When you are a first born in your family this hits soooo haaard. You are born to be the glue for both the younger siblings and parents and you are the one to face the pain while pretending to smile. 😊
People wonder why i can't get over this shit, over Dean and this is why. This self-reflection and pain that sunk into him in the early seasons and he just stopped talking about after hell, like, shit... you know
this is thee video for the relationship between john and dean i am obsessed. like you've captured exactly how john messed up as a parent, going all the way back to the fire. good god.
As someone who has had to deal with a father that never figured out how to be there for me, I am 100% with Sam. But there were times, where I knew that my father would always disappointment me and I still caught myself seeking his approval. It hurts to know you will never get that. And to see someone still trying so fucking hard is just as hard.
This is incredible. This is all of it, everything John put on him and put him through that he didn’t deserve, and it breaks my fucking heart. You edited this so well, I’m mind-blown
i love this so much!! (singer era) dean is my favorite character in the whole world! this edit is perfect in conveying all of that heartbreak :') & bc i can't help myself i kinda went off about how much i love dean below bc i love talking about him and the complexities of his psyche & trauma at any given opportunity lmao it hurts how much the line for admiration and fear is blurred for dean toward his father. i think when he was younger it used to be just admiration; he'd look up to him and loved everything he did and thought he was the coolest guy in the world, and he imitated that the best he could. but when he started growing up, wanting to be his own person and do his own things, he would make mistakes (as a kid is supposed to) and john would crack down on him so hard that it traumatized him severely. it's like when dean is separated from john, and spends time with sam who is a whole new person who got to do what he wanted (even for a little while), dean was sorta healing from john. he was learning how abusive his dad really is and how toxic their relationship is through being with the sibling who got away, and bobby, who was like a better father and whose known john for a long time. but every time john shows back up, dean instantly reverts back to the good soldier boy he was raised to be out of possible fear of backlash from his dad, and in a search for the praise he's been after since he was a kid. he just wants his dad to be proud of him and he's afraid of what would happen if he disappoints him again. i feel like he still holds onto the behaviors and interests of his father to both avoid his father's criticisms and punishments ("how could he hate me if i’m him?") and in a sort of, childlike hope sort of way. like he's trying to hold onto that admiration he had as a kid in order to love his father unconditionally like he used to. sam got to rebel, got to become his own complete person with independence from his family, likely because he had dean to look out for him and shield him from the full brunt of their father.
I came from tumblr, and I gotta show love here too. I have so many feelings about Dean and his blind loyalty to John. You hit the nail on the head with this edit.
I'm a sucker for John & Dean's relationship, and this video is incredible in how it portrays it. It's also a demonstration of what a wonderful actor Jensen is, every expression is so filled with emotion, it's breath-taking. I loved your editing, I loved the video, I loved that you chose to use mostly the footage from the first seasons, I think Dean's emotions were a lot more raw then. Great job!
I feel I shouldn't ever be a mom bc I'm a horrible person and I do whatever Todd my dad wants me to do bc he's the strongest man ever and I still wish he was there for me
What season and episode is it where Dean is talking about how much he was like John? I haven’t seen that clip a whole lot. Also, this is freaking awesome!!
Did John hit Dean n Sam? 🤔 this video certainly implies it. I know he wasn't the best dad, but did he physically hurt them? Like flagstaff, makes me think there might have been some physical abuse. Hope not. That makes me look at john differently. Need to rewatch those moments to make sure.
It does certainly not excuse his behaviour but Remember John was deeply traumatized as well. Not only Mary‘s death, but Vietnam as well. I betcha he came back messed up from there. And all this subconscious trauma he carried around and couldn’t talk to anyone about (certainly not his small kids) would‘ve left an impact on them - especially Dean- too. Paired with the immense responsibility for Sammy it formed Dean into a person who‘s outwardly keeping it together well, but inwards is just a kid looking for his dad‘s approval. A kid who has been killing Monsters looking like regular old humans since he could hold a gun. That’s TRAUMATIZING, even to adults. And to a kid without someone to talk to about it? I cant imagine. dean‘s childhood was negligence and violence. Of course he has lots of rage, threatening to spill out whenever he cant deal with a situation in his usual way. I for one dont think John would ever cross the threshold of hitting the kids. If he‘d ever laid a finger on Sam Dean would‘ve fought him heads and nails.
Left for a few months felt guilty then I just was gone for 8 more months and I feel guilty and my kids are mine and I don't need that man to watch my kids and Timmy is me for god and it scares me damn it My kids are Sam and Dean and I'm John Winchester the girl version and it scares me bc I don't want my kids to live my life like me and I get jealous of Katie bc she's better than me and Adam is Erin and I get shafted but I do everything and Bobby is Chuck Henness and I don't know what to do now bc I don't want this Dean to turn into John
When you are a first born in your family this hits soooo haaard. You are born to be the glue for both the younger siblings and parents and you are the one to face the pain while pretending to smile. 😊
This is incredible… it’s heartbreaking but you’ve captured the relationship between Dean and John so perfectly 😭
People wonder why i can't get over this shit, over Dean and this is why. This self-reflection and pain that sunk into him in the early seasons and he just stopped talking about after hell, like, shit... you know
this is thee video for the relationship between john and dean i am obsessed. like you've captured exactly how john messed up as a parent, going all the way back to the fire. good god.
wow thank u so much... 🥺
Dean really was Michael's Sword here, literally same words as Michael
As someone who has had to deal with a father that never figured out how to be there for me, I am 100% with Sam. But there were times, where I knew that my father would always disappointment me and I still caught myself seeking his approval. It hurts to know you will never get that. And to see someone still trying so fucking hard is just as hard.
This is incredible. This is all of it, everything John put on him and put him through that he didn’t deserve, and it breaks my fucking heart. You edited this so well, I’m mind-blown
thank you so much 😭💞
i love this so much!! (singer era) dean is my favorite character in the whole world! this edit is perfect in conveying all of that heartbreak :')
& bc i can't help myself i kinda went off about how much i love dean below bc i love talking about him and the complexities of his psyche & trauma at any given opportunity lmao
it hurts how much the line for admiration and fear is blurred for dean toward his father. i think when he was younger it used to be just admiration; he'd look up to him and loved everything he did and thought he was the coolest guy in the world, and he imitated that the best he could. but when he started growing up, wanting to be his own person and do his own things, he would make mistakes (as a kid is supposed to) and john would crack down on him so hard that it traumatized him severely.
it's like when dean is separated from john, and spends time with sam who is a whole new person who got to do what he wanted (even for a little while), dean was sorta healing from john. he was learning how abusive his dad really is and how toxic their relationship is through being with the sibling who got away, and bobby, who was like a better father and whose known john for a long time. but every time john shows back up, dean instantly reverts back to the good soldier boy he was raised to be out of possible fear of backlash from his dad, and in a search for the praise he's been after since he was a kid. he just wants his dad to be proud of him and he's afraid of what would happen if he disappoints him again.
i feel like he still holds onto the behaviors and interests of his father to both avoid his father's criticisms and punishments ("how could he hate me if i’m him?") and in a sort of, childlike hope sort of way. like he's trying to hold onto that admiration he had as a kid in order to love his father unconditionally like he used to.
sam got to rebel, got to become his own complete person with independence from his family, likely because he had dean to look out for him and shield him from the full brunt of their father.
absolutely FLOORED by this!!!!! how could he hate me if i'm him oh lord......
Your Dean meta is SO GOOD! Dean Winchester deserves so much better
I came from tumblr, and I gotta show love here too. I have so many feelings about Dean and his blind loyalty to John. You hit the nail on the head with this edit.
wow thanks for coming here to comment!!!
this is incredible...im not crying you're crying
I'm a sucker for John & Dean's relationship, and this video is incredible in how it portrays it. It's also a demonstration of what a wonderful actor Jensen is, every expression is so filled with emotion, it's breath-taking. I loved your editing, I loved the video, I loved that you chose to use mostly the footage from the first seasons, I think Dean's emotions were a lot more raw then. Great job!
i hope you know this edit will stay with me for the rest of my life... I love their relationship & dynamic so much...
im speechless thank u so much!!!!
I still come back to this from time to time 🖤
this is ... this is ... like i have no words. i love dean sm and this is just a compilation of dean didn’t deserve that 💕💖
thank you so much !!!
i'm going FERAL. i love this more than i have WORDS
!!! thank you sm 😭
I haven’t cried in MONTHS. This got me
OHHHH.... this is SO GOOD op god you just fucking hit this out of the park. i have no words. so, SO good
thank you so much i love u
My ❤ Destroyer
so love this video it so good
I love it!
This is so amazing
This is great!
Damn. 😢😮😢
Dean was a good son, it’s just his dad was a bad father. funny how being good doesn’t get you what you want, it just uses you up.
this shit is GOOD
💖💖💖
I feel I shouldn't ever be a mom bc I'm a horrible person and I do whatever Todd my dad wants me to do bc he's the strongest man ever and I still wish he was there for me
What season and episode is it where Dean is talking about how much he was like John? I haven’t seen that clip a whole lot. Also, this is freaking awesome!!
it's from 4x19! and thank u so much :^)))))
can anyone tell me what episode 2:36 is from?? it hits every time
the clip where he flinches is 2x17 and the line he says is from 2x01!
John Winchester is a terrible father.
Todd and me
Did John hit Dean n Sam? 🤔 this video certainly implies it. I know he wasn't the best dad, but did he physically hurt them? Like flagstaff, makes me think there might have been some physical abuse. Hope not. That makes me look at john differently. Need to rewatch those moments to make sure.
It does certainly not excuse his behaviour but Remember John was deeply traumatized as well. Not only Mary‘s death, but Vietnam as well. I betcha he came back messed up from there.
And all this subconscious trauma he carried around and couldn’t talk to anyone about (certainly not his small kids) would‘ve left an impact on them - especially Dean- too. Paired with the immense responsibility for Sammy it formed Dean into a person who‘s outwardly keeping it together well, but inwards is just a kid looking for his dad‘s approval. A kid who has been killing Monsters looking like regular old humans since he could hold a gun. That’s TRAUMATIZING, even to adults. And to a kid without someone to talk to about it? I cant imagine.
dean‘s childhood was negligence and violence. Of course he has lots of rage, threatening to spill out whenever he cant deal with a situation in his usual way.
I for one dont think John would ever cross the threshold of hitting the kids. If he‘d ever laid a finger on Sam Dean would‘ve fought him heads and nails.
Left for a few months felt guilty then I just was gone for 8 more months and I feel guilty and my kids are mine and I don't need that man to watch my kids and Timmy is me for god and it scares me damn it
My kids are Sam and Dean and I'm John Winchester the girl version and it scares me bc I don't want my kids to live my life like me and I get jealous of Katie bc she's better than me and Adam is Erin and I get shafted but I do everything and Bobby is Chuck Henness and I don't know what to do now bc I don't want this Dean to turn into John
Thank u u made me cry.😢😮❤