What Happened to Me? Dealing with Depression & Channel Update
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- This video is about what happened to me and why I stopped uploading for a long time. Its for my fans as an explanation and an apology. The first part is about how and why I burned myself out. The second part is about dealing with depression.
Thank you for all of the support, its very comforting to see that I'm not alone in this and that my small community understands. Love you people
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Serenity, during those long breaks, your subscriber literally never stopped asking about you. "Where's Serenity?" "When is Serenity coming back?" For basically being strangers on the internet, these people love and support you. I think I can say on behalf of your viewers that we want to see you happy and healthy more than we want content. The fact that you want to keep doing this shows your will to power through your depression and that you have the strength to do so. Remember this: YOU always come first; there wouldn't be any content without you. Stay strong!
Couldn't of said it any better myself. ;)
Dorian Metzler
so true, we all love you serenity ❤
This is some true shit. I thought about it a lot and have been waiting for a video like this for a long time really. Been missing those plays, son
Dorian Metzler great comment!!
We're here for you man, we understand, I've had to deal with depression too.
A lot to learn from here. It's great to see he was able to reflect on all this and grow from it. Way to go dude.
swiftor damn. you watch serenity?
swiftor wow swift I've been subscribed for I don't now how long now and to see you here makes me happy that you care for other people in a way never shown before.
WTF swiftor is here hi man xD
swiftor Q
It's time to get swifty
Listen man..whatever it is - it is going to go away eventually.
Just dont go Dark man..it is going to get better, i promise!
Thumbs up so he can see
MaKKowey Tapkin
Sayin it Will go away dosent help, trust me
MaKKowey Tapkin mate you need to stop with that shit cos you know nothing
Your promises aren't worth
I have a depresion for 1 years but I now have some thing that I always wanted
It doesn’t get better, never fucking does
dude I feel you so much, same thing with me...
Love your channel. Let’s play some time !!!!
@@korosenaiGames hahahaha
First off, you're a legend bro. I agree with you 100%, depression can be something that is not fully understood and can happen to anyone. I have gone through stages in my TH-cam life where I have stopped completely and I never understood why or why I wasn't as happy. I was getting to play at ton of video games! Anyways, you got a huge community behind you supporting you, I personally can't wait to see all your future content and I will be praying for you brother! Much love!
-CBG
Coconut Brah Gaming ❤️❤️❤️❤️ agree
Coconut Brah Gaming coconut ily both
hi coco
Coconut Brah Gaming lpve ur vids brah
Coconut Brah Gaming maybe u both can meet each other and make some tips angle or the others tips😂, i love that one, and maybe, your videos will more funny if there are some funny momment when u build it (like behind the scene)😂
In short, I was so hyped to put all my time into youtube that when I finally could, I was way too intense about it and I burned myself out pretty badly. Dealing with the depression that followed is difficult but getting back to youtube makes me feel better...
I would like to say sorry to all my fans and thank you for their support. I didn't think people would be this supportive.
Love my community
Serenity17 Hope you feel better Serenity.
Serenity17 we are all here for you man
Serenity17 I support you. Best Rainbow six siege videos ever
Serenity17 you are really good at rainbow
Serenity17 we love your vids man and just want you to be alright
Please come back, Serenity.
We miss you.
Take your time, ease out, pay attention to your health, but please do consider coming back.
Guess who's back
@@sorba7223 back again
@@thekingsson3003 serenity is back, back again
Guess who's gone again
@@kobiiscoolerthanyou7877 he is gone, gone again
Serenity your awesome and I will support you all the way! Great Job Man!
Serenity17 saying exactly what it's like to be a Rainbow Six Siege TH-camr. Sometimes you get your ass whooped and sometimes you clutch it. Either way you grind hours to make one 10 minute video. Hope things look up man. Pasta Salad OP
MicrowaveGaming awwwwww best buddies
MicrowaveGaming get rekt boi!
MicrowaveGaming true friend right there
MicrowaveGaming Aye it's microwave
MicrowaveGaming dude I love your videos I'm very good at rainbow sx I want to get a TH-cam channel and serenity dude just get better man take a 1 month break if you have to and microwave your TH-cam s funny and your pretty good
Serenity never again feel pressured to upload a video, if you need a couple days off to get some rest or get clips, or think. Do it. No one will get mad we all will understand!
A couple of days. Try months lol
Reaper Dude retweet
The Holy Crusader fucking looser
Crushshot why do you have to hate like just fuck off
Dude find a girl
Serenity as your fans we want you to be you. Nobody is perfect and nothing is ever going to be perfect. #BeYourself
I get you bro. I really miss watching how insane you are at rainbow. You made me grind to be you and I really hope you come back soon.
You just can't hate Serenity
so true
Baker Benjamin 282 people disagree
sam die salami literally yes
True
yeah you can, not saying i hate him but he's not unhateable
Hey serenity, I only care about you getting more happy right now. I hope you find some of my tips use full.
1 eat healthy, don't take a pizza every day and drink lots of water, this will increase your happiness overall.
2 use a schedule for YT, don't sleep in your cher but sleep properly in your bed. Wake up ever day at the same time (doesn't have to be 7AM, but not later than 12 AM) and go to sleep everyday at the same time. Make sure you get 8 hours of sleep every day.
3 quit doing TH-cam, and making videos in the weekend. People with normal jobs, don't work in weekends, so I don't see why you do it.
4 don't be too hard for yourself which clip will fit in the video. Maybe you can even do something like Macie is doing; make a series called full game Friday. This is an easy way of making content and people always enjoy the content.
5 do some more than just YT and R6. Hang out with friends and go to movies or something like that. This will keep your mind more clear.
Thanks serenity for your explanation and it's time to listen for what fans like me have to say. Keep up the good work and please try to use my tips. I wish you the best!
I feel like this guy can make comments great again
;)
also he can make series where he can take content from the fans like top aces or something like that.
Vizent Thank you for this awesome, kind hearted comment!
These ppl should everyone be as ;) Kind and helpful
Serenity17... Take it slowly... I've my fair share of depression lately because of work and family. Seriously I stopped being depressed now and asked myself what happened to me. My expectation of work is too high.. so I cut down my expectation. I tried talking my problems to my family and friends and they are very supportive.. Have someone to talk to.. You will feel better in no time.. Trust me on this..
1. Fix your diet (put some nutrients in eliminate junk food)
2. Get some balance (get away from the PC more, get out more and EXERCISE).
3. Remember why you're doing it in the first place. (play for fun don't put expectations on it).
Dont be hard on yourself serenity, you'll always be a R6 legend no matter what.
litterally the G.O.A.T
You mad me cry
Have you seen how he plays on console this dude is the next beaulo
ImJustTooGuud I get you
You too
Remember this... YOUR life comes before others. This is your job not your LIFE. Do what it takes and nothing less to be happy and healthy. Fans or haters, no one should have to watch others suffer for a 10 minute video. Enjoy what you do.
#getbettersoon❤️
nice comment !
Well said
I agree
Couldn't say better my self
Harrison Kennewell wel said
Hey Serenity, I've been struggling with bipolar disorder for years now so I know how hard it can be to deal with depression. It's really brave to put yourself out there the way you have. I don't believe you need to apologize for what you've gone through and I'm really happy to hear you're feeling better. Huge respect for opening up and allowing yourself to be vulnerable! Take it easy, get exercise (outside if possible!), try not to be as hard on yourself and see a psychiatrist if you can (they help... a lot). You've got my love and support, feel better!
Depression is so unpredictable. Best of luck to everyone suffering from it and I hope you can all get some form of treatment. I recently found this channel and have been binging videos. Serenity is such a positive content producer so I can't wait to see what's in store.
We all support you Serenity.
Your health is way more important to us then you uploading frequently, without you there would be no videos of you destroying everyone.
Thanks so much for the time and effort you give to us even through the worst of times. You are a real warrior Serenity and I hope the future is bright for you❤
Shields090 I couldn't of said it better myself dude❤
We love you Serenity🔥
Also great channel Shields090 , great to see new upcoming Rainbow TH-camrs on the way up👌🏻
Thanks so much Serenity❤ But try too be more Selfish dude, you deserve it!
Peter James Very impressed with the content Shields090❤
Peter James Thanks dude, Serenity was the real reason I started TH-cam. I hope one day my channel could be half as good as his❤
@Serenity17 thank you for every effort you gave us and take care of youre self love you men keep it up
Happy to hear that your back and hope you can start to become happy again and feel better I've gone through depression before and you can do it serenity you can get through it
ur one of my favorite TH-camrs. I love the videos u put out and u are insane on R6. depression can be hard but try to keep ur head up and try to keep positive thoughts and be more careful
Yo man we REALLY don't care how long it takes you to make a video or how long you take breaks. Your health is really the most important thing right now and I hope you can get through this
Operation Serenity17s Health
Gaming with Jacques #Serenity17opertionhealth
Gaming with Jacques i just wonder how come he will get depression?
You want him to be even worse ? :O /s
Shirei-kan Neitherman maybe he can meet a psychologist to solve his problem :/
Everybody here misses you and wants to see you put your health first. So don't push yourself anymore. I'm glad to see you're doing better! Play whatever you feel like, we're here to stay.
EnergyPersonified I dont
Xtrovex R6siege fuck you then. He literally had depression. You would still push him?
+Xtrovex R6siege then why the hell are you watching him
+Xtrovex R6siege you don't care but everyone else does
Xtrovex R6siege why are you here then
Bro Been watching you for about a year now and love your uploads hope your shit gets better and your doing what makes you happy we all support you
Whilst I can say I've never been that much of a fan your game tips and plays have helped me improve as a player but listening to you talking about these things whilst it might sound strange is good on a level because I think it helps people to connect to what your feeling? Depression can affect everyone in different ways but when it's really bad unless someone has been there they don't know how to react, to come out and say what's been going on and explain things hopefully helped you in some way by getting it out in the open and trying to talk about things, to do that on your channel is brave man. I've always perceived you as this machine like siege player but to finally watch this video has shown a real human side and I respect that massively. More than a simple comment on youtube could portray.
Take care of yourself serenity, physically and mentally
I hope everything turns out good for you, we are always here for you
emily zx sadly nit everyone is here for him.... and the likes in your comment can prove that... :(
My dad had depression and ended up taking his life when I was 14. His depression kept getting worse because he was always traveling for work and he could never get a day off. He also only got to see my two younger siblings, my mom, and I, 1 to 3 times a year and it was driving him crazy. What I'm trying to saying Serenity is that you should take a break when ever you think you need one to sleep, spend time with family or friend or because your just tired and that thing can be bad but they can also get better. Hope you feel better Serenity!
RECK 317 sorry to hear about ur dad man just stay strong man
God bless
RECK 317 sorry for your lost man
RECK 317 so sorry about what happened in your family I'm sure u didn't deserve it. Great comment much love
Sorry for your loss man god bless you
God bless man
Dude you're fricken amazing and I hope that you start to feel better man. I love your videos and I just saw this one. I have like dealt with stuff like this where I didn't know what I was doing and I just wanna say that I hope you feel better and stick with it.
I'm a really new subscriber, but in a short amount of time, I grew to love you and your videos. I know how you feel, heck what you said is really on point. I hope it will get better soon, love you man. You are not alone. :) God Bless xx
Hey man. I write articles and post the occasional TH-cam video about depression. I'm glad you shared it. People need to know that it's not a stigma and that it's something that happens to a lot more people. I'm glad you shared and thanks for putting it out there.
Chris Brogan how are you verified with 4k subs? Thanks for sharing this comment anyways
Jacob Mercer not internet verified. Doctor verified
probably because his content matters a lot.
Chris Brogan It's really just SIEGE in general. I've taken multiple month breaks from siege. It's a game that truly burns you out. It requires such a high focus that literally no other game requires and if you play it everyday allday I would want to jump off a cliff too lol. Siege is the new COD right now, everybody wants siege videos like addicts. Best advice to you serenity is to go outside and live your life, then game when you feel like it. If you force yourself to do something that you truly don't want to do, it causes very negative effects on the brain and body= High stress levels, gaining weight, depression...Basically if you don't feel like playing then don't play. Having no friends can be a hard thing too, Concerts/Music festivals are amazing places to meet some amazing people that think just like you. Just some food for thought but anyways have a great day serenity!
Jonah Supreme do you mean serenity? Lol
Dude I never wanted to just see a siege video. I just wanted to hear from you. Where you were and why you took a break. What was wrong. Your health is way more important that siege videos.
You're a cool dude and I completely support you.
Luv you serenity. no homo
I pretty sure others felt the same way
Glad you made this video
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Look serenity I know I'm just a stupid little 13 year old boy but I hope you will get up,
also I don't care if you upload every time best moments of your matches but I would be perfectly fine with just 1 or 2 matches bad or good.
❤️Serenity17
People who disliked this video. I don't get you. Depression is a big thing and it's not easy to deal with. Serenity keep doing what your doing and don't let the haters get to you (if there are any ;) ).
nathan manley maybe others don't agree
I KnOW DA WaE fuckoff bruda
Masked Gamer Yeah, those guys are idiots.
#loveserenity
Try Hard #loveserenity
Try Hard #deusvult
#loveserenity
Bruh no matter what we'll still support you #Serenitythegod
The crimson Prodigy bb
The crimson Prodigy #serenitythegod
The crimson Prodigy
The crimson Prodigy I was scared what happened to Serenity when he disappeared and my friend said he might be depressed and what do u know. But still ur content is amazing and I will always support you no matter what
This says it all. #Serenitythegod
THANK YOU very much for sharing your thoughts, and what is happening with you. It takes A lot to share your heart, and lay it all out like that. Much love for you man.
Serenity, You've been such a huge inspiration to me just through this game. I completely understand where you are coming from. I have been there. I am kind of still there. I am not going to say that I deal with depression on a daily basis, but I have been to places that I never want to be. You have to sit back and realize what is going on. It makes me happy that you are able to sit and let all of this out. I'm glad you have the courage to do this man. I want you to do better. I would love for you to play a bunch of different games! More variety makes for a better channel! Your amazing man. Keep up all the good work. I hope to see you are doing good. Keep up all the hard work. Your the best Serenity.
Serenity,
you've done yourself proud with excellent content over the 18months I've subbed you.
Take a vacation, breathe a different air, meet new people - you thank yourself for it.
Peace and Love,
Sunny
Sunny 7860 Thank you! for the genuine comment, these do the most good.
Sunny 7860 I love this comment.
Sunny 7860. i feel the same way as serenity
Cameron Warner try and do different things
Sunny 7860 sirienty is a soft ass bitch
I know exactly how you feel man. I had to quit my job because of depression months back. Sadly, being 21 doesn't make you invincible. You can still wake up and feel like you can't do anything or feel like there's no point. Depression can really affect anyone, no matter their situation. I think the worst thing I do while being depressed is feel guilty about it because my quality of life is so much better than so many people in the world, and reminding myself of that makes me feel guilty and that I have no good reason for being depressed. Don't feel guilty for being depressed though man, it's not your fault. It's really hard to find what is making you depressed, and even harder to try to fix it, but we'll all try to help you through it man. Wish you the best.
Jackson Kellams Yea we just DONT APRECIATE WHAT WE HAVE,lol my father tells me that
Jackson Kellams wtf this is exactly how I feel
Holy shit this is exactly what I have. I have a job, a loving girlfriend, friends, anything I really need or want... Yet I have had multiple cases where I didn't want to get out of my bed for months. Thinking that I have it so much better than others and still being depressed only made me feel guilty like you.
Jackson Kellams that helped me.
I haven't really been a long time sub of yours but I do enjoy watching your videos man. It takes a lot to come out to thousands of people with how you feel man & I respect that you have that much passion over entertaining your fans I hope you get better soon take it easy man.
All of us here love you and support you man depression is one of the hardest things to overcome. And no matter what we will always enjoy whatever game you play just because your created it. You created this channel. Your the reason there are 13k comments talking about how we don't want to lose you or how we want you to be ok. I think most people if not everyone can agree that you are an incredibly strong person by going online and talking about this. Love you bro
We still support you no matter what😎
KingShizzy games heel yeah
Drama
KingShizzy games is right, we won't ditch u because of ur mistakes WE R HUMAN we've all made mistakes here and there so keep that in mind serenity. Hope u feel better
I think he needs help but in a different way. Meaning he is fooling himself into being sad and it's all in his head. Ever heard of the placebo effect and how it's all made up to profit off drugs. Your already on TH-cam might as well look it up for yourself to see.
Serenity17 you don't have to upload everyday and don't have to play rainbow six siege all the time
Your videos make me have something to look forward to doing/watching at the end of my day. If it's been a crap day after just hearing your voice I feel okay again. You make such good content and I think a lot of people would agree with that. I love you videos soooo much please never stop TH-cam but remember to take days of! Love you Serenity!!
Hey Serenity we love your videos, you gave us a lot of pro tips and it helped us a lot so thank you! You're doing a really good job and also the laughs and funny moments are the best!! #1fan 👊🏽
Don't force yourself to make videos we will all still support you no matter how long we wait for video
We support you man! You da best! #Serenity17!
OMGPigletz no hashtag. Shut the fuck up
Selvin Maldonado Salty.
Selvin Maldonado #saltyalert
Selvin Maldonado #your salty
Selvin Maldonado What's your issue?
I totally understand.. I did the same thing when I was younger... I did not realize that it was depression until 6 months later and yeah... hard to put it to words.. anyhow Serenity, I commemorate you for pulling through and starting to take care of yourself. You are the best!!!
I watched this when it first came out and I understand why you left and why your still gone. Hell man if you don’t come back I respect that but if you do I’ll be here waiting bro. Love your work
Serenity, don't stress man. Just relax and do your best to be positive. Your true fans will still be here. You are just burnt out. I have a suggestion. Try something new. Most of the people here will continue to watch no matter what the fuck you post as long as we know you put your heart into it.
Dillon P that's true he doesn't only need to play rainbow
You are completely right !
Dillon P not to be "that guy" but that's pretty much what he said in the video he was gonna do
CGPMerc TV ik i wrote that comment before i finished watching the video
Dillon P agreed be yourself
After watching the full video, I just want to thank you so much for sharing this.
We're all here to support you, and this helped many people going through the same thing, I appreciate it and it's nice to hear it from someone else
The Dangleberries hey bro I love ur vids
The Dangleberries yea we are all hear
hard to believe is been almost 7 years since this video. i really miss him and i hope hes doing well it might not happen but ill be here when he uploads his next video
I remember watching this guy almost a 1/3 of my life ago it makes me pretty depressed that he's not uploading anymore he was the reason I was gold for most of year 2 I remember when he joined comp.
Frrr
Bro...you have so much support and so many people look up to you.Many people dream of having the amount of skill like you do...when I play rainbow I always hear people say"I'm going to play like serenity" and then they fail.they look up to you and love watching u play
Your a legend bro i really do look up to you man i cant remember how many times i say i want to get as good as you....i cant wait to check out your new stuff man!!
I say the same thing when I play Rainbow
Dude, take a serious break and figure out what you want to do and if it makes you happy. Consider getting some help from a mental health organisation if it gets really bad. There's no pressure from anybody to upload a video even once a month and there's no pressure to upload only RS6.
Love from the U.K
and a lot of love from the Italy
And even more love from America!
Gabriele Gazza siamo due❤️🇮🇹
Papa Dank There's no fullstop between the U and K in UK.
Luca Formigli in tre🤘❤️🇮🇹
Stay strong man. Right now it's just a small bump in the road. Something to weaken you but in reality it will make you stronger in the long run. I haven't been a subscriber long but I know depression from personal experience the biggest help I've found was surrounding myself with people who supported me in my dark days.
It's fantastic that you're starting to make videos again! I'm overly excited to see PUBG clips from one of my favorite TH-camrs. I've been watching your videos for nearly a year, and honestly, when you take breaks it makes watching your videos just that much more exciting. I used to watch them daily (sometimes more than once) and I learned a LOT from your tips and such, but to see you expanding your game selection is awesome!
How can people hate you right now? Respect and much love from Italy❤️🇮🇹
Luca Formigli mi spieghi in breve cosa ha detto? 😂
Francesco DeCa Come fa la gente ad odiarti in questo momento
Paolo Ranedda sto chiedendo cosa ha detto serenity nel video 😁
aaaah😂😂
Paolo Ranedda 😂
Man your content is awesome we need to support serenity more
Hery Serenity yout videos are the best they have helped me out in r6 for very long!! Just know that we'llalways support u no matter what, stsy strong and happy!
Bro I'm probably late to the party but I've loved your informative videos since the beginning of siege. You've helped me out alot with this game. The one's that stick out the most are the old smoke and blitz vids because those were my favorites back in the day. I'm dealing with depression the same as you and it sucks. I feel like I have to put on a friendly face because I don't want people to feel bad for me but it puts a toll on you and everyone expects you to keep being who you are but they aren't helping the situation. You might not ever read this but I know exactly what you're going through and it sounds so surreal when I hear it from someone else.
serenity you are amazing i have had some hard times. my only parent was killed in a car accident. it hurts but you will push through the pain. i had suicidal thoughts but i realized that was selfish and how much i would leave behind. push through it. keep it up. your videos are very good
Bruins Rsick damn man thats hard :/ How old are you?
Bruins Rsick I feel for u man I have been depressed 2 even tho I have 2 loving parents and we r on the wealthy side
Bruins Rsick stay strong 😥❤️
Bruins Rsick im really sorry to hear that but proud of you (even tho i dont know you) for pushing past things. God bless
Same but from cancer man
Love u serenity hope u get healthy bro
i know this video is a couple of days old i just found your channel because i enjoy seeing seige content but i can relate to what your going through depression out of nowhere and not knowing the cause really sucks but thinking positive will make it better love your content cant wait to see what your channel will be like in the future :)
I really enjoy your videos serenity, for your plays and your commentary. Thanks so much man!
honestly Serenity, I just came out of a downards spiral myself and it was not even because of games and shit, just depression fucked me over and I stopped gyming everyday and dropped my calorie intake by atleast 1500-2000 and instead of 8 hours sleep a day I was going around 4 or 5 aswell as juggling work and a relationship. Props to you for speaking up dude its gutsy and not alot of us can do that, should be proud you done well and we all human even the haters at time may say shit but when a brother needs a hand or is seriously struggling it takes a coward to talk shit to you over a game.
I Phantom Gaming I honestly I think serenity saved quite a few lives with this video sure helps me whenever i Start having negative thoughts or become toxic... again toxicity is very bad for the family ecosystem makes me sad knowing that I should've said something earlier but all is forgiven
I Phantom Gaming I I
We will support you anyway ! Good luck serenity!
It's amazing that you are so clear with all your subs I love that keep up the good work!!!!
Gotta give you props my man, takes a real man to admit this shit. I've gone through some similar things. Family and friends are the best medicine, and going out have a good time always helps me. Keep your head up my man, been watching your vids on TH-cam and Twitch for a while now. Only do what you can do, and don't force yourself to go overboard. Your health is most important. I love telling my boys, FeelsBadMan. Haha
It's alright man whatever your going through just deal with it. I know lots of fans feel the same way but you just do what you want. If you can upload daily do it! We all love your videos, if you can't it's completely fine upload whenever you can!
Lord Chanka i totally agree with the lord ✌
Lord Chanka hello brother tachanka
HerrTommy that goes to show how much respect the Lord had for serenity17 😁
believe in the lord thank you Jesus
SoBanked- lmao
Serenity just find out what will make you happy. Your health is way more important to all of us than videos. We care about you. Take care and get well.
SnakeJake27 even if it means that you will upload only 1 vid per year
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Pulze Gabo lol stfu
OMG man i feel sooo bad dude I love you. You’ve teach me how to be patient you’ve been like my teacher in rainbow thank you so much take care of yourself we love you bro honestly God bless ya!
Great videos always great to wake up and watch all day long over and over picking up new strats and ways to play, keep up the great work!
Hang in there man, we are here for you, ignore the haters and carry on with what you enjoy 😊 ❤️ #getbettersoon
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i understand what you're saying. for so long, rainbow or just video games in general made me so happy. they shifted my focus from my toxic family and i felt so at peace when playing. and then for some reason, one say something clicked... and i couldn't even look at a tv. not just video games but everything else i loved such as my friends- all the sudden made me feel wrong. i couldnt go near my friends without feeling drained or uncomfortable. friends i'd known for years, games i'd played for years. i would lay in bed almost every day. and when i had to go to school i'd avoid everyone. i hope you get through what you're going to. much love from new york💗
Meow :3 peace maybe for u for me it's a wonderful type of third degree rage
B0DY BAGS GAMING ssssooo fucking true bro maybe for me 7th degree rage and tears yeah I get so mad my eyes water
Meow :3 same happenin for me lad
You have supported me though all my bad days this really helps me watching your videos thank you from the entire r6 community love Alex/friends 👌🏻😄
2020 still here for you bro hope you're doing amazing can't wait to at least know your ok and safe we miss you
Dude it seriously sounds like you caused a chemical imbalance in your brain from not sleeping enough. When you sleep your brain releases serotonin and other chemical that help to balance out your mood and do many other things. A lack of sleep can cause a lack of enough serotonin to balance out mood and can lead to depression. That's why your body was forcing you to sleep for days on end, it was trying rebalance your serotonin levels. You need to start getting more sleep or this can actually lead to permanent depression.
Hopefully he sees this
Phantom is totally right, dude don't upload just try and get better
Tru Star Yea I hope he sees it too.
Yeah I've haven't been sleeping but ever since I've started I've felt way better about myself
PhantomFallacy yeah i forgot what its called but there is something in china that happens to factory workers, they dont get enough sleep and over time theyll just drop dead at their desk.
Serenity, as a huge fan, all I could ask is
For you to be happy. I totally understand where you're coming from and I just hope you do what ever you want to. I look forward to any videos you'll post even if it's not rainbow. Just Be safe. If you're ever that busy again just take a break, I could wait a year if it meant that you're okay bro. Don't stress your self. We will always be here for you to support you man. You don't always have to make those rare moments lol. If you wanted to you to you could make a fail series. I'll look forward to anything you post because as a fan I support you 100% of the way. Also upload when you want to. You don't have to upload daily, relax and upload maybe like every 3 days or something. You're a great TH-cam and you need to relax at some points in time. If you ever have depression again then you can count on all of us to be there for you to try to make you feel way better. Just be safe, stay healthy, and do what ever you want as long as it makes you happy 😊
That was very well written and I agree with this contribution.
Greetings from a fan from Germany and sorry for my English ;)
Tropical Something You guys proved that there is still hope in humanity.
BlazeTutorials thank you 😊
WoBra it's okay 😂I'm from Spain lol
Rocky Balboa true bro 💯🙏
Depression is no joke. My mother has depression and she feels horrible.
Love you man keep your head up ! Don’t forget your not alone you got people to call friends, family & even strangers that don’t have to know you but would be there to listen to you, as long as your healthy, that’s all that matters 🤟💯
no matter what happens. we will always support you! 😃❤
ターンマイヤープレストン stfu u weaboo
It's ok as long ur fine
Lerks is correct
I think he needs help but in a different way. Meaning he is fooling himself into being sad and it's all in his head. Ever heard of the placebo effect and how it's all made up to profit off drugs. Your already on TH-cam might as well look it up for yourself to see.
How did I get so many likes
Thx
CAN I get subs lol
Hey serenity I'm a newer sub haven't been around for long but I totally understand what your going through and us subs are here for you man can't wait to see some new content of a variety of different things vlogs, new games just anything you put out. Hang in there your just getting better and stronger everything will get better
6 years later and I'm still just a Brazilian ex-Rainbow Six player who wakes up every day to see if there's a new Serenity video and I simply binge-watch every video. Your videos made me excited to play more and more, after you stopped posting my desire to play went away.
It's ok serenity we are all here for you and we can all understand we're your coming from.So do we you think will help you stay happy and healthy and we will all be right behind you good luck buddy :)
hey serenity, what you're suffering from is something called medium maximisation, please look it up.
it's basically what young millionaires and CEO's suffer from too. You've been so focused on how to get where you want, what to do, just pouring out all your energy into 1 method which you've put so much weight on that now that you've reached your goal, there's nothing more to do.
again I'd highly advise looking it up, maybe getting away from your typical sources of "happiness" and trying something outside with friends or family. this sounds stupid as hell but trust me; as a long time sufferer of depression, it helps.
stay strong man,
god bless
MediaMonsterJ too add to that staying indoors without seeing people in real life makes people become antisocial, bored, tired, depressed, etc and sleeping too much or way too little makes you more tired.
Astro The Maestro I agree.
MediaMonsterJ Good advice, good advice. Maybe he can go play some poker with Noob lol, but deffinately needs some outdoor time, nature helps.
MediaMonsterJ amazing I agree but also serenity shouldn't be trying to make us all happy if people hate on him for his uploads they can go away they don't deserve this channel
Aimen my dude you're right.
Dude I've been a subscriber since velvet shell. I too have had to deal with depression (ongoing) I have a great life! It's a chemical imbalance in your brain. When I was at my worst I was skipping work not doing the things I enjoy most and not talking to anyone, all that and suicidal thoughts. One of the few things I still enjoyed was watching your videos and playing siege. I've since taken some time away from gaming and now I'm back playing siege getting my arse kicked and enjoying it again. I hope you and your channel continue to grow in a positive way. All the best buddy.
Serenity17, Love your vids and love the vibe I get from your channel. Please take care of yourself bro. We all love your content but you deserve to kick up your feet and do absolutely nothing whenever you need to. Again take care of yourself man.
We love you #Serenity17 👌👌👌🎮❤❤❤
GamerJ HDgaming yeah 👍
GamerJ HDgaming love you #Serenity17
Any ranked gameplay is entertaining, especially from a world class player like yourself. Take care of yourself and some raw footage would be dope to watch!!
Justin Butler well said dude
Justin Butler I completely agree. If he did something like Macie's 'full game Friday' then that would be so fun to watch, and it doesn't even require editing.
CptBazooka right??? I love seeing pro players go through scenarios that ACTUALLY happen, not just clutch after clutch. I hope serenity sees this. Honestly any rainbow content from him would be awesome he's earned the right at this point to just post any rainbow gameplay
CptBazooka Exactly!!
oh jea he should upload full matches, even if its close or lost.
It’s 2020 online school this is when we need you most 😕
man im sorry to hear about your depresion and hope you have a nice time staying with those other guys I dont know their names and im glad to hear you are doing youtube again
I feel where you're coming from Serenity. School repetitiveness had really taken its toll on me, to the point where I was really depressed and became apathetic to everything, which really affected my performance. I really didn't care for my health and just woke up and grudgingly went through the day without a care. During weekends, I just sat in bed doing nothing. Now that I'm on summer break, I've been getting better and just doing other things that make me happy, so I can take a break from school. I just recommend doing something other than Siege that makes you happy to help you get through this hiatus. I hope you get better and I hope you make even better videos in the future.
That's what happened to me. School takes a massive toll on me.
Algorithm I can relate to your experience so much... Doing the exact same things every single day, with the exact set of people and the exact time, classroom, etc. really took a toll on me this year.
FrostyBuckeye Gaming Yea school can be really depressing.
Maybe get back to streaming instead of going for the absolute best all the time
I hear you 100%. Everything you just said I can relate to. I even stopped playing siege also.
Thank you for being open about this. It means a lot just mentioning mental illness since it's way too rarely talked about.
Being ambitious is great, but there is also a great risk of getting burned out and depressed if you run yourself over. I've done the same thing with playing classical music. Nothing was fun anymore and I had to give myself a lot of "empty time" to recover.
Take care of yourself.
Serenity man you have inspired me when I use to play rainbow. I learned so much from listening to you watching you and I thank you for helping me bro. As a gamer you're a beast ! & I know as a person you are to man. I can relate on everything you told everyone. Realizing it and changing it for the better is inspiring as well I haven't been sub for so long but in the time I have been it's been a moment to remember . I'll pray for you man to continue to prosper but for the better nature . You're welcome and once again thank you serenity ! This is all the works of making you better I can assure you!
Honestly man, I know depression is really not an easy thing to deal with at all, I’ve been through it and honestly man, as bizarre as it sounds your videos actually help a lot to take my mind off a lot shit man, like it just really helps a lot man. I think you should know that you actually help people by doing these videos. But you actually have to take care of yourself as well man.
I couldn't watch the whole video its just heartbreaking to see you like this my prayers and hopes go out to you feel better💜
Nuttyy y Dude i feel ya im almost in tears cause of this vid
Moot Shut your 12 year old ass up my nigga you obviously don't know what people go through
Moot give him a break dude, life is hard sometimes, just except that
Moot Depression has many reasons and several outcomes. It's a complex disease and to be dealt seriously. Don't just utter whatever your ignorant mind think it is. And this comes from a medical student.
Same your my favorite youtuber and feel really bad for you... Could you do a vlog on you moving in with beda