daughter first.. putting Her into her crib and then I would go and pick UP the Little SON.. which I would stand still.. Holding Him in my arms like he is my SON.. and I would slowly put him into his crib.. and turning Off the Light.. I would leave the room.. I am sitting in my room.. just thinking about the day.. I would love to draw the sketch.. but I know that I am not that good in drawing at all.. I am truly terrible at it.. I am not sure why I grab me the Art Pencil when I know that I just can't finish it.. but deep in my heart.. I do want to draw YOU.. and looking at the Picture.. the two Baby Teddy Bears.. Not just YOU but with the two children on the Picture.. but My Heart just won't let me do it.. because I know it will shatter inside because I love YOU.. My Heart will shatter into pieces because I know that the two will be leaving soon.. of course I wish that the two Little Children can stay more longer.. but the More longer they are with me.. More I feel like it is Hurting me instead.. what if I would say to YOU.. don't let the children leave me.. I would be crazy before Your Eyes and I know that they belong.. they came with YOU and that is why I know they must go with YOU.. My Heart just can't accept that the two Baby Teddy Bears be leaving me soon.. and it is hurting me right Now because I know this.. of course they must go with YOU.. as I sit still in the silent.. I receive a Message from YOU.. and YOU have sent me something.. it is a New Picture of YOU.. and YOU are showing me.. telling me where YOU are.. and as I would look on the Phone to take a look at the New Picture of YOU.. and I know that the Children.. the two Baby Teddy Bears will love this Picture of YOU.. of their MOMMA.. which YOU are smiling in this One.. that YOU are doing so GOOD.. this is what I wanted to see.. what I wanted to hear.. and I hear the phone ringing.. and I picked UP the Phone to hear Your Voice.. and I would tell YOU.. after the face time.. I know that the children.. the two Baby TEDDY BEARS would be arguing and they would fuss at each other because they wanted to give YOU the answers.. and Yes.. I had to let YOU go to get this issue solved.. did I finish reading the children's BOOK.. while I was reading the stories to them.. I saw the eyes.. the Daughter first.. the eyes grew tired and I saw the two eyes would close and She lay on the floor sleeping.. I would keep on reading the Children's book and I would look at the eyes of the Little SON.. which he grew tired too.. both eyes started to close and He lays on the floor sleeping next to his sister.. I would keep on reading for at least 30 more minutes.. as I close the Children's Book.. I would pick UP the Daughter first and Put her in the Crib.. and I would go over to the Little SON and Pick Him up next.. Putting HIM into his crib.. and I stood watching the two sleeping.. holding the Daughter.. the BABY TEDDY BEAR in my arms.. I hear I miss MOMMA.. as I would walk out of the room where the two are sleeping.. I would be thinking of YOU and I go into my room.. sitting on the chair next to the desk.. I would LOOK at the Picture of YOU with the two Little ONES.. BABY TEDDY BEARS.. the Daughter and the Little Son.. the Little SON sitting on your Lap and the Daughter sitting next to YOU with the Little Yellow Bow on top of I am just.. my Heart.. My Chest.. My Heart.. How much these two are missing their MOMMA.. wanting to see.. I see both ears.. trying to listen to the Voice of their MOMMA.. and I would look at the two.. they are so Beautiful.. both.. the twins.. the Baby Teddy Bears.. both so Cute but so Beautiful.. I would turn around.. and I do remember.. I was sitting down on the chair.. by the desk.. Looking at your Picture.. I would look and say to Your Picture.. when can I see YOU.. will you let me hold YOU.. will you let me love YOU.. I know I can love you the way YOU want to be held and want to be loved.. I know that I can love you in a way you would never felt before.. I can tell YOU.. tell YOU how much I miss YOU.. How Much I love YOU.. but.. YOU have to give me the permission.. allow me to tell YOU that I love YOU.. and I would be looking at your Picture.. when will you come around so that I can see YOU.. My hand grabbing unto the Pencil.. looking at a sketch of paper.. My hand starts to trace.. using the pencil to draw.. and I am looking at your picture.. to draw you on this sketch paper.. and right when I was about to go deeper.. I hear a knock on the door.. DOK DOK DOK.. and I am wondering.. who be knocking at the front door at this time of hour.. it is getting late.. and I am thinking.. maybe I am just too tired that I am hearing things.. so I would begin to use my hand to draw.. I hear another Knocking at the Door.. DOK DOK DOK.. and I know this time I heard it right.. so I put the Pencil down.. on top of the Desk and I get UP.. pull out of the chair and I would walk to the front door.. I hear another knocking.. DOK DOK DOK.. I would unlock and Open the Door.. I see you standing there.. and I see you have brought companies.. it is the Twins.. two Baby Teddy Bears.. and I am wondering.. why would you bring the two Babies here late at night.. is something wrong.. but.. YOU be telling me you are leaving on a vacation.. and wanted me to baby sit the two Baby Teddy Bears.. but I have No children.. and I have NO experiences with kids.. or babies.. why would you bring them over to my House.. and YOU are asking me that it be for few days.. but looking at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. they are the most cute and you have brought what I can use for the two.. what do I do if the two Baby Teddy Bears starts to cry.. asking for MOMMA.. and if they start to miss their MOMMA.. what am I suppose to do then.. because I have No experiences at all.. and I see you get closer.. trying to hand me over the Little SON.. and as I would hold on with my arms
The Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little Son starts to cry.. and I see the Little SON.. Arms stretching out to YOU.. because He does not want to come to me.. the Cry gets louder and louder.. and arms stretching out to YOU.. wanting to Go to YOU instead of Me.. and His cry so Loud.. hurting my ears.. and I am not sure.. It is so hard for me to control.. and I would ask YOU to come inside.. I see the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter starts to cry too.. both being very loud cries.. I just don't know what to do.. why are you leaving them with Me.. they are both crying loud for YOU.. asking to take them with YOU.. My Heart hurts.. it hurts because I know How it feels to be in a pain when YOU leave.. as YOU would try to give me the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter.. She is even more worst.. YOU had to hold Her close.. and She would sleep in your arms.. Would not even come to me.. kicking and screaming when YOU try to get her close to me.. and what happens when the Other Baby Teddy Bear wakes UP and knows YOU are not in the House.. but has left her with Me.. the Other Baby Teddy Bear will find Out that YOU are gone.. but for now.. she may sleep.. if the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter did not come to me when YOU were here.. I know she is Not going to come to me when I am alone with Her.. I feel so Bad.. My Heart breaks as I would watch the Little SON.. He sees you walking.. the BABY TEDDY Bear starts to crawl after you.. I am watching.. my eyes.. I feel my tears going to pour out.. as I see you walking fast.. going to the front DOOR and the Little SON.. the Baby Teddy Bear crawls crying after you.. as I watch YOU leave the front door.. and the door closes behind.. the Little Son.. baby Teddy Bear sits and cries.. and sits by the door waiting for YOU as He keeps on crying for his MOMMA.. I am standing behind.. just wiping my tears.. It hurts.. this Pain.. it feels like a sharp pain has entered in me.. It hurts watching the Little Son.. hurting.. crying for his Momma.. and turn to look at me crying.. tears hitting the floor.. and turns to look at the door.. what do I do.. tell me.. what am I suppose to do when It hurts me just watching One breaking Heart.. what do I do.. I wanted to go.. Open that front Door and run after YOU.. grab Your Arm and pull and to let YOU see.. LOOK at the Little SON.. look at HIM crying.. why do I have to be the one to watch His tears run down like this.. WHY do you have to break my Heart when I have done nothing to YOU.. why come over and look at the Heart pieces falling apart.. WHY do I have to be the one with the Broken Heart.. it hurts me more than It hurts YOU.. as I would walk.. closer to the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little Son.. keeps on crying.. pointing to the Door.. wanting to go with YOU.. but.. I know that I can't take this Little ONE to YOU.. and I am just standing here.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do at this Point.. because I can't help this Little Son.. even though I want too.. but.. YOU be telling me you wanted to be time alone.. you just wanted so time off.. to refresh Your Head and that is why YOU are leaving and has made me to be the Baby sitter for the Two Baby Teddy Bears.. I know you have brought all that is needed for them.. so that part I am ready to do what I was told me to do.. but.. I just can't take the pains of the two baby Teddy Bears be crying.. Now.. I am looking at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. both sitting on the top of the Bed.. with the Phone in their Ears listening to Your Voice.. Both looks at each other and smiles knowing that They are hearing their MOMMA on the Other side.. so I am getting closer.. and I am wondering.. few days.. but when is that the few days end.. so that I can focus on drawing picture of you on the New Sketch Paper Book I just bought from an Art Shop.. I want to draw a picture of YOU and to show YOU when it is all completed.. I be drawing YOU.. for a long time I wanted to draw a picture of YOU.. I know that I am Not good in drawing.. but I do want to try so that I can tell YOU.. I can show YOU this is My Heart.. Not Just My Heart.. but it is My Love.. this is a way I want to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. but I need a time alone.. I need my own time.. if the two Baby Teddy Bears are here.. I know that I can't draw anything.. so I would get close to the Two baby Teddy Bears.. I am asking if I can have the phone Back.. so that I can talk to YOU.. but it seems like the two Baby Teddy Bears does Not want to give me the Phone.. they want to hear their Momma speak on the Other side.. I see the smiles and giggles together.. it look so beautiful.. how the two are so Beautiful when they smile.. just like their MOMMA.. YOU are the most Beautiful when YOU smile.. as I would watch the Phone being hung UP.. and the two sitting on the Bed.. looking at me.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do now.. they just looks at me.. and both starts to cry.. crying loud wanting to see their MOMMA..I am sitting by the desk.. I am looking at the shot glass.. and grabbed the Bottle of whiskey and poured into the Shot glass.. placing the whiskey down.. picked up the shot glass.. opened my mouth and take a shot.. I am trying to forget YOU.. but I just can't.. I have placed your picture on the top of the desk.. I keep on looking at this picture.. I tell myself I needs to stop.. but I feel like I needs to keep on looking.. I would look at your picture and say.. why are you doing this to me.. why do I have to keep on looking at you.. of course I have a pencil and a clean white sheet of paper.. I want to draw.. looking at your picture.. I want to draw the picture of you.. but I know that I am not that good in drawing at all.. but I can feel.. this whiskey starts to kick my head.. I feel light headed and buzzing.. I know I drank so that I can forget you.. but why is it that I am missing you more now.. I just can't take my eyes off of you.. as I am looking at your picture.. why can't your picture talk back to me.. I want to hear something from you.. but no matter how many times I am going to tell you looking at your picture.. I will not hear anything from the Other side.. but I want to hear from you.. Please.. tell me something so that I don't feel the light headed I am feeling at this point right now.. YOU know that I love you.. I can tell you many times that I love YOU.. can you tell me something.. can you hear me say the words to YOU.. I love you.. and I grab the pencil.. starts to trace and starts to draw.. of course I am looking at your picture.. as I stopped.. putting the pencil down.. I have drawn a picture of a Heart.. I know that I am missing your Heart.. and I am looking at this pieces of paper.. looking at the Heart.. this is suppose to be your Heart.. so that I can touch it.. as my hand Teddy Bear.. a Son.. who is crying for YOU.. asking me where is MOMMA.. how am I suppose to answer the Baby Teddy Bear's question.. I want to know where YOU are.. but only thing I have is your picture.. I want to hear from you as much as this SON in the room.. crying and crying.. I thought that something was wrong with me.. I thought that My Heart was crying.. crying because I miss YOU.. that I love YOU.. that I want to see YOU and that I want to be close to YOU.. I heard this cry.. but it is Loud cry.. and I turn to look at the bed.. the baby Teddy Bear looks at me.. and I see the tears keeps on dropping.. wetting the bed.. and starts to cry and cry.. I am getting more emotional.. I am trying to get drunk.. but this Baby Teddy Bear is not helping me at at.. and I go over to the Bed and I sit.. I show the Baby Teddy Bear.. this Picture.. is it your Momma and the head moves up and down.. and I give the baby Teddy Bear the picture.. He wraps his arms around your picture and says MOMMA.. and I ask him.. where is your Momma.. please tell me.. and I would say.. I will take you to her.. I would wrap my arms around the baby Teddy Bear and I would lift him up and I get up out of the bed.. Tell me where is Your Momma.. so I can take you to her.. the Baby Teddy bear does not answer.. and I would walk out of the room.. and I am walking down the hall way and I stop.. I see you Holding the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter and I see you turn around and you looking at me.. and I am holding the Baby Teddy Bear.. my arms wrapped around.. and I look at you.. I think you have left this.. He is looking for Momma.. and I would see you placing the Other Teddy Bear.. wearing a pink shirt.. and she starts to cry.. Arms stretching out towards you.. and I see you walking closer to me.. and I hear.. MOMMA.. and I look down.. the Baby teddy Bear.. arms are around your picture.. I see you kneel and arms stretches out.. and I would lower myself.. opens my arm.. the Baby Teddy Bear walks slowly.. arms around your picture.. and falls.. starts to cry loud.. and I am thinking.. this Baby Teddy Bear.. I see you get up and I see your arms around the Baby Teddy Bear.. arms around and Lift him up.. I see you holding the Baby Teddy Bear close in your arms.. I see the picture falling and hits the floor.. as you are stand up walking.. the Baby Teddy Bear falls asleep in your arms.. I am looking.. and you go over to the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter and you are looking at the two.. my hand grabs your picture and I am looking at Your Picture.. looking at you with two children.. and I see smiles with the Daughter.. the Other Teddy bear as you are touching.. am I suppose to fall in love with this.. what am I suppose to do at this point.. and how about me.. can I be a part of that circle.. I want to hold YOU.. and I want to be held by you the way you are holding the two Teddy Bears.. I see smiles and giggles.. but I want to be a part.. I want to smile and giggle along side.. holding YOU close in my arms.. and holding the baby Teddy Bear.. and Holding YOU to tell you that I love you.. as I am sitting on the floor.. I just want to be with YOU.. I want to be a part so that I can feel the love.. loving YOU
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솧 애기 피부 비결 (끄적끄적) 달바..솧 패셔니스타 비결 (끄적끄적)..완벽한 얼굴..선글라스는 가릷뿐..
연극 기대하고 있습니다❤
연기의 폭도 넓히고 한층 발전된 배우시길 기원합니다
일상 소희 소듕소듕!! 오우 소희 연극 런!!!!!! 꿀팁!!!!! 감솨 그 관객분 진짜 복 받은 !!!! ㅠㅠ
😊이쁘다 이뻐
요즘 나의 힐링영상😌
봄날의 새싹같은 안쏘희 였다. 막상 단에 올라서면 다 입을 다 물고 집중 해버릴 거야 모두가 숨도 못쉴걸!
마지막에 언니랑 너무 귀엽다ㅠㅠ
무대 씹어먹던 왕년의 안소희 연극무대도 찢어버려… 5월에 만나!!!!
솧의 일상 넘좋아
대사 까먹을 때랑 관객이랑 소통하는 장면 시뮬도 돌려보는구나 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ소희 n 맞지 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ친근해
소희 넘나 피부도좋고 패션도 좋고 선구리도 좋고 맛있는 것도 잘 찾아먹고 잘 쉬고 열심히 연극준비하고 있어서 보기좋다💗
소희 누나.. 진짜 사랑합니다❤
소소한 일상 넘 귀하고 좋다요 😉🤎
All your food looks really savory. 😋😋 Keep on glowing with your bright personality. #1 fits your red sweater the best and #2 your hair the most. Enjoying your vlogs and daily life. 😍😍
저도 카페 투어하기 좋아하는데 소개 감사해요~ 저도 가볼게요😆🧡
소희 언냐 볼 수 있음 더 좋겠다ㅠㅠ
6:54 아니 썬구리 열일하네요!!
소희가 나오는 연극이라니 꼭 봐야지❤
소희 일상이 제일 좋아요
소희언니 유튜브 볼 수 있어 넘 행복❤우리 소희언니 나오는 연극 대박나자>_
안소희 활기찬 웃음 좋고 사랑스럽다 😁
연극하는구나 연극도홧팅!!여러방면에서 활동많이해주니 좋아좋아';>;>:?::!::?:
저 담주에 가요 공연😊😊❤ 기대돼요 :)
방금 예매하고 왔어요 🫶🏻
언니 첫공 보러갈게요🌼
꺄 회사 근처(서울숲)에 가고싶었던 곳들이 몇몇 있어서 별표 표시해두었는데 솧언니도 갔었군요!! 하나씩 뿌셔볼게요ㅋㅋㅋ❤❤ 연극 클로저도 기대하고있을게요! 화이팅😊 일요일 공연 때 보아요오
클로저 예매했습니다. 빨리 보고싶네요🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩
언니가 다리에서 낀 선글라스 보니까 손민수 하고 싶어요 두번 째 옷 정보도 알고 싶은데.. 다 탐이 나네요…🥺
소희님 톤업 선크림 좋아보이네요~~~ 안그래도 피부가 좋으신데 굳이 화장을 안하셔도 되는 효과가 ㅎㅎㅎㅎ
소희야 클로저 첫 공연 잘 봤어❤❤ 진짜 잘했다!! 앨리솧 만나는 날들이 기대돼..❤
제 첫 연극이에요 언니 덕분에!!! 기대중❤
소희님 엄지에 착용한 반지 정보 알려주실 수 있을까용? 🥺🫶🫶
먼가 신나보인다
알람뜨자마자 개처럼 달려오땨.....❤️🔥
언니는 봄이고 꽃이야ㅠㅠ❤❤🌸🌸
연극 클로저.... 언니만큼 나도 떨려 😭
오랜만에 보는 언니+갑자기 연극이라 덜덜
그치만 나는 언니의 팬미팅만을 기다리며..
연습한다고 치고 보러갈 수 있는 날 다 보러갈게
일단 1회차에 봅시다 🤍
빨간색 짚업 넘 이쁘당👍🏻
봄이 왔네요❤
오늘은 수다쟁이 쏳네요 ㅎㅎ 쏳큩
❤ S❤HEE ❤
오늘도 힐링 하고 갑니다~
와 피자 너무 탐스럽네요🍕😍
아우터 정보 궁금해요😊
3:05 코트가!! 원래 양면인가욯
4월 막주에 연극보러 가요 기대기대❤
클로저 보러 간다구~~~
연극 무대도 씹어먹자!!!
선글라스 까지 착용하면 스누피랑 더 닮을꺼 같아요~ㅎㅎ
귀여우신 소희 언니♡
대전..한번 와주세요..
9:25 mz샷 배워온 소희 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ 근데 소희는 어떤 썬글라스를 쓰든 다 잘 어울려 ㅋㅋㅋ
❤
솧튜브 너무 좋아요🫶🏻
썬크림 바르는거 왜케 귀엽지?!
ソヒ💛がんばれ💛
Sohee fighting for 'Closer' !!! ❤💪🏻🔥
좋아해요
역시 중학생이라 귀여워
오잉 나 달바 썬크림 고민했었는데... 결제 진행시켜야겠넹
일요일의 즐거움.. 솧튜브💛
Nice. Like Joe Cool. Thought you were going to wear the sunglasses as well when you imitate the pose for the ending. 🙂
오늘 연극 보러 가기 전 솧튜브 보러 왔어요❤
관객과 가까운 포지션…? 2차 티켓팅 뜨면 그 자리는 제 겁니다.
빨간색 집업 브랜드 궁금하다요💛
혜화 비스트로솟대 샤브샤브 맛있어요!
I will always love you ❤️❤️❤️😮 so hee 😅😅😅
❤❤❤❤
비빔밥은 젓가락으로 비비는 거였구나❤
소희 ❤
밥친구로 딱
솧투어 혜화편도 해줘용 😊
Love you sohee ❤
애기인줄 알았지만 육회와 미나리의 참맛, 델몬트주스병 아는 소희...이제 좀 진짜 같은 30대 같네요 후후
꼬임 링귀걸이 어디껀지 아시나요?.?
아마 셀린이용 예전에 소희가 소개해준 적 있을거에요
@@야다람쥐 어멋 감사해여ෆ
헐 우리동네 오셨었구나…!!!
❤照熙讚
🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
6:43 목걸이 정보 궁금합니다~~❤
피자드실때 입은 니트정보 부탁드려요!! ㅜㅜ
소희님 브이로그를 볼게요
마지막에 엄지척 스누피 액자는 어디제품인지 혹시 아시는분 계실까요?
My wife❤
❤❤❤❤❤❤ from las. Vegas
반가워요
You're still really very very beautiful 😅😅😅 so hee 😅😅😅
소희야 너때매 슈퍼썬글 샀는데 다시 갈아타야하니?
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
그래도 아직은 소희지
💛♥️🧡💜❤️🧡
소희님 방금 클로저 1열 티켓팅 성공했어요!!
👀 👀
綺麗な瞳です(◠ᴥ◕ʋ)
미나리 익혀드셔야 해요 생 미나리에는 기생충 엄청 많아여 암의 원인 기생충 ㅜ
선글라스 모델이 여기에 잇는데 왜 안데려가시지??
Oink Oink.. I am looking at the Moon.. I am waiting for YOU.. just thinking about YOU.. Looking at the Moon.. I feel like I am starting to Miss YOU.. when can I see YOU.. can I hear Your Heart.. Can I see your Heart.. Please let me touch Your Heart.. because I need YOU.. I truly need YOU to love me Back.. only wish.. Only hope.. only dreaming if YOU can show me your Heart.. as I am looking UP toward the Moon.. I can picture in that Moon.. the Shape of Your Heart.. I want to see Your Heart.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens Wide.. my Other arm reaches.. stretches Out.. My Other Hand opens Wide.. if YOU can hear Me.. If YOU are able to hear.. Please listen with Your Ears.. Hear my words because I am talking to that MOON.. can YOU Hear through that Moon.. I want to know.. If YOU are Unable to hear my words.. If YOU are Unable to Hear my Voice.. On the Other side.. Is it Night.. because at this Point.. the Sun has went down and Now.. it is the Moon's Turn to get UP.. and I am looking at this Moon.. Hoping that It is Night on that Other side.. if it is.. Can YOU please come Out.. If YOU are able to see that MOON.. Please come Out from the Place YOU are.. I want to tell YOU something.. I want to speak and tell YOU something.. my hands are both open wide.. asking.. Can YOU Please give me Your Heart.. I will be standing still.. Until you give me Your Heart.. I been asking YOU for a long time.. Did you not forget.. ever since I first laid my eyes On you.. all I ever wanted is Your Heart.. All I ever talked about and asking YOU is for that Heart.. Please give me Your Heart.. Please Open your Heart.. I do not want anything else but Just for YOU to show me Your Heart and Please.. let me have Your Heart.. My Heart has been breaking.. It has been shattered into Pieces.. I am trying to put the Pieces of my Heart together.. without YOU.. I know that the Pieces of my Heart cannot come together.. that is why I am asking for Your Heart.. Only if YOU can show Me.. so that I can see the Shape of Your Heart.. and I can open my chest.. and Put your Heart inside the Chamber.. which been waiting for your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. I want to have YOUR HEART and Put close to my chest.. to see How can I live without YOU.. I know that I can't unless I have Your Heart.. I told YOU already.. How is my Heart be broken and How was it torn into Pieces and Cannot put it back together.. I broke my Own Heart.. So that I can put Your Heart instead of Mine.. that is How close I want to feel Your Heart.. to Feel the Beating of Your Heart.. to hear the Beating.. to hear the sound of Your Heart.. I want YOU very close.. SO close that I can hear Your Heart inside of Me.. so that I can see YOU close.. I am truly missing YOU.. I don't know why.. because it is so Hard to explain at this Point.. if YOU are asking me.. WHY do I miss YOU so Much.. I just saw your Picture.. which I would have it close to Me.. I would take a Look at your Picture.. and only Wish.. Only Hope when can I see YOU close.. will you ever come close to Me.. because the More away YOU are.. the More I want to see YOU close.. the More I miss YOU.. the More My Heart breaks.. breaking and hearing the sound of my Heart.. just breaking into pieces.. and I want to know.. Does Love hurts.. does it hurt you.. because for Me.. it hurts to Love YOU.. it hurts me so much that I can feel the breaking of my Heart.. I want to cry.. I want to cry a lot because it Hurts me more when I don't see YOU.. when I miss YOU.. when I step out side.. and I stand still in silent.. and I look UP.. toward the Moon.. I want to shout at the Moon and Cry when looking at the Moon.. I would say.. Can YOU please come Out tonight.. I wonder if it is Day.. Or is it Night.. If I am able to see the Moon tonight.. can YOU Please step Out side.. On the Other side.. do YOU see the Moon appear before Your eyes.. Look UP at the dark skies.. do you see the stars.. do you see the Moon.. if YOU can see the Moon appear before YOU.. Can YOU Hear me.. Can YOU Hear my voice.. Listen to my words because there is something very Important that I would like to say.. to tell YOU.. and I know for sure you know this and maybe heard it more than thousand times by Now.. But I never get tired of telling you this.. I just hope that YOU never get tired too.. If you do please tell Me so that I can stop.. if YOU hear me.. Please LOOK at the Moon.. can YOU see that MOON.. the same Moon that we can see together.. as I am standing still alone.. I am here by myself.. Looking at that Moon.. I been coming here.. from time to time.. when I think of YOU a lot and my Mind.. it gets very busy because I am thinking of YOU.. before I came Out side.. I saw Your Picture.. I saw the Picture of YOU smiling.. when I saw Your Picture.. My Heart was touched.. I put my hand on the Chest.. and I can feel the Beating of My Heart.. and I would tell Your Picture looking at YOU.. I love YOU.. YOU do not know How much I love YOU.. I am still here.. I am still able to tell YOU.. I am able to write to YOU still.. that shows that I have never lost the touch.. that I think of YOU always.. when I saw Your Picture.. it felt Like I got drunk.. I wanted to fall.. and sit on the floor.. I felt dizzy and my knees got weak when I saw YOUR picture.. I told myself.. I should Not keep on looking at your Picture.. because once I start to look.. I would miss YOU.. Missing YOU leads me to walk Out side.. Missing YOU leads me to Look at the Moon.. and my eyes would wander looking UP at the sky.. Looking for the stars.. and Looking for the Moon.. I would close my eyes.. Both eyes shut closed as I would put YOU in my Head.. a Picture pops in my Mind as I would think of YOU.. and envision YOU.. wanting to see YOU.. I would open my eyes.. as I am staring at the Moon.. I would look at the Moon.. and I would open my mouth and say.. Do you know why I am here tonight.. Do you know why I am lead here.. I saw YOUR Picture.. I saw your Beautiful Picture.. saw Your Beautiful Face.. Now Look what YOU have made me do.. I am asking YOU if YOU can hear me.. Please say something back.. Please tell me something because My Heart is listening.. say something because My Heart is opened to listen.. Say something because my ears wants to hear Your Voice and Your Words.. Please say something because tonight is the Night I really want to hear YOU.. that this very Night.. for some reason I am missing YOU much more.. even though every night I miss YOU.. and I want to see YOU every day.. But on this very Night.. I really really want to hear from YOU.. I want you to Know that I love YOU.. I really really Love YOU.. Why can't I hear from YOU on the Other side.. is it because YOU can't hear me at all.. YOU know that every time I come Out.. every time I look UP at the sky and Look towards the Moon.. I am always expecting to hear from YOU.. but every night.. I would be the One who is speaking.. saying something as I am looking toward the Moon.. after I am done speaking as I am looking UP at the Moon.. I would be so sad.. My Heart be broken.. My Heart be breaking.. My Heart be crying as I would go inside back to the House.. because I would come Out side on this Night just to hear something.. Your Words and Your Voice but I don't hear anything from YOU.. I would be Looking UP towards the Moon.. asking YOU.. if You can Hear me.. if YOU want to hear my Voice.. to hear my words.. I am here this very Night.. I am standing here All alone.. Just waiting for YOU to show Up on the Other side.. if YOU can see the Moon.. If you can hear Me Out.. Please say something so that I know I am speaking to YOU as I am here On the Other side.. I want My words to be Heard.. I want my Voice to be Heard.. if I say the Word I miss YOU.. I am telling YOU from My Heart.. that Means I really Miss YOU.. if I say the Word I love YOU.. it comes from the Deep within expressing my Heart felt to tell YOU that it is what it is.. that I am telling YOU this because I do.. But I am not sure if My Words are being heard.. if My Voice is being heard on the Other side.. What If YOU are Not there.. What if It is Night there.. and yes.. the Moon has come UP.. but YOU are Not standing Out side where YOU can see that Moon.. I want my Voice to be heard for YOU.. I want my Words to be Heard to YOU.. because None of it is empty words.. it is Words that comes from My Heart and My Mind.. from Inside of Me.. that is why I been asking for YOUR HEART.. If I can have your Heart just for One Night.. if I am able to put Your Heart inside the Chamber in my Chest.. and I close the Chamber of the gates of my Chest.. I know that if YOUR Heart is inside of Me.. I can walk out alone.. stand by myself in the Night.. Looking UP at the MOON.. so that My Words can be Heard.. so that My Voice may be heard.. and if YOUR HEART is inside my Chest in the chamber.. I would look UP at the Moon.. and YOU are able to hear all of My words.. my Voice.. and even what comes within Me to tell YOU.. YOUR Heart being so Close to Me.. I know that My Words would not go empty.. and I can just express and tell YOU.. and YOU can Hear me.. that YOU can hear me finally and that I know that YOUR HEART is able to hear my words and My Mind.. and to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would know for sure.. I can come Out side every night.. without questions rather YOU are listening or Not.. But I know for sure YOU can Hear Me.. that YOU know How much I love YOU.. YOU know How much I miss YOU and able to know my Heart.. that I am able to tell YOU.. and I can finally cry Out Loud knowing we are looking at the SAME MOON.. that YOU can hear me speak.. YOU can hear me talk and share.. that I know YOU are listening to My Heart.. that I can finally hear Your Heart.. listen to the Sound and the Beating of Your Heart.. when it comes so Close.. I can tell your Heart.. DO YOU HEAR ME.. Can YOU Hear me.. because NOW I know.. Now I feel..
I just can't take my off of the Two Baby Teddy Bears.. Son and Daughter who came into my House.. of course I never thought that I would ever meet your Children.. they are the two most beautiful children.. looking at the Son and looking at the daughter.. both are in the second room where it is suppose to be Only for the Guests to spend the night.. I am looking at the two.. holding hands and both are looking at the Art Sketch paper.. I drew a Picture of YOU looking at a picture that YOU gave me.. I would sit alone in the room.. while the two children were in the Guest room sleeping.. I just couldn't sleep.. I feel like even though YOU are far in a distant.. YOU had to go to a Business meeting and of course it is YOUR work.. as I would peek at the Door.. at the Guest room.. it is the room where the Two baby Teddy Bears would fall asleep.. and I told them both.. that YOU are going to be coming Home very SOON.. MOMMA is coming soon so be a Good Little boy.. Be a Good little Girl because YOUR MOMMA told me that she is going to give you something that YOU will Love forever and will enjoy to keep.. and I saw them Both sleeping.. as I would sit by the Desk.. picking UP an Art pencil and I bought the Art Sketch Book.. your Picture.. I put and it lean on the back of the desk where I can see your Whole Face.. it was a Nice peaceful time I had because I had the time to THINK for myself.. I had the Time to LOOK at your Picture.. which makes me Heart fall even deeper in Love with YOU.. changing the Diapers of the Two baby Teddy Bears.. putting on the T - shirt for the Boy and for the Girl.. your SON and Daughter.. I would have to call YOU which I know you are so Busy working and just the business meetings YOU have to spend for the company is NOT easy for YOU to get calls.. But.. of course YOU are so Kind.. YOU are so gentle with Care because your Children comes first.. I would watch YOU on the Face Time.. and the two baby Teddy bears.. the SON and Daughter.. when the Boy starts to cry for his MOMMA.. for YOU.. I would watch his Sister.. your Daughter starts to cry.. both holding hands and crying Loud for MOMMA.. and wanting to see YOU.. so I would have to pick Up my Phone.. call.. dial your Number just to see if it can reach YOU at this POINT of time.. which I would ask YOU.. your children are crying for YOU.. asking where is MOMMA.. I want to see My MOMMA and the cry grows louder.. My Heart would pound Heart as I would watch the two Holding hands.. sitting next to each Other.. asking for MOMMA.. of course it feels like the first day when they both came into the House.. it was the Most Hardest day I had to go through.. they just did Not stop crying.. I had to put the two BABY TEDDY BEARS.. SON and Daughter.. and they would sit on the couch or can be the sofa.. crying through the Night.. I just could not sleep.. they are so loud but when Both cries together.. I can feel the walls in the House be shaking.. so I had to just sit on the sofa.. if they two were on the couch.. if they both.. SON and Daughter were sitting on the SOFA.. I be sitting on the couch.. just wondering when would they stop crying.. Until I would call YOU.. and when YOU told me that it has to be a Face Time.. the two always wanted to see Your Face.. their MOMMA'S face.. I remember why did I not think of this SOONER.. but of course.. when I find that Out.. and I would walk up to the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the Son.. he grabs the Phone with two hands.. I see the Daughter his sister next to HIM and wipes the tears off his face.. the care and Love.. which touches my Heart and the Daughter.. I see her hugging her Brother and both cries together in each Other's shoulder asking for MOMMA.. I am thinking.. why do I have to see all these things to HIT my Heart.. feels like someone Hit me hard on my stomach and knock the wind off of Me when I see something like this.. and It was very hard to get through the first day.. I wanted to cry because I just did Not know what to do when the two Baby Teddy Bears feel so Scared.. and feels like they have lost their MOMMA.. just made me realize that I had to do something so that the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the Son and the Daughter feels more closer to YOU.. that is when I would pick UP the Phone and dial your Number and wait for YOU to pick UP on the Other Line.. and Yes.. right when I needed you the Most.. at the Most Hard moment.. I see you pick Up and asking me that YOU wanted to speak to your Children.. and I do remember YOU told me one thing.. a secret that the Children Loves.. the two baby Teddy Bears are so In to and to get their attention.. to read the two Baby Teddy Bears.. they have favorite BOOK that YOU would always read and start to choose books to read for them.. they.. the two BABY TEDDY BEARS.. the SON and the DAUGHTER.. they both loves to listen to stories.. a children's book is the best choice.. when I look at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the SON and the Daughter.. it seems like they would NOT like to hear or will not want me to read them any Books.. it is just they don't want to listen right.. but.. the right Book stories.. they will.. so I would try to find Books in the House.. wondering.. which BOOK should I read to these two baby Teddy Bears.. what would the SON and the Daughter would enjoy to hear stories.. I know that They are NOT going to like what I like right.. So I would be spending some time on the Internet.. trying to find BOOKS that is very Popular for the children's Book.. and it shows just too many Books.. I would order it online and I would be waiting for the Next day shipping to come.. so that I can start to read Books to these Little Ones.. the Two Baby Teddy Bears.. I would hear the Knock.. and I would Open the Door to find a Box.. the Two baby Teddy Bears has been into the coloring Books.. I would buy crayons and thin books where it is Black and white which the two baby Teddy Bears.. the Son and the Daughter would love to color on the pages of these thin coloring Book.. I would peek open the Guest Door.. I would see the two Baby Teddy Bears sitting next to each Other.. holding crayons in the hands.. My Heart.. the SON is looking at the Sister.. the daughter.. she has the Little Princess coloring BOOK.. and the SON.. it is Ninja Turtles and transformers which I loved when I was a small Boy.. wondering will this SON.. the baby Boy love this too.. but I am looking at the SON looking at this Sisters colors.. the crayons and coloring over.. copying the same color as his sister.. of course.. I wanted to show this to YOU.. so I would call and dial up your Number.. of course I hope that I am not bothering you at this TIME of the day because it can be your Meeting at work.. and YOU pick UP and I would put on face time.. I would see you through the screen on this Phone.. in my heart.. I am missing YOU.. I am looking at your Children.. and I am watching your Children love colors.. they love to color on the Book on the pages.. and I wanted to show YOU what YOUR SON and your Daughter is doing.. I would give them the same Crayon Box and it has the crayon pencils and chalks.. as I open the guest door wide.. and I walk into the second room and I would sit in the middle of the two baby Teddy Bears.. and I would say to the children.. YOUR MOMMA on the Phone.. the two will stop coloring and turn to LOOK at YOU on the Phone.. the SON.. He grabs the Phone first and LOOKS at YOU.. and the shirt is dirty with colors all over.. and smiles looking at YOU.. I can hear your voice and you are asking your SON.. show MOMMA the Picture you color.. the SON.. the baby Teddy Bear turns to look at the Coloring BOOK on the Floor and picks UP to show YOU the Picture he is coloring.. my tears.. I just can't stop crying because I have never seen this SON being so Happy showing YOU he has an ART.. and the SON gives the Phone which is on FACE TIME to his Sister.. your Daughter.. and YOU say the same thing to your Daughter.. and the color are the Same with her Brother so I would see the Daughter.. the baby Teddy Bear smiles looking at you through the Face time on the Phone and I can hear your voice.. your Brother is copying YOU HUH and I hear both smiling.. and I am just sitting watch the SON.. He smiles real Big.. saying he loves to color and follow his sister.. I put my hand on my chest.. it touches my Heart.. why does it touch my Heart so bad right Now.. and the Daughter looks at Me and gives me the Phone and I am LOOKING at YOU.. and I see you smile real Big.. and I would say to YOU.. the Two baby Teddy Bears has come a long ways.. because.. I see the two baby Teddy Bears.. your SON and Daughter has a change of Heart.. when I came as the stranger who they did not even Know.. the two children would cry because they were afraid.. they were frighten.. they were both.. your Son and your Daughter were scared.. they did Not even look at me.. both holding hands.. and all they did was cry because I was a stranger to them.. I thought for a Long time.. the two Baby Teddy Bears will not accept Me.. I don't think they both.. your SON and Daughter would not give me a chance to get Close and will TEDDY BEARS.. SON and Daughter.. and they would sit on the couch or can be the sofa.. crying through the Night.. I just could not sleep.. they are so loud but when Both cries together.. I can feel the walls in the House be shaking.. so I had to just sit on the sofa.. if they two were on the couch.. if they both.. SON and Daughter were sitting on the SOFA.. I be sitting on the couch.. just wondering when would they stop crying.. Until I would call YOU.. and when YOU told me that it.. Has to be a Face Time.. the two always wanted to see Your Face.. their MOMMA'S face.. I remember why did I not think of this SOONER.. but of course.. when I find that Out.. and
I would walk up to the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the Son.. he grabs the Phone with two hands.. I see the Daughter his sister next to HIM and wipes the tears off his face.. the care and Love.. which touches my Heart and the Daughter.. I see her hugging her Brother and both cries together in each Other's shoulder asking for MOMMA.. I am thinking.. why do I have to see all these things to HIT my Heart.. feels like someone Hit me hard on my stomach and knock the wind off of Me when I see something like this.. and It was very hard to get through the first day.. I wanted to cry because I just did Not know what to do when the two Baby Teddy Bears feel so Scared.. and feels like they have lost their MOMMA.. just made me realize that I had to do something so that the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the Son and the Daughter feels more closer to YOU.. that is when I would pick UP the Phone and dial your Number and wait for YOU to pick UP on the Other Line.. and Yes.. right when I needed you the Most.. at the Most Hard moment.. I see you pick Up and asking me that YOU wanted to speak to your Children.. and I do remember YOU told me one thing.. a secret that the Children Loves.. the two baby Teddy Bears are so In to and to get their attention.. to read the two Baby Teddy Bears.. they have favorite BOOK that YOU would always read and start to choose books to read for them.. they.. the two BABY TEDDY BEARS.. the SON and the DAUGHTER.. they both loves to listen to stories.. a children's book is the best choice.. when I look at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the SON and the Daughter.. it seems like they would NOT like to hear or will not want me to read them any Books.. it is just they don't want to listen right.. but.. the right Book stories.. they will.. so I would try to find Books in the House.. wondering.. which BOOK should I read to these two baby Teddy Bears.. what would the SON and the Daughter would enjoy to hear stories.. I know that They are NOT going to like what I like right.. So I would be spending some time on the Internet.. trying to find BOOKS that is very Popular for the children's Book.. and it shows just too many Books.. I would order it online and I would be waiting for the Next day shipping to come.. so that I can start to read Books to these Little Ones.. the Two Baby Teddy Bears.. I would hear the Knock.. and I would Open the Door to find a Box.. the Two baby Teddy Bears has been into the coloring Books.. I would buy crayons and thin books where it is Black and white which the two baby Teddy Bears.. the Son and the Daughter would love to color on the pages of these thin coloring Book.. I would peek open the Guest Door.. I would see the two Baby Teddy Bears sitting next to each Other.. holding crayons in the hands.. My Heart.. the SON is looking at the Sister.. the daughter.. she has the Little Princess coloring BOOK.. and the SON.. it is Ninja Turtles and transformers which I loved when I was a small Boy.. wondering will this SON.. the baby Boy love this too.. but I am looking at the SON looking at this Sisters colors.. the crayons and coloring over.. copying the same color as his sister.. of course.. I wanted to show this to YOU.. so I would call and dial up your Number.. of course I hope that I am not bothering you at this TIME of the day because it can be your Meeting at work.. and YOU pick UP and I would put on face time.. I would see you through the screen on this Phone.. in my heart.. I am missing YOU.. I am looking at your Children.. and I am watching your Children love colors.. they love to color on the Book on the pages.. and I wanted to show YOU what YOUR SON and your Daughter is doing.. I would give them the same Crayon Box and it has the crayon pencils and chalks.. as I open the guest door wide.. and I walk into the second room and I would sit in the middle of the two baby Teddy Bears.. and I would say to the children.. YOUR MOMMA on the Phone.. the two will stop coloring and turn to LOOK at YOU on the Phone.. the SON.. He grabs the Phone first and LOOKS at YOU.. and the shirt is dirty with colors all over.. and smiles looking at YOU.. I can hear your voice and you are asking your SON.. show MOMMA the Picture you color.. the SON.. the baby Teddy Bear turns to look at the Coloring BOOK on the Floor and picks UP to show YOU the Picture he is coloring.. my tears.. I just can't stop crying because I have never seen this SON being so Happy showing YOU he has an ART.. and the SON gives the Phone which is on FACE TIME to his Sister.. your Daughter.. and YOU say the same thing to your Daughter.. and the color are the Same with her Brother so I would see the Daughter.. the baby Teddy Bear smiles looking at you through the Face time on the Phone and I can hear your voice.. your Brother is copying YOU HUH and I hear both smiling.. and I am just sitting watch the SON.. He smiles real Big.. saying he loves to color and follow his sister.. I put my hand on my chest.. it touches my Heart.. why does it touch my Heart so bad right Now.. and the Daughter looks at Me and gives me the Phone and I am LOOKING at YOU.. and I see you smile real Big.. and I would say to YOU.. the Two baby Teddy Bears has come a long ways.. because.. I see the two baby Teddy Bears.. your SON and Daughter has a change of Heart.. when I came as the stranger who they did not even Know.. the two children would cry because they were afraid.. they were frighten.. they were both.. your Son and your Daughter were scared.. they did Not even look at me.. both holding hands.. and all they did was cry because I was a stranger to them.. I thought for a Long time.. the two Baby Teddy Bears will not accept Me.. I don't think they both.. your SON and Daughter would not give me a chance to get Close and will Not open their Hearts to Me at all.. but I remember you are the ONE who told Me.. that the two baby Teddy Bears.. both your SON and your Daughter.. all they needed was some TIME and patient and just give them LOVE.. share kindness and be gentle to them.. the Hearts will open UP as long as I am waiting and being patient but always go to them first.. and Love the two Children.. I would be asking.. what if it takes a Long time but.. your Words reassured me that the Two children.. the SON and the DAUGHTER will open UP.. just give time.. when I heard those words from YOU and How you told Me.. know what the two Children.. your SON and your Daughter Loves.. and I am trying to think.. and YOU told me.. when I look into the bag you brought to Me.. when I search and seek into It.. I will find OUT what they love and enjoy the Most. I remember opening the Bag.. I would find the crayons.. two Boxes and the coloring BOOK.. and I would find even the children's BOOK.. and that is when I started to work with Them.. and I would watch the tears turn into smiles as they would sit into the Guest ROOM.. the minds be so busy coloring.. I remember when the BOOKS of the children came.. I was able to go into the Guest ROOM.. and I would ask the SON and the Daughter.. can I read you a Children's BOOK to YOU.. will you please give me your TIME so that I can share you some stories.. and I was truly amazed how the Two baby Teddy Bears.. the SON and the DAUGHTER both drops what they were doing.. which is coloring on the coloring Books.. and they would sit next to each other holding Hands.. and it was time for the two Baby Teddy Bears to listen to stories and for me to read from the Book.. I would hear the Phone be ringing because it was that time.. the Hour has come and of course.. YOU would also listen to the Book.. the Children's BOOK as I would answer your CALL and put on the Face TIME.. I would be charging the PHONE as I would switch to Face time.. and I would give the Phone on face TIME.. the SON would grab the Phone first looking at you on face time.. and the Daughter sitting next to her Brother and Both are staring on to the screen of the Phone ON face time looking at YOU.. I would open the BOOK.. the children's Book and from the chapter One.. I would read from the first page and I would turn to the next page.. and I can see The two Baby Teddy Bears listening.. and I would hear your voice on the Other line.. asking the two Children about the page I was reading.. to share their thoughts to YOU.. and I would sit there and I would paused.. the SON would Look at you on the Phone confused.. I would hear the daughter able to share her thoughts to YOU looking at you on Daughter I ever seen.. and I saw the smile.. grabbing the SPOON.. putting a RICE and the beef.. the Mouth opens wide and I put the spoon into her mouth.. as I see her chew and eat.. I just could NOT hold my tears in.. I just could Not believe that finally I am able to feed this Little Daughter.. in the hand.. there is a Picture.. I would open her Hand and to look at what Picture and it is a Picture of YOU.. and I would look at YOU through this Picture.. my hand touches My Chest and I would say.. WHY do you Burn my Heart.. WHY do you do this TO ME and even bringing the Twins.. the Little SON and the Little Daughter.. my Heart beat faster as I spend the time with Them.. they are so Adorable and so Cute.. never imagined in my Life that I could even fall more harder for YOU because I feel like I am a part of something Bigger now.. I remember when YOU first called me on the Phone.. and asking ME that YOU had to go somewhere.. and YOU had a problem.. that YOU could Not take your Children with YOU.. and needed them to be place by somewhere safe and secure and wanted to ask me a Favor if I could baby sit your children while YOU are away on this Business journey.. I remember I paused for a few minutes.. trying to think straight because I was Not sure if it was the right THING to bring your Two Children
And YOU told me that they are two.. One is a Boy and the Other is a girl.. and they are Twins.. Little SON and the Little Daughter.. and it is a hard decision for YOU to leave them behind but this trip was very important for YOU.. of course I did Not want to say NO.. I had NO experience of How to deal with kids.. I never had any children on my own so I am Not sure what I am suppose to DO.. but.. of course I know that THIS IS a very Important business meeting.. this trip YOU must take and YOU MUST go so I told YOU.. Yes.. it is because I love YOU.. it is because It is YOU and as long as it is YOU WHO I LOVE the Most.. it does Not matter.. because I will try to be a GOOD baby sitter.. I remember when the DOOR knocked on the Front Door.. did Not expected much.. opening the DOOR.. I saw the Two crying.. I was Not sure.. How am I suppose to handle both be crying.. holding unto MOMMA.. and when YOU try to bring the LITTLE SON closer.. and He was in your Arm and the Little Daughter.. You were holding her hands.. and I saw your steps closer asking me to hold and Carry the Little SON.. he started to Cry Louder as He came into my Arms.. and the Little Daughter started to cry louder and sat on the Floor.. did Not want to come into the House.. and as I would look at this.. My Heart started to feel cracking inside.. started to feel this breaking deep within me.. WHY.. they do not understand why YOU have to leave them with Me.. and when I went inside the House holding the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little SON.. He is looking at YOU from the back.. arms stretching to YOU.. and Made me stop.. My Heart just could Not handle this pain of hearing this ONE cry and asking for YOU.. asking for His MOMMA and WHY you had to leave HIM with me.. and I would stand still thinking.. what am I suppose to do if they keep on crying.. asking for YOU.. and what do I do when they keep crying over and over.. and I turn around to ask YOU this Question.. I see you walk into this House.. YOU were holding the Other Little BABY Teddy Bear.. the Little Daughter.. and YOU went over to the Couch and Put the Little Daughter to sit still and I would come over to Place and sit the Little SON next to her.. both crying.. and hands be rubbing the eyes looking at YOU and Looking at me.. and I would say.. and YOU would give a Phone to the Little Daughter.. and Placing the Hand of the Little SON.. telling the Two YOU be coming Home soon.. and that I am a BABY Sitter for few days so Don't cry.. and I see the two Stop crying when YOU tell them that.. and I see YOU with Your Other Phone and YOU dial the Number.. and the Phone would ring.. the Little Daughter looks at the Phone.. the Little SON looks at the Phone and presses.. and It is the Face Time.. and the two looks at the Face Time.. I see YOU walking back.. and YOU are talking to the two Little BABY TEDDY BEARS and I would watch them smile.. hands be waving looking at YOU through the Phone and giving them two Pictures.. One for the Little SON and the Other for the Little Daughter.. so that YOU are near and YOU gave me One too.. and as I would look at YOU.. I would watch YOU say good bye and Left the Front Door.. I remember the first Night.. I just could Not sleep at all.. and the two Would Not sleep either.. both sitting on the Couch and would be crying.. asking for YOU.. for MOMMA.. of course every one Hour I would hear the Phone ringing and the Two siting next to each Other.. they would fight for the Phone.. pushing the Button for the Face TIME.. I see them showing Teeth and growling that One of them has to talk and the Other.. as I would watch still on the corner.. I did Not want to bother any of them because of how the two.. the Little BABY TEDDY bears kept on crying crying after YOU would hang UP the Phone.. pushing and shoving who is going to answer next.. after a long period of time crying.. I would hear silence.. and when I look at the Couch.. the two be sleeping next to each other.. and I would walk into the ROOM.. and the Picture YOU gave me.. I would go over to the desk and sit alone.. looking at your Picture.. I would be thinking.. they been crying all through the day after you left.. and the two do Not want to eat either.. they do NOT want to drink any waters.. sits on that couch.. LOOKS at your Pictures crying and looks at the Phone to see it rings.. and I am looking at your Picture.. but YOU are so Beautiful.. why did YOU have to bring those two into my House and I know that I have NO experience with children.. what if they keep on crying asking for YOU.. I hear where is MOMMA.. why isn't MOMMA calling the Phone.. and Keeps on crying for YOU.. and Now there is Peace and silence as I am sitting in this ROOM alone.. of course if the Two Little Ones are crying Out for YOU.. asking and missing YOU.. I know that my Heart truly feels the same.. that I do want to see YOU SOON too and that I know what the two Little TEDDY BEARS are feeling.. that they want to see YOU SOON.. how about me.. How about My Heart.. what would you do if I cry like the two Little Ones.. the Teddy Bears missing their MOMMA.. what would you do if I showed you my tears and telling you that my Heart is being shattered.. it is this Pain.. this sharp pain I feel inside because I miss YOU.. that I want to be near YOU and to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. would you let me show YOU my Tears because what My Heart truly feels for YOU.. that I want to say I love YOU.. why can't I say it to YOU and tell you how much I do.. I want to tell YOU to let YOU know to say it and to say I love you hurts me the Most because that is when I misses YOU the Most.. I wish that YOU knew.. I wish that YOU know right Now.. the Two baby Teddy bears are sleeping right Now which NOW I am able to speak to YOU.. but I know that Heart.. I know this Heart.. I know How it feels to be broken and missing.. wanting to see YOU over and over again.. this Cry.. it cries and cries.. My Heart cries OUT loud the way the two Baby Teddy Bears be crying Out.. wiping the Tears.. grabbing unto the Phone.. pushing each Other for the Next to LOOK at YOU.. saying It is Mine turn to see.. and cries after the Hanging UP on the Phone and looking at YOU.. LOOKING at your Picture crying of these sorrows in the Hearts.. I would watch the Two Little BABY Teddy bears.. sitting on that Couch.. I know that Heart.. I can feel that Pain in the Heart because that is HOW I feel to when YOU are Gone.. when YOU are far away which leaves me to be more lonely than ever.. just to be with YOU.. just to tell YOU.. but my Words can't say it.. I see the two., saying I MISS YOU.. and I love YOU.. LOOKING at you when the Two looks at YOU through the Face Time.. but I stand still.. it kills me the Most.. it eats me at it inside because I wish that I can be like the two TEDDY BEARS.. your Children who is able to say it and tell It the way it just feels inside but I just cannot.. and I would watch them cry.. I cry with the Two watching on the SIDELINE because.. I want to go over to the Phone.. looking at you on the Face TIME and when I look at you through the PHONE on FACE TIME.. just to tell YOU with my tears in my eyes to say it with Means.. I miss YOU and I love YOU.. why can't you be here so that I don't needs to cry any more and watch the Children to cry along with me.. it burns My Heart into pieces.. it burns because it hurts so much.. this PAIN of loving YOU.. I may become sick.. sick inside because I am Loving you just too much just for too long.. that IS how much I love YOU..I am sitting on the Couch.. on my Lap is the Little Son.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. Next to me sitting is the Other baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter.. I am smiling.. looking at the Picture.. and on my Lap.. the Little Son.. the baby Teddy Bear is looking at YOU.. and I am missing YOU.. asking when YOU are coming.. I want to show you the Two Little Ones.. the children are.. YOU to me.. and tells me I love YOU.. and I miss MOMMA.. I am sitting on the couch.. they are expressing what I am feeling all of the Time.. I know that I can truly relate but the problem is there is Nothing I can do.. what am I suppose to say when YOU Miss.. and has NO answers to what I am feeling because I know How it is hurting me More.. I feel like for myself.. but when YOU can the children involve.. I feel like I am taking more loads on my Heart.. why can't you come Home.. why cant you come sooner.. the two are always missing YOU.. asking me where are YOU.. and they sit on the floor.. LOOKING at the front Door.. and I know if I try to pick the two UP.. One will cry because.. and I have to hear the other One cry too.. and it can get to YOU sometimes.. I wish I can find a way that NO ONE gets hurt and I just don't have to be hearing more cries.. as I walk out of the room.. I would watch the two Baby Teddy Bears falls asleep.. I had to give the two a Bath.. putting the Bubbles into the bath tub.. the two enjoyed taking a Bath in the bubble.. I had to put them into the Crib because It was the bed Time.. I grab a Book and started to read them and I saw the two baby Teddy Bears.. the Little SON and the Daughter.. they both started to sleep while I was reading a children's book.. as I watch the two sleeping.. I would smile looking at the two children.. they are so Beautiful.. of course they are Your Babies so it makes it more beautiful for me to see.. as I would walk out of the room.. I go into my room and sit on the chair.. with the desk.. I am looking at Your Picture.. and it is the Picture of YOU and the two Baby Teddy Bears.. the Little SON sitting on your Lap.. and the Daughter.. she is sitting on the couch next to YOU.. with a Yellow Bow on top of the Head.. My Heart moves.. LOOKING at this picture.. My Heart screams from the Inside.. and
I have bought an Art.. the GIANT SKETCH BOOK.. and I would sit.. wanting to draw the Picture of YOU.. with the two Children.. am I loving YOU more.. I can't stop looking at Your Picture.. with the two children.. the Little SON and the Daughter.. why did you have to come and introduce me to the two.. when ever I look at the two.. I am only seeing YOU more but my Heart just loves YOU more.. when the two sits next with me.. and I watch them smile.. it kills me inside because they make me smile.. my heart lights UP on fire when I see the two.. I am holding the hands of the Little SON.. I try to get him to walk.. but He sits and cries instead.. trying to teach the BABY TEDDY BEAR.. the Little SON to walk.. I remember I called YOU on the Phone.. and I wanted to face time.. and I saw YOU on the Phone.. with my two hands.. I held the two hands of the Little SON.. the Baby Teddy Bear.. trying to get two legs to get UP.. and through the Face time YOU saw your SON.. and he falls and starts to cry.. and the Daughter starts to cry with her Brother.. and I had to let you go on the Face time.. and I am sitting on the chair.. looking at the Picture and thinking of these little flashbacks.. and I grab the Pencil.. which it is use to draw.. but I just could not draw.. I know that YOU be coming soon.. when YOU come.. I know the two Little Ones.. the Two Baby Teddy Bears are going to go with you.. that Means.. it is going to break my Heart.. not just going to be missing YOU but also the two Little ones you brought.. I know that I needs to do this.. so I would look at the Picture of YOU.. Looking at the Little SON sitting on top of Your lap and LOOKING at the Daughter who is sitting next to YOU.. OH MY HEART.. these precious Little Ones.. MY Heart.. what are you doing to this Heart of Mine.. why did YOU have to bring them to Me.. so that YOU can Punish me for doing you a good thing.. but Look what is going to happen to My Heart.. and I grab the Pencil.. the Art pencil and starts to draw on the Piece of Ark sketch Paper.. what if I just can't finish because of My Heart.. LOOK at the Precious Little Ones.. the Little SON.. and the Daughter.. and I would think about.. Holding the Book.. and I am sitting on the floor.. the Two baby Teddy Bears.. the brother and sister.. the children.. they are holding hands and I am reading the children story.. and I be reading Out loud so the two can hear the stories.. and I asked the two.. the Little SON and the Daughter.. do YOU like stories.. and I see the heads goes UP and down telling me Yes.. they love stories.. and I would say to the two children.. I love stories too.. and I would hear the Phone ring.. and On face time it is YOU who was calling.. at this Hour.. before going to Bed.. YOU would tell me that the two Needs to be read.. that I needs to pick a children's book and starts to read or they will Not go to sleep.. so I would look at the Phone.. and I would see YOU.. and the two baby Teddy Bears.. they know it is MOMMA on the Other side.. and I would give the Daughter the Phone.. and I see her looking at YOU and with a Big SMILE.. waving hand at YOU.. and I would open the Book.. and I would start to read the sentences.. paragraphs it becomes.. and I can hear YOU on the Phone telling the Two LITTLE ONES.. and the Daughter would hand to the LITTLE SON.. and Looks at YOU.. Looking at MOMMA.. and I can hear YOU on the Other side asking the two Children.. what is the story about and to explain to YOU.. as I would read and Pause.. I hear answers coming out trying to answer the questions.. and I sit still.. the two Baby Teddy Bears.. both looking at YOU through the Face TIME of the Phone.. trying to tell YOU the answers.. Fussing and bumping into each other.. of course.. after a time.. I would watch the two Letting YOU go on the Other side.. and I would look at the two Little Ones looking at me.. and I would continue to read the Children's Book.. open my mouth loud and clear.. and I would watch the two.. the eyes would get heavy and both sleeps on the Floor.. One at a time.. I would pick UP.. with the Daughter first.. putting Her into her crib and then I would go and pick UP the Little SON.. which I would stand still.. Holding Him in my arms like he is my SON.. and I would slowly put him into his crib.. and turning Off the Light.. I would leave the room.. I am sitting in my room.. just thinking about the day.. I would love to draw the sketch.. but I know that I am not that good in drawing at all.. I am truly terrible at it.. I am not sure why I grab me the Art Pencil when I know that I just can't finish it.. but deep in my heart.. I do want to draw YOU.. and looking at the Picture.. the two Baby Teddy Bears.. Not just YOU but with the two children on the Picture.. but My Heart just won't let me do it.. because I know it will shatter inside because I love YOU.. My Heart will shatter into pieces because I know that the two will be leaving soon.. of course I wish that the two Little Children can stay more longer.. but the More longer they are with me.. More I feel like it is Hurting me instead.. what if I would say to YOU.. don't let the children leave me.. I would be crazy before Your Eyes and I know that they belong.. they came with YOU and that is why I know they must go with YOU.. My Heart just can't accept that the two Baby Teddy Bears be leaving me soon.. and it is hurting me right Now because I know this.. of course they must go with YOU.. as I sit still in the silent.. I receive a Message from YOU.. and YOU have sent me something.. it is a New Picture of YOU.. and YOU are showing me.. telling me where YOU are.. and as I would look on the Phone to take a look at the New Picture of YOU.. and I know that the Children.. the two Baby Teddy Bears will love this Picture of YOU.. of their MOMMA.. which YOU are smiling in this One.. that YOU are doing so GOOD.. this is what I wanted to see.. what I wanted to hear.. and I hear the phone ringing.. and I picked UP the Phone to hear Your Voice.. and I would tell YOU.. after the face time.. I know that the children.. the two Baby TEDDY BEARS would be arguing and they would fuss at each other because they wanted to give YOU the answers.. and Yes.. I had to let YOU go to get this issue solved.. did I finish reading the children's BOOK.. while I was reading the stories to them.. I saw the eyes.. the Daughter first.. the eyes grew tired and I saw the two eyes would close and She lay on the floor sleeping.. I would keep on reading the Children's book and I would look at the eyes of the Little SON.. which he grew tired too.. both eyes started to close and He lays on the floor sleeping next to his sister.. I would keep on reading for at least 30 more minutes.. as I close the Children's Book.. I would pick UP the Daughter first and Put her in the Crib.. and I would go over to the Little SON and Pick Him up next.. Putting HIM into his crib.. and I stood watching the two sleeping.. holding the Daughter.. the BABY TEDDY BEAR in my arms.. I hear I miss MOMMA.. as I would walk out of the room where the two are sleeping.. I would be thinking of YOU and I go into my room.. sitting on the chair next to the desk.. I would LOOK at the Picture of YOU with the two Little ONES.. BABY TEDDY BEARS.. the Daughter and the Little Son.. the Little SON sitting on your Lap and the Daughter sitting next to YOU with the Little Yellow Bow on top of I am just.. my Heart.. My Chest.. My Heart.. How much these two are missing their MOMMA.. wanting to see.. I see both ears.. trying to listen to the Voice of their MOMMA.. and I would look at the two.. they are so Beautiful.. both.. the twins.. the Baby Teddy Bears.. both so Cute but so Beautiful.. I would turn around.. and I do remember.. I was sitting down on the chair.. by the desk.. Looking at your Picture.. I would look and say to Your Picture.. when can I see YOU.. will you let me hold YOU.. will you let me love YOU.. I know I can love you the way YOU want to be held and want to be loved.. I know that I can love you in a way you would never felt before.. I can tell YOU.. tell YOU how much I miss YOU.. How Much I love YOU.. but.. YOU have to give me the permission.. allow me to tell YOU that I love YOU.. and I would be looking at your Picture.. when will you come around so that I can see YOU.. My hand grabbing unto the Pencil.. looking at a sketch of paper.. My hand starts to trace.. using the pencil to draw.. and I am looking at your picture.. to draw you on this sketch paper.. and right when I was about to go deeper.. I hear a knock on the door.. DOK DOK DOK.. and I am wondering.. who be knocking at the front door at this time of hour.. it is getting late.. and I am thinking.. maybe I am just too tired that I am hearing things.. so I would begin to use my hand to draw.. I hear another Knocking at the Door.. DOK DOK DOK.. and I know this time I heard it right.. so I put the Pencil down.. on top of the Desk and I get UP.. pull out of the chair and I would walk to the front door.. I hear another knocking.. DOK DOK DOK.. I would unlock and Open the Door.. I see you standing there.. and I see you have brought companies.. it is the Twins.. two Baby Teddy Bears.. and I am wondering.. why would you bring the two Babies here late at night.. is something wrong.. but.. YOU be telling me you are leaving on a vacation.. and wanted me to baby sit the two Baby Teddy Bears.. but I have No children.. and I have NO experiences with kids.. or babies.. why would you bring them over to my House.. and YOU are asking me that it be for few days.. but looking at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. they are the most cute and you have brought what I can use for the two.. what do I do if the two Baby Teddy Bears starts to cry.. asking for MOMMA.. and if they start to miss their MOMMA.. what am I suppose to do then.. because I have No experiences at all.. and I see you get closer.. trying to hand me over the Little SON.. and as I would hold on with my arms
The Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little Son starts to cry.. and I see the Little SON.. Arms stretching out to YOU.. because He does not want to come to me.. the Cry gets louder and louder.. and arms stretching out to YOU.. wanting to Go to YOU instead of Me.. and His cry so Loud.. hurting my ears.. and I am not sure.. It is so hard for me to control.. and I would ask YOU to come inside.. I see the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter starts to cry too.. both being very loud cries.. I just don't know what to do.. why are you leaving them with Me.. they are both crying loud for YOU.. asking to take them with YOU.. My Heart hurts.. it hurts because I know How it feels to be in a pain when YOU leave.. as YOU would try to give me the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter.. She is even more worst.. YOU had to hold Her close.. and She would sleep in your arms.. Would not even come to me.. kicking and screaming when YOU try to get her close to me.. and what happens when the Other Baby Teddy Bear wakes UP and knows YOU are not in the House.. but has left her with Me.. the Other Baby Teddy Bear will find Out that YOU are gone.. but for now.. she may sleep.. if the Other Baby Teddy Bear.. the Daughter did not come to me when YOU were here.. I know she is Not going to come to me when I am alone with Her.. I feel so Bad.. My Heart breaks as I would watch the Little SON.. He sees you walking.. the BABY TEDDY Bear starts to crawl after you.. I am watching.. my eyes.. I feel my tears going to pour out.. as I see you walking fast.. going to the front DOOR and the Little SON.. the Baby Teddy Bear crawls crying after you.. as I watch YOU leave the front door.. and the door closes behind.. the Little Son.. baby Teddy Bear sits and cries.. and sits by the door waiting for YOU as He keeps on crying for his MOMMA.. I am standing behind.. just wiping my tears.. It hurts.. this Pain.. it feels like a sharp pain has entered in me.. It hurts watching the Little Son.. hurting.. crying for his Momma.. and turn to look at me crying.. tears hitting the floor.. and turns to look at the door.. what do I do.. tell me.. what am I suppose to do when It hurts me just watching One breaking Heart.. what do I do.. I wanted to go.. Open that front Door and run after YOU.. grab Your Arm and pull and to let YOU see.. LOOK at the Little SON.. look at HIM crying.. why do I have to be the one to watch His tears run down like this.. WHY do you have to break my Heart when I have done nothing to YOU.. why come over and look at the Heart pieces falling apart.. WHY do I have to be the one with the Broken Heart.. it hurts me more than It hurts YOU.. as I would walk.. closer to the Baby Teddy Bear.. the Little Son.. keeps on crying.. pointing to the Door.. wanting to go with YOU.. but.. I know that I can't take this Little ONE to YOU.. and I am just standing here.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do at this Point.. because I can't help this Little Son.. even though I want too.. but.. YOU be telling me you wanted to be time alone.. you just wanted so time off.. to refresh Your Head and that is why YOU are leaving and has made me to be the Baby sitter for the Two Baby Teddy Bears.. I know you have brought all that is needed for them.. so that part I am ready to do what I was told me to do.. but.. I just can't take the pains of the two baby Teddy Bears be crying.. Now.. I am looking at the two Baby Teddy Bears.. both sitting on the top of the Bed.. with the Phone in their Ears listening to Your Voice.. Both looks at each other and smiles knowing that They are hearing their MOMMA on the Other side.. so I am getting closer.. and I am wondering.. few days.. but when is that the few days end.. so that I can focus on drawing picture of you on the New Sketch Paper Book I just bought from an Art Shop.. I want to draw a picture of YOU and to show YOU when it is all completed.. I be drawing YOU.. for a long time I wanted to draw a picture of YOU.. I know that I am Not good in drawing.. but I do want to try so that I can tell YOU.. I can show YOU this is My Heart.. Not Just My Heart.. but it is My Love.. this is a way I want to tell YOU how much I love YOU.. but I need a time alone.. I need my own time.. if the two Baby Teddy Bears are here.. I know that I can't draw anything.. so I would get close to the Two baby Teddy Bears.. I am asking if I can have the phone Back.. so that I can talk to YOU.. but it seems like the two Baby Teddy Bears does Not want to give me the Phone.. they want to hear their Momma speak on the Other side.. I see the smiles and giggles together.. it look so beautiful.. how the two are so Beautiful when they smile.. just like their MOMMA.. YOU are the most Beautiful when YOU smile.. as I would watch the Phone being hung UP.. and the two sitting on the Bed.. looking at me.. I am not sure what am I suppose to do now.. they just looks at me.. and both starts to cry.. crying loud wanting to see their MOMMA..I am sitting by the desk.. I am looking at the shot glass.. and grabbed the Bottle of whiskey and poured into the Shot glass.. placing the whiskey down.. picked up the shot glass.. opened my mouth and take a shot.. I am trying to forget YOU.. but I just can't.. I have placed your picture on the top of the desk.. I keep on looking at this picture.. I tell myself I needs to stop.. but I feel like I needs to keep on looking.. I would look at your picture and say.. why are you doing this to me.. why do I have to keep on looking at you.. of course I have a pencil and a clean white sheet of paper.. I want to draw.. looking at your picture.. I want to draw the picture of you.. but I know that I am not that good in drawing at all.. but I can feel.. this whiskey starts to kick my head.. I feel light headed and buzzing.. I know I drank so that I can forget you.. but why is it that I am missing you more now.. I just can't take my eyes off of you.. as I am looking at your picture.. why can't your picture talk back to me.. I want to hear something from you.. but no matter how many times I am going to tell you looking at your picture.. I will not hear anything from the Other side.. but I want to hear from you.. Please.. tell me something so that I don't feel the light headed I am feeling at this point right now.. YOU know that I love you.. I can tell you many times that I love YOU.. can you tell me something.. can you hear me say the words to YOU.. I love you.. and I grab the pencil.. starts to trace and starts to draw.. of course I am looking at your picture.. as I stopped.. putting the pencil down.. I have drawn a picture of a Heart.. I know that I am missing your Heart.. and I am looking at this pieces of paper.. looking at the Heart.. this is suppose to be your Heart.. so that I can touch it.. as my hand Teddy Bear.. a Son.. who is crying for YOU.. asking me where is MOMMA.. how am I suppose to answer the Baby Teddy Bear's question.. I want to know where YOU are.. but only thing I have is your picture.. I want to hear from you as much as this SON in the room.. crying and crying.. I thought that something was wrong with me.. I thought that My Heart was crying.. crying because I miss YOU.. that I love YOU.. that I want to see YOU and that I want to be close to YOU.. I heard this cry.. but it is Loud cry.. and I turn to look at the bed.. the baby Teddy Bear looks at me.. and I see the tears keeps on dropping.. wetting the bed.. and starts to cry and cry.. I am getting more emotional.. I am trying to get drunk.. but this Baby Teddy Bear is not helping me at at.. and I go over to the Bed and I sit.. I show the Baby Teddy Bear.. this Picture.. is it your Momma and the head moves up and down.. and I give the baby Teddy Bear the picture.. He wraps his arms around your picture and says MOMMA.. and I ask him.. where is your Momma.. please tell me.. and I would say.. I will take you to her.. I would wrap my arms around the baby Teddy Bear and I would lift him up and I get up out of the bed.. Tell me where is Your Momma.. so I can take you to her.. the Baby Teddy bear does not answer.. and I would walk out of the room.. and I am walking down the hall way and I stop.. I see you Holding the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter and I see you turn around and you looking at me.. and I am holding the Baby Teddy Bear.. my arms wrapped around.. and I look at you.. I think you have left this.. He is looking for Momma.. and I would see you placing the Other Teddy Bear.. wearing a pink shirt.. and she starts to cry.. Arms stretching out towards you.. and I see you walking closer to me.. and I hear.. MOMMA.. and I look down.. the Baby teddy Bear.. arms are around your picture.. I see you kneel and arms stretches out.. and I would lower myself.. opens my arm.. the Baby Teddy Bear walks slowly.. arms around your picture.. and falls.. starts to cry loud.. and I am thinking.. this Baby Teddy Bear.. I see you get up and I see your arms around the Baby Teddy Bear.. arms around and Lift him up.. I see you holding the Baby Teddy Bear close in your arms.. I see the picture falling and hits the floor.. as you are stand up walking.. the Baby Teddy Bear falls asleep in your arms.. I am looking.. and you go over to the Other Teddy Bear.. the Daughter and you are looking at the two.. my hand grabs your picture and I am looking at Your Picture.. looking at you with two children.. and I see smiles with the Daughter.. the Other Teddy bear as you are touching.. am I suppose to fall in love with this.. what am I suppose to do at this point.. and how about me.. can I be a part of that circle.. I want to hold YOU.. and I want to be held by you the way you are holding the two Teddy Bears.. I see smiles and giggles.. but I want to be a part.. I want to smile and giggle along side.. holding YOU close in my arms.. and holding the baby Teddy Bear.. and Holding YOU to tell you that I love you.. as I am sitting on the floor.. I just want to be with YOU.. I want to be a part so that I can feel the love.. loving YOU
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