there's a lot we need to talk about and i'm really really scared lol
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 30 ก.ย. 2024
- Heyyy friends. Firstly I just wanna say thank you all for sticking around and for all the nice messages asking about where I've been lately. Secondly I want to apologise for the fact that I haven't regularly posted for the longest time and just kind of left you guys in the dark about a load of things, but hopefully you can understand why this update was quite difficult to film/post and why it's taken me so long. I genuinely just want to have a fresh start with everything again and I've been managing to do that with my 'real' life behind the scenes, but I haven't felt like I've been able to dive into creating content again without at least giving you guys some kind of explaination.
It's been a rough couple of years! And there's definitely some things in my life that still need ironing out (adulting is the worst) but I truly do feel like I'm in the best place that I've been for a long time and I'm just so ready (well..not ready, but ready enough lol) to just build on that again. Even if we've never spoken or met, you guys genuinely mean so much to me and I basically feel like I've just been a really bad internet pal as of late and I'm sorry. But I'm not going anywhere! I'm gonna be 87 years old with 7 face lifts, still chatting away to a camera I'm sure.
Obviously now it's just me doing all of this it might take me a couple weeks to get back into a full routine of filming, editing and uploading, but I can't wait to get stuck back in to making content again like the good old days. I'm hopefully (as long as it all goes to plan) working on a new series for this channel that I hope you'll love. It's gonna be something quite different but it should be a lot of fun and hey, if it flops then WE MOVE! I just wanna create fun/inspiring/entertaining content for you guys and hopefully we can figure it all out together. I've missed you, I love you and thank you again for being so patient and just fantastic internet mates. Here's to doing this all togeva 🥂
(Jeez I'm nervous about posting this hahah but YOLOOOO)
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Guys I am genuinely OVERWHELMED (in a good way for once hahah) with all the comments and love. I took 20 minutes out to have a cup of tea and 3 bags of crisps (#eatclean) and came back to so many comments that I can't even keep up with replying! But I'm gonna do my best to respond to every single one 💖 thank you all so so much. It definitely feels like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders and I know I wasn't ready before, but this is all something I should have done so much sooner because the responses and support has honestly shocked me. Like I knew you guys were KOOOOOL but wow ur all rly rly cool. I dunno what else to say but I really do feel like this is the start of a new chapter with a lot of things and I can't thank you enough for sticking around and just making me feel so loved tonight. Love you all xxx
Love you xxxx
Ok... I'm very sorry for your lost Steph 😢 I genuinely didn't knew all of that. When it comes to you, being offline for a few months... well I have to be honest... I didn't forget you, you are my favorite influencer and I still love you and suport you and I'm always anxious for a new video. And I'm 100% sure that your grandparents and your Mom are insanely PROUD of you. Big kiss from Portugal 🇵🇹 and we are here for you, every time you need
U are amazing ❤
Modest opinion... you are beautiful, strong, inteligente, funny... so we are here because you are one of us Steph, because we love you and nerds never leave one of their own behind, so we will never leve you behind
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this is why you’re successful - because of your authenticity & honesty. we love you no matter what queen, sending you so much love 🤍🤍
ohhh my love thank you so so much xx
There’s so many TH-camrs out there with the fancy setups and cameras and doing makeup… they aren’t you! We watch you for you!
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aw man why has thissss comment made me almost well up! thank you so so much babe xx
I know what you mean when you pull away. I close myself off as well. Thank you for coming to us. I will be an ear to listen. Mental health is something we all deal with and I am glad that their are people like you who help others in ways you may not know.
Exactly! I'm not into make up that much, I just love her, the calmness that comes from her and her voice 🤭
@@stephanietomsAnd that is exactly why we love you 😊💛
I've never commented before on your videos, I'm 62 year old woman who likes make up but rarely wears it. So why do I watch your content? Simply because of your authenticity as a person. I'm so pleased to hear you say that you are realising that you are enough. Chant it like a mantra to yourself everyday, because YOU ARE ENOUGH! You have experienced so much loss and grief in such a short time, and yet here you are, unafraid to be vulnerable and that, darling woman, takes true, deep strength.
I fully agree. You are a beautiful person inside and out. You are so authentic. That’s why 500k people follow you.
Steph I'm a silent watcher but I've had to comment today. I'm a 54 year old woman who was full of self hate from a young age just like you. Bullied for looking nerdy (glasses and big teeth) in 2020 during lockdown I started my TH-cam channel. It's a tiny channel compared to yours only 4.5k subscribers so far but I keep going because like you I've realised people actually like me for me and its a nice feeling isn't it. You steph are beautiful funny talented and the world is definitely your oyster. We are all here for you and always will be. I know this video was tough for you sweetheart but trust me when I say things can only get better. You are quite a bit younger than me but your videos helped inspire me to start TH-cam so thank you for that and thank you for just being you. Sending you lots of love positive vibes and blessings for what's to come. ❤❤❤❤
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OOOh...I'm coming up for 50 in July so have subscribed to your channel too, I only just found Steph's!! @steph that's a lot to go through at such a young age and we all make mistakes at any age, you've got yourself together from that, now you've dusted yourself off and gotten back out there, it takes guts especially to come back to social media and being an influencer, good luck girl ❤
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@@tashaleeman thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️
Maaaaate, I feel like you are the wee English ADHD counterpart to my huge, autistic Scottish ass except you HAVE the balls to do this. My chest hurts from watching this because I’ve been through everything you’ve been through too, you are a fkn champ for putting in the work and coming back vulnerable but stronger and more determined than before. You are an inspiration and I’m sure I speak for many of your followers when I say I’ll be watching and supporting the Toms no matter what. Unless you become a light coverage/skin tint girly, that’s where I draw the line ❤️
Can confirm I just like you. And I’ve liked you for years. And I’ll continue to like you for years. And if you pop off for a bit then come back - I’ll watch and I’ll still like you. And I think I speak for a lot of us when I say that there’s no pressure from us to show up 100% of the time or to be 100% consistent.
Here here! Well said ❤
I wish you could see yourself through your viewer's eyes. You are the reason I watch TH-cam. Your videos make me happy,and have helped me through the last six years since I had my stroke. You are such a beautiful person inside and out.
Came for the makeup, stayed for Steph…. Self acceptance is so difficult and i commend you for laying it bare. I adore you! Have for years. You (and itssabbrina) are the only makeup girlie i follow.. for the makeup initially… now I rarely even wear makeup.. but im still watching you!! Proud of you and so is your mum xxx
I don’t care what you post, I just enjoy your content because of your personality. I’ve been watching you since 2014 and every time I see a new upload I click straight away. Love all the way from an Aussie ADHDer.
"There's gunna be a lot of tangents "
The adhd side quests 🤣🤣🤣 (I'm still watching but I did giggle at that) xx
hahah LITERALLY!! everything i do/say takes 5 times longer i swear because of the tangents 😂
@stephanietoms 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 you're not alone my friend!
ADHD squad unite!
Omg! There was a reason I loved your vids. ADHD peeps seemed to find each other. Diagnosed 6 months ago and it’s a ride!!!!! Welcome back. We missed you!
@@ebeb657 we're packs ✌🏻 I am 8 months diagnosed 🫶🏻
I can see at the end of the video how PHYSICALLY relieved you look for getting everything off of your chest. You’re such an inspiration.
Im a silent watcher, and I can confirm I do watch the videos for makeup. But let's be real, we come for the makeup but stay for the personality.
To add to the list of clichés, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger... right?
I'm sorry to hear that life has shit on you from a great height for many years. And never apologies for the way you feel. Your feelings are just as valid as anyones. Never compare your struggle to anyone elses. You are valid. You are enough.
I hope it is all on the up from here. Girl, you deserve it. Love ya lots. Xx
Ohh don't - I can't tell you how many times I have heard that - :( lol
People dont buy into brands, they buy into you...the person who keeps it real, who still shows up even when life is shite.i saw you once in debenhams in truro when i worked there years ago ,you were down to earth and youve not changed.your authenticity about who you are can be a lot for some people (i know this about myself😂) but you keep being just that!the ones who love you will continue to do so❤
The reason I started watching you is because you’re hilarious, you’re smart, snarky, and self-aware. Those traits are *you*, Steph.
Before the 4K camera, before the brand deals, before the ultra boujee PR-there is, was, and always will be you.
I remember watching you put on bright blue eye shadow with Primark palettes, and that Steph is the Steph I’m still rocking with years later. 💜
Same ❤️
Same here 🥹❤️
Yes yes yes 🙌🏻
Ive got ADHD, OCD and Anxiety and i get seasonal depression. Its a struggle but i try and see the positive in things. We each have silent struggles we don't talk about.
Yasss me too sending love ❤
My opinion isn't worth much, but I found your videos like 8 years ago when I was overwhelmed and lonely at uni. Idk who I really am a lot of time, I get you there, but I know you're my comfort videos. What other YTer would apply makeup with nuggets???
Looking forward to where you take your videos. You're a legend, thank you for adding light to some dark times x
Legitimately, the way you speak about life topics and balance your thoughts and feelings is the most relatable thing I’ve heard from someone, in a way I’ve never really heard from someone else before. Like being scared of nothing but everything at the same time? It’s hard to explain but internet friends can be like, such a significant part of making you feel less weird and okay about yourself. So this was a great video! Hope the cockroaching keeps on the roll 🐾
Hey steph, my mum passed 4 years ago aswell to cancer, its the most aweful thing to go through! You dont know me but i am always here! I get it. You have helped me in my darkest times and i would love to be uere for you aswell! ❤❤❤
first of all i'm so sorry you lost your mum too :( it's just awful and i hope you're doing okay. you just commenting something positive is absolutely enough! thank you so much xx
Wow Steph I can relate to u alot of this feeling off losing everyone. I am an only child I have lost mum and now dad and it terrifies me that I will loss my partner. I am waiting to speak to someone as I defo suffer some PTSD of finding my dad passed. And I defo have death anxiety.
Sorry for your loss x
@gingerbreadloverjulie8609 I think I know what you're talking about. I watched a few videos from palliative care nurses talking about how a lot of their clients see their family members, that have already died, before they pass. Like they will tell the nurse "my sister is here, she said she's coming back on Wednesday" then they die on the Wednesday. I don't believe in heaven and souls. But this really has been making feel comforted. I've watched people I love die. One of them, they woke up for a while and when I think back, they where saying things that I now think someone was there to take her. Now I look forward to seeing if my dad is going to come. I've always been atheist byw. So this is weird for me.
You are humble and not stuck up. That is why I like you.
We love you Steph! And will always watch 🖤🖤🖤🖤
i love YOUUUUU!! can't wait to meet you some day and kiss ur face gout xxx
I’m usually a silent watcher but sending all my love, Steph! It really sounds like you’ve been dragged through the shit and you deserve to feel so so proud of yourself ❤️ Heck yeah the world is your oyster girl!! Xx
awww well i'm glad you're here today! thank you so so much xxx
I’ve been watching you for years when you only had a few hundred subs, and I’m still excited when I see you posting. I am so proud to see the woman you became and seeing the woman you are becoming. You’re real and I really appreciate that. Thank you for being you!
Silent watcher! Cornish gal, 39 and love your videos! I lost my mum 3 years ago and felt every word you said. It’s wonderful to hear you being so honest and looking after yourself x
Im 21 mins in, and this is how my 13 year old daughter describes herself. I tell her daily that none of this is true. She was diagnosed with autism during lockdown. I cry often because of what she says. Thank you for posting this. I'm going to show her this, and hopefully, she will see that she is not different, not on her own. Thank you
26 and diagnosed Autistic 2 weeks ago! Tell your daughter she is beautiful, she is amazing and we rule! The community is always here to support! I hope she never feels alone! Plus being geeky is the best! I love being a nerd and so does my girlfriend! Sending lots of hugs and hopes she sees her worth soon! Being different is really fricken cool! 💜
I'm very sorry for the losses you've had. I can only imagine how horrible that must have been for you.
I also can relate to having conditions which means you feel like you stand out. I have stress induced epilepsy and autism, so I know what it's like. I also got bullied in school a lot, due to people not understanding it, as I hadn't been diagnosed with either condition at the time, and also from being fat, which at times for me, has been mistaken for pregnancy too. (I got my epilepsy diagnosis at 17, autism diagnosis at 18).
I agree too, getting a diagnosis is good, as it helps to explain things, especially since problems are caused by people lacking understanding. I find it's better to say someone is different, rather than saying something is wrong, because it's essentially the brain working differently from other people's. I say think of it like you have 2 calculators, one is simple and the other scientific. A scientific calculator follows the BIDMAS rule, whereas the simple one doesn't. There's nothing wrong with either one, they just work differently.
Joining the rest in sending a lot of love beforehand before watching the full video. Thank you for your honesty and great vibes over all these years and I can only hope the good things will find you again soon as well 🫶
thank you so so much! honestly overwhelmed by all da lurveee xxx
Babe, I can relate to 90% of what you went threw the past 4 years 😢
I’m actually in hospital right now bc of depression and alcohol abuse!
I drove drunk on Monday night and crashed my car in to a fence.. I’m so happy no one else was in the accident but me, and that I’m alive 🥺🙏🏽
You are my number one “best makeup friend” when I sit down to do my face, you’re keeping me company and make me laugh better than any of my irl peeps 🫶🏽🫶🏽
If you want to visit Sweden and our peaceful nature, I got a spare room with your name on it 🌲🌻👯♀️
I’m a heroin addict and have been sober 5.5 years. I wish you all the best in your recovery! I promise you life is so much better sober. Next time you could kill someone, or yourself, so please don’t drive intoxicated again 😢 you can do this and you are so much stronger than you think!!! I promise you are. One day at a time ❤ not at all judging btw, I have a DUI from like 7 years ago and still don’t have my license back. Working on it though! Addiction is a horrible disease and I pray you find your way out ❤
So refreshing to hear someone be so honest about these things. Really brave of you to open up about all of this. Id personally watch/listen to whatever you do ❤ x
I love you, you are a light in the dark,and you are definitely just as good as anyone else,stay bright , beautiful ❤🎉😊 xx
I would love to see vlogs and Pokémon card openings 🙌🏻 tbh I just enjoy watching you, not really fussed what the content is
We love you Steph and sending you all the good vibes you deserve. So sorry to hear you went through all of this. And know you are going to come out of it ahead ❤❤❤
I'm in my 40s and you make me laugh every time I watch you. Seeing you just be yourself is very refreshing. That includes you trying to do your job while everything's burning. I think most of us can relate to that.
There's no need to know where you're at. Endless possibilities never stop feeling scary but this whole process will be worth it 😘
Oh, sweet baby girl! I felt the same way until I turned 50. I went through similar things. I'm 57 and so comfortable in my own skin. As far as people liking me, now I don't give a flying fig! You are enough! I enjoy watching you, and you will find your footing!
Oh bless you.. it’s hard losing people you love especially those closest to you. I lost my 3 year old son and it’s the harder thing I’ve ever been through. That was 2018 and I’m still suffering now.. stop beating yourself up. We all deal with things differently and you should be proud that you’re coming out the other side. We all love you. You say it’s cringe but you do feel like a friend and id love to meet you! Take care of yourself and remember you are enough ❤
I lost my 6 year old in 2016. My heart is with you mama❤
@@jesuisaimeex same to you ❤️
I love your channel, all your content is amazing! No matter what you make, I’ll be here.
And your absolutely stunning, even when you first started your channel, stunning, still are💖Sometimes people bully others because they’re miserable with themselves, some bully out of jealousy, some bully because their home life sucks. It Doesn’t make it ok, that s••t is messed up.. I was heavily bullied too.. and to this day all those comments and rude a$$ remarks stay with me.. live rent free in my head… But know, you are amazing and you make a Huge difference in people’s lives💖💖💗💗💖💖💗💗
As someone who is recently diagnosed with ADHD and recently lost a close relative, you are like a superhero in my eyes for making it here!!
You are such a strong, wonderful human bean. Not only from the shite youve waded through but for opening up about said shite wading. Not a single thing in this world lasts forever, not the stars in the sky or the flowers on the ground. The bad times will pass, sad memories will eventually bring a smile to your face and dreams will come true that you havent even thought of yet. Reach for the sky sweet angel, it may be a bumpy journey but its your journey! I bet your mum would be so proud; being vulnerable and making yourself open to the INTERNET, come on, whats more bad ass than that.
And p.s. id watch you all day, any day, doing absolutely fuck all 🤍✨
I’m late to the party on this one because I’ve also been off the internet😅 growing up I was a fat, nerdy loser with no friends. I’m now in my early-mid twenties and I still am. I’ve been watching your videos for years (even when I lost interest in makeup) and you and your personality has helped me through loads of transitional periods of my life so I see you as a friend and big sister. I’m so sorry for what life has put you through recently, but please know you have an army behind you ❤️ xx
I’m just about to watch this video so I’ve no idea what’s in it or what it’s about but I just wanna say as a nearly 40 year old you are 1 of my fave people to watch and I genuinely laugh along with you. Xx
oh mate thank you so much!! this video isn't the most funny thing in the world hahah but i hope it's something! thanks for sticking around xx
@@stephanietoms it’s true and it’s from the heart which in my eyes makes you even more amazing. Xxx
yes we thee people love STEPHANIE TOMS , yes we do take care honey mucks
I love how relatable you are and how real you are. I am so unbelievably sorry for everything you have been through. Just remember it’s ok to laugh when something is funny and cry when you’re sad.
Your Poundland video is my go to when I need to laugh, that foundation shade and your facial expressions genuinely never fail to make me absolutely howl 😂.
Love you lots mate x
❤ love your video you are the most amazing person ever and very beautiful people would give anything yo look like you l was the same lost my dad two years today 😢I wish I could give hug x
“In your bins” 😆😆😆 that properly made me laugh. What a genuinely touching and tough video to make, I think you’re very brave. Sending love and positivity to you and all your new chapters.
I never wear makeup. Only on a very rare occasion. I have watched your channel for years. I watch because I like your personality.
I remember when your mum passed away and how it affected you. I was able to relate as my mum passed away in 2017.
The first thing that needs to happen is for you to gain control of your mental health. I just came to your channel yesterday to see if you had uploaded and I maybe missed it. I haven’t been at my best the last few months and haven’t been on here allot. My grandson left for the US army in April and my granny heart has been through some shit!! Depression is an absolute bitch!!! As an old granny I feel like I just wanna hug you and squeeze all the bullshit that’s hurting you away!!!! I will be here with you as long as you’re here!!!!❤❤❤❤❤
oh for suuuure! that's what i've been trying to work on the most lately - just doing everything bit by but. i'll always take a granny hug! hope everything is okay for you my love ccc
Your you and that’s why we love you 🤍 sending you so much love gorgeous
I’m so sorry you’ve had to go through all this and fair play for sharing with us! I don’t often comment on TH-cam however I really appreciate videos like this as it helps us all realise that shit happens to all of us! Also been through a lot of loss in life as many have and it can feel so isolating. You’re doing an amazing job, I find you really relatable and enjoyable to watch so what ever you choose to do I’m certain we will all be here cheering you on ❤
Steph people love you. I always watch you when I’m in the bath lol. Xx
Im so sorry about what you have gone through. After watching I just have to say that I have never related to a video by an influencer more. Im a long time fan, i found you with the makeup but stayed for you! I really like you! I just want you to know that. You have been a fave and inspiration for me for so long, theres not many influencers I can watch and see myself in and relate to the way I do with you. I love your style and personality.
After this vid I cant believe how much we have in common.. I have similar experiences with alot of it youre talking about, and just remember its so valid. And Im so sorry for you, just know youre not alone and nobody can take away those feelings. They are valid because all of it are real big and are traumatic things for anyone.
Also just have to add ( the body dysmorphia is so real). I was bullied as a child and the way you talk about those feelings are the realest thing. The reason i got into makeup and fashion was mostly because I never felt pretty enough or cool/good enough because of it. I really get it.
I guess we both have this year as a fresh start in many ways. I wish all the best for you going forward from now! I will be here and I will be watching and remember we love u ❤
There's only one steph Tom's please don't leave us you legit are so many peoples safe spaces my 3 girls have been raised watching you❤❤
Thank you so much for being honest and open ❤ I'm so sorry for everything you've been through.
Big hugs and keeo being you. Take care of yourself and take every day as it comes.
I'm ready and I'm listening to the very end. As long as you're healthy and happy that's all that matters it really is all that matters. You have taught me a lot about make up and you made me laugh on the days when I was suffering with depression. I've got a lot to say thank you for. Now it's our turn to listen & help you if we can xxx
depression is a BIIIAAATCH so i get it! so glad i could maybe help even in the tiniest way on your worst days. you got this. thank you so much xx
So brave for posting this...... keep cockroach going
This looks serious, hope you're ok. We all love you lots xx
it is a bit but i'm doing so much better now, thank you!! love you too xx
@stephanietoms mate you could be talking about soil 😅 I watch because I like you. I recognise so much of what you say in myself, I lost my Dad at 13 and undiagnosed but almost certainly have ADHD. You may feel uncomfortable saying you like to be liked by randoms on the Internet... but it's just as weird to feel like you are friends with someone you watch 😅 honestly, keep being you. Do what is best for you and those that are worth it will support you 😘 xx
Steph, you are special and I think you’re very beautiful! Also, I love your personality!
I never really comment or anything, but I feel the need to confirm all the things you’re coming to terms with right now: you truly are enough and we really do love you for you. I’ve kinda fallen of out love with makeup, or at least don’t invest as much in it anymore but I’ll never stop watching your videos. You’re just so entertaining, also very relatable to me personally and seem so real, as sad as I get listening to you think negatively of yourself, you’re making your page a safe space to be true to yourself and I can’t put into words how much I appreciate that. I truly truly hope everything will finally work in your favor and genuinely believe you couldn’t deserve it more
I'm really proud of you for opening up about all of this. I wasn't diagnosed with ADHD until late 30's and it was so eye opening. We support you!!! Sending love. ❤❤❤
Oh steph honey. Feel your pain,I nearly ended up being sectioned recently, trauma messes us up luv. We know you care ,I hope you can find the space and time to fully heal. Thank you for being so raw and vulnerable,thank you for just being you, sage your house and manifest . Love ya girl. You got this.❤❤❤
Hey Steph, I'm really glad you posted this video. I've been having a tough time recently and let my channel completly slide (I even got de monetized!) I have been thinking about comming back to my channel recently and wasn't sure if I could or should do it.
But, after watching your video and hearing your story, I think I definetly need to sort my shit out and stop being such a whiny little bitch baby. You have come back from your trauma with dignity and grace and determination and your video has inspired me to try and do the same.
I'm really, really glad you are on the path to contentment dispite all of your setbacks. I sincerly hope you are able to find joy in life again!
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no, literally i really wanna give you a big hug!!!
awww same!!xxx
Steph I know you're not posting this video to gain sympathy or anything like that and you're genuinely just opening up and doing this for yourself more than anyone else, but I still want to give my condolences to you for everyone you've lost, and I'm so sorry that you've gone through so much mentally too, I just want to offer a shoulder to cry on, a gal to talk to when you're struggling, I would support you all the way just like all the others in the comments, here for you always, you may never see this but if you do, it's worth it so you know me and many others are here for you, always! Best of luck babe ❤️❤️
Forza Steph. Love from Italy 💕
BABY GIRL, I'M HERE FOR YOU!!!! THE GOOD THE BAD AND THE UGLY😁👋✌️😊👏💃🫶❤️
I have watched you back in the day from 2018 onwards, fast approaching my 40's and going through a divorce, and I felt the same way about myself and how I looked and felt, like you have recently. You opened my world to make up and how to use it, what was the best dupes etc. I used to love going to Wilko's and getting the next Essence dupe you recommended. Its like you opened the door and I walked through and then on to a path to learning self worth, love and self care. I know thats major cringe, but for someone that found herself suddenly single after a 16 year relationship, it was everything. I was sorry to hear about had to deal with over the last couple of years, but please dont minimise it, your feelings and how these events made you feel are completely valid, no matter what else is going on around the world. Was lovely to see you posting, and looking forward to what comes next. You will smash it
I love Steph. Not many out there like her. Sending lots of love ❤❤ New start is good Steph
Sending love❤ your a beautiful young woman and life will get easyer for you babe . Just hoping it’s soon x
God help ya you’ve been through so much big hug Steff your the better side of it! I think in astrology it’s called you Saturn return when your about 27 your World turns upside! Big hugs 🤗
I've heard of this Saturn Return before, but never thought much of it... but when I realised the amount of shit I went through around that time period it truly makes sense after reading up on it! I'm 36 now & finally in a better place mentally & health wise... fingers crossed it doesn't happen again when I'm 37! 😅💛
You are the most relatable compared to others
You seem like one of life’s good guys. Take care ❤
Thank you for sharing and just know whatever you post up on TH-cam I will be watching and I appreciate it and I love your videos and I lost my mom in 2021. She gave up the fight from diabetes. Watching my favorite TH-camr and your videos have helped me get through the rough times, and just hang in there.❤❤ be safe, everyone😊😊
I am 58 and was anorexic as a teenager and know self hatred and hopefully this platform helps you heal. I found your channel recently and like your honesty
You are definitely ENOUGH! I love watching you because I learn new things (57 years old) and I laugh my ass off! I'm so sorry you've gone through so much, but also very happy and proud for you! Love from Texas, USA
Hey Steph! Appreciate you putting yourself out there to us, really rooting for you! Lots of love from London ❤
steph, i have been watching you for years, but i don't think i ever commented. i am watching your videos with my boyfriend, because we both like you and we enjoy your company. he likes you because you are funny and laid back (not shading the other people I watch, but definitely you are more relatable and "approachable"). the reason why i watch you is because i enjoy hearing you and seeing the beautiful looks you make, because we are the same age and i am still learning how to do makeup. but the main thing that struck me from the beginning was the fact that you are truly beautiful. so beautiful to me that i have been adopting your tips and even used you as inspiration in my work towards finding my style. i really hope you don't take this the wrong way, i just want you to know that even though you may have had a bad opinion of your appearance, there is at least one person who uses you as inspiration for looking beautiful. you are great.
Steph, I love you. We all love you🩷 We are here for you, and cannot wait for your restart and see your videos going forward. Sending you love and happiness🩷xxx
It takes so much courage to put yourself out there, whether it is us on the Internet or in real life. You are an amazing person, and you see stronger than you think. Also, I have just become a new mum to a 9 week old ginger boy, and I love him and he is fitting in with my other 5 furbabies. Xx
I resonate with this all so hard! I think it goes without saying I’m sorry and I love you, like we all do, but it it’s true. I have always resonated with you on so many levels and thought you would just be the bestest friend I could ask for because of how we see life and being a geeky person who happens to also like make up and make themselves feel good. It’s really difficult feeling like you don’t fit into a category and I have always appreciated that you are on here because I see myself and that’s powerful. I’m in a lot of the situations you are currently and seeing you own it I just have to say, you’re so strong. It’s not easy, especially when you your pain to others, but it’s important. Your feelings are justified and you are worthy of them just as much as you are worthy of feeling unconditional love. I know, (oh gosh do I know), that the deep shadow work is hard but it is opening you up to your higher self. So I’m manifesting for both of us, that we continue these journeys and blossom into who we are truly meant to be. You got this! I may never meet you, but I am always here for you if you ever need a strangers unbiased opinion.
Oh oh! Twitch!!! Yes!! Loved chatting and playing with you on there 😁
The most honest and relatable video I have see in years. Thank so much for sharing and being so honest. Wish you all the best, here from Denmark🤗
Good for you Steph! I have watched you for a few years and I think you're great. I can relate to a few things you've said. All the best xx
Awh Steph, i´m so sorry that you felt/feel this way. 😔 but i can understand. I´m diagnosed with seasonal depression. Fall and spring are the worst for me. I got help and was doing fine. And than my grandmother died, covid happened and i went rock bottom. And even with the help i have now, it´s still hard to get out of it. I think covid destroyed a lot of us. You´re not alone. I came f0r make-up and i stayed for Steph. I just like you. And i´m proud of you for opening up about what you´re struggling with. Wish more people did it. I love you, Steph! ❤
I started watching your videos in 2019 when I was going through a bad period in my life.
You really resonated with me and we have had very similar experiences.
I wish you all the best going forward and your future will absolutely amazing!
Never stop being you ❤
I have watched you for years and I don’t even really wear makeup I just go “ooh a new video from Steph” please know it’s you we are here for ❤
The lighting is great and clean❤
I completely understand your struggle. Thank you for sharing. I really wish you the best of luck. Here for you.x
We’ve all been there Steph. In the grand scheme of things our problems seem small but we’re allowed to grieve and we’re allowed to feel sorry for ourselves. You can’t control what life throws at you but you can learn from it. Not only are you healing you’re also improving and that says a lot about who you are. I’m also stealing “cockroach mode” to describe my life too 😂😂
So sorry onwards and upwards babe xxx
I feel like your inside head voice tbh 😂 I also found out I have adhd and it makes everything make sense but also makes you second guess all your interactions.
Steph you’re real! And we need more real, we love that when you talk we hear a person with their on opinions and feelings not just a cookie cutter influencencer, keep being your, you are loved, and everyone wants just a little bit more Steph in their life ❤
YESSSS STEPH! 🥳 Just sat here cheering you on and rooting for you SO HARD. I’ve watched you for years and this actually made me so happy for you. You’re so strong for coming out the other side so positively and I know you’re about to have the biggest life glow up ❤ So excited to see what’s next for you 🎉
I originally started watching you for makeup but you always make me laugh and my partner has no interest in make up but he will sit and watch your videos with me because your funny, your confidence will come with time, your community have your back ❤
I started watching you because I've felt like I could relate to your natural rambling, thoughts, ideas and even your comment a few years ago about wearing interesting T-shirts just to create a conversation starter in a public setting. It was a lovely idea and it helped me relax and you've given new perspectives on things about life in general bc you're so kind and you almost think the way I do and it makes watching your videos so relatable and comforting. Thank you.
I properly should have gone bed 47 minutes ago but babe I'm invested in you and your life and happiness, I'm so sorry you've had to crawl through so many tough patches to get here but I am convinced its onwards and upwards for you to big big things ❤
Huni ur so so beautifull inside n out. Life happens. Sorry for your losses. We love u keep up being “ you”. Xx
My heart is with you and I wish you all the best and you have my support if that means anything.
Aw Steph I bloody love you. Your bloody amazing inside and out. Your absolutely gorgeous ❤
Steph we love you ❤
As a fellow previously nerdy ugly no mates at school who was later diagnosed with adhd, and now glowed up with a lot of filler 😅 I have watched you since cocochic because I like you and relate a weird amount and find you funny. I barely watch other TH-cam vids anymore but you’re like my comfort TH-camr!
Sending you all my love babe, you deserve the world xxx
I love how real you talk about these situations and in such a respectful way to those involved as well. The courage you have had to even post such a vulnerable video is amazing. I cant wait to see new content from you. Definitely someone who deserves nothing but happiness x
if you weren’t so open with your adhd diagnosis back when you were diagnosed, I’d have never realised I had adhd. I’ve been medicated for nearly 3 years now and it’s been totally life changing in a good way. Thank you x