Irony is getting whipped for being good to someone. And I know the worst I am doing is losing interest on romantic relationships anymore while Ik that this is wrong. Wrong person should never make you feel in certain way about love. What he even knows about love? This is something I am trying not to happen. I want to heal as if I don’t have the memory of him. Then I won’t be scared of love.
Right. I live by the quote by Earnest Hemingway “There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow man, true nobility is being superior to ones former self.” ❤
To quote Ani Difranco's song Gravel, "you've been juggling two women like a stupid circus clown, telling us both we are the one." The lesson has been mine by far. Taurus sun and rising learning the hard way. The gate is locked indeed. Taurus is just as stubborn about not getting torn again. I texted him and said just that, angry that we could have had it all, but there's no unknowing his deceit and manipulation.
As i listen to this with Suno : listen to the voice within. Song my mantra playing in my mind knoding my head breathing in out ya seach a Truthful message from you Through Alchemy this has not been a easy process well worth while as the journey proceeds....Suno✨️💛🐦🔥 Much gratitude.
Thank you for a beautifully painful reading. I miss him so much but I have changed and he hasn't it is so hard seeing him when he drops the kids off because we should be together with our children instead he's with a woman so similar to me that he only met because he was trying to do the only thing he knew would completely rip my heart and soul out . We been married 29 years I was 17 and he was 20 and this all started because I felt alone ignored and I knew he was keeping big secrets about finances and sex addiction. On July 15 2023 i asked for 10 mins of his undivided attention I just wanted to talk to my husband I missed him even though he was sitting across the room from me now I would say that was the biggest mistake I ever done but looking back standing on the outside I would do it over again in a heartbeat. When I asked for his time this is the response I was given. We were standing in front of the stove face to face our 3 year old standing next to me it was 7 pm all the other kids were gone. He looked at me and says "why would I want to do that?" I wasn't shocked by that response I replied if it's so bad why do you continue to stay here? He response "I pay the bills and the house payment oh I want to tell how everytime I hear your voice see your name come across my phone I literally want to puke." Still not surprised or shocked I was getting worse response on a daily so I then ask him why do u still sleep with me his response "i guess because I need a hole once a month to use." So I'm standing still not phased by his responses then he looks down at our 3 year old who absolutely adores hid dad and says "I tell you what print the papers and I will sign my rights off right now if you promise to disappear and never bother me again!" That's where I was in disbelief I stood thinking I can't do this no matter how much I love him and never stopped trying I'm not a quitter I've forgiven for so much that has never apologized for I even took a brand new bottle of prescribed amitriptilyne which is like Valium in my early 20's just trying to have peace and quiet so I couldn't hear the words coming out and forgave him so we could be a family. This time wasn't about me it was my children. So we split up and 2 weeks later he's introducing our 4 kids to his girlfriend and I'm being evicted because he stopped paying for everything. Anyway sorry for pouring all this out but I'm at my wits end no friends and the divorce was final on November 5 2024. Thank you for shining your beautiful light that called me to hear this message
Irony is getting whipped for being good to someone. And I know the worst I am doing is losing interest on romantic relationships anymore while Ik that this is wrong. Wrong person should never make you feel in certain way about love. What he even knows about love? This is something I am trying not to happen. I want to heal as if I don’t have the memory of him. Then I won’t be scared of love.
Right. I live by the quote by Earnest Hemingway “There is nothing noble in being superior to your fellow man, true nobility is being superior to ones former self.” ❤
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Good reading, yes I trusted n had a third party situation now am no longer the same...cracks are still there will not be rectified...
You are really good
To quote Ani Difranco's song Gravel, "you've been juggling two women like a stupid circus clown, telling us both we are the one." The lesson has been mine by far. Taurus sun and rising learning the hard way. The gate is locked indeed. Taurus is just as stubborn about not getting torn again. I texted him and said just that, angry that we could have had it all, but there's no unknowing his deceit and manipulation.
Thanks Esha. How divinely timed is your reading!!! This is a God sent confirmation for me. Clarifies so much and resonates. Love and light ❤
Thank You. ❤
this is exactly what I am going through atm. thanks
Hello everyone ❤❤❤
What a great reading, thankyou for channeling❤❤
As i listen to this with Suno : listen to the voice within. Song my mantra playing in my mind knoding my head breathing in out ya seach a Truthful message from you Through Alchemy this has not been a easy process well worth while as the journey proceeds....Suno✨️💛🐦🔥 Much gratitude.
You are so gorgeous 😍😍
Thank you for a beautifully painful reading. I miss him so much but I have changed and he hasn't it is so hard seeing him when he drops the kids off because we should be together with our children instead he's with a woman so similar to me that he only met because he was trying to do the only thing he knew would completely rip my heart and soul out . We been married 29 years I was 17 and he was 20 and this all started because I felt alone ignored and I knew he was keeping big secrets about finances and sex addiction. On July 15 2023 i asked for 10 mins of his undivided attention I just wanted to talk to my husband I missed him even though he was sitting across the room from me now I would say that was the biggest mistake I ever done but looking back standing on the outside I would do it over again in a heartbeat. When I asked for his time this is the response I was given. We were standing in front of the stove face to face our 3 year old standing next to me it was 7 pm all the other kids were gone. He looked at me and says "why would I want to do that?" I wasn't shocked by that response I replied if it's so bad why do you continue to stay here? He response "I pay the bills and the house payment oh I want to tell how everytime I hear your voice see your name come across my phone I literally want to puke." Still not surprised or shocked I was getting worse response on a daily so I then ask him why do u still sleep with me his response "i guess because I need a hole once a month to use." So I'm standing still not phased by his responses then he looks down at our 3 year old who absolutely adores hid dad and says "I tell you what print the papers and I will sign my rights off right now if you promise to disappear and never bother me again!" That's where I was in disbelief I stood thinking I can't do this no matter how much I love him and never stopped trying I'm not a quitter I've forgiven for so much that has never apologized for I even took a brand new bottle of prescribed amitriptilyne which is like Valium in my early 20's just trying to have peace and quiet so I couldn't hear the words coming out and forgave him so we could be a family. This time wasn't about me it was my children. So we split up and 2 weeks later he's introducing our 4 kids to his girlfriend and I'm being evicted because he stopped paying for everything. Anyway sorry for pouring all this out but I'm at my wits end no friends and the divorce was final on November 5 2024.
Thank you for shining your beautiful light that called me to hear this message
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